I hate myself.
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- Опубліковано 7 вер 2024
- I've not been consistently happy for a long time. I've been spending the past few months trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Whenever I thought to say something on here in a video, I was inundated with thoughts like "It's not interesting enough to talk about" and "wait until you have a good video to come back on" but yeah, I think I'm finally starting to figure out what's wrong so I can be more consistent and happy.
I'm slowly getting back into working on the next videos and songs, and I'll be posting on all these sites about how I'm getting on:
► Facebook: / boyinabandcom
► Twitter: / davepbrown
► Tumblr: / davebiab
► Music: boyinaband.band...
► T-Shirts: boyinaband.bigc...
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Sorry I've been away for so long - part of the ACT thing was to specifically not try to "fix" my emotions, so it took a while for me to naturally feel like saying anything.
Boyinaband I guess it was hard for you to finally "appear" on the Internet. I wish you the strength. Thank you.
The hell are you doing uploading at 4am, Dave?'
:-:
Please don't beat yourself up anymore,you're a great rolemodel for people of our generation.
Boyinaband I know this feeling all too well. *hugs*
Your emotions mean more to us than if you're keeping to your word about weekly videos. You're an awesome dude and we don't want you obsessing over 'relatable' posts or 'sharable' content. Do stuff that feels *you* and we will still enjoy it. 50% of the people who watch people on UA-cam don't always relate, that's why they like watching, it's a step away from their own life and into someone else's
Have to agree with you.
NinkComPoop Haiii! I totally agree with you 3: I think he should post content that he enjoys making, rather than something for his fans ^^
Boyinaband this^^^^
Fox Envy thankyou!
NinkComPoop Actually I can only pay attention to people I really, really identify with.
Hey David! Well done for "coming out" as it were. When you feel like it, it would be great to make another video together too. We'll make sure we have fun!
You two should make some lyric or satiric if you're feeling up to it ;)
Minimariofan W I agree. Dan and Dave are hilarious.
Hope your feeling better from that surgery Dan!
>Coming out
oh no LOOK OUT THE SMITING IS COMING. JUST A LITTLE SMITE.
Colin M The References XD.
Your mental health is more important than a weekly video date. Take care of yourself before entertaining us. ❤️
Thatonecringychannel 8
I agree
Amen to that.
This video is from 2015.
@@darkwolfyt6443 lmao-
does anyone else love the way he talks or just me
Jamie Wynn
i love it! I feel "NESTOLGIC", for some reason, even though I found him yesterday day.
my headaches disappear when he talks :P
Aaawwwwwwwww!! ^^
Nah, I like it as well. ^^
Jamie Wynn i was actually gonna say the same thing.
Hey man, good to have you back. Missed you. I struggle similarly but to a much smaller extent. I don't know anything about psychology really but from a UA-camr perspective I suggest this: shoot videos in bulk. I've done it in periods and it really, really helps with the stress and anxiety that comes from trying to stay on a schedule. Take care man, and give me a call sometime :)
Roomie, that's so generous of you to reach out to him. And yes, I am aware this was some time ago. YT-er solidarity is a wonderful thing, when it happens. (OfficialRoomieFan) :)
I'm glad u can actually be serious.
That's amazing of you to say
Aww your so nice to Dave a great friend Yaaaaaaay
Roomieeeeee I'm subbed, your amazing
"i just spent three months growing a joke"
Shimes Art he spent three months growing a joke but my ma spent 9 months growing the biggest joke step up Dave
That’s nothing, my parents have spent over 13 years....I don’t know what’s so funny about this so I’m still waiting for the punchline....
@@Pipsqueak789 oofies lmao
McLlama Llama this comment was posted 9 months ago
My mom after I was 3 months old
Dave: “I spent 3 months growing this joke”
My mum: well I spent 9 months
On this beautiful child’s brother
jokes on you my mom spent 14 years growing the worst joke! me
@@sweetenerized2401 23 as of today.
@@FlakyMusic 8 days till im 15 p a i n
In the wise words of memes: "They had us in the first half, not going to lie"
Was your brother born premature? That seems like very little time to carry a baby...
Do you know, this take a lot of guts to admit. Talking about your emotions is hard in general, at least for me. I went to the doctors last Thursday (9th June 15) and he diagnosed me with having 'Severe Depression'. gave me some Anti-Depressants which I haven't taken as I don't want to feel like I'm being given an artificially good feeling.
I can't bring myself to tell friends because they can't see the underlying problems in my head. I hide everything from the outside word and deal with the struggle when I'm alone. I was signed off work a recently and have another 2 weeks off to deal with these harsh emotions.
Maybe sitting at home isn't the right way to go about things as many people will say, but it's the only way I know HOW to deal with things. I don't know what has caused this to happen so it's hard to explain to anyone, I'm never negative and always look at things in a good light usually, which is why I'm so shocked by what he said... It's so weird, you know there's something wrong but can't just chin up!
In a similar way to the beginning of your video, I've achieved so much recently. UA-cam is the one thing I want to do, to entertain so many people and grow out of control and it's started, but at the same time I feel so empty and unmotivated. I force myself to make the videos, it makes me feel better once they're eventually done because the people who watch always show such amazing support which shines a light of positivity on me.
If it wasn't for the strangers of the internet showing me that I have a way of brightening up their days, I don't know where I'd be right now. Not everyone on the internet is a troll and that restores some faith in humanity for sure
talk about this with your friends, if they are real friends they will help you without judging you...... JUST DO IT (performs a terrible squat)
***** Thank you, it's things like that that make me feel positive that's for sure!
MikeyTaylorGaming I think the important part in what you explained, is that you don't just take a couple days off to recover...You want time to think about things. Analyizing how I feel has always been the hardest issue for me. Keep strong friend!
MikeyTaylorGaming that makes me think of weeb because of the Drug makeing you feel good. :L
MikeyTaylorGaming Since I work at a pain clinic, a lot of stories I have are confidential because of HIPPA. However, I can tell you that anti-depressants aren't an artificial good feeling. They might help to create a sense of euphoria but people can resist that euphoria easily, so I wouldn't say it creates an artificial happiness. I'd recommend taking them as directed (and this might sound harsh and I'm sorry if it does) because honestly, your doctor has probably seen something exactly like this before and knows how to help. Like ***** said, depression is like a block in your natural produced euphoria and anti-depressants are just trying to break the block and hold you over until the block is broken. Think of it like tylenol or ibuprofen. They are majorly pain-KILLERS, with a small part of pain-RELIEVER. It works more so to get rid of the pain than it does to produce false relief. You're a wonderful person and you're already working ahead to get better and if that isn't commendable, then nothing in this world is.
TL;DR? You're an amazing person and should listen to the doctor. They really do try to help, and aren't as scary as they sound
Tries to not be relatable. Is completely relatable.
Lol
Ikr!!
Jack Marlow yeah
Everyone takes the good comments TwT
For some reason it not relatable
Your eyes are beautiful
ikr
Oooookkkkkk
I love your name
He looks prettier than me
@@awesomeowl4026 one of us one of us
He's just BEAUTIFUL!! isn't he? o.o
Edit: these replies though 🤣
Joshua Thompson he has a face that I want to see everyday
you should have ended that comment with "no homo though"
Yes he's very pretty for a boy he has especially pretty hair and eye color and he somehow HAS PERFECT SKIN WTH HOOOOWWWWW
n o h o m o
Ha! GAY!!!!!!!!
It's really sad seeing my favorite youtuber sad. We'll all help you through this Dave. I'm gonna hug you. *hugs*
FourAcross I wanna join *Hugs FourAcross and Dave*
I'm joining this hug
FourAcross Yaay group huug :D Dave's in the middle! Don't worry Dave, you've got plenty of air. Like air for dayz :p
LETS ALL GIVE DAVE A HUG FROM THE FANS (hugs Dave cuz I'm here for him)
*Big hug for Dave*
I often feel disconnected from my emotions. I think it's even harder for males, as they're told not to cry or show weakness.
And they are not protected by the society for being a "Woman"
***** I guess so. Right now several family members aren't speaking to me and it hurts.
Hmm, I don't remember the last time I cried. I never had those expectations forced on me, but I think I've just forgotten how.
Tbh, I am fine with guys crying, with anyone to be exact, I know what I am about to say is cliché, but crying isn't a sign a weakness, it just shows that the person may have been strong to long...
cyberspacecadette I hope they are not your sons and sister. The first-degree of the family is the one that really matters, fuck the rest
THAT BEGINNING OH GOD IM DEAD
THREE MONTHS!! GROWING A JOKE!! LOL WORTH ITTTTT
I don't get it?! 😂😁😁
+Mortonator he waited 3 months to grow that hair just to shave it in the intro
😂😂😂😂
Me too he's so great lol
Dave, we don’t care if you don’t post every single week. We (I) only care about your happiness.
Post when you can. UA-cam should be about having fun, not a job.
IceKing The only thing is it literally is his job.
Jaina Solo o
Jaina Solo Well, he also work at McDonald’s-
Ruby Gacha When has he said that?
@@jainasolo50 used to work at macdonalds and he says it in the my new look video
I really hope he's okay now ://
+Queenfunshine He's okay. He's just not making any videos right now.
+Daminals x sure i have been worried
+Sirios Skorpios me too xxx
i know i saw , thanks anyway
The feelings when you miss him so much ;-;
your voice, so relaxing
yess #ASMR
Alice Kim asmr
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I agree. Jesus his eyes are so beautiful. That blue is so bright.
I agree, his voice is very soothing
Dave, you are a beautiful human. You are more intelligent and self-aware than most people are even capable of comprehending.
Echo Gillette ....Is that a dave-inspired haircut... hahaha. --- Cute lol
Lol. More so Harley Quinn, but I've been told I'm the female version of Dave. =P
Echo! Echo is here! On one of dave's videos! Fangirl overload... Ok back to normal
*Knock at the door*
Me: *opens it*
Bad emotion: Hi!
Me: *slams the door shut* not today you demon.
not today, Satan.
im the demon
For me the Demon then brakes down door and starts to strangle me with said emotion
Me lol
I thought the idea was that if you shut the door in its face it doesn't go away, so you just let it in, offer it a cup of coffee, get on with it and it'll be on its merry way once its done.
I understand you man...
I been feeling this way since I was 10, trying to find things that change that or at least distract me. That's why I started macking music. And one of the things you said reminds me of one line I wrote:
"Como arena movediza, luchar solo arrastra mas rápido
y quedarse quieto lo hace mas lento, se siente plácido"
(translation)
"It's like quicksand, fighting just drags you faster
and sit still makes slower, it feels peaceful"
Well, just that. Take your time man, you're an incredible human being.
(I apologize for the bad English, I'm from Argentina)
***** I agree with you (Your English isn't wrong its fine (its better than some Americans))
PyroShadow117 xD Thanks x3
***** No Problem :D
KayCreep, this deserves to be quoted. This is amazing.
+KayCreep Lo siento por tu problema man, espero que te estés sintiendo mejor! Saludos desde tu propio país!
Dave, I'm going to be as blunt as I can.
We love you.
We love what you do. You inspire us. You have helped some of us break out of our shell and share our opinions, be who we are.
I can't really say that I know exactly how you feel, because I don't. I understand what you're saying, and can relate to some of what you're saying, but I can't feel exactly what you are feeling.
I CAN say that I DO understand how you feel and have friends that have said to me some of the words that you are saying.
I want you to feel the best you can be, and I will be the most patient I have ever been. It sounds stupid, what I'm saying, but I genuinely hope on a personal level that you are happy as you can be. I want you to keep making content, and I want you to keep inspiring people. You have helped me become who I am, even though I haven't been here long, and I thank you for helping me. Ever since I watched all of your videos about school, I've actually stood up for my education. Since I'm Not Dead, I've wanted to be more confident in myself and what I do.
I hope you feel better, Dave.
Thanks for reading.
Why is this not at the top? This should be at the top. It's beautiful and very, very true for a lot of us. Thank you for putting your thoughts into words and posting them on a comment. Dave, I hope you see this. Cheers.
My reaction to seeing the title: haha same
My reaction to watching the video: oh shit dude, I feel you
i know right
I-I'm the same way... I beat myself up alot when I fail because people expect me to be the best, especially in school, I never ask for help even when I really need it, because I feel like I need to be independent...
Olivia_Olive wow I thought this was just me
Thought it was just me too
I have the same feelings. I always have to get everything perfect. I need to do everything right or my wires that "You're worthless" "You're a disappointment to everyone". I want to kill myself.
Gavin Jones You have so many things to live for. I know those voices get loud, but you can shut them out. If you can’t do it yourself, talk to someone and they can help you through it. You’re worth too much to just let go. 💙💙
I’m supposed to be the smart kid. If I have success than no one cares. Especially me. If I fail then I hate myself for weeks. Everyone laughs at me and I feel like I can’t get back up. I can’t ask for help because then I feel like people won’t think I’m as smart as I am. I’m glad I’m not the only one.
Holy shit, how come I haven't seen you before? You're good-looking as hell..
葬儀屋 I'm straight n all, but yeah he is.
Cyber_Jek Like damn man.
I agree, he's attractive as fuck.
葬儀屋 hes very attractive and so much more then what the eyes can see his personality speaks out its what i consider beautiful
***** I mean, this was the first video I watched of his, so I didn't quite know that yet. But you're totally right.
I don't know why but I literally love you. I JUST found your #DontStayInSchool video & have been binge watching your channel for the last couple days. It's been awhile since you've uploaded & I hope you come back.
I love you too
Tia Vapes Sucks the fact that you specifically made a profile to hate on someone makes you in no way important to anyone but yourself
kasey Harrison This guy is a serious stalker. I've been screen shotting all his comments & have had to block 13 accounts so far that he just keeps making to troll me. I sent him a cease & desist order but he ignored it so now I can take legal action against his harassment, ugh. Oh & I'm "cold-hearted" because he didn't win my giveaway, he claims to be disabled.
***** some people just find the most stupiest excuses not to like somebody.
kasey Harrison Not sure what the context of this statement is, but it is ironic that in attempting to call someone stupid, you not only use a grammatically incorrect double superlative but also spell "stupidest" wrong.
Omg your eyes are gorgeous
And the hair... the combo so beutiful
+Molly “MajesticNarwhalUnicorn” Feinstein omg! your pic is the cutest thing ever!
he is a guy posing as a woman sad..
+Luke Smith How is he posing as a woman???
+Luke Smith You are a guy who stereotypes and doesn't know what a comma is, sad...
He sounds like he is sooo close to cry. I mean, I sound like that whenever I am stressed out. Also, I was looking other videos about it, but the one I trust the most... it’s only this one. We love you. I love you. You are just so freaking awesome 💜💜💜
He doesn't cry! I wish he did. Thinking of all the emotions & stress chemicals humans in pain release that way. I went from stone faced to crying at TV ads, so maybe that's too much. His voice here sounded like he didn't want the others in the house to hear him.
I beat myself up when I fail. I feel like I'm not smart, that I'm not ever going to be someone. I still do that. When I was like on 3rd grade every time I got in trouble I would press my nails on my arm and it was so painful and all I said was "I'm bad I deserve this". Now I'm 13 dealing with the same thing. I have a lot of marks from hurting myself and some how it helps me clam down and feel better. Some days I can't even get out of bed I always feel so weak. I never tell how I feel. I always bottle it up and it gets worse. This has been going on since 3rd grade. I feel like I deserve the pain but I know that I don't I just can't stop. At school I was so sad about a teacher calling me out in front of the class and everyone looking at me I had and anxiety attack so again my nails pressed into my arm I my arm started to bleed. But that's my story. Not the full version but half
That's terrible... I cant say much but I hope you get better.
Eve Marie I am exactly like that i don't press nails into my arm but it's like that....i feel you bro!
Toxic-Mind-Honey thanks
Boris [MVP] I hope you get better. And I'm glad someone understands my friends think I'm crazy
Eve Marie I hope u become happier and better ,I am nearly ur age too 😀👍
Keep strong Dave-you're the best!
Mika Creates heh heh heh ☺️ Tokyo ghoul heh heh heh
OSJIPFVSHPISVFHPIVFDS YOUR PICTURE!!!!
SAD!!!!!
more the like the worst right guys??
+1
Hey so I wanted to write you, as a fellow artist, and musician. Inspiration comes from a lot of different sources, and it's often easy to feel like you've run out when you've just done some of your best work. This is completely normal, I call it "choke anxiety" The feeling is that you've just made something that you were so eager to make, that the reluctance towards your next thing kind of spawns a rift which then mentally makes itself wider and wider.
Remember that the community loves you not because you are some creative genius that has revolutionary thought provoking art. this expectation will drive you insane. They love you because you are good company that occasionally makes a pretty thing and they really just want to keep that window open so life doesn't seem so lonely. So keep that chin up and fight like hell to keep that window open. You be aiight.
Dam
You are right!
:)
This person is right I am not kidding. I know what it's like to hate yourself and it doesn't feel good. It took me months to figure out that there are people in the world who care about me. I don't think you should go down that path. A lot of people really think your the best there ever is
honestly, I agree
I really admire how you face your problems as logically and optimistically as possible ,even when its as serious as hating yourself ... You are really inspiring and i hope you overcome this and achieve the motivation you want ..
You're such a beautiful person. I hope you learn to love yourself as much as we love you. Take all the time in the world.
Thirsty?
That was unnecessary.
^^ She's just trying to be nice geez
Sam Soto Devi Gazo I see nobody got the joke.
Sam Soto lrllll
Sorry say that that again? I uh...... Got lost in your eyes!!!
+Nicksy289 So true XD
im a boy and I find it hard not to get lost in his appearance
+Bethany Lieser he literally just said that it was hard to get lost in his looks. he thinks he is attractive like you (I assume ) so I think he understands.
***** i would if you could spell
***** thank you, your a good person though just to put this out there I'm not gay
The most intelligent people are sometimes the saddest/most messed up. What he's trying to do is apparently overcome this self-hatred problem through his rationality and intelligence,and i may be exagerating a bit,but it's absolute genius. Only few people can do that,and it's a very very special thing to do.
trust me. it may be special but it is no picnic. being rational about your emotions can and will push people away.
:/ Yeah, I push people away, and sometimes I don't even care, or realize it at the moment. But then I feel like I'll ne alone forever, I that I deserve it.
Is beeing alone a bad thing? It's scientifically proven that some intelligent people are better alone.
NikkiDiamond ya that's Itachi from Naruto.
Bart MK Seems logical I guess, I just don't really see myself being with anyone for a long period of time. I don't feel love for anyone, and I prefer animals than people.
If you want to take a break, go ahead. If you are stressed, take a break. Hope u feel better about yourself soon 🙂
Ik this was made over 2 years ago but still
Jamie_Dodger he’s back!!
actually in your times 4 years ago now its 5 years...
i know that not being able to understand and process your emotions is actually a thing; it's called alexithymia and it literally means "no words for feelings". it's quite often found in autistic people.
It's also a really good Anberlin song.
There's a word for it?
Ollie Embourne
I don't like how this disorder has my name in it.
Dylan lol
Does that mean im authostic ?
You say there isn't a relatable message in this video, and for once I couldn't disagree with you more. Being able to address your followers and be vulnerable in their sight takes a lot of strength, and I feel like the relatable message of this video is that emotional/mental trouble can happen to anyone, no matter how confident or together they may seem to be. I am so happy for you that you've found therapy to be helpful.
I agree big time
*Me 2 minutes into the video
*Paying close attention to what Dave's saying
"OH MAI GOD THOSE EYES
*Stares at Dave's eyes for the rest of the video
Doki Doki please go up
carrotais ...go up?
Edit: Comment no longer applicable.
Doki Doki Same. I couldn't stop staring at his eyes ;o
After I saw this I immediately looked at his eyes they're beautiful
I know I'm years late but this hit me hard. I hope Dave doesn't have to feel this way anymore.
So many people want to see only positivity, but every other emotion is equally human with equal value. I'm reminded of The Twilight Zone's "Number Twelve Looks Just Like You". Everyone wants to give the main character "instant smile". She says, "Sometimes I don't feel like smiling. Sometimes I want to cry or frown." It's normal. It isn't normal to stuff it down, but for some reason we're expected to at least pretend they don't exist. That is the thing behind many a mid-life crisis. - Feel it in the moment so you can get past it. A lot of great art has come out of those moments. Anyway, those are my two cents. Don't spend them all in one place. :-)
I love twilight zone aha
I have been trying to be more positive lately but thats just because I realised I was feeling sad when I had nothing to be sad about(that really mattered).
I get that too. I often think about the root cause behind feeling sad for a prolonged period and if it's something I can do something about I do that. If not, even if the emotion is over something I can't control, it helps me to just get it out and over with - and then it doesn't linger. It frees me from the burden of it. -- It IS always good to hear there's nothing to really be sad of. That is excellent, and always a helpful realization. Cheers and all the best.
Well, then. Cheers, Whovian! I loves me some Cybermen.
That's not what I meant, I meant that I realised there is no point in me being sad for no reason, you obviously need to let off some emotion but when its actually needed.
your voice is making my headache go away XD. thanks so much :)
Awww!!!!! Fucking fuck, that's oddly adorable. ^^
Vriska Serket ok
Tacky Vanilla Same I'm not actually joking I had a headache like 30 mins ago and I just found out about his channel and started binge watching them and I just realized its gone
See Taco Loco gets it!
Tacky Vanilla bro me to
Dave...are you okay? You haven't posted at all lately...and...we all worry about you because you've saved many of us and we love you.
He's fine. He's alright 🙂
+hello there how do you know? He hasn't posted anywhere for a few months already...
+Evanoah just scroll down.. You'll find the answer
+hello there yup, i saw. Thanks though! :)
+Evanoah he got medicin for ADHD and is now Working on it
You're rlly brave...posting this video.
This is relatable AF.
I get those periods in life as well where i hate myself and where I'm just rlly depressed about it.
And then I'm fine for a month or two and then it just all comes back.
I just wanna say that u are truly an inspiration and i love u for it❤
Your video just made me realize a huge disconnection to my emotions. I really have not realized bevor. That shocked me.
I can relate too. I feel distanced/empty alot of the time. Please, if you can try and find a decent therapist. C: best of luck
Kind people. Very rare these days. Thank you and the best of luck to you too.
Not so much rare, just the bad people stick out more. Also approve of the username x'D Good luck x C:
+Kawaii Goth-Chan your not alone on the feeling of feeling nothing, well wishes onto you. i hope you learn to accept them ive heard feelings are great the most i can pull is to fake feelings to fit the situation....
Jake Adams wow. I felt so alone with this. These comments are giving me a feeling of
not to, I guess
It is completely shareable. Most people feel that way at some time.
But, Dave, you lived quite a different childhood than most.
Your behavior is reflective of that.
Um, curious: how do you know about Dave's childhood? Just asking.....
He's talked about it in other videos before.
what happened ?
Saudi Arabia was homophobic, that’s what happened
Any time I do anything even slightly wrong, I feel like the most useless person alive. I literally beat myself up. I press my nails into my skin, I cut or I hit myself. Ever since I was little. I never thought there was anything wrong with me. Everyone thought I was over dramatic or crying for attention, but I thought that's what I deserve. I thought that was something everyone did. I thought it was normal. Everyone still thinks I'm just over dramatic. Maybe I am just being a crybaby.
No you aren't.Everybody deals with thjngs differently and no matter how minor it is, it shouldn't be belittled by some twats-
I relate 100%
Not gonna lie, I too can relate. My emotional state 90% of the time is just "meh" because I literally can't tell if/what I'm feeling. .__. Like he said, there's some kind of threshold that has to be reached for me to know what the heck is going on with me.
I've been thinking about how "Emotionally disconnected" I've been recently, though I'll sometimes feel things, but only if its a clear, intense feeling.
Tbh... I've been that like since I was a kid. I feel nothing(except being confuse). So I always have the problem of not knowing what to say when teachers or my parents ask me 'how do you feel' . Actually, now that I think about it, I dunno who looks good, what looks good, or even what I like or what I hate... Man it's sooo confusing. I used to be really quiet... now I'm a bit better but I only do that by copying what the others do.
Can't feel it man :c
But I never thought that is a problem :/ I mean... come on... it is impossible every person on the earth clearly know what they feel, right?
Or do they? :/
I'm confused now.
same here bro, though my parents found of i'm quite intelligent, so i was really distanced by all the others ( not only because my interests was in others than football and that kind of stuff, but my way of thinking made it hard for me to find someone who was 'compatible' with me, so for some years i've been really lonely where my comfort zone was programming ) and since i lack some years of being social it's quite hard for me to feel almost anything.
same
I have never related so hard to a video before. I was so sure I was the only one with this problem. Thanks for making this...
I agree...
I basically have all of the problems that he's talking about but i feel like if i tell anyone i know it will end out worse than when i started
@@diabetes1191 I'm sorry, and I can relate to that. I know your comment is a month old but you should tell someone. Parent, guardian, teacher, friend. As long as it's someone who cares for you, they will help you. You would be surprised if you saw the amount of people that would be willing to talk to you or help you out. I don't know if you'll see this but I hope you tell someone what you're feeling and I hope things get better for you.
@@waluigisyndrome2261 thank you waluigi-san
You say you this ain't relatable. But why is it relatable.
you broke my brain
Dave, I know I'm 5 years late on this, but you don't have to make anything relatable, or shareable. These types of videos are incredibly helpful to me as it really helps to know someone experiences some of the same things I do. I genuinely love all of your work dude.
Don't worry Dave...I feel that way to...
And I tried all of those things
Yeah...I feel that way and I try everything he mentioned but it doesn't help anything
too*
me too it's really hard sometimes even if I do that kind of stuff... the thing about not knowing what you feel can also be very confusing to other people and they always give me a hard time for that because they dont understand how thats possible
I say that I don't know whats wrong but they don't believe me and think I just dont want to tell them
Dat ambient noise though.... Here I was thinking I was immune to ASMR.
But really----I feel pretty damn similar. Especially in regards to the not feeling emotions/recognizing them unless they're 'loud enough'. It was good to hear someone else feel that way and not describe themselves as a sociopath. Danke.
+austerwack +jeesh101 welcome to the club boys..
About the ASMR thing, oh my god, I just realized how amazing Dave's voice would be in a video for that. He has that low steadiness to his talking voice that if he spoke quieter, would be perfect for one. Dhjsjjdns. That would be a dream.
***** I just thought that was normal...
***** Here is some fucked up shit, the son of my stepfather died at the age of 18 with bone cancer a year and a half ago. Even though we weren't the best of friends, we rarely even talked, I know it should've shocked me hard. When it happened, my stepfather cried, my mother cried, everyone broke down, and there was I, thinking "shit happens". I knew that its wrong, but it simply could not move me whatsoever, and I still hate myself for it..
ass murr
I don't think you're being whiny at all. I'm happy that you're letting us know how you feel. You're trying your best and you're doing well. I hope you can get through this (saying that feels really insensitive but I don't know what to say other than that) and I'm hoping for the best.
Completely agreed.
Ok, so I’m just a random person on the internet, an you’ll probably never even read this, but Dave, we’re here for you. We all want what’s best for you. Please just get better 🙂
I realize I'm 11 months late, but I completely relate to this. I'm just finishing high school now, and I've struggled with being consistent with inspiration and pushing myself to the point where I don't finish anything. This can be from the small things like a project, to the larger things, like an important conversation with someone I care about. I've lost friends simply because I haven't been active enough with them to share my feelings and work through our problems, and when it happens, I feel like a prick. I beat myself up over it, at times, literally. I've never been diagnosed, but I'm pretty sure this is the result of depression in some form. I don't wanna go advertising to people that I may or may not be depressed, but giving it that title gives me some form of comfort in the sense that maybe it's not me that's fucking up, when I know I should get off my ass and do something.
Not sure if this is a problem still occurring in your life, but I hope you do okay. I know I'll try.
Yes😞
I feel almost the same I actually got better from when I was little but the really sad thing is that don't know because I try to be the most happy and niss person but every day it still seems that there's always one thing in my life that makes me hate myself or ruins my whole day and I can't control it and my family doesn't help pluse the worst thing is my mom and dad are divorced even try to type this is hard 😔
pure respect to you, boyinaband and others having this problem! 😞
Fire Skull23 ikr
Man. You are the only youtuber (at least I know), who expresses his true feelings (#noyoutubedrama) and is not afraid of his audience starting to hate him. Believe me I have the same problems as you. Some ppl may see you as a multipersonal psycho, who doesn't know his feelings, but you're just normal. I bet everyone had those problems (at least once) in their life. Anyways I am happy to see at least 1 person I am simmilar to.
your mentalhealth means more to me, and probably for everyone here, then the work you do. don't worry, we'll wait until you're ready, but please, don't make anything until you're ready
have a very nice day yourself ^^
Preach!! Couldn't agree more;)
I hope you’re better 5 years later.
Dave, I am, ( and I know that a lot of others too,) VERY glad your back. Despite what might be happening, remember that we all look up to you, and love you. I hope that that can help with your problems as much as it can.
Have a great and awesome day,
All of your fans on UA-cam, Facebook, Twitter, and the whole Universe.
Hey Reni By the Way I SOOOOO MUCH AGREE
a Personal note to Dave: Hey Dave I know you won't see this but I want you to know all of us (subscribers) love SO SO fricken much and we hope to see you back on your feet and ready to entertain us and make us laugh some more
Love,
-Bri
Brianna Hone Also, Dave, if you ever feel REALLY BAD, listen to "The Promise," the song you and Emma Blackery did together. I know it always helps cheer me up. Just a little something more to help!
Reni Krafft You're*
***** "glad your back." is what they put. Also, while we're being grammar Nazis, you put "you could of meant". That should read "you could have meant".
I thought I was the only one struggling with this.
Hannah Smith I thought i was the only one too.. I always struggle to motivate myself to do things, and i never do anything i don't want to do even if i really should... It causes a lot of problems :I
Ya , this is the most relatable thing I've seen in awhile
Hannah Smith I have the same problem! Well, actually like it in this case as it makes me more rational and level-headed in most social cases.
Nope, having the same problem
I have this problem to! It sucks because I am going to collage soon.
Its alright-- we can wait, we're here for you
Nice comment ;) +1
I think the reason that I like you so much as you real you are an honest person and what you're saying is relatable I feel that on a spiritual level
Yeah, that’s why I like him too, don’t mind me, just trying to honestly comment on every comment that doesn’t have a comment or that I feel compelled to.
When I clicked on the video, I was fearing that it was a seven minute song.
IncubusXxX Sagittarius XxXSucubus >> same
Gringo Stingo you must have seen lilly singh, voices.
it's 10 minuets long
Same
I feel the same way!! Just know you're not alone
Hey there! My name is Connor. I don't know u, but I just wanted to say ur amazing! Thanks, have a good night
you're amazing too Connor :D
And so are you xiamara!
Chukalompee7 YAY :D
JSS
man that whole emotional black box thing is me too bud, it sucks when people say " do you like it?" and all i can say is "??? yeah i guess" cos i don't know, and ive come to hate my birthday for that reason, people want me to like their gift and i cant even tell them i hate it, its just meh? maybe, and while that ACT thing might work on less important things i find myself still at a loss in the more important aspects of my life, as a little tmi e.g i have had the worst time coming to terms with my sexuality because i don't know if im being honest, living out in the sticks there is no one to feel real feelings for so at best i can guess how i feel and even then i doubt any feelings i have, i end up feeling like a fake and it leaves me in a rut....anyway point is that struck a cord with me and its good to know im not just some broken thing.
i honstly am the same way almost exactly
Same here. I thought I was weird having the emotional disconnect. Working through it has revealed some interesting things I didn't realise about myself. I know he said he didn't want it relatable, but for some it is.
The dislikes are probably the heartless people that don’t like his hair
Or its just the ppl trying to click the like button cuz no one can not like Dave.He is literally the sweetest guy ever.I wish I actually meet him or at least just have a conversation with him❤
Or maybe they just disliked Dave saying that he hated himself.
They are probably iresponsoble too
No they probably think this is fake
*IDIOTS*
I hate myself aswell. Im overweight, easily stressed, and not very motivatable. I usually just spend all day doing nothing. But recently, I've been trying to mentally slap myself in the face, and come to terms with what I am, and what I've become. I know that the only way to fix the things that I know are wrong with me, is to deal with them. Whether its exercising or talking to someone about a pent-up problem, I know that I can fix it, but not without help.
Ur amazing
I'm in the same boat as you buddy. Don't give up! I'll make sure not to as well! 😊
Carly L :D
Party Person :D
Connor Pringle :D YOUR ALL TOO SWEET
I have a lot of the same things as you. I don't know about you, but I'm an INTJ (T) with high-functioning autism, ADHD, and OCD. Both INTJs and autistic people have trouble with emotional connection, a combination of both makes it worse. I can't read people's emotions and I have an even harder time expressing emotions or interpreting them within myself. I feel emotion, but I cannot explain what I'm feeling. I find myself in a lot of anxiety and depression, and I don't know why. I'm more fortunate than most people. My parents love, care, and understand me for the most part. No one hates me. But I still am not happy and I cannot explain it. Lately, your channel has become one of my favorite channels. You are a deep thinker and you want to express your ideas and share those ideas with the world. I love channels that do that and believe they should be more common and more relevant to people. I want you to know that you are relevant to people, especially myself. I hope you can find a way to be happier, just as I am searching for a way to be happy. It's a common struggle. But keep it up bro.
You are very well with words though. It's as if you reached in my brain and pulled that out. All except the understanding parents part. I do have an awesome spouse but he's also a black box most of the time. So that's really hard to figure out. I'm just struggling at trying not to fail at life.
Agape Ima It took my parents a very long time to understand me. They tried really hard and did lots of research into it. I hope you are able to figure out your spouse. Life really sucks sometimes, especially when people like you and I are misunderstood. We sit back and wish that we could make someone understand what we've been trying to tell them for a while, but they just don't seem to grasp what we're trying to say. I understand you and hope things get better for you.
i do this too, it's made me have no progress forever. i eventually allowed myself to go at my natural pace and allowing myself to do whatever i feel like. this is not money friendly but it's the only way i can survive. and anyone that expects anything else gets a glare and ignore. black empty emotions. yes -_- when i'm most zombie empty i get out in nature and take photos of interesting details to feel more connected to reality.
also want to add i've only ever been suicidal when on meds (and i've tried at least 7 over many years) because they dull emotions so you care less about whether you're alive or not. this may not be the same for everyone but i won't go near them now. they have in a way taught me that i need to find my own strength and that i only have my brain so i need to find any way possible to work with it and enjoy life my own way.
Basically, Dave grows a beard everytime he falls into depression. There's this video and the crippling depression one. And now it makes me worried because his beard is back again and he hasn't posted a video for months.
ARE YOU OKAY DAVE?
Your mental health is more important than youtube. Don't worry about uploading videos right now. Take all the time you need.
I love how realistic your videos are. By not trying to be relatable or conform, you are someone that many of us can relate to. I hope you can overcome your obstacles and good luck.
I find you really interesting to listen to. Something about you keeps hold of my interest and I don't know exactly what it is. It's almost 3am now and I can hardly keep my eyes open, but you did keep them open. I also subscribed and maybe I will find out through other videos what's that 'thing' about you.
I want to sleep... but then again... UA-cam
I tend to want to do the same.
I agree
+DEST - ROYA your... Your name and picture.... I'm gonna cry ;-;
+joey cotter im sorry, child
One of the things I got from this video is knowing that I'm not alone, I'm not the only one that is going through this storm.
Dave: I spent 3 months growing a joke.
Me: life goals, I have no life.
This is probably a placebo effect but I feel like what he is saying is exactly my problem but there is no way I'm going to be able to ask my parents to see a therapist.
I recommend calling a hotline. They are for more than just suicide and will be able to give you someone to talk to and MAY (maybe not, though) be able to provide you with some accessible resources for help. You could also try a school counsellor, if your school has one.
Ha. Therapists are scary.
your voice is calming i cant even explain it,,, i love hearing you speak ,,,, i also relate 100%
My parents wasted 20 years growing THIS joke.
👉😎👉
Don’t hate yourself man. I hate myself and I’m freakin’ nowhere in life. Trust me, I’ve been there.
who is here after the allegations
I am but I go here often so like it’s not because of the allegations
Me
Yeah me too
Any one of these people throwing insults have anything to say now that Dave sued and won?
David we miss you. Hopefully you're doing really well. Come back when you're ready.
“I want you to understand me...”, Dave said as his eyebrows jumped vigorously up and down while the fire crackled in the background
Dave, you're most adorable UA-camr Iver seen, your honesty shatters my expectations. Dont you worry, I will stand by you bro, keep working on yourself :)
I respect the content you produce so so much. Even if you may not produce a video every week or two weeks, when you do it is ACTUAL CONTENT. To me as a viewer on youtube that means more than anything.
CHRIS YOU WATCH DAVE TOO MY WORLDS COLLIDE
I understand everything that you say. I'm not a UA-camr, and I really love your videos and you, and (fanboy alert) if we'll meet IRL sometime, I'll give you a hug, if you'll want. I also hate myself a lot, and while I haven't been officially diagnosed with it, some of my friends that have depression diagnosed me with depression after learning what I felt. I'll try that same therapy, thanks a lot for teaching us about it, and I personally don't give a flying fuck about you posting videos if you aren't happy with them. Be yourself. Love yourself. And when that's finished, keep posting stuff, because we (I) love you and your videos so so much and relate to them a lot.
Love, a random dumb depressed teen.
When I mis-clicked on this video I was like "Ohh no another emotional rant" but I somehow found myself watching to the end.
Dave is just a great guy.
I haven't seen many of this guy's vids but i think i'll become a fan of sorts, he seems quite awesome
I'm all ready a fan
Morris Ambergarce Kewl :]
+Grey Crimson
so are you a fan or nah
Hmm, what exactly does a fan do?
+Grey Crimson
You said you think you'll become a fan, and now I'm asking you if you actually became one. Why do you give me this question?
Dave, we are all here for you. We are all glad that you're back and you do give me joy in the worse times!
i just watched all your videos and now realized that they were made years ago and that you're not making new ones 😖I'm so sad
Ikr
That happened to me, like after binging his channel, I noticed the dates.
same
Same
Same 😓
"I've been spending the past few months trying to figure out what is wrong with me." - from description
dude, you're amazing, and I hope you're alright. I say you're amazing because you're an amazing person and I relate to your songs a lot. I really, really, REALLY hope you're good now. stay good. don't beat yourself up, you're cool
...can I curl your hair?
i have the strong urge to braid it.
OMG I was thinking about braiding it kkk
I should let my hair grow....
+NerdsCast Dylan Gaming are u serious? she's brazilian, it's like lol or hahaha here
Matheus Teixeira it was just a joke because of what it means here
I think deep down everybody hates themselves. We try to be perfect because we think the world demands it. but we forget...the world is a bunch of people who aren't perfect...people who hide their flaws and pretend they are better than the ones who end up showing the flaws but we're just kidding ourselves.
You're very logical with a good control of emotion. I wish most or the world was like that.
That was beautiful
Dude. You are real. You are a real youtuber. You don't have any clickbait shit. Your content has meaning. I love you as a youtuber and a person, now.
Dave, I want you to love yourself unconditionally and accept yourself the way you are. Much love
Oh my! Feel better, Dave
boyinaband where are you?!?Are you okay?!??
That's what I am wondering. I hope that he is doing well!
He just did a collaboration with Game Grumps.
He's been on some game grumps videos and streams if you wanna see more recent versions of him
+Mae Fong you sir or ma'am are a savior
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I hope you're doing better, Dave. We miss you. But I'm glad you're taking care of yourself. You can't pour from an empty glass, and you can't force yourself to do things for other people if you're feeling awful. Take time. Get better. I can't wait to see you again when you're in a better mindset.
I just found your channel from watching videos by Roomie Official. I really like your music because it actually has a valuable message. I know this video was recorded years ago and I hope that you have found some peace and if you haven't learned how to love yourself I sincerely hope you hate yourself a lot less because I, and obviously many others, think you are wonderful. Blessed be.
Motivation is a very poor construct to rely on. I always thought that motivation is what I lacked, but that's not the truth. Motivation comes in bursts, and never last very long. The only way to work most of the time is through habit. You must come into routine to be able to work through something that you aren't really keen on doing. At times, you will be feeling more happy about what you are doing, but it is not a consistent feeling. Just learn how to handle this, and you'll be able to do what you want, and keep doing it when you feel unmotivated.
What if you can't keep a habit? I personally can't keep even a bad habit for more than 3 months. All my habits just go off and sometimes come back. I even have to think about breathing sometimes or I'll find myself gasping for air after a while.
u inspire me . all is copicetic
+Lucy Jenning You may need to pick up multiple hobbies, poetry, drawing, music, photography, etc. Fill up your schedule with things that interest you.
***** I have done that before. It made me very irritated.
why? would you rather sit around than find something that you're passionate about? Or were you being to hard on yourself saying that you aren't any good at it.