Everything I eat in a depression week: how I stay afloat.
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- Опубліковано 20 тра 2024
- There is a lot of cereal. There is also a picket line, tattoos, friends, and walking. Life moves, and I try to stay afloat.
Here are the various things I mentioned I'll link to in this video:
1) Bean salad/aquafaba livestream ua-cam.com/users/liveUVhdHuKW6Oc
2) Farm school www.farmschoolnyc.org/
3a) Harper Collins strike context www.npr.org/2023/01/22/115064...
3b) Harper Collins contract ratification update hcpunion/status/1...
WHEN WE FIGHT BACK, WE WIN, EVERY DAMN TIME, YOU ALREADY KNOW
4) Baileys soaked figs livestream • Triple feature finale:...
CHAPTERS
00:00:00-00:02:02 SUNDAY INTRO + BOOTS + BILLS
00:02:03-00:05:12 MILLET CONGEE + SUGARFISH
00:05:13-00:08:05 MONDAY MORNING YOUTIAO W/ GRANDMA
00:08:06-00:10:11 YOUTIAO DOUGH + ROAST VEGGIES
00:10:12-00:13:18 FOREST HILLS + CHEESE W/ DAN
00:13:19-00:15:23 TUESDAY MORNING MULLINGS
00:15:24-00:17:57 RAISIN BRAN, PT 1 + TEA
00:17:58-00:19:56 LEFTOVERS FOR DINNER
00:19:57-00:24:48 AQUAFABA BROWNIES + CEREAL X2
00:24:59-00:28:28 WEDNESDAY HARPER COLLINS PICKET LINE
00:28:29-00:30:36 DEPRESSION DINNER + RANT
00:30:37-00:33:35 THURSDAY OATMEAL + TATTOO
00:33:36-00:38:51 SNACKS, CONFESSION, REPAIR, BLUE CHEESE CORN MUFFINS
00:38:52-00:40:11 FRIDAY TAIWAN PORK CHOP HOUSE
00:40:12-00:41:47 NOODLECRAFT
00:41:48-00:43:57 CONGEE + CENTURY EGGS + SNACKS BINGE
00:43:58-00:44:14 GINGER TEA
00:44:15-00:45:40 SATURDAY FARM SCHOOL
00:45:41-00:46:24 DEPRESSION THOUGHTS
00:46:25-00:47:17 SUNDAY MORNING REFLECTION
00:47:18-00:49:29 RAISIN BRAN, PT 2 + MORE DEPRESSION TALK
00:48:30-00:51:29 TOMATO & EGG
00:51:30-00:56:29 MONDAY EPILOGUE
All songs used should be automatically listed by UA-cam, but here's one that YT told me I need to credit explicitly:
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as a depressed person myself, it is really comforting to see someone live their life, do their own thing and experience joy while also having bad days. sometimes people picture depression as only sadness and emptiness all the time, but you also have good moments WHILE depressed. I really like the way you express your thoughts and feelings, june. thank you for this.
Thank you for saying this (and thank you @junelikethemonth for sharing this video with the world). There are too many people on this planet that do not yet understand depression at this level.
Agreed! It's ok to laugh. Depressions shouldn't stop us from enjoying the little things. Can't agree more. Xoxo
I love you June. You have the ability to talk about depression in a way that comforts others, that is such an incredible thing. Your pure intention to show the real parts of your life while framing it as you believe it gives us comfort. Thanks for showing us that balancing the struggles of living our own lives and walking our own path, while caring for the people we love at our own capacity is beautiful. You're incredibly resilient and admirable for showing up as you are and sharing your journey. Always looking forward to your videos.
Literally couldn't have said it better myself! 👏
June, you have become such a great storyteller. These videos are so much more than what you used to do for Delish. SO much more. Your voice is amazing.
I just found you, and deeply identify with your content and angst. My mom has full blown dementia now, and i struggle with this fact daily. I love how confident, astute, and articulate you are to put into words the angst of regret. Dont be too hard on yourself for that last argument. We will oftentimes beat ourselves up for the wouldve’s and shouldve’s. For me, the main take away would be to just keep living, your mom wouldnt want anything less for you. As much as you sre haunted by the regret of how ypu couldve acted in the past , or beating yourself up for that hug you couldnt give, im sure your mom doesnt hold that against you and wouldnt want you to beat yourself up over it. Keep being real, your content is so real, i deeply identify with it as an asian woman living in the us as well. Go easy on yourself.
I randomly found your BE vids while in the middle of one of my depression blooms. While they helped me through that moment, it's your real life content that nourishes me more. I am so fucking grateful that you exist.
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As I watch your videos I reflect on the absolute love you have for your mom, I have to say , that as hard as it is, you need to forgive yourself for the way you left your relationship with your mom, as a mom of 2 daughters, whenever we have parted ways in anger, I always know we love each other, and no matter what we will always be connected in spirit. Your mom knows your love for her is forever, no matter how upset either of you were . Hug yourself for her, and allow yourself to free the memory that keeps you sad. Grieve the loss of her physically, but know that she is always with you, and isn't upset or mad at you. She only wants you happy and to remember the Happy memories, and learn from the others.
Love and prayers to you June. ❤️
THIS. Peace and love to you, June. As another mom of 2 daughters, I completely agree with the above comment. The love stays. The love never fades.
“the grief will always come, and she will let it be. and from this, she will make something of it”
really spoke to me June, thank you. grateful for this odd parasocial relationship
In answer to Aaron's question about Fred's behaviour: They've got scent glands on their cheeks and foreheads, and they rub on objects and people in order to distribute their pheromones. It's a territorial thing, creating a familiar-smelling environment for the cat in which they feel safe. When Fred rubs on you, he's laying claim to you, and his scent telegraphs to other cats that you are owned by him.
I think every single person that loses a loved one replays the last moments with them. The last time you saw your mom could've been better. It could've been worse. It could've even been "perfect" on paper. But at the end of the day, you'd still have regrets and wonder if you could've done it better.
I don't say this to diminish your emotions and experience. I say it to point out that no matter WHAT, your mom loved you and you loved her. And nothing could've stopped that.
Oh wow. I'm only about 8 minutes in and suddenly I learn the area right in front of my home is the last place you saw your mom. I walk those streets daily, I've sat where you sat. I am here in this weird parasocial way holding some space for you. Thank you for continuing to share how you live through a really tough time, and even beyond that offering something special that I and many other people are connecting to. Keep bringing the wit and love of life, food and family, it really shines through everything and is appreciated 💗
This was art. The shots, the poetry, the method, the interest, the stories. Incredible content and mostly, so relatable. Keep your head up. You are so talented!! So beautifully poetic
I just lost my brother.. and you are one of the few relatable channels in this moment.. calms my mind enough to stop and enjoy this video, even in the thick of grief.. thank you for being so open.. thank you for the inspiration to do what we can in these phases of life. there's hope in the process.
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I can't tell you things will get better. But please know you're not alone. Please consider joining a grievance group xxx
Seeing your sweet Grandma laughing and smiling makes me miss both of my grandmas & my grandma-in-law so very much! ❤. I am happy that you have her close by to share your life, and I’m so sorry for the loss of your mom 😢
The way you articulate your pain and emotions is like reading a sad Dr Seuss book. Seeing the comments it’s great to see how you have helped so many come to terms with their grief but I just hope that even though we don’t know you we can hopefully do the same for you with comments and DM’s. Thank you June for making content true to your heart for people like us :)
“And I was still sad” that’s literally my life
I don't know if you'll ever see this or if it even matters to you, but your journey through grief is somehow making me feel less alone in my own. I also lost my mother and even though its been a few years, I still feel the guilt of every time she called me and I didn't pick up the phone because I was too busy or doing something I considered more important than speaking to her. Ironically, its the one thing I wish I could do now. Her last words were "why are you doing this to me" before cancer took her. Hospice said she wasn't aware of what was going on, but it still haunts me to this day. I miss her every time something good happens and I want to celebrate. I miss her every time something bad happens and I need her wisdom and her comforting hugs. I just miss her and I know that I always will. People say it gets easier with time, but I haven't found that to be the truth. I think we just get better at hiding the pain and keeping it to ourselves as if it is shameful to grieve. I want to thank you for being so public. We need to make it easier for people to talk and to heal. Bless you June.
💞@Karibear sending good vibes you’re way xoxo ✨✨
Sending you lots of love and hugs Kari! ❤
For me-the pain that hurts stays longer when shame and guilt are tied up into loss. The pain that heals will fade into view when acceptance of the past being the past and allowance of general chaos overrides the ego into forgiveness.
My mother died almost ten years ago. Even though I was there for her at the end I went through massive guilt that I hadn't done enough and hid myself away until I was ready to come out. Then I had a daughter and that forced me out because I couldn't confine her like me and gradually I came to terms with my loss. 16 months ago my father died. For months I visited while heavily pregnant and visited everyday for hours in the weeks before his death. Unfortunately he died the same day I gave birth to my son so I didn't get to say goodbye but I know I did my best and he knew I loved him. He also wasn't conscious when he died. Afterwards I went into a deep depression because all I wanted was for my Dad to meet my son once. I've come to terms with that now but it still hurts and I've had to pause this vlog to write this and have a little break because I was crying. June I hope you know that you are loved and I hope you have people around you caring for you. Sometimes the extent of grief can be so unexpected that it is startling. OP I too hope you can get some acceptance and relief.
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I’m crying. Beautifully conceived, shot and edited. Wonderful, thank you x
As a mid 40 year old person that just learned that I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for almost my entire life without a diagnosis... This video truly spoke to me.
Thank you June!
Not sure if you're looking for advice, but have you looked into autism? It's very underdiagnosed in women!
@@madcatness2958 I've been diagnosed and am on medication. It's helped me a lot... And of course therapy. :)
I’ve had a long day and came home feeling quite defeated. I didn’t have the energy for much so decided to take a bath and watch this. I wanted to thank you June for your honesty and vulnerability in letting us peak into your day to day and thoughts. I found comfort in this and the shared human experience. Keep it up.
Watching this helped release pint up pain over my mom's loss because everyone says I should be over it and I feel bad that the loss of my father was less painful for me and guilt over not being as devastated? But it is nice, well maybe not nice but comforting, to see that I'm not the only one who feels this way that I'm not weird or something's wrong with me for the weight of grief
I don’t know what it is, but this is better than any show or movie out and about right now. A real life with real value. I agree with the guy who said “grateful for this weird parasocial relationship”. 💛
"Casual. But abundant." This is such an honest, heartfelt video. Raw but still uplifting. I love everything you do. And it feels like your videos are getting even better than before.
Authentic June. Trash food, walks, real talk, Freddie… good video!
This might be the most beautiful video on UA-cam. My heart feels both heavier and lighter after watching, but those both make me feel more alive. And also blue cheese corn muffins sound fucking incredible.
June, this was the best ever. Real and raw with a doses of gentle reality. . Felt like i was watching a mini bio movie. Keep on keeping on. You have a lot to give. Finish the process, and finish the journey . Thank you.🥰😉
I effing love you. Thank you for being my burst of serotonin ❤️
Keep on making whatever the hell kind of videos you want to make & I (and I'm sure many others) will continue to watch them. Its honestly refreshing to see a realistic expression of what life can be like instead of a perfectly curated version of things
Well done June and thank you, I feel less alone with my cereal, peanut butter and chocolate.
Yes, We love you June!!!
I really like your editing where you’re putting in your random conversations with your friends throughout the video. a lot of the times we don’t really need to know the full contacts but it is a nice touch to make your Vlogs feel unique. 💗💗💗
An hour long?!?!?! Just the type of long form content I need 😎
I found this video very relatable. You know how sometimes you'll cross paths with a stray cat and even though you don't know them, you're so pleased they are coming to say hello? I wish I could package that up and send it to you when you're feeling down. Just a stray cat's affection, but somehow so timely. Thanks for sharing your vlogs with us!
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I have bipolar depression and I lost my mom to dementia and a brain tumor four weeks ago and I feel like I am just existing , I have to remind myself to eat. I watch your videos for comfort. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us, the ups and the downs.
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I can relate to how your feeling. My mom and I had a stressful relationship. The last time I spoke to her I told her I would see her that coming weekend. She died that night. After many years I realized we were so much alike. Now that time has passed..I cherish her memory, I cherish her…why..I am just like her. Now I understand her.
Thank you for sharing yourself with the world and doing it with such realism, showing all emotions. Say thank you to your Grandma too, what a beautiful soul!
This was fascinating. Thank you June, for taking us along on your mind ride.
Thank you for this.
Art. This is art. Thank you ❤
Thanks as always for sharing, June.
Loved this ❤❤❤
I loved this. Thank you for sharing your journey with us 💗
I know this video is from months ago but I'm just seeing it now. & I'm really glad I did. Ive been having a rough couple of days. So thank you for being real and making me feel less alone.
Feel better chica ♥️
this video was such a wild ride, and i'm here for it
This made me feel like food can be so comforting and healing….it seems to be your solace
Thank you 💗💗💗💗
Can’t even express how much I appreciate your videos. ❤
i enjoyed this video so much-thank you june for putting out quality content time and time again
Thank you June!
Really, really enjoyed this video!
needed this.
love you June! hope you stay strong!
I appreciate this episode so much June ❤
❤ so good. I didn’t want it to end.
Needed this. Thank you for putting it together even while struggling.
This is the best thing I’ve seen in a long time.
you bring me great comfort.
Thank you for your thoughts, it gave confort to my heart
Sending my love
Juuunnnee. 😢 sending you hugs and positive vibes.
Thank you! You made me feel and I can relate. Your love for food is goals.
so good to see your lao lao June!
Thank you for sharing June 🏩
Thank you, beautiful video June.
Thank you. Beautiful!
I feel everything with you here xx
thanks for sharing, June.
Thanks for helping me stay afloat today ❤
Thank you for this video
June you’re story telling and video making is so wonderful. Thank you for sharing this
This is perfect !! Ty so much for sharing. This was helpful !!! 🙏🏽♥️♥️
A lovely and poignant video. Thank you for continuing to share with us
Dear June, originally I found your content for cooking inspiration, and I still love watching you create your wild trash meals. But this raw depiction of real life is so weirdly comforting to me. You let us know we're not the only ones. You let us not feel alone. You show us we will get through it all. I hope you take good care of yourself and don't pressure yourself to provide a certain amount or type of content so we will have you around for a long time 🙂♥️ sending love and appreciation from Sweden
loved this video so much!!!!!!!!
I love all of your videos. But I really loved this one ❤
I love this. Like Herzog + June + cooking.
Sending virtual hugs
As always. Love. Will watch no matter where u go. I hope the next chapter for you leaves you breathless.
your grandma has an amazing laugh
Thank you June
Your editing is so good girl
this was very soothing. thank you for sharing with us. i'm so sorry about your mom.
you're incredible, june! thanks for sharing so much with us and for be so honest. sending you love from brazil
there is nothing more comforting and exciting to me than to sit with my Saturday morning coffee and watch an hour of your life, work, experiences... thank you June ! you're amazing and I'm sending good and healthy thoughts to you and your close ones xx
Thanks for taking me on the journey I love your story telling abilities and the way you weave all your feelings into such a beautiful story.Thanks for sharing and keep on keeping on. I’m looking forward to the next one!
This is the kind of depression content I crave. It's so weird to be in the middle of doing something weird and then realize "oh. This is because of the depression." It sneaks up on you like that. Thanks for sharing, June.
Loved the video! So raw and real and really brave of you to film and post and let us in to your life a bit.
Hoo boy, I related to this video so much. Love your honesty.
I love love LOVE your long videos of food prep/meals! Thanks for yet another great video ❤️❤️❤️ hello from Canada!
Praying for a good life for your grandma ❤
June, thank you for sharing yourself, your grief, your vulnerability, and your thoughts with us. This is so touching in so many ways, and I send you any comfort that a comment on a UA-cam video could hopefully provide. More of us benefit from your healthy modeling of grief than can possibly be known. What a terrible and wonderful gift it is to feel your feelings so viscerally. Sending you love and gratitude♡
I absolutely loved the story like narration you did towards the end. I felt like I was listening to an audiobook and wanted to hear more as it was so real and relatable to someone who’s experienced depression.
Sending hugs to Grandma, and to you. This entire video hit my heart with its reality being a lot like my own. You're a tribute in how willing you are to just tell it like it is.
This touched my heart so deeply and made the bits of me that always feel alone - not feel alone anymore. Thank you ♥️♥️♥️
Keep taking care of yourself June. You really deserve it. 💓👍
So glad i found you again! 🥹❤️
Hi june. This video was unintentionally uplifting ❤️
This was pure poetry. Thank you for sharing.
Depression is awful. Sending love to anyone struggling with their mental health, hoping you feel better soon and get the support you need.
June you are so marvelously honest. Thank you for being the way you are. Spicey!!! I can't imagine the magnitude of the sadness you feel when remembering your mom and the last time you saw her. It was a day when you were both the same self you always were. The pull and tug of the mother and daughter dynamic is so common among so many of us. Have no guilt over anything that happened between you. Never allow yourself to feel bad or be beaten up over anything you cannot change or control. Keep creating and expressing yourself in the authentic way that is uniquely you!
This content really captures what depression feels like. Can't wait for more 💖
Hi June! Your voice is so calming. Thanks for the vid ❤
This is great, June! Thank you for showing your real self; it helps the rest of us not be so alone. ❤️