Psychiatric Interview: BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) | Part 1 | Dr. Lois Choi-Kain

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  • @lisasolo7114
    @lisasolo7114 2 роки тому +167

    Can you imagine what a precious child she had been? Oh, how I wish she had had a loving and kind mother.

    • @kregnichols
      @kregnichols Рік тому +5

      So true

    • @miguellle
      @miguellle Рік тому +3

      ❤️

    • @Weirtoe
      @Weirtoe Рік тому +9

      I thought that too, I've known this soul for five minutes and I adore her, but I think it's her experiences that have made her the soft and kind person she is today.

    • @missthang4982
      @missthang4982 Рік тому +2

      Hell yes!

    • @KathBorup
      @KathBorup Рік тому +2

      She seems so genuine

  • @420bluegirl
    @420bluegirl 2 роки тому +70

    "Your anger is the part of you that knows your mistreatment and abuse are unacceptable. Your anger knows you deserve to be treated well, and with kindness. Your anger is a part of you that LOVES you." Thank you so much for this video.

  • @HelenaBrokencydFizzy
    @HelenaBrokencydFizzy 3 роки тому +117

    Sometimes it feels like these youtube videos are my only safe place to talk about this disorder and express myself. Knowing I'm not alone suffering with this is inexplicable.

    • @christinaoharra4757
      @christinaoharra4757 2 роки тому +4

      You aren’t alone in how you feel. Mental illness is looked down upon and it’s very lonely at times.

  • @_BMS_
    @_BMS_ Рік тому +41

    I work in mental health and I wish I was a bit more like Dr Choi-Kain. There is something very satisfying in seeing a clinician make a meaningful connection with a client.

    • @BorderlinerNotes
      @BorderlinerNotes  Рік тому +4

      Thanks for the beautiful comment, and for your presence here. -P

  • @gabrielletimmerman7801
    @gabrielletimmerman7801 3 роки тому +143

    I have Bpd and it’s crazy how we explain how much we are hurting, but it just comes off just as rambling to others😔

    • @secnock.
      @secnock. 2 роки тому +2

      Yeah...

    • @misanthr0pic
      @misanthr0pic Рік тому +2

      yes

    • @yusafmagsi
      @yusafmagsi Рік тому +9

      intellectualizing emotion because feeling emotion is not a capacity we currently think we have.

    • @jordan11752
      @jordan11752 Рік тому

      OH MY GOD I feel this so much 😢

    • @rodney7564
      @rodney7564 9 місяців тому +1

      You know, i always said that i thought i was like a MARTYR. i never understood why i feel so much pain, and why i can feel other their pain. untill i was diagnosed with BPD, now it all makes sense. I can relate to you buddy, you are not alone! 💪🙏

  • @johnorsomeone4609
    @johnorsomeone4609 3 роки тому +519

    15:04 struck me. “Do you remember how you felt?”. “Yeah, I always remember that”. That’s my whole life. I live in a purely emotional landscape. I can forget a major life event because I was dissociated through the entire thing but if my feelings were hurt then I’ll remember that for decades.

    • @oceansdaughter9885
      @oceansdaughter9885 3 роки тому +5

      Omg 😳 I am you 😳 😢

    • @monzie8312
      @monzie8312 3 роки тому +3

      That's me.

    • @tonibauer2405
      @tonibauer2405 3 роки тому +7

      Do you remember or care when you hurt others? Just curious, seriously.

    • @wickedbunny2020
      @wickedbunny2020 3 роки тому +18

      @@tonibauer2405 I do. I remember for years and regret it over and over but I still have a hard time not repeating them because when I loose it I have to fight myself to stop. Now that I’m older I can admit it but even a few years ago I would never admit I was messing up and I knew it deep down.

    • @pablofurnace
      @pablofurnace 3 роки тому +3

      This is the most beautifully stated and eeriely relatable explanation of how I also navigate life; within the framework of a "Purely emotional landscape". ❤️

  • @jackiem9423
    @jackiem9423 3 роки тому +717

    Wow. I think it’s amazing this woman was willing to be vulnerable and share herself like this.

    • @ruthsansnom
      @ruthsansnom 3 роки тому +14

      Seems narcissistic.

    • @stephenfrempong6891
      @stephenfrempong6891 3 роки тому +1

      Yes!

    • @dulcemartinez7741
      @dulcemartinez7741 3 роки тому +38

      people with BPD tend to feel comfortable "oversharing" it is part of trauma. at least on my end

    • @virgostrong9562
      @virgostrong9562 3 роки тому +1

      Your that same Person mellie.you cant hide behind that manipulative mask your wearing.i don't want y'all in my life

    • @emisama7800
      @emisama7800 3 роки тому +42

      The comments under this comment is terrible. Yes it is over sharing but not for winning over compassion. It’s rude making ignorant assumptions. Communication is a hard thing, hence not being able to regulate and self harm. Therapy teaches to open up and process experiences and self.

  • @cmickie3296
    @cmickie3296 3 роки тому +266

    Her turtle without a shell analogy is amazing. Amazing how she is able to articulate her pain in such a vivid way.

    • @lisaelletea2384
      @lisaelletea2384 3 роки тому +5

      I appreciate that analogy too.

    • @sarahholland2600
      @sarahholland2600 3 роки тому +8

      I did a total double take when she said that. It's the exact phrase I used a few years back to my Counsellor & he said it made him wince to imagine being that raw day in day out.

    • @MrSlipperyTuna
      @MrSlipperyTuna 3 роки тому +1

      but now she has a shell!

    • @BackFromTheBorderline
      @BackFromTheBorderline 3 роки тому +2

      That's the part that hit me, too. Right in the heart.

    • @joelhunt9081
      @joelhunt9081 3 роки тому

      Is she an actor?

  • @LoriDaFuque
    @LoriDaFuque 3 роки тому +302

    26:26
    "Yes, it's true that you don't always manage your emotional life in a way that's optimal for others, but that doesn't mean you have to always make yourself optimal to others."
    THIS IS IMPORTANT

    • @humad007
      @humad007 3 роки тому +7

      I had to read this thrice to understand it. It hits deep

    • @Retro_Disco
      @Retro_Disco 3 роки тому +7

      Unless you're the family member being abused by a bpd

    • @LoriDaFuque
      @LoriDaFuque 3 роки тому +8

      @@Retro_Disco It is assumed that the bpd in question would be interested in a path that did not continue the abuse of others, as there is a very broad division between "being optimal" for someone else and "not abusing them". One does not have to be one's optimal self to avoid abusing others, I believe that would be a minimum requirement of invested recovery.

    • @painoftheheart12
      @painoftheheart12 3 роки тому +3

      Then what's the goal. How do you quantify progress. What's the purpose.

    • @LoriDaFuque
      @LoriDaFuque 3 роки тому +10

      @@painoftheheart12 The goal is reaching a state of emotional regulation and management that gives one the opportunity to stop the emotional outbursts that lead to abuse/meltdown. Progress is quantified by the understanding of emotional management techniques and effective communication skills achieved by a bpd, as reflected in their behaviors and self-judgement. The purpose is, ultimately, to end self-loathing and feel love when it's offered.

  • @sylviamz9362
    @sylviamz9362 3 роки тому +116

    I have been recently diagnosed with BPD and this video in a weird way makes me more empathetic towards myself. I really loved what the therapist said that there is this bigger gap between the self and how we want our people to see us (as compared to people without borderline). I truly believe that BPD has a lot do with child's temperament as well. My twin sister said she learned to dissociate from her emotions at the young age. She remembers clearly when our father was shouting at us or our parents argued she did not feel any intense emotions and could see that my dad was unreasonable. Me on the other hand was shaking and always left in despair/anger after these incidents. I did not learn to dissociate from my emotions and didn't learn to self-soothe. We both paid high price for emotional dysregulation (as emotional dissociation is also not healthy for her). That is why even if I am 33 years old when I argue with someone I love I still feel like this little girl who lies in her bad and is crying herself to sleep. I am sending LOVE to all people with BPD who are reading this! I truly believe that BPD can be a gift if we learn to properly use it. Because we go through so much pain we don't want to see anyone in pain (as we mistakenly think they feel as we are). We read people's emotions very well and can be support for others. However, first we need to be all that for ourselves :-)

    • @Weirtoe
      @Weirtoe Рік тому +1

      Bravo, that's incredibly insightful 👏

    • @arabellacox
      @arabellacox Рік тому +2

      From the age of 6 I felt I must protect my Mum from my Dad's beatings - she couldn't walk, she had multiple sclerosis - with no-one else around, disassociation was never an option. Who else did my Mum have to help?

    • @missthang4982
      @missthang4982 Рік тому +1

    • @cassandramichellecoaching
      @cassandramichellecoaching Рік тому +1

      i completely agree. i have gone through a ton of diagnoses including bpd (my mom is also dx bpd) and underlying that is so much sensitivity, empathy, and mirror neurons which are huge strengths when we can manage the more difficult sxs.

    • @danielleirwin5024
      @danielleirwin5024 Рік тому +1

      Sending love to you

  • @HezaSwiftTeFleet
    @HezaSwiftTeFleet 3 роки тому +68

    I hope the woman who was interviewed for these sessions is reading these comments. It is incredibly brave of her to subject herself to this public session. I am so glad she did. She is an incredibly strong, smart and self knowing individual. I know it likely took some time in therapy to get there as she has suggested, but just putting herself out there like she has is inspirational. I hope you are reading this because you are amazing!

    • @AnoukMali7899
      @AnoukMali7899 Рік тому +1

      I agree! I’ve learned so much from this session!

  • @tizzlekizzle
    @tizzlekizzle 3 роки тому +136

    Been in therapy for over decade....never experienced a therapist this good.

    • @Highlikeheaven89
      @Highlikeheaven89 3 роки тому +15

      Dont be afraid to try on new doctors until you find one that feels right! And definitely seek out the ones that specialize in healing these wounds specific to your issue.

    • @sailing9802
      @sailing9802 3 роки тому +19

      @@Highlikeheaven89 these therapists are some of the best in the business for BPDn and only accessible to those who have wealth. Treatment at MacLean as an inpatient is about about 40K a month. The film maker's father is a major real estate developer in NYC.

    • @emilymurdoch6713
      @emilymurdoch6713 3 роки тому +16

      @@sailing9802 I'm on SSDI and poor af, living in low income housing. I've been with my therapist for 7 years and she is very similar to this one. They exist outside of wealthy institutions but I'm so very lucky to have found her. It's definitely worth finding one that fits with you if you can.

    • @yogidevendrabiriyani1777
      @yogidevendrabiriyani1777 11 місяців тому

      ​​@@emilymurdoch6713yes!! im poor from nyc and second this... keep looking!!! And look into "sliding scale"

  • @christinan1468
    @christinan1468 3 роки тому +341

    Lost my husband to suicide. Glad that this woman is getting help. Dr Sam Vaknin indicates BPD does get less intense and can disappear starting in your mid 40’s. This isn’t always the case, but it gives credibility to what she is saying. He states that BPD is a form of PTSD from childhood trauma. Sending continued healing and light to this beautiful woman.

    • @BorderlinerNotes
      @BorderlinerNotes  3 роки тому +26

      I am so sorry for your loss. What sadness. We do have videos by Gunderson and Zanarini that address the diminishing of BPD intensity as one ages... Here is a link to some of the videos that address this: ua-cam.com/video/futyR8mGABI/v-deo.html, ua-cam.com/video/zcAQ42-isLg/v-deo.html - I think these two videos sort of address what you're talking about, but might also be worth perusing their playlists...

    • @christinan1468
      @christinan1468 3 роки тому +3

      @@BorderlinerNotes thank you 🙏

    • @sailing9802
      @sailing9802 3 роки тому +16

      @@BorderlinerNotes the problem is that by then, a lot may be lost. Twenty years of building a career. Perhaps having a family. Of course with longer life spans there is time to lead a fulfilling life, but not, perhaps, a traditional one.

    • @LuxMeow
      @LuxMeow 3 роки тому +34

      Vaknin, not sure he holds any degree in psychology. He's also made claims that borderlines are failed psychopaths and that's essentially what we thrive to become. He mixes some truthful facts with a lot of bs and he claims himself to be a malignant narcissist and a psychopath. I don't think he really understands all aspects or subtypes of borderline at all from his videos I've watched. I feel like he is often perpetuating the stigma which surrounds people like us who are not on a certain end of the spectrum. I'm sure if you were to watch all his videos and make notes you will see what I'm saying in terms of contradictions, demonizing and creating fear mongering around the label. I never found any of his videos to be helpful for me or healing in any way.

    • @Babka113
      @Babka113 3 роки тому +23

      @@LuxMeow actually he says that borderlines are "failed narcissists". They become "secondary psychopaths" (ie psychopaths with empathy and emotion) when facing perceived abandonment. I learned a ton from Sam vaknin but he's definitely not everyone's cup of tea

  • @madhavi108
    @madhavi108 2 роки тому +44

    I like this doctor a lot. She interacts so skillfully and gently.

  • @cathrynclover
    @cathrynclover 3 роки тому +110

    Wow. When she says- “you weren’t aloud to have pride in yourself” That is such an important grounding emotion that you MUST have, that I think the people who suffer the most have lost. Because the opposite of pride is shame and shame is a painful and deep emotion. Truly forgiving yourself and loving yourself is the cure.

    • @alessandraalchemia3863
      @alessandraalchemia3863 3 роки тому +3

      Exactlyyy love how you wrote that. Then the shame becomes identity based and even harder to let go of.

    • @tonibauer2405
      @tonibauer2405 3 роки тому +4

      Yep. Having pride in their children or encouraging their children to be proud of themselves was something neither of my parents could do. My mom sought her father’s approval until the day he died.

    • @alessandraalchemia3863
      @alessandraalchemia3863 3 роки тому +3

      @@tonibauer2405 wow she must’ve been so heartbroken when her father passed away. I can understand this though I was in the same boat always wanting that affirmation from the parent who never gave it to me.

    • @PHanomaly
      @PHanomaly 3 роки тому +1

      Wrong. The opposite of pride is humiliation. Then you shame yourself for experiencing humiliation.

    • @PHanomaly
      @PHanomaly 3 роки тому

      Forgiving and loving yourself when youve done nothing wrong makes no sense. Its self- compassion thats needed and its not the same. She needs to learn to be on her own side. Subtle, but powerful difference in approaching wellness.

  • @LuxMeow
    @LuxMeow 3 роки тому +174

    What creates a borderline personality is the constant invalidation during childhood. We are born with a supernatural like ability as children when it comes to feeling empathy, awareness and being in tune with our surrounding environment. Extreme sensory and when unable to express that or have a safe environment to thrive, these things become intertwined with self hatred for having these specific gifts that are not appreciated as if there is something wrong with us. Inflicting harm on our self-esteem and value since the adult/s around us usually seen these emotions as a threat to them, especially anger.
    Unless it was beneficial to them, so then we experience a sort of love hate relationship, super conditional, painful love which is very lonely and upsetting to a child who is learning about themselves and stunted in processing these heightened emotions which the caregiver has 0 guidance for. As they often have a hard time themselves with their own emotions and often callous or emotionally unstable. You do not feel consistently loved if at all, you go unheard often and take out all the aggression inwards when it comes to feeling. Until you reach a point of exploding like a volcano.
    It's one of the worst childhoods emotionally speaking, it's like a prison. It doesn't end in childhood though and continues cycling on through adulthood in the most insidious of ways. Absolute torture.

    • @cherylsmith1659
      @cherylsmith1659 3 роки тому +11

      This is exactly my take away from these two sessions. It appeared so obvious to me that this is the root of Charlotte’s unhappiness. Yes, profound unhappiness derived from not having the nurturing unconditional love from her mother. Charlotte’s mother probably experienced the same treatment from her own mother.
      I kept waiting for the therapist to tell Charlotte that she didn’t deserve the treatment she received from her mother. It’s perfectly understandable that Charlotte felt trapped with no way to defend herself. I think it’s safe to assume that when Charlotte finds herself in a situation that produces those same trapped feelings, it manifests an uncontrollable lashing out to relieve the hurt and frustration she feels.
      It saddens me that the therapists didn’t mentor her with a paradigm shift that explains why this happened to her. Her mother most likely was treated the same way and acted out the same way Charlotte does now. Then encourage Charlotte to give herself some compassion. Maybe, in time, she would be able to give her mother some compassion too and the two of them could develop a loving relationship.
      Love cures everything.

    • @LuxMeow
      @LuxMeow 3 роки тому +13

      @@cherylsmith1659 I think your last statement is contradictory to everything else you've written because traumatized people who love conditionally don't really love at all. Love can't cure everything when it's not a one fits all but a foreign language to many. The challenge in that is how people's brains are altered and don't always come around to be able to love at all.
      Someone noticed and probably one of the reasons why someone wrote the book about the 5 love languages to help people to at least feel loved in the way they understand. Even so, this can be used to take advantage of those who are more emotive and less logical.
      You can give certain people of these groups all the love you want and they will gladly take it it all to the detriment of your own health without ever transforming to someone who can love other people. So love alone does not always cure trauma, learning new skills around that trauma can help but there is no removal of memories of what occurred. That exists in the shadow side of the personality. A lot of damage remains even where love exists since the brain can split off into fragments. Example, Jekyll Hyde. The duality in trauma and the shadow side.
      Those with borderline are fragmented and the human brain is more complex than we know which is why it's still not fully understood.
      Anyway my write up wasn't just an observation of Charlotte, I've experienced for myself which gives me decent insight into the foundation of BPD.

    • @jojo1960uk
      @jojo1960uk 3 роки тому +1

      Spot on.

    • @katinlove
      @katinlove 3 роки тому

      you are so damn right

    • @ljax8963
      @ljax8963 3 роки тому +1

      Our bodies need nutrition, our minds need stimulation, our hearts need connection and our souls NEED to express. Balancing that is tricky especially for us with BPD we need to find a way to express our anger without inciting anger and without ruining our connections. For example in the past I got cheated on and blamed men and went on rants on snapchat how men are primal beings who can’t think passed their own selfish desires. But then I matured realized that was bad taste and bitter and I got cheated on again. Except this time I needed to find out the root and discovered oh wait I’m living in the first generation where boys grew up addicted to porn and video games, is it really their fault when they’ve been taught from a young age that their worth is directly related to their sex lives? Or that society deems this as beautiful and not that. So this time I was able to calmly talk about the issues our society has and our individual issues of seeking validation and becoming attached to others, instead of the issues men have because it’s not a man or woman thing it’s environmental & it affects all of us, that reached people in a different way I had a lot of great conversations come from that. I felt better & was able to let go easily because my soul was able to express that hurt caused by my own attachment and a perceived severed connection. I’m friends with him now and all of that is in the past but I truly think if I wasn’t able to calmly express myself publicly it would have gone badly.

  • @mauricasalino
    @mauricasalino 2 роки тому +30

    Yeap the gap between who you “really are” and “who you think you need to be for others” to have friends or get a job is one of the most torturous things. This session shines a light on that and I think therefore helped many people get a head start on what to work on. Including myself.

    • @yogidevendrabiriyani1777
      @yogidevendrabiriyani1777 11 місяців тому +1

      This is old news. Alice miller talked about this in the 1970s. Loads of books she wrote on it like the "False Self"

  • @amandaandbug4914
    @amandaandbug4914 3 роки тому +7

    This therapist is way less judgmental than the other. She asks questions doesn't make conclusions..Kudos

    • @misse7095
      @misse7095 7 місяців тому

      She connects better with the patient too. She’s more affirming and responsive.

  • @michelleinservice6400
    @michelleinservice6400 3 роки тому +454

    This was truly amazing and inspirational. The therapist is outstanding and the client so remarkable and determined, intelligent. I was amazed at the self awareness of the patient and the way the therapist so naturally, almost effortlessly validated her and called things out all while keeping intellectually and even personally at her level. I hope to find a therapist so remarkable.

    • @BorderlinerNotes
      @BorderlinerNotes  3 роки тому +45

      We agree. We are / were lucky on all fronts to have two remarkable people committed to giving this a go.

    • @yvonne2965
      @yvonne2965 3 роки тому +14

      This Therapist is Amazing, if we should all be so lucky

    • @amalekited
      @amalekited 3 роки тому +1

      You mean shocking *lack* of self awareness.

    • @coraaschnewitz4202
      @coraaschnewitz4202 3 роки тому +7

      @@amalekited what are you even talking about?

    • @thehighpriestess8431
      @thehighpriestess8431 3 роки тому +4

      I also hope you find a therapist as remarkable as Dr. Lois Choi-Kain

  • @sowens1027
    @sowens1027 3 роки тому +41

    I am really rooting for this patient. I pray that she finds peace and healing in her life.

    • @crystalgreen6027
      @crystalgreen6027 2 роки тому +1

      With BPD you don't heal, you just learn to cope, for the rest of your life.

  • @b52270
    @b52270 3 роки тому +64

    This therapist is amazing, so insightful, gentle and wise.

    • @sylvie9256
      @sylvie9256 2 роки тому +5

      she has a very deep kindness the therapist.

    • @carlyd1933
      @carlyd1933 2 роки тому +10

      Right? I was very impressed with her and would feel infinitely more comfortable pursuing therapy if I could find a professional like this. Seems hard to come by.

  • @kaytahlynXD
    @kaytahlynXD 5 місяців тому +2

    I thought I had healed and been “cured,” but as I catch myself tearing up in sympathy for her as I listen to this honest, compassionate conversation, I realize it’s okay to confront that there’s still work to do. My heart goes out to anyone feeling similarly. Thank you for sharing this content

  • @0oohnegative
    @0oohnegative 3 роки тому +10

    “For you to be yourself you feel at risk. At the mercy of someone else’s hands who you can’t control” .....🥺 I really appreciate you both doing this from the bottom of my heart.

  • @b.l70
    @b.l70 2 роки тому +13

    I really like this therapist a lot. She validates but also asks really good questions.

  • @jnlhansonian
    @jnlhansonian 3 роки тому +94

    Many people just cant afford this level of therapy, and its really sad because me and many others with bpd wont be able to get the help we need because it costs too much. Bpd seems to be a diagnosis for those with disposable income. It literally costs too much to have bpd

    • @sailing9802
      @sailing9802 3 роки тому +3

      this is true. why can't more people get help?

    • @RLifestyle453
      @RLifestyle453 3 роки тому +4

      yes, and also how only the 'experts' can 'diagnose' - good luck for those who cannot afford a diagnosis, and be grateful for someone who can accurately self diagnose or someone who is not a PhD who has a talent and a skill for identifying it to diagnose it for someone else.

    • @nancyferland6044
      @nancyferland6044 3 роки тому +13

      Yes. I have a 30 yr old daughter on medicaid who recently attempted suicide who was released from the hospital without even one meeting with a psychiatrist. She was transferred to a horrific rehab center for observation and they let her walk 2 hours after arriving. If you don't have money, they don't give a crap.

    • @jnlhansonian
      @jnlhansonian 3 роки тому +5

      ​@@nancyferland6044 I’m very sad they treated your daughter this way. I can’t believe they wouldn’t even have her talk to a psychiatrist. That’s a new low.
      Well I’m here in “med-city,” of all places, and I’m clueless where to get help for bipolar, ptsd, and bpd. (Unless it’s ER because I’m a danger to myself.) It’s ridiculous living here around so many MD’s and PHD’s who charge more than I can afford, on the one hand, and then listening to the bourgeoisie boast about how great their therapist is while they sip their Starbuck’s sludge into their stapled stomachs, on the other. People don’t understand that getting help for our illness requires more than just a willingness to get help. It also requires a money.

    • @catherineschaos4938
      @catherineschaos4938 3 роки тому +3

      @@nancyferland6044 Sadly, I think hospitals aren’t about diagnosis and treatment. They are about preventing imminent suicide. If the suicide risk becomes more remote, then it’s bye bye and here’s a prescription for meds and some phone numbers to call. You can come back if you attempt suicide again.

  • @carlosfc007
    @carlosfc007 3 роки тому +74

    As a medical student, this has been really helpful in elucidating the characteristics of people with BPD. Thank you, sincerely

    • @TCGTales
      @TCGTales 3 роки тому +12

      As a student you should know that BDP affects everyone differently. How we show ourselves on camera might be truly different from reality.

    • @mysticbengals521
      @mysticbengals521 2 роки тому +3

      A borderline in today's world is anyone who is involved with a narcissist or sociopath whose abusive current spouse/family member has lied about the person's behavior, statements, motivations to paint a portrait of them as a borderline. The abuser will do this to gain total control. This is how most bpd individuals are created. In reality the alleged bpd has not done or said any of the things she has been accused of but the false diagnosis will stick for life until the misdiagnosed dies, one way or another.

  • @purplepanda9794
    @purplepanda9794 2 роки тому +12

    Thank you. I will admit, my impression of BPD has changed for the better. You’ve humanized this and i think I have a lot more compassion for individuals with personality disorders now.

  • @CaReBeAr73109
    @CaReBeAr73109 9 місяців тому +3

    I want to thank Charlotte for being so vulnerable & open. She is 100% correct- her doing these videos validated my experience & I am grateful for that immesaurably

  • @catq6864
    @catq6864 3 роки тому +193

    She has a strong personality and I appreciate how honest she is. Wish her all the best.
    I can relate to the “clapping”-story. My dad was always angry and I couldn’t figure out why. Every move/word was a possible trigger for him. I wasn’t allowed to express anger either. So I started harming myself to “provoke tears” - and make him stop.

    • @tonibauer2405
      @tonibauer2405 3 роки тому +10

      Ha. My mom’s response to what she perceived as my tears of frustration or anger was “you better stop or I’ll give you something to cry about.”
      I think her father did the same to her. So glad I didn’t have kids to damage and pass that on to.

    • @catq6864
      @catq6864 3 роки тому +5

      @@tonibauer2405 I also decided not to have kids. But I know I’m different. And I bet you are too 🤗

    • @LoraleeArmstrongNunley
      @LoraleeArmstrongNunley 2 роки тому +1

      My dad was alway angry too. I used to dig into my face with my fingernails cause i hated myself. Never knew this could be BPD

    • @Cici_mimi
      @Cici_mimi 2 роки тому +1

      @@tonibauer2405 Every black child heard the same things you said. I know your comment is year old, but still I can relate to.

    • @misanthr0pic
      @misanthr0pic Рік тому +2

      this is not a strong personality lol

  • @rebeccawhite5012
    @rebeccawhite5012 3 роки тому +66

    When you grow up in that environment you learn to walk on eggshells and your whole life is about not upsetting someone or feeling like you have no control over what about you is going to set someone off. You are so used to an abuse cycle and the constant adrenalin of fear...buy back and love that is never easily given or nonconditional...everything is conditional. You are not taught how to have a healthy non codependent relationship. Drama is all we know. Expression of extreme emotions like anger are learnt behaviours. When you are free from the cycle...there is nothing worse than realising you recreate this pattern with anyone key in your life. You have an inate need to have approval but an intense feeling that you will never be good enough. BPD people have learnt early on how to read people and tones, energies and mood...we are hyper sensitive to tension and unhappiness and disappointment. To a normal person it seems like we overthink and dramatise everything...but we just feel it all and our defenses kick in to protect ourselves from the hurt or rejection we know is coming. We have such high expectations of ourselves because we were taught that everything we do, say, is the cause of another person's reactions. That's a massive weight. We also pass that expectation onto other people when we are stressed...and push people away...we don't want to be the way we are but we also know that we are unique and care in ways most people don't. Its a roller-coaster and and realising that you can't control other people or their feelings is a massive learning curve that takes a long time.

    • @nightshademoon9095
      @nightshademoon9095 3 роки тому +4

      Spot on.

    • @BayAreaBeachBunny
      @BayAreaBeachBunny 3 роки тому +6

      This nailed exactly how I feel. Makes me feel a little less alone.

    • @rstaudt89
      @rstaudt89 3 роки тому +4

      That explanation was perfect. Nice to know I’m not alone

    • @LuxMeow
      @LuxMeow 3 роки тому +8

      The slap in the face is when you grow up and you were accused of making your abuser walk on eggshells as a kid after having experienced ALL of this completely alone. You are told things didn't happen from your childhood (gaslighting), how you feel and think and over all you are still invalidated repeatedly until you learn how to walk away or let go of the relationship that was built on a life long foundation of instability and insecure/ attachment. Where you likely learned to detach, disassociate and avoid.

    • @sarahholland2600
      @sarahholland2600 3 роки тому +1

      Whoah. That's me to a T. And very helpful. Thank you.

  • @lousunny5682
    @lousunny5682 3 роки тому +21

    Therapist did such a great job working with her.

  • @troods8110
    @troods8110 3 роки тому +14

    Living with BPD and PTSD is not such a.great combination.. I have spent my life in therapy, but when I found DBT it changed everything! Learning how to regulate emotions saved my life.

  • @amberrichardson3705
    @amberrichardson3705 3 роки тому +23

    I would love to speak to this woman. She doesn't sugar coat anything. I wish i had an oppurtunity for someone to dig this deep

  • @yvonne2965
    @yvonne2965 3 роки тому +36

    This is a really good therapist...& I really appreciate this series on BDP.. But I really 💖 this therapist & I feel like she naturally helps the client open up & she is very compassionate

  • @cherylnixon7800
    @cherylnixon7800 2 роки тому +6

    She is such a good example of borderline. I am borderline, I used to wake up everyday wanting to literally die. Thankfully I don't feel that way anymore.

  • @WJSpies
    @WJSpies Рік тому +3

    I like Dr Choi-Kain, very open, honest, and most of all pragmatic.. nice!

  • @heatherjohnson333
    @heatherjohnson333 2 роки тому +4

    I relate so much to this woman. I have about 20 phones and laptops in the closet that I have broken. I don't break things anymore, knock on wood, but the potential is always there. I'm always holding back when I have an uncomfortable emotion, in order to spare the other person. I'm learning to feel the emotions instead of holding them all back. I know it's going to be a long road to recovery but I also know it's possible. I'm 51 years old and I was diagnosed when I was 50. I finally know a way to live without confusion and pain. Thank you to this wonderful woman who shares so much about herself. I've gained so much insight into myself from this video.

  • @dianeleirer9878
    @dianeleirer9878 8 місяців тому +1

    This therapist was wonderful. Real, down-to -earth, natural, with a welcome sense of humor.

  • @johnorsomeone4609
    @johnorsomeone4609 3 роки тому +12

    I deflect all compliments because like the woman said “I know me” but, what I think we really mean when we say that, is that we’re comparing the one nice thing we’ve just heard and judging it against the sum total history of everything bad we’ve ever done. It’s as though there’s an unpayable debt of flaws and no compliment can erase it or mitigate it. So, it’s not that we don’t want to acknowledge the kindness, but we feel we “know too much” to the contrary to really endorse a high-five. These videos are wildly helpful and I’m grateful that they were made.

    • @Pottawattamie
      @Pottawattamie 3 роки тому +3

      Self worth when we find it is empowerment.

    • @SxTxD_KY
      @SxTxD_KY 3 роки тому +3

      I can't take compliments from anyone unless they fit with the narrative I've created about myself. I think I have very good handwriting, for example, so I can actually be happy to hear someone acknowledge that and thank them for it. On the other hand, I get really uncomfortable and deflect if anyone says I'm a good guy or that I did a good job on something, because deep down, I view myself as an evil, lazy, fat sack of shit hahaha. (Not funny, I know, but I've developed a really dark sense of sarcastic and self-deprecating humor as a defense mechanism against life on top of everything.)

    • @johnorsomeone4609
      @johnorsomeone4609 3 роки тому +1

      @@SxTxD_KY I relate to everything you wrote.

  • @KathyHussey063
    @KathyHussey063 3 роки тому +48

    It helps when you begin to face a lot of your pain and start to allow yourself to grieve what you lost in having a good childhood with loving, involved, supportive parents because for me too, having irresponsible, out of control parents, I think forced and molded my 6 sisters and I too step up and be more like little adults and more in control of our emotions, we learned very young to shove emotions down because our feelings did not matter, no one asked, no one noticed if we had them. So we got up and just went back to school in the morning, get yourself dressed, leave, feed yourself etc and you act like you're fine..all day and all week... after your mom flipped out and had to be taken to a mental hospital for the 10th time, and was going to be gone 6 months..and dad works and then drinks & passes out, or you land at one aunt or another's house, or the orphanage at 4 yrs old, separated from your sisters..
    I never saw any good examples of an adult handling their stress, sadness, problems in a healthy way, we did not talk about feelings, w did not get feedback from our parents. So I never learned what to do with my sadness, or anger. The 2 examples I saw, under stress, they 'ran away' and escaped their emotions by delving into a pill bottle or alcohol or a mental hospital. Mom's mental illness was not anyone's fault, so you couldn't even let yourself be mad or stay angry at her for the awful things she'd do or say when she was totally delusional or hallucinating in a manic phase....but holding in all we went through, well....the damage gets done. So I did not know how to cope with the regular heart aches and stressors of life, the pain or rejection, at all. I tried to kill myself about 8 times, 4 times nearly succeeded....until age 50, my husband of 28 years died in his sleep at 49 yrs old unexpectedly and I saw my 4 kids (21 to 28 at that time in 2010) suffer so much that I vowed I'd never try to hurt myself again, because HOW could I EVER intentionally put them through the pain of their mom dying, like THAT especially. I realized the lifetime impact it could cause them to go through if I was to leave them like that. How they'd feel to think their mom could not tough out any sadness, any problems she had to, in order to BE HERE for them, I knew it would haunt them forever because we are very close. I'd only be passing my pain and my and my parent's dysfunction down to them, so it had to stop ! I got on the internet and started researching why I automatically just wanted to die when I got very upset, crying, why I'd done that all my life and if I could change it. It somehow hit me that I did not know how to self soothe and calm myself down in that state, so I decided I needed a good mother and mine was gone already, (she did get on great meds when I was about 26, in 1986 & she had very few nervous breakdowns in the last 20 years of her life so we grew a wonderful relationship before her death). I decided I was going to have to be that good mom for myself, to talk back to my negative inner voice & learn how to toughen up, build self esteem, be more resilient, be good to myself for once and then forever more. That put into daily practice has helped me more than antidepressants ever did.
    I started teaching myself to comfort myself just as I had comforted, assured my own kids, been kind to them when they hurt to "make it better" instead of worse, as a good mom would have. It has really helped me a lot.
    Most people don't start to see how they've been negatively affected by events as a child, or their environment, until their late 20's, but the good thing is ; once you do notice something is not working for you, or that you could improve in some areas, you really CAN address it and retrain your thinking to benefit you and build you up, You can decide to love and to accept yourself as worthy, period, regardless of whether you think you fit into some odd idea of perfection, (which no one hits). Love yourself and if you want to seek ways to improve some part of yourself, know that you can. We don't have to continue the bad habits or poor coping skills, we can still learn better ways to live. .

    • @mluz1916
      @mluz1916 3 роки тому +1

      This comment made me cry, I have Bpd diagnosed at a very young age have never taken anything, her father is very narcissistic and when I have a hard time coping with emotions my daughter witnesses me cry angry happy in such a short amount of time in a day, this made me realize I need to get some help whatever that may be. I love her so much she knows i love her i do hold her and continously praise her and protect her but her not seeing emotional stability and you wrote it so well breaks my heart.

    • @KathyHussey063
      @KathyHussey063 3 роки тому +2

      @@mluz1916 I too lived with a very narcissistic man for many many years. I now realize that they pick people like I was because they can sense from the way I was raised, that obviously I was not going to be a woman who would demand a lot from him, emotionally. I was used to being ignored and looking out always to take care of everyone else first and foremost, so for someone who's whole life motto is "hey it is all about me not you people" of course he'd target someone like me. I would not have been someone raised with healthy attention and affection who then NEEDED that to be happy. I would not have been whining at him to act more normal, loving, see?
      The narcissistic types are very good at acting like they love their children, because they do know how they should feel and be and act, The problem is that they don't feel the way normal people feel. and inside they hate it when they see you feeling wholesome joy because they can't feel it, ever. They'll kill your joy however they can, usually with a sting that will make you dread holidays afterward. If you find that he's constantly ruining any scrap of happiness you find, if every birthday he acts out and ruins something, (but of course then tries to make you believe it's your fault) then you are dealing with a level of selfishness it is hard for you to comprehend. The pain he'll put you through is torturous and all the while he will tell you he is sorry, or he'll change, but he won't. He'll only do enough to reel you back in so he can lull you into a sense of progress...and wait til you are nearing happy again...then WHAM you'll catch him cheating. Best thing you can do is see a therapist, regularly, and keep that to yourself and tell them the truth about everything. Journal things from now on (hiding your journals as of they were treasure) because that way you will learn to trust your own instincts, your memory of arguments etc. He on't be able to use your very sensitive emotions to keep you up and down and sad and frustrated, basically unstable...which is how he 'll try to keep you because it makes his deceptions in his life easier.. Love yourself, you deserve it, the fact parents sucked does not mean we suck, honey. Stand u for yourself s you would if any man treated your daughter badly. She looks to you to figure out how to b an adult in this world so be what you wish your mom had been as much as you can.

  • @catwithatail
    @catwithatail 2 роки тому +7

    I really like and respect this therapist. And Charlotte: you're a lovely human being.

  • @rbvp45
    @rbvp45 2 роки тому +7

    I think this session was so much better than with the other therapist. The other one was a little intimidating, this one felt a lot more safe.

  • @rennieb_me
    @rennieb_me 3 роки тому +20

    This literally made me tear-up. The compassion...and allowing...with no less discovery and progress. Excellent therapy.

  • @vanessagorelkinOT
    @vanessagorelkinOT 3 роки тому +9

    As a therapist watching, I enjoyed Lois’s style and relate to it as similar to mine. This was a great interview and I wish Charlotte well.

  • @IntheMOMENT22173
    @IntheMOMENT22173 3 роки тому +54

    Man...I got more out of this than I get from going to my own therapy. Where can I find a therapist like this?

  • @apsaraa8209
    @apsaraa8209 2 роки тому +4

    Amazing. this Dr. is in her right field. She is on point. Compassionate. Understanding and interacts very well with the pt.

    • @dbsabo2
      @dbsabo2 2 роки тому +2

      She is perfect for her field. Some people are just born therapists, some are not.

  • @florentinapopa
    @florentinapopa 2 роки тому +10

    You are very brave, Charlie! You seem to have tremendous awareness of your vulnerabilities. It is obvious that your rage stems from your extremely painful childhood. I truly believe that deep healing it’s possible. I wish you all the best!

  • @eleonorbeall776
    @eleonorbeall776 3 роки тому +33

    WOW!!!!!!!! watching this video, the therapist was just there doing a good job when it comes to validation, emotions, reflective listening, feedback. I'm learning how to become an AOD counselor and just been watching lots of UA-cam videos, and wow she's amazing!

  • @louisatanner4306
    @louisatanner4306 3 роки тому +22

    I'm 55 and was diagnosed with bpd 4 months ago. I seriously thought I was losing my mind. The ups the downs the anger.

    • @cappuccinoordeath
      @cappuccinoordeath 3 роки тому +1

      I'm 55 too, diagnosed at 16. Still struggling ...

  • @revolutionunderground
    @revolutionunderground 3 роки тому +30

    13:57 She "wasn't allowed to be angry" as a child. Wow!

    • @sarahholland2600
      @sarahholland2600 3 роки тому +8

      I can relate. Expressing any emotion when I was a child was hugely resented or dismissed

    • @foreveranne7888
      @foreveranne7888 3 роки тому +2

      Yep, having a narcissistic parent, Its all about them, only they can show emotions. The children are pawns for guilt, what some narcissists construed as “love” and to just make them feel better. Growing up not being able to show anger, or emotions, in the end will just make the anger grow into rage. It’s horrible.

    • @k.h.7575
      @k.h.7575 3 роки тому +1

      I wasn't allowed to express anger either as a child. .. My emotions and my "self" was so repressed as a child. Have had so many psychological and depression issues as an adult. I am wondering if I am borderline, actually.... 🤔

  • @julutram823
    @julutram823 3 роки тому +72

    Having a mother with BPD is SO traumatic. Add to that the genetic component, it is almost a self perpetuating personality disorder than becomes a part of families.

    • @kellynxo
      @kellynxo 3 роки тому +10

      That breaks my heart bc I fear every day that I'm hurting my babies and constantly try to be good enough to not think they'd be better off without me ☹️

    • @LuxMeow
      @LuxMeow 3 роки тому +2

      Sorry you had to go through that. Having gone through that myself growing up, I can only do the work to do better for my son. I already noticed so many differences between myself and my mother. I do a lot of the painful work, facing things I might normally avoid. Having a kid forces you to face your own issues. Also being a lot older than my mother when she had me, makes a lot of difference in terms of life experience and having the opportunity to work on things.
      Though what you say is obviously valid, I feel for some of us borderlines, we can and will do better and even go on to be good mothers. I will take everything I experienced growing up and use that to parent in what not to do. That kind of painful and lonely childhood and assaults on self-esteem, I don't wish upon anyone. Such a horrible existence and sometimes I can't believe I survived long enough to even be able to get to this point in life.
      It's scary being a mom, my son motivates me when nothing else can. Would have loved to have a huge family with multiple kids but I am just grateful to be able to experience being a mom who is nurturing, loving and empathic unlike what I experienced. My kid will be able to come to me for support and actually feel heard and it's not all about me. He gets to be the kid and since I was parentified young I know the pain that comes with putting that burden on a child.

    • @Ronin-tp4vx
      @Ronin-tp4vx 3 роки тому +4

      @Pat Gonzo I'm out of a marriage of 20 years where my wife was diagnosed with BPD its been 3 years now but I'm still recovering. What makes it even worse is that I had to leave children which broke my heart. The court/divorce process was horrendous. My 3 children are teenagers and I see some of my wife's traits with my eldest daughter (19). She has almost groomed them into making out that I was/am the problem. I now have to patiently wait while they mature and hopefully see her for what she really is, hopefully they wont be to far gone (damaged) by that time.

    • @LuxMeow
      @LuxMeow 3 роки тому +1

      @@heythere6486 Very similar and relatable.

    • @dougietotherescue
      @dougietotherescue 3 роки тому +1

      My father had BPD and it was incredibly traumatic. Now that I have it I understand that he also had NPD. Throw in some narcissistic traits and you’ll really guarantee you child will also develop BPD.

  • @refreshingAnd
    @refreshingAnd 3 роки тому +233

    This is like watching myself in therapy. 😳 Weird, but also makes me feel so much less alone and less weird.

  • @carolv2161
    @carolv2161 2 роки тому +5

    The Therapist is so patient with her she’s good.

  • @cassandramichellecoaching
    @cassandramichellecoaching Рік тому +2

    i just adore this client. as a therapist borderline patients are quickly becoming my area of specialized interest because i find them so relatable and so misunderstood. 💕

    • @johnnycarson67
      @johnnycarson67 Рік тому

      Misunderstood: hard to relate to someone who blames you for every bad thing in their life no matter what you do for them. And they always refuse to go.

    • @vreevroow
      @vreevroow 7 місяців тому

      @@johnnycarson67 Good job ignoring all established science in favor of your bitter bias.

  • @einsteindarwin8756
    @einsteindarwin8756 3 роки тому +36

    This is the best therapy session I've seen on youtube.

    • @PHanomaly
      @PHanomaly 3 роки тому

      I like this concept on youtube, but this is not a very effective therapy session

  • @YoutubeUser..
    @YoutubeUser.. 3 роки тому +17

    She is really beautiful when she smiles.

  • @javier1359
    @javier1359 3 роки тому +16

    She's very emotionally intelligent and I would love to hear more from her

  • @AnoukMali7899
    @AnoukMali7899 Рік тому +5

    This therapist really surprised me many times in the course of this interview!

  • @Justine525
    @Justine525 3 роки тому +4

    Can we just appreciate the Doctor 👩‍⚕️ she is fantastic. The way she allows her client open up, express her self without judging her. Carl Rogers well done 👍🏾

  • @chrisehlen7172
    @chrisehlen7172 3 роки тому +23

    The fidgeting hands and fingernail jabbing is a very telling early indicator.
    Not searching for thoughts, searching for the "right" thoughts. Only pointing this out for the viewers. Not trying to insult. I have a lot of respect for you for agreeing to share this real moment.

    • @refreshingAnd
      @refreshingAnd 3 роки тому +2

      Early indicator for what???

    • @blue-tx4jm
      @blue-tx4jm 3 роки тому +3

      @@refreshingAnd for anxiety. I don't think you can see it as an indicator for BPD. People with BPD may do it because they feel anxious or restless too.

    • @chrisehlen7172
      @chrisehlen7172 3 роки тому +1

      I agree with what you're saying about the fidgeting but combined with the jamming fingernails into the skin typically points to bpd or similar. It is a subtle form of self harm. Inflicting pain to soothe and reduce anxiety is rather exclusive to a small group.

    • @nicola1466
      @nicola1466 3 роки тому

      @@chrisehlen7172 yep I do this all the time with my hands. Can you elaborate about searching for the right thoughts part of the comment?

  • @jfluter
    @jfluter 3 роки тому +19

    This was really fascinating. I don't have BPD, but do have PTSD. In terms of getting emotions out, I find that being in a gymnastics class twice a week is really helpful. This is because it's a full body thing.....physically running and crashing onto mats, using strength to hold myself upside down or up on the bars, etc. If I'm angry, I can run hard to the spring board, then do a handstand to flatback onto a large squishy mat....gets that energy and aggression out.

  • @atiger4716
    @atiger4716 3 роки тому +17

    What a lovely therapist!

  • @princhipessa1969
    @princhipessa1969 2 роки тому +6

    This is very informative. Love this therapist! Charlotte is a lovely girl. She also has that other side. My ex GF is very lovely, giving, sweet, generous, hard working but as Charlotte described that monster comes out. My ex partner was the same. Also, any conversation my ex didn’t like, she’d become incredibly frustrated. I’m glad the therapist mentioned that for the long haul, one can’t get frustrated by topics they don’t like. Wish my ex could watch this.

  • @Danielle-ii8zc
    @Danielle-ii8zc 3 роки тому +2

    She spoke to 2 different therapist in the same day !? Wow . I give her sooooo much props for this

  • @calebmccool
    @calebmccool 3 роки тому +46

    This is a really neat video. Props to the client and therapist to have the courage to share this session, and props to Rebbie for this project as a whole. 🙂👏🏻

    • @BorderlinerNotes
      @BorderlinerNotes  3 роки тому +2

      Thx, Caleb. Always appreciate your props and support

    • @sailing9802
      @sailing9802 3 роки тому

      @@BorderlinerNotes bothered by the "this one is for free" comment.

  • @gwennelson4565
    @gwennelson4565 3 роки тому +13

    Wow, she is an intelligent, wonderful person. I don't want this pain for her, and I can relate to every word she says. She has a hard time with people because 99% of them suck!!! Sending all my good thoughts and love to her.

  • @malin943
    @malin943 3 роки тому +142

    This was a great video, I also had a breakthrough around age 30. I think borderline often is comorbid with adhd which could often contribute to the brain maturing late. My mom definitely also is borderline. My life was in chaos only 2-3 years ago but I finally have a life worth living ❤️ saying this so you know there is hope for you as well ❤️

    • @joycejnn
      @joycejnn 3 роки тому +1

      Cluster B personalities . Often BPD co morbid with narcissism . Also neuroticism and autism = BPD

    • @LaGrossePaulik
      @LaGrossePaulik 3 роки тому +10

      Thank you so much for your message, it gives me hope. I'm 32, enemployed for almost 3 years now, I used to be able to 'maintain a normal life' with a work and a social life, but it was all fake, it was an illusion and I ended up threwing everything and everyone out of my life. The 'young adult' phase was clearly a twisting part. I needed therapy badly, now I'm way better after DBT yet still fighting against social anxiety. And everyday I have little more hope 🦋

    • @mares3841
      @mares3841 3 роки тому

      Try Amazon. I'm serious. It is working for me.

    • @malin943
      @malin943 3 роки тому +5

      @@joycejnn hi, yes it can often be comorbid, since it stems from the same type of traumas. Autism being a part of bpd tho, never heard anything of that sort before.

    • @malin943
      @malin943 3 роки тому +2

      @@LaGrossePaulik glad You are on the right path 🙏

  • @sarawawa8984
    @sarawawa8984 3 роки тому +16

    I just have to comment this because it’s the first time I’ve heard someone else say it and it makes me feel so relieved (even tho it’s so small). When she said “I have really bad anxiety, even when hanging out with people I know really well and really like” because I’m the same exact fucking way and it’s so annoying. I want to be able to enjoy the time I spend with my friends but the thought of spending time with them turns me into a nervous wreck. It just seems like it would be easier to not have any friends and honestly if I keep not speaking to them or hanging out I’ll probably end up without any so I guess it’ll all work out eventually

    • @ImmersionCitizen
      @ImmersionCitizen 3 роки тому +1

      I'm the same exact way Sara and I've come to learn that even if I push myself into these most dreaded situations and even though I'm uncomfortable through half of it, I leave feeling accomplished and stronger. I accepted my own personal challenge to myself and was successful just by showing up and not only that but afterward I feel closer to my friends/family and they feel the same about me. I also have a phobia of flying and I have to push myself to fly every time I go visit my family which is even scarier than flying. But after I make it home and I'm alive on the ground I get a huge energy surge from the whole experience.

    • @ImTJandMJ
      @ImTJandMJ 3 роки тому +2

      I hate it I dont like having friends but then I get lonely and get friends only to abuse them with my on again off again relationship leaving them not wanting to be my friend anymore...most of them know about my "weird ways" and that I have to have my "alone time" soon might go weeks or days with out checking in on them ... I pretty much ghost everyone I end up liking or the other way around because I'm a shitty friend

    • @ljax8963
      @ljax8963 3 роки тому +2

      @@ImTJandMJ it doesn’t make you a shitty friend this is just a part of who you are. I think the best thing we can do is when we’re first talking with that new friend tell them “hey btw I really respect people’s space so if we’re talking about something and you don’t text back, that’s just life, we all have things that distract us or need our immediate attention and I won’t take it personally if it takes you days or weeks to text back because I’m a real friend who doesn’t have any expectations of you.” When you say it like that people flip a switch and adopt your ideology because they realize (and this is true) that THEY are in the wrong for placing expectations on friends their entire lives, they shouldn’t expect just bc they decide they want to be friends with someone that that person needs to call them everyday or go out with them every weekend, that’s needy of THEM, that’s a trait they need to work on. I can’t tell you how many times I gave someone my number, they didn’t respond during a convo and then came back to it the next day saying ‘sorry I passed out ….’ I always respond with “don’t ever apologize for not texting someone back, unless it was something urgent you shouldn’t feel sorry for simply not responding bc if everyone sat there and responded to everything you’d live your entire life doing that, we all have things going on, you should never feel sorry for that. If you don’t respond to me I’ll assume you’ll respond when it’s the best time for you & I’m okay with that.” That sets the standard that hey If I too don’t text back for weeks, don’t take it personally.
      I have 3 best friends and all of them have grown into that over time, one of them never really cared for me but we were in the same friend group and she would call me all the time and I would just not respond until she understood the level of communication I wanted to have with her is minimal that means when we talk we talk about life and philosophy, not about what she ate that day. I stood by as her friends abandoned her, then her new friends came in and I barely heard from her, then those ones abandoned her. And it’s bc she’s needy, she needs validation from people every day about how shes feeling what shes wearing etc. the cool thing is I got to be there to witness her transformation of growing out of that and into being more independent and it was beautiful and she calls me her best friend now which was never the case before because the distance made her uncomfortable and it didnt validate our friendship everyday. My other 2 best friends started off very similar, one of them I went a whole year without calling back and when I finally did and told her I’m climbing out of a depressive hole she understood and was there for me and I think that understanding came about because I established that in the very beginning, when you’re understanding of others and you respect their space and choices then the right ones will reflect that back to you. But it’s all about how you communicate, if you tell them you couldn’t talk for a month bc you’re angry they won’t understand and they’ll probably see that as a red flag, and that may have been the truth but you were only angry for that long because you were obsessively contemplating something that you reacted to with anger. That’s not blind rage, blind rage doesn’t last that long, it’s more philosophical than that. So if you’re tempted to say ‘I’m like this bc I’m angry or bc I have BPD’ instead make it something relatable like the root of it, the truth, I needed that time to reflect, or to figure out why B = C or you were reassessing your values, etc. how you word it is important because if you want connection you can separate yourself from them in the sense that “I have bpd and they don’t” because they can relate to problems or contemplation they may not be able to relate to BPD fully but when you tell them further down the road that it’s something you happen to have they will be shocked and if they’re your best friend they’ll take the time to research BPD so they can give you the same level of understanding that you have always shown them. Just don’t judge them (at least not to their faces) and let them go if they’re not your cup of tea, but keep the ones who reflect high levels of understanding, be tolerant of their mistakes, respect their choices, NEVER have expectations/requirements for your friends and you’ll have friends for life that you don’t have to talk to when you don’t want to or when you shouldn’t. When I’m in my negatively charged moods I stay away from people because I know what can happen if I get triggered & I’m no good for anyone in my negativity because others can’t pull me out of it.

  • @roseisclark
    @roseisclark 3 роки тому +14

    This was great, I could feel, the compassion, skill and respect in the room. Thank you both for sharing publicly, it's really useful to see real counselling training sessions.

  • @hellskitchenkritterandfrie3372
    @hellskitchenkritterandfrie3372 2 роки тому +5

    This psychotherapist has a gift

  • @tay590
    @tay590 3 роки тому +24

    This is incredible. Brave individuals and resources like this video are changing everything.

  • @kimbunchanumbersx
    @kimbunchanumbersx Рік тому +3

    I thought my BPD was subsiding due to my age, but it was hiding; waiting for the the right time. Since I got my most recent job that requires frequent interactions and justification for everything, I lash out a lot more. I'm so on edge at work. It's like I'm back in High School and college. help!

  • @KM-uc8jq
    @KM-uc8jq 3 роки тому +13

    26:45 this kind of exchange it was what was missing with Dr. Jacobs - rapport, connection and validation! No hate to her though, but you can see why she felt more connected to this therapist.

  • @irynaguziy1202
    @irynaguziy1202 Рік тому +2

    33:30 "You will reach a fuller potential if you work out something about your fear about others, how you come across to them, and whether or not they find you acceptable"🙏

  • @mmmmlllljohn
    @mmmmlllljohn 3 роки тому +9

    “Toodles” so funny and cute. She is a sweet soul who will get to where she wants to be. And what a great therapist.

  • @GeorgeMoskoff
    @GeorgeMoskoff 2 роки тому +4

    I feel so much sympathy for Charlotte I hear "I want to get better" and "I don't want to be that person.." but it's pretty clear that she has little control over those two items. Her development was, probably, arrested at around the age of 3 - which makes sense given her story with her mother - and, now, she has trouble with impulse control. To feel an emotion is so overwhelming for her; doing so kind of paralyzes her. How sad. In the session with Dr. Jacobs, it took me about 15 minutes of listening to get to the point where I was able to feel compassion for her. I think Dr. Choi-Kan is a better fit for Charlotte.

    • @dbsabo2
      @dbsabo2 2 роки тому +1

      Too bad she can't see both. Both are excellent. Wish I had one like that 30 years ago. I would do better with the Jacob style at my age I think.

  • @PenninkJacob
    @PenninkJacob 2 роки тому +4

    My heart goes out to this woman...

  • @redremi83
    @redremi83 3 роки тому +40

    At first this woman gives me the impression of not being completely genuine ... about what is going on in her life, how she is feeling.... Hence the rambling. She is mostly in her head.The therapist is trying to zone in on her emotions but she is running away from it. The therapist is very good. She is respecting her boundaries, affirming progress... and at the same time challenging her a bit. By the end the therapist managed to disarm her a little bit more.

    • @eleanorryanryan2442
      @eleanorryanryan2442 3 роки тому +2

      @Lia N. Gkasouka narcissistic behaviour comes under.. BPD🇮🇪

    • @eleanorryanryan2442
      @eleanorryanryan2442 3 роки тому +1

      @Lia N. Gkasouka Yes she does seem very timid in this interview, but she also has a lot of rage... A lot going on there... 🇮🇪

    • @redremi83
      @redremi83 3 роки тому +1

      @Lia N. Gkasouka I understand why it is triggering. I think this denial is a way to hide anger which was probably a very helpful defense mechanism when growing around an abusive parent. To see this in an adult is indeed a bit disconcerting

    • @KM-uc8jq
      @KM-uc8jq 3 роки тому +17

      @Lia N. Gkasouka I think you should also consider she has cameras in her face and other people in the room. And the fact that she knows thousands of will be watching her discuss her trauma and personality issues. You might think about what kind of behavioural quirks you would exhibit when faced with a similar situation.

    • @Ns14142
      @Ns14142 3 роки тому +1

      She does seem to be enjoying the attention

  • @taylinmalolo582
    @taylinmalolo582 3 роки тому +25

    Haven’t been too psycho therapy in so long. Answered all the questions on my end as a free therapy session. Probably one of the best I’ve had 😅😅

  • @LeighlaMarieTherapy
    @LeighlaMarieTherapy 6 місяців тому

    What a beautiful, compassionate session! I’m so glad to see this interaction as a contrast to the other on this channel. Dr. Lois brings so much humanity and warmth to the session 👏🏼

  • @jiujuntang
    @jiujuntang 2 роки тому +3

    Thank you for creating and posting these videos. So incredibly powerful to see someone's inner world unfold, along with the assistance of a professional.

  • @corruptgovernment4507
    @corruptgovernment4507 3 роки тому +3

    LOVED this therapist. So many are so void but she really connects

  • @jlnioannou
    @jlnioannou 2 роки тому +4

    Watching the interaction between Charlotte and the therapist, I believe that if there was a way for them to continue together would be very helpful and therapeutic for Charlotte.

  • @ckris4446
    @ckris4446 7 місяців тому +1

    Watching this in 2024, would love to see an updated conversation between you two or a sort of how they're doing now ❤

  • @dianekarloff
    @dianekarloff 3 роки тому +3

    Agreed with comments. The patient's self-awareness was extremely impressive, and I could see all the work she had put in in the past to get to this point of progress. I hope she can continue her work and feel even better. My friend was recently diagnosed with BPD, and this interview and the therapist's knowledgeable questions really helped me understand what my friend is going through better (including seeing echoes of the same behavior). Thank you so much to you both for sharing!

  • @alouise3557
    @alouise3557 Рік тому

    I like this therapist so much better than the other one in Charlotte's videos. This woman appears to be observing from a professional standpoint and putting the pieces together. The other therapist appeared to be there to practice asking questions and being more objectionable. She acted like an interrogator. In my opinion, this one is more intellectual.

  • @painoftheheart12
    @painoftheheart12 3 роки тому +8

    As we get older I think we have better emotional regulation.
    When I was a kid I turned my bpd inwards. My mom was physically and emotionally abusive and i internalized that, making everything my fault. I hated myself and would self harm or attempt suicide. As i developed relationships (I never had friends until I was nearly in college) I became more erratic and hostile and aggressive. Like I just got friends you are NOT leaving me. I finally have friends, I cannot tolerate the idea of you leaving me.
    Add to it the continued abuse at home. I felt I deserved better. My mom had always been right in my eyes as a child. Everything she did was right. I didnt like it at all times, but she could do no wrong because she told me she couldn't. Religious trauma in that sense. But by the time I was an adult I realize that she was wrong. She was wrong all the time. And I became less self loathing and more hostile during arguments. When I would internalize everything she would escalate, if I yelled back she would escalate. So I started hitting back. Throwing things, having tantrums. As a 20 year old.
    I feel like my emotional regulation and maturity regressed. Like I was so put together when I was younger and now as an adult I am far more petulant. I'm aware of how I feel emotionally and I have maybe 1 sentence where I can say "I need you to stop x" before I go into a violent rage. Idk what happened

  • @lisaelletea2384
    @lisaelletea2384 3 роки тому +31

    Thanks for being so brave...I also have BPD or have tendencies towards BPD aspects in my emotions or personality. Grateful for this interview. God..grant me a shell for my self judgement 🐚 🐢

    • @Lehmann108
      @Lehmann108 3 роки тому +4

      No you don't. Your insight is counter to the diagnosis. You may be emotionally "fragile" at times, but this does not mean you are BPD

  • @michelleberger7747
    @michelleberger7747 2 роки тому +2

    I really like her and I hope she gets the help she needs to get stronger as a person. I'm glad she's developing a shell now. I hope she keeps growing as a person.

  • @justicewillprevail1106
    @justicewillprevail1106 3 роки тому +4

    I have so much in common with this young lady. I’m so glad someone is willing to shine a light on this issue.

  • @chillwinstonuk
    @chillwinstonuk 3 роки тому +7

    This is utterly utterly beautiful. Thank you so much for your bravery and inspiring words. I am left gobsmacked. Your story makes so much sense particularly relating to your behaviour and challenges. You brave and beautiful human being. This is the most informative and inspiring video I have ever seen on BPD. Be very proud. Lots of love from the UK, I am blown away x 🙏🏾🌍

  • @laurencetruxell3257
    @laurencetruxell3257 3 роки тому +3

    I was recently diagnosed with BPD and disorganized attachment style. I really got a lot out of this video. This all makes so much sense to me now. Thank you for doing this

  • @andykww
    @andykww 2 роки тому +3

    These interviews are pretty cinematically lit and filmed.

  • @todddanforth8853
    @todddanforth8853 Рік тому +2

    In my family we were always trying to keep from upsetting my Dad or older brother. It sucked.

  • @sqwuishslay
    @sqwuishslay 3 роки тому +7

    i see so much of myself in her. the part that worries me is i’ve felt this way my entire life. i’m seventeen and i hope i can overcome the struggles i see so deeply in me

    • @kimchrapliwy2654
      @kimchrapliwy2654 3 роки тому +2

      Karisse, you CAN get through this healing process 🌼. It may take some time to find the right therapist for you, but don't give up!! We're all a work in progress ☺️.

    • @sqwuishslay
      @sqwuishslay 3 роки тому +2

      @@kimchrapliwy2654 thank you so much for taking the time to comment such a sweet message ❤️

    • @nicoleshaffer1816
      @nicoleshaffer1816 3 роки тому +2

      Overcome BPD struggles = DBT - Dialectical Behavior Therapy.... a therapy created specifically for BPD!

    • @nicoleshaffer1816
      @nicoleshaffer1816 3 роки тому +1

      Using DBT; You WILL overcome your struggles.....

    • @sqwuishslay
      @sqwuishslay 3 роки тому

      @@nicoleshaffer1816 i’m so happy to reply to this comment saying i am on a waiting list to start dbt!

  • @a.p5079
    @a.p5079 3 роки тому +24

    This was really interesting to watch. My experiences of talking with professionals about it usually led to them being rather insensitive - or perhaps that was partly my own distorted perception, this was comforting to watch both the therapist and the client.

    • @sarahholland2600
      @sarahholland2600 3 роки тому +3

      I had the same with NHS therapists. They were clueless & didn't know what to make if me. A private one however , instantly 'got' me.

    • @newlife8318
      @newlife8318 3 роки тому +1

      EXACTLY my thoughts! Just posted above. Way out of their depth!!!

    • @foxmulder8139
      @foxmulder8139 3 роки тому

      @@sarahholland2600 While going to an NHS "specialist" for my back that still hasn't been thoroughly investigated or treated (good ol' NHS for ya), I was sent to a therapist for 30-40 mins and she happily stated that I had a victim mentality despite me simply listing facts on how evidently nothing has helped treat my back problems for what was 6 years by then despite me doing everything they offered. That made me so reluctant to seek treatment for any mental issues I may and believe do have. I'm glad you found someone who can help you and wish you the best ;)

  • @ToriGroezinger
    @ToriGroezinger 3 роки тому +10

    This was therapeutic to watch. I relate to this woman so much. Thank you very much for sharing!

  • @geewhizzerz
    @geewhizzerz Рік тому

    I am a current graduate, and I am so fascinated by this subject. In retrospect, I feel many members of my family have suffered in this way and this is what has drawn me to the field. Charlotte is such a gentle and sensitive, beautiful person. I wish I could take away all her pain.

  • @breadandwater7038
    @breadandwater7038 3 роки тому +5

    i like the interviewee challenging the doctor with the breaking bit... its like a small tilt to not be bullshitting someone who has been through so much of the doctored work that shes experienced.

  • @greciaperez830
    @greciaperez830 3 роки тому +5

    Please make more videos like this. It feels so comforting to see someone like me thriving and being so brave sharing such deep memories. Thank you for this.