idk but the message at the end, “you are full of light and magic, go out there and have a fabulous day.” made me burst into tears, okay, so, maybe I know why, these past months have been hard and draining and that little message was just what I wanted to hear, I guess and that meant a lot to me. As always, thank you so much, emma for being the person that you're. ❤
It's now I think my favorite book. It's stuck with me. It's a "just stare at the wall and process" by the time you finish it. Amazing. I'm excited for you, enjoy!
Emmaaaa! please keep talking about your journey with cutting out coffee, because I've tried before and it's so hard and I couldn't do it! but I still feel like I need to stop, I just feel so dependent on it. I also struggle with eating junk food and being addicted to the internet/my phone. I would love to know how that is for you, like your relationship to your phone and media in general.
Hi Emmie, I remember a while back you talked about endometriosis and such. That was so comforting to me to know I’m not alone. I actually just had surgery not quite a week ago and they found (and got rid of) endometriosis! I have been spending most of my time resting and have been feeling a bit bored this morning. This is exactly what I needed, thank you so very much 💛
You mean thay got rid of endometriosis FOR GOOD? Are you sure? According to WHO "there is no cure, but its symptoms can be treated with medicines.. or surgery"
@@ooousuario I didn’t mean got rid of as in cured. They got rid of the visible endometriosis formations they found, and I had a hysterectomy + bilateral salpingectomy. Microscopic endometriosis could still exist or develop. My doctor and I have had deeper discussions of endometriosis and I know a lot about it from researching and living with it for years. I just didn’t feel the need to get too detailed in my comment as that wasn’t the main point.
Stop, the ending of this vlog made me cry. I'm glad you're home Emma, and that you're settling in. To everyone out there: have a wonderful day. You deserve it
Sitting a while whilst I write this comment and just wanted to say I've missed your vlogs so much! So glad to see you happy at home and am literally obsessed with the idea of a cat painting 😭
SO true that no one teaches you about how your menstrual cycle affects you! I realized about half a year ago I have PMDD, and learning to cater to the phase of my cycle I’m in has been very lifechanging. I wish you the best of luck!
Finding out I have PMDD was such a game changer for me and has given me such a better toolkit for taking care of myself! Such a weight off my shoulders!
I had to do the same thing with coffee /caffeine! It made me too anxious, and reducing it made the world of a difference. God bless half caf and decaf lattes ❤
I personally came to the conclusion that I can have only one coffee a day and I have to drink it before 2PM. (And before midday if it's powder coffee). And preferably, I have to drink it little by little. Otherwise my heart beats really fast and it's not pleasant at all. I used to drink the same amount but the decaf version - but I encourage y'all to read about how it's made... Better to drink normal coffee helath-wise 😅
I have to say, long time follower and I don’t know if I’ve ever said this but your videos are very comforting. I’ve had a tough week with anxiety and the coziness and comfort of watching back to back videos I hadn’t gotten to yet has helped a lot. Thank you ❤
I’m not sure if you’ve already seen this but if not, you should look up Mieko Kawakami’s interview with Murakami! She brings up a lot of points that you touched on, and I’ve heard her writing is exceptional as well. “On the one hand, your work is boundlessly imaginative when it comes to plots, to wells, and to men, but the same can’t be said for their relationships with women. It’s not possible for these women to exist on their own. And while female protagonists, or even supporting characters, may enjoy a moderate degree of self-expression, thanks to their relative independence, there’s a persistent tendency for women to be sacrificed for the sake of the male leads. So the question is, why is it that women are so often called upon to play this role in Murakami novels?”
Thank you, Emma, for posting on instagram yesterday saying that this vlog was coming. It gave me something happy to look forward to. I’m glad that you’re Dealing with coffee and caffeine. My doctor has warned me about health effects for me, including an effect on my anxiety levels. But that’s me. Anyway, wonderful video. So happy to have you as part of my day today!
I've had PCOS and anxiety/OCD since my very first cycle, but cutting waaay back on sugar (some periods cutting out entirely) and eliminating seed oils has greatly helped the hormonal aspect of it.
I used to drink coffee but it has always made me anxious so I weaned off it in favour of tea. 10000% worth it for making anxiety more manageable. I used to miss the flavour but honestly it has been so long now that when I do have coffee I feel really ambivalent about it. Hope it helps you too, the first while without it can feel really rough! A nice cup of coffee is always there for you if you want it but it is nice not to be reliant on it.
I really feel you with your thoughts about murakami and his conversations and portrayal of (especially young) women, and it has made me question reading his books many a time. (an article reading recommendation ahead.) at the same time there is that part of me who enjoys the worlds he creates. norwegian wood is actually one of the books that pulled me back into reading when i was 17, though i did really question the way women were scattered around the story and utilised in the process of building it. a lot of mixed feelings. and the mixed feelings continued when starting 1Q84 a year after norwegian wood. I only ever got as far as finishing parts 1 and 2, since the finnish translation appears in two books (parts 1 and 2 in one book and the 3rd as an individual book). i sort of lost drive and energy to continue with the story after that. i do really want to get around to finishing the whole book in the future. around this same time i came across an article in lithub that was a translated interview between mieko kawakami (another japanise author i love) and haruki murakami. it concerned feminist discussion around his books and i think kawakami had somewhat the same kind of feelings about his books: a love and appreciation but at the same time disappointment and mixed feelings. if you haven't read it yet i highly recommed. i think it was eyeopening to see how their differing ways of thinking about these matters and themes worked together to form a discussion. (the link to the article is below). lithub.com/a-feminist-critique-of-murakami-novels-with-murakami-himself/
Thanks for sharing this, although might I add...this was so disappointing to read. He sounds like a bit of a misogynist (or at least someone who is 'overwhelmed' with his wife), but not a spiteful one I suppose, just a product of his conditioning that he's unwilling to shed.
@@she_wrote indeed, reading it did feel a lot like him excusing some decisions in his writing without being too eager to see it in a different way. i did find it useful though to get some insight into him as a person. didn't make me feel any more easy about what to think of him as a writer tho lol.
I had to DNF 1Q84. There was a part in it that literally triggered an awful and long panic attack in me. I tried to keep reading it after but the book didn't stop making me feel upset and uncomfortable. Finally my partner convinced me I had to stop reading it
I once had something a little bit similar happen to me. I was reading 'a good girls guide to murder' and one particular plot triggered some PTSD. I didn't realize it while reading tho, I just felt drawing in and obsessing over stuff. Afterwards I went into therapy again for two years (which was a good decision but shouldn't have happened this way) I hope you feel better now :)
Emma, thank you for your videos! They literally brighten up my life 😭 please don’t ever stop filming your vlogs. You are like my best friend even though you don’t know me. I love seeing you happy and back home! The ending of the video was so beautiful, the Rilke quote made me tear up 🥹❤️
Emma you made me cry with that ending. I feel like you always get us and just know when we need little things like that (which are everything but little things). Thank you for being there for us too, for brightening up my days, all of them, with just your existence and content. I’m just so happy I got to live in this world at the same time as you. I’ll always watch your content and support you ❤ specially because you always do it for us too.
I recently found out that I have PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) during my luteal phase and coffee was exacerbating my symptoms 😓 I miss it so much but I do feel less anxious throughout the day
I learned in college that coffee created anxiety out of nothing for me, so glad you are on the journey to mitigating some of your anxiety! Decaf is a great substitute to still enjoy the flavor. :)
I will die on the hill that tea is superior to coffee!! Its great that you're listening to youe body and cutting things out that aren't doing you any good
You’re just my favorite, Emma. Thanks for making my Friday 10000% more wholesome and comforting. Still taking my own steps towards healing my nervous system and anxiety, and cutting out coffee has def been a struggle for me but I’m down to like 2x per week 🥴. Coffee addiction is real, and agree that it’s so much about the ritual and the sensory experience that I truly love and miss. Sending you love! 💕
Lol Murakami and boobs Imagine people did that on a daily basis to every woman in every situation. "Hi I'm Zelda and I'm a B cup" "My friend, Anne, small breasts, will be at the party" "Ms Hopkins, big chest, is absent today so you're having this class with me" Sounds weird? Umm maybe don't put that in a novel? 😂 I've never read a book when that wasn't mentioned and thought to myself: oh man, I feel like I don't know this character enough
maybe we can start describing men’s boobs too, they can be just as interesting can’t they? “Mr Smith’s nipples were softly highlighted under his thin shirt and Mrs Smith found herself struggling to pull her gaze up to his eyes…” or how about crotches? “Mr Smith didn’t look particularly gifted, the small swell of his trousers looked rather empty and full of air creasing between his legs…”. Now imagine that this is normalised writing for women lmao
@@emmiereads girl, let me tell ya, I am blessed to have stumbled into your corner of the interwebs. You re-sparked my love for reading and expanded it wildly! I know many others have said this, but you've helped me through some dark times. As have your reading recommendations (Dark Interval, I'm looking at you 😊) Sending you love from the desert southwest ❤️🏜️
Watching you talk at us gives such a warm feeling and I find your perspective on life interesting. We all don't get to share like this and some of us dont' really get to talk to people that often so this always feels like a talk. It's not easy sharing your inner most thoughts with others, especially strangers. I know when I do it I often regret sharing too much. thanks.
I read Sipsworth after you first mentioned it and it’s one of my favorites of the year! I love mice, and the book is so sweet. I’m glad to hear you talk about it
I absolutely loved 1Q84, it gets so confusing at one point but also the plot unravels and idk, it left me feeling so... I can't even explain it. It's always like that after Murakami books, but this one especially. Such a weird concept, but I loved this book, one of my favorites.
I enjoyed reading 1Q84 more than any other novel I’ve read! I remember reading it during the quarantine in 2020 and they were such magical days. Enjoy reading it :)
I pretty much completely cut out coffee a few years ago because every time I have it my anxiety goes through the roof all day. I’ve had to start limiting a lot of tea too recently since my caffeine tolerance gets lower and lower the less I drink it. Bittersweet ☹️ but I definitely recommend anxiety-wise
Oooh I also occasionally cut out coffee for some weeks and then slowly come back to it, and I love decaf and drink it regularly! Also no coffee after 3pm. Good luck on your journey!
I cut out coffee and it helped my anxiety a lot and I sleep way more and better. I also dream more, which is weird. I have decaf and it's so tasty! I don't really miss caffeine
Oh wow, ok so I recently cut out coffee as well and it only just clicked for me, reading your comment, that I remember my dreams more now (they say we dream every night, we just don’t always remember them). I had not made the connection. For years I would wonder why I could almost never remember my dreams anymore, and I couldn’t find a satisfactory answer (it wasn’t related to medications, for example). Now my mind is a bit blown.
Emma, this is exactly what I thought of 1Q84 as well. I tend to read every book for the book club, including rereading the ones I've already read. And while I usually enjoy getting reacquainted with a book and, more often than not, I like them more the second time round (such was the case for Orlando last year, for example), the memories I have of reading 1Q84 five years ago leave such a bad taste in my mouth that I opted out of rereading it for the book club. And after watching this video... I'm glad I did.
Loving your vlogssss Actually after finishing the whole video and seeing you last lines I have to say have much I enjoy your content. You make me feel so cozy and sweet and you are an Artist,!
I know this is an older video (I’m really behind on youtube). But I just wanted to nerd out about this. So this is about what you say at around 37:20 about the difference between characters displaying problematic behaviour and it starting to feel like it is actually the author’s position. In narratology (semiotics of narrative), there are different layers to a narrative. The first thing is that narrators and authors are not the same and it is methodologically wrong to equate them at any point. Clearly, just because a character says/does something does not mean that the author necessarily thinks/does/condones it. But there is also the layer of what is called the “implied author” (not the same as the historical author) which is basically the ideology of the text. A narrative does take a position towards the characters’ actions and thoughts. It basically suggests whether we are supposed to like and admire what they do and say or not. So basically, if we get the feeling that a book presents to us certain behaviour and opinions in order to reflect on it critically, then this is the implied author’s ideology. If it presents characters’ actions and thoughts as completely normal and admirable (for instance, we are presented with problematic thoughts of a character but the book also seems to want us to unconditionally admire this character), then the implied author’s ideology seems to be this. Just to be clear, this can also happen in a narrative without the conscious intention of the author (aka they didn’t set out to write a text that exhibits there ideological ideas) and so the implied author is not to be equated with the real historical author. But it may reflect unconscious cultural structures of the author’s cultural context. Two good examples for when the ideology displayed by the characters and that of the implied author do not match at all are satire and unreliable narrators. One issue is that there are different levels of explicitness about this mismatch, and very often, some people with read something as satire and others as straightforward. So from what you’ve said (I’ve never read Murakami), it really seems like the structures of objectification of young women are part and parcel of his cultural context and ideology.
it's comforting hearing what you said about 1Q84, because that's exactly how I feel about the wind-up bird chronicles which is the only book of his I've read and I didn't even finish it 💀 Just feels like everyone praises everything he writes and I feel like I'm missing something because I did not enjoy the wind-up bird chronicles, but seems like he has his hits and misses as well so maybe I just gotta try another one that's a little more well received
thank you for this emma! really needed it ♡ looking forward to part 2,, i hope you re looking after yourself and having a good week ♡ (also that Rilke quote really touched me x)
Emma, I'm really looking forward to you finally reading Babel! You showed it in a video very long ago so I've been waiting for your reaction to it (because I loved it!!)
Loved the vlog. Currently 2/3 in One Hundred Years of Solitude. I have to say it's quite a ride. I stopped annotating because it's slowing me down too much. I drink the same Maxwell House Decaf but I add Vanilla or Hazelnut creamer. Doesn't taste like coffee much but I realized it's the experience of the hot drink I loved. I also quit caffeine in tea, sodas and chocolate. I just feel so much better. Take care of yourself. ❤
I'm 470 pages into 1Q84! It gets weirder. I am interested to see where it goes, but I have mixed opinions. The theme of apperances and how they can decieve us is interesting. And, I love the description of Aomame's smile: "her nose and mouth become violently distorted, her jaw twisted to the side, and her lips curled back, exposing Aomame's large white teeth. Instantly, she became a wholly different person, as if a cord had broken, dropping the mask that normally covered her face." I can't wait to hear your thoughts on the rest of the book!
I might have cried at your end messages. That was just too pure and too lovely for my lil dark heart to take. Never forget how much your videos make people feel better, Emma! 🖤
For the French edition of IQ84 the books are split in a trilogy and I think taking a break between each part made the experience better for me, as you have time to take it all in. Both Kafka on the Shore and IQ84 are amongst Murakami's most disturbing books, but I read them back in highschool and they got me back into reading. Especially in those 2 books it feels like he writes really disturbing scenes mainly for shock value... As they are considered his "masterpieces" they are often recommended but for first timers I would recommend his shorter stories like After Dark (which I remember Emma also gave 5 stars to).
I've had Stonger, faster and more beautiful for years unread and lately i haven't been sure if i would enjoy it at all now and it is so funny that out of nowehere it appears on your channel. I am so excited to hear more of your thoughts and will probably pick it up after all haha
I recently cut way back on my coffee consumption too - going from every day to only on occasion - because I think the coffee was starting aggravating my stomach too much. I definitely relate to suddenly just not finding coffee that good anymore!
Trying to not sound like a snob, but specialty coffee from a local coffee shop is leagues ahead of anything you can get preground from a supermaket or a chain coffee shop. But it is expensive, a good grinder is expensive and getting a nice cup requires more effort than most people are willing to exert after just waking up haha
I attempted to read Murakami for the first time recently. Enjoyed When the Wind Sings but stopped halfway through Pinball 1973 when the character praises his work morale by saying he would have done well in Auschwitz. Maybe being a German I'm overly sensitive but that left such a bad taste in my mouth I'll stay off Murakami for a while. The ending message of your video is so wonderful ❤
1Q84 has been on my shelf for over 3 years and I've been looking forward to reading it with the book club all year. I even bought the audiobook too. I'm not very far in and I have serious misgivings. Is it a good book about bad thinking? Maybe but so far I don't think Murakami thinks very highly of the way people think about each other. Are these his obsessions, his characters' thoughts, or his view of ours? Can't wait to hear what Emma thinks!
Emmie, I just love watching your videos so so much. You make me feel like I'm your best friend, which is so lovely when you do not have somebody like that. Thank you.
1Q84 was my first and only Murakami, because yeah... beautifully written, but skeeve city. It's good to know that was him at his skeeviest and not the norm, because I've been wondering all this time how you could like him so much. 😅
I've only read Norwegian Wood by Murakami and I hated the way he wrote the female characters in that. So unfortunately it might just be a running theme in his writing, although worse in some works than others 😭
I really loved 1Q84, one of Murakami's best works along with Underground. I feel like Amame is the best female character he has ever written 😂 and that's saying something...
I also read 1Q84 (in 3 parts sinc3 I have that 3 book set) and I 100% agree that it's impossible to describe. I enjoyed it, don't get me wrong. It's hard to explain and I was craving for someone to understand me. Thank you for voicing this out. And yeah, booby counter I way off the charts I this one.
I hate coffee ☕ I tried a sip once and I never drank coffee after that, I am a tea drinker always have been and always will be. P. S . I love your channel!!! 🤗
idk but the message at the end, “you are full of light and magic, go out there and have a fabulous day.” made me burst into tears, okay, so, maybe I know why, these past months have been hard and draining and that little message was just what I wanted to hear, I guess and that meant a lot to me. As always, thank you so much, emma for being the person that you're. ❤
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im not kidding emma vlogs get me through the week im a new viewer and i've been watching all her past videos and i just look forward to every vlog !!
Same here buddy. Started watching her videos a couple of weeks before and have been binge watching since then.
so nice to have you here
Welcome to the Emmaverse! My favourite booktuber.
I just started 100 Years of Solitude after seeing you recommend it. Halfway through and absolutely loving it. Ive never read anything quite like it!!
It's now I think my favorite book. It's stuck with me. It's a "just stare at the wall and process" by the time you finish it.
Amazing. I'm excited for you, enjoy!
I did that too!! At the beginning now as I listen at bedtime and obviously fall asleep 😂
SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!
You'll have to update us on what you think when you finish.
I started reading it because of Emma too, I fortunately I've been halfway through for a while now, I'm going to restart when I pick it back up again.
i always love seeing the kitties interact with each other, they are just so adorable together❤
they make my day every day:')
Love love LOVE your long-form 45-minute videos!!
I'll try to keep em coming!!!
Emmaaaa! please keep talking about your journey with cutting out coffee, because I've tried before and it's so hard and I couldn't do it! but I still feel like I need to stop, I just feel so dependent on it. I also struggle with eating junk food and being addicted to the internet/my phone. I would love to know how that is for you, like your relationship to your phone and media in general.
You should try mushroom coffee!! It doesn’t have the same effects that regular caffeine does :)
will do! I love that idea - will try to incorporate more of that too
The Rilke quote at the end 🥺🥺 Thanks for those sentences at the end of the video, really needed to read this 💙
Hi Emmie,
I remember a while back you talked about endometriosis and such. That was so comforting to me to know I’m not alone. I actually just had surgery not quite a week ago and they found (and got rid of) endometriosis! I have been spending most of my time resting and have been feeling a bit bored this morning. This is exactly what I needed, thank you so very much 💛
Wishing you all the best! 🫶🏼Endometriosis is tough. I feel you!Take care xx
awe Audrey that's wonderful to hear - sending you so much rest and healing!! So happy for you beautiful
Omg i too just got diagnosed with endometriosis! So painful 😢 Wishinb you health and happiness xx
You mean thay got rid of endometriosis FOR GOOD? Are you sure? According to WHO "there is no cure, but its symptoms can be treated with medicines.. or surgery"
@@ooousuario I didn’t mean got rid of as in cured. They got rid of the visible endometriosis formations they found, and I had a hysterectomy + bilateral salpingectomy. Microscopic endometriosis could still exist or develop. My doctor and I have had deeper discussions of endometriosis and I know a lot about it from researching and living with it for years. I just didn’t feel the need to get too detailed in my comment as that wasn’t the main point.
Stop, the ending of this vlog made me cry. I'm glad you're home Emma, and that you're settling in.
To everyone out there: have a wonderful day. You deserve it
Sitting a while whilst I write this comment and just wanted to say I've missed your vlogs so much! So glad to see you happy at home and am literally obsessed with the idea of a cat painting 😭
thank you darling
SO true that no one teaches you about how your menstrual cycle affects you! I realized about half a year ago I have PMDD, and learning to cater to the phase of my cycle I’m in has been very lifechanging. I wish you the best of luck!
Finding out I have PMDD was such a game changer for me and has given me such a better toolkit for taking care of myself! Such a weight off my shoulders!
Even if your vlogs were two hours long, I'd still watch them😊
They are peaceful, soothing, and joyful. 😊
I had to do the same thing with coffee /caffeine! It made me too anxious, and reducing it made the world of a difference. God bless half caf and decaf lattes ❤
I have to take a day off from caffeine every now and then for my anxiety. It is helpful.
I personally came to the conclusion that I can have only one coffee a day and I have to drink it before 2PM. (And before midday if it's powder coffee). And preferably, I have to drink it little by little. Otherwise my heart beats really fast and it's not pleasant at all.
I used to drink the same amount but the decaf version - but I encourage y'all to read about how it's made... Better to drink normal coffee helath-wise 😅
I have to say, long time follower and I don’t know if I’ve ever said this but your videos are very comforting. I’ve had a tough week with anxiety and the coziness and comfort of watching back to back videos I hadn’t gotten to yet has helped a lot. Thank you ❤
On a brighter note, I'm glad to see you away from the big city and hoping you're doing well! That ending was so wholesome!
I’m not sure if you’ve already seen this but if not, you should look up Mieko Kawakami’s interview with Murakami! She brings up a lot of points that you touched on, and I’ve heard her writing is exceptional as well.
“On the one hand, your work is boundlessly imaginative when it comes to plots, to wells, and to men, but the same can’t be said for their relationships with women. It’s not possible for these women to exist on their own. And while female protagonists, or even supporting characters, may enjoy a moderate degree of self-expression, thanks to their relative independence, there’s a persistent tendency for women to be sacrificed for the sake of the male leads. So the question is, why is it that women are so often called upon to play this role in Murakami novels?”
A weird tip - but roasted dandelion root tea tastes just like coffee, but has no caffeine and is good for you!
May I ask what kind of roasted dandelion root tea you get? I would love a tea that tastes like coffee! Thank you.
@@Jenny-mo8bu Yes, I get the Traditional Medicines brand :)
@@stephanie0311 Thank you!
Thank you, Emma, for posting on instagram yesterday saying that this vlog was coming. It gave me something happy to look forward to. I’m glad that you’re Dealing with coffee and caffeine. My doctor has warned me about health effects for me, including an effect on my anxiety levels. But that’s me. Anyway, wonderful video. So happy to have you as part of my day today!
I've had PCOS and anxiety/OCD since my very first cycle, but cutting waaay back on sugar (some periods cutting out entirely) and eliminating seed oils has greatly helped the hormonal aspect of it.
I hate having a period for many reasons but mostly I can't see kind messages like "you are full of light and magic" without tearing up
I used to drink coffee but it has always made me anxious so I weaned off it in favour of tea. 10000% worth it for making anxiety more manageable. I used to miss the flavour but honestly it has been so long now that when I do have coffee I feel really ambivalent about it. Hope it helps you too, the first while without it can feel really rough! A nice cup of coffee is always there for you if you want it but it is nice not to be reliant on it.
I really feel you with your thoughts about murakami and his conversations and portrayal of (especially young) women, and it has made me question reading his books many a time. (an article reading recommendation ahead.) at the same time there is that part of me who enjoys the worlds he creates. norwegian wood is actually one of the books that pulled me back into reading when i was 17, though i did really question the way women were scattered around the story and utilised in the process of building it. a lot of mixed feelings. and the mixed feelings continued when starting 1Q84 a year after norwegian wood. I only ever got as far as finishing parts 1 and 2, since the finnish translation appears in two books (parts 1 and 2 in one book and the 3rd as an individual book). i sort of lost drive and energy to continue with the story after that. i do really want to get around to finishing the whole book in the future.
around this same time i came across an article in lithub that was a translated interview between mieko kawakami (another japanise author i love) and haruki murakami. it concerned feminist discussion around his books and i think kawakami had somewhat the same kind of feelings about his books: a love and appreciation but at the same time disappointment and mixed feelings. if you haven't read it yet i highly recommed. i think it was eyeopening to see how their differing ways of thinking about these matters and themes worked together to form a discussion. (the link to the article is below).
lithub.com/a-feminist-critique-of-murakami-novels-with-murakami-himself/
Thanks for sharing this, although might I add...this was so disappointing to read. He sounds like a bit of a misogynist (or at least someone who is 'overwhelmed' with his wife), but not a spiteful one I suppose, just a product of his conditioning that he's unwilling to shed.
@@she_wrote indeed, reading it did feel a lot like him excusing some decisions in his writing without being too eager to see it in a different way. i did find it useful though to get some insight into him as a person. didn't make me feel any more easy about what to think of him as a writer tho lol.
I had to DNF 1Q84. There was a part in it that literally triggered an awful and long panic attack in me. I tried to keep reading it after but the book didn't stop making me feel upset and uncomfortable. Finally my partner convinced me I had to stop reading it
I once had something a little bit similar happen to me. I was reading 'a good girls guide to murder' and one particular plot triggered some PTSD. I didn't realize it while reading tho, I just felt drawing in and obsessing over stuff. Afterwards I went into therapy again for two years (which was a good decision but shouldn't have happened this way)
I hope you feel better now :)
Emma, thank you for your videos! They literally brighten up my life 😭 please don’t ever stop filming your vlogs. You are like my best friend even though you don’t know me. I love seeing you happy and back home! The ending of the video was so beautiful, the Rilke quote made me tear up 🥹❤️
Emma you made me cry with that ending. I feel like you always get us and just know when we need little things like that (which are everything but little things). Thank you for being there for us too, for brightening up my days, all of them, with just your existence and content. I’m just so happy I got to live in this world at the same time as you. I’ll always watch your content and support you ❤ specially because you always do it for us too.
I recently found out that I have PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) during my luteal phase and coffee was exacerbating my symptoms 😓 I miss it so much but I do feel less anxious throughout the day
Grendel looks so big already, they grow so fast 🥺
hard to believe he's going to be one in a couple months!!
I learned in college that coffee created anxiety out of nothing for me, so glad you are on the journey to mitigating some of your anxiety! Decaf is a great substitute to still enjoy the flavor. :)
I will die on the hill that tea is superior to coffee!!
Its great that you're listening to youe body and cutting things out that aren't doing you any good
You’re just my favorite, Emma. Thanks for making my Friday 10000% more wholesome and comforting. Still taking my own steps towards healing my nervous system and anxiety, and cutting out coffee has def been a struggle for me but I’m down to like 2x per week 🥴. Coffee addiction is real, and agree that it’s so much about the ritual and the sensory experience that I truly love and miss. Sending you love! 💕
Okay but the 1Q84 ramble and confusion was just delightful 😂
I love seeing the kitties interact. Calcifer is such a good big brother!
The best plot twist of the video was you drinking a cup of coffee! I love it
Lol Murakami and boobs
Imagine people did that on a daily basis to every woman in every situation.
"Hi I'm Zelda and I'm a B cup"
"My friend, Anne, small breasts, will be at the party"
"Ms Hopkins, big chest, is absent today so you're having this class with me"
Sounds weird? Umm maybe don't put that in a novel? 😂
I've never read a book when that wasn't mentioned and thought to myself: oh man, I feel like I don't know this character enough
maybe we can start describing men’s boobs too, they can be just as interesting can’t they? “Mr Smith’s nipples were softly highlighted under his thin shirt and Mrs Smith found herself struggling to pull her gaze up to his eyes…” or how about crotches? “Mr Smith didn’t look particularly gifted, the small swell of his trousers looked rather empty and full of air creasing between his legs…”. Now imagine that this is normalised writing for women lmao
Watching your vlog while i'm cooking is the peak of this week, I swear 😊
ooh what are we making?? hoping you've had a relaxing week so far
@@emmiereads homemade gnocchi with sauce. Likewise Emma!
So happy to see this vlog pop up in my notifications. I care very much about you, Emma, and I’m wishing for you all of the good things you deserve. 🥰
Emmie vlog! Yay!
I realized today I've been watching your channel since 2019 I think?? Crazy!!
Love what you do!
oh my goodness I feel honoured:')
@@emmiereads girl, let me tell ya, I am blessed to have stumbled into your corner of the interwebs. You re-sparked my love for reading and expanded it wildly!
I know many others have said this, but you've helped me through some dark times. As have your reading recommendations (Dark Interval, I'm looking at you 😊)
Sending you love from the desert southwest ❤️🏜️
Watching you talk at us gives such a warm feeling and I find your perspective on life interesting. We all don't get to share like this and some of us dont' really get to talk to people that often so this always feels like a talk. It's not easy sharing your inner most thoughts with others, especially strangers. I know when I do it I often regret sharing too much. thanks.
The only thing I hate about Emma’s videos is that they end 😭
I agree so much about 1Q84!!! Enjoyed the first book and then................
The third book was hard to get through
I read Sipsworth after you first mentioned it and it’s one of my favorites of the year! I love mice, and the book is so sweet. I’m glad to hear you talk about it
yay so happy you loved it! it made me smile so much
I absolutely loved 1Q84, it gets so confusing at one point but also the plot unravels and idk, it left me feeling so... I can't even explain it. It's always like that after Murakami books, but this one especially. Such a weird concept, but I loved this book, one of my favorites.
I enjoyed reading 1Q84 more than any other novel I’ve read! I remember reading it during the quarantine in 2020 and they were such magical days. Enjoy reading it :)
I pretty much completely cut out coffee a few years ago because every time I have it my anxiety goes through the roof all day. I’ve had to start limiting a lot of tea too recently since my caffeine tolerance gets lower and lower the less I drink it. Bittersweet ☹️ but I definitely recommend anxiety-wise
Oooh I also occasionally cut out coffee for some weeks and then slowly come back to it, and I love decaf and drink it regularly! Also no coffee after 3pm. Good luck on your journey!
Ty for recommending Amie Mcnee. I'm moving and its helping me through ❤❤❤ you are so good at books. 😊😊
I cut out coffee and it helped my anxiety a lot and I sleep way more and better. I also dream more, which is weird. I have decaf and it's so tasty! I don't really miss caffeine
Oh wow, ok so I recently cut out coffee as well and it only just clicked for me, reading your comment, that I remember my dreams more now (they say we dream every night, we just don’t always remember them). I had not made the connection. For years I would wonder why I could almost never remember my dreams anymore, and I couldn’t find a satisfactory answer (it wasn’t related to medications, for example). Now my mind is a bit blown.
Emma, this is exactly what I thought of 1Q84 as well. I tend to read every book for the book club, including rereading the ones I've already read. And while I usually enjoy getting reacquainted with a book and, more often than not, I like them more the second time round (such was the case for Orlando last year, for example), the memories I have of reading 1Q84 five years ago leave such a bad taste in my mouth that I opted out of rereading it for the book club. And after watching this video... I'm glad I did.
never have I been so glad I watched a video all the way to the very last second thank you emma
If you want to cut caffeine without significant noticeable effect, try Ryze mushroom coffee. Its a coffee substitute made from mushrooms.
Great vlog. Can't believe autumn season is only 2 days to go🎃🫖☕🥧🍁🍂🧡🦇👻🦉📚🧋
Your hair looks absolutely gorgeous in this vlog it's like Wavy and Juicy love it!! ❤
It's so nice you can bring your cats with you! My cat has a mental breakdown when she has to be moved 😅
Loving your vlogssss
Actually after finishing the whole video and seeing you last lines I have to say have much I enjoy your content. You make me feel so cozy and sweet and you are an Artist,!
@@elenamitropoulou3213 so glad you’re loving them:’) thank you!!!
@@emmiereads Aww you're welcome! Have a nice day🥰
I know this is an older video (I’m really behind on youtube). But I just wanted to nerd out about this. So this is about what you say at around 37:20 about the difference between characters displaying problematic behaviour and it starting to feel like it is actually the author’s position.
In narratology (semiotics of narrative), there are different layers to a narrative. The first thing is that narrators and authors are not the same and it is methodologically wrong to equate them at any point. Clearly, just because a character says/does something does not mean that the author necessarily thinks/does/condones it. But there is also the layer of what is called the “implied author” (not the same as the historical author) which is basically the ideology of the text. A narrative does take a position towards the characters’ actions and thoughts. It basically suggests whether we are supposed to like and admire what they do and say or not. So basically, if we get the feeling that a book presents to us certain behaviour and opinions in order to reflect on it critically, then this is the implied author’s ideology. If it presents characters’ actions and thoughts as completely normal and admirable (for instance, we are presented with problematic thoughts of a character but the book also seems to want us to unconditionally admire this character), then the implied author’s ideology seems to be this. Just to be clear, this can also happen in a narrative without the conscious intention of the author (aka they didn’t set out to write a text that exhibits there ideological ideas) and so the implied author is not to be equated with the real historical author. But it may reflect unconscious cultural structures of the author’s cultural context.
Two good examples for when the ideology displayed by the characters and that of the implied author do not match at all are satire and unreliable narrators. One issue is that there are different levels of explicitness about this mismatch, and very often, some people with read something as satire and others as straightforward.
So from what you’ve said (I’ve never read Murakami), it really seems like the structures of objectification of young women are part and parcel of his cultural context and ideology.
You are full of light and magic.... Everyone who watches knows this. Have a beautiful day/ night/ whenever you are seeing this.
That ending made my day:) 💚
the ending was so sweet, it made me cry 💖💖💖
Finally another wonderful London vlog I've been waiting for more "homestead" vlogs because you look so happy in them
🩶🩶🩶 Your vlogs are some of my favourite videos ever. 🥺
it's comforting hearing what you said about 1Q84, because that's exactly how I feel about the wind-up bird chronicles which is the only book of his I've read and I didn't even finish it 💀 Just feels like everyone praises everything he writes and I feel like I'm missing something because I did not enjoy the wind-up bird chronicles, but seems like he has his hits and misses as well so maybe I just gotta try another one that's a little more well received
thank you for this emma! really needed it ♡ looking forward to part 2,, i hope you re looking after yourself and having a good week ♡
(also that Rilke quote really touched me x)
coming soon! thank you lovely, sending hugs
Emma, I'm really looking forward to you finally reading Babel! You showed it in a video very long ago so I've been waiting for your reaction to it (because I loved it!!)
Loved the vlog. Currently 2/3 in One Hundred Years of Solitude. I have to say it's quite a ride. I stopped annotating because it's slowing me down too much.
I drink the same Maxwell House Decaf but I add Vanilla or Hazelnut creamer. Doesn't taste like coffee much but I realized it's the experience of the hot drink I loved. I also quit caffeine in tea, sodas and chocolate. I just feel so much better. Take care of yourself. ❤
Thank you so much for your thoughts on 1Q84, I was feeling exactly the same while reading and wanted to poke out my eyes multiple times.
@@KenHidaka84 yeah it’s rough to say the least!
Thank you ❤ Being next to you for those forty minutes is so comforting and warm
I'm 470 pages into 1Q84! It gets weirder. I am interested to see where it goes, but I have mixed opinions. The theme of apperances and how they can decieve us is interesting. And, I love the description of Aomame's smile: "her nose and mouth become violently distorted, her jaw twisted to the side, and her lips curled back, exposing Aomame's large white teeth. Instantly, she became a wholly different person, as if a cord had broken, dropping the mask that normally covered her face." I can't wait to hear your thoughts on the rest of the book!
bawling at the end messages omg
you are such a joy
I might have cried at your end messages. That was just too pure and too lovely for my lil dark heart to take. Never forget how much your videos make people feel better, Emma! 🖤
I love coffee, but can’t drink it anymore because it gives me terrible migraines, so I feel you. I recommend green tea, it has less caffeine.
For the French edition of IQ84 the books are split in a trilogy and I think taking a break between each part made the experience better for me, as you have time to take it all in. Both Kafka on the Shore and IQ84 are amongst Murakami's most disturbing books, but I read them back in highschool and they got me back into reading. Especially in those 2 books it feels like he writes really disturbing scenes mainly for shock value... As they are considered his "masterpieces" they are often recommended but for first timers I would recommend his shorter stories like After Dark (which I remember Emma also gave 5 stars to).
So looking forward to see if you solve the Decagon House Murders, I enjoyed this book. Glad to see you looking happy and settling in with the kitties.
I've had Stonger, faster and more beautiful for years unread and lately i haven't been sure if i would enjoy it at all now and it is so funny that out of nowehere it appears on your channel. I am so excited to hear more of your thoughts and will probably pick it up after all haha
I recently cut way back on my coffee consumption too - going from every day to only on occasion - because I think the coffee was starting aggravating my stomach too much. I definitely relate to suddenly just not finding coffee that good anymore!
Calcifer looks really great! So glad he responded to the new food. Hope the coffee thing goes well
didn't even notice the time! love your vlogs. i hope you keep making them and more importantly, i wish you the best days ahead!
Butterfly pea is the best! 💜💙
Awww, the little end notes 🥹
@@sofieeeeeeeeeeeeeee 🩵
Trying to not sound like a snob, but specialty coffee from a local coffee shop is leagues ahead of anything you can get preground from a supermaket or a chain coffee shop. But it is expensive, a good grinder is expensive and getting a nice cup requires more effort than most people are willing to exert after just waking up haha
I finished 1q84 early and im so excited to hear your final thoughts
reading sci-fi in january is so accurate and true. that's the same for me and idk i guess its the vibes lol
@@abigailjose3812 just feels like it’s time to go to space🤷🏻♀️
so happy you posted! i love the vlogs! i wish you well ❤️❤️❤️
Hope you're having a great time with your family. ❤
Coffee its meant to be drank after meals, its really healthy; organic without mold, etc😆, yes not easy to find and neither cheap 😆
I attempted to read Murakami for the first time recently. Enjoyed When the Wind Sings but stopped halfway through Pinball 1973 when the character praises his work morale by saying he would have done well in Auschwitz. Maybe being a German I'm overly sensitive but that left such a bad taste in my mouth I'll stay off Murakami for a while.
The ending message of your video is so wonderful ❤
Hi Emma, i came across posts online that recommend ginger for menstrual cycle problems...maybe thats worth looking into/researching...All the best!
can't wait the next part of this vlog 🔆🤓
1Q84 has been on my shelf for over 3 years and I've been looking forward to reading it with the book club all year. I even bought the audiobook too. I'm not very far in and I have serious misgivings. Is it a good book about bad thinking? Maybe but so far I don't think Murakami thinks very highly of the way people think about each other. Are these his obsessions, his characters' thoughts, or his view of ours? Can't wait to hear what Emma thinks!
I love Sipsworth. i listened to the audiobook so sweet.
Emmie, I just love watching your videos so so much. You make me feel like I'm your best friend, which is so lovely when you do not have somebody like that. Thank you.
1Q84 was my first and only Murakami, because yeah... beautifully written, but skeeve city. It's good to know that was him at his skeeviest and not the norm, because I've been wondering all this time how you could like him so much. 😅
I've only read Norwegian Wood by Murakami and I hated the way he wrote the female characters in that. So unfortunately it might just be a running theme in his writing, although worse in some works than others 😭
1Q84 is a wild ride. It gets even weirder. Godspeed and good luck.
YOUPIIII❤❤❤ thank you for your videos and for always share your passion 🎉
Homebody is such a good word that perfectly describes me😂
I love the color butterfly pea flower makes but hate the taste so much x)
Haii Emma! So good to see a new video from you. Much love xx
What a stunning ending to the vlog ❤️
I really loved 1Q84, one of Murakami's best works along with Underground. I feel like Amame is the best female character he has ever written 😂 and that's saying something...
OMG we have the same cat tote I feel so validated that I impulse bought it now :)
I also read 1Q84 (in 3 parts sinc3 I have that 3 book set) and I 100% agree that it's impossible to describe. I enjoyed it, don't get me wrong. It's hard to explain and I was craving for someone to understand me. Thank you for voicing this out. And yeah, booby counter I way off the charts I this one.
I hate coffee ☕ I tried a sip once and I never drank coffee after that, I am a tea drinker always have been and always will be.
P. S . I love your channel!!! 🤗