Ah, unfortunately with this puppy, it's unusual for me to be up as late as I used to. I'm so exhausted from having to wake up early that I'm often in bed before midnight now, and certainly in no state to even attempt rambling! 🙈
We zoids see your channel, but yeah we're trying to always find more about zoidism. You did a great presentation in your first week of being diagnosed. Only bone I'd pick with your initial comments is that you don't merely share a label with other zoids. You share a life condition. Lived life experience condition if you will. But to each their own. Based take on the youtube transformation tho. I know you're not feeling those things at 15:20 and all, because we're secret zoids. The mask has tells. And yeah your "true self" or "authentic self" (the mischievous one) considers your everyday law abiding life in society pathetic. People like discord because it's usable for a forum like structure that you can also voice chat over, and also watch movies/share screen/play games etc. over all at the same time. And you can get a lot of good advice on how to handle things, from medications, legal issues sometimes, suicide prevention, zoiding out prevention etc. etc. Just stuff zoids have to deal with. gl to ya
But it _is_ just a label. It just happens to describe a handful of similarities. But you're not a half-Japanese female living in Australia with a disabled brother, you didn't spend 13 years at a Catholic private girls school on Sydney's North Shore in the late 90's and early 00's, you're not the former frontwoman of Wintergaunt, Rainbow Death Ray, and A.D.Destroyer, you're not making videos on attempting speed dating, etc. Having any diagnostic label doesn't trump the rest of your life, it doesn't describe all the vast differences between each of us. I also wish you'd stop insisting you can read me or assume that I'm referring to a "true/authentic" self. You have no idea. There is no true self. You've bought into a happy little misunderstanding that makes society feel better about the chaos of our brains. You've also completely ignored my mentioning of other versions of me that have split off at certain times in my life. Maybe you should spend more time looking into dissociative conditions, although I shudder to think what your comments would turn into if you bought too deeply into the DID community's cult-like thinking if this is how you are with schizoid. So Discord is a chat with Zoom style features? What got me from my brief look at it was how easily it can just become chaos, like any other chat. Having too many people in something like that strikes me as unwieldy. Idk I miss old school PHP forums. But not for mental illness. For my old RPG group. For everything else today, there's Facebook groups lol. Then that's one less social media account I have to keep track of too! Still wouldn't join one for schizoid tho, I'm too busy watching the snobbier locals complain about hilariously petty nonsense in the neighbourhood group hahahaha 🍿
@@DestroyerMariko That's certainly a perspective on the labelling. But it's also sharing of many similar lived life experiences. Just a fact. "There is no true self." There is no passionate self/authetic living self? Just about every zoid I hear make this argument eventually retracts as they just don't know what is being referred to. Often this is because this is because theirs is "missing"/absent/exiled (or nearly so). For you though, you seem to wear yours on your sleeve and have exclaimed many times that your passionate/authentic self is "an artist/musician/"creator" " (perhaps with more). No special reading required. And that's a fair common one. Nothing fancy. Discord is close to zoom, with way more features, but yeah you could use it zoomish. I assure you the schizvoid discord is not chaotic lol, at least the voice chat isn't. Very much the opposite. It can get lively on some discussion boards very occasionally tho they're pretty well moderated. We usually don't have enough people for it to be chaotic and if it got that way we'd just go in separate voice chats in smaller groups.
Mate you're not listening, you're too busy projecting what you want me to be. Makes interacting with you not worth the effort. Even with Discord I'm not talking about voice chat being chaos, ew voice chat, text based chaos is enough.
That’s fair, but I watch your videos primarily because I’m interested in Schizoid Personality Disorder. Not to say I don’t love your takes no bullshit personality.
It's fine to only like the schizoid stuff. My problem is when people think that's all I do, or try to pressure me to be as obsessed with schizoid as they are. It doesn't take much effort for them to click through to my channel page and realise I'm far more chaotic than that, but nope they'd rather act as if the smallest amount of information about me is enough to make an assessment of my entire life x_x
Weirdest Shout Out ever lmao. I wouldnt want it any other way. You keep doing you! Your an artist, nuff said.
Arts, gardening crafts, lifestyle topics, .. and also longer discussions. V Nice mix.
clicked because of szpd stayed for the rant
I could rant about the abbreviation "SzPD" too tbh hahahaha
Mariko, we are waiting for your midnight ramblings!
Ah, unfortunately with this puppy, it's unusual for me to be up as late as I used to. I'm so exhausted from having to wake up early that I'm often in bed before midnight now, and certainly in no state to even attempt rambling! 🙈
We zoids see your channel, but yeah we're trying to always find more about zoidism. You did a great presentation in your first week of being diagnosed. Only bone I'd pick with your initial comments is that you don't merely share a label with other zoids. You share a life condition. Lived life experience condition if you will. But to each their own.
Based take on the youtube transformation tho.
I know you're not feeling those things at 15:20 and all, because we're secret zoids. The mask has tells.
And yeah your "true self" or "authentic self" (the mischievous one) considers your everyday law abiding life in society pathetic.
People like discord because it's usable for a forum like structure that you can also voice chat over, and also watch movies/share screen/play games etc. over all at the same time. And you can get a lot of good advice on how to handle things, from medications, legal issues sometimes, suicide prevention, zoiding out prevention etc. etc. Just stuff zoids have to deal with.
gl to ya
But it _is_ just a label. It just happens to describe a handful of similarities. But you're not a half-Japanese female living in Australia with a disabled brother, you didn't spend 13 years at a Catholic private girls school on Sydney's North Shore in the late 90's and early 00's, you're not the former frontwoman of Wintergaunt, Rainbow Death Ray, and A.D.Destroyer, you're not making videos on attempting speed dating, etc. Having any diagnostic label doesn't trump the rest of your life, it doesn't describe all the vast differences between each of us.
I also wish you'd stop insisting you can read me or assume that I'm referring to a "true/authentic" self. You have no idea. There is no true self. You've bought into a happy little misunderstanding that makes society feel better about the chaos of our brains. You've also completely ignored my mentioning of other versions of me that have split off at certain times in my life. Maybe you should spend more time looking into dissociative conditions, although I shudder to think what your comments would turn into if you bought too deeply into the DID community's cult-like thinking if this is how you are with schizoid.
So Discord is a chat with Zoom style features? What got me from my brief look at it was how easily it can just become chaos, like any other chat. Having too many people in something like that strikes me as unwieldy. Idk I miss old school PHP forums. But not for mental illness. For my old RPG group. For everything else today, there's Facebook groups lol. Then that's one less social media account I have to keep track of too! Still wouldn't join one for schizoid tho, I'm too busy watching the snobbier locals complain about hilariously petty nonsense in the neighbourhood group hahahaha 🍿
@@DestroyerMariko That's certainly a perspective on the labelling. But it's also sharing of many similar lived life experiences. Just a fact.
"There is no true self."
There is no passionate self/authetic living self? Just about every zoid I hear make this argument eventually retracts as they just don't know what is being referred to. Often this is because this is because theirs is "missing"/absent/exiled (or nearly so). For you though, you seem to wear yours on your sleeve and have exclaimed many times that your passionate/authentic self is "an artist/musician/"creator" " (perhaps with more). No special reading required. And that's a fair common one. Nothing fancy.
Discord is close to zoom, with way more features, but yeah you could use it zoomish. I assure you the schizvoid discord is not chaotic lol, at least the voice chat isn't. Very much the opposite. It can get lively on some discussion boards very occasionally tho they're pretty well moderated. We usually don't have enough people for it to be chaotic and if it got that way we'd just go in separate voice chats in smaller groups.
Mate you're not listening, you're too busy projecting what you want me to be. Makes interacting with you not worth the effort. Even with Discord I'm not talking about voice chat being chaos, ew voice chat, text based chaos is enough.
@@DestroyerMariko yeah I hear ya on the text chaos. on the rest, gl to you, wish all the best.
That’s fair, but I watch your videos primarily because I’m interested in Schizoid Personality Disorder. Not to say I don’t love your takes no bullshit personality.
It's fine to only like the schizoid stuff. My problem is when people think that's all I do, or try to pressure me to be as obsessed with schizoid as they are. It doesn't take much effort for them to click through to my channel page and realise I'm far more chaotic than that, but nope they'd rather act as if the smallest amount of information about me is enough to make an assessment of my entire life x_x
I'm here for the chaos :D
Came here for the schizoid, stayed for the chaos! 😅
You will join the club
Jo vill join ze cloob lol, don't be a meanie, if she wants to come chill she can, if she doesn't want to that's all good.
@@grantwithers 😤 one of us! one of us! 😡
@@SchizoidLifePod I know what you mean bro but it's all good. I don't see you over at the zoid void discord.
won't happen again
Did you just call me a bot?
Even better, a North Korean bot 😘
@@DestroyerMariko What kind of illegal stuff were you into?
Doing mean things to nosey bots
@@DestroyerMariko I promise it will never leave North Korea