Honestly I was buying adderrall and anti depressants so I could be ok and make them happy but then I got caught and now I might get arrested like all I wanted to do is be ok for y'all because I couldn't get a prescription and it fucks up my life more and now I realize I should've just killed myself instead
The fact that there are people like you that can open our eyes to their kindness is also very nice ^·^ I want to thank you and them for the random support that I find in some of the most damaged places.
Hey I hope you're doing a lil better, I came to tell y'all that I'm so so proud of you ❤ You may feel like you're drowing right now but you'll feel the ground under your feet soon and you'll just have to kick it as hard as you can to get up to the surface ❤ I know how strong you are, you can do it ❤
It will end soon. I promise you it will. Whatever you’re going through is gonna end. One day you’ll look back and you’ll be so happy that you didn’t end it all. Because you met that special someone and met those trustworthy friends. And have that job that you enjoy so much. Everything will be calm. And your heart will be at peace
@@mike_morton_simp3080 When I tell my mom about how I've been feeling lately she just listens and decides to ignore it. Then they wonder why we don't leave our rooms
The truth this sentence holds though. While I do have people I can talk to, I usually end up talking to strangers more than my parents. Somehow they understand me more than my parents can.
i’m always wondering why my life feels sm worse than other peoples. i try to gaslight myself and say i’m overreacting bc i know other ppl are going thru the exact same thing but are they really ?
Please stop. Listen to yourself. You clearly need help, please talk to other people about it, close ones that understand you. If you may know the reason, talk about it... You don't deserve to be ignored, and particularly by yourself. You can also talk to me if you need, maybe i could help, or at least listen... Take care.
I keep my hand over my mouth because my parents would hear me cry, and I don't want them to know how I'm feeling. And I'm sitting here struggling to breathe it's hard
Isn't it amazing how after a 100 years probably none of us would be here, but right now, at this moment, we're all here, listening to this beautiful masterpiece? Feeling the same pain in different forms?
This song is so unbelievably powerful and the emotions that she capsulates is just so raw and real. It’s such a shame that her lyricism isn’t taken seriously because some of Billie’s younger fans think having depression is a cool, trendy personality trait instead of a severe mental illness.
sitting on a rooftop rn, looking at the stars. it’s quite a relaxing night, no cars.. no noise. no disruptions. just me and my thoughts, yknow? part of me wishes to do a really cool anime death scene off this roof but another part of me wants to stay and live “the cool way of life.” if you get that reference, i love you.
I love you too and it might not mean anything but hopefully your still here to read this but I don’t know you, you don’t know me but I care about you and love you soooo try to hold on plz
This really hits different when you're in bed with your phone and headphones in while staring at the ceiling because no matter what you do you can't fall asleep, then end up with your face wet from your tears that just won't stop. EDIT: AND WHEN IT'S AT 3 IN THE MORNING
Pov: You're sitting on a rooftop with your legs hanging over the edge. Youre listening to your favorite song one last time and watch the police cars and their sirens rushing off to save someone who isn't too far gone. Someone who still has a chance. Someone who isn't you. You tilt your face to the sky and close your eyes as the rain falls down. You take off your rings and let them fall to the ground as you let down your hair and let it blow in the wind. You can feel your heart pounding as you wipe your tears and stand up. You look over the edge and and watch as a tear falls over. One tear among a thousand beautiful raindrops. The song ends and you know these are your last few seconds. You can see your first kiss in your head, your friends laughing with you, you can smell your grandmother's cookies she would make for you every Sunday before she died and you can almost feel her kiss on your forehead. You look down at your phone and you hesitantly press play again and slowly back away from the edge, you stay on the roof all night long listening until your phone runs out of battery. As the sun start to rise you find yourself sitting on the roof still singing and although you're wet you know the storm has passed. And the sun will shine again
Man please dont let go.... we are so proud of u and i hope u know how important you are to ur loved ones and us ❤i hope u have taken care of yourself and eaten properly ..... just remember that if u go ..... we all will miss u and u are sooo sooo important ❤❤
The number of times I’ve screamed this into the cold night air.... I promise, life gets better if you’ll just stick around to see it. Get a notebook and write/draw in it every time something makes you smile, or take pictures, or simply write down the date it happened. Just... give yourself some physical representation of all the little things that make you feel better, so you can remind yourself that it’s not all bad, even if it feels like it.
i am just not gonna tell her i hope that make her fell less pain,that she does not know what ive been true b t w good luke i hope its get better by the time
Hey love I know it’s so hard right now and yes life is upper hard but we only have one chance of living it so please make it beautiful go party go sneak out go wake your parents up for fun,just go have fun while it lasts and tell your loved ones that you love before it’s too late and you got this your so strong I will always believe in you no matter what:)
there is no definitive way. But you cant just give it back, you have to use it up, wich takes around 80 years, possibly longer or slightly shorter. Stay strong, get help if needed. Were here waiting if you wanna talk
I have more online friends than real ones...and they all have issues, so they all understands me and I understand them..They're the only reason that I keep fighting on this never ending war.
I really hope that my mum knows that the internet isn’t just full of old men trying to kidnap you and that there can be people that are making you feel better than how you felt before you met them.
same, I tried telling my mom about this and she just couldn’t accept it. Everything was taken from me two months ago and I can’t even barely talk to my online friends anymore. I miss them so much including my bestfriend. He’s genuinely kind and caring and its so painful. My online friends really helped with making me happy and the time I spent with them made me the happiest ever. Now that they’re gone im back to my old sad self.
“stop crying” *when you yell at me for crying, it just makes it worse.* “why are you so lazy: *look, im trying as hard as i can.* “i miss my happy little girl” *well sorry that im getting sick of your crap, plus everyone’s else.* i just wanna be happy again.
Honestly anyone who's seeing this video is not in a good place so ill tell you what.. @prety.punk thats my instagram and if you need a friend to talk to text me please, your amazing
I don't know why i'm sad. I don't have anything to be sad about. My life is fine. But everything hurts. It hurts really really bad and I don't know why. I feel so selfish for feeling like this when others have actual reasons to be sad. It hurts so bad. I'm having a panic attack. I can't breath. It's like I don't wanna live but I'm also terrified of dying so I have to go through all this pain cause I'm scared.
Your emotions are completely valid and I’m so sorry you’re in pain and it’s not selfish to feel pain or to feel hurt if you want or need to talk I’m all ears
same but i don't like how i switch moods every time it hurts inside.... MOM AND DAD: stop lieing your always happy your our baby gi- my head: i am not that "baby girl" u wanted im just want to press GAME OVER
Same and i do t know what to do, i dont want to tell anyone because then ill be bothering them but if i dont do something idk whats gonna happen. Honestly i dont even care if i live or die, i used to want to just end it but now i dont care enough to do it.
You're right. Many still do not find the way to do it, so we resort to these thoughts so drowned and hasty that they drown us more every day. . . And more. I am not the one to speak for everyone, in my case I think so.
Even though we have never met, I know you can do this, and one day you will find something for you that makes life worth living. Sometimes the pain can be unbearable, but the one good thing, is that it can also go up from there. I love you, stay safe :)
Same. I think my friends are the only reason I'm alive. I don't want to hurt them. I've often fantasized about making them hate me, cause then it would be easier to die. However, I don't want to die. I just want to seize existence and take with me the memories everyone holds of me.
When I was 12 my friend committed suicide in a bathroom stall at school. She was an amazing friend that I had the pleasure of spending about 2 years knowing. For the first time in months I broke down while listening to this song. This song reminds me of her in so many ways. I'll never forget her.
I tried to tell my mom I think about suicide like everyday but she dœsn’t want to understand this, to believe it’s real, so I just feel I’m never be understood by someone
I lost a few people... And for a while I had lost myself too. I would wake up every day scared that I wouldn't see the day after or that I would just lose somebody else again. I was so broken I couldn't even cry. The feeling of giving up would haunt me all the time and I was just about to stop it all. But then, i met my current best friend and he somehow got me through it all. I would have given up on life if it wasn't for him. I can't never thank him enough for what he has done and even if one day we stop talking I will never forget him. Thank you for saving me dude :,)
Luv, don’t even cmon sis (or whatever u identify as) u r just like anyone else u deserve every little thing on this planet and all the love in the world don’t let the little things bring u down it gets hard at times but I assure u it gets better I bet u hear that all the freaking time but I actually mean it I love u u will get through whatever is troubling u❤️
To the people that every so often come back to this video, after 2 years. I'm so proud of you for still being here after so long. You're strong. I believe in you, and soon enough, instead of listening to this song relating to it, you'll listen to it ro remember the times in which you felt like this.
"I've got an idea, how about we become monsters? And we can tear up this rotten world together. Until there is no more evil, no more sadness, until there's nothing left. We'll break and smash and pound it into dust." Homura Akemi.
I hope u are ok and if not stay strong I need you WE need you as a community sure u might be one but thats a one in all those billions without u we have one less person and we will miss you i will defo bcs tbh ik what its like to hurt and cry but no one but u sees it i cant cry easily bcs im used to pain stay strong man we all need you
It sure does. And to me it’s felt like that ever since I was 6, people that I don’t know, Songs, art and the internet in general make me the person I am today, they make another reality that I escape too every chance I get. Because I don’t like the outside world. Because I don’t feel safe and loved by my own family and friends. But that’s just the truth, and even if it hurts I’ve come to accept the truth. I’m sorry if you feel the same way, because it’s a terrible way to feel and realisation to come to. But it’s ok, because you’ll find somebody someday or a reason to love the outside world. At least thats what I hope for... ❤️❤️
never think that because this is something that anyone can face. ur doing great and im so happy that ur still even alive, keep on pushing and never give up :(
@@MackieLars im not the person who commented on this but I'm sorry you heard that too ... you feel like your feelings aren't worth enough, but they do, so if you're feeling down lately, you can talk to me and I'll try to help you. ig: skmpthy
thommy !! i am very thankful that you're willing to lend a helping ear but i'm actually doing much better now. not to shun a hand that's helping but i really do appreciate it. thank you. 🥰
Listened to this specific version of this song every day of my severe suicidal depressive state. I like listening to it now that I’m better because if I’m honest I miss it so much. Just that feeling, wanting to just leave all the time, I miss it so much and I think I’d give anything to go back.
God bless you, keep holding on 100 reasons to stay alive: 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your moms smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. Your dreams 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Travelling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating you house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️ (The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
parents will never understand why some of us talk to strangers online. they'll never know why we keep our bedroom doors closed, or why we prefer to be alone in "a dark room".
dark rooms give me such relaxing vibes. you r all alone, sometimes it’s even quite. i feel alright in a dark room all by myself. the problems disappear for a second. and everybody wants me to come out of my room more and go outside more...
I was forced to leave my old room and to move into a new room that had no door led to the backyard and the garage, so I put up blankets, on the door and blankets on the windows, so no light would come in, so I had some dark space to lay all day
I know bb, you’re feelings and pain is valid. I used to cut and contemplate suicide a lot, but you have so much to live for, like waiting to run out of shampoo and conditioner at the same time, or to find a bunch of animals and become their whole world. You still have so much you have to do because this is the only life we have and we have to make the most out of it💖
I was a little kid, just 9 living my best life when everything crashed... my sister got depressed, my dad left for years bc of work and my mom became so stress she would put the blame on us. Me being the “ happy kid” I would always say to my mom I loved her so much and would write notes to my sister not to quit but what they didn’t know is that I would cry everynight until I wanted to throw up... and would love to go to school to escape my reality and leave from home. Then I’m 11 years old, crazy isn’t it, the pain became worst but I would just keep smilling and no one knew and gave a shit. Became depressed during quarantine, lost my grades, my family started complaining about me being cold and my body figure. I destroyed my beautiful heart and it stopped beating. Know I’m 12 struggling with social anxiety all alone in the worst place ever. I hate my school don’t have friends, I hate coming home and hates their body. But still... I don’t wanna die... but I do.... I cry everyday trying to figure it out bc my parents always yell at me saying that’s why I don’t have have friends. I’m scared of my father bc he threaten me to hit me. And they still say they love me but they do all this. Now I’m numb and they say I look like a bitch talking bc I just don’t care anymore. Never knew teares were this salty... I guess it’s not gonna matter bc I’m gonna have to do the same routine everyday.. If you are reading this I love you so freaking much and you are probably thinking that it’s a lie but it’s not u deserve so much better ❤️
My friend once told me a story: A girl was depressed but her mom denied it and told her that she was just overreacting. One day her teacher noticed she isn't like her these days, she doesn't smile often and doesn't talk to her friends that much anymore, so the teacher called her after class, she told her everything about whats happening. The next day the teacher and her mom talked and told her about whats going on with her daughter, again, the mom was furious in thinking her daughter was telling lies and wanted attention and denied she isn't depressed. Her mom then enrolled the girl into a new school, the girl was angry but she knew she couldn't do anything about it. Her first day of school was worse as she got bullied by girls in school of how ugly and weird she was. That day she had enough, she went home silent and didn't ate dinner. The next day, her mom was supposed to wake her up but she was shocked to see her daughter hanging from the ceiling, she committed su1cid3 yesterday. Her mom cried from regret and wanted to turn back time but it was to late, she was now holding her dead daughter crying. 5 years past since the incident and her mom had a new life, new job, new kids, new husband but still couldn't forget about it. Oh, and for those who are wondering who the girl is, well, she the friend who told me this story, she told me everything before she died.
Sometimes I just want our parents to look at us for our successes and not our flaws. They pick at it instead of caressing the wounds after our victories. Then they ask why that wound grew after they scold us for it. They say they were us before, yet they understand nothing that we talk about. Mom and dad, why did you abandon us?
and then they yell... and get mad... and say you do nothing around the house and that you never help. that you should stop being to lazy cause if your lazy you get no where? ye .. i get it
I found this video randomly but... I just wanted to say that if you are in pain right now it doesn't mean that this pain is going to last forever. It will get better, I promise you. The world is better with you in it. I love you. ❤️
hey. stop everything. look at you. you've made it so far...you've gone through so much...but you're still here. you have people who love you. more than anything. im proud of you. keep kickin life's ass, alright? you're doin great. i believe in you
i get what you mean. i felt just like that a while ago. it's called apathy, and for me it was really damn scary. for me it was a phase. i hope you're feeling better now. i hope you can remember how to be happy.
Then try to fill yourself, I know it’s hard, but there are many wonderful things to the terrible ones in this world, so go out and live. Carpe diem (seize the moment)
It's strange because I was listening to this song a year ago imagining myself jumping off a building. I was happy at that moment, when I imagined myself falling. But I dont really want to die, I just want to be calm like I would be in those last moments, falling when no one would be looking for me. Knowing everything would be okay in a few last seconds.
amelia f Saying « things will get better » dœsn’t help, you know ? That just makes us more misunderstood that we already are, but I know you just try to be kind
Then talk to someone, and if you have terrible parents and terrible friends than talk with yoursekf. Question everything. Think about the bad AND the good. Try improving your life instead of just throwing it away
Your strong. And you will get tru this. You may be confused asking yourself what and how do I do it? But the answers are gonna be there soon. Never stop trying to improve your life and yourself, sweetheart. You’re a blessing.
your doing great and remember how far you've come, this is a battle and im so proud of you. keep on pushing and carry on being the warrior you are, you are loved and worth-it, and if u ever need to talk just add me on insta @itsnathaniaa (':
ppl here who have suicidal thoughts. i am telling you this: i am really sorry you are going through whatever you are going thorough rn. just remember it’s not your fault because you can not control what is happening.
stay strong it WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! you are so loved and amazing!! you will be so grateful and happy that you stayed because it WILL get better!! you WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! stay strong!!❤❤
Lyrics Take me to the rooftop I wanna see the world when I stop breathing Turning blue Tell me, love is endless, don't be so pretentious Leave me, like you do (like you do) If you need me Wanna see me Better hurry 'Cause I'm leaving soon Sorry, can't save me now Sorry, I don't know how Sorry, there's no way out (sorry) But down, mm down Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek That's what a year-long headache does to you I'm not okay, I feel so scattered Don't say I'm all that matters Leave me Deja vu If you need me Wanna see me You better hurry I'm leaving soon Sorry, can't save me now (sorry) Sorry, I don't know how (sorry) Sorry, there's no way out (sorry) But down, mm down Call my friends and tell Them that I love them And I'll miss them But I'm not sorry Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them Sorry
@@katzecollective I cant imagine how it would feel like but please stay strong! She would want you to end it too. You are not alone in this, talk with someone it will get better i promise!❤
Wow this version really got me closing my eyes, laying on a rooftop and thinking abt life or death. I layed there. On the wet concrete, while a soft rain , came down in me , touched my skin, it was so much, like my thoughts. Every rain drop felt like something I did wrong. Then I thought about family and friends. They wouldn’t care I thought. I opened my eyes. A tear was rolling down my cheek as it mixed w a raindrop. I sat up and wiped my tear away. Then I got nearer to the deepend. I looked straight down. Nothing could stop me. No person cares right now. Nobody would suspect. Me the “happy person “ I am happy to make others happy. I don’t want people to make themselves a hard time abt me. So I sat down at the deepend. A person noticed. Soon I heard sirens. Suddenly I was the center of attention. I stayed calm . Just focused my breathing. They told me not to. Some people screamed in fear or terror. But nothing can happen to me , right? It’s 120 floors. I won’t feel anything. Suddenly it was silent. I stood up and just let me fall into the crowd. Everyone was screaming but for me it felt so silent. There was no one to catch me on the gound. The music stopped. The people stopped. All the pain, all the people, everything was gone. It was dark. But nothing mattered. I was free in the end. I was free. Forever... thank I for reading my thoughts .... my snap is L_lol2228 I am always here to talk. I love u. Share your thoughts w me.
sitting here a year after my first listen praying that everyone in this comment section is still alive and decided to keep going, because I did. And here I am, feeling so, so much better. The tears are almost non existent anymore. I smile all the time. I’m still not in the best circumstances, but I’ve learned to fight my depression. Please keep going. Back then, a year ago, I didn’t believe anyone when they said it would get better(or I just wasn’t willing to wait). But here I am, and it really does get better
It is so weird coming back to this song about a year after my depression hit. I don't have depression anymore but it's just so weird to think about how depressed I was and how I felt during it. I always thought that depression wasn't that bad, but after my depression I felt so bad for all of the people that have depression. Ok that's it for now, bye.
@Shenandoah Berghuis is nice to talk to other people to feel secure, understand, and all of that, my point there was just make a lil joke.. A lot of people of my family are depressed, so I can imagine what are you guys going through. If you want to talk, I'm here :)
Honestly I wasn’t expecting to cry listening to this. Tears fall down and I didnt feel them. Comment section is so sad, but makes me feel better. we all need to be appreciated. I m sorry for my English don’t be rude please I’m just a French person
"Whatever happened to my happy little girl?" I'm not a girl. I never have been. I wish my stepdad would stop acting like he's my real dad. He's not, and he never will be. He never stops yelling. Charlie-Rose was right. I'll never achieve my dreams, I'm not funny, and I need to get a life. ... I wish I was on that rooftop.
me, at 8 yo: i want to die, theres nothing left for me. I remember that thing everytime i wake up. Thats not normal i guess? Or maybe yes...i always have been strange.
I swear to you, the second I read that my shoulders dropped, my true expression showed, I never frown because I don’t like people to see me like that, but I did, because it got to me way too much. I have this friend (whom I have a crush on) and we always speak about death, about life, about stuff like that, I wish I could trust him enough to tell him the way I feel, the way it hurts
the crying makes this really realistic
oh wait thats me
wait another voice oh thats you
@@landreeallen6000 kepp it quiet guys...lets just vibe no more talking and explaining, only vibe
How are you?
Are you okay..?
@@melissavicky7121 hey bro you mind if I get your opinion on this track it would really mean a lot ua-cam.com/video/8Jx90DF51vs/v-deo.html
"suicide isn't a option, but they never give you a better one"
that's hard...
Yes
therapy
@@SillyDolly sometimes therapy doesnt work, it can be too much. and not everyone has access to therapy
For real
Honestly I was buying adderrall and anti depressants so I could be ok and make them happy but then I got caught and now I might get arrested like all I wanted to do is be ok for y'all because I couldn't get a prescription and it fucks up my life more and now I realize I should've just killed myself instead
Parents: Don't talk to strangers online, they're dangerous
Those strangers online: giving me the will to live
Relatable
I found someone on instagram and give him the will to live, he became my friend
(I still do give him will to live, plus he fuckin cute)
Facts
haha
Yeah....my parents took them away
They were my friends
It's an emotional day..
can we just take a moment and think about how strangers are the most supportive people to exist
oh they so are. they don't even know who you are or what you're going through but some take the time to talk to you.
The fact that there are people like you that can open our eyes to their kindness is also very nice ^·^
I want to thank you and them for the random support that I find in some of the most damaged places.
Because they don't have to take further responsibility by backing up their worlds with their actions. Because they are strangers.
bro it's so real
@nisa'#4918 if you wanna talk:>
“You can’t trust random people online!”
Those people online are the only reason I’m still here
I know it doesn’t mean much but I’m so proud of you luv :)
I can relate
Exactly how it is for me
I hope you're doing Ok! I hope all of you guys doing Ok! Y'all are Amazing💕I love you!❤️
Hey I hope you're doing a lil better, I came to tell y'all that I'm so so proud of you ❤ You may feel like you're drowing right now but you'll feel the ground under your feet soon and you'll just have to kick it as hard as you can to get up to the surface ❤ I know how strong you are, you can do it ❤
This feels so real that it’s scary
It will end soon. I promise you it will. Whatever you’re going through is gonna end. One day you’ll look back and you’ll be so happy that you didn’t end it all. Because you met that special someone and met those trustworthy friends. And have that job that you enjoy so much. Everything will be calm. And your heart will be at peace
yeh
@@rodainaayman4769 ur so kind
it's painful
Rodaina Ayman bro i love you
im not suicidal, I just want to close my eyes without waking up from my dream
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@@suryanshisinghrajpoot3713 me too I haven't had a nice dream for years
Reality shifting.
@@bad_idea4 nothing can stop you. You are stopping yourself bestie GO SHIFT
It's funny how strangers online comfort me more than my parents do.
my parents act like they understand. But they don't know anything.
@@yenym9055 My parents think i'm lying all the time, when i tell them something true. Is it because i used to lie everyday?...
@@mike_morton_simp3080 When I tell my mom about how I've been feeling lately she just listens and decides to ignore it. Then they wonder why we don't leave our rooms
The truth this sentence holds though. While I do have people I can talk to, I usually end up talking to strangers more than my parents. Somehow they understand me more than my parents can.
@@yenym9055 same. they think im just a happy teenager with no worries at all when in reality its so much more
and it sucks when you look in the mirror and say to yourself...
*“you’re just overreacting. life shouldn’t be this hard....”*
ikr :/
i’m always wondering why my life feels sm worse than other peoples. i try to gaslight myself and say i’m overreacting bc i know other ppl are going thru the exact same thing but are they really ?
felt
all the time lol : )
yeah ik :)
“You aren’t depressed you’re just dramatic now act happy and go pretend you’re ok.”
-me to myself everyday
It’s okay ur not alone I do this too...
I do this a lot
lmao me too
Never related to a stranger more in my life
Please stop. Listen to yourself. You clearly need help, please talk to other people about it, close ones that understand you. If you may know the reason, talk about it... You don't deserve to be ignored, and particularly by yourself. You can also talk to me if you need, maybe i could help, or at least listen...
Take care.
I’m not suicidal I just want to be able to close my eyes knowing it’s ok.
Me too
oof that hit hard
Feltttt
"I have to go, my dad is calling me. I think I should go to him."
*But you dad is dead.*
"Exactly"
oh wow that hit
Now i am literally in tears
damn, that hit harder than a train
I-
The way this hit
this song exists:
depressed people who just want to cry: free real estate
LMAO STOP ARE YOU LOOKING THROUGH MY SCREEN
Stopppp I'm trynna cry you're making me choke on tears
I keep my hand over my mouth because my parents would hear me cry, and I don't want them to know how I'm feeling. And I'm sitting here struggling to breathe it's hard
I can't cry no matter how hard I try I just want to feel something...anything
@@galaxyexplorer9183 I have the same problem as well. It's like I can only be happy or angry, which makes it really hard to empathize with people.
this comment section is more understanding and doesn't feel like a stranger at all. its nice to be here..(:
Agreed, we all kniw hiw eachother feel so we just feel like home
Yeah 😶 it really is
Fr these stranger are understanding my depression more than me 🙃
hope you’re good,
@@oreeeana I am trying
Isn't it amazing how after a 100 years probably none of us would be here, but right now, at this moment, we're all here, listening to this beautiful masterpiece? Feeling the same pain in different forms?
Yeah
This song is so unbelievably powerful and the emotions that she capsulates is just so raw and real. It’s such a shame that her lyricism isn’t taken seriously because some of Billie’s younger fans think having depression is a cool, trendy personality trait instead of a severe mental illness.
i absolutely agree with you :(
this is so true
true
family: "try harder"
school: "you're just lazy"
friends: "my problems are worse than yours"
me: "do better in life."
i feel you, i really do.
It be like that I feel you😔
I might not know you but I understand and im here if you ever need anyone to talk to
I almost cried reading this.. it's so relatable.....
Fr every day is the same I can't take it anymore
This is the most depressing comment section...
the comments make me cry even harder🥺😞
Yeah. There’s a lot of broken people...
yeah, I clicked on this video for curiosity but the comment section made me break in tears
I knOW I'm just here to cope and boom, serious comments
Just let me make my suicide jokes in peace
Hey, I cut myself just because I have access to razors, im not sad, I just like blood, I bite My self wen Im scared, have a good day
sitting on a rooftop rn, looking at the stars. it’s quite a relaxing night, no cars.. no noise. no disruptions. just me and my thoughts, yknow? part of me wishes to do a really cool anime death scene off this roof but another part of me wants to stay and live “the cool way of life.”
if you get that reference, i love you.
love you too 🤍
I love you too and it might not mean anything but hopefully your still here to read this but I don’t know you, you don’t know me but I care about you and love you soooo try to hold on plz
This really hits different when you're in bed with your phone and headphones in while staring at the ceiling because no matter what you do you can't fall asleep, then end up with your face wet from your tears that just won't stop.
EDIT: AND WHEN IT'S AT 3 IN THE MORNING
It really does hit different
Well at least I'm not the only one like this
@@indribagel agree
Jokes on you, it's 2:40 for me
I'm not afraid to die...I'm afraid of hurting myself really bad in the process and causing further pressure on everybody...and not dying after all..
Soooo true I feel the exact same wayyy
Exactly so don’t do it and stay with me 🥺❤️✨
felt that
Same
THISS
Pov:
You're sitting on a rooftop with your legs hanging over the edge. Youre listening to your favorite song one last time and watch the police cars and their sirens rushing off to save someone who isn't too far gone. Someone who still has a chance. Someone who isn't you. You tilt your face to the sky and close your eyes as the rain falls down. You take off your rings and let them fall to the ground as you let down your hair and let it blow in the wind. You can feel your heart pounding as you wipe your tears and stand up. You look over the edge and and watch as a tear falls over. One tear among a thousand beautiful raindrops. The song ends and you know these are your last few seconds. You can see your first kiss in your head, your friends laughing with you, you can smell your grandmother's cookies she would make for you every Sunday before she died and you can almost feel her kiss on your forehead. You look down at your phone and you hesitantly press play again and slowly back away from the edge, you stay on the roof all night long listening until your phone runs out of battery. As the sun start to rise you find yourself sitting on the roof still singing and although you're wet you know the storm has passed. And the sun will shine again
ouch
Aw wow I loved that 💜
omg I thought my favorite song was 'one last time' -ariana grande and I was boutta be like tru
lmao my grandma died when I was 4 and was a drug addict who never made cookies so wrong
thank u
I’m so numb that if I receive pain either physically or mentally I would laugh. And then cry.
Me right now, i don't feel pain, i just laughed and now I'm crying 🤷🏻♀️🙁
lets just shake hands
i do the same exact thing, whether it be me breaking down or me having an episode [SH]
Same
a random person in the comments saying “i love you” means more than it ever did coming from my family
i love you
i love you.
Hey kiddo. I love you. Be safe, and be well. We need you here, okay?
"how do i tell the woman who gave me life that i dont want it anymore..."
Man please dont let go.... we are so proud of u and i hope u know how important you are to ur loved ones and us ❤i hope u have taken care of yourself and eaten properly ..... just remember that if u go ..... we all will miss u and u are sooo sooo important ❤❤
The number of times I’ve screamed this into the cold night air....
I promise, life gets better if you’ll just stick around to see it.
Get a notebook and write/draw in it every time something makes you smile, or take pictures, or simply write down the date it happened. Just... give yourself some physical representation of all the little things that make you feel better, so you can remind yourself that it’s not all bad, even if it feels like it.
i am just not gonna tell her i hope that make her fell less pain,that she does not know what ive been true b t w good luke i hope its get better by the time
Hey love I know it’s so hard right now and yes life is upper hard but we only have one chance of living it so please make it beautiful go party go sneak out go wake your parents up for fun,just go have fun while it lasts and tell your loved ones that you love before it’s too late and you got this your so strong I will always believe in you no matter what:)
there is no definitive way. But you cant just give it back, you have to use it up, wich takes around 80 years, possibly longer or slightly shorter. Stay strong, get help if needed. Were here waiting if you wanna talk
"Don't talk to strangers"
Me: *Looks at my online friends who gave me a will to live*
parents: strangers are dangerous dont talk to them!
in reality most strangers ik: You are a reason I live let me be one of yours
Ikr my online friends are so nice to me they’re caring
How are you now? hope you're doing great(I believe you are )
@@tejaxxgaming1189 I'm doing great ^^
I have more online friends than real ones...and they all have issues, so they all understands me and I understand them..They're the only reason that I keep fighting on this never ending war.
I really hope that my mum knows that the internet isn’t just full of old men trying to kidnap you and that there can be people that are making you feel better than how you felt before you met them.
same, I tried telling my mom about this and she just couldn’t accept it. Everything was taken from me two months ago and I can’t even barely talk to my online friends anymore. I miss them so much including my bestfriend. He’s genuinely kind and caring and its so painful. My online friends really helped with making me happy and the time I spent with them made me the happiest ever. Now that they’re gone im back to my old sad self.
“stop crying”
*when you yell at me for crying, it just makes it worse.*
“why are you so lazy:
*look, im trying as hard as i can.*
“i miss my happy little girl”
*well sorry that im getting sick of your crap, plus everyone’s else.*
i just wanna be happy again.
Hey I understand how you feel I'm sorry you're parents are like this I swear you will get your happiness you deserve
ur gonna make it i promise. we both are.
Same, it’s not only that, but my mom or dad can’t accept that I’m apart of LGBTQIA+
Same here..
@@itsneon3313I'll support you
"who knew strangers can be nicer than people you know"
Honestly anyone who's seeing this video is not in a good place so ill tell you what.. @prety.punk thats my instagram and if you need a friend to talk to text me please, your amazing
@@osirisgomez3833 god bless you dear
@@avo1711 no your to nice, your welcomed into my chat anytime and anyday ^^
YOUR USERNAME
Yea strangers on internet and on person are more nicer than the people I know
I wish I had a friend to talk to
“dead people receive more flowers than the living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude.”
- anne frank
fav comment ever
Sad but true
It’s true I should’ve told my dad I loved him...
@@ilovedylanobrien3703 same with my mom.. but it will be ok
this is just me asking to please give me plants as your go to gift. or money. so i can buy plants. please. i like plants.
"Just coz I'm carrying it well doesn't mean it's not heavy"
" Hey, are you ok?"
" Yes of course, why you ask me that?"
" You know you can't lie to me right?"
That sentence really made me cry all night.
Heyy, do you need to vent to someone?
It’s scary how many people don’t want to die, they just want to start *_living_*
That’s... honestly pretty true.
O-O
My whole life I’ve been looking for this answer, thank you.
I was feeling sad rn, but ur pfp just made my day.
Woah.... That's.... Deep.
That’s really deep...
“Hurting someone’s feelings is like throwing a rock in a ocean, but do you know you deep that rock goes?”
I don't know why i'm sad. I don't have anything to be sad about. My life is fine. But everything hurts. It hurts really really bad and I don't know why. I feel so selfish for feeling like this when others have actual reasons to be sad. It hurts so bad. I'm having a panic attack. I can't breath. It's like I don't wanna live but I'm also terrified of dying so I have to go through all this pain cause I'm scared.
Your emotions are completely valid and I’m so sorry you’re in pain and it’s not selfish to feel pain or to feel hurt if you want or need to talk I’m all ears
same but i don't like how i switch moods every time it hurts inside....
MOM AND DAD: stop lieing your always happy your our baby gi-
my head: i am not that "baby girl" u wanted im just want to press GAME OVER
Same and i do t know what to do, i dont want to tell anyone because then ill be bothering them but if i dont do something idk whats gonna happen. Honestly i dont even care if i live or die, i used to want to just end it but now i dont care enough to do it.
@@te495 Me too, it really sucks. I really think you should try to get help or talk to someone about how you feel though.
@@slay.6802 yea I'm trying a little now but how the miserableness i feel feels so normal ,i cant imagine anything feeling anything else.
It’s not that people wanna die, they just want to escape.
this right here
You're right.
Many still do not find the way to do it, so we resort to these thoughts so drowned and hasty that they drown us more every day. . . And more.
I am not the one to speak for everyone, in my case I think so.
Amen
True.
yeah..
at this point im not living for myself, im living for the people that claim to love me.
That's exactly how I feel
Same here.
Even though we have never met, I know you can do this, and one day you will find something for you that makes life worth living. Sometimes the pain can be unbearable, but the one good thing, is that it can also go up from there. I love you, stay safe :)
Pretty much yeah
Same. I think my friends are the only reason I'm alive. I don't want to hurt them. I've often fantasized about making them hate me, cause then it would be easier to die. However, I don't want to die. I just want to seize existence and take with me the memories everyone holds of me.
When I was 12 my friend committed suicide in a bathroom stall at school. She was an amazing friend that I had the pleasure of spending about 2 years knowing. For the first time in months I broke down while listening to this song. This song reminds me of her in so many ways. I'll never forget her.
I'm so sorry for your loss..
It's sad how my parents don't care about me
But my online friends care more about me they knew what I was going through they stopped me from commit.
Those are sum shmakin friends
I hope yall get really close n they help u through all your though times :)
Thnk u for continuing to breath
Too tired to live but too scared to die. We are just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide is not the answer.
Aika Sakamaki how many times have I seen this comment-
yup...
it breaks my heart how many people can relate to this
This would have go viral in Tumblr
I tried to tell my mom I think about suicide like everyday but she dœsn’t want to understand this, to believe it’s real, so I just feel I’m never be understood by someone
it really hits when your parents tell you “you’re not my happy little girl anymore”
I wish my parents noticed
"But now ur our lil bo peep"
Hard to hear that when your mom never notices and your dads barely around to even notice..
"What happened to the girl who used to loved tinkerbell and was so happy"
my mom said that last year, not in the same words but very similar, "what happened to my bright little girl?"
The dislikes are understandable, not everyone can see when they're crying.
"I'm not afraid of death im afraid of who will take care of my mom and make sure she has everything she needs"
my parents are always asking me “where did that happy little girl go?”
idk i’m trying to find her
I think we will never find that happy little girl
uhh same
Hope u find yourself, but I also love your profile pic [Hope u have a nice day~]
They tell me the same, I feel guilty because it’s my fault she’s gone.
Oh uhh... same actually...
You ever feel so sad and deppressd, that you cant even cry anymore..
Willy are you okay? 🥺
And all you could do is look into the void of nothingness
I lost a few people... And for a while I had lost myself too. I would wake up every day scared that I wouldn't see the day after or that I would just lose somebody else again. I was so broken I couldn't even cry. The feeling of giving up would haunt me all the time and I was just about to stop it all. But then, i met my current best friend and he somehow got me through it all. I would have given up on life if it wasn't for him. I can't never thank him enough for what he has done and even if one day we stop talking I will never forget him. Thank you for saving me dude :,)
Luv, don’t even cmon sis (or whatever u identify as) u r just like anyone else u deserve every little thing on this planet and all the love in the world don’t let the little things bring u down it gets hard at times but I assure u it gets better I bet u hear that all the freaking time but I actually mean it I love u u will get through whatever is troubling u❤️
me.
I don't want to die in early age cause i want to fulfill my dreams but I'm tired...
keep going you’ve got this, i love you.
"Thought i could fly, so i stepped off the golden, nobody cried,
nobody
even
noticed."
@imnotreallysure yay.
"Sometimes we say that we want to disappear. But the truth is, all we want is to be found"
dang-
Damn. That hits hard.
That’s so deep😭
why do i relate to that
where is that quote from
That's true
some people don't wish to die, they just wish they didn't exist.
me
Thats me for sure i didnt wanna be born since i dont remember.-
Same, don't want to die but definitely don't want to be here either
this.
Are u ok? 😔
To the people that every so often come back to this video, after 2 years. I'm so proud of you for still being here after so long. You're strong. I believe in you, and soon enough, instead of listening to this song relating to it, you'll listen to it ro remember the times in which you felt like this.
🤍
"I've got an idea, how about we become monsters? And we can tear up this rotten world together. Until there is no more evil, no more sadness, until there's nothing left. We'll break and smash and pound it into dust."
Homura Akemi.
it sucks when people you've never met make you feel safer than your family
I want to reply to you but its so true that i have no words.
That's only because unlike your family, you don't know how dark those strangers can get.
I hope u are ok and if not stay strong I need you WE need you as a community sure u might be one but thats a one in all those billions without u we have one less person and we will miss you i will defo bcs tbh ik what its like to hurt and cry but no one but u sees it i cant cry easily bcs im used to pain stay strong man we all need you
It sure does. And to me it’s felt like that ever since I was 6, people that I don’t know, Songs, art and the internet in general make me the person I am today, they make another reality that I escape too every chance I get. Because I don’t like the outside world. Because I don’t feel safe and loved by my own family and friends. But that’s just the truth, and even if it hurts I’ve come to accept the truth. I’m sorry if you feel the same way, because it’s a terrible way to feel and realisation to come to. But it’s ok, because you’ll find somebody someday or a reason to love the outside world. At least thats what I hope for... ❤️❤️
yea ,same but well i live with it ...
“you’re not depressed, just acting immature. take things seriously”
never think that because this is something that anyone can face. ur doing great and im so happy that ur still even alive, keep on pushing and never give up :(
You put it in quotation marks, who are you quoting
i. i feel this. i've heard this. i am so sorry that they said that to you.
@@MackieLars im not the person who commented on this but I'm sorry you heard that too ... you feel like your feelings aren't worth enough, but they do, so if you're feeling down lately, you can talk to me and I'll try to help you. ig: skmpthy
thommy !! i am very thankful that you're willing to lend a helping ear but i'm actually doing much better now. not to shun a hand that's helping but i really do appreciate it. thank you. 🥰
When your parents see you cry almost every single day and still wonder what's wrong with you😔
You all need to put your phone under your pillow, rest your head on top of it and listen to this one. It’s so peaceful.
mom said “don’t talk to strangers online, it’s dangerous” little did she know they helped me through a lot.
Same here
They always say that but they are the ones who actually understand and help us get through most things
Sometimes they are right, cause we live in dangerous world with many pedophile's,killer's who's trying to get information about us
yeah they do
Welp the strange people ... sometime are better than friends
*I don't want to live.*
"Then why are you still here?"
*I'm to scared to die..*
Can't relate i'm Not even scared to die anymore
@@nevermindnope720 Lucky
me too, i want to die but i can't
@@user-bh5qn2qj8j yuh i'm loved but not that much they could bear it i guess and its better for e few People if i die so why not
skellita 09 Same here
hey, hey, hey, if you are not feeling good you want to vent or just want confort you can talk to me
I will always be there for you
Listened to this specific version of this song every day of my severe suicidal depressive state. I like listening to it now that I’m better because if I’m honest I miss it so much. Just that feeling, wanting to just leave all the time, I miss it so much and I think I’d give anything to go back.
i wish you the best, take care. please don't hurt yourself. you matter 🤍
God bless you, keep holding on
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your moms smile
5. Your best friends laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. Your dreams
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Travelling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating you house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️
(The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
parents will never understand why some of us talk to strangers online. they'll never know why we keep our bedroom doors closed, or why we prefer to be alone in "a dark room".
dark rooms give me such relaxing vibes. you r all alone, sometimes it’s even quite. i feel alright in a dark room all by myself. the problems disappear for a second. and everybody wants me to come out of my room more and go outside more...
@@leahs.735 Exactly. My room is like my safe space. It stresses me out being out of it for too long.
I was forced to leave my old room and to move into a new room that had no door led to the backyard and the garage, so I put up blankets, on the door and blankets on the windows, so no light would come in, so I had some dark space to lay all day
@@RandomHeartsArt I'm so sorry, love. That sounds awful. At least the blankets came to aid though!
I hate it when they walk in and are like “open the curtains “ go downstairs you have been u here too ong” “get out of bed” “dont stay awake so late”
“Death must be a beautiful journey, no one ever came back...”
When friends are over : *laughing my life out*
The moment they go :*empty stares at the noose, blade and pills*
I know bb, you’re feelings and pain is valid. I used to cut and contemplate suicide a lot, but you have so much to live for, like waiting to run out of shampoo and conditioner at the same time, or to find a bunch of animals and become their whole world. You still have so much you have to do because this is the only life we have and we have to make the most out of it💖
I was a little kid, just 9 living my best life when everything crashed... my sister got depressed, my dad left for years bc of work and my mom became so stress she would put the blame on us. Me being the “ happy kid” I would always say to my mom I loved her so much and would write notes to my sister not to quit but what they didn’t know is that I would cry everynight until I wanted to throw up... and would love to go to school to escape my reality and leave from home. Then I’m 11 years old, crazy isn’t it, the pain became worst but I would just keep smilling and no one knew and gave a shit. Became depressed during quarantine, lost my grades, my family started complaining about me being cold and my body figure. I destroyed my beautiful heart and it stopped beating. Know I’m 12 struggling with social anxiety all alone in the worst place ever. I hate my school don’t have friends, I hate coming home and hates their body. But still... I don’t wanna die... but I do.... I cry everyday trying to figure it out bc my parents always yell at me saying that’s why I don’t have have friends. I’m scared of my father bc he threaten me to hit me. And they still say they love me but they do all this. Now I’m numb and they say I look like a bitch talking bc I just don’t care anymore. Never knew teares were this salty... I guess it’s not gonna matter bc I’m gonna have to do the same routine everyday..
If you are reading this I love you so freaking much and you are probably thinking that it’s a lie but it’s not u deserve so much better ❤️
@imnotreallysurei love you too
"Death must be a very beautiful place... no one has ever returned"
Some have come back and still wish to die and never return
It’s a beautiful place so beautiful that I want to go- unknown
@VIKY yeah i kinda want to go there
@stinky ⊂(・▽・⊂)💜💜💜💜💜💜❤️❤️
oh wow.
Living hurts.
It hurts so much that I feel like I'm dying.
it does hurt, but thats part of life.
i love you, and you are strong enough
@@bettybuehler3512 thank you, I really needed to hear that today
@@insomniac1184 im just a comment away xoxo, ur welcome.
ong
It consumes me, everything I do Im not happy anymore
My friend once told me a story:
A girl was depressed but her mom denied it and told her that she was just overreacting. One day her teacher noticed she isn't like her these days, she doesn't smile often and doesn't talk to her friends that much anymore, so the teacher called her after class, she told her everything about whats happening. The next day the teacher and her mom talked and told her about whats going on with her daughter, again, the mom was furious in thinking her daughter was telling lies and wanted attention and denied she isn't depressed. Her mom then enrolled the girl into a new school, the girl was angry but she knew she couldn't do anything about it. Her first day of school was worse as she got bullied by girls in school of how ugly and weird she was. That day she had enough, she went home silent and didn't ate dinner. The next day, her mom was supposed to wake her up but she was shocked to see her daughter hanging from the ceiling, she committed su1cid3 yesterday. Her mom cried from regret and wanted to turn back time but it was to late, she was now holding her dead daughter crying.
5 years past since the incident and her mom had a new life, new job, new kids, new husband but still couldn't forget about it. Oh, and for those who are wondering who the girl is, well, she the friend who told me this story, she told me everything before she died.
I love how genuine we can be when talking to people who feel the same as us, thank u guys for being so supportive of each other
“I’m scared to live, but I’m scared to die”
- NF
"and i don't wanna live but i'm too scared to die"
-Olivia o'brien
god his music hits so different 😔🤝
His music hits way too different, he’s so amazing. Saved my life.
I can’t put my family through this, never. Why did I have to exist
I understand
Keep your promise to ever let your family feel the pain of losing someone you could have saved, ok?
I know how it feels...
I relate to this..
I know how it feels....
Sometimes I just want our parents to look at us for our successes and not our flaws. They pick at it instead of caressing the wounds after our victories.
Then they ask why that wound grew after they scold us for it.
They say they were us before, yet they understand nothing that we talk about.
Mom and dad, why did you abandon us?
Mom and dad, why are you like this?
I have scrolled through this comment section 17 times. Never fails to tear my heart into pieces.
this comment section is exactly how i feel but i can’t even get the words out :(
same
Same
Same
Me too
Same
“why are you so lazy?“ - my parents
*i’m sorry, i lost the motivation to do anything. i’m trying my hardest.*
im here if u want to talk or we can be on the phone in silence just so u know that ur not alone
crybaby thank you
and then they yell... and get mad... and say you do nothing around the house and that you never help. that you should stop being to lazy cause if your lazy you get no where? ye .. i get it
they never understand. they are never there for me when i need them most.
what if I didn't even try? Then I have no right to behave and feel like this
I found this video randomly but... I just wanted to say that if you are in pain right now it doesn't mean that this pain is going to last forever. It will get better, I promise you.
The world is better with you in it.
I love you.
❤️
hey. stop everything. look at you. you've made it so far...you've gone through so much...but you're still here. you have people who love you. more than anything. im proud of you. keep kickin life's ass, alright? you're doin great. i believe in you
what if we are actually all on the rooftop, We just dont know it
everyone always is. some people are stuck further to the edge and others get to stay in the middle. it's unfair.
(Sorry if thiz joke offends anyone, its how i cope with suicidal thoughts)
Lmao
So
Thats why i always have the urge to just fall back
Wait if we each have our own rooftops how come someone came on mine and tried to push me off?
that's so deep
plot twist: Were on the rooftop of a barbie doll house.
i dont feel sad or depressed, i just feel empty at this point
How are you?
me too, at-least i can go on auto pilot and go through life now even if its just passing by
i get what you mean. i felt just like that a while ago. it's called apathy, and for me it was really damn scary. for me it was a phase. i hope you're feeling better now. i hope you can remember how to be happy.
Then try to fill yourself, I know it’s hard, but there are many wonderful things to the terrible ones in this world, so go out and live. Carpe diem (seize the moment)
narancia with depression? what will he do?
It's strange because I was listening to this song a year ago imagining myself jumping off a building. I was happy at that moment, when I imagined myself falling. But I dont really want to die, I just want to be calm like I would be in those last moments, falling when no one would be looking for me. Knowing everything would be okay in a few last seconds.
"I just miss seeing you smile" -my dad
That hurt like shit
then fight for him, stay strong for him. it's pretty rare to have caring parents.
scary part is nobody knows how bad i am hurting ...
and one day... if we die by suicide... they'll all know... but it'll be too late by then...
amelia f Saying « things will get better » dœsn’t help, you know ? That just makes us more misunderstood that we already are, but I know you just try to be kind
Then talk to someone, and if you have terrible parents and terrible friends than talk with yoursekf. Question everything. Think about the bad AND the good. Try improving your life instead of just throwing it away
Your strong. And you will get tru this. You may be confused asking yourself what and how do I do it? But the answers are gonna be there soon. Never stop trying to improve your life and yourself, sweetheart. You’re a blessing.
your doing great and remember how far you've come, this is a battle and im so proud of you. keep on pushing and carry on being the warrior you are, you are loved and worth-it, and if u ever need to talk just add me on insta @itsnathaniaa (':
i don’t wanna die *that badly,* i just wish I never existed at all sometimes.
I feel like that every single second.
same.
I wanna disappear for a week and come back again :>
SAME
same.
Pov: You're Ash as he walks towards the library to sit and take his final breaths reading the letter of the guy who made him feel whole.
NO😭
WHYYYY
stop that 😭✋
If i was already crying before, I am now
OHmYGODDDD
ppl here who have suicidal thoughts. i am telling you this: i am really sorry you are going through whatever you are going thorough rn. just remember it’s not your fault because you can not control what is happening.
"I wasn't asked to be born, but I'm afraid to die."
same
I can relate
stay strong it WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! you are so loved and amazing!! you will be so grateful and happy that you stayed because it WILL get better!! you WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! stay strong!!❤❤
Its sad when parents notice a mess in the house, but not the sadness and hurt inside your heart...
:(
i wish they knew how much it really hurts to get up and clean my room.
I don’t want to show them.(:
@@sunnyroze6604 same😩
aaahhhhhhhhhhhh 😢😔
i remember being in like 4th grade crying to this.
Lyrics
Take me to the rooftop
I wanna see the world when I stop breathing
Turning blue
Tell me, love is endless, don't be so pretentious
Leave me, like you do (like you do)
If you need me
Wanna see me
Better hurry
'Cause I'm leaving soon
Sorry, can't save me now
Sorry, I don't know how
Sorry, there's no way out (sorry)
But down, mm down
Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long headache does to you
I'm not okay, I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me
Deja vu
If you need me
Wanna see me
You better hurry
I'm leaving soon
Sorry, can't save me now (sorry)
Sorry, I don't know how (sorry)
Sorry, there's no way out (sorry)
But down, mm down
Call my friends and tell
Them that I love them
And I'll miss them
But I'm not sorry
Call my friends and tell them that I love them
And I'll miss them
Sorry
I was told that in Japan, saying "sayonara" was for if you'd might not ever see that person again. It kind of makes this hit different.
my friend ended it today, this hits different.
@@katzecollective I cant imagine how it would feel like but please stay strong! She would want you to end it too.
You are not alone in this, talk with someone it will get better i promise!❤
noya-san please dont be sad you have tanaka-senpai to talk to and hug! and kiyoko to think about!
Sayonara
@@katzecollective do you need someone to talk to? me and probably all the people in the replies are right here. C:
This generation know how to cry without making a single sound
It's sad but true..But when we're alone(Might just be me) we tell or scream to let it out..
yea, but sometimes i just want to scream. i want to scream and cry so bad, but i cant.
I've trained myself for those nights alone in the dark
I use to cry in school silently because if everything but when I’m alone I scream and cry I just want to be free no worries or anything
is crying silently not normal?
Wow this version really got me closing my eyes, laying on a rooftop and thinking abt life or death. I layed there. On the wet concrete, while a soft rain , came down in me , touched my skin, it was so much, like my thoughts. Every rain drop felt like something I did wrong. Then I thought about family and friends. They wouldn’t care I thought. I opened my eyes. A tear was rolling down my cheek as it mixed w a raindrop. I sat up and wiped my tear away. Then I got nearer to the deepend. I looked straight down. Nothing could stop me. No person cares right now. Nobody would suspect. Me the “happy person “ I am happy to make others happy. I don’t want people to make themselves a hard time abt me. So I sat down at the deepend. A person noticed. Soon I heard sirens. Suddenly I was the center of attention. I stayed calm . Just focused my breathing. They told me not to. Some people screamed in fear or terror. But nothing can happen to me , right? It’s 120 floors. I won’t feel anything. Suddenly it was silent. I stood up and just let me fall into the crowd. Everyone was screaming but for me it felt so silent. There was no one to catch me on the gound. The music stopped. The people stopped. All the pain, all the people, everything was gone. It was dark. But nothing mattered. I was free in the end. I was free. Forever... thank I for reading my thoughts .... my snap is L_lol2228 I am always here to talk. I love u. Share your thoughts w me.
sitting here a year after my first listen praying that everyone in this comment section is still alive and decided to keep going, because I did. And here I am, feeling so, so much better. The tears are almost non existent anymore. I smile all the time. I’m still not in the best circumstances, but I’ve learned to fight my depression. Please keep going. Back then, a year ago, I didn’t believe anyone when they said it would get better(or I just wasn’t willing to wait). But here I am, and it really does get better
im not scared to die but I’m scared of what happens after.
The fact that I’m like this....I’m just terrified of anything after death..
I don't fear death or what comes after. I'm too numb to fear.
@Kairi Chaparro25 hehe thanks
Im not scared to die, but I dont wanna let the love of my life alone in such a terrible world
Yea..
It is so weird coming back to this song about a year after my depression hit. I don't have depression anymore but it's just so weird to think about how depressed I was and how I felt during it. I always thought that depression wasn't that bad, but after my depression I felt so bad for all of the people that have depression. Ok that's it for now, bye.
"Better hurry, because I'm leaving soon"
Please, I just want to make it to 17, but it's getting hard man-
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
This song: exist
Depressed people: allow us to introduce ourselves
@Shenandoah Berghuis is nice to talk to other people to feel secure, understand, and all of that, my point there was just make a lil joke..
A lot of people of my family are depressed, so I can imagine what are you guys going through. If you want to talk, I'm here :)
@Shenandoah Berghuis that's fine :)
And thank you! You don't have idea of how much happy you made me, you're so sweet!
@Shenandoah Berghuis :3
Im so insecured ....
............
i don’t want to die. i just want to live in a dream where everything’s ok. i just want an escape.
same
Me to
I’ve never related to a comment harder than this 😔
life isn't easy, but it's worth it, okay? stay strong
Honestly I wasn’t expecting to cry listening to this. Tears fall down and I didnt feel them. Comment section is so sad, but makes me feel better. we all need to be appreciated.
I m sorry for my English don’t be rude please I’m just a French person
Your English is good. French is a wonderful language.
"Whatever happened to my happy little girl?"
I'm not a girl. I never have been.
I wish my stepdad would stop acting like he's my real dad. He's not, and he never will be.
He never stops yelling.
Charlie-Rose was right. I'll never achieve my dreams, I'm not funny, and I need to get a life.
...
I wish I was on that rooftop.
please stay here
It’s ironic to think that we were scared of death back when we were kids but when we grow up, we slowly realize that death isn’t so bad at all.
Nah, death is still pretty bad.
ouch but yea
Nah death is scary afff but so is living. So basically we’re torn. Or at least I am.
Death may be terrifying but so is being alive
me, at 8 yo: i want to die, theres nothing left for me.
I remember that thing everytime i wake up. Thats not normal i guess?
Or maybe yes...i always have been strange.
I swear to you, the second I read that my shoulders dropped, my true expression showed, I never frown because I don’t like people to see me like that, but I did, because it got to me way too much. I have this friend (whom I have a crush on) and we always speak about death, about life, about stuff like that, I wish I could trust him enough to tell him the way I feel, the way it hurts
“Goodnight, i need some sleep”
*last seen: 5 years ago*
This hits hard...
This hits harder than anything I've read till nw
why u make me cwying nows
oh god thats hits so hard
dont even :')