Hey bud, I know people probably say this a lot. But you don't need to apologize to us for disappearing sometimes, as long as you're trying your best I'm proud. Thank you for trying as hard as you do. It's terrible, the things you go through. But we're all rooting for you.
Daniel I am so sorry that you are struggling so much. I watched your videos with the interviews you did with SBKS. Thank you for sharing your story and being totally honest and sharing your story. You may not realize it but you speaking out about mental illness and the struggles you are having helps people realize they are not alone. Somethings you said hit home with me. Just because people cannot physically see mental illness does not mean we aren't worthy of treatment. I see a very kind man. I am also sorry to hear you had covid twice but am glad you survived.
Hello Daniel, I've never interacted with you before. But I've been watching your videos for about a year now. I have borderline personality disorder as well. I live on those waves of self hatred. I also can't figure out reality sometimes, or not understanding the depth of what's actually happening. I don't really enjoy talking about my issues and opening up. This comment has taken me over a year to just feel like I can say. I love watching your videos. My heart goes out to you. I have an 8 year old dog that I love just as much as you love yours and it breaks my heart. Daniel you are an amazing person. You are brave. And you can do great things. No matter what those voices inside say. You are loved💙
I'm proud of you Rachel. Good job girl. Keep kicking butt and snuggling squishmellows 😎 oh wait... that part is what I do lol. Have you tried squishmellows? I got a grogu one (baby yoda)
@@justintyme4690 I had a dream around 3 wks ago about large marshmallows that had smooth peanut butter in the centre. I mentioned it to a cpl of my family members and now they're asking me to put some together. They do sound yummy don't they? I have the strangest dreams, usually I'm being chased by something /one, yet the peanut butter dream was a good dream. 🤗🥜
Hey Daniel, please don't blame yourself, it must have been so immensely painful, you must be exhausted. Im here crying with you. You must have fought very hard to not let us down. We know you love and care about us. Anyone in your pain and position couldn't have done anything to deal any better with the constant attack. It's okay to feel tired, it's okay to feel powerless, it's perfectly normal to feel that way. Many of us feel that on a different level and circumstances. It is only human. There's only one you here. There's nothing you need to to strive for. You being you is enough. Thank you for sharing your authenticity. Can you keep reading all these beautiful comments to keep those monsters away?
My man, you are ACTUALLY more than anyone I know. What you carry, what you've been through...wow. Without putting any obligations anywhere, I want to let you know you're my hero.
Agreed. I just watched the 2 interviews with Mr. Chris, and I immediately felt something is very precious and special about Daniel. The world needs you, Daniel. Please, please stay. We need you.
Not sure how to express how important you sharing all of this is to me. I’ve always personally had mental health struggles throughout my life and have also lost pets at what seems to be the worst time and it’s just so horrible, I don’t know how to deal with it. The things I’m too afraid to say out loud or to even just myself are a lot of the things that you’ve said in this video. Because of that, I don’t feel as alone as I normally would. I don’t generally leave comments on videos, but I felt compelled to thank you for being a lifeline for people too. You may not realize it but you do save people too, Daniel. People just like me. Thank you!
That's so true Tatum. Daniel helps us all in so many powerful ways. My whole life from childhood to now has been one trauma after another, ( 1 spiritual lesson after another I try tell myself) living is the most exhausting thing, constantly trying to find real reasons to stay alive, there just seems to be no joy in living anymore, then I watch Daniels honest to the bone message and he reminds me I'm not alone in the way I feel. That it's okay to feel the things I do. Depression does not define us, it's just a small part of our true self. "Every Day In Every Way We Are Getting Better". Bright Blessing. 🤝🤗
Hey. It's good you reached out. I am proud of him doing this. I don't know if this is going to help, but worth a try. I only started to listen to these. You Tube. Good Vibes. I was listening to them for severe pain. They have plenty of different ones. This is music therapy Nicola Tesla has some out too and there are others to listen too. Hopefully this will help some. It helps me to relax and helps me feel better physically and mentally. So sorry for your loss too. Our furry humans are the best. Keeps us going. I hope you feel better
P.s. It doesn't matter how longago you lost your pets. I know they helped you through alot. I think they do most people except people who treat them badly.
Daniel, I am but a random stranger on the internet. But I would like to say that I am truely proud of you and happy to have found your channel after seeing your interviews with SBSK. I have to admit some of your videos were hard for me in the beginning to see - because they showed me a "side" of life that was not know to me before. and that the dark places which many of us imagine, are actually real. and that the mind can take one to places that are impossible to describe in words. I had my bad days as well, this is not a battle for best mental disorder but I'm bipolar. yet, I never dipped all the way into the darkness. and I can only call myself lucky for that. All I can hope for, when this comment reaches you when you're ready to see it, is that you find some weird comfort in being assured that I and the people that commented earlier are with you, we see you, we accept you, you raise positive curiosity in us, your daily struggles and kickbacks are shared with us all here. english is not my native language, but I found the objectively simple saying of "take care" to carry a lot of weight and meaning. so, I hope you'll take care
Don't need to be sorry! Yes, you are capable of being loved, because you ARE loved! I can't imagine how hard is this all for you, your daily struggles... But please remember there are people rooting for you. Always.
I know. Many of us heard you and were also ill, too. Do not yield! Do not die! DO not worry about slothfulness! All of those things are temporary. You took care of your cat and dog when they needed you. And that is the point. They needed you and you stepped up and helped. Illness comes and we make the call and help. THAT IS GOOD AND RIGHT. Everything dies. In its time. Not in your choice or mine. Love has nothing to do with it. I'll hold you in the cold, and the chill of dawn, and I'll hold your puppies and your sad, old dogs, too. Just as I am holding and rocking my own now. Thank you, because of your words, and your heart, I don't have to walk alone. You may feel lost, but you have saved me so that I can stand and walk one more day. Love to You always.
Don't be sorry, dear Daniel. You visit us here whenever you can. I think I can say we will all be here when you are. 🥰 You have been an incredible inspiration to me! Don't ever forget that ❤️
Hello Daniel!!! Take care sweety! You are a star ⭐⭐⭐⭐!!! Send u big, big, big, huge hugg though I'm a totally stranger but,....that's my way to say Hello 🤗 ....You talk like a poet!!! ....what a beautiful soul you are!...remember the impermanent nature of dependently existing phenomena, like darkness... it will pass away...if something depends on perception, point of view, circumstances, this or that, then, when any of these things change, when the circumstances changes, the point of view changes, the experience changes... Then the waves of life,... ups and downs continuously, so we are. I admire you for your courage!!. Send u much light and love from the other side of the world! 😸🌞🌟💕🌻🐈
Don't ever be sorry for how you feel. Don't ever hate yourself for life being shit. You are so strong. You are so, fucking strong. I'm so glad you are here. I'm so, so glad you are still trying. Take your time. Grieve. Take your time. As your friend, I'll wait. I'll wait if that means I can see you doing better. I'll wait if that means 2 or 3 more months of silence. It's okay. Life is shit, but I love you being in life.
I just recently found you through Chris interviewing you. I felt so over come because I relate so much. I am diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar with bpd and ptsd. It's nice to know Im not alone. I don't talk to really anyone about it out of fear of them looking at me differently or judging me. Thank you so much for telling your story.
I'm sorry for the loss of your cats, Daniel. No matter the circumstances that's always really tough. They knew you loved them. Keeping you in my thoughts and hoping that you find some glimmers of light and hope wherever you can.
Keep strong Daniel! I've been watching your videos for a bit now and I want you to know I appreciate you sharing your life with us. You are so strong! I am sorry about what happened with your pets. I'm praying things get better for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong!! Things will and do get better.. somehow, some way! ❤️🌹
You are the only person I relate to when it comes to the depression of mental illness and loss. I can't even begin to explain how badly I want others to relate to. It's like you're the only one that gets it.
Daniel... 1) You NEVER need to apologize for ANYTHING, we understand more than you know. Really, we do. 2) I don't know you personally, but I feel as if I do. You are a kind and caring person. You deserve nothing but the best. I genuinely feel like you are my friend. 3) It may not seem like it in this very moment, but it gets better. Do not ever question your existence or whether you are some sort of burden. You are NOT. If people on the internet like myself can understand this, then the people closest to you most certainly understand. 4) Not only are you not a burden, you are the opposite. You are an inspiration. You are a gift of hope. I really mean that. I just came across your channel, and felt like I understood mental illness more, you more, and myself more. You are a treasure, homie. Do not ever question yourself about this. 5) Thank you. Really. Thank you.
Hey bro, it’s Anthony, I hope you keep posting and keeping us updated. You’re quite an inspiration to people with mental disorders and depression. You’re a good friend with an incredible mind. Share your story and knowledge with others and you can save lives or at the least alleviate pain from others feeling similar to you. It was a please and honor to meet you dude.
My brother, it was an honor and a pleasure to meet YOU! You truly kept me sane and grounded in the ward; you kept what little spirit I had left alive. So thank YOU friend.
you're never a downer Daniel, just someone we care about. I'm so sorry that life has been so awful to you lately, but I'm so proud of you for still being here. just knowing that you're still out there fighting has been an inspiration to me, and I hope that someday you'll find a life that's easier on you. I wish you all the best and if you're comfortable with it, I'm also sending a huge hug. please be good to yourself. P.S. I also wanted to give a gentle suggestion, when I've found it hard to bathe or change my clothes, I've found that just keeping a package of wet wipes near has helped me maintain hygiene. sometimes just cleaning your face and hands can improve your mood even a tiny bit.
That's a great suggestion. Some days I wake and can't find the energy to bathe, so as you stated I do the basics with baby wipes and a little of my favourite parfume. Also, I try real hard to daily find the energy to clean my Teeth for thats what gives me a boost the most. Many bright blessings. 🤝🤗
Hi Daniel. I'm Rudi from The Netherlands. I kept myself awake unwillingly and started watching your interviews for SBSK at 4am. - Previously I've watched videos on your channel. Man, you are so strong. With all that's going through your mind, I can't begin to understand but I'm trying. You're definitely a learned person, very kind and caring. I can't be there in person for you but know you have a friend in me. I like to believe I can send you love and energy through space and time. You have every right to be who you are without having to account to anyone! I don't know you but I know I love you. Be well, be you! God bless 🙏
You could tell that in the midst of her confusion, Maxine could feel your love and reassurance when you were petting her. She may not understand much right now, but she knows that you love her.
Hey Daniel, I don't know how to phrase this "the right way", so I'll just speak honestly - You're reaching people thousands of miles away, like me in the UK, in ways you can't imagine. From influencing me, and I'm sure thousands of others, to make little behaviour changes to huge perspective shifts, you're positively affecting people - so while I understand its not a simple as this statement; if you ever question why you're here or you don't believe in your value - just know without your voice there are times when I wouldn't have thought to be more patient with someone, to be mindful to ask others how they're doing, and even just been kinder to myself! You've made an enormous, positive, impact on me (and again, I'm sure I speak for many in saying that) - so I just wanted to say thank you for being brave, being you, and to tell you - I think you're wonderful. Sending you so much love ❤️
I think about u often!! It's ok if u need time for u buddy.. Stay strong.. U inspire so many of us.. U put a voice to how so many of us feel Edit: I think you are one of the strongest ppl I've ever seen.... I appreciate you for being so honest.. Your amazing and I wish I could hang out w u one day.. Edit again: wow that's so much loss in a short time.. I'm crying for you..
Daniel, my husband and I have discovered your channel and your videos and we think you are a wonderful man. It takes great, great courage to speak out about Mental Health. You are helping so many people who have similar challenges. Just know you are worthy of being here. You have a right to live your life and be happy. Everytime you post a video, you are getting your frustrations out and helping so many others that may not have the courage to speak out publicly. We are from Texas as well and you have quickly become one of our favorite people on UA-cam. My husband Michael understands a LOT of your mentality as he has depression and anxiety issues as well. Be strong my friend and know you have friends.
Daniel, I'm glad you're here. I'm glad you're alive and still trying. I know it's hard. Life is rough and you've had a nasty pile of challenges. As soon as you said covid, I thought about your poor lungs. I send you love, the most assuring hugs, and strength. Your eloquence brings me hope and belonging. The urge to vanish is with lots of us these days. Thank you for doing even the smallest things to keep yourself here. Breathing. Caring for plants and furry critters. Being your beautiful red-haired self. I'm thankful for you and I pray your strength and some ease. You deserve comfort and some ease. Your eyes are beautiful from where I'm sitting and if all you can do is the super basic stay alive stuff, do that. Try something more tomorrow, if you feel strong enough. You are a valuable treasure.
That was a very tough things ... But look, everyone living thing has its own time. We just need to be thankful for joy, peace and love that they gifted every other second)... ... Daniel, you are worthy! Your interviews and videos are helping other people with similar mental state and the same kind of their fillings... You can teach others to live with your emotions and your fears. ... Look, I'm from Ukraine and there is a war in my country (started with russian invasion at 04:00-05:00 on Feb 24)... I believe, that after this war came over, some of my people, who are soldiers now, will have a very hard times with their mental health.... PTSR and others... And your videos are very helpful to better understanding of this state. Thank you! I wish you peace in your mind and a great good fillings in your heart! You are not alone!
Daniel, I watched a lot of your videos on your channel after coming here from your interviews @ SBSK. With every phrase you spoke, even though I've not gone through the torturous, constant, debilitating maelstrom of conditions that you have, I have tried to take it in and empathise with what it must feel like. When you're unable to conjure up a single memory of what makes you happy, or how to feel happy. When you lose agency over so much of what your body is feeling, sensing, and even thinking. To a point where even your rational mind find it difficult to find a reason to stay here. What you're going through is truly one of the darkest and most intense experiences of living that I could possibly think of. I want you to remember that millions of people around the world have been inspired by your honesty, your intellect, your compassion - even when you're being bombarded and whittled away by your conditions. You have been this candle that have lit millions of others even when your own has been flickering and dimming. What you have done in touching so many others, especially those that resonated with your conditions and going through their own similar version of hell-on-earth, is nothing short of buddha-like. I really hope that at some point in your journey you will truly realise what an amazing person you are and what good you have achieved. Love you man.
Thank you for being transparent. I also spent time hospitalized and people need to hear our stories. My cat died two months after I got home of cancer. I always think about the wasted time because I was unwell. You're braver than a lot of us by being so open. I see you as the opposite of a burden. You help lift my stress by hearing other people make me feel "normal" when I'm very not normal. When I'm "freaking out." When professionals label us everything but normal. And rightfully so, but it's okay to not be okay. You're appreciated by this complete stranger.
You're not a burden. Please keep trying to take care of yourself and dont be afraid to ask for help. You're far more important than you think and a lot of people are looking up to you.
Daniel, you inspire me. Thank you for being here with us. I am autistic & also suffer from BPD, and seeing you share your true self warms my heart and gives me hope. The world needs more gentle souls like yourself. I hope your week is going okay, much love to you.
Daniel, these videos you apologize for being "downers" and a "burden" I will sit and watch every minute of, and feel only connection and wonder, no burden at all. you are so brave to put all of it out there for us. We watch because we want to understand, just like you. You are here to guide us. You have a purpose. Thank you for the value you give to this life. And yes, we're ALL STILL HERE!!
Hi Daniel, I've only recently discovered you through your powerful video chats on SBSK (with "Mr Chris"). Just wanted to say, you are SO worthy. One of the most valuable traits in a person I've always felt, is kindness - being a good person, and you have that in spades! You're also incredibly insightful and interesting to listen to, and clearly very smart. In short, as no doubt countless people have already told you, you're a very likeable person, and anyone would be proud to have you as their friend. Sending you positive vibes and best wishes from the UK 🤜🤛
Thank you Daniel. I am so happy I found you through your interview. Seeing you, so self aware and stand so strong in your truth... maybe, just maybe, I can too survive through the chaos in my mind. Thank you for your existence, your resilience, and your honesty. The people who know you are lucky and you are loved by many.
Jesus... I'm sorry you had to go through so much in such a short time, man. Life can truly be so cruel at times; it can chew you up and spit you out so quickly. I'm sure you already know this, but you are amazingly strong and resilient. And sometimes it can feel disingenuous to hear that, because you have no choice but to be strong in order to make it in this world. But I want to stress to you just how much of an impact you've made for so many people. I read people's stories in the comment section and I see the outpouring of support and comradery in this community that you've built here. It's a beautiful thing; you should be extremely proud of that! Mental illness is a lifelong struggle and it can be a true bitch at times, but the strongest people I've met are those that can take their experiences and use it as a tool to educate and help others. And you've done that! You're worth so much more to so many people than you realize. And while it can be almost impossible at times to see that in the midst of the chaos of life, I have hope that one day you'll see these comments from so many supporters, and believe it for yourself. Stay strong, keep fighting, and never be afraid to reach out for help when you need it. When times get tough and you feel like giving up, remember that we believe in you, and that you're an inspiration to so many people living with mental illness every day. We're all rooting for you, and we genuinely care about you and your well-being. Take care of yourself, man. You've got this!
Daniel, you’re a badass, an eloquent poet, and an inspiration to so many people who have seen your videos and know the things you deal with on a daily basis. Without getting too much into personal details about my own struggles, I find myself relating to a significant amount of the things you’ve talked about in this video, along with your previous interviews on SBSK. I’m sincerely rooting for you and I’ll be including you in my prayers. I dont know if these words will bring any comfort, but just wanted you to have a comment to reflect on when things become overwhelming, in hopes to bring some positivity on a dreadful day. Videos like yours help remind me that I’m not alone (no matter how much I may convince myself that I am). Not sure if you’re into music, but if you ever need some dope music recommendations, I gotchu. It always helped me on a particularly horrendous day/week. Wishing you the best!
Hello I am a new follower, I just found you tonight through Special books by special books UA-cam page and found you. I think you are an incredible human being and sharing with us your struggles. You are not a burden, you have a lot if people that do care including myself. I was very touched by your videos and I admire you. Please so not blame yourself or apologize for your absences. I am so glad your still here with us today. You deserve to be here and you deserve the help. You are worthy of good things. You are a beautiful person inside and out ❤
I'm so sorry for your losses. I'm here crying after watching your interviews with Chris and this video. I lost 2 dogs in 3 years, my service dog starting having seizures in 2020. My cPTSD and other mental health issues are at an all time level of awful but in your words, strength, pain, struggle, inability/ refusal to give up... I see me. and everything still sucks and the ones I've loved and lost are still gone and my body is still broken, destroyed but I now feel less alone. Your words help me feel less alone, like you "get it". Your ability to put into words how I feel is amazing. Thank you. It's super unfortunate that you feel like I do but thank you for wording what I cannot. Hopefully you are not treading water in a bottomless pit of awful but instead breathing fresh air and remembering what it feels like to be a person. I hope you are out there kicking butt but if not know that I'm over here struggling with you.
Want to send my love to u from vancouver 🇨🇦, ive been watching your videos for hour's now and i want to let u know your a better human being then most people ive ever met , u have a kind hart and you are extremely smart , we need more people like u in this world that full of negative, u are a positive i love u
I'm glad you are in this world Daniel. You make it a better place. Your honesty and openness has helped me to help my daughter. You will never know how valuable the information I get from your videos, is. You are valuable, Daniel. You are important. You are strong, kind, handsome, loving, and loved by many. x
Daniel! I wish I could have commented on your video following a forced stay in a psychiatric Ward but comments were disabled unfortunately. You are *A-mazing* mate! If you only knew how many people love you for Who you are. I cringe when I hear you talking about not having Any Joy or even remembering what Joy felt like. Stay Strong Daniel because you are infinitely more precious than you will ever know
Thank you so much for your love and support dear friend. ❤💖. Do you mind telling me which video had the comments disabled? Because there shouldn't be a single video of mine that has comments disabled.
@@danielnepveux97E Oh it was the last SBSK video of you before I learned of your channel and first saw the amazing transformation from you that we are all seeing now! I am so pleased that you found the raw courage to get your own UA-cam channel. You have flourished my amazing friend!!
What I love about you is, you are absolutely transparent and brutally honest!! Aside from a group therapy session, this is the most real talk I ever heard!! You may not realize how many people are feeling the same exact things you are. Damn! I wish I along with many many other were there to help you, but as someone who has gone through similar things I know there is nothing that can be done and sometimes you have to walk that path alone. I pray you have people in person who care for you aside from us. I can't tell you how many times I have felt many of the same emotions you have. To have your heart feel as though wolves are gnawing at it slowly, ripping it apart. To have your heart break everyday where it feels like someone took it and used a grater on it then submerged in rubbing alcohol! Stay strong! More people than you know love you and want to try and help.
You aren’t a burden Daniel and never be ashamed to reach out for help whenever you need it because I’ve been there and had those feelings too, I’m sorry about your loss and I pray that the peace of the Lord just surrounds you and I’m proud of you and happy you are still going. ❤️
Hey Daniel. I just saw one of your videos on SBSK and I wanted to let you know, that I think of you as a really strong person. You have nothing to be ashamed off. I have the fullest of respect for you.
Hey Daniel, I'm so glad to see you again, although of course you haven't made a video recently. You have had so, so, so much going on. I also have schizoaffective disorder. I know that there is really no tired like schizoaffective tired. By the grace of God it has been about 3 years now since I was suicidal. Everyone's case is different, but I remember my life going so low that I thought I had hit the absolute bottom, and then life would go lower. It kept on so long that I couldn't remember what it felt like to be happy, or even just relaxed or content. I didn't remember how to have fun. I worked so hard and when I finally got out of the bed in the morning I couldn't get myself to make a sandwich (I love pbj) so I started buying uncrustables because I couldn't physically go through the steps of making a PBJ much less washing a knife I used to make it. It got dark....really dark. But slowly things started getting better. I got good meds, had stable housing, went to lots of therapy and support groups, worked harder than I ever have in my life. 3 years later I am happy almost all the time, and I love my life. Don't let anyone tell you recovery isn't possible. I just jumped into the comments to tell you that when you feel like a burden, that is your brain lying to you. Personally you contribute a lot to my life and I'm glad I've found your channel. I know that may not be a reason to live, but I bet there are a bunch of other people who feel exactly the same way. You are a fighter...I can hear it in your voice when you say "I'm still here". Hell yeah you are. Keep fighting my friend. We are all pulling for you.
Hello friend 👋🏼 I'm from Puerto Rico, hope you're doing great after Covid and all this events. It's always good to hear from you and know that you are ok despite of everything. I know what it feels like to have to put a loved pet to sleep, it is an unbearable and heartbreaking pain, but you have to let them go to prevent them from suffering further. I'm 100% sure that they loved you for who you are regardless of your experiences. You are a person with a beautiful heart, I know, I see you Daniel 🫂 Let's learn from dogs and cats the beautiful feeling and healing light that they carry. I'm also dealing with mental issues, but I'm sure we will be more than ok 😉 I send you a tropical hug from the Caribbean 🫂 One step at a time my friend 😉🤗
Gosh. Having had to put 4 pets down in a span of one year, I can only imagine how much harder that is to keep breathing in those moments. It's no wonder you question why you keep breathing. I have so many of those days too. Watching you just makes me think of my partner and it just makes me truly adore you. Sometimes it can take everything in us to keep breathing, and that's okay. All your energy is going toward breathing, and existing. I don't believe you have anything to apologize for. Telling your story on top of it is a pretty big accomplishment in my book. 💖 And as I tell my partner - you are not a burden! Not in any way, shape, or form. Not at all. When someone loves another, they're never burdened.
Hey Daniel! My name is Jake and I have the same diagnosis as you. I’ve been medicated since and that has helped, but I had to learn to work with my pain. I want to say something that I’d like you to consider: One thing we both know absolutely that has stood the test of time is that the real world, stays consistent. This means you leave a consistent linear timeline of actions in the real world, this real world and it’s objectivity actually serve as the nature of law and provides justice through observation of that objectivity as evidence. Your recordings have not gone unseen, in our eyes we know there lies potential for progress because every last thought of yours is a deep desire to reconnect with that objective reality, the one of qualities and meaningful sensations. Daniel maybe at some point in your life, your emotional sovereignty was taken from you. A form a rape but on a psychological level, not the physical, one that could have been inflicted not with malice, but without caring awareness. You felt you held control over your feelings and were proud, but you became ashamed because of some event or events you have experienced. And remember, you know deep down that consistent real reality, draw meaning from that the best you can. Again I can be wrong, consider me truthfully but also with a grain of salt, gracefully. For me I believed I have learned the source of my illness, when I was young I poured my heart and soul into my expression for a beautiful woman I felt I truly loved. Around that time I experienced a big socially embarrassing incident that was my fault, and I lost her and all of my friends. I felt that it was not my fault, but it was, I wasn’t in control of it, but it was followed by a logical sequence of events, and so it made me feel crazy. Here’s the thing, you need to have compassion and love for yourself, not the kind you feel you should give to yourself but the kind you deserve, and the kind everyone wants for you. You can continue to grasp at thin air, but until your regain your power of autonomy, your problems will likely not be solved. I employ you to seek a shaman to help reintegrate you with your lost fragments of self. Shamans were the first healers on earth, they understand the dualistic nature of reality at its unification, and they intuitively know the difference between fantasy and reality. They deal with raw humanity, and heal with unconditional love and impartiality. After reading this don’t go down a rabbit hole, just know this text is here and whenever you feel like you want to consider it, go ahead. Or don’t consider it at all. Take life at your own pace and learn to give yourself unconditional love regardless of whether you think you deserve it or not. This won’t be solved in a day simply by knowing, you owe it to yourself to explore your healing. Love and light my friend. ❤️
I just found your first interviews with Mr Chris. And I'm very happy that it lead me to your channel. You are so strong! Much stronger than you know. And I'm glad you are still around. I've tried to commit suicide several times in the past and haven't made an attempt in over a decade. We all have our unique challenges and for most of us there are unique solutions. If you walk or crawl or sleep though the next day, you are that much closer to finding what will work for you. And yes, maybe even feel joy now and then. Please stay in this life.
it’s so nice to see you! please don’t ever apologise for going through stuff, you never owe us your time!! we’re just happy to hear from you :) i really hope things are getting better and continue to! sending you so much love, health and support 🤍🤍🍀🍀
Daniel - a video interview you did with Mr. Chris came across my UA-cam feed yesterday. Something spiritual tugged on my 💜 to watch... And I did. I first want to say: thank you for your service in the military. That right there speaks volumes! Second: I can relate to your thoughts and reasoning on some levels. If truth be out.... I believe most of us can relate. What an amazing person you are. I was such a captive audience- listening to every word you said... You were brutally honest, raw and heart exposed for the benefit of everyone. You have a sweet gentle soul, a loving heart and so much compassion. It caused me to readjust my self. I remembered hearing you speak of God on the 2 interviews and I want to tell you that I've been 🙏 for you. You were in my thoughts as I went to bed late last night and all day today. This video you made a month ago was tough. Extremely tough for you to make. You are still here for a reason and a purpose!! I don't know where you are spirituality, but if you do believe God exists.... Just know that He created you and there's no one else like you. I'm sure you hear a lot of what I've said this far... My hope is that you don't get tired of reading/hearing the outpouring of people (like me) truly wanting good things for you. You are deserving.... No matter what you brain says. I have an uncle who served in Vietnam and did not come back the same. A personal friend & a friend of the family who have gone through similar storms as you are going through. The Timing of events can often kick you to the curb.... Losing your 4 legged companions.... Please forgive me for this long ... Scattered message, but I just had to reach out to you. You are on my permanent prayer list.... Daniel. I can only imagine what your darkest days feel like. I hate that you went through COVID twice! But again, you made it through and you're still here. I want to share with you something my best friend (who served in the Marines for 22 years) has said to me. This statement I am now saying to you...... I admire and look up to you: because everytime you get knocked down,. You eventually pick yourself back up and keep going. I have several chronic health conditions (including a serious condition that should have taken me out of the game many years ago)... But I'm still here at 55.... Soon to be 56. Please don't give up.... Keep fighting. Sending brotherly love your way from GA.
You never have to apologize to anyone Daniel. Take your time buddy! The world loves you even if you don't see it that way! I understand the pain and the mental torment you are going through, because I've been suffering from severe depression and a host of other mental illnesses myself. You will eventually find happiness even if it seems impossible due to the way you're are currently feeling. Please please please I beg you to not hurt yourself! You're story has been heard by millions around the world and till this day thousands and thousands of people have your ear and are cheering you on to win at life! My advice for you is to ask yourself what the thing is that you always wanted to do in life, whether it's a certain activity, hobby that can help you feel alive. For me it was racing cars, I always wanted to own a race car, and till this day it's something that's on my mind 24/7. I'm currently taking baby steps to get to that goal, and it's still a long way out before I got to sit my ass in a race car, but I know that I will eventually get there. It's also totally fine to use your UA-cam and social media platform to ask for help of any kind! Whether it's financial aid, or asking for company from people it can be whatever you want! I'm sure thousands of people would love to be around you and help you with accomplishing your dream. JUST ASK FOR HELP AND IT WILL COME! maybe not overnight, but it will eventually happen! STAY STRONG MY BROTHER I LOVE YOU! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
You've been through far too much. Please be gentle on yourself. As gentle and kind as you are to the animals you love. And, please keep loving them too, our time with them is short but that love stays with you, always.
Hi Daniel. My name is also Daniel and I ran across your videos with Mr. Chris. Following is the post I put on those videos and I hope this reaches you. "Hello Mr. Chris. My name is also Daniel (I go by Dan) and I relate to the Daniel in these two videos a lot. This is the first I've come across one of your videos, and I really enjoyed watching Daniel explain his situation because like he says, it's very hard to describe what mental illness is like for the sufferer. I also have multiple diagnoses some of the same ones as Daniel. I have Depression, Generalized Anxiety disorder, Bipolar disorder, and instead of schizoaffective I deal with schizotypal, similar but not exactly the same, however I agree with and feel a lot of the same things that Daniel describes. Mr. Chris, while I do have a team working with me as Daniel does, if you have room in your schedule (even though I don't feel I deserve it much like Daniel) I'd appreciate it if you could contact me and possibly interview me the way you did with Daniel. Watching him explain what he deals with, while heartbreaking to hear, it's also encouraging because of his positive outlook he's trying so hard to maintain. I don't want to leave my contact info here so I'm not sure how it would even work? But I'd like an opportunity to not only speak with you but if you're up for it, Daniel, I'd like to communicate with you as well. I'm tired of isolating and irrationally projecting my negative thoughts and fears onto everyone even people close to me causing strain on relationships in my life. I also loathe myself and feel undeserving of love for no rational reason. I definitely feel like after watching these two videos with Daniel like I'm not as alone as I thought and like he said if being open and honest with you Mr. Chris helps even one other person then it would be worth it. So in the same spirit if listening to my story could influence or positively impact even one other person, I think I'd like to try to open up to you as Daniel did so bravely. I'm not an expert on UA-cam or social media at all so again I'm not sure how to exchange info from here (hopefully nobody wants to roast me for this) but if there is a way and if you, Daniel or you, Mr. Chris come across this comment and you wouldn't mind getting a hold of me, I could use some kind interaction with kind-hearted intention to understand and comfort my restless unceasing negative self talk. Sorry I wrote you a book here and maybe nobody will see this but thank you for the encouragement you've given me this morning, may it last until at least midday lol but fr thank you!"
I'm SO sorry to hear about your cats and Maxine. How absolutely devastating. My cat, Dina, had acute kidney failure and we had to put her to sleep on December 3rd. I can only imagine the absolute pain you've been dealing with. I really wish you could live somewhere with better healthcare. Texas is notoriously AWFUL. Add it being the VA to that and it's just a recipe for travesty. It sounds like you have a good support network where you are, which makes such a huge positive difference. There are many things you go through that I've not experienced, but I know what it's like to absolutely hate yourself. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I don't even know why I keep going or where my hope comes from. You are SO strong. Much stronger than I am. Take care of yourself, Daniel. You deserve love and contentness. Who even knows what happiness is anymore? I strive to be content with my life - everyone deserves at LEAST that much. Hugs from the north!
Hey Daniel? It's been awhile since we all checked in with each other. I pray everyone is good and as happy as much as one can be. You built a great community here D, one to feel proud of. Come say hi when you are ready, you family here wanna say hello. Much love and hugs friend. 🤗💚
Hello Daniel, I found out about your videos today and I'm amazed by your courage and strength, even if you don't believe it. I am a doctor who works with mental health and your videos help understand a bit more about mental disorders. So thank you for your brave report. Greetings from Brazil!
Hi, Mr. Dan. We love you. For lots of reasons. But first and foremost because there's a spark of genuine angelicity in you. You're sweet. It may sound like a cliché, but love knows no boundaries. So we stand here by you and cherish you even if you don't like or respect yourself, as you said. This community does. And that's why it's a caress to the heart to see your face again and to hear your voice :) The love and care you gave to your pets is proof of how much light you have in you. I'm so sorry for those terrible experiencies you and them had to live through. But you gave them a wonderful life and they'll always be with you ♡ PS: you kick butt too! 💖
Hey Mr. Daniel, I thought about you the last 2 days after seeing your videos with 'Mr. Chris'. I just wanted to let you know what some of my thoughts were the last days. First of I really appreciate you showing up for yourself and others that experiencing similar conditions. I think you are a brave and very humble man and I really like listening to your voice. To see this condition from a different perspective have giving me some other insights that I am happy to have now. I am just realising again that I had several psychosis throughout my life. One major psychosis sticked to me for months or maybe a year after my first child was born. I experienced seeing a shadow all the time. Felt her presence in every moment. I was depressed, anxious all the time and isolated myself. It took me a long time to open up about it to my husband. But then something happened that changed it. I researched a lot about soul hunting, inner child therapy and soul traveling. I realised that this shadow was an abandoned part of me that I was shutting down in a deep hole. It disappeared after I fell into a delirium kind of state, where I faced her directly. I was sitting with her in that hole, had her moldly angry face just in front of me. My husband was so aware and he talked me through this experience and asked me: what does she needs the most. And the answer was love. Love and acceptance. So I held her like she always wanted to be held. I gave her a place in my life, in my heart. And after that I had this huge relief that this lost part of me was finally returning home and doesn't need to seek my attention anymore. This might not be the same with your hallucinations, but I thought I just share it. I am still hearing knockings that kept freaking me out 2 years ago. But since I learned that these and everything I experience is part of me. I can relax and try to communicate instead of pushing it away. I know this sounds to easy for someone who is experiencing so much pain from this desease. But you are strong! And I strongly believe that there is a reason for it. And that there is a way to live a good life and integrate every part that is ours. I am also wanting to say that having sessions with a shaman have helped me a lot. The different view she gave me had a huge impact to me to accept and even see the purpose of these conditions more. The way out for me was to go back to traumatic experiences and try to integrate the lost parts of my soul. I could write an entire article about it but just for now I want to share with you my experience. I wish that you find a way to live with more peace and freedom in your heart. I really appreciate you being on this earth with me on this crazy journey. Lots of greetings from Germany, Surija.
You don't have to say sorry Daniel. Take the time you need, we will be here for you always! ❤️ The loss of a pet is always tough, they are like family, and sometimes you feel like they are the only ones that really get you. And to lose two of them so soon is even worse... But you were always there for them and they loved you dearly, you gave them a family! Life may suck really hard sometimes, but don't let the worst times of it make you forget the joy you had with them and the lovely memories you forged together. If you need to talk, here we are ❤️
Daniel, you are incredibly bold and brave. The world needs more gentle honest souls like you. I know you don't believe it but you ARE worthy, you ARE good enough and you ARE loved. You deserve the love you crave, especially from yourself. Be kind and gentle to yourself. All I wanted to do was literally climb through this screen and give you the biggest longest hug. I am so so SO deeply sorry for the pain you are going through with the loss of your 2 kitties and now having to see Maxine suffer, I am so sorry.... My heart aches for you,I know how hard it is losing our fur babies. I hope you are ok Daniel. I am so glad I discovered your channel. You are such a beautiful human being and I SEE you..... I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and heart. Don't ever apologise for feeling or being you. We love you xxx
First off I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your cats and for the health of your dog. And that you got so sick.( happy you’re better from that.) I can’t imagine. That’s so much, so close in time. Honestly, I know they knew happiness because of you. And you’re right. Life can be cruel and very unfair and not make sense, but.. You know something? I can relate to you, as I have multiple ailments which will never go away or get better. And as soon as I feel I have managed them, the symptoms change.. but I’m still here as well.. And I completely realize we have different issues, but know I, like all of us here support, care and want you to be here! You definitely have value and we see it. Hang in. Try to remain as strong as you can and realize there are things you can still do. Like your beautiful poetry and coming here to keep us updated.. please continue to do so, we’re listening. And also know your fur babies are still with you, just in a new way now. And no apologies!
Hey Daniel, as long as you are safe it is the only thing matters. You are one of the heroes that I have been following and becoming a neuroengineer to maybe find some sort of solution what you have been experiencing for a while. I genuinely find your strength a motivation and inspiration for me. You are loved and cared many people. Your existence means many younger people who is also struggling with similar issues. Please take care buddy 🧡
Daniel, I am so sorry for what you are going through. I had a month where 3 pets had to be put down. I ended up leaving college due to all of it. I also totally understand your feelings of not wanting to live, not wanting to be a burden or to "take up space", etc. My family takes care of me and supports me financially since I have disabling mental illnesses as well. I often feel useless, worthless, and like I don't want to put the responsibility on them. But I know that they love me, and would 100% rather spend the money and the time on me than to have me dead. I know it's painful and it really sucks, but I want you to try to remind yourself of that. It seems your family also cares for you so much. I personally appreciate your honesty and candidness. I appreciate that you say things that I think of often. The world needs people like you in it. Don't be afraid to lean on your support network and to tell them what you need. Hugs and love to you, dude!
You've had multiple heartbreaking weeks/months. I'm so deeply sorry about your pets (and it feels like an insult to call them "pets", because what they really are is family). Losing them is soul-crushingly painful. I'm thankful you're here, though; you seem like a wonderful man, and your videos are intensely real, open, and heartfelt, and there's so much in them that resonates with so many people. We love you, we're here for you, and we can't wait to hear from you again. My home (South Carolina) has a wonderful state motto: "While I breathe, I hope." Please keep breathing, and please keep fighting to find your happiness. We're ALL rooting for you!
Daniel, recently came across your videos and so glad I did. First want to say I'm so sorry about your pets. You are one strong bastard, loved the end of the video where you say 'despite everything I'm still going'. Fuck me do I resonate with so much of what your going through. I know how hellish it can get. I remember being 100000% certain that I would be that way forever and thinking how will I survive as I was completely incapable of doing anything, never mind getting a job etc. I truly truly believe that your pain will eventually ease. May I just point out one thing, please stop apologising. You have NOTHING to apologise for, whether that's the lack of videos or the noise outside. You are a massively empathetic and kind hearted person and that's partially why you do, I used to do it all the time. Those in your life and all of us here just want to do anything we can to help you. I am honoured to now be on this journey with you. *I believe in you* my man and I can't wait to see you get better. Much love, from your mate in Ireland ✌️
Hey Daniel. You are such a wonderful guy. You are so open and I really appreciate that. I suffer from OCD and anxiety, and watching your videos just seem to bring sunshine. I had covid in November of 2020 and I was terrified because I didn’t know if I had to be on a ventilator because I have asthma. But I was just really tired and had a small cough. I also lost my dad, so that was very rough. But I am just glad he’s not in any pain. You keep doing what you’re doing man. You have been such a strong ray of sunshine in these trying times. Never forget that. You have no idea how strong you are. I just want to give you the biggest hug!
don't be sorry David, you cant blame yourself for this, grief is unbearable I'm so sorry too hear all of this, dealing with my own mental issues you have given myself the courage to go to an inpatient mental hospital i can't stop crying i hope you get better man for my self the journey just begins..stay strong david
I'm sorry you've been having a rough patch Daniel, but just know I'm so happy to see and hear from you again ❤ you're such a strong man, and you help put a voice to many who can't do it themselves. Cycles of life come and go, you will flourish ✨️ Edit: I'm so so sorry for your losses, it's some of the most unfair things to happen, especially all after another and there aren't words for that kind of pain 💔
Hi Daniel. I saw you on SBSK and I feel you are a wonderful and amazing person. I've had mental health issues all my life and I have 2 grown daughters who have schizophrenia. Six years ago I was diagnosed with 2 autoimmune diseases that affect my body and my mind. I too feel like I'm a burden even though people say I'm not. 😇 My thoughts are with you.
Daniel, I just came here after watching both of your SBSK interviews. I hope and wish with every ounce of my body that I could fully express the sheer importance you hold. By no means whatsoever is your life meaningless. I want you to know that where ever you are right now, no matter where you are or what circumstances you are in, you are incredibly, incredibly loved. You are an endless powerhouse of strength, what you manage to live with and go through every day, you are forced to face something that no human ever would have the courage to even attempt to image. There are thousands and thousand of people who undoubtly click your videos the second you upload them, and I am going to be joining that group now. We all believe in you Daniel, we all are rooting for you every second we can. Nothing matters more in this life than your happiness Daniel. You are entitled to be free and be happy and its tragic to see someone fall victim to sheer misfortune. You are a good soul, this world isn't deserving of you and we are overjoyed that you are still here with us sharing your story and your bravery. I can't begin to imagine what struggles you have to endure, I want to understand to the best of my ability but I cant. I just hope that regardless of what voices you might hear, I hope that your voice is always saying that you are worth it. You are someone whos brought more love and inspiration and emotion to the world than you ever have pain, you deserve to be happy, you are entitled to be happy. Everyone who heard your story knows this, we love you and we will always be here to remind you that you are loved and cared about
Hey man, I hope this isn't too generic for me to say but I am truly happy to have found your channel. My best friend, who I consider my family more than my blood relatives was recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. Ever since then, I've been looking into your videos, while continuously asking questions towards her because although I will never be able to fully understand her experiences and how she perceives the world around her, I can understand how terrifying it must have been for her to carry that baggage along with her since early childhood; and now all I want to do is be a source of comfort and support to keep her "in check" with reality as she likes to call it. She is on a medication now, and is already seeing improvements in how she perceives the world within just a week. Though schizoaffective disorder is a spectrum with a variety of different experiences that affect different people, I believe you will or even already are experiencing a steady incline in mental stability. You're intelligent and articulate: a clearly gifted man that is contributing so much to people like me who want to understand the horrors you experience. Knowing my friend will be able to finally get a taste of the true joys of life that she has long deserved makes me incredibly elated for her. You not only deserve but will experience the same as well. Thank you for the content you put out.
I wish I could gift you an optimistic/positive voice in your head that tells you "you are a good person," "hey you did that well," "people like & respect you" etc. Because 100% everybody would say, and do think, those positive things about you. You are an inspiration sir & I wish you well & every happiness going forward 😊
Daniel, we all love you so much. You have been hit with so many horrible things, one after the other. You don't owe us anything and you can always take a break from this, no matter the reason. All we want, is for you to come back each time. You bring people more joy and hope than you realise. Your honesty about everything you're dealing with, is inspirational. I can promise you, that of all the people here, every single one of us would be right beside you if we could. You're so strong and even if you forget that sometimes, we will always be here to remind you. ❤
Daniel, I understand. I have schizoaffective disorder. I'm sorry you have been through so much. 😔 you have alot of people who care about you. It's okay to be depressed, I have before. Just hang in there. I believe in you, Daniel, and there is hope.
You are such an incredible person and you communicate so many important feelings that so many of us can relate to in our mental health struggles. Sometimes it really does just feel like life is just serving up one "fuck you" after another and its just too much. But ultimately you as an individual are absolutely irreplaceable in this world, and even when you are crawling around on the ground you are important, loveable, and valid. Your life, your impact, and contributions mean something to all of us, just by being you.
Hey dear don't u dare apologize honey take as much time as u need man don't even fret about what we think we just want to be sure ur ok glad to see a newer video of you after following some of it videos and interviews I have been drawn to you especially because of the schizoaffective you absolutely amazing for not being so well I'm glad u are feeling better u sound and look amazing get all the help u need my dear we are always here for you this is YOUR community of nothing but positive support much love from NYC it's easier said then done remain strong ❤️❤️
Psalm 51:15-17 15. O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise. 16. For you will not delight in sacrifice, or I would give it; you will not be pleased with a burnt offering. 17. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. The broken and the down are the ones God hears and sees the most. This scripture just came to me in my life, at a time where I didn't think God was hearing me anymore. To me it was that God saw me continuing on, throughout the difficulty and my voice had not gone unheard. If you believe in your heart that God raised Jesus from the dead and you believe and speak with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and you lay everything at his feet and he will come into your life. I'm only saying this because he gave me a hope I never thought I'd have. Love you man, hope you're doing okay man. God bless.
Hey Daniel, came here from SBSK, I am sorry for your loss, I pray that you one day have peace in this living world in knowing that even though you have received a heavy loss, the times you had with them were worth every second, self care is worth every second, and you taking care of you is the most important thing you can do for you. I know you see things as horrible, we see you as someone who is worthy of life, worthy of love, and worthy of existence. Happiness will find you again. hope this message finds you well and each moment you are alive is a victory against the forces that have made you want to not be here, much love
Hi Daniel, You are NOT a burden!!!! You are the strongest man I have ever seen! You are a example of strenght! Please don't give up... I admire your power to live with all your demons. I have panic attack's for almost 20 years now. And its HELL!!!!!! So i got my own demons to fight....but i' am a warrior Just like you! Please let fight TOGETHER! You are my example to keep on fighting....i often think about you. Please stay with me! Whit all my heart i reach out to you. With love, Astrid
So glad to see you!!!! It’s super windy here the past few days too. I’m sorry to hear about kitty, Hercules and Maxine. It’s so freaking painful when our babies get sick. We all love you and I think of you all the time.
Hey bud, I know people probably say this a lot. But you don't need to apologize to us for disappearing sometimes, as long as you're trying your best I'm proud. Thank you for trying as hard as you do. It's terrible, the things you go through. But we're all rooting for you.
Yes, definitely! Take care!🙏❤️
He's a good guy that helps a lot of viewers.
Daniel I am so sorry that you are struggling so much. I watched your videos with the interviews you did with SBKS. Thank you for sharing your story and being totally honest and sharing your story. You may not realize it but you speaking out about mental illness and the struggles you are having helps people realize they are not alone. Somethings you said hit home with me. Just because people cannot physically see mental illness does not mean we aren't worthy of treatment. I see a very kind man. I am also sorry to hear you had covid twice but am glad you survived.
Daniel,
you are SO BEAUTIFUL
and SO LOVED!!!!!!! ❤️
Hello Daniel, I've never interacted with you before. But I've been watching your videos for about a year now. I have borderline personality disorder as well.
I live on those waves of self hatred. I also can't figure out reality sometimes, or not understanding the depth of what's actually happening.
I don't really enjoy talking about my issues and opening up. This comment has taken me over a year to just feel like I can say.
I love watching your videos. My heart goes out to you. I have an 8 year old dog that I love just as much as you love yours and it breaks my heart.
Daniel you are an amazing person. You are brave. And you can do great things. No matter what those voices inside say. You are loved💙
Rachel Gibson, 💙🌺
Been trying to come up with the words for a while now... I along with alot of others are here with you. Hopefully for the rest of our lives.
I'm proud of you Rachel. Good job girl. Keep kicking butt and snuggling squishmellows 😎 oh wait... that part is what I do lol. Have you tried squishmellows? I got a grogu one (baby yoda)
@@justintyme4690 I had a dream around 3 wks ago about large marshmallows that had smooth peanut butter in the centre. I mentioned it to a cpl of my family members and now they're asking me to put some together. They do sound yummy don't they? I have the strangest dreams, usually I'm being chased by something /one, yet the peanut butter dream was a good dream. 🤗🥜
Hey Daniel, please don't blame yourself, it must have been so immensely painful, you must be exhausted. Im here crying with you. You must have fought very hard to not let us down. We know you love and care about us. Anyone in your pain and position couldn't have done anything to deal any better with the constant attack. It's okay to feel tired, it's okay to feel powerless, it's perfectly normal to feel that way. Many of us feel that on a different level and circumstances. It is only human. There's only one you here. There's nothing you need to to strive for. You being you is enough. Thank you for sharing your authenticity. Can you keep reading all these beautiful comments to keep those monsters away?
Well said
My man, you are ACTUALLY more than anyone I know. What you carry, what you've been through...wow. Without putting any obligations anywhere, I want to let you know you're my hero.
Well said Adam, you are so right, Daniel is more than most people in the world.
Agreed. I just watched the 2 interviews with Mr. Chris, and I immediately felt something is very precious and special about Daniel. The world needs you, Daniel. Please, please stay. We need you.
100% agree on this. Daniel you are amazing and loved.
Mine too 🇧🇷
Not sure how to express how important you sharing all of this is to me. I’ve always personally had mental health struggles throughout my life and have also lost pets at what seems to be the worst time and it’s just so horrible, I don’t know how to deal with it. The things I’m too afraid to say out loud or to even just myself are a lot of the things that you’ve said in this video. Because of that, I don’t feel as alone as I normally would. I don’t generally leave comments on videos, but I felt compelled to thank you for being a lifeline for people too. You may not realize it but you do save people too, Daniel. People just like me. Thank you!
That's so true Tatum. Daniel helps us all in so many powerful ways. My whole life from childhood to now has been one trauma after another, ( 1 spiritual lesson after another I try tell myself) living is the most exhausting thing, constantly trying to find real reasons to stay alive, there just seems to be no joy in living anymore, then I watch Daniels honest to the bone message and he reminds me I'm not alone in the way I feel. That it's okay to feel the things I do. Depression does not define us, it's just a small part of our true self.
"Every Day
In Every Way
We Are Getting Better".
Bright Blessing. 🤝🤗
Tatum, Same to me. Thanks for sharing Daniel. ❤
Hey. It's good you reached out. I am proud of him doing this. I don't know if this is going to help, but worth a try. I only started to listen to these. You Tube. Good Vibes. I was listening to them for severe pain. They have plenty of different ones. This is music therapy Nicola Tesla has some out too and there are others to listen too. Hopefully this will help some. It helps me to relax and helps me feel better physically and mentally. So sorry for your loss too. Our furry humans are the best. Keeps us going. I hope you feel better
P.s. It doesn't matter how longago you lost your pets. I know they helped you through alot. I think they do most people except people who treat them badly.
I agree with this statement, 100%
Daniel, I am but a random stranger on the internet. But I would like to say that I am truely proud of you and happy to have found your channel after seeing your interviews with SBSK.
I have to admit some of your videos were hard for me in the beginning to see - because they showed me a "side" of life that was not know to me before. and that the dark places which many of us imagine, are actually real. and that the mind can take one to places that are impossible to describe in words.
I had my bad days as well, this is not a battle for best mental disorder but I'm bipolar. yet, I never dipped all the way into the darkness. and I can only call myself lucky for that.
All I can hope for, when this comment reaches you when you're ready to see it, is that you find some weird comfort in being assured that I and the people that commented earlier are with you, we see you, we accept you, you raise positive curiosity in us, your daily struggles and kickbacks are shared with us all here.
english is not my native language, but I found the objectively simple saying of "take care" to carry a lot of weight and meaning. so, I hope you'll take care
English is not my native language either, et tu t'exprime très bien. Bravo à toi, ton commentaire aidera sûrement Daniel.
Don't need to be sorry! Yes, you are capable of being loved, because you ARE loved! I can't imagine how hard is this all for you, your daily struggles... But please remember there are people rooting for you. Always.
I know. Many of us heard you and were also ill, too. Do not yield! Do not die! DO not worry about slothfulness! All of those things are temporary. You took care of your cat and dog when they needed you. And that is the point. They needed you and you stepped up and helped. Illness comes and we make the call and help. THAT IS GOOD AND RIGHT. Everything dies. In its time. Not in your choice or mine. Love has nothing to do with it. I'll hold you in the cold, and the chill of dawn, and I'll hold your puppies and your sad, old dogs, too. Just as I am holding and rocking my own now. Thank you, because of your words, and your heart, I don't have to walk alone. You may feel lost, but you have saved me so that I can stand and walk one more day. Love to You always.
Don't be sorry, dear Daniel. You visit us here whenever you can. I think I can say we will all be here when you are. 🥰 You have been an incredible inspiration to me! Don't ever forget that ❤️
Hello Daniel!!! Take care sweety! You are a star ⭐⭐⭐⭐!!! Send u big, big, big, huge hugg though I'm a totally stranger but,....that's my way to say Hello 🤗 ....You talk like a poet!!! ....what a beautiful soul you are!...remember the impermanent nature of dependently existing phenomena, like darkness... it will pass away...if something depends on perception, point of view, circumstances, this or that, then, when any of these things change, when the circumstances changes, the point of view changes, the experience changes... Then the waves of life,... ups and downs continuously, so we are. I admire you for your courage!!. Send u much light and love from the other side of the world! 😸🌞🌟💕🌻🐈
Don't ever be sorry for how you feel. Don't ever hate yourself for life being shit. You are so strong. You are so, fucking strong. I'm so glad you are here. I'm so, so glad you are still trying. Take your time. Grieve.
Take your time. As your friend, I'll wait. I'll wait if that means I can see you doing better. I'll wait if that means 2 or 3 more months of silence. It's okay. Life is shit, but I love you being in life.
I just recently found you through Chris interviewing you. I felt so over come because I relate so much. I am diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar with bpd and ptsd. It's nice to know Im not alone. I don't talk to really anyone about it out of fear of them looking at me differently or judging me. Thank you so much for telling your story.
I'm sorry for the loss of your cats, Daniel. No matter the circumstances that's always really tough. They knew you loved them. Keeping you in my thoughts and hoping that you find some glimmers of light and hope wherever you can.
Keep strong Daniel! I've been watching your videos for a bit now and I want you to know I appreciate you sharing your life with us. You are so strong! I am sorry about what happened with your pets. I'm praying things get better for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong!! Things will and do get better.. somehow, some way! ❤️🌹
You are not a burden man!!! You are an inspiration!!! You helped me and many others so much!! 💖💖💖 We love you and we wish the best for you!!!!
You are the only person I relate to when it comes to the depression of mental illness and loss. I can't even begin to explain how badly I want others to relate to. It's like you're the only one that gets it.
I get it 100 percent.
I think the cruelest thing about mental illnesses is how they isolate you and make you feel like no one around you gets it at all....and many don't.
I second this hardddd
I get it 100 percent (and then some.) NOBODY is ever alone in this, depression just makes it so that you can't see the connection. But it's there.
@@teresatano193 Thank you
Daniel...
1) You NEVER need to apologize for ANYTHING, we understand more than you know. Really, we do.
2) I don't know you personally, but I feel as if I do. You are a kind and caring person. You deserve nothing but the best. I genuinely feel like you are my friend.
3) It may not seem like it in this very moment, but it gets better. Do not ever question your existence or whether you are some sort of burden. You are NOT. If people on the internet like myself can understand this, then the people closest to you most certainly understand.
4) Not only are you not a burden, you are the opposite. You are an inspiration. You are a gift of hope. I really mean that. I just came across your channel, and felt like I understood mental illness more, you more, and myself more. You are a treasure, homie. Do not ever question yourself about this.
5) Thank you. Really. Thank you.
You do not need to apologize. Take your time, if you feel like. We are here and will be here, if you need us. ❤️
Hey bro, it’s Anthony, I hope you keep posting and keeping us updated. You’re quite an inspiration to people with mental disorders and depression. You’re a good friend with an incredible mind. Share your story and knowledge with others and you can save lives or at the least alleviate pain from others feeling similar to you. It was a please and honor to meet you dude.
My brother, it was an honor and a pleasure to meet YOU! You truly kept me sane and grounded in the ward; you kept what little spirit I had left alive.
So thank YOU friend.
you're never a downer Daniel, just someone we care about. I'm so sorry that life has been so awful to you lately, but I'm so proud of you for still being here. just knowing that you're still out there fighting has been an inspiration to me, and I hope that someday you'll find a life that's easier on you. I wish you all the best and if you're comfortable with it, I'm also sending a huge hug. please be good to yourself.
P.S. I also wanted to give a gentle suggestion, when I've found it hard to bathe or change my clothes, I've found that just keeping a package of wet wipes near has helped me maintain hygiene. sometimes just cleaning your face and hands can improve your mood even a tiny bit.
That's a great suggestion. Some days I wake and can't find the energy to bathe, so as you stated I do the basics with baby wipes and a little of my favourite parfume. Also, I try real hard to daily find the energy to clean my Teeth for thats what gives me a boost the most.
Many bright blessings. 🤝🤗
Hi Daniel. I'm Rudi from The Netherlands. I kept myself awake unwillingly and started watching your interviews for SBSK at 4am. - Previously I've watched videos on your channel. Man, you are so strong. With all that's going through your mind, I can't begin to understand but I'm trying. You're definitely a learned person, very kind and caring. I can't be there in person for you but know you have a friend in me. I like to believe I can send you love and energy through space and time. You have every right to be who you are without having to account to anyone! I don't know you but I know I love you. Be well, be you! God bless 🙏
You could tell that in the midst of her confusion, Maxine could feel your love and reassurance when you were petting her. She may not understand much right now, but she knows that you love her.
Hey Daniel, I don't know how to phrase this "the right way", so I'll just speak honestly - You're reaching people thousands of miles away, like me in the UK, in ways you can't imagine. From influencing me, and I'm sure thousands of others, to make little behaviour changes to huge perspective shifts, you're positively affecting people - so while I understand its not a simple as this statement; if you ever question why you're here or you don't believe in your value - just know without your voice there are times when I wouldn't have thought to be more patient with someone, to be mindful to ask others how they're doing, and even just been kinder to myself! You've made an enormous, positive, impact on me (and again, I'm sure I speak for many in saying that) - so I just wanted to say thank you for being brave, being you, and to tell you - I think you're wonderful.
Sending you so much love ❤️
I think about u often!! It's ok if u need time for u buddy.. Stay strong.. U inspire so many of us.. U put a voice to how so many of us feel
Edit: I think you are one of the strongest ppl I've ever seen.... I appreciate you for being so honest.. Your amazing and I wish I could hang out w u one day..
Edit again: wow that's so much loss in a short time.. I'm crying for you..
Daniel, my husband and I have discovered your channel and your videos and we think you are a wonderful man. It takes great, great courage to speak out about Mental Health. You are helping so many people who have similar challenges. Just know you are worthy of being here. You have a right to live your life and be happy. Everytime you post a video, you are getting your frustrations out and helping so many others that may not have the courage to speak out publicly. We are from Texas as well and you have quickly become one of our favorite people on UA-cam. My husband Michael understands a LOT of your mentality as he has depression and anxiety issues as well. Be strong my friend and know you have friends.
Daniel, I'm glad you're here. I'm glad you're alive and still trying. I know it's hard. Life is rough and you've had a nasty pile of challenges. As soon as you said covid, I thought about your poor lungs. I send you love, the most assuring hugs, and strength. Your eloquence brings me hope and belonging. The urge to vanish is with lots of us these days. Thank you for doing even the smallest things to keep yourself here. Breathing. Caring for plants and furry critters. Being your beautiful red-haired self. I'm thankful for you and I pray your strength and some ease. You deserve comfort and some ease. Your eyes are beautiful from where I'm sitting and if all you can do is the super basic stay alive stuff, do that. Try something more tomorrow, if you feel strong enough. You are a valuable treasure.
That was a very tough things ... But look, everyone living thing has its own time. We just need to be thankful for joy, peace and love that they gifted every other second)...
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Daniel, you are worthy!
Your interviews and videos are helping other people with similar mental state and the same kind of their fillings...
You can teach others to live with your emotions and your fears.
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Look, I'm from Ukraine and there is a war in my country (started with russian invasion at 04:00-05:00 on Feb 24)... I believe, that after this war came over, some of my people, who are soldiers now, will have a very hard times with their mental health.... PTSR and others... And your videos are very helpful to better understanding of this state. Thank you! I wish you peace in your mind and a great good fillings in your heart! You are not alone!
Don't apologize, we love you
Daniel, I watched a lot of your videos on your channel after coming here from your interviews @ SBSK.
With every phrase you spoke, even though I've not gone through the torturous, constant, debilitating maelstrom of conditions that you have, I have tried to take it in and empathise with what it must feel like. When you're unable to conjure up a single memory of what makes you happy, or how to feel happy. When you lose agency over so much of what your body is feeling, sensing, and even thinking. To a point where even your rational mind find it difficult to find a reason to stay here. What you're going through is truly one of the darkest and most intense experiences of living that I could possibly think of.
I want you to remember that millions of people around the world have been inspired by your honesty, your intellect, your compassion - even when you're being bombarded and whittled away by your conditions. You have been this candle that have lit millions of others even when your own has been flickering and dimming. What you have done in touching so many others, especially those that resonated with your conditions and going through their own similar version of hell-on-earth, is nothing short of buddha-like.
I really hope that at some point in your journey you will truly realise what an amazing person you are and what good you have achieved. Love you man.
Thank you for being transparent. I also spent time hospitalized and people need to hear our stories. My cat died two months after I got home of cancer. I always think about the wasted time because I was unwell. You're braver than a lot of us by being so open.
I see you as the opposite of a burden. You help lift my stress by hearing other people make me feel "normal" when I'm very not normal. When I'm "freaking out." When professionals label us everything but normal. And rightfully so, but it's okay to not be okay.
You're appreciated by this complete stranger.
Oh Daniel ... I am soooo soooo sorry about your pet family. So much pain. My heart aches for you. Thank you for sharing. Sending you love.
It's fine, Daniel. As long as you're fine that's all that matters. We love you! Sending lots of hugs. Don't forget you're not alone okay? ♥️
You're not a burden. Please keep trying to take care of yourself and dont be afraid to ask for help. You're far more important than you think and a lot of people are looking up to you.
Daniel, you inspire me. Thank you for being here with us. I am autistic & also suffer from BPD, and seeing you share your true self warms my heart and gives me hope. The world needs more gentle souls like yourself. I hope your week is going okay, much love to you.
You can do it! Your in the trenches right now but so are thousands if not more just like you. Together we can make it out❤️ much love my friend❤️❤️
Daniel, these videos you apologize for being "downers" and a "burden" I will sit and watch every minute of, and feel only connection and wonder, no burden at all. you are so brave to put all of it out there for us. We watch because we want to understand, just like you. You are here to guide us. You have a purpose. Thank you for the value you give to this life.
And yes, we're ALL STILL HERE!!
We love you Daniel. ❤️
Hi Daniel, I've only recently discovered you through your powerful video chats on SBSK (with "Mr Chris"). Just wanted to say, you are SO worthy. One of the most valuable traits in a person I've always felt, is kindness - being a good person, and you have that in spades! You're also incredibly insightful and interesting to listen to, and clearly very smart. In short, as no doubt countless people have already told you, you're a very likeable person, and anyone would be proud to have you as their friend. Sending you positive vibes and best wishes from the UK 🤜🤛
Thank you Daniel. I am so happy I found you through your interview. Seeing you, so self aware and stand so strong in your truth... maybe, just maybe, I can too survive through the chaos in my mind. Thank you for your existence, your resilience, and your honesty. The people who know you are lucky and you are loved by many.
Jesus... I'm sorry you had to go through so much in such a short time, man. Life can truly be so cruel at times; it can chew you up and spit you out so quickly. I'm sure you already know this, but you are amazingly strong and resilient. And sometimes it can feel disingenuous to hear that, because you have no choice but to be strong in order to make it in this world. But I want to stress to you just how much of an impact you've made for so many people. I read people's stories in the comment section and I see the outpouring of support and comradery in this community that you've built here. It's a beautiful thing; you should be extremely proud of that! Mental illness is a lifelong struggle and it can be a true bitch at times, but the strongest people I've met are those that can take their experiences and use it as a tool to educate and help others. And you've done that! You're worth so much more to so many people than you realize. And while it can be almost impossible at times to see that in the midst of the chaos of life, I have hope that one day you'll see these comments from so many supporters, and believe it for yourself. Stay strong, keep fighting, and never be afraid to reach out for help when you need it. When times get tough and you feel like giving up, remember that we believe in you, and that you're an inspiration to so many people living with mental illness every day. We're all rooting for you, and we genuinely care about you and your well-being. Take care of yourself, man. You've got this!
Daniel, you’re a badass, an eloquent poet, and an inspiration to so many people who have seen your videos and know the things you deal with on a daily basis. Without getting too much into personal details about my own struggles, I find myself relating to a significant amount of the things you’ve talked about in this video, along with your previous interviews on SBSK. I’m sincerely rooting for you and I’ll be including you in my prayers. I dont know if these words will bring any comfort, but just wanted you to have a comment to reflect on when things become overwhelming, in hopes to bring some positivity on a dreadful day. Videos like yours help remind me that I’m not alone (no matter how much I may convince myself that I am). Not sure if you’re into music, but if you ever need some dope music recommendations, I gotchu. It always helped me on a particularly horrendous day/week. Wishing you the best!
Daniel YOU ARE LOVED!❤❤❤
Hello I am a new follower, I just found you tonight through Special books by special books UA-cam page and found you. I think you are an incredible human being and sharing with us your struggles. You are not a burden, you have a lot if people that do care including myself. I was very touched by your videos and I admire you. Please so not blame yourself or apologize for your absences. I am so glad your still here with us today. You deserve to be here and you deserve the help. You are worthy of good things. You are a beautiful person inside and out ❤
I'm so sorry for your losses. I'm here crying after watching your interviews with Chris and this video. I lost 2 dogs in 3 years, my service dog starting having seizures in 2020. My cPTSD and other mental health issues are at an all time level of awful but in your words, strength, pain, struggle, inability/ refusal to give up... I see me. and everything still sucks and the ones I've loved and lost are still gone and my body is still broken, destroyed but I now feel less alone. Your words help me feel less alone, like you "get it". Your ability to put into words how I feel is amazing. Thank you. It's super unfortunate that you feel like I do but thank you for wording what I cannot. Hopefully you are not treading water in a bottomless pit of awful but instead breathing fresh air and remembering what it feels like to be a person. I hope you are out there kicking butt but if not know that I'm over here struggling with you.
Want to send my love to u from vancouver 🇨🇦, ive been watching your videos for hour's now and i want to let u know your a better human being then most people ive ever met , u have a kind hart and you are extremely smart , we need more people like u in this world that full of negative, u are a positive i love u
I'm glad you are in this world Daniel. You make it a better place. Your honesty and openness has helped me to help my daughter. You will never know how valuable the information I get from your videos, is. You are valuable, Daniel. You are important. You are strong, kind, handsome, loving, and loved by many. x
I'll be so happy each time you upload brother. I'm sorry for everything.
Daniel! I wish I could have commented on your video following a forced stay in a psychiatric Ward but comments were disabled unfortunately. You are *A-mazing* mate! If you only knew how many people love you for Who you are.
I cringe when I hear you talking about not having Any Joy or even remembering what Joy felt like.
Stay Strong Daniel because you are infinitely more precious than you will ever know
Thank you so much for your love and support dear friend. ❤💖.
Do you mind telling me which video had the comments disabled? Because there shouldn't be a single video of mine that has comments disabled.
@@danielnepveux97E Oh it was the last SBSK video of you before I learned of your channel and first saw the amazing transformation from you that we are all seeing now! I am so pleased that you found the raw courage to get your own UA-cam channel. You have flourished my amazing friend!!
What I love about you is, you are absolutely transparent and brutally honest!! Aside from a group therapy session, this is the most real talk I ever heard!! You may not realize how many people are feeling the same exact things you are. Damn! I wish I along with many many other were there to help you, but as someone who has gone through similar things I know there is nothing that can be done and sometimes you have to walk that path alone. I pray you have people in person who care for you aside from us. I can't tell you how many times I have felt many of the same emotions you have. To have your heart feel as though wolves are gnawing at it slowly, ripping it apart. To have your heart break everyday where it feels like someone took it and used a grater on it then submerged in rubbing alcohol! Stay strong! More people than you know love you and want to try and help.
You aren’t a burden Daniel and never be ashamed to reach out for help whenever you need it because I’ve been there and had those feelings too, I’m sorry about your loss and I pray that the peace of the Lord just surrounds you and I’m proud of you and happy you are still going. ❤️
Hey Daniel. I just saw one of your videos on SBSK and I wanted to let you know, that I think of you as a really strong person. You have nothing to be ashamed off.
I have the fullest of respect for you.
Hey Daniel, I'm so glad to see you again, although of course you haven't made a video recently. You have had so, so, so much going on. I also have schizoaffective disorder. I know that there is really no tired like schizoaffective tired. By the grace of God it has been about 3 years now since I was suicidal. Everyone's case is different, but I remember my life going so low that I thought I had hit the absolute bottom, and then life would go lower. It kept on so long that I couldn't remember what it felt like to be happy, or even just relaxed or content. I didn't remember how to have fun. I worked so hard and when I finally got out of the bed in the morning I couldn't get myself to make a sandwich (I love pbj) so I started buying uncrustables because I couldn't physically go through the steps of making a PBJ much less washing a knife I used to make it. It got dark....really dark. But slowly things started getting better. I got good meds, had stable housing, went to lots of therapy and support groups, worked harder than I ever have in my life. 3 years later I am happy almost all the time, and I love my life. Don't let anyone tell you recovery isn't possible. I just jumped into the comments to tell you that when you feel like a burden, that is your brain lying to you. Personally you contribute a lot to my life and I'm glad I've found your channel. I know that may not be a reason to live, but I bet there are a bunch of other people who feel exactly the same way. You are a fighter...I can hear it in your voice when you say "I'm still here". Hell yeah you are. Keep fighting my friend. We are all pulling for you.
I think we should all get together and celebrate Daniel for being such an exemplary source of inspiration to all of us!
❤️
Hello friend 👋🏼 I'm from Puerto Rico, hope you're doing great after Covid and all this events. It's always good to hear from you and know that you are ok despite of everything. I know what it feels like to have to put a loved pet to sleep, it is an unbearable and heartbreaking pain, but you have to let them go to prevent them from suffering further. I'm 100% sure that they loved you for who you are regardless of your experiences. You are a person with a beautiful heart, I know, I see you Daniel 🫂 Let's learn from dogs and cats the beautiful feeling and healing light that they carry. I'm also dealing with mental issues, but I'm sure we will be more than ok 😉 I send you a tropical hug from the Caribbean 🫂 One step at a time my friend 😉🤗
Gosh. Having had to put 4 pets down in a span of one year, I can only imagine how much harder that is to keep breathing in those moments. It's no wonder you question why you keep breathing. I have so many of those days too. Watching you just makes me think of my partner and it just makes me truly adore you. Sometimes it can take everything in us to keep breathing, and that's okay. All your energy is going toward breathing, and existing. I don't believe you have anything to apologize for. Telling your story on top of it is a pretty big accomplishment in my book. 💖 And as I tell my partner - you are not a burden! Not in any way, shape, or form. Not at all. When someone loves another, they're never burdened.
Hey Daniel! My name is Jake and I have the same diagnosis as you. I’ve been medicated since and that has helped, but I had to learn to work with my pain. I want to say something that I’d like you to consider: One thing we both know absolutely that has stood the test of time is that the real world, stays consistent. This means you leave a consistent linear timeline of actions in the real world, this real world and it’s objectivity actually serve as the nature of law and provides justice through observation of that objectivity as evidence. Your recordings have not gone unseen, in our eyes we know there lies potential for progress because every last thought of yours is a deep desire to reconnect with that objective reality, the one of qualities and meaningful sensations. Daniel maybe at some point in your life, your emotional sovereignty was taken from you. A form a rape but on a psychological level, not the physical, one that could have been inflicted not with malice, but without caring awareness. You felt you held control over your feelings and were proud, but you became ashamed because of some event or events you have experienced. And remember, you know deep down that consistent real reality, draw meaning from that the best you can. Again I can be wrong, consider me truthfully but also with a grain of salt, gracefully. For me I believed I have learned the source of my illness, when I was young I poured my heart and soul into my expression for a beautiful woman I felt I truly loved. Around that time I experienced a big socially embarrassing incident that was my fault, and I lost her and all of my friends. I felt that it was not my fault, but it was, I wasn’t in control of it, but it was followed by a logical sequence of events, and so it made me feel crazy. Here’s the thing, you need to have compassion and love for yourself, not the kind you feel you should give to yourself but the kind you deserve, and the kind everyone wants for you. You can continue to grasp at thin air, but until your regain your power of autonomy, your problems will likely not be solved. I employ you to seek a shaman to help reintegrate you with your lost fragments of self. Shamans were the first healers on earth, they understand the dualistic nature of reality at its unification, and they intuitively know the difference between fantasy and reality. They deal with raw humanity, and heal with unconditional love and impartiality. After reading this don’t go down a rabbit hole, just know this text is here and whenever you feel like you want to consider it, go ahead. Or don’t consider it at all. Take life at your own pace and learn to give yourself unconditional love regardless of whether you think you deserve it or not. This won’t be solved in a day simply by knowing, you owe it to yourself to explore your healing. Love and light my friend. ❤️
I just found your first interviews with Mr Chris. And I'm very happy that it lead me to your channel. You are so strong! Much stronger than you know. And I'm glad you are still around. I've tried to commit suicide several times in the past and haven't made an attempt in over a decade. We all have our unique challenges and for most of us there are unique solutions. If you walk or crawl or sleep though the next day, you are that much closer to finding what will work for you. And yes, maybe even feel joy now and then. Please stay in this life.
it’s so nice to see you! please don’t ever apologise for going through stuff, you never owe us your time!! we’re just happy to hear from you :) i really hope things are getting better and continue to! sending you so much love, health and support 🤍🤍🍀🍀
Daniel - a video interview you did with Mr. Chris came across my UA-cam feed yesterday. Something spiritual tugged on my 💜 to watch... And I did.
I first want to say: thank you for your service in the military. That right there speaks volumes!
Second: I can relate to your thoughts and reasoning on some levels. If truth be out.... I believe most of us can relate.
What an amazing person you are. I was such a captive audience- listening to every word you said...
You were brutally honest, raw and heart exposed for the benefit of everyone.
You have a sweet gentle soul, a loving heart and so much compassion. It caused me to readjust my self.
I remembered hearing you speak of God on the 2 interviews and I want to tell you that I've been 🙏 for you. You were in my thoughts as I went to bed late last night and all day today.
This video you made a month ago was tough. Extremely tough for you to make.
You are still here for a reason and a purpose!!
I don't know where you are spirituality, but if you do believe God exists.... Just know that He created you and there's no one else like you.
I'm sure you hear a lot of what I've said this far... My hope is that you don't get tired of reading/hearing the outpouring of people (like me) truly wanting good things for you. You are deserving.... No matter what you brain says.
I have an uncle who served in Vietnam and did not come back the same. A personal friend & a friend of the family who have gone through similar storms as you are going through.
The Timing of events can often kick you to the curb.... Losing your 4 legged companions....
Please forgive me for this long ... Scattered message, but I just had to reach out to you.
You are on my permanent prayer list.... Daniel.
I can only imagine what your darkest days feel like.
I hate that you went through COVID twice!
But again, you made it through and you're still here.
I want to share with you something my best friend (who served in the Marines for 22 years) has said to me.
This statement I am now saying to you......
I admire and look up to you: because everytime you get knocked down,. You eventually pick yourself back up and keep going.
I have several chronic health conditions (including a serious condition that should have taken me out of the game many years ago)...
But
I'm still here at 55.... Soon to be 56.
Please don't give up.... Keep fighting.
Sending brotherly love your way from GA.
You never have to apologize to anyone Daniel. Take your time buddy! The world loves you even if you don't see it that way! I understand the pain and the mental torment you are going through, because I've been suffering from severe depression and a host of other mental illnesses myself. You will eventually find happiness even if it seems impossible due to the way you're are currently feeling. Please please please I beg you to not hurt yourself! You're story has been heard by millions around the world and till this day thousands and thousands of people have your ear and are cheering you on to win at life! My advice for you is to ask yourself what the thing is that you always wanted to do in life, whether it's a certain activity, hobby that can help you feel alive. For me it was racing cars, I always wanted to own a race car, and till this day it's something that's on my mind 24/7. I'm currently taking baby steps to get to that goal, and it's still a long way out before I got to sit my ass in a race car, but I know that I will eventually get there. It's also totally fine to use your UA-cam and social media platform to ask for help of any kind! Whether it's financial aid, or asking for company from people it can be whatever you want! I'm sure thousands of people would love to be around you and help you with accomplishing your dream. JUST ASK FOR HELP AND IT WILL COME! maybe not overnight, but it will eventually happen! STAY STRONG MY BROTHER I LOVE YOU! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I'm glad you're still with us. I'm sorry life is kicking you so hard right now, I hope you get some reprieve and time to recover
Your strength through your pets' passing gives me hope for when my Mittens passes away. She's a lifeline of mine. Thank you for sharing
You've been through far too much. Please be gentle on yourself. As gentle and kind as you are to the animals you love. And, please keep loving them too, our time with them is short but that love stays with you, always.
Hi Daniel. My name is also Daniel and I ran across your videos with Mr. Chris. Following is the post I put on those videos and I hope this reaches you.
"Hello Mr. Chris. My name is also Daniel (I go by Dan) and I relate to the Daniel in these two videos a lot. This is the first I've come across one of your videos, and I really enjoyed watching Daniel explain his situation because like he says, it's very hard to describe what mental illness is like for the sufferer. I also have multiple diagnoses some of the same ones as Daniel. I have Depression, Generalized Anxiety disorder, Bipolar disorder, and instead of schizoaffective I deal with schizotypal, similar but not exactly the same, however I agree with and feel a lot of the same things that Daniel describes. Mr. Chris, while I do have a team working with me as Daniel does, if you have room in your schedule (even though I don't feel I deserve it much like Daniel) I'd appreciate it if you could contact me and possibly interview me the way you did with Daniel. Watching him explain what he deals with, while heartbreaking to hear, it's also encouraging because of his positive outlook he's trying so hard to maintain. I don't want to leave my contact info here so I'm not sure how it would even work? But I'd like an opportunity to not only speak with you but if you're up for it, Daniel, I'd like to communicate with you as well. I'm tired of isolating and irrationally projecting my negative thoughts and fears onto everyone even people close to me causing strain on relationships in my life. I also loathe myself and feel undeserving of love for no rational reason. I definitely feel like after watching these two videos with Daniel like I'm not as alone as I thought and like he said if being open and honest with you Mr. Chris helps even one other person then it would be worth it. So in the same spirit if listening to my story could influence or positively impact even one other person, I think I'd like to try to open up to you as Daniel did so bravely. I'm not an expert on UA-cam or social media at all so again I'm not sure how to exchange info from here (hopefully nobody wants to roast me for this) but if there is a way and if you, Daniel or you, Mr. Chris come across this comment and you wouldn't mind getting a hold of me, I could use some kind interaction with kind-hearted intention to understand and comfort my restless unceasing negative self talk. Sorry I wrote you a book here and maybe nobody will see this but thank you for the encouragement you've given me this morning, may it last until at least midday lol but fr thank you!"
No need to apologise, I’m just glad you’re still present. I’m sending love and healing prayers your way.
I'm SO sorry to hear about your cats and Maxine. How absolutely devastating. My cat, Dina, had acute kidney failure and we had to put her to sleep on December 3rd. I can only imagine the absolute pain you've been dealing with.
I really wish you could live somewhere with better healthcare. Texas is notoriously AWFUL. Add it being the VA to that and it's just a recipe for travesty. It sounds like you have a good support network where you are, which makes such a huge positive difference.
There are many things you go through that I've not experienced, but I know what it's like to absolutely hate yourself. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I don't even know why I keep going or where my hope comes from. You are SO strong. Much stronger than I am.
Take care of yourself, Daniel. You deserve love and contentness. Who even knows what happiness is anymore? I strive to be content with my life - everyone deserves at LEAST that much.
Hugs from the north!
Hey Daniel? It's been awhile since we all checked in with each other. I pray everyone is good and as happy as much as one can be. You built a great community here D, one to feel proud of. Come say hi when you are ready, you family here wanna say hello. Much love and hugs friend. 🤗💚
Hello Daniel, I found out about your videos today and I'm amazed by your courage and strength, even if you don't believe it. I am a doctor who works with mental health and your videos help understand a bit more about mental disorders. So thank you for your brave report. Greetings from Brazil!
Hi, Mr. Dan. We love you. For lots of reasons. But first and foremost because there's a spark of genuine angelicity in you. You're sweet.
It may sound like a cliché, but love knows no boundaries. So we stand here by you and cherish you even if you don't like or respect yourself, as you said. This community does. And that's why it's a caress to the heart to see your face again and to hear your voice :)
The love and care you gave to your pets is proof of how much light you have in you. I'm so sorry for those terrible experiencies you and them had to live through. But you gave them a wonderful life and they'll always be with you ♡
PS: you kick butt too! 💖
Hey Mr. Daniel, I thought about you the last 2 days after seeing your videos with 'Mr. Chris'. I just wanted to let you know what some of my thoughts were the last days. First of I really appreciate you showing up for yourself and others that experiencing similar conditions. I think you are a brave and very humble man and I really like listening to your voice. To see this condition from a different perspective have giving me some other insights that I am happy to have now. I am just realising again that I had several psychosis throughout my life. One major psychosis sticked to me for months or maybe a year after my first child was born. I experienced seeing a shadow all the time. Felt her presence in every moment. I was depressed, anxious all the time and isolated myself. It took me a long time to open up about it to my husband. But then something happened that changed it. I researched a lot about soul hunting, inner child therapy and soul traveling. I realised that this shadow was an abandoned part of me that I was shutting down in a deep hole. It disappeared after I fell into a delirium kind of state, where I faced her directly. I was sitting with her in that hole, had her moldly angry face just in front of me. My husband was so aware and he talked me through this experience and asked me: what does she needs the most. And the answer was love. Love and acceptance. So I held her like she always wanted to be held. I gave her a place in my life, in my heart. And after that I had this huge relief that this lost part of me was finally returning home and doesn't need to seek my attention anymore. This might not be the same with your hallucinations, but I thought I just share it. I am still hearing knockings that kept freaking me out 2 years ago. But since I learned that these and everything I experience is part of me. I can relax and try to communicate instead of pushing it away. I know this sounds to easy for someone who is experiencing so much pain from this desease. But you are strong! And I strongly believe that there is a reason for it. And that there is a way to live a good life and integrate every part that is ours. I am also wanting to say that having sessions with a shaman have helped me a lot. The different view she gave me had a huge impact to me to accept and even see the purpose of these conditions more. The way out for me was to go back to traumatic experiences and try to integrate the lost parts of my soul. I could write an entire article about it but just for now I want to share with you my experience.
I wish that you find a way to live with more peace and freedom in your heart. I really appreciate you being on this earth with me on this crazy journey. Lots of greetings from Germany, Surija.
You don't have to say sorry Daniel. Take the time you need, we will be here for you always! ❤️
The loss of a pet is always tough, they are like family, and sometimes you feel like they are the only ones that really get you. And to lose two of them so soon is even worse... But you were always there for them and they loved you dearly, you gave them a family! Life may suck really hard sometimes, but don't let the worst times of it make you forget the joy you had with them and the lovely memories you forged together.
If you need to talk, here we are ❤️
Daniel, you are incredibly bold and brave. The world needs more gentle honest souls like you. I know you don't believe it but you ARE worthy, you ARE good enough and you ARE loved. You deserve the love you crave, especially from yourself. Be kind and gentle to yourself. All I wanted to do was literally climb through this screen and give you the biggest longest hug. I am so so SO deeply sorry for the pain you are going through with the loss of your 2 kitties and now having to see Maxine suffer, I am so sorry.... My heart aches for you,I know how hard it is losing our fur babies. I hope you are ok Daniel. I am so glad I discovered your channel. You are such a beautiful human being and I SEE you..... I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and heart. Don't ever apologise for feeling or being you. We love you xxx
First off I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your cats and for the health of your dog. And that you got so sick.( happy you’re better from that.) I can’t imagine. That’s so much, so close in time. Honestly, I know they knew happiness because of you. And you’re right. Life can be cruel and very unfair and not make sense, but..
You know something? I can relate to you, as I have multiple ailments which will never go away or get better. And as soon as I feel I have managed them, the symptoms change.. but I’m still here as well..
And I completely realize we have different issues, but know I, like all of us here support, care and want you to be here! You definitely have value and we see it. Hang in. Try to remain as strong as you can and realize there are things you can still do. Like your beautiful poetry and coming here to keep us updated..
please continue to do so, we’re listening.
And also know your fur babies are still with you, just in a new way now.
And no apologies!
Hey Daniel, as long as you are safe it is the only thing matters. You are one of the heroes that I have been following and becoming a neuroengineer to maybe find some sort of solution what you have been experiencing for a while. I genuinely find your strength a motivation and inspiration for me. You are loved and cared many people. Your existence means many younger people who is also struggling with similar issues. Please take care buddy 🧡
Keep fighting Daniel, I am rooting for you!
Daniel, I am so sorry for what you are going through. I had a month where 3 pets had to be put down. I ended up leaving college due to all of it. I also totally understand your feelings of not wanting to live, not wanting to be a burden or to "take up space", etc. My family takes care of me and supports me financially since I have disabling mental illnesses as well. I often feel useless, worthless, and like I don't want to put the responsibility on them. But I know that they love me, and would 100% rather spend the money and the time on me than to have me dead. I know it's painful and it really sucks, but I want you to try to remind yourself of that. It seems your family also cares for you so much. I personally appreciate your honesty and candidness. I appreciate that you say things that I think of often. The world needs people like you in it. Don't be afraid to lean on your support network and to tell them what you need. Hugs and love to you, dude!
You've had multiple heartbreaking weeks/months. I'm so deeply sorry about your pets (and it feels like an insult to call them "pets", because what they really are is family). Losing them is soul-crushingly painful. I'm thankful you're here, though; you seem like a wonderful man, and your videos are intensely real, open, and heartfelt, and there's so much in them that resonates with so many people. We love you, we're here for you, and we can't wait to hear from you again.
My home (South Carolina) has a wonderful state motto: "While I breathe, I hope." Please keep breathing, and please keep fighting to find your happiness. We're ALL rooting for you!
Daniel, recently came across your videos and so glad I did. First want to say I'm so sorry about your pets. You are one strong bastard, loved the end of the video where you say 'despite everything I'm still going'. Fuck me do I resonate with so much of what your going through. I know how hellish it can get. I remember being 100000% certain that I would be that way forever and thinking how will I survive as I was completely incapable of doing anything, never mind getting a job etc. I truly truly believe that your pain will eventually ease.
May I just point out one thing, please stop apologising. You have NOTHING to apologise for, whether that's the lack of videos or the noise outside. You are a massively empathetic and kind hearted person and that's partially why you do, I used to do it all the time.
Those in your life and all of us here just want to do anything we can to help you. I am honoured to now be on this journey with you. *I believe in you* my man and I can't wait to see you get better. Much love, from your mate in Ireland ✌️
Hey Daniel. You are such a wonderful guy. You are so open and I really appreciate that. I suffer from OCD and anxiety, and watching your videos just seem to bring sunshine. I had covid in November of 2020 and I was terrified because I didn’t know if I had to be on a ventilator because I have asthma. But I was just really tired and had a small cough.
I also lost my dad, so that was very rough. But I am just glad he’s not in any pain.
You keep doing what you’re doing man. You have been such a strong ray of sunshine in these trying times.
Never forget that.
You have no idea how strong you are.
I just want to give you the biggest hug!
don't be sorry David, you cant blame yourself for this, grief is unbearable I'm so sorry too hear all of this, dealing with my own mental issues you have given myself the courage to go to an inpatient mental hospital i can't stop crying i hope you get better man for my self the journey just begins..stay strong david
I'm sorry you've been having a rough patch Daniel, but just know I'm so happy to see and hear from you again ❤ you're such a strong man, and you help put a voice to many who can't do it themselves. Cycles of life come and go, you will flourish ✨️
Edit: I'm so so sorry for your losses, it's some of the most unfair things to happen, especially all after another and there aren't words for that kind of pain 💔
Hi Daniel. I saw you on SBSK and I feel you are a wonderful and amazing person. I've had mental health issues all my life and I have 2 grown daughters who have schizophrenia. Six years ago I was diagnosed with 2 autoimmune diseases that affect my body and my mind. I too feel like I'm a burden even though people say I'm not. 😇 My thoughts are with you.
Daniel, I just came here after watching both of your SBSK interviews. I hope and wish with every ounce of my body that I could fully express the sheer importance you hold. By no means whatsoever is your life meaningless. I want you to know that where ever you are right now, no matter where you are or what circumstances you are in, you are incredibly, incredibly loved. You are an endless powerhouse of strength, what you manage to live with and go through every day, you are forced to face something that no human ever would have the courage to even attempt to image. There are thousands and thousand of people who undoubtly click your videos the second you upload them, and I am going to be joining that group now. We all believe in you Daniel, we all are rooting for you every second we can. Nothing matters more in this life than your happiness Daniel. You are entitled to be free and be happy and its tragic to see someone fall victim to sheer misfortune. You are a good soul, this world isn't deserving of you and we are overjoyed that you are still here with us sharing your story and your bravery. I can't begin to imagine what struggles you have to endure, I want to understand to the best of my ability but I cant. I just hope that regardless of what voices you might hear, I hope that your voice is always saying that you are worth it. You are someone whos brought more love and inspiration and emotion to the world than you ever have pain, you deserve to be happy, you are entitled to be happy. Everyone who heard your story knows this, we love you and we will always be here to remind you that you are loved and cared about
Hey man, I hope this isn't too generic for me to say but I am truly happy to have found your channel. My best friend, who I consider my family more than my blood relatives was recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. Ever since then, I've been looking into your videos, while continuously asking questions towards her because although I will never be able to fully understand her experiences and how she perceives the world around her, I can understand how terrifying it must have been for her to carry that baggage along with her since early childhood; and now all I want to do is be a source of comfort and support to keep her "in check" with reality as she likes to call it. She is on a medication now, and is already seeing improvements in how she perceives the world within just a week. Though schizoaffective disorder is a spectrum with a variety of different experiences that affect different people, I believe you will or even already are experiencing a steady incline in mental stability. You're intelligent and articulate: a clearly gifted man that is contributing so much to people like me who want to understand the horrors you experience. Knowing my friend will be able to finally get a taste of the true joys of life that she has long deserved makes me incredibly elated for her. You not only deserve but will experience the same as well. Thank you for the content you put out.
Good to see you again!
You are worthy! Keep fighting! You are one of the strongest people I’ve seen ❤️
So good to hear from you! You're often in my prayers. Keep going, Brother! So sorry the loss you've recently had. 😭🤗
do you know the testimony of James Stacey, 'schizophrenia defeated'?
with his stripes we are healed.
I wish I could gift you an optimistic/positive voice in your head that tells you "you are a good person," "hey you did that well," "people like & respect you" etc. Because 100% everybody would say, and do think, those positive things about you. You are an inspiration sir & I wish you well & every happiness going forward 😊
Daniel, we all love you so much. You have been hit with so many horrible things, one after the other. You don't owe us anything and you can always take a break from this, no matter the reason. All we want, is for you to come back each time. You bring people more joy and hope than you realise. Your honesty about everything you're dealing with, is inspirational. I can promise you, that of all the people here, every single one of us would be right beside you if we could. You're so strong and even if you forget that sometimes, we will always be here to remind you. ❤
Daniel, I understand. I have schizoaffective disorder. I'm sorry you have been through so much. 😔 you have alot of people who care about you. It's okay to be depressed, I have before. Just hang in there. I believe in you, Daniel, and there is hope.
You are such an incredible person and you communicate so many important feelings that so many of us can relate to in our mental health struggles. Sometimes it really does just feel like life is just serving up one "fuck you" after another and its just too much. But ultimately you as an individual are absolutely irreplaceable in this world, and even when you are crawling around on the ground you are important, loveable, and valid. Your life, your impact, and contributions mean something to all of us, just by being you.
Hey dear don't u dare apologize honey take as much time as u need man don't even fret about what we think we just want to be sure ur ok glad to see a newer video of you after following some of it videos and interviews I have been drawn to you especially because of the schizoaffective you absolutely amazing for not being so well I'm glad u are feeling better u sound and look amazing get all the help u need my dear we are always here for you this is YOUR community of nothing but positive support much love from NYC it's easier said then done remain strong ❤️❤️
I've missed ur posts Daniel! Don't worry about us, we'll be here and support u forever! Safe Travels!
You are an utter warrior. An inspirational warrior. I wish you calm, even if just for a moment.
You don't know me, but I follow your channel, and I live with some of the same symptoms. I think of you often,and hold you in my heart.
Psalm 51:15-17
15. O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise.
16. For you will not delight in sacrifice, or I would give it; you will not be pleased with a burnt offering.
17. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.
The broken and the down are the ones God hears and sees the most.
This scripture just came to me in my life, at a time where I didn't think God was hearing me anymore.
To me it was that God saw me continuing on, throughout the difficulty and my voice had not gone unheard.
If you believe in your heart that God raised Jesus from the dead and you believe and speak with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and you lay everything at his feet and he will come into your life.
I'm only saying this because he gave me a hope I never thought I'd have.
Love you man, hope you're doing okay man. God bless.
Hey Daniel, came here from SBSK, I am sorry for your loss, I pray that you one day have peace in this living world in knowing that even though you have received a heavy loss, the times you had with them were worth every second, self care is worth every second, and you taking care of you is the most important thing you can do for you. I know you see things as horrible, we see you as someone who is worthy of life, worthy of love, and worthy of existence. Happiness will find you again. hope this message finds you well and each moment you are alive is a victory against the forces that have made you want to not be here, much love
I'm happy to have found your channel, you are an incredible individual.
Hi Daniel,
You are NOT a burden!!!! You are the strongest man I have ever seen! You are a example of strenght! Please don't give up...
I admire your power to live with all your demons. I have panic attack's for almost 20 years now. And its HELL!!!!!! So i got my own demons to fight....but i' am a warrior Just like you! Please let fight TOGETHER! You are my example to keep on fighting....i often think about you. Please stay with me!
Whit all my heart i reach out to you.
With love,
Astrid
So glad to see you!!!! It’s super windy here the past few days too. I’m sorry to hear about kitty, Hercules and Maxine. It’s so freaking painful when our babies get sick. We all love you and I think of you all the time.