Being mistreated after being sent to a hospital for treatment is ridiculous. The hospital staff took advantage of the fact that they knew no one was present to support you.
Whats worse is having to work a job to survive AND pay for the therapy to get over their behavior, and having to get attorneys involved that make a 15-30% off of the victims compensation winning law suit, dealing with more trauma in the court system. The whole system has been corrupt since the beginning.
I'm sorry, dear of your ordeal that you were mistreated and our medical system has failed the patient,especially for a patient has being label with mental illness because you have an anxiety and depression. They have no respect and symphaty.Anyway, we must learn to advocate ourselves and talk to your lawyer. I want you to know that you are not alone. You must learn how to redeem your dignity and fight for it..stand up for yourself.
He is 100% to blame. You take care of your kids, you don't abandon them to a life with a bed ridden mother. That's not a father, that is a psychopath with zero empathy.... Guy for having a father like that, turned out better than he should have....
@@el6226 Exactly. He probably blamed his kid's behavior for why he kicked him out. But if his kid has a behaviour problem it was his job to raise him so he doesn't have behavioural issues, and so if he had a decent bone in his body, he would do the work he should have done when his kid was small to help guide him for life, then, it doesn't matter how old your kid is, a father's job is to make sure that kid has the skills, mental fortitude to face the world, and the issues that they will face... if you don't, it's on you. No parent is perfect, all parents fail in some way honestly, but it's the degree of failure that matters... and if you completely and utterly fail your kid, as he did, then you are 100% a horrible person, and a horrendous father...
his parents divorce which probably was a result of his SELFISH DAD caused him and his sister ALOT OF PAIN. AND ALSO PAIN FOR HIS MOTHER! SO UNFAIR! I IMAGINE HIS DAD GOT KARMA ONE DAY!!!!
Improving your mental health is not actually their job, since there is no monetary advantage to them. The insurance company or government funding pays for you to be there while you're there, so their job becomes to contain you for the maximum amount of time that you will be funded.
What, like a hospital? Yeah one would think but uhhh… They wouldn’t want their brainwashed zombie employees breathing any fresh open air or getting vitamin D as it might have them be able to feel enough to see what they are doing to people? Bossman can’t have that.
Got institutionalized around 2015 in my forties. Lost my job, healthcare, apartment, friends... etc. Avoid those hospitals like the plague! Everyone will treat you like damaged goods afterwards. Barely functioning, but still living. It's not healthcare, it's a business.
No punishment on earth is enough for the doctors, nurses, administrators and others involved in this horror. The fact that the doctors tried to sue him for defamation after the law suit against them shows what monsters they are.
They say that no joke, psychopaths, people born with psychopathic personality, make the best military, police, DOCTORS and politicians/businessman, because you need to be able to function in high stress situations while also still acting and thinking as if your own emotions aren't a factor. Literally the most successful people on earth are probably to some degree psyco, meaning born that way or socio, meaning made by trauma or life experiences, Pathic. It just works
@@WojciechowskaAnna why I say asking for help killed me. Some understand and see what has come from it. Look at all the help that popped up for ADHD and ASD... $250 an hour or $5000 tests that treat nothing.
@@Swagmaster1169 I know. Where my hate for neurotypicals comes from. I held a fulltime job from age twelve until I was made to feel dumb and less because I asked what I should not have or pointed out wrong.
My parents tried doing this to me as a silencing punishment for finally speaking out about their abuse. This was in 2022 and traumatic. None of the doctors listened to me and when I asked why I wasn’t being taken seriously they nurse said because your parents told us what’s going on with you and there are two of them and one of you…. That’s a direct quote. No one had an ounce of empathy. The other people in there were treated like they were less than human, it was inhumane.;
@@thelostbrineinthewoods9298 my parents are narcissists who work overtime covering up abuse, I would encourage everyone to lookup narcissistic abuse and what it consists of because honestly I wish I knew about it sooner in life. Basically they were punishing me for not remaining quiet about their abusive behavior towards me for many years. Abusive people tend to punish those who speak out honestly about them
What the describes this exactly how it was. I worked in a mental hospital for 12 years. And if they weren’t crazy when they got there, they were made crazy. No one got out. It was truly a terrifying experience even for the workers.
This guy is incredibly eloquent, self- aware, intelligent and meticulously descriptive. He is emotionally expressive. He is a winner in life as he is narrating an episode in his life. He is not a victim but a survivor and thriving. God bless him.
@@Spookdookinprobably because it's part of who they are and shaped/shapes them as a person. Like, why does anyone "cling" to "titles" such as their race, ethnicity, gender, a medical diagnosis, even their names they were given at birth? Because these "titles" define/describe who we are 🤷♀️
@@Spookdookin Trying to put blame and guilt on people who have experienced injustice and suffering is morally bankrupt. That said, some people use their past as an excuse for not taking morally responsibility of their own subsequent actions. Just like many entitled people who haven't experienced true existential suffering live in their ignorance instead of trying to truly understand and suffer with scarred people. When this short life is over, those who have shown compassion will be shown compassion.
I can relate to so much. I was hospitalized at a mental hospital at age 17. My parents were very provincial. Doctors were next to God. I am now age 70. I believe to this day the "professionals"made me more ill, over medicated me and kept me there until the insurance ran out, (months). Evil.
Most Dr. has a God complex, they don't want you to question their authorities? Actually it takes two to work together between dr. and patient. Anyway,don't get me wrong they are good Dr. or even better. Dr. mantra don't do harm , but this mantra sometimes is not for every one.I'm not against Dr. actually and I appreciate their profession because they are suppose to help and cure patient.But what I can't stand when some of these Dr. are intitled, mistreated patients and violate your trust.I'm just saying...
I'm sorry of your ordeal . Anyway, Drs are suppose to help and find cure but in every apples in the basket there is bad apple and it contaminate the other apples.
I was 17 too. For 3 weeks. I begged them to let me go until the week I said I need to stay a little bit longer 🤦♀️ they kicked me out and I was vulnerable and scared. They too gave me traumatic memories. Horrific 😢💔 Sending my love to you ❤
I worked in the admissions office of a private psych hospital for about 6 years in the 80's. The patients were by far ! the sanest ones in the whole place. I loved them.They were so real and honest.
HOW IS THIS LEGAL?! They absolutely NEED to shut down these "hospitals" and send those administrators to jail! Tying someone to a bed until they need physical therapy to relearn how to WALK?! That's TORTURE. That's violence.
The nurses need prison too, but if you want an example, nurses were proven in civil court to have tortured and raped maya kowalski at a john hopkins childrens hospital. The accused has since been promoted and remains at the hospital. Many think the promotion was a bribe for not snitched on the hospitals other 5 or so allegations of similar conduct. Most in the medical community seem to hate maya and support john hopkins as far as I can tell. There are literal photos of maya being kissed on the lips while pinned down, and the nurse in the photo is employed, promoted, and the "medical community" is just gas lighting themselves and everyone else about the whole thing.
Old methods. Stuff like this wasn't fully abolished til the 90s. Used to be about warping people to better suit society. Post industrial revolution that's a numb and non disruptive factory worker. The process actually involves the patient now and big strides in mental health research. It involves people so it's not perfect. The teen bit is appalling as anyone in puberty could be kept in a place like that, we now have laws and diagnostic criteria to prevent similar.
My “mother “ tried to have me put in an institution when I was 16. I got to the doctor and told him what was going on at home. I had a manipulative mother and narcissist at that. If she didn’t have her way in all things she would make our lives a living hell. Make up things and create scenarios,lie and she would try and get people to go along with her schemes. After this Dr. heard my side of the story he immediately called her and said”shes ready to go home “! Hearing this she immediately flew into a rage. The Dr. calmly said, “There is nothing wrong with her maybe it’s you that needs help”! Parents came and got me and it was a very uncomfortable ride back to their house indeed. I graduated high school and went into the Air Force. At last I was on my own! I’m 76 now and it still hurts me to think family treated me like that. You went through much worse than me. I commend you for succeeding with your life. God bless you and your wife.
There is a woman named janie deleon that keeps spreading wrong information and was doing munchausens by proxy and there was a nurse named Carrie Wolf that was doing munchausens by proxy and there was a state ombudsman that already said that The Center for Health Care Services in San Antonio is wrong and my story has not ever changed about this and also Karen Inzurriaga and giovanni p gomez were lying on purpose and I have been a victim of human trafficking after there was fictitious records entered after I was raped by an employee of a mental health consortium clinic. There was systematic rights violations solely designed to conceal multiple rapes and severe injuries.
You got lucky talking to an actual human with emotions and empathy. A lot of them were either so dissociated from their life and their patients, or just so heartless and or sadistic that they would not care. Would say you were lying and manipulating to get out when you needed _""help""_ I'm really glad you didn't have to go through that. And you picked the right branch of the military, air conditioning and spacious bunks and comfy chairs.
true dat man ! i mean this poor soul got thrown away like a used paper towel, and was DX'd as crazy and unmanageable, when all he needed was a few hugs, to be heard, respected and valued; treated like a human being,
As someone who suffers with extreme severe anxiety I can totally relate to her. I would stop eating for days at a time as a punishment. I worry a lot about my life, everyone around me and pleasing everyone. It's absolutely crippling, so glad she got the help she needed, lovely young lady it's so sad that society has 1 in 3 people suffering mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help
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We've said this for decades, wrung our hands and pointed fingers, which hasn't fixed it. We need real solutions in our corrupt for-profit insurance system, changes in our educational system to break the cycle of human abuse, and laws to hold people accountable that send a clear message that this will not be tolerated. Until strict oversight holds people accountable, this won't change because human nature isn't always kind.
I was in a facility similar to this in 2011 after a suicide attempt at 14. Kids tied to beds, no outside time, endless screaming. When I got out, I felt like it had been more of a punishment than treatment. I felt like I had been abandoned in my darkest hour, left to deal with the aftermath of a traumatic event in what was essentially a prison. I thought, "never try to kill yourself again, because if you fail, they'll put you back in that hellhole." It's been thirteen years and I still have a hard time talking about it, or even thinking about it.
My dad lost his brother to suicide few years after he started executing a plan to kill himself my mom caught him and he was sent to to a place like that but he had a positive experience it helped him …they did not push medication they waited and all around were good professionals…im sorry you had a negative experience in your time of need
My dear friend hung herself in a psych ward. They cut her down and took her to the medical hospital. They released her some 15 days later to the psyche ward. She hung herself again back at the psych ward within 20 minutes and completed self deletion. RIP Letha Dison, Las Cruces, NM 2009.
They're not inhumane, they just trying to properly handle dangerous people. They don't want anyone hurting themselves or others. Sometimes this requires restraints, or padded cells, or strait jackets. Its not that the wards are bad, its just that life on the ward isn't too pleasant. Thats because mental illness isn't too unpleasant. Having a faulty gall bladder or appendix is also very unpleasant. And yes, doctors often have to inflict a bit of pain to cure these conditions, its the same thing. And, of course, we know teens are often discipline problems, unruly. The hospital structure and routine mustn't be disrupted. So, when teens misbehave, they must be punished. Thats just all there is to it. Case closed.
My mom stopped feeding me and was abusive and my neighbors called child services. My mom told them I was just refusing to eat and was throwing up food and they sent me to a kids ward. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't even use the bathroom alone. After I ate their food for days and was happy, the head nurse took me off eating protocol and said my mom was wrong. However, no one reported that. I still had to go back to my mom. They should always ask the kids whats going on at home first before just shoving you in there. Edit: Finished watching, you are an amazing person, thank you for your story and for sharing your perspective and spreading light from it. You also reminded me of the times that I've met people who's mom had the same disorder as mine, and I , we, conntected and didn't feel so alone. It was wild how many things we have in common. Thank you for reminding me of that. Im still struggling at 30 with it. I also had no idea about the cortex part, that's very interesting and makes sense.
My parents also abandoned me at the local ward. They literally skipped away holding hands as I looked back at them screaming for them not to do this. My last memory is seeing what I think were them smiling at each other, butt it was hard to see because of the tears and being pulled away by the nurses. I'll never forget the pain of that day. I'm still in the ward, doing better for myself after many years, I'm told they'll come back but the nurses insist they're gone for good. Still holding on.
@@EH88926 Mercy. None of the staff, government, or parents will help you. You are your own savior, your own guru. Stay emotionally strong and hone your intellect. Get yourself out of there please.
@@c.eb.1216emancipation is a thing only parents can do in romania to not have to take care of a kid anymore. You as their child cannot emancipate yourself from them so you cannot avoid paying their pension from your salary.
Specialized treatment facilities could benefit kids if they were more like a group home. Just not when the incentives are the insurance payouts and there is no oversight for whatever abuse is going on.
I know people who would probably not be alive without having been to such a hospital as a kid. They tried to make it so. But their experiences were a lot different.
I grew up in the same town as Pennhurst Asylum in PA. Some of my friends parents used to work there and my best friends mom said something to the effect of “but they’re not actually people” to justify the abuse
get close to God, and he'll get close to you,his timing not ours,But look at this result, a new life,a new start, strength power, healed, to a point. But arent we all going thru healings
@@carolynkiem868 I was brought up Baptist and I know the Bible inside out. It's all bullshit, nonsense written thousands of years ago to explain what we now have the answers to.
Its just pathetic that a grown woman who can work and has life experience is so lazy and coddled she labels a 12 year old "the man of the house." Then venting to her children about how much their lives suck in the middle of the night? MAYBE GET OUT THERE AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, I JUST LEARNED HOW TO FORM A PARAGRAPH... AND YOURE LIKE 40!
"Yes, Junior, you're now the 'Man of the House' while Daddy's away on his journey of self-discovery. Lisa, you're promoted to boy, Toddler, Janet, you're promoted to Lisa. I'll expect all of you to obey the acting Man of the House as you would your daddy. Junior, if I come back to a house fulla chaos, somebody, probably you, will get the beating of your life"
I was actually excited to hear someone say, "The adults didn't listen, they talk through me" I am 60 and it's still a learning experience to know I am not the only one that went through my younger life wondering why I was born. Thank You for sharing. I hope it helps others too.
My brother was also abandoned in a mental hospital, but he was much younger. He was 9 and I was 11. He probably would now have a diagnosis of severe ADHD and mild aspergers. It was horrible. We were separated for nearly 27 years. Your post has given me so much…I really can’t express it. I forget how much my brother and I went though. People see us, and think we are “normal” because we are functioning, because this stuff doesn’t show in the outside. They have an expectation that we should react and function like everyone else. Your video reminds me to give myself permission to take life slower, to remember how lucky I am to be here, and to just take life as slow as I want/need to. Thank you
Imagine your parent looking you dead in the face and telling you that your staying there with them is a privilege. After YOU got put in the position to fill his empty space because he found a new life. 💔
Some people shouldn’t have kids. It’s a privilege to have a child because the child didn’t have choice to come into the parents world in the first place.
Yeah, that's how my dad treated me. I took it as completely normal but now I can see how, inside, I felt very degraded. I didn't pay attention to my feelings very much.... but they were there.
Then why USA and some other countries are trying to ban abortions and targeting single/unmarried and childless women, and saying bad things about them in the political sector? I don't understand @@Blue_Azure101
I was destroyed at UCLA and Torrance Memorial in So. Cal. in 1991 I reported my abusers and torturers but nothing was done. You're very brave, thank you for your honesty and courage. America is a very dangerous place. Achtung.
Such a powerful story! Thanks for sharing! I went through somewhat of a similar situation in a psychiatric hospital, it was traumatic. I pray that mental health institutions change for the better. I am grateful for the healing work Jesus has done and is doing in me, like you mentioned we are not what happened to us! Anyone reading this, know you are LOVED and seen by God 💗
Im so Sorry that happened to you!! As adults they failed you greatly!!! They will need answer to God one day!! I hope you can move on and know all this was not right and was wrong!! I hope you’re living a good life now!! ❤
@@joyaustin6581He’s getting a pass because he wasn’t the one who did it. What a ridiculous argument. She would have been far better off without that sorry excuse for a “mother” around.
I can totally relate to this. I had a nervous breakdown when i was 18 and it was entirely a result of my emotional needs never being considered by anyone. I normalized everything i experienced until then, until it was more than I could deal with and my mind kind of broke. Really crazy looking back.
Adults are also tortured , cruel and unusual punishment for for reporting abuse, system of betrayal and poison forced and extreme control of movement and all basic needs are not being met, no water, no food, no soap, no paper towels or toilet paper, no medical treatment for seizures and injuries from the abuse, tortured for being upset by assault and dismissed as hypochondriac or insane for telling the truth and asking for help. Wyoming county hospital in N. .Y Strong hospital, Rochester,N.Y. Hurt by bullies and evil actors. Brutal treatment, poison is not a remedy for abused people. Pretending to help, disgusting!
This man has such a beautiful youthful disposition. "People would talk through me"😢 This is why I am SO big on listening and communication. That is the least you can offer anyone, much less children.😔
This still actually happens. It happened to me, causing permanent injury to my kidneys and my brain. I had a stroke on a transatlantic flight, which precipitated a seriea of complex partial seizures. I was kept in 4 point restraints for 38 hours in an ER in LA. You PRAY to shut down. You'll beat your head into any hard surface trying to knock myself unconscious. I now have permanent deficits from this experience.
I’ve been in several mental institutions as a patient. They treat you like a child prisoner, no matter your age. Every single door is door is locked behind you. You’re told what to do, and have to show willingness to engage with the childish activities they place before you. Coloring pictures and writing letters to yourself. Forced to eat hospital food. Only allowed to talk to family over the phone nailed to the wall for like 3 minutes a day at a set time. No cigarettes. No video games. Nothing pleasurable. People loudly opening the door to your room every 15 minutes from a bright hallway when you’re trying to sleep. Just the memory of it reminds me of the hell I went through. Whether it’s heaven, Valhalla or just peaceful nothingness after death, find a reason to live your life with vigor. There is evil in this world, and I hate it. I hope I don’t have nightmares tonight after watching this video.
There should be a law against such treatment, such institutions should randomly be investigated. What kind of monsters run such places. Sue them! God bless you sir.
Problem is there are still many psyche hospital; doing all the things he talked about and worse and it is still very common for the psyche hospital NOT to release you until insurance runs out or wont pay anymore. What these Dr.s do and all the staff at these psyche hospitals do is pure EVIL. It's still going on to this day. No one is really investigating psyche hospital. People tend to just believe Dr.s at their word without ever questioning them.
If someone is trying to claw their eye out what do you do? There are no group home that will take these type of person. He’s not sharing the stories of residents who break none of caregivers. It’s very one sided
Omg I’m in shock that this hospital exists in our lifetime. That is torture treatment and parents go to jail for treating their children like this. And jail is better than this! Absolutely horrific!
Sad fact is there are hospital like the one he described still doing stuff like that to patients and worse. All over the U.S. and NO one is really doing anything about it, because everyone still take Dr.s at their word without question. We taught to never question the Dr. he knows whats best for you, but in the psyche field they sure know how to abuse their authority.
You're in shock? Did you really not know how inhumanely people under longterm medical supervision are treated? There's endless documentaries and news stories about it, made across the decades.
I’ve met many psych nurses, not one would I leave a pot plant in their care, guaranteed a healthy plant would be withered, dying or dead whilst blaming the plant not the sadistic cruel non-care.
You are so spot on. They are bullies. We had to ban one from the place I work for abusive behavior to employees. Can you fathom how she treats patients😢
Christ this sounds so similar to my upbringing. Mentally absent mother, adults not listening, being sent to a ward because I had one mental breakdown due to stress in school. Constant manipulation and backstabbing. No we don’t want you go with them, no I can’t take you I don’t have space. Ect…story beats are spot on. Glad to see you came out of it man.
That hospital was willfully obstructing any healing to take place. In fact they behaved like gangsters. Wishing this articulate, kind and very handsome man all the success with his book and endeavours.
I am a couple of years younger than he is, and I, for very similar reasons, did a decent amount of time as a teenager in much lower security psychiatric facilities. The look on his face and the way he talks are identical to every functioning kid that I knew in the adolescent wards, and I'm sure that I still look and talk like that, too, because it's the look and the sound of abandonment, and once you've been abandoned you're never really the same afterwards. The abandoning of our youth to these houses of torture is a truly dire evil, and one that we, as a society, have very much avoided addressing. This video is an excellent start to the process of getting justice for the many victims of these monsters. Thank you.
Psychedelics saved me from years of uncontrollable depression, anxiety, alcoholism, smoking, and illicit pills addiction. Imagine carving heavy chains for over a decade and then all of a sudden that burden is gone. Believe it or not, in a couple of years they'll be all over for treatment of mental health related issues.
To be honest, mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on the planet and it is natural, they serve in many ways not only for mental related issues.
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The way that this guy is so emotionally intelligent and emotionally literate shows that 1) he's highly intelligent 2) he's highly sensitive and God bless him. He's amazing and I'm so sorry that he went through this. I'm glad he's sharing it with other people.
You never deserved this treatment from family nor an institution…take an educated revenge, get educated and fight this abuse since you learned it exists
@@macaroon147 When they survive it. :( I had a boyfriend like this. Mensa smart, likely bipolar before we knew what that was 30 years ago, and from terrible parents and suicidal parents. I looked him up years later and he didn't make it. When I look at this guy who's a bright flame, I think of what I'd hoped for my ex. I also wonder if he's an empath - a lot of empath kids act out and nobody understands why.
Thank you for your story. I was abused as a kid and ended up in my first mental hospital at age 9. After decades of meds, addiction, rehabs, and unmanaged psych symptoms my psychiatrist insisted on ECT treatments. I refused and she fired me from her clinic. I traveled to Los Angeles to a voluntary hospital specializing in trauma and I finally got properly diagnosed. During my last stay at a mental hospital i was astonished at how many adolescents i saw on their ward. At least 20-30 teens. I look foward to reading your book. So happy to hear you overcame your dark past.
Oh my God l could never do that. My beautiful Daughter has bipolar and lives at home for 46 years. I love her with all my heart. People say she should live on her own but she cannot. I am her mother and she needs us. I had a massive heart attack now in heart failure. She helps me so it works both ways. If this beautiful young man was my son l would love him to the bitter end. Thinking of you and sending big hugs 🤗
Your daughter doesn't have bipolar or any other psychiatry "diagnosis" which in reality are stigmatization, no diagnosis. Because it's a made up - by psychiatry - "illness" ALL of the psychiatry labels are. There has NEVER been a single shred of scientific evidence DEMONSTRATING any of their claims. EVER. Look up the videos I posted on my comment above of psychiatrists who are spelling the beens for decades already.
I have bipolar. I am 43 this year. Live with my elderly sick parents, sister and niece. We all help each other it’s great. 😊you’re a good mum… bipolar can be torturous .. stay safe
My parents divorced my dad had brain surgery at the age of 5. My mom had lots of mental breakdowns, she was poor we lived in low in come housing. My mom struggled mental health her whole life. Choose alcoholic men so I choose same type of men. I broke the cycle, I have mental health I take meds, doing good in life. PTSD will always be there but through treatment it’s possible to live a great fulfilling life. God bless you. We all have a story and a walk. I’m so glad I never got into drugs and alcohol like most. God blessed me.
This exact thing happened to me in austin. Im 54 and was 15 at the time. When you said "sit chair" at the beginning this video I had a FLOOD of emotion/ flashbacks. I did 18 months in total. I was given a diagnosis "borderline" in order to keep insurance on me there.
That is a garbage diagnosis instread of calling it what it is sensitive child in abusive family causing developmental trauma. Its terrible. Some mistreatment and emotional neglect very early in life is not obvious but can lead to emotional dysregulation and fear. So its a trauma response they just skip Right over and blame the sufferer. Childhood Complex PTSD is an accurate descriptor
@@brie1987 Thank you. I have complex PTSD. Only was ever given honesty when I moved to Sweden. "Borderline is just a diagnosis they give you when they don't want to look deeper." I can tell you that at Dallas involuntary psychwards are horrible for teens. They push the narrative that the authority figures / parents are always right. They want you to submit since the alternative isn't profitable. Tell a parent they're the problem and they stop paying. That one woman waiting to submit her child still haunts. "I'm only taking care of you because it's my Christian duty" and just verbally breaking him down. I regret not screaming at her. I regret not screaming at every instance of parents abusing their children that I have witnessed. Consequences be damned.
@@k.l.6129It seems like the don't tread on me state has a lot of religious stuff going on in government, but it's shallow controlling religion. Very odd. But there are usually a few nuggets of the real thing, but that's oan alert, people who claim they're abusing you for the better of society or God.
Thank you Banning for sharing your horrific experience with us. It's beyond cruel how these institutions and individuals treat patients.. it's like they are torturing and punishing you for getting sick. You obviously are a strong, emotionally mature individual whom has made this world a better place.
What an amazing guy. He took what would have broken most people, and turned it into something that helps others. I don't know how he did it honestly, he has a very strong Spirit within him. I applaud him for his fortitude, because I have no idea what I would have done, esp at that age in time. I thank him for sharing his story with others, and doing so in a very well spoken way.
What a horrific place-- As a teen going through challenges, this is the LAST thing he needed. These teens were treated worse than many prisoners. What about human rights? What about the rights of children? This was about making MONEY on human lives, not about healing anyone. He only got out when no more money was going to come into the institution for his "treatment". I'm glad this survivor has managed to OVERCOME the abuse he endured in the mental hospital. Here's to all of us who are also survivors. 🌿
This is how mental health institutions are run around the world, especially in developing and underdeveloped countries. No proper medical protocol or checks and balances. It's all about money. They run an unscientific circus to keep the funds flowing. Doctors are in on it.
I have been hospitalized several times for depression and each time was traumatic. I came back with more trauma than i went with. I endured being restrained to a bed, being strip searched for no good reason, being yelled at, accused of manipulation because I asked for help, being sexually assaulted (the nurses said he didn't mean it), being made to sit on a dirty floor because they had no chairs, not going outside for weeks, and having my husband's life threatened by an obsessed fellow patient. One time my husband brought my young children, who hadn't seen me in weeks (I had been told I'd be there three days), and my daughter hit her head on something and started crying so hard she passed out. She did that several times in her toddlerhood, her pediatrician said she was fine. The nurse gave her a breath and she was ok, but then the nurse immediately took her from me and made them leave. My daughter now has trauma to process from that and it has affected our relationship for years. I also witnessed people going through electroshock therapy and one lady defecated all over the bed and the techs didn't cover it or clean it as they wheeled her back to the unit. Another lady had seizures that they couldn't find a reason for, so they constantly mocked her and told her it was in her head and she was manipulating them. One hospital would sedated anyone who got out of bed. They didn't have soap in the bathroom. They wouldn't make eye contact. The doctors were on the other side of a glass wall but they wouldn't look you in the eye. Another place had one bathroom for all the females. The women's bathroom was on the way to the men's. The shower was at the end of the bathroom. If you showered and someone opened the door, men would see you as they walked by. There was poop on the floor for a week and the nurses refused to get someone to clean it. I offered to clean it myself if they gave me cleaning spray and they got mad at me. This was all about ten years ago, not 30 or 50 years ago. There was so much trauma I could not recommend it to someone unless they were about to kill themselves. You are dehumanized and made to feel like a criminal, even if your only crime is against yourself. They don't allow you to exercise or get fresh air and they try to stuff you full of unhealthy food, and they take away "privileges" even when you first get there, even if you signed yourself in. Several places had no classes at all. Just tv. It was very depressing and numbing. I wasn't a teenager but i mentally felt like one, especially the way they treated us. My brother was checked into rehab as a teen because my parents thought he was on drugs. He tested negative but the hospital kept him for several months anyway. He still has unresolved issues from that.
I should also add you are sometimes in there with people who have committed crimes, even violent crimes. That is one of the scariest things, is having to share a room with someone who may be psychotic or who has just attempted to kill somebody. I do have a beloved family member who was one of these psychotic people, and I really feel for them... But I wouldn't want to share a room while they're in the middle of the psychosis. I was on a floor with a guy who claimed to have just attempted murder. I don't know if that was true as he seemed to be a pathological liar, but it was a little unsettling, especially because he had just come off some drugs and couldn't sleep.
I'm a Gen Xer and before your hospital stay you sounded normal, like some of the boys I went to Junior High and High School with. When you're 15 boy or girl, no one listened to you. So sorry you and everyone at the hospital was treated horribly. It's as of the doctors and staff were the crazy ones and wanted to experiment with y'alls' minds and make y'all crazy.
His parents just wanted to get rid of him legally..... he was in the way of his father's new life, and his mother probably should have been in the hospital, instead of him.....
What a powerful message: " We are not the things that happened to us" I felt very emotional watching you, and your message truly got to me. God bless you and your loved ones🙏
yeah, many of those people who sent their kids to such places really did not care for improvement, they just wanted someone else to take care of them, regardless of how they would have been treated
"People don't listen to each other" is such a true statement. It causes a lot of needless pain. This whole story could have been so different. Also I can't believe how badly these kids were being treated! It's torture! Why??
The contempt the medical staff has for people who aren’t like them and the desire to imprison and dominate them just shows how we have utterly failed as a society
100% I've been trying to explain this to people, that we are not defined by the traumatic events we've survived, for years! Some people get it, some don't, some eventually do. It is liberating to take control and to stop living as a victim. It was not your fault, these horrible things, and you can get beyond and be OK.
Your brain and cells know more than you. They often control "you". We often don't have control over our emotions and thoughts. I sometimes think I am over my past after 5 different therapists and a decade of therapy while also studying psychology myself. You are taking care of your body and health, have a beautiful big home, a good job, live in peace. And then you get sudden nightmares. Or a chronic illness. Something pops up, a suppressed and hidden result of unexplainable trauma.
I survived the old Anoka State hospital twice against my will. Sharing my story soon publicly. I can empathize with what you’ve been through in the institution. I was there in my early twenties twice and the things I went through and saw in that place still haunt me to this day and I’m 50 yrs old. The injustice of it all and being stuck in the psych system for 3 yrs of my young adult life still sits with me often. Although I didn’t experience the same punishment as you in the hospitals they were still brutal and inhumane
@@Mn_comics I’m hoping to go back and visit as a visitor see how it affects me emotionally decades later. I’m building up the courage to go soon and film my experience. It’s one thing to go now as a visitor and walk the grounds but knowing I used to be a patient there before it closed down might be cathartic for me and a healing experience. I was a patient there in 1995 and 1996. It closed down in 1999.
OH my God... This is awful... I have heard of so many atrocities that people do to other people, but this... In a "civilized society" is unfathomable. I'm so sorry you and all those poor children went through that.
Wow, wow, wow!! I’m almost a loss for words due to the powerful and overwhelming feelings I’m experiencing after watching this. Feelings of gratitude and appreciation to you for sharing your story, and for stumbling across it. Overwhelmed by a deep sense of connection to someone I’ve never met. Your courage to keep going and NOT allow the awful things that happened to you define you, or embitter you, is the very definition of awe inspiring!!! Your vulnerability and bravery in sharing your story allowed others, like myself, who’ve also been deeply wounded by life to share in your triumph, and that is nothing short of beautiful. I cannot wait to read your book!! And I’m so filled with joy knowing that you found an incredible partner!! Your video/story has my fire of hope burning oh so bright. THANK YOU!!!!!!
I’m 67 and sometimes my sisters don’t listen to me. My younger sister in particular will just start a new conversation while I’m mid-sentence. I feel invisible.
My mom has a mean little sister as well. I never understood why she did not KICK her out of her life. Even as a kid after hearing enough of the things she pulled like tossing away moms original diplomas - I wanted nothing to do w her. Not great her not shake her hand. Put you first. She does it as well. Stop being too kind. Be kind and loving to yourself xoxo
That is horrendous what happened to you. I was in a psychiatric hospital in Houston for attempting to take my life due to domestic violence and a traumatic divorce. Thankfully, I wasn’t treated the way you were. However, that were short of staff and would ask patients to allow the smokers to go outside with the staff. I finally told the psychiatrist that I was only able to see the outside from a big window. He was annoyed at staff and from then on, we weren’t asked to let the smokers go with staff due shortage of staff. However, my kids are now 29 and 24 and never was able to get past the trauma of almost losing their mom and the violence they witnessed in the home. They have cut me off for 2 yrs now because I am a reminder of their horrible past. I am not upset at them and I understand why they cut me off. I just have to move forward in life without my kids and grandkids. If I don’t, it will kill me.
The average person thinks these institutions help the people who are sent there, but the people who have endured them and are fortunate enough to have survived know they're torture chambers. The fact that you are out and relatively normal shows how strong(and smart) you truly are.
There are people who say, "everything went, well, I'm so much better now", and I'm wondering if they are just lying. A family member was put in one, twice. I think it was to break her. She NEVER spoke one word about it, which makes no sense. Hubby was up to no good, she knew something.
@@lizh1988 Exactly...it seems that some families just want them to go away. I have heard quite a few survivor's stories and most of these institutions are abusive torture chambers geared towards breaking and cowering them into submission.
@@BlackSkyZ2 Nobody said I was asking her anything about it, but probably that's what you would do. But what I'm talking about is someone being taken advantage of, which is I believe what happened. She could never talk about it, and I did not suspect until later that her being in that place is what made her seem mentally ill, not the other way around. I don't think you are respecting me, and don't care to hear any more of your comments.
I have had this experience on multiple occasions, unfortunately especially when I needed help the most. It taught me if I am ever having trauma to keep it to myself
It’s hard to imagine much hear the truth of such a broken system that turned so many precious human lives into broken people So glad to hear you found your place and survived an ugly time in your life That God for you and your help of other people I’m sorry you had to endure that 😢
Being mistreated after being sent to a hospital for treatment is ridiculous. The hospital staff took advantage of the fact that they knew no one was present to support you.
Whats worse is having to work a job to survive AND pay for the therapy to get over their behavior, and having to get attorneys involved that make a 15-30% off of the victims compensation winning law suit, dealing with more trauma in the court system. The whole system has been corrupt since the beginning.
Hugs for you
why aren't the criminal staff in prison ?
This is unfortunately common even in birthing unit they can
I'm sorry, dear of your ordeal
that you were mistreated and our
medical system has failed the patient,especially
for a patient has being label with mental illness because you have an anxiety and depression.
They have no respect and symphaty.Anyway, we must learn to advocate ourselves and talk to your
lawyer. I want you to know that you are not alone.
You must learn how to redeem your dignity and
fight for it..stand up for yourself.
A dad saying it’s a privilege to live with him is crazyyyy
He is 100% to blame. You take care of your kids, you don't abandon them to a life with a bed ridden mother. That's not a father, that is a psychopath with zero empathy....
Guy for having a father like that, turned out better than he should have....
something my dad would say
@@el6226 Exactly. He probably blamed his kid's behavior for why he kicked him out. But if his kid has a behaviour problem it was his job to raise him so he doesn't have behavioural issues, and so if he had a decent bone in his body, he would do the work he should have done when his kid was small to help guide him for life, then, it doesn't matter how old your kid is, a father's job is to make sure that kid has the skills, mental fortitude to face the world, and the issues that they will face... if you don't, it's on you.
No parent is perfect, all parents fail in some way honestly, but it's the degree of failure that matters... and if you completely and utterly fail your kid, as he did, then you are 100% a horrible person, and a horrendous father...
Yep. Child abandonment, period.
his parents divorce which probably was a result of his SELFISH DAD caused him and his sister ALOT OF PAIN. AND ALSO PAIN FOR HIS MOTHER! SO UNFAIR! I IMAGINE HIS DAD GOT KARMA ONE DAY!!!!
Your parents failed you. They didn't put you first. I'm so sorry you had to endure this. 😔
Hospital failed him, what kind of evil people
His father failed him
They did but him first, he chose to rebel.
@@lowerself6689how?? The mother said the place was too small, she rejected him.
@@lowerself6689you don’t kick your children out!
Ah yes, no going outside and no physical contact. Notoriously helpful for mental health
exactly
That's the plan
Improving your mental health is not actually their job, since there is no monetary advantage to them. The insurance company or government funding pays for you to be there while you're there, so their job becomes to contain you for the maximum amount of time that you will be funded.
And yet some people thought lockdowns were a good idea
What, like a hospital? Yeah one would think but uhhh… They wouldn’t want their brainwashed zombie employees breathing any fresh open air or getting vitamin D as it might have them be able to feel enough to see what they are doing to people? Bossman can’t have that.
Got institutionalized around 2015 in my forties. Lost my job, healthcare, apartment, friends... etc. Avoid those hospitals like the plague! Everyone will treat you like damaged goods afterwards. Barely functioning, but still living. It's not healthcare, it's a business.
Got institutionalized? You mean you were forced?
No punishment on earth is enough for the doctors, nurses, administrators and others involved in this horror. The fact that the doctors tried to sue him for defamation after the law suit against them shows what monsters they are.
The medical mental health services are sadistic and cruel there is no care I've been there I know what it's like experienced it so bad 🔥👍
@@jacquelineentwistle5091what kind are you referring to? I wonder if you mean something like what I’ve experienced….
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They say that no joke, psychopaths, people born with psychopathic personality, make the best military, police, DOCTORS and politicians/businessman, because you need to be able to function in high stress situations while also still acting and thinking as if your own emotions aren't a factor. Literally the most successful people on earth are probably to some degree psyco, meaning born that way or socio, meaning made by trauma or life experiences, Pathic. It just works
@@Luciaonlineethat's why psychopaths get to the top.in police council medical feilds drs gps nurses politicians
Hospital calling basic human needs "privileges" breaks my heart.
a lot of violonece and psychical violenc is sadly done by "therapist". There is lots of bad therapists, even therapy to fix bad therapy :(
@@WojciechowskaAnna why I say asking for help killed me. Some understand and see what has come from it. Look at all the help that popped up for ADHD and ASD... $250 an hour or $5000 tests that treat nothing.
@@Dot-he2ke people with asd and adhd used to be institutionalized.
@@Swagmaster1169 I know. Where my hate for neurotypicals comes from.
I held a fulltime job from age twelve until I was made to feel dumb and less because I asked what I should not have or pointed out wrong.
@@Swagmaster1169 Weren't as many before vaccine companies became immune from liability in 1986.
For a 52 yo who has gone through all that crap in his youth….he looks really good! 👍🏻
yeah he is quite handsome and articulate
He really is
He still looks like a kid!
Yeah! Wow, seriously.. He looks great.
Banning is a good example of resilience. I admire him.
My parents tried doing this to me as a silencing punishment for finally speaking out about their abuse. This was in 2022 and traumatic. None of the doctors listened to me and when I asked why I wasn’t being taken seriously they nurse said because your parents told us what’s going on with you and there are two of them and one of you…. That’s a direct quote. No one had an ounce of empathy. The other people in there were treated like they were less than human, it was inhumane.;
Why would they do this?
Yea as a minor they have full control over you which is a problem if they don't have your best interests in mind
Because people can be very evil
I’m so sorry you had to experience this and had parents who don’t deserve the title of “parents”.
@@thelostbrineinthewoods9298 my parents are narcissists who work overtime covering up abuse, I would encourage everyone to lookup narcissistic abuse and what it consists of because honestly I wish I knew about it sooner in life. Basically they were punishing me for not remaining quiet about their abusive behavior towards me for many years. Abusive people tend to punish those who speak out honestly about them
What the describes this exactly how it was. I worked in a mental hospital for 12 years. And if they weren’t crazy when they got there, they were made crazy. No one got out. It was truly a terrifying experience even for the workers.
😮 imagine how the others living beings pet bird fish are treated by human what a crazy world
How heartbreaking and all for what, money money money, always money. This happens a lot in the land of the brave and home of the free!!!
This guy is incredibly eloquent, self- aware, intelligent and meticulously descriptive. He is emotionally expressive. He is a winner in life as he is narrating an episode in his life. He is not a victim but a survivor and thriving. God bless him.
You can be both a victim and a survivor.
God bless.
@MrMuruks this comment is so spot on.
@@MrMuruksTell me why people cling to the victim title so readily, and have a hard time letting go of it?
@@Spookdookinprobably because it's part of who they are and shaped/shapes them as a person. Like, why does anyone "cling" to "titles" such as their race, ethnicity, gender, a medical diagnosis, even their names they were given at birth? Because these "titles" define/describe who we are 🤷♀️
@@Spookdookin Trying to put blame and guilt on people who have experienced injustice and suffering is morally bankrupt.
That said, some people use their past as an excuse for not taking morally responsibility of their own subsequent actions. Just like many entitled people who haven't experienced true existential suffering live in their ignorance instead of trying to truly understand and suffer with scarred people.
When this short life is over, those who have shown compassion will be shown compassion.
That’s not mistreatment, that’s torture.
So sad. I’m so sorry you had to endure that.
no its not really
That is what happens at mental hospitals. They torture you until you say the right things, then they send you on your way.
All the more reason to dismiss psychology as complete BS
@@ccgamerlolbruh what
I can relate to so much. I was hospitalized at a mental hospital at age 17. My parents were very provincial. Doctors were next to God. I am now age 70. I believe to this day the "professionals"made me more ill, over medicated me and kept me there until the insurance ran out, (months). Evil.
Most Dr. has a God complex, they don't
want you to question their authorities?
Actually it takes two to work together
between dr. and patient. Anyway,don't get
me wrong they are good Dr. or even better.
Dr. mantra don't do harm , but this mantra
sometimes is not for every one.I'm not against
Dr. actually and I appreciate their profession because
they are suppose to help and cure patient.But what I
can't stand when some of these Dr. are intitled, mistreated
patients and violate your trust.I'm just saying...
Like lawyers!
I'm sorry of your ordeal .
Anyway, Drs are suppose to help
and find cure but in every apples in
the basket there is bad apple and it contaminate
the other apples.
I was 17 too. For 3 weeks. I begged them to let me go until the week I said I need to stay a little bit longer 🤦♀️ they kicked me out and I was vulnerable and scared. They too gave me traumatic memories.
Horrific 😢💔
Sending my love to you ❤
I am so devastated by reading your lifelong devastation. You deserve a tremendous payback in the next life
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I worked in the admissions office of a private psych hospital for about 6 years in the 80's. The patients were by far ! the sanest ones in the whole place. I loved them.They were so real and honest.
HOW IS THIS LEGAL?! They absolutely NEED to shut down these "hospitals" and send those administrators to jail! Tying someone to a bed until they need physical therapy to relearn how to WALK?! That's TORTURE. That's violence.
America is run off profit.
The nurses need prison too, but if you want an example, nurses were proven in civil court to have tortured and raped maya kowalski at a john hopkins childrens hospital. The accused has since been promoted and remains at the hospital. Many think the promotion was a bribe for not snitched on the hospitals other 5 or so allegations of similar conduct. Most in the medical community seem to hate maya and support john hopkins as far as I can tell. There are literal photos of maya being kissed on the lips while pinned down, and the nurse in the photo is employed, promoted, and the "medical community" is just gas lighting themselves and everyone else about the whole thing.
Old methods. Stuff like this wasn't fully abolished til the 90s. Used to be about warping people to better suit society. Post industrial revolution that's a numb and non disruptive factory worker. The process actually involves the patient now and big strides in mental health research. It involves people so it's not perfect. The teen bit is appalling as anyone in puberty could be kept in a place like that, we now have laws and diagnostic criteria to prevent similar.
The entity he sued is still in operation as Tenet Health to this very day.
If you only knew
My “mother “ tried to have me put in an institution when I was 16. I got to the doctor and told him what was going on at home. I had a manipulative mother and narcissist at that. If she didn’t have her way in all things she would make our lives a living hell. Make up things and create scenarios,lie and she would try and get people to go along with her schemes. After this Dr. heard my side of the story he immediately called her and said”shes ready to go home “! Hearing this she immediately flew into a rage. The Dr. calmly said, “There is nothing wrong with her maybe it’s you that needs help”! Parents came and got me and it was a very uncomfortable ride back to their house indeed. I graduated high school and went into the Air Force. At last I was on my own! I’m 76 now and it still hurts me to think family treated me like that. You went through much worse than me. I commend you for succeeding with your life. God bless you and your wife.
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There is a woman named janie deleon that keeps spreading wrong information and was doing munchausens by proxy and there was a nurse named Carrie Wolf that was doing munchausens by proxy and there was a state ombudsman that already said that The Center for Health Care Services in San Antonio is wrong and my story has not ever changed about this and also Karen Inzurriaga and giovanni p gomez were lying on purpose and I have been a victim of human trafficking after there was fictitious records entered after I was raped by an employee of a mental health consortium clinic. There was systematic rights violations solely designed to conceal multiple rapes and severe injuries.
My mom was the same way , she didn't want me, she was always sending me away
You got lucky talking to an actual human with emotions and empathy. A lot of them were either so dissociated from their life and their patients, or just so heartless and or sadistic that they would not care. Would say you were lying and manipulating to get out when you needed _""help""_
I'm really glad you didn't have to go through that. And you picked the right branch of the military, air conditioning and spacious bunks and comfy chairs.
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What I am hearing is that if you aren't crazy before you go IN a mental hospital, you surely will be when you come OUT of one!
Unless you’re the one that drives them crazy and they kick you out onto the street.
define crazy
most psychiatric institutions aren't like this
*if* you manage to get out
The dsm 5 kills more than it helps
I hope this man is no contact with his "family", what a betrayal
true dat man ! i mean this poor soul got thrown away like a used paper towel, and was DX'd as crazy and unmanageable, when all he needed was a few hugs, to be heard, respected and valued; treated like a human being,
This type of parents love to pop up into their kids life once they get too old to look after themselves
@@edithk2997 Two words: nursing home
You mean his DAD
@@Commentator488 No, both
As someone who suffers with extreme severe anxiety I can totally relate to her. I would stop eating for days at a time as a punishment. I worry a lot about my life, everyone around me and pleasing everyone. It's absolutely crippling, so glad she got the help she needed, lovely young lady it's so sad that society has 1 in 3 people suffering mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help
People need to realise that people with anxiety disorders have oversensitised nerves, it's not a simple case of manning up and getting over it.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about how mushrooms and psychedelics treats anxiety, but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, Doctor Greg Mushrooms he is a great man of God who has the great insight on psychedelic and mushroom. He will guide you on how to use mushrooms to get good trip.
Please, how do I reach doctor Greg?
He’s on the internet
Those Doctors should be in jail.
No child deserves to treated less than being loved, housed, clothed, fed and protected. AT ALL TIMES.
most people shouldn't have them.
We've said this for decades, wrung our hands and pointed fingers, which hasn't fixed it. We need real solutions in our corrupt for-profit insurance system, changes in our educational system to break the cycle of human abuse, and laws to hold people accountable that send a clear message that this will not be tolerated. Until strict oversight holds people accountable, this won't change because human nature isn't always kind.
@@gointothedogs4634 we also need free birth control and keeping abortion safe and legal
Happens more than you might think.
It happens all the time way to frequently
I was in a facility similar to this in 2011 after a suicide attempt at 14. Kids tied to beds, no outside time, endless screaming. When I got out, I felt like it had been more of a punishment than treatment. I felt like I had been abandoned in my darkest hour, left to deal with the aftermath of a traumatic event in what was essentially a prison. I thought, "never try to kill yourself again, because if you fail, they'll put you back in that hellhole." It's been thirteen years and I still have a hard time talking about it, or even thinking about it.
They give us ptsd then treat you for it for life.
@@Spartisanhack It’s a racket
It's exactly that, I lived pretty much the same...
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My dad lost his brother to suicide few years after he started executing a plan to kill himself my mom caught him and he was sent to to a place like that but he had a positive experience it helped him …they did not push medication they waited and all around were good professionals…im sorry you had a negative experience in your time of need
I’m always shocked at how inhumane psych wards are. People often leave worse than they came in. This man overcame great odds.
Don’t know why you are surprised
My dear friend hung herself in a psych ward. They cut her down and took her to the medical hospital. They released her some 15 days later to the psyche ward. She hung herself again back at the psych ward within 20 minutes and completed self deletion. RIP Letha Dison, Las Cruces, NM 2009.
@@BrianButterworth-s4z I'm sorry you lost your friend. Those places are so horrible it is hard to really blame her, isn't it?
They're not inhumane, they just trying to properly handle dangerous people. They don't want anyone hurting themselves or others. Sometimes this requires restraints, or padded cells, or strait jackets.
Its not that the wards are bad, its just that life on the ward isn't too pleasant. Thats because mental illness isn't too unpleasant. Having a faulty gall bladder or appendix is also very unpleasant. And yes, doctors often have to inflict a bit of pain to cure these conditions, its the same thing.
And, of course, we know teens are often discipline problems, unruly. The hospital structure and routine mustn't be disrupted. So, when teens misbehave, they must be punished. Thats just all there is to it. Case closed.
@@RaptorFromWeegee My gawd, I bet you're a psychiatrist that underwrites cruelty.
My mom stopped feeding me and was abusive and my neighbors called child services. My mom told them I was just refusing to eat and was throwing up food and they sent me to a kids ward. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't even use the bathroom alone. After I ate their food for days and was happy, the head nurse took me off eating protocol and said my mom was wrong. However, no one reported that. I still had to go back to my mom. They should always ask the kids whats going on at home first before just shoving you in there.
Edit: Finished watching, you are an amazing person, thank you for your story and for sharing your perspective and spreading light from it. You also reminded me of the times that I've met people who's mom had the same disorder as mine, and I , we, conntected and didn't feel so alone. It was wild how many things we have in common. Thank you for reminding me of that. Im still struggling at 30 with it. I also had no idea about the cortex part, that's very interesting and makes sense.
My parents also abandoned me at the local ward. They literally skipped away holding hands as I looked back at them screaming for them not to do this. My last memory is seeing what I think were them smiling at each other, butt it was hard to see because of the tears and being pulled away by the nurses. I'll never forget the pain of that day. I'm still in the ward, doing better for myself after many years, I'm told they'll come back but the nurses insist they're gone for good. Still holding on.
WOW. I am SO SORRY. I WILL PRAY FOR YOU. I PRAY YOU FIND JESUS CHRIST. HE WILL HELP YOU GET THROUGH THIS AND LIFE.
Apply for emancipation and get yourself out of there.
You poor, poor soul. That's disgusting. Hell will rain on those two, I just know it. God bless you for being so resilient. Jesus loves you ❤
@@EH88926 Mercy. None of the staff, government, or parents will help you. You are your own savior, your own guru. Stay emotionally strong and hone your intellect. Get yourself out of there please.
@@c.eb.1216emancipation is a thing only parents can do in romania to not have to take care of a kid anymore. You as their child cannot emancipate yourself from them so you cannot avoid paying their pension from your salary.
Jesus... how tf does putting someone in a chair for hours a day help their mental health recovery? I am so sorry you went through this 😢
It keeps them on paperwork as problematic so they can continue to milk insurance.
@@loverainthunder I get that. I guess my question was rhetorical. Sorry 😞
😢😢😢 I cried.
@KatieDeGo Oops, my fault. Best to you Katie 😂🤷🏽♀️
Honestly Jesus knows it doesn't help their recovery
A mental hospital is no place for a kid. They are still growing their brains and to put them in such an unnatural place is damaging!
Thank you!!!!
“Mental health care” is not care at all. The meds are poison.
Specialized treatment facilities could benefit kids if they were more like a group home. Just not when the incentives are the insurance payouts and there is no oversight for whatever abuse is going on.
I know people who would probably not be alive without having been to such a hospital as a kid. They tried to make it so. But their experiences were a lot different.
It was not a mental hospital. It was a torture-camp...
He is the youngest looking 52 year old I have seen. I wish him a really happy life.
Agreed!
I grew up in the same town as Pennhurst Asylum in PA. Some of my friends parents used to work there and my best friends mom said something to the effect of “but they’re not actually people” to justify the abuse
Horrifying
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@@tarhabrown8038 ?
@@tarhabrown8038 what
THAT'S SICK MAN
This man seems more sane than everyone around him. May the Lord protect him!
Why would the "Lord" protect him now ? After letting these atrocities happen in the first place. There is no god !
get close to God, and he'll get close to you,his timing not ours,But look at this result, a new life,a new start, strength power, healed, to a point. But arent we all going thru healings
@@carolynkiem868 I was brought up Baptist and I know the Bible inside out. It's all bullshit, nonsense written thousands of years ago to explain what we now have the answers to.
@@axeman6104it's not God's fault that human beings decided to follow the money, crime and greed lol what are you talking about
What a sadistic place. My heart goes out to him and all those who suffered at the hands of such vile people.
People have to stop calling kids "man of the house". That phrase alone just comes with so much pressure..
Its just pathetic that a grown woman who can work and has life experience is so lazy and coddled she labels a 12 year old "the man of the house." Then venting to her children about how much their lives suck in the middle of the night? MAYBE GET OUT THERE AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, I JUST LEARNED HOW TO FORM A PARAGRAPH... AND YOURE LIKE 40!
"Yes, Junior, you're now the 'Man of the House' while Daddy's away on his journey of self-discovery. Lisa, you're promoted to boy, Toddler, Janet, you're promoted to Lisa. I'll expect all of you to obey the acting Man of the House as you would your daddy. Junior, if I come back to a house fulla chaos, somebody, probably you, will get the beating of your life"
He is very articulate and bright! Best to your future.
You must have a low bar lol, he just seems normal, he doesn't seem extremely bright
I was actually excited to hear someone say, "The adults didn't listen, they talk through me" I am 60 and it's still a learning experience to know I am not the only one that went through my younger life wondering why I was born. Thank You for sharing. I hope it helps others too.
My brother was also abandoned in a mental hospital, but he was much younger. He was 9 and I was 11. He probably would now have a diagnosis of severe ADHD and mild aspergers. It was horrible. We were separated for nearly 27 years. Your post has given me so much…I really can’t express it. I forget how much my brother and I went though. People see us, and think we are “normal” because we are functioning, because this stuff doesn’t show in the outside. They have an expectation that we should react and function like everyone else. Your video reminds me to give myself permission to take life slower, to remember how lucky I am to be here, and to just take life as slow as I want/need to. Thank you
Imagine your parent looking you dead in the face and telling you that your staying there with them is a privilege. After YOU got put in the position to fill his empty space because he found a new life. 💔
Some people shouldn’t have kids. It’s a privilege to have a child because the child didn’t have choice to come into the parents world in the first place.
Yeah, that's how my dad treated me. I took it as completely normal but now I can see how, inside, I felt very degraded. I didn't pay attention to my feelings very much.... but they were there.
Then why USA and some other countries are trying to ban abortions and targeting single/unmarried and childless women, and saying bad things about them in the political sector? I don't understand @@Blue_Azure101
Of course you are suddenly "cured" when the insurance runs out. Clearly they never learned "First, do no harm."
Alternatively, profit motive is a bad thing for healthcare...
I think it’s awful that people are treated so terribly in a hospital. I feel terrible.
It sure is too indeed.
I was destroyed at UCLA and Torrance Memorial in So. Cal. in 1991
I reported my abusers and torturers but nothing was done. You're very brave, thank you for your honesty and courage. America is a very dangerous place. Achtung.
Such a powerful story! Thanks for sharing! I went through somewhat of a similar situation in a psychiatric hospital, it was traumatic. I pray that mental health institutions change for the better. I am grateful for the healing work Jesus has done and is doing in me, like you mentioned we are not what happened to us! Anyone reading this, know you are LOVED and seen by God 💗
I was 16 when my evil mother and evil grandmother took me to a mental institution and left me there. I'm 51 and will never forget it.
Im so Sorry that happened to you!! As adults they failed you greatly!!! They will need answer to God one day!! I hope you can move on and know all this was not right and was wrong!! I hope you’re living a good life now!! ❤
Where was your father? Absent fathers tend to be less hated than present mothers. I assume he left first so he got a free pass
@@joyaustin6581 I never met him.
@@joyaustin6581He’s getting a pass because he wasn’t the one who did it. What a ridiculous argument. She would have been far better off without that sorry excuse for a “mother” around.
@@nataliazecca6322 You didn't answer anything. WHERE WAS THE DAD?
Every psychiatrist and mental health professional should watch this.
I can totally relate to this. I had a nervous breakdown when i was 18 and it was entirely a result of my emotional needs never being considered by anyone. I normalized everything i experienced until then, until it was more than I could deal with and my mind kind of broke. Really crazy looking back.
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I was 15 when I was put on adult ward for anorexia
I was 17. I was in a psych hospital for 3 years in the 80s.
Bless I feel all your pain . I Relate to
Being crazy or mentally ill and people calling u crazy when they are as well and begging for help not being diagnosed doesn’t help anybody lol
And my tears fall again for the abused, ignored,and damaged. At 53 and the memories can still disable me.
This is pure evil. Shame on the doctors for doing this. They need to be in prison for doing harm to kids
Adults are also tortured , cruel and unusual punishment for for reporting abuse, system of betrayal and poison forced and extreme control of movement and all basic needs are not being met, no water, no food, no soap, no paper towels or toilet paper, no medical treatment for seizures and injuries from the abuse, tortured for being upset by assault and dismissed as hypochondriac or insane for telling the truth and asking for help.
Wyoming county hospital in N. .Y
Strong hospital, Rochester,N.Y.
Hurt by bullies and evil actors.
Brutal treatment, poison is not a remedy for abused people.
Pretending to help, disgusting!
I agree 100%
This man has such a beautiful youthful disposition.
"People would talk through me"😢
This is why I am SO big on listening and communication. That is the least you can offer anyone, much less children.😔
Thank you for this comment I needed to hear this
@@siphamandlamkhize9766 You're so welcome! All the best! 💖
agreed. It's so sad. I see such a strong person despite horrific circumstances.
@@mashajohns7810 Absolutely! They couldn't break him💖.
I wrote a poem on this same topic.
Poor man. Being shunted around like that as a teenager. Inflicting a lifetime of pain.
So happy he got married and settled.
Especially during that important growing period teen to young adult
People deserve better
As someone who is studying to become a mental health professional, this is very important for me.
What is very important for you..?
@@CancerianQueen333 Backpacking
You're studying to make money out of people's disgrace while abusing them.
It takes a very "special" kind of person to do that.
Why?
@@johnnymentero6313oh don’t be silly. There’s bad therapists and there’’s good therapists, just as with everything in life.
This still actually happens. It happened to me, causing permanent injury to my kidneys and my brain.
I had a stroke on a transatlantic flight, which precipitated a seriea of complex partial seizures. I was kept in 4 point restraints for 38 hours in an ER in LA.
You PRAY to shut down. You'll beat your head into any hard surface trying to knock myself unconscious.
I now have permanent deficits from this experience.
I’ve been in several mental institutions as a patient. They treat you like a child prisoner, no matter your age. Every single door is door is locked behind you. You’re told what to do, and have to show willingness to engage with the childish activities they place before you. Coloring pictures and writing letters to yourself. Forced to eat hospital food. Only allowed to talk to family over the phone nailed to the wall for like 3 minutes a day at a set time. No cigarettes. No video games. Nothing pleasurable. People loudly opening the door to your room every 15 minutes from a bright hallway when you’re trying to sleep. Just the memory of it reminds me of the hell I went through.
Whether it’s heaven, Valhalla or just peaceful nothingness after death, find a reason to live your life with vigor. There is evil in this world, and I hate it. I hope I don’t have nightmares tonight after watching this video.
I respect you Banning. After all you have suffered you have become a lovely human being without self pity.
Admirable accomplishment. Self pity is practically taught in school, these days 😉
There should be a law against such treatment, such institutions should randomly be investigated. What kind of monsters run such places. Sue them! God bless you sir.
The Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR)
There are very strict laws esp in the US. You simply cannot do the things the way this guy is saying in the 21st century.
Problem is there are still many psyche hospital; doing all the things he talked about and worse and it is still very common for the psyche hospital NOT to release you until insurance runs out or wont pay anymore. What these Dr.s do and all the staff at these psyche hospitals do is pure EVIL. It's still going on to this day. No one is really investigating psyche hospital. People tend to just believe Dr.s at their word without ever questioning them.
There are both. The DOH of each state inspects the hospitals
If someone is trying to claw their eye out what do you do? There are no group home that will take these type of person. He’s not sharing the stories of residents who break none of caregivers. It’s very one sided
Omg I’m in shock that this hospital exists in our lifetime. That is torture treatment and parents go to jail for treating their children like this. And jail is better than this! Absolutely horrific!
Sad fact is there are hospital like the one he described still doing stuff like that to patients and worse. All over the U.S. and NO one is really doing anything about it, because everyone still take Dr.s at their word without question. We taught to never question the Dr. he knows whats best for you, but in the psyche field they sure know how to abuse their authority.
I was in one of these facilities as a teen in 2011. They're very much still embedded within the fabric of the US mental health "care" system.
@@ITIsFunnyDamnIT couldn't have said it better myself
You're in shock? Did you really not know how inhumanely people under longterm medical supervision are treated? There's endless documentaries and news stories about it, made across the decades.
Most children who are deemed crazy or disturbed are in thst state because of abuse by their parents or peers.
I’ve met many psych nurses, not one would I leave a pot plant in their care, guaranteed a healthy plant would be withered, dying or dead whilst blaming the plant not the sadistic cruel non-care.
You are so spot on. They are bullies. We had to ban one from the place I work for abusive behavior to employees. Can you fathom how she treats patients😢
Not just psych. All medical people.
Christ this sounds so similar to my upbringing. Mentally absent mother, adults not listening, being sent to a ward because I had one mental breakdown due to stress in school. Constant manipulation and backstabbing. No we don’t want you go with them, no I can’t take you I don’t have space. Ect…story beats are spot on. Glad to see you came out of it man.
I was also abandoned at a psych ward and it was horrific. I don't talk about it. No one would believe me
I’d believe it. Hope you can heal 🌿💕
That hospital was willfully obstructing any healing to take place. In fact they behaved like gangsters.
Wishing this articulate, kind and very handsome man all the success with his book and endeavours.
There are no incentives to curing patients. There is however for keeping them in there long enough for the insurance money.
I am a couple of years younger than he is, and I, for very similar reasons, did a decent amount of time as a teenager in much lower security psychiatric facilities.
The look on his face and the way he talks are identical to every functioning kid that I knew in the adolescent wards, and I'm sure that I still look and talk like that, too, because it's the look and the sound of abandonment, and once you've been abandoned you're never really the same afterwards.
The abandoning of our youth to these houses of torture is a truly dire evil, and one that we, as a society, have very much avoided addressing. This video is an excellent start to the process of getting justice for the many victims of these monsters.
Thank you.
He was monstrously gaslit from the time of his parents' divorce to the time he left the psych hospital. What a nightmare.
Psychedelics saved me from years of uncontrollable depression, anxiety, alcoholism, smoking, and illicit pills addiction. Imagine carving heavy chains for over a decade and then all of a sudden that burden is gone. Believe it or not, in a couple of years they'll be all over for treatment of mental health related issues.
Congrats on your recovery. Most people don't realize that psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives.
To be honest, mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on the planet and it is natural, they serve in many ways not only for mental related issues.
Can you help me with a reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. It is very hard to get a reliable source here in Iceland. Really need!
Yes, Sporeville. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and addiction... Mushrooms definitely made a huge difference to why I'm clean today.
Shrooms saved me from meth addiction too. Psychedelics could really help addicts a lot!
The way that this guy is so emotionally intelligent and emotionally literate shows that 1) he's highly intelligent 2) he's highly sensitive and God bless him. He's amazing and I'm so sorry that he went through this. I'm glad he's sharing it with other people.
You never deserved this treatment from family nor an institution…take an educated revenge, get educated and fight this abuse since you learned it exists
People who have been through alot usually are more emotionally intelligent. Because it takes alot of emotional work and unpacking to heal
@@macaroon147 When they survive it. :( I had a boyfriend like this. Mensa smart, likely bipolar before we knew what that was 30 years ago, and from terrible parents and suicidal parents. I looked him up years later and he didn't make it. When I look at this guy who's a bright flame, I think of what I'd hoped for my ex. I also wonder if he's an empath - a lot of empath kids act out and nobody understands why.
I like that, "people that are wounded tend to find each other", & ," our wounds, when we share them, unite us". Great sentiment.
Spent my youth in and out of
Mental hospitals, damaged me permanently
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Try again.
Here's a pill. All I heard for years from neurotypicals.
But now you can ask to change your gender.
they really suck balls
Same
“We are not the things that happened to us”.
It is beyond inspiring that you’ve not only survived, but are thriving.
Thank you for your story. I was abused as a kid and ended up in my first mental hospital at age 9. After decades of meds, addiction, rehabs, and unmanaged psych symptoms my psychiatrist insisted on ECT treatments.
I refused and she fired me from her clinic. I traveled to Los Angeles to a voluntary hospital specializing in trauma and I finally got properly diagnosed.
During my last stay at a mental hospital i was astonished at how many adolescents i saw on their ward. At least 20-30 teens.
I look foward to reading your book. So happy to hear you overcame your dark past.
That facility was actively participating in child abuse! I hope they were closed down!
Yeah, I wonder which facility it was
I would take his story with a grain of salt.
Why would they close for operating to normal standards?
@MsTokra no I can’t, and I can smell bs from a mile away
@@nickkirschner3719 Do you work for that mental institution?
Oh my God l could never do that.
My beautiful Daughter has bipolar and lives at home for 46 years. I love her with all my heart. People say she should live on her own but she cannot.
I am her mother and she needs us.
I had a massive heart attack now in heart failure. She helps me so it works both ways.
If this beautiful young man was my son l would love him to the bitter end. Thinking of you and sending big hugs 🤗
Your daughter doesn't have bipolar or any other psychiatry "diagnosis" which in reality are stigmatization, no diagnosis. Because it's a made up - by psychiatry - "illness"
ALL of the psychiatry labels are. There has NEVER been a single shred of scientific evidence DEMONSTRATING any of their claims.
EVER.
Look up the videos I posted on my comment above of psychiatrists who are spelling the beens for decades already.
I have bipolar. I am 43 this year. Live with my elderly sick parents, sister and niece. We all help each other it’s great. 😊you’re a good mum… bipolar can be torturous .. stay safe
They say she needs to learn to live alone because how will she cope when you are gone or put in an end of life facility?
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Your daughter is a very lucky woman indeed!
It is so sad that a hospital, a place for healing, does the opposite and makes their patients worse. Yes, nature can be so healing.
5:20 "I remember that feeling of not being listened to". Hits hard....
Banning, what a story, I teared up listening, its a story of incredible strength and resilience. I want to read your book.
My parents divorced my dad had brain surgery at the age of 5. My mom had lots of mental breakdowns, she was poor we lived in low in come housing. My mom struggled mental health her whole life. Choose alcoholic men so I choose same type of men. I broke the cycle, I have mental health I take meds, doing good in life. PTSD will always be there but through treatment it’s possible to live a great fulfilling life. God bless you. We all have a story and a walk. I’m so glad I never got into drugs and alcohol like most. God blessed me.
This exact thing happened to me in austin. Im 54 and was 15 at the time. When you said "sit chair" at the beginning this video I had a FLOOD of emotion/ flashbacks. I did 18 months in total. I was given a diagnosis "borderline" in order to keep insurance on me there.
That is a garbage diagnosis instread of calling it what it is sensitive child in abusive family causing developmental trauma. Its terrible. Some mistreatment and emotional neglect very early in life is not obvious but can lead to emotional dysregulation and fear. So its a trauma response they just skip
Right over and blame the sufferer. Childhood Complex PTSD is an accurate descriptor
@@brie1987 Thank you. I have complex PTSD. Only was ever given honesty when I moved to Sweden. "Borderline is just a diagnosis they give you when they don't want to look deeper." I can tell you that at Dallas involuntary psychwards are horrible for teens. They push the narrative that the authority figures / parents are always right. They want you to submit since the alternative isn't profitable. Tell a parent they're the problem and they stop paying. That one woman waiting to submit her child still haunts. "I'm only taking care of you because it's my Christian duty" and just verbally breaking him down. I regret not screaming at her. I regret not screaming at every instance of parents abusing their children that I have witnessed. Consequences be damned.
@@k.l.6129It seems like the don't tread on me state has a lot of religious stuff going on in government, but it's shallow controlling religion.
Very odd. But there are usually a few nuggets of the real thing, but that's oan alert, people who claim they're abusing you for the better of society or God.
Thank you Banning for sharing your horrific experience with us. It's beyond cruel how these institutions and individuals treat patients.. it's like they are torturing and punishing you for getting sick.
You obviously are a strong, emotionally mature individual whom has made this world a better place.
What an amazing guy. He took what would have broken most people, and turned it into something that helps others.
I don't know how he did it honestly, he has a very strong Spirit within him. I applaud him for his fortitude, because I have no idea what I would have done, esp at that age in time.
I thank him for sharing his story with others, and doing so in a very well spoken way.
This is unbelievable! This is so recent! How can people do this to children!!
What a horrific place-- As a teen going through challenges, this is the LAST thing he needed. These teens were treated worse than many prisoners. What about human rights? What about the rights of children?
This was about making MONEY on human lives, not about healing anyone. He only got out when no more money was going to come into the institution for his "treatment".
I'm glad this survivor has managed to OVERCOME the abuse he endured in the mental hospital. Here's to all of us who are also survivors. 🌿
This is how mental health institutions are run around the world, especially in developing and underdeveloped countries. No proper medical protocol or checks and balances.
It's all about money. They run an unscientific circus to keep the funds flowing. Doctors are in on it.
I have been hospitalized several times for depression and each time was traumatic. I came back with more trauma than i went with. I endured being restrained to a bed, being strip searched for no good reason, being yelled at, accused of manipulation because I asked for help, being sexually assaulted (the nurses said he didn't mean it), being made to sit on a dirty floor because they had no chairs, not going outside for weeks, and having my husband's life threatened by an obsessed fellow patient. One time my husband brought my young children, who hadn't seen me in weeks (I had been told I'd be there three days), and my daughter hit her head on something and started crying so hard she passed out. She did that several times in her toddlerhood, her pediatrician said she was fine. The nurse gave her a breath and she was ok, but then the nurse immediately took her from me and made them leave. My daughter now has trauma to process from that and it has affected our relationship for years. I also witnessed people going through electroshock therapy and one lady defecated all over the bed and the techs didn't cover it or clean it as they wheeled her back to the unit. Another lady had seizures that they couldn't find a reason for, so they constantly mocked her and told her it was in her head and she was manipulating them. One hospital would sedated anyone who got out of bed. They didn't have soap in the bathroom. They wouldn't make eye contact. The doctors were on the other side of a glass wall but they wouldn't look you in the eye. Another place had one bathroom for all the females. The women's bathroom was on the way to the men's. The shower was at the end of the bathroom. If you showered and someone opened the door, men would see you as they walked by. There was poop on the floor for a week and the nurses refused to get someone to clean it. I offered to clean it myself if they gave me cleaning spray and they got mad at me. This was all about ten years ago, not 30 or 50 years ago. There was so much trauma I could not recommend it to someone unless they were about to kill themselves. You are dehumanized and made to feel like a criminal, even if your only crime is against yourself. They don't allow you to exercise or get fresh air and they try to stuff you full of unhealthy food, and they take away "privileges" even when you first get there, even if you signed yourself in. Several places had no classes at all. Just tv. It was very depressing and numbing. I wasn't a teenager but i mentally felt like one, especially the way they treated us.
My brother was checked into rehab as a teen because my parents thought he was on drugs. He tested negative but the hospital kept him for several months anyway. He still has unresolved issues from that.
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I have seen it in the netherlands to, visiting my brother
Thank you for sharing your story... the whole thing is incredibly horrifying. 💔 I hope you're healing from those experiences 🩵
I should also add you are sometimes in there with people who have committed crimes, even violent crimes. That is one of the scariest things, is having to share a room with someone who may be psychotic or who has just attempted to kill somebody. I do have a beloved family member who was one of these psychotic people, and I really feel for them... But I wouldn't want to share a room while they're in the middle of the psychosis. I was on a floor with a guy who claimed to have just attempted murder. I don't know if that was true as he seemed to be a pathological liar, but it was a little unsettling, especially because he had just come off some drugs and couldn't sleep.
@CJrunner7199 😰😰 so glad your out of there, but also very upset that these institutions operate in the way that they do.
I'm a Gen Xer and before your hospital stay you sounded normal, like some of the boys I went to Junior High and High School with. When you're 15 boy or girl, no one listened to you. So sorry you and everyone at the hospital was treated horribly. It's as of the doctors and staff were the crazy ones and wanted to experiment with y'alls' minds and make y'all crazy.
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Yep
His parents just wanted to get rid of him legally..... he was in the way of his father's new life, and his mother probably should have been in the hospital, instead of him.....
Yes
I've met multiple people with this story, this is the norm folks and it hasn't gotten better.
What a powerful message: " We are not the things that happened to us"
I felt very emotional watching you, and your message truly got to me. God bless you and your loved ones🙏
It’s insane that anyone would treat a troubled teen like this and expect any kind of improvement.
yeah, many of those people who sent their kids to such places really did not care for improvement, they just wanted someone else to take care of them, regardless of how they would have been treated
Its the same as ABA for autistix they dont expect you to actually be better. They expect you to pretend to be better.
This is absolutely horrifying. So sorry that people have experienced life in this way.
"People don't listen to each other" is such a true statement. It causes a lot of needless pain. This whole story could have been so different. Also I can't believe how badly these kids were being treated! It's torture! Why??
Why? Because people suck. That's why.
still like that today. thank you for sharing. so sorry you had to go true that. happy you decided to grow true that.
The contempt the medical staff has for people who aren’t like them and the desire to imprison and dominate them just shows how we have utterly failed as a society
'they just had conversations around me and about me..' i understand that feeling too well
100%
I've been trying to explain this to people, that we are not defined by the traumatic events we've survived, for years! Some people get it, some don't, some eventually do. It is liberating to take control and to stop living as a victim. It was not your fault, these horrible things, and you can get beyond and be OK.
Your brain and cells know more than you. They often control "you". We often don't have control over our emotions and thoughts. I sometimes think I am over my past after 5 different therapists and a decade of therapy while also studying psychology myself. You are taking care of your body and health, have a beautiful big home, a good job, live in peace. And then you get sudden nightmares. Or a chronic illness. Something pops up, a suppressed and hidden result of unexplainable trauma.
I survived the old Anoka State hospital twice against my will. Sharing my story soon publicly. I can empathize with what you’ve been through in the institution. I was there in my early twenties twice and the things I went through and saw in that place still haunt me to this day and I’m 50 yrs old. The injustice of it all and being stuck in the psych system for 3 yrs of my young adult life still sits with me often. Although I didn’t experience the same punishment as you in the hospitals they were still brutal and inhumane
Gosh so very sorry
I don't live far from there, my friend got us in the tunnels and we explored all the buildings and stuff
@@Mn_comics I’m hoping to go back and visit as a visitor see how it affects me emotionally decades later. I’m building up the courage to go soon and film my experience. It’s one thing to go now as a visitor and walk the grounds but knowing I used to be a patient there before it closed down might be cathartic for me and a healing experience. I was a patient there in 1995 and 1996. It closed down in 1999.
OH my God... This is awful... I have heard of so many atrocities that people do to other people, but this... In a "civilized society" is unfathomable. I'm so sorry you and all those poor children went through that.
Wow, wow, wow!! I’m almost a loss for words due to the powerful and overwhelming feelings I’m experiencing after watching this. Feelings of gratitude and appreciation to you for sharing your story, and for stumbling across it. Overwhelmed by a deep sense of connection to someone I’ve never met. Your courage to keep going and NOT allow the awful things that happened to you define you, or embitter you, is the very definition of awe inspiring!!! Your vulnerability and bravery in sharing your story allowed others, like myself, who’ve also been deeply wounded by life to share in your triumph, and that is nothing short of beautiful. I cannot wait to read your book!! And I’m so filled with joy knowing that you found an incredible partner!! Your video/story has my fire of hope burning oh so bright. THANK YOU!!!!!!
I’m 67 and sometimes my sisters don’t listen to me. My younger sister in particular will just start a new conversation while I’m mid-sentence. I feel invisible.
Ya, get people like that out of your life ASAP
My mom has a mean little sister as well. I never understood why she did not KICK her out of her life. Even as a kid after hearing enough of the things she pulled like tossing away moms original diplomas - I wanted nothing to do w her. Not great her not shake her hand. Put you first. She does it as well. Stop being too kind. Be kind and loving to yourself xoxo
Same or verbally abused
It's absolutely the worst to be left asking yourself "am I here?" "Was I speaking?" Sending you love and support!
My mom's sisters did the same thing.
They are no longer in her life
Beautiful soul. Those people who met you in life are so lucky. Thank you for sharing with us. I can feel your every word.
That is horrendous what happened to you. I was in a psychiatric hospital in Houston for attempting to take my life due to domestic violence and a traumatic divorce. Thankfully, I wasn’t treated the way you were. However, that were short of staff and would ask patients to allow the smokers to go outside with the staff. I finally told the psychiatrist that I was only able to see the outside from a big window. He was annoyed at staff and from then on, we weren’t asked to let the smokers go with staff due shortage of staff. However, my kids are now 29 and 24 and never was able to get past the trauma of almost losing their mom and the violence they witnessed in the home. They have cut me off for 2 yrs now because I am a reminder of their horrible past. I am not upset at them and I understand why they cut me off. I just have to move forward in life without my kids and grandkids. If I don’t, it will kill me.
“Don’t confuse who you are with who you needed to be to survive” ❤
The fact that we treat each other so horribly is beyond upsetting- no excuse.
The average person thinks these institutions help the people who are sent there, but the people who have endured them and are fortunate enough to have survived know they're torture chambers. The fact that you are out and relatively normal shows how strong(and smart) you truly are.
There are people who say, "everything went, well, I'm so much better now", and I'm wondering if they are just lying.
A family member was put in one, twice. I think it was to break her. She NEVER spoke one word about it, which makes no sense. Hubby was up to no good, she knew something.
@@lizh1988 Exactly...it seems that some families just want them to go away. I have heard quite a few survivor's stories and most of these institutions are abusive torture chambers geared towards breaking and cowering them into submission.
@@lizh1988she probably wants to get over that period. And you should respect her boundaries without valuing your curiosity over her comfort.
@@BlackSkyZ2 Nobody said I was asking her anything about it, but probably that's what you would do. But what I'm talking about is someone being taken advantage of, which is I believe what happened.
She could never talk about it, and I did not suspect until later that her being in that place is what made her seem mentally ill, not the other way around.
I don't think you are respecting me, and don't care to hear any more of your comments.
It is very brave for this man to relive this and share his experiences. I hope he’s ok.
I have had this experience on multiple occasions, unfortunately especially when I needed help the most. It taught me if I am ever having trauma to keep it to myself
We are not the things that happened to us. Thank you!❤
So powerful 💪
It’s hard to imagine much hear the truth of such a broken system that turned so many precious human lives into broken people
So glad to hear you found your place and survived an ugly time in your life
That God for you and your help of other people
I’m sorry you had to endure that
😢