BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER
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- Опубліковано 1 лип 2024
- Chapters:
1 THE BEGINNING 0:15
2 EXTREMES & IMPULSIVITY 1:49
3 ABANDONMENT 3:40
4 FAVOURITE PERSON 6:11
5 SPLITTING 7:58
6 EMPTINESS & LACK OF IDENTITY 9:23
7 QUIET BORDERLINE 11:06
8 GETTING THROUGH AN EPISODE 12:23
9 THE END 14:13
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I donated and am so happy you have this account❤️
I always cry throughout your videos and especially in this one cause ive been diagnosed with bpd recently.
Thank you Kat thank you so so much for making this video.
I love you and will always keep on supporting you!!
pleasee can you make videos about paranoid, schizoid and shizotypal personality disorder? ❤️
WE LOST OUR HOME AND ALMOST EVERYTHING 💔 😢
We have episodes indeed!
Forme they last too long.
I May also be bipolar..
I know what you mean w how m a dangerous horrible person.. 💔
"Loving is losing control, losing someone is like dying" I felt that.
:(
Wow same!! Same part that got me
I’m sobbing, I’ve never felt so understood
"Beautiful"
Same!
same here
I swear!!!
Right?
“I desperately need validation. But when I get it I choose to ignore it.”
I cried when she said "tell me you are on my side ,not my enemy" sometimes it does feel that everyone is my enemy, especially when I having an episode
Feeling normal is like nothing.
I call it void
I call it...
literally, i just feel nothing/empty
There is no such thing..
At least not for us❤️🩹
Yeah
Okay, so here it is, finally! I've devoted much more time to this video than any other one in terms of researching the disorder. It's difficult to cover it all in a video that wouldn't be too long (attention spans are not great these days), but I tried my best. If you're not completely satisfied by this as a person with BPD, I get it, but please keep the comments respectful. Thank you and I hope I got close with this vid. :)
It's so amazing and real. Thank thank you for this wonderful video. ❤
In past videos, you put words to my feelings with such accuracy that I was thrilled because I felt that I finally had the tool to make people understand what it's like to live with a mental health problem. However, after seeing this video about a mental disorder I don't have, I'm thinking that maybe the real magic in your videos is that you have such a way with words and such an ability to relay other people's experiences that everyone is able to imagine (at least to some extent) what it's like to live with any mental disorder, and that's an incredible feat. God, you're a dream...
pleasee can you make videos about paranoid, schizoid and shizotypal personality disorder? ❤️
Amazing video!
@@xslt1692 this video is called living with borderline pd. Not living with a person with bpd.
"But instead, I kill relationships before they really start." I felt that way too deep. As oblivious as I was I kept them at a certain distance and made them dislike me so that I would not deal with the feeling of really having them disliking the real me. That's how fucked up I am.
same honestly
This video hurts me so much because it is so true.
At the same time, it makes me feel understood because it exactly defines what I am feeling these days.
You should be proud of yourself Kat. Thank you once again.
I wrote an email last october. When I found my words it hit me hard. That's the video I'll show close people around to help me explain my BPD. Thank you for all of this.
can't donate (broke af) but I watched all the ads without skipping them, liked the vid, and I'm commenting to help you earn more money from your video. I really hope you can continue making vids, they are really helpful for raising awareness and helping ppl with these conditions. I wish you all the best in life.
Haha thanks!! :)))
0:20 THE BEGINNING
1:50 EXTREMES & IMPULSIVITY
3:44 ABANDONMENT
6:15 FAVOURITE PERSON
8:00 SPLITTING
9:26 EMPTINESS & LACK OF IDENTITY
11:10 QUIET BORDERLINE
12:27 GETING THROUGH AN EPISODE
14:18 THE END
I am bursting into tears.
My ex is BPD and I cannot be the same anymore after she (didn't) decided to leave... This video is a masterpiece, it perfectly describes my perception of her and all the hopelessness we had to go through. BPD is the most sublime level of imperfection.
Still I don't regret an instant. Next life we will try again, I'll wait.
this is the most beautiful description ive ever seen of bpd. "BPD is the most sublime level of imperfection".
rings so true and yet hurts so much.
as a person with BPD i just wanted to say thank you, the amount of work you've put into this, the research, the visuals... i'm deeply amazed and thrilled
I’ve been on anxiety and Bpd hit up lightztripz on Instagram has helped me out he has honey and mushrooms and other products formicrodosing 😌
Hi.. I’ve been feeling all of this for a very long time, is there any way to know if you have BPD..? My parents probably won’t let me get an official test, and I’m pretty sure they’ll just try to pray the pain away. I know this is something that I probably shouldn’t ask, I’m sorry. I just need some type of clarification..
@@goofyrat2938 you can get a diagnosis by your psychiatrist or therapist. But it doesn't matter if it's BPD, PTSD or undiscovered DID. I highly advice you to get help. Although many don't do such diagnoses, because they beliefe it's not good for you. For me it was nice to have a name for that shit, but the work staid the same.
You can do online tests too, but they are tricked too easily. Wouldn't rely on the result. But as a tool for self-assessment, with knowing that your diagnose will be inaccurate, they are fine.
@goofyrat2938 Hi, I am BPD too , my parents is like yours too, but i decide to secretly having consult with psychiatrist online, and i never tell them until now.
@@goofyrat2938sorry i forget to tag
My ex best friend has BPD, our friendship truly hurt me. What she didn’t understand is that I never feared her, I feared losing her, just like she did.
Girl, your color grading is on point. It's so good. Man, what a visual treat.
Thanks. 🙏
I have BPD this is ..very much on point ..thanks Kat as usual you're so detailed while explaining everything so it doesn't makes me feel 🙃 like im having a disorder..you show exactly what we're missing and craving..
I don't have BPD, I have generalized anxiety, which leaves me wide open to becoming codependent. 2 months ago I broke up with a BPD-diagnosed girlfriend of 6 years, who abused me first emotionally, then physically. I knew of her trauma, and for years I tried to be empathetic to her. I try even now as she still hurls demeaning insults and tried to hit me when we met recently. I feel like this video perfectly illustrates what is constantly going on within her, the things I could see right off the start, but closed my heart to after the assaults began, and allowed because my anxiety-ridden mind was afraid of losing her. I know that deep inside, she is a sweet, beautiful person who is really capable of taking care of others. I have enormous trouble separating her illness from herself, but the wounds are not healed yet. I hope in my heart that one day we can forgive and be friends, but I fear that her emotions will forever make her think that her deeds and words towards me were justified, just as she never apologized for anything. I hope she starts therapy eventually.
What a terrible illness this is. It scares me when I compare it to my own brain troubles. It's tragic how destructive it is, how it can condemn one to loneliness through actions that happen when one is basically taken over by a passenger from the back of the head.
I would like to give my wholehearted cheers to anyone making a sincere effort to battle this illness - you are fighting a grand war to be a better person, a war for good. Please don't give up.
thank you :(
I've cried so much at the quiet borderline part. because I felt a lot of pity for the person who wrote and felt this and then i realized - i'm feeling the exact same. and it's crazy how little empathy I show myself
it’s so damn true and so cool, but in the same time, as I’m having BPD I couldn’t watch it to the end, because even though it’s very cool, it hurts me catastrophically, like hell, and I’m so tired of this rollercoaster of feelings that I just don’t know where to put myself.
And the worst thing is that I'm already used to it as I live my whole life with this, and this is the norm of life for me, which causes me physical and mental inconvenience
I am so sorry :(
“ normal is like feeling nothing” the mood swings , I feel everything and nothing too quickly and so intensely . Ive never heard something so simple but perfectly accurate.
Today I had the worst episode of BPD and finding this video open a door to my soul. I was definitely tired and just wanted to leave this earth. But at least today that I survived, I want to become the voice of million of people that have not a voice to express how they are feeling dealing with BPD.
"losing someone feels like dying"
Came here bc I was having an episode. Sat on my kitchen floor with a bottle of vodka at a low point. Thank u for making me feel understood and less alone once again. Love you kat♥️
"Sadness feels like suicide , anger feels like murder , loving is loosing control , loosing someone is dying , happiness in unbelievable euphoria and feeling normal is like nothing i hate to admit it but sometimes I become a walking breathing mindfield for anyone that interacts with me "
Beautifully said and explained really accurate ❤️❤️ people who don't have BPD can understand it you have given words to so many silent voices ❣️ thank you really appreciate your work 3:12
Z tym kłamaniem o sobie też jest tak, że właściwie nie wiemy co jest prawdą o nas samych. I mówiąc coś czujemy się jak oszuści bo nie do końca czujemy, żeby te słowa nas określały.
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I’ve never seen my thoughts and feelings represented in such an artistic, beautiful yet soul crushing way. I found myself sympathizing with myself, accepting some parts of me that i subconsciously demeaned. “Tell me you’re not my enemy.” Really stuck with me, i just want to know that for once someone understands, fully. And i hope everyone else gets that reassurance one day as well.
Literally felt every A sentence like an arrow that marks my life hanging on the prize wall...
I love this video so much! Thank you! I've never felt so understood!
This is a beautiful video Kat, thank you for everything
I can't express how hard is just to have a 15min of reality in a day , I can't express how hard it is to express how u feel when your emotions are changing constantly and when they don't change you just feel empty I can't explain how on edge you are when you are so close to try and change your name and move to another city just to build some stable character because atm u don't know who u are and you don't know what is reality anymore ... I changed 7 psychiatrists this year because it's so hard to admit some things .. I want to say I am grateful for your channel and I hope you are doing well ❤
Wow, just wow.
I'm a 26 years old man diagnosed with BPD and I've researched BPD a lot, read articles, read books, watched UA-cam videos, investigated my mind, learnt most of my triggers, I understand this disorder quite well, and this video is probably the best I've seen on UA-cam describing how it is to live with BPD.
I am quite stable now, my mental health is good and my life is good at the moment, I am not emotional (in comparison to bad times when I'd cry from anything) and you made me weep.
Thank you for this!
How did u cure it
This is the video that I seen you worked really hard on. And seeing it on a complete state is very beautiful and also personal to those who sent out the emails.
Thank you so much for continuing and completing this project. This is beautiful
i have to say that i'm very proud of you for this video, cause i see how much of work you have putted in this. you are realy inspiring and helpful and your videos help to understand more about other people and myself. thank you for thes videos!
Everything about it is Beautiful and on point. Thank you Kat.❤
Thank you so much! Waited for a BPD video since I founded you few years ago.
I love your channel, it’s opened me up to so many things I thought people just said to get attention. I love how they all go in the bests of the illness, so you really know how it feels, I know that the people living these lives are miserable, so I hope all of you get help. I’m so sorry you have to fight for this.
THANK GOD you did it! I've been waiting for monthsss for this video! It is so well done wow you explained absolutely everything thank you!
You're great! Thanks a lot for spreading awareness about mental health and disorders.
This is perfect. Thank you so much for this.
Thank you so much for this video. It really helped put into words what I am going through!!
thank you! you described something that i could not put into the simplest words. thank you.
I was trying to name my emotions for such a long time and that video is just like a mirror of my brain. I'm all in tears and I can't find a words to say how grateful I am for what you're doing.
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR THAT WORK WHAT YOU DO FOR US ♥︎
I keep listening to this daily I just feel soo understood and relieved, your videos really help a lot of people and I’m one of them
Your vids are always so aesthetically pleasing and inspirational
i'm in tears. i've never felt so understood. thank you for this wonderful video!
thank you, thank you! i've waited for it since 2017 i think. thank you again. you're the best! thank you.
I can’t describe how much I appreciate this video just every single detail is correct in my case. I wanna thank you so much for making this video 🙂 now some people can finally understand me and what’s happening inside my head. I donated something it’s not much but at least something. You also helped me a lot with some of you other videos like the OCD one and the social anxiety. Thank you!!!
The way you describe things is just so satisfying.. like wow this is exactly how I feel .
Wow this is amazing video that is both a work of art and informative. Thank you for the time, energy, and effort you put into undoing misinformation with truth. 💜
This is truly one of the BEST productions I've ever watched. Your depictions of BPD are amazing, you are truly very talented
I’m so appreciative of your videos Kat, you have saved me so much. I have bpd, depression and anxiety and I know you put together what others like me have told you. When I’m down, I listen to your three videos of this over and over and it makes me feel like I do belong, I’m not alone. I’ve even sent them to loved ones which has helped them understand me more. I truly appreciate it, thank you 💗
Finally.... Thank you♥️ I 've waited along long time for this type of video
You said the words i couldn’t say to describe myself. Thank you.
Didn't know nothing about this disorder but now I feel understood.. Thank you so much :)
I just discovered your videos and am absolutely loving them. They are so sensitively and accurately portrayed. This one feels terrifyingly familiar. I don’t (think?) have this disorder, but I have PMDD, which is MUCH like this for two weeks out of every month. And it is pure hell. So this made me sad, scared, yet happy that someone “gets” me, when I can’t even understand myself, literally half the time. Thank you! ❤️
That was amazing, thank you ❤ I have BPD myself and it was so accurate! I would just add some extreme positive emotions, mania-like episodes that can feel cool at the beginning, you feel like you can do anything but are so draining at the end, so overwhelming and tiring. Thank you for contributing to educate ppl about BPD, it is still so misunderstood ❤❤
I don't think myself to be an artist in any form, nor a true critic, but these videos simply have me coming back. The content itself is certainly of interest, however the style and care that is gone into making them is quite a joy in my eyes. Keep on keeping on miss Napiorkowska.
This is beautiful and astonishing.
Every second of this video describes BPD like nothing else before. This is exactly how I feel on a daily basis, this is exactly me.
Thank you so much for creating this masterpiece, we have been waiting for a long time, but it was worth the wait. Beautifully done.
Thank you! Sometimes I feel so alone and like no one else gets it but this video profoundly demonstrates I am not alone.
Thank you so much for this, I feel so understood. ❤️
I was waiting for this one .I suffer from borderline personality disorder and seriously I never feel normal its always very loud in my head .
Bruuuuuh I saw a fair bit of my email in there (among the many, many other intense and valid experiences you've curated for this video). Surreal experience aside, this video was beautifully constructed, and the time and effort spent on the project was well worth it. Thank you for all the work you do
I'm tears.. this is INCREDIBLY !
This is the only media on this subject I’ve felt like understood the most. I listen to this multiple times a week to feel less alone. I’m so glad I can access this video again
This was art in its purest form. Thank you.
I have never felt so understood in my entire life. Thank you so much, thank you for letting me know that I’m not alone in this world anymore.
The accuracy of this is extraordinary. I’ve never found a video that explains my disorder so well! It makes me sad but this is how I am.
Thank you for making this beautiful video
Thank you for putting so much time and energy on this video. I know is so not easy to address. I have BPD and I thank you for putting content related to this disorder, It helps us to have more visibility and feel heard
Hugs and well wishes
Kat thank u
immensely for this. I’m in a therapy for more than 5 years and I’ve never felt understood by a person like I do right now. You are describing feelings I cannot describe by words. Or I'm rather scared of that.
it feels so good to have people who understand my bpd this made me feel like i can actually understand myself:)
I have depression, anxiety with BPD traits. Videos like this make me feel validated ❤❤ never stop making these
Oglądam cię od bardzo dawna. Twoje filmy są poruszające i trafiają w sedno. Czasami wyrażają to czego sama nie potrafiłabym opisać. Jesteś wspaniałą artystką i mam nadzieję, że będziesz tworzyć i tworzyć, bo ludzie cię uwielbiają.
Wonderfully and detailed, deep description of BPD.
I felt so seen and understood and when someone asks me how I am, I literally give up at answering due to the chaos I have in my mind.
Thank you for this video, it's so beautiful, to say the least.
Thank you for this video. Ive been waiting for this since ive found you and i cant explain to you how happy I am. It is such a great thing to be understood.
I’ve been on anxiety and Bpd hit up lightztripz on Instagram has helped me out he has honey and mushrooms and other products formicrodosing 😌
Jestem ekstremalnie pod wrażeniem jak mocne jest to co zrobiłaś i jakiego researchu to wymagało. Wow. Naprawdę.
WOW thank You so much for this ❤
Brakuje troszkę na temat ryzykownych zachowań autodestrukcyjnych, izolowaniu się od ludzi, myślach samobójczych i samookaleczeniu się… ale ogólnie 11/10 :) Ujęcia piękne. Widać, ze spędziłaś dużo czasu na zrozumieniu tego zaburzenia, bo klip bardzo pasuje. Dziękuje Ci, długo czekałam na film, z którym będę mogła się utożsamić 🥰
I have BPD, and a few other disorders. I have never watched anything that depicts this disorder correctly and this does so well. Thank you.
I need to comment. I can't continue without thanking you for this incredibly beautiful, honest, accurate and relatable description. Sending love from another with this sometimes unbearable affliction.
Such a beautiful yet scary sentences we have in this film. I... never felt so understood in my life.
Kat, thank you. I felt it deep down in myself that I might struggle with this. That's why I got panic attack while watching this. I'm not blaming you, no... It's about myself not your work. I actually appreciate that you put alot of work to public something that could touch my heart. That's impressive.
Thank you for including quiet borderline
Such sorrow so beautifully articulated…
Thank-You beautiful soul, you have a way with words, & have used it to help us all with BPD to feel heard, understood & validated, bless you…
One of the best videos on BPD on the internet.
Thank you for your efforts in putting this together. 🙏
Kasiu, to jest piękne. Niesamowite jak bardzo dosłowny sam w sobie jest ten film. Thank you
okkkay, wow, I didn't expect THIS! 😱 This is a whole movie! And sooooo good, wowwww. The visuals are so magical.🖤🌓
never felt so understood 💗. Thank you
Thank you and Dziekuje bardzo serdecznie for the video. I am a sufferer too, and this is beautifully crafted, Kat. Lots of love from Melbourne, Australia.
I can't thank you enough for this one
This is such a perfect movie and I feel so validated, hearing other people's words and their experiences shines so much light on my childhood. It makes so much sense and I wish I had this year's ago to explain to my ex-wife.
This time though, I can break that cycle and show my partner your video and then they will be able to understand me.
Thank you.
im really sad i can't donate, your channel is marvellous - its educational, all the videos are beautiful and portray the effort that has been put in them, and it must be helping so many people. You deserve so much more recognition for this amazing work, kat ❤️ (im trying really hard to see whether i can donate, meanwhile i'll make sure to like, share and comment on your videos, and do anything else to help you out)
I got tears iny eyes while watching it because i felt like i am watching my own story . which is full of agony in everyday life 😔GREAT WORK AND THANK YOU
That was amazing and painful-but amazing, thank you 🖤🖤
Thank u so much! This one video helped me to confirm what doctors couldn’t. I’ve been getting misdiagnosed since I was 13 years old….I am now 30 years old. Now that I know what’s been wrong, I can take the necessary steps to breaking the cycles. I am forever grateful. Every word spoken in this video is everything I have experienced and am still experiencing to this day down to a T. It feels so good to FINALLY be understood and I no longer feel so alone. Thanks again love! U have no idea (well, u might lol) how much this has helped me and others! Thank u thank u thank u 🙏
Wow.. this video was incredibly well done 💙
It’s been a while since my extremes have flared up, but this is the video I needed to see that I know I’m not alone. I’ve gone through years of therapy and still going to them to find coping skills that help me manage my episodes, impulsive acts and splits. I know i’m never going to be “normal” but now I am able to manage them gracefully. Communication with someone safe who truly understands is key, could be a friend, sibling, therapist even, talking about it helps greatly at least for me. I know I still go through rough days where I’m still in that rollercoaster, at least now I’m not as intense as I used to be. I’m thankful for my journey and yes anyone could do it too, it’s a scary and messy process but trust me, learning to cope and manage your emotions will improve your life in so many ways. I know for all the people who suffer with this mental illness can get there. I did it, you can too! ♥️