when i’m at my dads i have to have dinner and either lunch or breakfast and i hate it so much, i can’t workout there so i’m constantly beating my self up about it
Ik, I’m not anorexic but I still try not to eat bc ya know, and I do eat small portions at dinner so I at least eat something but today I ate breakfast and now I just feel horrible
@@_huckleberry2137 I really should be taking my own advice but I promise you, you are perfect just the way you are and I know it’s not easy to feel guilt after everything you eat but you are so unique in your own way and deserve to eat. Even if it’s just a little something, as long as your trying, I believe in you ❤️ you’re not alone
I just want to say please take care of yourself. If something damages you in any way then it's not good for you. I just hope you'll be happy the way you are.
No song has ever hit quite as deeply. I hate myself so much constantly I’m a cycle of eating less and then bingeing at night. I needed to know someone else felt the same no one else gets it’s a constant battle. But I will beat this I will get better food will not be my enemy calories won’t matter so much we’ve got this the fight isn’t over.
Sab Yellow I do the same thing. I don’t eat a lot during the day but as soon as it is night I’m so hungry I eat so much then I feel like I failed myself. I just need to not starve myself but not eat so unhealthy. Who ever is going threw this I’m with you and so are others!💕
Sab Yellow I honestly thought I was the only person who had this same exact cycle. At school I wouldn’t bring lunch so I’d get really hungry and eat everyone else’s leftovers. Then when I got home I would eat so much. At the time I forgot what being full felt like because I was on such a bad cycle. I can’t remember what it was like to eat food and not think of how many calories it is or how much I’ll have to do to burn it off. I’m jealous of my friends who can just eat a few chips and be full. Sleepovers are nightmares sometimes because at the time I eat how much and whatever I want, then in the morning I regret it and it’s something I’m still working on fixing.
Noo bestie, that's not true. I know because I felt (still do sometimes) the same way. It's not true Ed's or any mental illnesses for that matter have no shape or size. Anyone, I repeat anyone can suffer. No matter the age, gender, size, race or nationality. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's been a year since your comment, I sincerely hope you're better now. If you aren't, believe me you will be. Do not give up, do you hear me? Don't give up, please. I love you and you're beautiful just the way you are, I'm so proud of you for holding on 💗
The songs you make about these issues: depression, anorexia... I know there are other songs that talk about them but none of them hit as deeply as yours. They romatize it but you tell it as it is. All the ugly worst parts in yoir beautiful music. Every single lyric captures my attention and heart as it mirrors my own experiences and thoughts. Thank you for letting your listeners know that theyre not alone and that their trauma is not just to be a song on the radio. It is to reflect your heart and theirs. Thank you, Sara.
I think this song aswell fits for bulimia people. Since some of them aswell work out a lot, or eat less (but probably binge later). Aswell as they restrict a lot. Me myself I'm not a bulimic so I don't know much about it..
Just a question. Do you ever wish that people just cared and were concerned about you, but when they do you get really defensive and tell them that you are fine and that they should mind their own business. Or us it just me?
never felt any relatable than this and I did decide to starve myself and skip meals but you know couldn't cause my family would say I m overreacting and whenever I ate I felt guilty and I also decided to self-harm myself and I also cried cause I didn't like the way I looked but these past months I practiced self-love and self-care and I do still feel insecure and hate the way I look but instead of starving myself and feeling guilty I workout and convince myself that I deserve the food
Hey.. You don’t have to look like these skinny models be yourself girl!! These skinny models.. it only matters in the inside.. so please don’t think that you HAVE to perfect cus nobody’s perfect life’s too short for this.
Cookie_Coffee the thing is idk it’s like there’s all these girls w flat stomachs n stuff n no matter how much I try i just can’t forget it or anything.. all these ppl have their desired body n stuff idk it’s hard :(
laurella ik it’s hard.. tell your parents about it or a therapist or just whenever you think of that just automatically change the subject to so,etching positive loook in the mirror and just keep saying I’m beautiful no body’s perfect I’m beautiful the way I am 🥰 I hope good things for you girl..
Cookie_Coffee I can’t tell my parents, they’re divorced n abusive, if I go to therapy I go to my mum, she’s more abusive so my only choice atm is to stay here :( so like either way it’s abuse idk I hate it but I’m planning to runaway soon
i still remember my seventh grade self staring at the toilet bowl, sticking two fingers down my throat, and wanting to get it all out so bad. i remember drinking cold water in the morning because someone told me it helps me lose weight. i remember pinching my thighs wishing i was smaller. im currently entering 10th grade and am doing so much better now. i've thankfully gotten out of that cycle, but it still hurts how i could relate to this song anyway. stay strong y'all
im young, and im going through something similar. I don't eat breakfast and lunch, and I eat small portions of food for dinner, and count the calories. I get really anxious when I count over 150 calories. I've tried asking for help, but since I am so young, people tell me im exaggerating and I don't actually need help. im still going through this and im only starting 6th grade now. but I just wanted to say you are so strong
Young lady, I am 42 years old and your music resonates with me. Thank you for putting into words and music something I could not articulate for myself. It does not get any easier with age but we persevere and try every day to love ourselves in spite of our flaws.
I am 65 and still dealing with it. I wish I could go back and tell my younger self, and all you younger people, the dangers of all this. I have now developed high blood pressure and heart irregularities from starving myself. I've been warned by several doctors that my heart has been greatly effected, and it could cost me my life. It's too late to go back and change the past, but I'm hoping to make some changes now to preserve some of my future. Accepting that my starving myself caused this is a start.
I’m not fat, but I’m self conscious of my Weight because everyone around me even my own mom thinks I have an eating disorder when I literally don’t. It’s so frustrating.
This actually made me cry. Your music is the best. I’m so glad on of your tik toks popped up a few months ago. You are very comforting, and really crazy good at writing music!
I remember this girl from my highschool, we were in the same department and she was BEAUTIFUL. Like the kind of girl you cry over how pretty they are. And she was always wearing jackets over her uniform because she felt insecure, I always wanted to tell her how pretty she was but wasn't outgoing enough to actually do it. She was really pretty, she had thick wavy hair, her smile was very beautiful, she was adorable and perfect all over, also she was very smart and good in conversation with a side of sweetness and a great personality. Damn it hurt to see her covering her uniform, I wish I had told her how pretty she is, everyone deserves to be told how pretty they are. I hope she can someday see herself the way everyone saw her, and I hope everyone else can too
when people think of sad or depressing songs, it's always about heartbreak or struggles with friends or family, but basically about people. when a song comes along about where you think something is wrong with you, regardless of what anyone says, it's about depression. this song is the first of it's kind that i have heard that talks about body image or eating disorders and it is beautiful in the most relatable way possible because deep down, everyone has felt this
This song really made me realize I’m not alone in this. I don’t want to tell my friends about my ed because I don’t wanna be seen as attention seeking. I don’t want my family to know because I don’t want them to worry. I really want this to stop, I hate myself.
Same. Literally before one of my friends convinced me to tell my mom, it was 2 people other than me that knew. I haven’t gone to the doctor because my mom just thinks I’m overreacting. You r amazing and whatever anyone ever tells you is wrong
I cried when i heard this on tiktok, cause i hate my body and i can relate so much on this song :< Edit: Im starting to change my lifestyle, i jog and control my food, my goal is to loose 15 pounds and i hope i can reach it. For everyone who's been feeling the same it's not too late to change you can do this, believe in yourself it will take time but you'll get there, we will get through this. Thank you everyone stay safe and stay healthy!!!
Same I so my best to eat as little as possibe I usually skip lunch and I'm working on skipping breakfast and I eat very little for dinner because I like going to bed hungry so I can burn calories in my sleep
This song no joke, made me cry. I have anorexia nervosa and it is taking over my life completely, I have weekly doctor appointments and eating is so hard for me. I still haven’t stopped throwing up and skipping meals. I used to only eat 1/4 of a cup of yogurt per day, and eventually had to go to the hospital for losing 20kg in the spam of 3 months. I had a tube feeding and supervised meals. Then I relapsed and lost 8kg again. This song is so relatable in so many levels. It’s honestly the first time I’ve cried to a song.
I'm so sorry that you went through that, anorexia is so horribly deceptive. I am praying that you will be healed, have strength, and make a full recovery. Internet hugs 🤍
this is one of the most relatable songs i’ve ever heard. my friends.. they’re literally perfect. they’re so skinny and i wish i could look like them. i’m the biggest one in my group. they always talk abt how fat they are after they eat a meal, but they don’t realize that it makes me feel bad abt myself bc i’m huge. they know they’re not fat too. i cry myself to sleep every night, just wishing i could have a better body. i hate myself and i’ve drifted in and out of eating disorder habits. i truly do wish i was smaller than this
But even if you were it doesn’t feel good enough and it never will and that’s the trap and you need to tell your friends to stop making comments like that
What really matters is self assurance tho, like im a skinny dude and ive always been made fun of because im a stick and i would really get irritated at people saying they hate being fat but then mocks skinny people but then it really is all about being satisfied in your own body, when youre skinny you wanna gain weight, when youre fat you wanna lose weight, but when youre happy with your body you wanna be out there. Its all about feeling that self love that you dont care about what others say.
@@Shifaathefish Regardless of what you may be going through, regardless of your background or religion or etc, but if you would really look at things you have to find that inner happiness in you. You dont have to be pressured by what your surroundings demand just freely express what you want to be, life is like a very random speck of instance brought upon each of us that we dont know if it may come happen to us ever again so heck yeah why not make the most out of what you want out of it. But really ive been through those times like middleschool where I thought i'm living through a misery and wanted someone to end my life but i realized more like i look at myself in the mirror and literally said to myself and I CAN never forget it, i said "hey i would miss this guy (referring to myself), i feel bad about this silly man in front of me". That really stuck with me i just realized i really just lacked the self assurance and love that i've provided towards myself. Focus your energy on how you can make yourself happy and comfortable first before anyone else anyways it is your own breath to begin with. AND dont forget to look at life like its a silly videogame, there are monsters and enemies for the game to become more exciting so yeah what is life without struggles and opponents. GO FOR IT! 🥰✨
I’m watching this w tears running down my face because these lyrics match exactly how I feel and I was just having these thoughts as I came across this song and it fits how I feel so accurately :’(
I am now 5 months in anorexia recovery... I remember listening to this song and it used to trigger me. Now I cry because I do not wish to go back to that life. I am still far from fully recovered, and I know I will never recover before I solve my core problem.. But using this song as inspiration to recover is a huge step. It will be okay. Recovery is indeed hell, but it actiually does get better. I promise.
I’ve never related to something more in my life, like I literally wake up at “5 :30 to run and feel like a failure if I don’t skip breakfast and lunch”.
When i first became anorexic, my daily calorie intake was 1000 but then i kept lowering it to 750, to 500 to 250 to 100 and then eventuaply to nothing at all. I would like freeze water into popsicles and eat that and was like, im full. So like when you said youve reached your goal but still feel like you look the same, it made me think of why eating disorders aren't simply "diets". They are an unhealthy, never-ending cycle of "It's not enough". But itll never be enough
I went from 52kg / 114 pounds to 45.1 kg / 99.4 pounds and I'm eating as little as possible. This is day 3 of me eating nothing. I just hope I can go this day with out food so that I hopefully can weigh around 44kg / 97 pounds. But it depends if I can sneak around dinner or not. Since my brother is home I cannot throw out the food out the window as I did yesterday. So I need to like pretend to take food and walk away with my arms up but not any food. Or I take just a tiny bit of food. That I won't eat, but I'll smudge it on the plate so if my dad comes in he would think I ate.
“I just can’t quit pulling at my skin” stands out to me for some reason. It makes me feel like on one level there’s a person with an eating disorder looking in the mirror pulling at their “fat” because they don’t see themselves the way everyone else does. And on another level to me it means not literally pulling their skin, but emotionally pulling themselves apart because they feel like they’re not good enough. This particular part of the song stood out to me but now watching the rest of it I can think of something for each line. For example, “I’m chasing a body I’ll never outrun” to me means two things as well, the first being that people with eating disorders are overworking themselves but still think if they get a little fitter or a little stronger they can do it. The other thing it means to me is that they’re looking at the people in magazines, on TV, etc, and thinking “oh, if I get a bit more work in and eat a little less I can be like that!” And eventually end up being skinner/fitter than the specific person but not see it. In their eyes they’re still too fat or not buff enough. Hope you enjoyed my little imagination bubble, that’s what I think those lines are trying to say. If you’re struggling make sure to talk to someone you trust and be safe ♥️
"chasing a body that I know I'll never outrun" That really got me because having an ED means that you are constantly getting smaller and smaller. You are literally chasing a body you can't outrun because it will get to a point where your body will give up before your will to get your dream body will. You can't survive your "ideal body"
I was going through ED alone, I didn't tell anyone, nobody. I was starving myself for days, then binge and it comes and goes in waves. I felt so much guilty anytime I ate something, even if it was an apple or anything. I had a thinspo insta account, I wanted those bodies that I couldn't reach. I was on a Pro Ana Discord too. I lost about ten pounds. And then, I stopped because I am kinda bipolar, I was on that period were I was high. And I met my boyfriend, and then I started to be depressed again. I was back in the Pro Ana Discord server, but now, my bf told me that he would broke up if I don't leave the server and delete my thinspo accounts. I did. He helped me to accept my body. But now, I gained more than 10 pounds I really want to cry and be part of Pro Ana again.
omg love, pls don't. your boyfriend cares so much, according to what you've written. you're gorgeous, just the way you are, andd you do not want to go down that road, ive seen people who have and suffered so much. i know it seems hard, but remember that even if you feel like a failure, there are people who care even if you don't like them. i hope you're doing fine now, and im really proud that you're trying.
I went through the same thing. I lost 10 lbs within a month and then snapped out of it. Since then, I have gained it all back and then some. It sucks, but if you really want to get fit, do it by eating a lot of healthy foods and exercising moderately. Find what works for you and is sustainable in the long run. Lose weight the right way and you’ll feel so much better. A healthy lifestyle not only makes a healthy body, but a healthy mind as well, which is more important in my opinion.
no, don't do that love, you are beautiful just the way you are 💖 we aren't made to be perfect, we are made to be masterpieces, and flaws can be the most beautiful thing in masterpieces, there are people who love you for you, your bf, God, me, so please don't do that. I know it's hard, but you are a masterpiece, don't forget that. you might know this already, but let me say it again, being healthy will give you a much better life than being "thin" and unhealthy. You can be healthy and be your dream self. Paint your own masterpiece, don't copy someone else's 💖
It’s actually losing control and giving into the disorder that makes you more miserable and never be satisfied with losing. You’re not ugly. You’re you and that’s good enough for anyone.
I'm actually at my weight goal atm but I still feel as fat as I felt 30 lbs heavier.. I fee like I look the same.. I feel like I'll never be (skinny) enough..
Girl, you’re right it does suck. It’s hell. But I want you to know and remember that you’re not alone in this 🥲 Stay safe and drink plenty of water, love you❤️
always remember a poet about eating disorder, 'when you were thin to begin with, you go to hospital. But when you were not thin to begin with, you are a success story'
Same...but I didn't heard it on TikTok... I was searching for songs bout my depression, anxiety and anorexia...just to cry and feel understand... 😭And hope u have a good day💞
This is so weird... I'm currently fighting an eating disorder and this was just in my recommended. It hit hard. Beautiful voice by the way, you earned a subscriber ♡
If anyone reading this struggles with body image, know that YOU ARE ENOUGH, you are beautiful and deserve to eat and feed your body nutrients it needs to live. The more love you give to yourself, the more love you can give to everybody else. Happiness and self love is the most important thing before anything else, you’re amazing, keep eating and fighting. It’s worth it!!!
Sometimes I'm happy that I find something relatable but also worried at the same time, that so many people go through this... Please challenge yourselves with the food that brings you anxiety, i know it's hard but you can do this, you are enough and recovery is possible! Sending all the love that your hearts can handle
This song hits me in the guts because of how relatable it is. And it hurts that when people say “omg you’re so skinny, you look dead”, you are motivated to continue. Eating disorders are so easy to start, but extremely difficult to end 😞
Katlyn's Krafts please, treat yourself right, i know its hard but there will be a day when you will realise, beauty does not mean being skinny, and tall, it rather means being beautiful from the inside
Whenever I hear my mom or any adult woman say something negative about their appearance. No matter how small it is. About their weight their wrinkles anything. I have to choke back sobbing bc I’m so scared of never feeling about myself. The idea of never being okay with myself is terrifying.
I think the hardest part is being able to describe how you feel to someone. I get embarrassed and feel ashamed when I open up to people about how I used to restrict and my overall relationship with food. Seeing a counselor made a huge difference though.
lyrics: i wake up early sometimes at 5:30 to run my mom got too worried i had to tell her it was fun i feel like a failure if i don’t skip breakfast and lunch i’m chasing a body i know that i’ll never outrun cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this i’ll set a goal for myself and i’ll try to work hard i’ll reach it but swear i look just like i did from the start i know that it’s not true but i feel like i’m the only one who’s chasing a body i know that i’ll never outrun cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this (vocals n stuff) i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why that i’ll always wish i was smaller than this
TW: i felt this. i’ve been struggling with an ED for years (it started in 6th grade i’m a junior now) but every time i tell my mom how food and eating makes me feel she says it’s normal. a couple months ago i found out it’s not normal an is very unhealthy for me to be counting calories and having panic attacks if i go over “my calories” my family throws the word fat around a lot and constantly talk about loosing weight and it honestly makes everything worse. when i told my mom eating was hard for me the next day she made 3 huge meals. so ofc that made me freak out. i’m trying to get better but it’s so hard. i’ve had this for such a long time that everyone jus thinks i have a high metabolism when that’s not really the case. my aunt always talks about how she would “k*ll for my body” when she doesn’t understand i’m literally breaking to maintain it.
I feel way better knowing someone else is going through the same thing, the only thing different is I'm a sophomore; my sister yells at me all the time for not eating and makes me feel awful about it, my mom buys fast food so does my dad and my family wonders why I cry/won't eat it.. I hope that it gets better for you, you're beautiful, remember that💕
"I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch, i'm chasing a body i know that i'll never outrun.." ..I've never been able to relate to a song before...thank you..
This song genuinely made me feel heard and understood. Even though everyone tells me that I'm so skinny, I just never believe them. Even at the doctor when they say that I'm a fine weight, but I'm a little over perfect, I feel like a failure. This song and these comments really make me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you Sara. We love you.
as a mid-sized person i relate to this so much. the subtle fatshaming from my family opened up my insecurities and now thinking about eating just makes me sick. i deleted instagram to stop me from comparing myself with others but the fatshaming from my family members are just really really rough. i miss the times when i was younger and didn’t really take notice of my body shape :(
My friend has an ED and they sent me this to explain how they felt. Y'all got me teary-eyed. I know that eating disorders are hell to go theough, and I am so fucking sorry for anyone that suffers from them.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
[Verse 1] I wake up early, sometimes at 5:30 to run My mom got too worried, I had to tell her it was fun [Pre-Chorus] Oh, I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch I'm chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun [Chorus] 'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like How I look and I wish I knew why 'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this [Verse 2] I'll set a goal for myself and I'll try to work hard I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start [Pre-Chorus] I know that it's not true but I feel like I'm the only one Who's chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun [Chorus] 'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like How I look and I wish I knew why That I'll always wish I was smaller than this [Bridge] I was smaller I was smaller I was smaller I wish I was I was smaller I was smaller I was smaller I wish I was [Chorus] I'll always wish I was smaller than this (I was smaller, I was smaller) And I just can't quit pulling at my skin (I was smaller, I was smaller) (I was smaller, I was smaller) Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like How I look and I wish I knew why That I'll always wish I was smaller than this
Just incase: TW. Food oh so yummy, Sugar and sweet honey, Filling up my tummy, Now I am full. I'm getting way too fat, And I don't like that! My stomach now contracts, I feel sick from food. Throwing back my diner, Just trying to get thinner, And be a little winner, Over this fat disease. But now my body's shaking, My smile I start faking, Meals I keep skipping, Still no one notices. -Monika Stay safe all yous, and please eat :)
@@graceburns3420 I can understand.....I know it's hard....I will not gonna console you or tell you to do well and try hard because I know there is huge difference in saying and implementing......I would just say that give yourself some time....don't rush to your goals.....growth is a slow process.......and I know you are a beautiful girl.....just explore yourself by doing things which makes you happy.......don't hurt your soul, be kind to yourself after all only you can change yourself as you did earlier when you were absolutely fine.....you can do it now too....I know u can❤️
You are such a beautiful person and have such a beautiful soul. This is my upmost favorite song in the world. Thank you for pouring your soul into this work of art. It means more than to me right now than you know💕
I'm back here three years later and i think I'm okay now. I will probably never not feel the pain when I listen to this song, but I'm good now. Thank you
Oversized hoodies, skipping meals, perfect unrealistic body image, over exercising, don’t harm your body nor your mental state!! You are prefect the way you are!! Please please please never change yourself to be someone you arent, what good will it do you and the people around you? Stay safe everyone ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
wow. this is so beautiful i'm literally crying. i have no words, it's like you told the story of my life. thank you so much for making music that speaks to me on such a personal level. i love you
I started skipping lunch everyday and was so proud of myself and I used to write it on my diary. Then I just realized that I was wasting my time cuz no matter I did I would hate the way I look. And now that I think about I think it’s crazy cuz today I’m probably the most confident person ever. We’re beautiful. U only see what u don’t like in ur body cuz u pay to much attention to it. Ppl that love u literally don’t see any imperfections in u . That’s why u should love ur self cuz if u do u won’t see anything wrong. I love u so love ur self 💕
For anyone struggling with an ed (as someone who was severely anorexic for years and has since recovered) it helped me when I was recovering to only do things that I KNEW where good for my mental health. So instead of running excessive amounts to lose weight, I ran when I was feeling stressed or anxious and stopped when I was tired. I trained myself to recognize how skipping meals and being constantly hungry was making my anxiety and general self-image infinitely worse and that eating regularly (even though it was a battle with my fear of gaining weight) made me less tired and generally happier. I NEVER said anything bad about my body out loud, even if the people I was with critiqued their own bodies and even if I was thinking it. I started actively looking for famous women or people I knew that I thought were pretty even though they weren't skinny in order to train myself to accept a bigger and healthier body type. I hope this helps with someone else's recovery. :) Your body deserves your love and you deserve to love your body
Omg well done. I’m so happy you managed to get to a better place. But I gotta ask. How? Like I’ll restrict and starve for 2-3 days and on the 4th day I just need sugar so i will binge. It’s fine in the moment but I’ve just weighed myself and omggggggggggggggg I’m crying. How do you do it?
Lyrics: I wake up early sometimes at 5:30 to run My mom got too worried I had to tell her it was fun I feel like a failure if i don't skip breakfast and lunch I'm chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like How I look and I wish I knew why Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this I'll set a goal for myself and I'll try to work hard I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start I know that it's not true but I feel like I'm the only one Who's chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun
I saw the beginning on tiktok and couldn't wait for the complete song... this is amazing and your voice sounds beautiful💋❤ thank you for writing this song💞
I can’t help but cry, I’ve never had a song that I could relate to so much. Having my thoughts put into words from someone else is sadly so relieving. I believe in you and your recovery. Thank you for this song
Great song; I realize how lucky I am to have never dealt with these sorts of issues. My best wishes and support to everyone who’s struggled/struggling with body image, disordered eating, and anything in a similar ballpark as it. 💙
I listened to this song in a playlist on spotify, and I came looking for on yt thinking that she was a very famous singer, and why does she not have millions of subscribers?
Damn girl you embodied the exact feelings I have felt most my life. You are beautiful, it's amazing when music can truly express something you were never able to say to people.
This is so professional my dude. Like when I first heard this song I was “Why haven’t I heard this before?” Like this needs more attention. This is scarily underrated. You address this so well and this song really hits home. Thank you 🥺
My friends caught on that i was skipping breakfast and lunch so now I have to eat around them or they won't be too happy and I always feel disgusting after eating . I also cut wich no-one knows about because I just wanted to feel something. So this song relates to me so much
I wake up early, sometimes at 5:30 to run My mom got too worried, I had to tell her it was fun Oh, I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch I'm chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like How I look and I wish I knew why Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this I'll set a goal for myself and I'll try to work hard I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start I know that it's not true but I feel like I'm the only one Who's chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like How I look and I wish I knew why That I'll always wish I was smaller than this I was smaller, I was smaller, I was smaller I wish I was I was smaller, I was smaller, I was smaller I wish I was I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like How I look and I wish I knew why That I'll always wish I was smaller than this
The lyrics hit me. I can so relate. I hate my body and the way I look. I'm afraid no one's going to like me for who I am that's why I'm so socially scared. I'm trying so hard to change but I feel like I'm not getting any skinnier. This song made me cry so much.🥺 To anyone who is trying to change their body style, good luck and never give up even when it gets hard and I hope you reach your goal :)
Recently I’ve been feeling like I’ll never be fit like others and I’ve been eating less these past weeks… I try to convince myself that it’s ok but I can’t stop… this song almost made me cry.
Hey Maggie I just ed wanted to tell you that being fit has nothing to do with being fit. Fit and athletic people actually eat a lot of food. I highly recommend you check out Natacha Oceane on UA-cam. She is amazing, trains like a beast and has the best relationship with food. Believe me and check out her videos, they are informative and fun 🥰
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"I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch. "
I can't stop crying
when i’m at my dads i have to have dinner and either lunch or breakfast and i hate it so much, i can’t workout there so i’m constantly beating my self up about it
@@Stephanie-lk5jf I understand you. Sometimes it's really difficult live with your parents
I thought I was the only one that skipped both these meals and if I didnt I would feel so fat and horrible... but I'm not alone and neither are you❤
@@claudiadenicolas5776 my mom started noticing when I wouldnt eat and now she will tell me to.
@@shyannestrength1452 do you want talking with Instagram? I prefer than public coments
Getting angry at yourself after every meal, no matter how healthy, is tiring.
Yep, felt
Oh damn... lol even tho I don’t think I have any type of ED I am very sure I am not close off... 😔
Ik, I’m not anorexic but I still try not to eat bc ya know, and I do eat small portions at dinner so I at least eat something but today I ate breakfast and now I just feel horrible
@@_huckleberry2137 I really should be taking my own advice but I promise you, you are perfect just the way you are and I know it’s not easy to feel guilt after everything you eat but you are so unique in your own way and deserve to eat. Even if it’s just a little something, as long as your trying, I believe in you ❤️ you’re not alone
@@_huckleberry2137 If I drink a lot of water it's easy to feel full :(
The fact that "at least I'll be skinny" is something that motivates me more than anything in life is sad
So, try to find other reasons. Reasons like friends or something.
Same here
the worst is when u know u not healty about food,but when u eat even if its a little u fell guilty,im felling now
Same here
I just want to say please take care of yourself. If something damages you in any way then it's not good for you. I just hope you'll be happy the way you are.
"I'm chasing a body I know that Ill never outrun."
I'm not crying. You're crying.
Who’s cutting onions? 💀💀 🧅
youre right i am crying 🙏🙏
Well you got me
Yup...but everything will be okay! We can get through this. All together!
I am not crying
“I just can’t stop pulling at my skin” hit a little too close to home
Bruh read the room... This person is talking about struggling with body image and you’re talking about the likes? It’s disrespectful.
It’s not disrespectful there talking about how they relate to it
@Katlyn's Krafts wait did I say something disrespectful
For me too
wait I dont understand how they're being disrespectful? please enlighten me
you know it's getting bad again when you start listening to this again
Just got out of recovery and I’m falling back into it
Aha I’m back after 2 years
@MoralSupport You got this, im almost 19 and trying to get out of my ED phase rn, because it isnt doing me any good, I hope youre alright luv
real
Not me listing to this and watching supersize vs superskinny to trigger myself. After 4 healthy years😅
"I'm scared that I'm never gonna like, who I am and I wish I knew why"
I felt that way too well
Yep just a stab to the heart
same
No song has ever hit quite as deeply. I hate myself so much constantly I’m a cycle of eating less and then bingeing at night. I needed to know someone else felt the same no one else gets it’s a constant battle. But I will beat this I will get better food will not be my enemy calories won’t matter so much we’ve got this the fight isn’t over.
Sab Yellow I do the same thing. I don’t eat a lot during the day but as soon as it is night I’m so hungry I eat so much then I feel like I failed myself. I just need to not starve myself but not eat so unhealthy. Who ever is going threw this I’m with you and so are others!💕
Kenadie Thomas thank you so much for this I don’t think you understand how much I will remember this we will be okay
Sab Yellow I honestly thought I was the only person who had this same exact cycle. At school I wouldn’t bring lunch so I’d get really hungry and eat everyone else’s leftovers. Then when I got home I would eat so much. At the time I forgot what being full felt like because I was on such a bad cycle. I can’t remember what it was like to eat food and not think of how many calories it is or how much I’ll have to do to burn it off. I’m jealous of my friends who can just eat a few chips and be full. Sleepovers are nightmares sometimes because at the time I eat how much and whatever I want, then in the morning I regret it and it’s something I’m still working on fixing.
god I've been stuck in this cycle for 6 years. You can do this, you can get better
Sab Yellow omggg same I hate it I always say it will get better tar but it just gets worst😭😭😭🥺
Me: “This makes me want to come out of the ED closet.”
Also me: “You’re not sick enough for people to believe you.”
DO YOU HAVE DISCORD
IK YOU!! Do you know juno
Noo bestie, that's not true. I know because I felt (still do sometimes) the same way. It's not true
Ed's or any mental illnesses for that matter have no shape or size. Anyone, I repeat anyone can suffer. No matter the age, gender, size, race or nationality.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's been a year since your comment, I sincerely hope you're better now. If you aren't, believe me you will be.
Do not give up, do you hear me? Don't give up, please.
I love you and you're beautiful just the way you are, I'm so proud of you for holding on 💗
This is me
true, i relate to this but yk im not underweight
I’m already underweight but not sick enough
Imagine a collaboration of her and alec benjamin, their voices would sound so good together!
true
yesssssss
Omg yes
Omg yah!
I know right it be the only song I'd listen too
The songs you make about these issues: depression, anorexia... I know there are other songs that talk about them but none of them hit as deeply as yours. They romatize it but you tell it as it is. All the ugly worst parts in yoir beautiful music. Every single lyric captures my attention and heart as it mirrors my own experiences and thoughts. Thank you for letting your listeners know that theyre not alone and that their trauma is not just to be a song on the radio. It is to reflect your heart and theirs. Thank you, Sara.
Alguien lo tenía que decir, gracias.
Listen to empty by jaidenanimations, hits close to home
I think this song aswell fits for bulimia people. Since some of them aswell work out a lot, or eat less (but probably binge later). Aswell as they restrict a lot.
Me myself I'm not a bulimic so I don't know much about it..
Yet there’s still pro anas here :/
@@alexn8035 I cant tell if that is you saying that's a good thing or you want them here 😅😅
Just a question. Do you ever wish that people just cared and were concerned about you, but when they do you get really defensive and tell them that you are fine and that they should mind their own business. Or us it just me?
Same sis 🤣
lmao really how to stop that 🤣🤣
Mmmmm same here :(
...
It’s not just you. It’s me too
My childhood is ruined because the world made me feel like I had to “look a certain way” and now, that’s all I worry about. :/ I’m young, and ruined
never felt any relatable than this
and I did decide to starve myself and skip meals but you know couldn't cause my family would say I m overreacting and whenever I ate I felt guilty and I also decided to self-harm myself and I also cried cause I didn't like the way I looked
but these past months I practiced self-love and self-care and I do still feel insecure and hate the way I look but instead of starving myself and feeling guilty I workout and convince myself that I deserve the food
hope it helped and u r beautiful
@@ceoofbeingstoopid8490 go and write love myself bts on UA-cam
@@chanslaptop7522 thank u for the song recommendation, I just listened and I loved it, the lyrics were so relatable
@@ceoofbeingstoopid8490 thanks just listen to there other songs.
that web diagram hits different
reminder -U just hit 1K likes⭐
@@heavensent146 sik
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Timestamp?
@@esanfilippo1230 2:32
In my mental state right now I shouldn’t be listening to this song
Yeah me too
same
X2
Same
Same, don’t worry.
The people who disliked this are the people who tells us to get over it
@@gabachoo3920 :
Hey..
You don’t have to look like these skinny models be yourself girl!! These skinny models.. it only matters in the inside.. so please don’t think that you HAVE to perfect cus nobody’s perfect life’s too short for this.
Cookie_Coffee the thing is idk it’s like there’s all these girls w flat stomachs n stuff n no matter how much I try i just can’t forget it or anything.. all these ppl have their desired body n stuff idk it’s hard :(
laurella ik it’s hard.. tell your parents about it or a therapist or just whenever you think of that just automatically change the subject to so,etching positive loook in the mirror and just keep saying I’m beautiful no body’s perfect I’m beautiful the way I am 🥰 I hope good things for you girl..
Cookie_Coffee I can’t tell my parents, they’re divorced n abusive, if I go to therapy I go to my mum, she’s more abusive so my only choice atm is to stay here :( so like either way it’s abuse idk I hate it but I’m planning to runaway soon
i still remember my seventh grade self staring at the toilet bowl, sticking two fingers down my throat, and wanting to get it all out so bad. i remember drinking cold water in the morning because someone told me it helps me lose weight. i remember pinching my thighs wishing i was smaller. im currently entering 10th grade and am doing so much better now. i've thankfully gotten out of that cycle, but it still hurts how i could relate to this song anyway. stay strong y'all
I relate to that a lot. Hope you will get better and happier🥺💞
@@godleruii2341 thank you, I've been doing a lot better now from the past year or so. i hope you're feeling better too. 🥺❤️
I’m in 8th rn it has been 3 years since this all started i hope I can get better to
I hope you're doing better now
im young, and im going through something similar. I don't eat breakfast and lunch, and I eat small portions of food for dinner, and count the calories. I get really anxious when I count over 150 calories. I've tried asking for help, but since I am so young, people tell me im exaggerating and I don't actually need help. im still going through this and im only starting 6th grade now. but I just wanted to say you are so strong
Young lady, I am 42 years old and your music resonates with me. Thank you for putting into words and music something I could not articulate for myself. It does not get any easier with age but we persevere and try every day to love ourselves in spite of our flaws.
you are perfect the way you are, even for 42, you look amazing! you're looks doesn't define you as a perfect at all hun
-15 year old
I am 65 and still dealing with it. I wish I could go back and tell my younger self, and all you younger people, the dangers of all this. I have now developed high blood pressure and heart irregularities from starving myself. I've been warned by several doctors that my heart has been greatly effected, and it could cost me my life. It's too late to go back and change the past, but I'm hoping to make some changes now to preserve some of my future. Accepting that my starving myself caused this is a start.
how much I relate to this is just....just WOW
Same
you are so strong and beautiful. keep fighting bc ur so so perfect :))
honestly me too
Marley D you just made genuinely smile on a truly horrible day, so thank you for being so kind
I’m not fat, but I’m self conscious of my Weight because everyone around me even my own mom thinks I have an eating disorder when I literally don’t. It’s so frustrating.
This actually made me cry. Your music is the best. I’m so glad on of your tik toks popped up a few months ago. You are very comforting, and really crazy good at writing music!
One
“I’m chasing a body I know that I’ll never outrun” God. That hit.
I remember this girl from my highschool, we were in the same department and she was BEAUTIFUL. Like the kind of girl you cry over how pretty they are. And she was always wearing jackets over her uniform because she felt insecure, I always wanted to tell her how pretty she was but wasn't outgoing enough to actually do it. She was really pretty, she had thick wavy hair, her smile was very beautiful, she was adorable and perfect all over, also she was very smart and good in conversation with a side of sweetness and a great personality. Damn it hurt to see her covering her uniform, I wish I had told her how pretty she is, everyone deserves to be told how pretty they are. I hope she can someday see herself the way everyone saw her, and I hope everyone else can too
You…. Yes you… you are the reason why I still believe in good people!
Wow what a story but did dad to read like I hope she does well in life from here on out
maybe she was just really cold 😭
Aww I hope she sees your comment.
"i'm scared that i'm never going to like how i look and i wish i knew why"
*moods.*
"I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start" I can't
scrolling through the comments is making me more sad than the song itself. i just wanna hug all y’all rn.
please :(
:
@@zorfa8150 digital hug
hug*
i never signed up for your drama club
when people think of sad or depressing songs, it's always about heartbreak or struggles with friends or family, but basically about people. when a song comes along about where you think something is wrong with you, regardless of what anyone says, it's about depression. this song is the first of it's kind that i have heard that talks about body image or eating disorders and it is beautiful in the most relatable way possible because deep down, everyone has felt this
the song prom queen is about eating disorders
Strawberry shortcake and Mrs Potato Head are also kind of about that
@@solus8685 strawberry shortcake is about sexual assault, orange juice is about eating disorders
There is eyesore, please eat, bird gerhl kinda, Sophie, the day i chose not to eat etc...
There’s scars to your beautiful that came out 6 years ago though
"I'm scared I'm never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why" why did this line hit me so hard? 💔
This song really made me realize I’m not alone in this. I don’t want to tell my friends about my ed because I don’t wanna be seen as attention seeking. I don’t want my family to know because I don’t want them to worry. I really want this to stop, I hate myself.
you're not alone, and you are stronger than your thoughts
ALYX thank you💖 I’m on recovery and doing slightly better
Love yourself. You are beautiful the way you are... trust me 😘 and I'm there for you.
Jeon Sana armyyy
Same. Literally before one of my friends convinced me to tell my mom, it was 2 people other than me that knew. I haven’t gone to the doctor because my mom just thinks I’m overreacting. You r amazing and whatever anyone ever tells you is wrong
I cried when i heard this on tiktok, cause i hate my body and i can relate so much on this song :<
Edit: Im starting to change my lifestyle, i jog and control my food, my goal is to loose 15 pounds and i hope i can reach it. For everyone who's been feeling the same it's not too late to change you can do this, believe in yourself it will take time but you'll get there, we will get through this. Thank you everyone stay safe and stay healthy!!!
Daniela Melburnn same
Daniela Melburnn i know it’s hard and i live the same thing...
Same
Same
Same I so my best to eat as little as possibe I usually skip lunch and I'm working on skipping breakfast and I eat very little for dinner because I like going to bed hungry so I can burn calories in my sleep
This song no joke, made me cry.
I have anorexia nervosa and it is taking over my life completely, I have weekly doctor appointments and eating is so hard for me. I still haven’t stopped throwing up and skipping meals. I used to only eat 1/4 of a cup of yogurt per day, and eventually had to go to the hospital for losing 20kg in the spam of 3 months. I had a tube feeding and supervised meals. Then I relapsed and lost 8kg again. This song is so relatable in so many levels. It’s honestly the first time I’ve cried to a song.
I'm so sorry that you went through that, anorexia is so horribly deceptive. I am praying that you will be healed, have strength, and make a full recovery. Internet hugs 🤍
you know ur relapsing when u start listening to songs like this 😔
Same 😔💔
sameee
thing is i never recovered...
Yup
fck you're so right
this is one of the most relatable songs i’ve ever heard. my friends.. they’re literally perfect. they’re so skinny and i wish i could look like them. i’m the biggest one in my group. they always talk abt how fat they are after they eat a meal, but they don’t realize that it makes me feel bad abt myself bc i’m huge. they know they’re not fat too. i cry myself to sleep every night, just wishing i could have a better body. i hate myself and i’ve drifted in and out of eating disorder habits. i truly do wish i was smaller than this
But even if you were it doesn’t feel good enough and it never will and that’s the trap and you need to tell your friends to stop making comments like that
What really matters is self assurance tho, like im a skinny dude and ive always been made fun of because im a stick and i would really get irritated at people saying they hate being fat but then mocks skinny people but then it really is all about being satisfied in your own body, when youre skinny you wanna gain weight, when youre fat you wanna lose weight, but when youre happy with your body you wanna be out there. Its all about feeling that self love that you dont care about what others say.
@@Shifaathefish Regardless of what you may be going through, regardless of your background or religion or etc, but if you would really look at things you have to find that inner happiness in you. You dont have to be pressured by what your surroundings demand just freely express what you want to be, life is like a very random speck of instance brought upon each of us that we dont know if it may come happen to us ever again so heck yeah why not make the most out of what you want out of it. But really ive been through those times like middleschool where I thought i'm living through a misery and wanted someone to end my life but i realized more like i look at myself in the mirror and literally said to myself and I CAN never forget it, i said "hey i would miss this guy (referring to myself), i feel bad about this silly man in front of me". That really stuck with me i just realized i really just lacked the self assurance and love that i've provided towards myself. Focus your energy on how you can make yourself happy and comfortable first before anyone else anyways it is your own breath to begin with. AND dont forget to look at life like its a silly videogame, there are monsters and enemies for the game to become more exciting so yeah what is life without struggles and opponents. GO FOR IT! 🥰✨
“i feel like a failure if i don’t skip breakfast and lunch” hits to hard
Literally 5 min ago went I wish she would release the whole song.... not saying I’m psychic buttttttt
I’m watching this w tears running down my face because these lyrics match exactly how I feel and I was just having these thoughts as I came across this song and it fits how I feel so accurately :’(
Me too ☹️
me three :-(
I am now 5 months in anorexia recovery... I remember listening to this song and it used to trigger me. Now I cry because I do not wish to go back to that life. I am still far from fully recovered, and I know I will never recover before I solve my core problem.. But using this song as inspiration to recover is a huge step.
It will be okay. Recovery is indeed hell, but it actiually does get better. I promise.
how are you doing?
Keep on that revovery. That's the right road
I’ve never related to something more in my life, like I literally wake up at “5 :30 to run and feel like a failure if I don’t skip breakfast and lunch”.
Thisbitchisemptey Yeet 💕
Periodt
Thisbitchisemptey Yeet (just know you don’t have to do those things to be beautiful, you are you and that’s more than enough.. sending love💕💕)
Same I wish I could talk to you
Kim Aielle Sambilay yeah, probably need to go to therapy but don’t wanna tell anyone
When i first became anorexic, my daily calorie intake was 1000 but then i kept lowering it to 750, to 500 to 250 to 100 and then eventuaply to nothing at all. I would like freeze water into popsicles and eat that and was like, im full.
So like when you said youve reached your goal but still feel like you look the same, it made me think of why eating disorders aren't simply "diets". They are an unhealthy, never-ending cycle of "It's not enough". But itll never be enough
I hope that ur doing better
and then you get full after a few bites when you try to eat
@@ilicktoeslol that’s because when you barely eat, believe it or not, your stomach will start shrinking-
I went from 52kg / 114 pounds to 45.1 kg / 99.4 pounds and I'm eating as little as possible. This is day 3 of me eating nothing. I just hope I can go this day with out food so that I hopefully can weigh around 44kg / 97 pounds. But it depends if I can sneak around dinner or not. Since my brother is home I cannot throw out the food out the window as I did yesterday. So I need to like pretend to take food and walk away with my arms up but not any food. Or I take just a tiny bit of food. That I won't eat, but I'll smudge it on the plate so if my dad comes in he would think I ate.
@@lol69970 please don’t do this to your self, your so beautiful no matter what. I understand that your unhappy it’s your body, but you need food.
Her lyrics are always very very deep, that hits different
“I just can’t quit pulling at my skin” stands out to me for some reason. It makes me feel like on one level there’s a person with an eating disorder looking in the mirror pulling at their “fat” because they don’t see themselves the way everyone else does. And on another level to me it means not literally pulling their skin, but emotionally pulling themselves apart because they feel like they’re not good enough. This particular part of the song stood out to me but now watching the rest of it I can think of something for each line. For example, “I’m chasing a body I’ll never outrun” to me means two things as well, the first being that people with eating disorders are overworking themselves but still think if they get a little fitter or a little stronger they can do it. The other thing it means to me is that they’re looking at the people in magazines, on TV, etc, and thinking “oh, if I get a bit more work in and eat a little less I can be like that!” And eventually end up being skinner/fitter than the specific person but not see it. In their eyes they’re still too fat or not buff enough. Hope you enjoyed my little imagination bubble, that’s what I think those lines are trying to say. If you’re struggling make sure to talk to someone you trust and be safe ♥️
"chasing a body that I know I'll never outrun"
That really got me because having an ED means that you are constantly getting smaller and smaller. You are literally chasing a body you can't outrun because it will get to a point where your body will give up before your will to get your dream body will. You can't survive your "ideal body"
I was going through ED alone, I didn't tell anyone, nobody. I was starving myself for days, then binge and it comes and goes in waves. I felt so much guilty anytime I ate something, even if it was an apple or anything. I had a thinspo insta account, I wanted those bodies that I couldn't reach. I was on a Pro Ana Discord too. I lost about ten pounds. And then, I stopped because I am kinda bipolar, I was on that period were I was high. And I met my boyfriend, and then I started to be depressed again. I was back in the Pro Ana Discord server, but now, my bf told me that he would broke up if I don't leave the server and delete my thinspo accounts. I did. He helped me to accept my body. But now, I gained more than 10 pounds I really want to cry and be part of Pro Ana again.
omg love, pls don't. your boyfriend cares so much, according to what you've written. you're gorgeous, just the way you are, andd you do not want to go down that road, ive seen people who have and suffered so much. i know it seems hard, but remember that even if you feel like a failure, there are people who care even if you don't like them. i hope you're doing fine now, and im really proud that you're trying.
talk to him, he’ll understand
I went through the same thing. I lost 10 lbs within a month and then snapped out of it. Since then, I have gained it all back and then some. It sucks, but if you really want to get fit, do it by eating a lot of healthy foods and exercising moderately. Find what works for you and is sustainable in the long run. Lose weight the right way and you’ll feel so much better. A healthy lifestyle not only makes a healthy body, but a healthy mind as well, which is more important in my opinion.
no, don't do that love, you are beautiful just the way you are 💖 we aren't made to be perfect, we are made to be masterpieces, and flaws can be the most beautiful thing in masterpieces, there are people who love you for you, your bf, God, me, so please don't do that. I know it's hard, but you are a masterpiece, don't forget that. you might know this already, but let me say it again, being healthy will give you a much better life than being "thin" and unhealthy. You can be healthy and be your dream self. Paint your own masterpiece, don't copy someone else's 💖
@@anjyfox she doesn't need to join shit.
I’ve been trying to find a perfect song to describe how I feel everyday, and I finally found it. Thank you
When you feel this way but you never actually had the control to lose weight so you just sit there thinking how ugly you look
It’s actually losing control and giving into the disorder that makes you more miserable and never be satisfied with losing. You’re not ugly. You’re you and that’s good enough for anyone.
I'm actually at my weight goal atm but I still feel as fat as I felt 30 lbs heavier.. I fee like I look the same.. I feel like I'll never be (skinny) enough..
Yeah
same literally ive been able to starve myself for a couple days after eating a lot but i always go back to eating
That’s me
Parents will never understand how we feel, because according to them "it is silly"
They do understand. But they feel anger because they feel so helpless. Just switch perspective for a second.
My mum was anorexic but she still doesn’t understand why I would want to be smaller.
I would like, but the likes r at 111
@@ilovepancakes6077 hahah
what shitty ass parents do you have?
"I know that its not true but I feel like I'm the only one who´s chasing a body I know I'll never outrun"
this hits HARD
"And i feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch"
That hurts....because that's me....
Girl, you’re right it does suck. It’s hell.
But I want you to know and remember that you’re not alone in this 🥲
Stay safe and drink plenty of water, love you❤️
Me too
I came from tik tok: this is now my new favourite song, ive never felt less alone in a time where I feel loneliest and all I can say is thank you🥺😭
Lottie’s Life 💕
always remember a poet about eating disorder, 'when you were thin to begin with, you go to hospital. But when you were not thin to begin with, you are a success story'
Me: *hears this song on TikTok and decided to check it out*
Also me: repeat repeat repeat
Same...but I didn't heard it on TikTok... I was searching for songs bout my depression, anxiety and anorexia...just to cry and feel understand... 😭And hope u have a good day💞
This is so weird... I'm currently fighting an eating disorder and this was just in my recommended. It hit hard. Beautiful voice by the way, you earned a subscriber ♡
I know it’s rough but I believe in you and you will get through this. 💗
For everyone struggling like me, just stay strong y'all 🥺🙏🏻 praying for all of us to feel better.
If anyone reading this struggles with body image, know that YOU ARE ENOUGH, you are beautiful and deserve to eat and feed your body nutrients it needs to live. The more love you give to yourself, the more love you can give to everybody else. Happiness and self love is the most important thing before anything else, you’re amazing, keep eating and fighting. It’s worth it!!!
Samara Pranata ur soul is beautiful
thank you, i rly needed that 🥺
kasia evans thank you gorgeous 💘
rebecca._. lynne no problem:)
thank u so much 🥺
Came all the way from TikTok just to cry my eyes out listen to this on repeat
Same!
Sometimes I'm happy that I find something relatable but also worried at the same time, that so many people go through this... Please challenge yourselves with the food that brings you anxiety, i know it's hard but you can do this, you are enough and recovery is possible! Sending all the love that your hearts can handle
This song hits me in the guts because of how relatable it is. And it hurts that when people say “omg you’re so skinny, you look dead”, you are motivated to continue. Eating disorders are so easy to start, but extremely difficult to end 😞
Katlyn's Krafts if you’re going through a hard time, just remember you are beautiful, and loved
Katlyn's Krafts please, treat yourself right, i know its hard but there will be a day when you will realise, beauty does not mean being skinny, and tall, it rather means being beautiful from the inside
Katlyn's Krafts I’ve gone through the same thing, and i understand your feelings. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL :)
Whenever I hear my mom or any adult woman say something negative about their appearance. No matter how small it is. About their weight their wrinkles anything. I have to choke back sobbing bc I’m so scared of never feeling about myself. The idea of never being okay with myself is terrifying.
I think the hardest part is being able to describe how you feel to someone. I get embarrassed and feel ashamed when I open up to people about how I used to restrict and my overall relationship with food. Seeing a counselor made a huge difference though.
lyrics:
i wake up early
sometimes at 5:30
to run
my mom got too worried
i had to tell her it was fun
i feel like a failure
if i don’t skip breakfast and lunch
i’m chasing a body
i know that i’ll never outrun
cause i’ll always wish
i was smaller than this
and i just can’t quit
pulling at my skin
oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like
how i look and i wish i knew why
cause i’ll always wish
i was smaller than this
i’ll set a goal for myself
and i’ll try to work hard
i’ll reach it but swear
i look just like i did from the start
i know that it’s not true
but i feel like i’m the only one
who’s chasing a body
i know that i’ll never outrun
cause i’ll always wish
i was smaller than this
and i just can’t quit
pulling at my skin
oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like
how i look and i wish i knew why
cause i’ll always wish
i was smaller than this
(vocals n stuff)
i’ll always wish
i was smaller than this
and i just can’t quit
pulling at my skin
oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like
how i look and i wish i knew why
that i’ll always wish
i was smaller than this
Thanks!
Thank you ❤️
It's literally on the screen 🤣
@@blankspace291 yea but some people (Including myself) like it this way better......IDK why but i guess its because you can see all the lyrics?!?
I have depression, anxiety, and a eating disorder and I lie to my family saying I'm fine but when I'm by myself I just cry
Don’t lie because that’s exhausting and you need to get better
❤
💗💫⭐🫀
How have I only just found this song, been on repeat for days. Hit the nail on the head with this! Anorexia, body dysmorphia is truly soul destroying.
“I’ll set a goal for myself and try to work hard ,I’ll reach it but swear I looked the same at the start “... wow how much I relate .
The people who dislike this are the people who say "just eat
TW:
i felt this. i’ve been struggling with an ED for years (it started in 6th grade i’m a junior now) but every time i tell my mom how food and eating makes me feel she says it’s normal. a couple months ago i found out it’s not normal an is very unhealthy for me to be counting calories and having panic attacks if i go over “my calories” my family throws the word fat around a lot and constantly talk about loosing weight and it honestly makes everything worse. when i told my mom eating was hard for me the next day she made 3 huge meals. so ofc that made me freak out. i’m trying to get better but it’s so hard. i’ve had this for such a long time that everyone jus thinks i have a high metabolism when that’s not really the case. my aunt always talks about how she would “k*ll for my body” when she doesn’t understand i’m literally breaking to maintain it.
I feel way better knowing someone else is going through the same thing, the only thing different is I'm a sophomore; my sister yells at me all the time for not eating and makes me feel awful about it, my mom buys fast food so does my dad and my family wonders why I cry/won't eat it.. I hope that it gets better for you, you're beautiful, remember that💕
"I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch, i'm chasing a body i know that i'll never outrun.."
..I've never been able to relate to a song before...thank you..
This song genuinely made me feel heard and understood. Even though everyone tells me that I'm so skinny, I just never believe them. Even at the doctor when they say that I'm a fine weight, but I'm a little over perfect, I feel like a failure. This song and these comments really make me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you Sara. We love you.
as a mid-sized person i relate to this so much. the subtle fatshaming from my family opened up my insecurities and now thinking about eating just makes me sick. i deleted instagram to stop me from comparing myself with others but the fatshaming from my family members are just really really rough. i miss the times when i was younger and didn’t really take notice of my body shape :(
as someone with anorexia... this hits different like wayyy different
My friend has an ED and they sent me this to explain how they felt. Y'all got me teary-eyed.
I know that eating disorders are hell to go theough, and I am so fucking sorry for anyone that suffers from them.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
How is your friend now?
@@ankitamandal18 They're doing a little better nowadays- but they still have their ups and downs
@@zeddcrystals2442 thats lovely to hear that they are doing better. I pray the very best for them.
[Verse 1]
I wake up early, sometimes at 5:30 to run
My mom got too worried, I had to tell her it was fun
[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch
I'm chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun
[Chorus]
'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
And I just can't quit pulling at my skin
Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like
How I look and I wish I knew why
'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
[Verse 2]
I'll set a goal for myself and I'll try to work hard
I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start
[Pre-Chorus]
I know that it's not true but I feel like I'm the only one
Who's chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun
[Chorus]
'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
And I just can't quit pulling at my skin
Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like
How I look and I wish I knew why
That I'll always wish I was smaller than this
[Bridge]
I was smaller
I was smaller
I was smaller
I wish I was
I was smaller
I was smaller
I was smaller
I wish I was
[Chorus]
I'll always wish I was smaller than this (I was smaller, I was smaller)
And I just can't quit pulling at my skin (I was smaller, I was smaller)
(I was smaller, I was smaller)
Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like
How I look and I wish I knew why
That I'll always wish I was smaller than this
thx
Just incase: TW.
Food oh so yummy,
Sugar and sweet honey,
Filling up my tummy,
Now I am full.
I'm getting way too fat,
And I don't like that!
My stomach now contracts,
I feel sick from food.
Throwing back my diner,
Just trying to get thinner,
And be a little winner,
Over this fat disease.
But now my body's shaking,
My smile I start faking,
Meals I keep skipping,
Still no one notices.
-Monika
Stay safe all yous, and please eat :)
This made me cry😭❤️
@@rushdashajar8517 ^-^ hope you're doing okay.
This hurts omg 🥺😢
I cant eat..... I wish I was 82 lbs and I have 116 lbs to lose..... I hate being short fat and ugly.....😔💔
@@graceburns3420 I can understand.....I know it's hard....I will not gonna console you or tell you to do well and try hard because I know there is huge difference in saying and implementing......I would just say that give yourself some time....don't rush to your goals.....growth is a slow process.......and I know you are a beautiful girl.....just explore yourself by doing things which makes you happy.......don't hurt your soul, be kind to yourself after all only you can change yourself as you did earlier when you were absolutely fine.....you can do it now too....I know u can❤️
You are such a beautiful person and have such a beautiful soul. This is my upmost favorite song in the world. Thank you for pouring your soul into this work of art. It means more than to me right now than you know💕
I'm back here three years later and i think I'm okay now. I will probably never not feel the pain when I listen to this song, but I'm good now. Thank you
Oversized hoodies, skipping meals, perfect unrealistic body image, over exercising, don’t harm your body nor your mental state!! You are prefect the way you are!!
Please please please never change yourself to be someone you arent, what good will it do you and the people around you? Stay safe everyone ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
tysm for this ❤ YOU TOO
im not crying ur crying and thank you i love you :> ❤️
Not me wearing an oversized hoodie 24/7
@ur mama I can’t do it anymore my school just put in a dress code
wow. this is so beautiful i'm literally crying. i have no words, it's like you told the story of my life. thank you so much for making music that speaks to me on such a personal level. i love you
I started skipping lunch everyday and was so proud of myself and I used to write it on my diary. Then I just realized that I was wasting my time cuz no matter I did I would hate the way I look. And now that I think about I think it’s crazy cuz today I’m probably the most confident person ever. We’re beautiful. U only see what u don’t like in ur body cuz u pay to much attention to it. Ppl that love u literally don’t see any imperfections in u . That’s why u should love ur self cuz if u do u won’t see anything wrong. I love u so love ur self 💕
*no matter what I did
For anyone struggling with an ed (as someone who was severely anorexic for years and has since recovered) it helped me when I was recovering to only do things that I KNEW where good for my mental health. So instead of running excessive amounts to lose weight, I ran when I was feeling stressed or anxious and stopped when I was tired. I trained myself to recognize how skipping meals and being constantly hungry was making my anxiety and general self-image infinitely worse and that eating regularly (even though it was a battle with my fear of gaining weight) made me less tired and generally happier. I NEVER said anything bad about my body out loud, even if the people I was with critiqued their own bodies and even if I was thinking it. I started actively looking for famous women or people I knew that I thought were pretty even though they weren't skinny in order to train myself to accept a bigger and healthier body type. I hope this helps with someone else's recovery. :) Your body deserves your love and you deserve to love your body
So there’s hope?:)
Omg well done. I’m so happy you managed to get to a better place.
But I gotta ask. How? Like I’ll restrict and starve for 2-3 days and on the 4th day I just need sugar so i will binge. It’s fine in the moment but I’ve just weighed myself and omggggggggggggggg I’m crying. How do you do it?
i’m struggling rn with an eating disorder but this song made me feel like i’m not alone 🧡
dani t you’re not alone girly!! Keep pushing through. You’re so strong
Katie Grace thank you 🥺💓💓
Same here I’ve had one for maybe 5 years
I belive in you! Ur strong
Lyrics:
I wake up early sometimes at 5:30 to run
My mom got too worried I had to tell her it was fun
I feel like a failure if i don't skip breakfast and lunch
I'm chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun
Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
And I just can't quit pulling at my skin
Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like
How I look and I wish I knew why
Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
I'll set a goal for myself and I'll try to work hard
I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start
I know that it's not true but I feel like I'm the only one
Who's chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun
I saw the beginning on tiktok and couldn't wait for the complete song... this is amazing and your voice sounds beautiful💋❤ thank you for writing this song💞
This song is the most realistic song I have ever heard I am sobbing because it hits so hard
"oh im scared im never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why"
the tears are coming up in my eyes like for the 100th time
I will never find an artist I could relate more to.. this was lovely and was my voice to speak :(
this song is really helping me feel not alone, and i really needed that, more than you could think
“I’ll set a goal for myself, and I’ll try work hard. I’ll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start.” so relatable 😭
I can’t help but cry, I’ve never had a song that I could relate to so much. Having my thoughts put into words from someone else is sadly so relieving. I believe in you and your recovery. Thank you for this song
This song made my cat come up to my phone and start purring
OMG SAME LOL
"chasing a body i'll never outrun"
"and i just cant quit pulling at my skin"
"Im scared that i'm never gonna like how i look"
well that hit hard.
Great song; I realize how lucky I am to have never dealt with these sorts of issues. My best wishes and support to everyone who’s struggled/struggling with body image, disordered eating, and anything in a similar ballpark as it. 💙
This song is all my thoughts every second.
I listened to this song in a playlist on spotify, and I came looking for on yt thinking that she was a very famous singer, and why does she not have millions of subscribers?
Same!! I found it on a playlist too and came looking for it. I’m surprised she doesn’t have millions of subscribers
Someone please make this a 10 hour version this song is just to perfect🥺😔😭😭
YES
Damn girl you embodied the exact feelings I have felt most my life. You are beautiful, it's amazing when music can truly express something you were never able to say to people.
This is so professional my dude. Like when I first heard this song I was “Why haven’t I heard this before?”
Like this needs more attention. This is scarily underrated. You address this so well and this song really hits home.
Thank you 🥺
this is one of the first tik tok songs that doesn’t just have that one good replayed part ☺️ love this song all the way through
My friends caught on that i was skipping breakfast and lunch so now I have to eat around them or they won't be too happy and I always feel disgusting after eating . I also cut wich no-one knows about because I just wanted to feel something. So this song relates to me so much
Please seek help because it’s not worth carrying on in this cycle.
same.
Same
I wake up early, sometimes at 5:30 to run
My mom got too worried, I had to tell her it was fun
Oh, I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch
I'm chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun
Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
And I just can't quit pulling at my skin
Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like
How I look and I wish I knew why
Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
I'll set a goal for myself and I'll try to work hard
I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start
I know that it's not true but I feel like I'm the only one
Who's chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun
Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this
And I just can't quit pulling at my skin
Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like
How I look and I wish I knew why
That I'll always wish I was smaller than this
I was smaller, I was smaller, I was smaller
I wish I was
I was smaller, I was smaller, I was smaller
I wish I was
I'll always wish I was smaller than this
And I just can't quit pulling at my skin
Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like
How I look and I wish I knew why
That I'll always wish I was smaller than this
The lyrics hit me. I can so relate. I hate my body and the way I look. I'm afraid no one's going to like me for who I am that's why I'm so socially scared. I'm trying so hard to change but I feel like I'm not getting any skinnier. This song made me cry so much.🥺 To anyone who is trying to change their body style, good luck and never give up even when it gets hard and I hope you reach your goal :)
"I always wish I was smaller than this". That's just one of my many feelings. You're not by yourself.
Recently I’ve been feeling like I’ll never be fit like others and I’ve been eating less these past weeks… I try to convince myself that it’s ok but I can’t stop… this song almost made me cry.
Maggie Pante this. I felt this
Hey Maggie I just ed wanted to tell you that being fit has nothing to do with being fit. Fit and athletic people actually eat a lot of food. I highly recommend you check out Natacha Oceane on UA-cam. She is amazing, trains like a beast and has the best relationship with food. Believe me and check out her videos, they are informative and fun 🥰
Pls seek help before this majorly spirals
@@AmberWoodMusicx i can’t :(( I can’t tell my dad +we’re in quarantine and can’t get out of the house..
@@dontmindmepassingthrough9013 contact BEAT
I Love this honestly. Since I heard the song the first time on TikTok, I started crying. I just relate to this too hard, and it kinda sucks.
Shinichi Kudo me too. i literally cry every time i listen :( we can do this tho, i love u
Shawna M ohhh thanks, yes we can do this and I love u too