Heroin Addict-Caroline
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- Опубліковано 14 тра 2020
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Caroline, a heroin addict on Skid Row. This 2010 shoot was the very first interview I did. Previously I had been shooting only portraits. Here’s a link to my follow up interview with Caroline:
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I knew her growing up, and I know the people shes talking about very well.. so sad to hear her story and see her like this.. I hope you recover Caroline
This was 2010, did you watch the recent interview? I so hope that Caroline can find the courage to get clean
@@thematriarchy2075 I think I watched it, hard to see it.. Unfortunately I dont think theres a comeback for her.. so so sad
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Notice when he says “Caroline what would you say to your kids one day if they saw this?” She starts buttoning her jacket up while speaking to them. 🤍
Yeah, super sad. You could see the scared little girl inside of her that still just wants a fairytale life
I noticed that. 😞
I did notice. Heart wrenching
Yes! That was so heartbreaking. I just want to hug her and make all the pain go away!
Good observation!
The fact that you asked her where do you see yourself in 10 years and now seeing her updated videos 10 years later is so crazy to me.
Right! Kinda like the faces of meth project
@@Xtelahhh yep
Indeed...
So this video is from almost 10 years ago ? And the other Caroline videos are her now ? She looks different , I wasn’t sure if It was her
We're can I see her now?
You should name this your "First interview" it will get so many more views. She definitely deserves the title as the first.
I agree!
Yes...🙏🏼❤️🌹
Omg. Is this the same woman as all the other Caroline videos? :O
@cookdislander4372 It's hard to believe how much she's aged from putting all that crap in her body. Wow!
Where is her 2nd video?
Behind all drug addiction is pain. Pain trying to be forgotten about.
no, lol. I know many people hooked on perscriptions such as diazepam or pregablin, including myself years ago only i was hooked on coke and speed purely because i enjoyed it a bit too much, lots of people take drugs recreationally and enjoy it but just go a bit too far and end up getting addicted. Not everyone takes drugs to forget about their problems. In fact id say the majority of drug takers are just partyers and recreational users for fun, who may just unfortunately end up enjoying it a bit too much.
Pain from shoving things up her snatch
A'men sister!
@@nathanmcgivern7320 Actually, I work with addicts and was one myself at one point too and that is far from the truth. I've never met an addict who didn't enjoy numbing their emotions because of something that hurt them deep down, and I've met thousands. Maybe in your particular situation it's true (or perhaps you've just buried whatever's bothering you so far down that you no longer know it's there?) but either way, most people turn to drugs to indeed numb emotional pain. Whether they realize it yet or not. Partying gets tiring and old real quick. It's the numbing sensation your mind and body are after. The escape from having to deal with real life and your feelings.
Why would you think that there's only one reason for addiction? There are definitely people who use in order to cope with their emotional pain. There are people who wind up in addiction trying to cope with their physical pain. There are people who just party too hard and never find their way out.
Caroline 😢 I remember meeting you on the sand north side of the pier in HB when we were in our early 20s. You had just gotten home from Hawaii. You were so cool and had such a rad style and vibe about you. Oh sweetie I’m so sorry this is how things turned out for you, my heart sunk when I saw this. I barely made it out of skid row myself in 2009. I have no idea how our paths didn’t cross there again, it wasn’t our fate. Sending your Spirit so much Love and healing wherever you are
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Beautiful 🙌🏼 words
Thats gotta be hard to watch
I heard she was kind of a Malibu surfer girl.
@@marysunshine5587 yeah she was. But more Huntington Beach OC. Super rad person.
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After that intro ya gotta watch the whole thing
Yes totally KEYSTER
IKR
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Period!!! Lmao
The video started and I had to cover my eyes 🙈
I was stationed on the Kitty Hawk in 1996. I remember your brother . Our whole ship was devastated. He was a true hero.
That's the time my cousins husband was on the Kitty Hawk and i got to go on there with him and tour around it. Really cool experience that I hold close to my heart!!
His name is Albert King. I went stay in San Diego with them to help take care of their first baby for about 6 months then came back to New Orleans. Do you know him?
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This is one of your best interviews. She’s concise and intelligent. Her fall from Grace is tragic. She’s still gorgeous but you can tell she was a knockout in her prime. I hope she turns it all around.
Ricky Isaac this is old...like ten years old. theres an update on her from this year. doesn’t even look like the same person.
Oh honey it gets so much worse you need to see the update.
She really is beautiful. Really awful what happened to her when she was young. I came here from the current video too. Tragic that childhood trauma takes people down these dark paths. I hope she can make a comeback
@stompthedragon4010 childhood trauma steals lives and sexual abuse is horrendous. I'm a survivor I was never the same either and I struggle today with complex trauma. It's a shame our society refuses to acknowledge it
Yeah total genius.
Seeing Caroline’s subsequent interviews on SWU, since this 2010 sitting is heartbreaking, seeing her rapid deterioration, mentally, and physically.
Is this Caroline’s first interview?
@@nataliebell6472 according to the liner notes for this interview, this was Mark’s very first interview for his S.W.U. project, having switched from doing portrait photography.
@@nataliebell6472yes, this is from 2010
Heroin gave me beautiful wings, but took away my sky.
Wow...great way to describe it..yes..it is exactly like that.
@@jewelhaines8842 thank you.
Now that shot is powerful
instantly teared me up. well spoken. thank you.
Profound.
There is something so...COMPELLING about her voice, her presence, her narrative... I'm completely captivated by her story, and I wish her the optimal best.
This is an old video unfortunately take a look at the new one
Yes, you’re right- I watched the follow-up right away, and I was completely blown at the difference in videos and narratives- absolutely incredible and heartbreaking.
Kind of reminds me of kurt cobain interviews. Very insightful yet broken.
@@velipyr you said it perfectly!
Her voice is so charming and beautiful. It makes me almost drunk with sex.(pls don't judge me lmfao I realize how it sounds)
What upset me the most is when she done a message for her kids for when they see this.. She covered up done her buttons up and moved the drugs away from the camera.. I wish you all the best of luck and hopefully see you back doing an interview sober and clean.. God is always with you ❤️❤️
When she buttons her jacket talking to her children, breaks my heart.
This is especially poignant in light of the later interviews, where there is so little of Caroline left. An absolute tragedy.
That sadness... poor girl is so broken
Devestating
I’ve watched so many of these interviews but this one broke my heart. She was so beautiful 💔
I came to this after Caroline's February 2022 interview. Wow Caroline! Thank you Mark for giving Caroline, and so many others, the chance to tell their story, which obviously is so good for all of us, for them and for us, to learn from them because there is so much to learn. You have adopted a great vocation Mark! Thank you. And here is the thing, the lesson is pertinent where ever in the world we live. Compassion man! Compassion is relevant every damn where on the planet.
its scary being 18 with minor addictions watching this, almost feels like looking into the future. thank you for sharing their stories, it helps not only them but so many others.
How are you doing?
@@VeganAndFree im actually doing quite well! thank you 💖
@@xofrnkk9209 I'm so glad to hear that. :)
I have absolutely no idea who you are, really, what's going on in your life, what those "minor addictions" of yours that you mentioned are, if you still struggle with them, or anything. But I just want you to know that though I don't know you or hardly anything about you, I love you, I care about you and I am wishing and hoping for the absolute best for you. If there are things to be figured out, then I hope that they can all be figured out as soon as possible and that you can get past them all. Especially with those addictions and whatever may be at the roots of them.
Be kind to yourself, take care. 💙
Just saw this now and I wanted to check up with you ❤ how are you doing today?
I hope you're doing well and I wish you all the best. Overcoming any sort of addiction is incredibly rewarding and life-changing.
She has amazing self awareness and clarity about her abuse, life, EVERYTHING. Her parents f’d up…leaving her there…at that school.
They definitely should have left the town they really made a grave mistake!!!!
After seeing her update, Caroline hurts my heart I still pray for her. I looked up the Douglas guy who ruined her life and childhood 😢 He molested so many kids after her to bad she was the sacrificial lamb. 😢 💔
I am so curious to see pics of her from 20 years ago. I imagine she was beautiful
She still is beautiful..
Amy Artz Amy have u seen her recently? This is an older video. Look in marks description
Summer Holt yeah, this is the second time I’ve watched it.. I haven’t seen any updates on her.
ua-cam.com/video/EydoveTv044/v-deo.html here's an update ladies
20y ago? She’s not even 35 here
"Something happened to me after that." Caroline puts it better than anyone else.
This one really touched my heart and made me cry. She has a beautiful soul. I hope she gets back on her feet 🙏
This was the most captivating video I have ever watched. I saw her updates later w/ o knowing it was her. My God! I can't believe the transformation! These early interviews should be done maybe with their updates cause they're so hard to find! Anyway, thank u Mark, as always for giving a voice to those who have never had one! U are my hero ❤️
Had to come here after seeing her most recent. This is so fucking sad. Two totally different people. 😦 Damn. Drugs are the devil. Prayers for her and others like her. 💔🙏🏼
This truly showed the slow fade and evolution of HOW all these people Mark interviews end up on Skid Row. From a seemingly “normal” life to Skid Row. Wow. All from the childhood sexual abuse that nobody believed 😢
I find all of these stories very interesting...and very sad
I absolutely love Caroline. She was living the life, beautiful, classy, different- she had a way about her. She’s also the most drastically changes, so much my heart can’t take it. I see her as a beautiful lady, almost naturally beautiful and SMART, at first. Then, slowly the H takes and robs her of ALL OF IT. I’m clean today, by the grace of God, but this could’ve been me. It almost was.
It's the coke that scrambles the mind like that, but yeah, it's so sad
Congratulations 👏.
I was a iv heroin addict and a crack addict for 30 years. I have 9 years clean. I was out there just excatly like her.😪
@@jewelhaines8842 well done girl!
Congratulations! Youre so cute!
Glad it wasn’t. Really am
Dont know why but I cant stop thinking about caroline ever since I seen her videos about a month ago. I'll keep praying for her.
*please rename this interview as First Interview-Caroline or something. More ppl need to see this. I think a lot of us only have seen Caroline whois basically in a psychosis most of the time but still kind and honest.*
Glad this was re-upload. I tried to watch this months ago after seeing her 9 year update and it didn't work for me either. Crazy to see how drugs and being on the streets have changed her so drastically in 10 years :(
Caroline needs her own playlist! Plz
Woah I hardly recognize her in the later video. she was so beautiful here..man that's sad
Awwww..... I came here after watching her other video.... awww.... I'm in tears.... she is a sweet kind good-hearted person.... just so so Sad.... she never got better.... 😢😢😢
After watching this and reading all the comments, I’m petrified to watch her follow up videos. She’s really touched my soul. Sweet Caroline.
It's mind-blowing the difference between Caroline in 2010 and Caroline in 2022. I wouldn't believe both interviews are with the same woman. God bless her.
There's barely any of this person left. I wonder is she still can even recall these stories she tells of her life here.
Wow I have no word to describe this, it’s a shock to see her latest interviews and then watch this one and see just how much different she is now versus the way she was then. It’s just really depressing seeing how hard drugs could damage a mind. My heart goes out to this woman
You have to respect this lady's honesty. Caroline your a smart, beautiful lady I am sending nothing but positive vibes your way. I hope you get help to get off heroin because you deserve so much more. I will pray for you doll.
You said this beautifuly💗I feelt her too, she gone trough hell&she is still there, I wish nothing but the best for her! 🙏 She has a good heart no doubt about it!
There is an update video in the description,brace yourself it will rip your heart out it did mine.
This video is like 10 years old this woman is basically lost her sanity to drugs which is what happens
Wow. I’ve been watching this channel for a while now and this is the first time I’ve seen this interview. As a currently active addict myself and also a father the point she makes about the love we have for our children is extremely poignant to me. I feel the same way. As with many of the subjects you’ve interviewed on this channel, I find similarities between my own struggles and those of the subjects. This is far and above the best true stories channel I’ve come across. Kudos to Mark for having the stomach to continue with it as I can only imagine how it must affect him. And I stand as a silent cheerleader for all of those who have been brave enough to bare their souls in front of the camera. I truly want each and every one to find a way out from the crushing and cruel prisons of addiction. Godspeed all.
Wow I've been watching this channel for nearly a year, and here she is the one that started it all. Best wishes for Caroline. Mark thank you for doing these interviews.
god she was so beautiful, it’s crazy how quickly her addiction progressed and got to her. so sad
on grape street watts crip
Caroline your story, your choice of words, the pain in your eyes, your openenss and rawness truly got me. I`m in tears. I`m so sorry about what you`ve had to go through
Caroline it's never to late. My heart goes out to you. Addiction destroys life. Please get the help you need. May your faith give you the strength to find sobriety. You are a wonderful woman. Your family will be blessed with your presence in their with you healthy and happy. ❤
Such a wonderful, smart, loving , caring soul. There’s so many suburban mom’s on this devil’s road it’s so sad. She’s lost herself and means well loves her kids so much, I believe if she gets the right help this women can turn her life around. I wish her the very best.
The difference between her now and and this is simply terrifying.
Yeah..
Sooo sad... Stimulants really seem to do a number on ones mind..
Meth is the worst possible drug in existence. It doesn't have a high rate of overdose but the way it deteriorates every single part of your body and the way it changes your personality and mind is terrifying. It is the most destructive drug that has ever existed in my opinion and it makes me so sad to see what it does to people.
I saw Caroline's update and then searched the original. What a difference. She had a really good chance. Growing up in the upper middle class gives us more opportunities to change our path from abuse and a dysfunctional childhood.
The impacts of sexual abuse don't really care what socio economic class you're in unfortunately. It's the worst kind of childhood trauma
that ending is absolutely heartbreaking. i saw her follow up first a while back, and man, its sad to know she got worse after this interview 😔
Mark, In addition to being your first interview, she is also possibly te most honest. You are going to be heartbroken when she finally dies from this disease. She deeply cares about you also as is seen in all of her videos. She is so intelligent and beautiful, and what a personality too. She is so likeable lovable. and authentic.
One of her best qualities that is rare of an addict is that she never talks bad about anybody.
You have no tangible evidence that proves her story is objectively true.
She started buttoning up her jacket when he asked her to say something to her children... heartbreaking all the way...
the ending made me cry so hard
i definitely didn't think i would finish this entire interview, but her way of storytelling truly captured my attention. it's crazy how she had the "perfect" life but this traumatic events truly changed her. you can see she's genuinely sad about the mistakes she's made and wants better, but the drugs are holding her back.
Im so glad you gave her the opportunity to leave a message to her kids. When Aura takes off I hope Caroline us one if the first people helped.
She reminds me a lot of my Mom who I lost in 2018 she was only 49. She took her own life. My Mom was very skinny like her, she was very classy & she was also an Artist. My Mom started using after a head injury they prescribed her Narco’s. Then she went straight to the Methadone Clinic when they cut her off of her Vicodin in the 90’s. She met terrible people. Staring smoking crazy. 6 months later she ended up in prison and left me & my little brother with our Dad for the next 4-5 years. After that and a few months before her prison sentence she came and went. Well she got clean when I was pregnant. And that was the best time in our lives. She was there to help me deliver my baby along with my Husband. She was engaged to a Lawyer. She was here for both of me & my Brother’s Weddings and when he had his 2 Kids. She ended up getting Lupus. And she fought for like 6 years! Between the chronic pain, depression, and mental health issues and she relapsed. Sue shot herself. I truly hope this lady gets clean. It’s never too late. But it’s your choice.
So good to hear you and your brother got that special time and she got too meet her grands!
So sorry for your loss!
Xoxo
Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸 ♥
I'm so sorry for that pain you went through 😔🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🌹❤️
@@meljc2823 thanks. I’m ok though… I know she’s in a better place. God bless you my friend.
@@KimbradleyMasterGardener aww, thank you! Yes it was very special & I appreciate that god gave us our Mother at the most important times.
Peace to you Caroline. I’ve walked in similar shoes and made it out the other side sober. You deserve all the grace, empathy and love. ❤️ 😢
Ugh shame I see her Mom heart and I just feel for her. I’m so sorry that no one helped her be okay after the trauma she suffered.
something about her grabs my attention. she's so beautiful and her voice soothes me, i feel like i just stared at her face throughout the whole video. i hope she knows that its never too late to get better. there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. always.
You’ve seen her recent videos right? This is from 10 years ago
This poor woman! I wish she would go to rehab. She is so smart and has so much potential. She has been so hurt and abused. I hope she chooses to be sober. She could have such a great life. She is strong.
This video was filmed in 2010. Caroline is so embedded in the streets and the drugs I feel it would take a miracle for her to come out of it. I pray she does though.
Amazing work Mark, youve helped me to stay clean. Watching these videos is exactly the reminder i need to stay straight. You should name this "My Very First Interview, Caroline, 2010".
Caroline has had an interesting life. I can understand trying to numb the pain of grief, I've been there but not on anything heavy. I lost my brother 3 years ago and I still can't believe he's gone, it's so painful.
I'm so sorry for your loss
Please rename this your "very first interview" so it grabs people's attention. It's a story that really needs to be heard that so many will relate to.
As an ex H addict (here in the UK) I truly appreciated listening to Caroline's story & I'm about to watch the catch up from 2020. We're all only one bad tragedy, one serious accident, one bad mistake or one bad event away from our lives falling apart.
I wish Caroline all the love & care from across the pond 💜. Even though sadly not many of us make it out alive, some do & if you're lucky enough to have the willpower, love & support, please try as hard as you can, because being clean is the hardest & yet the most empowering thing you'll ever achieve.
I'm sure for normies seeing someone pull a wrap from inside themselves after _"being away"_ must seem very shocking indeed. However it's weird that after over 8yrs clean myself, I did this so much that It's still one of the most common things in my mind. I never let anyone see me so it though, but I'm glad it was caught on film here, as we really need to stop criminalising any possession charge under a certain weight & send people into treatment & not jail for their addictions. Prosecute the non addicted dealer's, bc they are the real problem in society, IMPO.
Caroline has a great personality, and is a great storyteller here. Go to her recent video and the change is too much. The personality is gone. Her daddy's advice was right "stay away from heroin".
Howis the other vid the second 9ne? This looks to be the youngest one
@@nancyeasley2482 this recording is from 10 years ago
🤯 i’ve just found and watched this Mark and i have a couple of follow ups of Caroline to watch,this is the epitome of your channel for me,Caroline i wish you the best !! and Mark keep up the GREAT WORK please you’re helping so many people from all walks of life me included 👍,thankyou
I saw Caroline’s latest interview before I saw this initial one. It’s heart wrenching. I wish she could some how come back. She’s so lovely. The hurt over what happened at her school and her parents making her stay there is the root of her problems. I hope her children realise she’s a wonderful caring person and not judge her as they grow up . She’s so pained .
I watched her most recent video before this one. I am bawling like a baby. Everything she said to her daughter she meant every word
Liar.
Mark you should Definitely Rename this As your FIRST INTERVIEW ...i have watched Caroline follow up interview and its sobering to see how drug use over time can diminish ones appearance persona mental state ect... Thank you Mark for all the Videos I admire you and respect what you doing ...This work has always been close to my heart ... may God protect and Bless you ...please keep doing what you doing ... much love from South Africa
This channel is so powerful that it has truly influenced my life. These priceless interviews and photos show human nature in its most explicit way. They have taught me one precious lesson - however hard you try, it's incredibly difficult to break the circle of misery that runs in your family, but now I have many answers to my questions.
Sending greetings and love from Russia, Natalia
Just saw the most recent update on Caroline (Feb 2022) and so went looking for the earlier interviews & I can't believe this. Mark you should link this video to the latest so we all can see her when she was more coherent. Women like her shouldnt be on the streets, as a society we should house these people.
"Women like her?" No one should be on the streets!!! Your comment is offensive
@@lf1496 save your outrage for someone else... I'm a homeless advocate, housing/tenant advisor and work with my local unhoused community. I advocate daily for housing FOR ALL. if you can't see the difference in needs between physically and mentally unwell ppl living on the streets vs the people that are priced out of housing but still intermittently employed (which CA has a ton of) then please educate yourself
I’m a mother so hearing her story REALLY killed my spirit!! She’s unique woman!! 🙏
Wow... the update is insane. I can’t believe this is the same woman.
this is just fucking crazy. so sad...
8 years= 30 years unfortunately in Caroline’s case 😞
surgickalstrike yeah she aged like 30 years 😭 seeing the 2 pictures side by side when you type in her name and soft white underbelly is insane. I pray she gets out of this life and reconnects with her kids but I doubt it 😞
I cried like that’s so sad
Oh my gosh I thought this was a third update! Caroline was my first vid of yours mark, a couple years ago.
She’s freaking beautiful and seems to have a beautiful heart, even though she’s lived the life. Her update worried me so much, please if you see her, please show us. She’s important to me, a stranger on the internet.
Me too, shes a good soul I pray for her well being! 🙏
Same here I watch her videos probably more often than I should, this one always warms my heart seeing her genuine clear minded self and also hurts to know she’s never made it out of there. I hope somehow she knows how much all of us internet strangers care about her, and maybe gets some joy/peace of mind from it 💕
Mark chose an amazing background for this lady
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Mark, you posted a Caroline follow-up this morning, so before watching it, I looked for her other vids to watch before that one. Watched the one with the intro of her having a really bad day, and you gave her money, and another day you chatted about meeting 8 or 9 yrs before...so moved on to this vid to see that start...and the contrast is completely mindblowing, and heartbreaking...
I still have the Fall update, and this morning's vids to watch. I'm going to watch chronologically, and I really hope things have improved for her in these other two vids...🤞💜
Im doing the same right now! This vid absolutely crushed me. She seems like a very caring person. Heart breaking to see she only got worse from here 💔
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Oh my gosh, Ash!
I just got done with the other two...and...💔💔💔💔💔
I feel so broken now...
omg, her story is so similar to mine....i found a solid support system. it really makes a lot of difference.
I cried throughout most of this video . I can see she had soooo much potential and opportunities and being with celebrities and all and she’s just a perfect example of being 1 fucked up scenario away from a downward spiral. I know this because I’ve been there but thank God not to the same extent but boy it’s so hard to watch her because I still see potential in her. When she started talking about the love of her childhood I lost it because you feel her pain of being wrapped up in her addiction 😢😢😢😢😢. I pray she finds a way out
I watched the other videos before this one. Wow! 10 years later...
One of my favorite interviews yet ....she just seemed completely genuine and completely honest about everything and alot of times an addict just DON'T keep it 100 percent REAL.....but I think she totally.did.....idk this particular interview was just alot more interesting than some.....it.grabbed my attention and never let go...
Same here. I've watched most of these interviews but for some reason, this is my absolutely favorite. I think it's because Caroline is such a genuine person. She has a unique way to talk about life, also her gestures and vocabulary. Her ideas were so clear... when she's asked about giving a message for her children, she talks straight to the camera as if they were listening to her already. I believe her when she said she had good jobs because she seems like a smart woman. I love her vibe.
@@karenarvizu5337 watch her update video
She must have loved Charlie because she named her son Charlie . I feel so sad for her and her children. I despise drugs,whether prescribed or street. I was very close to being addicted to prescribed meds by overzealous doctors after a major life altering illness. Thank God my wife and children recognized it and put an end to all the unnecessary meds. 🙏 for this woman and all affected by the drug industry, legal or not.
Its astonishing how life and substances have changed her sooo dramatically over the past 12 years..
Wishing you the best in 2022.❤
It’s wild the way she started covering herself when talking about her children. She’s just like any other mother. She loves her kids. That’s obvious. I hope 🤞 she makes it out.
Caroline....you are so young and full of life. You are so talented and loving....so much to offer the world still. So much to see with your daughter and son growing up. You can totally turn it around....work through your trauma...I can see the fire in your eyes. You have so much will left in you. You can get clean and you WILL get your life back. You have such a beautiful heart. So much love to you.
Watch her update video
Hello Mark ! I thank your photographs of these wonderful people who carry these burdens . I know Caroline was the first person of whom you made a video . I cant stop wondering how is doing now , of she is alive . I would appreciate if you could make a video of her now . Or if you have any knoeledge of Carolined history if you are still in touch with her ? Ive been watching your work for sometime but this is the moving and unforgettowal video ive seen . This beautiful ( inside and outside ) woman and destiny haunts me
Cant thank you enough Mark for all the art and work you are doing .Best wishes to Caroline her children and you Mark .
Hey I agree there was something wrong with the original video as it would play, but constantly pause and blackout. It was weird. Thanks for re-uploading
I had never seen this interview before. What a powerful story.
This interview is absolutely excellent. This could be anyone you went to school with, a family member or even a teacher. She still has passion and yet doesn't feel she can start fresh. My heart hurts for her and her children.
Gosh this is one of the most compelling interviews I’ve ever seen. Caroline you’re worth it! If you can see this you can turn it around. Do it for your brother he wouldn’t want you to spend your life this way. So much pain.
ua-cam.com/video/EydoveTv044/v-deo.html This link is an update on how she is doing now
😂😂😂 wtf I did not expect that beginning
Ya me either
I grew up in Huntington Beach which is right near where she grew up. Hits close to home. So sorry she went through all that and is suffering. It’s not her fault and horrible that it messed with her brain :(
Wow... her second interview is insane how far she has deteriorated
@16:08 "Drug addicts can love their babies just as much as the day they were born. I believe that." That's gospel, Caroline. I know that on a personal level. We have a chronic, incurable and progressive Dis-Ease (a lack of internal harmony) called addiction. An imbalance in mind, body and spirit. It's got NOTHING to do with how much we love our children! If anything, addiction happens when we can't love or accept ourselves because of past trauma. So, we self-medicate to ease that pain and the end result is we end up liking/loving ourselves even less. What happened with Charlie was, therefore, not truly under your control. Your brain and body are addicted to a substance that gives NO quarter. It's not your fault - so please stop beating yourself up. You can't move forward until you let go of guilt and shame and, most of all, forgive yourself. Love yourself because you are worthy of that love. Sending you...💕
I hope that the guy who molested her in grade school, and who continued to molest & destroy children's lives - I hope the guys in prison got a hold of him.
At 18:47 she starts to talk about how she'd been raped, but Mark didn't hear her and brought up when he first met her. I wish he was more prudent during these interviews because we never know if this is the last time they'll tell their story.
Her message to her kids... as a mother myself, I don't doubt for a second that she loves her kids more than anything. I see it. I hope one day her children see that message, and if anything ever happens to her, they will have that clip. They will know that she loved them.
Geez this makes me soooo sad….she was beautiful.
Absolutely heart breaking I will pray for her.
I literally watch this Interview for the 11 time or so... She was so outstanding to me! She has this Charisma, this class about her! Her mental Deteriation over the next 9 years..makes me wonder if she is beyond help or if she can heal in that sense that she is capable of building a normal sentence again (without any drug in her system) Not even the love to her daughter could drag her out of this but she explained it beautiful in this Interview!
It looks like all these addicts repeat their stories on their heads all over every single day, so sad.
Yes. That's one reason it's so hard to quit. Intrusive thoughts 24/7, nightmares, crippling anxiety and depression. Heroin takes all that away, almost every bit of it, but then destroys the life you have left.
I especially noticed how when Caroline was talking to her children, she buttoned her jacket. God bless Caroline and her family.
the story about her brother checks out. Thomas R. Francis. He was a navy fighter pilot (EA-6), crashed in 1996.
She’s so beautiful I’m so sad after watching the follow up
The change from then to now is eye opening.