I spent 10 yrs 1996-2006, with 1 combat tour during OIF II '04 as a 19K 19D 240B gunner. I am old school Army and now I have a son that is beginning his military journey as a 2Lt. I have lost myself somewhere, I put on a fake face EVERYDAY so I am not seen as weak. I do have PTSD, TBI, and a bunch of other shit. I NEVER use that as an excuse, I have many demons and sometimes the bad one's gets loose. Its now 2024 and I HAVE NOT ADJUSTED. I was raised that it is not ok to say your not ok and that is hard habit to break when your 48. I just self medicate and stay to myself for the most part.
How I relate to you, brother. Navy Corpsman, Vietnam, operating room, 1967, and same issues, same damned attitude. Trying, after decades, with VA, we'll see - lots to explain, but, you already know, no explaining needed. Hope you do well brother. This young veteran has a great attitude, helpful.
This guy's so lucky to have a good support system and family that cares. My mother disowned me at a young age and is the cause of a lot of my trauma from childhood abuse, to neglect, to allowing sexual abuse to happen. My dad is dead and would just tell me to snap out of it. My grandparents are dead and never really cared about me. My one uncle is dead. Another uncle is too busy to care. One brother is dead and another is a drug addict and alcoholic and another cause of a lot of trauma. My girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me the day after Thanksgiving, and she was far from supportive. I have my dogs and one friend who I've known for a little over 20 years. That's it.
This interview has helped me the most. After a 17 years spinal painful illness I relate to war veterans PTSD. Ty for giving me insight ! I'm so much better finally but getting my head correct is the challenge.
This is VERY INFORMATIVE, and educational especially for those like myself who suffer/cope with ptsd. From my experiences it has helped talked/speaking about our combat experiences. Brings it more to light and better understanding. That's been the best way I can explain to my wife so she understands or comprehends it. Talking about it and facing it has helped
You can get yourself back on track like I did, you can recover and be responsible when you use psychedelics like mushroom, DMT , it helped me take accountability for myself and start my healing process, now I’m back to providing for my family and protecting them despite my past struggles
its so overlooked, i went to my doctor in Pakistan Army he referred me to our AFIMH, where the psychiatrist returned me back to my unit RTU, i was in pain, like i wanted to die, ever since my injury i had zero counciling only few sessions from AFIRM as to how my injury will effect me over time and what 50% disability meant, and how i will never be able to walk again. It was only after my first suicide attempt my CO and my whole top brass knew that i was in pain and then i was put into rehab and support system where till this day the army has helped me overcome my roadblocks. Its just had my treating phsysican listend to me and not pulled his rank it would have been better for me.
very inspiring and helpful for this Vietnam vet. thank you, really admire your intelligence, approach, and success in handling this. I hope to emulate.
You can get yourself back on track like I did, you can recover and be responsible when you use psychedelics like mushroom, DMT , it helped me take accountability for myself and start my healing process, now I’m back to providing for my family and protecting them despite my past struggles
I KNOW THAT WATCHING WAR PICTURES IS NOT THE SAME THING AS BEEING IN THE MIDDLE OF A BATTLE, THE REAL THING. THAT IS WAY I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR OUR VETERANS DEAD OR ALIVE. I CAN IMAGIN THE MENTAL AND PHYSICAL STREAST THEY GO THREW. IN COMBAT IT'S EITHER YOUR LIFE OR THE ENEMIES LIFE. WE NEED TO UNDERSTAND WHAT OUR SOLDIERS HAVE TO GO THREW IN ORDER TO COME OUT ALIVE, TO BE ABLE TO COME HOME TO YOUR LOVE ONES. I'AM SO SORRY THAT THERE A SOME PEOPLE FULL OF HATE THAT REJECT OUR VETERANS BECAUSE THEY ARE BLIND TO THE REALTY THAT WAR IS WAR AND AS LONG AS THIS WORLD EXIST, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE WAR. BECAUSE MEN CAN NOT RESOLVE THIER PROBLEMS IN PEACE. I LOST MANY FRIENDS IN VIET NAM😢 MAY GOD BLESS OUR VETERANS AND MY GOD FILL THIER HEARTS AND SOUL WITH PEACE.OUR VETERANS NEED TO GET THE BEST HELP FROM THIER GOVERMENT AND MORE UNDERSTANDING FROM THE PUBLIC.
While on a special op in Central America during the Cold War, we were ambushed by communist guerrillas and many died. I was caught in a crossfire but survived. The Eucharist was the only remedy I ever found to heal the soul wounds of war. I think our ancestors in WW I & WW II knew that but somehow it was forgotten in the 1960s during Vietnam and the cultural upheavals. I'm 62 now, still have some moderately severe chronic pain but the Eucharist and the rosary are my medication. I'd encourage anyone to do what our ancestors did and return to your religious faith. It works. God be with you.
Life is damn hard. Wars and invasions are insane and soldiers are used by governments to do there dirty work. Even if you aren’t in a war zone it can be damn hard being a human being with the things that happen in life, mistakes we make or just bad upbringings leading to never feeling at peace
I have CPTSD as a result of non-stop childhood abuse that lead to me being on the streets by the age of 13. I started taking part in illegal activities when I was 10. It's not as honorable but I've seen and taken part in violent acts that haunt me and always will. I know that feeling of not being able to go to a restaurant without my back to the wall and my eyes towards the door. I'm still like that. I walk around constantly with lighters in my fists. I size up every male that I walk past and perceive them as a potential enemy. I spent a lot of my youth in and out of juvenile hall and group homes where unspeakable abuse happened. That lead to me ending up in prison for 3 years. I got out and continued with my violent lifestyle and illegal activities..... People don't understand this. They just don't..
Any of you guys dealt with porn addiction & sex addict . Ive always been embarrassed and ashamed to talk about after I came back and used sex and porn severely . I can drink , but alcohol and drugs wasn’t my vice as much as porn and sex . I drink socially and did have binders like get drunk and get kicked out of a bar and hiked 11 miles home in the dark, that was years ago . I was prescribed to much at times where it zombied me out. But I’ve used porn and sex a lot, Any of you guys relate? I’m so tired of being in this fucking cycle . This ptsd
Yeah, I developed a porn addiction when I was in Iraq. Then getting back home that turned into a porn and sex addiction. I mean I was doing a lot of stupid fvcking things I'm honestly surprised I never caught an STD. Not sure how common it is, because some with PTSD have issues with... Like arousal, but I think there is an aspect of hyper arousal as well. There was a SGT in my unit that had done like multiple deployments and he got caught in his car, in our battalion parking lot with his dick out jerking off to porn on his iPod... So I know it's something that happens. I did weird sht like that as well didn't get caught.
I spent 10 yrs 1996-2006, with 1 combat tour during OIF II '04 as a 19K 19D 240B gunner. I am old school Army and now I have a son that is beginning his military journey as a 2Lt. I have lost myself somewhere, I put on a fake face EVERYDAY so I am not seen as weak. I do have PTSD, TBI, and a bunch of other shit. I NEVER use that as an excuse, I have many demons and sometimes the bad one's gets loose. Its now 2024 and I HAVE NOT ADJUSTED. I was raised that it is not ok to say your not ok and that is hard habit to break when your 48. I just self medicate and stay to myself for the most part.
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How I relate to you, brother. Navy Corpsman, Vietnam, operating room, 1967, and same issues, same damned attitude. Trying, after decades, with VA, we'll see - lots to explain, but, you already know, no explaining needed. Hope you do well brother. This young veteran has a great attitude, helpful.
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Me too. It’s easier. N in 20 years il be gone
But i still hold job. A trade. It’s a must for a man to have a job , then after the shift ends , medicine time
I was diagnosed with PTSD 6 years ago. I have never heard the term "Post traumatic growth". Thank you for this. I have never viewed it this way.
Take care of yourself; that's your new mission. Much love. Godspeed.
This guy's so lucky to have a good support system and family that cares. My mother disowned me at a young age and is the cause of a lot of my trauma from childhood abuse, to neglect, to allowing sexual abuse to happen. My dad is dead and would just tell me to snap out of it. My grandparents are dead and never really cared about me. My one uncle is dead. Another uncle is too busy to care. One brother is dead and another is a drug addict and alcoholic and another cause of a lot of trauma. My girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me the day after Thanksgiving, and she was far from supportive. I have my dogs and one friend who I've known for a little over 20 years. That's it.
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So sorry for all that happened!
This dialogue is invaluable! Thank you both!
You're O.K. Much love; get through.
This interview has helped me the most. After a 17 years spinal painful illness I relate to war veterans PTSD. Ty for giving me insight ! I'm so much better finally but getting my head correct is the challenge.
You're O.K. Get through. Don't stop. Godspeed. Fuck it. ;)
Keep busy; keep things in your hands; have many tasks, more than you can complete: keep working. Godspeed, all love to y'all.
This is VERY INFORMATIVE, and educational especially for those like myself who suffer/cope with ptsd. From my experiences it has helped talked/speaking about our combat experiences. Brings it more to light and better understanding. That's been the best way I can explain to my wife so she understands or comprehends it. Talking about it and facing it has helped
You can get yourself back on track like I did, you can recover and be responsible when you use psychedelics like mushroom, DMT , it helped me take accountability for myself and start my healing process, now I’m back to providing for my family and protecting them despite my past struggles
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its so overlooked, i went to my doctor in Pakistan Army he referred me to our AFIMH, where the psychiatrist returned me back to my unit RTU, i was in pain, like i wanted to die, ever since my injury i had zero counciling only few sessions from AFIRM as to how my injury will effect me over time and what 50% disability meant, and how i will never be able to walk again. It was only after my first suicide attempt my CO and my whole top brass knew that i was in pain and then i was put into rehab and support system where till this day the army has helped me overcome my roadblocks. Its just had my treating phsysican listend to me and not pulled his rank it would have been better for me.
You're living; you're beating it. Get a crazy hobby; keep things in your hands..make stuff. Much love.
thank you, good luck. helpful brother
Godspeed. Keep on.
very inspiring and helpful for this Vietnam vet. thank you, really admire your intelligence, approach, and success in handling this. I hope to emulate.
You can get yourself back on track like I did, you can recover and be responsible when you use psychedelics like mushroom, DMT , it helped me take accountability for myself and start my healing process, now I’m back to providing for my family and protecting them despite my past struggles
You can get it delivered to you anytime from the online vendor I get mine from
The telegram and instagram handle below is the contact address
*Formulah01*
I KNOW THAT WATCHING WAR PICTURES IS NOT THE SAME THING AS BEEING IN THE MIDDLE OF A BATTLE, THE REAL THING. THAT IS WAY I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR OUR VETERANS DEAD OR ALIVE. I CAN IMAGIN THE MENTAL AND PHYSICAL STREAST THEY GO THREW. IN COMBAT IT'S EITHER YOUR LIFE OR THE ENEMIES LIFE. WE NEED TO UNDERSTAND WHAT OUR SOLDIERS HAVE TO GO THREW IN ORDER TO COME OUT ALIVE, TO BE ABLE TO COME HOME TO YOUR LOVE ONES. I'AM SO SORRY THAT THERE A SOME PEOPLE FULL OF HATE THAT REJECT OUR VETERANS BECAUSE THEY ARE BLIND TO THE REALTY THAT WAR IS WAR AND AS LONG AS THIS WORLD EXIST, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE WAR. BECAUSE MEN CAN NOT RESOLVE THIER PROBLEMS IN PEACE. I LOST MANY FRIENDS IN VIET NAM😢 MAY GOD BLESS OUR VETERANS AND MY GOD FILL THIER HEARTS AND SOUL WITH PEACE.OUR VETERANS NEED TO GET THE BEST HELP FROM THIER GOVERMENT AND MORE UNDERSTANDING FROM THE PUBLIC.
While on a special op in Central America during the Cold War, we were ambushed by communist guerrillas and many died. I was caught in a crossfire but survived. The Eucharist was the only remedy I ever found to heal the soul wounds of war. I think our ancestors in WW I & WW II knew that but somehow it was forgotten in the 1960s during Vietnam and the cultural upheavals. I'm 62 now, still have some moderately severe chronic pain but the Eucharist and the rosary are my medication. I'd encourage anyone to do what our ancestors did and return to your religious faith. It works. God be with you.
God bless you. You got through that, so you can survive anything.
Life is damn hard. Wars and invasions are insane and soldiers are used by governments to do there dirty work. Even if you aren’t in a war zone it can be damn hard being a human being with the things that happen in life, mistakes we make or just bad upbringings leading to never feeling at peace
I have CPTSD as a result of non-stop childhood abuse that lead to me being on the streets by the age of 13. I started taking part in illegal activities when I was 10. It's not as honorable but I've seen and taken part in violent acts that haunt me and always will. I know that feeling of not being able to go to a restaurant without my back to the wall and my eyes towards the door. I'm still like that. I walk around constantly with lighters in my fists. I size up every male that I walk past and perceive them as a potential enemy. I spent a lot of my youth in and out of juvenile hall and group homes where unspeakable abuse happened. That lead to me ending up in prison for 3 years. I got out and continued with my violent lifestyle and illegal activities..... People don't understand this. They just don't..
You're O.K. Get into something that'll demand your mental focus. Hobby, whatever. Get into something. Godspeed, brother.
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Godamn uncle Fender.
Spinning is what you feel like?
Pain forges strength
Sometimes it does, at other times suffering without finding any peace can destroy a person
Stay strong; fuck it! Much love.
I definitely got ptsd from my deployment lol
You're beating it.
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I have to leave. It's to painful listening to it. Please take are of yourself.
Stay. You've survived the worst. Much love.
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Any of you guys dealt with porn addiction & sex addict . Ive always been embarrassed and ashamed to talk about after I came back and used sex and porn severely . I can drink , but alcohol and drugs wasn’t my vice as much as porn and sex . I drink socially and did have binders like get drunk and get kicked out of a bar and hiked 11 miles home in the dark, that was years ago . I was prescribed to much at times where it zombied me out. But I’ve used porn and sex a lot, Any of you guys relate? I’m so tired of being in this fucking cycle . This ptsd
Yeah, I developed a porn addiction when I was in Iraq. Then getting back home that turned into a porn and sex addiction. I mean I was doing a lot of stupid fvcking things I'm honestly surprised I never caught an STD. Not sure how common it is, because some with PTSD have issues with... Like arousal, but I think there is an aspect of hyper arousal as well. There was a SGT in my unit that had done like multiple deployments and he got caught in his car, in our battalion parking lot with his dick out jerking off to porn on his iPod... So I know it's something that happens. I did weird sht like that as well didn't get caught.
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