hey that was amazing as per, somehow it said i wasnt subscribed but am now, keep it up you are helping sooo many people, and noo your vlogs aint boring, they feel as if you are actually sat here, not like others who script their vlogs, you just keeeeep going love you dude
Hey, thank you for taking the time again to watch and comment. odd question do we know each other? Glad you are definitely subscribed a lot of people will watch the vlogs but just wont comment so your subscription and support is genuinely appreciated. I think this vlog was a little more relaxed, which aint a bad thing, it's important I get across my emotions (oof I dont say emotions very often!! see you taking the time to comment has made me think about emotions which i usually avoid at all costs, so you have helped me today). Sometimes I have stuff in mind as to what im gunna say but never scripted that would involve actual effort, lol. With regards to being "sat here" im looking into running some online support sessions so I can reach people that arent local. Thank you for subscribing, thank you for watching, thank you for commenting and thank you for making me think about the word emotions. love right back at ya and as always, keep going ;)
Hiya mate. I've just watched your latest vlog 'Balance' for the second time. It was somewhat less emotive and less forceful than some if your earlier stuff but to use your own philosophy "it is what it is" What I got from it is that you have (and have done so for a long time now )come to terms with your illness and although you have realised that it may be life long you will not give up the fight.I think it's doubtful that your demons will ever utterly defeat you ;perhaps you'll end up on the deck from time to time but never for the full count. I'm a boxing fan and what appeals to me about boxing is not just the power and skill of the greatest fighters but also their mental qualities such as courage,determination; rescoursfullness,stability, and when necessary -ruthlessness. Boxing and mental illness are not the same thing of course but they do have in common that all the participants are up against it. The difference between us and boxersof course is we are denied our mental strengths and so we have to dig deep inside ourself to bring them up to the surface here we can draw upon them and cope. The other main difference of course is that we don't get paid £20 million for 2 minutes work like Mike Tyson used to. We do need a balance I think and trying to achieve such a balance might make our lives more bearable (I think any form of suffering can be dealt with provided you can become accustomed to it) A bit of balance ,a bit of relief, a bit of hope that's something to have isn't it. I think you're giving people some of these things Jon by doing what you do so keep on giving keep on sharing keep on fighting and people Will reciprocate -that's a bit of balance for you right there. I'll speak to you Monday. John.
Jeffrey Dog Hi John, as always yve got the nail on the head. Firstly I knew this vlog was a bit more mellow than others, but like you say "it is what it is" Sometimes we feel "utterly defeated" but fortunately we're experienced enough to know that isn't true. I had a bit of a fight back on Friday, and got stuck into a few things, achieved a few things, one of them I can only describe as groundbreaking, Friday evening I felt a lot of pride and more positive. Then spent all day in bed Saturday and really struggled to firstly get out of my bedroom Sunday. Even though I wanted to watch the F1 I knew I had to get out the house today to break the cycle (yet again!!!) to give me a chance on Monday to start in a better place as we have something very important to do Tuesday, some work that will ACTUALLY make a difference for people like ourselves in the future, something else to be proud of later this week. For me it's the up n down, never knowing what the next day brings that causes us to think "what's the point" if I can never get any consistency never get any balance, this "what's the point" question for me is the one that can lead to thoughts of suicide to end the pain, which are never nice thoughts to have but I'm fortunate cus I KNOW I will NEVER take that option, can't explain how I KNOW apart from saying I refuse to let mental illness / the demons win!! I often think about boxing as a metaphor for mental illness and the strength we need to keep going. If you're a boxer and you stand there just letting yr opponent punching you repeatedly in the face the outcome is inevitable, but if you put up yr guard, move about a bit, learn about yr opponents strengths and weaknesses you can start throwing punches back, you might still lose but yll know you have the fight to fight another day Keep going dude
KEEP IT UP FELLA, i bin locked up all weekend in my flat but im not letting it beat me, you aint letting anyone down remember your human with very same probs as me and your followers ok
NeedlessScarab74 AKA NeedlessScarab never gunna beat us, yes it might trap us in a corner from time to time but it will never beat us. Sometimes we have to accept we're unwell that may mean we're locked away hiding for a bit but as long as we come out fighting the demons will never beat us
hey that was amazing as per, somehow it said i wasnt subscribed but am now, keep it up you are helping sooo many people, and noo your vlogs aint boring, they feel as if you are actually sat here, not like others who script their vlogs, you just keeeeep going love you dude
Hey, thank you for taking the time again to watch and comment. odd question do we know each other? Glad you are definitely subscribed a lot of people will watch the vlogs but just wont comment so your subscription and support is genuinely appreciated. I think this vlog was a little more relaxed, which aint a bad thing, it's important I get across my emotions (oof I dont say emotions very often!! see you taking the time to comment has made me think about emotions which i usually avoid at all costs, so you have helped me today). Sometimes I have stuff in mind as to what im gunna say but never scripted that would involve actual effort, lol. With regards to being "sat here" im looking into running some online support sessions so I can reach people that arent local. Thank you for subscribing, thank you for watching, thank you for commenting and thank you for making me think about the word emotions. love right back at ya and as always, keep going ;)
Hiya mate. I've just watched your latest vlog 'Balance' for the second time.
It was somewhat less emotive and less forceful than some if your earlier stuff but to use your own philosophy "it is what it is"
What I got from it is that you have (and have done so for a long time now )come to terms with your illness and although you have realised that it may be life long you will not give up the fight.I think it's doubtful that your demons will ever utterly defeat you ;perhaps you'll end up on the deck from time to time but never for the full count.
I'm a boxing fan and what appeals to me about boxing is not just the power and skill of the greatest fighters but also their mental qualities such as courage,determination; rescoursfullness,stability, and when necessary -ruthlessness.
Boxing and mental illness are not the same thing of course but they do have in common that all the participants are up against it.
The difference between us and boxersof course is we are denied our mental strengths and so we have to dig deep inside ourself to bring them up to the surface here we can draw upon them and cope.
The other main difference of course is that we don't get paid £20 million for 2 minutes work like Mike Tyson used to.
We do need a balance I think and trying to achieve such a balance might make our lives more bearable (I think any form of suffering can be dealt with provided you can become accustomed to it)
A bit of balance ,a bit of relief, a bit of hope that's something to have isn't it.
I think you're giving people some of these things Jon by doing what you do so keep on giving keep on sharing keep on fighting and people Will reciprocate -that's a bit of balance for you right there.
I'll speak to you Monday.
John.
Jeffrey Dog Hi John, as always yve got the nail on the head.
Firstly I knew this vlog was a bit more mellow than others, but like you say "it is what it is"
Sometimes we feel "utterly defeated" but fortunately we're experienced enough to know that isn't true. I had a bit of a fight back on Friday, and got stuck into a few things, achieved a few things, one of them I can only describe as groundbreaking, Friday evening I felt a lot of pride and more positive. Then spent all day in bed Saturday and really struggled to firstly get out of my bedroom Sunday. Even though I wanted to watch the F1 I knew I had to get out the house today to break the cycle (yet again!!!) to give me a chance on Monday to start in a better place as we have something very important to do Tuesday, some work that will ACTUALLY make a difference for people like ourselves in the future, something else to be proud of later this week.
For me it's the up n down, never knowing what the next day brings that causes us to think "what's the point" if I can never get any consistency never get any balance, this "what's the point" question for me is the one that can lead to thoughts of suicide to end the pain, which are never nice thoughts to have but I'm fortunate cus I KNOW I will NEVER take that option, can't explain how I KNOW apart from saying I refuse to let mental illness / the demons win!!
I often think about boxing as a metaphor for mental illness and the strength we need to keep going. If you're a boxer and you stand there just letting yr opponent punching you repeatedly in the face the outcome is inevitable, but if you put up yr guard, move about a bit, learn about yr opponents strengths and weaknesses you can start throwing punches back, you might still lose but yll know you have the fight to fight another day
Keep going dude
KEEP IT UP FELLA, i bin locked up all weekend in my flat but im not letting it beat me, you aint letting anyone down remember your human with very same probs as me and your followers ok
NeedlessScarab74 AKA NeedlessScarab never gunna beat us, yes it might trap us in a corner from time to time but it will never beat us. Sometimes we have to accept we're unwell that may mean we're locked away hiding for a bit but as long as we come out fighting the demons will never beat us