Borderline Personality Disorder Interview | Genesis
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- Опубліковано 27 лют 2023
- Genesis shares her experience as a Hispanic woman diagnosed with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) trying to get an astrophysics degree.
Some topics covered:
Being misdiagnosed as having depression and bipolar disorder, being bullied for her weight in high school, fear of abandonment, fear of disappointing people, crushed dreams, self-harm, suicidal ideation, finding a good therapist, improving with DBT treatment, recovery.
This is part of an interview series with people who have a personality disorder diagnosis.
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So glad you're being honest about the manipulation part. I don't think it's doing any good to anybody that many are denying that part of the disorder. I speak as someone who hasn't been diagnosed yet, but regonize that I have strong traits of BPD.
10 years ago you wouldnt have found anything about BPD on youtube
Genesis seems so likable. Wishing her all the best, truly.
My mom had bpd but never got help for it. Seeing people like Genesis who are working hard to deal with the condition is truly enlightening. It shows that things can be better, and in so doing, it gives a clearer picture of what bpd is. So it indirectly helps me understand my own life a bit more by understanding my mom a bit more. I'm very grateful!
You’re a great son!
Same here about mum.
I have BPD. It’s tough. The psychological pain can be absolutely excruciating. Suicidal ideation is common, mine started in childhood. Substance abuse and unhealthy romantic relationships almost killed me. I’m a man and was diagnosed very late. I actually had to present the idea that I had BPD to a clinician. I have a very extensive trauma history. In trauma therapy now. EMDR just leaves you fatigued and banged up for days. DBT seems to be helping as well. The healing journey is a long and arduous road…..with no guarantee I will completely heal. I have a hungry heart on steroids but love just usually makes me sick. The thing I crave the most could kill me. Truly…..I have a bone to pick with God. Deep feelings and masculinity equals Zebra with red stripes. Beyond isolating.
Hugs to you. My ex has BPD. I truly love her. Wish I could help more. Do you have any advice for when you maybe did less of the push and pull? How can we help?
@@katrinaparker1951tbh for me personally whenever I'm freaking out no matter what I'm saying (even though it might be insane) I 99% of the time just need a hug as embarrassing as it is to say
I got my BPD diagnosis 4 months after I turned 20. I’m 21 and in DBT therapy now. I just had a relapse.. JUST. And I’m wallowing in it.. I feel stuck but this video and you showing your experience helped. Thank you Genesis. We aren’t alone❤️
Geni seems like such a genuine and lovely person. Thank you for opening up and sharing Geni. Wishing you the best.
Aw I relate a lot to Geni, am so glad she became aware early in adulthood! Grateful she is so determined to share her light to help others find their way and feel part of a community.
Our scars are battle wounds. That helps me find empowerment from my scars. We are survivors of a war with our internal demons.
I am Puerto Rican and feel that BPD has become genetic at this point. I believe my great grandfather …. my mom…my son and myself struggle with BPD. In my opinion….it’s heavily ingrained in the PR people.
Why do you think that is?
@@jmaldo92 Because emotionally ….we are all very reactive. My grandfather committed suicide in his 40s. Call it generational trauma….maybe…but unfortunately for my family….there is always atleast 1 every generation.
@@mamasitatita understandable. I'm sorry for your loss
Awesome and inspiring interview! Listening to her gives me renewed confidence to try therapy again for my issues. Thank you 🙏🏼
Why is this woman wearing a mask? There is plenty of distance and I don't think BPD is contagious.
Happy to see others being interviewed to get different perspectives. Would love her to be interviewed by multiple therapists like the other woman. If you want someone who is a mom and age 50 I am available.
The earlier experiences (being bullied at school, being a tomboy, preferring a book to socialising, having special interests and quickly finding friends in association with them) do sound like autism, with pathological demand avoidance (immediately doing what mum told not to do). I hear autism especially in girls is frequently misdiagnosed as BPD.
Disclaimer: I'm not talking about Genesis' diagnosis, she knows her own reality and we don't. This comment is only meant for the ones reading it to know of a situation that occurs far too often.
BPD really is a common misdiagnosis for ASD. You'll see a lot of people on r/aspiegirls and r/AutismInWomen saying that they were previously diagnosed with BPD, for example, but there's been research on it too. Most professionals are trained to identify the stereotypical raging borderline and non-speaking autist (which is why most people are surprised when they learn that the two conditions can be quite difficult to tell apart for a lot of presentations). I can say from experience that misdiagnosis of adults is rampant; a lot of autistic folks will receive a diagnosis of a personality disorder for years or decades before (and if) ASD is finally recognized by a specialist. And because CBT and its variations are focused on the current symptoms, whatever happened to the person during their neurodevelopment is ignored - crucial data (albeit maybe hard to retrieve for adults) that is essential to distinguish between a PD and a NDD. So the person becomes a "difficult patient" - medication and therapy have been going on and on but progress is minute, and no one knows why.
I'll add to what the person below you wrote. Pathological demand avoidance is word salad consultant speak. First pathologixzing it is victimizing and second were a dopamine deprived/addicted society. Give kids a super flavor bomb doriti and then have them eat a plain potato. Why would akid want to clean their room when theyre getting high on fortnite? Why would they want to go to target to work, when they could lay around. Those are nor,al emotions to having to do horrible things. All of these pathologies associated with BPD, ADHD, and even some to ASD are normal human emotions and these parameters for whats normal are set by people who lived in a different time and everything was easier. It was Bipolar when i was young. It was a money making drug pushing crock then. This is criminal and immoral. Were pushing kids toward self harm and suicide by telling them they're lazy and broken when its society.
Imagine telling someone from the 80s that both parties are the same, the dems pretend to be the party of the people, that you cant get a mortgage whetehr you could afford a house, that you have no heathcare, you cant afford college, afford kids, you can work for 1 of 6 horrible corporations, the whole healthcare insurance industry, railroads, everything is owned by a a few people. Theyd say. How does that work? Arent monopolies illegal? I could go on froever and ever. Im not a kid anymore, im the oldest Gen x. i lived at the edge of 2 difefrent worlds and it was hard. Were victimizing our kids, so much narcisisistic abuse by blaming the lack of ambition, joy, on them when there is nothing. if you look at the actual parameters of these "disorders". its all nromal human emoptions written by extremely out of touch or dishonest people. Its misery loves comany.
I get that a diagnosis makes things makes sense. It gives a pass to some things but, those passes should be given for situation and the love and empathy for our closest people but, weve all learned narcisisism. Thats the real pathology and Dunning Kruger narcisisism, hollow proped superficial identities are wahst more important than how people really feel. The world ends with narcissism. I used to watch these and got a lot from Yeomans - he seems to be one of the only ones whos not a robot and maybe has honest intentions. I dont even think people know their intentions as self reflection is almost extinct.
We are generations of invalidated trauma, disenfranchised pain/grief, and money conflicted garbage science. Were doomed without empathy and that is nt being taught or fostered , the harder the world gets we just up the bootstrap analogies and the consultant class keeps selling pretend solutions for problems theyve created. That last one sounds like pharma and every other industry.
@@urieldaboamorte not sure about the U.S DSM but in the UK ICD it's also possible for autism and bpd to co-occur.
When I went to therapy about half of the people partaking had been diagnosed with both.
This makes me break down…I feel like I am this girl just 20 years older…I so badly don’t wanna feel like this anymore.
Awesome that she is doing astrophysics! this might be out of place but i have been reading about fiber's role in helping produce serotonin in the gut. I have been taking a fiber powder supplement and am starting to feel a change.
Hopefully Rutgers steps up and gives this amazing woman a chance and extends a scholarship to her. Working on one’s self is the hardest education you can get. Astrophysics should be a cake walk for her.
Love this so much!!!! 💗
Just to let you know, I am using some new d your videos including this one , in my BPD support group based on Bateman/Fonagy MBT protocols. Keep up the good work!
Happy to hear it. Best wishes to all of you in the group! -P
I've been relentlessly studying bpd for a couple of weeks. I do not self harm or attempt "ending things." But have had "ideation" for my whole life, practically, along with *DARK* depression, all internalized, and I don't let the outside world see it. I have alcoholism in my childhood and was raised in a doomsday cult. I've been drawn to abusers and stayed single for over a decade bc I was so distanced from wanting to love anyone. Until last year when I found the love of my life. My best friend, soul mate, and the one who finally figured out how I think, and began pointing things out to me that no one else ever cared to look at. Holy #@$% it took over a year for my to stop blaming him, and start looking at what I was doing, WHY I was blaming him, and how much pain I was causing him.
I'm ruining my relationship with him, and I'm just realizing it's "borderline patterns." Major emotional disregulation, self hatred, terrified of losing him, pushing him away, asking for his forgiveness, being so remorseful, repeat, etc. I'm nearly 50 years old and 4 therapists throughout my life, (now on the 5th) and it was never even something I considered. I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression, ptsd, complex ptsd, ocd, and a sleep disorder. I think the misdiagnoses came from the *times I entered therapy* and symptoms I was showing at the time which may not have given me the opportunity to fully express the tendencies that are directly linked to BPD tendencies.
With tremendous research, I already feel myself putting the pieces together of understanding the self talk, looking deeply into connections to my past, and why I'm responding the way I do. I feel hope. I've not said the word "BPD" to my boyfriend, because I don't want him looking it up and freak out, but just told him things I'm picking up on in my behavior, and he knows I've just started therapy. He's incredibly loving, forgiving and supportive and I think he is hopeful. I feel fortunate that he still loves me because he should've told me a long time ago to %$#@ off. Although, he has also told me no one has ever shown love to him the way I do, and I love him for all the right reasons so I think he wants to hold on to that part of me. He says, "it's the other side of you that %$&@s us up" and he also knows that some of his behaviors provoke mine. So, I at least feel there's hope for "faster path to success" the more I dedicate to learning.
Just a side note to anyone at the beginning stages of looking into this, my therapist told me you can have "bpd tendencies" but *not actually have bpd* so use caution in self diagnosing. I feel for anyone who goes through what I go through or worse. I'm thankful I never self harmed or ended up in the hospital. But I feel deep empathy for anyone else who has.
Thanks for this. Wishing you well. -P
Its great she''s doing this. These videos are fantastic. Good luck Genesis.
Thank you! -P
I didn’t go into this video thinking that someone would have so much in common with my story. I too went to Rutgers and it was great but I had to leave because of money and my own mental issues. My faith in religion is also shaken and I don’t know where to go with it. Listening to her story gave me some hope that maybe I can get better.
Thank you for this; it's part of our goal to help people feel less alone & maybe gain some hope. -P
Amazing 2023 content 🎉🎉🎉
I had a similar experience of being made fun of and ostracized for years followed by sudden acceptance.The acceptance was the last two years of H.S. and college. I also have BPD symptoms - I wonder what that could be a potential pattern? Anyone else watching have that experience? Thanks for speaking about your life experience, super valuable stuff!
i have almost the exact same situation, i was bullied throughout middle school and then in high school i was accepted and loved but i didn’t believe anyone and wouldn’t give anybody my trust
I self diagnosed for months before my actual diagnosis and I ended up being right do research from accurate sources and make sure you fit the criteria
For me, my life has turned out to be pure solitude. I am an alcoholic smoker to deal with it. I feel much better when I quit for a few days, but after those few days my reality surfaces again and I realize the true severe extent of my social standing. Even one cup of coffee is enough to send me into a bad depression by the time it wears off. Humans are just drug addicts. Everybody. I don't really view myself as any different from anybody else. I was just abrasively shown the truth at a young age. I'm not interested in sitting around drinking coffee or tea and talking about "recovery". Everything is bullshit and hopeless when there's mood altering substances involved (poisons that humans willingly consume). My only hope is to become so organic that animals, nature and work make me whole on a daily basis. Even gluten causes clinical depression. Why? Because it's a drug. It's not even a God damn food. But people utilize it to satisfy our never ending desire for "more". Just like porn. Nobody knows the extent except for me, but I have the key. There are 3 options: drug addiction/alcohol, suicide or no physiologically altering substances.
I got diagnose with BPD couple years ago😪I know how she really feels we take it day by day is alot dealing with that’s so i understand cuz I have it too🤞🏽🤞🏽😫😭
Mother & Adult Children need to be interviewed as well or siblings together.
Why?
Difficulty learning from mistakes as a kid is also an ADHD thing, there are reams of biological explanations for it in ADHD, are there any explanations for it in BPD besides coocurring ADHD? Or maybe it's another way trauma mimics ADHD symptoms?
She’s sounding more Autistic to me, with her struggles with emotion regulation when overwhelmed, her high IQ, preferring reading books over socializing, and her social acceptance struggles.
I’m not seeing many of the 9 traits of BPD. Many Autistic girls get misdiagnosed as BPD.
Are you a therapist I don’t think so 🤷♀️😌
Wait till you find out most illness has the same symptoms
I have bpd , but me just thinking wild , has modern life causes more bpd in people
If you live on your own, you get the full Pell Grant and after one year of school the student loan, no cosigner. Use your address not your parents. Some people live off student loans as you can keep getting them until you have a Bachelor degree. I started school at 30 and got an AA. My HS gpa was about 1.7, but passed Community College because I paid attention, was exhausted of 3.35/hr now I make 70/hr at an easy sit down job, from running in heels 60 hr week to 36 hrs/wk.
I read your introduction about Genesis and I don't think I can watch it....just full of anxiety about what she going to say....my heart beating fast even as I type....Can't even comprehend doing a degree and being up and about in the real world!...I cant even get out my bed!..It will just make me feel even more shit about myself...hope someone does though...BPD London sucks!
I hear you. Wishing you the best, and thanks for voicing this! -P
I just want you to know that you are not alone. I think it is healthy to talk about your emotions. You have shown me that you are stronger than you know just by posting what you typed. It's a scary thing to be vulnerable and the world can be cruel. I hope that you can find someone to talk with and go out and seize the day. Don't overwhelm yourself. Take baby steps. I hope you find happiness with in yourself and have a wonderful life, you are seen and heard and not alone❤ That was for you DEESEA
This girl is so sweet
American education system is SUCH a joke
Does this disorder effect our focus?
Its pervasive in the subconcious, once your out into conciousness it can get a hell of a lot easier to manage
How do we reach out to you?
this woman is so beautiful
Your dad sounds like a narcissist. Thank you for sharing your story, God bless you ❤
She is gorgeous
None of these mental health specialists ever heard of Harlow, Bowlby, Ainsworth or Herman? I guess not.
The consultants have gotten away from attachment theory because there is no pill or system to sell for that. Also forming strong bonds threatens the system. We have a hollow society lacking all empathy and foaming with Dunning Kruger narcissism. Its almost as if no one really knows how to love their kids or can make them feel safe. Add to that list modern Gabor Mate'.
Curious what this means? Can you point us in the right direction? I have been interested in these videos but find it hard to discern whether anyone involved is a credible source
The interviewer could use some work.
I think she did an amazing job. She asked all the questions I was hoping she did and was compassionate.
She doesn’t care, it’s disgusting to watch really.
Normally this channel has legitimate therapists which can be a better listen
Bruh really
The part where she actually asked her if she felt that way or if was something she read online was the first red flag
Hi sadly I m suffering from BPD but can't tell because people nearby me don't believe such thing exist😂😂😂
8:11 this what I did in my case. It's really scary
Girl don’t tell her wait for the beep lol
U needa go to a backyard or somewhere lowkey jaja u on a main street renting out a booth in a saloon lol 😆
trash youtube google keeps blocking me
i eat the paint thinner
beer and meth
Get tf out here
WTcrap with the mask. Lost any credibility the interviewer had.
God bless the lady being interviewed.
paint thinner
Wait until she finds out the earth is flat :)
I have never related so much. It makes me feel less like a failure and a monster. Or at least not as lonely