I love your humor. As the Breast Turns. I have been on estrogel for 7 weeks, and have seen some changes already. I had a Therapy session Thursday, and she said I am at more peace with myself and she sees a softer-gentler Frances. My measurements have been changing too. I know about how more comfortable my spirit is with myself. The way people, like your Boss, see our changes more than what we see. It is more than appearance. The air about you, you radiate happiness and confidence in yourself. A man told me Friday that I was a lady. wow, I was blown away. I am doing my best to shed any semblance of appearing male. I am not afraid to let my femininity to be seen in how I move, talk and act. Your video is very encouraging to me Thank you, Cassidy.
Seven weeks - yea for you, sweetie!!!! Congratulations! I almost instantly felt exactly the same when I started, Frances: at peace. So many things suddenly began to make sense. It's hard to put into words; I guess I was no longer fighting myself, and trying to pretend to be someone I never was, and never could be. Being a boy was so confusing; I never got how they thought. And I *really* don't get it now! lol Transitioning is an ongoing process. I don't think I truly accepted myself until a few weeks ago,when I finally let go of trying to be who my parents wanted, and realized I'm just fine the way I am. Not only am I fine... I'm pretty awesome. :) It's an amazing feeling to realize all of the things you spent your life denying you wanted, are actually happening. The gentleman who complimented you obviously sees who you are, Frances. And you're right; so often others see us long before we do. I can tell just from our interactions that you're one of those who "gets it" - who knows this comes down to hard work and determination. That's really what it's about. The first time I went outside as myself - which was only last summer, barely five months before I went full-time - I forgot about it as soon as I walked out the door. I felt completely at ease. I didn't have to think about how I was supposed to act, or stop myself from doing things that I now see were naturally feminine, but that I had to suppress when I was trying to be "him." That burden was exhausting. I'm so happy it's gone. I'm so glad my videos are helping. That's very flattering. It's why I do them, I guess. I know how much reading the blogs and watching the videos of others helped me when I was starting out - and still do. I'll stop blabbing now! lol I might do one of those transition videos of my progress the past three years. It's a short week this week (yea!), so I'll finally have time. We shall see! Hugs, Cass
Cassidy McGuinn Great explanation. I so get it. There was so much stress in being that "him" like you said. I really did not who I was inside. I would hang out with other boys to fit in for a year or two and then make friends with someone else for a while. It is like your searching for who you are. Nothing fit. I got tired of trying to please my Father doing what was expected of me. He drank a lot and was never around. He lived at the golf course with his pals. I drank a lot with my local friends and did not need to have a girlfriend. Girls were shy back then and so was I. I did not even go to my High School prom. I was introverted socially toward girls, and I drank a lot. It was all bullshit. I have cut back on videos because I have been slandered by a you-tube channel. Be careful what you say publicly, because haters will use what you say against you. so long for now. hugs back.
Seeing myself in the shower, I am reminded of the song "Thanks for the Mammaries". :) You are looking good Cassidy, and sounding very upbeat too. What a difference in such a short time. It's taken me a few sessions to get through the entire video, but it is very interesting. Talk to you soon.
Thank you, Alice. My sister teases me that I'm trying to make up for a lifetime of not talking as quickly as possible. lol Joking aside, I think I'll do shorter, more frequent videos from now on. I'm not *that* interesting to merit *anyone* slogging through 20+ minutes. :#) I hope to be able to sing the same song someday too. :D But first things first. Get the plumbing in order, then take care of the girls. :) Hope we can talk this week. Lots to tell you about. Hope you're finally shoveled out!!!
You'll get there for sure. Keep your positive attitude too, 'cause that makes the ups and downs easy to take. To me, downstairs is more important than upstairs. It's easier to pad than it is to ... you know. We got shoveled out ok, then yesterday the temp went to +7C/43F and there's been a huge melt. Today is forecast +10C/50F and the remainder should be gone by mid-afternoon.
Also, don't worry about the length of the videos, I just break up the watching sessions, especially when I have someone here with me. We take 10 to 15 minute breaks where we each do some web surfing and you tubing. He goes to his hobby sites, and I go to mine. Works out for each of us!
I love your humor.
As the Breast Turns. I have been on estrogel for 7 weeks, and have seen some changes already. I had a Therapy session Thursday, and she said I am at more peace with myself and she sees a softer-gentler Frances. My measurements have been changing too. I know about how more comfortable my spirit is with myself.
The way people, like your Boss, see our changes more than what we see. It is more than appearance. The air about you, you radiate happiness and confidence in yourself. A man told me Friday that I was a lady. wow, I was blown away. I am doing my best to shed any semblance of appearing male. I am not afraid to let my femininity to be seen in how I move, talk and act. Your video is very encouraging to me Thank you, Cassidy.
Seven weeks - yea for you, sweetie!!!! Congratulations!
I almost instantly felt exactly the same when I started, Frances: at peace. So many things suddenly began to make sense. It's hard to put into words; I guess I was no longer fighting myself, and trying to pretend to be someone I never was, and never could be. Being a boy was so confusing; I never got how they thought. And I *really* don't get it now! lol
Transitioning is an ongoing process. I don't think I truly accepted myself until a few weeks ago,when I finally let go of trying to be who my parents wanted, and realized I'm just fine the way I am. Not only am I fine... I'm pretty awesome. :) It's an amazing feeling to realize all of the things you spent your life denying you wanted, are actually happening.
The gentleman who complimented you obviously sees who you are, Frances. And you're right; so often others see us long before we do. I can tell just from our interactions that you're one of those who "gets it" - who knows this comes down to hard work and determination. That's really what it's about.
The first time I went outside as myself - which was only last summer, barely five months before I went full-time - I forgot about it as soon as I walked out the door. I felt completely at ease. I didn't have to think about how I was supposed to act, or stop myself from doing things that I now see were naturally feminine, but that I had to suppress when I was trying to be "him." That burden was exhausting. I'm so happy it's gone.
I'm so glad my videos are helping. That's very flattering. It's why I do them, I guess. I know how much reading the blogs and watching the videos of others helped me when I was starting out - and still do.
I'll stop blabbing now! lol I might do one of those transition videos of my progress the past three years. It's a short week this week (yea!), so I'll finally have time. We shall see!
Hugs,
Cass
Cassidy McGuinn Great explanation. I so get it. There was so much stress in being that "him" like you said. I really did not who I was inside. I would hang out with other boys to fit in for a year or two and then make friends with someone else for a while. It is like your searching for who you are. Nothing fit. I got tired of trying to please my Father doing what was expected of me. He drank a lot and was never around. He lived at the golf course with his pals. I drank a lot with my local friends and did not need to have a girlfriend. Girls were shy back then and so was I. I did not even go to my High School prom. I was introverted socially toward girls, and I drank a lot. It was all bullshit. I have cut back on videos because I have been slandered by a you-tube channel. Be careful what you say publicly, because haters will use what you say against you. so long for now.
hugs back.
Seeing myself in the shower, I am reminded of the song "Thanks for the Mammaries". :)
You are looking good Cassidy, and sounding very upbeat too. What a difference in such a short time.
It's taken me a few sessions to get through the entire video, but it is very interesting.
Talk to you soon.
Thank you, Alice. My sister teases me that I'm trying to make up for a lifetime of not talking as quickly as possible. lol Joking aside, I think I'll do shorter, more frequent videos from now on. I'm not *that* interesting to merit *anyone* slogging through 20+ minutes. :#)
I hope to be able to sing the same song someday too. :D But first things first. Get the plumbing in order, then take care of the girls. :)
Hope we can talk this week. Lots to tell you about.
Hope you're finally shoveled out!!!
You'll get there for sure. Keep your positive attitude too, 'cause that makes the ups and downs easy to take. To me, downstairs is more important than upstairs. It's easier to pad than it is to ... you know.
We got shoveled out ok, then yesterday the temp went to +7C/43F and there's been a huge melt. Today is forecast +10C/50F and the remainder should be gone by mid-afternoon.
Also, don't worry about the length of the videos, I just break up the watching sessions, especially when I have someone here with me.
We take 10 to 15 minute breaks where we each do some web surfing and you tubing. He goes to his hobby sites, and I go to mine. Works out for each of us!
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