The problem is and this is from someone who has woken up in emergency or ICU many times, it is easy and painless for us selfish people. What's not easy is for the people living who have to deal with the loss, go through the stages of grief and still try to live their lives! That is the point that we gotta stop being selfish for a moment in time. Megan u aren't stupid, u know what u need to do and when u get clean #1 priority is that 15 year old and cont
In the videos I've seen the only people being "blamed" are their parent's for being absolutely horrendous. I'm just curious who you've heard blamed besides parents?
@@parkerhunter8970 just off the top of my head: Ronan and Henry (trick). But so many of them have been "screwed over" by other drug addicts and prostitutes. I guess im talking about blaming other people for ending up on skid row and for failed attempts at getting sober more than blaming other people for their getting addicted to drugs.
She's so honest with herself, but also so defeated by that honesty. The trauma and neglect she endured as a child stole her self-worth. She almost seems to have accepted that she is dead already. She mentioned her husband passing so many times - she hasn't healed from so much trama. My heart hurts for her. I hope she finds security and peace with herself.
This!! You do not need to go to school to be a freaking psychologist to care and feel and see. My entire family is alcoholics. Me included. Watching my daughter use and homeless for 41/2 years. She has seizures. I watched her huff in the bathtub. These stories all have a similar underline. So- when you say “are you a psychologist”? Nah - a realist. Psychology cannot help those who are defeated by trauma and underlying mental health issues.
That toxic forgiveness preaching is so harmful. How can you heal if you not first learn to feel disappointment towards your parents and hurt and anger and all the other feelings. Much later comes (if we wish) forgiveness.
I hope Megan reads these messages Im going to talk straight to you Megan, I was married to a meth addict for years I tried to get him to quit no matter what I did he wouldn't so I left. You answered your own question in what you said. You don't know how to quit, those feelings you don't want to feel is what keeps you addicted, you can only be numb for so long my dear you have to let all that come out and then you can heal I say this because my ex I left has been clean now for 25 years I asked him how did you do that. He said I dealt with the things I didn't want to and I changed the people I hung out with and yes it was hell but I'm so glad I did it because now I have a job, a house, a car and I feel good about myself. You can do this Megan believe in yourself for once and always tell yourself you are worth more than where you are. Im rooting for you. There is something I need to add Megan, just please look at it through the eye's of the people who love you. When I told my ex-husband I was leaving he said how can you leave me when I need you, my reply was you are numb to your pain and numb to the pain you are causing I'm not.
This is the most real interview I've seen, she's so real and she's still down on earth. I feel for her, and my heart breaks. I was an addict aswell but crystal meth addict and so was my husband, we've been clean for almost 2 years now She can do this, she's such a beautiful person deep down you can see it
@The Creighton Family as are you beautiful , very beautiful in fact! I wish you , your husband and your family all the best 👍❤️ addiction is no joke and I hope and pray you stay clean! ❤️🇬🇧
This is just so SAD... she is telling it exactly how it is... no sugar coating... listen up everyone... DON'T DO DRUGS !!!!!!!! Thank you Megan for letting it all out... (your story)... Big HUGZZZZ... ❤
I am a recovering meth and heroin addict. Lost a husband at 25. Had a good life before that. Drugs took everything. I can relate to her alot. You can still get out megan.
I'm from Croatia, we had this book when I was young that everybody was reading, "We the children from the station Zoo". True story told by an ex heroin addict. I read it when I was 13, maybe even 12. After I read it I knew I would never do drugs. Not because I was scared, though having read the book I realised that drugs were absolutely frightening, but because I saw that there was actually nothing exciting in drugs: the outcome was as predictable as it can be. Always bad. It was obvious from the book that doing drugs equaled self-destruction. So when I was 13 I put a big red X in my head in front of the name of every drug. The X is still there. It might be the most important book I ever read.
So Natalie... You say you've been there so I assume you're an ex heroin addict as well. I'm 5 years clean and I go a question for you. Would you date someone who also has had a problem? Idk if I would or could, and I'm curious your stance on it. Anybody's stance on it honestly. I'm 5 years clean, I enter into a relationship with a women's who's 7 years clean, and then she relapses. I'm then forced to make a lose lose decision. I either kick her out my life, or I use with her. Or I could just go about my sobriety, but thats a recipe for disaster and I probably will end up using again eventually being around it everyday.
@Chris Smith . I couldn't do it. I'm just curious how the average ex addict feels so thanks for your opinion. If you asked 10,000 ex addicts would it be majority that think this is a no no.
I like what you're asking there, I personally went out with a girl who was a recovering addict me also. I don't think it's a good idea for a host of different reasons then again I went with a girl who I've never felt so much resentment for in my life, she's an addict this was unaware to me at the time, functioning with her own business etc. Raging cokehead... She was a real sick individual who was trying to fuck with your head also stole a substantial amount of money from me after me buying her a lot of stuff, that was a sore one. I speak to my ex's but I can never speak to her. I never class myself as an ex addict,, always a recovering addict or addict....
Thinking of you Megan! I know this is so rough what you are going through. I pray you find your worth. Please try to find your strength to get up out of this.
Iv user sitting here bawling my eyes out. I needed this this morning. Thank you. Seriously these videos are so important for people to see who DONT get it.
Best interview I've watched by far. So much so, I've never commented on any UA-cam video ever, but I just wanted to say how touched I was by this one. I love your channel. I hope parents show these videos to their children. Best anti-drug message anyone could ever find. You have changed me from ambivalent to the drug issue to the being one of the biggest anti-drug people out there.
Thats common in almost everyones story male or female. You'd be surprised how many people deal with sexually deviant people as kids many people use that as shame as motivation to do better they want to get that part back that was taken and they become rich and famous. And then there is people like the ones mark interviews that feel sorry for themselves and they use dope or act out sexually or aggressively. My point is, is yea it's sad these stories are so common in addicts but it's so much worse and even sadder that sexual molestation is apart of like 80% if not more of the worlds population.
@@ThaKidd1006 I wish we could learn how to prevent these things from happening. We can hold our childrens hands 24/7 but at school we can't watch them. Home schooling seems to stunt their emotional growth.
yeah and half of them say "I don't think so" when asked if they believe that to be the cause. or just a terrible childhood in general. most of them say it probably had to effect on their current situation. very interesting.
I tend to disagree, there will be no update as that intelligent addict…has already gone to far… did u hear what she spent in a week..,20 thousand…I mean really WHO does that , Is she insane. She needs a miracle to get better….God Speed👋
Mark, I think that you are the only real journalist that I have ever experienced. I really admire your courage to create something completely original and something real. I’m a recovered drug addict and alcoholic and your videos have a huge impact on me. So so so humbling. Thank you
I see you, and I’m sending you love and strength. Mark I’m sending it to you too - I carry these people and their stories with me all day every day; I can’t imagine how you feel. Big love and thanks from Canada 🇨🇦
Omg I just wanna give her a virtual hug, you can hear the desire to change in her story, I think fear is holding her back. I pray she gets and receives help, her mind is still there and she’s a beautiful woman whom is carrying all her pain on her back. Please Lord intervene in her mind body and soul
I live in Cleveland too 😔... Do you need anything love???? I've known so many beautiful people who just needed someone to love them... truly. 🥰🥰 I am a true women who knows🤨 the bad/GOOD, LETS KICK THE BAD PEOPLE'S ASS'S and get you back on track. #oneLOVE🤞🏽 P.s REACH OUT #PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
She's feeling completely hopeless. To push yourself over that hump of addiction is so tough. But once you're there, it's so much better. I hope she can experience that before it's too late.
When you get sick and tired of being sick and tired you get up and do something I would love to see Megan clean and sober her hard cold shell covers such a fragile heart
Your interview was sooooo honest and in your face , I respect your truthfulness.... I’m in recovery so,yours words hit home deeply!! I wish I knew some magic words to tell ya to get you to see that you deserve better .... because you do !! I’ll pray for you , keep your head up honey...
She’s one of the best interviews Mark has done. She’s fully lucid and accepts responsibility for her drug addiction. This one broke my heart. She deserves so much more than life has dealt her. I pray she recovers.
11:40 Its great that she at least had a good Dad. There is something so special about that because many of these stories stem from abusive fathers. I hope Megan can get her life back on track. She seems like good person at heart.
Totally agree. A daughter's relationship with her dad is SO important. If a daughter grows up without her dad, she's always chasing that unattainable man in her adult years. If a daughter was abused by her dad, then she is likely going to gravitate towards abusive men. Hard wiring. Decent, good parents are so important.
This is the only addict I've seen on this channel that i can relate to. Been clean 2 years. It's possible my friend... its tough ,but i know I can never use again
I think psilocybin mushrooms, ayahuasca, or especially ibogaine have something to offer people like her. We need psychedelic treatment facilities right now. Our society is collectively sick and we need an antidote. I realize the idea of using a powerful drug to get people to quit harmful drugs sounds ironic, but I assure you these are powerful tools that can bring healing.
I think in Colorado all psychedelics are legal now. I take paxil, if I miss 3 days WDs start to happen. If I had the chance to microdose I would get off paxil in a heartbeat.
Just curious why do most women say it’s harder to be on skid row if you are white? That response has always intrigued me. I pray she gets clean a very intelligent lady.
@@tammyramos6 Iv asked this question before too. I don't understand that, and iv heard ppl say that in these videos. That being white there, ppl are racist against you. Its just something iv never heard of before except there in/on skid row. Thanks to anyone who answers my question🙏
@@ariessweety8883 could it be because of the nasty part of human nature to pick on the minority ? There must be the least amount of white women, & plenty of everyone else representated so they are now for once the nubes on the block ? Our US culture have always hated the newest immigrants who," take all our land or jobs", as the bullies say.
“I feel like I’m beyond therapy.” Oh girl, I want to give you the biggest hug. You are not beyond therapy, you are so deserving of feeling something good. Of feeling relief. Of feeling acceptance for how you’ve been forced to handle obstacles placed in front of you. If you somehow read this, please know that this version of yourself is not the last version of yourself and that you have the capacity to change, even if you don’t feel like you deserve it. You said it yourself, “this is hard, skid row is hard,” you are much stronger than you think you are. I hope you give yourself the chance to prove yourself wrong.
I've watched so many of these stories. She's the first person I feel that I want so deeply to hug her pain away. 💔 So much pain that needs to be taken away. Forgiving ourselves and not feeling shame will help toward sobriety. I am Waiting for Her miracle. 🙏
The last conversation I had with my ex before he died, he was at this level of acceptance with death. It was easier for him to die than to kick the addiction and he knew that. It's terrifying to know that no matter how many times you say "I love you, you're wanted, please stay"; their own childred, family, friends- nothing is a good enough reason to kick it. It's that strong. I've watched a lot of these interviews and most people are still at the "I think I could still get clean" stage but she's not. She's fully accepted it and knows her reality. My ex said almost the exact same things just a few months before dying.
Very honest lady with a very low opinion of herself. I think maybe this lady is taking way too much of the blame on her own back. She is wayyy too hard on herself imo. Being kind to yourself is probably step number one to seeking help. Knowing you are worth it and the sober part of your psyche deserves to be able to shine. You are such a blessing to the world, your family and your children xx if you could get clean I could only imagine all the good you would do to help others. We are all with you xx we want you to love yourself!
As an addict I know exactly what she is talking about, being scare to sober and having to feel all the emotions again. To anyone struggling with this remember - those crazy emotions right after quitting even out, you will be able to handle those emotions in time, having emotions just means you are human and you are alive. It will all be OKAY, it will be better than okay when you realize you can smile and laugh without numbing yourself in order to.
This was one of the truest and saddest of stories I’ve watched . Her voice is the voice of thousands and thousands of lost people.........basically good people who have been worn down by loss, pain, life, trauma, she’s smart enough to know the problems, and the solutions,but she still feels unable to veined her way back. It must be soul wrenching to know where you are, and how you got there, and it’s incredibly hard to stop that kind of momentum. So sad.
I find this lady refreshing. No BS sugarcoating and very blunt. I really hope she gets the help she needs and finds that mental switch that allows her to say ‘no more’.
This interview is eye opening. Megan is so open and honest about the realities of addiction. She doesn't make any excuses. Just the plain, awful truths. She has a very strong personality. I pray she can get the help she needs and get clean. Because as others have stated, she would make an amazing addiction counselor or recovery advocate.
Mark, another great interview.Such deep and compassionate question. I really feel bad for Megan. If she was on a different track, she could be soo happy and successful. I hope she gets help and fixes things.
“I don’t want to know what this feels like without drugs.” I’ve so been there! It’s hard. It’s almost unbearable sometimes, without drugs, but I don’t think I could make them work again if I tried. Megan, I used to be unable to stop. I hope you are able to spend some time off the sh*t. You’re so smart. You may find so much clarity you won’t be able to get back on. I know I sound cheesy and I feel like I should shut up cause I hate sounding preachy. I relate to you more than most because I was exactly that clear about things and cynical... I just wish you the best, man. I’m glad you said it. The poor people’s treatments are dirty and violent and shaming. People don’t know what the f they’re talking about when they say “there IS help,” all knowing like.
The most raw and honest interview I’ve seen here. Thank you for your honesty Megan. You are an intelligent person and you are worthy. Repeat you are worthy! The fear you have of facing reality of life clean and sober I understand but getting clean and facing it and feeling it is the only way you can get past it. Addiction only hides those demons in a closet. Getting clean you can open that closet up and look those demons in the face and tell them too fuck off! I believe you have the strength to do it! Life can be so much better, no rats! Please love yourself enough to get clean, you deserve it , you are worth it! ✨💖✨
If only she saw herself the way she really is, a beautiful, smart intelligent mother who has so much purpose and worth to bring into this world, her children and future grandchildren , she can overcome this, I can see it and I just pray she sees it! There’s only victory not shame in her future if she makes that change...wishing you all the very best 🙏🏽🙌🏽
I loved your honesty!!! Even if the honesty is heart breaking to hear ... This is a great interview..I pray that you find your way out of addiction sweetheart ❤️
she sounds like a wellspoken person, it’s a shame she’s addicted to something that will eventually kill her because I think Megan would definitely have a chance of ‘becoming’ something if she got of drugs, she knows exactly what she’s doing, she knows she’s better than this
Her honesty is so refreshing. So many sugar coat it. So sad that she wasn’t protected as a kid. She’s so intelligent and eloquent. I really think she could get sober in the right environment and lots of therapy. Praying for her🙏🏻
Definitely not, not even close to ready, otherwise she would have taken that $20,000 & checked herself into detox, if only for a week. (Some place that isn't "dirty & disgusting" like she said about the rehabs in that area.)
People used to say to me "you don't look like a smack/crack user......so I shoplifted, used.....now I'm injecting and I don't look so good anymore, the worst part is I know better. I don't know why I do it or what started it ,but I'm in a hole that I cannot get out of . Megan I feel your pain I'm 38, I hope you can find a way as I hope I can find a way .
This is one of the best videos I've seen in a while. She got my attention and held it. What she said was real and so true. I hope she can find a way out soon. God Bless You Megan
I really respect that she said we all make our own choices. I had sexual abuse as a kid, I've seen things no kid should ever have to see and I'm successful, bought my first house at 21 and I have my sh*t together. This isn't to toot my own horn, it's to back this woman and prove how down to earth and "with it" she is. She has a chance and I hope she can find it within herself to forgive herself and give herself a chance.
Videos like this remind me how much our society needs to change. We need to make sure human beings KNOW they are valued. We need to make sure human beings KNOW they are loved. How do we do that? It's easy to say things like practice kindness and compassion. It's hard to put it into action. I believe there are solutions and it is clear to me that this isn't a "one size fits all" situation. We need to start listening more. We need to extend genuine greetings. If you are going through something difficult, I just want to send you positive thoughts and prayers. Actions DO speak louder than words and for what it's worth, watching these videos makes me count my blessings and give to help. Not everyone is evil. Anybody can make a positive difference in the world.
Megan... I am sending you love and value. I am praying for you that you may one day be able to believe “ I am strong enough to endure the pain sober”. You are worth it and beautiful.
Megan I know you can beat this I am also an addict been in recovery for 10 years now I lost my 24 year old daughter this year tragically believe me I am suffering inside and hurting so bad prior to her passing I've buried 2 husbands and my only parent my dad I am battling mentally so bad not to relapse but I keep praying everyday for strength believe me I know how you feel
Grieving is the most difficult part of living. I'm sorry you have so many losses. It's hard enough to deal with one. I understand because I had 6 deaths of loved ones within a year. You Will Make It! Hang in there & Do Whatever It Takes to maintain your sobriety!!! Honestly, even though you may feel like you're loosing your mind, you won't. Keep praying. God knows what's going on in your heart better than you do. I'm praying for you.❤
This woman is broken and I believe she has the strength to pull through,she is interesting, lovable, honest and as much as she can't see what others see she is definitely not beyond therapy. I'd love to hear a good outcome for her 💛
She is so honest about her life and addiction. I really hope she can find the strength to get clean. For herself, kids and her health. I see so much hurt on her from her trauma she has gone through as a child. Megan therapy does help with trauma, I went through it recently because of my own trauma in my childhood. You can do this Megan!
I watched this video and caught something Mark said that surprised me and gives me some insight into why he does what he does videoing and speaking with addicts. I might be reading more into this but he said " I asked my mom what is the one thing you would change if you could and she said pick your parents well" or something like that. Was Marks mother an addict and now he wants to help other addicts, if he can? He was very gentle with Megan and I respect him for opening himself up also. He has a sweet and gentle soul and he is somewhat of a counselor and teacher. Thank you Mark for what you do.
Megan. No matter what you've done, you're not bad. A good heart shows through. You're worthy of redemption and you're still a lovely lady. Don't let the trauma and the drugs win.
“ Death would be easy“ “this is hard, Skidrow is hard.” I’m absolutely speechless. Megan you are worth it. Don’t give up on you
Keiko, that's beautiful.
The problem is and this is from someone who has woken up in emergency or ICU many times, it is easy and painless for us selfish people. What's not easy is for the people living who have to deal with the loss, go through the stages of grief and still try to live their lives! That is the point that we gotta stop being selfish for a moment in time. Megan u aren't stupid, u know what u need to do and when u get clean #1 priority is that 15 year old and cont
She's one of the few who isn't blaming her situation on everyone else.
Yes, and that is something. Owning up will bring change.
I love her for that, I want to give her a hug.
In the videos I've seen the only people being "blamed" are their parent's for being absolutely horrendous. I'm just curious who you've heard blamed besides parents?
@@parkerhunter8970 just off the top of my head: Ronan and Henry (trick). But so many of them have been "screwed over" by other drug addicts and prostitutes. I guess im talking about blaming other people for ending up on skid row and for failed attempts at getting sober more than blaming other people for their getting addicted to drugs.
@@b.mcleod4872 Ohhhh okay, I get what ya mean. Thanks for clarifying.
She's so honest with herself, but also so defeated by that honesty. The trauma and neglect she endured as a child stole her self-worth. She almost seems to have accepted that she is dead already. She mentioned her husband passing so many times - she hasn't healed from so much trama. My heart hurts for her. I hope she finds security and peace with herself.
@Steven Salisbury no, I am not.
This!! You do not need to go to school to be a freaking psychologist to care and feel and see.
My entire family is alcoholics. Me included. Watching my daughter use and homeless for 41/2 years.
She has seizures. I watched her huff in the bathtub.
These stories all have a similar underline.
So- when you say “are you a psychologist”? Nah - a realist.
Psychology cannot help those who are defeated by trauma and underlying mental health issues.
Partially due to survivors guilt or something like that.
Yeah she said it was basically over after she was molested
So terrible. 😔
That toxic forgiveness preaching is so harmful. How can you heal if you not first learn to feel disappointment towards your parents and hurt and anger and all the other feelings. Much later comes (if we wish) forgiveness.
I hope Megan reads these messages
Im going to talk straight to you Megan, I was married to a meth addict for years I tried to get him to quit no matter what I did he wouldn't so I left.
You answered your own question in what you said. You don't know how to quit, those feelings you don't want to feel is what keeps you addicted, you can only be numb for so long my dear you have to let all that come out and then you can heal I say this because my ex I left has been clean now for 25 years I asked him how did you do that.
He said I dealt with the things I didn't want to and I changed the people I hung out with and yes it was hell but I'm so glad I did it because now I have a job, a house, a car and I feel good about myself.
You can do this Megan believe in yourself for once and always tell yourself you are worth more than where you are. Im rooting for you.
There is something I need to add Megan, just please look at it through the eye's of the people who love you.
When I told my ex-husband I was leaving he said how can you leave me when I need you, my reply was you are numb to your pain and numb to the pain you are causing I'm not.
Nice story, nice post. I'm so glad to read about someone that had the strength to see things through.
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Powerful and beautiful testimony ❤️ TRUTH 💯 Hallelujah
It took a great deal of strength & courage for you to leave.
Lovely story thanks for sharing ❤️❤️
This is the most real interview I've seen, she's so real and she's still down on earth. I feel for her, and my heart breaks. I was an addict aswell but crystal meth addict and so was my husband, we've been clean for almost 2 years now
She can do this, she's such a beautiful person deep down you can see it
@The Creighton Family as are you beautiful , very beautiful in fact! I wish you , your husband and your family all the best 👍❤️ addiction is no joke and I hope and pray you stay clean! ❤️🇬🇧
Congratulations to you & your husband.💖👏
Thank you all so much it means the world to have beautiful souls supporting, ❤️
I agree...one of the best!
This is just so SAD... she is telling
it exactly how it is... no sugar
coating... listen up everyone...
DON'T DO DRUGS !!!!!!!!
Thank you Megan for letting it all out... (your story)... Big HUGZZZZ... ❤
I am a recovering meth and heroin addict. Lost a husband at 25. Had a good life before that. Drugs took everything. I can relate to her alot. You can still get out megan.
you sound very strong, good luck on your journey, Katie. Much love and support
lewd thank you so much for your kind words! I wish you luck on yours as well! Love and support right back at you!❤️
You have my support from Italy 🇮🇹 too! I wish you all the best 🖤
So happy for you. Hang in there
@@lataniabrazier2487 thank you very much
I'm from Croatia, we had this book when I was young that everybody was reading, "We the children from the station Zoo". True story told by an ex heroin addict. I read it when I was 13, maybe even 12. After I read it I knew I would never do drugs. Not because I was scared, though having read the book I realised that drugs were absolutely frightening, but because I saw that there was actually nothing exciting in drugs: the outcome was as predictable as it can be. Always bad. It was obvious from the book that doing drugs equaled self-destruction. So when I was 13 I put a big red X in my head in front of the name of every drug. The X is still there. It might be the most important book I ever read.
You're exceptional. Whatever that book is, should be required reading worldwide.
The children from Bahnhof Zoo is the name on the book and movie. I saw the movie and it was very dark and scary
I just want to hug her. She still has her intelligence, and looks. She seems so smart, I hope she gets out of this.
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@@ThaMightyWon bah she is beautiful
She's lost her looks. She could care less.
Damn... her honesty is bone chilling.. girl I have been there and literally done all of it.. there is still hope for you.
Thanks for your real encouragement, I hate this fake empathy. But I since you genuine, so she will 2. I'm glad you made it....me 2
I'm Norfleet thanks
So Natalie... You say you've been there so I assume you're an ex heroin addict as well. I'm 5 years clean and I go a question for you. Would you date someone who also has had a problem? Idk if I would or could, and I'm curious your stance on it. Anybody's stance on it honestly. I'm 5 years clean, I enter into a relationship with a women's who's 7 years clean, and then she relapses. I'm then forced to make a lose lose decision. I either kick her out my life, or I use with her. Or I could just go about my sobriety, but thats a recipe for disaster and I probably will end up using again eventually being around it everyday.
@Chris Smith . I couldn't do it. I'm just curious how the average ex addict feels so thanks for your opinion. If you asked 10,000 ex addicts would it be majority that think this is a no no.
I like what you're asking there, I personally went out with a girl who was a recovering addict me also. I don't think it's a good idea for a host of different reasons then again I went with a girl who I've never felt so much resentment for in my life, she's an addict this was unaware to me at the time, functioning with her own business etc. Raging cokehead... She was a real sick individual who was trying to fuck with your head also stole a substantial amount of money from me after me buying her a lot of stuff, that was a sore one. I speak to my ex's but I can never speak to her.
I never class myself as an ex addict,, always a recovering addict or addict....
"Forgiving yourself is the hard part".
So much truth in those few words.
Absolutely!
It Sure is.💔
I felt that
I see her one day being a kick ass, no bullshit taking drug counselor. She’s been there done that and could help so many. I wish u the best, Meg. Xo
Absolutely. I hope she gets there. I think she's half way to deciding to get clean
Totally agree! When i went through rehab the only counselors I connected with were the ones who’d walked the same walk
Mark takes very good photos of people. They look... “real”. The photos almost give away part of the person’s story before even hearing it.
I totally empathise with this woman. It can be tough out there. Stay strong people.
Really great comment lol 😏😂😂
This is all humans if you can read them
Your mind is perfectly ready for therapy...stop down playing your self good luck...
Thinking of you Megan! I know this is so rough what you are going through. I pray you find your worth. Please try to find your strength to get up out of this.
Iv user sitting here bawling my eyes out. I needed this this morning. Thank you. Seriously these videos are so important for people to see who DONT get it.
God bless you and may you find peace.
It took courage for you to watch this so you're on your road to freedom.❤
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Best interview I've watched by far. So much so, I've never commented on any UA-cam video ever, but I just wanted to say how touched I was by this one. I love your channel. I hope parents show these videos to their children. Best anti-drug message anyone could ever find. You have changed me from ambivalent to the drug issue to the being one of the biggest anti-drug people out there.
One common thing with these stories: sexual molestation.
So heartbreaking..
And by family . It’s the worse.
Thats common in almost everyones story male or female. You'd be surprised how many people deal with sexually deviant people as kids many people use that as shame as motivation to do better they want to get that part back that was taken and they become rich and famous. And then there is people like the ones mark interviews that feel sorry for themselves and they use dope or act out sexually or aggressively. My point is, is yea it's sad these stories are so common in addicts but it's so much worse and even sadder that sexual molestation is apart of like 80% if not more of the worlds population.
@@ThaKidd1006 I wish we could learn how to prevent these things from happening. We can hold our childrens hands 24/7 but at school we can't watch them. Home schooling seems to stunt their emotional growth.
yeah and half of them say "I don't think so" when asked if they believe that to be the cause.
or just a terrible childhood in general. most of them say it probably had to effect on their current situation. very interesting.
I cant imagine how much hurt it developes.
This one NEEDS an update. She's the most intelligent addict I've ever seen who's gone so far. God I hope she gets better.
I tend to disagree, there will be no update as that intelligent addict…has already gone to far… did u hear what she spent in a week..,20 thousand…I mean really WHO does that , Is she insane. She needs a miracle to get better….God Speed👋
The two wolf situation.
Mark, I think that you are the only real journalist that I have ever experienced. I really admire your courage to create something completely original and something real. I’m a recovered drug addict and alcoholic and your videos have a huge impact on me. So so so humbling. Thank you
No mincing words with this women. I like her bluntness.
Same same.
I see you, and I’m sending you love and strength. Mark I’m sending it to you too - I carry these people and their stories with me all day every day; I can’t imagine how you feel. Big love and thanks from Canada 🇨🇦
Omg I just wanna give her a virtual hug, you can hear the desire to change in her story, I think fear is holding her back. I pray she gets and receives help, her mind is still there and she’s a beautiful woman whom is carrying all her pain on her back. Please Lord intervene in her mind body and soul
Amen.
Amen amen we love her. Jesus does more! Do it lord.
One of the most real interviews I've seen. My heart breaks for her.
I wake up with your videos posted so early each day..and i have to say, that it makes me very appreciative of the life that I have.
My heart breaks for her. Being a Cleveland native it's a hard life being from there. I wish her well!
I live in Cleveland too 😔...
Do you need anything love????
I've known so many beautiful people who just needed someone to love them... truly. 🥰🥰
I am a true women who knows🤨
the bad/GOOD, LETS KICK THE BAD PEOPLE'S ASS'S and get you back on track.
#oneLOVE🤞🏽
P.s REACH OUT #PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have learned so much from watching these videos than i knew and am 50+.
She's feeling completely hopeless. To push yourself over that hump of addiction is so tough. But once you're there, it's so much better. I hope she can experience that before it's too late.
When you get sick and tired of being sick and tired you get up and do something I would love to see Megan clean and sober her hard cold shell covers such a fragile heart
Wow, her honesty and self awareness is so striking. This was certainly the way I felt in addiction but damned if I'd admit it to anyone
Your interview was sooooo honest and in your face , I respect your truthfulness.... I’m in recovery so,yours words hit home deeply!! I wish I knew some magic words to tell ya to get you to see that you deserve better .... because you do !! I’ll pray for you , keep your head up honey...
She’s one of the best interviews Mark has done. She’s fully lucid and accepts responsibility for her drug addiction. This one broke my heart. She deserves so much more than life has dealt her. I pray she recovers.
You are NOT beyond rehab and therapy...and you are worth it. Dare to break the cycle.
11:40 Its great that she at least had a good Dad. There is something so special about that because many of these stories stem from abusive fathers. I hope Megan can get her life back on track. She seems like good person at heart.
Totally agree. A daughter's relationship with her dad is SO important. If a daughter grows up without her dad, she's always chasing that unattainable man in her adult years. If a daughter was abused by her dad, then she is likely going to gravitate towards abusive men. Hard wiring. Decent, good parents are so important.
there should be a special prize on youtube for doing the work that you do.
i just wanna hug these people right through the screen.
This is the only addict I've seen on this channel that i can relate to.
Been clean 2 years.
It's possible my friend... its tough ,but i know I can never use again
Congratulations that’s awesome. We are both miracles my sober date is 1/11/2015
Allan Greenson congratulations xx
Flanigan a-go-go congratulations xx
Leanda D_g thank you it’s been a very rewarding journey
Congrats everyone who is clean and for people that are not don’t give up!!
Thank you for taking time to talk to her . I appreciate your message and compassion Mark.
This young lady is brutally honest, I appreciate that.
I know what she’s going through to some extent
I think psilocybin mushrooms, ayahuasca, or especially ibogaine have something to offer people like her. We need psychedelic treatment facilities right now. Our society is collectively sick and we need an antidote. I realize the idea of using a powerful drug to get people to quit harmful drugs sounds ironic, but I assure you these are powerful tools that can bring healing.
Agreed. I can’t wait for microdosing to get FDA approval.
I think in Colorado all psychedelics are legal now. I take paxil, if I miss 3 days WDs start to happen. If I had the chance to microdose I would get off paxil in a heartbeat.
I've read mushrooms are working for PTSD.👍👏
Word🍄🌌
I can't wait to experience ibogaine!! It should be legally available everywhere!
She’s so mad at herself. It’s holding her captive. If she could only get to a place where she could start forgiving herself...
Easy to say but we only know her for 20mins.
I like how all the portraits in the thumbnails make these people look dignified, even when the interviews often tell different stories. 😔
Just curious why do most women say it’s harder to be on skid row if you are white? That response has always intrigued me. I pray she gets clean a very intelligent lady.
@@tammyramos6 I imagine its because the majority of women there are not, the gap is closing however.
@@tammyramos6 Iv asked this question before too. I don't understand that, and iv heard ppl say that in these videos. That being white there, ppl are racist against you. Its just something iv never heard of before except there in/on skid row. Thanks to anyone who answers my question🙏
@@ariessweety8883 could it be because of the nasty part of human nature to pick on the minority ? There must be the least amount of white women, & plenty of everyone else representated so they are now for once the nubes on the block ? Our US culture have always hated the newest immigrants who," take all our land or jobs", as the bullies say.
“I feel like I’m beyond therapy.” Oh girl, I want to give you the biggest hug. You are not beyond therapy, you are so deserving of feeling something good. Of feeling relief. Of feeling acceptance for how you’ve been forced to handle obstacles placed in front of you. If you somehow read this, please know that this version of yourself is not the last version of yourself and that you have the capacity to change, even if you don’t feel like you deserve it. You said it yourself, “this is hard, skid row is hard,” you are much stronger than you think you are. I hope you give yourself the chance to prove yourself wrong.
I've watched so many of these stories. She's the first person I feel that I want so deeply to hug her pain away. 💔 So much pain that needs to be taken away. Forgiving ourselves and not feeling shame will help toward sobriety. I am Waiting for Her miracle. 🙏
Wow, candid!! Eye opener and very truthful!! Wishing you the BEST! 🙏
Her honesty is chilling. I pray for you sis ❤
The last conversation I had with my ex before he died, he was at this level of acceptance with death. It was easier for him to die than to kick the addiction and he knew that. It's terrifying to know that no matter how many times you say "I love you, you're wanted, please stay"; their own childred, family, friends- nothing is a good enough reason to kick it. It's that strong. I've watched a lot of these interviews and most people are still at the "I think I could still get clean" stage but she's not. She's fully accepted it and knows her reality. My ex said almost the exact same things just a few months before dying.
Very honest lady with a very low opinion of herself. I think maybe this lady is taking way too much of the blame on her own back. She is wayyy too hard on herself imo.
Being kind to yourself is probably step number one to seeking help. Knowing you are worth it and the sober part of your psyche deserves to be able to shine. You are such a blessing to the world, your family and your children xx if you could get clean I could only imagine all the good you would do to help others.
We are all with you xx we want you to love yourself!
As an addict I know exactly what she is talking about, being scare to sober and having to feel all the emotions again. To anyone struggling with this remember - those crazy emotions right after quitting even out, you will be able to handle those emotions in time, having emotions just means you are human and you are alive. It will all be OKAY, it will be better than okay when you realize you can smile and laugh without numbing yourself in order to.
Crack and heroin addict here. Waiting for my wife to get home to get high. It’s the worst having to wait.
It’s hard for Any women on the streets not just “white women”.. no one should live like this.
Amen 🙏🏻
best advice ever…and the only interview i’ve seen that actually have said it…”don’t do drugs”. Best wishes to you Megan on a better life!
She's got such a big heart. I am so sorry she went through so much pain. I hope she finds her strength
This was one of the truest and saddest of stories I’ve watched . Her voice is the voice of thousands and thousands of lost people.........basically good people who have been worn down by loss, pain, life, trauma, she’s smart enough to know the problems, and the solutions,but she still feels unable to veined her way back. It must be soul wrenching to know where you are, and how you got there, and it’s incredibly hard to stop that kind of momentum. So sad.
I find this lady refreshing. No BS sugarcoating and very blunt. I really hope she gets the help she needs and finds that mental switch that allows her to say ‘no more’.
This interview is eye opening. Megan is so open and honest about the realities of addiction. She doesn't make any excuses. Just the plain, awful truths. She has a very strong personality. I pray she can get the help she needs and get clean. Because as others have stated, she would make an amazing addiction counselor or recovery advocate.
Mark, another great interview.Such deep and compassionate question. I really feel bad for Megan. If she was on a different track, she could be soo happy and successful. I hope she gets help and fixes things.
You are strong and resilient sweet Megan, sending you nothing but the best. Thanks for putting your story out there for all of us to hear
I have been where you are. I’m no longer using drugs and I do not ever miss the drugs. I live a calm, boring life and I love it.
“I don’t want to know what this feels like without drugs.”
I’ve so been there! It’s hard. It’s almost unbearable sometimes, without drugs, but I don’t think I could make them work again if I tried. Megan, I used to be unable to stop. I hope you are able to spend some time off the sh*t. You’re so smart. You may find so much clarity you won’t be able to get back on. I know I sound cheesy and I feel like I should shut up cause I hate sounding preachy. I relate to you more than most because I was exactly that clear about things and cynical... I just wish you the best, man. I’m glad you said it. The poor people’s treatments are dirty and violent and shaming. People don’t know what the f they’re talking about when they say “there IS help,” all knowing like.
This one really gets me for some reason. Extra gets me.
Her testimony is so honest. So raw. I’m praying for your healing 🙏🏽
I hope she gets the help she needs before it’s too late..praying for her❤️
I wish Megan all the best I really hope that one day she will want to get help. My heart breaks for her much love goes out to her
This channel is addicting in itself. God Bless you all.
She's worth it.
She's afraid to deal with the pain and yet , She has no choice bc it's a part of the healing process.
Wishing her the best.
The most raw and honest interview I’ve seen here. Thank you for your honesty Megan. You are an intelligent person and you are worthy. Repeat you are worthy! The fear you have of facing reality of life clean and sober I understand but getting clean and facing it and feeling it is the only way you can get past it. Addiction only hides those demons in a closet. Getting clean you can open that closet up and look those demons in the face and tell them too fuck off! I believe you have the strength to do it! Life can be so much better, no rats! Please love yourself enough to get clean, you deserve it , you are worth it! ✨💖✨
“Forgiving yourself is the hard part.” ❤️ you deserve self peace, self love, acceptance and appreciation. Megan, You’re so strong!
She is one of Realist person I've seen! Plz get BETTER YOU Can DO SO Good in Helping other's! You ARE WORTH Living! GOD BLESS YOU!🙏💕🙏💕🙏💕
If only she saw herself the way she really is, a beautiful, smart intelligent mother who has so much purpose and worth to bring into this world, her children and future grandchildren , she can overcome this, I can see it and I just pray she sees it! There’s only victory not shame in her future if she makes that change...wishing you all the very best 🙏🏽🙌🏽
you are not beyond therapy. you taking responsibility just shows you are strong and genuine
I loved your honesty!!! Even if the honesty is heart breaking to hear ...
This is a great interview..I pray that you find your way out of addiction sweetheart ❤️
This guy has an awesome channel
Wishing you the strength to walk over the things that trip you up so that you can heal and feel again ...
Megan!!! Please don’t give up. Your intelligence and self awareness is stunning. You have so much to give to this world. Please don’t give up!
Watching her I truly think she’ll beat this addiction. She’s intelligent, beautiful, strong and sensitive. Keeping the faith for her and her family.
I agree.
Im SOOOO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I'm from youngstown so we're kinda neighbors. Prayers and healing energy your way!!!! WISHING YOU THE BEST!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️
she sounds like a wellspoken person, it’s a shame she’s addicted to something that will eventually kill her because I think Megan would definitely have a chance of ‘becoming’ something if she got of drugs, she knows exactly what she’s doing, she knows she’s better than this
Her honesty is so refreshing. So many sugar coat it. So sad that she wasn’t protected as a kid. She’s so intelligent and eloquent. I really think she could get sober in the right environment and lots of therapy. Praying for her🙏🏻
Her hard honesty is a coping mechanism. Praying for you girl.
This was the most compelling interview to me. Thank you megan. I feel your pain.
She wants to die. She’s reached the point where she can hardly cry, she’s beyond dead inside and just wants to go
She’s definitely not ready yet. Hoping she finds the strength and courage someday soon before it’s too late.🙏🏽❤️
Bingo !
Definitely not, not even close to ready, otherwise she would have taken that $20,000 & checked herself into detox, if only for a week. (Some place that isn't "dirty & disgusting" like she said about the rehabs in that area.)
No one is beyond help there is always hope
I want to hug her. She is so logical and honest and I just feel for her so much 💔
Trauma on top of trauma on top of trauma, while creating/ living with fresh trauma.
People used to say to me "you don't look like a smack/crack user......so I shoplifted, used.....now I'm injecting and I don't look so good anymore, the worst part is I know better. I don't know why I do it or what started it ,but I'm in a hole that I cannot get out of . Megan I feel your pain I'm 38, I hope you can find a way as I hope I can find a way .
This is one of the best videos I've seen in a while. She got my attention and held it. What she said was real and so true. I hope she can find a way out soon. God Bless You Megan
I really respect that she said we all make our own choices. I had sexual abuse as a kid, I've seen things no kid should ever have to see and I'm successful, bought my first house at 21 and I have my sh*t together. This isn't to toot my own horn, it's to back this woman and prove how down to earth and "with it" she is. She has a chance and I hope she can find it within herself to forgive herself and give herself a chance.
This one really got me. I watch every single one of these videos and this one hit me the hardest. I don’t know why but it just did.
Of all the people interviewed on this channel, I have never wished I could speak to a person directly more than I do with her.
Cleveland Ohio too!!! Clean for almost 2 years. Good thing about Cleveland is AA is hugeeee so many meetings and people for support in the rooms .
I feel for this lady. She is giving pure honesty about addiction. I felt the same exact way she did when I was actively using. Very real.
Videos like this remind me how much our society needs to change. We need to make sure human beings KNOW they are valued. We need to make sure human beings KNOW they are loved. How do we do that? It's easy to say things like practice kindness and compassion. It's hard to put it into action. I believe there are solutions and it is clear to me that this isn't a "one size fits all" situation. We need to start listening more. We need to extend genuine greetings. If you are going through something difficult, I just want to send you positive thoughts and prayers. Actions DO speak louder than words and for what it's worth, watching these videos makes me count my blessings and give to help. Not everyone is evil. Anybody can make a positive difference in the world.
Megan... I am sending you love and value. I am praying for you that you may one day be able to believe “ I am strong enough to endure the pain sober”. You are worth it and beautiful.
Megan I know you can beat this I am also an addict been in recovery for 10 years now I lost my 24 year old daughter this year tragically believe me I am suffering inside and hurting so bad prior to her passing I've buried 2 husbands and my only parent my dad I am battling mentally so bad not to relapse but I keep praying everyday for strength believe me I know how you feel
Grieving is the most difficult part of living. I'm sorry you have so many losses. It's hard enough to deal with one. I understand because I had 6 deaths of loved ones within a year. You Will Make It! Hang in there & Do Whatever It Takes to maintain your sobriety!!! Honestly, even though you may feel like you're loosing your mind, you won't. Keep praying. God knows what's going on in your heart better than you do. I'm praying for you.❤
Oh no, how did your daughter pass?
Mark, could you try get an update at Megan? Her interview has seriously a chord in me
This woman is broken and I believe she has the strength to pull through,she is interesting, lovable, honest and as much as she can't see what others see she is definitely not beyond therapy. I'd love to hear a good outcome for her 💛
She is so honest about her life and addiction. I really hope she can find the strength to get clean. For herself, kids and her health. I see so much hurt on her from her trauma she has gone through as a child. Megan therapy does help with trauma, I went through it recently because of my own trauma in my childhood. You can do this Megan!
SHE DESCRIBED HELL PERFECTLY.
Great interview
I watched this video and caught something Mark said that surprised me and gives me some insight into why he does what he does videoing and speaking with addicts. I might be reading more into this but he said " I asked my mom what is the one thing you would change if you could and she said pick your parents well" or something like that. Was Marks mother an addict and now he wants to help other addicts, if he can? He was very gentle with Megan and I respect him for opening himself up also. He has a sweet and gentle soul and he is somewhat of a counselor and teacher. Thank you Mark for what you do.
So honest. I felt the same way when I was in active addiction. She nailed how it feels.
Megan. No matter what you've done, you're not bad. A good heart shows through. You're worthy of redemption and you're still a lovely lady. Don't let the trauma and the drugs win.