Irreverent Girl - weevildoing ft. ANRI
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- Опубліковано 16 тра 2022
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the second song in the series; i put a lot of effort into this one in all aspects, and i hope it shows...
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This song is kinda funny.
currently doing the boogie woogie to it
@@i_eat_toothbrushes same, i eat toothbrushes
i love this comment so much
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i love how the monotone delivery of the chorus sounds like an actual prayer that Irreverent girl's memorized through what was probably an infinite amount of sessions and begging
sort of like the stupid "pray the lord my soul to keep" prayer that children are taught
@@avaleigh._.ishereit reminds me of the "our father" i was thought as a toddler that i was forced to pray at least 5 times per day at school
"What did an 8 year old have to ask forgiveness for?" as a line hits different. I absolute love the lyrics, and ey! My girl Anri!
Reminds me of one time when I was in kindergarden and I just had a spit seconds thought that maybe god wasn't real. I then panicked because I thought god could hear my thoughts and was gonna punish me for it. Why should a 5-year-old have to deal with that kind of anxiety?
i had quite a bit to say in confession that i never had the guts to when i was 8. :(
First, the song is really good. The first scene that the comic JtHM appears in is showing the "A survey from Hell" Scene, and starting with the part were the man asks Johnny about his house number being 777. I don't know if it was intentional but the comic being in this song about religion is something else. Aside from that, it is quite a great song!
i hope you dont mind me pinning this comment, im just so glad someone noticed!!! while some of the details in the video aren't quite as planned, i did put a lot of thought into much of it, and including JTHM was something i was deliberate about. it would be considered a very "secular" book (what with all the violence and mature content) and the ways it references religion are something i found very funny. i first read the book when i wasn't entirely aware of all my religious trauma, and it was very freeing finding a piece of media that both poked fun at ORGANIZED religion and respected those who are religious. (for those who haven't read it, one of the main character's victims is a theist man who reasons with him, and despite not being able to escape his death, dies at peace because of his faith. there's so much more i wish i could delve into here.) the ways it talks about trauma in general is very cool, i think. sometimes when i'm having flashbacks, i remember a line from the book, and it helps me a bit; "understand that it's just a person, not worth devoting any nightmares to." all in all, a very wonderful book.
@@WeevilDoing I don’t mind at all! Again, I think it was perfect the way you incorporated the book into the video. There’s so much I could talk about when it comes to JtHM, but I’ll spare you all that lol. All in all, it was just really good!
"If jesus loves me now, why do I feel so upset?" that line hit home.
fuck bro this sounds SO good...love the vocals, distortion, and percussion especially...as someone whose struggled with religious trauma the lyrics are Wow. hit hard, but also just really well written. not to mention the visuals bang!!!!
Not wanting to sound insensitive or bring up any awful memories (and I apologize if I do) but... What would be religious trauma? I'm not really sure
@@ameladaptivedaydreamer949 it's different for everybody but i think that i came to know i had religious trauma when i realized my relationship with religion was entirely built on fear. it was hard for me to say that i felt genuine love from the religion i was taught, and it scrutinized every aspect of myself and who i interacted with. seeing a religious pamphlet or a bible verse or even hearing christian music could cause me to have an anxiety attack or tear up. like i said, it is different for everyone and the tactics used on each person and how they experience religion will vary, but the bottom line is that you should find comfort and guidance in religion, not fear and shame. i really cant sum it up perfectly, but i suggest you watch TheraminTrees videos on the subject. it goes a lot into how religion harms people and is used in an abusive manner
Honestly it was really fun pausing to see the secret messages in the last part! Here's all i got :
"SAVE YOURSELF x4 PLEASE SAVE"
"Be your own god, you are free"
i like the contrast in the video between the manga and the religious text, specifically because of the fact that manga is read in the opposite direction to english books. i doubt this detail was intentional (since it's just an inherent property of manga) but because the pages are being turned "backwards" it creates a cool visual metaphor for how predatory religious groups will view art/free thinking/foreign ideas as "backwards"/sinful. aside from the page turning thing, the contrast illustrates the conflict of a child who wants to consume the medias they enjoy while also trying to abide by their community's expectations- often being forced to consume art in secret (if at all) - beautifully.
side note- the fact that the song has a (somewhat?) optimistic ending made me really happy. the "let the screen fade to black / i am never looking back" bit communicates irreverent girl finding closure in her new life after escaping in such a sweet way, i'm so glad you included not just the despair of her trauma but the hope of recovery and new beginnings. great work as always :)))
ALSO the breathy way you tuned anri is PERFECT for this song. ive adored her voice for a while now and it just fits so welll ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh she sounds monotone when it really counts and yet so expressive/panicked at the same time i'm going to cry/pos
@@hurricanemeem any recs for songs using Anri? First time hearing this voicebank
@@ianflowforever i like these two a lot ! they're from fairly small producers but i think they're lovely ua-cam.com/video/yGmSw0ESy9E/v-deo.html ua-cam.com/video/wKBNphFvyFg/v-deo.html
@@ianflowforever I know I’m late ashes by friendxp and physical/digital heart by vane Lily are my top two
also apparently its against mormonism to consume anime or manga.
"I wanna be frustrated, but i know they're victims too." having parents with lots of generational trauma be like- ( not but fr that lyric hit me like a fucking bus, i absolutely love your music and it always provides me a safe space)
no real, same.
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oof...yeah. i wanna hate them, but theyre just doing what they were taught
@@IHAVENOGENDERONLYRAGE exactly, love your username btw
I just noticed in 0:43 , someone was singing "If I could I surely would, stand on the rock where Moses stood. If I could I surely would, stand on the rock where Moses stood."
I wish i could write lyrics like you, your lyricism is so clever and catchy my goodness
thank you so much, im honored!!! i think it just takes time and practice, and exposure to other writing styles... i still dont think my lyrics are particularly great, but ive been writing poetry and lyrics since i was very young, and began writing on my phone (where i can easily access my poems and look back at them) in 2015, which has been very helpful. the more you write, the more the distance grows between your new writing and the old "bad" poetry, (both in a physical and mental sense,) and whenever you're able to quantify the past like that, it makes it much more encouraging to write, i think... ^^
This is literally the Mormon experience 🦐
WAIT IT IS SPECIFICALLY ABOUT MORMONISM HOLY SHIT
Also, I find the lines about being stupid and believing someone interesting because it can go either way. Inside the church, listening to outside influences is seen as weak, while a lot of ex Mormons can be discouraging and pretty mean sometimes to people who are still stuck on the church. Interesting.
@@kiteflight haha, i was curious if i would find any other ex-mormons when this premiered!! i wanted to keep the lyrics at least somewhat vague so anyone with religious trauma could relate in some capacity, but yes, this was inspired by my experience growing up mormon for some years! and i love how you interpreted that line; i wrote it thinking about how many people see cults/abusive organized religious groups and call them "stupid" or find it hard to believe that anyone would "fall for them" (even though it's a lot more complicated than that), but i didn't even think about how it could go the other way around!! woah!!
@@WeevilDoing yeah, things can get pretty complicated and rough with this stuff but I'm glad to see it presented in such a nuanced and honest way! Good job with this one, I'm definitely keeping tabs on this project! 🦐🦐
I don't (think) I have any religious trauma- but this still fits a lot of what I feel. I still would consider myself to be a relatively religious person, but the people definitely ruin it. I'll "worship" how I want. I am not a villain for wearing guy's clothes, being a guy, liking other guys. It's not a bad thing that I refer to "the trinity" and talk to them in different ways, in a friendly way instead of oh mmm yes prim and proper; that's fkn weird. Don't vilify my friends and I for normal things. If we aren't supposed to be this way, then why did God create us like that?? Literally shut up Susan
Exactly, a lot of religious people need to update themselves. Like the people that you're describing that say these kinds of things are just a bunch of asshole that use Jesus as a shield for their twisted bullshit.
"Because Jesus said you shouldn't" shut the fuck up, you are just trying to put your fucked up morals on others and just using Jesus as a excuse. At least have the balls to own up to your shit -_-".
I'm glad you are able to just follow the path you want however you want, and never let others dictate what you should or shouldn't do because people like those just want to hold you down, so don't let them and keep shining :3
i like how you put it
@@NebulaBubbles I appreciate it! I feel like I've had a unique experience with religion and the like, if I can connect with anyone about it I'll try. I dunno if what I said clicks with anyone, but if anyone's had a similar experience, I wanna let 'em know they're not the only one. I know it's that way with all experiences but sometimes it's just nice to see proof
Anyways, I hope you've had/ are having a good day! Anyone reading this comment ^^ you're awesome and cool and epic ♡
I just gravitate towards this kind of music not out of trauma or anything, but because (bear with me here) i'm interested in hearing the stories of others. I know it's selfish, but i want a way for my own characters to actually make sense and not be offensive to others with similar experiences as my characters. Thank you for this beautiful song Weevil, i will now go to Wattpad and write some garbage fanfiction lol
i don't think it's selfish at all! i think it's good to hear other's life experiences in general, and if you're going to write about it, it's probably best to listen to the stories of those who have actually experienced it!
Same! Listening to WeevilDoing's songs helped me to understand people's trauma better and the way that they think!
Same!!
it's not selfish at all, it's actually really good to look into people's stories in order to make your characters as accurate and even relatable as possible!
I just think the characters are cute. Also the music itself is pretty cool.
I like how when she’s kinda talking down to religion book is comics/manga and when she’s talking about what a assume to be her perspective when she was going to church the book is about god and stuff like that. I just think it’s a neat detail :]
I love the religious conflict. Really hits home with me personally and a lot of other I know unfortunately TwT
I feel like every part that wasn't the girl praying sounded like a whisper, like when one said "what did an 8 year old have to ask for forgiveness for" or things that challenged religion, yet the praying is louder and open. I don't know if this is intended but if it is it's a good touch!
Well I didn't think I truly had religious trauma, until I listened to this a couple times and got very shaky and uncomfortable, so that's cool, but please don't worry, I'm fine, and I read the warnings myself and ignored it so that's my bad.
Usually I'm good with religious topics, but I think the accuracy of Mormon religion you caught in this was a little closer to comfort than what I usually see, and I loved this actually!
My reaction aside, this was so well done, and I read another comment where you said something about how you wondered if anyone would catch the similarities to Mormon religion, and I definitely did, the line about reactions 'to men carrying trays' I think is what made me realize.
Sorry if this is all over the place, my brain is all over the place rn lol, I've just never happened to see specific media that was so close to the specific trauma of the Mormon church, and its kinda nice to see that others may have had experiences that are Mormons, because wooo they are....mmmm....my 'close' family and I are all Ex-Mormons for a couple years now for context.
I'm aware its vague for others from other religions to hopefully find comfort, and I think it does really well on that front too. This was the first content I've ever seen from you, and really thank you for making something like this, I hope to see other great gems like this as a new subscriber.
I hope whoever reads this has a good day/night wherever you are❤
ik that this song is more likely about Mormonism specifically, but I grew up Catholic w/ a lot of messed up stuff being told to me and the lyrics of this really expressed the feeling i got sitting in church questioning everything but at the same time feeling so guilty for even questioning anything. you really put into words those emotions that i had no idea how to express. thank you for making this
I think this song touches on aspects from many different religions, not just Mormonism. I was raised Jewish, and I still connect to the feelings of trying to hide yourself from god, feeling guilty about questioning anything, being conflicted between pleasing other people and doing what's good for yourself. Also, the song is really good, so anyone can enjoy it regardless of whether the connect to the experiences or not.
While I wouldn't say that I have religious trauma or anything, I still relate to this song a lot. I was (and still am) pretty sick. There's nothing I can do about it. It's just something I'll have to live with. Anyway, I was raised very religiously, so I would pray every night that I would get better. I remember it being really stressful. Like what did I do wrong? Surely there's a reason for all this! It sucked.
Also, on a somewhat unrelated note, I remember being sick in the church's bathroom on more than one occasion, so 1:42 hits especially close to home. Even if that wasn't the intended interpretation lol
"I Pledge Allegiance to the Swag" I really love the Screen Caps in the start of the Songs, I always miss it the first time around but it's such a fun touch! :D
I love this song!
Hope you Have a Nice Day Everyone! :D
Even at work I was spamming tha live chat LOL but this was so freaking awesome. I'm always hyping u up but they aren't empty words.
My birth family was nevah super religious but one of my foster fams was. Super cringe. Not religion, but tha way they used it.
And then literally just being gay and out during school.... Eek. Anyways,
This song takes me to alot of places and reminds me of alot of things, but speaking outside of my mind. Every aspect of it is rlly noice. Cutie patootie art seriously, kILLER LYRICS, a surprise outro section that fit all too well.
Absolutely stunning weevil :) thank you for releasing it on this day.
Also tuning went hard asf too but at this point thats a given 💅
I already have a hunch that this will be my favorite song for a few MONTHSSSS!,! 🦇
im prbly gonna listen to this very often on saturdays & sundays (if not everyday) to cope bc this hits hard fr
i really like this song im exited for the rest of the cast
Damn this hit me in the religious trauma, great song as always
"i wanna be frustrated but i know they're victims too."
I APPRECIATE ALL YOUR HARD WORK AND SONG I LEGIT HAVE THIS STUCK IN MY HEAD ON LOOP. IM NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT IT BECAUSE ITS AMAZING
i’ve never felt more heard.
I’m rewatching this because i found this series a while back and i wanted to listen and OH MY GOODNESS THIS IS SO GOOD ESP WITH HEADPHONES ON
"sleepness sunday morning" is so cool cuz sunday is supposed to be the day of rest and yet christianity-trauma made this person unable to rest during that day :D
BABE WAKE UP NEW SONG JUST DROPPED
THIS IS SO AMAZING!! I LOVE THE VOCALS AND INSTRUMENTALS
THE SYMBOLISM IS AMAZING IN THIS AAAAAAA I LOVE UR MUSIC MAN KEEP IT UP
the lyrics of this rlly hit home like… man idk they rlly speak to me . i hope u put this on spotify soon bc its too good 😭😭
I absolutely love this song✨
this song is full of so many banger lines, goodness
Aww dw girl you're not stupid! Children's brains are wired to essentially be suggesting to whatever adults say. (suggestion being where one's thoughts are altered- controlled. It is partial to hypnosis, where hypnosis is defined by suggestion and trance state)
i adore this project so much,,,,, cant wait to hear more from it!!!
I really love and resonate with this song. I was raised Catholic and still believe in and love God, but I definitely felt like this for a long time, and still struggle a lot. As a gay trans man it's been really hard to come to terms with that while also being told I'm sinful for things I can't control. Even if that isn't the way the song was originally intended, I think it's interesting to see how people with similar religious trauma can end up having such different perspectives on life. Amazing job with this!
Thanks. This really makes me feel understood
Great work; you don't often see Vocaloid PVs with actively filmed segments!
Just in case if you dont know what irreverent means:
Irreverent - showing a lack of respect for things or people that are taken seriously.
I'm not a religious person, but this is exactly how I feel about religion. Specifically Christianity.
“if jesus loves me now then why do i feel so upset” is giving “if he loves me, why do i feel so all alone”
God this is just so good
EDIT: Its only been like 40 min and im already obsessed with this song oh my, this album is just going amazing so far
I felt all the emotions. Man.
anyways, Really great song!
1:18 oh wait! i actually own that hatsune miku manga! how crazy is that?
ozjsisjsuw can i know what's it called or its title please?
unofficial hatsune mix
@@MoonTheWeeaboo thank you! 🙇🏻♀️
I can't stop listening to this and can't wait for more stuff like this:-))
This is pure art !!!!!
GOD I LOVE THIS. I’m so hyped for the full album you have no idea-love your work so much, it’s so awesome
a sleepless sunday morning
is nothing new to me
theres something about that day
that makes my body weak
the itchy tights and dresses
the walls that made you burn
the pain is necessary for a godless child to learn
when i was eight they bathed me
their water made me pure
what did an eight year old have to ask for forgiveness for
the painting made by man
the depicted divine
if my life is spent in worship then is it really mine
how stupid could someone be to believe them
how stupid would you have to be to believe them
i was that stupid
i am the one you demonize
i was the one who suffered and still stupid in your eyes
heavenly father please alter this body
its impure and sinful i dont want it on me
my skin is burning up
temptation is too much
can't seem to keep my legs together
make me blessed make me better
a sleeples saturday night is nothing new to me
because somewhere in my brain i know the next day's coming
a pavlovian response to men carrying trays
the deafening silence as all the kids pretend to pray
they said the man in the sky who's always watching me
with whiter clothes and paler skin than you have ever seen
a man that i have never met and maybe never will
they say that i must beg and weep for his forgiveness still
they put me in their tank of water it was wonderful
one of of the fish that Jesus fed them still inside the bowl
i cried inside the bathroom
my white dress got all wet
if Jesus loves me now then why do i feel so upset
heavenly father please alter this body
its impure and sinful i dont want it on me
my skin is burning up, temptation is too much
can't seem to keep my story straight
the god i love's a man i hate
a building of worship with cameras for safety
a god that will love me will also berate me
even if you don't want to get to know him
we're gonna make sure that you get to know him
even if you don't want to get to know him
we're gonna make sure that you get to know him
heavenly father please alter this body
its impure and sinful i don't want it on me
my skin is burning up expectation is too much
you've broken my heart into pieces
maybe i no longer need it
heavenly father please alter this body
its impure and sinful i dont want it on me
my skin is burning up temptation is too much
can't seem to keep my legs together
make me blessed make me better
heavenly father please alter this body
its impure and sinful i dont want it on me
my skin is burning up temptation is too much
can't seem to keep my legs together
make me blessed make me better
heavenly father please alter this bo d y
its impure and sinful i dont want it on me
my skin is burning up temptation is
temptation is too much
can't seem to keep my legs together
make me blessed make me better
i still get letters from them
i don't know what to do
i wanna fustrated but i know they're victims too
that part of my life is gone let the screen fade to black
"and so it came to pass"
that i am never looking back
This is such a cool song! Love from sweden🇸🇪❤️
ok but this song is so good that it sounds like a real person sung this-
I can’t express to you how much i love this song this is my favourite song, is it going to be on spotify? i have this on repeat all the time and i listen to it before i sleep, the whole vibe is just perfect, the drawing of the girl the lyrics, this deserves so much more attention
this song is so like ARGGH I LOVE IT i can’t get enough of it, it’s making me crazy
HAII weevildoings bf here!!!! the song will be on spotify once the whole album is complete :D however splitter girl, as well as their other songs, are all on spotify :3
@@feraljayce super hyped can’t wait
@@feraljayce oh nice! Cant wait!
OH MY GOD COULD YOU PUT THIS ON SPOTIFY???
Love how this sounds
Your songs are such a bop , you’re so underrated
Excited
Edit: oh, oh no. I just found out what "Irreverent" means. I feel like I'm about to feel called out again...damn it
Do you pledge allegiance to the swag?
Excellent song
I mean it when I say I need this song in my day by day life- (I don’t have any religious trauma, I just in general really like the song)
i love this song sm
Fire🔥🔥🔥
I really, REALLY hope i dont get flamed here since i finally found somewhere i feel safe saying this..but my experience with islam has been exactly like this. Raised to hate who i was and all those who were like me. I wish more people would criticize it the way they do to christianity..
dude.... this slaps, and the lyricism in amazing!!! love it
the god i loves a man i hate
this is awesome, my favourite of this album so far
Underrated
I found this channel pretty recently and I'm really glad I did!! I'm absolutely in love with song and disposable girl!! I can't wait for the next song from this album :]
I wouldn’t say I have religious trauma but I can rlly relate to this song, I remember being 10 and praying every night to god to give me another chance after I started realizing that I might be gay lmfao. even now I find myself feeling guilty over my sexuality, not fun :/
Can't wait to hear this one! Love your music
Edit: THIS WAS SO GOOD!
this is AMAZINGGG the lyrics and distortion work so well together
I love the cover
this is AWESOME great job !!!!
this is amazing
Time to listen to this multiple times everyday :)
👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀
YO HYPE HYPE GYPE
the preview image looks GOOD
Like omg
- the harness
- the palette
- the computer text background
- constellation skirt??
- bunny hat I assume
They have such a cool design and Im so glad to see the next song announced
Hoooo this did HIT
Theres some family history on my end that made this floor me.
I expected something a little more high energy, and fuck? I think this being subdued as it feels, anxious monologuing pain, its that much more powerful.
The chorus each time, the last one building
The afternote of leaving, of recognizing the devout are victims too.
The passages included actually give a lot of context on some things growing up despite the family having left, there were still... in hindsight now marks
Thank you so much for putting this series out
The way that background screech punctuates "maybe I no longer need it", it just HITS. The way your work communicates state of mind and experiences is so well done.
I think its worth noting for those not familiar but the clothes and letters are very real things. Mormon vestments are fucked, and the church puts money into harassing and stalking those who escape.
PLEASEEE WHY ISNT THIS ON SPOTIFY IT TOTALLY SHOULD BE
it will be eventually!!!!! most of the songs will be released on streaming services when the whole album comes out, but i'd still keep your eyes peeled... 👀
babe wake up they're gonna release a new girl !!!!
I just found ur music n I’ve been rlly loving it !! Rlly excited !!
I rlly love this song, I never really thought I’d find songs as relatable as yours have been. I’ve never been a mormon, but I went to a christian private school + church for a long time and while I never fully realized during my time there how much it affected me after I finally left it really hit me. Thankfully, it wasn’t a very strict school compared to others at the very least, these lyrics still Hit though.
Beside my personal stuff, the melody is amazing and I really love the lyrics. The video is fun as well! The Bride was a Boy caught my eye the instant it appeared lol, I really love the art as well, ones design is very pretty and interesting ! I also think the vocals on this song are easier to hear compared to the last song.
Every song is a banger ❤️❤️❤️
holy SHIT, i am so in love with everything in this
I relate to this :(
song rlly dug deep 4 me..ty
Well Written song.
you did a really great job encapsulating religious trauma and the effects it has on people into a song, i actually had to pause a few times because the attention to detail was a bit too relatable and offputting for me HAHAHA but nonetheless its a great song and i can’t wait to see the other 7 characters!!! you are very talented
I CANT WAIT!!
rad beats and really cool lyrics!
this is excellent i love this!!
to behonest i thighth thiswas abt likelirerally wanting tostopexisitng and turnging to god bc all the stress ofeverything is crumbl8ng down onto the persosn and boombm..
but I justsrealized its abt skthelse
soyaha lovelysong ^_^
alsoo sorry formry poor grammar im tiried
Do you think you can make a song about judgment trauma? The fear of people being watched and constantly judged by every move from verbal abuse at a young age?
Ahhhh! This is amazing!!
ive been blasting this song for like 2 weeks
Banger as always 😌
i am so excited i love your musuc s9 much
i only just stumbled upon this series and i'm absolutely loving it, the vocals sound amazing and the song is very well-written :)
this song really hits home tbh (i mean,,, all of the album girls atm songs are really relatable to me tbh), i do have a question, what are the sampled songs?, but GOD this is such a good song
I wish this was on Spotify-
it will be when all the songs in the album are complete
@@jack_rabid Ah okay!!
Wow… hace mucho que no me siento tan identificada con una canción
i like this song good job this is great
this is so cool!!!