Never laughed and cried so much in one video. What a beautiful tribute you guys. I feel like I know her and am inspired to be more like her. Thank you for sharing this because i know how hard it must have been. Y'all are simply the best.
Hi, you and Nate led me to this. Hard to say much more without choking up. I do love you guys, and now Eamon & Bec - even though I have but a vicarious life left it seems which is watching you guys... but thanks for sharing your experiences, and the chance to see this... damn, I really do love all of you kids... which you are to me. If you come into the Bay Area, or Santa Cruz area, please keep me on your list to notify. I'd love to hear you guys talk about your adventures in person somewhere... or as it is usual, by youtube posts. Anyway, I just did not think this would be so hard. I have two children near her age (older & maybe nearly younger) - it just made me think a lot. I think I'm done posting here now. Sorry for the long post.
I've been sat here all day thinking that I should maybe get up and clean the cabin or go for a walk or get out in nature to connect with Lee but I cannot stop replaying 13:20 onwards. It's on a loop and I'm lying in my bed. Sometimes drenched in tears. Sometimes sitting in HARD belly laughter. And this is after a full week of watching this footage already. Lee is just PURE magic and I am so grateful we have so many amazing memories caught on film ✨. Sending everyone out there lots of love as we all collectively grieve the loss of the most beautiful person.
I adore you guys so much and I am so sorry for your loss. She truly was magic and I hope you guys feel that you can carry on her magic, by sharing about her, by being that for other people and however you think Lee would want you to. you are wonderful people and I’m sending so much love your way 💙💙💙💙 thank you for all that you do.
This is a famous quote by Lao Tzu, which goes a little bit further. If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present. ~Lao Tzu
She seemed to live so present that it doesn't make sense. Which is the whole point of a mental illness . This was a wonderful tribute , you did good by your friend❤
Such a complicated situation explained so simple with myself having both it like sparked a light of trying to describe how it feels to me when I have had no words to explain it, thank you Lee! You are beautiful inside as much as u are on the outside!! Its how u are in this lady life as you will be in the next!
I know how hard this was for you two to make and I know you don’t think you did a perfect job. But that was perfect. Lee would have absolutely loved that. And you definitely made the Polaroid wall. Love you 💛
The emotional and spiritual strength it took to record & edit this video is unbelievable. Thank you for putting it together for all of us & for Lee. It’s such a beautiful tribute for such a beautiful human. For those of us who only got to love Lee from afar, it’s so special to have some of our favorite moments with her all in one video ❤️ I’m sure we’re one of many who will be watching this video over and over again whenever we’re missing her or thinking of her, even though I can’t watch even a minute without crying. Thank you. Sending you both all the love we can muster. 🧡 #speakupforlee
Firstly condolences to your and Lee's family and friends I'm truly sorry, Lee's passing hit me in chest and shattered my heart into pieces,I didn't personally knew Lee but I'm still so shattered I'm not ready to watch or say goodbye if that makes sense I'll gather the courage one day I know. May her beautiful soul rest in eternal peace.❤🦄🕊
So true, this video is such a beautiful tribute and it makes me emotional everytime I watch a couple of minutes It took me 2 days to watch it until the end Can't imagine the loss, sending all the love and prayers to Eamon and Bec, Lee was also so fortunate of having you guys as friends and family ❤️❤️
Thank you so deeply for sharing this incredible tribute. The lessons for me in this tribute resonate within. I loved her energy just like I love you guys Eamon & Bec. What can we do? ... just keep loving 💜🧡💛
With so much talk of Lee lately on the pod cast etc., I wanted to come back and watch this again. I hope she knows how much she is missed and how much she is still loved.
As a Mental Health nurse, I hear sad stories of people's struggles almost on a daily basis. But for some reason, Lee's passing has REALLY hit me hard. I have only been following her journey (with Max) for about a year, but the tears & sense of loss are undeniable. She was such a beautiful, vivacious & energetic young woman who appeared to have the world at her feet. She will be so very sadly missed, & it is truly unfortunate she had no idea how many people (worldwide) she has touched! My heart breaks for all those ''in her world", & also for those of us who just loved the journey she took us on online. To Eamon & Bec: thank you for sharing this lovely tribute. It is so very obvious the beautiful & genuine love the three of you have for each other. Something you will always treasure no doubt. Be kind to yourselves & each other. Your online community is here to support you through these difficult times! xxx
My husband committed suicide 10 years ago..... it touches so many lives. Like dominos and they never had any idea how much if changes everything for everyone who loved them. And they never realized what a HUGE impact they made on everyone’s life they touched. Sending prayers for everyone she touched. Such a loss
I don't care that I'm a male at age 34 I haven't cried like this in so long. I loved Lee so much even though I never met her. I love you guys so much even though I've never met you. I'm in deep sobs over the loss of such an amazing spirit. I'm sorry I'm just so sorry
I lost my husband through suicide 9 years ago. The pain never vanishes but I see a lot of him in my children. Thanks for advocating for people with mental illness!!
Find some support , absorb yourself in s hobby. Do you have children? If so cherish that now ! Stay social and be happy that u were lucky to have loved and been with someone so long ! Take care . Random internet person
Terre, I agree, it's lonely because Everything we hear, touch, remember, eat, go, see, read, think, etc has a memory attached to ones we really loved and loved most of our lives. A hug for each day as you will begin to smile more again.
I know this was done 2 years ago, but it is still so real and full of life. You said it - Lee was too big for this world. She was so bright and full of life. I cried watching this, knowing that I have also suffered loss just like Lee's, and I can say that years ago I was personally there myself. There is always a place to go; you just have to seek it out. My heart goes out to you as you continue to feel the absence of Lee in your lives.
What a beautiful tribute. My partner attempted suicide this winter. I was the one that found him and stopped it. I was in total crisis mode for months. Numb and detached from my grief, just trying to help him get better. Lee's death hit me so hard after that and I found myself crying daily about her for over a week. Through grieving her death, I finally felt my grief from almost loosing my boyfriend. She is such a bright light and I hope her light keeps shining on through everyone that got to experience her magic. Sending you and everyone grieving such big hugs.
@@yellajosyulaprabhat we are, he was just hugging me as I was crying seeing all the likes on this comment. Its seasonal depression so he's much better now and better every day. Now I'm focusing on my healing from the winter and he's doing really good supporting me.
@@anksters thank you for the love! We are doing much better now. I'm in therapy to look at my codependent tendencies that got triggered this winter. He has seasonal depression so every day closer to summer he's getting better and better. We took a trip in my van to Florida this March and that sunshine boost really helped him get back to baseline. Seems flying south for the winter might be a medical necessity going forward, and we are pretty excited for what that will look like 💚
@@rebeccarose9471 I am trying to find a van for that reason. I am 53 and disabled. Since I can't work, it feels like I have no reason for living. I go to bed, get up sit on the couch, and then go back to bed. It feels like I am sitting here and life just goes by. It's been 11 yrs since I haven't been able to work and those years have just disappeared. In those years I lost my mom because of cancer and a year after that, I lost my brother to a virus because he wouldn't go to a Dr. And if I had helped somehow I could have saved both of them. And now the only one I have left from my own family, not including my kid's, my brother has colon cancer. Supposed to be stage 3. And in November, I lost 2 of my furbabys. 💔 I have always loved traveling and seeing whatever places I can see. So I hope and pray I can get a van soon so I can see the US before I die. I know if I got out of this house I would feel better. And it's something some people don't understand but it's so hard to leave the house to do anything. And I don't want to. I have no desire for anything. I don't leave my house except to go to the Dr. My son gets my groceries and pays my bill's for me. I appreciate my son doing it but he honestly doesn't understand depression. We talked about Lee and he doesn't get honest and real depression. I'm sorry for writing all this
My son commited suicide in 2008. I did not unerstand a lot of things that he may of been going through till I watch this and Lee's videos. So thank you for sharing this. I miss my son his name was Michael. Please if anyone is out there that feels no one cares they do reach out and talk to someone anyone. May God bless .
Sorry for your loss. My son was on drugs he tried to end his life three times he did survive. But mental illness is horrible. It's hard to tell people even the ones that love you so much. Rip Micheal 💔 with a mom like you get would always be loved. As a mom I know no matter where our kids are Heaven are Earth they know🙏 we love them. Hugs my friend
“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same” - Flavia Weedn
At 59 I have been managing my depression and anxiety since the age of 9. What I want so badly to impress on young people struggling to find their path thru the dark places in their minds is this; This too, shall pass. You will not always be consumed by these shadows. Things will, throughout your life, change and expand and contract. And heal. 27 is SO SO young. Looking back I remember the jump days when I thought I couldn't go on. Now? I can't even remember what made those days so bad. What I remember is reaching out with a call for help even when I was sure no one could help. Because I promised someone to not jump without calling first. I am so grateful to him for making me promise, and for catching me when I fell. Make yourself reach out before you jump. Save your own life.
My daughter, the love of my life, committed suicide 4 years ago! My life got destroyed with her departure! So I know how you guys feels! My daughter served in the military for 24 years and went deployed 5 times to Afghanistan and Irak, she saw many ugly things, and her mind was never the same and suffered PTSD! She retired from the military and didn’t complete a year when she was gone! My heart goes to Lee’s family! God give them comfort and peace! Same to you guys!
Sending you big hugs, Nelly ❤️ Your daughter must have been a beautiful strong soul to have carried all that she did. I’m sure she’s around you and bringing you comfort on the darkest days. Praying for your heart to be comforted ❤️
Fellow lifelong sufferer of depression here. Because of my own struggles and “faking it til you make it” attitude, I saw through Lee’s posts and how hard she was struggling. While we should strive to always be there for people, we must remember that a person fighting mental illness ultimately has the last word on their survival. There is no blame to be had or guilt to be felt in Lee taking her life. She truly did shine bright and unfortunately burned out fast. Lee knew she was loved but didn’t feel worthy of it. I know because I walk this walk every day. At 68, I’ve fought depression most of my life. My strongest mantra has been “hang on because tomorrow may be the best day of my life.” My heart breaks for all who are fighting the fight. You are in my prayers. 😎✌️🤙🤘😎
Most of us never met Lee but we all felt we knew her. I still struggle to believe she's gone and her smile will be no more. What an awful illness depression is.
In 2006 I killed myself, but thanks to a random friend walking along a trail in a forest where I poisoned myself, they were able to bring me back to life. I am meant to be here, and though I suffer from Chronic pain, PTSD and bipolar depression, my body is broken, but my spirit will not let me give up again. I was spared so I could be there for someone else, and Lee fought that same fight. Sorry for you guys and your loss. 🧡 #speakupforlee
Unfortunately, for people with treatment resistant depression it does not matter how many people love you, or will miss you. Suicide is about stopping the pain being experienced. If someone around you takes their own life, do not take it personally or worry you could have done more. Don't do that to yourself. It is a disease most people cannot understand and it is real.
@@designstudio8013 The suffering of chronic depression is unusual. It is extreme pain, not average levels of pain, that one cannot get out of. And it is not about not being able to handle life - it is a literal disease, the way cancer is a disease. You can be healthy and then one day, you are not.
However, while many people who commit suicide had symptoms of a mental condition, it is important to note that most people with symptoms of mental disorders do not commit suicide.
How can someone who looks so happy, be hiding so much. This is such a sad reality for those affected by this cruel illness. To all those out there who suffer in silence, please make yourself heard, don't be afraid to speak up, there's always someone who will listen. RIP Lee
Because you hide behind the smiles & laughter. Trust me, I know. You can appear to be happy,with not a worry in the world, but being the mask is a whole world of pain! ☹️
I’m 30 seconds in and crying already. My best friend passed away 6 months ago to Suicide in front of me and it is HARD. You are loved and not alone. I’m sending my good Energy and vibes for healing at this hard time.
So sorry for your loss, sending love to you and the friend that you lost ❤️ I have lost friends to suicide, but can’t imagine how unbelievably hard it must have been to witness it first hand. Hope you are doing well ❤️
I’ve never been touched by a group of people like I have been by you, Trent, Allie and Lee. I was heartbroken to hear of Lee’s passing and wish all of her loved ones peace 💛
You know when you watch someone on UA-cam and think to yourself “oh I know we would be great friends” that’s how I felt about Lee! Lee was so caring, joyful and she lived life like it should be lived. I’m sorry Lee’s not with you anymore, she will be forever missed.
Hey Bec. I’m not even sure if you will read this but I just wanted to personally reach out to you and I wish I could give you the biggest hug. I know you and Eamon are grieving for Lee and i am so so sorry. I know I have not actually met her but with following Max and her for years I felt in a way that I knew her in a way. I am so sorry and Lee had the best impact on us all and I hope you can read this message and it bring you even the smallest smile on your face. Lots of hugs and I hope you have a good rest of your day. 🥰🥰
Beautifully said. I have cried more than I thought I could for someone I never knew. I will miss her personality and her journey 💔😘 Sending love and hope to all who struggle with mental and physical diseases #speakupforlee
I could barely watch this. Hearing how she felt, and what she went through, knowing that you guys were actually friends with her, knowing how difficult the struggle with depression and anxiety can be, and how thin the veil is between this world and the next, it's all overwhelming. I wish things could have been different, but this is where we are. The world can be a difficult place. RIP Lee.
I've just spoken to my Dr about getting some support. I have been struggling for a while trying to hide behind work etc but no more. Time for help! For me for Lee, for everyone!!! She really was so beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing your lives with us x see you Sunday #SpeakUpForLee .
I'm glad you are seeking help. There has not been a single person that could not have benefitted at some point in the past few years from a good support system. Sending you love.
I just found you. I heard about Lee and that led me to you. Our 24 year old granddaughter died from a drug overdose in 2020. I have struggled with huge depression and anxiety since her death. Her name was Rebecca and she was our only grandchild. My husband and dogs have kept me sane these last two years. I’m watching you go thru IVF and chemo and I’m feeling so much love and so much hope and so much absolute certainty that I was supposed to find your channel tonite. My little Morkie who sleeps next to me every night and keeps me going because I am his mom……his name is Bear. Please know that I am strengthened by you and am sending you all the love I can possibly send. ❤️💫🐶💫❤️
I lost my son the same way four years ago . . . I am locked in an echo chamber crying out and no one can hear me. Lee was a bright light. I really love her. She was so alive and so bright. I will remember her always. Be with the Lord our special Angel. Amen 🙏🙏🙏
Bless you Fraser's girl. My deepest sympathies about your dear granddaughter. I am a bereaved mom and although our death was different, I certainly know the pain. Are you connected with any support groups? There is an international one called The Compassionate Friends. There are chapters all over and it's free. This is primarily for parents of the child, but some chapters welcome grandparents in too. Or have a special group for grandparents and one for siblings. Here in Canada we have Mom'sStopTheHarm which also provides support and advocacy specifically for deaths from the opiod crisis. They even have a "Holding hope" group for families who have not lost their kids but fear they may at any time. I am glad you have your husband and dogs. It is a hard journey and you are still in the early stages. We never get over our grief, but the horrific pain does ease over time and we do learn to survive and even have normalish days although we are changed forever. Some people even thrive. Often doing work in their child's honour. Our kids give us permission to feel ok even as we love and miss them sooo much. Best of luck to you and Fraser. ❤
If you’re reading this know that you are loved. Know that your life is so incredibly valuable. Know that there is help out there. Know that it does get better!
I just learned of Lee the other day. Max was talking about how therapy is helping with his mental health struggles, that he noticed more and more with the loss of Lee, so I had to look her up. Today your tribute to her came up. What a wonderful human she was. My heart goes out to all of you that knew her. I hope she found her peace. ❤️
What a beautiful tribute. Lost my 25yr young daughter by suicide. The pain is horrific. Kaitlyn was happy on the outside. She hid it well. Pls reach out if you are in pain. Her death was instant but mine is every day. Love one another listen closer and hug tighter. Much love to you all
Hi Ruth, first let me say how truly sorry I am for your loss. No parent should ever have to bury their child. I can’t even begin to know the kind of pain that must cause you. I pray that God grants you the strength you need to endure. Last July 21st my best friend’s 28 yr young daughter took her life due to drug addiction and depression. A few days later, when I was talking with her on the phone, I mentioned to her that I had shared her daughter’s passing with a mutual friend and was passing on the friend’s condolences. My friend became extremely upset with me and has not and will not speak with me since. I have been in so much pain and miss her and our friendship to a depth I cannot describe. Also, her daughter was the daughter I never had. We were very close as well and I miss her so much. It’s like I lost them both. I know you and I are complete strangers, but I was hoping that maybe you could some how help me to understand my friend’s anger with me. Many times I feel like trying to reach out to her but I don’t because I fear hearing her anger or disappointment with me. I would sincerely appreciate any insight you may provide. I would totally understand if this request is too difficult for you and you do not wish to respond. Blessings to you always. Pat🥰
I’m so sorry for the loss of your daughter. I can’t imagine the pain you must feel. I don’t know you at all but please know even through the Internet I’m sending you much love and strong hugs. Hang in there Mama. 🥰 same to you Bec and Eamon. ♥️
Thinking of you Ben and Leah as you mourn this loss too! Glad you’re taking the time you need for yourselves. We never truly heal from our losses but we grow as we realize all that we gained from knowing those who have brought so much to our lives. Bless you!
My deepest condolences. I’m in my 50s now, and most of my life I’ve danced with that thought of suicide or just having a death wish. It’s left me with a history of substance abuse to self medicate. I had trouble with the initial lock down of Covid As I live on a farm by myself. I want you to know, your videos, including those with Lee, mean a lot to me and helped me through some darker times. Thank you
I cried for 19 minutes with you guys. As someone that deals with depression and understanding that the darkness can grip you at the unlikeliest times and take you to bad places, losing Lee hit me really hard and close to home. I fear for those close to me that they may have to deal with the dark possibilities one day. Ive thought about Lee so much over the last month and just keep crying.
U are wanted u are loved u are needed (I tell my kids this all the time) the same goes for you...reach out to someone no matter what time of day/even if you know they're busy....let them know you need them...I've done this so many times this past month (by the way using my partners phone lol had to watch this video before my phone was charged)..woke him up at 3am last Wednesday cause I couldn't sleep & wasn't doing good we just sat & talked about random stuff...insignificant stuff but I felt better and less trapped inside my head....talk talk talk ....get it out and don't ever think you're alone in this ....find something or someone that helps YOU everyone deals with things differently ....I wish u all the best in your BRIGHT BEAUTIFUL future on this big ball we call earth...
TRUST ME WHEN I TELL YOU... YOU ARE LOVED AND WANTED. Please dont make your family feel this pain that we all are dealing with right now. Reach out to anyone, and if you don’t have someone right there I’m here if u just need someone to listen. Please Take care of yourself!😘
Lee was one of the people that made me realize it's okay to talk about my mental illnesses and not to keep it inside. Thank you for making such a fitting tribute.
Always find someone you trust and talk to. Its extremely hard to keep everything to yourself I'm still having that habit till the point where sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating and my heart is about to explode but I just calm myself
When I heard Lee had passed away, I was filled with such sadness. My heart goes out to her family, friends and all those that love her. May she rest in peace.
This is just beautiful. I lost two friends at uni to suicide and have experienced anxiety attacks lately. A very brave and important post. Stay strong. Talk often. You don’t need to meet a person to know them. Just reach out here. This community is incredible. Thank you Eamon & Bec for introducing me to all the #vanlifers xx
@rose Bleue just negative physical health related life experiences thru no ones fault. We can’t control our physical health but we can ask for help with our mental health.
Lee's death has impacted me so heavily. I just hope she knew how much she meant to so many people. Even though I've never met her, she brought so much light to my life. I wish I could have told her that.
Sending you peace and love. I've struggled with this myself. I never met Lee, but we exchanged a few moments via her social media posts. I'm immensely grateful that I had the opportunity to tell her how much she inspired me, and since she replied to the comment, I know she read it. I think she knew that she brought us joy, and on some level, her community brought her joy. Mental illness is a horrible thing.
I didn’t want it to end.. Literally saved this video for hours. Took it outside in a misting rain, sat in a rocking chair and watched and cried! I looked up exactly as it was ending, the sun burst out, and the birds started singing!! She is here, and she doesn’t want anybody to be sad! Sounds so dumb but really felt it!! So much love to you both and Lee’s family and all her friends!!❤️
@@eamonandbec I just started following you guys and got to this episode about Lee. The sadness I felt when I saw this is unbearable. I too have major depression and know the feelings all too well that beautiful Lee suffered from. What a gift you two were to share so many beautiful happy memories with her. Everyone needs a Lee in their lives, and every Lee needs a Eamon & Bec. I'm positive you guys made her life worth living for even when she thought she couldn't go another day. People with depression want so bad to stop the hurting when their having a episode. I pray for all the people who have to endure that feeling over and over. I pray they will have someone who can bring a smile to their face and let them know they're loved. I have my depression under control with medication, and hope anyone who is suffering will reach out for help because it can make a difference and bring light where there is darkness. Keep her alive every day :)
In a few weeks it will be 2 years since i lost my best friend to suicide. Just like lee, she was the literally the brightest light you could ever possibly meet, her kindness and the connections she shared with others was unlike anything i’ve ever known. I try every day to carry on Liv’s legacy and i so much commend you so much for doing the same. ❤️ sending you so much love
What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful soul! That’s it though... we are all souls trapped inside a limiting physical form until we are released into the universe - Lee is still very much with you, just in a different form. You will feel her at bizarre times - just that feeling you get of her strong presence. Know that she is there, still wanting you to embrace life and laugh and smile. It takes time and I’m not going to lie and say that you will “heal” (I say it becomes more your new normal, and as you focus on remembering the laughter and great times you shared, it somehow becomes a little less like a sharp pain and you are able to really feel joy again). I lost my beautiful nephew when he took his own life due to drugs and mental illness. I fight the battle against mental illness with my daughter everyday. Like Lee she is a star that shines brightly. I will always remember Lee laughing. She was so special! I join you in your courageous battle against the stigma of mental illness! I will light a candle tonight for Lee and toast her brief but magnificent life! May your beautiful light shine on Lee and help illuminate the way for others who are fighting this battle, and may we all learn the signs and reach out a loving hand to help those who are trapped in the misery of mental illness. Be kind and spread love - I think that would be what she wanted us to do!
I lost one of my friends to suicide a couple of years ago and I still cry about him often. Please remember that if you feel like nobody would care if you chose to leave this world that, that is the furthest thing from the truth. The people around you will not go a single day without thinking about you. The absence of your presence will bring them to their knees in grief at different times all throughout their life. They will constantly think about how old you’d be and what you’d be doing with your life if you’d have stayed. Please know that you’re so SO incredibly loved even when people forget to express that to you. Check on your friends and remind them of their worth often. Remind them they’re not alone. That they don’t have to fight it on their own.
This video is an act of bravery, strength, empathy, and immense love. We love you so much. We are shattered with and for you both. Thank you for being our strength as much as your own. This video is filled with Lee’s spirit, in you and in the community you all built, I think, too. Sending you love xx.
I know this was difficult for you both to film as you continue to process the loss of your irreplaceable friend, confidante, guide and more. SO many of us who never met Lee in person felt the pull of her incredible personality through our screens, and we have also felt the weight of her loss. We miss her and love and support you through this difficult time and beyond.
Eamon and Bec, I’m so sorry for your loss. All of your follows know how special Lee was to both of you and she made people who didn’t even know her happy. She was such a bright spark. Thank you for making this video to remind people that ANYONE can suffer with mental health issues.
Lee explained in one sentence what it is like (at least for me) to suffer with depression and anxiety. Depression keeps you stuck in the past and anxiety makes it impossible to be completely present in the moment. She is truly an inspiration. I’m so so very sorry for the loss of your dear friend. Rip sweet Lee🙏💜🙏
I know the pain you are feeling. My mom and dad took their own lives together. I died inside that day, as they were also my best friends and the most unconditionally loving people I've ever known. It was 6 years this last March and I didn't bounce back from my anxiety, depression and grief until four years afterwards. My heart goes out to you both and you are in my prayers!! 💔❤🥰🙏
This is so heavy and surreal. It’s hard losing someone, but harder knowing they took their lives in their own hands. I know this is a difficult time, and my words fall short. I pray everyone who knew Lee finds comfort for their tragic loss and relishes in her memories. God bless you all.
From the first time I saw her on Max & Lee through her travels with you guys in Morocco to seeing her start her own channel I always found her to be so endearing, honest and true. Her death was so hard to hear but I can't imagine how hard it was on you and the people closest to her. My deepest condolences to her friends, family and fans.
Lee's passing struck me so hard....she had everything going for her and the fact she could not shake the depression, just shows how dangerous depression is. We all have to be more kind to all we meet (even if someone deserves a lashing, please refrain, as nasty ppl are probably depressed and not all ppl hide it as well as Lee did). We all have a responsibility to either promote positive energy or negative, and hopefully we choose positive 💗
Kindness is easy once you fully accept that no one “deserves” a lashing. At the very least, you or I are not responsible for deciding what anyone else deserves. So the simple path of kindness to all is the path to ease and grace in our own lives. Thanks for promoting kindness!
My dad took his own life when I was 11, no one in my family addressed it or talked to me about it. I had to hear about it from bullies at school. This helped, I'm so sorry for your loss.
My dad chose the same when I was nine. He was 35. He seemed so old to me then, but now my oldest child is 35. Since 2009 three other family members chose the same. :( My son, my sister, and her daughter. But, I try to awake and see A New Day and to be mindful of all the beauty around me.
A month? I STILL cannot stop crying. Will it ever stop hurting? She left such a giant hole in the world. AND i never even MET her in real life. Seems impossible. I spent every weekend with her all over the world.
To anyone who is reading this, you matter and you are loved by so many people including me. I wish suicide/mental health was talked about more then it is. Lee is amazing and her spirt will always be here. I lost my second dad to it a year ago. Eamon and Bec you guys are so strong and so amazing we are all always here for you❤️❤️
10 years ago next month, my dear friend took her life and I found her. I honestly don't think she knew the depth and breadth of the effect her loss would have on friends and family. I don't think when someone takes their life that they are thinking of anything but ending that pain in that moment. My heart is with you both and I am sending mountains of love. Thank you for sharing these beautiful memories. Lee, we are standing up for you and we will keep speaking up for mental health awareness. ❤️
"Sister, pain is part of life. By accepting it, its intensity is reduced. Do not resist it. Resistance to pain brings tension and anxiety, anxiety leads to fear. Fear of pain is worse than pain itself. This pain will pass."
The one thing that was irreplaceable was her. You never know what's going on behind the smile. Most people want you to be "okay" so they take that answer. I'm glad that you touched her life and she touched you. Although the illness got to her, she knew she was loved by you.
I have never met Lee. I actually barely knew who she was until she passed. I learned of her through Sophie. Something struck a cord inside me. I see so much of myself in Lee. All these weird little coincidences. For me, my deep depressions come and go. I feel like I am constantly fighting this battle. I haven't done everything I need to for myself and Lee has inspired me to take the steps that I need to. To find community and safety, to consider next steps in my mental health from a medical standpoint, start seeing a counselor again. Because on the days I feel better I need to start better planning for the days I don't. What I am trying to say here is I have no clue why I found Lee, but this incredible person I don't know has changed my life for the better. Typing this out now it sounds weird, but life is weird and sometimes people just impact you in ways you cannot explain. Words don't seem to do her energy and presence justice. I can't imagine the grief for people who knew her. I am so so sorry for your loss Eamon and Bec. And holy hell Lee is one powerful woman. And now she is also an angel. Rest in peace Lee. I know you are now. Thank you for the lessons you have given us all. They will never be forgotten.
@@eamonandbec Bec, it takes a woman who is pure magic to see that same magic in other women. You are truly incredible. Thank you for your kind words. Sending love 🤍💛
My heart breaks for you. Our 29 year old son suffers from bipolar disorder (for Ben it manifests itself mostly in depression). The most profound thing he ever said to me is, "Mom you have no idea how hard it is to fight your mind every day". Sending love and prayers!❤
I only found out about this over two years after but it doesn't make it any easier. Honestly im glad i didn't know with the timing of losing my wife to cancer and later losing a girlfriend who i loved too. Ugh..... she was so beautiful and such a good person its tough. On happier notes i cried huge tears of joy when watching your cancer free diagnosis.
Today is the ninth anniversary of the suicide of my soulmate of fourteen years, which happened while he was stationed far away for work. My own life-long struggle with depression is underscored daily by the intimate knowledge of how unfathomable a suicide is, and how lasting the scars are to those left behind. Your tribute to Lee, whom I and most of us, only knew in viewing UA-cams, and your heart-felt commitment to mental health advocacy is just completely beautiful. The front of my shirt is soaked with tears, some shed in joy at the happy moments showcased, some in grief for the loss of such a bright star as you named Lee, some in pain from my experience, and from that experience, also shed in deepest sympathy for Lee's family, her friends and you both.
I understand your absence. Thank you for spending time paying tribute to Lee. She was so magic and I really enjoyed every time that she would visit you. I shed more than a few tears watching this episode. Your friend Lelan.
Never be ashamed to ask for help. I had a nervous breakdown when I was a teenager and it taught me to never look down on people with mental health issues.
"Grief is love's souvenir." Just as you two were lucky to have her, Lee was lucky to have you both. She knew that! By keeping her with you and keeping mental health as a priority, you're allowing Lee's story to spread and no matter how sad it is, its a story worth sharing. ❤
Lee has left the most permanent impression on the VanLife community and all the people she met. She will be missed greatly. Your grief and loss will be painful but you will always have your beautiful thoughts and memories to keep her spirit and message alive. #speakupforlee 🇨🇦🚐💫🥰
Its a beautiful tribute to Lee. And a good ‘new start’ of filming again after Lee’s passing. Keep taking time for yourselves to grief. We love you and we all carry Lee in our hearts.
Was thinking about Lee the other day and how much she’d love to be here right now. To see Bec’s brave cancer journey, and the new little baby 🥹♥️ She would have been a good aunt.
Yes i believe so too. It is so hard nowadays for empaths as they are absorbing all kinds of emotions everywhere especially this pandemic were almost all people are kinda depressed. If everyone is counting on you to be there for them and no other you can turn to when it is now you who is experiencing it. You will feel overwhelmed and helpless.
i was so sad when i heard of lee’s passing. lee was role-model for anyone going through it. ending your life doesn’t end pain it passes it to someone else. if u knew lee personally my heart goes out to you and everyone she touched. may lee rest in peace knowing she left a mark on so many souls 🤍🤍
my brother took his life when i was 5, losing someone to suicide who you're so close with is such a painful thing, and nothing can put it into words. when my brother passed my mom wrote "they say time heals all wounds. who are 'they' anyways? they didnt know jason. they didnt know us."
Never laughed and cried so much in one video. What a beautiful tribute you guys. I feel like I know her and am inspired to be more like her. Thank you for sharing this because i know how hard it must have been. Y'all are simply the best.
Kara....you are just like her, and that is probably the highest compliment I could pay someone.
@@cherylbartow5311 Yes. Kara Bec and Lee are some of the best people on van life youtube!
rip Lee
Ditto. Very nice Tribute to an awesome person.
Hi,
you and Nate led me to this. Hard to say much more without choking up. I do love you guys, and now Eamon & Bec - even though I have but a vicarious life left it seems which is watching you guys... but thanks for sharing your experiences, and the chance to see this... damn, I really do love all of you kids... which you are to me. If you come into the Bay Area, or Santa Cruz area, please keep me on your list to notify. I'd love to hear you guys talk about your adventures in person somewhere... or as it is usual, by youtube posts. Anyway, I just did not think this would be so hard. I have two children near her age (older & maybe nearly younger) - it just made me think a lot. I think I'm done posting here now. Sorry for the long post.
I've been sat here all day thinking that I should maybe get up and clean the cabin or go for a walk or get out in nature to connect with Lee but I cannot stop replaying 13:20 onwards. It's on a loop and I'm lying in my bed. Sometimes drenched in tears. Sometimes sitting in HARD belly laughter. And this is after a full week of watching this footage already. Lee is just PURE magic and I am so grateful we have so many amazing memories caught on film ✨. Sending everyone out there lots of love as we all collectively grieve the loss of the most beautiful person.
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Love to you all x
I adore you guys so much and I am so sorry for your loss. She truly was magic and I hope you guys feel that you can carry on her magic, by sharing about her, by being that for other people and however you think Lee would want you to. you are wonderful people and I’m sending so much love your way 💙💙💙💙 thank you for all that you do.
💙 my heart hurts for her, for you, for all around the globe who she graced with her bright light. I can’t believe she’s gone 😢
I didn't realize it could hurt so much to lose someone you never met...
That is the true definition of compassion. You keep that.
I’m here watching this 3 years later after they posted their most recent video. And now I’m crying for Lee!
Nico ❤❤🥰
@@bluemango12I feel exactly the same way. What an incredible beautiful spirit she is and I’m feeling her energy through the screen. #speakupforlee
Why am i crying so much! 😢
Depression is being stuck in the past, anxiety is being stuck in the future.
- Lee
This girl just explained the most complicated thing in simple words
This is a famous quote by Lao Tzu, which goes a little bit further.
If you are depressed you are living in the past.
If you are anxious you are living in the future.
If you are at peace you are living in the present.
~Lao Tzu
She seemed to live so present that it doesn't make sense. Which is the whole point of a mental illness . This was a wonderful tribute , you did good by your friend❤
Such a complicated situation explained so simple with myself having both it like sparked a light of trying to describe how it feels to me when I have had no words to explain it, thank you Lee! You are beautiful inside as much as u are on the outside!! Its how u are in this lady life as you will be in the next!
Depression is NOT easy. It's VERY dangerous. I know I have had it my entire adult life. Seek professional help!
This is exactly what I needed to hear. Your right, these are amazing words.
I know how hard this was for you two to make and I know you don’t think you did a perfect job. But that was perfect. Lee would have absolutely loved that. And you definitely made the Polaroid wall.
Love you 💛
I hope you are doing well Max!! 🙏 Be strong,. It was you and Lee and Occy that introduced me to Eamon and Bec. My prayers are with you ❣️
So perfect 💗
Prayers to you Max!
Prayers to you Max. My heart goes out to you as well. 💜
Very sweet of you to continue loving on E & B. Prayers for you all.
Without ever meeting Lee in real life you can see how beautiful she is inside and out. I see that same light in you two.
I agree wholeheartedly ❤
The emotional and spiritual strength it took to record & edit this video is unbelievable. Thank you for putting it together for all of us & for Lee. It’s such a beautiful tribute for such a beautiful human. For those of us who only got to love Lee from afar, it’s so special to have some of our favorite moments with her all in one video ❤️ I’m sure we’re one of many who will be watching this video over and over again whenever we’re missing her or thinking of her, even though I can’t watch even a minute without crying. Thank you. Sending you both all the love we can muster. 🧡 #speakupforlee
Firstly condolences to your and Lee's family and friends I'm truly sorry, Lee's passing hit me in chest and shattered my heart into pieces,I didn't personally knew Lee but I'm still so shattered I'm not ready to watch or say goodbye if that makes sense I'll gather the courage one day I know. May her beautiful soul rest in eternal peace.❤🦄🕊
So true, this video is such a beautiful tribute and it makes me emotional everytime I watch a couple of minutes
It took me 2 days to watch it until the end
Can't imagine the loss, sending all the love and prayers to Eamon and Bec, Lee was also so fortunate of having you guys as friends and family ❤️❤️
Thank you so deeply for sharing this incredible tribute. The lessons for me in this tribute resonate within. I loved her energy just like I love you guys Eamon & Bec. What can we do? ... just keep loving
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Perfectly said.
So true. Thank you for saying this so well. ❤
With so much talk of Lee lately on the pod cast etc., I wanted to come back and watch this again. I hope she knows how much she is missed and how much she is still loved.
As a Mental Health nurse, I hear sad stories of people's struggles almost on a daily basis. But for some reason, Lee's passing has REALLY hit me hard. I have only been following her journey (with Max) for about a year, but the tears & sense of loss are undeniable. She was such a beautiful, vivacious & energetic young woman who appeared to have the world at her feet. She will be so very sadly missed, & it is truly unfortunate she had no idea how many people (worldwide) she has touched! My heart breaks for all those ''in her world", & also for those of us who just loved the journey she took us on online.
To Eamon & Bec: thank you for sharing this lovely tribute. It is so very obvious the beautiful & genuine love the three of you have for each other. Something you will always treasure no doubt. Be kind to yourselves & each other. Your online community is here to support you through these difficult times! xxx
KandA-so well put-I feel the same!
I could not have said it as well as you have KandA. Thank you for your kind words.🙏
Yes. KandA so beautifully said.
My husband committed suicide 10 years ago..... it touches so many lives. Like dominos and they never had any idea how much if changes everything for everyone who loved them. And they never realized what a HUGE impact they made on everyone’s life they touched. Sending prayers for everyone she touched. Such a loss
Sending all my love
So sorry for your loss.... Sending al my love to you and your family❤️
Thank you E and B, she was a bright star ❤️🙏🏼
So sorry for your loss.
Sorry for your loss! ❤️❤️
I don't care that I'm a male at age 34 I haven't cried like this in so long. I loved Lee so much even though I never met her. I love you guys so much even though I've never met you. I'm in deep sobs over the loss of such an amazing spirit. I'm sorry I'm just so sorry
Hugs my friend ❤️
I’ll take you beard
Im 35 so i know what you mean i watched lee so funny free amazing person
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The people with the brightest
Eyes hold the deepest secrets
Maybe you guys should make a line of “Lee You Sunday” merch and donate the proceeds to a mental health initiative. Much love and big hugs to all.
beautiful idea
Or #speakupforlee 😊
I love this!!!
wow that’s a really great idea
Such a good idea. I would def purchase one!
I lost my husband through suicide 9 years ago. The pain never vanishes but I see a lot of him in my children. Thanks for advocating for people with mental illness!!
so very sorry for your loss. My son died thirteen years ago, age 27, lost his battle with mental illness. sending hugs.
So very sorry for your loss. Sending all my love.
Sending all my love to all of u ❤️
I lost my brother to suicide. I’m so sorry to hear about your husband. Sending you love ❤️
Many hugs to you and the kids❤️❤️❤️
I lost my wife of 40 years and I’m so lonely. Grief is the price we pay for loving someone. Thanks for all you do.
Sorry for your Loss Terre, just know that you are not alone. I am sure treasuring the amazing memories you have of her will be with you forever.
Find some support , absorb yourself in s hobby. Do you have children? If so cherish that now ! Stay social and be happy that u were lucky to have loved and been with someone so long ! Take care . Random internet person
Sorry for your loss x
I'm sorry for your loss, I hope over time you can find a way to feel less lonely!
Terre, I agree, it's lonely because Everything we hear, touch, remember, eat, go, see, read, think, etc has a memory attached to ones we really loved and loved most of our lives. A hug for each day as you will begin to smile more again.
I know this was done 2 years ago, but it is still so real and full of life. You said it - Lee was too big for this world. She was so bright and full of life. I cried watching this, knowing that I have also suffered loss just like Lee's, and I can say that years ago I was personally there myself. There is always a place to go; you just have to seek it out. My heart goes out to you as you continue to feel the absence of Lee in your lives.
What a beautiful tribute. My partner attempted suicide this winter. I was the one that found him and stopped it. I was in total crisis mode for months. Numb and detached from my grief, just trying to help him get better. Lee's death hit me so hard after that and I found myself crying daily about her for over a week. Through grieving her death, I finally felt my grief from almost loosing my boyfriend. She is such a bright light and I hope her light keeps shining on through everyone that got to experience her magic. Sending you and everyone grieving such big hugs.
I hope you guys are doing good now❤️
Sending you love from the Netherlands, I hope you both and other close ones are healing and loving! Take care💛
@@yellajosyulaprabhat we are, he was just hugging me as I was crying seeing all the likes on this comment. Its seasonal depression so he's much better now and better every day. Now I'm focusing on my healing from the winter and he's doing really good supporting me.
@@anksters thank you for the love! We are doing much better now. I'm in therapy to look at my codependent tendencies that got triggered this winter. He has seasonal depression so every day closer to summer he's getting better and better. We took a trip in my van to Florida this March and that sunshine boost really helped him get back to baseline. Seems flying south for the winter might be a medical necessity going forward, and we are pretty excited for what that will look like 💚
@@rebeccarose9471 I am trying to find a van for that reason. I am 53 and disabled. Since I can't work, it feels like I have no reason for living. I go to bed, get up sit on the couch, and then go back to bed. It feels like I am sitting here and life just goes by. It's been 11 yrs since I haven't been able to work and those years have just disappeared. In those years I lost my mom because of cancer and a year after that, I lost my brother to a virus because he wouldn't go to a Dr. And if I had helped somehow I could have saved both of them. And now the only one I have left from my own family, not including my kid's, my brother has colon cancer. Supposed to be stage 3.
And in November, I lost 2 of my furbabys. 💔
I have always loved traveling and seeing whatever places I can see. So I hope and pray I can get a van soon so I can see the US before I die. I know if I got out of this house I would feel better. And it's something some people don't understand but it's so hard to leave the house to do anything. And I don't want to. I have no desire for anything. I don't leave my house except to go to the Dr. My son gets my groceries and pays my bill's for me. I appreciate my son doing it but he honestly doesn't understand depression. We talked about Lee and he doesn't get honest and real depression.
I'm sorry for writing all this
My son commited suicide in 2008. I did not unerstand a lot of things that he may of been going through till I watch this and Lee's videos. So thank you for sharing this. I miss my son his name was Michael. Please if anyone is out there that feels no one cares they do reach out and talk to someone anyone. May God bless .
Sorry for your loss. My son was on drugs he tried to end his life three times he did survive. But mental illness is horrible. It's hard to tell people even the ones that love you so much. Rip Micheal 💔 with a mom like you get would always be loved.
As a mom I know no matter where our kids are Heaven are Earth they know🙏 we love them. Hugs my friend
“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same”
- Flavia Weedn
Beautiful
Wow❤️
At 59 I have been managing my depression and anxiety since the age of 9. What I want so badly to impress on young people struggling to find their path thru the dark places in their minds is this; This too, shall pass. You will not always be consumed by these shadows. Things will, throughout your life, change and expand and contract. And heal. 27 is SO SO young. Looking back I remember the jump days when I thought I couldn't go on. Now? I can't even remember what made those days so bad. What I remember is reaching out with a call for help even when I was sure no one could help. Because I promised someone to not jump without calling first. I am so grateful to him for making me promise, and for catching me when I fell. Make yourself reach out before you jump. Save your own life.
My daughter, the love of my life, committed suicide 4 years ago! My life got destroyed with her departure! So I know how you guys feels! My daughter served in the military for 24 years and went deployed 5 times to Afghanistan and Irak, she saw many ugly things, and her mind was never the same and suffered PTSD! She retired from the military and didn’t complete a year when she was gone! My heart goes to Lee’s family! God give them comfort and peace! Same to you guys!
Nelly, my sympathies for your terrible loss. I do not know how one gets through the grief as a parent.
So very sorry for the loss of your daughter, Nelly. I can’t fathom the grief you must carry. I hope you have a good support system in place. ♥️
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Sending you big hugs, Nelly ❤️ Your daughter must have been a beautiful strong soul to have carried all that she did. I’m sure she’s around you and bringing you comfort on the darkest days. Praying for your heart to be comforted ❤️
Fellow lifelong sufferer of depression here. Because of my own struggles and “faking it til you make it” attitude, I saw through Lee’s posts and how hard she was struggling. While we should strive to always be there for people, we must remember that a person fighting mental illness ultimately has the last word on their survival. There is no blame to be had or guilt to be felt in Lee taking her life. She truly did shine bright and unfortunately burned out fast. Lee knew she was loved but didn’t feel worthy of it. I know because I walk this walk every day. At 68, I’ve fought depression most of my life. My strongest mantra has been “hang on because tomorrow may be the best day of my life.”
My heart breaks for all who are fighting the fight. You are in my prayers.
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Beautiful mantra.
Hang in there. I also suffer from depression and try foe beautiful moments, not even days.
@@carlagrodriguez2076 Me too, sending you love today to keep going my friend.
Most of us never met Lee but we all felt we knew her. I still struggle to believe she's gone and her smile will be no more. What an awful illness depression is.
Depression is not the same as mental illness. Although you can have depression when you have a mental illness.
CR well said!!! ❤❤❤❤
I don't think I've ever been as sad for someone's passing that I never met but a year or more of following the vlogs brought her into our lives.
In 2006 I killed myself, but thanks to a random friend walking along a trail in a forest where I poisoned myself, they were able to bring me back to life. I am meant to be here, and though I suffer from Chronic pain, PTSD and bipolar depression, my body is broken, but my spirit will not let me give up again. I was spared so I could be there for someone else, and Lee fought that same fight. Sorry for you guys and your loss. 🧡 #speakupforlee
glad you're still here.
Glad you are still here.
Glad you were found.
You matter.
You are worthy.
And I hope you are doing better.
Amen to your testimony, please continue to speak about your story. Much love ❤️
Rest In Peace Lee. Thank you for gracing us with you’re beautiful energy and presence. God got back one of its angels 🤍
@Tasnem Omr wtf
Couldn't have said it better❤
I’m so extremely sorry for your loss Eamon and Bec🤍 she was and forever will be a real life angel.
Unfortunately, for people with treatment resistant depression it does not matter how many people love you, or will miss you. Suicide is about stopping the pain being experienced. If someone around you takes their own life, do not take it personally or worry you could have done more. Don't do that to yourself. It is a disease most people cannot understand and it is real.
Very very true x
You are correct but it seems people can't handle life.And they are trapped in their own ego and think suffering is unusual.
@@designstudio8013 The suffering of chronic depression is unusual. It is extreme pain, not average levels of pain, that one cannot get out of. And it is not about not being able to handle life - it is a literal disease, the way cancer is a disease. You can be healthy and then one day, you are not.
However, while many people who commit suicide had symptoms of a mental condition, it is important to note that most people with symptoms of mental disorders do not commit suicide.
@@designstudio8013 Indeed. And additionally many people who commit suicide are not mentally ill at all. They simply hit tough circumstances.
How can someone who looks so happy, be hiding so much. This is such a sad reality for those affected by this cruel illness. To all those out there who suffer in silence, please make yourself heard, don't be afraid to speak up, there's always someone who will listen. RIP Lee
So, so sad.
That is the dichotomy of mental illness, the highs are high but the lows are so low.
Because you hide behind the smiles & laughter. Trust me, I know. You can appear to be happy,with not a worry in the world, but being the mask is a whole world of pain! ☹️
I’m 30 seconds in and crying already. My best friend passed away 6 months ago to Suicide in front of me and it is HARD. You are loved and not alone. I’m sending my good Energy and vibes for healing at this hard time.
very sorry for your loss
@@bethgolden8206 I am so so sorry for the loss of your best friend 💔
I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Breaks my heart.
So sorry for your loss, sending love to you and the friend that you lost ❤️ I have lost friends to suicide, but can’t imagine how unbelievably hard it must have been to witness it first hand. Hope you are doing well ❤️
I’ve never been touched by a group of people like I have been by you, Trent, Allie and Lee. I was heartbroken to hear of Lee’s passing and wish all of her loved ones peace 💛
You know when you watch someone on UA-cam and think to yourself “oh I know we would be great friends” that’s how I felt about Lee! Lee was so caring, joyful and she lived life like it should be lived. I’m sorry Lee’s not with you anymore, she will be forever missed.
“The brightest stars burn the quickest!”… So true.
Hey Bec. I’m not even sure if you will read this but I just wanted to personally reach out to you and I wish I could give you the biggest hug. I know you and Eamon are grieving for Lee and i am so so sorry. I know I have not actually met her but with following Max and her for years I felt in a way that I knew her in a way. I am so sorry and Lee had the best impact on us all and I hope you can read this message and it bring you even the smallest smile on your face. Lots of hugs and I hope you have a good rest of your day. 🥰🥰
Beautifully said. I have cried more than I thought I could for someone I never knew. I will miss her personality and her journey 💔😘 Sending love and hope to all who struggle with mental and physical diseases #speakupforlee
Beautiful sharing
@@maureenwynne8078 omg I did the same thing. It breaks my heart that anyone could be mean to anyone.
I could barely watch this. Hearing how she felt, and what she went through, knowing that you guys were actually friends with her, knowing how difficult the struggle with depression and anxiety can be, and how thin the veil is between this world and the next, it's all overwhelming. I wish things could have been different, but this is where we are. The world can be a difficult place. RIP Lee.
I've just spoken to my Dr about getting some support. I have been struggling for a while trying to hide behind work etc but no more. Time for help! For me for Lee, for everyone!!! She really was so beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing your lives with us x see you Sunday
#SpeakUpForLee .
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I'm glad you are seeking help. There has not been a single person that could not have benefitted at some point in the past few years from a good support system. Sending you love.
@@eamonandbec 💛💛
@@debbiecaudill8799 thank you 💛
Love to you!!💗💗💗💖💖💖
I just found you. I heard about Lee and that led me to you. Our 24 year old granddaughter died from a drug overdose in 2020. I have struggled with huge depression and anxiety since her death. Her name was Rebecca and she was our only grandchild. My husband and dogs have kept me sane these last two years. I’m watching you go thru IVF and chemo and I’m feeling so much love and so much hope and so much absolute certainty that I was supposed to find your channel tonite. My little Morkie who sleeps next to me every night and keeps me going because I am his mom……his name is Bear. Please know that I am strengthened by you and am sending you all the love I can possibly send. ❤️💫🐶💫❤️
I lost my son the same way four years ago . . . I am locked in an echo chamber crying out and no one can hear me. Lee was a bright light. I really love her. She was so alive and so bright. I will remember her always. Be with the Lord our special Angel. Amen 🙏🙏🙏
@@theKaufmanTapes I hear you. 💔💔💔
Bless you Fraser's girl. My deepest sympathies about your dear granddaughter. I am a bereaved mom and although our death was different, I certainly know the pain. Are you connected with any support groups? There is an international one called The Compassionate Friends. There are chapters all over and it's free. This is primarily for parents of the child, but some chapters welcome grandparents in too. Or have a special group for grandparents and one for siblings. Here in Canada we have Mom'sStopTheHarm which also provides support and advocacy specifically for deaths from the opiod crisis. They even have a "Holding hope" group for families who have not lost their kids but fear they may at any time. I am glad you have your husband and dogs. It is a hard journey and you are still in the early stages. We never get over our grief, but the horrific pain does ease over time and we do learn to survive and even have normalish days although we are changed forever. Some people even thrive. Often doing work in their child's honour. Our kids give us permission to feel ok even as we love and miss them sooo much. Best of luck to you and Fraser. ❤
Sending you love!!! ❤❤
If you’re reading this know that you are loved. Know that your life is so incredibly valuable. Know that there is help out there. Know that it does get better!
Emily Torres...I totally respect your comment. Yes folks reach out please x
Lee lived more of a life and was part of more lives, than most other people ever try to be. She'll always be a part of you all now
The intro is just so perfect. I’m sorry for your loss
I just learned of Lee the other day. Max was talking about how therapy is helping with his mental health struggles, that he noticed more and more with the loss of Lee, so I had to look her up. Today your tribute to her came up. What a wonderful human she was. My heart goes out to all of you that knew her. I hope she found her peace.
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What a beautiful tribute. Lost my 25yr young daughter by suicide. The pain is horrific. Kaitlyn was happy on the outside. She hid it well. Pls reach out if you are in pain. Her death was instant but mine is every day. Love one another listen closer and hug tighter. Much love to you all
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I’m so very sorry for your loss. Sending all my love.
Oh Ruth. I'm beaming love to you ❤️
Hi Ruth, first let me say how truly sorry I am for your loss. No parent should ever have to bury their child. I can’t even begin to know the kind of pain that must cause you. I pray that God grants you the strength you need to endure. Last July 21st my best friend’s 28 yr young daughter took her life due to drug addiction and depression. A few days later, when I was talking with her on the phone, I mentioned to her that I had shared her daughter’s passing with a mutual friend and was passing on the friend’s condolences. My friend became extremely upset with me and has not and will not speak with me since. I have been in so much pain and miss her and our friendship to a depth I cannot describe. Also, her daughter was the daughter I never had. We were very close as well and I miss her so much. It’s like I lost them both. I know you and I are complete strangers, but I was hoping that maybe you could some how help me to understand my friend’s anger with me. Many times I feel like trying to reach out to her but I don’t because I fear hearing her anger or disappointment with me. I would sincerely appreciate any insight you may provide. I would totally understand if this request is too difficult for you and you do not wish to respond. Blessings to you always. Pat🥰
I’m so sorry for the loss of your daughter. I can’t imagine the pain you must feel. I don’t know you at all but please know even through the Internet I’m sending you much love and strong hugs. Hang in there Mama. 🥰 same to you Bec and Eamon. ♥️
Another life gone too soon. Lee had such a wonderful personality
Still can’t believe it. 💔 Rest in peace beautiful Lee.
Nandji! Y’all take care too
I know that look. you can see it in her eyes :(
rest easy lee 🖤❤
Beautiful tribute guys.
Thank you for making it.
Lee, you always were and always be a lengend!
You guys were so special people to her and she felt that warm love that's why I'm sure she was so open and close to you guys,love you guys 🦋❤
Whr u b Ben? Hoping for a check in from you asap. 💗
Not exactly gonna be able to read your message now is she?
You silly thing!
Thinking of you Ben and Leah as you mourn this loss too! Glad you’re taking the time you need for yourselves. We never truly heal from our losses but we grow as we realize all that we gained from knowing those who have brought so much to our lives. Bless you!
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My deepest condolences. I’m in my 50s now, and most of my life I’ve danced with that thought of suicide or just having a death wish. It’s left me with a history of substance abuse to self medicate. I had trouble with the initial lock down of Covid As I live on a farm by myself. I want you to know, your videos, including those with Lee, mean a lot to me and helped me through some darker times. Thank you
I cried for 19 minutes with you guys. As someone that deals with depression and understanding that the darkness can grip you at the unlikeliest times and take you to bad places, losing Lee hit me really hard and close to home. I fear for those close to me that they may have to deal with the dark possibilities one day. Ive thought about Lee so much over the last month and just keep crying.
U are wanted u are loved u are needed (I tell my kids this all the time) the same goes for you...reach out to someone no matter what time of day/even if you know they're busy....let them know you need them...I've done this so many times this past month (by the way using my partners phone lol had to watch this video before my phone was charged)..woke him up at 3am last Wednesday cause I couldn't sleep & wasn't doing good we just sat & talked about random stuff...insignificant stuff but I felt better and less trapped inside my head....talk talk talk ....get it out and don't ever think you're alone in this ....find something or someone that helps YOU everyone deals with things differently ....I wish u all the best in your BRIGHT BEAUTIFUL future on this big ball we call earth...
Please seek help you are worth it. Sending you big hugs. Stay strong.
TRUST ME WHEN I TELL YOU... YOU ARE LOVED AND WANTED. Please dont make your family feel this pain that we all are dealing with right now. Reach out to anyone, and if you don’t have someone right there I’m here if u just need someone to listen. Please Take care of yourself!😘
Lee was one of the people that made me realize it's okay to talk about my mental illnesses and not to keep it inside. Thank you for making such a fitting tribute.
Always find someone you trust and talk to. Its extremely hard to keep everything to yourself I'm still having that habit till the point where sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating and my heart is about to explode but I just calm myself
When I heard Lee had passed away, I was filled with such sadness. My heart goes out to her family, friends and all those that love her. May she rest in peace.
This is just beautiful. I lost two friends at uni to suicide and have experienced anxiety attacks lately. A very brave and important post. Stay strong. Talk often. You don’t need to meet a person to know them. Just reach out here. This community is incredible. Thank you Eamon & Bec for introducing me to all the #vanlifers xx
Beautiful words Jennie, all my heart to you, Eamon, Bec, & Lee
@rose Bleue just negative physical health related life experiences thru no ones fault. We can’t control our physical health but we can ask for help with our mental health.
@@nomade1697 thank you. Much love. Always here with an ear 🥰
Sending love.
Lee's death has impacted me so heavily. I just hope she knew how much she meant to so many people. Even though I've never met her, she brought so much light to my life. I wish I could have told her that.
Sending you peace and love. I've struggled with this myself. I never met Lee, but we exchanged a few moments via her social media posts. I'm immensely grateful that I had the opportunity to tell her how much she inspired me, and since she replied to the comment, I know she read it. I think she knew that she brought us joy, and on some level, her community brought her joy. Mental illness is a horrible thing.
can't believe it's been 3 years.... I come back to this video so often.. what a heart wearming, soul wrenging tribute .. LOVE YOU LEE & B&A ❣
I didn’t want it to end.. Literally saved this video for hours. Took it outside in a misting rain, sat in a rocking chair and watched and cried! I looked up exactly as it was ending, the sun burst out, and the birds started singing!! She is here, and she doesn’t want anybody to be sad! Sounds so dumb but really felt it!! So much love to you both and Lee’s family and all her friends!!❤️
That doesn't sound dumb at all. Lee is with all of us in these very beautiful ways. I am just so glad you've been able to feel her too 💜
She has those powers of her spirit beyond her body form.
@@eamonandbec I just started following you guys and got to this episode about Lee. The sadness I felt when I saw this is unbearable. I too have major depression and know the feelings all too well that beautiful Lee suffered from. What a gift you two were to share so many beautiful happy memories with her. Everyone needs a Lee in their lives, and every Lee needs a Eamon & Bec. I'm positive you guys made her life worth living for even when she thought she couldn't go another day. People with depression want so bad to stop the hurting when their having a episode. I pray for all the people who have to endure that feeling over and over. I pray they will have someone who can bring a smile to their face and let them know they're loved. I have my depression under control with medication, and hope anyone who is suffering will reach out for help because it can make a difference and bring light where there is darkness. Keep her alive every day :)
In a few weeks it will be 2 years since i lost my best friend to suicide. Just like lee, she was the literally the brightest light you could ever possibly meet, her kindness and the connections she shared with others was unlike anything i’ve ever known. I try every day to carry on Liv’s legacy and i so much commend you so much for doing the same. ❤️ sending you so much love
What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful soul! That’s it though... we are all souls trapped inside a limiting physical form until we are released into the universe - Lee is still very much with you, just in a different form. You will feel her at bizarre times - just that feeling you get of her strong presence. Know that she is there, still wanting you to embrace life and laugh and smile. It takes time and I’m not going to lie and say that you will “heal” (I say it becomes more your new normal, and as you focus on remembering the laughter and great times you shared, it somehow becomes a little less like a sharp pain and you are able to really feel joy again). I lost my beautiful nephew when he took his own life due to drugs and mental illness. I fight the battle against mental illness with my daughter everyday. Like Lee she is a star that shines brightly. I will always remember Lee laughing. She was so special! I join you in your courageous battle against the stigma of mental illness! I will light a candle tonight for Lee and toast her brief but magnificent life! May your beautiful light shine on Lee and help illuminate the way for others who are fighting this battle, and may we all learn the signs and reach out a loving hand to help those who are trapped in the misery of mental illness. Be kind and spread love - I think that would be what she wanted us to do!
That was so beautifully said ❤️
It s been 9 months and I finally had the courage to watch this. Turns out I still wasn't ready. I will never be.
I understand you. ❤️ I'm still so shocked and sad about it to this day. Sending you hugs!
I lost one of my friends to suicide a couple of years ago and I still cry about him often.
Please remember that if you feel like nobody would care if you chose to leave this world that, that is the furthest thing from the truth. The people around you will not go a single day without thinking about you. The absence of your presence will bring them to their knees in grief at different times all throughout their life. They will constantly think about how old you’d be and what you’d be doing with your life if you’d have stayed. Please know that you’re so SO incredibly loved even when people forget to express that to you.
Check on your friends and remind them of their worth often. Remind them they’re not alone. That they don’t have to fight it on their own.
This video is an act of bravery, strength, empathy, and immense love. We love you so much. We are shattered with and for you both. Thank you for being our strength as much as your own. This video is filled with Lee’s spirit, in you and in the community you all built, I think, too. Sending you love xx.
This was very well said and I agree whole heartedly.
I know this was difficult for you both to film as you continue to process the loss of your irreplaceable friend, confidante, guide and more. SO many of us who never met Lee in person felt the pull of her incredible personality through our screens, and we have also felt the weight of her loss. We miss her and love and support you through this difficult time and beyond.
Beautifully said and I feel the same exact way!
COVID was exceptionally hard on single people with no family or loved one... Sorry for your loss! The world needs more Lees not less!
Eamon and Bec, I’m so sorry for your loss. All of your follows know how special Lee was to both of you and she made people who didn’t even know her happy. She was such a bright spark. Thank you for making this video to remind people that ANYONE can suffer with mental health issues.
Lee explained in one sentence what it is like (at least for me) to suffer with depression and anxiety. Depression keeps you stuck in the past and anxiety makes it impossible to be completely present in the moment. She is truly an inspiration. I’m so so very sorry for the loss of your dear friend. Rip sweet Lee🙏💜🙏
to the complete stranger who I will never meet in my life.. hey I love you! promise me you'll take care of yourself okay
Thanks! I will. You too stranger!!!!
Luv ya too David Ly. Doing my best. Stay happy, healthy and free.
I know the pain you are feeling. My mom and dad took their own lives together. I died inside that day, as they were also my best friends and the most unconditionally loving people I've ever known. It was 6 years this last March and I didn't bounce back from my anxiety, depression and grief until four years afterwards. My heart goes out to you both and you are in my prayers!! 💔❤🥰🙏
Sending you an immense amount of love ❤❤❤
Same. And lots of friends. Never stops being a devastating thing.
This is so heavy and surreal. It’s hard losing someone, but harder knowing they took their lives in their own hands. I know this is a difficult time, and my words fall short. I pray everyone who knew Lee finds comfort for their tragic loss and relishes in her memories. God bless you all.
She was literally an angel with a purpose send to us by someone bigger to change all our life’s and she did that 100%
From the first time I saw her on Max & Lee through her travels with you guys in Morocco to seeing her start her own channel I always found her to be so endearing, honest and true. Her death was so hard to hear but I can't imagine how hard it was on you and the people closest to her. My deepest condolences to her friends, family and fans.
Courage isn't always a roar, Sometimes its the little voice in the back of your head that says, I'll try again tomorrow
Lee's passing struck me so hard....she had everything going for her and the fact she could not shake the depression, just shows how dangerous depression is. We all have to be more kind to all we meet (even if someone deserves a lashing, please refrain, as nasty ppl are probably depressed and not all ppl hide it as well as Lee did). We all have a responsibility to either promote positive energy or negative, and hopefully we choose positive 💗
Kindness is easy once you fully accept that no one “deserves” a lashing. At the very least, you or I are not responsible for deciding what anyone else deserves. So the simple path of kindness to all is the path to ease and grace in our own lives. Thanks for promoting kindness!
I can't believe this.
My condolances to Lee's family and friends. May she rest in peace.
My dad took his own life when I was 11, no one in my family addressed it or talked to me about it. I had to hear about it from bullies at school. This helped, I'm so sorry for your loss.
Oh im so sorry🥺❤️
I’m so sorry and I hope you’re doing better ❤️
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Soo sorry. Please stay strong ♥️
My dad chose the same when I was nine. He was 35. He seemed so old to me then, but now my oldest child is 35.
Since 2009 three other family members chose the same. :(
My son, my sister, and her daughter.
But, I try to awake and see A New Day and to be mindful of all the beauty around me.
A month? I STILL cannot stop crying. Will it ever stop hurting? She left such a giant hole in the world. AND i never even MET her in real life. Seems impossible. I spent every weekend with her all over the world.
Ironically her Vids are in my YT feed daily!!
The funeral for my friend who took her own life is today. I needed this.
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Sorry for your loss
Be strong and face life headon.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss.
Sending you love and hugs ❤️💐
To anyone who is reading this, you matter and you are loved by so many people including me. I wish suicide/mental health was talked about more then it is. Lee is amazing and her spirt will always be here. I lost my second dad to it a year ago. Eamon and Bec you guys are so strong and so amazing we are all always here for you❤️❤️
I love u 2
I lost my best friend to suicide back in 2013 ... :( rest in peace laurence
10 years ago next month, my dear friend took her life and I found her. I honestly don't think she knew the depth and breadth of the effect her loss would have on friends and family. I don't think when someone takes their life that they are thinking of anything but ending that pain in that moment. My heart is with you both and I am sending mountains of love. Thank you for sharing these beautiful memories. Lee, we are standing up for you and we will keep speaking up for mental health awareness. ❤️
Lee would be so thankful that you've chosen to continue her fight in mental health advocacy.
Thank you for sharing your love for Lee with us. ❤️
"Please reach out and get help because you matter" - Bec. That is so true!
"Sister, pain is part of life. By accepting it, its intensity is reduced. Do not resist it. Resistance to pain brings tension and anxiety, anxiety leads to fear. Fear of pain is worse than pain itself. This pain will pass."
The one thing that was irreplaceable was her. You never know what's going on behind the smile. Most people want you to be "okay" so they take that answer. I'm glad that you touched her life and she touched you. Although the illness got to her, she knew she was loved by you.
I have never met Lee. I actually barely knew who she was until she passed. I learned of her through Sophie. Something struck a cord inside me. I see so much of myself in Lee. All these weird little coincidences. For me, my deep depressions come and go. I feel like I am constantly fighting this battle. I haven't done everything I need to for myself and Lee has inspired me to take the steps that I need to. To find community and safety, to consider next steps in my mental health from a medical standpoint, start seeing a counselor again. Because on the days I feel better I need to start better planning for the days I don't. What I am trying to say here is I have no clue why I found Lee, but this incredible person I don't know has changed my life for the better. Typing this out now it sounds weird, but life is weird and sometimes people just impact you in ways you cannot explain. Words don't seem to do her energy and presence justice. I can't imagine the grief for people who knew her. I am so so sorry for your loss Eamon and Bec. And holy hell Lee is one powerful woman. And now she is also an angel. Rest in peace Lee. I know you are now. Thank you for the lessons you have given us all. They will never be forgotten.
It doesn’t sound weird to me at all. It sounds like Lee. As I’ve said and will continue to say... she is pure magic 🌞🌻💛
If you havnt already explore pmdd and see if that is something you could be experiencing
@@eamonandbec Bec, it takes a woman who is pure magic to see that same magic in other women. You are truly incredible. Thank you for your kind words. Sending love 🤍💛
My heart breaks for you. Our 29 year old son suffers from bipolar disorder (for Ben it manifests itself mostly in depression). The most profound thing he ever said to me is, "Mom you have no idea how hard it is to fight your mind every day". Sending love and prayers!❤
I only found out about this over two years after but it doesn't make it any easier. Honestly im glad i didn't know with the timing of losing my wife to cancer and later losing a girlfriend who i loved too. Ugh..... she was so beautiful and such a good person its tough. On happier notes i cried huge tears of joy when watching your cancer free diagnosis.
Today is the ninth anniversary of the suicide of my soulmate of fourteen years, which happened while he was stationed far away for work. My own life-long struggle with depression is underscored daily by the intimate knowledge of how unfathomable a suicide is, and how lasting the scars are to those left behind. Your tribute to Lee, whom I and most of us, only knew in viewing UA-cams, and your heart-felt commitment to mental health advocacy is just completely beautiful. The front of my shirt is soaked with tears, some shed in joy at the happy moments showcased, some in grief for the loss of such a bright star as you named Lee, some in pain from my experience, and from that experience, also shed in deepest sympathy for Lee's family, her friends and you both.
I understand your absence. Thank you for spending time paying tribute to Lee. She was so magic and I really enjoyed every time that she would visit you. I shed more than a few tears watching this episode. Your friend Lelan.
Never be ashamed to ask for help. I had a nervous breakdown when I was a teenager and it taught me to never look down on people with mental health issues.
Rest in peace forever Lee she is so beautiful inside and out
"Grief is love's souvenir."
Just as you two were lucky to have her, Lee was lucky to have you both. She knew that! By keeping her with you and keeping mental health as a priority, you're allowing Lee's story to spread and no matter how sad it is, its a story worth sharing. ❤
Lee has left the most permanent impression on the VanLife community and all the people she met. She will be missed greatly. Your grief and loss will be painful but you will always have your beautiful thoughts and memories to keep her spirit and message alive. #speakupforlee 🇨🇦🚐💫🥰
Its a beautiful tribute to Lee. And a good ‘new start’ of filming again after Lee’s passing. Keep taking time for yourselves to grief. We love you and we all carry Lee in our hearts.
Was thinking about Lee the other day and how much she’d love to be here right now. To see Bec’s brave cancer journey, and the new little baby 🥹♥️ She would have been a good aunt.
She was an Empath, feeling everything is emotionally exhausting. Fly high beautiful soul.....
Yes i believe so too. It is so hard nowadays for empaths as they are absorbing all kinds of emotions everywhere especially this pandemic were almost all people are kinda depressed. If everyone is counting on you to be there for them and no other you can turn to when it is now you who is experiencing it. You will feel overwhelmed and helpless.
This hits so hard for me. I understand so much. Spread your beautiful wings Lee.
Why did she endanger all of this innocent people on the train then?
i was so sad when i heard of lee’s passing. lee was role-model for anyone going through it. ending your life doesn’t end pain it passes it to someone else. if u knew lee personally my heart goes out to you and everyone she touched. may lee rest in peace knowing she left a mark on so many souls 🤍🤍
I never met her in person but her death hit me so hard. I cried for days because she was a sister in the struggle. I grieve with you all.
She was so pretty...absolutely stunning
my brother took his life when i was 5, losing someone to suicide who you're so close with is such a painful thing, and nothing can put it into words. when my brother passed my mom wrote "they say time heals all wounds. who are 'they' anyways? they didnt know jason. they didnt know us."
💔💔💔 "Fearless-Lee, Confident-Lee, Friend-Lee, Special-Lee, Beautiful-Lee, Bright-Lee, Joyful-Lee, Thoughtful-Lee, Amazing-Lee"
That’s beautiful 💕
She was one of the real ones
Yeah. I know what you mean.
u here ... hope u r doing well ...
Real what?
@@designstudio8013 As opposed to....
It's always the good ones. 😢
Lee? She took her own life? Truly unbelievable.
God, why? She was such a wonderful person.
May She RIP.