You are amazing and thank-you for sharing and being vulnerable. I definitely teared up as soon as you brought up feelings of not belonging, this has always been a big feeling for me but felt it so much more this year. Hugs xx
Bonny, it was life changing for me when I learned about your family situation. It showed me that life can look so great online but it isn't 100% reality. It also showed me that in spite of all of the hardship, I don't let it have to consume me and I can still try to be happy. Thank you for always being so honest ❤️
I'm feeling quite discontent in my *body shape, a bit vulnerable and raw today. Thank you for uploading something to brighten my spirits.* I hear you on feeling low. 💖
Thanks for opening up, Bonny. Christmas is a hard time for me too and I find myself comparing my situation to other people's seemingly happy families and feeling lonely, isolated, and down. I'm glad you have a loving partner and friendship group who help you during these difficult times x
Thank you for your vulnerability. I got teary eyed myself when you got emotional. I struggle with the holidays as well, so thank you for talking about it. Sending you all the love ❤️
Thankyou for sharing such an honest, vulnerable side Bonny 💛 I truly appreciate your raw and real sharing as it makes me feel less alone, and that my feelings are indeed valid. I really resonated with your chat on feeling alone and not belonging during this time. You are such a kind and inquisitive soul who deserves so much love and light in this world. Sending lots of love and many happy cheers for the new year ahead. xx
Bonny you are such a beautiful and bright soul ✨ I‘ve followed you for quite a few years (I was 15 when I started watching) you and I feel like you have grown so much! I feel like your channel is a very positive place in many ways - especially because you are very real ❤️ And to everybody reading this - I know times are hard at the moment, if you need someone to talk to always feel free to message 🥰 You all are very loved!
Thank you for sharing. I just lost my grandma last year (end nov) and it was the first Christmas without her. It was very hard, had a mini existential crisis about death, life and family and had that same "hole" you mentioned. Love your videos and thanks for being so real 🧡
I was just thinking about you and Emily because I’m back in my Renegade era. Warm wishes to you for 2022 and beyond, Bonny. Thank you for always being so open and vulnerable with your audience 💓 Your channel has always been a light for me
Bonny first of all, lovely video and I love you so much ❤️ secondly, I apologise for going off topic, but would you mind starting a podcast? I could listen to you talk about anything and everything, be it a toothbrush. I am absolutely in awe in the way you speak and make us think about what you are speaking about. Thank you again for this video Bonny, wish you a Happy New Year and sending so much love your way ❤️
Thank you for sharing Bonny, you’ve articulated so well the experience of some things being felt only whilst being alone and the necessity for this in the development of self. It’s painful and tinged with grief, yet opens up the possibility of truly starting to know oneself. Much love and best wishes for 2022. 🤍🙏🏻🌻📸
Very much appreciate you doing this Bon. It really can be a tough time, I don't have a close bond with my parents either and I'm hoping everyone here who are feeling the same way find their tribe, their home, their found family very very soon or one fine day because we all deserve it❤️
The end of the year accomplishments and the start of the year goals / resolutions just makes me feel exhausted. And then I feel guilty for feeling that way, but idk, the constant drive for perfection that I feel like happens at the New Years time makes me feel less and so tired. Not sure if you entirely relate, but thank you for sharing 💛
i absolutely love how honest and vulnerable you are in your videos 🤍 no matter what videos you post, they're always so comforting, so thank you for being willing to be vulnerable and open with us 🤍
Thank you for sharing your feelings with us, Bonny. It's rare to see honesty in social media and I always appreciate that from you. Sending you a big hug 💖
my family is very small and being the youngest means much of my extended family has passed away. i really relate to you in feeling like you’re missing out on the big family aspect that is often associated with the holidays. your content brings me comfort and inspiration, so I thank you for your creativity and vulnerability. sending you love ❤️
So happy you’re sharing another vlog with us. We missed you Bonny! Wishing you a happy New Year. Thanks for sharing your feelings with us. I hope that one day the whole inside of you will be filled with family unity rather that is your immediate family or your own ( one day you and your children ) 💞
Such a lovely vlog❤️ can’t imagine how hard being so vulnerable on camera is but thanks so much for sharing, definitely relate to a lot of what you’ve said and I think it’s definitely a chat everyone should have more! Your videos are always so soothing like a nice cup of tea❤️🫖
What I learnt that helped me is that people can never be your way. You need to accept people as they are and have no expectations. We were born to think expectations is normal however it is not what we need to think is that acceptance is normal and once you change your mindset to that you will be forever happy inside your self. I had to learn this and was struggling myself and wondering why my partners didn’t treat me the same as how I would treat them and I realised that no one has the same mindset values goals etc like you and that’s okay.
First off, your videos are literally my fave on UA-cam!! Been following you for yearssss and they're always great! And I can SO relate to the feeling lonely round Christmas or other holidays where family is focus for most people xx
You live in the place where I left my heart... I had to leave because my physical health... I never got the visa I paid so much for and work hard for. I lost the man I love because I also got really insecure and scared and pushed him away while inside I was screaming to him to never let me go and stay as close as possible. Please. Don’t compare. But also recognize what you have, because it’s sooo much more than most people Bonny, I say that with respect and sweetness. You’re blessed. Smile. Go to the ocean, you CAN.
One thing that saved my 2021 is ofc Taylor but also you. I've been binge watching both of your channels and your videos are just the only thing keeping me going. I wish I could put into words how much you mean to me and a lot of others. We love you so much Bon, keep doing what you're doing💞
Thank you for being vulnerable with us. Definatedly there's a Lot of pressure on how these celebrations should look like. I turned off social media that week and it was so good for my mental health!
Thank you for being vulnerable Bonny, I am very empathic person, to other's people feelings, I wanted to hug you right away.... and I used to like Christmas.. it was my favorite holiday but since my brother passed away two years ago, I don't enjoy it, it doesn't make me happy anymore, specially because he passed on New Year's Eve, so I have a dark cloud over my head during that time, I try to be cheerful but deep down I'm sad.. and honestly I could skip December and January entirely. It was a deppressing comment sorry but that's how I feel during this time of the year. Hopefully with time, it can get better.
Sending you all the love Bonny ❤️ I also don't have parents I'm close to. Actually, I have no parents in my life. I'm basically an orphan. I was adopted and then disowned by my adoptive mom so I have many bad experiences with parent figures. The holidays are definitely tough but I'm lucky to at least have my boyfriends family to spend the holidays with.
I'm so happy that you're back again! I'm going to watch the video while I'm having dinner (Spain time zone hahaha) 🙌🏼 I hope you're good Bonny, wishing you the best for 2022! ✨🤞🏼
i also get that feeling of having nowhere to return to, but for me its more of a constant feeling, like, if the world becomes too much i cant just go back to my parents house, because 1. they dont have a house and 2. theyre seperated. christmas is honestly becoming more chill each year as i learn to spend the day with myself
This is so valuable, and you said that the space is created to learn through things and work through things. Could you talk about how you created that healthy space? Thank you for sharing yourself 🤍
Thank you for this vlog, Bonny. It must have been tough to film, but your honesty and authenticity just shines through. You've got such sound life advice, I love your chats!
I’m so sorry bonny that you are feeling this way. I know you said in the past that you would like to have kids and get married. I know that when/if you decide to settle down you will be able to create memories/ have family traditions with your family (husband/kids) and i hope that can fill the void you have felt all these years♥️
I'm not close with my parents either. When I feel sad about it, I remind myself that I don't need to go home, I am home. My home is my appartment, where I live with my partner and our two cats. We have our own little family, and in this little family, I do belong. It doesn't take away the heartache, but focusing on the love that I do have in my life does make it easier to cope with the kind of love I am missing. Sending you hugs.
Thank you for being vulnerable here. Your channel is def one of those places I go online to see what I wish my life could be. But, I know we all struggle, and social media can definitely be a highlight reel.
My family lives at the other end of the world so I haven't seen them in over 2.5 years now. They've never met my two sons born within that time. Christmas has been making me extremely sad these last few years and it definitely helps to spend more time with friends. My heart goes out to you 💛
I love your haircut!! Don't stop being you. You are beautiful inside and out. I'm sorry you have struggles but you are such a strong person and you help so many people when you share them. Never forget that you reach so many and do so much good with your channels. Sometimes found family are exactly what we need when blood family fails us. You are loved and I know you know this. Big hugs 💙
I loved this 💛✨ hearing your experience makes me feel more normal. Learnt a lot, thank you for sharing. My motto this year is "Keep it Simple" ( I also overthink and live in my head) I found this quote helps me to act a bit quicker instead of over analysing. Btw loved the thumbnail 💛💖💕💞💓
My maternal grandfather passed away in difficult circumstances on Christmas Day two years ago, and my paternal grandmother passed in January the year before that, so since then Christmas has been very bittersweet... Yet still a great family time! All the feeling of joy piled up with seasonal depression and grief - very strange and definitely feels like I've grown up and the magic is gone, but I still appreciate being with family so much. There's a saying : Childhood is the kingdom where no one dies...
Thanks for being so vulnerable in the beginning of the video , I felt really touched ! And it’s so needed for all of us to know that we don’t have to feel amazing and excited all the time, I love love love when people just own their humanity and not resist it but just compassionately embrace it ❤️
Love... I'm so sorry to hear that. One day you will have your own little christmas with your loved ones and you will organize it the best way ever. Happy new year, I hope all your dreams come true
I really appreciate when you talk through your mental health revelations and intentions and your methods for getting to have these moments of clarity as well, like that you have a counsellor and use journalling and how you note that the feelings pass and change - it is all inspiring to me, especially in my lowest times 💛 Thank you for sharing
i made a rule last year actually that i call the 5 minute rule- if something takes less than 5 minutes to do, i do it right away. that included things like putting a jacket away or answering an email or whatever. and let me tell ye, that rule stuck and my room has never been cleaner. i don't even need to deep clean anymore, since i always put things away properly now. highly recommend it!!
Thanks for this. As a guy I don't end up feeling beauty envy or anything, but I do admit your life seems perfect from the outside. You're totally correct about the pressure around the holidays. The arguments. The folks that we hang around with one day too long.
Feel you on the Christmas thing, with no one home to go home or where you belong. A definite void of the main family holiday gatherings (Thanksgiving and Christmas) for me. .
Thank you for being vulnerable and for sharing your wisdom. Often we don't see ourselves has having much wisdom really, but believe me many little thing that you mention are so eye opening and helpful to many people going through similar situations. You are right, we are not the only ones feeling down or going through a touth time when we are, and just knowing that already helps feeling less lost. Also, it's just a joy seeing you grow!! :) Thanks for you videos and thanks for sharing truly! :)
Thank you so much for sharing your feelings at Christmas. It really hit home for me and it sucks hearing you feel that same way, but it’s really nice selfishly knowing that I’m not alone with those feelings. Love you Bonny, I’ve been following you since 2016 and you really “influenced” me in the most positive ways. Your channel really got me through ED clinic. Thank you for always being real and always be inspiring ✨
This is just the most heartwarming video. I know it started out a bit tough for you so I’m sending so much love. 🙏🏼✨ I witnessed so much self compassion it filled my heart. Not many people I know experience life the way I do but I related to everything you said at the end! It’s nice to know there are other fellow sensitive conscious creative souls out there working on their shit 🤍
Thanks, Bonny! I didn't realize I needed to hear this, this time of year is especially hard for me because it's also my birthday and I haven't seen my family in the last 3 years and we haven't spent Christmas together for the past 6 years (we relocated to a different country), and now that we have a little 17-month-old, I'm dying for him to meet my family and friends back home! Thank you again for sharing! Xx.
I love to see the beautiful life you’re building for yourself from the ground up. I’m thankful that you have a close group of friends and a loving prtner. It’s funny thpugh, how we all have pur own little theatre and pull up a wall to hide the mess. Ah the things I could tell you about myself! But listen, I hope, no, I can already see it so clearly in the future: there will come a day, down the road, when November will run out of numbers and you’ll feel peace, comfort and warm inside about December and all that it brings.
I can relate to so much of what you said. I also felt disconnected from family, I have taken space for myself so I can heal from things. You are growing so beautifully, sometimes pain is a sign that there is more work that needs to be done. I want to say back to you, that you are not alone in that. I also overthink a lot and now I am trying to take action rather than sit in my head which is not healthy for me. I feel like you and me are in the same spot. thank you for being vulnerable. Love you :)
Hi Bonnie. I’m 41 years old, married, with one daughter, and Im an ex vegan like yourself (that was actually how I found your Chanel by mistake. Your “im not vegan anymore” was the first video of yours I watched) Iv been watching your videos ever since and just wanted to say that I love your videos, your content is brilliant, professional, interesting, honest and raw, and fun. I think it’s great how people of such varied ages and walks of life, will love your videos. Keep doing what you are doing! Thank you for your content!
I’m so sorry Christmas is a difficult time for you. I didn’t realize you weren’t close with your parents. I remember an earlier video of yours where you were hanging curtains and you called your dad to ask for advice on hanging them / using the drill and I think I thought that was an indicator you were on good terms. I’ve always been very close with my mother, but my dad was a very difficult person to grow up with and I think that relationship is a source of a lot of my emotional and interpersonal issues. But as he matured (my parents were 23 when I was born) and was affected and changed by life’s ups-and-downs… and as I also matured from being his dependent to an independent adult… our relationship changed. I saw how he was shaped by his relationship with his parents and that he unconsciously mimicked it when he became a parent. And I saw how much of my own traits were like him, and that helped me to understand him better. Reactions from him that I thought meant one thing as a child, I now see them for what they actually are. It doesn’t excuse them… but I take them less personally now. And I’ve learned to recognize his expressions of love, which are less obvious than physical affection and being told “I love you.” I was once asked by someone I poured my heart out to about my childhood demons why I didn’t confront my dad about certain things and clear the air. My response was that I no longer felt like I needed to. I had finally come to understand my dad enough to know that he has remorse for the parent he was, even if he hasn’t had a heart-to-heart with me about it because that’s just not what he does. It would have been for selfish reasons to confront him on things that maybe still haunt my present, but are a distant if not forgotten memory to him now. Airing my past grievances wouldn’t make me feel any better about them or reprogram my negative learned behaviors… it would only make him feel bad now. I forgave him long ago for his failings. Through it all though, I still had my close relationship with my mom, and that made all the difference in my continued relationship with both my parents. On the other hand, my much younger cousin (she’s 25 now) has a strained relationship with both her parents. They see each other now, but a couple years ago, words were exchanged and accusations levied that my cousin will have a hard-time atoning for. Between that and the pandemic, they went a long time not seeing or speaking to each other. But she has a child of her own now, and I think she’s starting to see her parents through new eyes. Not sure she will ever make the amends she really should make, but the presence of a grandchild has pushed them back together. Still, my aunt and uncle tread carefully… they keep things very surface-level with her and her fiancé so as to avoid being so deeply hurt again. But they don’t let that strained relationship impact their grandparent relationship to her daughter. The quote you shared from that talk really touches me as well. “To love someone is to apply charity and generosity of interpretation.” Gosh, that’s great. Not only do I very much need to hear that right this minute as I am going through a communication breakdown with a co-worker that I mainly interact with over email now, but that just so encapsulates what we fail to do anytime we get into a fight or relationship breakdown with someone we care about. Misinterpreting what each other says or does (or doesn’t say or do) is so easy to do. I’ve often found myself serving as a sort of interpreter between my parents when they get cross with one another because I’m enough of both of them that I can see and understand them when they aren’t understanding each other. I hope one day you are able to repair your relationship with your parents. I don’t know why it is strained and it may not be something that can be fixed (I have friends where that is the case), but I hope that if it is something you want and something achievable, that it will come to pass one day.
We love you Bonny 💛 I know I‘m just some random girl on the internet to you, but please know that you matter and you are so much appreciated. In fact we all are, regardless of what our „outer“ circumstances may look like. Thank you for being you. ☺️
I had such high expectations for Christmas this year , last year was so bad for so many aspects and Christmas time was just.. forgettable. But this year was just as bad , even if for different reasons. My father had to work during Christmas AND new year's eve, my brother and my mother had covid , I couldn't see my grandmother, or my uncle and my aunt. I just felt alone most of the time
Thanks for being so open - as excited as I am to embrace this new year ahead (both personally and professionally for work) I can’t help but relate with how much pressure there is to 'change' when entering a new year.. especially throughout social media! It’s incredibly overwhelming so really lovely to hear your perspective on it❤️ Journaling is great❤️ I’ve also gotten into habit tracking as it’s included within the daily planner I’ve decided to use for the year ahead & I’ve found it to be really beneficial :) definitely look into it if your interested! It’s been a great way to celebrate the small wins like you mentioned❤️ X
Love you Bonnie. So excited for all the great things to come from you this year on this channel and chats and reacts and in your other pursuits. You have been such an inspiring and beaming ray of sunshine and positivity for so many of us. Even if it is at a snail pace for people like me, you truly are helping us grow and be better to ourselves and others. Can’t wait for the next video 💙
This was so vulnerable of you. I loved the topics and the things that you talked about. 🥰 Bonny, your videos are such an enrichment to my life, you influenced me in so many positive ways. ♥
Amazing set up! I usually spend the day at the movie theater and eating Chinese food at my favorite restaurant. Hope that your holiday has been well with you!
Gosh bonny I love ya! Thank you so much for being vulnerable in this video. Honestly you are a breath of fresh air when it comes to UA-cam and I really admire your gracious strength. I can't not wait for your ebook!! I have made a few of your recipes and have loved them all 🥰 Also you said you love journaling and I'm sure alot of your viewers love it too (including me :) ) it would be really cool if you shared a little more about that, like if you use any prompts, how you create your space to write, maybe even having journaling sessions with you. Anyways just an idea. Love ya girly and happy new year!!
It's okay I honestly have a difficult time too..because I don't have a close relationship with my family either so I actually ended up alone after losing all my friends because when you start setting boundaries everyone dissapeares .so yeah thanx for this.
Totally understand the "shadow"side of being a sensitive cancerian. Interpretation is an issue for me aswell. I feel you sis. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable self! You're doing great.
This was my first year where I was apart from my Mom. She has terminal cancer and due to unexpected reasons she is living in a nursing home. I was so lonely over the holidays. Thankful for my dog Marlee, and that I was able to visit with my Mom. But it was a sad time. I don't have any friends, and I don't have family near by, so I've always just spent it with my Mom. My mental health has been so bad since 2020, but October '21 - now I've been in such a dark place. So I really relate to what you talked about in this video.
Thank you Bonny, i also struggle a lot with family pressure at christmas.. and comparing my situation to other peoples. This was really vulnerable, sending you love!💙
I followed you since the beginning Bonny! And also went through the transition from hclf (deranged) vegan to meat eater! I've always enjoyed your videos, but this is my favourite. It's so easy to imagine that those we watch online have perfect lives and it can make us feel like sh*t, but it's good to remember that people may be hiding many, many of their struggles... I don't have a 'family' to go home to at Christmas either. Nor do I have many friends either right now, ugh.. I've always hated Christmas and I probably will until/unless I have a family of my own. This video helps me feel less sad about it xxxx
I don't think you need to call it 'negative energy' or a 'slump' darling.. it's feeling genuinely sad because you lack family connection which is so very, very valid, heart-breaking and real.. ps. same. ♡
Happy new year, Bonny! I especially like these kind of videos because I get a lot of wisdom from you. Being vulnerable specially on camera is not an easy thing to do so I really appreciate when you open up and share some advice. 💜 Stay safe and I hope you have a wonderful year 🥳💜
Hi Bonny! Thank you for this video it’s amazing how much less alone I feel by hearing you talk about your experience/feelings as I’ve had similar ones ❤️ Also I’ve been isolated due to getting Covid over New Years and your videos have made me feel so much better and less isolated so thank you 💕 💕 wishing you all the best for the new year xx
Love this kind of video!! Feels like I'm with a close friend and can we say that we all miss chilling and having deep talk with friends... You re amazing keep on shininnnn
Thank you so much for this video ,we appreciate u being vulnerable and open , ure keepong it real and we love you for that, that part about keeping promises to urself is something that i never thought about before so thank you for putting the light on it it was very needed ♡ love from Algeria
Thanks Bobby! What you shared in the last part of the video really resonated with me. Going to check out the video you recommended! I’m a sensitive person too and think the idea of approaching relationships with a little more understanding instead of thinking how does this affect me will be useful! Xx all the best for a happy year!
Thank you so so much for sharing this Bonny!! I feel less lonely and understood after watching you, we have the same struggles, you even share your solutions to them and I'm so happy to know that these feelings are valid and I'm not crazy or dramatic or anything I'm just a human having lots of shit to work on:'. I love you so much! xoxo
You are amazing and thank-you for sharing and being vulnerable. I definitely teared up as soon as you brought up feelings of not belonging, this has always been a big feeling for me but felt it so much more this year. Hugs xx
🥺💖 thank you for being here! x
Thank you for your vulnerability here 💕 you’ve made us all feel a lot less alone xx
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Bonny, it was life changing for me when I learned about your family situation. It showed me that life can look so great online but it isn't 100% reality. It also showed me that in spite of all of the hardship, I don't let it have to consume me and I can still try to be happy. Thank you for always being so honest ❤️
Going through such a hard time, but I know that there are so many souls out there going through similar shifts. Thank you
I'm feeling quite discontent in my *body shape, a bit vulnerable and raw today. Thank you for uploading something to brighten my spirits.* I hear you on feeling low. 💖
One day you’ll have a beautiful family which is your own and that hole inside gonna disappear.❤️
Christmas is a really really difficult time for me too. I’m still recovering from its impact on my mental health. Sending you love. ❤️
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Thanks for opening up, Bonny. Christmas is a hard time for me too and I find myself comparing my situation to other people's seemingly happy families and feeling lonely, isolated, and down. I'm glad you have a loving partner and friendship group who help you during these difficult times x
appreciate your vulnerability bonny ♥️ this will resonate with so many xx sending love 🥰
Thank you for your vulnerability. I got teary eyed myself when you got emotional. I struggle with the holidays as well, so thank you for talking about it. Sending you all the love ❤️
Thankyou for sharing such an honest, vulnerable side Bonny 💛 I truly appreciate your raw and real sharing as it makes me feel less alone, and that my feelings are indeed valid. I really resonated with your chat on feeling alone and not belonging during this time. You are such a kind and inquisitive soul who deserves so much love and light in this world. Sending lots of love and many happy cheers for the new year ahead. xx
Thank you🥺 I always feel a little scared uploading videos like this but comments like this remind me why I should! 💛
Bonny you are such a precious person, it's amazing how great you are at connecting
Bonny you are such a beautiful and bright soul ✨ I‘ve followed you for quite a few years (I was 15 when I started watching) you and I feel like you have grown so much! I feel like your channel is a very positive place in many ways - especially because you are very real ❤️
And to everybody reading this - I know times are hard at the moment, if you need someone to talk to always feel free to message 🥰 You all are very loved!
Thank you for sharing. I just lost my grandma last year (end nov) and it was the first Christmas without her. It was very hard, had a mini existential crisis about death, life and family and had that same "hole" you mentioned. Love your videos and thanks for being so real 🧡
I was just thinking about you and Emily because I’m back in my Renegade era. Warm wishes to you for 2022 and beyond, Bonny. Thank you for always being so open and vulnerable with your audience 💓 Your channel has always been a light for me
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Bonny first of all, lovely video and I love you so much ❤️ secondly, I apologise for going off topic, but would you mind starting a podcast? I could listen to you talk about anything and everything, be it a toothbrush. I am absolutely in awe in the way you speak and make us think about what you are speaking about.
Thank you again for this video Bonny, wish you a Happy New Year and sending so much love your way ❤️
I would 100% listen to that!
Yea please!! Em and bonny podcast!
Thank you for sharing Bonny, you’ve articulated so well the experience of some things being felt only whilst being alone and the necessity for this in the development of self. It’s painful and tinged with grief, yet opens up the possibility of truly starting to know oneself. Much love and best wishes for 2022. 🤍🙏🏻🌻📸
i feel your heart so deeply. thank you for sharing !
Very much appreciate you doing this Bon. It really can be a tough time, I don't have a close bond with my parents either and I'm hoping everyone here who are feeling the same way find their tribe, their home, their found family very very soon or one fine day because we all deserve it❤️
I know that whole well. It gets better when you start your own family and allows to create the best Christmas ever
The end of the year accomplishments and the start of the year goals / resolutions just makes me feel exhausted. And then I feel guilty for feeling that way, but idk, the constant drive for perfection that I feel like happens at the New Years time makes me feel less and so tired. Not sure if you entirely relate, but thank you for sharing 💛
i absolutely love how honest and vulnerable you are in your videos 🤍 no matter what videos you post, they're always so comforting, so thank you for being willing to be vulnerable and open with us 🤍
Thank you for sharing your feelings with us, Bonny. It's rare to see honesty in social media and I always appreciate that from you. Sending you a big hug 💖
my family is very small and being the youngest means much of my extended family has passed away. i really relate to you in feeling like you’re missing out on the big family aspect that is often associated with the holidays. your content brings me comfort and inspiration, so I thank you for your creativity and vulnerability. sending you love ❤️
So happy you’re sharing another vlog with us. We missed you Bonny! Wishing you a happy New Year. Thanks for sharing your feelings with us. I hope that one day the whole inside of you will be filled with family unity rather that is your immediate family or your own ( one day you and your children ) 💞
Such a lovely vlog❤️ can’t imagine how hard being so vulnerable on camera is but thanks so much for sharing, definitely relate to a lot of what you’ve said and I think it’s definitely a chat everyone should have more! Your videos are always so soothing like a nice cup of tea❤️🫖
I feel you, Bonny! Loved this video so much, thank you for sharing
16:47 This is one of the lovliest and most authentic smiles I've ever seen
What I learnt that helped me is that people can never be your way. You need to accept people as they are and have no expectations. We were born to think expectations is normal however it is not what we need to think is that acceptance is normal and once you change your mindset to that you will be forever happy inside your self. I had to learn this and was struggling myself and wondering why my partners didn’t treat me the same as how I would treat them and I realised that no one has the same mindset values goals etc like you and that’s okay.
First off, your videos are literally my fave on UA-cam!! Been following you for yearssss and they're always great! And I can SO relate to the feeling lonely round Christmas or other holidays where family is focus for most people xx
You live in the place where I left my heart... I had to leave because my physical health... I never got the visa I paid so much for and work hard for. I lost the man I love because I also got really insecure and scared and pushed him away while inside I was screaming to him to never let me go and stay as close as possible. Please. Don’t compare. But also recognize what you have, because it’s sooo much more than most people Bonny, I say that with respect and sweetness. You’re blessed. Smile. Go to the ocean, you CAN.
hmmm i felt you so deeply, bonny. thank you for being open with us. sending so much love your way.
One thing that saved my 2021 is ofc Taylor but also you. I've been binge watching both of your channels and your videos are just the only thing keeping me going. I wish I could put into words how much you mean to me and a lot of others. We love you so much Bon, keep doing what you're doing💞
Bonny I love you and admire you SO much. I also spent christmas alone and recovering from covid. I wish you everything good ❤️
Thank you for being vulnerable with us. Definatedly there's a Lot of pressure on how these celebrations should look like. I turned off social media that week and it was so good for my mental health!
Thank you for being vulnerable Bonny, I am very empathic person, to other's people feelings, I wanted to hug you right away.... and I used to like Christmas.. it was my favorite holiday but since my brother passed away two years ago, I don't enjoy it, it doesn't make me happy anymore, specially because he passed on New Year's Eve, so I have a dark cloud over my head during that time, I try to be cheerful but deep down I'm sad.. and honestly I could skip December and January entirely. It was a deppressing comment sorry but that's how I feel during this time of the year. Hopefully with time, it can get better.
Sending you all the love Bonny ❤️ I also don't have parents I'm close to. Actually, I have no parents in my life. I'm basically an orphan. I was adopted and then disowned by my adoptive mom so I have many bad experiences with parent figures. The holidays are definitely tough but I'm lucky to at least have my boyfriends family to spend the holidays with.
I'm so happy that you're back again! I'm going to watch the video while I'm having dinner (Spain time zone hahaha) 🙌🏼
I hope you're good Bonny, wishing you the best for 2022! ✨🤞🏼
Yum! Love knowing what you guys are up to as you watch 🥰Enjoy
i also get that feeling of having nowhere to return to, but for me its more of a constant feeling, like, if the world becomes too much i cant just go back to my parents house, because 1. they dont have a house and 2. theyre seperated. christmas is honestly becoming more chill each year as i learn to spend the day with myself
This is so valuable, and you said that the space is created to learn through things and work through things. Could you talk about how you created that healthy space?
Thank you for sharing yourself 🤍
Thank you for this vlog, Bonny. It must have been tough to film, but your honesty and authenticity just shines through. You've got such sound life advice, I love your chats!
I’m so sorry bonny that you are feeling this way. I know you said in the past that you would like to have kids and get married. I know that when/if you decide to settle down you will be able to create memories/ have family traditions with your family (husband/kids) and i hope that can fill the void you have felt all these years♥️
I'm not close with my parents either. When I feel sad about it, I remind myself that I don't need to go home, I am home. My home is my appartment, where I live with my partner and our two cats. We have our own little family, and in this little family, I do belong. It doesn't take away the heartache, but focusing on the love that I do have in my life does make it easier to cope with the kind of love I am missing. Sending you hugs.
Thank you for being vulnerable here. Your channel is def one of those places I go online to see what I wish my life could be. But, I know we all struggle, and social media can definitely be a highlight reel.
My family lives at the other end of the world so I haven't seen them in over 2.5 years now. They've never met my two sons born within that time. Christmas has been making me extremely sad these last few years and it definitely helps to spend more time with friends. My heart goes out to you 💛
I love your haircut!! Don't stop being you. You are beautiful inside and out. I'm sorry you have struggles but you are such a strong person and you help so many people when you share them. Never forget that you reach so many and do so much good with your channels. Sometimes found family are exactly what we need when blood family fails us. You are loved and I know you know this. Big hugs 💙
I loved this 💛✨ hearing your experience makes me feel more normal. Learnt a lot, thank you for sharing. My motto this year is "Keep it Simple" ( I also overthink and live in my head) I found this quote helps me to act a bit quicker instead of over analysing. Btw loved the thumbnail 💛💖💕💞💓
My maternal grandfather passed away in difficult circumstances on Christmas Day two years ago, and my paternal grandmother passed in January the year before that, so since then Christmas has been very bittersweet... Yet still a great family time! All the feeling of joy piled up with seasonal depression and grief - very strange and definitely feels like I've grown up and the magic is gone, but I still appreciate being with family so much. There's a saying : Childhood is the kingdom where no one dies...
Thanks for being so vulnerable in the beginning of the video , I felt really touched ! And it’s so needed for all of us to know that we don’t have to feel amazing and excited all the time, I love love love when people just own their humanity and not resist it but just compassionately embrace it ❤️
Love... I'm so sorry to hear that. One day you will have your own little christmas with your loved ones and you will organize it the best way ever. Happy new year, I hope all your dreams come true
I really appreciate when you talk through your mental health revelations and intentions and your methods for getting to have these moments of clarity as well, like that you have a counsellor and use journalling and how you note that the feelings pass and change - it is all inspiring to me, especially in my lowest times 💛 Thank you for sharing
i made a rule last year actually that i call the 5 minute rule- if something takes less than 5 minutes to do, i do it right away. that included things like putting a jacket away or answering an email or whatever. and let me tell ye, that rule stuck and my room has never been cleaner. i don't even need to deep clean anymore, since i always put things away properly now. highly recommend it!!
Thanks for this. As a guy I don't end up feeling beauty envy or anything, but I do admit your life seems perfect from the outside. You're totally correct about the pressure around the holidays. The arguments. The folks that we hang around with one day too long.
1. Loved this video & your vulnerability. You’ve grown so much in the last 5 years.
2. YOUR HAIR!!!! Final form!!! 😍😍😍 12/10, love love love.
Feel you on the Christmas thing, with no one home to go home or where you belong. A definite void of the main family holiday gatherings (Thanksgiving and Christmas) for me. .
Thank you for being vulnerable and for sharing your wisdom. Often we don't see ourselves has having much wisdom really, but believe me many little thing that you mention are so eye opening and helpful to many people going through similar situations. You are right, we are not the only ones feeling down or going through a touth time when we are, and just knowing that already helps feeling less lost. Also, it's just a joy seeing you grow!! :) Thanks for you videos and thanks for sharing truly! :)
Thank you so much for sharing your feelings at Christmas. It really hit home for me and it sucks hearing you feel that same way, but it’s really nice selfishly knowing that I’m not alone with those feelings. Love you Bonny, I’ve been following you since 2016 and you really “influenced” me in the most positive ways. Your channel really got me through ED clinic. Thank you for always being real and always be inspiring ✨
This is just the most heartwarming video. I know it started out a bit tough for you so I’m sending so much love. 🙏🏼✨ I witnessed so much self compassion it filled my heart. Not many people I know experience life the way I do but I related to everything you said at the end! It’s nice to know there are other fellow sensitive conscious creative souls out there working on their shit 🤍
Thanks, Bonny! I didn't realize I needed to hear this, this time of year is especially hard for me because it's also my birthday and I haven't seen my family in the last 3 years and we haven't spent Christmas together for the past 6 years (we relocated to a different country), and now that we have a little 17-month-old, I'm dying for him to meet my family and friends back home! Thank you again for sharing! Xx.
You and Emily balance each other out very well! I greatly appreciate the vulnerability displayed with this vid! Great work!!!
I love to see the beautiful life you’re building for yourself from the ground up. I’m thankful that you have a close group of friends and a loving prtner. It’s funny thpugh, how we all have pur own little theatre and pull up a wall to hide the mess. Ah the things I could tell you about myself! But listen, I hope, no, I can already see it so clearly in the future: there will come a day, down the road, when November will run out of numbers and you’ll feel peace, comfort and warm inside about December and all that it brings.
I can relate to so much of what you said. I also felt disconnected from family, I have taken space for myself so I can heal from things. You are growing so beautifully, sometimes pain is a sign that there is more work that needs to be done. I want to say back to you, that you are not alone in that. I also overthink a lot and now I am trying to take action rather than sit in my head which is not healthy for me. I feel like you and me are in the same spot. thank you for being vulnerable. Love you :)
Hi Bonnie. I’m 41 years old, married, with one daughter, and Im an ex vegan like yourself (that was actually how I found your Chanel by mistake. Your “im not vegan anymore” was the first video of yours I watched)
Iv been watching your videos ever since and just wanted to say that I love your videos, your content is brilliant, professional, interesting, honest and raw, and fun. I think it’s great how people of such varied ages and walks of life, will love your videos.
Keep doing what you are doing! Thank you for your content!
I’m so sorry Christmas is a difficult time for you. I didn’t realize you weren’t close with your parents. I remember an earlier video of yours where you were hanging curtains and you called your dad to ask for advice on hanging them / using the drill and I think I thought that was an indicator you were on good terms. I’ve always been very close with my mother, but my dad was a very difficult person to grow up with and I think that relationship is a source of a lot of my emotional and interpersonal issues. But as he matured (my parents were 23 when I was born) and was affected and changed by life’s ups-and-downs… and as I also matured from being his dependent to an independent adult… our relationship changed. I saw how he was shaped by his relationship with his parents and that he unconsciously mimicked it when he became a parent. And I saw how much of my own traits were like him, and that helped me to understand him better. Reactions from him that I thought meant one thing as a child, I now see them for what they actually are. It doesn’t excuse them… but I take them less personally now. And I’ve learned to recognize his expressions of love, which are less obvious than physical affection and being told “I love you.” I was once asked by someone I poured my heart out to about my childhood demons why I didn’t confront my dad about certain things and clear the air. My response was that I no longer felt like I needed to. I had finally come to understand my dad enough to know that he has remorse for the parent he was, even if he hasn’t had a heart-to-heart with me about it because that’s just not what he does. It would have been for selfish reasons to confront him on things that maybe still haunt my present, but are a distant if not forgotten memory to him now. Airing my past grievances wouldn’t make me feel any better about them or reprogram my negative learned behaviors… it would only make him feel bad now. I forgave him long ago for his failings. Through it all though, I still had my close relationship with my mom, and that made all the difference in my continued relationship with both my parents. On the other hand, my much younger cousin (she’s 25 now) has a strained relationship with both her parents. They see each other now, but a couple years ago, words were exchanged and accusations levied that my cousin will have a hard-time atoning for. Between that and the pandemic, they went a long time not seeing or speaking to each other. But she has a child of her own now, and I think she’s starting to see her parents through new eyes. Not sure she will ever make the amends she really should make, but the presence of a grandchild has pushed them back together. Still, my aunt and uncle tread carefully… they keep things very surface-level with her and her fiancé so as to avoid being so deeply hurt again. But they don’t let that strained relationship impact their grandparent relationship to her daughter.
The quote you shared from that talk really touches me as well. “To love someone is to apply charity and generosity of interpretation.” Gosh, that’s great. Not only do I very much need to hear that right this minute as I am going through a communication breakdown with a co-worker that I mainly interact with over email now, but that just so encapsulates what we fail to do anytime we get into a fight or relationship breakdown with someone we care about. Misinterpreting what each other says or does (or doesn’t say or do) is so easy to do. I’ve often found myself serving as a sort of interpreter between my parents when they get cross with one another because I’m enough of both of them that I can see and understand them when they aren’t understanding each other.
I hope one day you are able to repair your relationship with your parents. I don’t know why it is strained and it may not be something that can be fixed (I have friends where that is the case), but I hope that if it is something you want and something achievable, that it will come to pass one day.
Gal, I totally needed that chat! I’ve been feeling flat all holidays! Sending loving and healing vibes 🙏🏽
We love you Bonny 💛 I know I‘m just some random girl on the internet to you, but please know that you matter and you are so much appreciated. In fact we all are, regardless of what our „outer“ circumstances may look like. Thank you for being you. ☺️
"We never painted by the numbers, baby
But we were making it count"
The only channel that brings a smile to my face 💙💙
I had such high expectations for Christmas this year , last year was so bad for so many aspects and Christmas time was just.. forgettable. But this year was just as bad , even if for different reasons. My father had to work during Christmas AND new year's eve, my brother and my mother had covid , I couldn't see my grandmother, or my uncle and my aunt. I just felt alone most of the time
Thanks for being so open - as excited as I am to embrace this new year ahead (both personally and professionally for work) I can’t help but relate with how much pressure there is to 'change' when entering a new year.. especially throughout social media! It’s incredibly overwhelming so really lovely to hear your perspective on it❤️
Journaling is great❤️ I’ve also gotten into habit tracking as it’s included within the daily planner I’ve decided to use for the year ahead & I’ve found it to be really beneficial :) definitely look into it if your interested! It’s been a great way to celebrate the small wins like you mentioned❤️ X
I love your videos. They make me feel so happy. I love how you transmits beautiful things 🤍
the the best year bonny!!! I love you and appreciate you and your content. keep being such a light!
Love you Bonnie. So excited for all the great things to come from you this year on this channel and chats and reacts and in your other pursuits. You have been such an inspiring and beaming ray of sunshine and positivity for so many of us. Even if it is at a snail pace for people like me, you truly are helping us grow and be better to ourselves and others. Can’t wait for the next video 💙
Wow. Your very relatable, thank you for opening up. We all have hard times. But we are strong and will get through them 😘
This was so vulnerable of you. I loved the topics and the things that you talked about. 🥰 Bonny, your videos are such an enrichment to my life, you influenced me in so many positive ways. ♥
Amazing set up! I usually spend the day at the movie theater and eating Chinese food at my favorite restaurant. Hope that your holiday has been well with you!
Gosh bonny I love ya! Thank you so much for being vulnerable in this video. Honestly you are a breath of fresh air when it comes to UA-cam and I really admire your gracious strength. I can't not wait for your ebook!! I have made a few of your recipes and have loved them all 🥰
Also you said you love journaling and I'm sure alot of your viewers love it too (including me :) ) it would be really cool if you shared a little more about that, like if you use any prompts, how you create your space to write, maybe even having journaling sessions with you. Anyways just an idea. Love ya girly and happy new year!!
It's okay I honestly have a difficult time too..because I don't have a close relationship with my family either so I actually ended up alone after losing all my friends because when you start setting boundaries everyone dissapeares .so yeah thanx for this.
Totally understand the "shadow"side of being a sensitive cancerian. Interpretation is an issue for me aswell. I feel you sis. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable self! You're doing great.
This was my first year where I was apart from my Mom. She has terminal cancer and due to unexpected reasons she is living in a nursing home. I was so lonely over the holidays. Thankful for my dog Marlee, and that I was able to visit with my Mom. But it was a sad time. I don't have any friends, and I don't have family near by, so I've always just spent it with my Mom. My mental health has been so bad since 2020, but October '21 - now I've been in such a dark place. So I really relate to what you talked about in this video.
Sending love 💕 hope this year is good to you
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thank you for being so vulnerable bonny❤️
I love this type of real videos, that we can all relate so much
I can so relate to the overthinking small things. Happy New Year!
Thank you Bonny, i also struggle a lot with family pressure at christmas.. and comparing my situation to other peoples. This was really vulnerable, sending you love!💙
the honesty and vulnerability of this vid, there's not a lot of people who speak their truth. Hope ur doing better
I followed you since the beginning Bonny! And also went through the transition from hclf (deranged) vegan to meat eater! I've always enjoyed your videos, but this is my favourite. It's so easy to imagine that those we watch online have perfect lives and it can make us feel like sh*t, but it's good to remember that people may be hiding many, many of their struggles... I don't have a 'family' to go home to at Christmas either. Nor do I have many friends either right now, ugh.. I've always hated Christmas and I probably will until/unless I have a family of my own. This video helps me feel less sad about it xxxx
I don't think you need to call it 'negative energy' or a 'slump' darling.. it's feeling genuinely sad because you lack family connection which is so very, very valid, heart-breaking and real.. ps. same. ♡
Happy new year, Bonny! I especially like these kind of videos because I get a lot of wisdom from you. Being vulnerable specially on camera is not an easy thing to do so I really appreciate when you open up and share some advice. 💜 Stay safe and I hope you have a wonderful year 🥳💜
Hi Bonny! Thank you for this video it’s amazing how much less alone I feel by hearing you talk about your experience/feelings as I’ve had similar ones ❤️ Also I’ve been isolated due to getting Covid over New Years and your videos have made me feel so much better and less isolated so thank you 💕 💕 wishing you all the best for the new year xx
Thankyou for voicing perfectly what so many of us feel at Christmas time!! 💛 hope you are doing well this week, you are amazing
I loved this so much Bonny! Thank you for grounding us into such deep truths in this video xx
Love this kind of video!! Feels like I'm with a close friend and can we say that we all miss chilling and having deep talk with friends... You re amazing keep on shininnnn
Thank you so much for this video ,we appreciate u being vulnerable and open , ure keepong it real and we love you for that, that part about keeping promises to urself is something that i never thought about before so thank you for putting the light on it it was very needed ♡ love from Algeria
You don't know how thankful I am for this video. Thank you.
You expressed this all very well. I can tell from the change in your voice cadence that you are becoming more grounded and confident.
Thanks Bobby! What you shared in the last part of the video really resonated with me. Going to check out the video you recommended! I’m a sensitive person too and think the idea of approaching relationships with a little more understanding instead of thinking how does this affect me will be useful! Xx all the best for a happy year!
Definitely check out the video, so glad you could relate 💛
this was so good to hear, thank you for sharing and for being so so genuine. it means a lot❤️
I feel so silly that I didn't know you had your own channel. So Happy you posted on your story today, this is exactly what I needed. Thank you. 🙏
Thank you for everything you shared. It was very comforting to relate to you! You definitely gave me some encouragement and helped me feel less alone.
Thank you so so much for sharing this Bonny!! I feel less lonely and understood after watching you, we have the same struggles, you even share your solutions to them and I'm so happy to know that these feelings are valid and I'm not crazy or dramatic or anything I'm just a human having lots of shit to work on:'. I love you so much! xoxo