The REAL Tea... EVERYTHING in my life is changing

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  • @Caaari94
    @Caaari94 5 років тому +21

    From a 25-year-old daughter whose mother's only life goal was to have kids, please find something you are passionate about, a career you enjoy, a hobby. My mum devoted her life to us but now that my brother and I have grown up, moved out, have our own careers, it's so sad as a daughter to see my mum so "empty" with no passion for anything, no other goals.
    Wishing you the best of luck for this new chapter in your life ❤️
    P.S hope this message comes across well, English isn't my first language.

  • @laynethompson95
    @laynethompson95 5 років тому +32

    That part about wanting to be a mom, and "waiting for my life to start"....Man, I get that.

  • @lilmisstaylorful
    @lilmisstaylorful 5 років тому +37

    so often, youtubers downplay the importance of going to school/ a college education. just wanted to say it's extremely heartening for someone to acknowledge the role and experience of college. not in the sense of partying/going out - but in the sense of finding YOURSELF, discovering your passions & uncovering your purpose. so happy and inspired by you!

  • @dreamwishergirl
    @dreamwishergirl 2 місяці тому +19

    Coming back to watch this after she just announced her engagement !!! Congrats girl ❤

  • @Toomies08
    @Toomies08 5 років тому +63

    Good. For. You. I give you and Elle credit for not seeing UA-cam as the only forever option. You were smart (or your parents did you right) for thinking big picture. You did your thing, made your money, and got out, or at least now it can just be a hobby. Too many UA-camrs these days are clinging to these dying channels, and they can't do anything else. You're smart. I don't think you've gotten enough credit for being as smart as you have been financially and businesswise.

  • @heypiggy
    @heypiggy 5 років тому +62

    When you said “I’m waiting for my life to start” I couldn’t relate more that is exactly how I feel

  • @BullockKEB
    @BullockKEB 5 років тому +38

    I'll be completely honest that I haven't watched a video of yours in a while, but this was simultaneously the most inspiring and relatable content I've seen in a substantial chunk of time. Listlessness and loss of intention is very obviously an epidemic in the UA-cam community right now and I have so much respect for you figuring out that there might be an unexplored life beyond what you've already created for yourself. As a 26 y/o going through much the same, I understand and identify completely.

  • @brookeorfan9386
    @brookeorfan9386 5 років тому +45

    You're right, this isn't the channel I subscribed too. I subscribed 10 years ago when I was 14 years old. You're not the same and neither am I and I'm excited for this next chapter in your life!

  • @Melajournal
    @Melajournal 5 років тому +13

    12:29 "I feel like i'm waiting for my life to start" I can so relate to that statement.

  • @stephanierhodes608
    @stephanierhodes608 5 років тому +24

    I feel like Blair is that childhood best friend that you don’t get to see very often, but when you do it’s like no time has passed at all. So excited to follow you on this new journey in your life. I’m one of those OG subs...first video I watched of yours was a hair
    curling tutorial where you used a hot pink Bedhead iron. I felt like I was hanging out with a friend watching that for the first time, and now years later in ultra HD, I still feel that way. And it’s ok to be a little lost, you’ll find your way and we’ll all be here to support you through it! Glad you’re back, and please give Teddy a big hug from all of us. 💜 🧸

  • @FMarieT1
    @FMarieT1 5 років тому +28

    Girl so many of us in our mid 20s are starting/going back to school. I’m 26, I’ve been trying to go to college on and off since I was 18. At 26 I finally know what I want a career in, and it took me many jobs, many relationships, and some moves to figure out what I wanted to do. We’re all a little lost! You got this.

  • @jazzyd8009
    @jazzyd8009 5 років тому +23

    I really feel for you. I was working on a PhD and living with my fiancé in America (I'm from England). I had my life mapped out but I knew deep down I wasn't happy. I was working towards a marriage and career I didn't want while living in a country that is far away from my family. So in one week I quit my PhD, called off my wedding and headed home. I thought of myself as a failure for a while and was put on anti-depressants and attended therapy. I felt like I had let myself down and the people who have supported me over the years. Fast forward two years later and I'm married to the man of my dreams who encourages me to do what I'm most passionate about - writing and painting. Long (boring) story short, give it time. Life is unpredictable. Have long term goals, but know that if nothing comes of them, something different and perhaps even better is waiting around the corner.

    • @aureliam3628
      @aureliam3628 5 років тому +5

      Jazz Davis Wow, how beautiful ! Thanks for sharing :3

  • @cheloshomolalie
    @cheloshomolalie 5 років тому +24

    Be a Labour & Delivery nurse!!! Your passion to be a mother is a quality you can refocus into being a caring and compassionate nurse for people going through their most vulnerable and life changing experience!

  • @mikaylam.4277
    @mikaylam.4277 5 років тому +42

    The return of not only the JoBros but also JuicyStar07 has to be a sign that all of us late 90s/early 2000s kids are about to start thriving again.

  • @adoragirlxo9363
    @adoragirlxo9363 5 років тому +57

    I Was Dying
    First I was dying to finish high school and start college,
    And then I was dying to finish college and start working,
    And then I was dying to marry and have children,
    And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough for school so I could return to work.
    Ant then I was dying to retire,
    And now, I am dying... and suddenly I realize I forgot to live.
    Don't wait for a moment for your life to "begin". Your life is now, don't forget to live it.

  • @faithbaney
    @faithbaney 5 років тому +48

    I think you should shift your UA-cam to an adult vlogging in college and starting over channel. I haven’t been subbed to you for over five years, but I resubbed because I’m excited to see what you are going to do with this channel.

  • @melcerra2375
    @melcerra2375 5 років тому +15

    I was right where you are 20 years ago. 27 years old and starting fresh. I had just gotten out of a 5 year relationship and headed back to school. I am now 47 with 4 kids, a supportive husband and a great and very flexible career. You’ve got this.

  • @des10791
    @des10791 5 років тому +14

    27 years old feeling like I have no purpose in life. I finished school, got my doctorate just to work at a job I hate. I have no passion. I feel like starting a family would help but I have no interest in going through the motions of starting a new relationship. I RELATE TO THIS VIDEO SO HARD.

  • @CampbellsCNoodleSoup
    @CampbellsCNoodleSoup 4 роки тому +30

    Blair...the moment you said "I am waiting for my life to start", that hit me so hard and I'm like sitting here tearing up. I understand this SO much. Thank YOU for sharing your story. This feeling is sometimes SO hard to pinpoint, its like you're constantly falling into a hole but you've been falling for so long you've kind of forgotten that you were falling. I have been watching you for literally God knows how long and this video hits home. You are so strong, I am so proud of you for making the best decision for yourself! I am wishing you all the best in life.

  • @ldalton7879
    @ldalton7879 5 років тому +25

    My dear, you have put a lot of pressure on yourself! 26 is so young and you don’t have to know what your future holds! Just find a way to enjoy your journey! Teddy is teaching you a lot! The doctors gave up on him but he’s still here enjoying his time with you! Just wake up every day and see where it takes you!! Enjoy the ride💕

  • @nicklespickles08
    @nicklespickles08 5 років тому +10

    PLEASE do college vlogs! It’ll be so helpful for people who go to college later 🤓 the change on your channel would be so fun!

  • @HeboEstel
    @HeboEstel 5 років тому +20

    Do yall remember years and years ago when Elle and Blair would refuse to say the state they lived in and everyone would guess constantly? Good times. I haven't watched you two in a long time but I'm glad you both are still doing great things.

  • @katieswain293
    @katieswain293 5 років тому +24

    The MOST honest and refreshing video I've seen on UA-cam. You're not negating your success, Beautiful Woman, you're stripping down and changing course. Many aren't this strong. Kudos.

  • @softyylalisaa
    @softyylalisaa 4 роки тому +44

    im having goosebumps right now 😳 i went to your channel bc of michelle phan and now hearing you speak made me remind of my teenage years. i can literally hear you showing the candles you bought in bath&body works or your christmas vlogs and it makes me emotional bc i just miss those days when youtube wasn't all about the tea and drama :( now im subscribed again!! im crying i miss those days man 😭

    • @demibishop4682
      @demibishop4682 4 роки тому +1

      Same! Isnt it crazy?

    • @dreamwishergirl
      @dreamwishergirl 4 роки тому +5

      Demi Bishop I remember back then the biggest scandals were rumors of plastic surgery and adsense!

    • @softyylalisaa
      @softyylalisaa 4 роки тому +1

      @@dreamwishergirl lol i agree!! it was so funny if you look back now haha

  • @mikaylaking58
    @mikaylaking58 5 років тому +14

    I can so see Blair being a pediatric nurse/doctor being that she has that motherly nature all ready

  • @kristinambickford
    @kristinambickford 5 років тому +22

    Hands down, the best video you have EVER made, Blair. So real, raw, vulnerable, and addressing the modern "issues" of woman in their 20's today. At one point I was tearing up with how I identified with your story. Big big big thing for you to come. You rocked it, sister friend! xoxxo

  • @kellybeans9721
    @kellybeans9721 5 років тому +17

    You were the VERY FIRST UA-camr I watched and followed for over 10 years. I loved watching your tutorials and hauls back in the day when you filmed in your bright hot pink bedroom! You were honestly one of the best and very first OG "UA-cam gurus" back then. (I learned how to curl my hair and used to store make up brushes inside jars with beads because of you!) I'm happy for all of your accomplishments in your teenage/early adult years and that you were smart about saving your earnings for later in life. As more influencers joined the UA-cam scene I've been falling behind on your content and I apologize for that. However, I am happy to know you are doing fine and for taking the time and courage to film this life update. It's nice to see a familiar face on UA-cam again and hearing your stories. I am beyond excited for the next chapter in your life with school and moving back closer to home, I look forward to these new types of videos soon! I feel like I've been growing up with you too, now that I'm going into my late 20s I feel like my "life goals" aren't going to be achieved anytime soon either. It does put me in a depressing rut sometimes when I am comparing my current situation with my comfortable bf to my married friends and people on social media flaunting their cute kids. I am also dying to become a mom and to feel THAT family life sooner than later. I'm glad you are open and honest about this topic and I don't feel so alone/ashamed after hearing it from somebody relatable and admirable. So thank you for this!!! :) I'm sorry for your heart break but I am wishing you all the best in finding a new man with similar interests and fulfill your mom/family goals! Until then, I hope you are surrounded by constant love and support from your friends and family! I hope you don't let the rude comments ruin your day. Some people like to rain on other people's parade. It's sad some people can't just appreciate a nice update video without attacking you and accusing financial burden... You don't owe anybody an explanation, just do you and whatever makes you happy. P.S. Please show us Teddy in your next video! I hope he will still be "thriving & surviving" in the next update!

  • @td.i4632
    @td.i4632 5 років тому +31

    So weird I'm an OG subscriber for maybe 10 years and randomly saw this video. When Blair started on UA-cam she was part of the OG youtube elite like Panacea81, Leesha, lolipop26 etc back when this industry was pure and real si thus is nostalgia. I miss those youtube days.

  • @Sydneyeden17
    @Sydneyeden17 5 років тому +36

    Jonas brothers are back, Fowler sisters are back!!!👯‍♀️🥰💕

  • @animallover4ever100
    @animallover4ever100 5 років тому +20

    i'd bet on it that blair is gonna start a whole revolution of adult youtubers going back to college

  • @it_sbatman_4047
    @it_sbatman_4047 5 років тому +25

    You deserve someone who talks about you the way you talk about Teddy

  • @JOJOMARIENO
    @JOJOMARIENO 5 років тому +18

    I really miss the old youtube I'm SO nostalgic for the Tag videos, the collection videos, the unpolished late 2000's vibe. I think the world and youtube within has changed really quickly away from all the people I watched, it's so fascinating that there is such a theme of you tubers from your generation and popularity who are like navigating the youtube space in 2019. I'm back watching, good luck with university xx

  • @DrAdnan
    @DrAdnan 5 років тому +24

    The nice thing about going to college after you’re financially stable is that you can cut down your stress and focus on having a rich educational experience. Best of luck!

  • @mollyj1772
    @mollyj1772 5 років тому +15

    I feel like you are rare, we see now a lot of UA-camrs and instagramers who never grow up, never wanna leave move up or mature because of money. They are past 25, adults, and they still do and in the mentality of what they did at 16-17...just for money. You are honest, you are mature, you acknowledge that this virtual world and living in LA is not a real life to live forever. I really admire you for this and for being honest and not being afraid to say you know what, I am mature now and I need to start a new chapter.

  • @rosarybennett
    @rosarybennett 5 років тому +9

    How you describe your feelings is the most articulate explanation of what depression feels like for a lot of people. What you're feeling, "waiting for your life to start" sort of equates to a quarter life crisis. Its normal. Reevaluating what your needs really are and what you find fulfilling helps but it's a struggle getting there. Good luck on this chapter in your life and thank you for putting into words what so many people feel.

  • @teilers84
    @teilers84 5 років тому +11

    Maybe Teddy is hanging on because he knows you need him right now. I really feel like animals have that special sense about them they can tell when their humans are unhappy 💚

  • @alexaf.3158
    @alexaf.3158 5 років тому +87

    The Jonas Brothers is back, Blair is back...? What year is it again, 2019 or 2009? Lol

    • @love_nyc_
      @love_nyc_ 5 років тому

      Alexa F. Love this comment 😂😂😂😂😂

    • @bingaling5
      @bingaling5 5 років тому

      Prob best comment I’ve ever seen

    • @SarahRamsingh
      @SarahRamsingh 5 років тому

      For real! I'm so glad their both back. And I'm glad you didnt edit out the part where you said you were just waiting to get married and start a family. But every woman needs a career. You have to have a way to support yourself. You would make a great pediatric RN. People value you more when they know you can stand on your own and walk out that door.

  • @ammelinecool
    @ammelinecool 5 років тому +21

    Blair I’ve subbed since 2009 but I haven’t been watching your videos since around 2013... and here I am in 2019, falling in love with you again. This is the most real, heartfelt and emotional video that I’ve seen from you. Really hope good things will happen for you.

  • @bethanyyoung4618
    @bethanyyoung4618 5 років тому +15

    I think this might be the most important video you’ve made. You’ve touched on so many issues that a young woman goes through on her journey- waiting on a relationship milestone to be happy, facing depression, career decisions. I know so many of us can relate to the emotional up and downs you’ve described in this video. Cheers to you on taking this brave step and wishing you all the success and happiness!

  • @heidiipaige
    @heidiipaige 5 років тому +10

    Girl, it’s not the channel that I subscribed to, it was YOU. You’ve always proven to be such a strong person regardless of what this world throws at you and it’s so inspiring watching you learn and grow. You’re going to do great things in this world Blair Fowler and I, along with many of your other supporters, are here cheering you on and wishing you so much luck on this new journey. You’ve got this!

  • @kris1249
    @kris1249 5 років тому +11

    Idk why, I can see you as a nurse. You should look into those kind of classes. Love you, girl! Good luck on this journey ☺️.

  • @MoniqueMarie10
    @MoniqueMarie10 5 років тому +22

    girl, you don't need a man to make you happy.

  • @kaarinatowey5467
    @kaarinatowey5467 5 років тому +16

    Blair, I went back to school at 26 right after my boyfriend of 4 years decided to end his life. I feel the same way, I thought the babies, the wedding and house were right around the corner and when this happened it brought my whole life to a halt. Fast forward 3 years, I'm about to graduate, I met a man and we got married in November! I couldn't imagine any of this 3 years ago to be quite honest. Stay strong!

  • @smellthelemons
    @smellthelemons 5 років тому +9

    I completely understand the sentiment of "I'm waiting for my life to start." The one thing I've wanted most in life is to be a mom. The second was to be a doctor. Well, I ended up changing my mind around the age of 20 to become a physician assistant instead (less schooling, still a medical provider, not stuck in a speciality that would require another residency) anyways...6 years later, I'm graduated from grad school and in my first job in Orthopedics and I still feel like my life isn't complete. That desire to be a mom is always nagging me in the back of my mind. I often feel inadequate, even though I've accomplished how much in my life.

  • @SweetCarolineeeee
    @SweetCarolineeeee 5 років тому +18

    This is the most mature video I’ve seen on UA-cam in a long time. Good for you for not giving in to the new culture here. Best of luck in school!!

  • @saffiresky5222
    @saffiresky5222 5 років тому +21

    I can tell a big difference in this video versus your other videos. You have definitely matured a lot and you sound very mature! I can see your sense of humor and authenticity shining through in this video. We are rooting for you in your next life chapter!

  • @EllyDonado
    @EllyDonado 5 років тому +16

    “By bigger I mean BIGGERRRR” haha
    You are such an inspiration, you are taking your life and molding it to what you need it to be instead of just sitting there waiting for something to happen. So excited to be here and watch your journey ❤️

  • @laciefukah775
    @laciefukah775 5 років тому +9

    Blair, this is the most honest video you have made, ever. You do not sound ungrateful or entitled, not in this video at all. I feel like this year really made you grow up. The quarter life crisis is a real thing, and I think college, even if it's a few classes or an associate's degree will indeed enrich you in many ways. By the way, whatever you chose to do: 1) don't rely on relationships for your happiness 2) whatever you do, don't wait for it to be perfect, just be consistent and stick to it. By just doing, not overthinking, just doing, you will surely find your path. Good luck xx

  • @alexiagavita350
    @alexiagavita350 5 років тому +14

    I think it's really interesting that you posted this video. As someone who has seen you since the very beginning of your youtube career and knowing how people looked up to you for having it all figured out, it's kind of incredible that all these years down the line you're sitting down and admitting that you don't have it all figured out and doing something about it at your age like going back to school is a really important thing.

  • @Jennayyy41
    @Jennayyy41 4 роки тому +22

    That idea of you waiting for your life to begin with the person you’re meant to be with is EXACTLY how I feel. I 100% understand what you meant it’s such a weird thing

  • @ArmyGF88
    @ArmyGF88 5 років тому +11

    This was REALLY relatable - I had a similar epiphany around 6 years ago at 25. I have to say, once you stop living for that next big moment (as you stated) and find your purpose/passion/just live life FOR YOURSELF on your OWN terms, things are such more fulfilling. It's quite liberating, actually. I wish you all the best!!

  • @louloulunsford1017
    @louloulunsford1017 5 років тому +10

    This is like an old school Blair video! In Elle’s room with her shouting side comments! Love it lol. Go out there and find your passion girl! Clearly, I’ve been watching from the beginning and you deserve to find that success and happiness again! 💗💗💗

  • @Penny_Royalty
    @Penny_Royalty 5 років тому +15

    Girl that’s amazing you’re going to school. This is a great decision. I went to college out of high school then stopped after a year then went back at age 24 and finished at 26 almost 27 and I was 8 months pregnant at graduation! Long story short I wanted to keep pushing myself so I went back again at age 30 for a masters and again at 33 for a PhD and now I’m graduating for the final time at age 37 with 2 kids. Point is that There are no rules and I think it’s smart and brave that you’re doing this! You’re going to feel a tremendous amount of pride and confidence when you realize what you’re capable of. No one will blink twice at your age, nor will they even know and who cares anyways. This is your life and you’re in the drivers seat! No one will ever be able to take away your education. Best of luck!

  • @Freeursoul420
    @Freeursoul420 5 років тому +10

    What you said about waiting for your life to start. Is SO RELATABLE! your not alone!

  • @hxiong09
    @hxiong09 5 років тому +16

    You’re still young. I didn’t have my 1st child until 34 yrs old and just recently had my 2nd child at 37yrs old. You will find your person and still have your baby. Good luck!

  • @nataliegiles8623
    @nataliegiles8623 5 років тому +17

    Blair, this is the most incredible video you have ever produced. Rest assured that we all go through these really tough years, especially in our twenties - I went through a similar thing a couple of years ago and thought it would never end. Your life will turn into something beautiful even if it’s not the picture you have in your mind.

  • @FavouriteDarkness
    @FavouriteDarkness 5 років тому +12

    Please don't drop out of college if you meet a guy... You never know what the future holds.

  • @indianband2012
    @indianband2012 5 років тому +14

    "Saying I can't be sad because someone else has it worse is like saying I can't be happy because someone else has it better."

  • @WSJade
    @WSJade 4 роки тому +5

    Thank you so much for sharing. I relate SOOO HARD to everything you're saying-maybe not the exact circumstances, but the exact feeling of depression and lack of purpose/passion-down to the fear of dying young, despite or due to having lived a privileged life. It's especially hard when you, likely myself, have always been passionate/ambitious/artistic think-outside-the-box type person, and suddenly that part of you is just...gone (during depression). Thank you so much for opening up about your story; it takes courage and this video really shows your growth since your teenage makeup days (yep long-time subscriber here). I honestly think it's a quarter-life crisis. I'm a couple years older than you and have my university degree but have also decided to return to grad school this year (at a time where most my friends are graduating/have graduated with phd/jd/md's already). So I feel you as well about starting late due to having had a nonconventional career so far (and the not wanting to explain what you do on a first date, ugh, lol), as well as feeling perhaps some of my dreams/priorities were misplaced throughout my teens and early twenties. Anyhow I hope school and life is going well for you!

  • @butterpecanrican_
    @butterpecanrican_ 5 років тому +19

    This is so refreshing. You NEVER hear a Youtubber, who's had major success on the platform, talk about feeling like this. You may have inadvertently started a trend lol.
    I'm excited to see this new chapter in your life. For some reason, I can picture you as a lawyer lol. Did you mention what your major is?

  • @leahpintol
    @leahpintol 5 років тому +8

    Depression isn't about how hard you have it. It's about how your brain and your body are able to process the things going on around you. I have a family member who was notorious for saying things like, "people are dying of starvation, how are you depressed?!" That's just not how it works. Other people's struggles do not negate yours. The best thing you can do for yourself is acknowledge how you're feeling and get help. I'm so proud of you and anyone else that finds the strength to push through and get help! ❤❤

  • @AlyssaPookie
    @AlyssaPookie 5 років тому +6

    This is ridiculously relatable to me !! The mom thing, the breakup, the career sort of ending/ changing and not knowing what to do ... maybe I should take some classes. Thank you for sharing

  • @greenlimabean
    @greenlimabean 5 років тому +40

    I met my sweetheart at 34. Kids at 36 and 38. Age shmage.

    • @h3artands0uLL
      @h3artands0uLL 3 роки тому

      If only there wasn’t the added risk of developmental delays in children when we have kids after 35:/. I feel like I’d wait til 45 if there was no added risk

  • @cheezeandbunnies
    @cheezeandbunnies 5 років тому +13

    This is one of the most authentic and genuine videos on UA-cam and I really appreciate you being so candid and opening up for everyone to see. This is inspiring and sending nothing but positivity on your new journey.

  • @missEllenSaturnino
    @missEllenSaturnino 5 років тому +10

    I think we've been conditioned to think that by mid to late 20s we got everything in our lives together, a stable career, planning a wedding, kids etc. I feel like I grew up watching you and Elle. Truth is, we never really stop growing up, changing and making goals. I've been there too asking myself "now what?". But Blair, one thing i learned from watching you for yeaaaaars, is that you have always been strong and determined regardless of what life throws at you. So Get it girl! I too went back for a second course in college at 26, (had to stop coz of health issues) But i loved it! and again its okay that my plans changed too. so enjoy the present & live in the moment. Let the future & the universe surprise you. cheers to a new chapter

  • @ilovemj27
    @ilovemj27 5 років тому +10

    I enrolled in college at 26 too, and im on my last year. I graduate this yr! Its totally okay!! Ive been watching you for 10 yrs, you saying going to college at 26 makes me feel better about myself. I actually had kids before going back to college, i feel like i did everything backards, and always felt bad about my life. So you, waiting on kids and waiting for that special person is admirable. I think you going to college is a good choice, get your mind off of things, you could discover other passions, pick up other hobbies, meet new people, new friends. Ive met awesome ppl and you get involved with other communities withing your new career, i think it a great idea!
    I totallly understand you feeling lost. I think what you can do right now is find peace within yourself, in your mind and heart.
    You got this.
    Take your time, youre young and beautifull.
    Everything happens in divine timing xo :)

  • @anikajohnson4898
    @anikajohnson4898 5 років тому +12

    Wow girl you did an amazing job explaining what you went through with that breakup. I can so relate so it was almost therapeutic hearing it from your experience. Thank you for sharing such a tough thing.. it really does help with my own struggle after a break up knowing you’re not alone and you can get through it. God bless!

  • @lindsay3793
    @lindsay3793 5 років тому +14

    Wow, this makes you come across really... relatable. If I had accomplished so much early in my life, I'd probably be experiencing all of the same insecurities. You came from a high level of privilege and success at an early age, so unless that level of success is maintained or surpassed as you move forward in life, disappointment is inevitable. Like a reality check (not to sound rude, we all have reality checks, right). I don't want you to get your hopes up and think that college is the end-all-be-all answer to unlocking a magical future... it could be good for your worldview and gaining skills, but you have a solid resume already that probably surpasses the face-value of a degree. College is certainly a good path to take to occupy and challenge yourself, to get yourself on track if you are going through depression and need a sense of direction. It would be good for you. Anyway, I appreciate this video, it makes you seem VERY normal and relatable. Good luck!!!

  • @marianabarbosa9157
    @marianabarbosa9157 5 років тому +14

    Blair, this is the first time in YEARS that you’ve really shown us you. I’ve missed you. Thank you. We HAVE all grown up together. We love you. I love you. You’ve got this. 😘

  • @caitlindavenport2703
    @caitlindavenport2703 5 років тому +15

    You can totally open up your channel to a larger audience, and a younger audience! Your style and organization will be so helpful for college students, even if you're older than them (actually especially because you're older than them). Going to college will open up opportunities for your "real" life, but also for your channel. I can't wait for your new chapter!!!!

  • @kiwicatnip
    @kiwicatnip 3 роки тому +9

    This is one of the most real and open videos I have seen you post in such a long time. I have been a fan of yours for years and years but stopped watching after a while because it didn’t feel authentic. Thank you for being real with us. And also thank you for being real with yourself. Sometimes life has a way of catching us off guard. I think once you find your footing and are settled into your new life changes you will discover that it is so much better than what you could have ever imagined your old plans to be like. In situations like this people often discover later on that the major changes that took place were actually a blessing in disguise.
    I’m sorry you’ve been through a hard time, but I’m also excited for you and your new adventures.❤️
    Don’t ever think it’s too late to change things. The mindframe that there is a time limit to our best years only becomes true when you accept it to be true. You are far too vibrant to subscribe to such a limiting mindset.❤️

  • @lucyloo6591
    @lucyloo6591 5 років тому +8

    When I found you, I was 14, in 2009. I was very depressed because of very traumatic family issues going on that still affect me. The way I would cope with it was by rearranging my small bedroom at super late hours because I had bad insomnia. I would look up bedroom tours at 3 AM on school nights from girls who were around my age and your 2009 bedroom tour was the first one I ever watched.
    Being depressed you don’t always have the desire or energy to clean or take care of yourself, at least that’s how I get. It was incredibly hard to see the point in any of it. Your super early room tours helped me tremendously giving me ideas, pulling me out of negative thoughts with your bubbly personality. I just now today came back to find your channel/see how you’re doing 10 years later, and you’re once again motivating me in a much different way. I ended up dropping out of highsxhool in 2010 and had not been back to school since then. I get down thinking I’m 24 and haven’t done one college course I’m pathetic. But you’re proving those negative thoughts of mine wrong. showing me that there are other people of all ages, successful or not, that still haven’t done college. You and I are completely different people, I’m not girly or feminine in the slightest, but somehow from a distance you’ve taught me a lot about how strong I really am. I’m not even a fan of yours or anything like that to be completely honest, you’ve just helped, and that is extremely powerful. I wish nothing but the best for you on your new journey through life, you deserve everything good that comes to you

  • @TOMANDJERRYRAN2GETHE
    @TOMANDJERRYRAN2GETHE 5 років тому +14

    Presenting your authentic self to the internet isn't easy, but I love that you have done it.

  • @martham7356
    @martham7356 5 років тому +21

    I’m 29. I started watching 10 yrs ago. I relate to this on a crazy level. Rooting for you♥️

  • @Sophie6396
    @Sophie6396 5 років тому +1

    Blair, I'm so excited for you! I have also followed you for a long time and I'm excited you'll take us with you on this new chapter. Going to school changed my life once I found the university I wanted to go to.. I went there with some credits from another college in a field I ended up not liking, not knowing what I was going to do there.. and I found my passion where I never thought it would be. From social sciences and arts to computer science, neuroscience and statistics! I learned so much about myself, what I am capable of and how big the world really is, far beyond the personal stuff. My depression (and anxiety!) has been on and off, and sometimes pressure is hard to deal with. However, going to school and dedicating myself to learning more about things that fascinate me endlessly has always kept me out of 'the bad place', and has also helped me gain perspective in my personal life. I hope you'll experience this too, and realize that YOU will make YOU happy, and the rest will truly follow from there on!

  • @brittanycavanaugh450
    @brittanycavanaugh450 5 років тому +10

    Anyone else agree Shane's video with Blair started his incredible 'series' videos? The original muse 🙌💗

  • @roadsideroadside
    @roadsideroadside 5 років тому +9

    Yey for taking us along! Thank you so much for your honesty. I'm 32, on my second year of university. I believe we are all being called to find our truest deepest truth and center. I see this in you as well. You are so strong, so blessed with light, it is lovely! I hope you find a pace and a gentle way with yourself, not being too hard on yourself for the unclarity. We shift and change and grow all the time and having gone through many stints of depression, anxiety and eating disorders myself, I have found that the only thing we really can do, is be present in this very moment. That is really all we can do to live our best life. Be here now. It´s okay to be confused. It´s okay to not know what you want. Our culture is so obsessed with being productive, always moving forward, always having a clear status. That is not sustainable. You are enough just as you are. I have been following along since the beginning and am so happy to hear from you again. I am so excited for your new situation and would love to see more! Take care, best of luck, thanks you so much for sharing!

  • @carmenaphotography
    @carmenaphotography 4 роки тому +3

    I am so excited for you!! I’m going to be 25 and transferring to college this fall and it’s so encouraging to see someone so successful like yourself going to college around my age as well! I CANNOT wait to hear more 😊❤️

  • @charliesangel2186
    @charliesangel2186 5 років тому +12

    I'm graduating in May, at the age of 42, with a double major. It's never too late!

  • @sherryfang4320
    @sherryfang4320 5 років тому +14

    I am 36 and I was just like you said, always wanted to be a mom ever since I was a little girl. I had a master degree from a very good school but I thought being a staying home mom was my ultimate career. At the age of 28, I met a man who I thought could be a father of my child and a person I spend the rest of my life with. 7 years later, I found out it was not the life I wanted at all, him and I had no commonalities and no passion for each other. I was too waiting for my life to start when I got married. Now, I have a girl who is 5 and I am going through a divorce. However, in a very weird way, I feel like this is the first time I am actually living my life and I am in control of my life. Life is funny but sometimes you need stumble a little to find what you actually want.

    • @ASightToSee_
      @ASightToSee_ 5 років тому

      They call that the 7 year itch!

  • @myhearts2you
    @myhearts2you 5 років тому +14

    “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11
    I know life didn’t work out the way you had envisioned, but it’s always encouraging for me to know that God has a plan that is bigger than ours. While we don’t know what the future holds, He does! He has a great purpose for your life and I’m excited to see where He takes you after college!

  • @RachelHeartsBenefit
    @RachelHeartsBenefit 5 років тому +4

    I am so proud of you, all your hard work over the years, and your courage in coming out to say what wasn't obvious or apparent to the rest of us on the other side of the screen. I haven't been with you for 10 years, but it has definitely been a long time! Your and Elle's videos brought me so much joy since around 2011/2012 and was especially helpful for me through 2014/2015. Those years of my life I was in high school/early college and your UA-cam channels along with a few others were what I looked forward to the most after a long day at school and wanting to "escape from the world." From classic "What's in My Bag" and "Room Tour" videos or makeup tutorials to GlitzyGlam to Skylark to your books I was so happy to follow you two through all your successes. I even met you and Elle once at Barnes & Noble while you were on book tour! I'm happy to follow you through all the big and exciting changes in your life and in Elle's life and I'm glad you could tell your subscribers about the difficulties and feel comfortable in being transparent when people haven't always been kind. I have to admit that I hadn't followed a lot of yours and Elle's recent videos lately in the past 2-3 years but whenever I do find a new video it brings me so much joy to see that your personalities are still the same! UA-cam has changed a lot in the past 10 years but it is still comforting to know the original UA-camrs I looked up to still want to make videos for themselves because they enjoy making videos and feel less and less like it has to be a job. I never thought you were a sell-out for going after sponsorships or business strategies because that's what UA-cam has really become recently and it's understandable in your position. But I can understand that it is draining to always please people and try to say the right thing all the time. Keep being the positive, spunky, YOU that made me turn to UA-cam in the first place (: Congrats on college and best wishes. Much love! xoxoxo

  • @skybee001
    @skybee001 5 років тому +10

    I feel like this is going to be huge phenomena in early UA-cam stars (pretty sure it's happening with a lot of people that used to be big on UA-cam at the moment, either their channel is dying or they aren't that relevant anymore and they have pretty much "made it" in the way of child stars... they've been successful, made a bunch of money and/or fame and now everyone is asking "what's next?!" They've achieved all they can achieve, but they're still young, too young to retire and are seeking their "true purpose" in life... I've seen a lot of people turn towards further education or spiritual guidance, and that's a good thing. I think it would be really sad if people in this situation were not to acknowledge that they need something more in life. Still doing UA-cam even though it no longer fulfills them spiritually or mentally would be hella depressing. Good on you for actively seeking that something that is missing in your life💕 I bet you find your purpose when you are happy and doing "you" in your new city. When you are happy and fulfilled and loving yourself and you new life, that is when things will fall into place for you.

  • @brittanilouisetaylor
    @brittanilouisetaylor 5 років тому +8

    Awww pretty girl, I love this video! Excited for the next chapters in your near future! You are such a genuine, sweet human. It takes a lot of bravery to be this open, wishing you all the best! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @juicystar07
      @juicystar07  5 років тому +3

      Brittani Louise Taylor thank you, love! and thank you for reaching out a while ago on one of my toughest days. I didn’t tell you how much it meant to me in the moment, but it did and I needed it. Love you always.

  • @organizedirma
    @organizedirma 5 років тому +9

    I'm 32, married 8 years and counting, 3 kids. My brother passed away 5 years ago and it completely broke me. We live with my parents, I have no job, and I have no idea what my future holds. I feel like I'm nothing. I have to start over at some point, but I haven't healed since that happened. Many hugs and wishes to you.

    • @TheLilaSky
      @TheLilaSky 5 років тому +1

      Oh my darling Irma. You are something. You are a wonderful mother and a daughter. So terribly sorry for your tragic loss. I can only imagine the depth of your sorrow. I'd feel like a half a person. Dont be sad. He wouldn't want that 💗 grief is so hard... just keep swimming 🐠

  • @Macklemerry
    @Macklemerry 5 років тому +1

    Thanks for sharing - excited to see how things go for you! This phase in your life is very relatable for a lot of the people who have been following you for a while (like I'm 25, about to finish grad school, also contemplating what my life will be/look like) so any videos related to that I'd definitely be excited to watch. ALSO downsizing is super therapeutic and a great way to start this journey - I definitely felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders when I took only what fit in my car to move across the country. Good luck at school!!

  • @spj4you
    @spj4you 3 роки тому +12

    At 26 is the first time I really experienced depression as well. After a breakup. I had to go get lost for a while before things also started to look up when I went back to school, found love again, and realized how strong I am. I’ve carried those two years (during which time my dog died too). Fast forward and even though that love didn’t last, it brought me back. Even though it took 5 years, I now have a new puppy to love. Now I have a real love that feels like the fit I needed. I don’t think you’re waiting for your life to start if you also feel like you’ve already lived a full life. It just seems like you’re aware enough to know that the purest happiest will come with having your family. Good luck, Blair! I hope you come back with an update from time to time. :) (p.s. you were the only beauty blogger I watched, haha)

  • @nami1070
    @nami1070 5 років тому +9

    THIS is the channel we all subscribed to!! before u were a fulltime youtuber in la. im so so happy for you and cant wait to see you grow!!!

  • @rose281396
    @rose281396 5 років тому +22

    I agree you did peak, but it is because you didn’t really have any true goals, instead you just rode the UA-cam wave. As you aged you realized that is not really a life. I think college will be great for you and a whole new chapter in your life and experiences!!!

  • @Turdgurgle
    @Turdgurgle 5 років тому +3

    Blair I am so excited for you! I went to college right out of high school, but the school I went to had a lot of older students, from mid twenties like you to all the way into their seventies. You are in a much better position mentally to take advantage of everything that college has to offer. There are a lot of things I wish I had paid attention to, mostly access to expensive facilities and equipment that I can't access now, subscriptions to scholarly databases or online courses like lynda.com, and human connections with professors and other people in my field and opportunities to do internships at really amazing places. TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE AND GOOD LUCK!
    (On another note, I grew up in LA but moved to a small city out of state a few years ago...it's amazing. LA can be really draining, financially and emotionally.)

  • @zara9639
    @zara9639 3 роки тому +6

    Thank you for this video and opening up. I’m going through something similar. People think break ups are easy but as much as I wish you didn’t go through this depression, it’s shown me that someone on the planet is going through the same thing as me. Thank you Blair, hope you’re doing well now, maybe there’s hope for me too.

  • @Ali-xj8lf
    @Ali-xj8lf 5 років тому +9

    Omg Blair ‘mature’ student content would be amazing so original and so helpful for us fellow university students in our 20s ❤️

    • @Ali-xj8lf
      @Ali-xj8lf 5 років тому +1

      It’s so easy to feel alone in your experience of being a tad older than the 17yr olds but not ancient like the 50yr olds so these vids could be soooooo welcome and important

  • @MrClarkin14
    @MrClarkin14 5 років тому +9

    Seriously, if I could make a video about my life... this would be it. Depression, break up, waiting for your life to start... you’re not alone beautiful girl! You’re living your best and greatest life and you’re doing a great job❤️

  • @irenevalbuena6417
    @irenevalbuena6417 5 років тому +7

    I think you’ll find that college is very interesting and may open many doors regarding passion :) good luck! And I’m really excited about your new chapter and sending you love!

  • @briellestout7246
    @briellestout7246 5 років тому +6

    Oh Blair, I have been watching you since your lime green room back in Tennessee. It is such a full circle moment for me listening to your honesty and your story. It is SO relatable and I applaud you for your transparency. I grew up in Nashville, went to college in Alabama, and moved back to Nashville last year. It is such a special place. I hope you love it as much as I do. It is such a great place for growth, experience, true and meaningful people, and of course, music. I went to college and I still struggle with what I am doing with my life now. I know that it will all work out in the end. For you too! Best of luck with this new chapter. I am so excited to start watching your videos again. It really does feel like I grew up with you. xo

  • @sydneyyoung3
    @sydneyyoung3 5 років тому +10

    I think it would be very cool if you did a monthly update. About how college is, how Nashville is, how your life is going.

  • @TherealBenedetti
    @TherealBenedetti 5 років тому +9

    I'm proud of you Blair. As a long time subscriber, I'm just proud of you, for being real and open.. For showing the not so pretty side of life... When you're least expecting it, he's gonna come in your life and you not gonna imagine life without him.. But being good with yourself first is most important! You can't pour from an empty cup. Take care of your dreams

  • @serenasolis3979
    @serenasolis3979 5 років тому +4

    I LOVE how close you are with your sister!! Also congratulations on getting into college!! I am soo happy for you!!
    I’ve been here since 2012 and don’t plan and leaving anytime soon. You’re amazing, Blair!

  • @jennellbethea7440
    @jennellbethea7440 5 років тому +10

    I've been a subscriber since the days of your pink bedroom at your parent's house... This has to be the realist video I have ever seen you make. Good for you and I support you!
    YOU GOT THIS GIRL!!!!!

  • @AnitaSamantha
    @AnitaSamantha 5 років тому +11

    LOVE how honest you were in this video. Meant everything and I have so much respect for you. Thank you for sharing💛