I have a friend who has the exact same attitude but is lucky that his parents allow him to live at their house. He's not addicted to any drugs either. He just chooses not to work & walks around the city everyday. Basically he acts homeless but isn't.
When I lived in San Francisco you see that kind of street living everywhere. I had to step over human urine and feces on the sidewalk. And that was Market Street. I left San Francisco after a month because of this horrifying dose of a reality that shouldn’t be. This guy is pitiful but very candid! God bless him!
I think his answer was good. I don't care for the question and probably wouldn't be able to come up with happy memories. I'm not unhappy. I guess I just try to have a reasonably pleasant life.
My hat's off to you for interviewing poor souls like him. I've worked on Skid Row & have seen men & women who were destined to live die alone. It's not easy getting many to interact because they are socially isolated & considered invisible. Many viewers would be offended by the body odor, body & head lice. He's still a human being & you've treated him with dignity & respect. Great job!!
@@fruitZzed Two choice may look equal but they are not. One you have a guy whose parents were addicted while he was in the womb, neglected he chooses. The other you have someone with a normal situation, they choose. Having said that i know what u mean and kind of agree.
I remember when I felt like this. For the longest time when I was in active addiction I didn’t want to ever stop. My brain was so wired into addiction i believed I wanted and loved to live a life that was different to other peoples. Untill I started to envy the every day person. I got totally sick and tired of the lifestyle and have been in recovery since January 2022 and never going back. If you are reading this as struggling with addiction I promise you there is a fulfilling life waiting for you, I promise,
I like what you said, but you need to be humble. You haven’t been clean that long. When you have four years clean, maybe you can realize you’re actually gonna do this. Only take it one day at a time, my friend. We’re not promised tomorrow.
This video left me crying. I feel so bad he has had to endure such a hard life. No one should go through what he went through, but on top of that he seems like such a kind soul. He deserved and continues to deserve so much better. I’m rooting for him.
He said he was adopted. His biological parents were drug addicted. He never had a chance from birth. His mom probably did drugs while she was pregnant. His adopted parents probably kicked him out by 18. Heartbreaking🙏🏾 💔🙏🏾 @@cherylschumaker1366
I totally agree! As a recovering addict and alcoholic, the things I learned over the years about drugs just made me want to do them more. This is reality.
@@davidboyle1193 which often become drug addicts as a result of discrimination and stigma - the very issue education is trying to address. If you actually cared about people with difficult lives you wouldn't be bringing up this topic in such an unrelated context, using someone's struggle to invalidate another's
Watching Kevin somehow left me impressed by his somewhat peace of mind. Not sure if I´m fooled but he left me with the impression that he´s found some inner peace amidst the turmoil. Not sure if I could say the same about myself. I hope he´ll go out with the same peace one day. Cheers from Berlin, Germany.
What struck me about this video is that, given his extreme appearance and physical symptoms, his mind and verbal expression are surprisingly functional.
@wereallabitcrazee4312 My life is good now. I'm happy (most of the time) . I don't have to worry about things like the Cop's, or being out of stash, being afraid of stuff made-up in my mind.🫠
Pcp was my drug of choice, I sold it at first, then I began smoking it to the point were I was 6 months pregnant and didn’t know, my baby couldn’t move with out me getting high, my baby getting token away a birth made me stop (I got him back right away soon as I was accepted into a mommy n me rehab)I did relapse twice, he is 12 now and I have 5 under him who were born un addicted to anything I’ve been clean from pcp for 7.5 years……my bottom was almost losing my child that was enough for me…
@wereallabitcrazee4312: Trust me, you’d be surprised how many of us don’t have any friends. There are even some of us that don’t have friends or family. I’m one of those people. If I need someone to talk to, I pray to the HOLY ONES. That’s all I have, but it’s okay. 🙏🏾
@@yahswarrior1879 I had lotsa "friends" til I quit the drug life 💪🏼 Now my BFF is my 15 yr old granddaughter 🥰 she's really all I need now (my choice alone) I'd happily be your friend 🤗
@ZV_iBlitzkrieg No offense but you don't know WTF your talking about. I really wish people like you would educate yourselves before you decide to say a word. Again no offense but your an idiot Please do yourself and others a favor at least attempt to understand before you make any more comments. Thanks
@@ZV_iBlitzkriegThe upper 1% have gotten trillions for years, Ukraine and Israel started only several years ago, say “No to Drugs” started in the 80’s.
I just lost my brother to an overdose last friday and watching these videos makes me feel closer to understanding his mindset before he died. It's left a massive hole in our family I wish he didn't die alone. thank you for sharing these video's.
He's in active addiction though so he's not making a choice. The addiction he was genetically predisposed to having is telling his brain this is the only way to live and as you can see his jerking movements etc He's in withdrawal so his brain is saying hurry up we need to get drugs then we'll be OK.Thats not a choice. That's not a clean and sober person making a choice of what they'll eat for lunch for example. So no He's not choosing it at all and for some life is full of choices for others genetics and predisposition adding on top being born a crack baby increased his chances of becoming an addict added on top neglect from his birth parents then neglect from adopted parents further add to his chances of becoming an addict and when anything bad in life has happened he has no coping skills the only way his brain tells him to cope is to use.
Wow. He's still got a good heart. I'm also 34 and i was addicted to heroin for over 10 years, on and off. I've been clean almost 4 years!! It is possible, you just have to really want it for YOURSELF. You can't do it for anybody else. Love your videos as always Mark, you are an angel on earth.
Sometimes for sure. This just seemed like a more straightforward conversation without a lot of fluff because the guy was very matter of fact. Didn’t seem like he had anything to prove.
@@carrythesparkI thought he was annoyed, but then he would respond politely. I don't try to figure people out that are on meth though bc there's nothing there but madness, and madness has no rhyme, or reason.
The beginning, when Keven was on the street, his cries reminded me of an infant. Which I have come to believe that the wants and needs of addicts all began there. Genetics, you CANNOT underestimate them. They are us. Take it from an adoptive mother of a son and daughter, all grown now, of course. 💙✌️
I’ve always believed it was a combination of genetics and environment. Nature & nurture. As I’ve gotten older, I now believe there’s an even bigger factor: Spirit.
@@Brandanmayhew he looks rough but watch the video he seems to still have his intelligence. He’s never getting a job at NASA but I’m sure he could improve his life massively.
This man really touched my heart! My eyes filled with tears when he said, “they were into drugs and they got tooken away from me”! Usually folks say “they took me away from them” but he stated it as though it was his fault they were gone. How incredibly sad! I really hope you can help him in some way Mark because unlike so many others in interviews seem to think it’s everyone else’s fault for their situation. He is honest and seemingly wants to be loved and cared about not for! Great interview!
This guy, made my heart break. It's truly heartbreaking to see how Kevin has been affected. The influence of drugs can be incredibly destructive and evil. I just wish someone could help him rise above all this evil! Despite everything, he appears to have a kind and gentle nature. he is a sweetheart!!!!
when you see him writhing on the street like that, you don't expect him to be this coherent and well-spoken after getting washed up (shower), i'm sure they also fed him and in a nicer environment (indoors).
It's much more compassionate to allow this man, who clearly does not want help, to just be. Crying for him and begging him to get help does absolutely nothing. Meeting people where they are, like Mark does, does so much more for the person.
This was an unusual episode. The person is content with his life and himself. He wants to be free, high, and homeless. His goal is not the same as most people. This is what he knows, and wants. I respect his choices.
Chemical castration of the soul. So many victims to this. Worst part is somewhere maybe right now a group of men set in a meeting discussing the profits from knowingly poisoning and killing people. I think maybe two species of human exist. People with a heart and people who don't. And the ones who don't are trying to wipe out the ones who do.
@@David-gr1do i do not think he is able to want anything but drags right now. He does not know any other life, he does not know what getting better means. He has never had better
Totally lucid. Kevin has a beautiful soul. He certainly lives an alternative lifestyle but he seems happy with it. Meanwhile millions of other people are sober and working their lives away for just the basics and aren't happy at all. I hope he stays safe and happy. God bless Kevin .
There’s something about Kevin, I like him, honest and respectful, been through a lot but still good at heart ❤️ And I liked how he said he doesn’t get bored, he’s comfortable in his own skin and in his own company, doesn’t want people feeling sorry for him etc .
I wish I did, he’s gone now and I have so little of him. I’ve seen my son in terrible states, all I have now is his writings. He lived rough, then he got housing but in the end he died anyway, I wish I had a video of him. He also had a beautiful honest heart and soul. Rip James May 18, 2022.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable s0urce here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, blizmyco. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Did you listen to Kevin? HE WAS ADDICTED TO CRANK IN THE WOMB....BORN ADDICTED TO CRANK. This mom continued a pregnancy and crank all the while. How do you suppose Kevin should "get clean" WTHECK
@@palmac.4451 So was my sister. 9 months of crank in the womb. She is now a successful lead pediatric medical technician. She had a different upbringing, not reunited with our mom until she was clean. Born on crank can excuse all. There was more going on here but more importantly there is the choice now to live the way he is living. In a downtown setting like that, there is plenty of help available. It would not be easy but it would be possible if he took the first steps.
I've watched some videos from Kensington Ave in Philly so the opening clip didn't surprise me but reading through some comments it obvious that some were taken aback. He has zero expectations, no fear, no friends. What more could bottom look like and still have a heartbeat?
It's incredible that our society allows, stands by, allows such destitute folks like Kevin to just lie on the streets, wretching, obviously sick, and think nothing of it. Are we all immune to this now? Mark, Im so glad you included the clip of him on the street. And his thumbnail, those eyes. What a privilege to hear from him. I dont even know what to say, other than, hes not likely to live much longer and this is very sad. 34 years old, it breaks the heart. You know someone along the way hurt him real bad. Breaks the heart that were just leaving him to die and hes just an unknown soul out there withering away.
My prayers are with Kevin, I know doing this interview was hard for him because he's feening to use. I don't wish that feeling on anyone in the world, until you have been there mentally and physically yourself. You have no idea, trust me!!😢
@@brendaandjohnroark-rivera7710 even tho he’s down and out he still has a beautiful soul and a great heart he could inspire people who down on their luck to keep being pure inside
I am just slightly older then this gentlemen . I was a drug birth and was given to my grandparents but due to neglect etc. was fostered and finally adopted at 13 . Not a loving family but I had clothes , food , and a bed . His story reminded me of all I made it through . I just want to say Thank you Kevin for sharing I needed that reminder this week . SWU your a legend .
@_Sarby1 yes I understand that, so then if your unable to look after a child at meet their needs, you should consider rehoming or asking family members for help. Hey no ones perfect.
@carolinecastiglione9075 Yes. I have. My question was reatorical. I see many instances where children have been put into the care system, taken from one family, and have ended up no better off or worse in families the care system has supposedly vetted and have passed various requirements.
When I watch these types of interviews, as a mother, it hurts my heart tremendously to imagine someone threw him away. If something happened to me today, and my son found himself in similar circumstances, I honestly can't think of anything that would hurt me more.
This interview touched my heart. Kevin is one of the most honest interviewers you have had Mark Clearly, he is a product of his addict mother. I wish him any happiness he can find in the life he chooses. Being a recovering addict myself, I understand Kevin I will keep him in my prayers I pray God will look after him God bless Kevin ⚧️☯️☮️Ana
There are situations in life that are worse than death. A lifetime of agony is one of them. It's easier to find than you think. Shame on those who failed him.
This guy made me cry, but then i listened to his words, it seems like he is more content than many people who don't value their freedom and never live in the moment.
Our son was an addict for years, he grew up in a good home. He became addicted to oxycontin and was a mess for years. He stole, sold drugs to treat his addiction and ended up in prison twice. He had a doctor upping is methadone constantly and putting him on more meds where he was just wandering around the neighborhood skinny and out of his mind. We had to kick him out for the safety of our family. We prayed and had our church praying for so long and finally through a family member, a good lawyer who actually cared and other people who wanted to help, he was given as sentence to go live with this family for a year on a farm in another province as they would help him get clean. It was a miracle as the crown wanted him back in jail. By the grace of God he finally gave his life to God and is now married and healthy. Basically everyone gave up. This man can become a new person, maybe he will have people praying for him now and he can get the help he needs. There is a person trapped in there who has potential and can have a new life.
I always feel so bad watching vids like this knowing that it might've been a completely different outcome had there been more parental nurturing and involvement early on. Ofc ppl will say it can go either way for a person from any kind of upbringing but knowing there are studies out there to support that children are more likely to succeed w involved parents should be enough for any parent to show some effort. Good luck Kevin 🙏 I hope for your continued safety and health ❤
He is more in touch with his real Self than most of the people in the comment section who think he would be happier if he were more like them, (asleep in the dream).
He doesn’t get lonely because it’s all he knows BUT the result is complete detachment and acceptance. The BEAUTY of his transformation is how pure he became and is, no blame, love everybody like yourself. What a beautiful soul.
I went through the same thing this guy went through except for the fentanyl mom overdose twice with me when she was pregnant I was born addicted to opiates and heroin😢😢
I'm allergic to most pain medication so they gave me fentanyl just before they put me under to remove a stent. The last thing I remember saying was, "I can see why people love this so much." Because I have such horrible reactions to pain meds, I never bothered messing with them. But, god, I can see why people might become addicted to fentanyl. All of my pain and worries were washed away.
This guy just breaks my heart!! He seems like a gentle soul and has a lot to offer. I was born not far from El Toro where he grew up. I wish he wanted more for himself than this life he's living. Maybe he doesn't think he's worth more - idk. I want more for him!
Other Worldly - like he stepped out of another dimension. As though his inner world accessed through substances, has shaped his physical presence. He is expressing thoughts derived from the human condition, yet doing so in a way that reveals an alien outsider view. The impact of the addiction is so severe and yet somehow despite being so entwined, he is visible.
What an incredibly beautiful soul. He really understands life’s truths - to love everyone as you would yourself and to simply be present - despite his circumstances. We can get so caught up in the complexities of life yet it is so beautiful that someone in such challenged circumstances can be our teacher and reminder of what is true
This is an amazing way to portrait a really terrible side of our societies. The abandonment, the resignation, the uneasy conformity of it all. Your photography is amazing. Thank you for making us bear witness. This is really tough to see, but it gets to you. Specially if you roamed and drifted thru the streets at some point in your life, like I had to.
This is probably the most honest interview I have seen of someone who lives his live like he does.
Yeah, he wasnt trying to make himself out to be anything. He seems very matter of fact.
Exactly
@cappeno r6100 no regrets..
There are a couple really honest interviews I think…not too many but a small handful
Makes me think of Moser interview.
“I do but I’m choosing not to” . Most honest confrontation to himself and others. Interesting how so removed and so aware he is, all at the same time.
It’s a torture like no other. Watching yourself destroy yourself knowing you are.
www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3784796/
He's lying he would like to be better and he is definitely lonely.
I have a friend who has the exact same attitude but is lucky that his parents allow him to live at their house. He's not addicted to any drugs either. He just chooses not to work & walks around the city everyday. Basically he acts homeless but isn't.
@@julianroninbb well ok then I was wrong.
The tiny clip at the beginning makes it so much more intense.
When I lived in San Francisco you see that kind of street living everywhere. I had to step over human urine and feces on the sidewalk. And that was Market Street. I left San Francisco after a month because of this horrifying dose of a reality that shouldn’t be. This guy is pitiful but very candid! God bless him!
I didn’t see that so I went back and watched.. gave me even more insight and perspective
He looks like he’s in withdrawals laying in the street
He was born addicted. He’s got no excuses, fears or regrets. Stronger than many sober humans. God Bless Kevin, be safe.
Exactly.
Such a lonely existence .
To think that he has no happy memories just breaks my heart .
This was short but brutally honest interview .
I think his answer was good. I don't care for the question and probably wouldn't be able to come up with happy memories. I'm not unhappy. I guess I just try to have a reasonably pleasant life.
God bless you!.. Jesus saves sinners!
@@ElectricApe.you never had that as a child?
In daaa ghetttoooo.
Nah fr tho it’s kinda bomb loo
@@ElectricApe. it’s decent . Like when we would eat raw ramen lol
Not for him. He's literally just happy as long as he's high.
My hat's off to you for interviewing poor souls like him. I've worked on Skid Row & have seen men & women who were destined to live die alone. It's not easy getting many to interact because they are socially isolated & considered invisible. Many viewers would be offended by the body odor, body & head lice. He's still a human being & you've treated him with dignity & respect. Great job!!
I love Mark ❤
Me too
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God bless you! Jesus saves sinners
His soul is not poor...
Man what a polite guy hope he finds more purpose
Lol purpose in 2024? For a male? Sheesh... you're pushing it buddy.
He's alive. The world has changed more than simple things. Sad his ill tho .
That's definitely funny!
You stupid liberal.
6:50 @@TinyGrim-vx1lu
A young boy trapped in a young man's body. Lord, continue to watch over Kevin.
Thank you, Mark
@@silliestful Preach
@@silliestful It's his environment, childhood and personal choices that led him into this. A Lord wouldn't force any actions for him
@@fruitZzed there is no free will. Now what ?
@@fruitZzedYou are very high up on a pedestal, aren’t you? Must be nice to be perfect.
@@fruitZzed Two choice may look equal but they are not. One you have a guy whose parents were addicted while he was in the womb, neglected he chooses. The other you have someone with a normal situation, they choose. Having said that i know what u mean and kind of agree.
I remember when I felt like this. For the longest time when I was in active addiction I didn’t want to ever stop. My brain was so wired into addiction i believed I wanted and loved to live a life that was different to other peoples. Untill I started to envy the every day person. I got totally sick and tired of the lifestyle and have been in recovery since January 2022 and never going back. If you are reading this as struggling with addiction I promise you there is a fulfilling life waiting for you, I promise,
I am SO proud of you. ❤
❤️❤️❤️💐💐💐🥳🥳💐🎉🎉
Well done, keep going strong you can do it xx
Congrats! Good luck.
I like what you said, but you need to be humble. You haven’t been clean that long. When you have four years clean, maybe you can realize you’re actually gonna do this. Only take it one day at a time, my friend. We’re not promised tomorrow.
7 billion people in the world. Not one person should be without a friend 😥 Sending you love and positive thoughts ♡
I have no friends. It’s amazing how alone you feel with so many people in the world.
That's it, how about good luck
Love and positive thoughts are not going to help in this case.
Friends bring drama .
@@crazyfaith77be happy you aren't being used by a friend . I love being alone , not influenced by others .
This video left me crying. I feel so bad he has had to endure such a hard life. No one should go through what he went through, but on top of that he seems like such a kind soul. He deserved and continues to deserve so much better. I’m rooting for him.
Where are his parents ?
He said he was adopted. His biological parents were drug addicted. He never had a chance from birth. His mom probably did drugs while she was pregnant. His adopted parents probably kicked him out by 18. Heartbreaking🙏🏾 💔🙏🏾
@@cherylschumaker1366
@@cherylschumaker1366not in his life apparently 😔
I was not ready for that intro but I appreciate the forwardness of it.
You need to look into Cali and Philadelphia Pa....it's streets miles of this..miles....of homeless on the street
Videos like This is what should be played in school.
I was thinking the same thing. 💔❤️🩹❤️
I totally agree! As a recovering addict and alcoholic, the things I learned over the years about drugs just made me want to do them more. This is reality.
They are to bust teaching about trans gender
Or even in parenting class on how to properly raise a child so they don’t end up like this
@@davidboyle1193 which often become drug addicts as a result of discrimination and stigma - the very issue education is trying to address. If you actually cared about people with difficult lives you wouldn't be bringing up this topic in such an unrelated context, using someone's struggle to invalidate another's
That was 10 minutes he wasn't laying in street❤. Thank you Mark!
He seems like such a mild soul. I hope he gets clean one day.
You'd be surprised, many go from this so called mild manner to fits of rage and dangerous
He seems ready to die
Watching Kevin somehow left me impressed by his somewhat peace of mind. Not sure if I´m fooled but he left me with the impression that he´s found some inner peace amidst the turmoil. Not sure if I could say the same about myself. I hope he´ll go out with the same peace one day. Cheers from Berlin, Germany.
It's like he's given up expecting better or that he doesn't deserve better though. It's very sad.
same feeling
This is what addition is.. gives impression of soothing fears and struggles. I don't think he found inner peace, he's numbing himself for sure😢😢
What struck me about this video is that, given his extreme appearance and physical symptoms, his mind and verbal expression are surprisingly functional.
wow imagine that this is literally his favorite memory because has anybody ever listened to him the way we all just did?
You're misunderstanding. He lives in the present.
@@synupps877 yes but I said imagine lol
@@synupps877he might be trying and choosing to live in the present but subconscious and body stores all the memories and trauma😢
It's so awful to hear I was on drugs in the womb. Behind the starting line before he even sees it. No wonder he's tired and resigned .... 🙏🏻❤️
"You can't take my heart from me"😭😭😭❤️❤️
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That part got me
Pcp is why I left DC in 1976. That crap will make people real crazy.
I've been sober sence the middle to late 80's
Feels good, huh 🙌🏼 I'm on my 8th year... No more stinkin thinkin!!
@wereallabitcrazee4312 My life is good now. I'm happy (most of the time) . I don't have to worry about things like the Cop's, or being out of stash, being afraid of stuff made-up in my mind.🫠
Pcp was my drug of choice, I sold it at first, then I began smoking it to the point were I was 6 months pregnant and didn’t know, my baby couldn’t move with out me getting high, my baby getting token away a birth made me stop (I got him back right away soon as I was accepted into a mommy n me rehab)I did relapse twice, he is 12 now and I have 5 under him who were born un addicted to anything I’ve been clean from pcp for 7.5 years……my bottom was almost losing my child that was enough for me…
Losing my mom at 22 years old from alcoholism pushed me to use it took alllllllllllllll the pain way mentally and physically
Pcp is one drug I've never tried thank God for that im almost 3 years clean off heroin and meth congrats on your clean time
Nobody on this hugely populated earth should not have a friend 😢
I know ALOT of people,,but only have several REAL friend’s that I’ve been friends with since school,,I keep my circle small…U HAVE to!!
The drugs take priority over relationships
@wereallabitcrazee4312: Trust me, you’d be surprised how many of us don’t have any friends. There are even some of us that don’t have friends or family. I’m one of those people. If I need someone to talk to, I pray to the HOLY ONES. That’s all I have, but it’s okay. 🙏🏾
@@yahswarrior1879 I had lotsa "friends" til I quit the drug life 💪🏼 Now my BFF is my 15 yr old granddaughter 🥰 she's really all I need now (my choice alone)
I'd happily be your friend 🤗
I'm middle aged with zero friends. It's depressing.
Man, this was short but hard to watch. I hope he gets the help he needs.
all his help was sent to israel and ukraine into the trillions
He doesn’t want help.
@ZV_iBlitzkrieg No offense but you don't know WTF your talking about. I really wish people like you would educate yourselves before you decide to say a word. Again no offense but your an idiot Please do yourself and others a favor at least attempt to understand before you make any more comments. Thanks
@@ZV_iBlitzkriegThe upper 1% have gotten trillions for years, Ukraine and Israel started only several years ago, say “No to Drugs” started in the 80’s.
didnt you listen, he needs less help than you do
Interesting, telling, and sad that he said his parents were taken away from him...not that he was taken away from them.
I noticed that too.
excellent interviewing skills. the flow/sequence of the questions must have taken years to develop. Thanks!
This just breaks my heart.
Into tiny little pieces.
I just lost my brother to an overdose last friday and watching these videos makes me feel closer to understanding his mindset before he died. It's left a massive hole in our family I wish he didn't die alone.
thank you for sharing these video's.
I'm so sorry you lost you brother
I'm so sorry for your loss
@LittleWhoo thank you so much I truly appreciate that!
@dreamofmermaids thank you so much I really appreciate that!
I am so sorry
This is a good example that life is full of choices, he just said this is what he chooses to do with his. Thank you Mark.
He's in active addiction though so he's not making a choice. The addiction he was genetically predisposed to having is telling his brain this is the only way to live and as you can see his jerking movements etc He's in withdrawal so his brain is saying hurry up we need to get drugs then we'll be OK.Thats not a choice. That's not a clean and sober person making a choice of what they'll eat for lunch for example. So no He's not choosing it at all and for some life is full of choices for others genetics and predisposition adding on top being born a crack baby increased his chances of becoming an addict added on top neglect from his birth parents then neglect from adopted parents further add to his chances of becoming an addict and when anything bad in life has happened he has no coping skills the only way his brain tells him to cope is to use.
Free will is an illusion.
Wow. He's still got a good heart. I'm also 34 and i was addicted to heroin for over 10 years, on and off. I've been clean almost 4 years!! It is possible, you just have to really want it for YOURSELF. You can't do it for anybody else. Love your videos as always Mark, you are an angel on earth.
Well done and your right you can only do it for yourself it doesn't stick otherwise. Stay strong keep going you got this xx
@@_Sarby1 thank you so much
When you know that a video is only 10 minutes long, there's no guess it was a challenging one for all parties.
Does it have to be challenging?
Sometimes for sure. This just seemed like a more straightforward conversation without a lot of fluff because the guy was very matter of fact. Didn’t seem like he had anything to prove.
@@carrythesparkI thought he was annoyed, but then he would respond politely. I don't try to figure people out that are on meth though bc there's nothing there but madness, and madness has no rhyme, or reason.
The beginning, when Keven was on the street, his cries reminded me of an infant. Which I have come to believe that the wants and needs of addicts all began there. Genetics, you CANNOT underestimate them. They are us. Take it from an adoptive mother of a son and daughter, all grown now, of course. 💙✌️
So true. 😪
I’ve always believed it was a combination of genetics and environment. Nature & nurture. As I’ve gotten older, I now believe there’s an even bigger factor: Spirit.
How do you ascribe it to genetics after your first observation? Environment is so obviously much more important.
clinically aware says it all. This is painful. Thank you Mark
What's that mea
Prayers for all that suffer from addiction. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Thanks Mary
He seems very coherent which means he has a chance.
He has no chance, have a look at him. I havnt even watched the video and I can tell he has been using every day for 10+ years. He's done
Very lucid.
@@Brandanmayhewthere is always a chance
@@BrandanmayhewI used for 27 years and have been clean for almost 7. Everyone has a chance!
@@Brandanmayhew he looks rough but watch the video he seems to still have his intelligence. He’s never getting a job at NASA but I’m sure he could improve his life massively.
This man really touched my heart! My eyes filled with tears when he said, “they were into drugs and they got tooken away from me”! Usually folks say “they took me away from them” but he stated it as though it was his fault they were gone. How incredibly sad! I really hope you can help him in some way Mark because unlike so many others in interviews seem to think it’s everyone else’s fault for their situation. He is honest and seemingly wants to be loved and cared about not for! Great interview!
This guy, made my heart break. It's truly heartbreaking to see how Kevin has been affected. The influence of drugs can be incredibly destructive and evil. I just wish someone could help him rise above all this evil! Despite everything, he appears to have a kind and gentle nature. he is a sweetheart!!!!
when you see him writhing on the street like that, you don't expect him to be this coherent and well-spoken after getting washed up (shower), i'm sure they also fed him and in a nicer environment (indoors).
And he’s not withdrawing
It's much more compassionate to allow this man, who clearly does not want help, to just be. Crying for him and begging him to get help does absolutely nothing. Meeting people where they are, like Mark does, does so much more for the person.
Agree
100% agree.
Just don't leave needles and garbage in the streets so kids and others don't possibly get hurt
@@stevenpiehl6199😊
... there are many many like him 👍
This was an unusual episode. The person is content with his life and himself. He wants to be free, high, and homeless. His goal is not the same as most people. This is what he knows, and wants. I respect his choices.
He’s not content. He just lacks hope
How can you respect such choices? You can accept them, but never respect such a self destructive, delusional lifestyle …
It's complete self destruction. Sad, pitiful, and evokes deep compassion for him. But not respect. Definitely not respect.
Do you respect people not getting the "vaxx" and not wearing masks????
What an idiotic correlation@@jamegumb9731
Mark: "What constitutes a good day for you?"
Kevin: "Umm, when I'm high."
I felt that.
Chemical castration of the soul. So many victims to this. Worst part is somewhere maybe right now a group of men set in a meeting discussing the profits from knowingly poisoning and killing people.
I think maybe two species of human exist. People with a heart and people who don't. And the ones who don't are trying to wipe out the ones who do.
I din't, but rough true
This man still has his heart. He said it, and I felt it. I wish him better days.
I have never seen someone so comfortable with being so low
Me neither, unfortunately I think his self-worth plays a huge role in that
He’s not low in his mind , in fact he’s Higher than me.😹😹👍🍺🍺
You get used to it
When you don't know any better it's easy af to be comfortable
We’re all slaves to our habit, and this man live the way he does based on his habits.
Tortured soul. How people are left to fall this far without help is disgraceful
It’s painful to watch
They are in fits of hallucinations
Scared
They are forgotten
A great many simply cannot be helped. This guy doesn't want to do better, he said so.
It happens because some of them don't want help, they use and exhaust everyone they can and eventually you give up trying because it's hopeless.
Why it’s Your state government’s fault of course…..
They have the "right" not to get help or take medication.
Even though you can tell he is so taken by drugs there is a coherent, intellectual human being underneath all of it. I really wish him all the best ❤
this is some sad shit, i hope dude gets better.
The best we can hope or pray for us he stays safe and as comfortable as possible. At all times. 😢
He doesn’t want to.
He doesn't want to libtard
I hope so too😢
@@David-gr1do i do not think he is able to want anything but drags right now. He does not know any other life, he does not know what getting better means. He has never had better
Totally lucid. Kevin has a beautiful soul. He certainly lives an alternative lifestyle but he seems happy with it. Meanwhile millions of other people are sober and working their lives away for just the basics and aren't happy at all. I hope he stays safe and happy. God bless Kevin .
I was just thinking the same thoughts.
There’s something about Kevin, I like him, honest and respectful, been through a lot but still good at heart ❤️
And I liked how he said he doesn’t get bored, he’s comfortable in his own skin and in his own company, doesn’t want people feeling sorry for him etc .
What a Blessing, may God direct him & keep him safe!
Imagine just being on UA-cam & coming across a video of your son in this condition…
I wish I did, he’s gone now and I have so little of him. I’ve seen my son in terrible states, all I have now is his writings. He lived rough, then he got housing but in the end he died anyway, I wish I had a video of him. He also had a beautiful honest heart and soul. Rip James May 18, 2022.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable s0urce here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, blizmyco. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Yes he is. blizmyco
Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode, enough to start working on my mental health.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
best dude so far, i started out feeling bad, didnt end feeling bad. Kevin is the shit.
He sounds like such a good person even though the drugs have ravaged him. 😢
Did you listen to Kevin? HE WAS ADDICTED TO CRANK IN THE WOMB....BORN ADDICTED TO CRANK. This mom continued a pregnancy and crank all the while. How do you suppose Kevin should "get clean" WTHECK
@@palmac.4451 So was my sister. 9 months of crank in the womb. She is now a successful lead pediatric medical technician. She had a different upbringing, not reunited with our mom until she was clean. Born on crank can excuse all. There was more going on here but more importantly there is the choice now to live the way he is living. In a downtown setting like that, there is plenty of help available. It would not be easy but it would be possible if he took the first steps.
@@palmac.4451why are you attacking her? She didn't say anything to warrant that odd response. WTF
I've watched some videos from Kensington Ave in Philly so the opening clip didn't surprise me but reading through some comments it obvious that some were taken aback. He has zero expectations, no fear, no friends. What more could bottom look like and still have a heartbeat?
It's incredible that our society allows, stands by, allows such destitute folks like Kevin to just lie on the streets, wretching, obviously sick, and think nothing of it. Are we all immune to this now? Mark, Im so glad you included the clip of him on the street. And his thumbnail, those eyes. What a privilege to hear from him. I dont even know what to say, other than, hes not likely to live much longer and this is very sad. 34 years old, it breaks the heart. You know someone along the way hurt him real bad. Breaks the heart that were just leaving him to die and hes just an unknown soul out there withering away.
I can't believe how honest and well-mannered he is.. God bless him 🙏
My prayers are with Kevin, I know doing this interview was hard for him because he's feening to use. I don't wish that feeling on anyone in the world, until you have been there mentally and physically yourself. You have no idea, trust me!!😢
What a hard 34 years, may you find peace my brother, you deserve love & light ❤️
I can not say how heartbreaking this is. Praying for an angel for him
Yes please help him
This guy is truly an inspiration without even knowing it god bless his soul
Maybe this video was his purpose. Maybe it will help some viewer out there watching change their life for the better because of him and this video.
@@jbookbasswell said👍
In what way is he an inspiration?
@@brendaandjohnroark-rivera7710 even tho he’s down and out he still has a beautiful soul and a great heart he could inspire people who down on their luck to keep being pure inside
I am just slightly older then this gentlemen . I was a drug birth and was given to my grandparents but due to neglect etc. was fostered and finally adopted at 13 . Not a loving family but I had clothes , food , and a bed . His story reminded me of all I made it through . I just want to say Thank you Kevin for sharing I needed that reminder this week . SWU your a legend .
Who lets a child get adopted into a home were there is limited food.
CPS
Maybe food wasn't limited when they first adopted him, circumstances change
@_Sarby1 yes I understand that, so then if your unable to look after a child at meet their needs, you should consider rehoming or asking family members for help. Hey no ones perfect.
Have you watched these episodes before?
@carolinecastiglione9075 Yes. I have. My question was reatorical. I see many instances where children have been put into the care system, taken from one family, and have ended up no better off or worse in families the care system has supposedly vetted and have passed various requirements.
It’s amazing how aware he is during the conversation. Especially contrasted with the previous clip of him having a mental episode.
When I watch these types of interviews, as a mother, it hurts my heart tremendously to imagine someone threw him away. If something happened to me today, and my son found himself in similar circumstances, I honestly can't think of anything that would hurt me more.
Fentanyl and meth are a hellish combo. I hope dude can heal and find peace one day.
He's so polite and aware🙏🏾 God bless his soul.
My heart just breaks for him. He seems like a kind hearted honest person. I wish he vould get help.
Wow! He's definitely paying the HIGH COST of LOW LIVING. It's sad, tragic and pathetic all at once.
This was hard. His mind is in there. His heart too. 😭.
This interview touched my heart.
Kevin is one of the most honest interviewers you have had Mark
Clearly, he is a product of his addict mother.
I wish him any happiness he can find in the life he chooses.
Being a recovering addict myself, I understand Kevin
I will keep him in my prayers
I pray God will look after him
God bless Kevin
⚧️☯️☮️Ana
"It doesn't take away my heart at all" - ah Kevin, bless you man
There are situations in life that are worse than death. A lifetime of agony is one of them. It's easier to find than you think. Shame on those who failed him.
This guy made me cry, but then i listened to his words, it seems like he is more content than many people who don't value their freedom and never live in the moment.
He seems so humble and kind. I hope he gets the help he needs.
This feels so painful. I can’t take too much of listening/watching or I’ll get depressed. Such a sweet gentle soul. I wish him the best.
Our son was an addict for years, he grew up in a good home. He became addicted to oxycontin and was a mess for years. He stole, sold drugs to treat his addiction and ended up in prison twice. He had a doctor upping is methadone constantly and putting him on more meds where he was just wandering around the neighborhood skinny and out of his mind. We had to kick him out for the safety of our family. We prayed and had our church praying for so long and finally through a family member, a good lawyer who actually cared and other people who wanted to help, he was given as sentence to go live with this family for a year on a farm in another province as they would help him get clean. It was a miracle as the crown wanted him back in jail. By the grace of God he finally gave his life to God and is now married and healthy. Basically everyone gave up. This man can become a new person, maybe he will have people praying for him now and he can get the help he needs. There is a person trapped in there who has potential and can have a new life.
I feel so sorry for this poor man. Wish he was with a better family. If they understood what being born on drugs. So sorry.🙏❤️
This guy is intelligent and self aware. I hope he can find a way to get off the drugs.
Why? To become like you?!
Yeah
Mark, can you do interviews with some of the people helping there on skid row?
Will be boring compared to the usual people Mark interviews
In the womb born on crank. Wasnt given a chance even before he was born. Just doesn't seem fair man
Obamas fault
Thank you for this interview Mark. You are able to reach people who seem unreachable
I always feel so bad watching vids like this knowing that it might've been a completely different outcome had there been more parental nurturing and involvement early on. Ofc ppl will say it can go either way for a person from any kind of upbringing but knowing there are studies out there to support that children are more likely to succeed w involved parents should be enough for any parent to show some effort. Good luck Kevin 🙏 I hope for your continued safety and health ❤
Some of his answers almost seemed enlightened
When you go far enough in the opposite direction, you almost come full circle
But not at all
He is more in touch with his real Self than most of the people in the comment section who think he would be happier if he were more like them, (asleep in the dream).
I just wanted to put my arms around him with a Big Hug.
What a Gentle and Kind Soul.
Bless you my friend 🙏
Poor guy 😢 What a life...
He doesn’t get lonely because it’s all he knows BUT the result is complete detachment and acceptance. The BEAUTY of his transformation is how pure he became and is, no blame, love everybody like yourself. What a beautiful soul.
I went through the same thing this guy went through except for the fentanyl mom overdose twice with me when she was pregnant I was born addicted to opiates and heroin😢😢
He said it, I didn’t:
“We just walk around the streets, and do what we want to do.”
I'm allergic to most pain medication so they gave me fentanyl just before they put me under to remove a stent. The last thing I remember saying was, "I can see why people love this so much." Because I have such horrible reactions to pain meds, I never bothered messing with them. But, god, I can see why people might become addicted to fentanyl. All of my pain and worries were washed away.
Theres something soulful about this guy. He totally mesmerized me for some reason. Born drug addicted to an addict. He never stood a fighting chance 😢
This interview is so sad to me but Kevin is so honest about everything so you can't say anything bad about him for that. God bless him 🙏❤️🙏
This guy just breaks my heart!! He seems like a gentle soul and has a lot to offer. I was born not far from El Toro where he grew up. I wish he wanted more for himself than this life he's living. Maybe he doesn't think he's worth more - idk. I want more for him!
Other Worldly - like he stepped out of another dimension. As though his inner world accessed through substances, has shaped his physical presence. He is expressing thoughts derived from the human condition, yet doing so in a way that reveals an alien outsider view. The impact of the addiction is so severe and yet somehow despite being so entwined, he is visible.
Kind soul🫶🏻. Still so young. 34. Wishing him all the best🕊️.
"I love everybody as I love myself" that is self-hatred.
He had no chance being born an addict, life sucks sometimes, Breaks my heart.
I hope he gets or got clean.I wish they all could.This breaks my heart .😢
What an incredibly beautiful soul. He really understands life’s truths - to love everyone as you would yourself and to simply be present - despite his circumstances. We can get so caught up in the complexities of life yet it is so beautiful that someone in such challenged circumstances can be our teacher and reminder of what is true
This man has a ❤ of gold
This is an amazing way to portrait a really terrible side of our societies. The abandonment, the resignation, the uneasy conformity of it all. Your photography is amazing. Thank you for making us bear witness. This is really tough to see, but it gets to you. Specially if you roamed and drifted thru the streets at some point in your life, like I had to.
Wish you all the best , Kevin 💕 sending prayers and positive energy 😎
Physician here--I am surprised he has survived this long. He needs help; however, he first needs to want help .