5 Signs of Emotional Amnesia, A Trauma Response
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- Опубліковано 29 сер 2024
- Are you or someone you know experiencing gaps in emotional memory or a disconnect from past feelings? This could be a sign of emotional amnesia, a common response to trauma. Emotional amnesia is a defense mechanism against overwhelming emotions associated with a triggering and traumatic memory, unlike general amnesia, which primarily affects factual or autobiographical memories. Left unaddressed, this trauma response can ultimately lead to greater emotional dysregulation, even long after the traumatic event has passed.
In this video, we explore five key signs of emotional amnesia and how it manifests within a person. Understanding these signs can help in recognizing unhealed trauma and taking steps towards mental health recovery.
Disclaimer: This video is intended for informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. The content discussed in this video should not be used for self-diagnosis of OSDD, CPTSD, PTSD, or any other conditions. If you believe you are experiencing symptoms of a mental health condition, please consult a qualified healthcare professional for a comprehensive evaluation and appropriate treatment.
#trauma #mentalhealth
Writer: Chloe Avenasa
Editor: Michal Mitchell
Script Manager: Kelly Soong
Voice Over: Gabriel Miles
Animator: sadsamrain
UA-cam Manager: Cindy Cheong
References:
Washington, N. (2022 May 23). Does Trauma Cause Memory Loss? PsychCentral. psychcentral.com/health/does-trauma-cause-memory-loss#traumatic-memory-loss
Tull, M. & Gans, S. (2022 Aug 29). Emotional Avoidance in PTSD. VeryWell Mind. www.verywellmind.com/ptsd-and-emotional-avoidance-2797640
Lindberg, S. & Romanoff, S. (2022 Nov 7). What is Emotional Numbness? VeryWell Mind. www.verywellmind.com/emotional-numbing-symptoms-2797372#toc-causes-of-emotional-numbness
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0:46 memory fragmentation
1:19 Avoidance behaviors
1:56 emotional numbing
2:58 re-experiencing flashbacks
2:26 Disassociation
Who else has had them ALL 🙋♀️
The fact i had all of this check out worries me
My mom died when I was a 14.
My mind basically erased her.
I only know her through stories people tell me...
Emotional amnesia sucks. I want her back!
Same. I was 11 or so. Memories been totally wrecked ever since.
My mom is toxic 😢
My mom died a little over a month ago, I’m 15 and going through the same thing, hopefully I can start recovering memories over time 🤞
She died when I was 9, 21 years passed and I still cant remember my feelings.
@@Gift_editing_master its not about you
I never knew there was a word for this… I just thought I had bad memory 💔
I thought that too. Everyone made fun of that trait of mine lol. Turns out you can't really have a good memory when all your life has been nothing but trauma😂
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Yeah, the last two years of my life are FILLED WITH HOLES
School was burning me out, but my parents were like, "Why are you so stressed?"...
long story short, after a few "stress weeks" later, as I used to call them, (I learned they were deppression episodes, but i'm not sure) I began realising some frequent symptoms...
One of them was this bad memory thing. I described it to the school counselor as having two lives, one were things are normal, and the other where I'm "stressed" (burnout, overthinking, panicking, troubbled, worried, low apetite, less sleep ect)...
It felt like two lives because when I felt "normal," I could only remember the "normal" times.
And when I felt "stressed," I could only remember other "stressful" periods.
They seemed seperated.
Anyway, now I'm having thoughts of DEATH, and am scarring myself because I use that word WAYYYY to often in a day.
Yeah, I definitely have trauma 😂😢😅 AND depression (Isn't life GREAT?!🙄)
THX FOR READING THIS YOU'RE AWSOME❤❤❤❤❤
I never knew it was a whole thing... oh well, another thing to add to my seemingly never ending list of symptoms for internal suffereing
I hope you're doing well❤
Same, I never realized this happened to me until this popped up on my feed. 😢
One day, I just seemed to forget everything. Since then, there are instances people I'm close with are talking about something I do not quite remember.
@hrllx Yeah! It's as if memory is a bridge, and when you have too many holes in it, it becomes hard to access memories from BEFORE those holes where created.
Visual representation (the present is on the right and the ppast is on the left. Memory that's trying to be remembered is on the left of all the holes):
______________ _ _ __ __ _ _____🚶♀️➡️
I always love how soothing the narrator's voice is, even when they're talking about difficult, emotional topics.
I love you your pfp I was in that one
@@waterbottle1834 Thanks, who did you play? It's such a fun show to take part in.
I agree
yessss
@@trinaq I was Pugsley
my life is something resembling a patchwork of fragmented memories.
This video was... something else.
I actually do have emotional amnesia due to having a very challenging life. A lot of people accused me of being "heartless" and "ignorant" while they know nothing about what I'm actually going through. When I was a teenager I thought I became too numb and it scared me so much. I thought I may have developed a very "dangerous" disorder and I had no one to talk to.
It's like not feeling anything. Then suddenly I feel a very intense wave of emotions hitting me like a truck and sometimes even affects my day to day life to the point I can't do anything for a few days and even weeks while also fighting the anxiety of falling back.
-To all the people out there experiencing the same thing, you're not a burden. You're not a stone cold monster. You're the broken person that had no one to hold on to and had to deal with all the pain on yor own and in silence. You're strong and you have my love❤ Hope you can heal and move on🫂
I always ask thou, what does that mean to heal & move on? Guess it varies from person to person
Thank you for your kind words! I wish you all the best ❤
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I hear you, it sucks having "half a life" because of blocking out so much. I hope you find safe places to show your true self more and find your support group of people ❤
Been through few psychological traumas during my life. Still can't recover most memories even after years of therapy. Interesting how our brain protects our sanity even if it means becoming an empty shell of oneself.
I lost my entire childhood for my first year of college.. I used to joke about it because I thought it was normal and I had no sane or healthy people in my life to say otherwise. Thankfully I've gotten all of it back except for a memory that my body kept because I was unconscious when it happened. I wish I could say that not remembering it prevented it from ruining my life but it's still ruining my life and I am considering getting hypnosis to remember because I can't live like this.
I've done many regrettable things as a child aswell as a teenager and was also a victim of abuse by teachers and classmates alike, which still haunts me today. While I've learned to manage the symptoms described, every now and then, it'll come back with certain triggers that I'm still trying to identify. Please pray for me! I could really use the support! 😓
I get triggered sometimes... and my trauma just comes back and I have a depressive episode... AGAIN!😢
Learning about myself helps a lot though, now I know the origin of certain thoughts, my fears, how some of them started...
YOU CAN DO THE SAME❤❤!!
It screws up your life even more. Spot on. My life is blank. I lost myself.
True! And when you don"t know why your memories are gone, you're MORE CONFUSED and for me, it makes me panic and then... TADAAA! DEPRESSION IS HERE! (uggggghhhh😫😫)
Noo. Sometimes it's better to forget the details about your past. Especially if you have gone through trauma. It's like you're reborn.
@@aliyafazalulrahimanIt might also take away some happy moments as well. That is what makes this difficult. This world is messed up.
@@kori_rhea1014 Just focus on what is at present friend! There is good in this world. I hope you will find it sooner❤️
@@aliyafazalulrahiman I hope this is true. I appreciate this. I hope everyone does as well, including you. 🙂
i faced this when my child was forcibly taken away from me, fortunately now she rests in peace !
Im so sorry, hope ur doing better
Sending Lots of love and peace your way❤❤❤
@@amelieheng1667 thank you so much!!
This is the first time I've seen anyone talk about my problem. Thank you for bringing attention to it. Many people don't believe amnesia like that is possible.
My sick father and compliant mother did some awful things to me. It wasn't every day but maybe once a month, that they would stop acting like my parents and became monsters. I would cry about it the next morning and they would tell me I was having nightmares. I completely burned the memories of what they did, but I had symptoms of PTSD without a 'direct cause' according to the child therapist that saw me. It wasn't until I moved away from my parents and became financially self sufficient that suddenly the memories started flooding out of me. I confronted my parents and they basically stonewalled me, refused to talk about it. My mother said I have to forgive him, but he literally tortured me. I haven't spoken to them in years now. Luckily I discovered my self love and ability to care for myself before this happened, and my journey of self healing is renewed with a powerful purpose. Never shy away from thoughts or memories that seem impossible. Explore them and how they make you feel. You might just find that once you start pulling on a thread, the true nature of your life will suddenly be revealed.
I'm still looking for help, so if anyone is aware of a specialized therapist or their teachings, please let me know.
As someone who’s been dealing with emotional amnesia and Depersonalization Derealization Disorder, I can completely relate. Depression and GAD feeds into it severely as well.
One of the things I’ve learned from this is that when healing, no matter how hard it is, you need to been stubborn, even to an asinine degree. I’ve realized that deep down, I crave being able to feel emotions, and that I’ve been unintentionally restricting myself from doing so. So accepting yourself where you’re at currently and fully truly embracing yourself is one of the greatest things you can do for yourself.
Me, shockingly realizing that being bullied for the majority of my school life has left me unable to socialize consistently:
everyone's voice on this channel is so smooth and the jazzy backdrop omg the VIBES... Also the mental health advice has help a lot and now im seeing a therapist which is great.
I know I suffer from emotional Amnesia.
I can’t seem to remember anything before 16
I experienced a lot of abuse from my mom. I only remember the pain I felt. But the pictures aren’t there.
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I've experienced flashbacks without the images before. Very weird experience. Usually happens when I'm alone.
This is definitely me, no diagnosis needed.
I came to a point where I couldn’t stop crying randomly. I finally admitted to having thoughts of being sexually abused by someone in my family. I told my self I made it up and that I was paranoid when things started clicking from my childhood. I denied it for so long that I started to become paranoid about my day to day life. Once I finally admitted the truth out loud, I felt a huge weight being lifted. Doesn’t mean I still don’t gaslight myself into thinking I made it all up from time to time. Just yesterday I was crying because I recognized a trigger that had been present most of my life but I never understood it. I was having trouble getting my crying and flashbacks under control, so I let the thought that it wasn’t real back in my head. I was able to stop crying, but I also realized I stopped feeling anything at all. Dissociation might be a tool to survive, but I’m ready to start feeling. I now have the tools and supports in my life to process what happened to me when I was little. Isn’t amazing what the brain can do to protect you?
p.s. if you find yourself even having trouble remembering flashbacks write it down immediately afterwards. My mind would always erase the ptsd episode until I practiced what to do
Timestamps
1). Memory fragmentation 0:44
2). Avoidance behaviours 1:17
3). Emotional numbing 1:55
4). Disassociation 2:25
5). Re-experiencing flashbacks 2:56
Hope this helps you out. Hope you have a nice day. Sorry this is so late. 💙💙💙💙💙💙
I have something close to this, but instead of incomplete, it’s more so just gone entirely, memories struggle to stick, the impact remains, but the feelings it made you feel become more distant the longer you go by, in a way it helps, especially if your situation isn’t too bad, but it'll make you question what you are feeling, why you are feeling such, be frustrated at times, or even angry at yourself or the people in the memory through correlating how they seem to regularly be tied to your forgetfulness.
Besides that, the other two are normal, numbing helps disassociating from it, and usually, the emotion spike is from small tid-bits that interconnect with your forgotten trauma’s situation, for me at least.
Sounds relatable.
It helps sometimes but from experience it’s not only the trauma you’re avoiding or forgetting it’s also the stuff thats related to the trauma or stuff in general
These videos are deep, appreciate them though ❤
I've a friend who lives their life with emotional numbness due to past events. It's most definitely a trap, an echo chamber. They're slowly opening up to me about more and more, but they are very hesitant to because all they want is my happiness and enjoyment of the moment. They apologize so, so much whenever they open up even the tiniest bit.
If only I could get across just how much better I feel, to hear them talk about their feelings on all of these issues, how proud I am of them for tapping their emotions and saying how they feel
I'm happy to be a part of their life now, and I want to do everything I can for them
All the traumas and bad things that have happened to me led to me becoming emotionally numb and serious all the time cuz in my opinion there's nothing to smile or laugh about these days
Then make things to smile about
@@MaekarManastorm I prefer growing and improving myself instead of smiling
@@sandiletwala3001You'll smile when you'll feel more relaxed and when circumstances in your life will allow you to be genuinely happy, in touch with your feelings and able to let go of anxiety or nervousness. You don't have to force yourself 😊 therapy helps a lot with unpacking the emotional traumas and their impact on our lives. Even if you can't see a way to feel better right now, be confident that it is there somewhere, and that you can find your own unique way to build your happiness. Best of luck and have a good day ☀️
@@claireknight11928 have a good day too and thanks for the recommendations
I've been there. The world will still be there when you're ready to smile, if you want to 🙂
You guys can stop hitting the nail on the head anyday now. 🤔 Hitting waaaaay to close to home. (Appreciate every video you all make, they truely help.❤)
Most of these sound like avoidance.
Emotional numbing I've done myself but still not forgetting about the trauma causing it.
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I think I have this. I won't say exactly what all happened since some of it is family stuff, but I lost a pet and a friend, and at the same time was going through some of the more lonely times of my life. I've had a lot of problems and have very few memories of either of them now, and I've felt like it's just been driving me insane. This along with the lack of sleep it all caused has been terrible for me and it's felt like I've been living with a ghost ever since it started. This video was great and just what i needed to see on my recommended, thank you :>
A bit unrelated to the video, I just wanted to thank you so much for inspiring people to learn more about psychology 💛 I've been watching these videos for 5 years now and dreamed of becoming a psychologist. Today, my dream can become reality as I got in a psychology college 🥹 Thank you so much, I'll make sure to study well and of course let my friends know about your channel 💛
I haven't watched your videos in while due to school but listening to this while doing homework is nice❤
Haven’t watch your videos for a long time and I’m back! Because I want to learn and understand myself better. Not because I’ve been through something this time. Technically, I got anxious just because when my friend point out that during a conversation to resolve a conflict, I go in circles while others go in a straight line, then she told me to try to go in a straight line but I can’t because I don’t know so I felt pressured. I began to have a tear down because I wished someone was there to tell me why I feel this way but in the end, I decided to try to understand myself. While going back to the channel who helped me for the last 2 years
Wow this explains a lot about why I can't remember much of my childhood I only remember parts of it , I know a lot of traumatic experience happened that I'd rather not mention 😔 I also learnt that a some of my recurring nightmares could be a suppressed memories of my childhood as I've found out after talking about them to family and councillors I'll be showing this video to my councillor at my next appointment
This makes so much sense! Apparently, I have quite a bit of dental trauma that I just don’t remember at all. My mom sometimes talks about it but I have no memory of it ever happening, only 1 or 2 pieces. And back when I was going through a spout of depression for a couple of years, I don’t remember hardly any of the things I did on my family trips.
Mental or dental
@@marmaladetoast2431 dental, my teeth are pretty messed up lol. Ive been luckily in getting help with mental problems, but the dental field completely fucked me over.
Nowhere near emotional amnesia here, but something I experience extremely often is just staying subconsciously passive during painful experiences, and only processing and feeling those emotions later, sometimes weeks, months... anyone else? 😅
Look up for sideration or more commonly known as freeze response
And delayed emotional response. I try to look up if there was a more specific term but didn't find any other ones. Hope it can help
I have the opposite of the forgotten memories. No matter how many years pass, the memories wont go away.
Sadly my mother did not manage to say how proud she is of me, if only she stayed awake long enough to say it.
Idk if my hell highschool experience count.
I remember being bullied like for 2yrs almost by everyone physical and verbal but i only don't exactly remember the deeper details like how they do it or so.
Few years later i met one of the bullies as my classmate in psychology, first instinct was to kill him but was able to control myself by walking away, i felt that but i don't remember how he bullied me by detail lol.
I wish they understood I just simply like them and it's not trauma. I mean come on they are smart, caring, feisty yet beautiful. Likes the food combos, they way the way the rain and animals make them so excited and smile. An amazing artist, they are amazing.
Not that we would actually date they said no, but still seem to be ok with friends, but evertime I try and speak or talk I feel like I'm not being a good friend, and now they are disappearing for a while. I wish it didn't hurt so much
I'm glad to know there's a name for this. I experienced memory loss for the majority of 6 years around when my Endometriosis pain suddenly became 24/7 and I had a very bad surgery. Oddly, the most traumatic events remained clear while everything else is gone. This later led to cognitive disassociation episodes. If anyone else goes through emotional amnesia, it's a good idea to talk to a psychologist or doctor. After 4 surgeries, I finally stopped disassociating, but those memories are wiped.
Yay!! Time to figure out what today’s trauma response is!!! Dissociation and re-experiencing flashbacks sucks…
Intresting video.
I think I got some sort of trauma but I don't know what is it?! Or I'm just insane
I have been subscribed to this channel for past 4 years and this is the safest place to be h onest
Today i realised i was being a fake friend to my friends and when they confronted me i was shocked and dumb founded my childhood
trauma was related for such behaviour, but my trauma is valid my actions are not so here I'm regretting, blaming and watching physc2go to feel good.
I wanted to be loved by everyone where i did a lot of bad things to them them not forgiving me is ok but i can't forgive myself.
This explains SO MUCH why patches of my childhood are straight up missing and why I sometimes have flashbacks of being yelled at/screamed into my ear without knowing if those things really happened or not. And why I dissociate when I get yelled at. I have a trauma related to yelling apparently. Oh well.
I remember the trauma very well. I oftentimes find myself being reminded of it by the smallest things that usually have nothing to do with the bad experience and feeling like I traveled back in time and am once again small and helpless and scared. It actually feels more like I never left, never grown up, never smiled again. What I can't remember, however, is the time before it. It's like the first part of my childhood never happened and I have always lived in that short traumatic time. It's as if that is all there ever was and there ever will be for me.
Well this video certainly cleared and confirmed a lot.
I am sorry for everyone who is going through this..
This channel is great for learning!
I can remember clearly where I was my entire childhood, but I can only remember very few conversations. It's like from 5 YO to 17 YO it's like my brain wiped every social and emotional interaction, I can't remember anything seriously. All I remember are just rooms places and events.
At least I know now.
Thank you so much for this very helpful video.
Observing their lives outside their bodies hits home.
The Perks of Being a Wallflower is one of my favorite films and books ever created. That being said, it has also triggered (slightly related but different trauma) flashbacks several times. I tend to stay away from it unless I’m sharing it with someone or having a bad night when I know I need either a good cry or something akin to a bittersweet hug.
I’ve been thinking of writing about some things that have been left unaddressed.
I needed this video, it was very helpful
Like if you’ve been traumatized🥺 and comment your story I'll read it
And wow thank you for the likes it's good to know people can engage with one another 💗
No offence but been traumatised is no joke I wouldn't like a comment like
This
@@Keiron-pw6sl very true
@@sniper233 i don't mind people having a joke but that comment was insensitive
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Someone I know hasn't left his house in 4 years since his sister's suicide. Hope he's doing alright.
Update: What do you know? The day after I wrote this I saw him outside again. He doesn't look too good, but at least he's reconnecting with his friends and whatnot. He seemed tired, like all he wanted to do was head back to bed and *close* *his* *eyes* . I get the feeling.
Second Update: Apperently HE killed his sister??? AND he framed it as a suicide WITH HELP from a friend. I didn't know him that well but that's still INSANE. Hope his closer friends are doing alright. He's moving *far* *away* and I think it's *my* *time* to do the same, cause this neighborhood is crazy.
So true and relatable
I'm grateful to my brain for protecting me. It may have made it hard to remember, but if I hadn't dissociated throughout my childhood I fear how unstable I would be. My father has a personality disorder as does his mom and her mother before her.
Been emotionally numb since high school… hopefully therapy can help some
Well that hit home.
Trauma you either avoid it completely or over expose yourself to it until it doesn't affect you anymore or you're over it.
This explains allot! So this is why my memory is so extremely bad
This is what emotional neglect and abuse from bullying and spiritual hostility at school and church where it was the exact same group of people from 4-26 did to me
By the way, I've always been quite confused about this. What is the difference between dissociation and dissasociation and can they be used interchangeably?
Answers appreciated 🙏🏻❤️
i've always subconsciously been uncomfortable and strange around my dad, and i believe i may have found out why
the worst part is trying to remember something but u can’t. like i try to think about specific things that happened in emotionally dark times and i can’t remember no matter how hard i try
These videos are wonderful and it explains some of my behaviors that I don't understand but do you think you can make some videos that can suggest what to do with it because I don't have any more ideas for it. If there are videos like this please someone tell me.
Hmm, so I very well may suffer from emotional amnesia. My answer to the question posed at the end: I think it traps us, or it definitely does for me. I have a hard time moving on even when I want to heal. A large part of me just wants to "forget" to move on, but then I get haunted by flashbacks at some of the most inopportune times. This might also explain why therapy never helped, other than constantly being bounced around therapists - I can't really explore an emotion I've become numb to, can't recall, or only be reminded of when I least expect it.
In school I took a class centered around Domestic Violence Prevention, and SA was discussed a lot. Something we covered was the fragmentation of memory after a traumatic experience-it’s a survival mechanism and your brain purposely tries to scatter the information so that you can’t fully recall the event. This is a psychological phenomenon that is not talked about enough and survivors of attacks/assault are expected to remember everything that happened, but they need the help processing first.
I actually have emotional amnesia myself. I had two situations that had happened that for some reason both my heart and mind Thanos-snapped out of existence. I don't remember them other than what I asked about people who were there with me told from their accounts. It's horrifying since I can't seem to reconnect those gaps no matter how hard I put the effort into them. However now I'm doing what I can to move forward. Not because I'm doing it to dismiss my feelings about them. But to use them as a learning experience and potentially something for me to teach others.
Repressing is the way our brain finds to deal with what we have been through.... It's not a choice... as you seem to suggest.
Of course it is better to face and analyse what happen (if possible with help) but it's difficult to look for something your mind is hidding. You can only wait for the moment your brains think you can handdle what ever it hid to go through it then
💔💔💔 May you all heal from that trauma
Did this after a bad breakup with someone i thought was the one, i am now seemingly emotionally numb to love. I am find it difficult to feel love for someone, because of my fear of being hurt again.
Emotional amnesia kept me alive. I wasn't even 10 when I first tried to... mm.
...But the important root memories that I need to address are now locked away.
Whew... I forgot them for a reason. It's going to be a wild ride digging them up again.
video about diagnose for emotional amnesia
I'm still not sure if it's because of emotional amnesia or just because COVID replaced my memories, but I literally forgot like half of my childhood. Only small fragments of it come to mind, and I'm always surprised when my friends tell me that they remember when I met them or the things we did in elementary, while I have no idea what they're talking about at all.
I always thought it was weird that I only forget the bad memories, and while it's nice to focus on the present, sometimes I find it concerning that I can't even remember them anymore even if they only happened like 3 years ago. (I assumed I'd remember a big thing that hurt me even years after, but memory begged to differ.) It's like I was on auto-pilot for most of my rough years... Which kinda felt weird :/
But *now*, I feel even weirder that I can't remember ANYTHING before those rough years. Like, seriously. I can't remember anything unless I try extremely hard or try to talk to other people about what they remember.
It's almost as if I was so busy coping with life and trying to keep myself together all the time that my long-time memory started to wear off.
Anyway, if you read all that, damn thank you you're a great reader/listener ❤😅
Thanks for the info
💯💯💯💯💯 yeah that sounds like meeeeee. To a "T".
2 minutes ago is crazyy
I recognize that nerrator's voice, its the person who initially nerrated the Rufus Rugs commercial/ad, soft premium hand tufted rugs. *proceeds to show the tufting done by machine* good old times. (I like his voice, very soothing and stuff. Out of all internet nerrators, deffi one of my favorites)
I barely remember my childhood, or certain times i should apparently have lived with my father after parents divorce, but i don't remember it. Flashback, yes they do happen. But now, as an adult, i suffer from depression and anxiety. I dont drive, i dont go anywhere on my own. I talk to my closest about stuff to get their opinion on things that *should* be easy as adult.
I feel bad for those suffering from way worse things tho.
*Important!* If you or someone close are suffering from these things and feel like its the end, please reach out to family, friends or your doctor for help. You are worthy, you are loved and cared about. Your life matters!
I was 10 years old when expirencing some of these symtoms, when I told a parental guardian. they told me that it was just my imagination, and that I don't need therapy. I decided to just bare with the problems because I was struggling in academic grades and we weren't really well off. I'm still not allowed to go to therapy because of finances and I'm learning by myself how to cope with my problems.
I think I might be faced with emotional amnesia. Everything before high school is all a collection of blurs and fragments ever since 11th grade decided to kick my stress and anxiety into overdrive and level the amount of sleep I got to the bare minimum.
Me at the start of this video: "Oh boy, can't wait to learn more!"
Me at the end of this video: "Oh boy..."
I have forgotten 3 years of my life. All I know about that time are 3 memories I have, and brief things my mother has shared with me. The kicker is it doesn't even effect me, it's like those years never even happened.
This made me tear up
1:33 For me, it’s sports and fitness.
It has gotten to a point where I can't even remember anything no matter how much I try to. Well, I'll forget about trying it anyways sooner or later
Something happened with my health at the end of 2023 and my friend had this response, as they do with most trauma. They forgot a lot of the memories we've had together. Keep in mind, this is my best friend, not just some person I know. We've known each other and been friends for almost a decade. We had to make new memories, but that's okay. I can remind them of stuff if they need it
The worst part is I live with this for so long I learn it by myself
I can’t really relate but I do think it’s important to face you’re trauma when you are ready, you can’t immediately tackle the trauma head on, you need time and preparation mental mind to Face it.
I don’t have emotional amnesia but mostly because I remember them but I don’t feel anything about it, even when my mom tried to kill my dad when she found he was cheating on her (no one was killed or injured), I was scared and traumatized at the time but now, I don’t feel anything about that horrifying event, I don’t know if this is a curse or a gift but it helped me a lot
I'm currently in counseling, trying to work through what happened to me.
I was in a constant state of distress/stress because of my "mother", Im out of that house now and I have gotten physically healthier, mentally I'm still processing. I have seen avoidance behavior in myself, and I experience emotional amnesia towards many memories of my mother, so it's like I don't even know her. The only thing she is to me is my abuser who made me afraid of people since she constantly threatened me with violence and even threatened to kill me once.
In other words:
This video is a ENTIRE CALLOUT POST
I can't remember my childhood anymore my memory is getting worse as time goes, I barely remember what i did last year or the year before
I always wondered about this. When I have lost my temper or had a panic attack I frequently do not remember it afterwards. I will have evidence that it happened (in one case, a sore hand and a mysterious hole in the wall) but no recollection. This also applies to other situations of heightened emotion, like sexual activity. I frequently do not recall the act itself, just the lead-up and the aftermath.
My theory has always been that strong emotions, whether ostensibly positive or negative, are frightening something inside me, causing some portions of the brain to shut down when they are being experienced.
Having emotional anesya does hurt especially when you get flash backs. If you feel alone in anything that emotionally or physically hurts you trust me you are not. There a meany other people just like you just try your best to get thru it with whatever it takes it will get better just try your best and try get help.
I've done this plenty of times kinda sorta. Basically when somthing overwhelmingly sad happens, for example, the death of my grandfather, my logical brain is unaffected but my emotional brain forgets. I can remember everything but I don't feel much of anything unless I really focus and dwell on it then a lot of emotion strikes at once to the point that my auto defense kickes in and puts it back in the box.
Can you make a video about what to do if you have this/how to help?
I disassociated while watching this and completely blanked over the whole disassociation intro section 😐
Trauma is inner pain, a psychic wound, a wound on your soul invisible to medical world, only visible to you. Acknowledge it, be with it, accept it, lean to it with compassion, feel it fully, welcome the pain, breath in and breath out on top of it, make prayers for this wound, bring this wound to your consciousness, it feels like another part of your psyche integrate with this part, talk to it, embrace it...... isn't it all the healing modalities listed below addressing the same simple principle of feel the feelings fully and let it complete in your body and experience:- 1. TRE (Trauma Release Exercise) 2. Somatic Experiencing 3. Somatic Practicing 4. FOCUSING 5. VIPASANA 6. Embodying 7. Eckhart-shining light of consciousness 8. Shadow integration 9. Completion exercise 10. Compassionate Inquiry 11. Tapping 12. WuWei wisdom Acceptance 13. EMDR 14. Yoga 15. Inner Child healing 16. Gratitude Journal 17. CBT 18. Talk Therapy 19. IFST 20. IFST 21. Nervous System regulation
I knew I wasn't imagining it