this is not just a video. this is art. this girl is making art. art that represents all of us struggling with the same thoughts and problems. thank you Riley, you are an amazing human being.
It's okay, I hope you don't grieve again. Life is not worth it. You and your friends go for a soda or overnight with a friend. Visiting a friend is a pleasure in the hustle and bustle of life. 💕
Art? Ummmm yea you can compliment someone without going insanely overboard and making words have wrong definitions ….But sorry thus wasn’t and isn’t ART…..wtf 😂🤣🙄 maybe look the word ART up. This is some typical blog…..I see nothing different or anything about it….might be better than others I wouldn’t know,…,.but ART? Mmmmk.
I totally feel you. My sister has always been kinda equal too me with weight and I struggled about food for sm longer and now she became really thin and I st catch myself thinking: why isnt it me? Why cant I for one time in my life be 100 percent happy in my body and have the discipline? However I noticed how those thoughts began to replace Jesus and God in my mind. Its not good and I am still figuring out how to leave the toxic part of thinking about food body etc behind and focus on my body as a temple of the holy spirit! Its so hard to do something for your body just for a intention that is in Gods will and not out of society pressures. In the end all that matters is Jesus and I think its such a rarety to have a perfectly well functioning body and all you need to care for it! We need to be thankful despite all our mental hardships we have to face. God will never see us through the glasses of society but look upon is with unfiltered love. I guess its a way to start: I am enough because Jesus made me complete! If I follow him and set him on 1st place in my life everything else will get along by itself. We need to trust him, but its a promise. All together: Riley! Remember you are not alone. I am facing almost the exact same struggles as you do atm and I thank God sm for leading me to your channel. May God be with you and all his love so you will always find the right way ❤️. Wish you all the best and greetings from Germany, Josie
wow. what a video. never have i ever felt so connected and relatable to a video like this. i admire you're courage to be able to put yourself in such a vulnerable position and let others know that they're not alone. i haven't been subscribed for long, but you're by far one of my favorite people to watch. keep doing what you're doing; it's making a difference. you're subscribers love you so very much!!!
I relate to all this so much. the struggle, the decision to "start over" the "failing" the obsession with food and the thoughts of "its not fair". going through still more healing in my relationship with food right now! thanks for sharing! this was beautiful!
Riley I love how vulnerable you are and how much effort you put in all of your videos. I'm not even done watching it and I'm just like wow I felt the same way many times and tbh I still kinda feel that way. Your such a role model and a leader and even though you have your down falls like we all do you also have christ. God who strenghthens us and lifts us up in our hard times. I've been praying for ya and I just wanna say I love ya
6:26 Not sure if I understood what you meant properly, but you DO NOT "NEED" to ever be ready to be a wife or have a family. I think you said this because its something you really really want, but just know that there shouldnt be ANY pressure on you to do those things.
I know I’m late to this video but I’m glad that I watched it. I just want to start off by saying thank you so much for creating and posting this video. For a really long time, I have struggled with losing weight. When you mention not comparing yourself to other girls, that was me too. I felt that the reason I didn’t compare myself, because I already knew I was bigger. I felt that it would be a waste of time, for me, because there was no competition. My junior/senior year of highschool (I don’t remember which one) I decided to do the Keto diet with my mom. It worked for the time that I did it, but I didn’t stick with it. And then freshman year of college happened and everything went down hill from there. I tried getting back into it and I failed again. I understand the heart break that you went through because I went through the same thing. Heck, I’m still going through it. I honestly would have never imagined the both of us going through the same problem because I wish I had your body. It really does mean the world to me that you made this video, because it restores hope back into me. I know it’s going to be a long and tough journey and I’m ok with that. God is going to be with me for every step of the way. All and all, I want to say thank you for sharing your journey. It’s good to know that I am not only one with my struggles! Thank you!!!! ❣️❣️❣️❣️
We are all proud of you..Riley...this was an emotional video...I was in tears(June 16, 2021...Are you really hungry) like you literally was going through a lot...stay strong sis...you got this...love you and the becoming series♥️
Hey Riley, I have even finish watching this video yet but I just wanted to come here and say that I can't imagine how hard filming and editing this video must have been for you but I am beyond proud of you for opening up and sharing your story with us. You have gone through so much over the years but look how much you have grown and learned through those experiences, you truly are an amazing person Riley and I hope you know that
2 years ago and present day... same girl but excelled so much in mindset-changing. It took a bit of patience over the last few months, but I’m so glad that this type of meaningful content is gonna be out in near future!
When you posted the teaser on instagram i thought 'finally' there she is again, but after watching this I feel really wrong for thinking that. Because what you have been through in the past two years is incredibly heavy to deal with on your own. I think it is incredibly brave that you share your story with us and how the thought of food can take over your life. I hope that one day you'll find yourself in a place that you're comfortable in and that food becomes your fuel instead of your enemy. thank you for sharing this and I hope that we will see you here a little bit more.. when you're ready of course 💕
As someone who’s been struggling with this before (and still do sometimes when the thoughts creep in) this was so powerful and I’m so happy you are in a better place, it’s a journey and not one I wish upon anyone because it’s so hard. Took me a while to be able to watch this, didn’t want it to trigger me. Wish you all the best! You and I are a lot different (with religion and so on) but in other ways I really see things that resonate with me
I have been struggling so much lately, not so much with food, but just with myself and insecurities… and this video has inspired me and helped me kinda change my mindset and know that I’m not the only one going through hard things.
Of course this video helped not just me, but all of the girls and boys who need some help with this king of struggle, and it's so encouraging and inspiring seeing you going through this and always believing that in the end of the day everything is gonna be alright. And really in the end of the video you got it and finally found a solution to control it and help you with!! I'm so glad and totally proud that you overcame that!! And i also feel like I'm being so hard with myself sometimes when i eat something that i like, like junk food/fast food, but the secret is what happened to you: find your time to face it, balance it well but don't cut it all, cause in the end, you'll see the good results!! And also the most important thing: being proud of yourself in every situation, every little thing that you did and completed with all of your effort, that's why i want to say, thanks for that!! It was really inspirational for me and i really needed that!! 🥺🙏🙌
Found you through our mutual friend, Ashley (who is married now! Sayyy whattt!) and I stuck around to be inspired as started college the same year! It’s inspiring to watch someone be so real on an online platform and it’s almost like a breath of fresh air especially to see it be someone my age, in school, and figuring out life in her twenties. Sometimes I get caught up on the fact that people seem to have the right plan, the better plan, or the easier plan. After social media often only shows the happy moments, the success stories, or the ideal versions of everyone. So to see, through the power of well paced editing and video work, someone sharing the process, the speed bumps and stop signs, rather than the end goal… well it’s just brings peace in a way. Now, as most people on the internet, we don’t know each other. However, I have loved seeing the growth and connection that this channel brings and I thought it only right to give my compliments to the chef. So I hope you know you’ve done good, you are doing good and I believe you will go on to do more good. Tell Ashley hi for me and if you ever want to make a friend across the country, I think we would definitely vibe :)
Hi, Riley! Even though this was only 30ish min for us, I definitely felt your emotions and maturity throughout your journey that was such a pivotal couple of years in your life. I just want to keep this short and sweet and say thank you! If nobody’s told you already, we’re really proud of you and your maturity and rediscovered joy in life is apparent. Much love. :)
Thank you for making these masterpieces! I can't explain how much it motivates me to start taking care of myself. The way you show the side everyone else don't show is so admirable, thank you Riley😘
I've had this moments of overeating and I was really wondering why, cause I felt like I was disciplined in my exercise and eating habit. And then I realized I was eating my feelings, it had to do with anxiety and anytime I felt anxious, I wanted to chew on something. I stopped working out for months, cause it actually made me weaker after each exercise, I've alternated that with yoga now, and I guess the ease of starting it, has helped me be consistent, just watching your journey, I'm seeing so much of your thoughts resonate with those moments I was battling with fitness. I just hope through each mistake and realization you get to a place where you feel confident in your effort, I love your video ❤
Riley, I can’t even explain how much this video impacted me. I’ve gone through a very similar journey, and even though I am so much better than I was in the past, I still struggle with it today. This past year has been the loneliest year of my life, and watching this video brought so much peace to me because it was the first time that someone told me I wasn’t alone and I actually believed it. Watching this showed me that there are so many other people who must be going through what I am going through. Thank you so much for bringing me that peace. I also just wanted to tell you that I had the strongest impression while watching this that you are very loved and important in God’s eyes. You have such a beautiful spirit and I think it is so special how you always want to be better and become something more. You are putting your heart and soul into exactly what God intended this mortal life to be. To make mistakes and never stop trying. I can tell that Satan is working really hard to discourage you, because he knows how valuable your advice and counsel will be to the world. Thank you so much again for this video. I needed it so much.
Oh my God, Riley. Look at yourself and look how far you've come. I am so proud of you for embracing and accepting all the stages of yourself. Thank you for being so relatable and honest. I've shed lots of tears while watching your journey. I feel so grateful for being a part of it. You are wonderful, loved, beautiful, stronger than you think, and more than enough. I love you so much. Thank you for not giving up on your dreams. Don't forget that you are more than your relationship with food and workouts. I hope you're doing better than ever. Keep going
Yeah youtube recommended me your video about private school and now im starting loving you ,now i watched your 5-10 videos and because i love your personality . Youre beautiful inside and out. Dont be Sad do what ever makes you happy because ive been through also anxiety problems but im doing only makes me happy so sadness will get away even though it will come back everyday .
Hi Riley..!! I've been following you since you entered freshman year.. it's been a long time and it makes me really happy to see who you are becoming.. And girl.. let me tell you.. honestly... We all are so proud of you.. you've made it through a rough patch and I'm sure you'll keep making your way through the hard times.. I could related to this as I'm going through a little hard time right now. Watching this video made me go through all kinds of emotions.. it made me sad with you , it made me cry with you, and in the end it made me believe that bad times do end too. The ending did make me smile with you. 🤗 You are an amazing person and you're perfect just the way you are ❣️
I was struggling with the exact same thing , it was hard it was so hard , but now I’m so grateful to be proud of myself and believe in myself in how much I have changed not only on my body and my relationship with food but spiritually, thank u so much I really mean it seeing u is like seeing myself , I’m so proud of you, you’re amazing,beautiful, gorgeous hope you all the best thank u again 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍
I have never related to a video more. Thank you for being vulnerable with your experience and your emotions because hearing and seeing someone explain the such a similar journey to my own over the past 2 years is so validating.
Riley I just know it was God who led me towards your page. Words can’t describe how much I needed to find your page & realize that I’m not alone & want better for myself. Thank you so much for sharing. “For with God all things are possible”. Much love♥️
I swear to god it feels like you're telling my story. I feel you, I relate with you especially when you read your diary entry about not going to wendy's breaking you down to tears. Every part of this is just so true and real and ahhh I am tearing up just typing this.....I just want to say that I hope things change for better and I hope that you and me & everyone watching this can feel happy and healthy and the best version of ourselves one day.
I’ve had a lot of very similar struggles. I’ve always had a huge appetite, and sometimes at dinner as a kid there wouldn’t be enough for me to have the seconds (or sometimes thirds) that I wanted. That fear of not getting to eat as much as I wanted lead to me becoming a defensive eater. I’ll eat when I’m not hungry, and I struggle a lot with portion control. Every time I’ve tried to track, it’s lead to a completely unhealthy mindset. It’s hard to compare myself to my friends and family who can so easily intuitively eat. It feels like that gage in my body is broken. I want to get to the point where I can be healthy and confident without thinking about food all the time. To see that you’ve achieved this is really inspiring. Thank you for this video and being vulnerable❤️
i feel like, this is a better version of my story. or may be my story is just a worse version of yours. but riley, love, i am inspired. so much, you inspire me. and i thank you, thank you for being so vulnerable because you saved me. nowing im not alone who feels this way and finally understanding that progress may take time but it will come has given me huge confidence boost. but, all in all, you are a saviour. because this hole i was spiralling down into, i thought it was petty and selfish and idiotic to even think about it, let alone talk to anyone about how i feel or what i think. it isnt, thank you for showing that. thank you, and i am so proud of the person you have become. i pray that you stay this way
Welcome back Riley I've been waiting for your upload and I've missed your channel and it's sooo good to have you back hope you doing great and I loved your channel and you are amazing Supporter
Sometimes ( read that again, I said SOMETIMES ) it is just having to reset ourselves mentally with what we're thinking or what we've been taught to think -- we have to change those perspectives to better ourselves sometimes. I know it doesn't always work for everyone I am fully aware of that, but you found what helped you and your fans are so happy for you ( even if you were still struggling we'd still be in your corner and cheering you on ).
these videos are amazing, you can see the pain and heartbreak that you’ve gone through! im learning and im going to keep watching and learning. these videos are amazing couldn’t relate more, girl you so beautiful, i understand what it is like to not feel confident looking in the mirror and thinking “why don’t i look like this person” “my breasts are to big” “I want to be slim” but God creates everyone in this image, and we have to love what he has given us. 💓💓💓💓
You are truely amazing, Riely. Thank you for making this video. I am also struggling with my weight and eating and not eating. Knowing that I am not the only who feels this way makes me feel so relieved. Often times I feel ashamed and blame myself for not being 'normal' or having a 'normal body'. Thank you for shining a light on me. What you do is incredible. Best wishes and prayers 💖
More power to you... I've never felt this way but now that I see this.. I feel so sad as well as very proud of you at the same time. Respect. Keep going.
I admire your bravery for being this vulnerable about something that I too have struggled with but never talked about, thank you and we've missed youu🤍
Im honestly happy for you Riley! You’ve gone thru so much these past couple of years and you came back stronger than before both mentally and physically! Just know tht we love you for who you are don’t change because your flaws are what makes you, you and that is what matters ❤️ Stay strong girl!
Thank you for choosing to share this so that people who struggle can know that they are not alone and there will be better days ahead. Being vulnerable is courageous, so I just want to celebrate this big milestones with you! Being able to be part of your growth is amazing as we are learning and growing together!! love ya!! hope you receive all the love from us! & looking forward to more precious videos from you! It means a lot!!💛🙌
I really related to your video. When I was young food was something ate just because. I ate even when I wan't hungry. It was a way of an escape of my depression. Then I'd felt guilty about it. However their was no way of letting go of it. Gainig more weight and more that I didn't even recognized myself anymore Though one day I just told myself that I wanted notto be stuck and had to more than what I was. I still do have struggles but I am working through them.
This really helped me to understand that I'm not alone in my health issues. I've been feeling really bad lately and I think it's a combination of my type 1 diabetes and my thyriod problem and my disautonomia (makes me feel super dizzy) and yeah... thanks! I like cried through most of the vid! I'm starting college in two weeks and I love your vidoes so much and they really inspire me. Thanks!
Riley, I love you so much!!! This series is so good and I can't tell you how much I relate!! Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and putting this out for us to see!! You are incredible Riley!❤
Missed you so much Riley! You are such an inspiration! I have also been struggling with these same problems and I’m so happy you posted this video. Your vulnerability is helping more people than you can even imagine! Hugs from TX! 🤍🤍
You are a wonderful young woman who deserves to feel good about herself and to be happy. Thank you for making videos and sharing your story with the world.
Wow! Riley, I don't even how long I've been waiting for this video! For the first time I've seen your video I knew you were special. We have so many common things I can't even describe. Same age, same values, same vibe, same struggles! I'm being serious, you are not alone girl! So proud of you and your content! That's how UA-camrs and Influencers should be. That's the real life's struggle. Life is hard. I keep saying that for everything in life but in words noone agrees. But if you look in their life, their struggles, their problems that's the truth! Can't wait to see you more often! P.S. I'm from Greece and our system in Universities is different. How would it sound the idea of a video describing how your school works???
I’ve been WAITING for this!!! So glad you decided to continue with your becoming series/UA-cam, but totally get why you needed to take a break from UA-cam. Glad to have you back! Thanks for the great video!
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your experience. As someone who has gone through the struggles of counting calories then eventually having an eating disorder I’m so grateful for this video. I love the perspective you have of being thankful for your body and all of its capabilities. Heavenly Father truly has blessed us!
Oh it's so good to see this, because i can relate to you so much and my body is quite similar to yours and I struggle with the same things. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and journey, its so encouraging to me!!! God bless you girl !!
We all are proud of you Riley❤ We have really missed you here, but I am happy to know that you have come out stronger from it. Always remember you are beautiful and loved and we are always there for you. 🤗
Thankyou so much for sharing your story. I think I've really related to this and, for me, I'm not where I want to be right now and I struggle with the motivation. I think this has really fuelled that motivation I need and you should be so proud of yourself for your personal progress and for sharing your story. I can really see Gods presence in your life and I pray for Him to continually bless you.
I really REALLY relate to this, i always seem to want to eat even when i'm not hungry. i'll overeat and then feel bad about it and decide to do better, eat less, but then i don't follow through. almost every day i end up very bloated, full, and feeling gross. it's been a little better this summer but i'm still working through it too
We all love you so much Riley! Your videos always make me smile, but this one made me feel so many many things. Thank you for producing such a wonderful video and being so vulnerable. I can relate to so many of the things you so in this video, especially during my time in college. Like Ashley said, you truly are enough! We love you!!
Jesus is there for every one for us .Share your struggles with him 💖 He answered my prayer today .,actually it was raining constantly for few days in my place it started to get flood , nothing happened to my house but a lot of places did drown...That day I prayed to God .today it rained for few minutes and stopped ,❣️😊
Ahh Riley, I'm so proud of you and I really resonate with your journey- I struggled with binge eating and having a lot of the same feelings as you, and I'm now as well just getting to a better place. So happy for the post and you being able to break that wall and enjoy video making again
Riley. I almost cried watching this. You are inspiring and I appreciate how real you are. This is precious and I am blessed I had the opportunity to see a human being transform the way you have. I am proud of you and I am excited to see you grow more. I love you too sister!
You are so empowering! You have motivated me to take better care of myself, and to actually try my best, and to not give up. Also, I don’t know if this is helpful or not. But when I workout I pick something that I enjoy, something that’s fun, and I don’t think of it as something that I have to do, but more of something that I can do.
love this series. thank you for being open about your stuggles. it helps to know i’m not alone. ashley is seriously one of my favorite people too! you have great friends around you!
This is me. I am you. You are me. I starved myself for a week straight. I live to eat rather than eat to live but it backslaps me. Idk like I want to eat as much as I want but I wanna look skinny and on top of that I don’t wanna look skinny for others but for myself like when I look myself in the mirror I wanna be like DAYUM instead of DAMN. I’m still facing it. I don’t know when it will end. Or if it will ever. I cry. I suck in my stomach. I starve myself. I exercise. But I don’t feel enough. I don’t feel pretty. I don’t feel myself. It’s me who knows that I’m terrible and miserable. I have been facing this problem for as long as I remember. Even ppl tell me to not starve myself but who’s gonna tell them that that’s what makes me happy like I’m not starving myself cuz I like to do that. Ofc I don’t but idk. I am who I am but I don’t wanna be who I am. That’s it. I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY EATING RATHER THAN BEING HARD ON MYSELF.
I'm glad you are back to making videos I have missed you since you graduated from SVU God bless you sweetheart don't stress about it you got this sweetheart God bless you sweetheart and I love you Riley
And this video really made me realize the chances that I had in my life to fix it and I decided to miss them lol Maybe this is my sign to do something... I love you 💖
I have never found someone going through something so similar to my own struggle. I was thinking about it right when I stumbled upon this video. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️❤️
wow. just wow. This whole video was so vulnerable and real. It’s nice to see someone not be afraid to share what they’re are going through or struggling with. I really appreciate how open and honest you were about your journey and just sharing the journey itself. I know they struggles are hard but look at home much it paid off. So proud of your for pushing through and getting the results you always wanted
We missed you so much 😭😭😭 Riely .. I became so emotional having the notification.. You know the guy like me who doesn't have many friends around enjoy the most watching ur every video .. you could be 2 or 3 yrs younger than me bt I relate u like a very close frnd. Never get disappointed Riely some bad things happen in life to test you not to make u down. Always come back stronger 💪. And always be tuned with us.. lots of love 💕 Stay blessed
I had a similar thing happen to me and I got given a book by one of my teachers, its called "I'm No Angel" by Kylie Bisutti. I highly recommend, it has a 30 day transformation with devotionals for each day at the end. I'm up to day 3, "finding your worth" Deuteronomy 14:2. Thank you for sharing this Riley
Yayyy welcome back! I'm so happy that you've made it and better than ever, its truly the best feeling to just be happy with yourself glad you made it out stronger!
Hi , Riley, I can't understand fully about ur pains and low periods, but I am proud of you, that u achieved what u wanted and u are happy now. I happy to see you and I really missed you . Hope you are doing well and thanks for sharing ur journey. Will always support you love.❤❤
Thank you. ♥ For this video, for your vulnerability, for having taken the time to focus on yourself before doing videos. Just one thing : thank you ! ♥ I'm sure this video will help a lot of people. I'm really happy to see you back on UA-cam. (a little comment from France) ♥
I can relate so much. Thank you for sharing this video, cuase sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who deals/delt with trying to truly understand food, and wonder why it seems to come so easy to everyone else to know the perfect balance to keep them strong and happy aswell as fit and healthy. Thank you again for sharing this and I also wanted to say that you are beautiful weather you always feel like it or not, you are.
this is not just a video.
this is art.
this girl is making art.
art that represents all of us struggling with the same thoughts and problems.
thank you Riley, you are an amazing human being.
It's okay, I hope you don't grieve again. Life is not worth it. You and your friends go for a soda or overnight with a friend. Visiting a friend is a pleasure in the hustle and bustle of life. 💕
Art? Ummmm yea you can compliment someone without going insanely overboard and making words have wrong definitions ….But sorry thus wasn’t and isn’t ART…..wtf 😂🤣🙄 maybe look the word ART up. This is some typical blog…..I see nothing different or anything about it….might be better than others I wouldn’t know,…,.but ART? Mmmmk.
We've missed you...
Fr we hella missed you girl ❤️🥺
I totally feel you. My sister has always been kinda equal too me with weight and I struggled about food for sm longer and now she became really thin and I st catch myself thinking: why isnt it me? Why cant I for one time in my life be 100 percent happy in my body and have the discipline?
However I noticed how those thoughts began to replace Jesus and God in my mind. Its not good and I am still figuring out how to leave the toxic part of thinking about food body etc behind and focus on my body as a temple of the holy spirit! Its so hard to do something for your body just for a intention that is in Gods will and not out of society pressures.
In the end all that matters is Jesus and I think its such a rarety to have a perfectly well functioning body and all you need to care for it! We need to be thankful despite all our mental hardships we have to face. God will never see us through the glasses of society but look upon is with unfiltered love.
I guess its a way to start: I am enough because Jesus made me complete! If I follow him and set him on 1st place in my life everything else will get along by itself. We need to trust him, but its a promise.
All together: Riley! Remember you are not alone. I am facing almost the exact same struggles as you do atm and I thank God sm for leading me to your channel. May God be with you and all his love so you will always find the right way ❤️.
Wish you all the best and greetings from Germany, Josie
wow. what a video. never have i ever felt so connected and relatable to a video like this. i admire you're courage to be able to put yourself in such a vulnerable position and let others know that they're not alone. i haven't been subscribed for long, but you're by far one of my favorite people to watch. keep doing what you're doing; it's making a difference. you're subscribers love you so very much!!!
I relate to all this so much. the struggle, the decision to "start over" the "failing" the obsession with food and the thoughts of "its not fair". going through still more healing in my relationship with food right now! thanks for sharing! this was beautiful!
Riley I love how vulnerable you are and how much effort you put in all of your videos. I'm not even done watching it and I'm just like wow I felt the same way many times and tbh I still kinda feel that way. Your such a role model and a leader and even though you have your down falls like we all do you also have christ. God who strenghthens us and lifts us up in our hard times. I've been praying for ya and I just wanna say I love ya
6:26 Not sure if I understood what you meant properly, but you DO NOT "NEED" to ever be ready to be a wife or have a family. I think you said this because its something you really really want, but just know that there shouldnt be ANY pressure on you to do those things.
I know I’m late to this video but I’m glad that I watched it. I just want to start off by saying thank you so much for creating and posting this video. For a really long time, I have struggled with losing weight. When you mention not comparing yourself to other girls, that was me too. I felt that the reason I didn’t compare myself, because I already knew I was bigger. I felt that it would be a waste of time, for me, because there was no competition. My junior/senior year of highschool (I don’t remember which one) I decided to do the Keto diet with my mom. It worked for the time that I did it, but I didn’t stick with it. And then freshman year of college happened and everything went down hill from there. I tried getting back into it and I failed again. I understand the heart break that you went through because I went through the same thing. Heck, I’m still going through it. I honestly would have never imagined the both of us going through the same problem because I wish I had your body. It really does mean the world to me that you made this video, because it restores hope back into me. I know it’s going to be a long and tough journey and I’m ok with that. God is going to be with me for every step of the way. All and all, I want to say thank you for sharing your journey. It’s good to know that I am not only one with my struggles! Thank you!!!! ❣️❣️❣️❣️
We are all proud of you..Riley...this was an emotional video...I was in tears(June 16, 2021...Are you really hungry) like you literally was going through a lot...stay strong sis...you got this...love you and the becoming series♥️
Hey Riley, I have even finish watching this video yet but I just wanted to come here and say that I can't imagine how hard filming and editing this video must have been for you but I am beyond proud of you for opening up and sharing your story with us. You have gone through so much over the years but look how much you have grown and learned through those experiences, you truly are an amazing person Riley and I hope you know that
2 years ago and present day... same girl but excelled so much in mindset-changing. It took a bit of patience over the last few months, but I’m so glad that this type of meaningful content is gonna be out in near future!
When you posted the teaser on instagram i thought 'finally' there she is again, but after watching this I feel really wrong for thinking that. Because what you have been through in the past two years is incredibly heavy to deal with on your own. I think it is incredibly brave that you share your story with us and how the thought of food can take over your life.
I hope that one day you'll find yourself in a place that you're comfortable in and that food becomes your fuel instead of your enemy.
thank you for sharing this and I hope that we will see you here a little bit more.. when you're ready of course 💕
As someone who’s been struggling with this before (and still do sometimes when the thoughts creep in) this was so powerful and I’m so happy you are in a better place, it’s a journey and not one I wish upon anyone because it’s so hard. Took me a while to be able to watch this, didn’t want it to trigger me. Wish you all the best! You and I are a lot different (with religion and so on) but in other ways I really see things that resonate with me
I have been struggling so much lately, not so much with food, but just with myself and insecurities… and this video has inspired me and helped me kinda change my mindset and know that I’m not the only one going through hard things.
Of course this video helped not just me, but all of the girls and boys who need some help with this king of struggle, and it's so encouraging and inspiring seeing you going through this and always believing that in the end of the day everything is gonna be alright. And really in the end of the video you got it and finally found a solution to control it and help you with!! I'm so glad and totally proud that you overcame that!! And i also feel like I'm being so hard with myself sometimes when i eat something that i like, like junk food/fast food, but the secret is what happened to you: find your time to face it, balance it well but don't cut it all, cause in the end, you'll see the good results!! And also the most important thing: being proud of yourself in every situation, every little thing that you did and completed with all of your effort, that's why i want to say, thanks for that!! It was really inspirational for me and i really needed that!! 🥺🙏🙌
I've missed you and gosh this changed me. You said exactly how I feel how I give up on myself and say I can't do it. I saw myself and it made me cy
Found you through our mutual friend, Ashley (who is married now! Sayyy whattt!) and I stuck around to be inspired as started college the same year!
It’s inspiring to watch someone be so real on an online platform and it’s almost like a breath of fresh air especially to see it be someone my age, in school, and figuring out life in her twenties. Sometimes I get caught up on the fact that people seem to have the right plan, the better plan, or the easier plan. After social media often only shows the happy moments, the success stories, or the ideal versions of everyone. So to see, through the power of well paced editing and video work, someone sharing the process, the speed bumps and stop signs, rather than the end goal… well it’s just brings peace in a way.
Now, as most people on the internet, we don’t know each other. However, I have loved seeing the growth and connection that this channel brings and I thought it only right to give my compliments to the chef. So I hope you know you’ve done good, you are doing good and I believe you will go on to do more good.
Tell Ashley hi for me and if you ever want to make a friend across the country, I think we would definitely vibe :)
Hi, Riley! Even though this was only 30ish min for us, I definitely felt your emotions and maturity throughout your journey that was such a pivotal couple of years in your life. I just want to keep this short and sweet and say thank you! If nobody’s told you already, we’re really proud of you and your maturity and rediscovered joy in life is apparent. Much love. :)
Thank you for making these masterpieces! I can't explain how much it motivates me to start taking care of myself. The way you show the side everyone else don't show is so admirable, thank you Riley😘
I've had this moments of overeating and I was really wondering why, cause I felt like I was disciplined in my exercise and eating habit. And then I realized I was eating my feelings, it had to do with anxiety and anytime I felt anxious, I wanted to chew on something. I stopped working out for months, cause it actually made me weaker after each exercise, I've alternated that with yoga now, and I guess the ease of starting it, has helped me be consistent, just watching your journey, I'm seeing so much of your thoughts resonate with those moments I was battling with fitness. I just hope through each mistake and realization you get to a place where you feel confident in your effort, I love your video ❤
I'm so glad to see you finally made it through. Watching someone suffer isn't easy.
Riley, I can’t even explain how much this video impacted me. I’ve gone through a very similar journey, and even though I am so much better than I was in the past, I still struggle with it today. This past year has been the loneliest year of my life, and watching this video brought so much peace to me because it was the first time that someone told me I wasn’t alone and I actually believed it. Watching this showed me that there are so many other people who must be going through what I am going through. Thank you so much for bringing me that peace. I also just wanted to tell you that I had the strongest impression while watching this that you are very loved and important in God’s eyes. You have such a beautiful spirit and I think it is so special how you always want to be better and become something more. You are putting your heart and soul into exactly what God intended this mortal life to be. To make mistakes and never stop trying. I can tell that Satan is working really hard to discourage you, because he knows how valuable your advice and counsel will be to the world. Thank you so much again for this video. I needed it so much.
Oh my God, Riley. Look at yourself and look how far you've come. I am so proud of you for embracing and accepting all the stages of yourself. Thank you for being so relatable and honest. I've shed lots of tears while watching your journey. I feel so grateful for being a part of it. You are wonderful, loved, beautiful, stronger than you think, and more than enough. I love you so much. Thank you for not giving up on your dreams. Don't forget that you are more than your relationship with food and workouts. I hope you're doing better than ever. Keep going
Yeah youtube recommended me your video about private school and now im starting loving you ,now i watched your 5-10 videos and because i love your personality . Youre beautiful inside and out. Dont be Sad do what ever makes you happy because ive been through also anxiety problems but im doing only makes me happy so sadness will get away even though it will come back everyday .
Hi Riley..!!
I've been following you since you entered freshman year.. it's been a long time and it makes me really happy to see who you are becoming..
And girl.. let me tell you.. honestly... We all are so proud of you.. you've made it through a rough patch and I'm sure you'll keep making your way through the hard times..
I could related to this as I'm going through a little hard time right now.
Watching this video made me go through all kinds of emotions.. it made me sad with you , it made me cry with you, and in the end it made me believe that bad times do end too. The ending did make me smile with you. 🤗
You are an amazing person and you're perfect just the way you are ❣️
I was struggling with the exact same thing , it was hard it was so hard , but now I’m so grateful to be proud of myself and believe in myself in how much I have changed not only on my body and my relationship with food but spiritually, thank u so much I really mean it seeing u is like seeing myself , I’m so proud of you, you’re amazing,beautiful, gorgeous hope you all the best thank u again 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍
I have never related to a video more. Thank you for being vulnerable with your experience and your emotions because hearing and seeing someone explain the such a similar journey to my own over the past 2 years is so validating.
Riley I just know it was God who led me towards your page. Words can’t describe how much I needed to find your page & realize that I’m not alone & want better for myself. Thank you so much for sharing. “For with God all things are possible”. Much love♥️
I swear to god it feels like you're telling my story. I feel you, I relate with you especially when you read your diary entry about not going to wendy's breaking you down to tears. Every part of this is just so true and real and ahhh I am tearing up just typing this.....I just want to say that I hope things change for better and I hope that you and me & everyone watching this can feel happy and healthy and the best version of ourselves one day.
I’ve had a lot of very similar struggles. I’ve always had a huge appetite, and sometimes at dinner as a kid there wouldn’t be enough for me to have the seconds (or sometimes thirds) that I wanted. That fear of not getting to eat as much as I wanted lead to me becoming a defensive eater. I’ll eat when I’m not hungry, and I struggle a lot with portion control. Every time I’ve tried to track, it’s lead to a completely unhealthy mindset. It’s hard to compare myself to my friends and family who can so easily intuitively eat. It feels like that gage in my body is broken. I want to get to the point where I can be healthy and confident without thinking about food all the time. To see that you’ve achieved this is really inspiring. Thank you for this video and being vulnerable❤️
Great to see you back Riley. Never imagined all you were going through. Thought you had gone on a mission. Sending you strength and peace.
i feel like, this is a better version of my story. or may be my story is just a worse version of yours. but riley, love, i am inspired. so much, you inspire me. and i thank you, thank you for being so vulnerable because you saved me. nowing im not alone who feels this way and finally understanding that progress may take time but it will come has given me huge confidence boost. but, all in all, you are a saviour. because this hole i was spiralling down into, i thought it was petty and selfish and idiotic to even think about it, let alone talk to anyone about how i feel or what i think. it isnt, thank you for showing that. thank you, and i am so proud of the person you have become. i pray that you stay this way
Welcome back Riley I've been waiting for your upload and I've missed your channel and it's sooo good to have you back hope you doing great and I loved your channel and you are amazing Supporter
Sometimes ( read that again, I said SOMETIMES ) it is just having to reset ourselves mentally with what we're thinking or what we've been taught to think -- we have to change those perspectives to better ourselves sometimes. I know it doesn't always work for everyone I am fully aware of that, but you found what helped you and your fans are so happy for you ( even if you were still struggling we'd still be in your corner and cheering you on ).
these videos are amazing, you can see the pain and heartbreak that you’ve gone through! im learning and im going to keep watching and learning. these videos are amazing couldn’t relate more, girl you so beautiful, i understand what it is like to not feel confident looking in the mirror and thinking “why don’t i look like this person” “my breasts are to big” “I want to be slim” but God creates everyone in this image, and we have to love what he has given us. 💓💓💓💓
You are truely amazing, Riely. Thank you for making this video. I am also struggling with my weight and eating and not eating. Knowing that I am not the only who feels this way makes me feel so relieved. Often times I feel ashamed and blame myself for not being 'normal' or having a 'normal body'. Thank you for shining a light on me. What you do is incredible. Best wishes and prayers 💖
More power to you... I've never felt this way but now that I see this.. I feel so sad as well as very proud of you at the same time. Respect. Keep going.
You are amazing. It’s so encouraging to see another person struggle and work to overcome it. Keep inspiring Riley🧡
I admire your bravery for being this vulnerable about something that I too have struggled with but never talked about, thank you and we've missed youu🤍
Im honestly happy for you Riley! You’ve gone thru so much these past couple of years and you came back stronger than before both mentally and physically! Just know tht we love you for who you are don’t change because your flaws are what makes you, you and that is what matters ❤️ Stay strong girl!
Thank you for this video, I feel like this almost every day, and seeing that I am not alone in this, its wonderful, you made me wanna change.
This is beautiful. I admire your vulnerability, it's very refreshing. And it shows just how strong you are. I live you girl❤️
i'm speechless. this video put so many of my thoughts into words. you are so strong, riley.
Thank you for choosing to share this so that people who struggle can know that they are not alone and there will be better days ahead. Being vulnerable is courageous, so I just want to celebrate this big milestones with you! Being able to be part of your growth is amazing as we are learning and growing together!! love ya!! hope you receive all the love from us! & looking forward to more precious videos from you! It means a lot!!💛🙌
love you so much! you have come so far and I’m so grateful for everything that you’ve showed me. you are amazing ❤️❤️
I don't know how else to even say this but thank you, Riley! Truly, truly thank you! You inspire me.
I really related to your video. When I was young food was something ate just because. I ate even when I wan't hungry. It was a way of an escape of my depression. Then I'd felt guilty about it. However their was no way of letting go of it. Gainig more weight and more that I didn't even recognized myself anymore Though one day I just told myself that I wanted notto be stuck and had to more than what I was. I still do have struggles but I am working through them.
This really helped me to understand that I'm not alone in my health issues. I've been feeling really bad lately and I think it's a combination of my type 1 diabetes and my thyriod problem and my disautonomia (makes me feel super dizzy) and yeah... thanks! I like cried through most of the vid! I'm starting college in two weeks and I love your vidoes so much and they really inspire me. Thanks!
Riley, I love you so much!!! This series is so good and I can't tell you how much I relate!! Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and putting this out for us to see!! You are incredible Riley!❤
Missed you so much Riley! You are such an inspiration! I have also been struggling with these same problems and I’m so happy you posted this video. Your vulnerability is helping more people than you can even imagine!
Hugs from TX! 🤍🤍
Riley ❤ I missed you.
This video was very eye-opening and encouraging. Thank you.
God bless you.
You are a wonderful young woman who deserves to feel good about herself and to be happy. Thank you for making videos and sharing your story with the world.
I loved it so much. It's much more than just a video 👏
Riley! I’ve been dying waiting for another video from you- thank you for your honesty we love you! 🤍🫶🏼
Wow! Riley, I don't even how long I've been waiting for this video! For the first time I've seen your video I knew you were special. We have so many common things I can't even describe. Same age, same values, same vibe, same struggles! I'm being serious, you are not alone girl! So proud of you and your content! That's how UA-camrs and Influencers should be. That's the real life's struggle. Life is hard. I keep saying that for everything in life but in words noone agrees. But if you look in their life, their struggles, their problems that's the truth!
Can't wait to see you more often!
P.S. I'm from Greece and our system in Universities is different. How would it sound the idea of a video describing how your school works???
I’ve been WAITING for this!!! So glad you decided to continue with your becoming series/UA-cam, but totally get why you needed to take a break from UA-cam. Glad to have you back! Thanks for the great video!
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your experience. As someone who has gone through the struggles of counting calories then eventually having an eating disorder I’m so grateful for this video. I love the perspective you have of being thankful for your body and all of its capabilities. Heavenly Father truly has blessed us!
Oh it's so good to see this, because i can relate to you so much and my body is quite similar to yours and I struggle with the same things. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and journey, its so encouraging to me!!!
God bless you girl !!
Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable ❤️ went through/am going through all of these things and have never felt so heard
We all are proud of you Riley❤ We have really missed you here, but I am happy to know that you have come out stronger from it. Always remember you are beautiful and loved and we are always there for you. 🤗
Thankyou so much for sharing your story. I think I've really related to this and, for me, I'm not where I want to be right now and I struggle with the motivation. I think this has really fuelled that motivation I need and you should be so proud of yourself for your personal progress and for sharing your story. I can really see Gods presence in your life and I pray for Him to continually bless you.
I really REALLY relate to this, i always seem to want to eat even when i'm not hungry. i'll overeat and then feel bad about it and decide to do better, eat less, but then i don't follow through. almost every day i end up very bloated, full, and feeling gross. it's been a little better this summer but i'm still working through it too
so happy that you’re happy! 🫶
also excited for the videos to come 👀🤍
We all love you so much Riley! Your videos always make me smile, but this one made me feel so many many things. Thank you for producing such a wonderful video and being so vulnerable. I can relate to so many of the things you so in this video, especially during my time in college. Like Ashley said, you truly are enough! We love you!!
Jesus is there for every one for us .Share your struggles with him 💖 He answered my prayer today .,actually it was raining constantly for few days in my place it started to get flood , nothing happened to my house but a lot of places did drown...That day I prayed to God .today it rained for few minutes and stopped ,❣️😊
Missed watching your videos but am happy that you took the time to work on what you needed too. ❤️
Absolutely love you Riley! Thank you for being you!
Ahh Riley, I'm so proud of you and I really resonate with your journey- I struggled with binge eating and having a lot of the same feelings as you, and I'm now as well just getting to a better place. So happy for the post and you being able to break that wall and enjoy video making again
This video is exactly what I needed to show up on my timeline. Thank you. thank you. thank you.
i love you so much. i'm so proud of you. thank you
we've reeaallly missed you! i'm so proud of you Riley and everything you did. be happy girl, you deserve it💌
Riley. I almost cried watching this. You are inspiring and I appreciate how real you are. This is precious and I am blessed I had the opportunity to see a human being transform the way you have. I am proud of you and I am excited to see you grow more. I love you too sister!
You are so empowering! You have motivated me to take better care of myself, and to actually try my best, and to not give up. Also, I don’t know if this is helpful or not. But when I workout I pick something that I enjoy, something that’s fun, and I don’t think of it as something that I have to do, but more of something that I can do.
Literally my comfort UA-camr.. Loveyou Riley
love this series. thank you for being open about your stuggles. it helps to know i’m not alone. ashley is seriously one of my favorite people too! you have great friends around you!
thank you. im not in a place to share what im going through but i truly feel so seen and heard. thank you riley.
This is me. I am you. You are me. I starved myself for a week straight. I live to eat rather than eat to live but it backslaps me. Idk like I want to eat as much as I want but I wanna look skinny and on top of that I don’t wanna look skinny for others but for myself like when I look myself in the mirror I wanna be like DAYUM instead of DAMN. I’m still facing it. I don’t know when it will end. Or if it will ever. I cry. I suck in my stomach. I starve myself. I exercise. But I don’t feel enough. I don’t feel pretty. I don’t feel myself. It’s me who knows that I’m terrible and miserable. I have been facing this problem for as long as I remember. Even ppl tell me to not starve myself but who’s gonna tell them that that’s what makes me happy like I’m not starving myself cuz I like to do that. Ofc I don’t but idk. I am who I am but I don’t wanna be who I am. That’s it. I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY EATING RATHER THAN BEING HARD ON MYSELF.
Love you
I'm glad you are back to making videos I have missed you since you graduated from SVU God bless you sweetheart don't stress about it you got this sweetheart God bless you sweetheart and I love you Riley
You are amazing and this video was very inspiring
I am so proud you have been so raw and open.
We are here with you! U are a championnnnnnnnn
And this video really made me realize the chances that I had in my life to fix it and I decided to miss them lol
Maybe this is my sign to do something...
I love you 💖
You are such a strong, beautiful and inspiring person. Thank you for trusting us with this vulnerable side of you.
you know right, you’re not alone❤️
I loved this so much...you're brave❤
I just want to give you a big hug ❤️❤️❤️ Can't wait to see your beautiful self again!! Welcome Back 😊😊😊
Thank you for reminding us that it is okay not to be okay
So so happy to see this…. You’re not alone in this struggles
I'm struggling with my relationship with food. And confidence is so low right now. But I'm.still surviving. Thanks gurl.
Love you
@@Abigail--- love you too
I’m so proud of you for going on even when it’s really hard:) you got this I believe in you!!
@@sanjanatatikonda9156 Thank you. Badly needed this ❤️
@@camilleroseinguito2316 you got this, just keep swimming ❤️🦋
I have never found someone going through something so similar to my own struggle. I was thinking about it right when I stumbled upon this video. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️❤️
wow. just wow. This whole video was so vulnerable and real. It’s nice to see someone not be afraid to share what they’re are going through or struggling with. I really appreciate how open and honest you were about your journey and just sharing the journey itself. I know they struggles are hard but look at home much it paid off. So proud of your for pushing through and getting the results you always wanted
We missed you so much 😭😭😭 Riely .. I became so emotional having the notification.. You know the guy like me who doesn't have many friends around enjoy the most watching ur every video .. you could be 2 or 3 yrs younger than me bt I relate u like a very close frnd. Never get disappointed Riely some bad things happen in life to test you not to make u down. Always come back stronger 💪. And always be tuned with us.. lots of love 💕 Stay blessed
I had a similar thing happen to me and I got given a book by one of my teachers, its called "I'm No Angel" by Kylie Bisutti. I highly recommend, it has a 30 day transformation with devotionals for each day at the end. I'm up to day 3, "finding your worth" Deuteronomy 14:2. Thank you for sharing this Riley
So so much proud of you. Very happy to have you back... Missed you ❤️
Yayyy welcome back! I'm so happy that you've made it and better than ever, its truly the best feeling to just be happy with yourself glad you made it out stronger!
Missed you a lot riley
I hope you're doing good i am so proud of you!!
Wow only 10 minutes in and this videos already touched me, thank you for sharing your journey and showing how many people have felt or still feel💕💕
Hi , Riley, I can't understand fully about ur pains and low periods, but I am proud of you, that u achieved what u wanted and u are happy now. I happy to see you and I really missed you . Hope you are doing well and thanks for sharing ur journey. Will always support you love.❤❤
Thank you. ♥ For this video, for your vulnerability, for having taken the time to focus on yourself before doing videos. Just one thing : thank you ! ♥ I'm sure this video will help a lot of people.
I'm really happy to see you back on UA-cam.
(a little comment from France) ♥
I can relate so much. Thank you for sharing this video, cuase sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who deals/delt with trying to truly understand food, and wonder why it seems to come so easy to everyone else to know the perfect balance to keep them strong and happy aswell as fit and healthy. Thank you again for sharing this and I also wanted to say that you are beautiful weather you always feel like it or not, you are.