living with liver disease, the little lies we tell ourselves
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- Tha little lies we tell ourselves with alcohol and drugs.
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I think your wife rocks. She stuck by you through the fire man. A lot to be said for that. Ive been through a lot of relationships. Always wish someone would stand with me through the b.s. they did what they had to do leaving my dysfunctional a**. Just saying I think there's something special when someone sticks with you through the worst.
Well said Shane
Thann you man! She really is such a great woman. I knew from the first time that we met that I was going to end up married to her. There was a connection that I can't explain. I'm sorry that you have been through so many relationships, that has to be hard. Thank you so much for saying that. I will be sure to show her your comment. She will definitely appreciate you saying that. God bless you brother.😊
Hi thank you for other great video. Today 4 month sober
Hope you are well
Congratulations!! 4 months is awesome!! Keep charging ahead toward your future 🎉🎊🎉
Congrats on four months! 🙏Stay good!
Hey! That's so cool! Thann you for sharing that! How are you feeling after 4 months? Have you gotten your energy back? How are the cravings doing? Thank u! God bless 😊
Heak yeah!! WAY TO GO!
Prayers going up!
One, two or three beers is not enough to have any fun/enjoyment. You gotta get to at least 4 to really get the buzz started and then an additional 6-8 or so to maintain throughout the night. Totally not worth it--the hazardous amount of alcohol is lower than the enjoyable amount of alcohol. It's unworkable. Alcohol is a total rip-off.
I look forward to your videos man. We relate so much you have no idea. It's like your my buddy and I'm waiting to hear from you everyday to see how you're doing lol. Thank you for being so humble and putting yourself out there. You definitely bring the awareness and you at the very least keep me going strong man.
He has a gift as a motivational speaker. This is his calling.
Thank you! I really appreciate you letting me know that these videos help. It's what I am here for. Thank you for watching everyday, to make sure I'm ok, that's so nice of you! God bless😊
I so admire you! I could easily be in the same situation. I’m 59 and have been drinking since my teen years. Beer at first then 3-6 vodka drinks per day for as long as I can remember. From as soon as I got home from work until my bedtime, which fortunately for me was around 8:00 since my days start at 4:00am as a route delivery driver. Every year after my required physical I would hold my breath waiting for the results. When they came back ok, I saw it as a green light to keep it up. Since discovering your videos a few months ago and deciding that I needed to get in better shape. (Knees and legs bothering me at a weight over 250) I started searching through UA-cam for solutions and found the carnivore diet and you. That was in November. Since then, I’ve stopped drinking and lost 45 lbs . Also my inflammation has all but gone! 90% better! Cutting out all the sugar and carbs has worked miracles for me as far as my joint pain is concerned. I’ve also implemented 48 hour fasts that I was surprised to learn, helps your body heal itself. Once you pass 24 hours without food, your body goes into autophagy (sp?) During that phase it breaks down the bad (diseased) cells in your body and replaces them with brand new healthy ones. Works wonders for cancer patients and even improves the memory score tests in dementia patients. This has all been mind blowing information to me as it seems to go against the recommended standards but “the proof is in the pudding” as they say. Check it out for yourself. Look for Dr Ken Berry on UA-cam. The next time you’re in Charleston, let me buy you lunch!
Thank you so much! That is so cool to hear! I'm so happy to hear that! Congratulations on losing the weight and getting back healthy. I appreciate you sharing this information with me! I will be in Charleston on the 4th Thru the 7th. That would be cool to meet you in person! Let me know! God bless
Holy crap!!! I’ve never been so jaw on the floor from a comment before.
I admire the hell out of you!
Look what you’ve done. I absolutely love hearing from people who when they get it something in us just changes. Wow congratulations 🎊
You must feel like a completely new person. For some of us it just clicks.
So happy for you
Take care
@@Kristen10-22 Thank you so much for the kind words!
@@dt7917 you are amazing 🤩 for real! Survivor!
Thank you for your videos I stopped drinking exact 37 days back after 10-15 years of alcoholism last 6 was horrible. A half bottle of vodka and 3 beer minimum.yesterday my cousin siter marriage happened in india i got so many calls and chatting everybody said you changed a lot not speaking like how I was(it's all under the influence of alcohol) all off sudden my mind shaken started to think about to have a bottle of beer I was in two mind state then I watched your video it helped me .Iike you said in you previous video i went and look inside my car I never cleaned my car for months it took 3-4 hours time to clean my car.once I done the cleaning I feel myself I did something good and I completely forgot about the beer.thank you bro thanks for your videos .Jesus bless you and your family.Happy anniversary both of you
Hey G. I used to think I could just have a mixed drink. After that one drink I started ordering double shot of tequila no ice. Then I seen The Rock glass wasn't filled to the top so I would order a triple. LOL. Everything I tried was bullshit😢. Almost 7 weeks and I'm still trying to tell myself I could have a couple 😢. I'm getting smarter but the alcohol is still deceiving me. Great topic. I'm not even drinking and I'm making excuses to drink. How insane is this life! Love you G.
7 weeks!!! Life is insane but we’re lucky we don’t have to go at it alone.
Happy for you J Girl♥️. It sucks I get it. 7wks is huge… wow! Thanks for putting this huge smile on my face 2nite. U keep putting one foot in front of the other. Just breathe.
The best part comes when we aren’t looking. Big hugs K
Hopefully everything goes well??? With both procedures. Will keep you in my prayers.. and sending you positive thoughts.. 😊 thank you for your videos again.
Thank you! 😊 I really appreciate you saying that and thank you for the prayers! I truly believe in the power of prayer, it works! God bless😊
all of those lies you listed were my lies too, from postponing a quit date, to kicking a quit date down the road, to making false promises; all of it. your mother nature outro was awesome. ty.
Hi David I hope you are well.
Think of you often
Hugs Kristen
Thank you, man! I'm glad that I thought to record it. I always see things like that, coyotes, raccoons, and foxes. I need to remember from now on to record it. Yeah man... all the ones I listed, I used myself as well. Never worked. Thank you, you are always appreciated! God bless 😊
@@Kristen10-22 hey kristen. ty for the kind words. i am doing well. hope to see you in next saturday's live stream. i will be there!
@@david_fl507 David I’m so happy to hear from you. Good to hear your doing good. Me too.. hanging around outside mainly. It’s been in the 70’s & sunny. No humidity until April here in Houston, Texas. I’ll be sure to see yall Nxt wknd. Hugs 🤗
Good luck with the oral surgery, my friend! Speaking of the dentist, I went in for a cleaning the other day. My dentist said my teeth and gums have never looked better. They didn't bleed anymore. The only thing I changed was stopping drinking alcohol and starting to drink water with crystal light. I hope that gives people hope if they're worried about their oral health. We do heal!! God bless LD!!
Thank you so much! That is so awesome! It's crazy how many different things that alcohol effects in our bodies. It's not just the liver, it damages almost every part of our body. Congratulations on your sobriety! Thank you for Watching! God bless😊
My dentist in the UK did not do any scaling of my teeth for years.then I started bleeding from my gums so bad it was vile. I'm now under a university hospital and omg they achieved so much! I take tranexamic acid daily and since scaling my teeth the bleeding is now none existing!! It has given me so much more confidence and comfort as I bled so bad on a night when sleeping. I'm going to have two front veneers fitted Monday and I'm so excited. ❤❤
@avalancheonmaui8965 no where can I watch please ❤
Hi there! I’ve been following you for awhile now…Thank you so much for sharing your story! I believe the actress you’re speaking of is Claudia Christian…she promotes the Sinclair Method to attempt to control or eliminate drinking alcohol. I actually use that method and it has been a LIFESAVER for me! I’m actually at the point now that I am losing interest in alcohol! I’m SOOO looking forward to being completely alcohol free 🥰
Hey LD - I hear that the brand new Wendy Williams documentary is really illuminating her alcoholism and the implosion of her life, including her being under a conservatorship. And there’s a neurological/cognitive issue that supposedly is also the result of long-term alcoholism. It’s on lifetime and I’ll be watching today. Just thought you might want to check it out too ❤
You hit me under the belt. I recently fell for the "I've been good for a long time, sure I can have some drinks with my friend" lie I told to myself. Long story short, it was a disaster and now I'm taking Antabus again.
I've been listening to your videos without headphones so my partner can hear them too. He was a bit aversive at first but I think he's listening.
I am sorry I forgot to wish you both a Happy anniversary on my last comment. Sooo Happy Anniversary Mr. LB and Mrs LB. It is great you were able to surprise her. I am ao glad you are staying in the hospital this procedure. Praying for your continued healing through your journey. I so look forward to your lives!
Hey there! No worries at all! Thank you for saying that, I really appreciate it! I am definitely staying this time to make sure that all is good before I leave. I want to make sure my bloodwork is done and everything is a ok too. God bless😊
I’m glad your hear too not sure how I ran into your videos but I’m always searching on liver stuff from people who have first hand knowledge of this and I heard in one of your videos of you saying you knew God and knowing you have a relationship with Jesus makes the videos more enjoyable to watch if I hadn’t been a heavy drinker I’m not sure I would have met Jesus myself. My sin Made me see my need for a savior. Thank you so much for all you do
Great advice as ever. Well it’s midnight here in Scotland so I’ll bid you goodnight and take good care of yourself. The deer at the end of the video are precious. Thank you for sharing. ❤
Hey ther3 in Scotland! Have a good night! Thann you for watching and I appreciate you saying that about the deer! God bless
Wow Scotland!! A part of the world I’d love to see. Maybe the next go around. I bet it’s a beauty like no other. Have a good sleep
OMG 4
Oh u talk to em like I talk to animals too.
Freaking amazing
I need all the wildlife u can record ❤
Hahahaha!!!!! I sound so country when I said that!
@@liverdisease-qb6rk Alan Jackson
“Gone Country” ♥️
Absolutely and you never follow through with those rules. I always tried to make silly agreements with myself and they failed every time.
That Buck Deer 🦌 says: Are you talking to us? We live here too. This is a our land. They are Beautiful!!❤
Hahahaha!!! They sure did! They looked at me like. You leave! Thank you for being here! How ate you feeling? God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I’m still very sick and hurting. I go to dr appt on Wednesday. Utube asked me about your channel and I told them that your channel was very encouraging and inspirational to me. 5 Stars ⭐️!💞
So glad you are shopping to Canada. I’m going to wait until the rest of the merch comes out to get more bang for the buck! Plus I need an excuse to buy more merch lol. Great video!
Ditto!
Love and let live . That's awesome . Great listen this evening . Have a great weekend . No need for a reply my friend 😂. Loved seeing the deer.😂😊
Thank you so much! I thought you guys might like that, God bless.
I’m also laughing so hard over the deers at the end. lol. You yell at them and they just stare. I think it’s your southern accent that made it even better!!! 🦌 loved it. I wish I woke up to deer in the morning btw. I only wake up to raccoons lol.
Hilarious!! I agree ☝️
Hahahaha!!!! I went back and watched it. I sound soooo country when I said that to them! God bless
Hahahaha!!!! I went back and watched it. I sound soooo country when I said that to them! God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk lol southern gentleman not country 🤠
For people wanting to stay sober, think of the future and your family, the first few weeks or even months after being severe alcoholic is the worst, night sweats, hallucinations, unable to sleep or always tired. Do everything your doctor tells you to do, take the right vitamins (not selling snake oils) I was so nutrients deficient i have the bone density of a 60-70 year old while being late 30s, lacking all vitamin groups, the way the doctor put it is that while vitamin supplements for the general public is a scam because you don’t need it while healthy, but my body don’t have even the basics to stay functioning let alone to recover, stay focus and determined and off alcohol
I tell that demon I see u
U aren’t welcome in my head.
Get the puck out
Not today Satan U will never get me ever
It's impressive that you come up with a topic to discuss every single day! All so relateable!
Wondered how u were doing? Good to see you doing well. Prayers for your pancreatic procedure.. 😊❤
Your so sweet. Thank you for being so kind to those beautiful deer. God bless you 🙏.
Thank you! I couldn't hurt them. They are too cute. God bless
I look forward to your videos each day more than anything. I’m so sorry you have to go through more surgery but you’re a very brave young man to be facing it. I believe it will help you tremendously. Take good care and stay strong.❤
Hey there! The Good House, a movie starring Sigourney Weaver comes to mind, having listened to some parts of your conversation tonight.
I just hate the fact that you and others are still so consumed with the thought of having a drink after everything you’ve been through?!
Stay strong 💪🏼 So till next time 🙌🏼🌺
Ps no need to reply 😊
I could NOT manage my addiction. It’s all or nothing.
Yep I’d tell hb hold onto my bottle of pain meds for me. Don’t give me any even if I tell u I have a migraine.
He’d fall for my whining every time & in the end he’d just give it to me.
I’ve never seen him cry so hard. I scared him that bad.
I can’t hurt him for Satan.
Hell b done for real.
Nothing is worth losing my best friend/hubby & son.
Oh one more comment from Jersey girl. I'm starting to see just how insane alcohol addiction is when I want to celebrate my sobriety with a drink 😮 😮 😮
Right? It’s I’ll pop a Vicodin ES it’s 2pm! Haven’t had one in an hour.
It’s insanity!
Hey LD glad you had a nice anniversary. The small voices can be very convincing but you’re so right for most of us it’s never just one. Thanks for the video yesterday on leaving Las Vegas I saw that movie so many years ago Nicolas cage did a really great job in the character. Loved the deers such majestic creatures. You’re blessed to have them. You definitely have a few busy weeks ahead please take the time to heal. We’re all here supporting you just as much as you’re here supporting us.
Loved seeing the deer, that was awesome. What other kind of wild life to you have over there? Im grom Utah, so im surrounded by mountains with deer, elk, and bob cats. Ive been over to Tennessee last year, but would love to visit the carolinas sometime. Thanks for the video! You rock!
It would be awesome to hear from your wife. She probably has some very valuable insights that would be helpful for everyone. Thanks
Well I had committed before and really don’t have anyone to share with so I’ll post here. I had some varies that showed up on a ct because of a er visit for bleeding I posted that this news the other week. They knew I had liver cirrhosis and wanted me to have a upper gi as well as a lower for the bleeding but didn’t believe the bleeding was from liver stuff. Tried to make appointment with a doctor in town so I would not have to drive to Emory so they said they wouldn’t see me cause I was dismissed as a patient so the only thing I can think of is 6 years ago while I was drinking I must have done something or said something that made them not want to see me so I’m red flagged. You know how you drink so much that you can’t remember a whole lot in past. My past alcohol use made me I know say stuff to this day when family or friends tell me how awful it was I’m so heartbroken. I’m six years out and I hate the past and what I used to be. Through it all I did meet Jesus and he change everything about my past. No I’m not perfect but I’m forgiven I know sin sometimes has consequences but it still hurts that I allowed myself to get to that point and hurt so many people with my drinking and attitude it just breaks my heart and I hate the fact some doctors want see me even though I know I’m a different man because of the Lord. I just had to share this hopefully there are people out there who knows the heartache I feel right now and give me advice on how to move on from this cause even though the Lord forgave me and my family did. Some people just can’t forgive and that hurts to my deepest core and sometimes I just cry half the night over my past cause I absolutely hate who I was back then but it seems like even though I’m doing good on the stopping the drinking and living for the Lord and like I get kicked down by this world and the devil that’s it’s hard to breathe
Your videos are spot on☺️. You help me and many others with their sobriety. Thank you for all you do 🙏🫂❤️
The big book, I’m not in AA however my recovery program is a 12 stepper and the therapist refer to the big book at times however some of the people struggle with believing in a hire power and there’s a few new types of recovery practice that teaches that alcoholism is not a disease and if you stop drinking your no longer an alcoholic. I love everything about anything said or done by everyone who helps me stay sober and healthy. LD and the rest of us here keep hope alive!
I lied and would go through detox every time without anyone knowing.
I just had the flu while inside scared poopless
Maybe, this time its time, too congratulate you on your wife. I can sense , that there is much love going on. I love, that and am very glad, that you have that support. Congrats on your anniversery. My teeth, are next in line, shi....my pants on that date. I long for the spring to come.
As an “addict” The one I can think of is
“I will NOT go through their medicine cabinet or snoop through the kitchen cabinets.”
I got almost a high planning where I was going to look once we walked in to a friends house.
I’d have the audacity to switch from kindness to bitchy when they’d not have any pain meds.
Like they were supposed to support my habit.
Wow! That's so crazy that so say that. I was just watching a news broadcast today, I don't remember which state. But, these elderly people had a physical therapist coming to their house to help them and they caught him on camera stealing their pain pills. He was going through their medicine cabinet. This just happened like 2 days ago. And I read Mathew perry's book. He said that he would do the same thing. He would have real-estate agents take him to houses to show him and he would go into the bathroom and steal pills from strangers houses. I just find that ironic that I just saw that this morning and you say this here today. Thank you Kristen! God bless😊
@@liverdisease-qb6rk yes… I probably would have been in trouble had I not been in extended family’s homes & now everybody has cameras. I could never ever go to an open house & look. Idk why I have this deep deep sense of not breaking the law or getting into govt trouble like with the DEA. Idk why I’m like this & other family got stuff from the street. I remember back in 2000 sponsors talked about going through med cabinets.
I think a topic u could cover one day would be “wet brain”… 🧠
Like I’ll tell on my disease or quit a job before I lose it due to my addiction. I can’t work in nursing & pass out pain med. God I miss taking care of my patients. I had to choose me though. Thank you D
@@liverdisease-qb6rk Weird huh?
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I’ve never shared such a dark secret & utter sense of shame. To put that out on social is kinda scary. Maybe it’ll help someone. I’ve tried to turn the b ca mess into a message but my bpd had me running away. Shared too much too quick. I needed a meeting where people suffered trauma instead of the color pink, rainbow’s & butterflies. I haven’t found one yet.
@@liverdisease-qb6rk oh & LD there are more addicts in healthcare that steal patients meds. They just don’t get caught or put it on the news.
An RN in H town was taking out dilaudid from syringes & replacing it with saline. She was caught
Im six months sober myself. Ill never drink that poison again. I have never felt better in my life. Being sober is amazing!
It really is! Congratulations on 6 months! That's so awesome! Keep up the good fight! God bless
Deer? U r so funny it’s all good
They made u blush awe
Huh
Ooh nice!! I’m so happy for yall
You rock too buddy. Much love from California. Keep your head up.
Thank you so much! You rock too! God bless
I don't know if this is from AA, but it resonates with me. 1 drink is never enough. There may be more to it, but i just need this part.
Thank you! I got the idea from the big book today when I was reading it. It is never enough. It was never enough for me until I was blacked out. Thank you! God bless😊
One drink is too many, a thousand is not enough
I’m 150 days sober today! I can’t believe it has been 5 months since my last drink
@@Nadias_Nook way to go!!! It’s crazy how fast time goes when we’re busy living. Congrats again
@@Nadias_Nook Congratulations my friend! How are you feeling? You are doing the best and hardest thing you may ever do. It sure feels great to kick that demon alcohol back to where it came from, hell. Love and prayers
I have 4 deer that come into my backyard often, i love watching them especially when there is a fawn.
Really good video! It's like satan(the father of all lies) sitting there on your shoulder and whispering "go ahead, drink it, you deserve it! It will make everything better! It never does!
Love you my friend ❤️
Oh man, I was all about bargaining with myself. I would have moments where I'd try to think of all the reasons why I wanted to follow through, and then I'd find an excuse. And it felt like going to Disney when I found that good reason to cave. And towards the end, I remember thinking most often after caving, "That's it??" Bc it didn't even feel like fun anymore. It was purely just comfort I was seeking. Or relief. Or sometimes, just sleep! And that description for the warm fuzzy feeling, so relatable. For me it was like a warm hug. It was like the comfort of a friend. Because I had been rejecting those closest to me for years! Anyways, sorry for always writing a long comment. These videos are just so relatable, and I feel seen. Haha 😊 there's only so much of this part of my life that I can share with my family, so. End ramble! God bless and continue killing it, friends!
Thank you for sharing your experience with this! It's scary how many of us have done the exact same things! It really is. So many people say the same thing, they can relate to the t. You can write a comment as long ad you need, don't ever worry about that. It takes a lot sometimes to get your point across, I totally get it. I hope all is well. God bless friend 😊
@liverdisease-qb6rk that is so kind to say. Thank you! I def struggle with short and sweet. I usually decide to just click send even though I'm rambling bc all of our similar experiences and feelings on the topic help to take novelty and isolation away from our struggle. We can all be so different but have so much in common! Especially in our empathy and care. Have a great night, friend
The first 164 pages are the same as as it was at publication in 1939. There’s 4 editions and the only changes are the personal stories. In 1971 Bill W was earning around 65K$ a year in in royalties from the Big Book and 3 others he wrote for AA and in February 1986 his wife Lou’s received 912,500$ in royalties. His girlfriend also gets a part too.
Thank you for telling me this! I had absolutely no idea! That's so cool to know. I really appreciate you being here! God blesz😊
Only drinking after 5 pm! Making deals with yourself like John Malkovich in Burn After Reading 😂😂❤
God Bless you Brother, Praying for peace on you, have a blessed Sunday !!
Thank you . Lied to myself all my years about anything I put in me to feel better and never found that good feeling . Blessed today but I missed so much of the way it could have been if that makes sense .
Makes complete sense. I’m sorry
Many hugs & prayers
My aunt told me a story of a man who had been in recovery for years. My Uncle was an AA sponsor. They went out to dinner and the man ordered a glass of wine with dinner. He said, I feel at my age, I can enjoy a wine with dinner. This was after many years of sobriety. He went back to being a full blown alcoholic. That story sticks with me.
I lied to myself all the time. I truly wasn't aware of it. Alcoholism is a cunning, sneaky, animal for sure.
you rock!
Your house is beautiful. 😊 It's been windy here in NC too.
I heard people can live 30 years with liver transplant.
I did not know that. That's great to hear! It's so good that they can do that for people in need. Thank you for sharing! God bless
You take it easy..
Listen to your body & Im so grateful your staying in this time.
Hb had his wisdom teeth pulled last year.. 52 lol!
He did great & they were impacted.
Cool! I hope that it's not too bad. Thank you! God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I have a feeling you’ll be good 😊
I am an addiction counselor and I SO agree with you.
Oh yeah, the spins are nuts!
I was just not a good drunk. Alcohol & I were not going to have. Relationship I knew that early on.
I’d just end up puking on myself at 17yo after the bars, in drive thru, x boyfriends mom cleaning it up in the driveway in the am. The spins just everything about it. Not worth it… I must have been still searching for my drug of choice.
I'd leave the great architect shit behind