I just wanted to give feedback about the way you say "my" or "our". For example "my depression or our depression". Its very inclusive and accepting and makes me feel part of a positive accepting group. Its very powerful and I wanted you to know the language was very effective and a really positive thing for me.
I disagree. It's normalizing something that is abnormal. It's making someone who may not have these or other symptoms feel like they do or should have them. Notice the rising number in people with mental illness. Some is due to an easier access to information and ultimately clinical diagnosis but with that a growing number of wishfully disturbed hopefuls that are unnecessarily medicated and overdiagnosed
I absolutely love the fact that you talk in such a matter of fact way about conditions and symptoms no matter how stigmatised they are in wider society. So important to break through the shame and embarrassment that people are often made to feel. If we're unwell and struggling we deserve care and support it's as simple as that.
I have diagnosed with OCD, Depression, And Social Anxiety. I have all of that since 2 Years ago and My Life is getting Worse and unworthful since then. I always wanted to Die but I just can't kill Myself
@@euphoricsadnessx life is hard. It's hard every day. I recently went through a crazy mental breakdown. It was terrifying. I will say, I made a choice to stop trying SO HARD to meet the expectations and demands of EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING else and started trying to control his I REACT instead. It's not easy. I took a personality test out of boredom ond day and it came up ENFP T so I started watching videos on UA-cam about my personality type and I FINALLY FELT UNDERSTOOD for the first time like ever! Try it! It's really such a positive exploration of yourself. You're not alone. Please hang in there! Sending love and hugs! You're Gonna make it.
I have severe depression. Ive seen and heard things occasionally that arent there. I get paranoid that people dont really like me they just tolerate me. Ive had breakdowns where Ive screamed my head off after feeling overwhelmed. I have days I dont even want to get up or do anything I just want to sleep and never wake up. Ive been on medications countless times had years of counseling and been to therapists. I know exactly what your talking about. I'm glad I watch stuff like this it makes me feel better about what's wrong. My family has a history of mental problems. So mine is herediatry. I just hope I dont pass it on to my son. Hes 2 and soo full of life. I would hate for him to have to go through all of this too.
Strange you just described my entire existence to a “T”, thank you for sharing, it’s hard to talk about it for me, but you found words I struggle to find... thank you, for letting me know I am not alone👍🙏👍🙏
Unfortunately many of us don't go to the hospital because we can't afford it. I know that sounds silly because we also can't afford to stay unhealthy but it's true. My insurance is expensive but not great coverage:(
Michele Hale Same here. When it comes to mental health, I have to cough up 6k in deductible before it would even cover anything. Hopefully I'll have enough saved up by next year to cover it for a while, but will be floating on in my anxiety/depressive bubble until then. I've been living with it for about 4 years at this level now, so what's another 6 months?
What the fuck, I love your country so much but I could not fathom having to pay so much for essential healthcare.... for example my medication all together before subsidizing would cost about $200 but after it goes through medicare gets brought down to about $63 all up. I don't understand why your government refuses to implement universal healthcare, it's like they want all your poor people to drop dead
My wife went through this 2 years ago. She's 100% better thank god she had an amazing doctor that knew it right away. It was incredibly rough but she made it through and back out the other side stronger than ever. If you are going through this or know someone is please hang in there and don't give up. I can promise it gets better.
When I lost my little brother, my mom, that have major depressive disorder, developed psychosis, she thought she could hear my brother crying, she was kinda lost in time, and i dont remember much (i guess my brain just blocked those things) but i know it was awfull. Happily she is better now and dont have psychosis anymore, but i know how hard it can be for the person and to the people around.
Art was my passion. It was my whole life, my past, present, and future. It was gonna be my career. I drew almost every day, I loved it. Recently, I just haven’t been getting that joy that it used to give me. I don’t think I can just keep calling it “art block” if it’s been this way for 2 years. I try to draw but it’s just tedious and difficult, not fun and challenging and exiting. I just wish I could be 8 years old again, watching Pokémon black and white on Netflix and having that moment of pure awe because **this is what I want to do. This is what I’m willing to dedicate my life to achieving.** that moment of joy because I found something i loved and something that would stick with me my whole life. As far as I can remember, I have loved art. Watching that joy slipping away is like watching my life end. It sounds over dramatic but I’m not exaggerating. For me, not enjoying art is synonymous with the end of my life. edit: doing better now! turns out i needed to just draw all the time as much as i could (there are so many drawings on my empty math notes bc i treat precalc as art class), just something i enjoy like eyes and faces and just draw constantly and shocker i improved and found my love of art again! also a lot of working through stuff finding thought patterns and strategies that work for me bc depression is manageable !!
Dancing, Singing, and Art is my passion, when i saw this i couldn’t believe i have psychotic depression, because i’m living such a happy life but like, something was missing. i was like, ‘’WOW, i have mental illness?, that’s crazy’’
Psych meds can cause this, I know I'm an artist too with Bipolar and BPD and what was once a passion of mine, I go through art blocks and find creating art a struggle, it often feels like a chore. I believe you , and feel for you. What has been working for me is try to make art everyday, even if I find little joy in it, it's just sort of going through the motions, but I find that slowly I'm breaking through to a place where I can enjoy it, but I'm own worst critic, never very happy with the results. Sometimes switching mediums works, I usually make art on the computer, but sometimes it feels easier to just draw with pen and paper, or paint, or sculpt. I hope things improve for you. Many people don't understand how frustrating this problem can be for an artist, they can be sort of callous but don't let that get you down. if you are on meds consider switching or maybe quitting that you suspect may be causing it. If you are not on meds, think about about trying them for awhile. Just don't give up, i know how hard it can be. My brother commited suicide 2 years ago, and I'm so angry that he gave up, even though I understand that he was really suffering. Things can change, they can improve. My heart really goes out to you.
I've suffered with depression for around 7 years now. Two years ago I went through psychotic depression. It was the worst month of my life but thankfully one of my friends picked up on the symptoms and I was hospitalised. We was out walking together and I kept talking about people in black that were out to get me. In the distance I saw a dog walker wearing all black and dived straight into a bunch of wet bushes. He said I rambled incomprehensibly to him and out of worry he drove me to the hospital. I spent 16 days receiving treatment via medicine and therapy. Thankfully things got better and since then I've not had anymore symptoms. Thank you for sharing this video and highlighting this illness to people. I think it's important that everyone knows what to look out for and can understand they are not alone and can get better.
This just made me cry. You are so kind, nonjudgmental, hopeful, and encouraging. I went through a severe depressive episode with pyschosis last year and it was the scariest thing in my life. Through that, I also had OCD symptoms, depersonalization, disorganized thinking, etc. and I felt so much shame and guilt for the way my brain was working. I'm still severely exhausted but grateful to be on the other side. Thank you for being so amazing and making these videos.
I recently got diagnosed with MDD with psychotic features, with OCD as well. And I’m so scared of telling people like my family that I was diagnosed with psychotic depression, and it’s bc they don’t believe in mental health issues they just claim it’s the devil or worse, “you’re just crazy”…. Thank god for my husband who has been with me this whole time and is also diagnosed with MDD so I know I’m not alone, and I can’t talk to him about things. ❤️
Thank you. I appreciate that you spoke in the first person, like you do with EDs, self-harm, etc. In your last video about psychosis, you kept saying "they" and it felt a little other-ing. It's such a small thing, but it means a lot.
Not to be dramatic, but I subscribed BC she seemed reasonable, but then she stressed hoping to the hospital, and I know that for me personally, I would kill myself before I let myself get admitted. And like if they sedated me, I'd just give up my will to live, on purpose. The hospital doesn't care about you, outpatient places like "continuum of care ct" are a better bet. Not perfect and hella restrictive, but its better than being a number.
@@avalley6421 There are many, many nurses and doctors that do care about their patients. Yes, to the city, dean of the said hospital and the board you are most likely just a number but hospitals exist to cure people. Not going to hospitals just because they don't care about you is like not sending your car to a mechanic just because they do not care about your car.
I have psychotic depression that is medication-resistant. One thing that happens to me and I have heard from others is that we know our hallucinations are not real, we know it's a symptom but for those of us with audial hallucinations, it gets hard to ignore the screams telling you to kill yourself. It does get better, trust me, I have been there, you need support and fight.
@@rubenbustamante1828this is so offensive and rude. The individual has mental illness and you’d have more empathy and understanding of what that’s like if you watched the video. I also have psychotic depression. We aren’t plagued by demons, we’re sick.
thank you so much for this video. i had a psychotic episode while depressed in july and was so confused and scared. i was in the hospital for a week and since then ive been doing great - havent had another since. thank you for normalizing this. i didn't realize that it was common - i thought it only happened to people with schizophrenia.
After watching this, I've come to a conclusion that I relate to this illness the most. I am not diagnosed by a psychiatrist, but I feel like this sounds like me. I am going to get the help I want, and need. Thank you for this!
I'm fighting depression and it's been getting worse. This video made me cry because I feel like I truly am beginning to go crazy there's been so many traumatic events in my life the past few months that everything is just overwhelming me. I wake up crying and shaking. Thinking I have no friends, nobody cares for me, or I'm alone, even if I'm in a crowded room. I feel like whatever I do, or whatever anyone else says, its fake and the truth is just that everyone doesn't wanna be around me. And it hurts so so much. But doctors... I can't afford it. I truly can't. But I really feel useless in my life. This helped me understand. That I'm not alone. Feeling the way I do. I wish nobody had to feel this way.
Thank you for this. I know that I need help ASAP when I experience psychotic depression. The hospital is there to help you but remember to be brave and advocate for yourself through the entire hospitalization process
"Proper treatment" and that is the challenge I have had friends with 20 years of depression and no psychiatrist has come up with the same diagnosis, and none can agree on the medication. 20 years on....she is NO better in fact she is worse from the experimentation on a plethora of medications.
ZOE'S HEALTH.BEAUTY.LIFESTYLE. Same here. Not quite 20 years though. I think for some it's a case of managing their illness. I have had much worse times but better ones too. It sucks and a lot of doctors are so vague. It's a constant battle.
My son was just diagnosed with depression with psychotic features. He has lost his job, his wife left and took his daughter. He stays in one room all day. All of his friends stopped coming around. He is living in a nightmare with all the symptoms you mentioned. This has been going on for over a year now. I have felt hopeless and helpless trying to help him. You gave me hope for his future. I didn't think he would ever be himself again. Thank you for this video it was very informative.
My dad suffers from dianosed psychotic depression and bipolar disorder (idk if it comes from the bipolar maybe?) he's had this since i was alive but was never diagnosed until very recently. He was completely oblivious that he had any kind of problems. He thought everyone around him was crazy and that they were the problem not him. It makes it extremely hard for my family because as a kid i grew to resent him because he would constantly place blame on us and say horrible things about us and at that point i had no idea he had any mental disorder. My mum always kinda suspected but i was too young to realise. In my personal experience with people with these symptoms i would say to anyone else affected, try to separate the psychotic and bipolar symptoms from the real personality of the person. When they flip out or are talking to themselves or people in their head, thats not really them, that just a symptom or the disorder. Anyway thats my lil story :) Thankyou for making this video it was extremely informative!
Masey I'm like four months late but I relate to your dad hardcore and it really sucks. Its honestly good hearing someone outside of my our "our" issues and mind set (being your dad and my psychotic depression with bipolar disorder) being able to separate that from the person.. That's hard for my parents to do with me. I can't imagine how comforting it is for your dad to know that you recognize that difference. Not that its an excuse for his or any ones actions at all. Its hard to explain
It's amazing how many people can watch these informative, accurate, truthful videos on mental illness and still think we're making it up, we don't need the help we're getting, and that most of us don't deserve our diagnosis. It's these ignorant, hateful individuals that push the mentally ill past their breaking point. These people don't care to educate themselves and contribute to our problems rather than be a part of the solution. Try opening your eyes and realizing what's actually happening with the people around you, caring to make it better, and stop denying how many people go through these things because you haven't yourself. I was discharged from the military with major depression and suicidal ideations, and it's no different for a civilian. There are all different levels and types of mental illness, millions of people go through it every day of our life, and when you publicly show how little you care it only makes things worse for us. Thank you to the thoughtful people who put out these videos to help us understand better what we are going through and how we might help those around us!
Thank you for simplyfing psychotic depression. Years ago I got diagnosed with major depressive disorder with psychotic symptoms (I think is how they worded it). So not fully psychotic depression but has some of those symptoms. And it was hard for me to understand what that meant, I just knew what I was experiencing so thank you.
I just wanted to thank you. I'm not sure if it's your personality or your tone but you make me feel really accepted and hopeful. I have been battling depression my entire life since post partum (almost 10 years). Within the last three years I was moved to a small town that has few doctors. I hate finding a therapist because it always feels like I have to start my whole life story over again. maybe I should just write a book lol. But thank you :)
Thanks for sharing. Depression/Anxiety and mental health in general have such a stigma in our society and the more people like yourself talk about it the more the stigma will reduce in our society. My channel is solely about mental health and reducing this stigma. So many people do not seek treatment because they are afraid what people will say and this is destroying people’s lives. This needs to stop. Keep up the great work.
I just got out of the mental hospital I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder with psychotic features and I’m 14 so I’m glad they caught it early
Tawkoz 123 I struggled with that same thought process. I always knew I needed help but had extreme anxiety about seeking help. It's a catch 22 situation. It's not an easy thing to make yourself do. I have Been suffering for 28 years. I always self medicated and all that got me was in jail a few times and homeless. I finally had to get help. It doesn't go away, with time the symptoms become worse. But had I watched this video first I would have never gone. And I now have anxiety about going back to my appointment because Im not down with being put in a Looney bin, even if it is only for observation.
It's not easy but being truthful and open to my doctor has actually freed me. I thought I would be judged but instead I got understanding and concern. Your doctors should be there for your health and your well being. I love my doctors and nurse practitioners for their professionalism.
I was diagnosed with only psychosis. No other mental illness. I am from the Netherlands. We have good psychosis related researchers and support here. Thanks for this video, very helpfull. Good information. (Sorry for my bad English)
I'm at my wits end. I've struggled since at least the age of 15 and am nearly 44. Also am trying to care for my Mother who also had mental health issues and dementia . I was on meds for years and they didnt really help so I recently decided to discontinue therapy.
As a licensed social worker I absolutely love your channel I just came across it tonight and I'm obsessed with watching your videos! You're very descriptive and in an easy-to-understand way while still covering so much information you really have a talent and thank you for what you do! Very inspiring keep up the good work
I think when it comes to hallucinations, one thing that needs to be touched on more (pun) are tactile hallucinations. When you think of psychosis you think of hearing or seeing things that aren't there, but never feeling, I find it odd! Maybe it's more rare, I'm not sure.
you can have olfactory hallucinations as well, i think they are very rare though as i guess our brain gets more distracted by sounds and visuals , so these two are more likely to get messed up? i don't know im just assuming!
Madeleine Benson + I would have thought that a tactile hallucination would be very difficult for the brain to create. In the same way that in dreams, we rarely have tactile or olfactory aspects to a dream. I have only had a tactile dream once (I grabbed the handrail on a bus!) and an olfactory dream once, when I smelt some spices in a bottle (spices that do not exist in real-life, I invented them!). I heard that when schizophrenics hear voices, they only hear male voices because the brain finds it easier to conjure up a male voice because female voices are far more complex, inflexions etc.
I've had hallucinations of "phantom smells" a few times (I have a friend with extremly similar mental health disorders to mine who gets them too). Generally her and I will smell foods that are not in the house, building, or area. I generally ask my roommates who know I have psychosis symptoms with my mental illnesses if they see, hear, or smell what I do just so I am aware for myself 100% about it. My mum gets all tactile, visual, and auditory hallucinations with her neurological disorder (MS) and my roommate's family gets them with their epileptic seizures too. I'm not sure if hallucinating a smell is "tactile" or not... I hope this was on topic... I know that some patients with hallucinations get ones connected to bodily functions too. Those ones look kinda scary to get. I've met someone that I think gets them. She looked terrified and more miserable than I've ever seen anyone be during them. I forget what those kind are called, I don't think it's under tactile, but I could be wrong.
Raven Black + Very interesting indeed! I'd not heard of this before. I've only heard of someone with a brain tumour having olfactory hallucinations, which were cured after removal of the tumour. Obviously the tumour was pressing on a specific area of the brain. Apparently, a tactile hallucination is one involving being touched by an imaginary object. The one involving taste is called a Gustatory Hallucination and a Cenesthetic Hallucination is the one involving bodily functions.
Rapunzel Mane yeah, my hallucinations don't happen too often, but the smell one seems to be the most frequent type lately. They can get weirdly specific sometimes that i just can't help but laugh at them. A recent one was the smell of the shrimp scampi from a restaurant in my home town 45 minutes away from me.... there was no way any of it was in my current city, let alone my house(it's a small business in a not well known town). I have no idea why they'd get THAT specific, but it did. It took me a few minutes to even realise it was likely my brain messing with me. I used to hear things more-so (voices that sounded very robotic. I couldn't make out actual words being said usually, but there was usually a male "robot" and a female "robot" definitely speaking)...I still get those too sometimes. I've only had 1 visual hallucination that I am aware of so far. I saw 2 spiders. I only really thought it may have been a hallucination after I smashed one, but there was no body left behind...My roommates confirmed that there was no sign of spiders later too.(these started after I came of my meds, so they are a fairly new thing with my life-long mental illness symptoms...I'm seeking new doctors currently) Also, tactile is feeling things? Like when, I feel bugs crawling all over me? I got that one after the spider incident tbh. My arachnophobia also became horrifically worse...though I think I'm more afraid of them not being real that the actual spider itself. Some of my paranoid delusions have horrifying images pop up in my head (imagination versus seeing them) and I am so afraid of those images being the next thing I see that isn't there.
Getting a job has helped me too....I had lived off my retirement for about a year avoiding getting one because the last place I worked was toxic and a year before that my wife left and six months before that one of my students had died. I am healing and videos like these help so much. I apply a lot of what is suggested and then go with what works. I have been able to sleep normal time for the last week and a half straight.
You make it seem so simple. And also you're so dedicated to mental health. I wish I find someone with at least 1/5 of your passion and expertise that can really help me. It's been 8 years and I still don't even have a diagnosis. Wish you all the best and hope you earn lots of money with this bids because you deserve
Just thought I would chime in on my experience with major depression for me. Imagine for a moment, that a love one just died. Imagine the sense of loss, the loniness, the grief. Imagine those feelings lasting for weeks, for months. Now imagine having those feelings for no reason at all. Nothing about it makes sense yet those feeling persist. Imagine having to fake being normal so people will continue to socialize with you. Constantly wearing a mask, acting a part you don't believe in but desperately hoping it will fool your coworkers, your friends, your family. Welcome to my world. Not trying to trigger or stress anyone but the only relief I can find most days when I'm faking being "normal" is to imagine and plan out my death. I imagine different scenarios and work through them in minute detail with the idea to make it painless, non-messy and to hide evidence of an obvious suicide. Macabre I know but it's the only thing that seems to bring comfort to me. I don't know how healthy having an exit plan is but its the only way I've been able to cope over the years.
Justin Bailey Hey, you described this so well, i feel the same way 😓 The thing is I can only feel peace when I am thinking I am about to die. That is the only moment I don't feel the pain anymore. 😞
If you can pretend to be normal, go to school/work/etc. it's considered a functional depressive disorder, more so if you don't exhibit the somatic symptoms, though the latter is not mandatory for depression diagnosis. Also, I myself (and I'm definitely not alone in it, see Jordan Petterson for example) consider that depression is never without a cause/trigger although one may not be readily apparent. I do know what you think, I don't feel like that all the time, but I do feel often enough and get episodes of it. I've imagined my death in many theatrical and dramatic scenarios (lol) but I'm not certain if that gave me relief. I wonder why we do that though, considering most of us would not go through with it, under normal circumstances. Regardless, one should really evade telling that to a conventional psychiatrist or even a therapist as they tend to be "trigger friendly" (as Daniel Mackler called it) and will issue a 50/51 for that. I don't believe that being locked up and possibly treated poorly can help many depressive people.
What's the difference between intense feelings of worthlessness in mdd and intense feelings of worthlessness in psychotic depression? like when does it become a delusion/where's the line? Thanks
libbycatherine I asked this same question to my lecturer. Apparently is psychosis you may head voices or see things telling you that you are worthless. Also very bizarre beliefs about why ur worthless. Hope that helped - disclaimer not a professional, this info was from a psychology professor specialised in psychopathology 😊
One way to know for sure is to face evidence. If after compelling evidence you're still convinced with no doubt about it, then it's a delusion. It is a pretty fine line at times with black and white thinking though. "Grounded" delusions depression tend to be more along the lines of everyone hates you, you'll always fail no matter what, that you've got an illness that's getting out of hand( like dementia, arthritis, skin cancer). They're potentially possible, but there's no evidence for them and you don't need it anyway because you think you already know.
I was diagnosed with mdd but i was definitely psychotic ( my therapist ran a test and it said i had psychotic traits but she couldnt or didnt want to diagbosed me personally). I had delusions such as having severe brain damage then it morphed into believing i was dead. I dont know how common that is but i would ask people if i died ( i had afterlife rules. If i were dead and i asked if i died they would have to tell me i was dead.) of course they said no i was alive but even when they said i was alive i wouldn't believe them even though it went against my own rules. And thats a delusion. No matter what anyone would say i was convinced i was dead. It took therapy and time in a hospital to get it out of my head.
All I know is that...when I'm falling and failing to depression...I have to return to the simple. Be it focusing on how water feels on the skin in a shower, how the cool air of a breeze, how just being alive can be a pleasure with every breath. Let it all go and live in that moment. Finding a simple moment of enjoyment of living in that moment is what starts to fortify the foundations in my self. From that...be kind and slow and return to those simple things and start adding more. Treat yourself kindly and don't judge yourself harshly. I'm struggling right now. I have a wall of rage also that is...kept at bay and I haven't acted on. But I'll be fine. I just need to breathe and focus on the moment for a while.
Kati, just found your channel. You seem like you care a lot about peoples' mental health, and are very competent and knowledgable too. Refreshing and uplifting to listen to you, thank you.
I really love how informative every single one of your videos are Kati! They have helped me out a lot. 😃 I have a question that I didn't know if you could answer, Is there a difference between Skin Picking Disorder and Dermotillamania? I have heard the terms be used interchangeably from some people, but some people defined them as completely different diagnoses? Also, how could I theoretically bring up Skin Picking Disorder/ Dermotillamania to my therapist? (more specifically my new psychotherapist) Do I just say "hey I have this, what do I do about it?" I know it sounds simple, but it seems like a large daunting task to me. Thanks x
Finally got an answer to all my problems!! Thank you so much for taking your time to create this video. I was thinking that there was something major going wrong with me! I do have a small lesion/tumor in my frontal lobe but the docs keep saying it shouldn't be affecting my thought process and my ability to express what I wanna say to people during conversations!! I pretty much give up hope until seeing this coz all I kept thinking was that my supposed tumor is either growing or is causing my problems. Now I know that my depression has led to some form of mild psychosis that stops me from talking properly. This also rings true with the disorganised thinking and behaviour. Once again thank you ever so much now I know what to say to my GP!! (anyone reading this please don't follow me and self medicate with relaxers coz they do more harm in the long-term than good)... They do slow me down so I can express myself easier but after 3 years of taking them I'm only getting short term relief then I'm back to normal again all disorganised.
I'm often telling family members that there are days I have some psychosis happening. For me it's such confusion in my thoughts and I know it will subside as it usually comes after a bought of sleeplessness. Thanks for this quick note so I can share it. Hugs!
Kati M: You seem nice enough, but I am troubled at your suggesting ppl to go to Psych. hospital and get drugged for just those symptoms you name, - one can get such symptoms without it being psychosis, from reasons like long-term severe complex stress, insomnia/sleep deprivation, long-term complex problems/mental-soul pressure, being an HSP, malnourishment, digestive disorders. Please Question, folks, - the side-effects of drugs is not beneficial, and they don't cure anything, just suppress symptoms. They give them without proper examination, so the cause may not at all be revealed and get worse while you're sedated by the drug. Taxing your liver etc, and the remnants that your body doesn't absorb polluting the waters. There are natural cures. I am not talking about real severe, complex psychoses, although many of them too can be healed naturally druglessly. Depends on lifestyle etc.
I love this video, as I felt it very accurate of my experience with psychotic depression. I also experienced psychosis related to my OCD - I don't know how common this is? The main problem I had with my experience was how professionals (in my opinion) over-reacted to my psychosis. I was hospitalised fairly quickly after it first came to light, yet no one ever really talked it through with me. I can appreciate that I was very mistrusting of people, but there were a couple with whom I could be rational and sane. Also, it's well enough saying that medication is the best treatment for psychosis (it is, I know that now that I'm in a better place) but a lot of people experiencing psychosis do not trust meds - I most certainly didn't, and wouldn't take them until the last 6 weeks or so. I battled through psychosis on my own terms - that is, with a lot of support for my safety initially, and then with talking therapy. I now am "low level" psychotic, but I can distinguish it from reality nowadays.
Hey Kati! Just discovered your channel and I'm loving it so far! Love how you discuss these topics so clearly and calmly. Would you mind doing a video on dealing with grief while having depression/anxiety? I recently lost someone very dear to me and it's been very hard. Also dp/dr and psychosis have reappeared and worsen. The psychosis seems to get worse at night. Thanks in advance, darling! x
I have PMD and my last bout of psychosis was in 2012, I will give anything to never experience it again, life is far from perfect but my meds do a good enough job thank you for such a concise and destigmatizing vid
Going to the doctor just gets you locked up. How can someone get help if they know that they will end up locked in a cold room or ward . I know what your saying but it scares alot of people away from seeking help.
I was afraid of that very thing, however I have found, as an adult mind you, that if you have a candid conversation with your therapist about your fears regarding this, most are actually not likely to lock you away. Just keep in mind that it takes time and lots of effort to find the right professional for you.
Exactly what I was thinking. Why seek help when doing so runs the risk of getting you locked away. And people wonder why people don't get treated for mental health problems.
This isn’t true. You must actually tell the physician that you are contemplating suicide and at that point, they are mandated to put you into a mental hospital. Believe me 💯
Just don't say you have a plan do to whatever you're thinking, even if you do have a plan it could get you to back out by just sharing that youre thinking of it
I struggle with BPD and Major Depression.. had a bad psychotic break a month ago, and I'm still in denial about it. I guess I don't know how to feel. I keep trying to fix myself and keep myself safe, but it doesn't always feel that way. This helped, thank you.
p.s. if you live in the US, please support either a public option or "medicare for all." Please also support allowing the importation of prescriptions from Canada and other similar cost control measures that reduce the monopolies in our health care system. If I had been born in any other developed nation I would have healthcare as a right, rather than a luxury.
Shades of Ricoeur same Medicare is shit All the "help" they do is just give me drugs that I need to still pay for. Single payer healthcare was what I was hoping for but thanks to the shit stain we call Congress and corporations. Single payer Healthcare will never be possible :(
Shades of Riceur: Maybe it's your small luck not getting any, I'm sorry to say. They can do a lot of harm to vulnerable, exposed people. If i had known what would happen, I'd have stayed far away from them and probably searched for natural alternatives. Some are good, 1/20? And some patients easier or less complex, or attracting better care/treatment. I see others who did not seek help. They have their dis-eases, but not the retraumatuizations and extar layers from the co-called helpers. But then they didn't do any real research and work on themselves, too. Good luck, healing comes from within, from above and in the encounter with another.
major depressive disorder with psychotic i diagnosed my self with this mental illness when i was 19 basically it was hard time it took year and half to fully recover didn't go to therapist or nothing i was just willing to change with the best i can and forced my self to deal with every one of my problems social anxiety depression anxiety being shy hallucination alot more and now im 24 learned alot from those moments so basically you are not alone and believe me if dealt with all of this alone u can do alot more btw where im from when ppl see you dealing with stuff like this they will say u are crazy and make it worst so didn't say one word to no one until i fully recovered cuz too much pride even when i was in that deep and dark place i thought about suicide then telling my family and my few friends basically u can make it through i love yall u are not alone remember
thanks for stressing that psychosis does not mean you are crazy. i have difficulty accepting i was one until i just let it go. but thanks for this video. ❤
I’ve had anxiety for a year now, but it has turned into depression lately. I’ve been feeling so weird but last night I think I might have had a psychotic episode. I turkey felt like I wasn’t me anymore and that I wasn’t real, I thought I had imagined my whole life and none of it was real. I looked in the mirror and had a full panic attack because I didn’t know who that was looking back at me. I didn’t sleep at all because I felt so crazy all night. Today I’m not the best from it at all. I’m afraid to look in the mirror when I hear my voice it sounds alien to me. Please help is this a psychotic episode? Should I go the hospital?
#KatiFAQ Hi Kati! How are you doing? I hope everything is going well. Could you do a video on asexuality? I've been wanting to start a conversation about it with a few people in my life (including my therapist), but I feel hesitant. Have you ever had any experiences with clients who identify themselves somewhere in the asexual spectrum? Do you know other professionals who do? Thank you so much for all your videos, they are incredibly helpful to me. xoxo
Erika Nobetani I'm begrudgingly asexual. Feminism ruined my life. I'm really 90/10, but gave up on relationships bc they piss off all the feminists in my life.
After 25+ years of therapy, believe me, the conversation builds trust. How could I ever convey issues with someone as far as I know just considered me another client. I have had several good ones.. unfortunately they didn't stick around locally
schizoaffective is schizophrenia and depression/bipolar and psychotic depression is depression and psychosis. A symptom of schizophrenia is also psychosis which is why they are easily mixed up.
Great video! Just one thing from my own experience: if you have psychotic symptoms only during mood episodes make sure to explain it in big, bold letters to your health provider. Otherwise you may be misdiagnosed and/or not get the help you actually need. I struggled a lot to clarify that after initial misunderstanding and it still fuels my overall fear and negative symptoms when psychotic side of my disorder gets worse. Good luck to you all, stay strong!
Conor Hollywood I believe in schizoaffective disorder, there is a period of time where the psychotic symptoms are present when the mood symptoms are not. High five to fellow schizoaffective sufferer!
You do a great job at making me feel a little less phycotic, and it is up to me to get the help. My entire life is circling around pushing myself to see and honestly talk to a Dr. I gotta get it done
I feel like I've been trying to explain forever what happens when I'm not on my antidepressants and labelling the types of psychosis and how they work as part of psychotic depression feels really helpful. I feel like I have something clearer to say than "I get crazy. No, crazy-crazy. Like my thinking changes and I think things that aren't true and none of my techniques work." Which is something that a lot of professionals appear to have minimized. Going from wanting to die to thinking you're already dead *is* terrifying. (Right now I am medicated and safe - this is stuff I've dealt with historically)
Hospitals are worse than the depression itself. Especially when some out of high school student brings u meds w a nurse and looks at you like you have three heads.
My major depressive disorder turns psychotic when I'm under a lot of stress. I start hearing things I really don't want to. But when this happens and I realize they aren't real I know its a warning to call my doctor and get my stress levels under control.
Ahh-haa! "Proper" treatment. Now that's the problem for most people, actually getting PROPER treatment. Not just treatment. That's been my issue, I can't seem to find the proper part of treatment. All treatment I've received is lack luster improper & inadequate treatment. I always feel like I get cookie-cutter treatment or another way to say it would be, bullshit associates degree social worker treatment. I'm not getting any better, worse in fact because now I'm frustrated. I want to give up!
njvabchgrl 1 I spent 4 years with one therapist who finally said I should wear glasses for my hypervigilance. That was her most honest solution, she even said I should get my eyes tested after 4 years, I knew she ruined my most precious years I was just 23 when I went to see her for help. She could have changed my life.
Hey guys. I suffered with severe OCD (scrupulosity and others) as well as side effects that included depression periodically. I have noticed throughout my journey that working out (coupled with medicine of course) has vastly increased my capability to cope with my illness and has overall increased my morale and overall happiness. Please do not stay in your room all day during this pandemic. Please go somewhere and work out or run, do something for your body. It worked for me and well as good eating habits. Not saying I am fully healed, as this battle has gone on for 3 years, but I will say working out, medication, and proper diet have helped me immensly. When your body is good, your mind will be better too. Love you all.
I've been living with untreated Major Depressive Disorder for almost 20 years. I was diagnosed and treated at age 13 but medication either made me worse or had no effect at all. So I stopped taking it. Every day is a struggle, it sucks most of the time and has affected my personal life. At age 33 I have no friends, I haven't been in a relationship in 12 years and I'm afraid to go out to social places like bars because a fairly new symptom of major anxiety popped up 8 years ago when I moved from California to Louisiana. Now I get panic attacks at grocery stores, fun. I'm also a veteran, but the VA has put me on wait list to see a counselor three different times, so I have lost faith that anything will ever get better for me.
I have social anxiety and i always didnt go to school..if i tell my grandma why i dont wanna go to school..she just yells at me and WONT UNDERSTAND..what am i supposed to do?Help..any advice?..and pardon my english..it's really bad i know..english is not my first language but i think it's pretty good for a girl that rarely go to school..the school problem started when i was 8 years old and now i'm 14..my social anxiety started when i started pre school..and my sister don't speak to people because she followed me..i dont know how to start a conversation..i dont know how to create sentence when talking to people..i'm afraid that i will hurt people's feeling when i talk to them..i have asked my grandma if she can take me to a psychologist or anything but she just get mad at me..what am i supposed to do?btw i have depression too..and i think i also have other problems because i behave like a child..i need help..
Crystal Blitzz I read something on Quora about social anxiety. I forgot what it really said but, You're the one that tells you're a bad person,ugly, etc. Because of your thoughts, I know it's hard because I have it too but I'm healing now it's not worst like before. The only thing that I would suggest to you is that don't listen to what your thoughts says about you because people around you don't think that you are that person that you think you are. This is hard but try opening up to the world, don't lock yourself to your thoughts because it will only make you worst by your hateful stuffs that your mind think. I know you can do this , if I can I'm sure you'll too ^___^ Good luck! 😊😊😊💖💕
I hope things are much better for you - if not maybe you might find this helpful - I found this resource helped me a lot - www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Resources/Looking-After-Yourself/Social-Anxiety
I've been manic depressive for 25 years, originally diagnosed as bi-polar, attempted suicide twice since my divorce and 1st started noticing "voices" about the same time. There are 4 of them, very distinct personalities and have formed their own nuances and "sounds". I understand they're just different aspects of my own fears and doubts, but I gave them names and even picture them in my head as different people altogether. I've never talked to anyone about them until the past year, even doctors. I have an appointment to speak to my doctor this week to apply as a patient to a place called the Sara Riel Center. My voices; Clint is straight-forward, cynical, cantankerous and insulting outwardly at the world and everybody in it. I imagine Clint Eastwood, the old grizzly version from Gran Torino, and his favorite term is "Whippershnapper!" Christopher is like Christopher Robin, very prepschool-like, well mannered, quiet & lonely who makes up imaginary friends and daydreams a lot. He's needy and clingy with abandonment and trust issues but really wants just 1 good friend. He's the quietest of the voices and cries a lot. His favorite term is "I'm sorry." He even stutters and slurs like I did as a kid. Jeff (Spicoli) is lazy, laid back and doesn't give a fuck about anyone or anything. He's a procrastinator with a Masters in Avoidance who often plays annoying songs in my head such as Barney the Dinosaur's "I Love You" but changes the lyrics to taunt and ridicule me, "I hate life, life hates me. I should hang from an old dead tree." He's a huge source of my low self-esteem and suicidal thoughts, but he's funny as fuck. Damn him! His favorite term is "Fuck the world, I need a toke." Sheena (Easton) is a female voice with a lovely Irish lilt. She's very defensive and guarded, sort of like a motherly bodyguard for my fragile emotions aka Christopher. (My own mum abandoned me when I was 2) She's mostly quiet when I'm alone but constantly seeing and warning of dangers, real & imagined, when I'm around others. She doesn't have any favorite terms but talks like a beatnik, men are "Daddio" and women are "Chicky" She, and Jeff but to a lesser degree, are the source of my paranoia and they all contribute to my delusional thoughts like "Everyone hates you!" & "They can't hurt you if ye're dead." Carrie's mum (Stephen King) also springs to mind because Sheena seems very disappointed in me and in a way makes me afraid of myself. As an introvert I dwell on things and have a LOT of alone time to go into great details, thanks mostly to Christopher and Jeff. Ever since my dad hung himself in 2003 (he was also psychotic depressive) I swore to never attempt to commit suicide again, it's a harder and harder promise to keep as time moves on. Anywho, thanks for the vid.
i feel like depression is the purgatory for awareness. once you get through it and realize life’s just painful you can move on and start getting shit done
Evan Douglas - Yeah, that definitely helps a bit. I think we’ve developed a culture of thinking that life should be “happy”. And if you’re not “happy” there’s something wrong with you. It can be quite freeing to realise that actually much of life is suffering. That everyone is in the same boat with you to some extent. And that meaning can be found in confronting that and working through it,
Thank you Kati, your videos are absolutely amazing! In this day n age that everyone looks online for answers, where unfortunately the information provided is not correct, your videos are a breath of fresh air. You are doing Gods work. Thank u
what I struggle with, I have serious depression, I've learnt how to keep going regardless of what I'm feeling but after a while things that have happened in my life start piling up and now I swear I have audible hallucinations where I can hear people constantly critizing me? I mean how do we know we're hallucinating? I'm freaked out and really don't want to go to a hospital.
I just wanted to give feedback about the way you say "my" or "our". For example "my depression or our depression". Its very inclusive and accepting and makes me feel part of a positive accepting group. Its very powerful and I wanted you to know the language was very effective and a really positive thing for me.
Adrian Millard
Yes! It's so great 😍😍😍
Interesting. I would've have even thought this would matter to people in this case... Good to see it works though!
Im Nothere Takes one to know one now doesn't it?
Man, you people on here really DO HAVE serious mental issues!
I disagree. It's normalizing something that is abnormal. It's making someone who may not have these or other symptoms feel like they do or should have them. Notice the rising number in people with mental illness. Some is due to an easier access to information and ultimately clinical diagnosis but with that a growing number of wishfully disturbed hopefuls that are unnecessarily medicated and overdiagnosed
I have psychotic depression, but I went so long without ever talking about my psychosis because I was so afraid of what people would think.
I absolutely love the fact that you talk in such a matter of fact way about conditions and symptoms no matter how stigmatised they are in wider society. So important to break through the shame and embarrassment that people are often made to feel. If we're unwell and struggling we deserve care and support it's as simple as that.
Thank you so much for the sweet comment :)
Kati Morton can you be bipolar yet in a MDD state??
Susan McKinstery yes!
Yes
I agree! She is such a lovely person. I have been suffering with depression so I enjoy listening to her videos, and I love how she says “we”.
Tough when your trapped in your head. Having OCD as well as depression and anxiety make daily living very difficult.
You are not alone
I have diagnosed with OCD, Depression, And Social Anxiety. I have all of that since 2 Years ago and My Life is getting Worse and unworthful since then. I always wanted to Die but I just can't kill Myself
hell...
I KNOW😭😭😭
FUCKING FUCKING HARD!! 😭😭
I CANT DO THIS, I'M SO FUCKING TIRED.. I WANT TO KILL MYSELF
@@euphoricsadnessx life is hard. It's hard every day. I recently went through a crazy mental breakdown. It was terrifying. I will say, I made a choice to stop trying SO HARD to meet the expectations and demands of EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING else and started trying to control his I REACT instead. It's not easy. I took a personality test out of boredom ond day and it came up ENFP T so I started watching videos on UA-cam about my personality type and I FINALLY FELT UNDERSTOOD for the first time like ever! Try it! It's really such a positive exploration of yourself. You're not alone. Please hang in there! Sending love and hugs! You're Gonna make it.
I have severe depression. Ive seen and heard things occasionally that arent there. I get paranoid that people dont really like me they just tolerate me. Ive had breakdowns where Ive screamed my head off after feeling overwhelmed. I have days I dont even want to get up or do anything I just want to sleep and never wake up. Ive been on medications countless times had years of counseling and been to therapists. I know exactly what your talking about. I'm glad I watch stuff like this it makes me feel better about what's wrong. My family has a history of mental problems. So mine is herediatry. I just hope I dont pass it on to my son. Hes 2 and soo full of life. I would hate for him to have to go through all of this too.
Ivory Strange wow that sounds just like me. Hope things get better XOXO
please my sis keep hear stuff that not true on her mind how I can help her she think that people talk about her what I can do to help her
Strange you just described my entire existence to a “T”, thank you for sharing, it’s hard to talk about it for me, but you found words I struggle to find... thank you, for letting me know I am not alone👍🙏👍🙏
I was like this for about a month last year
I suffer to ive decided to give up i cant take the emotional abuse anymore either
Unfortunately many of us don't go to the hospital because we can't afford it. I know that sounds silly because we also can't afford to stay unhealthy but it's true. My insurance is expensive but not great coverage:(
Michele Hale Same here. When it comes to mental health, I have to cough up 6k in deductible before it would even cover anything. Hopefully I'll have enough saved up by next year to cover it for a while, but will be floating on in my anxiety/depressive bubble until then. I've been living with it for about 4 years at this level now, so what's another 6 months?
Yeah I was forced to go and it’s so expensive, it was a great experience but I wouldn’t willingly go
You have to pay for hospitals??? Omg that’s horrible.
What the fuck, I love your country so much but I could not fathom having to pay so much for essential healthcare.... for example my medication all together before subsidizing would cost about $200 but after it goes through medicare gets brought down to about $63 all up. I don't understand why your government refuses to implement universal healthcare, it's like they want all your poor people to drop dead
US Healthcare and Health Insurance is such a joke and a scam respectively.
My wife went through this 2 years ago. She's 100% better thank god she had an amazing doctor that knew it right away. It was incredibly rough but she made it through and back out the other side stronger than ever. If you are going through this or know someone is please hang in there and don't give up. I can promise it gets better.
When I lost my little brother, my mom, that have major depressive disorder, developed psychosis, she thought she could hear my brother crying, she was kinda lost in time, and i dont remember much (i guess my brain just blocked those things) but i know it was awfull. Happily she is better now and dont have psychosis anymore, but i know how hard it can be for the person and to the people around.
How did you treat it?
🙏🙏🙏
Art was my passion. It was my whole life, my past, present, and future. It was gonna be my career. I drew almost every day, I loved it. Recently, I just haven’t been getting that joy that it used to give me. I don’t think I can just keep calling it “art block” if it’s been this way for 2 years. I try to draw but it’s just tedious and difficult, not fun and challenging and exiting. I just wish I could be 8 years old again, watching Pokémon black and white on Netflix and having that moment of pure awe because **this is what I want to do. This is what I’m willing to dedicate my life to achieving.** that moment of joy because I found something i loved and something that would stick with me my whole life. As far as I can remember, I have loved art. Watching that joy slipping away is like watching my life end. It sounds over dramatic but I’m not exaggerating. For me, not enjoying art is synonymous with the end of my life.
edit: doing better now! turns out i needed to just draw all the time as much as i could (there are so many drawings on my empty math notes bc i treat precalc as art class), just something i enjoy like eyes and faces and just draw constantly and shocker i improved and found my love of art again! also a lot of working through stuff finding thought patterns and strategies that work for me bc depression is manageable !!
Dancing, Singing, and Art is my passion, when i saw this i couldn’t believe i have psychotic depression, because i’m living such a happy life but like, something was missing. i was like, ‘’WOW, i have mental illness?, that’s crazy’’
Psych meds can cause this, I know I'm an artist too with Bipolar and BPD and what was once a passion of mine, I go through art blocks and find creating art a struggle, it often feels like a chore. I believe you , and feel for you. What has been working for me is try to make art everyday, even if I find little joy in it, it's just sort of going through the motions, but I find that slowly I'm breaking through to a place where I can enjoy it, but I'm own worst critic, never very happy with the results. Sometimes switching mediums works, I usually make art on the computer, but sometimes it feels easier to just draw with pen and paper, or paint, or sculpt. I hope things improve for you. Many people don't understand how frustrating this problem can be for an artist, they can be sort of callous but don't let that get you down. if you are on meds consider switching or maybe quitting that you suspect may be causing it. If you are not on meds, think about about trying them for awhile. Just don't give up, i know how hard it can be. My brother commited suicide 2 years ago, and I'm so angry that he gave up, even though I understand that he was really suffering. Things can change, they can improve. My heart really goes out to you.
I feel exactly the same way with reading and books. Thank you for describing my thoughts and my life for the past 3 years.
I've suffered with depression for around 7 years now. Two years ago I went through psychotic depression. It was the worst month of my life but thankfully one of my friends picked up on the symptoms and I was hospitalised. We was out walking together and I kept talking about people in black that were out to get me. In the distance I saw a dog walker wearing all black and dived straight into a bunch of wet bushes. He said I rambled incomprehensibly to him and out of worry he drove me to the hospital. I spent 16 days receiving treatment via medicine and therapy. Thankfully things got better and since then I've not had anymore symptoms. Thank you for sharing this video and highlighting this illness to people. I think it's important that everyone knows what to look out for and can understand they are not alone and can get better.
You're lucky
so are you still on neuroleptics?
This just made me cry. You are so kind, nonjudgmental, hopeful, and encouraging. I went through a severe depressive episode with pyschosis last year and it was the scariest thing in my life. Through that, I also had OCD symptoms, depersonalization, disorganized thinking, etc. and I felt so much shame and guilt for the way my brain was working. I'm still severely exhausted but grateful to be on the other side. Thank you for being so amazing and making these videos.
How did you get to the other side ? Pls help
How did you get on the other side please help
I recently got diagnosed with MDD with psychotic features, with OCD as well. And I’m so scared of telling people like my family that I was diagnosed with psychotic depression, and it’s bc they don’t believe in mental health issues they just claim it’s the devil or worse, “you’re just crazy”…. Thank god for my husband who has been with me this whole time and is also diagnosed with MDD so I know I’m not alone, and I can’t talk to him about things. ❤️
Is very hard.
Too much ignorance in our society.
You are right.
That´s the Problem!
Swear
Thank you. I appreciate that you spoke in the first person, like you do with EDs, self-harm, etc. In your last video about psychosis, you kept saying "they" and it felt a little other-ing. It's such a small thing, but it means a lot.
Hospitals are absolutely terrifying
Agreed
100% I’ve been in and out for years
Not to be dramatic, but I subscribed BC she seemed reasonable, but then she stressed hoping to the hospital, and I know that for me personally, I would kill myself before I let myself get admitted. And like if they sedated me, I'd just give up my will to live, on purpose. The hospital doesn't care about you, outpatient places like "continuum of care ct" are a better bet. Not perfect and hella restrictive, but its better than being a number.
@@avalley6421 There are many, many nurses and doctors that do care about their patients. Yes, to the city, dean of the said hospital and the board you are most likely just a number but hospitals exist to cure people. Not going to hospitals just because they don't care about you is like not sending your car to a mechanic just because they do not care about your car.
You aren’t fuckin’ around, man.
I have psychotic depression that is medication-resistant. One thing that happens to me and I have heard from others is that we know our hallucinations are not real, we know it's a symptom but for those of us with audial hallucinations, it gets hard to ignore the screams telling you to kill yourself. It does get better, trust me, I have been there, you need support and fight.
This sounds Demonic . I recommend pray very hard to JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH
@@rubenbustamante1828this is so offensive and rude. The individual has mental illness and you’d have more empathy and understanding of what that’s like if you watched the video. I also have psychotic depression. We aren’t plagued by demons, we’re sick.
thank you so much for this video. i had a psychotic episode while depressed in july and was so confused and scared. i was in the hospital for a week and since then ive been doing great - havent had another since. thank you for normalizing this. i didn't realize that it was common - i thought it only happened to people with schizophrenia.
After watching this, I've come to a conclusion that I relate to this illness the most. I am not diagnosed by a psychiatrist, but I feel like this sounds like me. I am going to get the help I want, and need. Thank you for this!
Same bro
I'm depressed for long enough, I act as if I don't know what I am doing, I don't feel myself. I'm always lost.
I love that she uses "us" and "we". It really emphesises therapeutic communication.
I'm fighting depression and it's been getting worse. This video made me cry because I feel like I truly am beginning to go crazy there's been so many traumatic events in my life the past few months that everything is just overwhelming me. I wake up crying and shaking. Thinking I have no friends, nobody cares for me, or I'm alone, even if I'm in a crowded room. I feel like whatever I do, or whatever anyone else says, its fake and the truth is just that everyone doesn't wanna be around me. And it hurts so so much. But doctors... I can't afford it. I truly can't. But I really feel useless in my life. This helped me understand. That I'm not alone. Feeling the way I do. I wish nobody had to feel this way.
Thank you for this. I know that I need help ASAP when I experience psychotic depression. The hospital is there to help you but remember to be brave and advocate for yourself through the entire hospitalization process
"Proper treatment" and that is the challenge I have had friends with 20 years of depression and no psychiatrist has come up with the same diagnosis, and none can agree on the medication. 20 years on....she is NO better in fact she is worse from the experimentation on a plethora of medications.
ZOE'S HEALTH.BEAUTY.LIFESTYLE. Same here. Not quite 20 years though. I think for some it's a case of managing their illness. I have had much worse times but better ones too. It sucks and a lot of doctors are so vague. It's a constant battle.
Maybe you should try meditating, exercising more, research ways to natural imporve seretonin :^)
Hailey Stewart That won't work with serious mental problems.
I would try holistic. It might help if you are into that kind of thing!
Zoe-Holistic Health
try psychedelics
My son was just diagnosed with depression with psychotic features. He has lost his job, his wife left and took his daughter. He stays in one room all day. All of his friends stopped coming around. He is living in a nightmare with all the symptoms you mentioned. This has been going on for over a year now. I have felt hopeless and helpless trying to help him. You gave me hope for his future. I didn't think he would ever be himself again. Thank you for this video it was very informative.
My dad suffers from dianosed psychotic depression and bipolar disorder (idk if it comes from the bipolar maybe?) he's had this since i was alive but was never diagnosed until very recently. He was completely oblivious that he had any kind of problems. He thought everyone around him was crazy and that they were the problem not him. It makes it extremely hard for my family because as a kid i grew to resent him because he would constantly place blame on us and say horrible things about us and at that point i had no idea he had any mental disorder. My mum always kinda suspected but i was too young to realise. In my personal experience with people with these symptoms i would say to anyone else affected, try to separate the psychotic and bipolar symptoms from the real personality of the person. When they flip out or are talking to themselves or people in their head, thats not really them, that just a symptom or the disorder. Anyway thats my lil story :) Thankyou for making this video it was extremely informative!
Masey I'm like four months late but I relate to your dad hardcore and it really sucks. Its honestly good hearing someone outside of my our "our" issues and mind set (being your dad and my psychotic depression with bipolar disorder) being able to separate that from the person.. That's hard for my parents to do with me. I can't imagine how comforting it is for your dad to know that you recognize that difference. Not that its an excuse for his or any ones actions at all. Its hard to explain
It's amazing how many people can watch these informative, accurate, truthful videos on mental illness and still think we're making it up, we don't need the help we're getting, and that most of us don't deserve our diagnosis. It's these ignorant, hateful individuals that push the mentally ill past their breaking point. These people don't care to educate themselves and contribute to our problems rather than be a part of the solution. Try opening your eyes and realizing what's actually happening with the people around you, caring to make it better, and stop denying how many people go through these things because you haven't yourself. I was discharged from the military with major depression and suicidal ideations, and it's no different for a civilian. There are all different levels and types of mental illness, millions of people go through it every day of our life, and when you publicly show how little you care it only makes things worse for us. Thank you to the thoughtful people who put out these videos to help us understand better what we are going through and how we might help those around us!
Thank you for simplyfing psychotic depression. Years ago I got diagnosed with major depressive disorder with psychotic symptoms (I think is how they worded it). So not fully psychotic depression but has some of those symptoms. And it was hard for me to understand what that meant, I just knew what I was experiencing so thank you.
Hi
I just wanted to thank you. I'm not sure if it's your personality or your tone but you make me feel really accepted and hopeful. I have been battling depression my entire life since post partum (almost 10 years). Within the last three years I was moved to a small town that has few doctors. I hate finding a therapist because it always feels like I have to start my whole life story over again. maybe I should just write a book lol. But thank you :)
Thanks for sharing. Depression/Anxiety and mental health in general have such a stigma in our society and the more people like yourself talk about it the more the stigma will reduce in our society. My channel is solely about mental health and reducing this stigma. So many people do not seek treatment because they are afraid what people will say and this is destroying people’s lives. This needs to stop. Keep up the great work.
I just got out of the mental hospital I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder with psychotic features and I’m 14 so I’m glad they caught it early
i want to talk to my doctor but my anxiety prevents me.
You need to tell your Dr everything, they are there for you.
Tawkoz 123 I struggled with that same thought process. I always knew I needed help but had extreme anxiety about seeking help. It's a catch 22 situation. It's not an easy thing to make yourself do. I have Been suffering for 28 years. I always self medicated and all that got me was in jail a few times and homeless. I finally had to get help. It doesn't go away, with time the symptoms become worse. But had I watched this video first I would have never gone. And I now have anxiety about going back to my appointment because Im not down with being put in a Looney bin, even if it is only for observation.
yahya s5230 / ... women usually have more then men
It's not easy but being truthful and open to my doctor has actually freed me. I thought I would be judged but instead I got understanding and concern. Your doctors should be there for your health and your well being. I love my doctors and nurse practitioners for their professionalism.
Me too ! 😔
I was diagnosed with only psychosis. No other mental illness. I am from the Netherlands. We have good psychosis related researchers and support here. Thanks for this video, very helpfull. Good information. (Sorry for my bad English)
I'm at my wits end. I've struggled since at least the age of 15 and am nearly 44. Also am trying to care for my Mother who also had mental health issues and dementia . I was on meds for years and they didnt really help so I recently decided to discontinue therapy.
As a licensed social worker I absolutely love your channel I just came across it tonight and I'm obsessed with watching your videos! You're very descriptive and in an easy-to-understand way while still covering so much information you really have a talent and thank you for what you do! Very inspiring keep up the good work
I think when it comes to hallucinations, one thing that needs to be touched on more (pun) are tactile hallucinations. When you think of psychosis you think of hearing or seeing things that aren't there, but never feeling, I find it odd! Maybe it's more rare, I'm not sure.
you can have olfactory hallucinations as well, i think they are very rare though as i guess our brain gets more distracted by sounds and visuals , so these two are more likely to get messed up?
i don't know im just assuming!
Madeleine Benson + I would have thought that a tactile hallucination would be very difficult for the brain to create. In the same way that in dreams, we rarely have tactile or olfactory aspects to a dream. I have only had a tactile dream once (I grabbed the handrail on a bus!) and an olfactory dream once, when I smelt some spices in a bottle (spices that do not exist in real-life, I invented them!).
I heard that when schizophrenics hear voices, they only hear male voices because the brain finds it easier to conjure up a male voice because female voices are far more complex, inflexions etc.
I've had hallucinations of "phantom smells" a few times (I have a friend with extremly similar mental health disorders to mine who gets them too). Generally her and I will smell foods that are not in the house, building, or area. I generally ask my roommates who know I have psychosis symptoms with my mental illnesses if they see, hear, or smell what I do just so I am aware for myself 100% about it.
My mum gets all tactile, visual, and auditory hallucinations with her neurological disorder (MS) and my roommate's family gets them with their epileptic seizures too. I'm not sure if hallucinating a smell is "tactile" or not... I hope this was on topic...
I know that some patients with hallucinations get ones connected to bodily functions too. Those ones look kinda scary to get. I've met someone that I think gets them. She looked terrified and more miserable than I've ever seen anyone be during them. I forget what those kind are called, I don't think it's under tactile, but I could be wrong.
Raven Black + Very interesting indeed! I'd not heard of this before. I've only heard of someone with a brain tumour having olfactory hallucinations, which were cured after removal of the tumour. Obviously the tumour was pressing on a specific area of the brain.
Apparently, a tactile hallucination is one involving being touched by an imaginary object. The one involving taste is called a Gustatory Hallucination and a Cenesthetic Hallucination is the one involving bodily functions.
Rapunzel Mane yeah, my hallucinations don't happen too often, but the smell one seems to be the most frequent type lately. They can get weirdly specific sometimes that i just can't help but laugh at them. A recent one was the smell of the shrimp scampi from a restaurant in my home town 45 minutes away from me.... there was no way any of it was in my current city, let alone my house(it's a small business in a not well known town). I have no idea why they'd get THAT specific, but it did. It took me a few minutes to even realise it was likely my brain messing with me. I used to hear things more-so (voices that sounded very robotic. I couldn't make out actual words being said usually, but there was usually a male "robot" and a female "robot" definitely speaking)...I still get those too sometimes. I've only had 1 visual hallucination that I am aware of so far. I saw 2 spiders. I only really thought it may have been a hallucination after I smashed one, but there was no body left behind...My roommates confirmed that there was no sign of spiders later too.(these started after I came of my meds, so they are a fairly new thing with my life-long mental illness symptoms...I'm seeking new doctors currently)
Also, tactile is feeling things? Like when, I feel bugs crawling all over me? I got that one after the spider incident tbh. My arachnophobia also became horrifically worse...though I think I'm more afraid of them not being real that the actual spider itself. Some of my paranoid delusions have horrifying images pop up in my head (imagination versus seeing them) and I am so afraid of those images being the next thing I see that isn't there.
Getting a job has helped me too....I had lived off my retirement for about a year avoiding getting one because the last place I worked was toxic and a year before that my wife left and six months before that one of my students had died. I am healing and videos like these help so much. I apply a lot of what is suggested and then go with what works. I have been able to sleep normal time for the last week and a half straight.
I'm so happy you post videos, Kati! They are so helpful to so many people. Thank you!
You make it seem so simple. And also you're so dedicated to mental health. I wish I find someone with at least 1/5 of your passion and expertise that can really help me. It's been 8 years and I still don't even have a diagnosis.
Wish you all the best and hope you earn lots of money with this bids because you deserve
Just thought I would chime in on my experience with major depression for me. Imagine for a moment, that a love one just died. Imagine the sense of loss, the loniness, the grief. Imagine those feelings lasting for weeks, for months. Now imagine having those feelings for no reason at all. Nothing about it makes sense yet those feeling persist. Imagine having to fake being normal so people will continue to socialize with you. Constantly wearing a mask, acting a part you don't believe in but desperately hoping it will fool your coworkers, your friends, your family. Welcome to my world.
Not trying to trigger or stress anyone but the only relief I can find most days when I'm faking being "normal" is to imagine and plan out my death. I imagine different scenarios and work through them in minute detail with the idea to make it painless, non-messy and to hide evidence of an obvious suicide. Macabre I know but it's the only thing that seems to bring comfort to me. I don't know how healthy having an exit plan is but its the only way I've been able to cope over the years.
Justin Bailey Hey, you described this so well, i feel the same way 😓 The thing is I can only feel peace when I am thinking I am about to die. That is the only moment I don't feel the pain anymore. 😞
Justin Bailey same man but I gotta admit we dig the dirt beneath us every time we wear that mask.
Planning your death is not normal. It is a big red flag. Please seek professional help.
Justin Bailey just giving props to your name, typed that code a lot 25+ years ago!
If you can pretend to be normal, go to school/work/etc. it's considered a functional depressive disorder, more so if you don't exhibit the somatic symptoms, though the latter is not mandatory for depression diagnosis.
Also, I myself (and I'm definitely not alone in it, see Jordan Petterson for example) consider that depression is never without a cause/trigger although one may not be readily apparent.
I do know what you think, I don't feel like that all the time, but I do feel often enough and get episodes of it. I've imagined my death in many theatrical and dramatic scenarios (lol) but I'm not certain if that gave me relief. I wonder why we do that though, considering most of us would not go through with it, under normal circumstances. Regardless, one should really evade telling that to a conventional psychiatrist or even a therapist as they tend to be "trigger friendly" (as Daniel Mackler called it) and will issue a 50/51 for that. I don't believe that being locked up and possibly treated poorly can help many depressive people.
i've said it before but you really should know how good it is that you talk about "we" and "us". i really love that. thank you
What's the difference between intense feelings of worthlessness in mdd and intense feelings of worthlessness in psychotic depression? like when does it become a delusion/where's the line? Thanks
libbycatherine I'm interested too 🤔 It sounds tricky to pinpoint unless the symptoms are something like extreme beliefs
libbycatherine I asked this same question to my lecturer. Apparently is psychosis you may head voices or see things telling you that you are worthless. Also very bizarre beliefs about why ur worthless. Hope that helped - disclaimer not a professional, this info was from a psychology professor specialised in psychopathology 😊
One way to know for sure is to face evidence. If after compelling evidence you're still convinced with no doubt about it, then it's a delusion. It is a pretty fine line at times with black and white thinking though.
"Grounded" delusions depression tend to be more along the lines of everyone hates you, you'll always fail no matter what, that you've got an illness that's getting out of hand( like dementia, arthritis, skin cancer). They're potentially possible, but there's no evidence for them and you don't need it anyway because you think you already know.
I was diagnosed with mdd but i was definitely psychotic ( my therapist ran a test and it said i had psychotic traits but she couldnt or didnt want to diagbosed me personally). I had delusions such as having severe brain damage then it morphed into believing i was dead. I dont know how common that is but i would ask people if i died ( i had afterlife rules. If i were dead and i asked if i died they would have to tell me i was dead.) of course they said no i was alive but even when they said i was alive i wouldn't believe them even though it went against my own rules. And thats a delusion. No matter what anyone would say i was convinced i was dead. It took therapy and time in a hospital to get it out of my head.
Cammi Morgon I feel this
I've been diagnosed with Psychotic depression. I appreciate this video very much.
All I know is that...when I'm falling and failing to depression...I have to return to the simple. Be it focusing on how water feels on the skin in a shower, how the cool air of a breeze, how just being alive can be a pleasure with every breath. Let it all go and live in that moment. Finding a simple moment of enjoyment of living in that moment is what starts to fortify the foundations in my self. From that...be kind and slow and return to those simple things and start adding more. Treat yourself kindly and don't judge yourself harshly.
I'm struggling right now. I have a wall of rage also that is...kept at bay and I haven't acted on. But I'll be fine. I just need to breathe and focus on the moment for a while.
Kati, just found your channel. You seem like you care a lot about peoples' mental health, and are very competent and knowledgable too. Refreshing and uplifting to listen to you, thank you.
I really love how informative every single one of your videos are Kati! They have helped me out a lot. 😃 I have a question that I didn't know if you could answer, Is there a difference between Skin Picking Disorder and Dermotillamania? I have heard the terms be used interchangeably from some people, but some people defined them as completely different diagnoses?
Also, how could I theoretically bring up Skin Picking Disorder/ Dermotillamania to my therapist? (more specifically my new psychotherapist) Do I just say "hey I have this, what do I do about it?" I know it sounds simple, but it seems like a large daunting task to me. Thanks x
I am a skin picker and I'm pretty sure dermatillomania is the technical name. x
StaceFubar Me too.
There's no difference at all .they r the same .❤️😊
+StaceFubar yup. 😊❤️⭐️
I so wish more research and understanding would be developed about ICD/OCD like Dermatillomania and trichotillomania
Just came back from the hospital for this recently and it helped so much. I love your accepting and nonjudgmental attitude in this video :)
Finally got an answer to all my problems!! Thank you so much for taking your time to create this video. I was thinking that there was something major going wrong with me! I do have a small lesion/tumor in my frontal lobe but the docs keep saying it shouldn't be affecting my thought process and my ability to express what I wanna say to people during conversations!! I pretty much give up hope until seeing this coz all I kept thinking was that my supposed tumor is either growing or is causing my problems. Now I know that my depression has led to some form of mild psychosis that stops me from talking properly. This also rings true with the disorganised thinking and behaviour. Once again thank you ever so much now I know what to say to my GP!! (anyone reading this please don't follow me and self medicate with relaxers coz they do more harm in the long-term than good)... They do slow me down so I can express myself easier but after 3 years of taking them I'm only getting short term relief then I'm back to normal again all disorganised.
I'm often telling family members that there are days I have some psychosis happening. For me it's such confusion in my thoughts and I know it will subside as it usually comes after a bought of sleeplessness. Thanks for this quick note so I can share it. Hugs!
Loving the new background! Very profesh. (:
Yay!! thanks! xoxo
Kati M: You seem nice enough, but I am troubled at your suggesting ppl to go to Psych. hospital and get drugged for just those symptoms you name, - one can get such symptoms without it being psychosis, from reasons like long-term severe complex stress, insomnia/sleep deprivation, long-term complex problems/mental-soul pressure, being an HSP, malnourishment, digestive disorders. Please Question, folks, - the side-effects of drugs is not beneficial, and they don't cure anything, just suppress symptoms. They give them without proper examination, so the cause may not at all be revealed and get worse while you're sedated by the drug. Taxing your liver etc, and the remnants that your body doesn't absorb polluting the waters. There are natural cures. I am not talking about real severe, complex psychoses, although many of them too can be healed naturally druglessly. Depends on lifestyle etc.
Nazune Miku have you tried cannabis
Cannabis works for a lot of things but don't recommend it to people who suffer from psychosis, thanks!
Roxanne Reasco is
A good way to kind of explain psychosis is that it is a state a person can be in, not a disorder but something that comes with some disorders
I love this video, as I felt it very accurate of my experience with psychotic depression. I also experienced psychosis related to my OCD - I don't know how common this is? The main problem I had with my experience was how professionals (in my opinion) over-reacted to my psychosis. I was hospitalised fairly quickly after it first came to light, yet no one ever really talked it through with me. I can appreciate that I was very mistrusting of people, but there were a couple with whom I could be rational and sane. Also, it's well enough saying that medication is the best treatment for psychosis (it is, I know that now that I'm in a better place) but a lot of people experiencing psychosis do not trust meds - I most certainly didn't, and wouldn't take them until the last 6 weeks or so. I battled through psychosis on my own terms - that is, with a lot of support for my safety initially, and then with talking therapy. I now am "low level" psychotic, but I can distinguish it from reality nowadays.
Wow. I was diagnosed with GAD and Severe Depression with Psychosis!! Thanks for sharing and caring.
Hey Kati! Just discovered your channel and I'm loving it so far! Love how you discuss these topics so clearly and calmly. Would you mind doing a video on dealing with grief while having depression/anxiety? I recently lost someone very dear to me and it's been very hard. Also dp/dr and psychosis have reappeared and worsen. The psychosis seems to get worse at night. Thanks in advance, darling! x
Same for me
I have PMD and my last bout of psychosis was in 2012, I will give anything to never experience it again, life is far from perfect but my meds do a good enough job thank you for such a concise and destigmatizing vid
Going to the doctor just gets you locked up. How can someone get help if they know that they will end up locked in a cold room or ward . I know what your saying but it scares alot of people away from seeking help.
I was afraid of that very thing, however I have found, as an adult mind you, that if you have a candid conversation with your therapist about your fears regarding this, most are actually not likely to lock you away. Just keep in mind that it takes time and lots of effort to find the right professional for you.
Exactly what I was thinking. Why seek help when doing so runs the risk of getting you locked away. And people wonder why people don't get treated for mental health problems.
Not true. Mental health professionals tend to seek treatment more often and earlier when issues arise because they recognize the symptoms earlier.
This isn’t true. You must actually tell the physician that you are contemplating suicide and at that point, they are mandated to put you into a mental hospital. Believe me 💯
Just don't say you have a plan do to whatever you're thinking, even if you do have a plan it could get you to back out by just sharing that youre thinking of it
I struggle with BPD and Major Depression.. had a bad psychotic break a month ago, and I'm still in denial about it. I guess I don't know how to feel. I keep trying to fix myself and keep myself safe, but it doesn't always feel that way. This helped, thank you.
maybe in an ideal world ... but I belong to the working class and just can't afford it
p.s. if you live in the US, please support either a public option or "medicare for all." Please also support allowing the importation of prescriptions from Canada and other similar cost control measures that reduce the monopolies in our health care system. If I had been born in any other developed nation I would have healthcare as a right, rather than a luxury.
Shades of Ricoeur If you're in the US, go to your local NAMI office. They will be able to help you get the help you need at little to no cost to you.
Shades of Ricoeur same Medicare is shit All the "help" they do is just give me drugs that I need to still pay for. Single payer healthcare was what I was hoping for but thanks to the shit stain we call Congress and corporations. Single payer Healthcare will never be possible :(
Shades of Riceur: Maybe it's your small luck not getting any, I'm sorry to say. They can do a lot of harm to vulnerable, exposed people. If i had known what would happen, I'd have stayed far away from them and probably searched for natural alternatives. Some are good, 1/20? And some patients easier or less complex, or attracting better care/treatment. I see others who did not seek help. They have their dis-eases, but not the retraumatuizations and extar layers from the co-called helpers. But then they didn't do any real research and work on themselves, too. Good luck, healing comes from within, from above and in the encounter with another.
#metoo
You deserve love and understanding
My psychosis only comes on when I get very depressed. I have bpd & bipolar 2 so yeah...
I understand, I get similar
Same here. What medication did they put you on? What's the psychosis like? I'm trying to understand if that's what I'm dealing with
major depressive disorder with psychotic i diagnosed my self with this mental illness when i was 19 basically it was hard time it took year and half to fully recover didn't go to therapist or nothing i was just willing to change with the best i can and forced my self to deal with every one of my problems social anxiety depression anxiety being shy hallucination alot more and now im 24 learned alot from those moments so basically you are not alone and believe me if dealt with all of this alone u can do alot more btw where im from when ppl see you dealing with stuff like this they will say u are crazy and make it worst so didn't say one word to no one until i fully recovered cuz too much pride even when i was in that deep and dark place i thought about suicide then telling my family and my few friends basically u can make it through i love yall u are not alone remember
I'm struggling at handling my mom's atypical psychosis. It hurts a lot, just like hell...
Sending love ❤️
thanks for stressing that psychosis does not mean you are crazy. i have difficulty accepting i was one until i just let it go. but thanks for this video. ❤
I’ve had anxiety for a year now, but it has turned into depression lately. I’ve been feeling so weird but last night I think I might have had a psychotic episode. I turkey felt like I wasn’t me anymore and that I wasn’t real, I thought I had imagined my whole life and none of it was real. I looked in the mirror and had a full panic attack because I didn’t know who that was looking back at me. I didn’t sleep at all because I felt so crazy all night. Today I’m not the best from it at all. I’m afraid to look in the mirror when I hear my voice it sounds alien to me. Please help is this a psychotic episode? Should I go the hospital?
This is me!
You seem knowledgeable, non-judgemental, and empathetic. Thanks for explaining.
#KatiFAQ
Hi Kati! How are you doing? I hope everything is going well.
Could you do a video on asexuality? I've been wanting to start a conversation about it with a few people in my life (including my therapist), but I feel hesitant. Have you ever had any experiences with clients who identify themselves somewhere in the asexual spectrum? Do you know other professionals who do?
Thank you so much for all your videos, they are incredibly helpful to me.
xoxo
Erika Nobetani I found a dr whom is LGBT and there is a way to find that hon I can send you the link I used.
I'm positive that asexuality is not a mental disorder. In my country the national ethical code don't let treat sexual orientation including asexuality
Erika Nobetani I'm begrudgingly asexual. Feminism ruined my life. I'm really 90/10, but gave up on relationships bc they piss off all the feminists in my life.
It's a sexual orientation and not a mental disorder.
That's celibacy and not Asexuality.
After 25+ years of therapy, believe me, the conversation builds trust. How could I ever convey issues with someone as far as I know just considered me another client. I have had several good ones.. unfortunately they didn't stick around locally
when i saw my diagnosis i was freaking out, this really calmed me
What were ur symptoms and treatment.
Oh good, I'm not just depressed. I'm psychotic now. Fantastic.
How does a Psychotic Depression differ from being SchizoAffective? They sound the same to me.
schizoaffective is schizophrenia and depression/bipolar and psychotic depression is depression and psychosis. A symptom of schizophrenia is also psychosis which is why they are easily mixed up.
@@hermitoing that's what I've heard is that it goes away
@@hermitoing what was your symptoms you had? What was it like?
@@hermitoing how long did it take to recover?
@@hermitoing what antidepressant did they give you? I just started zoloft
Psychosis doesnt mean you are crazy but thats enough for people to think you are crazy
Katie,love peace and harmony to you,great video💟💟
Awe thanks Donna :) xox
I'm being 100% honest with you all... I've had depression since I was 8 years old. And still to this day
how to you have a hallucination about be worthless? isn’t that just a thought
freeridexx The voices tell you that you’re worthless
Great video! Just one thing from my own experience: if you have psychotic symptoms only during mood episodes make sure to explain it in big, bold letters to your health provider. Otherwise you may be misdiagnosed and/or not get the help you actually need. I struggled a lot to clarify that after initial misunderstanding and it still fuels my overall fear and negative symptoms when psychotic side of my disorder gets worse. Good luck to you all, stay strong!
Hey Kati! I have schizoaffective disorder which seems to sound very similar to this. What exactly is the difference between them?
Conor Hollywood I believe in schizoaffective disorder, there is a period of time where the psychotic symptoms are present when the mood symptoms are not. High five to fellow schizoaffective sufferer!
whats that may i ask?
Schizoaffective is the symptoms of schizophrenia combined with a mood disorder such as bipolar.
Thankyou Katie. Psychosis is horrible & you make it a little less frightening.
Demon's through the electricity, same. Same.
Thanks god i dnt have that
You do a great job at making me feel a little less phycotic, and it is up to me to get the help. My entire life is circling around pushing myself to see and honestly talk to a Dr. I gotta get it done
I feel like I've been trying to explain forever what happens when I'm not on my antidepressants and labelling the types of psychosis and how they work as part of psychotic depression feels really helpful. I feel like I have something clearer to say than "I get crazy. No, crazy-crazy. Like my thinking changes and I think things that aren't true and none of my techniques work." Which is something that a lot of professionals appear to have minimized. Going from wanting to die to thinking you're already dead *is* terrifying. (Right now I am medicated and safe - this is stuff I've dealt with historically)
Rosie Rosenberg I feel this aswell
I enjoy her approach to mental disorders. She seems very understanding and just wants to teach her audience to better understand psychosis as well.
Hey, I was wondering does Kati do videos about the process of grief?
I just searched for it and found them. 👍🏻
I have MDD with psychotic features not a fun combo but I’m still working full time as well as attending uni, it is possible guys keep fighting !
Hospitals are worse than the depression itself. Especially when some out of high school student brings u meds w a nurse and looks at you like you have three heads.
My major depressive disorder turns psychotic when I'm under a lot of stress. I start hearing things I really don't want to. But when this happens and I realize they aren't real I know its a warning to call my doctor and get my stress levels under control.
Ahh-haa! "Proper" treatment. Now that's the problem for most people, actually getting PROPER treatment. Not just treatment. That's been my issue, I can't seem to find the proper part of treatment. All treatment I've received is lack luster improper & inadequate treatment. I always feel like I get cookie-cutter treatment or another way to say it would be, bullshit associates degree social worker treatment.
I'm not getting any better, worse in fact because now I'm frustrated. I want to give up!
njvabchgrl 1 I spent 4 years with one therapist who finally said I should wear glasses for my hypervigilance. That was her most honest solution, she even said I should get my eyes tested after 4 years, I knew she ruined my most precious years I was just 23 when I went to see her for help. She could have changed my life.
Bro I am struggling
You’re so comforting
I’ve been diagnosed with MDD since I was like 13 and recently developed the psychotic traits. Psychosis ain’t no joke y’all and it ain’t fun lmao.
Yes I know how does it feel it's not fun at all
Hey guys. I suffered with severe OCD (scrupulosity and others) as well as side effects that included depression periodically. I have noticed throughout my journey that working out (coupled with medicine of course) has vastly increased my capability to cope with my illness and has overall increased my morale and overall happiness. Please do not stay in your room all day during this pandemic. Please go somewhere and work out or run, do something for your body. It worked for me and well as good eating habits. Not saying I am fully healed, as this battle has gone on for 3 years, but I will say working out, medication, and proper diet have helped me immensly. When your body is good, your mind will be better too. Love you all.
but mental hospital sucks here in America. I feel more in danger inside the hospital than outside.
Maria V have heard a lot of people on here say that. Are they not staffed properly.
I've been living with untreated Major Depressive Disorder for almost 20 years. I was diagnosed and treated at age 13 but medication either made me worse or had no effect at all. So I stopped taking it. Every day is a struggle, it sucks most of the time and has affected my personal life. At age 33 I have no friends, I haven't been in a relationship in 12 years and I'm afraid to go out to social places like bars because a fairly new symptom of major anxiety popped up 8 years ago when I moved from California to Louisiana. Now I get panic attacks at grocery stores, fun. I'm also a veteran, but the VA has put me on wait list to see a counselor three different times, so I have lost faith that anything will ever get better for me.
I have social anxiety and i always didnt go to school..if i tell my grandma why i dont wanna go to school..she just yells at me and WONT UNDERSTAND..what am i supposed to do?Help..any advice?..and pardon my english..it's really bad i know..english is not my first language but i think it's pretty good for a girl that rarely go to school..the school problem started when i was 8 years old and now i'm 14..my social anxiety started when i started pre school..and my sister don't speak to people because she followed me..i dont know how to start a conversation..i dont know how to create sentence when talking to people..i'm afraid that i will hurt people's feeling when i talk to them..i have asked my grandma if she can take me to a psychologist or anything but she just get mad at me..what am i supposed to do?btw i have depression too..and i think i also have other problems because i behave like a child..i need help..
Crystal Blitzz I read something on Quora about social anxiety. I forgot what it really said but, You're the one that tells you're a bad person,ugly, etc. Because of your thoughts, I know it's hard because I have it too but I'm healing now it's not worst like before. The only thing that I would suggest to you is that don't listen to what your thoughts says about you because people around you don't think that you are that person that you think you are. This is hard but try opening up to the world, don't lock yourself to your thoughts because it will only make you worst by your hateful stuffs that your mind think. I know you can do this , if I can I'm sure you'll too ^___^ Good luck! 😊😊😊💖💕
Go by yourself. Don't tell anyone.
I hope things are much better for you - if not maybe you might find this helpful - I found this resource helped me a lot - www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Resources/Looking-After-Yourself/Social-Anxiety
I've been manic depressive for 25 years, originally diagnosed as bi-polar, attempted suicide twice since my divorce and 1st started noticing "voices" about the same time. There are 4 of them, very distinct personalities and have formed their own nuances and "sounds". I understand they're just different aspects of my own fears and doubts, but I gave them names and even picture them in my head as different people altogether. I've never talked to anyone about them until the past year, even doctors. I have an appointment to speak to my doctor this week to apply as a patient to a place called the Sara Riel Center.
My voices;
Clint is straight-forward, cynical, cantankerous and insulting outwardly at the world and everybody in it. I imagine Clint Eastwood, the old grizzly version from Gran Torino, and his favorite term is "Whippershnapper!"
Christopher is like Christopher Robin, very prepschool-like, well mannered, quiet & lonely who makes up imaginary friends and daydreams a lot. He's needy and clingy with abandonment and trust issues but really wants just 1 good friend. He's the quietest of the voices and cries a lot. His favorite term is "I'm sorry." He even stutters and slurs like I did as a kid.
Jeff (Spicoli) is lazy, laid back and doesn't give a fuck about anyone or anything. He's a procrastinator with a Masters in Avoidance who often plays annoying songs in my head such as Barney the Dinosaur's "I Love You" but changes the lyrics to taunt and ridicule me, "I hate life, life hates me. I should hang from an old dead tree." He's a huge source of my low self-esteem and suicidal thoughts, but he's funny as fuck. Damn him! His favorite term is "Fuck the world, I need a toke."
Sheena (Easton) is a female voice with a lovely Irish lilt. She's very defensive and guarded, sort of like a motherly bodyguard for my fragile emotions aka Christopher. (My own mum abandoned me when I was 2) She's mostly quiet when I'm alone but constantly seeing and warning of dangers, real & imagined, when I'm around others. She doesn't have any favorite terms but talks like a beatnik, men are "Daddio" and women are "Chicky" She, and Jeff but to a lesser degree, are the source of my paranoia and they all contribute to my delusional thoughts like "Everyone hates you!" & "They can't hurt you if ye're dead." Carrie's mum (Stephen King) also springs to mind because Sheena seems very disappointed in me and in a way makes me afraid of myself.
As an introvert I dwell on things and have a LOT of alone time to go into great details, thanks mostly to Christopher and Jeff.
Ever since my dad hung himself in 2003 (he was also psychotic depressive) I swore to never attempt to commit suicide again, it's a harder and harder promise to keep as time moves on.
Anywho, thanks for the vid.
Imma keep it real witchu chief.... I can't afford professional help.
I'm glad I was hospitalized. Otherwise I'd most likely be dead or suffering bipolar without treatment. Apparently I've had it since I was 14.
i feel like depression is the purgatory for awareness. once you get through it and realize life’s just painful you can move on and start getting shit done
Evan Douglas - Yeah, that definitely helps a bit. I think we’ve developed a culture of thinking that life should be “happy”. And if you’re not “happy” there’s something wrong with you. It can be quite freeing to realise that actually much of life is suffering. That everyone is in the same boat with you to some extent. And that meaning can be found in confronting that and working through it,
That is one of the founding principles of Buddhism - life is suffering. Meditation has helped me the most
Thank you Kati, your videos are absolutely amazing! In this day n age that everyone looks online for answers, where unfortunately the information provided is not correct, your videos are a breath of fresh air. You are doing Gods work. Thank u
Uhm, I feel as though I do too much research on this kinda stuff and I always think I have this stuff lol.
That's exactly how and what I'm feeling right now.
Omg me too!!!!
She’s so lovely and a doctor you can trust ❣️
Can psychosis happen with borderline?
yes, psychotic features are a symptom of borderline personality disorder :)
It's debatable, different doctors believe different things. My friend has bpd and she's read like all the studies.
Yup. 30 percent of people with bpd experience psychosis
Yeah I have bpd with phycotic features
what I struggle with, I have serious depression, I've learnt how to keep going regardless of what I'm feeling but after a while things that have happened in my life start piling up and now I swear I have audible hallucinations where I can hear people constantly critizing me? I mean how do we know we're hallucinating? I'm freaked out and really don't want to go to a hospital.