thinking of everyone and sending you my love. hope this demo helps take your mind off of the world for a little bit ! it's called lock me up for life.. its about the crazy thoughts we have but never speak out loud .. drop a comment and lemme know watcha think !
You're not alone. I deal with on and off depression- including cutting and suicide notes (before I'm too chicken to actually kill myself, mainly from my family's religious beliefs)- I can tell you, *it gets better.* I know, when you think it can't get any worse, suddenly it is, but it does end up getting better. If you can talk to someone, talk to them, but if you can't, it hasn't changed anything for me, so it's not an absolute priority. Just know that a corner will turn, and even if you start going downhill at first, the path will gradually slope upwards.
@@leafy_green7573 you okay because I used to and still deal with many suicidal thoughts and usually I find someone who is worth living for but sometimes I don't care anymore and I found something that gets me out of this world and I seriously think you should try it out for example take up a hobby and listen to music especially meaning full ones or what some may call to be "sad" for example Alec or Lukas Graham or many more. I too have dealt with on and off depression throughout my life and usually I go around giving other people in the UA-cam comments of some videos advice like you do so I just wanted to ask if you were okay. The hardest thing to believe at times is the advice we give...
Draw Lapse I’m ok-ish right now, but just those couple of months ago I was so depressed, right now I’m fine though (for the moment at least, in a few weeks we’ll be back where we started...). In winter of 2019, I was depressed to the point wanting to throw up whenever I thought about writing, drawing, or even singing my favorite songs (my 3 favorite things to do, I did listen to a lot of depressing music though and it helped me cope in a weird way). I’ve come to realize whenever I’m starting to get depressed again, I start distancing myself from what I normally love doing, and the people I love being around. I surround myself with toxic people because it’s easier on me since they break me down even more, I’m very odd I know lol. However if I do start feeling that way, I try finding the source of what’s causing it- normally it’s the same thing, but it can change depending on my surroundings and such. I always want to find what’s causing it, because I don’t want to end up like that again, so I guess I like giving out advice so much more than I like taking it since I honestly hate when people are falling into the hole of almost death that I was, so taking some of my advice recently has been a real challenge since this lockdown has been the first time I actually take time for myself since I was a little kid. I definitely suggest being aware of that, at least if you’re like me, and finding the main cause of what’s breaking you down. Once you’ve found that and have started fixing it, it’s all uphill until there’s a new cause. Idk, I tend to second guess myself a lot, so this whole comment might suck, but honestly if I want any longer to hit the > button I’m not going to press it, so here goes I guess 😂 (also didn’t spell/grammar check this so if it sounds choppy I apologize)
Since the first time, I heard his voice in the x-factor when a kid danced to his song "I built a friend". For the first time, I actually cried over a song because it hit so close to home. I love his style in music as it feels like he is reaching out to us through his music. His music in some way is personal. It hits home in a special way that no other singer could master. Ever since then his songs helped me go through my years of depression and anxiety. It was the light in my darkness and it is this kind of music. That is rewarding to listen to. It's so beautiful. So innocent so meaningful. Thank you, Alec Benjamin. And I believe I speak for many when I say this. Your songs are unique. They are so special. You are such a talented person. You have a wonderful voice and this song like many of your others lived up the expectations and beyond. Your songs deserve to be recognized you deserve to be recognised. Good luck and awesome song ! Edit: WTF how did I get so many likes 🤯
yes you are absolutely right. there is no song of him that i didn't find special and closely relatable. He is just so genuine. and btw, I also found him in x-factor when Merrick Hannah danced to his song "I bulit a friend" (the day i found a gem) ^_^
@@johnerwint.ballesteros9271 I think that was actually America's Got Talent. The X Factor is a singing programme for those aged 16 and over (at least in the UK it is)
I remember when that kid danced to I Built a Friend and i heard alecs voice from my living room and i ran to it cuz i thought my mom was listening to alec benjamin but she wasnt 😅
This song is great, this song makes me think about my struggle with anxiety. If there’s anyone out there reading this and you’re dealing with anxiety or etc...I hope that you know you’re loved and you aren’t alone. I also hope that everyone is staying safe and healthy.
I’m so sorry you are struggling with anxiety :( I know first hand how difficult it can be, I’ve had a hard time with it personally. I hope you’re doing ok and keeping yourself sane during the quarantine ❤️
The fact that everyone's just brushing off the meaning in these lyrics just really says something about us as people. Why do we make jokes to hide our feelings? Why can't we just say, "The fact that Alec thought about suicide makes me sad/upset/confused/hurt?" So instead of making jokes, think about saying the things that make you uncomfortable: Are you okay? How can I help? I'm here for you. I hope whoever reads this can think about maybe saying your feelings next time you're uncomfortable. Please know that your feelings are okay. You're natural. Just speak your mind, it's okay.
TBH I often call some really special friends "anomalous" or use "anomaly" as a term of endearment. We are all unique in a different way so its better to acknowledge our feelings and talk about them, being open about it helps us find help as there's always someone to watch over you. Don't take me wrong, humour is ok, it's a healthy coping mechanism but there are things that we shouldn't be afraid to talk about
I’m not uncomfortable with the song and lyrics, it’s the fact that I’m comfortable with the lyrics scares me. I agree that covering it up with jokes isn’t always the best, but I feel more likely it’s a coping mechanism. I know I prefer dark jokes over slap-stick humour because I understand it and relate. I guess I haven’t seen the “brushing off” part of the comments unless you’re referring to the fangirl/craze of Alec’s writing and aren’t talking about lyrics. It seems hard to brush off but I guess if people only listen to instruments and not words (my friends do this), it might just not come across sadly.
@@terrahatvol7960 I agree, some people make jokes about it to hide it or try to make themselves to feel better, or to distract themselves from their depression or anxiety or trauma.
Wow this is crazy powerful. We all keep things inside. No matter how many times we are told to tell others so it doesn’t get bottled up-there’s just some things u just can’t tell others
Zoe Guzman I am the master at bottling things up haha. This song really speaks to me, especially since I’ve had the same scenarios play out inside my head and it’s a train of thought you can get lost on. It’s reassuring to know there’s other people who feel like that, especially someone I personally look up to :)
there are so many random things i think about and i always honestly wonder if anyone else ever has the same thoughts. i know i'm probably not the only one, but it doesn't really make a difference if i'm the only one or not because, like you said, there's just some things you can't tell others, even those you're closest to.
Its about his life or its about what he's going through he hasn't said what he's going through its not about Quarantine he's just telling his story through music and keeping us entertained in Quarantine.
I love how much Alec let’s us into his life with all his songs. I love how he shares his feelings with us, good or bad. I think it would take a lot of courage sometimes. I know he doubts himself a lot which he should know is absolutely okay, but I so badly wish I could let him know how much his words actually mean to us. He’s so exceptionally talented. By listening to his songs, he helps me find the right words to what I feel when I can’t do it myself. He makes sure that we know we’re not alone. Each and everyone of his songs tells a story which I can either relate to so well; there’s just something so incredibly great about knowing that there are people out there that don’t need an explanation for what i am are feeling, because they feel it too. Other stories show me somethings I can’t personally relate to but because of Alec I’ve learned to expand my thinking, connect it to other people in my life and just see them better. I want him to know how much of an impact he has made on so many peoples lives just by expressing himself. Thank you for that Alec!
72 hours ago, this song would have had me sobbing as I struggled alone through the darkest time of my life. I knew I needed help but was scared to reach out for it for fear of what people would think of me. I finally talked to my parents so they could help me. It's the greatest step anyone struggling with their mental health can take: reach out to someone close to you that will love you and help you through it. You're never alone. And help is waiting for you if you'll only reach out.
I have a therapist and I didn't even tell her I tried 2 nights in a row. (I will at the next appointment) - it's just so hard when you are literally filled with all these thoughts and having daily mental battles and it doesn't feel safe to tell anyone. So we keep it inside.
@@Fye.777 I feel the exact same. My parents care enough to get me a therapist but I feel they still don't understand me and can't take hints that I have these thoughts almost every day. I told my friends, but they still haven't accepted me in the friend group. They all acted like they cared but every day is the same. I hope you get better. If not, you can talk to me on here.
bulletproof music You are not a waste. I've felt that way too, like I was completely worthless. But your life is valuable and precious. You were made in the image of a holy God. That in and of itself gives you worth. You have a soul. Look: I sympathize with you. It's hard. And not feeling parental support is miserable. But what you need more than anything is salvation in Christ, the Son of God. Human help can only take you so far: believe me. What has helped bring me out of my pit of misery is the knowledge that my thoughts and actions were sins against God, and as a Christian, I couldn't continue to live that way. My parents have helped me, but a lot of their help has been pointing me back to Christ and the hope that every Christian has in Him. Are you familiar with the gospel message? Do you have a Bible at home? If you have one, please read it. Start with the gospel of John.
August Miller Suicide is not the answer, my friend. I know those thoughts are hard to escape from, but your life is precious: please don't throw it away. You were made in the image of the holy God: you have a soul. Like I told bulletproof, you need salvation in Christ, the Son of God. He is your hope. Most of how my parents have helped me is by pointing me back to Christ. As a Christian, I couldn't continue living in the state of darkness I was in because I had the Holy Spirit living inside of me. It is because of Christ's salvation that I am on the road to recovery. It is because of Him that I have hope. Are you familiar with the gospel message? And do you have a Bible at home? If so, I plead with you to read it. Read through the gospel of John. Christ has the power to save you and help you if you would repent of your sins and put your trust in Him.
@@marisalynne6607 i have a bible, and im catholic, wich my parents doesent support. but i go to a "sunday school" its ebery second wedensday and the lady there is amazing, she told me that she loved all of us, and very happy have us there, and im a helping leader, i help her alot, so i get there a hour or so before it starts, when my parents threw me out of the house from 7 in the morning (my school starts half past 8) till 5 pm, she let me in 3 hours before i was suppose to come, so we made salad together, and she used her free time on me! and when my little sister wanted to join, we sat there playing board games. sadly, its canceled now, bc of quarantine... thnx for telling me this, it probably meens alot, and everytime i try to KMS i will think about you, and what you wrote
Lyrics: Well I was walkin’ through some shops at the mall A gold Versace watch was hangin’ up on the wall And no, I didn’t have the money to ball So I thought about takin’ it I saw this movie playin’ up in my head I walk outside and jack a Mercedes Benz Go drivin’ down the 5 and even though it’s pretend Maybe I’m a maniac If it were illegal to have evil in the mind And they cut me open Wonder, “Would they be surprised?” Or are there other people that are equally inclined Think about the heinous things I think about Is it only me? Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes? Am I alone, am I some type of criminal? Oh, if they could read my mind Would they lock me up for life? Lock me up for life? Oh, would they lock me up for life? Lock me up for life? Mmmm There’s things I wouldn’t even say to my shrink 'Cause I’m ashamed of what the doctor would think Like when I felt alone and hated my life So I thought about takin’ it I saw this movie playin’ up in my head Next to my casket were some family and friends And even though I know that’s not how it ends There was no shakin’ it If they forced a needle through a cortex in my brain Wonder what they’d think, that maybe I had gone insane Or are there other people that are equally deranged And think about the heinous things I think about Is it only me? Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes? Am I alone, am I some type of criminal? Oh, if they could read my mind Would they lock me up for life? Lock me up for life? Oh, would they lock me up for life? Lock me up for life? Mmmm I tell my mother that I love her I’m not coming home from jail I’m so sorry I’m so sorry And tell my father not to bother Waste a dollar on my bail I’m so sorry Hmm I’m so sorry Is it only me? Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes? Am I alone, am I some type of criminal? Oh, if they could read my mind Would they lock me up for life? Lock me up for life? Oh, would they lock me up for life? Lock me up for life?
I was diagnosed with severe OCD 4 years ago, and this song perfectly sums up my experience. OCD is known as being afraid of germs or being organised, and while those are the symptoms for some people, there's more to it than that. Mine was germs, and well, some pretty dark shit. These images just pop in your head, this terrible, disgusting, disturbing, gory images of strangers, friends, and family. It's scary. It's all you can see. You'll be trying to sleep and this picture of you committing a heinous crime against a loved one pops up. I thought I was going crazy. I was afraid to sleep because I was afraid that I would get up and do those things while sleep walking, since those things were what consumed me during the day. It's scary. I wouldn't touch anyone. Wouldn't even stand next to them, afraid that I would do something. I never hugged my mother for a long time. I begged my parents to send me to a mental hospital, lock me up somewhere for the deranged and insane. I tried to get them to call the police. I locked myself in my room to hide from people. I wouldn't touch anyones food or drinks, or even be around it at all because I was so afriad I would taint it. I made my family lock up anything that could be used as a weapon. I started taking melatonin so that I would sleep, thinking it would help prevent sleep walking. Eventually, I even tried to get my parents to give me allergy medicine to knock me out so I could sleep. I was so anxiety-ridden that it was hard to sleep on my own. My nightly routine lasted 2+ hours, just me touching and patting down my blankets. My mom had to watch, and if I blinked to hard or took too deep of a breathe, I would have to restart. It took over 5 hours some nights. The thoughts you get are just so disgusting, it made me throw up at some points. It honestly feels like you're going crazy, and you're trying to convince everyone else around you to lock you up before you eventually break. It's this constant fear that controls you, never letting up. Finally, after 8 long months, I went to a fantastic psychologist who diagnosed me and started me on medication. Those thoughts disappeared after about 7 more months of treatment, and then it moved onto germs. I'm still working on that one, but I am relatively symptom free, and it no longer affects my day to day life. Every once in a while, a little thing might happen, but even that is nothing compared to before. I'm incredibly grateful for songs like these. It reminds me that I'm not alone. Stay strong guys.
@@angelinadubois4842 I know that feeling all too well. Being terrified of yourself, afraid that maybe this is who you subconsciously. Maybe this is your true self. It's scary. But please know that that is not you. As my doctors constantly reminded me, if you actually were like that, you wouldn't be so troubled by the thoughts. You wouldn't worry about it and be afraid that you'll do something like that. Now, if you're like me, you'll counter that argument by saying maybe you're not worried about it. Maybe your subconscious just wants you to think you're worried about it. It's a cycle. And once your break that cycle and break free from this, you can finally see how ridiculous that argument is. It does get better. These thoughts really aren't you. Wish you the best, and I'm always here to talk if you need anything. Stay safe!
I just read a book about a girl with OCD and I instantly thought of this song. You aren’t alone, and you’re incredibly strong from going through something like that every day ♥️
alec is literally one of the most underrated singers i have ever seen. almost all of his songs are better than any artists’ i have ever seen. i cannot believe how unrecognized he is
Alec’s music just makes me so happy. I listen to it like every night. His voice is just incredible and I could listen to it 24/7. I swear it’s impossible for this man to make a bad song 😂
“like when i felt alone and hated my life so i thought about taking it” why is no one talking about this? this line made my heart sink. i love you so much, alec, and i’m so glad you’re still here today. i hope you’re doing alright 💗💗
Naya I have slowed down versions of *Alec Benjamin* songs on my channel... would you mind checking it out and s u b s c r i b e maybe? I really want to get monetized to afford college in the future😭 And if you lost someone or something is going on you can always comment under one of my videos and I will respond and always be there for you! I want you to be happy and help otger people like they help me with my channel❤️🥺p.s I won tickets for his concert on Twitter but corona virus came :(
Hey Alec, how many demos would you like to release this month? Alec: Yes. And we would be like: Yes. And our eyes would be like: Imma "sweat" right now. And our ears would be blessed. And our heart would be satisfied. And we will thank the universe (and his parents) for his existence
"when I felt alone and hated my life So I thought about taking it" This hit way to hard considering the hell I'm going through I hate my life So I wanna take it They bruise my heart And now they're gonna break it
You may not know it yet, but you have a purpose. You probably have a bigger impact than you imagine already, often it doesn't seem like it, but people do care for you. You do make the world a better place, so please, whatever you're going through, pull through it! You'll be a better human because of it, with even more reason to stay alive. :)
@@duongkhoaquan8467it's hard to explain but I'm pretty sure it means like you don't really believe something or it is a surprise to you. For example: pfft, are you sure you're right?
“If they could read my mind, would they lock me up for life?” But Alec is already locked up in his mind because his mind is a prison. Would he be double locked up then?
There's a saying here in India , which goes like- "Agar trailer itna dhaansu hai toh movie kitni gaand faad hogi" Which in this case would - if the demo is so good , just think of how great the song would be.
i’m.. crying right now. how could someone make a song that just speaks to me so much. it feels like someone read my mind and put it into a song. i’ve never felt so relieved. that’s not the right word. i don’t know what is. it’s like all my thoughts put into a song. these lyrics are so simple but it means so much to me. thank you for this alec. sometimes i feel like i’m trapped in my head and nobody understands me but this really hit me.
Every individual lyric hits so hard, the entirety of his songs are all so beautifully profound from beginning to end. Thank you for this amazing gift 💕
I love how he shares his thoughts through music, it really helps. Sometimes I just randomly start putting out my thoughts in a tune and sing it, and it makes me feel so much better. Also, if evil in the mind was illegal, they wouldn't lock me up, they'd execute me
Quaratine is driving some people crazy but all they gotta do is calm down, get yourself a snack, and listen to a playlist of alec benjamin. HUGE FAN OF URS. Hope everyone is safe and healthy where they are.
Can't believe it's been 3 years already! I remember when this song came out it gave me so much comfort but then I forgot about it for some reason. Recently I suddenly had to think about this song and how much it used to mean to me, so here I am again, for the first time in about 2 years or so. So much changed since then and sadly it would be a lie if I said things were better now... but one thing didn't change and thats the comfort alecs music, especially this song, gives me♡
Lyrics☛ Well I was walking through the shops at the mall A gold Versace watch was hanging up on the wall No, I didn’t have the money to ball So I thought about taking it I saw this movie playing up in my head I walk outside and jack a Mercedes Benz Go driving down the 5 and even though its pretend Maybe I’m a maniac If it were illegal to have evil in the mind If they cut me open wonder would they be surprised Or are there other people who are equally inclined To think the heinous things I think about Is it wrong with me Is it unnatural to, To have these thoughts sometimes Am I alone or am I Some type of criminal If they could read my mind Would they lock me up for life Lock me up for life Would they lock me up for life Lock me up for life ... There’s things I wouldn’t even say to my shrink ‘Cuz I’m ashamed of what the doctor would think Like when I felt alone and hated my life So I thought about taking it I saw this movie playing up in my head Next to my casket were some family and friends And even though I know that’s not how it ends There was no shaking it If they force a needle through a cortex in my brain Wonder what they think that maybe I have gone insane Or are there other people that are equally deranged To think the heinous things I think about ... Is it wrong with me Is it unnatural to, To have these thoughts sometimes Am I alone or am I Some type of criminal If they could read my mind Would they lock me up for life Lock me up for life Would they lock me up for life Lock me up for life Tell my mother that I love her I’m not coming home from jail I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry And tell my father not to bother waste a dollar on my bail I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry Is it wrong with me Is it unnatural to, To have these thoughts sometimes Am I alone or am I Some type of criminal If they could read my mind Would they lock me up for life Lock me up for life Would they lock me up for life Lock me up for life...
Aditya Singh I think it’s “No, I didn’t have the money to borrow, so I thought about taking it” it makes more sense, why would he need to ball it? Also if you listen carefully I’m sure you’ll be able to hear it too :)
This hits me on a personal level because some of my family doesn't understand how I feel most of the time. And I've almost taken my life a few times, I've come a long way from then. Anyway thank you Alec for expressing yourself in ways that some of us never can do.
Just when I think that there isn’t any music lyrics left in the world that would impress me, you upload a song and prove me wrong. You are a gem, Alec.
Idk why but I feel like these songs just release me from my mind and takes the ugly thoughts away...I just love all these songs he makes it makes me feel a lot better. Love your songs Alec💛
omg i’m cyring. it’s so amazing.. lyrics with this beautiful, magical melody is something that I needed. thank you so much for every song that you’ve made, you are seriously wonderful person. with lots of love
As someone who's been dealing with suicide for years now, this hits hard. It even says that there are somethings he wouldn't tell his shrink cause he thinks the doctor would say something. It's not easy bottling everything inside. Its hard.
For those of you who can relate to this song or who might need it, remember your thoughts do not define you. A lot of what Alec is talking about sounds like intrusive thoughts, which can be random (usually violent) thoughts/ impulses someone might have that just come out of nowhere. Like seeing a child and having the urge to kick it or seeing a knife and imagining cutting yourself or simply when you're standing somewhere high and your brain goes "jump." These thoughts, althought unpleasant, don't mean anything. They don't come from you. They don't make you a bad person. A lot of people experience them and they are common symptoms of mental health issues like depression or anxiety, but "normal" people also might have them too from time to time. Your reaction says more about your true nature than the intrusive thought itself, so if your immediate reaction is to be like "wtf what is wrong with me?!!!" that's a good sign. Also, like I said, although it is one sign of mental health issues it is in no way an indication that you have any of those issues. If you're seriously worried, please do talk to someone. Chances are, especially if it's a professional, they won't judge you and will assure you that, like I said, these thoughts aren't coming from you. That said, if you're planning on acting on them it is a problem, and again, you should seek help. Sorry for the long text. Stay safe, y'all ♥️
Wow!!! This song sounds amazing, I love it. Thank you for making such amazing music, especially in this time. This song already is helping me get my mind off of things and just relax for a bit.
living in europe has been so difficult for me but Alec, your music helps me feel comfortable and safe in so many positive ways. u deserve so much happiness and good health. ily x
You're not alone. I don't think I've ever connected with a piece of music more. There are so many things that pop into our heads, you can't always control it, even if it's not something you want to think of.
This song hits hard. All his music is so touching but this is the one that made me tear up. Just because I know how it feels to feel so anxious and alone and feel like I need to hide it because nobody will get me. If you listen to the lyrics there is such a powerful message to this song. Today I heard his song "let me down slowly" on the radio and was so happy. He deserves more love and appreciation for what he does. He needs to be shown some respect because all of his songs tell a story. He isn't just a singer. He's a author. I'll keep on supporting throughout his entire career because he deserves love 💓
this is one of the most relatable songs ive heard lol... Someone being able to read minds is like one of my biggest fears cause I think about some really messed up stuff. It's worst when it happens in public... Love the song!
I love that you are actually constant with music. You don't wait a year and a half to come out with a new song or even a demo. You come out with a new song almodt every 3 months. Recently a lot more than usual. But I just love that about you and your music!
this song has been resonating with me a lot more lately. I saw the doctor recently to establish care, and since then I have been looking at myself and my thoughts a lot more. I'm just realizing how often I think about hurting others and stealing and breaking things.
You kinda have to care about it. It is a serious thing, people are dying. But you do you, lol. It is nice to just take your mind away from it of course though. Because it is legit kinda scary.
@@charlatte1948 yes I didnt mean that we all shouldnt just push it away, that came out a little wrong. I'm just saying that his music is very calming and is a wonderful thing to listen to around this time
@@charlatte1948 It is serious but fear is spreading faster than the virus. We need to learn how to calm down a bit. This music nice to listen to in this time.
This song perfectly captured the emotions that I’m always confused by. I hope people understand that when someone calls themselves evil or a bad person, it won’t necessarily be for things they’ve already done , like for me I’ve never done anything bad but god knows that I should be thrown in a pit of fire for what I think of sometimes, no not sometimes, all the time.this song perfectly captured that emotion and that thought. So thank you Alec Benjamin for saying and simplifying things that a lot of people wouldn’t understand. Thank you for turning thoughts to words and putting a voice to them.
I really like this one. It's so raw and real. I feel like we have all had thoughts like this and some do every day... This is so true and a good reminder that we are not alone.
I can relate to this song honestly. Ever since lock down started, I’ve been scared. My friend’s say I’m depressed and I just don’t wanna live anymore, and none of the hotlines are helping. I’m scared of what I’ll do, because I know so many people that died in situations like mine. This song just gives me peace and happiness. To anyone going through similar situations, keep your chin up, loves.
These Two Windows .. out now :)))) AlecBenjamin.lnk.to/TheseTwoWindows
Your album is really great! Your songs always make me feel so much better. Sometimes it’s what gets me through school.🤞🏾🍀❤️🤗
luv youuu
Never heard a demo that disappoints me.
Hiii!!!! U are awesome your music is so great i very like it
You're my favorite man! thanks
thinking of everyone and sending you my love. hope this demo helps take your mind off of the world for a little bit ! it's called lock me up for life.. its about the crazy thoughts we have but never speak out loud .. drop a comment and lemme know watcha think !
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Alec Benjamin ❤️❤️❤️
I’m first and I love this
This Sounds Like Such A Good Song! I Love It! Thank You For Making Such Good Songs.
I love it already
best thing about this quarantine: Alec Benjamin
BTS EDITS can we pin dis guy
YES!
Nah-
Best thing about this life* 😉
he's NOT a thing but I'm what u mean
He's not a thing but his music is and that is the thing most beautiful abaut this quarentine i have never seen
Someone: how many demos do you want to release this year?
Alec: yes
alec is spoiling us with all his demos this month
to help Clean the Pain of the suffering in this year for the world
honestly he’s an angel for it it’s the only thing keeping me busy
I wish he would release them as full songs instead of just going on UA-cam
As someone who has dealt with suicidal thoughts for a long time now, this song gave me chills
I had a friend that came way too close. This hit me hard as well. Wishing all the best for you.
I have suicidal thought so this hits hard and sometimes cry
You're not alone. I deal with on and off depression- including cutting and suicide notes (before I'm too chicken to actually kill myself, mainly from my family's religious beliefs)- I can tell you, *it gets better.* I know, when you think it can't get any worse, suddenly it is, but it does end up getting better. If you can talk to someone, talk to them, but if you can't, it hasn't changed anything for me, so it's not an absolute priority. Just know that a corner will turn, and even if you start going downhill at first, the path will gradually slope upwards.
@@leafy_green7573 you okay because I used to and still deal with many suicidal thoughts and usually I find someone who is worth living for but sometimes I don't care anymore and I found something that gets me out of this world and I seriously think you should try it out for example take up a hobby and listen to music especially meaning full ones or what some may call to be "sad" for example Alec or Lukas Graham or many more. I too have dealt with on and off depression throughout my life and usually I go around giving other people in the UA-cam comments of some videos advice like you do so I just wanted to ask if you were okay. The hardest thing to believe at times is the advice we give...
Draw Lapse I’m ok-ish right now, but just those couple of months ago I was so depressed, right now I’m fine though (for the moment at least, in a few weeks we’ll be back where we started...). In winter of 2019, I was depressed to the point wanting to throw up whenever I thought about writing, drawing, or even singing my favorite songs (my 3 favorite things to do, I did listen to a lot of depressing music though and it helped me cope in a weird way). I’ve come to realize whenever I’m starting to get depressed again, I start distancing myself from what I normally love doing, and the people I love being around. I surround myself with toxic people because it’s easier on me since they break me down even more, I’m very odd I know lol. However if I do start feeling that way, I try finding the source of what’s causing it- normally it’s the same thing, but it can change depending on my surroundings and such. I always want to find what’s causing it, because I don’t want to end up like that again, so I guess I like giving out advice so much more than I like taking it since I honestly hate when people are falling into the hole of almost death that I was, so taking some of my advice recently has been a real challenge since this lockdown has been the first time I actually take time for myself since I was a little kid. I definitely suggest being aware of that, at least if you’re like me, and finding the main cause of what’s breaking you down. Once you’ve found that and have started fixing it, it’s all uphill until there’s a new cause. Idk, I tend to second guess myself a lot, so this whole comment might suck, but honestly if I want any longer to hit the > button I’m not going to press it, so here goes I guess 😂 (also didn’t spell/grammar check this so if it sounds choppy I apologize)
*My Playlist* starts like this: _Alec Benjamin... Alec Benjamin... Alec Benjamin... Alec Benjamin... Alec Benjamin... and so on... Alec Benjamin..._
Do we have the same playlist? Thats exactly how mine starts!
Hannah K
I have a playlist of only Alec Benjamin songs.
Anyone else just click shuffle on his name on spotify or youtube channel and that’s your playlist
I think we have the same Playlist XD❤
Same
“If they could read my mind, would they lock me up for life” dude it’s like you read MY mind
haha true
Lugit
I was feeling like crap today
Boom
Exact frickin feelings
Thanks alec
this is my fav part of the song. 🗯
Zahara same
ua-cam.com/video/R5Va12NtrO4/v-deo.html
you gonna love this:)
Since the first time, I heard his voice in the x-factor when a kid danced to his song "I built a friend". For the first time, I actually cried over a song because it hit so close to home. I love his style in music as it feels like he is reaching out to us through his music. His music in some way is personal. It hits home in a special way that no other singer could master. Ever since then his songs helped me go through my years of depression and anxiety. It was the light in my darkness and it is this kind of music. That is rewarding to listen to. It's so beautiful. So innocent so meaningful.
Thank you, Alec Benjamin. And I believe I speak for many when I say this. Your songs are unique. They are so special. You are such a talented person. You have a wonderful voice and this song like many of your others lived up the expectations and beyond.
Your songs deserve to be recognized you deserve to be recognised.
Good luck and awesome song !
Edit: WTF how did I get so many likes 🤯
yes you are absolutely right. there is no song of him that i didn't find special and closely relatable. He is just so genuine.
and btw, I also found him in x-factor when Merrick Hannah danced to his song "I bulit a friend" (the day i found a gem) ^_^
You’re speaking facts
@@johnerwint.ballesteros9271 I think that was actually America's Got Talent. The X Factor is a singing programme for those aged 16 and over (at least in the UK it is)
BEO THIS IS LITERALLY MY STORY CAN YOU READ MINDS?!?!
I remember when that kid danced to I Built a Friend and i heard alecs voice from my living room and i ran to it cuz i thought my mom was listening to alec benjamin but she wasnt 😅
This song is great, this song makes me think about my struggle with anxiety. If there’s anyone out there reading this and you’re dealing with anxiety or etc...I hope that you know you’re loved and you aren’t alone. I also hope that everyone is staying safe and healthy.
Chloe Furlong MUSIC 💕
Me having social anxiety living my life in quarantine rn😅
Ur not alone I’m the same
I have not left my room for a week thanks quarantine
I’m so sorry you are struggling with anxiety :( I know first hand how difficult it can be, I’ve had a hard time with it personally. I hope you’re doing ok and keeping yourself sane during the quarantine ❤️
The fact that everyone's just brushing off the meaning in these lyrics just really says something about us as people. Why do we make jokes to hide our feelings? Why can't we just say, "The fact that Alec thought about suicide makes me sad/upset/confused/hurt?"
So instead of making jokes, think about saying the things that make you uncomfortable:
Are you okay?
How can I help?
I'm here for you.
I hope whoever reads this can think about maybe saying your feelings next time you're uncomfortable. Please know that your feelings are okay. You're natural. Just speak your mind, it's okay.
thanks❤
TBH I often call some really special friends "anomalous" or use "anomaly" as a term of endearment. We are all unique in a different way so its better to acknowledge our feelings and talk about them, being open about it helps us find help as there's always someone to watch over you.
Don't take me wrong, humour is ok, it's a healthy coping mechanism but there are things that we shouldn't be afraid to talk about
I’m not uncomfortable with the song and lyrics, it’s the fact that I’m comfortable with the lyrics scares me. I agree that covering it up with jokes isn’t always the best, but I feel more likely it’s a coping mechanism. I know I prefer dark jokes over slap-stick humour because I understand it and relate.
I guess I haven’t seen the “brushing off” part of the comments unless you’re referring to the fangirl/craze of Alec’s writing and aren’t talking about lyrics. It seems hard to brush off but I guess if people only listen to instruments and not words (my friends do this), it might just not come across sadly.
Thank you, you have lighten up my mood, thank you so much !
@@terrahatvol7960 I agree, some people make jokes about it to hide it or try to make themselves to feel better, or to distract themselves from their depression or anxiety or trauma.
THE ALBUM IS COMING MAY 29TH !!! pre order here : alecbenjamin.lnk.to/TheseTwoWindowsID
I hope you're doing alright
Alec… are you okay? ?
*hug*
yay!!
Love you Alec!!
Wow this is crazy powerful. We all keep things inside. No matter how many times we are told to tell others so it doesn’t get bottled up-there’s just some things u just can’t tell others
if they could read my mind, would they lock me up for life
Zoe Guzman I am the master at bottling things up haha. This song really speaks to me, especially since I’ve had the same scenarios play out inside my head and it’s a train of thought you can get lost on. It’s reassuring to know there’s other people who feel like that, especially someone I personally look up to :)
there are so many random things i think about and i always honestly wonder if anyone else ever has the same thoughts. i know i'm probably not the only one, but it doesn't really make a difference if i'm the only one or not because, like you said, there's just some things you can't tell others, even those you're closest to.
Voice: Stunning
Lyrics: Tear Jerking
Personality: Angelic
❤
Hotel: Trivago
For me it's more like:
Voice: angelic
Personality: baby 🥺
Ruth
For me it’s- :3
Voice: sounds
Lyrics: words
Personality: human
@@peebz-342 quirky much
I really want him to blow up and the radios should play his songs more often fr ❤
Exactly, I screamed when I heard one of his songs on the radio for the first time the other day
I heard mind is a prison the other day and I screamed I stg I was so happy
Actually these songs r sad
sophia Lucky, the only song I ever heard on the radio was let me down slowly
Ikr
alec: **uploads a song abt quarantine**
quarantine: *imma bout to help this whole mans career*
Its about his life or its about what he's going through he hasn't said what he's going through its not about Quarantine he's just telling his story through music and keeping us entertained in Quarantine.
Alec: lock me up for life
Me currently in quarantine: umm I don't know how I feel about that lmao
i am LIVING for all these demos alec is releasing. something keeping me going during quarantine
When I felt alone and hated my life, so I thought about taking it."
OMG, Alec ---
OMG IKR MY STOMACH DROPPED
But at least he doesn't deal with those thoughts anymore, or at least not to that extent...
It’s called my brain. (Or it can be called depression.)
my STOMACH DROPPED AND I GOT CHILLS
I love how much Alec let’s us into his life with all his songs. I love how he shares his feelings with us, good or bad. I think it would take a lot of courage sometimes. I know he doubts himself a lot which he should know is absolutely okay, but I so badly wish I could let him know how much his words actually mean to us. He’s so exceptionally talented. By listening to his songs, he helps me find the right words to what I feel when I can’t do it myself. He makes sure that we know we’re not alone. Each and everyone of his songs tells a story which I can either relate to so well; there’s just something so incredibly great about knowing that there are people out there that don’t need an explanation for what i am are feeling, because they feel it too. Other stories show me somethings I can’t personally relate to but because of Alec I’ve learned to expand my thinking, connect it to other people in my life and just see them better. I want him to know how much of an impact he has made on so many peoples lives just by expressing himself. Thank you for that Alec!
72 hours ago, this song would have had me sobbing as I struggled alone through the darkest time of my life. I knew I needed help but was scared to reach out for it for fear of what people would think of me. I finally talked to my parents so they could help me. It's the greatest step anyone struggling with their mental health can take: reach out to someone close to you that will love you and help you through it. You're never alone. And help is waiting for you if you'll only reach out.
I have a therapist and I didn't even tell her I tried 2 nights in a row. (I will at the next appointment) - it's just so hard when you are literally filled with all these thoughts and having daily mental battles and it doesn't feel safe to tell anyone. So we keep it inside.
@@Fye.777 I feel the exact same. My parents care enough to get me a therapist but I feel they still don't understand me and can't take hints that I have these thoughts almost every day. I told my friends, but they still haven't accepted me in the friend group. They all acted like they cared but every day is the same.
I hope you get better. If not, you can talk to me on here.
bulletproof music You are not a waste. I've felt that way too, like I was completely worthless. But your life is valuable and precious. You were made in the image of a holy God. That in and of itself gives you worth. You have a soul. Look: I sympathize with you. It's hard. And not feeling parental support is miserable. But what you need more than anything is salvation in Christ, the Son of God. Human help can only take you so far: believe me. What has helped bring me out of my pit of misery is the knowledge that my thoughts and actions were sins against God, and as a Christian, I couldn't continue to live that way. My parents have helped me, but a lot of their help has been pointing me back to Christ and the hope that every Christian has in Him. Are you familiar with the gospel message? Do you have a Bible at home? If you have one, please read it. Start with the gospel of John.
August Miller Suicide is not the answer, my friend. I know those thoughts are hard to escape from, but your life is precious: please don't throw it away. You were made in the image of the holy God: you have a soul. Like I told bulletproof, you need salvation in Christ, the Son of God. He is your hope. Most of how my parents have helped me is by pointing me back to Christ. As a Christian, I couldn't continue living in the state of darkness I was in because I had the Holy Spirit living inside of me. It is because of Christ's salvation that I am on the road to recovery. It is because of Him that I have hope. Are you familiar with the gospel message? And do you have a Bible at home? If so, I plead with you to read it. Read through the gospel of John. Christ has the power to save you and help you if you would repent of your sins and put your trust in Him.
@@marisalynne6607 i have a bible, and im catholic, wich my parents doesent support. but i go to a "sunday school" its ebery second wedensday and the lady there is amazing, she told me that she loved all of us, and very happy have us there, and im a helping leader, i help her alot, so i get there a hour or so before it starts, when my parents threw me out of the house from 7 in the morning (my school starts half past 8) till 5 pm, she let me in 3 hours before i was suppose to come, so we made salad together, and she used her free time on me! and when my little sister wanted to join, we sat there playing board games. sadly, its canceled now, bc of quarantine...
thnx for telling me this, it probably meens alot, and everytime i try to KMS i will think about you, and what you wrote
alec is spoiling us this year! he’s helping so many people with his songs!! thank you alec!❤️
Wow. I'm gonna ignore the fact how contradicting your statements are.
Uniquely Me what do you mean
Lyrics:
Well I was walkin’ through some shops at the mall
A gold Versace watch was hangin’ up on the wall
And no, I didn’t have the money to ball
So I thought about takin’ it
I saw this movie playin’ up in my head
I walk outside and jack a Mercedes Benz
Go drivin’ down the 5 and even though it’s pretend
Maybe I’m a maniac
If it were illegal to have evil in the mind
And they cut me open
Wonder, “Would they be surprised?”
Or are there other people that are equally inclined
Think about the heinous things I think about
Is it only me?
Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes?
Am I alone, am I some type of criminal?
Oh, if they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Oh, would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Mmmm
There’s things I wouldn’t even say to my shrink
'Cause I’m ashamed of what the doctor would think
Like when I felt alone and hated my life
So I thought about takin’ it
I saw this movie playin’ up in my head
Next to my casket were some family and friends
And even though I know that’s not how it ends
There was no shakin’ it
If they forced a needle through a cortex in my brain
Wonder what they’d think, that maybe I had gone insane
Or are there other people that are equally deranged
And think about the heinous things I think about
Is it only me?
Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes?
Am I alone, am I some type of criminal?
Oh, if they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Oh, would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Mmmm
I tell my mother that I love her
I’m not coming home from jail
I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry
And tell my father not to bother
Waste a dollar on my bail
I’m so sorry
Hmm
I’m so sorry
Is it only me?
Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes?
Am I alone, am I some type of criminal?
Oh, if they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Oh, would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Thx for doing this it made the song much easier to follow and I could sing along although this is the first time I've heard the song
I was looking for this comment
omg ty
Thank you
I luv u Beverly
oh dude i wasn’t expecting something so relatable
I was diagnosed with severe OCD 4 years ago, and this song perfectly sums up my experience. OCD is known as being afraid of germs or being organised, and while those are the symptoms for some people, there's more to it than that. Mine was germs, and well, some pretty dark shit. These images just pop in your head, this terrible, disgusting, disturbing, gory images of strangers, friends, and family. It's scary. It's all you can see. You'll be trying to sleep and this picture of you committing a heinous crime against a loved one pops up. I thought I was going crazy. I was afraid to sleep because I was afraid that I would get up and do those things while sleep walking, since those things were what consumed me during the day. It's scary. I wouldn't touch anyone. Wouldn't even stand next to them, afraid that I would do something. I never hugged my mother for a long time. I begged my parents to send me to a mental hospital, lock me up somewhere for the deranged and insane. I tried to get them to call the police. I locked myself in my room to hide from people. I wouldn't touch anyones food or drinks, or even be around it at all because I was so afriad I would taint it. I made my family lock up anything that could be used as a weapon. I started taking melatonin so that I would sleep, thinking it would help prevent sleep walking.
Eventually, I even tried to get my parents to give me allergy medicine to knock me out so I could sleep. I was so anxiety-ridden that it was hard to sleep on my own. My nightly routine lasted 2+ hours, just me touching and patting down my blankets. My mom had to watch, and if I blinked to hard or took too deep of a breathe, I would have to restart. It took over 5 hours some nights. The thoughts you get are just so disgusting, it made me throw up at some points. It honestly feels like you're going crazy, and you're trying to convince everyone else around you to lock you up before you eventually break. It's this constant fear that controls you, never letting up.
Finally, after 8 long months, I went to a fantastic psychologist who diagnosed me and started me on medication. Those thoughts disappeared after about 7 more months of treatment, and then it moved onto germs. I'm still working on that one, but I am relatively symptom free, and it no longer affects my day to day life. Every once in a while, a little thing might happen, but even that is nothing compared to before.
I'm incredibly grateful for songs like these. It reminds me that I'm not alone. Stay strong guys.
I felt this. It feels like hell feeling like you can't trust yourself cause of thoughts you can't control.
@@angelinadubois4842 I know that feeling all too well. Being terrified of yourself, afraid that maybe this is who you subconsciously. Maybe this is your true self. It's scary. But please know that that is not you. As my doctors constantly reminded me, if you actually were like that, you wouldn't be so troubled by the thoughts. You wouldn't worry about it and be afraid that you'll do something like that. Now, if you're like me, you'll counter that argument by saying maybe you're not worried about it. Maybe your subconscious just wants you to think you're worried about it. It's a cycle. And once your break that cycle and break free from this, you can finally see how ridiculous that argument is. It does get better. These thoughts really aren't you. Wish you the best, and I'm always here to talk if you need anything. Stay safe!
I just read a book about a girl with OCD and I instantly thought of this song. You aren’t alone, and you’re incredibly strong from going through something like that every day ♥️
@@zahara2059 may I ask what book?
Christina Garcia Every Last Worr by Tamara Ireland Stone
alec is literally one of the most underrated singers i have ever seen. almost all of his songs are better than any artists’ i have ever seen. i cannot believe how unrecognized he is
Why do you say most don’t you mean all? Which songs do you not like as much?
Alec’s music just makes me so happy. I listen to it like every night. His voice is just incredible and I could listen to it 24/7. I swear it’s impossible for this man to make a bad song 😂
Who just absolutely loves Alec? 💓
Alec's music is helping so much during this time. I love you ❤️❤️ stay safe.
UA-cam: *Alec Benja-*
Me: _the time has come_
“like when i felt alone and hated my life so i thought about taking it”
why is no one talking about this? this line made my heart sink. i love you so much, alec, and i’m so glad you’re still here today. i hope you’re doing alright 💗💗
Naya I have slowed down versions of *Alec Benjamin* songs on my channel... would you mind checking it out and s u b s c r i b e maybe? I really want to get monetized to afford college in the future😭 And if you lost someone or something is going on you can always comment under one of my videos and I will respond and always be there for you! I want you to be happy and help otger people like they help me with my channel❤️🥺p.s I won tickets for his concert on Twitter but corona virus came :(
That line scared the crap out of me for at least a month
Name one thing Alec has dropped that hasn’t been absolute perfection...exactly
Words can’t describe how much I love you and your music 💜
Hey Alec, how many demos would you like to release this month?
Alec: Yes.
And we would be like: Yes.
And our eyes would be like: Imma "sweat" right now.
And our ears would be blessed.
And our heart would be satisfied.
And we will thank the universe (and his parents) for his existence
*PLEASE PUT THESE ON SPOTIFY IVE WAITED FOR SO MANY YEARS ALEC PLEASE*
"when I felt alone and hated my life
So I thought about taking it"
This hit way to hard considering the hell I'm going through
I hate my life
So I wanna take it
They bruise my heart
And now they're gonna break it
Stay alive❤
If u ever need to Talk . You are not alone. Know that your life matters
You may not know it yet, but you have a purpose. You probably have a bigger impact than you imagine already, often it doesn't seem like it, but people do care for you. You do make the world a better place, so please, whatever you're going through, pull through it! You'll be a better human because of it, with even more reason to stay alive.
:)
You are loved! ❤
Thank you guys
I'm not trying to look for attention and you have no idea how much this means considering the stuff I'm going thru rn
Thank you
Pfft, Corona? Corona virus is contagious, eh? Like Alec. Alecvirus. CUASE HE’S SO ADDICTING, I CONTAINED IT.
can u explain me what 'pfft' means pls ? i googled it but still dont get it 😩
@@duongkhoaquan8467it's hard to explain but I'm pretty sure it means like you don't really believe something or it is a surprise to you. For example: pfft, are you sure you're right?
@@duongkhoaquan8467 it's a sound you make like "ummmmm" = yummy
And "pffffft" = sight, rolling your eyes etc
Khoa Quân Dương it sound like my annoying ass laugh😂
its a drug
No matter how my day goes, Alec always cheers me up and has me in my feelings with every song ❤️❤️
When you don't know the lyrics so you're just like-
dooo-do-do-do-do-do-do-dooo-doodo
Trueeee
HAHAHHAA yesss
Meee 😂💜
Ahahaha True 😊
Alec Benjamin: My mind is a prison
Also Alec Benjamin: Lock me up for life
*love Alec Benjamin! Thank you for your music 🎶
“If they could read my mind, would they lock me up for life?” But Alec is already locked up in his mind because his mind is a prison. Would he be double locked up then?
double**
God that was witty😂😂😂😂
@@augustmiller5202 what
Hello, random person scrolling through the comments. I wish u a great day, keep going, chin up
A Fan thank you :)
aww thank you, you too!
Awww that's cute ❤️
This made me cry :( Thank you so much
Wierd how you see lots of these comments and dismiss them but when your actually going through something these comments mean the world 😂
"like when I felt alone and hated my life so I thought about takin' it"
alec who hurt that beautiful soul of yours?
No one:
Alec Benjamin: who needs a studio
lmao and Billie and Finneas😂🥺❤️
Miranda M i want Alec, Billie, and Finneas to all colab! >:O
@@stunnvell7796 me tooo
That's *everything I wanted*
There's a saying here in India , which goes like-
"Agar trailer itna dhaansu hai toh movie kitni gaand faad hogi"
Which in this case would - if the demo is so good , just think of how great the song would be.
IKRRRRR. Also uhm dont come at me but i think you meant “dhaanse”
i’m.. crying right now. how could someone make a song that just speaks to me so much. it feels like someone read my mind and put it into a song. i’ve never felt so relieved. that’s not the right word. i don’t know what is. it’s like all my thoughts put into a song. these lyrics are so simple but it means so much to me. thank you for this alec. sometimes i feel like i’m trapped in my head and nobody understands me but this really hit me.
That seems a little more like you were talking about. Mind is a prison.
Alec while singing about one of the most relatable things in life :
"Is it only me, is it unnatural to have this thoughts sometimes??"
Every individual lyric hits so hard, the entirety of his songs are all so beautifully profound from beginning to end. Thank you for this amazing gift 💕
I love how you make songs about your family tho🥺❤
I love how he shares his thoughts through music, it really helps. Sometimes I just randomly start putting out my thoughts in a tune and sing it, and it makes me feel so much better.
Also, if evil in the mind was illegal, they wouldn't lock me up, they'd execute me
Quaratine is driving some people crazy but all they gotta do is calm down, get yourself a snack, and listen to a playlist of alec benjamin.
HUGE FAN OF URS. Hope everyone is safe and healthy where they are.
Love you Alec, going to try and see you in concert soon! Been with you for a year now 💛
this perfect song can be our little secret until Alec gets the tremendous exposure he deserves :) seriously how can an artist be so perfect
Just as long as that exposure isn’t to Covid I am fine with that
Lyrics: Crime & Stealing
*Alecs angelic voice*
Me: no he cld never
I honestly listen to Alec's music, just to take notes from his vocal technique and songwriting. I gotta sing with him one day for sure.
Can't believe it's been 3 years already! I remember when this song came out it gave me so much comfort but then I forgot about it for some reason. Recently I suddenly had to think about this song and how much it used to mean to me, so here I am again, for the first time in about 2 years or so. So much changed since then and sadly it would be a lie if I said things were better now... but one thing didn't change and thats the comfort alecs music, especially this song, gives me♡
I love your demos💕for sure one of the only things getting me through this quarentine
Lyrics☛
Well I was walking through the shops at the mall
A gold Versace watch was hanging up on the wall
No, I didn’t have the money to ball
So I thought about taking it
I saw this movie playing up in my head
I walk outside and jack a Mercedes Benz
Go driving down the 5 and even though its pretend
Maybe I’m a maniac
If it were illegal to have evil in the mind
If they cut me open wonder would they be surprised
Or are there other people who are equally inclined
To think the heinous things I think about
Is it wrong with me
Is it unnatural to,
To have these thoughts sometimes
Am I alone or am I
Some type of criminal
If they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life
Lock me up for life
Would they lock me up for life
Lock me up for life ...
There’s things I wouldn’t even say to my shrink
‘Cuz I’m ashamed of what the doctor would think
Like when I felt alone and hated my life
So I thought about taking it
I saw this movie playing up in my head
Next to my casket were some family and friends
And even though I know that’s not how it ends
There was no shaking it
If they force a needle through a cortex in my brain
Wonder what they think that maybe I have gone insane
Or are there other people that are equally deranged
To think the heinous things I think about ...
Is it wrong with me
Is it unnatural to,
To have these thoughts sometimes
Am I alone or am I
Some type of criminal
If they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life
Lock me up for life
Would they lock me up for life
Lock me up for life
Tell my mother that I love her I’m not coming home from jail
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
And tell my father not to bother waste a dollar on my bail
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
Is it wrong with me
Is it unnatural to,
To have these thoughts sometimes
Am I alone or am I
Some type of criminal
If they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life
Lock me up for life
Would they lock me up for life
Lock me up for life...
gracias
Thank you for the lyrics
Thank you for the lyrics, only there is one little mistake, wrong should be Only ;)
Aditya Singh I think it’s “No, I didn’t have the money to borrow, so I thought about taking it” it makes more sense, why would he need to ball it? Also if you listen carefully I’m sure you’ll be able to hear it too :)
@@haileyc250 MY BAD!!
Even tho it was jus a copy & paste.
This hits me on a personal level because some of my family doesn't understand how I feel most of the time. And I've almost taken my life a few times, I've come a long way from then.
Anyway thank you Alec for expressing yourself in ways that some of us never can do.
I relate to this song so much! This song has helped me to know that I’m not alone. I actually cried the first time I heard it. Thank you Alec❤
Just when I think that there isn’t any music lyrics left in the world that would impress me, you upload a song and prove me wrong.
You are a gem, Alec.
Omg! So much Good music in 2020💕
Thank you Alec!
because you make me happy with your songs~
Idk why but I feel like these songs just release me from my mind and takes the ugly thoughts away...I just love all these songs he makes it makes me feel a lot better.
Love your songs Alec💛
I love how in almost every one of his songs, he tells a story
Beautiful in every way. Perfect piano,tempo, and if course vocals.
I came over as soon as i got the notification, and its already stuck in my head!!!
"I'm always stuck in my head" (mind is a prison) this randomly came to my head lol.
Well this is literally us in quarantine...
I don't think I realised that it was uploaded in March...
omg i’m cyring. it’s so amazing.. lyrics with this beautiful, magical melody is something that I needed. thank you so much for every song that you’ve made, you are seriously wonderful person. with lots of love
As someone who's been dealing with suicide for years now, this hits hard. It even says that there are somethings he wouldn't tell his shrink cause he thinks the doctor would say something. It's not easy bottling everything inside. Its hard.
For those of you who can relate to this song or who might need it, remember your thoughts do not define you. A lot of what Alec is talking about sounds like intrusive thoughts, which can be random (usually violent) thoughts/ impulses someone might have that just come out of nowhere. Like seeing a child and having the urge to kick it or seeing a knife and imagining cutting yourself or simply when you're standing somewhere high and your brain goes "jump." These thoughts, althought unpleasant, don't mean anything. They don't come from you. They don't make you a bad person. A lot of people experience them and they are common symptoms of mental health issues like depression or anxiety, but "normal" people also might have them too from time to time. Your reaction says more about your true nature than the intrusive thought itself, so if your immediate reaction is to be like "wtf what is wrong with me?!!!" that's a good sign. Also, like I said, although it is one sign of mental health issues it is in no way an indication that you have any of those issues. If you're seriously worried, please do talk to someone. Chances are, especially if it's a professional, they won't judge you and will assure you that, like I said, these thoughts aren't coming from you. That said, if you're planning on acting on them it is a problem, and again, you should seek help. Sorry for the long text. Stay safe, y'all ♥️
@@wandotra thank you for the reply! I'm glad someone found this helpful :)
Wow!!! This song sounds amazing, I love it. Thank you for making such amazing music, especially in this time. This song already is helping me get my mind off of things and just relax for a bit.
The greatest to ever do it ❤️ love your music so underrated my go to artist tbh
living in europe has been so difficult for me but Alec, your music helps me feel comfortable and safe in so many positive ways. u deserve so much happiness and good health. ily x
I’ve never heard a song that perfectly explains ocd and this is it
You're not alone. I don't think I've ever connected with a piece of music more. There are so many things that pop into our heads, you can't always control it, even if it's not something you want to think of.
WOW man, you're really really good!!! I love you Alec❤️
This song hits hard. All his music is so touching but this is the one that made me tear up. Just because I know how it feels to feel so anxious and alone and feel like I need to hide it because nobody will get me. If you listen to the lyrics there is such a powerful message to this song. Today I heard his song "let me down slowly" on the radio and was so happy. He deserves more love and appreciation for what he does. He needs to be shown some respect because all of his songs tell a story. He isn't just a singer. He's a author. I'll keep on supporting throughout his entire career because he deserves love 💓
I’m so jealous I never once heard that song on the radio but apparently it’s been on the radio and everyone hears it
this is one of the most relatable songs ive heard lol... Someone being able to read minds is like one of my biggest fears cause I think about some really messed up stuff. It's worst when it happens in public...
Love the song!
i really needed this. i have intrusive thoughts that make me feel crazy sometimes and im so glad im not alone
i love him & his music so much.. his voice speaks to my heart
This song is amazing!!! Glad to know I'll survive quarantine when I have someone like Alec to release all these bops
Someone has put my daily thought into words. I know if I had the courage to, I'd take my life in a second
dont do that :(
When you already know its gonna be amazing!! 🤗
I love that you are actually constant with music. You don't wait a year and a half to come out with a new song or even a demo. You come out with a new song almodt every 3 months. Recently a lot more than usual. But I just love that about you and your music!
this song has been resonating with me a lot more lately. I saw the doctor recently to establish care, and since then I have been looking at myself and my thoughts a lot more. I'm just realizing how often I think about hurting others and stealing and breaking things.
Stay safe man wishin u the best ❤
I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!! WHY IS THIS SO RELATABLE🥺❤️
This is the best unreleased song. I hope it comes out as a single or in his next album!
Who cares about corona when we got his music?
Like if you agree
You kinda have to care about it. It is a serious thing, people are dying.
But you do you, lol.
It is nice to just take your mind away from it of course though. Because it is legit kinda scary.
@@charlatte1948 yes I didnt mean that we all shouldnt just push it away, that came out a little wrong.
I'm just saying that his music is very calming and is a wonderful thing to listen to around this time
@@charlatte1948 It is serious but fear is spreading faster than the virus. We need to learn how to calm down a bit. This music nice to listen to in this time.
Y'all don't get it , it was a joke SMH
Plz plz plz put this song on Spotify!!!!! Easily one of your best songs
This song made me cry and it make me think abut my dark past
This song perfectly captured the emotions that I’m always confused by. I hope people understand that when someone calls themselves evil or a bad person, it won’t necessarily be for things they’ve already done , like for me I’ve never done anything bad but god knows that I should be thrown in a pit of fire for what I think of sometimes, no not sometimes, all the time.this song perfectly captured that emotion and that thought. So thank you Alec Benjamin for saying and simplifying things that a lot of people wouldn’t understand. Thank you for turning thoughts to words and putting a voice to them.
I’ve been waiting for you to post this for the longest time 😭😭
I have Pure OCD and this song is extremely relatable for me (and it’s also very relaxing to listen too!) thank you for this one, Alec! 💖
I really like this one. It's so raw and real. I feel like we have all had thoughts like this and some do every day... This is so true and a good reminder that we are not alone.
Alec Benjamin is that one artist who has both good music and good lyrics!
Also Parekh & Singh.
I feel spoiled i mean what we did that we deserve so much good music in so short time💕
This is amazing, as always! Love you Alec, stay safe!
I LOVE THIS
I relate to this song way to much...... Every song he writes I always relate to and each one is beautiful. I’ve never heard a bad song of his before.
I can relate to this song honestly. Ever since lock down started, I’ve been scared. My friend’s say I’m depressed and I just don’t wanna live anymore, and none of the hotlines are helping. I’m scared of what I’ll do, because I know so many people that died in situations like mine. This song just gives me peace and happiness. To anyone going through similar situations, keep your chin up, loves.
How are you feeling now? [I'm just replying to some random comments sorry, but I just feel like checking up on people, whoever they are]