I've recognised myself too much for my own good in that video... thank you for sharing your story and showing yourself, me and all of us that we are worthy of forgiveness, of love, of living❤ you are a genuine person with an amazing heart. Thank you.
It was so brave of you to tell the internet the challenges you've gone through and it shows how strong you are. This mini documentary has definitely helped me and a lot of others. Thank you for putting this out here and looking out for others. :)
So since you have dealt with severe depression on and off in your life for years, do you think your depression will last forever, in the sense that you’ll always get randomly depressed in your life for no reason even though your life is going amazingly and nothing is going wrong in your life, as oppose to a depression that lasts temporarily, because it doesn’t seem you have a depression that lasts for a while or happened because of some traumatic experience it seems like you have a depression that comes and goes on and off in your life on repeat forever, you could be happy for weeks and months but you’ll be struck randomly with depression for a couple of weeks, even though your depression will last forever in that sense that you won’t ever not experience depression again you won’t be sad all the time because you have happiness just like the rest of us and just remember the depression might come back randomly forever but you won’t experience depression forever you’ll have long periods when you’re not depressed and genuinely happy.
@@LewisBuchan So since you have dealt with severe depression on and off in your life for years, do you think your depression will last forever, in the sense that you’ll always get randomly depressed in your life for no reason even though your life is going amazingly and nothing is going wrong in your life, as oppose to a depression that lasts temporarily, because it doesn’t seem you have a depression that lasts for a while or happened because of some traumatic experience it seems like you have a depression that comes and goes on and off in your life on repeat forever, you could be happy for weeks and months but you’ll be struck randomly with depression for a couple of weeks, even though your depression will last forever in that sense that you won’t ever not experience depression again you won’t be sad all the time because you have happiness just like the rest of us and just remember the depression might come back randomly forever but you won’t experience depression forever you’ll have long periods when you’re not depressed and genuinely happy.
I related to this video WAYY more than I ever anticipated... like the whole thing. From losing a friend to sw to even dealing with it yourself. Thank you for sharing this Lewis, your words will definitely contiue reach the right people❤️
I think you’re setting a really good example by sharing such personal things like this. Hopefully it helps more people talk about their mental health. Also the production on these videos are really good, loving the multiple camera angles haha
@@LewisBuchan well I actually didn’t think I’d cry watching it but I cried twice watching it and then twice after it. I’m a pretty emotional person lol
as a depressed closeted queer person in a currently unsafe environment, i appreciate hearing stories about queer people who've also had really difficult journeys to get to where they are, regardless of how similar they are to mine. the intersectionality of queerness and mental health problems isn't as discussed as often as it should be - even if the former isn't a direct trigger for the latter, there's still often underlying more passively-formed anxiety that develops in so many queer people because of social and internalised expectations, prejudices, pressures and fears (this is getting rambley, sorry) it's wonderful that so many people in the lgbt community nowdays have positive experiences surronding coming out and personal and social acceptance but that narrative isn't always true for everyone and that can be very isolating. thank you for sharing your narrative and being so vulnerable - i hope you're doing well x
I really hope that some day soon you are able to find a safe environment and surround yourself with loving people. I understand what it’s like to be closeted (still am) and it simultaneously hurts and inspires me when I see others being able to live out and happy because I’m jealous of their freedom and I know that I will lose some of my closest family/friends when I tell them. My family have openly expressed their dislike of people who are lgbt+ with things like “I don’t mind it as long as I don’t see it” or “I don’t mind as long as my own children aren’t part of it” even saying things like “what a waste” when they find out an actor/actress they like is lgbt+ and it breaks my heart everytime. Thankfully I am leaving this environment for university which I am going very far away so I can be my true self without having to worry about what they think of me! It infuriates me every day that there are people who don’t think we deserve rights or are disgusting when we just want to love and be loved the same way every human wants to feel less alone. ❤️ Sorry for the long rant but it’s nice to blurt it out occasionally.
@@jenniferlloyd9245 I find it's really helpful to blast my problems out to strangers on the internet lol. But yeah, I'm excited to start university in a couple months- I can't wait to begin experiencing freedom in how I not only present but just exist
@@Rachel-kr1jh exactly the same with me i start uni in September a few hours away from my home so I can be free and openly say that I am lgbt+. As much as I love my family it’s just not something I could do at home 😞
That bit about missing school really hit home. I'm moving out, starting work for the first time, I really miss it. Being surrounded by friends in a safe environment like that was so comforting and I didn't appreciate it when I had it.
Bit late on this one, but it really resonated with me. I was an angry teen for no reason, now at 33 I've had more dead friends than I can count, including my best friend. I've battled booze, I've battled heroin. It's tough. But it gets better. I've not had suicidal ideation in a while. I understand the need for confirmation that everyone doesn't hate you. Thanks for sharing and being honest. I love your channel. best of luck 💖
Incredibly proud of you for being strong and brave to tell and share your story. You should be proud of yourself for being the person that you have become and I'm sure that your story will help so many others who are struggling too.
im coming back to this video again because it genuinely helps me remember im not alone, and im not a burden. lewis i love you so much, and i know how hard everything can be, im going through absolute hell at the moment and watching this video makes me feel better. i have heinous anger issues, adhd, autism, anxiety and depression, and ontop of that, an eating disorder. i often feel like im so alone, and that no one understands, i feel like such a burden, and its videos and conversations like this that help me feel less alone. im so sorry you have had to go through all of this. its exhausting, having to mask it everyday, trying to not let all the people you love worry about you, with school swell, its even harder. im in year 12 right now and i have no fucking clue how im still here, or how i passed my other school years.i never thought i would make it past ten years old, and i look back on that, seeing how much ive wasted my life, i was so young and wanting my life to end, its insane. im almost 17 now, which doesn't seem real to me. I also over ask and worry about if im not being a good friend, i need constant reassurance and closure, which has made me lose so many friends. and ontop of that, my eating disorder pulls me away from wanting to go out with friends. ive lost so many friends because of my problems, and only now ive found people that understand me. thank you for sharing your stories, lewis. you've always been one of my favourite youtubers, thank you for everything you do for us, i am so so so grateful for you, you and a few other youtubers have saved my life
Well, this hit very close to home, huh. This series has been really good and very honest, thanks Lewis! so glad to see you still around and thriving ❤️
I know what its like to be in Scotland and seeing and hearing about things to do with your sexuality and all that. And well done on on building the strength to say all of this out on the internet
i always thought of you as a funny guy who spends all of his time having fun. now i feel different. man im in middle school and im pretty similar,this really helps me out. thanks man.
Thank you Lewis it's been a year now and my mental health has gotten so much better I don't have suicidal thoughts anymore my anxieties less and I'm more myself I've gotten alot better thank you :)
I keep coming back to this video just to appreciate life and what you have shared with us. I'm really proud that you opened up and I'm so so glad you are in a better place! Thank you for letting us hear your experiences and help us have a different perspective on our lives. :)
Absolutely adored this series, so lovely to see this side of you. Thank you so much for speaking out and normalising this sort of thing. Recently thins last year I’ve felt I’ve been able to talk about my troubled past a lot more than I could. I’ve been toying with the idea of a therapist for a while but I think you’d confirmed for me, that that is the best move to make x
After watching this I opened up to my parents about how I was feeling in life. I had been talking to my friends about it for roughly 2-3 years. Never had the guts to tell my family. Thank you Lewis so happy that you feel better now. Love from Australia 🇦🇺
Hearing this from someone when you're in that headspace where you don't care about your friends or family anymore because you're just too tired, really puts into perspective why. The damage you're creating around you. So many people go through too similar stories. This isn't a cry for help. This isn't a cause for worry, just a thank you Lewis and anyone in the comments for sharing
not the easiest video to sit through, can only imagine how hard it was to make. you are genuinely a legend for this video man, this shits gonna help a lot of people. good job man.
Just watched all 3 videos and it really feels like you're telling my story. I'm bi, from a small place, anxious, came out online, have ADHD and one of my first experience was also traumatic. So many things I can relate to. You're so strong talking about it. Thank you ❤️
Losing a friend is one of those feelings you cannot describe, and I hope nor I or anyone else has to feel it. However, there is something I know I can never fully forget or forgive myself for. Someone I knew threw himself in front of a train. I hardly knew him, but he always wanted to be my friend. I avoided him because he said some hurtful words to my close friend, and I couldn't help but resent him even though it was so long ago. He tried multiple times to get in contact with me and see me publicly, we had each others Facebook and went to the same college even. But I just didn't care to talk to him, I was very blunt when talking to him, never saying more than a few sentences until excusing myself from the conversation. I feel that if I had just spoken to him, I would have found out about his feelings and helped him. I'm sorry Jack, I really am.
Lewis lad I'm so sorry but I'm so so glad you got through it because you have thousands upon thousands of people love you and support you. Youve become so successful and bettered yourself and we couldn't be more proud of you
I opened up to my friend about anxiety, less talked about parts of adhd and isolating myself today because of this video. Thank you for being so honest, and spurring me to talk to someone
you are such a captivating storyteller. I felt like I was experiencing everything with you. I'm so glad you're comfortable in yourself now and that you've come out the other side of all this shit you had to deal with
thank you so much for talking about this. As someone in scotland who struggles with mental health and identifies as pansexual and possibly gender-queer, it's really comforting to know that I'm not alone. but I'm scared of my family finding out, as they are very religious and would just think I'm doing it to rebel.
i’ve never opened up to someone until recently. and when i finally spoke to someone about how i felt, and what was going on, i remembered this video. so i’ve come back to say i’ve finally spoken. i don’t feel better but that’s just life.
I've been suffering with anxiety for about 7 years now as well as in and our of really bad depressive episodes. I've related so much to a lot of this video. I've been having such a bad few months now and I've tried to talk to the 2 people I'm closest to but it seems its forgotten about and never brought up again so i feel like a burden reaching back out for help now. I can't express how much this video has helped me tonight just to not feel so alone. Thank you so much for this video and I hope you get the best in life ❤
I know I posted a comment an hour ago, but thankyou so much, this makes me feel alot better. For a while, I had a friend who constantly talked behind my back, who often told people lies about me, or told them my sexuality (I am not out as polyamorous and she told multiple people). I was so scared of her, for some reason I could not leave her. And I know this sounds like I am sucking up to you, but what you said really made me feel like you understood, and it makes me feel better that even though I'm scared of her, one day she won't be a part of me anymore, and that what she does is just a bunch of crap. Thankyou for helping me
i cannot stress enough how much this video helped me, since you've uploaded this I've watched it around four or five times, I've done the exact same things and I've literally fucking cried over this video. i took a shit bunch of pills beginning of this year expecting not to wake up, same result. for the past couple of months I keep going over to my friends houses to smoke whatever the fuck was there and drink whatever the fuck there was there, not caring about how much ive smoked or how much ive drank or what would happen the next morning. this video was my wake up call and i cant really thank you enough
I like learning more about u. Which sounds weird to me bc i dont enjoy hearing about these things hat weren't easy for u. But understanding a person is important. Much love to u Lewis ❤
Thankyou for making this Lewis I have one of the same issues of asking is everything okay have I done something which as you said does piss people I love off but I can’t help it
I've recognised myself too much for my own good in that video... thank you for sharing your story and showing yourself, me and all of us that we are worthy of forgiveness, of love, of living❤ you are a genuine person with an amazing heart. Thank you.
I don't know if you'll see this but thank you so much! I don't know how, but I found this when I needed it most. your story is so inspiring and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. I honestly cant put into words how much these videos resonate with me, I wish I could explain how I feel right now but I literally don't know how. thank you for giving me the hope that I feel in my chest and I'm so glad that I get to share this planet with beautiful people like you❤ PS:I hope you realize how much of a positive impact you have on this platform and the internet in general. PSPS: you have made a fan for life
A heartbreaking watch, especially with how some of the stuff you felt was how I felt only a year ago, and whilst I haven't fully recovered, I'm getting better just like you did, this really hit home, and this had a great ending, we love you Lewis
the hand things brought me tears. I've been through this fine line as well where i was crossing the street and i just stopped for a second while a bus was coming. Its terrifying to think i almost stood there
much love lewis ❤️ i remember for the longest time i kept living with the mindset i wouldn't make it to my next birthday, and drank excessively as a result. i remember going to bed hoping to never wake up, looking around my room for ways to hurt myself. i talked to so many people going through hard things so i could solve them to distract myself. i used to feel too embarrassed to kill myself and make a mess/get found, which at the time kept me going. it's shocking to see the omegle generation growing up! thanks for this ❤️
The stuff about small town mentally hits really close to home im bisexual and I've literally met one other person who isn't streight (as far as I know) which makes it very hard to tell people who I truly am . However hearing that you've been through similar things helps me so much and has honestly persuaded me to try and come out to my parents thank you 🙂
we are all so incredibly proud of you for sharing such a personal part of your life! the bravery you have is so inspiring, and as someone who has suffered a lot with their mental health, I know this will help so many people who are struggling! keep being you king ❤️
I wanted to share my story it’s still ongoing but I’m doing a lot better now, i am 16 I have just finished my last year in school but I couldn’t be there the last couple weeks because I got excluded for self harming in the toilets but that day I got caught I was gonna end everything but some people came in the toilets and I couldn’t bring myself to do it, I had a small knife on me and that day at lunch, these twats has a football annoying our group and kicking the ball at us so I popped it, and that’s how they found out everything but I got no help from the school whatsoever or the nhs the doctors said I wasn’t in danger to myself but I clearly was they just didn’t want to do the paperwork. It just shows how shit the British school system is. Thank you for listening x
I really hope you find someone you can confide in and help you get through this. Thank you for opening up and I just want you to know that there are people who love you and I know we don’t know each other but I am here if you would like to talk ❤️ it really infuriates me when I see how the nhs and schools have failed those with mental health issues. I know first hand how awful schools are at doing anything about children’s safety when it comes to mental health. When I was just beginning high school I opened up to a friend about thinking of self harm and they told a staff member at school who forced me into a few therapy lessons at school with the worst therapist ever who actually made me more anxious and sad in the end. For 7 years of high school every day I felt self conscious and fat and the school dress code made it 10x worse especially when I got to sixth form and girls had to wear fitted skirts which made me feel even more self conscious. However I opened up to another friend who already accepted me as part of lgbt+ and it made the world of difference to me. I really hope you find that person for you and if you need it I’ll be that person you can open up to. Sorry for the rant 😂 it’s nice to get everything off your chest and once I have started I can’t stop
I don't know if anyone has said anything about it to you before and I would never try to diagnose someone. But if you have ADHD Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) is a big thing with adhd, a lot of people have rejection sensitivity in general but RSD is different. It took me 19 years to get diagnosed with adhd and 24 years to learn about RSD (I am only 25 now) and it made a lot of sense to me about the very intense feelings of rejection etc I would feel.
hi i'm a new subscriber and these were incidentally some of the first videos i watched of yours but then watched lots more because this is the sort of honest, real creator i want to support. what an inspiring story and so generous of you to share. tapadh leat ❤️
Thankyou for sharing stuff like this with so many young lgbtqia+ (and non lgbt). people, because some may be going through this as well. You are a very strong person for trusting us so much, so I can only thank you
when I was doing my GCSES something inside me switched it got so dark that some might say i enterd a small physcotic break and still to this day I don't know what caused it
thank you so much for this vidoe, i dont want to reach out to a friend at the moment for other reasons but ill maybe say a few things here tw//sh, ed im only 14 but i have had and still slightly have a self harm addiction, which is really mf hard tbh, and although im gettigb better i constandtly tell myslef it wasnt as bad as others, i also really struggle with body image and since i was born with a strange belly button ive been insecure of it since i was 10/11. i have tried to starve myself and many things like that so many times in the past and i always end up feeling worse, but im trying my best and although ive definitely thought about not waking up the mext day im glad im here in this moment lewis youve helped me so so much, i couldnt thank you enough for your videos and your honestly always. rhank you
Wish I could talk about stuff like this Lewis, especially regarding my autism. I would make a video if I could but the trouble is I'd have to criticise my own parents openly and it would go off into a ramble about how terrible the world was/is, and how women, and how UA-cam and Facebook are all a gigantic plot to build an AI which the aliens hope to control everything with. Plus I would be reluctant to talk about my *ahem* addiction. I'm nearly in my 30s and all I can see before me is death.
thanks for all the support on this mini doc! it's meant the world to me. stay safe ❤️
it takes a lot to go through what you did, plus share it on the internet
proud of you lewis :)
I've recognised myself too much for my own good in that video... thank you for sharing your story and showing yourself, me and all of us that we are worthy of forgiveness, of love, of living❤ you are a genuine person with an amazing heart. Thank you.
It was so brave of you to tell the internet the challenges you've gone through and it shows how strong you are. This mini documentary has definitely helped me and a lot of others. Thank you for putting this out here and looking out for others. :)
So since you have dealt with severe depression on and off in your life for years, do you think your depression will last forever, in the sense that you’ll always get randomly depressed in your life for no reason even though your life is going amazingly and nothing is going wrong in your life, as oppose to a depression that lasts temporarily, because it doesn’t seem you have a depression that lasts for a while or happened because of some traumatic experience it seems like you have a depression that comes and goes on and off in your life on repeat forever, you could be happy for weeks and months but you’ll be struck randomly with depression for a couple of weeks, even though your depression will last forever in that sense that you won’t ever not experience depression again you won’t be sad all the time because you have happiness just like the rest of us and just remember the depression might come back randomly forever but you won’t experience depression forever you’ll have long periods when you’re not depressed and genuinely happy.
Nobody going to support you anymore you noncey chops
love you ❤️
Lauren can I have ur only fans for free pls
love you too
@@LewisBuchan So since you have dealt with severe depression on and off in your life for years, do you think your depression will last forever, in the sense that you’ll always get randomly depressed in your life for no reason even though your life is going amazingly and nothing is going wrong in your life, as oppose to a depression that lasts temporarily, because it doesn’t seem you have a depression that lasts for a while or happened because of some traumatic experience it seems like you have a depression that comes and goes on and off in your life on repeat forever, you could be happy for weeks and months but you’ll be struck randomly with depression for a couple of weeks, even though your depression will last forever in that sense that you won’t ever not experience depression again you won’t be sad all the time because you have happiness just like the rest of us and just remember the depression might come back randomly forever but you won’t experience depression forever you’ll have long periods when you’re not depressed and genuinely happy.
I related to this video WAYY more than I ever anticipated... like the whole thing. From losing a friend to sw to even dealing with it yourself. Thank you for sharing this Lewis, your words will definitely contiue reach the right people❤️
I hope your doing better ml ❤
I think you’re setting a really good example by sharing such personal things like this.
Hopefully it helps more people talk about their mental health.
Also the production on these videos are really good, loving the multiple camera angles haha
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Man I’m almost crying watching this. Can’t imagine how you must feel talking about it bro ❤️❤️
it was fairly easy to talk about it, it was just quite hard to watch back!
@@LewisBuchan well I actually didn’t think I’d cry watching it but I cried twice watching it and then twice after it. I’m a pretty emotional person lol
as a depressed closeted queer person in a currently unsafe environment, i appreciate hearing stories about queer people who've also had really difficult journeys to get to where they are, regardless of how similar they are to mine. the intersectionality of queerness and mental health problems isn't as discussed as often as it should be - even if the former isn't a direct trigger for the latter, there's still often underlying more passively-formed anxiety that develops in so many queer people because of social and internalised expectations, prejudices, pressures and fears (this is getting rambley, sorry)
it's wonderful that so many people in the lgbt community nowdays have positive experiences surronding coming out and personal and social acceptance but that narrative isn't always true for everyone and that can be very isolating.
thank you for sharing your narrative and being so vulnerable - i hope you're doing well x
I really hope that some day soon you are able to find a safe environment and surround yourself with loving people. I understand what it’s like to be closeted (still am) and it simultaneously hurts and inspires me when I see others being able to live out and happy because I’m jealous of their freedom and I know that I will lose some of my closest family/friends when I tell them. My family have openly expressed their dislike of people who are lgbt+ with things like “I don’t mind it as long as I don’t see it” or “I don’t mind as long as my own children aren’t part of it” even saying things like “what a waste” when they find out an actor/actress they like is lgbt+ and it breaks my heart everytime. Thankfully I am leaving this environment for university which I am going very far away so I can be my true self without having to worry about what they think of me! It infuriates me every day that there are people who don’t think we deserve rights or are disgusting when we just want to love and be loved the same way every human wants to feel less alone. ❤️
Sorry for the long rant but it’s nice to blurt it out occasionally.
@@jenniferlloyd9245 I find it's really helpful to blast my problems out to strangers on the internet lol.
But yeah, I'm excited to start university in a couple months- I can't wait to begin experiencing freedom in how I not only present but just exist
@@Rachel-kr1jh exactly the same with me i start uni in September a few hours away from my home so I can be free and openly say that I am lgbt+. As much as I love my family it’s just not something I could do at home 😞
That bit about missing school really hit home. I'm moving out, starting work for the first time, I really miss it. Being surrounded by friends in a safe environment like that was so comforting and I didn't appreciate it when I had it.
Lewis the bravery to share this with the world is incredible. We are all so proud of you for going through all that and coming through stronger
I actually just opened up to my mum! im now getting therapy and medication :) thank you for this series Lewis
Bit late on this one, but it really resonated with me. I was an angry teen for no reason, now at 33 I've had more dead friends than I can count, including my best friend. I've battled booze, I've battled heroin. It's tough. But it gets better. I've not had suicidal ideation in a while. I understand the need for confirmation that everyone doesn't hate you. Thanks for sharing and being honest. I love your channel. best of luck 💖
Incredibly proud of you for being strong and brave to tell and share your story. You should be proud of yourself for being the person that you have become and I'm sure that your story will help so many others who are struggling too.
thank you, mate ❤️
im coming back to this video again because it genuinely helps me remember im not alone, and im not a burden. lewis i love you so much, and i know how hard everything can be, im going through absolute hell at the moment and watching this video makes me feel better. i have heinous anger issues, adhd, autism, anxiety and depression, and ontop of that, an eating disorder. i often feel like im so alone, and that no one understands, i feel like such a burden, and its videos and conversations like this that help me feel less alone. im so sorry you have had to go through all of this. its exhausting, having to mask it everyday, trying to not let all the people you love worry about you, with school swell, its even harder. im in year 12 right now and i have no fucking clue how im still here, or how i passed my other school years.i never thought i would make it past ten years old, and i look back on that, seeing how much ive wasted my life, i was so young and wanting my life to end, its insane. im almost 17 now, which doesn't seem real to me.
I also over ask and worry about if im not being a good friend, i need constant reassurance and closure, which has made me lose so many friends. and ontop of that, my eating disorder pulls me away from wanting to go out with friends. ive lost so many friends because of my problems, and only now ive found people that understand me.
thank you for sharing your stories, lewis. you've always been one of my favourite youtubers, thank you for everything you do for us, i am so so so grateful for you, you and a few other youtubers have saved my life
I’m so sorry lewis! You’re the strongest & I mean that❤️ keep going lad
thank you chloe ❤️
Well, this hit very close to home, huh. This series has been really good and very honest, thanks Lewis! so glad to see you still around and thriving ❤️
This made me cry like hell. So glad you shared this. Keep going! ❤️
I cannot understand how hard this video must have been to upload. Thank you so much!
You have such a beautiful soul Lewis. I'm so glad you're still with us.
You're very brave to share this. Very inspiring to watch!
I know what its like to be in Scotland and seeing and hearing about things to do with your sexuality and all that. And well done on on building the strength to say all of this out on the internet
I love you Lewis ❤️❤️❤️please keep being you. You've encouraged me to be the best me ❤️🖤❤️🖤
Awesome series. Proud of you pal
i always thought of you as a funny guy who spends all of his time having fun. now i feel different. man im in middle school and im pretty similar,this really helps me out. thanks man.
Thank you Lewis it's been a year now and my mental health has gotten so much better I don't have suicidal thoughts anymore my anxieties less and I'm more myself I've gotten alot better thank you :)
I keep coming back to this video just to appreciate life and what you have shared with us. I'm really proud that you opened up and I'm so so glad you are in a better place! Thank you for letting us hear your experiences and help us have a different perspective on our lives. :)
Thank you so much for opening up about your depression. The more we talk about it the less stigma there will be. ❤️
Absolutely adored this series, so lovely to see this side of you. Thank you so much for speaking out and normalising this sort of thing. Recently thins last year I’ve felt I’ve been able to talk about my troubled past a lot more than I could. I’ve been toying with the idea of a therapist for a while but I think you’d confirmed for me, that that is the best move to make x
After watching this I opened up to my parents about how I was feeling in life. I had been talking to my friends about it for roughly 2-3 years. Never had the guts to tell my family. Thank you Lewis so happy that you feel better now. Love from Australia 🇦🇺
In bits watching this, feeling every word. Much love mate 💙
thanks bro ❤️ miss you pal!
Miss you too pal, wishing you the best!
I like to revisit this video when I’m down.
Thanks for sharing this with us Lewis. It means a lot.
i’m proud of u lewis
Love you Lewis. You’re so strong!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ we all love you!
Hearing this from someone when you're in that headspace where you don't care about your friends or family anymore because you're just too tired, really puts into perspective why. The damage you're creating around you. So many people go through too similar stories. This isn't a cry for help. This isn't a cause for worry, just a thank you Lewis and anyone in the comments for sharing
not the easiest video to sit through, can only imagine how hard it was to make. you are genuinely a legend for this video man, this shits gonna help a lot of people. good job man.
Just watched all 3 videos and it really feels like you're telling my story. I'm bi, from a small place, anxious, came out online, have ADHD and one of my first experience was also traumatic. So many things I can relate to. You're so strong talking about it. Thank you ❤️
i did it i told my best friend thank you lewis thank you so much
Losing a friend is one of those feelings you cannot describe, and I hope nor I or anyone else has to feel it. However, there is something I know I can never fully forget or forgive myself for. Someone I knew threw himself in front of a train. I hardly knew him, but he always wanted to be my friend. I avoided him because he said some hurtful words to my close friend, and I couldn't help but resent him even though it was so long ago. He tried multiple times to get in contact with me and see me publicly, we had each others Facebook and went to the same college even. But I just didn't care to talk to him, I was very blunt when talking to him, never saying more than a few sentences until excusing myself from the conversation. I feel that if I had just spoken to him, I would have found out about his feelings and helped him. I'm sorry Jack, I really am.
Lewis lad I'm so sorry but I'm so so glad you got through it because you have thousands upon thousands of people love you and support you. Youve become so successful and bettered yourself and we couldn't be more proud of you
It takes real bravery to talk about things like this . Well done
I'm glad you made this video and glad you're here
as a gay teenager, this is something i unfortunately experience and is hard to talk about, us, as your fans lewis, love you 💙
(talking about the beginning part)
I opened up to my friend about anxiety, less talked about parts of adhd and isolating myself today because of this video. Thank you for being so honest, and spurring me to talk to someone
i'm so sorry, we all love you man
you are such a captivating storyteller. I felt like I was experiencing everything with you. I'm so glad you're comfortable in yourself now and that you've come out the other side of all this shit you had to deal with
thanking you
I teared up watching this I can't believe this happened to you and I'm so glad you're feeling better ❤
We all love and appreciate you always Lewis. So strong
thank you so much for talking about this. As someone in scotland who struggles with mental health and identifies as pansexual and possibly gender-queer, it's really comforting to know that I'm not alone. but I'm scared of my family finding out, as they are very religious and would just think I'm doing it to rebel.
i’ve never opened up to someone until recently. and when i finally spoke to someone about how i felt, and what was going on, i remembered this video. so i’ve come back to say i’ve finally spoken. i don’t feel better but that’s just life.
Keep going we all love you and you can do this
when i was abt 11 i saved my online friend from commiting suicide on discord- now discord is a big trauma thing for me 💀
I've been suffering with anxiety for about 7 years now as well as in and our of really bad depressive episodes. I've related so much to a lot of this video. I've been having such a bad few months now and I've tried to talk to the 2 people I'm closest to but it seems its forgotten about and never brought up again so i feel like a burden reaching back out for help now. I can't express how much this video has helped me tonight just to not feel so alone. Thank you so much for this video and I hope you get the best in life ❤
Still Scotland lads loved your content and you man never change 🤙🏻🏴
I know I posted a comment an hour ago, but thankyou so much, this makes me feel alot better. For a while, I had a friend who constantly talked behind my back, who often told people lies about me, or told them my sexuality (I am not out as polyamorous and she told multiple people). I was so scared of her, for some reason I could not leave her. And I know this sounds like I am sucking up to you, but what you said really made me feel like you understood, and it makes me feel better that even though I'm scared of her, one day she won't be a part of me anymore, and that what she does is just a bunch of crap. Thankyou for helping me
This made me cry. I’m in that dark place now and hearing this has broken my heart for you
Good on you for talking about it Lewis, hope you’re doing well ❤️
Proud of u man
so proud of you lewis, so touching, definitely going to make a difference, such a gentle soul
Thank you for sharing this story lewis, you have inspired me to tell people that I love. Thank you so much.
Happy to be apart of the help
im so proud of you 💙
Btw i found this very relatable and watching this video really helped me thanks
you're welcome mate! stay safe
i cannot stress enough how much this video helped me, since you've uploaded this I've watched it around four or five times, I've done the exact same things and I've literally fucking cried over this video. i took a shit bunch of pills beginning of this year expecting not to wake up, same result. for the past couple of months I keep going over to my friends houses to smoke whatever the fuck was there and drink whatever the fuck there was there, not caring about how much ive smoked or how much ive drank or what would happen the next morning. this video was my wake up call and i cant really thank you enough
I like learning more about u. Which sounds weird to me bc i dont enjoy hearing about these things hat weren't easy for u. But understanding a person is important. Much love to u Lewis ❤
Thankyou for making this Lewis I have one of the same issues of asking is everything okay have I done something which as you said does piss people I love off but I can’t help it
Thank you for being so open and sharing all of this. I'm sure it helps a lot of people❤
can relate to a lot of what your talking about in this doc lewis, we love u man xx
i’m so proud of you for sharing this
I've recognised myself too much for my own good in that video... thank you for sharing your story and showing yourself, me and all of us that we are worthy of forgiveness, of love, of living❤ you are a genuine person with an amazing heart. Thank you.
I don't know if you'll see this but thank you so much! I don't know how, but I found this when I needed it most. your story is so inspiring and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. I honestly cant put into words how much these videos resonate with me, I wish I could explain how I feel right now but I literally don't know how. thank you for giving me the hope that I feel in my chest and I'm so glad that I get to share this planet with beautiful people like you❤
PS:I hope you realize how much of a positive impact you have on this platform and the internet in general.
PSPS: you have made a fan for life
i started crying the second he mentioned it oh god
Thanks lewis for this.. i’m proud of you for opening up, stay strong bro ❤️
A heartbreaking watch, especially with how some of the stuff you felt was how I felt only a year ago, and whilst I haven't fully recovered, I'm getting better just like you did, this really hit home, and this had a great ending, we love you Lewis
love u lewis🖤 thank u for sharing this, makes so many people feel less alone (including me)
the hand things brought me tears. I've been through this fine line as well where i was crossing the street and i just stopped for a second while a bus was coming. Its terrifying to think i almost stood there
so proud of you. love u lots. 💜
much love lewis ❤️ i remember for the longest time i kept living with the mindset i wouldn't make it to my next birthday, and drank excessively as a result. i remember going to bed hoping to never wake up, looking around my room for ways to hurt myself. i talked to so many people going through hard things so i could solve them to distract myself. i used to feel too embarrassed to kill myself and make a mess/get found, which at the time kept me going. it's shocking to see the omegle generation growing up! thanks for this ❤️
The stuff about small town mentally hits really close to home im bisexual and I've literally met one other person who isn't streight (as far as I know) which makes it very hard to tell people who I truly am . However hearing that you've been through similar things helps me so much and has honestly persuaded me to try and come out to my parents thank you 🙂
Know I don't know you but hugs. Just started watching your channel and I think it's great. Thank you for sharing. So relatable and moving.
I will come back to this one after watching parts 1&2 ❤️❤️❤️❤️ sending love 😊
Im so proud of you lewis, its great to hear your story. Love you lots
we are all so incredibly proud of you for sharing such a personal part of your life! the bravery you have is so inspiring, and as someone who has suffered a lot with their mental health, I know this will help so many people who are struggling! keep being you king ❤️
Hey I relate to this more than you could imagine and it helps a lot that someone has gone through what I’m going through atm
i'm so incredibly proud of you Lewis, you are so strong and deserve all the love and happiness in the world❤️
I wanted to share my story it’s still ongoing but I’m doing a lot better now, i am 16 I have just finished my last year in school but I couldn’t be there the last couple weeks because I got excluded for self harming in the toilets but that day I got caught I was gonna end everything but some people came in the toilets and I couldn’t bring myself to do it, I had a small knife on me and that day at lunch, these twats has a football annoying our group and kicking the ball at us so I popped it, and that’s how they found out everything but I got no help from the school whatsoever or the nhs the doctors said I wasn’t in danger to myself but I clearly was they just didn’t want to do the paperwork. It just shows how shit the British school system is. Thank you for listening x
I really hope you find someone you can confide in and help you get through this. Thank you for opening up and I just want you to know that there are people who love you and I know we don’t know each other but I am here if you would like to talk ❤️ it really infuriates me when I see how the nhs and schools have failed those with mental health issues. I know first hand how awful schools are at doing anything about children’s safety when it comes to mental health. When I was just beginning high school I opened up to a friend about thinking of self harm and they told a staff member at school who forced me into a few therapy lessons at school with the worst therapist ever who actually made me more anxious and sad in the end. For 7 years of high school every day I felt self conscious and fat and the school dress code made it 10x worse especially when I got to sixth form and girls had to wear fitted skirts which made me feel even more self conscious. However I opened up to another friend who already accepted me as part of lgbt+ and it made the world of difference to me. I really hope you find that person for you and if you need it I’ll be that person you can open up to.
Sorry for the rant 😂 it’s nice to get everything off your chest and once I have started I can’t stop
@@jenniferlloyd9245 thank you ❤️ and for sharing your story it feels so much better knowing that other people go though similar things
i love you so much lewis thank you for this
Proud of you for sharing this, its hard to do things like this, especially on this level.
I don't know if anyone has said anything about it to you before and I would never try to diagnose someone. But if you have ADHD Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) is a big thing with adhd, a lot of people have rejection sensitivity in general but RSD is different. It took me 19 years to get diagnosed with adhd and 24 years to learn about RSD (I am only 25 now) and it made a lot of sense to me about the very intense feelings of rejection etc I would feel.
hi i'm a new subscriber and these were incidentally some of the first videos i watched of yours but then watched lots more because this is the sort of honest, real creator i want to support. what an inspiring story and so generous of you to share. tapadh leat ❤️
Thankyou for sharing stuff like this with so many young lgbtqia+ (and non lgbt). people, because some may be going through this as well. You are a very strong person for trusting us so much, so I can only thank you
when I was doing my GCSES something inside me switched it got so dark that some might say i enterd a small physcotic break and still to this day I don't know what caused it
love u!
Videos like this are so important. Big respect to you mate. ❤️
So proud of you for opening up!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️
thank you so much for this vidoe, i dont want to reach out to a friend at the moment for other reasons but ill maybe say a few things here
tw//sh, ed
im only 14 but i have had and still slightly have a self harm addiction, which is really mf hard tbh, and although im gettigb better i constandtly tell myslef it wasnt as bad as others, i also really struggle with body image and since i was born with a strange belly button ive been insecure of it since i was 10/11. i have tried to starve myself and many things like that so many times in the past and i always end up feeling worse, but im trying my best and although ive definitely thought about not waking up the mext day im glad im here in this moment
lewis youve helped me so so much, i couldnt thank you enough for your videos and your honestly always. rhank you
Glad your sharing your story 🤍
Loving the series it’s amazing your sharing these stories thank you for sharing all them ❤️❤️
thank you so much for these videos
This video really means a lot. 💙
Proud of you lad 🖤🖤
You are so brave and we love you
Wish I could talk about stuff like this Lewis, especially regarding my autism. I would make a video if I could but the trouble is I'd have to criticise my own parents openly and it would go off into a ramble about how terrible the world was/is, and how women, and how UA-cam and Facebook are all a gigantic plot to build an AI which the aliens hope to control everything with.
Plus I would be reluctant to talk about my *ahem* addiction. I'm nearly in my 30s and all I can see before me is death.