people are so immature and shallow,materialistic,egotistic,narcissistic its no wonder we quit jobs and want to be alone but its better than living in ignorance.
i have noticed that we can have deep discussion even with people at work. I don't know how old are you but I'm 20 and i realize that with everyone litterally I can have deep discussion about life or how I see life. Not really right away you can do that but step by step, depends on the person, with someone right away with others occurs some days
I think beacuse we are made of love, and so we have to see the other people throught that eyes and not when the eyes of the eye. Don't judge people by their pattern of behaviour, beacuse they are a reflection of ourselves
I needed this so badly, today of all days. I feel so lonely and like I cannot connect with anyone and it has been hurting me so badly inside. Thank you for this.
TheChubbbybunny hOnEsTlY I've isolated myself all day and I cant help but just lay in my bed with my crystals saying mantra, in hopes that "this too shall pass." Love and light!
TheChubbbybunny same here. I have been so lonely and sad, it is unbearable. Every once in a while if I crank music I like and allow my mind to enter the music I find solace. I am in the process of divorcing also which compounds the loneliness. Everyone says not to date and I’m terrible at it anyway because I’m honest. I don’t play games. So things feel very bleak right now. Very hard coping.
TheChubbbybunny I began to view people like Munchkins in Oz, who seem to come ‘short’ of understanding. I mean, Glenda waved the Wand over Dorothy’s third eye & she ascended over the 7 colors of the rainbow (7 colors of chakra) alone. She didn’t teach the munchkins ab ascension, she didn’t even invite her 3 friends to ascend with her. No, she left Oz alone. She followed her heart (red shoes) to overcome her ego (wicked witch). She ascended this dual reality (witch/wizard)🌈Although I think happiness is boring when it’s not shared:(
Thank you so much for this video! I really needed to hear this. I feel lonely since a very long time. I am spiritual since a child, however tried to suppress it cause I thought I will end up in hell. I am 20 years old only and it is so hard finding like-minded people of my age and in general. A few weeks ago I completely surrendered and now my life changed, nothing is like before. I am not the same person anymore and I feel like I can't connect with my friends on a deep level anymore. I live far away from my family members, but they never really accepted me the way I am anyway. So I feel quite lonely and miss my ex boyfriend very much since he was the only one who wanted to explore spirituality with me. :'( I had visions of us coming back together in a shamanic meditation but my friends say that he will never come back and I am full of doubts, too. Those dark entities and negative thoughts/manifestations are a thing since my early childhood, it never left and I have to take care of that every night since I live alone. I really hope this phase of loneliness and anxiety will end soon. But besides all of this, I am so thankful for the gifts from the universe. I would never want to exchange it for a normal mundane life without spirituality, even if I wouldn't feel lonely and anxious and could connect with people more easily. I will follow your advise and stay tuned. Thank you so much!
I was devastated when I talked to my family about what I've learned, and they smacked me down very forcefully. Then I really turned inward and found support online. I cried a lot, and it was very healing. Shockingly, I am now helping my mom as she is beginning to see that almost everything they teach us is a lie. It's a wonderful feeling to help others make sense of this craziness.
Terry Wurden: Well I guess what I experienced was pretty tame in comparison to you. Lol. I got the old eye rolls and "You're not going to talk about THAT again?" My mom did yell at me once when I was telling her about changes in the Bible due to Mandela Effect.
I am currently going through this right now. It’s almost like I feel bad about wanting to shut myself away, because I’m usually an extrovert. But now, in this moment of being, I’m not motivated to do the same things with the same people anymore. Thank you for this video. Your spiritual insight and guidance gave me peace to my soul.
Ever since I started meditation. During my awakening, I started to fade myself away from friends and especially who has a very low vibration (full of negativity, hatred etc..) because as an empath I could feel it and it somewhat depressing. I stopped watching news as well... most importantly, I started doing everything alone and In needed to be alone from time to time just to recharge. Sometimes I ask myself “ am I lonely right now?” I just never been this way before as I was an extrovert. Now everything is just so opposite than who I used to be. I even turn vegetarian without having to force myself. I think this big change is just meant to be. I’m at peace with myself as I have never been before. I’m so glad to know that many of you are also experiencing the same thing. You guys are not alone. Thank you for your amazing advice too
Thank you soul mates (spirit guides) for nudging me to watch this video. I recently followed my heart after 2 years of the dark night of the soul and moved to Colorado. I am now at the jumping off point in my awakening and must get out and meet people. I must find my tribe.. This is not easy. I have been alone for years, working from home to boot! Thank you for your video! I had a long cry and am so so grateful for your message. Just know that you made a difference in this soul today and helped me to allow myself to be where I am at with joy! Much love and light and I thank you for you!
Hey Mr Floyd, which one's Pink? :) With the formalities out of the way, let me just say that i know how you feel. i believe it is a "stage", a sometimes lonely and isolated one, that we all must go through in this "awakening" process. May i recommend looking into Meetup for "awakening related groups" that might be of interest to you? Or perhaps, start your own group on a subject that really interests you, and then see if anybody shows up. i have done this myself and have found a small group of people that like to get together once per week to talk about Joseph Campbell's view of mythology, symbology, philosophy and science. i hope this was helpful. All the best on your journey. peace
The loneyliness was too much... It just feels you never get out of it, but suddenly after 2 years you somehow coming back :) Still going through it but I am confitend it will finish and be alright! Thans a lot about your effort making this video! I really apreciate it
Non of my friends believe me when I talk about my tarot card practices, my out of body’s experience and paranormal experiences. It really makes me sad and frustrated....
So, I'm coming out of my second dark night.. Not ready for others, but I would measure that readiness in weeks. My guides laugh and call this my "surgery".. When it started happening again and I started to "hear" the words "surgery"... I was able to relax more... Even feel greatful (after my ego popped) because I already had that faith from the first time. Anyone who is going through.. Keep going, have faith and. That's right.. LOVE you! Nicky, you are such a blessing 💗!
Was desperately lonely for over a year, when I actually started to really love being alone! It gave me the quality time with myself that I realized I had been craving for some time. Time to express myself creatively, be out in nature, and discover what truly brought me joy. It was funny because once I was truly happy just being with myself, that's when people I could relate to in a big way started showing up!
I've been going through a spiritual awakening. I didn't even know what it was until I came across it online. I read an article about it. I didn't have a clue what was going on with me until I came across this. Yes, lately, I've been extremely lonely. I don't go out and do anything. I just don't do the things I use to do. I want to reach out but no one will understand me. They'll think I'm crazy for even mentioning it. The best way I've been coping with this is through prayer and meditation. It's an uncomfortable process.
I am having breakdown and Need to leave a unfullfilling relashionship with a deeply unconcious man child, Its painful and I do feel alone. I will be sober and fly with pride. I will get through it and stay here but its hard. Thanks for you and others that are exacly like me.
Have faith that some day he may choose to awaken. Were there not times in your life that you may have been described as childish and unconscious? You may wake up at different times. I speak from personal experience so if I am off base, that's likely why. I felt as if my now ex-wife was trying to force me to wake up and it felt as if it was coming from a place of egotism, her thinking higher of herself than she did of me. That may have not been the case at all but that is how it felt. Had I felt more accepted by her for who I was at that point in my life, I may have been more open to seeing the truth and opened my eyes much sooner. He may be hearing what it is you tell him but if he perceives it as preachy or demeaning, he will be more likely to push back. Perhaps do your own thing and he may take interest. That may look like the two of you together or separate, but it is my feeling that we should not judge others for where they are on their spiritual journey. We cannot force others to open their eyes but we can believe in their ability to do so. And in doing so, regardless of where your relationship goes, you will more easily continue to have love for him, regardless of any desire or lack thereof to have closeness with him. ✌️
I dont know if its a spiritual awaking or the end of my life but I feel that something is going on with me...Its hard to explain but I feel like there are so many forces fighting within me...Negative and positive...Faith and giving up...I feel it so strong..It makes me feel so lost...I dont know my life direction or purpose...I just want to isolate myself, I dont want to do anything or be around anyone apart from trying to understand myself and my life while watching spiritual videos...
Pinakkolada me and you is in the same boat lmao i feel like every since I been on dialysis my goals and ambitions been on a all time low and I haven’t been the same since I have happy moments yes but I still go through great resentments and grief when I’m to myself even when I’m around others I’m not around.
So my parents are muslim.. I highly disagree with the beliefs and today I admitted it to them. I felt a great release of energy and tension after doing such.. I believe that this journey is infinite and we awaken when we are one with our true nature..
Besides waking up every single night at 3am, when I am awake and going throughout my day, I am experiencing glitches in waking life. Its happening more and more, as if my life is a computer program and its starting to break down. Its happening more and more frequently as the months go by. Also, my senses are even more hypersensitive than they already are. Its all starting to freak me out a little but I just keep surrendering to it every day, telling myself these are just ascension symptoms. I can’t talk about this stuff cuz people will think I’m crazy. Anyone else get this happening to them?
I’m Going through this phase now,, it’s very weird but I’m trying to follow my inner voice which tells me to stay alone this time, trying to get more information as I can,, but the hardest thing that When I try to communicate with people again or be with any group of people I feel like no one think like me or even no one understand me so I keep silent without any participation,, I feel like I’m Stranger
Thank you for this. I feel so detached from everyone and everything. I'm not lonely, I like being on my own, but just get the feeling i dont belonging here.
Oh most certainly! I was such a hermit! I kept having this vision of crawling back into my own womb and staying there to heal. I wanted that solitude so badly! But i have two small children, so i couldnt...but i did retract from everyone. I am definitely in the emergence stage, but I cant say I feel fully healed....I suppose that will be a while yet...I do have an autoimmune condition that is flaring up right now, but since 'awakening' it has better than it has been in the past. I feel that I can fully heal, once i find a balance with the right kind of foods and self healing with Reiki. Love all your Videos Nicki, its like you have been holding my hand and walking me through this whole process! Much love and light! xoxo
Thank you Nicky. This video was sent from God for me today. Been feeling like a happy hermit after 6 years of waking up time. It's starting to turn around in so many ways, learning to relate to family and friends in a new way and it's OK, lonely has heck, but I am sure that very soon we will be forming our tribes and coming together to create our new world, the old is clearly disolving. Today is my wedding aniversary. My husband Chris Sutton passed in 2012. I like it that you share his name. Peace!
I wish I had looked for this a while ago. A shift within me started years ago. But I had this earthquake within my soul, my mind, my body. This infinite love of myself, that it was time to take and note all my shortcomings, but also start healing from a traumatic, dysfunctional, violent childhood that led me back to people that will mistreat me just like it happened to my mother. I recreated a vicious cycle of repetition and my own defect additions of self destruction. I had a great job, i was materialistic, vain(sadly it was just a mask to my unworthiness). I became self aware it hurt, honesty hurts. But my awakening was palpable. I did become weird to many people and did lost many friends due to fear of my snippets of true. I started making people think and that was the opposite of who my shallow self was. However, there has been within me goodness, i have always had and have deep empathy and consideration of others feelings. I guess with all that garbage and baggage I carried I always treated every one as I want to be treated. I did spent almost 2 years disconnected from humans. I can't relate, i feel that they need to evolve, and its just what it is. I actually love being alone with my own company.
@@Kingreddoberman what do you mean I can't relate? I am everything, and nothing at the same time. I can relate because it was me a time before my awakening.
@@alexandraschuster9700 My apologies, not that you can not relate but that I can not relate. Doessn't seem to matter what anybody I talk to is talking about it's like I'm not connected. They talk about money but to me , even tho I'm broke, it's unimportant. They talk about politics but in my mind they are fighting a war that can never be won. They talk about sports or television and immediately I'm looking for the quickest way out. I feel like a stranger in a strange land. Does this make any sense?
@@Kingreddoberman I can relate to you. I find it frustrating the kind of empty conversations people have while sharing a moment with each other. Everything seems so vapid and self centered,however, just like you, me, and everyone else who are experiencing an awakening... those who aren't, it's because its not in their path, yet, or never. It doesn't matter so much to me anymore . I can only keep working on mine, seeking everyday to become the best version of myself. I always think its not in my cards yet to find my tribe. Love is the only thing that changes people.
Used to always be out with music & friends. Now, bored. I do feel quite lonely at home, however, bored with their seemingly ongoing criticisms & judgements of others. It makes me sad. Looking forward for this to pass. Needed to hear this, thank you! In Gratitude ... ❤
Nicky, thank you for your messages. I am so glad that I found you on UA-cam. You have answered all of my questions as I go through this awakening. I am going through this now and yes, I am now meeting like-minded people and I’m feeling better. Thank you. Sending you a great big virtual hug😊❤️❤️
Definitly feeling lonely and frustrated. I have a 2 and 4 year old that im taking care of 24/7 so it's difficult. I feel guilty that ive been in my head so much and though im always there, im not there. I need more time to meditate ans even thats hard. I hope for their sake this passes soon they need their mommy fully present, it's been a full year now so i hope the hardest is behind me
sleepwalking_past Hope, All my kids are grown thankfully, I’m not sure how it would have went if I had them to raise on top of it! I give you praise and comfort in knowing it does pass, And we have control in how quickly we pass through it as well, I know it is really hard to see that at the moment but if we can keep our vibrations high, especially when we are feeling at our lowest, it speeds up the process and makes it a bit less painful!! I wish love and harmony in your journey. Nicky helped me so very much through my awakening, I’m sure she will give you the same 🙂 much love to you and your family
I’m a mom of two young girls as well and it is difficult and I know if I was alone I can focus on this 100% but being a homemaker, a mother and finding yourself so to speak is difficult but we can get through it! Trust yourself! ❤️❤️
Thank you for this beautiful video. It resonated so strongly with me and helped me out today. I’ve found myself isolating so much but not due to any “depression” and I knew it was related to my awakening and this video just helped clarify all my questions and concerns. Much love to you!
Thank you so much. Perfect timing for me today!💙 🦋 This is has been something else for sure!. I’m only one month in and things have really changed for sure. The comment “death is a lie” really hit home to me.
This video was so very helpful! Explains why i have been feeling disconnected and feeling of being alone to some people. But watching this and reading the comments i see I'm not the only one that is going through this during my spiritual awakening journey.
I am definitely experiencing this phase of loneliness and feel now that I am desiring to be around others with like minds. I am thankful for this video and others like it. They help me get through the thick of times. And it reassures me that everything will be ok, and this too shall pass. Live in the now. Loving myself more as I get to know the true me. Peace, love, and respect. Hope all who have come here receive the true healing and peace within that they are in search of.
Thank you so much, hearing all this has just gave me room to breath, it's so nice to hear that I'm not alone in this process, Im smiling the biggest smile right now 🙏🏼 Love light and blessings to you my friend 🙏🏼🕉️🙏🏼☯️🙏🏼🌌🙏🏼🌈🙏🏼💗
I relate to everything into this video. I am now at a stage where I am loving my alone time and starting to accept the person I am now. Thankyou for making this video. It makes me feel alot better knowing that this phase does pass :) . Love and light
Thank you for the confirmation that I needed at this time. Yes awakening is very challenging but absolutely worth it, I finally feel whole-more complete but still lonely at times.
Thank you. Thank you so much. I needed to hear this today🙏🏼. I’ve been feeling that loneliness for 4 years now. Fortunately my partner “woke up” too, so I have that support....You are approaching 100 thousand subscribers! That is wonderful so many people are being led to you. Sending love and light to you always.
Another thing I realized just today, is that others think I just sleep a lot or am being anti social. They have no clue how active my inner life is. I’m nudged to explore stuff, then become obsessed and then have to process it often in the dream state or in quiet alone time. It’s actually very satisfying. I’m seeing that I’ve been judging myself against old standards of success and normalcy that no longer apply to me.
Joan Cardinale yes that's a big one, I found myself making up stuff that I've been busy with just so that they don't think I'm a 'loner' but intact that's where I've been for a long time needing that quiet processing time is so valuable. The balancing of seeing grandkids etc has been tricky as preferring my own space more even though I love seeing them.. It's quite a guilt trip you go through, even phone calls can be a chore at times.
It's so nice to see someone that gets it. This is exactly what I been going through and it's frustrating not having anyone to share it with and I cant see why people aren't as fascinated as I am
This spot on with where I am... I asked my spirit guides for help and some understanding as I have been doing more and more... I opened my laptop and here this video was... thank you for all your videos they help explain alot an to know that its okay to be waking up and its okay that most others around me are still sleeping or trapped... I press on thank you Peace and Blessings
Exactly what I experienced since some months and I am so happy to be able to be on my one during that time, though it is sometimes lonely. A lot of friends keep away or kept in touch very rare moments. I studied a lot about awakening and heard a lot of readings, because I met my Soulmate over 3 years ago too and it was very exhausting for both of us because of the far distance, just online and split up and restarted again in autumn 2019. Since Christmas silence again from his side.... What a carry on it is all together. But I feel inside very balanced now and been inspired since days, so excited for a new beginning... I am glad to found you, because you describe all the things I ask for clarity and the divine direct me to your channel... Thanks for that Nicky xx😇🙏💓
I’m discovering my true self and feel stronger every day. I now choose who I want to surround myself with instead of always saying yes when it’s not good for my soul. I’m so tired of low energy, needy people dragging me down. I went through the lonely stage but now I’m happy being alone. I know I will find my new tribe one day. Hang in there everyone. We are in this mass awakening together. 😁
I just uploaded a video about how lonely it is for me during my spiritual awakening which I'm going through right now. I spoke about how I wish I could meet spiritual people local to me so that I feel less lonely, but in this video you've mentioned so many other ways that I'm feeling lonely. I really did isolate myself from the world when my awakening happened and I'm finally feeling like I'm really do meet other people but they have to have been through their awakening too! I'm also struggling so much with the people who I have to work with because I can't be around their negativity at all. I'm so glad I found this video! x
Thank you very much Nicky I've been going through this at this time! People who were very close in my family thinking it's weird! It helps you talking about it..
You're amazing Nikki! You've helped raise my vibration in more way than I could count. Thank you for sharing your story. I LOVE the sunny vibes you share. ☀️❤
I quit my job last week and haven’t been around a lot of people this week. Prior to me quitting, I started growing out of old habits and interests. I wasn’t able to connect with people. I don’t have a job lined up yet but I feel calm now. I will be okay.
Best thing for everyone on this paths is to worry about your ownself because thos who are ignorant, will face great battles and tribulations, I've been feeling lonely for 10 years and I can honestly say I embrace it because IM different and love myself for being unique!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
We have felt the same mentality ! Like having lived what your saying here ! It's a passion for love and understanding plus wanting the world to be a better place to live !
awesome video .. most of what you say i completely relate to.. i'm still going through the "hermit phase" but im starting to grow and understand a lot more as well
This really resonates with me, Nicky. Over 30 years ago I was awakening. But because I didn’t fit in anymore, I decided to stop my awakening. The next 30 years got harder and harder, to the point where I am now. But I know this is happening for a reason - fro me to awaken properly this time! It quite sure how to “get there”, but am assuming meditation, and “praying” are good practices, and opening up to it and releasing my resistance/fear of it. If you or anyone else has some advice, I would gratefully receive it. Love and blessings.
Here you come on the subject of ego-collapse, which means the dying of an ego. In such cases, what is helpful is asking yourself questions like: how do I make life meaningful again?
I chose to turn my back on people and family when I started to realise how sly people really were. Waking up was the best thing I done.. now I like spending time alone revising learning meditating I know it'll pay off in the end! I'll carry on working with my angels spirit guides and talking with my ghosts people thinks I'm nuts but that's there problem not mine I'm happy studying metaphysics quantum physics past life's the paranormal and I will continue to carry all the knowledge. I would just advise people too stay grounded and do what they enjoy and don't let them tell you otherwise. My doctor's diagnosed me with pyschosis and I'm on a high dose of anti pyschotics but it doesn't stop me doing what I enjoy and at first the meds did dampen down and block communication with my guides but I just kept meditating and they came back after about 6 months.
Blessings for sharing your views. When mind is blessed with spiritual sweetest taste, then, the rest feels tasteless. Only the blessed souls (who had tasted the same) will understand it. I'm experiencing the same what you have mentioned in the video. I'm so thankful to higher self for showering the blessings, I'm in love with it and loneliness is my new friend :)
nailed it!!! Thank YOU!!! ~~~ Namaste ~~~Trying to "rearrange" my activities to coincide with other like minded individuals...I am finding false people who think they are enlightened..tough journey
I started investing in myself. Doing things that I long wanted to do but never did, like dancing, yoga, swimming, gardening. I couldn't be with many people out there, I kind of enjoyed the loniness, but sometimes it was weird. So doing productive things was and is the best outlet. All compliments and blends perfectly.
Wonderful video and so timely. I’ve been thru a long awakening and begin to question my own mental health from time to time. Lonely, not so much, but isolated definitely. I don’t have anything in common with my old friends and family members. It’s hard to participate in conversation bc our life views are so different. Also I consume much less alcohol, not that I’d drink a lot bf, but now it seems so transparent. They drink to socialize etc... Lastly, I want to thank you for recommending Daniel Scranton. His channeling of the Arcturian Council has resonated greatly and helped me to understand so much about myself. Much gratitude, Nicky
You've hit on many points of what I am going through in the past several months. It gets easier and easier lately for me as I have released so much and done a lot of spiritual work on myself. I don't have any friends in my hometown, but that's okay since I need to be alone and allow myself to transform without any interference from others. Thanks, Nicky!
As you stated most people end up seeking out videos & information about many concerns during their spiritual awakening (which is how I caught your video). First I wanna thank you for sharing. I am currently alone..... with an urge to release & also to gain knowledge & understanding.
Here is the helpful idea I use : Ask yourself : "Who do I know that can help me experience higher states " well unfortunately very very few - so your destiny will also be your own and should never be held to measure against anyone else.
Thank you so much for this! I feel so alone but I have accepted that now. Im purging, processing and I cant handle my old friends and their judgement anymore! I turn to people like you online and its ok for now! Thankyou
I've been on the journey to spiritual awakening this year. With my eyes now open, I'm aware. I've been meditating, being grateful, and so much more. And I have a coworker who is on the same journey. We share our experiences with delight. But other then that, if I share it with others who are not open to it, I get a look that would be equivalent to saying I'm gay in the 1950's. It's sad. Because it's seems like it's more acceptable to be told who and how to be through organized religion. Rather than finding your true sense of self. And a path to happiness. But I know I'm on it. And if your reading this, so are you. We're living our lives without google maps. We're just following the signs to our true destination. Much love to all!
thx a lot, been spending the last year on my own, afther my spiritual awakening, i left all my frtiends behind, im not even interested in them any more, thx for this video,it was really nice
AGREED! The only people I can relate to right know are the people ONLINE. youtube and other social media but not my family or friends.
MEGZ V same I just bond with them cuz they my family
I can't even relate to anyone whether online or offline.
Me too love 🥺😔🙏🏼🦋♥️
Same here
Same!
people are so immature and shallow,materialistic,egotistic,narcissistic its no wonder we quit jobs and want to be alone but its better than living in ignorance.
Sitting duck ... I can relate totally to this....
💔 you got me totally
i have noticed that we can have deep discussion even with people at work. I don't know how old are you but I'm 20 and i realize that with everyone litterally I can have deep discussion about life or how I see life. Not really right away you can do that but step by step, depends on the person, with someone right away with others occurs some days
I think beacuse we are made of love, and so we have to see the other people throught that eyes and not when the eyes of the eye. Don't judge people by their pattern of behaviour, beacuse they are a reflection of ourselves
I needed this so badly, today of all days. I feel so lonely and like I cannot connect with anyone and it has been hurting me so badly inside. Thank you for this.
TheChubbbybunny hOnEsTlY I've isolated myself all day and I cant help but just lay in my bed with my crystals saying mantra, in hopes that "this too shall pass." Love and light!
TheChubbbybunny same here. I have been so lonely and sad, it is unbearable. Every once in a while if I crank music I like and allow my mind to enter the music I find solace. I am in the process of divorcing also which compounds the loneliness. Everyone says not to date and I’m terrible at it anyway because I’m honest. I don’t play games. So things feel very bleak right now. Very hard coping.
Same!
TheChubbbybunny I never connect.u get used to it soo many sheeples arround us.on the phone's like zombies
TheChubbbybunny I began to view people like Munchkins in Oz, who seem to come ‘short’ of understanding. I mean, Glenda waved the Wand over Dorothy’s third eye & she ascended over the 7 colors of the rainbow (7 colors of chakra) alone. She didn’t teach the munchkins ab ascension, she didn’t even invite her 3 friends to ascend with her. No, she left Oz alone. She followed her heart (red shoes) to overcome her ego (wicked witch). She ascended this dual reality (witch/wizard)🌈Although I think happiness is boring when it’s not shared:(
Thank you so much for this video! I really needed to hear this. I feel lonely since a very long time. I am spiritual since a child, however tried to suppress it cause I thought I will end up in hell. I am 20 years old only and it is so hard finding like-minded people of my age and in general.
A few weeks ago I completely surrendered and now my life changed, nothing is like before. I am not the same person anymore and I feel like I can't connect with my friends on a deep level anymore. I live far away from my family members, but they never really accepted me the way I am anyway. So I feel quite lonely and miss my ex boyfriend very much since he was the only one who wanted to explore spirituality with me. :'( I had visions of us coming back together in a shamanic meditation but my friends say that he will never come back and I am full of doubts, too.
Those dark entities and negative thoughts/manifestations are a thing since my early childhood, it never left and I have to take care of that every night since I live alone.
I really hope this phase of loneliness and anxiety will end soon. But besides all of this, I am so thankful for the gifts from the universe. I would never want to exchange it for a normal mundane life without spirituality, even if I wouldn't feel lonely and anxious and could connect with people more easily.
I will follow your advise and stay tuned. Thank you so much!
I was devastated when I talked to my family about what I've learned, and they smacked me down very forcefully. Then I really turned inward and found support online. I cried a lot, and it was very healing. Shockingly, I am now helping my mom as she is beginning to see that almost everything they teach us is a lie. It's a wonderful feeling to help others make sense of this craziness.
I hear you Annette! My Mom would put her hands over each ear and declare " I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!" Lol!
Terry Wurden: Well I guess what I experienced was pretty tame in comparison to you. Lol. I got the old eye rolls and "You're not going to talk about THAT again?" My mom did yell at me once when I was telling her about changes in the Bible due to Mandela Effect.
glad I havent told anyone. Still playing dumb around people :(
MEGZ V: That's the smartest thing to do in the beginning.
Annette Morrison yes i guest i watch too many yt videos about spiritual awaking and i stumbled upon a video that says to tell everyone about it.
I am currently going through this right now. It’s almost like I feel bad about wanting to shut myself away, because I’m usually an extrovert. But now, in this moment of being, I’m not motivated to do the same things with the same people anymore. Thank you for this video. Your spiritual insight and guidance gave me peace to my soul.
It's sooo hard, and ongoing. For all those going through a spiritual awakening, "Hang in there. MUCH LOVE
Thank you
Ever since I started meditation. During my awakening, I started to fade myself away from friends and especially who has a very low vibration (full of negativity, hatred etc..) because as an empath I could feel it and it somewhat depressing. I stopped watching news as well... most importantly, I started doing everything alone and In needed to be alone from time to time just to recharge. Sometimes I ask myself “ am I lonely right now?” I just never been this way before as I was an extrovert. Now everything is just so opposite than who I used to be. I even turn vegetarian without having to force myself. I think this big change is just meant to be. I’m at peace with myself as I have never been before. I’m so glad to know that many of you are also experiencing the same thing. You guys are not alone. Thank you for your amazing advice too
spiritual awakening feels like hell , sometimes u just want to die :'(
Thank you soul mates (spirit guides) for nudging me to watch this video. I recently followed my heart after 2 years of the dark night of the soul and moved to Colorado. I am now at the jumping off point in my awakening and must get out and meet people. I must find my tribe.. This is not easy. I have been alone for years, working from home to boot! Thank you for your video! I had a long cry and am so so grateful for your message. Just know that you made a difference in this soul today and helped me to allow myself to be where I am at with joy! Much love and light and I thank you for you!
Hey Mr Floyd, which one's Pink? :)
With the formalities out of the way, let me just say that i know how you feel. i believe it is a "stage", a sometimes lonely and isolated one, that we all must go through in this "awakening" process.
May i recommend looking into Meetup for "awakening related groups" that might be of interest to you? Or perhaps, start your own group on a subject that really interests you, and then see if anybody shows up. i have done this myself and have found a small group of people that like to get together once per week to talk about Joseph Campbell's view of mythology, symbology, philosophy and science.
i hope this was helpful. All the best on your journey.
peace
Hey Mr Floyd, I feel the same way. Except I haven't moved to Colorado YET?? Been on my mind tho, what area do you reside?
The loneyliness was too much...
It just feels you never get out of it, but suddenly after 2 years you somehow coming back :)
Still going through it but I am confitend it will finish and be alright!
Thans a lot about your effort making this video!
I really apreciate it
Non of my friends believe me when I talk about my tarot card practices, my out of body’s experience and paranormal experiences. It really makes me sad and frustrated....
So, I'm coming out of my second dark night.. Not ready for others, but I would measure that readiness in weeks.
My guides laugh and call this my "surgery".. When it started happening again and I started to "hear" the words "surgery"... I was able to relax more... Even feel greatful (after my ego popped) because I already had that faith from the first time.
Anyone who is going through.. Keep going, have faith and. That's right.. LOVE you!
Nicky, you are such a blessing 💗!
Was desperately lonely for over a year, when I actually started to really love being alone! It gave me the quality time with myself that I realized I had been craving for some time. Time to express myself creatively, be out in nature, and discover what truly brought me joy. It was funny because once I was truly happy just being with myself, that's when people I could relate to in a big way started showing up!
Sheena Hoff awesome .I hope to be where you are one day.
I've been going through a spiritual awakening. I didn't even know what it was until I came across it online. I read an article about it. I didn't have a clue what was going on with me until I came across this. Yes, lately, I've been extremely lonely. I don't go out and do anything. I just don't do the things I use to do. I want to reach out but no one will understand me. They'll think I'm crazy for even mentioning it. The best way I've been coping with this is through prayer and meditation. It's an uncomfortable process.
I am having breakdown and Need to leave a unfullfilling relashionship with a deeply unconcious man child, Its painful and I do feel alone. I will be sober and fly with pride.
I will get through it and stay here but its hard. Thanks for you and others that are exacly like me.
omg I'm going through the same thing! if you ever wana chat, im here
Have faith that some day he may choose to awaken. Were there not times in your life that you may have been described as childish and unconscious? You may wake up at different times. I speak from personal experience so if I am off base, that's likely why. I felt as if my now ex-wife was trying to force me to wake up and it felt as if it was coming from a place of egotism, her thinking higher of herself than she did of me. That may have not been the case at all but that is how it felt. Had I felt more accepted by her for who I was at that point in my life, I may have been more open to seeing the truth and opened my eyes much sooner. He may be hearing what it is you tell him but if he perceives it as preachy or demeaning, he will be more likely to push back. Perhaps do your own thing and he may take interest. That may look like the two of you together or separate, but it is my feeling that we should not judge others for where they are on their spiritual journey. We cannot force others to open their eyes but we can believe in their ability to do so. And in doing so, regardless of where your relationship goes, you will more easily continue to have love for him, regardless of any desire or lack thereof to have closeness with him. ✌️
I dont know if its a spiritual awaking or the end of my life but I feel that something is going on with me...Its hard to explain but I feel like there are so many forces fighting within me...Negative and positive...Faith and giving up...I feel it so strong..It makes me feel so lost...I dont know my life direction or purpose...I just want to isolate myself, I dont want to do anything or be around anyone apart from trying to understand myself and my life while watching spiritual videos...
Pinakkolada me and you is in the same boat lmao i feel like every since I been on dialysis my goals and ambitions been on a all time low and I haven’t been the same since I have happy moments yes but I still go through great resentments and grief when I’m to myself even when I’m around others I’m not around.
So my parents are muslim.. I highly disagree with the beliefs and today I admitted it to them. I felt a great release of energy and tension after doing such.. I believe that this journey is infinite and we awaken when we are one with our true nature..
Besides waking up every single night at 3am, when I am awake and going throughout my day, I am experiencing glitches in waking life. Its happening more and more, as if my life is a computer program and its starting to break down. Its happening more and more frequently as the months go by. Also, my senses are even more hypersensitive than they already are. Its all starting to freak me out a little but I just keep surrendering to it every day, telling myself these are just ascension symptoms. I can’t talk about this stuff cuz people will think I’m crazy. Anyone else get this happening to them?
I’m Going through this phase now,, it’s very weird but I’m trying to follow my inner voice which tells me to stay alone this time, trying to get more information as I can,, but the hardest thing that When I try to communicate with people again or be with any group of people I feel like no one think like me or even no one understand me so I keep silent without any participation,, I feel like I’m Stranger
I am sobbing at minute 3. Finally someone is explaining to me what is HAPPENING to me! Thank you so much for this video.
Thank you for this. I feel so detached from everyone and everything. I'm not lonely, I like being on my own, but just get the feeling i dont belonging here.
Kevin Lacey same bro same
This is exactly what I needed right now. Thank you so very much 🌻❤️
Oh most certainly! I was such a hermit! I kept having this vision of crawling back into my own womb and staying there to heal. I wanted that solitude so badly! But i have two small children, so i couldnt...but i did retract from everyone. I am definitely in the emergence stage, but I cant say I feel fully healed....I suppose that will be a while yet...I do have an autoimmune condition that is flaring up right now, but since 'awakening' it has better than it has been in the past. I feel that I can fully heal, once i find a balance with the right kind of foods and self healing with Reiki. Love all your Videos Nicki, its like you have been holding my hand and walking me through this whole process! Much love and light! xoxo
Thank you Nicky. This video was sent from God for me today. Been feeling like a happy hermit after 6 years of waking up time. It's starting to turn around in so many ways, learning to relate to family and friends in a new way and it's OK, lonely has heck, but I am sure that very soon we will be forming our tribes and coming together to create our new world, the old is clearly disolving. Today is my wedding aniversary. My husband Chris Sutton passed in 2012. I like it that you share his name. Peace!
Terry Same here
Good job!
Still figuring out how to talk to people. I definately feel an outer loneliness but within I feel blessed and loved.
Your such a blessing to the planet. Your the best.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I wish I had looked for this a while ago. A shift within me started years ago. But I had this earthquake within my soul, my mind, my body. This infinite love of myself, that it was time to take and note all my shortcomings, but also start healing from a traumatic, dysfunctional, violent childhood that led me back to people that will mistreat me just like it happened to my mother. I recreated a vicious cycle of repetition and my own defect additions of self destruction. I had a great job, i was materialistic, vain(sadly it was just a mask to my unworthiness). I became self aware it hurt, honesty hurts. But my awakening was palpable. I did become weird to many people and did lost many friends due to fear of my snippets of true. I started making people think and that was the opposite of who my shallow self was. However, there has been within me goodness, i have always had and have deep empathy and consideration of others feelings. I guess with all that garbage and baggage I carried I always treated every one as I want to be treated. I did spent almost 2 years disconnected from humans. I can't relate, i feel that they need to evolve, and its just what it is. I actually love being alone with my own company.
Two years? Oh my, three months and counting. Yup, CAN NOT relate. Thanx for sharing, alexandra. You have been helpful.
@@Kingreddoberman what do you mean I can't relate? I am everything, and nothing at the same time. I can relate because it was me a time before my awakening.
@@alexandraschuster9700 My apologies, not that you can not relate but that I can not relate. Doessn't seem to matter what anybody I talk to is talking about it's like I'm not connected. They talk about money but to me , even tho I'm broke, it's unimportant. They talk about politics but in my mind they are fighting a war that can never be won. They talk about sports or television and immediately I'm looking for the quickest way out. I feel like a stranger in a strange land. Does this make any sense?
@@Kingreddoberman I can relate to you. I find it frustrating the kind of empty conversations people have while sharing a moment with each other. Everything seems so vapid and self centered,however, just like you, me, and everyone else who are experiencing an awakening... those who aren't, it's because its not in their path, yet, or never. It doesn't matter so much to me anymore . I can only keep working on mine, seeking everyday to become the best version of myself. I always think its not in my cards yet to find my tribe. Love is the only thing that changes people.
@@alexandraschuster9700 Yup, I knew you'd get it:) Have a great night, alexandra!
Used to always be out with music & friends. Now, bored. I do feel quite lonely at home, however, bored with their seemingly ongoing criticisms & judgements of others. It makes me sad. Looking forward for this to pass. Needed to hear this, thank you!
In Gratitude ... ❤
Nicky, thank you for your messages. I am so glad that I found you on UA-cam. You have answered all of my questions as I go through this awakening. I am going through this now and yes, I am now meeting like-minded people and I’m feeling better. Thank you. Sending you a great big virtual hug😊❤️❤️
Still working on the being alone because I am a widow with no family but people are coming over! Love you and your work. Thank you.
Definitly feeling lonely and frustrated. I have a 2 and 4 year old that im taking care of 24/7 so it's difficult. I feel guilty that ive been in my head so much and though im always there, im not there. I need more time to meditate ans even thats hard. I hope for their sake this passes soon they need their mommy fully present, it's been a full year now so i hope the hardest is behind me
sleepwalking_past Hope, All my kids are grown thankfully, I’m not sure how it would have went if I had them to raise on top of it! I give you praise and comfort in knowing it does pass, And we have control in how quickly we pass through it as well, I know it is really hard to see that at the moment but if we can keep our vibrations high, especially when we are feeling at our lowest, it speeds up the process and makes it a bit less painful!! I wish love and harmony in your journey. Nicky helped me so very much through my awakening, I’m sure she will give you the same 🙂 much love to you and your family
I’m a mom of two young girls as well and it is difficult and I know if I was alone I can focus on this 100% but being a homemaker, a mother and finding yourself so to speak is difficult but we can get through it! Trust yourself! ❤️❤️
Thank you for this beautiful video. It resonated so strongly with me and helped me out today. I’ve found myself isolating so much but not due to any “depression” and I knew it was related to my awakening and this video just helped clarify all my questions and concerns. Much love to you!
Thank you so much. Perfect timing for me today!💙 🦋 This is has been something else for sure!. I’m only one month in and things have really changed for sure. The comment “death is a lie” really hit home to me.
This video was so very helpful! Explains why i have been feeling disconnected and feeling of being alone to some people. But watching this and reading the comments i see I'm not the only one that is going through this during my spiritual awakening journey.
I am definitely experiencing this phase of loneliness and feel now that I am desiring to be around others with like minds. I am thankful for this video and others like it. They help me get through the thick of times. And it reassures me that everything will be ok, and this too shall pass. Live in the now. Loving myself more as I get to know the true me. Peace, love, and respect. Hope all who have come here receive the true healing and peace within that they are in search of.
Thank you so much, hearing all this has just gave me room to breath, it's so nice to hear that I'm not alone in this process, Im smiling the biggest smile right now 🙏🏼
Love light and blessings to you my friend 🙏🏼🕉️🙏🏼☯️🙏🏼🌌🙏🏼🌈🙏🏼💗
I relate to everything into this video. I am now at a stage where I am loving my alone time and starting to accept the person I am now. Thankyou for making this video. It makes me feel alot better knowing that this phase does pass :) . Love and light
Thank you for the confirmation that I needed at this time. Yes awakening is very challenging but absolutely worth it, I finally feel whole-more complete but still lonely at times.
Right on time 💚 thank you for this.
Thank you. Thank you so much. I needed to hear this today🙏🏼. I’ve been feeling that loneliness for 4 years now. Fortunately my partner “woke up” too, so I have that support....You are approaching 100 thousand subscribers! That is wonderful so many people are being led to you. Sending love and light to you always.
This video came into my awareness at the perfect timing, thank you.
It's so true! I just don't talk with my friends about spiritual stuff, I will wait until they will awake too*******
Maria B. Zesar do you think we need to start doing something to spark the awaking from them too? coz its a bit loney here. lol
Another thing I realized just today, is that others think I just sleep a lot or am being anti social. They have no clue how active my inner life is. I’m nudged to explore stuff, then become obsessed and then have to process it often in the dream state or in quiet alone time. It’s actually very satisfying. I’m seeing that I’ve been judging myself against old standards of success and normalcy that no longer apply to me.
Joan Cardinale yes that's a big one, I found myself making up stuff that I've been busy with just so that they don't think I'm a 'loner' but intact that's where I've been for a long time needing that quiet processing time is so valuable. The balancing of seeing grandkids etc has been tricky as preferring my own space more even though I love seeing them.. It's quite a guilt trip you go through, even phone calls can be a chore at times.
I so appreciate your channel. You have a lovely gentle but strong way to deliver the message. Perfect timing. 💕
Thank you for this, lovely being of light! Namaste.💛💫
How totally, intuitively, absolutely empathetically, right on! Namaste.
Love you friend! Thank you as always! Peace and power to you 🙏💖
I lost everyone i know, this spiritual awakening cost me alot, its hard to take this path alone
Thank you Nikki, for helping us in this lonely time - we appreciate every minute you bring us.
It's so nice to see someone that gets it. This is exactly what I been going through and it's frustrating not having anyone to share it with and I cant see why people aren't as fascinated as I am
Thanks Nicky, for this timely found video.... I was feeling so low, and directionless....
You're so right on and thank you Nicky! God bless you!
This spot on with where I am... I asked my spirit guides for help and some understanding as I have been doing more and more... I opened my laptop and here this video was... thank you for all your videos they help explain alot an to know that its okay to be waking up and its okay that most others around me are still sleeping or trapped... I press on thank you Peace and Blessings
Oh Nicky. I wish I would have had this months ago. I'm still changing and learning. Watching others awaken. I'm going to share this over and over.
Exactly what I experienced since some months and I am so happy to be able to be on my one during that time, though it is sometimes lonely. A lot of friends keep away or kept in touch very rare moments. I studied a lot about awakening and heard a lot of readings, because I met my Soulmate over 3 years ago too and it was very exhausting for both of us because of the far distance, just online and split up and restarted again in autumn 2019. Since Christmas silence again from his side.... What a carry on it is all together. But I feel inside very balanced now and been inspired since days, so excited for a new beginning... I am glad to found you, because you describe all the things I ask for clarity and the divine direct me to your channel... Thanks for that Nicky xx😇🙏💓
I’m discovering my true self and feel stronger every day. I now choose who I want to surround myself with instead of always saying yes when it’s not good for my soul. I’m so tired of low energy, needy people dragging me down. I went through the lonely stage but now I’m happy being alone. I know I will find my new tribe one day. Hang in there everyone. We are in this mass awakening together. 😁
I just uploaded a video about how lonely it is for me during my spiritual awakening which I'm going through right now. I spoke about how I wish I could meet spiritual people local to me so that I feel less lonely, but in this video you've mentioned so many other ways that I'm feeling lonely. I really did isolate myself from the world when my awakening happened and I'm finally feeling like I'm really do meet other people but they have to have been through their awakening too! I'm also struggling so much with the people who I have to work with because I can't be around their negativity at all. I'm so glad I found this video! x
Thank you very much Nicky I've been going through this at this time! People who were very close in my family thinking it's weird! It helps you talking about it..
You're amazing Nikki! You've helped raise my vibration in more way than I could count. Thank you for sharing your story. I LOVE the sunny vibes you share. ☀️❤
Thank you, well said. It is so wonderful to have finally purged enough to feel the loneliness transform into loving compassion.
Thank you so much for this video helping to explain my current situation and the advice you give. That was wonderful.
I quit my job last week and haven’t been around a lot of people this week. Prior to me quitting, I started growing out of old habits and interests. I wasn’t able to connect with people. I don’t have a job lined up yet but I feel calm now. I will be okay.
Best thing for everyone on this paths is to worry about your ownself because thos who are ignorant, will face great battles and tribulations, I've been feeling lonely for 10 years and I can honestly say I embrace it because IM different and love myself for being unique!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
We have felt the same mentality ! Like having lived what your saying here ! It's a passion for love and understanding plus wanting the world to be a better place to live !
This is definitely a challenging situation.
awesome video .. most of what you say i completely relate to.. i'm still going through the "hermit phase" but im starting to grow and understand a lot more as well
This really resonates with me, Nicky. Over 30 years ago I was awakening. But because I didn’t fit in anymore, I decided to stop my awakening. The next 30 years got harder and harder, to the point where I am now. But I know this is happening for a reason - fro me to awaken properly this time! It quite sure how to “get there”, but am assuming meditation, and “praying” are good practices, and opening up to it and releasing my resistance/fear of it. If you or anyone else has some advice, I would gratefully receive it. Love and blessings.
Here you come on the subject of ego-collapse, which means the dying of an ego.
In such cases, what is helpful is asking yourself questions like: how do I make life meaningful again?
I chose to turn my back on people and family when I started to realise how sly people really were. Waking up was the best thing I done.. now I like spending time alone revising learning meditating I know it'll pay off in the end! I'll carry on working with my angels spirit guides and talking with my ghosts people thinks I'm nuts but that's there problem not mine I'm happy studying metaphysics quantum physics past life's the paranormal and I will continue to carry all the knowledge. I would just advise people too stay grounded and do what they enjoy and don't let them tell you otherwise. My doctor's diagnosed me with pyschosis and I'm on a high dose of anti pyschotics but it doesn't stop me doing what I enjoy and at first the meds did dampen down and block communication with my guides but I just kept meditating and they came back after about 6 months.
Great video and divine timing Nicky! Really needed this thank you 😊
Knowing that I am part of the universe and the universe is part of me makes me feel better.
Mayeaux W. You is beautiful
LADARIUS THOUGHTZ 😂 thank you, you funny funny
Thank you for sharing your story 🙏🏽
Love this video, probably the most helpful video for me. Thank you so much for sharing this one!!!
Wonderful video, Nicky
thank you
I needed to hear this today
Thank you !!! 💛
Perfect timing. Started to really feel the lonliness today. Thank you
So beautifully articulated Nicky, thank you.
Blessings for sharing your views.
When mind is blessed with spiritual sweetest taste, then, the rest feels tasteless. Only the blessed souls (who had tasted the same) will understand it. I'm experiencing the same what you have mentioned in the video. I'm so thankful to higher self for showering the blessings, I'm in love with it and loneliness is my new friend :)
Thank you so much because I am going through those things thanks for the help
Thank you so much for this video! Its a great insight and help for me xxx
nailed it!!! Thank YOU!!! ~~~ Namaste ~~~Trying to "rearrange" my activities to coincide with other like minded individuals...I am finding false people who think they are enlightened..tough journey
I started investing in myself. Doing things that I long wanted to do but never did, like dancing, yoga, swimming, gardening. I couldn't be with many people out there, I kind of enjoyed the loniness, but sometimes it was weird. So doing productive things was and is the best outlet. All compliments and blends perfectly.
Thank you. I needed this as was only thinking about this yesterday, almost like a personal message sent to me.
Wonderful video and so timely. I’ve been thru a long awakening and begin to question my own mental health from time to time. Lonely, not so much, but isolated definitely. I don’t have anything in common with my old friends and family members. It’s hard to participate in conversation bc our life views are so different. Also I consume much less alcohol, not that I’d drink a lot bf, but now it seems so transparent. They drink to socialize etc... Lastly, I want to thank you for recommending Daniel Scranton. His channeling of the Arcturian Council has resonated greatly and helped me to understand so much about myself. Much gratitude, Nicky
You are truely beautiful inside and out. Happy your helping people that are waking up ☺☯️
Thank you that is so kind. Sending much love to you!
You've hit on many points of what I am going through in the past several months. It gets easier and easier lately for me as I have released so much and done a lot of spiritual work on myself. I don't have any friends in my hometown, but that's okay since I need to be alone and allow myself to transform without any interference from others.
Thanks, Nicky!
As you stated most people end up seeking out videos & information about many concerns during their spiritual awakening (which is how I caught your video). First I wanna thank you for sharing. I am currently alone..... with an urge to release & also to gain knowledge & understanding.
Thank you. This is so deep.
Thank you so much for all your videos. I wish I had found you at the beginning of my awakening in 2012. This one was very helpful today 💗
🖖💚Thanks Nicky. As always, your message is spot on for our times and presented beautifully. Thanks Nicky. Love & Light 🖖 💚 Namaste
You explained it perfectly. Thanks for your advice! I'm past the isolation hermit phase and I am excited to meet other spiritual people.
Here is the helpful idea I use : Ask yourself : "Who do I know that can help me experience higher states " well unfortunately very very few - so your destiny will also be your own and should never be held to measure against anyone else.
Thank you so much for this! I feel so alone but I have accepted that now. Im purging, processing and I cant handle my old friends and their judgement anymore! I turn to people like you online and its ok for now! Thankyou
this video came out exactly when i needed to see and hear it. thank you sooooo much.
Angel fairy 1 omg same!!
I've been on the journey to spiritual awakening this year. With my eyes now open, I'm aware. I've been meditating, being grateful, and so much more. And I have a coworker who is on the same journey. We share our experiences with delight. But other then that, if I share it with others who are not open to it, I get a look that would be equivalent to saying I'm gay in the 1950's.
It's sad. Because it's seems like it's more acceptable to be told who and how to be through organized religion. Rather than finding your true sense of self. And a path to happiness.
But I know I'm on it. And if your reading this, so are you. We're living our lives without google maps. We're just following the signs to our true destination. Much love to all!
thank you for this video.it was very helpful xxx
thx a lot, been spending the last year on my own, afther my spiritual awakening, i left all my frtiends behind, im not even interested in them any more, thx for this video,it was really nice
Ah I'm struggling with that for some time already....
Thank you for your so much needed help.