being a doctor is hard (residency, mental health) | Dr. Rachel Southard
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- Опубліковано 11 сер 2023
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The hand thing... is it "Dupuytren contracture" ? Or neurological tightness? Try physical therapy if you can't find a surgeon.
Dear Rachel, know that most residents feel like this especially during the beginning period of residency. You are tired, learning a lot of new things and getting to know new people. I can relate to you. During my residency, I felt really lonely in my constantly overwhelmed feeling because the other residents surrounding me never said anything about how they were feeling. One night when I had a shift change, I asked the night shift resident, whether it was just me and he confirmed that it was perfectly normal to feel like I was feeling. This was an eye opener for me. Be kind to yourself, get enough rest❤
Hey sister. You have to read a scripture and pray.
Submit to God, I promise you feel and see the difference, e.g
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
wow
Its so unfair doctors cant talk about mental health your job is so hard and draining. You see some pretty traumatizing things. Are you allowed to have a therapist ? Keep being transparent I feel we have a good space here where theres little judgement lets keep that up. Go Rachel!
Some states will revoke licenses or make it very hard to get licensed if you see a therapist/psychiatrist or take psychiatric medications which deters many doctors from getting help because they don't want to lie or lose their license.
@@unhealthyhomeostasis omg how disgusting. Those who help and treat us also need to be helped and treated. 🙁
To those saying doctors can’t talk about mental health - they can, they choose not to.
@@cocomarineblu993 they may be allowed but in several states there can be significant issues in licensing if they try to access mental health care. Medical boards are also known to look at social media, so yes some may choose not to to protect their job and license.
Hope the hand gets better! I’ve heard of hand surgeons doing tendon releases in the past, but don’t know much more.
Yes for me the medical field is not a dream any longer, it's not worth it anymore!. The system is so corrupt and no regards to workers. I quit my my job as an RN last three years ago after almost 16 years in the field. It was not an easy decision but life is too short to dread going to work everyday. No amount of money can buy real happiness Lol but friends I'm not asking you to resign from your job or abandon your business but be wise! 💯
You said it all right there ma'am! I don't really like my job but I love what it provides for me and my family. This pandemic has people rethinking working
Were you a bedside nurse ma'am and What do you do now, how did you plan yourself before quitting?
right now I run my own business and While I was still in service I planned towards early retirement, making about 2k weekly from my retirement investment portfolio trying so much to build more side hustles and extra income
Wow impressive you're making quite a fortune speaking of investing I have heard about that but I don't really know how to start can you explain?
There's a lot of investing options but my best advice get a professional lead you into profitable one that's exactly what I did
I've just started my first year as a Doctor in the U.K and every sentence you said resonated with how I've felt starting in this profession. "I'm not tired I'm just emotionally drained", I'm okay when at the hospital but when I leave I reflect and feel so overwhelmed. I respect you so much for talking openly about it. You're right, it needs to be talked about more how difficult it is and that it is normal to feel this way. Keep looking after yourself, you're doing great!
Thank you for all you do. You are appreciated more than you know.❤
so much hard work to become an dr I'm sure in end your get there i hope one day to help teach medical students as one of there body donors as I'm thermally ill young man so decided to give consent to body donation in hope to help teach medical students Anatomy i wish all well in there studies and pray you carry on to become great dr take care
You’re not alone Rachel. Everyone who goes into medical school, nursing school, anything medical. The beginning is HARD, my first few years of nursing I was drowning, had absolutely no one to look up to as it was just so busy, and questions I had I was always made to feel, “are you really asking this question”, so I just figured it all out on my own and I’m a better nurse for it. Hang in there, I admire you so much.
Just started as an ED nurse I’m so overwhelmed ;(
So true! It’s ptsd, definitely humbling
I cried watching your video, because I am having a really hard time in the hospital too and I am not sure want to do. The pressure keeps getting bigger and it's mentally draining.
Looking forward to the video. I will say, we have a family friend who is also in his 1st year of residency and he’s struggling. He felt so comfortable his last year of medical school. He felt so confident! He said he feels like he’s starting from square one where he knows nothing and doubts himself. You both will overcome this!! You’re a rockstar, Rafiki. ❤❤
I'm a high school teacher. I teach Health Science classes, including medical terminology. I am so proud of my former students becoming doctors, nurses, athletic trainers, etc. Your brief talk of pay for certain Target workers being more than what residents get. I get it. Teachers in America are not payed for the amount of work we do on contract and off contract. I understand how you feel. I'm praying for you and all nurses and doctors. Mental health is important for everyone. Take care.
It’s okay to not be okay. You can be mad, frustrated, or straight up hate your job/residency. You’re human. Be kind to yourself ❤️
You’re a human being before a doctor. Do what you need to do to make sure you’re okay and you’ll be better at anything you do. I’m sending you positive vibes! You got this😊
I remember residency. I graduated in 2016 so it’s been a few years but those “bad days” come and go. I think making sure you have someone in your class that you can confide in and someone not related to medicine at all that you can confide in. Also you must find your life outside of being a doctor so you have real outlets and an understanding that you really are human and being a doctor is just like a job at target. It was the only way I made it through. Don’t let being a doctor define you and you’ll realize how much of a privilege it is to do the things you get to do. The trust that people have in you. Their life really is in your hands. Give all your patients the utmost respect. Treat them as though they are your family. Care for them. Give them your best. Residency FLIES by and before you know it you’re applying for a real job as an attending or in a private practice.
I’m happy to be an ear for you if you need it. Love that I found your channel. You’re doing a great job sharing real life to those that may be interested.
Rachel, I’m an ER nurse of 3.5 years. I had NOOOOOOO CLUE what I was getting myself into. At first it was amazing learning all the new things but as time has gone on and I’ve seen and done things unimaginable it has left me exhausted, hating humanity and every single shift I have anxiety and leave having had the worst day ever, and it just keeps getting worse. In nursing school no one taught us the shit we would have to deal with but real life sucks and we see people at their lowest points and everything is always our fault. The amount of body fluids that have ended up o. Me, holding a mother as she grieves her dead infant, delivering news of cancer to someone, while the psych patient assaults my coworkers down the hall… I’ve learned to roll with the punches and my team of nurses and docs keeps me alive. I’m going back to school to be an NP and I’m excited to teach one day and maybe do outpatient of some sort. It gets harder each shift to find the silver lining. The medical field is HARD. No one talks about it. Take care of yourself and try your best to find the silver lining ❤️❤️❤️ you are not alone.
I really resonated with this. This reminds me when I was working at CVS during the pandemic, I had to find a silver lining, I literally said. Thanks for sharing.
oh Rachel 😓 The transition from school to work is so hard! People don't talk about it enough. But it does get better! I had the same experience and ended up going on antidepressants. I was v cautious of them for so long but after a year of feeling down I went on them and it was the best decision ever. I genuinely don't understand how people DONT go on them during that transition. But you got this!!! Just don't suffer. You don't need to. So proud of you.
I appreciate how you maintain professionalism while also being transparent. I think a lot of young professionals like ourselves struggle maintaining professionalism over social media.
I’m a PA. I didn’t have to go through residency. I did do my rotations with med students, I also did 3 years of intense school and crazy classes. The conversations you are having here are ground breaking. This is not normal to go through such hard stages in life. It’s exhausting and it’s not fun. I still have these moments in medicine 7 years out. At this point I never want my kids to go into medicine. It’s not what I thought it would be. We are underpaid and undervalued for such a hard life we enter. I now work part time, it’s better for my mental health to work less.
Once your done with residency you’ll be making over 200K. Your hard work and effort will be worth it.
Dr. Southard, you were meant to be a physician and because its not abnormal to feel how you are feeling. When I started nursing school almost 20 years ago, I went through some of the same stuff, but I quickly learned to adapt and do stress relief activities like you do. It helped quite a bit. We are that way and that is part of what makes us great in our respective professions. I am now a practicing ARNP. Keep on trucking Dr. Southard. You'll do great and wonderful things that you know not!!!
I work at a call center and I’ve worked a few call centers all my adult life. I don’t feel much weight in the job I do but interacting with people all day as a customer service person has drained me. I had my first call today where a customer made me cry. I felt terrible and even more terrible because that is so unlike me and I can’t figure out why this particular customer held so much power over me. Anyway it just made me realize I need to find a less customer facing job because I don’t think I have anything left in me to give. Loved the video, not because you were sad but misery does love company I guess. To brighter days ahead❤
I am a resident too. I think you need few days rest away from work to revive urself. I know its not the greatest thing but you have to care of urself first before others.. Call sick even if you dont have sick leaves. Trust me, work will still happen and its not the end of world if you have few days off work :).. I ALWAYS LISTEN TO THE SAYING- TOMORROW IF YOU ARE DEAD YOUR EMPLOYER WILL REPLACE YOU IN A BLINK..NOONE IS WORTH THE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA YOU ARE GOING THROUGH..
Rachel….YOU Got this!😊😊😊
Please don’t apologize for how you react to the intense stress of your life! Honestly, the way residents are treated when it comes to the hours and the pay for such emotionally distressing work is borderline (if not completely) unethical. It makes complete sense that you’re depressed. Take care of yourself!!
Thank you💕
I rarely comment here, but I want to take the time and share my deep appreciation for all you do. I know residency most be so draining and time consuming at times, yet you still post. As someone who is applying to medical school next year and also wants to pursue ob/gyn, I cannot begin to express how thankful I am you are always transparent with us and continue to document your journey. You got this Rachel💕
Love how open you are, it reminds me, and I’m sure many others that it’s okay to say I’m not okay right at the moment. You got this! 🖤
Hi Dr Southard, I've been following your page since your first year of med school and I can't believe you're in your first year of residency already!! We are all so proud of you. Please continue to speak about your mental health and well-being to others, even if it's your camera in these vlogs. WE HEAR YOU. Life as we get older feels like constant up and downs, when it's not one thing, it's another. You are so inspiring and I would love to have you as my doctor one day. Continue to be your authentic self, you will overcome this too! ❤
PA-S3 here, struggling through my rural family med rotation. You videos and transparency get me through!
I have so much respect for you for sharing this
I knew what was gonna happen the next day as soon as you said “I don’t want to be depressed.”
Worlds is good at kicking us while we’re down. I hope it gets better, I really do.
pls do not be sorry. your feelings are so valid and your viewers admire your vulnerability so much. thank you for sharing these moments with us, the good, the bad, and everything real in betweem
thank you for being so honest about what you're going through. residency sounds so unbelievably stressful and you're such a trooper for doing your best to care for your patients and take care of yourself too. i started therapy and SSRIs during med school and they've really helped my mental health and wellbeing. some days are still rough, but it's helped those lows feel less low. I know that different things work for different people and I don't know if talking to a professional/therapy is an option, but you deserve support as you go through this. Hope you give yourself grace, and I'm sending you strength as you go through this journey!
You got this 💜 I’m rooting for you
I haven’t watched you in soo long, congrats on making it through med school into residency, keep doing you Dr. Rachel!
Long time viewer and current M4 doing my sub-I's and audition rotations and you really hit the nail right on the head when describing the daily mental health struggle of being in medicine. I obviously only got a taste of it but gosh these long days at the hospital can be so draining and keeping it together and always being "on" during long shifts can be so exhausting! Hoping it will get better eventually
You’re so amazing and strong ! Thank you for sharing how you feel when things are hard, reminds me that it’s ok to feel that way and you’re not alone ❤❤
I am so so proud of you Rachel! Thank you for continuing to document your experiences with us. Don’t be sorry for sharing the real you, it’s all we are here for, you. I’m sending you so much love and light in the coming weeks and I hope your heart and mind heal as you grow more confident ❤.
I'm grateful you're choosing to take things day by day. Please always remember there is a community here (outside of your fam/friends) that LOVES you and is here to encourage you as well 100% of the way. You are nothing short of an inspiration to me. It's such a privilege to be doing what you're doing, but the costs it comes with are unjust. You are a fighter, a perseverer (i know that's not a real word;), and a QUEEN. Keep at it mija! Hour by hour. The light may be 4yrs away, but you're getting there! One day at a time, as you said.
Thank you for this! I’m currently going through residency and have been feeling so emotionally exhausted and this really helped me not feel like I’m the only one ❤
Thank you for being real and raw (about how you feel). I am experiencing similar feelings as a new grad bedside nurse. Praying for you. ❤
Thank you so much for making the video and glad you are doing well and enjoying your work at the hospital 🏥 Rachel! 😊
Well done for this vlog. Thank you and you should be proud that you managed to be open and honest with how you are feeling. The followers of you are all here for you and care for you. Carry on being the honest person you are
THANK YOU always for your authenticity and for being transparent about your journey in a respectful manner. I think it is wonderful that you are this compassionate about not only your patients but your viewers. It is really heartwarming to watch your professional and personal growth and I am sure, like all the other obstacles you have faced, you will find the path that enhances this journey for you!
Thank you for sharing with us! I cannot imagine what you are going through, but know that I am rooting for you! I wish you the best. Sending you love :)
Hi Rachel! I’ve never commented before but I just want to thank you for talking about this. I’m a PGY-1 inpatient pharmacy resident and I just finished an 11 day stretch and have been struggling. We got this! ❤
We are rooting for you!!!
I understand your feelings about being in a difficult phase of life. I can’t relate to being a resident but I understand mental health struggles, stress & burn out. You will find your way and adjust. I’m happy for you that you are making an effort to find a balance. It’ll all work itself out. ❤sending good vibes and prayers for you. 🙏
You got this. You went through probably one of the toughest times ever when you were going through medical school. If you can do that then you can do anything.
I'm really touched by your honesty... We are all here for you has much as we can be. Always remember that you are truly awesome Rachel. You and others like you make such a difference to every life you touch. The world truly needs more people like you because you make a real difference, a LIFE changing difference - THANK YOU 😊
I so appreciate your vulnerability 💗 So often those in helping professions have a sense of shame or guilt for feeling drained, overwhelmed, and depressed. These are feelings we can't always talk about which magnifies those feelings of being alone. It is really powerful that you are allowing yourself to feel all the feelings - joy, sadness, frustration. You are doing your very best - I hope you are as gentle to yourself as possible. The Herd appreciates you!
I'm a pgy3 in family medicine. Appreciate your strength in showing your experience. Keep going. 🙏🏾🙏🏾
Thanks for opening up! Everyone feels the rush of matching and then real life kind of sets in. You’re feelings are real and valid and I’m sure many new interns are feeling this way as well. I hope as the year progresses you feel better.
You’re such an inspiration to many! I love your videos. Thank you for always being so true and vulnerable with us ❤
Thank you Rachel for being vulnerable and real with us. You got this! Make sure to implement a few minutes each day to your mental health. Looking forward to your residency journey 😊❤
Ability to relate/empathy is wonderful to have as a physician ❤️ we love you!!! My PCP is very empathetic too 😀
Your vulnerability is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing. ❤️
I love watching your videos. You've got this and it will all work out for you. Anything medical interests me and has for a very long time. Hugs to you!!!
I love when people show their hard times too…it’s so relatable
Hi Rachel, been watching your channel since you took the MCAT. I just finished my first test of medical school today. Thank you for being so transparent through your journey, you are definitely a beacon of light to the rest of us in the medical family! Thank you also for addressing harsh topics even with the fear of backlash, you are very brave.
Rachael!! Your doing great and soo grateful for you and your videos!!! You got this, sending you good vibes and a huge spiritual hug!! 🫶🏽🫶🏽
The first year is horrific. There is no other way to say it. It does get better. You just need to prioritize self care. Walks, hikes, getting close to nature whenever possible, and getting together with friends when you can. Always keep something to look forward to. Make sure you have a therapist to talk things through and that you have team support and a team to debrief when hard things happen. Stay strong, the only way to get through it is to get through it.❤
Does it get better? I'm planning to go to medical school, but I'm scared
Hi Rachel, I rarely comment on YT, but I’m here. Thank you for being so honest 💖🦄 I see myself in you, I know what you’re going through. Unfortunately, people nowdays rarely have sympathy, they think everyone needs to be like them, I’m fed up with that. Sending big, warm hug all the way from Croatia 🇭🇷🥰🍀
You got this baby 💪💪 ik how it feels ❤ you're trying your best and that's more than enough
Hey, just keep pushing, Dr. Southard and keep doing the things you're doing to take care of you and your mental health. ❤😊🤗
i subscribed to you today + i never leave comments haha + i am nowhere near the medical field but i have always admired the team of nurses and drs especially in L+D, for the most part lol. i have 4 kids back to back + seeing your perspective and journey has been so eye opening. just a further level of respect and compassion! i had postpartum depression for 3 of my babies + i just want to say how brave you are for speaking out and raising awareness for yourself and others in your field. you are amazing! even on your bad days, love still radiates from you. any mama will be lucky to cross ways w you. - sending you so much love and huge hug. you got this girl!!!
I'm glad to see you're progressing through the program and appreciate the honesty in your videos. Thank you taking us along with you in this journey Rachel. Best of luck on your endeavors ❤
Thank you for sharing the realities of healthcare and what students go through to achieve their dreams. Whether that be as a med student or as a resident. Thank you thank you thank you
Dr. Southard, thank you for being transparent and authentic, I enjoy how real you are and the lessons that you teach with your videos, I’m an aspiring physician and feel like I can be a little more prepared for the future thanks to your videos, don’t ever stop making videos and sharing your real experiences 😄
Hey Rachel! I'm an M2 who's gotten through a lot of my premed journey watching your vlogs. One of the reasons I have loved watching your vlogs (and I'm sure you get this a lot) is your vulnerability and transparency, and you have shown it once again here! You are an amazing doctor and I know you're going to get through this!! Please take care of yourself whenever you do get a chance :)
Dr Southard .... of course you're going to feel every emotion, including extreme sadness, that's what makes you human. It's refreshing that you are so transparent when it comes to your struggles. ❤💜
I’ve been watching you since you entered med school and I was entering law school. Life has gotten so busy and I lost touch of your videos. I’m so glad I’m back on UA-cam and you’re crushing it! We are in different fields but going through the same things. Keep doing what you’re doing and delivering those babies ❤
Thank you for being vulnerable with us
It’s okay if your not okay Rachel! It seems like medical school students build up all this excitement for residency and when it comes it takes a toll because you are working so many hours, learning new skills and expected to keep it all together. Rachel, please give yourself some grace, you are so inspiring! Your body is trying to adjust to shift work as well which would be really hard. We are all behind you and we love you Rachel ❤
Hope with time ,everything gets better ❤❤❤
Dr. Southard, you are strong and you will get through this. You are amazing and you are a RED ANT! I love how transparent you are, it really gives everybody an insight on medicine. We love you!
You are so brave, Rachel. The video is very empowering.
Thank you Racheal for the video and thank you for being honest! I hope people who are in charge of residency stuff watch this video and think about that. I think they should think about taking care of residents physically and mentally as it is very important to the community. Thank you once again for being transparent and honest, it is priceless! Looking forward for watching your next video!❤️
Thank you for sharing your videos and providing great insight about the path to becoming a physician. Life is filled with ups and downs - no matter your profession or your lot in life. Some periods are more stressful than others - but if they are a means to an end and will help you achieve your goals and your passion in life, you learn to roll with the punches, knowing that it will only make you stronger! ❤
Take it day by day. I’m a retired RN and I assure you I had days just like yours throughout my whole career. I think the first year of residency is probably the toughest. Be strong! You got this!
Thank you for always be a true person. I watch this people post on instagram how amazing this doctor process is, but I don’t feel this at all. It’s hard, it’s difficult, it drains my mental health every single semester. Thank you for this. Sometimes the best to do is stop putting the amaze glasses and see 100% of reality.
Thank you for this video and just being honestly and vulnerable.
So proud of you!! I don't know if you have heard this recently or not but Rachel you are doing amazing, and you should be proud. You have grown so much. We are here to support you we are Red Ants🐜🐜
Sometimes people want to give their two cents instead of just listening!! I find comfort in knowing that you are speaking out! Don’t apologize for your personal feelings! I’m currently going through a difficult season and everyday I deal with the negative feelings by looking at my vision board and stopping to take 15 minutes to imagine the life I want!! I am also a person of faith so that helps tremendously! I tell myself it’s going to be ok constantly even through the tears and I stay with a constant expectation of good. I have learned to get up every morning , every noon and night and expect something good to happen!!! I use to dread the morning, dread the day and dread the night. And even though my circumstances hasn’t changed YET my perspective has changed! What you believe in your mind and in your heart can get you through many hard times!! Keeping going Dr. Rachel Southard we’re here for you good times and bad!!!❤❤❤😊😊
Hugs. I'm sorry you are struggling, but I'm grateful for you sharing.
You will do fine. I have no doubt whatsoever bc you are already awfully strong and that will carry you forward. Built yourself up on the solid foundation you've previously created and keep going. ❤
In four years, the target cashier would likely still be a target cashier… making the same wage .In four years, you will have graduated residency, and maybe become an amazing attending, we have so much to offer in model for future healthcare providers. Hopefully, at that time a physician salary will allow you to more easily pay back your loans -Salary for residency sucks… it really is not fair, however, remember, you are still learning and at least it’s not like medical school where you have to pay to learn :-). It sometimes helps to think that you are doing your part to help provide care for people who have less than optimal health insurance or none. - making healthcare more affordable for them.
Hi Rachel, I‘ve been watching your videos for two or three years now and I just got into med school in Germany. Your videos are so inspiring and whenever I get self-doubts about my decision to go into medicine I watch one of your videos and your passion motivates me so much! I really hope I can be as passionate as a doctor as you are, because you are such an inspiration! Also thank you for showing us ALL of the highs and the lows of your job! I haven‘t seen any youtuber portraying med school and being a doctor in such a realistic way as you do.
Thank you Dr.Rachel for this viedo sharing with us how you feel. now I feel like you
Thank you for the work you do for society
I support your mental health, it’s ok to be honest and vulnerable.
You have inspired me so much in my life, Rachel. God Bless you!!!!!! You are a gift to the world as a doctor!!!! 🥰🥰✨✨💖💖💖
When I was in my neurosurgery residency I was under a lot of stress what kept me going was thinking that non of that will take me down, I'm stronger that the situation so I'm just gonna keep going
Sending you love, I'm so sorry the system is like this. I've watched your journey since you just started. Very proud and inspired by you-through it all! Stay honest, pure, and truly you!
Dr. Southard, sending PRAYERS your way🙏 🙏and wishing you The BESTIEST of lives 🙏🙏🙏
You are doing great! Its okay to feel that way! You inspire me Dr. Rachel
Hang in there Rachel. You are appreciated and you will get back to a place of joy again. I’m sure the life of a resident is hard but you will make it thru to the other side!
Thank you for sharing. I know it's not the same, I just had my second little one a couple weeks ago and I feel so overwhelmed and lonely. Hearing you share your hardship made me more appreciative of my oBgyn doc and you and all doctors. Please continue to take care and stay positive ❤
I've had similar feelings. I just had to allow my self to feel it and process. I had to remember it won't always feel like that. When one day at a time was hard I had to take it one hour at time and not going to lie even 10 min at time. I think you're amazing, depressed, stressed and all.
You’re doing exactly what you’re meant to do! Celebrate the small wins and remember them on the bad days. We are all rooting for you Dr. Southard!
P.S. I love to listen to Spring Gang! That song is perfect!
Sending you a virtual hug. Hospital life is so rough and I want you to know that we see you.
You are doing awesome keep it up girl 💪💪 you have one of the best jobs out there ❤ you help so many people get better every day ❤️❤️
You're doing so great because of all those thoughts. Not everyone is able to reach that level of mind. I believe you gonna be fine. Love you. Sincerely
Learning what coping skills work for us is so important 🙏 I hope you find ways to help ease these difficult emotions and lean on your support system ❤