Try talking to yourself the way you would talk to Flynn. Next time it happens and you notice “negative self talk” it is good to say something positive to replace the negative. Even though it might seem insignificant, over time it adds up and builds muscle memory in your brain. (From my understanding) You are truly wonderful regardless of your differences! ❤️
Thank you for this comment, you are totally right (my mom tells me the same thing and I'm 35 lol) but it's great advice, you seem like a really sweet person ❤😊❤😊
Mental therapist here. I would just add to anyone reading your comment that the replacement thought doesn't have to be positive necessarily. It can be more realistic, neutral, or helpful. Sometimes reaching for that "positive" is too difficult when we're having a down on ourselves moment or can feel invalidating or like toxic positivity. So just wanted to provide some alternatives if a positive re-frame is too difficult in the moment :)
Colleen, as someone who has trichotillomania/dermo my picking/pulling comes in waves. recently i have been picking at my feet to the point of limping as well. it sucks so much and i completely understand being disappointed in yourself over it. One thing I did that helped with my picking/pulling was to always keep my feet moisturized with socks on. It makes it hard to grip the skin and therefore I just give up and quit trying to pick. I'm sorry you're going through this but I just want to let u know that you're not alone!
this is great advice. i definetly cant really relate to this specific illness but it great to know when other have the same and help each other out. you seem really smart and a really strong person so im sorry about your hard days but you have a lot of support
I just have to commend Colleen and Eric. I loved how Flynn was so specific in expressing his emotions and how he was sad to let the bug go. Your response was even better to validate his emotions and then explain why. I work with kids and I absolutely LOVED hearing the maturity in Flynn’s emotions. Bravo to you both
I thought this too! “I feel sad because...” The framing was so clear and precise. I love that he could connect his emotion with what happened and Colleen could help him understand why they needed to let the bug go in a way he could relate to. So good!
as someone who struggles with episodes of intense skin picking i just want to thank you for bringing awareness to it and sharing your struggles i cant even express how comforting it is to know i'm not the only one who deals with it. you are so strong colleen!!! relapse is apart of recovery, and recovery isn't linear. i love you !!!!
I am glad you’re open to talking about dermatilomania. I understand it is frustrating and you want disappointed in yourself. I want to bring in another perspective that you have A LOT of “stressors” right now. Erik’s family is in town, you are taking care of three children, you are a working woman, you have a live show, and probably other things/ projects we don’t know about. That is A LOT for one person to handle. The reason you probably had such a bad night with the dermatilomania was due to all of those “stressors” compounding. I don’t want to call them stressors bc that may sound negative, but that’s the best word I could think of. If this is the first time you’ve had a bad night/ day of dermatilomania in nearly a year that’s amazing! Yes you were pregnant and that prevented it, but I feel that is still progress! Your feelings are totally valid of feeling disappointed. I wanted to bring a different perspective and hopefully allow you to not be as disappointed as long! You’re amazing 💗💗💗
The twins look so different from each other but sometimes when they’re propped up in the boppy they look sooooo alike. Especially when they’re listening to their mama sing and be goofy. Their smiles are so precious❤️❤️
I’m so sorry you had an episode. Virtual hug 🤗 A set back is not starting over. Nothing to be ashamed about, it happens to us all in our lives and people who act like they don’t struggle are only fooling themselves
“I have very wet eyes.” Colleen, I love you - and I too, cry multiple times a day over basically everything and nothing 😂❤️ sending you so much love & support always!
As someone who has trichotillomania, I CONSTANTLY have to remind myself that progress is not linear. Some days are bad and some days are good but either way, it’s progress. Recognizing that you had a bad day is still a step in the right direction. Be kind to yourself, even on your bad days. You got this mama. Also the footage of Wesley was so stinking cute.
Dermatillamania sister here, Something that helps me after an intense picking episode is a spray called Bactine. It has some numbing in it so I don't have to limp, but it also helps speed up the healing process. Please try it, you can order it online. It makes me feel much more comfortable because the pain is gone.
I always have to remind myself that there’s highs and lows with having trichotillomania sometimes I can go months without doing a single thing to my hair and sometimes it comes rushing back at full speed.
I’m the same with my trichotillomania. I go through really bad stages with it and then it’ll calm down again. And my friends all help me too if they see me doing it they’ll just give me a gentle nudge to stop me. It can be so frustrating when I’ve been trying not too do it and then do it agin. But like you say, it’s a process and we will all get there in the end :)
Colleen! I love how you validate Flynn’s feelings, even if he’s just sad to say goodbye to a grasshopper, you validate that feeling and then explain why you did what you did. You and Eric are such amazing parents! ❤️
Tortilla talk question: who does Flynn think you are talking to when you are talking to the camera? Does he understand the concept of recording your lives’ for us to watch? Love you! ❤️
I completely heard you say “squirrel” and not swirl when you were talking about tye dying the shirt. And I thought wow, she has really stepped up her game with creating animal shapes when making shirts! LoL
❤️ Colleen, I also have dermatillomania and pick the bottoms of my feet. I have found that socks for runners have helped me a LOT with the pain the next day because they are kind of cushioned and it’s just less pressure on the sore spots. Don’t beat yourself up, that will just make you feel worse and you don’t deserve to feel that way! ✌🏻❤️
Dermatillamania sister here, Something that helps me after an intense picking episode is a spray called Bactine. It has some numbing in it so I don't have to limp, but it also helps speed up the healing process. Please try it, you can order it online. It makes me feel much more comfortable because the pain is gone.
My son suffered from severe eczema on his feet when he was little to the point that his feet were raw & bleeding. We found that pure Marino wool socks helped so much (smartwool is a good example). They kept his feet drier than cotton socks & helped them heal faster & better.
I have severe dermo with my back and scalp, and in the past few months I was doing so good; the scars on my back were starting to heal and basically all the dandruff on my scalp that was there due to picking was completely gone. Recently, for some reason, it has come back with a vengeance, to the point where I've ruined multiple white shirts with blood and I can't have my hair down because of the flakes and scabs. I was feeling so down on myself for a few days, but I did something different this time, I talked about it. I have tried to conceal this from friends for so long, but I just vented about it without being embarrassed and it felt SO GOOD. Basically what I'm trying to say is that talking about this on your channel is not only being open and bringing awareness, but it's also getting a lot of the frustrations off your chest. I'm now 3 days without picking, and it doesn't seem like much. but with this condition all the small things count. Hang in there, and you're not alone!!!!!!
It was me who commented about showing your diapers and it was no shade at all! I wish more people were like you. You are so real and honest and that's one of the reasons I love watching you everyday ❤️❤️
*Tortilla Talk Question:* When Flynn was a baby you used to communicate with him by teaching him Sign Language. Will you use it again with Wesley and Maisy? And also, will you at some point teach Flynn more of it since he seems to have forgotten it?
My siblings are boy girl twins. When my mom got them “gender correct” clothing she would swap the pants (girl wearing boys pants and boy wearing girls) just to spice up the outfits
Yeah and she could also just buy two clothes in the same colour? I don't get why she keeps ordering clothes in blue and pink and then complaining that Maisy has to wear pink, like couldn't she just buy 2 pinks or 2 blues?
@@sagevf my friend has twins and she dresses them matching but different colors to help family and friends identify without being embarrassed and having to guess which is which! Hers are identical girls but it may be something similar
I go through the same thing, having an episode and then limping and feeling like whyyy did I just do that to myself after spending an hour not being able to focus on anything else besides picking. I will bandage up my foot if I need to go somewhere and put extra padding in my shoes. It helps a bit. Thank you for always talking about this, I always felt so alone until you talked about it. ❤️❤️ sending so much love
!!!!!‼️THIS COULD BE HELPFUL INFO‼️!!!! Hi Colleen!! There is something called the babybrezza or the brezza that makes the bottles for you. You can also have an app on your phone that you can use to make the bottles from the other room. You set the temperature and everything so it’s done for you. Anything that anyone is doing for their babies or baby is great but i know a lot of people who have this and love it!! Love you so much!!
yes, this sounds like a very good idea, but there have been multiple cases of the brezza either pumping out too much or too little formula powder into the water, which can cause problems with the baby. but yes, it sounds like a very good product and would be great if it was successful!
I have the Brezza and was so worried for awhile about whether or not it was putting in the right amount of formula. I would weigh bottles I made versus bottles the Brezza made, and the Brezza was always right on! Eventually I just calmed down about it and it’s a super helpful machine to have. It definitely takes some maintenance because you have to change out and wash the funnel every 4 bottles, but it’s worth it for the time and hassle you save. (I have read that a lot of anecdotal stories of the Brezza putting out incorrect amounts of formula come from people who do not correctly clean the machine.)
Tortilla talk question: Hey queen, what do you have to do to physically prepare for touring?? Vocal exercises, stretching, increasing your stamina, etc! My mom and I watch your videos together and we are sending you so much love!! ❤
8:20 omg the babies are so freaking cute jeez. their laughs are so contagious and it makes my hard days better. I swear Maisy and Wes are one of the cutest babies ever, I am so glad everyone is home together and is just loving spending the time together. So much love!!!!
Tortilla talk questions: When are you planning on potty training Flynn? What’s Flynn’s napping schedule like? Do you think Flynn will go to preschool? How’s the nanny hunt going?
@@likeswaggerbutwithano5962 I’ve seen way stranger lol I don’t think they’re “too personal” as she’s shared tons of it herself over the years. I’ve been curious myself why he’s still in diapers; and also has a bink.
@@Coinfliplunatik because she's a lazy parent and the Ballingers infantilize their children. There's your answer. Just because she's been sharing this stuff for years does not make it appropriate. She should not be sharing all this private information about her kids before they can even consent to footage of them being consumed by millions of people online. And people have no business asking invasive questions like this either. It's all inappropriate, from every angle.
Tortilla talk question: Hey Colleen, I love you so much. I was just wondering how you and Erik feel about “foul language” around Flynn and your kids in general. No judgment here. Love you so much!!
In order for this person to be judging wouldn’t they have had to use foul language in front of their kids in this video? Maybe I swear too much and didn’t notice something that was there… but i didn’t hear any in this video…. For this question to be “judgy”
I do recall her talking a little on this in one of her videos. How she had be careful adapting a word around Flynn. I think he heard her say something and asked what it was and she told him it’s a bad word that Mummy shouldn’t say. I doubt I’d be able to find the video, sorry! It was during the pregnancy sometime. Btw, your question reads (to me) as you intended it. :)
@@LitLitterbox it doesn’t make a difference to me I just think that it is interesting to see how different people view parenting and life in general. It could not affect me less what she does with her kids and I have no right to tell her what to do. Whatever she does is amazing and she will do what is right. Again, I am just curious because I think it is cool to see perspectives on life.
Tortilla talk question: what is your favourite part of the baby/toddler phase? Lysm queen ♥️♥️ your kids are very blessed to have you and Erik as their parents ☺️♥️
As someone with Dermo, I definitley find it comes in waves. Sometimes it linked to high stress for me and other times it feels like it’s out of the blue. You’re doing amazing mama. Keep your head held high and allow yourself to release those emotions when you need xx
I'm currently studying psychology and I have ADHD. I'm not sure if this is proven or true but hearing you talk about your experience with skin picking ( I can't spell so we'll go with that lol) it made me think about how it's a common symptom with ADHD to have executive dysfunction and your struggle with skin picking and feeling zoned out seems similar to executive dysfunction to me like you know you should or shouldn't be doing a certain thing but just can't move forward. I know you've talked about executive dysfunction before and how it's frustrating but you've accepted it as something you have to deal with, maybe looking at your struggles with skin picking with this in mind could help you see it differently. Just know what your brain decides to do is not you and doesn't reflect you. Sending you love and support. You got this! 💕
This is possible! But body focus repetitive behaviors such as dermotilomania are very commonly presenting comorbid with ADHD. This is typically because ADHD brains use skin or hair picking as a coping mechanism and as a form of filling a need for stimuli, which is why it turns into a fixation. I just graduated with my psychology degree and as someone with ADD and a BFRB it’s great that Colleen opens these conversations!
That mascara has a mini wand in the cap on top of the clear ball .if you unscrew it from above the ball the smaller wand comes out. Its for your lower lash
You are so inspirational. Thank you so much for being so candid about your mental health. Going through my mental health and working in the field, I appreciate you for doing this. So much love
I'm glad to hear someone talk about picking. I've noticed when I'm stressed or anxious I immediately start picking at my skin and before I know it. It's been hours and I've completely ruined my skin. It feels less lonely to hear someone else talk about it though
I have trichotillomania and one thing that helps a lot is the Keen2 bracelet it helps with bad habits like nail biting, skin picking, and hair pulling! I highly recommend it!!!
Colleen I can totally relate to what you’re saying about being so disappointed in your dermotillomania being bad at the moment. I have trichotillomania and I get so upset with myself after the fact. Especially because I’ve had this for years and been able to hide it fairly well but now sometimes it’s not even possible for me to hide it, it’s really shameful and I do feel so disappointed in myself after but like you while I’m doing it I don’t really think about it or even realise the damage I’m doing. It’s honestly so helpful to hear someone else even just talking about it though, even though you’re having a hard time. It makes me feel less alone 💖
Your kids have the cutest laughs! So special to enjoy their happiness with you (daily viewer). Don’t let your insecurities get you down or let you down
The small clips you put in of Erik is gold. It just shines through the screen that he is an amazing dad and that you guys do this together. And the giggles from the twins and Flynn for that matter, just makes my day. I'm always watching your vids in the morning and the smiles and giggles just warms my heart and puts a smile on my face ♥️
You’re doing so good Colleen don’t feel sad feel proud you’ve made it so long everyone has some setbacks but you’ve got this you’re a master at everything you’re so strong and will get through another rough day :)))))xoxo
Mascara tip: don’t scrape the wand on the top of the container before applying. It can help reduce clumpiness :) also, spin the wand in the product rather than pumping it up and down.
I have trichotillomania. It definitely comes and goes in waves. And I swear the waves are in synch with hormonal changes, like around your period, pregnancy or postpartum. I know it can be a way to relieve stress or release unexpressed feelings, but the longer I have it, twenty three years now, I believe more and more it’s tied to our physical hormonal changes more than anything. If it is a physical symptom of uncontrollable hormonal changes, there is no need for any disappointment when it gets intense. I love you and thank you for all you share with us. You are beautiful inside and out. 💕
I just want to say thank you Colleen. Thank you for being an escape. I find it so easy to stress about the world, i find it sometimes debilitating when my mind wonders about what my future may look like in the state of the world. I stress about the fact that we’re literally on a floating rock. I get anxious that I have school on monday. but thought all those emotions i find myself being grounded by your daily vlogs. I watch you’re vlogs every night before bed and it does wonders to bring my anxiety levels down. So thank you Colleen.
I loved your empathy for Flynn when he said he was sad to say goodbye to the grasshopper. We could all use a little bit more of that! All of us want to be seen and heard.
Tortilla talk question: How much of what you have achieved in your career does flynn know about? You have achieved so much & must have so many incredible stories, how much are you planning on sharing with your lovely kiddos? Lots of love to you always! Xx
Hi lovely human, As someone who also has ADHD & dermotillomania/trichotillomania, I find myself in this predicament often; I'll go MONTHS without picking or pulling sometimes and not even notice, but other times I relapse and end up feeling angry at myself. Relapses happen. Healing is not linear. Be gentle with yourself love, let yourself feel & release all of the feelings that you need to, and then remind yourself that you are healing
seeing Eriks face as hes just watching flynn or listening to him talk is just the sweetest thing ever. his face just shows how much he adores and loves his children's every move. I just love you and your not so little family. also seeing flynn sad about saying goodbye to grasshopper literally broke my heart. what a little sweetheart
I feel you so much. I had such a bad episode a few days ago with picking my fingers’ skin, it was hurting so bad after that. But when you’re in that state you just can’t control yourself. Don’t feel bad, just keep trying to get better ☺️
Thank you for sharing about your dermatillomania. My teenage daughter suffers from an anxiety disorder and struggles with picking. When someone as fun and awesome and wonderful as you 💖🦄😎, whom my daughter admires and watches /listens to daily, is open about your own struggles with picking, it is encourages us all to not feel so alone. Thank you for your vulnerability 💖 We are sending kindness & encouragement your way, too! 💖💖💖
Tortilla Talk Question: When you zone out during an episode, would anyone ever be able to help you out of it? Like if Erik or Flynn or Rachel were to see you picking, would they be able to help you break the episode?
I took my toddler to the wildlife learning center after seeing it in your blog. He got to feed a giraffe 🦒 which was amazing since he’s hardly done anything fun during the pandemic. Hope y’all have fun!!
I have ocd contamination and I feel you about the disappointment.🥺💔 I'm sorry you're having a difficult time with your dermatillamania. I hope your visit to the park went well and you weren't in too much pain. Sending love and support.💐
I have trichotillomania and I totally feel you with on progress and being disappointed in yourself. I shaved my head for 8 years straight starting when I was 13 because it was so bad and I started wearing wigs for fun at 21 and it helped me not pull my hair out so much. A year later and my hair is shoulder length, but the past 6 months I've pulled out a softball sized bald spot right on the top of my head. Can't wear my hair any way but a bun with some eyeshadow filling in the bald spots to go in public. These disorders can make us feel so bad about ourselves and out of control but it's important to remember they don't define us and aren't tied to our worth. Sending you lots of love ❤
I just want to give you a hug, you're so strong and such a role model to me and many others! You are allowed to struggle, that's part of being human but you demonstrate time and time again how resilient you are and that's really special! Thank you for being you, big hugs from a small city in northern Ontario, Canada. love you always
I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your dermatillomania story. You talking about your experience helped me realise I had trichotillomania. Before I just thought pulling out my eyebrows was just a thing people did, but you sharing your story helped me realise what it was. Knowing I'm not alone in the struggles every day is very comforting sometimes, I thought I was just a weirdo and a freak (I don't think this about other people with BFRBs but I do about myself, as I know you've also talked about before) but I now know it's something quite a few others go through too. I guess I'm just trying to say you aren't alone and that we love you. I don't really have any tips but sending love your way
Tortilla talk question: ok, I know this is a wierd question, but there's any chance of you coming to Brazil? I mean, I know that's highly unlikely, but I really want to say thank you in person. Your videos of you and your family have helped me get through depression. I've been watching you guys since 2012 and I got better at English, so now I teach English to kids in need here in Brazil. So yeah, that's my question: would you come to Brazil someday? Love you 💜💜💜
I am currently going through the same thing. I am not diagnosed with this disorder but for the longest time I have picked and chewed the skin around my fingers until they bleed and hurt for weeks. But recently I have been doing it to my feet. I completely understand where you are coming from. I work on my feet all day and I am limping around most of the day. I tried telling a friend about it and they just said "Well just stop doing it then. It's about mind over matter." and it just sucks when people do not understand that it isn't that easy and it makes you seem weak. But I am working at it and hearing that you're going through the same thing makes me feel less alone. So thank you and I hope yours gets under control soon! Love you!
hi colleen, I have struggled with dermotillomania for many years now and you being so open about your experience has really helped me feel less alone. I get disappointed with myself too when I have episodes, it helps if I have a mani/pedicure, I know you don't like having your nails done but maybe getting gel nails or a pretty color would help
What would you do if Flynn ever expressed that he didn't want to be on camera?? And does he understand how many people watch your vlogs? Love your content btw ❤️
Girl I have trichotillomania and I understand what you mean about zoning out and being disappointed in yourself. You are strong and beautiful and I'm sorry you are going through a tough time ❤️
Dermatillamania sister here, Something that helps me after an intense picking episode is a spray called Bactine. It has some numbing in it so I don't have to limp, but it also helps speed up the healing process. Please try it, you can order it online. It makes me feel much more comfortable because the pain is gone.
I have dermatillomania and trichotillomania and I don't know what else to say other than I completely understand what you're feeling. It's so easy to beat yourself up over it but I always remind myself after an episode of either dermatillomania or trichotillomania, that " tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it." And all I can do now, is try my hardest (which sometimes still isn't enough) to leave my skin and hair alone the next day and take it one day at a time.
Thank you for that clip of the twins giggling from your phone. The dopamine, serotonin whatever was refreshing from their little baby smiles and laughs. 😍🥰😌
colleen, thank you for speaking out about your dermatillomania, it really helps me deal with mine. i tend to pick my skin all around my face, neck, legs, arms, it's really awful and it helps to see someone being so open about this.
‘’I have too much to do right now to cry ‘’ just describes everything Im feeling right now too Colleen. Not going through the same things as you but still struggling A LOT, your vlogs just make my days, every single time, feel like Im not alone in this world of appearances and everyone looking as if they are “living the perfect life” thank you ❤️
I gave up on mascara and just wear falsies. Sooo much easier than building mascara. You can also get disposable spoolies for the clumps. I have a form of dermatillomania where I push on the corners of my nails until they’re sore or have a callous. I then pick at the callous skin. I’ve been told it’s due to the OCD/anxiety and ADHD combo. I see a psych dr and a therapist and I’m still here doing it. It’s gets better the busier that I am. My mind has to stay stimulated or I do it.
Hey! I don't usually comment, but I watch all of your videos, and I just want to say that we love you and it is not a disappointment! You are so strong! You are kind and generous as well as hard-working! We are all behind you and we support you! Love you! xxx
Thank you so much Colleen for speaking out about the condition. I also have been struggling with it my whole life. It stems a lot from my adhd but also my anxiety. The feeling of dissociation while you’re having an episode or being in a fogged state happens to me to every time. It’s so hard to deal with! and a lot of the time it’s hard because it’s invisible and know one else knows or knows how to help you. It’s really hard. But seeing someone that can be so open to people when they have a hard day it just makes everything feel more validating in a way. I never knew it was a condition until you came forward about it. I just thought it was a bad habit. Now I have the ability to get help from my therapist and find ways to cope thank you Colleen. Seriously you changed my life❤️
Tortilla talk question: hey Colleen! Love the vlogs. Just curious if Flynn is aware that he does not have the average life? You’re doing an amazing job as a parent, just stepping into reality that his mom is “a person of note” and is fortunate to have all the toys lol. Love you!
Hey Colleen, I wanted to tell you that you are NOT ALONE with your DTM. I have Trichotillomania and I have the same “zoning” thing as you. My therapist has really helped me with skills like doing grounding techniques when the feelings arise and doing tasks that make me busy to where I can’t pull me hair. I also get embarrassed but I shouldn’t because it’s a part of me and I really appreciate you being so open about yours. Thank you! I hope this patch passes over and just know that you got this!
Tortilla talk question: do you know where Flynn gets some of his awesome twangs and random accents from? It's so sweet how he get a southern twang sometimes, is it a family member or a show? Also love you mammas
I suffer from an anxiety disorder and OCD and I totally understand that feeling of disappointment. I try to accept that its something apart of me. I try to remember myself that I’m so strong because I suffer a lot with it and I always get a way to live my life anyways. I always say that people with anxiety related disorders have a different sensitivity to the world, in a good way. I know its really hard. Don’t beat yourself up Colleen, you’re are so strong! 💛
Try talking to yourself the way you would talk to Flynn. Next time it happens and you notice “negative self talk” it is good to say something positive to replace the negative. Even though it might seem insignificant, over time it adds up and builds muscle memory in your brain. (From my understanding) You are truly wonderful regardless of your differences! ❤️
Yes!! I've learned to "be my own friend" to help me make sure I'm responding to myself in a loving way.
Thank you for this comment, you are totally right (my mom tells me the same thing and I'm 35 lol) but it's great advice, you seem like a really sweet person ❤😊❤😊
genius 🧐
Mental therapist here. I would just add to anyone reading your comment that the replacement thought doesn't have to be positive necessarily. It can be more realistic, neutral, or helpful. Sometimes reaching for that "positive" is too difficult when we're having a down on ourselves moment or can feel invalidating or like toxic positivity. So just wanted to provide some alternatives if a positive re-frame is too difficult in the moment :)
@@insertcreativenamehere7970 thank you for sharing this ❤
I LOVE how validating you are of Flynn’s feelings when he was saying he was sad the grasshopper left. I admire that 💗
Colleen, as someone who has trichotillomania/dermo my picking/pulling comes in waves. recently i have been picking at my feet to the point of limping as well. it sucks so much and i completely understand being disappointed in yourself over it. One thing I did that helped with my picking/pulling was to always keep my feet moisturized with socks on. It makes it hard to grip the skin and therefore I just give up and quit trying to pick. I'm sorry you're going through this but I just want to let u know that you're not alone!
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this is great advice. i definetly cant really relate to this specific illness but it great to know when other have the same and help each other out. you seem really smart and a really strong person so im sorry about your hard days but you have a lot of support
I've found keeping my nails really short helps in the same way. Can't really lift the skin so I just give up.
Me too! Getting an SNS manicure helps bc you literally can’t pick bc the nails are just too thick!
I literally just commented that I am hobbling around for the exact same reason! Thanks for the tips, ill try that tonight
I just have to commend Colleen and Eric. I loved how Flynn was so specific in expressing his emotions and how he was sad to let the bug go. Your response was even better to validate his emotions and then explain why. I work with kids and I absolutely LOVED hearing the maturity in Flynn’s emotions. Bravo to you both
I thought this too! “I feel sad because...” The framing was so clear and precise. I love that he could connect his emotion with what happened and Colleen could help him understand why they needed to let the bug go in a way he could relate to. So good!
as someone who struggles with episodes of intense skin picking i just want to thank you for bringing awareness to it and sharing your struggles i cant even express how comforting it is to know i'm not the only one who deals with it. you are so strong colleen!!! relapse is apart of recovery, and recovery isn't linear. i love you !!!!
Agreed!💯🤗💕💓
I was going to say the same thing. 🙏
Came here to say the same thing ❤️
I am glad you’re open to talking about dermatilomania. I understand it is frustrating and you want disappointed in yourself. I want to bring in another perspective that you have A LOT of “stressors” right now. Erik’s family is in town, you are taking care of three children, you are a working woman, you have a live show, and probably other things/ projects we don’t know about. That is A LOT for one person to handle. The reason you probably had such a bad night with the dermatilomania was due to all of those “stressors” compounding. I don’t want to call them stressors bc that may sound negative, but that’s the best word I could think of. If this is the first time you’ve had a bad night/ day of dermatilomania in nearly a year that’s amazing! Yes you were pregnant and that prevented it, but I feel that is still progress! Your feelings are totally valid of feeling disappointed. I wanted to bring a different perspective and hopefully allow you to not be as disappointed as long! You’re amazing 💗💗💗
absolutely CRYING over how expressive these twins are! they are absolutely adorable!
Yeah, they have grown sm
@@mais00 they grow a lot
@@mais00 omg yes and it has just been such little time😭
I thought this said expensive 😂😂😂
@@monalisaheree4338 Ikr
The giggles out of the twins made my heart full. Thank you for sharing that. Also, please don't beat yourself up. You're doing great Colleen!
The twins look so different from each other but sometimes when they’re propped up in the boppy they look sooooo alike. Especially when they’re listening to their mama sing and be goofy. Their smiles are so precious❤️❤️
Agreed, they can look so similar
Omg guys I agree so much I love babys so much!!!! So peace to those how love kids, babys
They look really alike all the time to me - I think their Mum knows them so well she only sees the differences......
@@andrewhaywood3853 And I'm sure it's harder to tell in videos than irl
@@emmagrace9587 yes, that could be it.
A child's laughter is the most sincere, precious sound in the world! I love that the twins are laughing so heartily!
I’m so sorry you had an episode. Virtual hug 🤗 A set back is not starting over. Nothing to be ashamed about, it happens to us all in our lives and people who act like they don’t struggle are only fooling themselves
This is for coleen but it actually helped me…
This helped me as well. Thanks, Kaitlyn.
“I have very wet eyes.”
Colleen, I love you - and I too, cry multiple times a day over basically everything and nothing 😂❤️ sending you so much love & support always!
As someone who has trichotillomania, I CONSTANTLY have to remind myself that progress is not linear. Some days are bad and some days are good but either way, it’s progress. Recognizing that you had a bad day is still a step in the right direction. Be kind to yourself, even on your bad days. You got this mama.
Also the footage of Wesley was so stinking cute.
Dermatillamania sister here, Something that helps me after an intense picking episode is a spray called Bactine. It has some numbing in it so I don't have to limp, but it also helps speed up the healing process. Please try it, you can order it online. It makes me feel much more comfortable because the pain is gone.
I always have to remind myself that there’s highs and lows with having trichotillomania sometimes I can go months without doing a single thing to my hair and sometimes it comes rushing back at full speed.
I’m the same with my trichotillomania. I go through really bad stages with it and then it’ll calm down again. And my friends all help me too if they see me doing it they’ll just give me a gentle nudge to stop me. It can be so frustrating when I’ve been trying not too do it and then do it agin. But like you say, it’s a process and we will all get there in the end :)
Colleen! I love how you validate Flynn’s feelings, even if he’s just sad to say goodbye to a grasshopper, you validate that feeling and then explain why you did what you did. You and Eric are such amazing parents! ❤️
Tortilla talk question: who does Flynn think you are talking to when you are talking to the camera? Does he understand the concept of recording your lives’ for us to watch? Love you! ❤️
That is a really good question!
Flynn refers to the camera as “everyone” and I think that’s the extent of his understanding.
I was wondering about that too!
I’ve heard her tell him before that she is talking to her friends
I completely heard you say “squirrel” and not swirl when you were talking about tye dying the shirt. And I thought wow, she has really stepped up her game with creating animal shapes when making shirts! LoL
Same, and I was waiting for the squirrel tie dye tutorial. Bit disappointed really. LOL!
@@beaksalot , I didn’t realize she said swirl until she unwrapped. I was waiting to see the squirrel! 😆
Omg me too lol 😂
❤️ Colleen, I also have dermatillomania and pick the bottoms of my feet. I have found that socks for runners have helped me a LOT with the pain the next day because they are kind of cushioned and it’s just less pressure on the sore spots. Don’t beat yourself up, that will just make you feel worse and you don’t deserve to feel that way! ✌🏻❤️
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Dermatillamania sister here, Something that helps me after an intense picking episode is a spray called Bactine. It has some numbing in it so I don't have to limp, but it also helps speed up the healing process. Please try it, you can order it online. It makes me feel much more comfortable because the pain is gone.
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I use to clip all the skin off my heels with toe nail clippers. Jesus did it hurt to walk for a few days after!
My son suffered from severe eczema on his feet when he was little to the point that his feet were raw & bleeding. We found that pure Marino wool socks helped so much (smartwool is a good example). They kept his feet drier than cotton socks & helped them heal faster & better.
I have severe dermo with my back and scalp, and in the past few months I was doing so good; the scars on my back were starting to heal and basically all the dandruff on my scalp that was there due to picking was completely gone. Recently, for some reason, it has come back with a vengeance, to the point where I've ruined multiple white shirts with blood and I can't have my hair down because of the flakes and scabs. I was feeling so down on myself for a few days, but I did something different this time, I talked about it. I have tried to conceal this from friends for so long, but I just vented about it without being embarrassed and it felt SO GOOD. Basically what I'm trying to say is that talking about this on your channel is not only being open and bringing awareness, but it's also getting a lot of the frustrations off your chest. I'm now 3 days without picking, and it doesn't seem like much. but with this condition all the small things count. Hang in there, and you're not alone!!!!!!
It was me who commented about showing your diapers and it was no shade at all! I wish more people were like you. You are so real and honest and that's one of the reasons I love watching you everyday ❤️❤️
🥰. A baby's laugh is the best sound ever!! Melts my heart everytime. 😊💕
You can use a plain mascara wand to brush through your eyelashes after putting mascara on. It separates the eyelashes and gets rid of any clumping! :)
Was just gonna comment this! I use the clean wands from Sephora (the ones they have out for free) and use those to separate my lashes
I use a toothbrush lol
Like new and never used on teeth :)
*Tortilla Talk Question:*
When Flynn was a baby you used to communicate with him by teaching him Sign Language.
Will you use it again with Wesley and Maisy? And also, will you at some point teach Flynn more of it since he seems to have forgotten it?
My siblings are boy girl twins. When my mom got them “gender correct” clothing she would swap the pants (girl wearing boys pants and boy wearing girls) just to spice up the outfits
I love this idea! Hope Colleen sees this
that’s so cool!
I was definitely thinking Colleen should do something like that!
Yeah and she could also just buy two clothes in the same colour? I don't get why she keeps ordering clothes in blue and pink and then complaining that Maisy has to wear pink, like couldn't she just buy 2 pinks or 2 blues?
@@sagevf my friend has twins and she dresses them matching but different colors to help family and friends identify without being embarrassed and having to guess which is which! Hers are identical girls but it may be something similar
I go through the same thing, having an episode and then limping and feeling like whyyy did I just do that to myself after spending an hour not being able to focus on anything else besides picking. I will bandage up my foot if I need to go somewhere and put extra padding in my shoes. It helps a bit. Thank you for always talking about this, I always felt so alone until you talked about it. ❤️❤️ sending so much love
!!!!!‼️THIS COULD BE HELPFUL INFO‼️!!!! Hi Colleen!! There is something called the babybrezza or the brezza that makes the bottles for you. You can also have an app on your phone that you can use to make the bottles from the other room. You set the temperature and everything so it’s done for you. Anything that anyone is doing for their babies or baby is great but i know a lot of people who have this and love it!! Love you so much!!
yes, this sounds like a very good idea, but there have been multiple cases of the brezza either pumping out too much or too little formula powder into the water, which can cause problems with the baby. but yes, it sounds like a very good product and would be great if it was successful!
I have the Brezza and was so worried for awhile about whether or not it was putting in the right amount of formula. I would weigh bottles I made versus bottles the Brezza made, and the Brezza was always right on! Eventually I just calmed down about it and it’s a super helpful machine to have. It definitely takes some maintenance because you have to change out and wash the funnel every 4 bottles, but it’s worth it for the time and hassle you save. (I have read that a lot of anecdotal stories of the Brezza putting out incorrect amounts of formula come from people who do not correctly clean the machine.)
You are both amazing parents and Flynn is amazing! He is very expressive! The giggles on Wesley and Maisy are so cute!
Tortilla talk question: Hey queen, what do you have to do to physically prepare for touring?? Vocal exercises, stretching, increasing your stamina, etc! My mom and I watch your videos together and we are sending you so much love!! ❤
Love this question ❤️
Oh, this is a good question. Now I really want to know the answer.
8:20 omg the babies are so freaking cute jeez. their laughs are so contagious and it makes my hard days better. I swear Maisy and Wes are one of the cutest babies ever, I am so glad everyone is home together and is just loving spending the time together. So much love!!!!
Tortilla talk questions:
When are you planning on potty training Flynn?
What’s Flynn’s napping schedule like?
Do you think Flynn will go to preschool?
How’s the nanny hunt going?
They are already potty training
Oddly invasive questions from a stranger.
@@likeswaggerbutwithano5962 I’ve seen way stranger lol I don’t think they’re “too personal” as she’s shared tons of it herself over the years. I’ve been curious myself why he’s still in diapers; and also has a bink.
@@Coinfliplunatik because she's a lazy parent and the Ballingers infantilize their children. There's your answer. Just because she's been sharing this stuff for years does not make it appropriate. She should not be sharing all this private information about her kids before they can even consent to footage of them being consumed by millions of people online. And people have no business asking invasive questions like this either. It's all inappropriate, from every angle.
I could watch the twins giggle for hours ! so sweet & adorable !
Tortilla talk question: Hey Colleen, I love you so much. I was just wondering how you and Erik feel about “foul language” around Flynn and your kids in general. No judgment here. Love you so much!!
@@zuzuxzu I think their being sarcastic
In order for this person to be judging wouldn’t they have had to use foul language in front of their kids in this video? Maybe I swear too much and didn’t notice something that was there… but i didn’t hear any in this video…. For this question to be “judgy”
@@LitLitterbox I’m really not, I am genuinely curious about her views
I do recall her talking a little on this in one of her videos. How she had be careful adapting a word around Flynn. I think he heard her say something and asked what it was and she told him it’s a bad word that Mummy shouldn’t say. I doubt I’d be able to find the video, sorry! It was during the pregnancy sometime. Btw, your question reads (to me) as you intended it. :)
@@LitLitterbox it doesn’t make a difference to me I just think that it is interesting to see how different people view parenting and life in general. It could not affect me less what she does with her kids and I have no right to tell her what to do. Whatever she does is amazing and she will do what is right. Again, I am just curious because I think it is cool to see perspectives on life.
i love how erik picked up the camera when flynn put on the helmet to share with the vlog i love how he's gotten more comfortable around the cameras
Tortilla talk question: what is your favourite part of the baby/toddler phase? Lysm queen ♥️♥️ your kids are very blessed to have you and Erik as their parents ☺️♥️
As someone with Dermo, I definitley find it comes in waves. Sometimes it linked to high stress for me and other times it feels like it’s out of the blue. You’re doing amazing mama. Keep your head held high and allow yourself to release those emotions when you need xx
I'm currently studying psychology and I have ADHD. I'm not sure if this is proven or true but hearing you talk about your experience with skin picking ( I can't spell so we'll go with that lol) it made me think about how it's a common symptom with ADHD to have executive dysfunction and your struggle with skin picking and feeling zoned out seems similar to executive dysfunction to me like you know you should or shouldn't be doing a certain thing but just can't move forward. I know you've talked about executive dysfunction before and how it's frustrating but you've accepted it as something you have to deal with, maybe looking at your struggles with skin picking with this in mind could help you see it differently. Just know what your brain decides to do is not you and doesn't reflect you. Sending you love and support. You got this! 💕
This is possible! But body focus repetitive behaviors such as dermotilomania are very commonly presenting comorbid with ADHD. This is typically because ADHD brains use skin or hair picking as a coping mechanism and as a form of filling a need for stimuli, which is why it turns into a fixation. I just graduated with my psychology degree and as someone with ADD and a BFRB it’s great that Colleen opens these conversations!
Adhd and skin picking go hand in hand in my experience and is exasterbated by meds heavily. (Aderall is the worst at trigger it)
@@am1997artist Yes! I agree!
That mascara has a mini wand in the cap on top of the clear ball .if you unscrew it from above the ball the smaller wand comes out. Its for your lower lash
Erik's interaction with the babies and Flynn is amazing. He is a natural
Love seeing the twins laugh w/ Erik. Adorable 🥰 Sending you love ❤️ my dear
You are so inspirational. Thank you so much for being so candid about your mental health. Going through my mental health and working in the field, I appreciate you for doing this. So much love
I'm glad to hear someone talk about picking. I've noticed when I'm stressed or anxious I immediately start picking at my skin and before I know it. It's been hours and I've completely ruined my skin. It feels less lonely to hear someone else talk about it though
Just wanted to say thank you for this video! The babies laughing with Eric genuinely brought the biggest smile to my face and I really needed that! 🥰✨
I have trichotillomania and one thing that helps a lot is the Keen2 bracelet it helps with bad habits like nail biting, skin picking, and hair pulling! I highly recommend it!!!
The highlight of my day is laying in bed at night and watching your vlogs, you are doing amazing mama 🥰
Colleen I can totally relate to what you’re saying about being so disappointed in your dermotillomania being bad at the moment. I have trichotillomania and I get so upset with myself after the fact. Especially because I’ve had this for years and been able to hide it fairly well but now sometimes it’s not even possible for me to hide it, it’s really shameful and I do feel so disappointed in myself after but like you while I’m doing it I don’t really think about it or even realise the damage I’m doing. It’s honestly so helpful to hear someone else even just talking about it though, even though you’re having a hard time. It makes me feel less alone 💖
Your kids have the cutest laughs! So special to enjoy their happiness with you (daily viewer). Don’t let your insecurities get you down or let you down
The small clips you put in of Erik is gold. It just shines through the screen that he is an amazing dad and that you guys do this together.
And the giggles from the twins and Flynn for that matter, just makes my day. I'm always watching your vids in the morning and the smiles and giggles just warms my heart and puts a smile on my face ♥️
You’re doing so good Colleen don’t feel sad feel proud you’ve made it so long everyone has some setbacks but you’ve got this you’re a master at everything you’re so strong and will get through another rough day :)))))xoxo
3:57 This was a pretty rare sad moment you captured w/Flynn. It struck me 😭🥲 His heart! 💓
Mascara tip: don’t scrape the wand on the top of the container before applying. It can help reduce clumpiness :) also, spin the wand in the product rather than pumping it up and down.
Learned something new!
also she can get one of those little brushes for your eyelashes and brush thru the mascara after to get rid of the clumpies
Thanks for this! I struggle with my mascara
I have trichotillomania. It definitely comes and goes in waves. And I swear the waves are in synch with hormonal changes, like around your period, pregnancy or postpartum. I know it can be a way to relieve stress or release unexpressed feelings, but the longer I have it, twenty three years now, I believe more and more it’s tied to our physical hormonal changes more than anything. If it is a physical symptom of uncontrollable hormonal changes, there is no need for any disappointment when it gets intense. I love you and thank you for all you share with us. You are beautiful inside and out. 💕
I just want to say thank you Colleen. Thank you for being an escape. I find it so easy to stress about the world, i find it sometimes debilitating when my mind wonders about what my future may look like in the state of the world. I stress about the fact that we’re literally on a floating rock. I get anxious that I have school on monday. but thought all those emotions i find myself being grounded by your daily vlogs. I watch you’re vlogs every night before bed and it does wonders to bring my anxiety levels down. So thank you Colleen.
I loved your empathy for Flynn when he said he was sad to say goodbye to the grasshopper. We could all use a little bit more of that! All of us want to be seen and heard.
Tortilla talk question: How much of what you have achieved in your career does flynn know about? You have achieved so much & must have so many incredible stories, how much are you planning on sharing with your lovely kiddos? Lots of love to you always! Xx
Hi lovely human,
As someone who also has ADHD & dermotillomania/trichotillomania, I find myself in this predicament often; I'll go MONTHS without picking or pulling sometimes and not even notice, but other times I relapse and end up feeling angry at myself. Relapses happen. Healing is not linear. Be gentle with yourself love, let yourself feel & release all of the feelings that you need to, and then remind yourself that you are healing
Sorry you’re not feeling the best Colleen 🥺💜
Awww , it's okay
seeing Eriks face as hes just watching flynn or listening to him talk is just the sweetest thing ever. his face just shows how much he adores and loves his children's every move. I just love you and your not so little family. also seeing flynn sad about saying goodbye to grasshopper literally broke my heart. what a little sweetheart
Flynn in a space helmet helmet is killing me with its cuteness 🥰
I feel you so much. I had such a bad episode a few days ago with picking my fingers’ skin, it was hurting so bad after that. But when you’re in that state you just can’t control yourself. Don’t feel bad, just keep trying to get better ☺️
Flynn’s little sad face about the grasshopper is too cute!!
Thank you for sharing about your dermatillomania. My teenage daughter suffers from an anxiety disorder and struggles with picking. When someone as fun and awesome and wonderful as you 💖🦄😎, whom my daughter admires and watches
/listens to daily, is open about your own struggles with picking, it is encourages us all to not feel so alone. Thank you for your vulnerability 💖 We are sending kindness & encouragement your way, too! 💖💖💖
Tortilla Talk Question: When you zone out during an episode, would anyone ever be able to help you out of it? Like if Erik or Flynn or Rachel were to see you picking, would they be able to help you break the episode?
I think she has said in the past that pointing out her picking would bring her more shame and wouldn’t help.
The way you comforted Flynn about the grasshopper was so amazing! You are awesome
I took my toddler to the wildlife learning center after seeing it in your blog. He got to feed a giraffe 🦒 which was amazing since he’s hardly done anything fun during the pandemic. Hope y’all have fun!!
it was so wholesome seeing erik interact with the twins and see them so happy and giggly!! too precious!🥰
Tortilla Talk Question: How much of you will be in the live show? Will it be 50/50 or 25/75 of you and Miranda. Love you, the twins, and Flynn!!!
I have ocd contamination and I feel you about the disappointment.🥺💔 I'm sorry you're having a difficult time with your dermatillamania. I hope your visit to the park went well and you weren't in too much pain. Sending love and support.💐
I want more baby content 🤣 like a day in my twins life or just watch you feeding and playing with them! They are so cute and make me so happy ♥️
I have trichotillomania and I totally feel you with on progress and being disappointed in yourself.
I shaved my head for 8 years straight starting when I was 13 because it was so bad and I started wearing wigs for fun at 21 and it helped me not pull my hair out so much. A year later and my hair is shoulder length, but the past 6 months I've pulled out a softball sized bald spot right on the top of my head. Can't wear my hair any way but a bun with some eyeshadow filling in the bald spots to go in public.
These disorders can make us feel so bad about ourselves and out of control but it's important to remember they don't define us and aren't tied to our worth. Sending you lots of love ❤
I just want to give you a hug, you're so strong and such a role model to me and many others! You are allowed to struggle, that's part of being human but you demonstrate time and time again how resilient you are and that's really special! Thank you for being you, big hugs from a small city in northern Ontario, Canada. love you always
I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your dermatillomania story. You talking about your experience helped me realise I had trichotillomania. Before I just thought pulling out my eyebrows was just a thing people did, but you sharing your story helped me realise what it was. Knowing I'm not alone in the struggles every day is very comforting sometimes, I thought I was just a weirdo and a freak (I don't think this about other people with BFRBs but I do about myself, as I know you've also talked about before) but I now know it's something quite a few others go through too. I guess I'm just trying to say you aren't alone and that we love you. I don't really have any tips but sending love your way
Tortilla talk question: ok, I know this is a wierd question, but there's any chance of you coming to Brazil? I mean, I know that's highly unlikely, but I really want to say thank you in person. Your videos of you and your family have helped me get through depression. I've been watching you guys since 2012 and I got better at English, so now I teach English to kids in need here in Brazil.
So yeah, that's my question: would you come to Brazil someday?
Love you 💜💜💜
I am currently going through the same thing. I am not diagnosed with this disorder but for the longest time I have picked and chewed the skin around my fingers until they bleed and hurt for weeks. But recently I have been doing it to my feet. I completely understand where you are coming from. I work on my feet all day and I am limping around most of the day. I tried telling a friend about it and they just said "Well just stop doing it then. It's about mind over matter." and it just sucks when people do not understand that it isn't that easy and it makes you seem weak. But I am working at it and hearing that you're going through the same thing makes me feel less alone. So thank you and I hope yours gets under control soon! Love you!
I had that little teething set for my daughter when she was little! She LOVED the giraffe and still has it at a year and a half 😂
I love how above this video in my subscriptions is Rachel (Colleen’s sister) talking about her favorite vibrator 😂😂
Tortilla talk question : when the twins and Flynn are older where is one place you would really want to take them . Love your videos so much 💕💕
hi colleen, I have struggled with dermotillomania for many years now and you being so open about your experience has really helped me feel less alone. I get disappointed with myself too when I have episodes, it helps if I have a mani/pedicure, I know you don't like having your nails done but maybe getting gel nails or a pretty color would help
What would you do if Flynn ever expressed that he didn't want to be on camera?? And does he understand how many people watch your vlogs? Love your content btw ❤️
My dermatillomania is really bad right now thank you so much for talking about it makes me feel less alone and embarrassed at my self.
Girl I have trichotillomania and I understand what you mean about zoning out and being disappointed in yourself. You are strong and beautiful and I'm sorry you are going through a tough time ❤️
Dermatillamania sister here, Something that helps me after an intense picking episode is a spray called Bactine. It has some numbing in it so I don't have to limp, but it also helps speed up the healing process. Please try it, you can order it online. It makes me feel much more comfortable because the pain is gone.
commenting so colleen sees!
Love Eric being more involved in the vlog! You’re family dynamic and so inspiring
Always looking forward to your videos Colleen! Love you and your wonderful family! 💜💜💜💜💜
I have dermatillomania and trichotillomania and I don't know what else to say other than I completely understand what you're feeling. It's so easy to beat yourself up over it but I always remind myself after an episode of either dermatillomania or trichotillomania, that " tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it." And all I can do now, is try my hardest (which sometimes still isn't enough) to leave my skin and hair alone the next day and take it one day at a time.
All you're family is amazing. You are great Colleen. YOUVE GOT THIS! We are here for you! I am always so excited to see you're vlogs!
@@olivia-td2cb oh yes thank you!
@@catworld8119 Ik thank you it was a typo
The footage of Wesley and Maisy smiling and giggling is the cutest! 💛
I’m so sorry Colleen! I have trichotillomania, and I’m glad you are able to talk about it even though it’s hard. Thank you:)
Thank you for that clip of the twins giggling from your phone. The dopamine, serotonin whatever was refreshing from their little baby smiles and laughs. 😍🥰😌
The way I get so excited when you post a vlog! It’s what I look forward to every day!
colleen, thank you for speaking out about your dermatillomania, it really helps me deal with mine. i tend to pick my skin all around my face, neck, legs, arms, it's really awful and it helps to see someone being so open about this.
Tortilla idea: you should react to march 2020 vlogs! ❤️❤️
Love the outfits! And love, love, love hearing the babies giggle!! ❤
‘’I have too much to do right now to cry ‘’ just describes everything Im feeling right now too Colleen. Not going through the same things as you but still struggling A LOT, your vlogs just make my days, every single time, feel like Im not alone in this world of appearances and everyone looking as if they are “living the perfect life” thank you ❤️
I relate to this too💙💙
I gave up on mascara and just wear falsies. Sooo much easier than building mascara. You can also get disposable spoolies for the clumps. I have a form of dermatillomania where I push on the corners of my nails until they’re sore or have a callous. I then pick at the callous skin. I’ve been told it’s due to the OCD/anxiety and ADHD combo. I see a psych dr and a therapist and I’m still here doing it. It’s gets better the busier that I am. My mind has to stay stimulated or I do it.
Hey! I don't usually comment, but I watch all of your videos, and I just want to say that we love you and it is not a disappointment! You are so strong! You are kind and generous as well as hard-working! We are all behind you and we support you! Love you! xxx
Thank you so much Colleen for speaking out about the condition. I also have been struggling with it my whole life. It stems a lot from my adhd but also my anxiety. The feeling of dissociation while you’re having an episode or being in a fogged state happens to me to every time. It’s so hard to deal with! and a lot of the time it’s hard because it’s invisible and know one else knows or knows how to help you. It’s really hard. But seeing someone that can be so open to people when they have a hard day it just makes everything feel more validating in a way. I never knew it was a condition until you came forward about it. I just thought it was a bad habit. Now I have the ability to get help from my therapist and find ways to cope thank you Colleen. Seriously you changed my life❤️
Tortilla talk question: hey Colleen! Love the vlogs. Just curious if Flynn is aware that he does not have the average life? You’re doing an amazing job as a parent, just stepping into reality that his mom is “a person of note” and is fortunate to have all the toys lol. Love you!
Hey Colleen, I wanted to tell you that you are NOT ALONE with your DTM. I have Trichotillomania and I have the same “zoning” thing as you. My therapist has really helped me with skills like doing grounding techniques when the feelings arise and doing tasks that make me busy to where I can’t pull me hair. I also get embarrassed but I shouldn’t because it’s a part of me and I really appreciate you being so open about yours. Thank you! I hope this patch passes over and just know that you got this!
omg I have trich too
I love you Colleen! You are my idle! You always cheer me up when I see you and your sweet family!
Every time Flynn said no thank you, my heart is so full❤ he's the sweetest little guy
Tortilla talk question: do you know where Flynn gets some of his awesome twangs and random accents from? It's so sweet how he get a southern twang sometimes, is it a family member or a show? Also love you mammas
I suffer from an anxiety disorder and OCD and I totally understand that feeling of disappointment. I try to accept that its something apart of me. I try to remember myself that I’m so strong because I suffer a lot with it and I always get a way to live my life anyways. I always say that people with anxiety related disorders have a different sensitivity to the world, in a good way. I know its really hard. Don’t beat yourself up Colleen, you’re are so strong! 💛
I totally agree that those of us who battle anxiety have a unique sensitivity to the world. Thanks for sharing!