ONE 🎉YEAR 🎉ALL 🎉IN 🎉!!! I think this video says it all and tells you the FULL story! It took me over a month to make and edit this video but I think it really captures my journey and I can't tell you how much it means to me to share this with you. I hope you enjoy this video as much as I enjoyed making it and thank you for making this year as amazing as it was...through all of the ups and downs, you guys were always there for me. I love you from the bottom of my heart. Enjoy! 😘
@@Churros1616 Im sorry but most of which I have seen restrict for x amounts of days and then create a day to eat piles of calories and they call it cheat day or refeed or whatever fancy name they create. Most of them are trapped in binge restrict cycles and this is a form of disordered eating.
She fixed a whole life of improper eating and body image issues in one year. She SHOULD be proud of herself. And especially going through this on social media, with all the hater. It takes immense courage and strength. With all the meltdowns and emotional roller coaster she stuck with it! So much respect to you!
Exactly, the swollen stage, and bloated stomach stage, brings many like myself back to under-eating... but seems many silly men in this comment section like skeletons, so at least I should have some admirers... 😬😂
I recovered from AN and went through every stage she mentioned. Extreme hunger is exhausting, and I understand how scary it can feel when you are experiencing it after having lived through such a difficult period in your life. Keep going, I hope that you are doing well, two years later!
The fact that people literally had the audacity to comment horrible things about someone’s weight/appearance literally makes my blood boil. I admire your strength Steph!
@@jmorefit1 her period stopped and she was always hungry and cold. how is that healthy? are you actually that stupid? she was never "obese". how is saying that good for her mental health? you've got bigger issues if saying this stuff makes you feel better about yourself. maybe the girl with a phD knows a little more than your unsuccessful ass. how is getting those personal training clients going hahahah
Shalix 33 So you believe a girl who is like 5’4 can gain 20+ pounds of fat and not be obese?? What doctor or dietitian do you know of would suggest tripling your calories and gaining 20 pounds of fat as a good idea to be heathy...?
Jamal Williams Let me be more clear...when she decided to stop extreme dieting for body building she would be heathy at that point...gaining 20+ pounds of fat at like 5’4 for a woman would make you obese...she said gaining the weight helped her mental health...that’s a dangerous statement bc 99% of people won’t gain 20 pounds of fat from excessive eating and feel good mentally...she has a PhD in cancer research not nutrition or physiology...did you see how I responded without insulting you even once, that’s what being mature and reasonable looks like...
@@jmorefit1 Yes, that´s correct. If her weight hasn´t been over about 65 kg, she wasn´t overweight. Her weight however could have been over that mark, without being overweight, because she still had a lot of muscle mass. Also, there are new studies that show that women who are slightly overweight live longer. Has something to do with hormones. It is not as if she had a normal body beforehand and then gained 10 kg. She hardly had any fat on her body, which can be very unhealthy, as has been seen in her case.
This shows that girls tend to go so hard on themselves. Like her .. looking so beautiful at every weight .. even she was upset ... every body is beautiful
@@talelravaui1356 How? its true yea men can be hard on their bodies but most of the time people see girls saying something about it but its not sexist. its just stereotypical but the stereotype is true
@@jimraynor7788 What she meant was that every body is beautiful in it's own way, and just because your not somebody's 'Type' it doesn't mean that your not beautiful at all. I think that putting down people's body types can really impact their self image - something the beauty and cosmetic industry thrives off of. However, I get what you mean about not all - i.e. those bodies that are severely over or under weight because it puts you at serious risk of all sorts of health problems. The mainstream media is to blame about sending such mixed messages about health and fitness - there is no 'one-size-fits-all' approach to it; you have to figure out what works for you using the science. :)
When he asked if she regrets it and she said "Not even for a second" I broke down in tears. This video inspired me and I will do the same thing as you. I have been pushing recovery back but now its time for a change.
@@chloemajlinda3957 I think the problem is the way society presents the word fat and it’s not used as it should be. Yes she gained a lot of fat but that does not mean she is fat. It almost becomes an identifying word rather than a descriptive one.
vulture cyclops Lol, let's see the science, skinny and unhealthy, or fat and unhealthy. The science is in, the skinny people live longer and have less health problems. When you see an old person that is over 100.......they are never fat, the fat ones died off 35 years ago.
I'm a triathlete, powerlifter, former bodybuilder, trainer and a medical doctor. At times I've had to work on my relationship with food too. Your journey and this video took a lot of courage and intelligence. You are an inspiration! Thank you.
You are such an inspiration ❤️❤️ I've followed your journey from the start (and before), and it's so moving to watch. I'm so extremely happy for you ❤️❤️
And I have to add something that might be fucking rude and offensive but in order for me to realize that she’s just as human as I am, I needed to see her cry (last year) about how she felt. Like she is so incredibly intelligent, kind and stunning, as you say, that it was hard for me to compare myself to her. Now I just know that I am a piece of shit but that’s not the point. She’s fucking awesome.
“Heathy means functioning well” this made me cry. I didn’t realize how emotional this video would make me. I need to work on my body image issue 😢 I’m not obese. I’m not unhealthy. I need to learn to love my body.
I cried during this. I think I want to try- I don’t know if I’m ready yet nor do I know how to figure out if I am. Thanks for this video, Stephanie. I don’t want to take anything away from Stephanie with this comment because she really does deserve so much credit, but I also want to say that Jeff’s reactions and commentary are so helpful to hear and so loving and encouraging. Hearing that your significant other loves you no matter what you look or feel like is one thing, watching it be completely and entirely true is another.
When Nicola said "healthy is not defined by how a person looks, it is about how well the body functions.", that was a HUGE statement! Thanks for sharing your life with us.
You're the reason I started my ed recovery. I've had anorexia for almost 10 years and I'm getting better and better everyday. My hunger was really extreme in the begining (I'm talking about 10-12 000 calories a day) becuase I lost half of my body weight during my ed. My hunger is normalizing, I eat between 2000-4000 calories a day and I love my body. Yes I did gain weight. More than I wanted or intended to, but while gaining weight I also gained my ability to think rationally and lost interest in my outter appearance. I'm so happy I found your channel. Love you and wish you all the best
Omg me too, I am the same weight as Stephanie now. She helped me so much, and I don’t think she realizes that! I thought I was crazy, but I was just about eating when my body was hungry! I’m so glad you’re on a great road to recovery ❤️
You‘re so fuc*ing strong. I‘ve watched your videos for years and I am always so impressed by how authentic you act and talk. So genuine and with all that physical plus psychological strength. Be proud of you everyday!! You did amazing no matter what any idiot out there believes. Much love from Germany ❤
I pretty much never comment but this is worth making an exception. I'm a guy. I've never had an eating disorder. I've never been very lean or obese. I've never had to deal with backlash on social media. I could not personally relate to your struggles and yet this video nearly moved me to tears. I love your openness and am grateful for the role model you are to young girls and women. Keep doing what you're doing, Stephanie. You have my utmost respect.
I was thinking about what to say and read your comment Ingo and you say it all. I'm so glad a man can understand what a big, big deal this is for women - normal women, let alone anyone in the public eye. I eat less at the weekend to keep slim, no dinner tonight so I can have a drink without feeling guilty about the calories. My fiancé loves me regardless, the pressure comes from advertising and social media. Stephanie is incredibly, incredibly brave and resilient putting her head above the parapet on this issue. Huge respect.
I'm so glad that Stephanie had Jeff during her "All In" journey, especially when so many people criticized her. He is so sweet towards her. When he said "I still thought you looked beautiful at this time" my heart melted!! He's a keeper for sure!!
@@simonscott5104 They can't get together IRL because of quarantaine issues. Stephanie lives in Florida while Jeff is Canadian. Due to covid, they can't travel to see eachother.
Bella Clemencio Nah girl...that's bad advice. Every girl definitely does NOT need a yes-man in her life telling her a 10,000 calorie binge is okay, when she clearly has an eating disorder. I believe that would fit the definition of "enabler", hence, an unhealthy relationship.
As someone who has struggled with her body image and an eating disorder for over a decade.. I decided to go all in last June and have repaired my relationship with food and myself. You're such an inspiration
Going all in too. Currently battling bulimia. I need to get better. I want to get better. Currently on day 7. One week. I appreciate you. Food shouldn’t be fought. Food should be loved. I hope my experience is as hard and beautiful as yours. I wish you so much love. From, A silent viewer.
I began recovery from AN almost a year ago; I promise that it's worth it and that it gets SO much easier. Recovery brings you all the things you fear you'll never have xxx
I had/have Binge ED. What she did is exactly what my dietician recommended. “Give yourself freedom” basically. You will get there! It’s HARD! But you can do it! Don’t give up!
This is such a great use of the influence she has. She really impacted the fitness community in such a healthy way just by doing what was best for her. What a role model!
I love that you destroyed the box that you were in. This is what the fitspo industry needs. REAL. Fake is so common and unrelatable. We are so influenced by the media that seeing all those tiny girls all wearing gymshark outfits and full faces of makeup to go workout, is not the kind of influence women need. I really appreciate your vulnerability and strength in this journey. It takes a lot of courage to do what you did. I have so much MORE respect for you for being yourself. By the way you look amazing and not like you are starving anymore. Absolutely stunning.
What you don’t realize is, even if you lost the respect of the fitness side by going all in and gaining weight to fix your health, you gained an incredible amount of support from the eating disorder community. Even though you are different than us, you still had the same symptoms we have: extreme hunger, fear of gaining weight, amenorrhea, 24/7 food fixations, and a damaged metabolism. I’m sure watching your journey has helped countless of sufferers into venturing out of their comfort zone and aiming towards recovery. 💜💚
That's the thing though .. She DID/DOES have an eating disorder. Even though she called it "Extreme hunger" it is an ED. She described feeling full but still wanting to eat and eat and eat and that is called bulimia. Could be exercise bulimia or just overeating bulimia. She also had anorexia where she was afraid to eat, gain weight and had amenorrhea.
Pink Rainbow no, she has disordered eating. She didn’t feel guilty for eating in excess and compensate by purging through exercise. Eating disorders and disordered eating are two completely different things. Unless using food as a coping mechanism, it’s not a diagnosable eating disorder.
Pink Rainbow regardless or whether she had one or not, it’s not your job nor is it appropriate for you to diagnose her. Steph has been so open and honest through her journey and many people have claimed she had an ED, so don’t you think she would have talked about that by now?
@@pinkrainbow1 Eating disorders are mental illnesses. Steph's extreme hunger was completely physiological. Her wanting to "eat and eat" was her body's lack of hunger cues, not her mind telling her she needed to.
Stephanie thiccc with ab lines! Looking better than ever, eating well, staying warm, inspiring others??!! Yesss Steph we stand behind you and we love you thank you for this
She is so gorgeous. Women naturally store more fat, her old body was not maintainable long term. There are so many women out there that need to hear this. You do not have to have abs, or be a size 0 to be considered “fit”. This is truly inspiring, and she looks healthier than ever, inside and out!
@DeadLittlePunkDoll Why? A size 0 implies maintaining a weight below what is natural and healthy for your body, doesn't it? The body is supposed to carry a certain amount of fat. That seems more like an aesthetic desire than someone genuinely healthy- it seems like the opposite.
@DeadLittlePunkDoll Many people shouldn't strive to be size 0 for that reason. You can shrink body fat, b ut that doesn't shrink your wide hips or huge glutes for example.
“It was like Steph was stuck in a super long Snickers commercial, and nobody could give her a Snickers. And it's like finally Steph gets her Snickers!” 😂 I love it so much
I cried. She is very brave and had to have faith that it would all work out. That and all the other very heavy things she has had to endure in her life. I feel like she’s like how I would see my daughter and I want to hug and love her. ❤
This is the type of fitness influencers we need! I know this has been said a thousand times but for me it is really important to thank you stephanie!!! You are a true inspiration, what you've been doing is changing the lives of so many people who struggle with eating disorders like me. Tracking your journey in such an open way is an act of bravery, even if for some people it might sound like an exageration, for somebody who lives and works in the fitness community, doing what you did is not easy. Thank you stephanie!! You are so real and genuine with your videos, this is what youtube needs nowadays!!
I just wish everybody could see this video.. we need to stop putting so much pressure on how we look and rather focus on our happiness! Being skinny isnt gonna get you far in life if you arent happy and actually experiencing life in the best ways with your own body
Stephanie is a fake. She photoshops and lies about a lot of things. She restricted and binged and CLEARLY had an eating disorder but doesn’t admit to it. Don’t take her dangerous advice on dieting. Seek professional help instead. Read the truth about Stephanie here: www.reddit.com/r/xxfitness/comments/fef83g/thoughts_on_stephanie_buttermores_all_in_journey/?
Eleni Kondos she doesn’t need to tell everyone to go all in. She has a platform and she’s manipulating her image to support her disordered eating. She should also make a discretion before all her 10k calorie videos saying that she did in fact restrict for them and she doesn’t just eat 10k without gaining weight. Now that she’s been eating in a surplus every day for a year, we can clearly see it was set up and she’s a liar. But fans like you don’t like hearing true facts and actual evidence so carry on lol
I have a difficult time believing that anybody who regularly applies that much fake-up is genuine. The vocal fry is another affect that makes her seem phony.
So inspiring.. absolutely beautiful You honestly never know what people are going through and/or struggling. Thank you for your trust and vulnerability. Anyone who sees this, please stop the hate on the internet. You could honestly save a life showing kindness... (this is an older video, but it still is impacting so many)
It’s so sad how body image really affects us. I can’t imagine having an entire platform of people watching my entire journey, especially one like this. I think Stephanie is really strong, brave, and just an all around good person. Honestly those people online who made fun and called her names are just negative, insecure people who have some sort of deep seated hatred within themselves.
I'm honestly disappointed in steph for letting it bother her so much... I've always respected her because she wasn't just a stereotypical "fit chick" with no credentials but ever since the all in journey, seems like all her posts are either whining about how she looks, or loving the way she looks. She made it very clear at the start that the goal was just to be healthier but it seems like now, she's just focused on looking good like most other fitness "influencers" Basically what I'm saying is she's drifted away from health above all else by constantly letting the way she perceives her looks to affect whether or not she wanted to continue with a healthy process.
Diu she wouldn’t be human if she wasn’t upset at times. This society, no matter how strong you are, has the insane ability to dwell into our psyche to beat down on what a perfect woman should look like. I think it’s great that Stephanie was able to be so honest with us. It’s so much more refreshing than just pretending that this was easy.
I can't imagine how hard it must be either. I've gained like 8 pounds this year and I was scared to go out and see like, the 10 people I know, can't even picture how I would feel showing such a difficult journey to millions of strangers
Diu Stephanie is a fake. She photoshops and lies about a lot of things. She restricted and binged and CLEARLY had an eating disorder but doesn’t admit to it. Don’t take her dangerous advice on dieting. Seek professional help instead. Read the truth about Stephanie here: www.reddit.com/r/xxfitness/comments/fef83g/thoughts_on_stephanie_buttermores_all_in_journey/?
Sannihitha Miryala Stephanie is a fake. She photoshops and lies about a lot of things. She restricted and binged and CLEARLY had an eating disorder but doesn’t admit to it. Don’t take her dangerous advice on dieting. Seek professional help instead. Read the truth about Stephanie here: www.reddit.com/r/xxfitness/comments/fef83g/thoughts_on_stephanie_buttermores_all_in_journey/?
YES YES YES. It would help SO many people!! I have definitely been there with the crazy appetite, it felt like my stomach was a black hole!! It's the most uncontrollable hunger I have ever felt in my life. I was restricting and not eating anywhere near enough! It’s like your body forces you to start eating like crazy to catch up. It took me a year for the "empty pit" feeling to go away after I stopped restricting, working out like crazy, and started eating a lot. I had a lot of bloating issues too just because I am tiny and I was eating like crazyy to satisfy my hunger. But that went away after about a year too. Now I still eat a lot more than normal but my appetite has definitly stabilized more and I no longer feel like im constantly starving! This is why its not good to be exteme with anything. Balance is key!
A Human yes same here !! I am "all in" now since 1 year, too, and glad that I found stephanies channel right after the beginning of my decision to eat more..! First I wanted to try eating a few hundred calories more but mostly clean. But then I found her and her interview with dr. rinaldi I went "all in" with all foods I wanted to eat... a lot of "healthy" (tons of porridge, sweet potatoe, avocado and olive oil..) also not so "clean" foods (chocolate and a lot of pasta, butter and toast) and this was the best decision. Today my hunger cues are most of the time "normal" I eat 2500 to 3000 calories every day now and want to continue because my hunger is still a good amount higher than from others but for me it's the lowest hunger I've ever experienced since beginning with this journey.. I think stephanies experience and dr. rinaldis advice is helping a lot of women and even men... I don't know what I would do without stephanie.. ❤️
I almost never comment on youtube videos but my heart is singing and crying for this. I am so happy you found success in this method. As a former student athlete ( runner) I struggled with amenorrhea just as most women runners do and it's just normalized and in some cases forced onto female athletes. You are really strong for going through this process and taking care of your body and sharing it with the world. I have been watching this since you started your UA-cam channel and I dont think any fitness youtube deserve 1mil subscribers like you do. You go girl ♡
I can’t get over how supportive Jeff is ❤️ so sweet and rare. I’m sure it made a world of a difference to have your S/O in your corner calling you beautiful
It really saddens me that eating disorders/disordered eating are so normalized in the bodybuilding community. When competing you have to be incredibly restrictive and essentially have to starve to become lean enough to compete and it's impossible to maintain, not to mention how taxing it is on the body and mind. (At least that's my own personal experience and I'm so glad I've recovered). Your story has inspired so many! Thank you for sharing this incredible journey with us!
Yes exactly, she had an eating disorder and she's calling it something different pretending that it's not an ED. There is no such thing as extreme hunger. It's called eating disorder when you eat and eat and eat and still want to eat even after you feel full which is exactly how she described it.
@@pinkrainbow1 She wanted to "eat and eat" because she was never fully satiated. She only stated she felt like she COULD eat more even after being really bloated because, again, she was never really full.
Pink Rainbow she has disordered eating, not an eating disorder. You can not diagnose someone over the Internet, especially if you’re not a trained therapist. An eating disorder is only diagnosable if you’re using it as a coping mechanism.
I do think it's important to encourage people to be healthy, but there are definitely a lot of people that take it way way too far and encourage an unhealthy body in the opposite direction. I can understand her mother being concerned seeing her daughter gaining weight (especially if she has a mental condition that affects her self-control), but those comments from viewers are downright appalling and those people don't deserve to live on this planet and consume resources that could go to actually decent people.
There's a difference between obese and thicc. Nothing wrong with being soft, but it's not good to promote an image that is detrimental to someone's health. She's still well within a healthy weight range, if she added another 40~ pounds you'd probably being hearing people chime in about health issues, which are legit. Why people get upset when the people around them clearly want what's best for them I'll never know, but telling someone who is severely overweight that they need to lose weight is no worse than telling a coke addict they need to quit coke. Both are behaviors that will shorten your life as well as greatly diminish the quality of your life. You don't have to be a size 6 or whatever, just be healthy enough that basic things in life are challenges for you (if you struggle going up a flight of stairs, probably time to address priorities.
@@idrk3707 this is what I'm here for the deep meaningful conversation. The day you are no longer able to communicate with other humans will be the greatest contrabution to society. Why bother posting a bull shit comment like that? Obviously you care, or you wouldn't have responded months later. Why not include something a little more meaningful? Do you disagree? Engage perhaps educate. 100% clown shoes.
@@michag4337 Agreed. This whole video is funny because her "fat" is most people's skinny. She talks about her being fat like she was 200lbs or something when in reality she was at most 15-20 lbs overweight..
Of course its wayy better, its much better seeing weak people like you giving up to their addictions and relate. How about keep it together, do reverse dieting for couple of months and stay lean while doing that, instead of gaining fat like a whale and hope the body will fix itself one day? Talk about yo yo dieting.....
From a womans perspective I think Jeff is a good supportive/understanding guy. I think back to men I've dated who would have flipped if I decided to do an "All In" diet. It would have caused issues in the relationship if my body changed.
When I was deep in my ED I used to watch your cheat day videos religiously. I was obsessed with watching people eat and your videos were crack to me. I would re watch them again and again. Sometimes even using to distract myself to avoid eating. Then when you went all in I followed along, almost living vicariously through you. I was so scared of gaining any weight. Watching your videos along with all the helpful explanations really helped me wrap my mind around weight gain being a good thing. I’d like to think I would have made the jump to recovery even without these videos, but honestly I’m not sure. It definitely would have been much slower. Thank you Stephanie. ❤
It would probably do more harm than good on Netflix. Her approach is great assuming the individual meets certain criteria: 1) they are a person fully immersed in fitness who strength trains and understands their body extremely well, and grasps the fundamentals of diet and nutrition 2) has at least above average genetics If the individual doesn’t satisfy that criteria, they’d probably just gain a ton of weight and struggle to lose any of it in the future.
Eat meat and you don't have to do that. Gaining weight like she did isn't good for mental health.. she went 'all out' and that's just as extreme as her starving.
@@katjam yeah it definitely doesn't apply to me but when I do this I notice I'm always thinking about food and end up having snacks because I didn't just eat to satiety to start with. I really need to get back to eating proper meals then being able to forget about food in between them.
Those ppl who judged her - they only reacted to her because they are terrified of "being fat" - oh the horror! I'm terrified of being an asshole... but I guess we all have our demons.. but yeah it wasn't about her. It was their baggage and they couldn't deal with a Queen like Stephanie living her BEST LIFE! YOU GO GIRL! XOXOXO
Fathel binge eater is eating after your full , you keep eating to the point where you want to puke . She ate until she was full and stopped , in the beginning that was a lot ( I hope you watched the video ) and when she got less hungry she ate less. Critic isn’t calling someone a fat pig , cow , obese ( while she truly wasn’t at her heaviest ) while you ( the male fitness people ) are doing unhealthy shit to stay lean and as ripped as possible aswell
What her sister said at the end that, finally Steph got her snickers, hits the nail right on the head, I don’t think Steph emphasised enough how much her quality of life must have improved and how much more herself she is now. The sparkle is back in her eyes and the life back in her face.
@FFTuk well noone has any business calling someone on the internet fat. That person's fatness isn't affecting you in any way so if you go out of your way to call someone fat that just goes to show how sadistic you are that you are calling someone something for hurting them.
Just came across this channel. Jeez! This lady gains 40+ pounds and looks like what I want my "after" weight loss picture to look like. You are gorgeous! Don't listen to the haters.
I have struggled with anorexia since I was 13. I was hospitalized at 14. I didn't have my period until I was 18 and lost it several times after. This video nearly brought me to tears because for the first time I feel like I'm watching someone talk about how the FEEL, not how they look. People usually address how they look in order to change how they feel, which I believe is the wrong order. I'm hoping I can internalize this and start to heal.
I feel you because I’ve been there too. actually still there. I also having an anorexia since I was 11 and I was in the hospitalized for 6 months About period lost several times..now I’m 35 years old. I’ve been struggling with this disease for over 20 years. It’s sometimes up and down. I’m so lost to an answer for my life but This video, Stephanie ‘s personal experience is really got me thinking, I almost cried. Thank you so much for sharing this with us And I’m sure you are trying really hard every day
I use to be very thin and was tired and cold all the time. After I put on 15 pounds I had so much more energy, was less depressed and was a lot more fit because I actually had the energy to workout. But my own family would call me fat because in Asian culture, fat shaming is normalized and being underweight is celebrated. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, you go girl!
ah the asian culture, they will you right out to your face that you are fat, i hate it too. Interestingly the people that say those things are not fit themselves. toxic culture mentality. If they see a skinny girl, they will say oh she is sexy. They are oblivious how they can hurt someone's feelings.
@@terrenam55 I was restricting because I didn’t want to gain weight once I started eating to satiety I gained weight easily. I put on probably 25 pounds initially over 3 months and it dropped to 15 pounds. I have been maintaining my weight for the last 5 years without much effort. It’s really worth it for me
I didn't go all in, but doing weekly cheat-days has eventually brought me to my setpoint, and I feel great. Thank you, Stephanie. You are an angel in disguise.
You can't even imagine how much you have helped me with my recovery. I have anorexia and always used to watch your cheat day videos, while I was starving myself. And I think that is pretty common within the ed community. So when you suddenly announced that you are going all in, something clicked in me. I saw how much happier you were. And when you said, you simply do not want to live with that feeling of never ending hunger anymore, I could not relate to anything more. So that was a huge part of me deciding that I want a way out of this. I am not gonna lie, there are still tough days, plenty of them, but I am on the right track and looking at your content gives me so much support. Thank you for sharing your journey!
She helped me immensely as well! I started the same day that she posted the first video of going all in and I never had a better relationship with food that I have it now.
I dont think binging is a healthy way to recover. You can recover by eating just a normal, or little more, diet in the day. Without stuffing yourself. That is also a little bit obssesive again, only now it turned in another direction. I dont want to judge her but i think it is important to show people this is also a kind of obessive eating. I also almost fell into this when i was underweight. But I had to retrict both ways: Not undereating and not Overeating. :)
Actually in eating disorder treatment they give you massive portions of food for a while before things level out. After having an e.d you may have intense cravings due to starving your body. This is normal, and it’s your body trying to protect you. If you honor your cravings your hunger cues will return to normal ❤️
@@user-zt6mb7nf3i Eating to satiety when super hungry is not the same as binging. Are you a scientist? Because Stephanie is, did her research, AND this worked to *regulate her hunger* which was the goal. If you restrict fir years and years, your body will not trust the presence of extra calories for a long while.
she literally had an eating disorder and people were constantly commenting on her weight.. so stupid. those comments could have been incredibly harmful to a less strong individual. I've been in recovery for three years and still fall back into restriction anytime someone comments on my weight. people need to mind their own business.
Exactly. They think they’re doing something when they say “omg she’s obese now” “okay go ahead, eat urself to obesity” when she was killing her body to stay that lean. They need to check THEIR facts of what’s healthy and what isnt
@maccajoe - She didn't go to another extreme weight wise. People were just so used to seeing her so small for so long that when she started to gain weight they thought she was obese because they weren't used to seeing her at that size. Yes, she did overeat at points during this journey, but she tried to maintain a more well-balanced diet and consult her physician along the way.
Dude I’m so glad I came across you again; I’ve seen this video at the peak of my anorexia back in 2019-2020 and it felt like something insane… Now I’ve spent around a year overcoming my anorexia and doing around half a year of an accidental “all in” due to going through a major depressive stage and am around the 6-7month stage. It’s very tough, I’m not gonna lie. I’m breaking down daily atm and hit my highest weight yesterday. As someone who was obese as a teen it’s extremely difficult to watch myself look similar to how I was back then. And at least you had a loving and supportive boyfriend, which is nice; while I really feel fully alone in this as my mum is judging me too and voicing all my thoughts… Idk I just hope this is it and I’m gonna slim down again this week. Literally praying at this point…
I just want you to know- when I was recovering from my eating disorder a few years ago, I also did it all by myself. No boyfriend, no support from a therapist or family/friends. In all honesty, I was too ashamed to talk about it. I felt like no one would understand. I ended up gaining 60 pounds in 6 months and weighing the most I've ever weighed in my life. It took a few months before my weight slowly started coming back down, and believe me, it was slow!! I felt so unhappy, like I had failed and I was going to be overweight and miserable forever. The biggest thing that changed my life was finding a good therapist and writing in my journal every week. Sometimes I would read my (very disturbing) journal entries to my therapist and we would break down the distortions. If you afford it, I highly recommend seeking out a good therapist who will understand what you're going through. You can get through this, and it's absolutely worth it! I've maintained a very healthy weight for a couple years now and I haven't binged or restricted once. I wish you the best : )
not me balling as im in the middle of my 'all in' period of my life... going into month 11 and starting to see the weight start to fall off... the attitude and not being hungry or cold all the time is just next level! proud of you! proud of me!
It still amazes me, how rude people can be. She was never fat or unattractive, and nobody has the right to say nasty things about other people's bodies. The old rule still applies - if you can't think of a good thing to say, say nothing. I think she looks amazing right now, healthy and glowing!
Hey Steph, as a coach for more then 20 years, i really think this may be one of the most important videos i ever saw. First of all it was very brave to show the world how hard and difficult your all in was. To step back from all that fitness/crazy/lean bullshit and let people know how much better a healthy "normal" body feels, is an amazing job you did. I have a 12 year old daughter, who already thinks she should be leaner and skinnier and i have all hands full in explaining to her what would be better.....so having your story as a guideline for her, will help a lot! I hope you follow your path and stay happy and healthy! Take care
she's the type of influencers that deserve that tittle, she's actually influencing in a good way to her viewers and i'm pretty sure she's helping many people who's constantly struggling with their relationship with food (i'm one of them, so that's why i'm that sure lol) thanks for making this type of content when unfortunately we're constantly seeing the dieting culture and the social media making it so hard
I agree. It sucks to see fitness defined as being lean and tiny and slim for females, by social media and that u can’t have a “ fitness platform “ because your not up to society standards. She’s a real fitness influencer that doesn’t promote a toxic relationship with your body and your food, and Ik she’s helping a lot of ppl, bc I’m also one of them lol 😁
Hii Steph, you are amazing ! You don't know how much you helped me to go throught extreme hunger ( but also gain weight) ! I know that I am not alone in the recovery process :) Thanks you for showing yourself in your darkest moments. Food gave me back the joy and the craziness that my TCA had stolen. Huge hug from France ! LOU
This made my day, suffered from anorexia for 6 years and even 10 years later there's still this voice from time to time telling me I'm not skinny enough. This video is an inspiration and a breath of fresh air, so proud of you!
Sending you love. I have never suffered from anorexia and even I have that voice in my head telling me I’m not skinny enough. I wish that voice was telling me that I’m a healthy weight and that I should be happy, but I’m working on it❤️
Stephanie, you’re so brave not only doing this “all in” journey but also sharing your ups and downs with the people on social media. Being an influencer in fitness industry is absolutely an huge obstacle for anyone to choose to do this, but you did it. There is no doubt that your contents are helping and would help more people who are facing the same issue, your efforts are invaluable. Just wanna to say girl, you’re absolutely beautiful and inspiring! Keep doing these good stuff! Best wishes to you ♥️
@Young Simba The people you're listed are indeed brave, but she's brave too. You can't invalidate her suffering and journey just because there are people who suffer worse. So what if she makes money from this? It's not like she's scamming money from people.
Young Simba I sincerely agree part of your comments! I give all my respect to whomever fighting their adverse circumstances for the good of their wellbeing, both mentally and physically. my heart goes out to all the people who are suffering from food deprivation, single parenting, and diseases. But all of these doesn’t conflict with I think Stephanie is a brave women who stepped out to sharing her fear and being an inspiration for people who are suffering from their relationship with food and their body images. Also this video is totally free to watch and to take away some valuable information from. Everyone has to do something to make their livings, I think her work is valuable and her intention is kind.
Every time I get critical of myself and feel like going back I come here and it always works. You are the biggest inspiration on the Internet. Thank you for being brave and putting yourself out here and doing this for YOU and therefore for us. ❤
I'm less than halfway through this video and somehow i've laughed, shed a tear, and empathized with you. Can't wait to finish the other 30 min of this video.
The pic that flashes when she talks about her six month peak with “I felt so badly about myself” is such an incredibly beautiful body to me. That is what I would love to look like and actively workout to achieve. Jeff’s comments that you are beautiful at every size is very true. The size that makes you cry and want to hide away is another’s goal. So proud of you for this. And I loved hearing from your sister!!!
Jeff's follower here. I've been deeply moved by this amazing life changing leap of faith where a certain truth is talking us more than every limiting believes that surround us we have to detach from. I'm very proud of you. I'm glad you documented it and shared it for others to see it and be inspired. It is not only a story of hunger and appearance. It is a story of listening to ourselves and to trust our natural side and our body. It knows the way when we can get out of the self too. And certainly a story of letting go getting to the right side of us eventually and bounding with it.
Steph, I honestly can’t thank you enough. As a teenager who saw you as a “fitspo” I almost felt like you gave me permission to go “All in”. When you did it, knowing you’re an intelligent woman scientist I definitely gave it a try. Your videos give me so much hope and guidance. Also thanks to Alice Olivia and Dr. Rinaldi, they’re so inspiring like you.
I don't normally comment on videos but this was really amazing. I am a personal trainer and used to compete and then had 2 children and gained heaps of weight and have had issues with food and training ever since basically because having been super fit and then having a normal body it can be hard to adjust. I was body shamed when I went back to the gym to work and just never got my mojo back. I honestly wish more people would do this and go into intuitive eating. Thank you so much for your video!
As a former anorexic (my weight reducing to 67 pounds at one point, heart rate to 25 beats per minute and parents almost witnessing my death) I cannot tell you how much you have helped with my recovery. I loved the idea of being the fittest of the fit and have always seen you as that. To then see you reach a higher weight (yet still look wonderfully healthy, fit and beautiful) is inspiring to me. The fact you are educated makes me trust that this is the right approach. Thank you, thank you and thank you!
As someone who has experienced ed (orthorexia) I want to tell you that even if I don't know you I'm really proud for your progress and your decision to recover. You are brave.
Ive been struggling with and ED too, but its been some months since ive been recovering. Let me tell you, life is so so different now. I can really tell you that it will be the most difficult yet best decision you will ever make. But its a LIFE SAVING one. You can be mentally free and happy.... Keep going warrior. Choose life.
ONE 🎉YEAR 🎉ALL 🎉IN 🎉!!!
I think this video says it all and tells you the FULL story! It took me over a month to make and edit this video but I think it really captures my journey and I can't tell you how much it means to me to share this with you. I hope you enjoy this video as much as I enjoyed making it and thank you for making this year as amazing as it was...through all of the ups and downs, you guys were always there for me. I love you from the bottom of my heart. Enjoy! 😘
Luv u stephenie
Hey Stephanie felt like forever !! Sending love your way 😘😘😘
LOVE YOU STEPHANIE! HAVEN'T WATCHED YET BUT YOU ARE THE BEST ❤❤ Keep being your authentic beautiful self xoxo 💃
So proud and happy for you. You are such an inspiration to so many of us. Congratulations girl!!!!
I love you so much thanks for being so knowledgeable and speaking your real feelings even though it is so scary to lose all that amazing physique
The fact that people shamed her when she gained weight is so sad, she did what she needed to do to be physically and mentally healthy
Harjas Dhaliwal I have questions
Harjas Dhaliwal periot
She looks so healthy
it says a lot about society that when a woman takes care of herself and enjoys hereself that there is a societal backlash.
body types aren’t real like that you can’t draw conclusions from them😂.
Never listened to a person for 40 minutes and be so engaged the whole time. Girl you’re amazing
Same. I love her videos. That’s hard to do is keep ppl watching your video the whole entire way.
Facts!
Agreed!!
yeah i cried the whole time
Madalina Alexandru
Only a statement made by females!
Complete transparency and No ads? We don’t deserve Stephanie.
Edit- yes, we’re all aware there are ads on the video now.
ad free is nice isnt it
I'm literally experiencing love at first sight w her rn. Like wow. What an amazing person!! I subbed for sure
There’s ad in the beginning for me
@@dahyunqtii3896 it was by youtube itself.
Adblock so its always ad free :P
dude i just cried at the end of this. i'm so happy you're happier after this and figured it all out. keep killing it
Did you seriously cry at this video?
@@powerboon2k it’s a girl
Many fitness trainers and gurus don't want to admit that they have disordered eating habits. Thank you for being honest!
Not all fitness trainers and guru's have disordered eating habits, many don't sp many don't have to admit anything.
C Will well, yes, but they’re obviously talking about the ones who do have disordered eating habits.
Not that it's bad- it's just bad to promote your audience to have the same disordered eating habits
@@Churros1616 what's SP?
@@Churros1616 Im sorry but most of which I have seen restrict for x amounts of days and then create a day to eat piles of calories and they call it cheat day or refeed or whatever fancy name they create. Most of them are trapped in binge restrict cycles and this is a form of disordered eating.
Can we just talk about how amazing Jeff was throughout this entire process? Because he was really amazing.
Cassie D. Best partner ever!
Yeah he is super supportive 👏👏
I look up to him, he is a solid dude.
niftysheep Your statement is too real! Being a kind and supportive partner SHOULD be the norm not an exception.
YES!!!! Jeff is so supportive! I'm so happy Steph has someone she can open up to without fear of judgement.
She fixed a whole life of improper eating and body image issues in one year. She SHOULD be proud of herself. And especially going through this on social media, with all the hater. It takes immense courage and strength. With all the meltdowns and emotional roller coaster she stuck with it! So much respect to you!
Laura Zhu i so agree on this one! I couldnt even handle the same.
You summarized it perfectly! Her journey is so admirable
Stephanie is a hero!!
Exactly, the swollen stage, and bloated stomach stage, brings many like myself back to under-eating...
but seems many silly men in this comment section like skeletons, so at least I should have some admirers... 😬😂
As somebody in all-in recovery from Anorexia, currently going through extreme hunger Stephanie is helping and motivating me so much!
Good on you for going through it! Good luck & keep up the good work!
I recovered from AN and went through every stage she mentioned. Extreme hunger is exhausting, and I understand how scary it can feel when you are experiencing it after having lived through such a difficult period in your life. Keep going, I hope that you are doing well, two years later!
It will pass. You will feel healthy and at peace again soon
Her face when she’s eating and happy... she’s such a foodie I feel like she’s on cloud 9
Right! 🤣 Her eyes got big with every single first bite, made me want to try it all!
I wonder what people's reaction would be if she weighed 175 lbs instead of 125.
She doesn't weight 125..
@@SurrealisticSlumbers I'm pretty sure she does weigh around 175lbs currently. She used to weigh 125 before her weight gain journey
omg I literally love that about her too
The fact that people literally had the audacity to comment horrible things about someone’s weight/appearance literally makes my blood boil. I admire your strength Steph!
@@jmorefit1 her period stopped and she was always hungry and cold. how is that healthy? are you actually that stupid? she was never "obese". how is saying that good for her mental health? you've got bigger issues if saying this stuff makes you feel better about yourself. maybe the girl with a phD knows a little more than your unsuccessful ass. how is getting those personal training clients going hahahah
@@jmorefit1 Even with her highest weight she wasn´t obese at all. Sie was still strong and healthy. Something is wrong with your perseption.
Shalix 33 So you believe a girl who is like 5’4 can gain 20+ pounds of fat and not be obese?? What doctor or dietitian do you know of would suggest tripling your calories and gaining 20 pounds of fat as a good idea to be heathy...?
Jamal Williams Let me be more clear...when she decided to stop extreme dieting for body building she would be heathy at that point...gaining 20+ pounds of fat at like 5’4 for a woman would make you obese...she said gaining the weight helped her mental health...that’s a dangerous statement bc 99% of people won’t gain 20 pounds of fat from excessive eating and feel good mentally...she has a PhD in cancer research not nutrition or physiology...did you see how I responded without insulting you even once, that’s what being mature and reasonable looks like...
@@jmorefit1 Yes, that´s correct. If her weight hasn´t been over about 65 kg, she wasn´t overweight. Her weight however could have been over that mark, without being overweight, because she still had a lot of muscle mass. Also, there are new studies that show that women who are slightly overweight live longer. Has something to do with hormones.
It is not as if she had a normal body beforehand and then gained 10 kg. She hardly had any fat on her body, which can be very unhealthy, as has been seen in her case.
This shows that girls tend to go so hard on themselves. Like her .. looking so beautiful at every weight .. even she was upset ... every body is beautiful
That's sexist
But important to note that she’s happiest at her healthiest
@@talelravaui1356 How? its true yea men can be hard on their bodies but most of the time people see girls saying something about it but its not sexist. its just stereotypical but the stereotype is true
"every body is beautiful"
Don't lie.
@@jimraynor7788 What she meant was that every body is beautiful in it's own way, and just because your not somebody's 'Type' it doesn't mean that your not beautiful at all. I think that putting down people's body types can really impact their self image - something the beauty and cosmetic industry thrives off of.
However, I get what you mean about not all - i.e. those bodies that are severely over or under weight because it puts you at serious risk of all sorts of health problems. The mainstream media is to blame about sending such mixed messages about health and fitness - there is no 'one-size-fits-all' approach to it; you have to figure out what works for you using the science. :)
When he asked if she regrets it and she said "Not even for a second" I broke down in tears. This video inspired me and I will do the same thing as you. I have been pushing recovery back but now its time for a change.
i'm proud of you and i hope recovery is going well for you!!
i hope you have the best recovery in the world so proud of you
YES!!!!
You go! You can do this, I’m almost a year in recovery, let me tell you, IT GETS BETTER! ❤sending much love
@@bottlecap6334 am gonna do it again....but am afraid of gaining lots of fat....how did it work for you?
When Dr. Rinaldi said "The idea that healthy equals a look is problematic. Healthy equals functioning well" !!! YES !! I love that !
Period !!! :))
Yess! So true! ❤️
She was never even "fat". She just gained weight and was bigger than she normally was. People who shamed her are just crappy.
lol
True
Honestly.
she got fat. period.
@@chloemajlinda3957 I think the problem is the way society presents the word fat and it’s not used as it should be. Yes she gained a lot of fat but that does not mean she is fat. It almost becomes an identifying word rather than a descriptive one.
Can we just appreciate what an amazing supportive guy Jeff is. Husband material right there!
Yeah, my moral of the story was that every woman needs a Jeff.
vulture cyclops
I am sure he can't wait for her to stop eating.
Ophelia
What, you think he wants her to continue to eat and eat.......really???? Are you serious???
vulture cyclops
Lol, let's see the science, skinny and unhealthy, or fat and unhealthy. The science is in, the skinny people live longer and have less health problems. When you see an old person that is over 100.......they are never fat, the fat ones died off 35 years ago.
@@thailandtreats4816 your point would almost make sense if Stephanie was fat, but she isnt
I'm a triathlete, powerlifter, former bodybuilder, trainer and a medical doctor. At times I've had to work on my relationship with food too. Your journey and this video took a lot of courage and intelligence. You are an inspiration! Thank you.
Damn you’re a superstar
I have such a girl crush on this woman. She's incredibly intelligent, kind, driven, and absolutely stunning!
Ikr
Definitely a great supportive man!!
You are such an inspiration ❤️❤️ I've followed your journey from the start (and before), and it's so moving to watch.
I'm so extremely happy for you ❤️❤️
Lol 😆. She is very girl crush-worthy.
Edit: Woman Crush is a better way of saying it. I agree with the other commenter.
And I have to add something that might be fucking rude and offensive but in order for me to realize that she’s just as human as I am, I needed to see her cry (last year) about how she felt.
Like she is so incredibly intelligent, kind and stunning, as you say, that it was hard for me to compare myself to her.
Now I just know that I am a piece of shit but that’s not the point.
She’s fucking awesome.
“Heathy means functioning well” this made me cry. I didn’t realize how emotional this video would make me. I need to work on my body image issue 😢 I’m not obese. I’m not unhealthy. I need to learn to love my body.
Do you have a helper? Or should I help you?
if you have to say "I'm not obese" you probably are. Lol
Please ignore the people in these comments. Your body is perfect as long as you feel like you're healthy.
mamacita ღ you don’t know her. Just shut up
Minmochi • aww did i trigger you??? you must be OBESE too hahaha
I don't know why she looks prettier and healthier now ! Her body is in the best shape and her face is so fresh
Because a full figure, full face looks healthier and better
Magazines messed us up. She looks her best now. When she got bigger she looked more and more vibrant.
If your body isn't getting what it needs it won't look healthy even if you are muscles on muscles.
Geez, nobody thinks she looked better leaner? Regardless, as long as she's healthy and happy that's the best.
Natural beauty is always the best
I cried during this. I think I want to try- I don’t know if I’m ready yet nor do I know how to figure out if I am. Thanks for this video, Stephanie. I don’t want to take anything away from Stephanie with this comment because she really does deserve so much credit, but I also want to say that Jeff’s reactions and commentary are so helpful to hear and so loving and encouraging. Hearing that your significant other loves you no matter what you look or feel like is one thing, watching it be completely and entirely true is another.
“It’s like Stephanie’s been stuck in a suuuuper long Snickers commercial and no one could give her a Snickers” 🤣🤣🤣 best analogy!!
@Ophelia Me too hahah
When Nicola said "healthy is not defined by how a person looks, it is about how well the body functions.", that was a HUGE statement! Thanks for sharing your life with us.
Looks are the result of being healthy and fit!
@@cjschmitt4882 not 100% true, people can still look good and healthy but on the inside be unfit / unhealthy
@@rubybrodie140 exactly
@@jayless1004 that isn't what i think at all but nice assumption
@@cjschmitt4882 what do u mean ‘exactly’ i’m literally disagreeing with u completely??
You're the reason I started my ed recovery. I've had anorexia for almost 10 years and I'm getting better and better everyday. My hunger was really extreme in the begining (I'm talking about 10-12 000 calories a day) becuase I lost half of my body weight during my ed. My hunger is normalizing, I eat between 2000-4000 calories a day and I love my body. Yes I did gain weight. More than I wanted or intended to, but while gaining weight I also gained my ability to think rationally and lost interest in my outter appearance. I'm so happy I found your channel. Love you and wish you all the best
Stephanie is so amazing and it's so great that she was able to inspire you! ❤️ Congratulations on all your progress! ❤️❤️
I’m so happy you chose to recover. It is so mentally draining. I am proud of you!
Omg me too, I am the same weight as Stephanie now. She helped me so much, and I don’t think she realizes that! I thought I was crazy, but I was just about eating when my body was hungry! I’m so glad you’re on a great road to recovery ❤️
I'm so proud of you! 💜
It is not easy but we can do it!
I’m extremely proud of you 💜. Taking the initiative to start recovery is very brave💜 Good job👏🏼💜💜💜💜💜💜!!!!!!
You‘re so fuc*ing strong. I‘ve watched your videos for years and I am always so impressed by how authentic you act and talk. So genuine and with all that physical plus psychological strength. Be proud of you everyday!! You did amazing no matter what any idiot out there believes.
Much love from Germany ❤
I pretty much never comment but this is worth making an exception. I'm a guy. I've never had an eating disorder. I've never been very lean or obese. I've never had to deal with backlash on social media. I could not personally relate to your struggles and yet this video nearly moved me to tears. I love your openness and am grateful for the role model you are to young girls and women. Keep doing what you're doing, Stephanie. You have my utmost respect.
This is so cute 🥺
Ur hands dwn the best comment
Nice champ
I was thinking about what to say and read your comment Ingo and you say it all. I'm so glad a man can understand what a big, big deal this is for women - normal women, let alone anyone in the public eye. I eat less at the weekend to keep slim, no dinner tonight so I can have a drink without feeling guilty about the calories. My fiancé loves me regardless, the pressure comes from advertising and social media. Stephanie is incredibly, incredibly brave and resilient putting her head above the parapet on this issue. Huge respect.
You're a gentleman omg
I'm so glad that Stephanie had Jeff during her "All In" journey, especially when so many people criticized her. He is so sweet towards her. When he said "I still thought you looked beautiful at this time" my heart melted!! He's a keeper for sure!!
Jeff - CEO of supportive boyfriends. Everyone needs a jeff
simon scott sounds like you are just talking out of your ass.
@@simonscott5104 They can't get together IRL because of quarantaine issues. Stephanie lives in Florida while Jeff is Canadian. Due to covid, they can't travel to see eachother.
🧚🏻♀️just shut up🧚🏻♀️
simon scott stfu . you’re straight up talking out your add . they cant get together because of quarintine and she her weight doesn’t concern you .
Bella Clemencio Nah girl...that's bad advice. Every girl definitely does NOT need a yes-man in her life telling her a 10,000 calorie binge is okay, when she clearly has an eating disorder. I believe that would fit the definition of "enabler", hence, an unhealthy relationship.
As someone who has struggled with her body image and an eating disorder for over a decade.. I decided to go all in last June and have repaired my relationship with food and myself. You're such an inspiration
Going all in too.
Currently battling bulimia.
I need to get better. I want to get better.
Currently on day 7. One week.
I appreciate you.
Food shouldn’t be fought. Food should be loved.
I hope my experience is as hard and beautiful as yours.
I wish you so much love.
From,
A silent viewer.
Congrats on your first 7. ❤
I began recovery from AN almost a year ago; I promise that it's worth it and that it gets SO much easier. Recovery brings you all the things you fear you'll never have xxx
Good luck babe xx
you're going to do amazing!! even if you have some hiccups along the way. health will be worth it all
I had/have Binge ED. What she did is exactly what my dietician recommended. “Give yourself freedom” basically. You will get there! It’s HARD! But you can do it! Don’t give up!
Can we all just take note that there were no ads during this entire masterpiece? Thank you, queen
She worked hard, why not monetize it. I don't get it.
Might have gotten demonetized by youtube
You broke the misconception that healthy is fit and lean. I love this
This is such a great use of the influence she has. She really impacted the fitness community in such a healthy way just by doing what was best for her. What a role model!
I love that you destroyed the box that you were in. This is what the fitspo industry needs. REAL. Fake is so common and unrelatable. We are so influenced by the media that seeing all those tiny girls all wearing gymshark outfits and full faces of makeup to go workout, is not the kind of influence women need. I really appreciate your vulnerability and strength in this journey. It takes a lot of courage to do what you did. I have so much MORE respect for you for being yourself. By the way you look amazing and not like you are starving anymore. Absolutely stunning.
👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
Perfect comment. 💕
I love your phraseology, destroyed the box you were in!!
What you don’t realize is, even if you lost the respect of the fitness side by going all in and gaining weight to fix your health, you gained an incredible amount of support from the eating disorder community. Even though you are different than us, you still had the same symptoms we have: extreme hunger, fear of gaining weight, amenorrhea, 24/7 food fixations, and a damaged metabolism.
I’m sure watching your journey has helped countless of sufferers into venturing out of their comfort zone and aiming towards recovery. 💜💚
That's the thing though .. She DID/DOES have an eating disorder. Even though she called it "Extreme hunger" it is an ED. She described feeling full but still wanting to eat and eat and eat and that is called bulimia. Could be exercise bulimia or just overeating bulimia. She also had anorexia where she was afraid to eat, gain weight and had amenorrhea.
Pink Rainbow no, she has disordered eating. She didn’t feel guilty for eating in excess and compensate by purging through exercise. Eating disorders and disordered eating are two completely different things. Unless using food as a coping mechanism, it’s not a diagnosable eating disorder.
Pink Rainbow regardless or whether she had one or not, it’s not your job nor is it appropriate for you to diagnose her. Steph has been so open and honest through her journey and many people have claimed she had an ED, so don’t you think she would have talked about that by now?
My_Butt I didn’t realize you were the original commenter. I very much agree with your original comment, but not with the bulimia part at all.
@@pinkrainbow1 Eating disorders are mental illnesses. Steph's extreme hunger was completely physiological. Her wanting to "eat and eat" was her body's lack of hunger cues, not her mind telling her she needed to.
The breakdowns because of gaining weight reminds me of my journey of recovery after anorexia.. Yeah I felt that
Same girl it's so overwhelming giving up control
Same
Same man
Fuck same trying not to cry. Unbelievable how hard other people are when it comes to weight gain ...
I’m there too
Girl you're literally saving lives, I'm so glad you've put this out there 💛 Keep going
Stephanie thiccc with ab lines! Looking better than ever, eating well, staying warm, inspiring others??!! Yesss Steph we stand behind you and we love you thank you for this
Right! She's thick with abs, 100% goals!
She is so gorgeous. Women naturally store more fat, her old body was not maintainable long term. There are so many women out there that need to hear this. You do not have to have abs, or be a size 0 to be considered “fit”. This is truly inspiring, and she looks healthier than ever, inside and out!
amen to that
Thank you for this comment. You literally made me cry.
If everyone thought like this though...
@DeadLittlePunkDoll Why? A size 0 implies maintaining a weight below what is natural and healthy for your body, doesn't it? The body is supposed to carry a certain amount of fat. That seems more like an aesthetic desire than someone genuinely healthy- it seems like the opposite.
@DeadLittlePunkDoll Many people shouldn't strive to be size 0 for that reason. You can shrink body fat, b ut that doesn't shrink your wide hips or huge glutes for example.
“It was like Steph was stuck in a super long Snickers commercial, and nobody could give her a Snickers. And it's like finally Steph gets her Snickers!” 😂 I love it so much
Me too, I laughed out loud.
this is like the best comment ever
I also loved this comment! It summed up the whole experience and Steph's "why." Stephanie deserves to be happy. We all deserve to be happy.
I cried. She is very brave and had to have faith that it would all work out. That and all the other very heavy things she has had to endure in her life. I feel like she’s like how I would see my daughter and I want to hug and love her. ❤
Jeff is the sweetest boyfriend ever ! You’re so blessed both of you are incredible people!
manlet of peace
He's gorgouse 😁
Anyone else feeling insanely emotional and proud watching Stephanie through this insane journey? We knew you could do it! ✨🥳
Yup. Couldn't keep the tears back. But I am happy for her and can't wait to see her continue her journey.
Ok so I’m not the only one tearing up 😭😭😭
Yes 🥺
so happy for her! 💗
I’m not crying, you’re crying 😭 Go Steph Go!!! 🥳👍🏼💗
This is the type of fitness influencers we need! I know this has been said a thousand times but for me it is really important to thank you stephanie!!! You are a true inspiration, what you've been doing is changing the lives of so many people who struggle with eating disorders like me. Tracking your journey in such an open way is an act of bravery, even if for some people it might sound like an exageration, for somebody who lives and works in the fitness community, doing what you did is not easy. Thank you stephanie!! You are so real and genuine with your videos, this is what youtube needs nowadays!!
❤️❤️❤️
I just wish everybody could see this video.. we need to stop putting so much pressure on how we look and rather focus on our happiness! Being skinny isnt gonna get you far in life if you arent happy and actually experiencing life in the best ways with your own body
Steph I can PROMISE you that you look WAY BETTER now, in every sense!
She gained weight in the right places tho lol
Because she exercises
KateOnKeys Asmita Pandey y’all are missing the point, she looks HEALTHIER and HAPPIER
I love that she is not only beautiful she’s also so intelligent and kind she’s one UA-camr that I would really love to meet because she’s genuine
Stephanie is a fake. She photoshops and lies about a lot of things. She restricted and binged and CLEARLY had an eating disorder but doesn’t admit to it. Don’t take her dangerous advice on dieting. Seek professional help instead. Read the truth about Stephanie here: www.reddit.com/r/xxfitness/comments/fef83g/thoughts_on_stephanie_buttermores_all_in_journey/?
Naomi Nguyen I don’t recall where she said “everyone needs to do this!!” She was sharing her story and what did in fact WORK for her.
Eleni Kondos she doesn’t need to tell everyone to go all in. She has a platform and she’s manipulating her image to support her disordered eating.
She should also make a discretion before all her 10k calorie videos saying that she did in fact restrict for them and she doesn’t just eat 10k without gaining weight. Now that she’s been eating in a surplus every day for a year, we can clearly see it was set up and she’s a liar. But fans like you don’t like hearing true facts and actual evidence so carry on lol
I have a difficult time believing that anybody who regularly applies that much fake-up is genuine. The vocal fry is another affect that makes her seem phony.
The way Jeff spoke about Steph bought tears to my eyes!! 24mins. Getting tissues!
So inspiring.. absolutely beautiful
You honestly never know what people are going through and/or struggling. Thank you for your trust and vulnerability.
Anyone who sees this, please stop the hate on the internet. You could honestly save a life showing kindness... (this is an older video, but it still is impacting so many)
It’s so sad how body image really affects us. I can’t imagine having an entire platform of people watching my entire journey, especially one like this. I think Stephanie is really strong, brave, and just an all around good person. Honestly those people online who made fun and called her names are just negative, insecure people who have some sort of deep seated hatred within themselves.
I'm honestly disappointed in steph for letting it bother her so much... I've always respected her because she wasn't just a stereotypical "fit chick" with no credentials but ever since the all in journey, seems like all her posts are either whining about how she looks, or loving the way she looks.
She made it very clear at the start that the goal was just to be healthier but it seems like now, she's just focused on looking good like most other fitness "influencers"
Basically what I'm saying is she's drifted away from health above all else by constantly letting the way she perceives her looks to affect whether or not she wanted to continue with a healthy process.
Diu she wouldn’t be human if she wasn’t upset at times. This society, no matter how strong you are, has the insane ability to dwell into our psyche to beat down on what a perfect woman should look like. I think it’s great that Stephanie was able to be so honest with us. It’s so much more refreshing than just pretending that this was easy.
I can't imagine how hard it must be either. I've gained like 8 pounds this year and I was scared to go out and see like, the 10 people I know, can't even picture how I would feel showing such a difficult journey to millions of strangers
Diu Stephanie is a fake. She photoshops and lies about a lot of things. She restricted and binged and CLEARLY had an eating disorder but doesn’t admit to it. Don’t take her dangerous advice on dieting. Seek professional help instead. Read the truth about Stephanie here: www.reddit.com/r/xxfitness/comments/fef83g/thoughts_on_stephanie_buttermores_all_in_journey/?
Sannihitha Miryala Stephanie is a fake. She photoshops and lies about a lot of things. She restricted and binged and CLEARLY had an eating disorder but doesn’t admit to it. Don’t take her dangerous advice on dieting. Seek professional help instead. Read the truth about Stephanie here: www.reddit.com/r/xxfitness/comments/fef83g/thoughts_on_stephanie_buttermores_all_in_journey/?
This could be a Netflix documentary I'm so glad and proud u did it and sucess!! 👏👏
Yuhui's life it really could!! So amazing
YES YES YES. It would help SO many people!! I have definitely been there with the crazy appetite, it felt like my stomach was a black hole!! It's the most uncontrollable hunger I have ever felt in my life. I was restricting and not eating anywhere near enough! It’s like your body forces you to start eating like crazy to catch up. It took me a year for the "empty pit" feeling to go away after I stopped restricting, working out like crazy, and started eating a lot. I had a lot of bloating issues too just because I am tiny and I was eating like crazyy to satisfy my hunger. But that went away after about a year too. Now I still eat a lot more than normal but my appetite has definitly stabilized more and I no longer feel like im constantly starving! This is why its not good to be exteme with anything. Balance is key!
Yess hope there’s a way we can help in this. Stephanie saved my life i went all in with her!!
A Human yes same here !! I am "all in" now since 1 year, too, and glad that I found stephanies channel right after the beginning of my decision to eat more..! First I wanted to try eating a few hundred calories more but mostly clean. But then I found her and her interview with dr. rinaldi I went "all in" with all foods I wanted to eat... a lot of "healthy" (tons of porridge, sweet potatoe, avocado and olive oil..) also not so "clean" foods (chocolate and a lot of pasta, butter and toast) and this was the best decision.
Today my hunger cues are most of the time "normal" I eat 2500 to 3000 calories every day now and want to continue because my hunger is still a good amount higher than from others but for me it's the lowest hunger I've ever experienced since beginning with this journey.. I think stephanies experience and dr. rinaldis advice is helping a lot of women and even men... I don't know what I would do without stephanie.. ❤️
Yes!
I almost never comment on youtube videos but my heart is singing and crying for this. I am so happy you found success in this method. As a former student athlete ( runner) I struggled with amenorrhea just as most women runners do and it's just normalized and in some cases forced onto female athletes. You are really strong for going through this process and taking care of your body and sharing it with the world. I have been watching this since you started your UA-cam channel and I dont think any fitness youtube deserve 1mil subscribers like you do. You go girl ♡
Thanks for sharing that. I’m also a student athlete and struggled with amenorrhea as well. I love Stephanie’s videos
Dr jolene Briden
How did you get your period back? If you could share
I can’t get over how supportive Jeff is ❤️ so sweet and rare. I’m sure it made a world of a difference to have your S/O in your corner calling you beautiful
Jeff is legitimately the sweetest.❤️ Every woman needs a Jeff in their life.😊
Time to clone Jeff
It really saddens me that eating disorders/disordered eating are so normalized in the bodybuilding community. When competing you have to be incredibly restrictive and essentially have to starve to become lean enough to compete and it's impossible to maintain, not to mention how taxing it is on the body and mind. (At least that's my own personal experience and I'm so glad I've recovered). Your story has inspired so many! Thank you for sharing this incredible journey with us!
Yes exactly, she had an eating disorder and she's calling it something different pretending that it's not an ED. There is no such thing as extreme hunger. It's called eating disorder when you eat and eat and eat and still want to eat even after you feel full which is exactly how she described it.
@@pinkrainbow1 She wanted to "eat and eat" because she was never fully satiated. She only stated she felt like she COULD eat more even after being really bloated because, again, she was never really full.
Pink Rainbow she has disordered eating, not an eating disorder. You can not diagnose someone over the Internet, especially if you’re not a trained therapist. An eating disorder is only diagnosable if you’re using it as a coping mechanism.
This could be a documentary on Netflix, just saying 😍
It definitely should have been!
Was thinking the same thing !!
This SHOULD be a documentary on Netflix..
Yessss
IF THIS AINT THE TRUTH!
This made me cry...Why does the world hate fat so much? I'm sorry you had to go through that and so happy to see you come out on the other side
I do think it's important to encourage people to be healthy, but there are definitely a lot of people that take it way way too far and encourage an unhealthy body in the opposite direction.
I can understand her mother being concerned seeing her daughter gaining weight (especially if she has a mental condition that affects her self-control), but those comments from viewers are downright appalling and those people don't deserve to live on this planet and consume resources that could go to actually decent people.
There's a difference between obese and thicc. Nothing wrong with being soft, but it's not good to promote an image that is detrimental to someone's health. She's still well within a healthy weight range, if she added another 40~ pounds you'd probably being hearing people chime in about health issues, which are legit. Why people get upset when the people around them clearly want what's best for them I'll never know, but telling someone who is severely overweight that they need to lose weight is no worse than telling a coke addict they need to quit coke. Both are behaviors that will shorten your life as well as greatly diminish the quality of your life.
You don't have to be a size 6 or whatever, just be healthy enough that basic things in life are challenges for you (if you struggle going up a flight of stairs, probably time to address priorities.
@@michag4337 who caaaaares
@@idrk3707 this is what I'm here for the deep meaningful conversation. The day you are no longer able to communicate with other humans will be the greatest contrabution to society. Why bother posting a bull shit comment like that? Obviously you care, or you wouldn't have responded months later. Why not include something a little more meaningful? Do you disagree? Engage perhaps educate. 100% clown shoes.
@@michag4337 Agreed. This whole video is funny because her "fat" is most people's skinny. She talks about her being fat like she was 200lbs or something when in reality she was at most 15-20 lbs overweight..
can't get over how brave she is, to put her journey all over the internet to help others is inspiring.
This is wayyyy better than watching someone’s losing weight journey and dieting and working out
I agree, being yourself. Vulnerable to emotions is truly good sharing stuff
Definitely true
So true!
Of course its wayy better, its much better seeing weak people like you giving up to their addictions and relate.
How about keep it together, do reverse dieting for couple of months and stay lean while doing that, instead of gaining fat like a whale and hope the body will fix itself one day?
Talk about yo yo dieting.....
Yoni R i get what you mean but the way you worded that was... kinda harsh
Jeff is 11/10 best boyfriend, the man is too good for this world
I mean, he is Canadian 😂😂
Feels like a weird assumption for someone you literally do not know... That's like teenager level naivety.
@@GlaciusDreams I think it's a fair assumption. Even now as an adult, I give people the benefit of the doubt.
From a womans perspective I think Jeff is a good supportive/understanding guy. I think back to men I've dated who would have flipped if I decided to do an "All In" diet. It would have caused issues in the relationship if my body changed.
@@byebyegoogle9246 I'm sorry you went through that.
When I was deep in my ED I used to watch your cheat day videos religiously. I was obsessed with watching people eat and your videos were crack to me. I would re watch them again and again. Sometimes even using to distract myself to avoid eating.
Then when you went all in I followed along, almost living vicariously through you. I was so scared of gaining any weight. Watching your videos along with all the helpful explanations really helped me wrap my mind around weight gain being a good thing.
I’d like to think I would have made the jump to recovery even without these videos, but honestly I’m not sure. It definitely would have been much slower.
Thank you Stephanie. ❤
this need to be on netflix..lol damn good presentation
Me too, I didn't even notice the time passing. She looks much happier now, awesome video.
ikr
AGREED!
It would probably do more harm than good on Netflix. Her approach is great assuming the individual meets certain criteria:
1) they are a person fully immersed in fitness who strength trains and understands their body extremely well, and grasps the fundamentals of diet and nutrition
2) has at least above average genetics
If the individual doesn’t satisfy that criteria, they’d probably just gain a ton of weight and struggle to lose any of it in the future.
This may be the first time I’ve sat and watched a video for this long without it feeling repetitive or boring.
this is actually so reassuring and has inspired me to stop giving myself unrealistically small portions
THIS!!!!
I, and maybe a lot of us, need to focus more on our mind and bodies in its entirety rather than just for vanity.
Yay! Congrats🥳🎉
Eat meat and you don't have to do that. Gaining weight like she did isn't good for mental health.. she went 'all out' and that's just as extreme as her starving.
She was a dangerously low body fat percentage. This doesn’t really apply to the average person
@@katjam yeah it definitely doesn't apply to me but when I do this I notice I'm always thinking about food and end up having snacks because I didn't just eat to satiety to start with. I really need to get back to eating proper meals then being able to forget about food in between them.
She’s so honest and sincere that I can’t understand why people would criticise her.
Those ppl who judged her - they only reacted to her because they are terrified of "being fat" - oh the horror! I'm terrified of being an asshole... but I guess we all have our demons.. but yeah it wasn't about her. It was their baggage and they couldn't deal with a Queen like Stephanie living her BEST LIFE! YOU GO GIRL! XOXOXO
@@jw2223 the criticism came from the fact that she was promoting binge eating (an eating disorder).
Fathel binge eater is eating after your full , you keep eating to the point where you want to puke . She ate until she was full and stopped , in the beginning that was a lot ( I hope you watched the video ) and when she got less hungry she ate less. Critic isn’t calling someone a fat pig , cow , obese ( while she truly wasn’t at her heaviest ) while you ( the male fitness people ) are doing unhealthy shit to stay lean and as ripped as possible aswell
@@felicitychermaine yearh because 10000 calories is eating till you're full.
What her sister said at the end that, finally Steph got her snickers, hits the nail right on the head, I don’t think Steph emphasised enough how much her quality of life must have improved and how much more herself she is now. The sparkle is back in her eyes and the life back in her face.
She literally looks so beautiful...that's insane. Female bodies in their pure form are so fucken amazing
pog
Indeed lucky, "stacy"type and she's a pretty good person
Jeff's response to every question just melts my heart. How I wish i can find someone who loves me like that in the future.
mansretro They’re usually the good guys that often get ignored.
Never stay with someone who don't treat you that way you deserve to be treated right :3
😂 love that she listed the people's screen names that were calling her fat.
Bastardssss
Tiannah M Greg Doucette was especially rude in his video, normally like him so that was a shame to see
Jon Jimothy it’s called honesty
FFTuk I appreciate and value honesty, but there is also manners. calling someone a pig repeatedly, just unnecessarily rude
@FFTuk well noone has any business calling someone on the internet fat. That person's fatness isn't affecting you in any way so if you go out of your way to call someone fat that just goes to show how sadistic you are that you are calling someone something for hurting them.
Just came across this channel. Jeez! This lady gains 40+ pounds and looks like what I want my "after" weight loss picture to look like. You are gorgeous! Don't listen to the haters.
I have struggled with anorexia since I was 13. I was hospitalized at 14. I didn't have my period until I was 18 and lost it several times after. This video nearly brought me to tears because for the first time I feel like I'm watching someone talk about how the FEEL, not how they look. People usually address how they look in order to change how they feel, which I believe is the wrong order. I'm hoping I can internalize this and start to heal.
hope you are doing well now!! sending lots of love!❤️❤️
You got this! Stay strong ❤️
I feel you because I’ve been there too. actually still there.
I also having an anorexia since I was 11 and I was in the hospitalized for 6 months
About period lost several times..now I’m 35 years old. I’ve been struggling with this disease for over 20 years. It’s sometimes up and down.
I’m so lost to an answer for my life but
This video, Stephanie ‘s personal experience is really got me thinking, I almost cried.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us
And I’m sure you are trying really hard every day
I hope you recover💞 you are not alone✨✨✨
Best of luck in your recovery! We are all rooting for you
The snickers analogy hit the nail on the head. This was a masterpiece x
I use to be very thin and was tired and cold all the time. After I put on 15 pounds I had so much more energy, was less depressed and was a lot more fit because I actually had the energy to workout. But my own family would call me fat because in Asian culture, fat shaming is normalized and being underweight is celebrated. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, you go girl!
I'm so proud of you
ah the asian culture, they will you right out to your face that you are fat, i hate it too. Interestingly the people that say those things are not fit themselves. toxic culture mentality. If they see a skinny girl, they will say oh she is sexy. They are oblivious how they can hurt someone's feelings.
Hi! How did you pack on weight? It’s near impossible for me :/
@@terrenam55 I was restricting because I didn’t want to gain weight once I started eating to satiety I gained weight easily. I put on probably 25 pounds initially over 3 months and it dropped to 15 pounds. I have been maintaining my weight for the last 5 years without much effort. It’s really worth it for me
@@Julie-ip3il how you lose it and how long it take it
I didn't go all in, but doing weekly cheat-days has eventually brought me to my setpoint, and I feel great. Thank you, Stephanie. You are an angel in disguise.
You can't even imagine how much you have helped me with my recovery. I have anorexia and always used to watch your cheat day videos, while I was starving myself. And I think that is pretty common within the ed community. So when you suddenly announced that you are going all in, something clicked in me. I saw how much happier you were. And when you said, you simply do not want to live with that feeling of never ending hunger anymore, I could not relate to anything more. So that was a huge part of me deciding that I want a way out of this. I am not gonna lie, there are still tough days, plenty of them, but I am on the right track and looking at your content gives me so much support. Thank you for sharing your journey!
Wow, good luck !! You will go through this and be happy with yourself ;)
She helped me immensely as well! I started the same day that she posted the first video of going all in and I never had a better relationship with food that I have it now.
Yay!!! Keep it up! Love yourself!
You basically showed what eating disorder recovery is like. AND you did it on your own (without hospitalization). You are an inspiration!!!
I dont think binging is a healthy way to recover. You can recover by eating just a normal, or little more, diet in the day. Without stuffing yourself. That is also a little bit obssesive again, only now it turned in another direction.
I dont want to judge her but i think it is important to show people this is also a kind of obessive eating. I also almost fell into this when i was underweight. But I had to retrict both ways: Not undereating and not Overeating. :)
Actually in eating disorder treatment they give you massive portions of food for a while before things level out. After having an e.d you may have intense cravings due to starving your body. This is normal, and it’s your body trying to protect you. If you honor your cravings your hunger cues will return to normal ❤️
So I agree with the original comment and would say to @A that this is pretty accurate to my experiences with hospitalization for AN
@@theothergirl2543 yeah I agree! this is exactly the recovery process!
@@user-zt6mb7nf3i Eating to satiety when super hungry is not the same as binging. Are you a scientist? Because Stephanie is, did her research, AND this worked to *regulate her hunger* which was the goal. If you restrict fir years and years, your body will not trust the presence of extra calories for a long while.
she literally had an eating disorder and people were constantly commenting on her weight.. so stupid. those comments could have been incredibly harmful to a less strong individual.
I've been in recovery for three years and still fall back into restriction anytime someone comments on my weight. people need to mind their own business.
Exactly. They think they’re doing something when they say “omg she’s obese now” “okay go ahead, eat urself to obesity” when she was killing her body to stay that lean. They need to check THEIR facts of what’s healthy and what isnt
@@amandamysong preach
@maccajoe - She didn't go to another extreme weight wise. People were just so used to seeing her so small for so long that when she started to gain weight they thought she was obese because they weren't used to seeing her at that size. Yes, she did overeat at points during this journey, but she tried to maintain a more well-balanced diet and consult her physician along the way.
@maccajoe Hello, did you miss the part where she said that she's losing weight?
@maccajoe the other extreme was recovery.
Dude I’m so glad I came across you again; I’ve seen this video at the peak of my anorexia back in 2019-2020 and it felt like something insane…
Now I’ve spent around a year overcoming my anorexia and doing around half a year of an accidental “all in” due to going through a major depressive stage and am around the 6-7month stage.
It’s very tough, I’m not gonna lie. I’m breaking down daily atm and hit my highest weight yesterday.
As someone who was obese as a teen it’s extremely difficult to watch myself look similar to how I was back then.
And at least you had a loving and supportive boyfriend, which is nice; while I really feel fully alone in this as my mum is judging me too and voicing all my thoughts…
Idk I just hope this is it and I’m gonna slim down again this week. Literally praying at this point…
I just want you to know- when I was recovering from my eating disorder a few years ago, I also did it all by myself. No boyfriend, no support from a therapist or family/friends. In all honesty, I was too ashamed to talk about it. I felt like no one would understand. I ended up gaining 60 pounds in 6 months and weighing the most I've ever weighed in my life. It took a few months before my weight slowly started coming back down, and believe me, it was slow!! I felt so unhappy, like I had failed and I was going to be overweight and miserable forever. The biggest thing that changed my life was finding a good therapist and writing in my journal every week. Sometimes I would read my (very disturbing) journal entries to my therapist and we would break down the distortions. If you afford it, I highly recommend seeking out a good therapist who will understand what you're going through. You can get through this, and it's absolutely worth it! I've maintained a very healthy weight for a couple years now and I haven't binged or restricted once. I wish you the best : )
“An inspiration” is the genre you should be in 🤍
She looks so incredible, the food is hitting all the right places!
How can be society so messed up that a beautiful woman have to JUSTIFY herself for EATING....
PREACH
No one should have to Justify why there eating.
Omg this hits hard
Nothing to do with that. She's in the fitness industry.
Andrew Think so she isn’t allowed to gain weight?
'one of the scariest journeys' You aren't being dramatic, I was like 'No shit girl, you are making history.' MAD RESPECT.
not me balling as im in the middle of my 'all in' period of my life... going into month 11 and starting to see the weight start to fall off... the attitude and not being hungry or cold all the time is just next level! proud of you! proud of me!
She looked absolutely beautiful the whole journey, I feel sick when reading those hurtful comments about her. GIRL DO NOT LISTEN WE STAND WITH YOU
That's what she gets for believing carbs are good for you
It still amazes me, how rude people can be. She was never fat or unattractive, and nobody has the right to say nasty things about other people's bodies. The old rule still applies - if you can't think of a good thing to say, say nothing. I think she looks amazing right now, healthy and glowing!
Hey Steph,
as a coach for more then 20 years, i really think this may be one of the most important videos i ever saw.
First of all it was very brave to show the world how hard and difficult your all in was.
To step back from all that fitness/crazy/lean bullshit and let people know how much better a healthy "normal" body feels, is an amazing job you did.
I have a 12 year old daughter, who already thinks she should be leaner and skinnier and i have all hands full in explaining to her what would be better.....so having your story as a guideline for her, will help a lot!
I hope you follow your path and stay happy and healthy!
Take care
Thank you so much for your input! I mean this genuinely, I think it's a great idea to show this to teenagers.
she's the type of influencers that deserve that tittle, she's actually influencing in a good way to her viewers and i'm pretty sure she's helping many people who's constantly struggling with their relationship with food (i'm one of them, so that's why i'm that sure lol) thanks for making this type of content when unfortunately we're constantly seeing the dieting culture and the social media making it so hard
I agree. It sucks to see fitness defined as being lean and tiny and slim for females, by social media and that u can’t have a “ fitness platform “ because your not up to society standards. She’s a real fitness influencer that doesn’t promote a toxic relationship with your body and your food, and Ik she’s helping a lot of ppl, bc I’m also one of them lol 😁
Love u ♥️
Hii Steph, you are amazing ! You don't know how much you helped me to go throught extreme hunger ( but also gain weight) ! I know that I am not alone in the recovery process :)
Thanks you for showing yourself in your darkest moments. Food gave me back the joy and the craziness that my TCA had stolen.
Huge hug from France !
LOU
This made my day, suffered from anorexia for 6 years and even 10 years later there's still this voice from time to time telling me I'm not skinny enough. This video is an inspiration and a breath of fresh air, so proud of you!
Same here still afraid to go all in 🙁
gaalbeix Well done on your recovery 🌻
Barbie Lee Sending you love 💗. You deserve freedom and strength and health.
Sending you love. I have never suffered from anorexia and even I have that voice in my head telling me I’m not skinny enough. I wish that voice was telling me that I’m a healthy weight and that I should be happy, but I’m working on it❤️
Stephanie, you’re so brave not only doing this “all in” journey but also sharing your ups and downs with the people on social media. Being an influencer in fitness industry is absolutely an huge obstacle for anyone to choose to do this, but you did it. There is no doubt that your contents are helping and would help more people who are facing the same issue, your efforts are invaluable. Just wanna to say girl, you’re absolutely beautiful and inspiring! Keep doing these good stuff! Best wishes to you ♥️
@Young Simba The people you're listed are indeed brave, but she's brave too. You can't invalidate her suffering and journey just because there are people who suffer worse. So what if she makes money from this? It's not like she's scamming money from people.
Young Simba I sincerely agree part of your comments! I give all my respect to whomever fighting their adverse circumstances for the good of their wellbeing, both mentally and physically. my heart goes out to all the people who are suffering from food deprivation, single parenting, and diseases. But all of these doesn’t conflict with I think Stephanie is a brave women who stepped out to sharing her fear and being an inspiration for people who are suffering from their relationship with food and their body images. Also this video is totally free to watch and to take away some valuable information from. Everyone has to do something to make their livings, I think her work is valuable and her intention is kind.
Young Simba why does everyone roast people? Bro cmon mate
You called yourself a more improved version of yourself but the way I see it you are closer to your most authentic self.
Every time I get critical of myself and feel like going back I come here and it always works. You are the biggest inspiration on the Internet. Thank you for being brave and putting yourself out here and doing this for YOU and therefore for us. ❤
Honestly teared up at the end where she said “we did it”
Me 2 sis, just cried like a baby
I'm less than halfway through this video and somehow i've laughed, shed a tear, and empathized with you. Can't wait to finish the other 30 min of this video.
😭😭😭😭 thank you!!!
SAME
The pic that flashes when she talks about her six month peak with “I felt so badly about myself” is such an incredibly beautiful body to me. That is what I would love to look like and actively workout to achieve.
Jeff’s comments that you are beautiful at every size is very true. The size that makes you cry and want to hide away is another’s goal.
So proud of you for this. And I loved hearing from your sister!!!
Jeff's follower here. I've been deeply moved by this amazing life changing leap of faith where a certain truth is talking us more than every limiting believes that surround us we have to detach from. I'm very proud of you. I'm glad you documented it and shared it for others to see it and be inspired. It is not only a story of hunger and appearance. It is a story of listening to ourselves and to trust our natural side and our body. It knows the way when we can get out of the self too. And certainly a story of letting go getting to the right side of us eventually and bounding with it.
Steph, I honestly can’t thank you enough. As a teenager who saw you as a “fitspo” I almost felt like you gave me permission to go “All in”. When you did it, knowing you’re an intelligent woman scientist I definitely gave it a try. Your videos give me so much hope and guidance. Also thanks to Alice Olivia and Dr. Rinaldi, they’re so inspiring like you.
Your sister is so funny!: “it’s like steph has been stuck in a super long snickers commercial”! And you are so so soSo beautiful!!
shes always been really pretty but a higher weight suites her face really well!
Too much makeup. I don't know what she looks like.
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her head looks too big when shes super skinny
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TOTALLY AGREE!!!!!!
I don't normally comment on videos but this was really amazing. I am a personal trainer and used to compete and then had 2 children and gained heaps of weight and have had issues with food and training ever since basically because having been super fit and then having a normal body it can be hard to adjust. I was body shamed when I went back to the gym to work and just never got my mojo back. I honestly wish more people would do this and go into intuitive eating. Thank you so much for your video!
Can we talk about what Dr Rinaldi said about how health= proper function and not physical appearance? Loved that
You never left the fitness space, instead you’re redefining it. Congrats on 1 year girly!🎉
As a former anorexic (my weight reducing to 67 pounds at one point, heart rate to 25 beats per minute and parents almost witnessing my death) I cannot tell you how much you have helped with my recovery. I loved the idea of being the fittest of the fit and have always seen you as that. To then see you reach a higher weight (yet still look wonderfully healthy, fit and beautiful) is inspiring to me. The fact you are educated makes me trust that this is the right approach. Thank you, thank you and thank you!
Best of luck, health, happiness and determination in your recovery!
As someone who has experienced ed (orthorexia) I want to tell you that even if I don't know you I'm really proud for your progress and your decision to recover. You are brave.
Ive been struggling with and ED too, but its been some months since ive been recovering. Let me tell you, life is so so different now. I can really tell you that it will be the most difficult yet best decision you will ever make. But its a LIFE SAVING one. You can be mentally free and happy.... Keep going warrior. Choose life.
Thank you for sharing 🌻💕I wish you all the best on the road ahead