A Conversation With My Brother About His Drug Addiction & Going To Jail

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  • @zomgcaitlin
    @zomgcaitlin 6 років тому +2181

    I always remember when David played that prank on Brandon telling him the San Andreas fault line ruptured and his immediate reaction was “I have to go get my brother! I have to go get my brother!”

    • @Megan-ir3ze
      @Megan-ir3ze 6 років тому +50

      It was so cute 🤣

    • @jessicag8219
      @jessicag8219 6 років тому +2

      Wait what happened? Which Prank?

    • @nene6088
      @nene6088 6 років тому +6

      Jessica G its somewhere on david dobriks channel

    • @jessicag8219
      @jessicag8219 6 років тому +226

      @@nene6088 ohhh! Sweet, that really narrows my search down. 🙃 Thanks ✌️

    • @nene6088
      @nene6088 6 років тому +61

      Jessica G its called “THE POLICE TOLD HIM TO LEAVE!! (FREAKOUT)” was posted bout a year ago.

  • @Christina-tr4xw
    @Christina-tr4xw 6 років тому +2190

    for those of you judging that they are laughing you need to understand this may have been awkward for him and his brother to talk about it so openly with a camera there.. so chill

    • @tiffanykjudge
      @tiffanykjudge 6 років тому +97

      Christina Caruso I find it refreshing that they were laughing about it ... they said all they needed to but kept it light and as comfortable as possible

    • @aimingrarely6572
      @aimingrarely6572 6 років тому +33

      Agree. I cant be serious with my sisters maybe on the phone but not in person our mother was never affectionate and we were never taught how to feel

    • @soulcurls4146
      @soulcurls4146 6 років тому +10

      Who was judging? I think they were laughing because the conversation was funny, weren't they? As Jason said, Jesse is hilarious.

    • @caitlindaley5485
      @caitlindaley5485 6 років тому +5

      Whose commenting negatively ? I think I saw one comment maybe even if that , about them nervously laughing

    • @mirandamallery1
      @mirandamallery1 6 років тому +2

      I'm sure they're talked about it seriously. I wish for kids watching this they were a little more serious because drugs ruin your life. I've got 5 years clean and is still a daily struggle. We have to learn how to live "normally" again.

  • @Jackieee2000
    @Jackieee2000 6 років тому +1465

    Still living for this series. It needs more appreciation

  • @PEACEOWNEARTHHH
    @PEACEOWNEARTHHH 6 років тому +830

    I wish I had a brother like Brandon. So supportive and caring despite obvious emotional neglect by their dad.. Both of you are awesome. I love this realistic take on addiction; it can seriously happen to anyone before even being noticeable. Your brother is an extremely strong person for making it this far.

    • @asdfguiwsertyuio3689
      @asdfguiwsertyuio3689 6 років тому +19

      Yeah seriously, Brandon's ability to be vulnerable with his brother and and audience about his experience, even though their dad never instilled it, is a really admirable quality.

    • @laurenc.1253
      @laurenc.1253 6 років тому +1

      SouperSalty420 I’m pretty sure his dad was killed in a plane crash. They are not being neglected.

    • @AlexAlex
      @AlexAlex 6 років тому +10

      @@laurenc.1253 nah dude their dad is/was a cook. Your thinking about his mom's love interest before she met their father who helped her through that time (after the crash)

    • @summerxo3203
      @summerxo3203 6 років тому +5

      Immigrant parents are not very good at showing emotions

    • @margaridarodrigues3834
      @margaridarodrigues3834 6 років тому

      SouperSalty420 was Brandon’s dad neglecting?

  • @jasonnash
    @jasonnash 6 років тому +3929

    Jesse is hilarious - always has been.

    • @paulcampos9811
      @paulcampos9811 6 років тому +60

      Jason Nash I’m happy to see that you watch other members of the vlog squads vids

    • @haileyb7
      @haileyb7 6 років тому +23

      Jesse should be in the vlogs

    • @adachiselas3675
      @adachiselas3675 6 років тому +2

      Jason Nash Agreed

    • @LouRyanYT
      @LouRyanYT 6 років тому +6

      Actually. He was my favorite Viner at one point. I liked most of his content more than Brandon's.

    • @jrrobles1854
      @jrrobles1854 6 років тому +4

      You’re the real MVP Jason for sticking with Trisha 💪🏽

  • @daniellelopez3342
    @daniellelopez3342 6 років тому +318

    He still wants to get high. It's pretty obvious. The struggle is real. Proud of him for being able to fight it off for as long as he has. He just has to keep pushing.

    • @gabec97
      @gabec97 5 років тому +26

      And he might always want to get high, but that's the thing with us addicts we always always want it crave it, wish we were on it basically feen for it. But it's self control and what choices you make that are important.

    • @nobleminge
      @nobleminge 5 років тому +2

      Dude will relapse.
      He obviously has no impulse control or resolve.

    • @kirstenglae
      @kirstenglae 4 роки тому +1

      I think if you get enough time, some people lose the desire to get high. I was addicted to pain pills from my doctor (100 Vicodin a week for free), and ended up going to rehab 4 times. It never worked, until I finally found a chemical dependency doctor who put me on Suboxone for 5 years. We lowered the dose gradually, until now I take about a milligram a day. I honestly have zero desire to be high anymore, and I pray that it stays that way when I switch to the new injection called Sublocade.
      If you can get enough time adjusting to being sober, your brain can recover. Idk, it’s different for every person.

    • @jessecalvillo9946
      @jessecalvillo9946 Рік тому

      @@nobleminge hey dude, been off heroin since 2013, love proving idiots wrong

  • @sayra9865
    @sayra9865 6 років тому +588

    Their relationship as brothers is so adorable

  • @dourbabi
    @dourbabi 6 років тому +588

    I lost my sister to heroin. This video was very meaningful to me, thank you for uploading it.

    • @melrose8213
      @melrose8213 6 років тому +17

      Allison Scruggs my older sister who was my childhood hero and basically helped me survive a traumatic upbringing has been addicted for about 10 years. She disappears all the time.... I haven’t seen her in so long.
      I’m so sorry. It’s so painful and I can’t imagine the final step that you and your family had to go through.

    • @Jessieee
      @Jessieee 6 років тому +2

      I'm sorry. Sending you love and hugs 💖❤💖❤💖❤

  • @Mr.T.F
    @Mr.T.F 6 років тому +1099

    Amazed by your brother's story. He is brave to share his story. Hope you never fall down that path again.

  • @tiffanykjudge
    @tiffanykjudge 6 років тому +1478

    This was so nice brandon!! Honestly you have such a great relationship with him and the fact that you can still laugh with him and get intimidated bc no matter what he’s always your big brother is so beautiful! And honestly when you said “do you just wanna sit here” it made me tear up

    • @Joey-zz3vu
      @Joey-zz3vu 6 років тому +15

      Did you mean intimate

    • @TheMoncada1D
      @TheMoncada1D 6 років тому +3

      Joey king i think they meant intimidated

    • @Joey-zz3vu
      @Joey-zz3vu 6 років тому +5

      @@TheMoncada1D neither of them are intimidated in the video, intimate would make sense

    • @TheMoncada1D
      @TheMoncada1D 6 років тому +8

      Joey king ok sure, but the context it was used in was that Brandon still got shy or nervous asking his brother such questions because after all, he’s his big brother

    • @tiffanykjudge
      @tiffanykjudge 6 років тому +5

      I meant intimidated lol

  • @tarynyaki
    @tarynyaki 6 років тому +632

    I was addicted to pain pills from having years of back to back surgeries. I would pop, chew, snort and smoke them. On top of a ton of other things. When that stopped working, I knew heroine would be next. Then one night I thought I was overdosing, I told myself before I faded off and fell asleep, that if I woke up, I’d get help. And I did. I’ve been sober for 7 years now. I loved this Brandon! It was so relatable. This series is remarkable! 👏🏽

    • @Megan-ir3ze
      @Megan-ir3ze 6 років тому +7

      Taryn Kapuy I’m so happy for you ❤️

    • @0rang3s0dap0p
      @0rang3s0dap0p 6 років тому +6

      Wow that’s a great story! God bless

    • @colleenc.9900
      @colleenc.9900 6 років тому +8

      ❤️I’m happy you woke up and kept your promise. Nice work hun ❤️

    • @tarynyaki
      @tarynyaki 6 років тому +5

      Thank you! I’m so grateful to be here today and for the people who stuck by me and my family! All of your words are so kind! ❤️

    • @torycox466
      @torycox466 6 років тому +7

      Congratulations on your 7 years!! That is such an amazing accomplishment and I wish you many more sober years to come! ❤️

  • @wtvrmadds
    @wtvrmadds 6 років тому +580

    I like how you two are able to joke about this. My brother is an addict currently, and to see the way you guys talk about this is sort of relieving/comforting? I appreciate your brother’s openness with this.

    • @soulcurls4146
      @soulcurls4146 6 років тому +12

      It is comforting to know that other nice, 'normal' people suffer the same pain as you and still manage to smile. If they survive all the hurt, you can too.

    • @Filmwithpurpose
      @Filmwithpurpose 6 років тому +10

      Everyone is different think about how their childhoods were. That’s why they can joke about dying if they wanted. People who go through tragic shit are pretty damn funny though. Most comedians have went through rough shit in life & just laugh at how stupid life is & how it’s simply just a journey that they just make a joke out of everything. It’s good to laugh about your past though especially if you’re mentally healthy & passed what you went through. ❤️

    • @Rio_sk
      @Rio_sk 6 років тому +3

      @@Filmwithpurpose that's so fucking true.. love your comment

    • @jester4886
      @jester4886 6 років тому

      Yeah it sucks when your loved ones a lying junkie

  • @thatguy9355
    @thatguy9355 6 років тому +1506

    Most underrated series on UA-cam

    • @suzieblack5103
      @suzieblack5103 6 років тому +2

      ONEPRIDE8120 . Absolutely, I couldn’t agree more.

    • @nifflofair6685
      @nifflofair6685 6 років тому +5

      It's better than Shane Dawson as these are real!

    • @BatBabe
      @BatBabe 6 років тому

      Agreed!

  • @saltysnacks33
    @saltysnacks33 6 років тому +294

    I have two sons who are addicts. It’s a heartbreaking thing to watch. Take care of yourself and hope for the best, Brandon.

    • @lemonpeel1410
      @lemonpeel1410 6 років тому +30

      saltysnacks33 I’m sorry. I hope your sons get help. Prayers to you & your sons❤️

    • @saltysnacks33
      @saltysnacks33 6 років тому +5

      Eve Storm Thank you ❤️

    • @saltysnacks33
      @saltysnacks33 6 років тому +5

      Em Thank you ❤️

  • @ZacharyLaid
    @ZacharyLaid 6 років тому +1952

    This conversation had to happen.

    • @Cobramp4
      @Cobramp4 5 років тому +1

      @Garage Arts Licks Echo's Biscuit oh yeah, for sure for sure. OBVIOUSLY YOU'RE RIGHT, AND YOU DEFINITELY DONT HAVE MINIMAL LIFE EXPERIENCE AND POOR INTERPRETATIONS OF HOW PEOPLE EXPRESS THEIR EMOTIONS. oh yeah yeah.

  • @alexandraweber1948
    @alexandraweber1948 6 років тому +120

    I’m a nurse and I see people struggling with addictions all the time. I’ve seen people really want sobriety and yet fail. Your brother is stronger than he thinks. Good for him and wish him all the best.
    Next conversion with your dad please!!

  • @buildarocketship4470
    @buildarocketship4470 6 років тому +1344

    Hey your brother got lucky. Mine didn't. I hope he appreciates his life more now.

    • @jennas170
      @jennas170 6 років тому +85

      mine didn't either. I know the pain

    • @amelia_babelia
      @amelia_babelia 6 років тому +67

      my sister didn't either. I hope they know how lucky they are as a family

    • @bethanystuart-sivridis4575
      @bethanystuart-sivridis4575 6 років тому +58

      I’m so sorry for all of your experiences and losses.

    • @Megoonie17
      @Megoonie17 6 років тому +33

      Neither did my mom, it’s tough to deal with

    • @2ndSummer
      @2ndSummer 6 років тому +24

      buildarocketship my brother in law didn’t make it either.

  • @johntapp1783
    @johntapp1783 6 років тому +132

    I'm glad you made this man. As a former heroin addict I have always had the hardest time talking to my family about my addiction. Mostly because it brings the guilt and shame I have suppressed to light. This video helped remind me that my family has to heal as well. Although these talks may be awkward, they provide healing on both sides. Thanks for sharing my dude.

  • @121097kierstenmoore
    @121097kierstenmoore 6 років тому +414

    I'm glad he got better.

  • @nayalaa
    @nayalaa 6 років тому +228

    What's more heartbreaking is seeing all the comments of people affected by addiction, either personally or through a loved one... Especially those who lost someone to it. 😢

    • @soulcurls4146
      @soulcurls4146 6 років тому +3

      It shocked me how widespread the personal experience seems to be. I hope that they all find strength in seeing that they are not alone.

  • @rachela2727
    @rachela2727 6 років тому +251

    Heroin killed the love of my life. He was an Iraq veteran and amazing man. I miss him so much. Dead in his early 30s.......

    • @josieree
      @josieree 6 років тому +6

      That's so sad 😔

    • @samanthajane9569
      @samanthajane9569 6 років тому +12

      Yeah i lost my sons farther to that stupid drug :( Sorry for ur loss

    • @23sexycutie
      @23sexycutie 6 років тому +8

      That’s so sad . I’m sorry love .

    • @TheKingJokerGaming
      @TheKingJokerGaming 6 років тому +1

      So u single now?

    • @joji3057
      @joji3057 6 років тому +9

      Caramel Express not the time to be asking that now is it?

  • @Emilia-e4u
    @Emilia-e4u 6 років тому +192

    Your brother is very brave. Not many people can get sober from heroin

    • @caitlindaley5485
      @caitlindaley5485 6 років тому +6

      Emilia Ballester that’s not true , a lot of people can .. its about how bad you want it. I’m 4 years clean, my best friend is 3 years clean, a lot of other friends have been years clean , some haven’t though

    • @nobleminge
      @nobleminge 5 років тому

      His brother is going to relapse he has no resolve.
      This whole experience was fun to him.

  • @kensiewilliams6725
    @kensiewilliams6725 6 років тому +200

    I loved this
    I’m 17 and I’m an addict I’ve been off heroin (IV) for 4 months
    I just think more people need to see this

    • @harlie3724
      @harlie3724 6 років тому +13

      Jesus

    • @chloewillow7354
      @chloewillow7354 6 років тому +31

      That’s amazing, good for you. Don’t give up. I’ve been struggling with the same addiction for over two years now.

    • @truepoet4783
      @truepoet4783 6 років тому +7

      Good for you. Go strong bro

    • @Megan-ir3ze
      @Megan-ir3ze 6 років тому +4

      I hope you’re starting to feel better. Keep it up ❤️ I’m proud of you 🤗

    • @OffspringGaming
      @OffspringGaming 6 років тому +3

      been off shooting crystal and subs for almost a year

  • @allisclampMN22
    @allisclampMN22 6 років тому +343

    Dude Jesse is amazing, honestly I’d love to see another video of you two talking about your life growing up.

    • @caelyn2873
      @caelyn2873 6 років тому +4

      Yes, I thought the same thing

    • @JEM-wj2oc
      @JEM-wj2oc 6 років тому +12

      He was on Brandon’s podcast a while back and they talked for like an hour about growing up and jesses addiction. Idk if you’ve seen it already but the podcast is called I’m sorry dad. Just trying to spread the word (:

    • @nicholltupak
      @nicholltupak 6 років тому +2

      Yessssss

    • @soulcurls4146
      @soulcurls4146 6 років тому +5

      Yes, this is a double act that has real power...the natural chemistry is so attractive.

    • @TiffanyMaryJean
      @TiffanyMaryJean 6 років тому

      Same!

  • @kennidybever5670
    @kennidybever5670 6 років тому +484

    It’s relieving hearing you use a turn signal.

  • @thegreatsaffouf
    @thegreatsaffouf 6 років тому +449

    Jesse really trying not to make eye contact with the camera 😂😭 bless him ❤️

    • @eddi3D619
      @eddi3D619 6 років тому +2

      The Great Saffouf litterly right when I read this. I looked at the vid and he looked at the camera real quick 😂😂

    • @niamh111
      @niamh111 6 років тому +1

      Eddie Lights me too ahah

    • @mychannel8809
      @mychannel8809 6 років тому +1

      Brandon was telling him not to, he wasn’t supposed to it’s supposed to feel real

    • @mychannel8809
      @mychannel8809 6 років тому +1

      6:12

    • @thegreatsaffouf
      @thegreatsaffouf 5 років тому

      Theeggchannel Bop Ik but he was trying really hard not to which I found cute

  • @gerrymcwilliam
    @gerrymcwilliam 6 років тому +311

    Wow... Brave he could do this. Props to Jesse!

    • @seaweedglob
      @seaweedglob 6 років тому +4

      I thought you were making a Breaking Bad joke lol

  • @user-he4fw5il7l
    @user-he4fw5il7l 6 років тому +513

    Damn Brandon and his family’s sound like they had it pretty rough

    • @dylan316
      @dylan316 6 років тому +2

      ATOMIC BOI Did anything else happen to the family?

    • @Ohreeena1
      @Ohreeena1 6 років тому +12

      dylan9nine he did a video with his mom and it talked about their family and dad too

    • @deanrichard1770
      @deanrichard1770 5 років тому

      Divorce

  • @renaiko2057
    @renaiko2057 6 років тому +102

    Props to Brandon's brother! Like, thank you for sharing your story on youtube! Its means so much to all of us all, that you can share your story with us. Thank you.

  • @nunyabizzness7869
    @nunyabizzness7869 6 років тому +177

    9yrs clean and sober

    • @Alkahaulin
      @Alkahaulin 6 років тому +3

      Awesome

    • @TheBlashMusic
      @TheBlashMusic 6 років тому

      how?

    • @drakescousin34
      @drakescousin34 5 років тому +1

      Jennifer Darbinski don’t you miss the full on bliss of being high? All the euphoria? Complete relaxation nodding off and literally feeling the best you’ve ever felt?

    • @Pluttox
      @Pluttox 5 років тому +4

      @@drakescousin34 You ain't helping her by saying that. I know you might be curious, but reminding a addict is like torture.

    • @ESB234
      @ESB234 5 років тому +2

      @@drakescousin34 You're an idiot my friend

  • @weedawha2032
    @weedawha2032 6 років тому +84

    This is amazing I use to have conversations like this with my older brother whos been struggling with addiction for yearsss and unfortunately after being clean for 3 years he recently relapsed but hearing your brothers story really gives me the extra hope

    • @caelyn2873
      @caelyn2873 6 років тому +7

      Just always be there for your brother, and make sure he knows he has someone to live for

  • @battyb3080
    @battyb3080 6 років тому +302

    thanks for sharing. im 7 yrs clean. its so hard to come out on the otherside. especially im in pa (scranton particularly ,most would know from the office) and there's large amounts of people dying from ods or bad batches every week. i think the laughing is coming from nervousness/the awkwardness of a heavy topic that probably weighed on both of you,i do the same thing with therapists and stuff talking about heavy issues.

    • @torikristen
      @torikristen 6 років тому +7

      Thank you for sharing also, I'm happy to hear you're clean. I live near Scranton too and it's so heartbreaking all of the lives it's taken, far too many. I also agree with the nervousness, I'm the same way

    • @sweetsanity7066
      @sweetsanity7066 6 років тому +8

      I live in Binghamton NY. ( about 45 minutes from you)! And yeah I've been clean for a year now. Thus shit is no Joke. I overdosed 7 times.. I'm lucky to still be here,I don't know how I am but I'm very thankful. I have buried 17 of my friends from this drug. The sad thing is, I know I will bury more.. its so fuckin sad.

    • @caitlindaley5485
      @caitlindaley5485 6 років тому +3

      I’m 4 years clean and live in Connecticut , smack dab in the middle of Boston and NYC, two of the biggest heroin distributors , we have buried probably 14 people from age 18-30 in my home town in the past year and it’s only getting worse .. but I keep trying to fight

    • @victoriabryan8448
      @victoriabryan8448 6 років тому +3

      I’m dyslexic and it took me a min to realize you weren’t saying scantron

    • @daniellemarie6059
      @daniellemarie6059 6 років тому +1

      I live in philly and am sober from heroin It’s super hard I understand completely

  • @V7tbhR
    @V7tbhR 6 років тому +92

    I’m 34 and I’ve been sober for seven years . Since I was 15. I would still give Anything for my sister to try to be understanding like you. Please continue this . Seriously

    • @V7tbhR
      @V7tbhR 6 років тому +5

      For you to be open enough to even listen makes me get chills. It must be nice.

    • @Justindedwards215
      @Justindedwards215 6 років тому +4

      Hey keep up the good work 5 years clean here and i hope your sister comes around sometimes it takes people a long time to understand and /or firgive the addict and the behavior but most people come around especislly if they sit down and do research on addiction in general as well as the addiction to whatever the specific DOC was abd kwarning about what withdrawl symptoms and dangers and things came with tge addiction and subsequent recovery...nut goid luck and kerp it up one day at a time!!!!

  • @janey5039
    @janey5039 6 років тому +449

    For everyone commenting about them "laughing" during such a serious topic ----
    *Haven't y'all heard of comic relief?*
    I had a little anxiety break on Christmas morning about something....
    After about an hour of being alone sobbing in my room... I came out, wiped my face, and cracked a joke about it...
    My 4 siblings laughed.. we all hugged (they were crying, oops)... then we spent the rest of the morning as if nothing happened....
    *It's just how families work, bro*

    • @breighcorey1304
      @breighcorey1304 6 років тому +11

      I love that ♥️ I'm the same way. If you can't laugh at it, you can't move passed it!

    • @simplechicful
      @simplechicful 6 років тому +4

      Janey I really wanna know...what was the joke?

    • @janey5039
      @janey5039 6 років тому +9

      @@simplechicful it's a loooong running inside joke w/ the family...
      but for comedic example:
      think there was a *giant* fire or explosion somewhere.. and then afterwards, the person who sparked the flame walked out of nowhere and was just like--
      "wow man.. can you believe the psychopath who started *THAT* thing??! what. a. guy."
      ... Basically just making fun of myself to let my family know it was all good 😂

    • @janey5039
      @janey5039 6 років тому +6

      @@breighcorey1304 People. Need. To. Learn. To. Laugh. More!!!

    • @Cavemenandgods
      @Cavemenandgods 6 років тому +6

      It such a difficult topic using laughter is ok at least they are TALKING ABOUT IT!!!

  • @randomniche1345
    @randomniche1345 6 років тому +232

    "pay, i don't have money"
    "spent it all on heroine"
    I DIED

  • @Alkahaulin
    @Alkahaulin 6 років тому +159

    I have been down this road and suffered the same consequences when it comes to the brain. I wish Jesse nothing but the best and a clean life. Sobriety is never owned, it's rented. Just know rent is due every single day. All the best

    • @okpay2064
      @okpay2064 6 років тому +8

      My brothers brain is so fucked off too. He doesn't remember ANYTHING. I'm constantly amazed at how he ruined his brain and he knows it too. He was a needle junkie and ODd one time, his heart stopped and thank God they brought him back to life. Even after that scare..he still continued to use the needle. Now hes 28 and living on my couch. Hes such a good guy at heart, but has depression and anxiety (as I do) and just can't get his shit together. It's so sad.

    • @brittanycavanaugh450
      @brittanycavanaugh450 6 років тому +6

      @@okpay2064 with endless conscious effort he can. don't give up on him!

    • @okpay2064
      @okpay2064 6 років тому +2

      @@brittanycavanaugh450 your so sweet. I really hope so. Thank you💜

    • @Alkahaulin
      @Alkahaulin 5 років тому

      @@okpay2064 Even though addiction has scrambled your brother's brain in some way, he is still human and family. Never stop caring for him because without support or guidance, we fall into a dark hole without a ladder. I know it's sad and anxiety can run deep but just remember that the best days are on the horizon. Treat life as if you never have another chance at it. Take care

  • @NoJumper
    @NoJumper 6 років тому +1087

    Scuffed Jesse PInkman from breaking bad. Great video btw Subbed.

  • @ScubaSteve3560
    @ScubaSteve3560 6 років тому +25

    8 months clean myself, so nice to see two brothers openly talk about addiction like this. More people should be able to openly talk about their struggles like this without being judged

    • @Megan-ir3ze
      @Megan-ir3ze 6 років тому

      Scuba Steve keep it up! 🤗❤️

  • @hirschy1103
    @hirschy1103 6 років тому +138

    jesse should do a podcast or something. as an ex drug addict, I feel he'd have a lot to divulge

  • @jordynelliott6712
    @jordynelliott6712 6 років тому +12

    I love when people are candid about their struggles. Not only does it create a space for others to do so, but it allows the person being honest to be vulnerable and be accountable.

  • @stephanypomerleau4885
    @stephanypomerleau4885 6 років тому +45

    I feel like I was listening to my brother , accept he's still doing 😞 I've been thru it all with him and like Brandon says you run out of things to say , which is so true and heartbreaking . I've stopped talking and visiting my parents because they side with him because they don't wanna lose him again . Someone's addiction makes everyone suffer . Good for him getting clean . That's awsome

    • @angelagoodwin5553
      @angelagoodwin5553 6 років тому +6

      stephany pomerleau I’m sorry...you aren’t alone. My brother just ended up in the hospital a few days ago and almost and should’ve died(the doctor said) . And he can’t wait to get back on those streets. My family won’t give up on him and they are killing themselves trying to do the best for him and he could care less.. to me he died a long time ago. I hate seeing my family heart broken over him.

    • @stephanypomerleau4885
      @stephanypomerleau4885 6 років тому +4

      @@angelagoodwin5553 aww wow I'm sorry you have to go through this . Everything your saying sounds like my life . Keep your chin up , things can get better don't forget that . Your not alone even if it feels like it , it hurts alot to see are loved ones fighting this monster of addiction . Take care💛

    • @vliciouss
      @vliciouss 6 років тому

      .

  • @sinead8369
    @sinead8369 6 років тому +12

    What a sweet dude, the humour he has is great. Really have huge respect for him agreeing to do this video. Your brother is awesome!! Still having a smile after all the crap he's been through is great.

  • @kamigarrison
    @kamigarrison 6 років тому +28

    I liked how he talked about as a kid he wasn’t taught the right emotions. I think a lot of people are told not to show emotion (especially guys). Its important for people to know to not tell others to man up or make fun of them for showing emotion. It’s cool to hear him say that so others know its ok to show emotion and express what they are feeling. It’s not easy for people to talk about their struggles so it’s nice to see.

    • @vliciouss
      @vliciouss 6 років тому

      Kami Garrison I agree !

    • @kyleblake1273
      @kyleblake1273 6 років тому

      I don't think people tell people to "man up" enough which is why the younger millenial generation is filled with snowflake pussies.

  • @daniellem8185
    @daniellem8185 6 років тому +34

    You're one of the few channels I consistently find this genuine content.

  • @NoraDalila
    @NoraDalila 6 років тому +61

    Hey Brandon, this series is turning out to be something really special. The dichotomy of you driving and focusing on that while having a meaningful conversation with someone about their life is something really cool and important that we don’t really see in this age of short attention spans. I hope to see more of this. This is really really something quite great, dude. Thank you

    • @MLMenjoyer
      @MLMenjoyer 6 років тому

      Nora Delilah nobody can walk and chew gum these days.

  • @Noelcrcr
    @Noelcrcr 5 років тому +2

    As a person with multiple addicts in their family, I really appreciated this. Thank for putting this out there, man.

  • @smOVERCOMINGITALL
    @smOVERCOMINGITALL 6 років тому +20

    My brother started smoking weed around the same age as your brother. I was too young to notice anything until i got a little older and he moved on to pills, dabbled in coke and heroine and by the time i was 15 and he was about 19 he died of a drug over dose. It's interesting to hear your brother talk about it because i always wonder what mine would have to say about his life path if he was still alive and sober. He went to rehab three times, stomach pumped 3 times and jail twice. I hope the best for him and your family. Having an addict in the family is not easy and it's heartbreaking to watch. 11 years later and i still think about my brother everyday and i don't wish that fate on anyone.

  • @stacib5776
    @stacib5776 6 років тому +1

    This is such an honest + raw conversation about addiction. My husband has been clean for 3 years of his opiate addiction. It’s refreshing to see Brandon listen without judgement or resentment. Thanks for bringing light to this topic.

  • @shaniaevans9823
    @shaniaevans9823 6 років тому +25

    It’s actually so weird how some guys find emotions such a hard thing to express, my dad also had that barrier you talk about, from when I was born up until I was like 19 I think dad had said I love you to me no more than twice because he was so weird about it, where as Mum used to say it literally every night. Then my mum left him and it tore him up and now he hugs, kisses me on the cheek and says I love you every time I leave him, for starters it was such a weird feeling and we were both so uncomfortable, heck sometimes I still am just because it’s so foreign to me but it’s also so heartwarming to finally get some emotion out of him. I dunno why I just wrote all this in a comment, sometimes it’s just nice to talk about things I guess.
    Btw loved this video, love a good honest conversation, especially about one so personal, this whole series is actually great, keep up the good work, love you Brandon. :)

  • @laur7306
    @laur7306 6 років тому +167

    i love brandon’s “HA HA” *clap*

    • @ceuti
      @ceuti 6 років тому +1

      He did it right as I read your comment 😂

  • @tawn7313
    @tawn7313 6 років тому +15

    So real. I love this. Im addicted as well and all this is the truth. Brings me to tears. So raw and honest. Thank you

  • @coconut1942
    @coconut1942 6 років тому +3

    Real shit he needed to hear you loved him .. that's why he asked why ..
    Poor guy Brandon you saved your brothers life this video

  • @minighi200
    @minighi200 6 років тому +78

    Omg I missed your brother! I haven’t seen him since Vine

  • @mandyholliday7998
    @mandyholliday7998 6 років тому +99

    this one really hit home, favorite so far keep it up Brandon

    • @Johnny-ci8mw
      @Johnny-ci8mw 6 років тому

      Mandy Holly Watch Beautiful Boy

    • @OdlawTheEvil
      @OdlawTheEvil 6 років тому +1

      Same here, wayy too close to home. I'm heavily addicted to heroin, fentanyl, crystal meth and I tend to dabble in a wide variety of other shit like xanax, opanas or dilaudids. I've gone thru multiple drug addictions in different stages of my life such as ecstasy, cocaine, GHB, ambien/sleeping pills, and codeine/dxm. I've overdosed more times than I can remember, the most recent ones being from fentanyl.

    • @mandyholliday7998
      @mandyholliday7998 6 років тому

      Johnny yeah i gave it a watch, really well acted movie but only covers half the damage a drug addict has on the family

    • @Johnny-ci8mw
      @Johnny-ci8mw 6 років тому

      Mandy Holly Agree. I think it’s a good movie for a sample of the life of addicts and loved ones for the 2 hour timetable they had. It won me over when they included al-anon (3Cs). Al-anon never gets much credit or attention.

    • @mandyholliday7998
      @mandyholliday7998 6 років тому

      Johnny yeah it’s definitely an important film

  • @SandraEKitchen
    @SandraEKitchen 6 років тому +14

    This is my third time watching this. Brandon, please know that even though recovery is never perfect, just the fact that your brother is sober and well enough to talk to you now is giving so many people hope. Addiction runs deep in my family and having these kinds of conversations gives hope that the future can be better. Thank you!

  • @carowilliamscaro
    @carowilliamscaro 6 років тому +11

    I appreciate & envy your brother’s candidness; I am so glad he has a brother like you

  • @that_hppie_kira8695
    @that_hppie_kira8695 6 років тому +20

    "I would suggest not doing drugs but I understand if you need to abuse them"😂😂 hes hilarious

  • @cathyw810
    @cathyw810 6 років тому +27

    You're brothers so strong to talk about this so openly. I'll be sober 6 months on the 23rd and to see someone share their story of sobriety is so admirable. You remind me a lot of my brother very supportive and it makes me happy to see that. I was getting high for almost 10 years and never overdosed till may. I thought I was too smart to overdose that I knew what I was doing. Till I got a batch of fetynl, knew it was fetynl so did half the amount I would normally do and still overdosed. Then I realized there's no beating dying as an addict. You will end up dead or sober. The shit they put on the streets now is cut with who knows what. So after a month of trying to get into rehab with no insurance I finally said I can't live like this another day and detoxed at home with the help and support of my family. Definitely not a reccomendation but if you want it bad enough you will do it and stay sober. After a few months of rediscovering my emotions and figuring out to deal with the shit going on in my head without drugs I can honestly say I'm the happiest I have ever been. My problems didn't go away but at least I'm not adding addicted to heroin to the list so they're manageable cause that was my biggest problem of all.

  • @gloomgirl
    @gloomgirl 6 років тому +49

    I wanted you to hug him so badly. Really love this series.

  • @flowassss345
    @flowassss345 6 років тому +29

    More videos with your brother pleaseeee, watching this interaction between you guys was really refreshing and felt very close to home. I am glad he is in recovery and felt like sharing his story with us

  • @victoria846627
    @victoria846627 6 років тому +56

    I’m in recovery too!!! Props to your brother👌

    • @natalie5707
      @natalie5707 6 років тому +8

      victoria846627 you got this👏🏼👏🏼

  • @hadleyhancock1553
    @hadleyhancock1553 6 років тому +1

    Brandon, thank you for this. As a drug addict with siblings I’ve never really thought about how they viewed me during my addiction and while I’ve been sober.

  • @kimduzstuff4217
    @kimduzstuff4217 6 років тому +46

    No one plans to be an addict, no thinks his or her life will turn out that way, and no parent thinks his or her child will turn to drugs. All that said, I hope he keeps working on his sobriety. Awesome interview.

    • @LauraLaura-mv4xh
      @LauraLaura-mv4xh 6 років тому +2

      that's true. so many kids are juuling now and I know that they don't understand how easily you get addicted to something, nicotine in this case. I'm 23, started smoking when I was 16 and just recently transitioned to vaping/juuling in hope that it isn't as harmful to my body but the addition is still there. obviously it doesn't compare to heroin, coke or wtv but it's so so easy to get addicted to a substance, you have no control whatsoever

    • @vliciouss
      @vliciouss 6 років тому

      .

  • @GodzeFFecT
    @GodzeFFecT 6 років тому

    This is by far the best "A conversation with" so real and a conversation that so many families struggle with having. It's amazing how candid the both of you can be about it.

  • @BloodMaster104
    @BloodMaster104 6 років тому +18

    This show is so underrated... I really enjoy the awkwardness and just casual talk, but it's not casual at all it's so deep and the flow is amazing...

  • @Lucywald2012
    @Lucywald2012 6 років тому +24

    Wow, my heart hurts. My sister was a heroin addict and had an overdose and also crashed a car. I can imagine the pain your brother was in to get so deep into drugs and also the pain that you faced having to watch him go through that especially when you talked about he yelling at you; there where times when my sister was very abusive because of heroin, it’s scary. I hope he can find peace and also fight the demons that started his addiction in the first place. I hope he’s in NA, 12 steps is not only a way to recover from your addiction but also help battle all the other psychological stuff going on too and to face your emotions. I hope he does well.

    • @vliciouss
      @vliciouss 6 років тому +1

      .

    • @caitlindaley5485
      @caitlindaley5485 6 років тому

      NA is literally the worst program an addict can go to because drug dealers will literally go there and or stalk outside the doors to try to get them to relapse, honestly AA has worked better for me and a lot of people I know because the community works together so much more and you don’t see people waiting outside with bottles trying to get them drunk.

    • @Lucywald2012
      @Lucywald2012 6 років тому

      Caitlin Daley i don’t know what NA meetings you have been to...

    • @caitlindaley5485
      @caitlindaley5485 6 років тому

      Lucy W every single NA meeting in my town and surrounding towns and every other addict I know says the same ... so 🤷‍♀️unless it’s a secure closed NA meeting dealers prey on recovering addicts and that’s a fact

  • @jolene5099
    @jolene5099 6 років тому +19

    I’m proud of him for being able to talk about this

  • @WENDDEAD
    @WENDDEAD 5 років тому

    I really appreciate how understanding Brandon is with his brother. Shaming an addict never solves anything, neither does enabling but to just be there for them and let them know that you love them regardless is great to see.

  • @theessenceofbeauty1g
    @theessenceofbeauty1g 6 років тому +10

    Jesse is so charming. And he's so brave to share his story

  • @TheAshleaRose1
    @TheAshleaRose1 6 років тому

    This one was one of my favorites. Addiction runs in my family and I'm really close with my older brother too so to sit down and have such an honest, open conversation about the road already traveled and how understanding you are about his struggles. Please never stop doing these, it's the most pivotal content coming out right now.

  • @hafsahp4900
    @hafsahp4900 6 років тому +11

    Thanks for this Brandon, I’m certain most of us viewers that deal with addiction in families could relate and feel at peace.

  • @socialistswiftie
    @socialistswiftie 6 років тому +3

    Best yet. As someone in recovery, these conversations are so necessary.

  • @brianamarie2002
    @brianamarie2002 6 років тому +4

    This was needed ❤️ not enough people are brave enough to talk about this publicly and it needs to be , too many people struggling to not have these conversations

  • @zoeb5356
    @zoeb5356 6 років тому

    Needed to watch this today I’ve been struggling with heroin addiction for 4 years and I also did the whole Florida rehab shuffle and had the same experience “you’re wasting it shoot it” I never imagined my life to take this turn, but I’m grateful I can hear other people’s experiences and not feel alone! Thank you both.

  • @michellegarrett6752
    @michellegarrett6752 6 років тому +219

    Brandon: Very selfishly, I like for you to not do heroine anymore.
    Jesse: Why?
    (Awkward moment when they realize things could get emotional)
    Brandon: Because uh.....
    cuz...uh...IDK...uh...ily.
    Jesse: GAAAAAYYY
    DAMMIT BOYS! Get it together. Say it again, "I LOVE YOU." Not gay. Human. You want your family around and sober because you enjoy their company. You have gotten used to them being part of your existence. As is normal for humans, you inadvertently assumed they would be around for your future. You assumed they'd be part of making your memories. Also, because you don't want your family (whom you love) to be the reason for a black cloud of disappointment looming over the rest of your life, memories or existence because their addiction stole them away. BECAUSE YOU LOVE THEM. Selfish?! Maybe. Still some pretty damn good reasons.

    • @HollyBadger56
      @HollyBadger56 6 років тому +12

      Michelle &Tell Yeah I found this video to be kinda sad actually. You can see how much Brandon cares about him but knows how his brother will react to the emotional stuff.

    • @schuylerQ
      @schuylerQ 5 років тому

      Funny

    • @turkishdelight600
      @turkishdelight600 5 років тому +4

      Chill. Some people show emotions in different ways.

    • @michellegarrett6752
      @michellegarrett6752 5 років тому +1

      @@turkishdelight600 ^EXACTLY! So, let me live. Let me react how I see fit. Let me feel how I do about it.

    • @turkishdelight600
      @turkishdelight600 5 років тому +1

      @@michellegarrett6752 I didn't realize I was not making you live your life. My bad.

  • @theearlynovamber8295
    @theearlynovamber8295 6 років тому

    I’m going on 2 years clean and sober from heroin. And it’s so amazing to see another person walking away from the chaos and choosing life over death. You’re a great brother Brandon and I am extremely grateful you posted this ⭐️

  • @dulcejimenez5817
    @dulcejimenez5817 6 років тому +112

    a conversation with lacey pls

  • @kaylamcconaha5047
    @kaylamcconaha5047 5 років тому

    I'm a herion addict & this video is so important for people to see. It gets ahold of people & most never make it out. I've tried so many times & I just give in. I don't have insurance or money to pay for rehab. And other reasons. You're very upfront, honest & not beating around the bush, like it should be talked about! I'm the same way & most people don't know how to handle it. I pray you stay clean. And it's awesome you have a brother who cares so much. It sucks not to have anyone like that.b

  • @alexandrascott755
    @alexandrascott755 6 років тому +3

    I like everything about this video. Its so genuine and real, relationships are fucking awkward and communication is hard and nothing is certain but this shows part of a process that no one ever sees and thats so nice

  • @candelam.c.9072
    @candelam.c.9072 6 років тому

    This is a conversation everyone should have with relatives or close friends that have gone through a drug addiction. Just wow. Bravo.

  • @merkzr
    @merkzr 6 років тому +3

    This hit home too hard, I relate exactly to this as my brother started on a heroin addiction, and just doing drugs and drinking from a young age. It's honestly the hardest thing in the world to watch, I've watched him shoot up one time too many, and I myself had tried it but never was hooked to it. It feels disgusting and amazing, and I can't even imagine what it feels like when that's all you spend your time doing it. I really appreciate this video, and you having this conversation as most people don't want to have these conversations. My brother has been getting sober and things are looking up, but i have always understood that it could change at any moment. I held a grudge against him for a long time, because he was not a great brother to me, but in the last few years i've learned that it doesn't feel good to hold grudges against something like his addiction.
    Addiction is a disease and I hate it but the best i can do is be there for him and show him as much support as i possibly can. Much love to you and your brother.

  • @soulcurls4146
    @soulcurls4146 6 років тому +1

    I think it is refreshing to have an addict speak so honestly about why they took drugs; drugs make people feel good, addictive things usually do. Acknowledging this fact has to be more helpful than simply demonising drug use and drug users.

  • @kaleynewport
    @kaleynewport 6 років тому +5

    This is so precious. The dynamic between them screams family, I love it

  • @irenemelikyan
    @irenemelikyan 6 років тому

    addiction is such a huge problem and like nobody ever talks about it, ur brother is amazing for doing this

  • @CookingwithKarma
    @CookingwithKarma 6 років тому +6

    My ex boyfriend was a heroine addict. It's horrible to see people you love struggle with addictions. No matter how much you love them and try to help them, they have to want to help themselves. I'm glad to see that your brother is doing well now xx

  • @emilydahl2796
    @emilydahl2796 6 років тому +4

    There is no way to tell if anyone relapses or not. Just because they do well doesn't mean they will always be clean and sober. One of my best friends had two years clean and sober from all mind altering substances, while I was in and out of rehab after rehab not getting my shit together and come to find out, he relapsed just a couple of weeks ago. There is no real reason other than not dealing with life on life's terms. Addiction is so powerful, there is no way to predict what will happen or when it will happen. All anyone can do for an addict (this is coming from an addict myself) is give emotional support, and unconditional love. Much love to you and your brother.

  • @alicat3048
    @alicat3048 6 років тому +3

    My parents have been addicts since I was about 10, being 25 now. I haven't lived with them since I was 18, and now that I can reflect on it all, this video really rings true to how an addict goes through their life. And all the damage it does.

  • @A-A-ron990
    @A-A-ron990 5 років тому +1

    Im struggling with this on and off... Im so happy that Brandon put this video out. Thanks dude.. Your brother is a real trooper. I sympathize with him and all of his struggles

  • @allisclampMN22
    @allisclampMN22 6 років тому +14

    Been waiting for this one. Thank you both for your honesty.

  • @jaykay1074
    @jaykay1074 6 років тому

    I just want to say thank you to you and your brother you’ve given me the courage to talk to my dad about my painkiller addiction. It’s a huge step for me and he is helping me currently try to work on stopping. After hearing about your brother I realize a path I was heading down wasn’t good for me or my family. It means a lot to me you sharing this and I’m starting a new journey with help from others on something I couldn’t do alone. This means a lot to me thank you.

  • @ashleeraschke734
    @ashleeraschke734 6 років тому +3

    tbh i love that they’re laughing making jokes and shit cause that’s what my family and i do with the family members that are in recovery
    if u can’t laugh about it man you’ll never move passed it

  • @lexihubbard6694
    @lexihubbard6694 6 років тому

    I think this is my favorite video of this series so far. I have never dealt with addiction myself but someone very close to me has and this just really hit home for me. Watching someone I love struggle with addiction is one of the hardest things I have ever experienced. It's hard because you eventually come to the realization that no matter how much you want to help them, you can't because it's completely up to them to seek help. Addiction is an important topic that I don't think gets talked about enough and kind of gets pushed under the rug a lot of the time because people don't want to deal with it. It's comforting to hear someone else share the same concerns as myself because there aren't a lot of places I can turn to talk to people or learn more about addiction. Thank you for making this video and I'm really glad your clean now Jesse, I hope to see you in more videos.

  • @alliekittens
    @alliekittens 6 років тому +11

    this is truly the best one so far

  • @meghansumner7777
    @meghansumner7777 6 років тому

    my brother just went to jail a couple days after christmas kind of as a result of his crack addiction so seeing this and how far your brother has come and your relationship with him is really motivating so thanks for this

  • @BobbyBrixx
    @BobbyBrixx 6 років тому +3

    Thank you for sharing fractions of your real lives .. people on youtube think you guys don't have problems and it's all cool and fun all the time.

  • @IxamxUnbroken
    @IxamxUnbroken 6 років тому +1

    This conversation is really eye opening because it showed the perspective of an addict and how they feel about their own addiction.

  • @uhavemooface
    @uhavemooface 6 років тому +4

    You should have your brother in your videos more often he is hilarious. I hope that he stays clean and if not you are there for him like you were. I am so glad you shared this with us and your bro wanted to share his story with us.

  • @heatherganoe5419
    @heatherganoe5419 6 років тому

    I'm almost 3 years clean from oxy and heroin. This video absolutely hit so fucking close to home and has had me reliving my personal hell as I was listening to your brothers and just wow..having a hard time getting these stupid tears to stop atm. I'm so proud of your brother for telling his story as well as being clean, and Brandon I'm so fucking proud of you as well for being such an amazing, supportive brother and helping your brother find his voice like this. Your soul is so special, Brandon.. and I'm so excited to see where 2019 brings your channel! Much love to you boys!!! May peace be with you both 🖤

  • @trinitymiguel1128
    @trinitymiguel1128 6 років тому +6

    This is really refreshing content and so real ,that it’s easy to relate to,with someone in my family who has been through this . keep up the amazing work man, love this stuff

  • @aronalhime9770
    @aronalhime9770 5 років тому

    I really do appreciate how open he is about it and how he’s not afraid to look back and give it a laugh