I'm so happy UA-cam is finally recommending videos of autistic content creators that aren't just low support needs and high masking, obviously I have nothing against the people who choose to live that way, but it is wonderful to see more diversity and I feel a sense of not being alone and better understanding for those that choose to spend more time unmasked. Autism is extremely nuanced and I'm very happy to be seeing more perspectives on it other than just the binary of "autism is my superpower" and "autism ruined my life". Thank you for putting yourself on camera, I really appreciate it
Damn, I watch most of your vids out of order, so I didn't realized how much your speech changed in them. Not just speed and pitch, but also pacing, intonation, editing, all of it feels like you went from a librarian reading during story time hour to a friend who's in a different grade, so you only have a 10-minute break to share half an hour worth of hyperfixation infodumping each. It's nice, feels more, idk, organic? And if the speed is the issue to anyone, watching it on x0.75 speed is surprisingly close to the speed from the older video, so that plus captions hopefully will be enough. I know it is for me, when I have a migraine or no-spoons-left brain, but still want to watch something - and it gives Sydney more watchtime, so the algorithm should be even happier that normally.
Yes! I came here to make a similar comment. Present-day Sidney feels so much more natural and expressive! The person in that older video is obviously trying so very hard to be a girl and be normal and talk normal and ALL the normal! I wish I had old recordings of myself to compare to present me.
I love that you went back to do this because you felt dissatisfied about the accuracy! Also, wow, you have changed so much. Except maybe you haven't actually changed, that now you're just truly yourself and before you were drowning in seven layers of masking for gender, autism, happiness, disability, and whatever else was and is still going on? Now that I think about it, is it an autistic trait for us to just be turned up to 11 when we are engaged in life, regardless of what part of life it is? I never approach things with calm, balanced reserve, not if it's anything I care about or find remotely interesting. The only time I'm calm is when I'm tired (which is too often, but still). Maybe this simply fits under the heading that Unmasking Takes Time.
Hi. I've been here since close to when you made that video, and it's kind of fun to see you look back on that younger version of yourself and make a more informative video. Also, so happy that you're doing the whole theater crossed with psych thing that you set out to do.
I haven't watched Sydneys vidoes for over a year (due to important elections in my country and later being busy with life so I have so many vidoes of theirs in "to watch" (not sure how yt names it in english) playlist) with maybe 3 exceptions and this video reminds me why I love their videos
Not wearing a hoodie, but I am wearing a men's button-down pajama shirt like it's a Regular Flannel Shirt, so... that kinda counts? 😆 And, yeah, I think we all have to look back and evaluate our old ways of thinking. I used to be SO MAD that "Asperger's" (air-quotes implied) was morphed into ASD in the DSM5, because I was led to believe by my mother and society as a whole (including a very problematic book aimed at spectrum women that claimed to give advice but turned out to be full of ableist garbage and very paranoid travel tips) that it was a separate thing from autism - that autistic people were "severe" and I was "high-functioning" or "mild". Then I fell down the rabbit hole of autistic UA-cam and was like, "Holy sh!t, THEY'RE LITERALLY THE SAME THING." But I'm sure an Autism Warrior Mom will accuse me of making it all up 🙃
I’ve been watching your videos and this response is amazing and well timed! You addressed the things I was kinda starting to cringe at as an self-diagnosed autistic trans woman and I appreciate and applaud your growth and self awareness 💖🙏
Sometimes I pull up old scripts to use portions in newer videos and go "...well that's... mm... okay...?". But also! I love that things are moving so fast as to become so outdated so quickly! That's awesome! It just does mean that I will be adding disclaimers on things and quietly taking down select old videos for the rest of time lol
Well, whether or not Kanner should have cited Aspurgers, Kanner had plenty of other people to cite that he didn't, and Kanner did immeasurable damage to people's lives because of his academic inhonesty. I really wish that Kanner had his doctorate posthumously revoked.
Fabulous content as usual. It must have been difficult to work with the footage of old Sydney. I do want to offer the feedback that old Sydney's slower pacing of speech was easier for me to understand than the faster pace now. I'm sorry you had to deal with confronting them (old sydney) in the past for our sake but I do appreciate this update massively about this topic.
Mentioned this in more depth in another comment, but that's my speech disorder! Part of me acting like a robot in older videos was me masking my natural speech to sound "normal" rather than natural. After my autistic speech patterns video two years ago I decided to see what would happen if I stopped masking my natural speech for a bit, discovered how much less miserable I was all the time, andddd now we're here. If it's too fast, I have heard that 0.75 speed is really great!
@@disabled.autistic.lesbian did I miss a video where you may have mentioned it? I'm actually wondering if I've got it to because people have started to stay I speak too fast after my brain injury which caused me to lose a significant number of my high masking skills
Links don't always post in comments cause it gets flagged as spam, but here's the link - ua-cam.com/video/6_det6P3gOY/v-deo.html&ab_channel=SydneyZarlengo
One thing I noticed is my autistic behaviors as I'm a man gets noticed as weird but if woman does the same thing she is quirky or even considered normal. As for masking better, I think it' more that women can maintain the mask longer. I can mask perfect for short periods of time, an hour or two most. After that the mask starts failing.
Yes, but why focus on assigned gender at all (when focusing on gender)? The example amab child doesn't have to be a boy. Is there enough data about about autistic trans people to group them reliably with other categories?
There’s also a higher percentage of trans autistic people than allistic people. Probably just a correlation of us being more likely to question society and understanding it and our relation to it. But it makes gender separation even more nonsensical and difficult to apply, so why even do it. I can only see the gendering contributing to people not getting diagnosed because they don’t fit the expected gender presentation.
Re. "female" vs. "male" autism-I just went from "I'm male / amab but I really identify with the experiences of autistic women and have all the traits of 'female autism', so that's weird" to "oh, wait, I'm trans". I'm writing this before watching the whole video and I don't know how it fits in / doesn't fit in with your thoughts. It's interesting, in any case. I don't like the fact that my particular situation could be read as reinforcing the gendered-autism narrative, but it's the situation I find myself in either way.
(FWIW, I'm not sure yet where I am in the general 'non-binary to female' part of the gender continuum, but I at least know I'm in there somewhere. Definitely not on the 'male' subset of the continuum, although being able to adopt that performatively can be useful... And I know there are more axes here than a continuum with 'super female' on one end and 'really damned male' at the other. I just haven't wrapped my brain around it, yet.)
Yes! I have a common autistic speech disorder called "Cluttering", I talk a bit about it in my Autistic Speech Patterns video from a few years ago. After making that video I stopped trying to mask my natural speech because of how exhausting it is for me to do so, which is why I have significantly sped up over time! I know speaking naturally for me is not the most accessible for some of my viewers because it can be a bit fast, that's partially why all of my reviews are typed in a database on my website. I've been monitoring comments around it for awhile and it overall seems to be about 50-50 with my audience, with a lot of people saying I'm the only creator they don't have to watch on double speed. But I've heard that watching things at 0.75 speed is really effective if thats helpful at all :)
@@disabled.autistic.lesbianas someone who probably has cluttering (sounds very similar to my life and what i went to speech therapy for lol) and been told to ‘speak slower’ my entire life hearing you/a few other creators be like ‘yeah…i just stopped trying to speak slower lol’ is very liberating xD (so thank uuuu)
I learned how to speak quickly in a controlled manner through theatrical training and was like "WOW now I can speak at the speed my brain thinks and I feel like a human person who finds joy in conversation suddenly!"
@@disabled.autistic.lesbian my speech rate varies too. When I speak very fast, gets called "pressure of speech" by clinicians & is am indicator of anxiety and/or elevated mood with bipolar disorder.
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I'm so happy UA-cam is finally recommending videos of autistic content creators that aren't just low support needs and high masking, obviously I have nothing against the people who choose to live that way, but it is wonderful to see more diversity and I feel a sense of not being alone and better understanding for those that choose to spend more time unmasked. Autism is extremely nuanced and I'm very happy to be seeing more perspectives on it other than just the binary of "autism is my superpower" and "autism ruined my life". Thank you for putting yourself on camera, I really appreciate it
Zip up hoodies and trains are great though
There's no question
Damn, I watch most of your vids out of order, so I didn't realized how much your speech changed in them. Not just speed and pitch, but also pacing, intonation, editing, all of it feels like you went from a librarian reading during story time hour to a friend who's in a different grade, so you only have a 10-minute break to share half an hour worth of hyperfixation infodumping each.
It's nice, feels more, idk, organic?
And if the speed is the issue to anyone, watching it on x0.75 speed is surprisingly close to the speed from the older video, so that plus captions hopefully will be enough. I know it is for me, when I have a migraine or no-spoons-left brain, but still want to watch something - and it gives Sydney more watchtime, so the algorithm should be even happier that normally.
Yes! I came here to make a similar comment. Present-day Sidney feels so much more natural and expressive! The person in that older video is obviously trying so very hard to be a girl and be normal and talk normal and ALL the normal! I wish I had old recordings of myself to compare to present me.
Same! Sometimes I would watch a new video and think hey let's revisit an older Sydney video and I'm like woaahhh that person is so different!!
I love that you went back to do this because you felt dissatisfied about the accuracy! Also, wow, you have changed so much. Except maybe you haven't actually changed, that now you're just truly yourself and before you were drowning in seven layers of masking for gender, autism, happiness, disability, and whatever else was and is still going on? Now that I think about it, is it an autistic trait for us to just be turned up to 11 when we are engaged in life, regardless of what part of life it is? I never approach things with calm, balanced reserve, not if it's anything I care about or find remotely interesting. The only time I'm calm is when I'm tired (which is too often, but still). Maybe this simply fits under the heading that Unmasking Takes Time.
Hi. I've been here since close to when you made that video, and it's kind of fun to see you look back on that younger version of yourself and make a more informative video.
Also, so happy that you're doing the whole theater crossed with psych thing that you set out to do.
Yum, spreadsheets. I do like the ordering of data
Excellent revisit! You are so brilliant Sydney, I love you! ❤
FYI, I am also wearing a hoodie right now… 😏🤣
I haven't watched Sydneys vidoes for over a year (due to important elections in my country and later being busy with life so I have so many vidoes of theirs in "to watch" (not sure how yt names it in english) playlist) with maybe 3 exceptions and this video reminds me why I love their videos
Not wearing a hoodie, but I am wearing a men's button-down pajama shirt like it's a Regular Flannel Shirt, so... that kinda counts? 😆
And, yeah, I think we all have to look back and evaluate our old ways of thinking. I used to be SO MAD that "Asperger's" (air-quotes implied) was morphed into ASD in the DSM5, because I was led to believe by my mother and society as a whole (including a very problematic book aimed at spectrum women that claimed to give advice but turned out to be full of ableist garbage and very paranoid travel tips) that it was a separate thing from autism - that autistic people were "severe" and I was "high-functioning" or "mild". Then I fell down the rabbit hole of autistic UA-cam and was like, "Holy sh!t, THEY'RE LITERALLY THE SAME THING."
But I'm sure an Autism Warrior Mom will accuse me of making it all up 🙃
I’ve been watching your videos and this response is amazing and well timed! You addressed the things I was kinda starting to cringe at as an self-diagnosed autistic trans woman and I appreciate and applaud your growth and self awareness 💖🙏
Sometimes I pull up old scripts to use portions in newer videos and go "...well that's... mm... okay...?". But also! I love that things are moving so fast as to become so outdated so quickly! That's awesome! It just does mean that I will be adding disclaimers on things and quietly taking down select old videos for the rest of time lol
I think (zip up) hoodies should be part of the DSM criteria... wearing one myself right now...
Well, whether or not Kanner should have cited Aspurgers, Kanner had plenty of other people to cite that he didn't, and Kanner did immeasurable damage to people's lives because of his academic inhonesty. I really wish that Kanner had his doctorate posthumously revoked.
It wasn't just his academic dishonesty. It was his hubris. He valued his hubris more than he valued the quality of the lives of people.
Fabulous content as usual. It must have been difficult to work with the footage of old Sydney. I do want to offer the feedback that old Sydney's slower pacing of speech was easier for me to understand than the faster pace now. I'm sorry you had to deal with confronting them (old sydney) in the past for our sake but I do appreciate this update massively about this topic.
Mentioned this in more depth in another comment, but that's my speech disorder! Part of me acting like a robot in older videos was me masking my natural speech to sound "normal" rather than natural. After my autistic speech patterns video two years ago I decided to see what would happen if I stopped masking my natural speech for a bit, discovered how much less miserable I was all the time, andddd now we're here. If it's too fast, I have heard that 0.75 speed is really great!
@@disabled.autistic.lesbian thank you for explaining and pointing me to the other comment
@@disabled.autistic.lesbian did I miss a video where you may have mentioned it? I'm actually wondering if I've got it to because people have started to stay I speak too fast after my brain injury which caused me to lose a significant number of my high masking skills
Links don't always post in comments cause it gets flagged as spam, but here's the link - ua-cam.com/video/6_det6P3gOY/v-deo.html&ab_channel=SydneyZarlengo
@@disabled.autistic.lesbian got it! Much appreciated
I'm wearing a blue hoodie right now.
One thing I noticed is my autistic behaviors as I'm a man gets noticed as weird but if woman does the same thing she is quirky or even considered normal. As for masking better, I think it' more that women can maintain the mask longer. I can mask perfect for short periods of time, an hour or two most. After that the mask starts failing.
Zip up hoodie here too ✋
WHY DID IT TAKE 100 FUCKING YEARS FOR PEOPLE TO LISTEN TO HER??????
Yes, but why focus on assigned gender at all (when focusing on gender)? The example amab child doesn't have to be a boy. Is there enough data about about autistic trans people to group them reliably with other categories?
There’s also a higher percentage of trans autistic people than allistic people. Probably just a correlation of us being more likely to question society and understanding it and our relation to it. But it makes gender separation even more nonsensical and difficult to apply, so why even do it. I can only see the gendering contributing to people not getting diagnosed because they don’t fit the expected gender presentation.
Re. "female" vs. "male" autism-I just went from "I'm male / amab but I really identify with the experiences of autistic women and have all the traits of 'female autism', so that's weird" to "oh, wait, I'm trans".
I'm writing this before watching the whole video and I don't know how it fits in / doesn't fit in with your thoughts. It's interesting, in any case. I don't like the fact that my particular situation could be read as reinforcing the gendered-autism narrative, but it's the situation I find myself in either way.
(FWIW, I'm not sure yet where I am in the general 'non-binary to female' part of the gender continuum, but I at least know I'm in there somewhere. Definitely not on the 'male' subset of the continuum, although being able to adopt that performatively can be useful...
And I know there are more axes here than a continuum with 'super female' on one end and 'really damned male' at the other. I just haven't wrapped my brain around it, yet.)
Talk super fast in this video. Have clinicians ever mentioned this? Looked up an older video & spoke a lot slower.
Yes! I have a common autistic speech disorder called "Cluttering", I talk a bit about it in my Autistic Speech Patterns video from a few years ago. After making that video I stopped trying to mask my natural speech because of how exhausting it is for me to do so, which is why I have significantly sped up over time! I know speaking naturally for me is not the most accessible for some of my viewers because it can be a bit fast, that's partially why all of my reviews are typed in a database on my website. I've been monitoring comments around it for awhile and it overall seems to be about 50-50 with my audience, with a lot of people saying I'm the only creator they don't have to watch on double speed. But I've heard that watching things at 0.75 speed is really effective if thats helpful at all :)
@@disabled.autistic.lesbianas someone who probably has cluttering (sounds very similar to my life and what i went to speech therapy for lol) and been told to ‘speak slower’ my entire life hearing you/a few other creators be like ‘yeah…i just stopped trying to speak slower lol’ is very liberating xD (so thank uuuu)
I learned how to speak quickly in a controlled manner through theatrical training and was like "WOW now I can speak at the speed my brain thinks and I feel like a human person who finds joy in conversation suddenly!"
@@disabled.autistic.lesbian my speech rate varies too. When I speak very fast, gets called "pressure of speech" by clinicians & is am indicator of anxiety and/or elevated mood with bipolar disorder.