LISTEN WITHOUT THE MUSIC There are now two audio tracks. Go to the settings wheel on the right-hand side of the video player and choose the English (United States) track. I define a Bipolar episode in a previous video. You can see that here: ua-cam.com/video/ydLWlAqCpLA/v-deo.html
Bipolar high feels great, I feel so confident and so sociable, I can talk to anybody and feel like I can achieve anything and my thinking is so clear, everything feels effortless. I would give anything to feel like that everyday, it's a shame the highs only last 3 or 4 day while the lows last months :(
@@mohansinghrajput1504 suffering since early childhood. But only started medication last year.....coz of no awareness. Etilam, Paroxetine, trupax, Sertraline, etizolam, prozac
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Yes you’re not alone with that one. many people who’ve had an illness for years still have some residual symptoms in between episodes. That makes it hard for them to remember what it was like to be symptom-free.
I've been feeling pretty depressed ever since I was 14, the first time I managed to feel "normal" and life felt colorful and magical in my eyes again was when one day I had a lot of pain in the legs and had a huge hike ahead of me I said, f*ck it! I'll just take an extra painkiller that shoud do it. Dude, suddenly life had color again, everything felt beatiful and how it should be even I was less anxious and more sociable. At that moment I knew I was f*cked because I would be hooked on that god damn painkiller forever. I managed to shave it down a lot but still am. Carisoprodol mixed with paracetamol and caffeine, that's just awful for your liver
I have a girlfriend who i really dont know if its bipolar or not; she is very happy one min and then she gets upset, she is like that all day long 7 days a week, can anyone explain this type of behavior to me?
Bipolar is a lot of forgiveness. Forgiveness for yourself and from others. It hurts sometimes, can be amazing sometimes, is generally a roller coaster. No shame.
I live with shame everyday. My ex wife, my dad, my step father, my whole family are all hard working people. I had a job gfor 20 years and busted my ass to get ahead. Then bipolarism comes along and I can’t even hold a job now. How are you not supposed to feel ashamed?!?
Bethany Joanna What you do is find a new family. Sometimes it’s the people we love who are our true family. I know this sound cliche’ but it is the truth. Reach out to social services or call a hot line and talk. Maybe your counselor can help by finding you a good group to meet with. Just DO NOT GIVE UP. I know mental illness sucks; but in time you will learn to accept your condition and be better able to cope. People love you, you just have not met them yet.
Bubber Cakes that was your illness not you. We behave in ways that we never would if we were thinking clearly. It took me a long time to forgive myself but if we hold on to our shame we can never move forward.
One of the most helpful compliments I’ve ever received is: “There’s something magical and unique about the perspectives a bipolar person brings to the table. If they try to articulate it, they can assess things from multiple states of mind, and understand multiple perspectives.” Sometimes I feel like I have a shattered mind, and sometimes I feel on top of the world. Perceiving myself as someone with something to offer, helps me fight hard to operate in the center of the parameters of my emotions, and even when I feel very bad, I do sleep better with the successes, and that is everything for me.
I feel you there brother. It's kinda eerie you've described it almost exactly like how I've described it. It feels like your perspectives are constantly torn apart and put together in a new way, right? Or you have shattered perspectives that relentlessly whirlwind inside your head and you can barely manage to grasp onto a single shard. It's like we have extreme seasons that shift rapidly inside our head, creating a new landscape each time... we're kinda like monsters in a sense. I suppose that's why I intimidate people when I talk about ideas or able to grasp what a stranger is going through more than their close loved ones. It made me realize we're put here for a reason
I’m glad you’ve been able to look at it that way. Thriving with bipolar is more than your mood state or the meds your on. It’s also your beliefs and who you are in general.
What are your symptoms I feel like am walking on cloud 9 the time a feel dizzy and sort of out my body experience headaches sleep disorder etc but came of all meds trying to get back to myself can u give me your symptoms thanks
I was in exactly the same boat last year - 40 and correctly diagnosed. New medication (now on steady dose for over 10 months) and feel that new lease of life also! I had previously been diagnosed with depression but did not respond well to typical medication. It contributed to the breakdown of my marriage and, ultimately, my divorce. This video is an EXCELLENT resource and should be widely shared.
I was just diagnosed at 39 but after I had a very bad experience with antidepressants they made everything worse. It was a horrible experience. Why does antidepressants do that in people with bipolar. I am new to the possibility and acceptance that I have bipolar. My onset was actually very young but never had any medical anything. It’s hard to believe that the way I have been feeling is a medical condition. I have always been ridden by guilt and shame this disease has taken so much happiness from so many people. I want to get healthy and be a voice and show people they don’t need to hurt anymore and lose so many years of there life and hurt the people they truly love. Thank you Dr. Tracy Also can you do a video on work and bipolar I want to change careers and would love to be in a creative environment. I have had over 100 jobs I have confidence and ability but I just always thought it was another factor that was making feel the way I was feeling. I was chasing horizons.
Sweetie you ARE normal! The more people I meet the more I see we are all struggling with our demons. God loves his children and doesn't want you to hate yourself! You don't deserve to suffer. You're not alone.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and then bipolar 1 after a severe episode. One thing that I think is very indicative of maybe being bipolar is how others see you as well as how you see yourself . Look at how others react to you when “manic” and also “depressed”. There were so many times (and I can see it clearly in retrospect ) where my energy was so intense that it was off putting to others (you can see them side eye each other when you talk) …comments like “whoa slow down” or what are you “on” ? Realizing you just spewed 10 ideas in someone’s face (unrelated to each other and in rapid fire I would always feel so much shame after an episode when looking back at those moments ….I also remember times where something “good” would happen and the euphoria I would feel and thinking “this is the best day of my life, why is everything so perfect etc…I also notice my reflexes are next level on point. Dropping things and catching in mid air.
I am not diagnosed, I am doing research to understand myself and whether I want to find out more about myself. The thing you described about people asking if you're "on" something is how people react to me. I just thought that it was personality, and honestly, that's probably part of it. But now I'm just realizing that I have I have days where I have so much energy I can't stop laughing at things. I'm not sure if it's a response to being overstimulated? Sorry to ramble. It's just a mystery at this point but either way, stay strong because I believe in you
I find my depression to be like the tide, some days it just wets my feet but lately I’ve been grasping for air. I’m so tired and just want rest from this.
I adopted a dog. She is my “mood stabilizer”. Even when I notice the low mood swings showing up, she forces me to keep it up. I love her so much and seeing her grow from weak puppy full of fleas and worms to a strong happy doggie has been the best medicine and inspiration ever. Thank you for opening this learning space Dr. Tracy. When genetics come into play it’s a lifetime battle. And the more tools we have the better!
I just want to know why some of us have to deal with depression PTSD , anxiety and panic disorders? It's a fight everyday. The one thing I can give us credit for "we fight everyday " we made it this far!
The real tragedy; women are misdiagnosed with bipolar and other personality disorders when they often have Autism. Those mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, and years of anti-depressants nearly killed me.
People who tend to think a lot are also smarter. Smart people are not as happy as the "dumber" people and that's because they realize that the world that we're living in is by far not perfect
I'm not saying that it will, slow your brain down or stop your thoughts, but when a thought pops into my head, I can sometimes block the thought or say "no" to the thought.
This is actually why I think a lot of people tend to self medicate. Alcohol and drugs numb u so u don’t feel anything at all. I’d rather feel nothing then the way I feel every day of my life.
You have described exactly what happened to me: years of depressions, lots of different anti depressants and psychiatrists without any result, my mother bipolar 1. I'm now on Lithium and stable. Struggling with weight gain and flat mood but stable. Thank you. You explain it so clearly, I'm sure this can help a lot of people. Looking for the right help takes so much time and hopelessness. Love from Spain
Hi Nicole, do you have any side effects from Lithium? The problem with me is I get the worst side effects from pharmaceuticals. Ex: high blood pressure/lipid panels. I am like the 1% when it comes to taking antidepressants. Though, I definitely need to be on something.
weight gain, libido loss and flat mood (slightly) But very happy and stable and easier to deal with for my environment. I think Lithium has saved me or at least has helped me to take it easy and not always doubt, worry, get angry, get extremely depressed, be too happy etc
My depression started at 14 after realizing I was molested. I was in and out of inpatient and outpatient psych for years up until early twenties. After leaving adolescence.. I just coped, stop taking meds and started adulting. Ive just been discharged from the first inpatient psych stay in almost 10 years. Bipolar diagnosis. I was apparently misdiagnosed in my teens. Idk.. I’m scared. I just wanna find peace and understanding of all this. I’m hoping. It’s as if I’m mentally and emotionally tired but won’t give up. Maybe cuz I did try to take my life and almost succeeded. I want to live..just been hard. Prayers for you all. 🙏🏿
wow, the same thing happened to me as a child and i just got diagnosed w bipolar after being diagnosed with just depression and anxiety it’s crazy and i saw this comment
nobody takes my emotions seriously because my highs and lows are completely related to my menstration and cycle. doctors and psychologists seem to forget that it doesn’t make what i’m feeling not real or not as bad
Have you looked into PMDD? Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder. It's brutal and makes life really hard, but having even the diagnosis helped me not feel "crazy".
Get yourself some B complex supplement, maybe progestrone cream at health food store, get off the pill-that will make not good. Less caf and sugar. Sleep. Get enough protein in your diet.
Dr. Marks as a practicing APRN (PMHNP), in the trenches providing clinical care, I can not begin to express how helpful your videos are. Thank you for all your work and dedication Doc!
I’m in denial and ashamed that this could be what I have. I feel judged like I chose this. It’s hard to even have normal relationships or even go on with life.
dont be ashamed fully understand where your coming from. my relationship nightmares used drink drugs thought I had depression put on anti depressants worse thing they did now I'm on depekote going ok more to it biopoler exercise helps sleeping pattern went for years not sleeping right night terror eating healthy helps chemical imbalance in the brain
I can understand why you might feel judged but you really have nothing to be ashamed about. The brain is an organ and just like any other part of a person’s body it can become “sick”. It’s easy to say this but the judgy people should be ashamed after all no one yells at someone with a broken leg.
This woman really beautifully demonstrated the progression of my own mental health from adolescence, teen years and early adulthood as my diagnosis went from depression and anxiety to actual bipolar, and now my medication treatments are helping so much better now that I’m not on antidepressants.
I never realized that hypomania was a thing. I’ve had a few black hole episodes the past few years where nothing helps, nothing pulls me out, and makes me completely uninterested in life. Between these episodes, I feel ok, I get stuff done, but I don’t get traditionally manic. Now I have something to bring to my doctor and say this feels like truth. Thank you for posting this.
I'll reply here otherwise my reply won't be seen. I've suspected I might either have bipolar, borderline, autism, who knows ,but something is not 100% right. I definitively relate to the depressive episodes, I just call it as some days are better others worse. Also, I remember when taking anti-depressants I would wake up to panic attacks regularly (those were fun). I also would feel more suicidal taking anti-depressants. Never took mood-stabilizers. I have had bouts of OCD throughout my life, also eating disorders and general/social anxiety. I also do get those 'great' days . Usually only a few days , wherein I will feel better than usual , more hopeful and will dress more outgoing/lavish. It all seems very vague though, could be anything really.
@@lucialuciferion6720 what you wrote is very relatable for me because I’ve experienced almost all of that. Maybe it helps to know you’re not alone? I hope you at least have a good support system.
@@lucialuciferion6720 omg is that what happens when bipolar ppl take antidepressants bc my therapist and med provider disagree on my bipolar diagnosis and ive been experimenting with new meds after doing gene sight testing. i am current on an antidepressant and started at a low dose and the first week my sleep schedule was incredibly terrible i couldn’t sleep more than 5 hours bc i would wake myself to my leg shaking by itself (something that usually happens when i am having a panic attack or am just on edge) and then about a week and a half in the meds i became unresponsive to them of course like all other antidepressants ive been on in the last five years and so i just upped my dose today after the last month of being low and suicidal on these meds to see if it helps at all. did you have any experiences similar to this???
My black hole lasted for 2 years after I became very spiritual and meditated my ego away. As someone with a mental Illness , I don't think I should have meditated away my ego. This resulted in having to re-learn who I am and what helps me now and it was a whole mess. But I am thankful for the knowledge I possess now , and now I am much more in control of mania rather than it being in control of me.
I have suffered with bouts of incredible depression my whole life, im 41, start of this year i landed my dream job, now im unemployed and almost killed myself back in march. I dont know whats wrong, i have no official diagnosis, this is my first time even talking about it, its hard to talk about, im already crying, stay safe everyone
I hate being bipolar. Thank you for giving me info about this so I can better except myself. And for everyone who’s commenting, thank you. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone.
I've been managing by working out, watching what I eat, not consuming caffeine or any other drugs and managing my anger. It is tough but, my depression has dipped dramatically.
Dr. Tracey Marks, i just wanted to say that this video is what helped me realize I had these kinds of issues. After years of horrible reactions to antidepressants/anti anxiety meds. I got a therapist and then a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with BP2 a year and a half ago and was prescribed Oxcarbazepine. I had all but given up on ever not being depressed or hypomanic. My life has changed for the better. I feel stable for the first time in my life. Thank you for all that you do.
I have bipolar disorder and this is the story about how my diagnosis changed from depression to bipolar. I started out with repetitive depressive episodes, well that’s what I thought was going on. I didn’t see the hypomania, I just felt great for a month or so, usually after an increase in antidepressant dose. I was full of “great” ideas and started multiple businesses while feeling like that. Nobody directly asked about hypomania and I didn’t see it as a problem. My depression was extreme and I needed a 16 treatment course of extended ECT and spent a total of 8 months on a secure psych ward in a year. Then i had a full blown manic episode, “invented” a process to make bioethanol from pineapples, ditched my job and bought a 120k 50ft boat with the intention of sailing around the world singlehanded (running on pineapples!) despite the fact I have never even been on a boat in my life. All I needed was the fact I was convinced I was a Viking descendant, no training needed. Finally I decided I needed to arrive in style to the boat dealer so I attempted to buy a 50k Mercedes A45 AMG. Unfortunately the dealer let me test drive it and I took it out with him in the passenger seat and drove it so hard he was literally crying. Obviously I was sectioned and treatment was massively altered and I turned back into myself. I still get episodes despite lamictal, seroquel and lithium but I stay in work and continue to function. I just wanted to share my little story. Missed bipolar disorder can be devastating.
Wow NFN & FLK what a story! That's exactly the kind of stuff that some people do when they have a manic episode. It's hard to illustrate that to people who have never experienced it or been around it to see how extreme it can really be. Sorry I laughed at the boat running on pineapples. It's hard no matter how much medication you take to keep from having break through episodes. But the realistic hope is that the breakthrough episodes are not as severe and disruptive. I'm so glad you're working and functioning.Thanks so much for sharing the story. I hope it helps others.
Sounds a bit schizoid to me. Not full blown schizophrenia but schizoid indeed. Running a boat on pineapples? That's schizophrenic, not manic. Not at ALL
Actually, to be considered schizophrenia, you have a cluster of psychotic symptoms. Delusions are just one symptom. Anyone can become delusional for various reasons, including mania. But delusions are delusions. And this is a typical example of what they can look like. Yes, they're out there. That's what delusions are. Here’s a video where I define psychosis ua-cam.com/video/3bg5TL7AwgU/v-deo.html
This video prompted me to ask my parents some questions that opened up an unprecedented line of communication. Learned a few things for sure. We aren’t usually a “talking about important things” kind of family.
LOL. Have we met in a past life? My family spoke about NOTHING regarding emotional well-being, compassionate awareness, mood swings. You were either "going about life the right way" or "totally wrong, doomed to ruin." Oh, and psychiatry was for "crazy people." How I made it out of that snake den in one piece still bewilders me. "Nature or Nurture?" NURTURE!
Similar story-- I got diagnosed with bipolar a few months ago and my family has barely spoken a word about it. What did you say that got them to open up? I'd love to figure out whether theres a family history but damn the irish dont make it easy😩
I swear if you were my college professor I would have changed my major. I really like how you explain heavy topics like these. You would be a dope teacher!
this is so eye opening. i was given an unspecified bipolar disorder bc my recurrent depressive episodes only improved with antipsychotics. and my hypomania is so subtle i never even notice it! great video
It's what you do with what you have my friend. Many people that have had different physical, mental or what ever else challenges challenge themselves and have turned it into something good. The choice is always yours. You can say "oh poor me, Im doomed forever", Or you can get pissed and do something and inspire yourself. Im had panic and anxiety attacks but thankfully Ive chosen to turn that into a positive. If I can do it, so can you.
Thing of it as your destiny. Battle like the Dickens. The happiness of non-depressed people is not remarkable, every drop or moment that you can muster is more significant. Don't compare yourself to others, battle from where you are. You can also sit right in the depression, and operate from there moment by moment. Be practical, be kind to others, the depression won't last forever, but you can. "Before all beginnings, after all endings, I AM". - Nisargadatta Maharaj
“Wired but tired”… me right now as I type this, and almost every other week. This lady hit the nail on the head for how I’m feeling inside my ugly beautiful mind, thank you.
Im sorry to hear your so sad .its been 2 months since you posted .i hope your doing better .im in the same boat .i wish i were normal like everyone else .but at the same time .i like being different .i have pist traumatic stress bipolar2 borderline personality disorder adhd and maybe autistic .i have alot of problems socializing sometimes .but i feel i have alot of good qualities also .i can be highly inteligent in some things from my disorders .such as i can read a room of people just by looking at them .i can tell what some of them are feeling .i feel the emotions in the room .im highly empathetic..i can learn the drums by ear no lessons .we all have cool talents from our disorders .i can tell when a person is lieing .im always right.
@ Hello, I appreciate your kind wishes .. I am doing a lot better at this moment.. you know how it goes… dark days come n go.. and I completely agree with everything you’ve said ..I hope you are doing good as well friend
I became depressed at age 8 or 9 and stayed that way, now and then i have moments of frenzy not depression but energy to do things. Then the depression comes back.
Hi Adrian. Maybe you just have a recurrent depression. They hypomania is usually negative in some way. Some people go from really low to good, but the good is so much better than the low, that they think the "good" is mania. Just a thought...
Adrian Johnson I’m ADHD I think because if I don’t work out I can’t even concentrate. If something doesn’t hold my interest I get so bored. I usually enjoy certain shows, church, etc but lately I’ve been ADHD with things I don’t get it.
10/21/2019 I've never had depression or manic-bipolar disorder. I did lose a beloved brother a few years ago from suicide that I truly believed had undiagnosed bipolar disorder. And another loved one has recently been diagnosed with depression/bipolar disorder & has had suicidal thoughts. So I'm trying to learn as much as I'm able to, to be there for my loved one. But my main comment is that this Doctor's voice & demeanor is so soothing. Thank you Dr. Tracey Marks.
Last week I ran my first 5k without stopping and all the time I could hear the voice in my head saying that I can do it. Forwago, thank you so much for everything!!
I was finally diagnosed wit bipolar 2 a few years ago after having a long history of depression. I was able to recognize the short lived periods of feeling great and on top of the world as hypomania. These videos have helped me understand the cycles of this illness and how it’s best treated. Thank you Dr. Marks!
Dr. Tracey, thank you. 22 months after my only child Ben's death you have helped me to understand and put the pieces together . He was 34. When he was 17 we began seeking answers an Bipolar seemed to not be as out in the open as it is today. Thank you.
I was diagnosed with Depressive Bipolar in 08 and my Dr prescribed Ablify, which was ineffective because of the side effects she switched me to Lamictal. This med made me look like a stroke victim with all the symptoms. Finally she prescribed Lithium 4 times a day. I had to be taken out of work for a yr. None of these meds worked for me but disabled me and never gave me a clear sense of balance. The side effects I have from these meds are life long and I really hope the focus goes to educating patients about the side effects FIRST because you will have them with it being a synthetic medication. I am medication free now due to lifestyle changes and an alkaline diet that works for me. Thank you for the video.
Hi Chimere. I'm sorry you've had such a bad experience. More importantly, I'm happy to hear you are doing well off medication with lifestyle changes. Medication side effects are one of those things that we can get away from. One of the problems with medication education is the meds don't effect everyone the same. So we can review the common, expected side effects, but there's always the chance someone will have an unusual effect or rare/very infrequent effect. If you look at the sheet the pharmacist gives you, it's probably several pages of possible side effects in tiny writing. That's not to say that infrequent or rare side effects don't matter, but trying to get through pages of possible side effects for every medication, you can loose sight of the big picture of what to expect with the drug. Anyway - your right though, patient education is an important part of treatment. That's the emphasis of this channel. I wish we had better answers.
Me knowing FULL WELL I don’t have bipolar in any form “ okay let’s see here” LOL! Really informative though, I’m in an abnormal psychology class and these videos help!
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 three years ago. I was sick for many years and I was either misdiagnosed or under diagnosed. I was diagnosed with depression and generalized anxiety. I was prescribed some different cocktails of meds that just didn't help. One example is I took Celexa, Abilify, Klonopin and Ambien and it really didn't work well because I couldn't stabilize. I changed doctors and almost immediately she knew I was bipolar, which I didn't even know what bipolar was at that time. I also willingly tried other cocktails with my new doctor to avoid lithium and none of those combinations were super effective. Then I went on lithium as a last option and it worked. Now I've come to research and study bipolar disorder and learn about the spectrum, and it helps me to cope with my diagnosis.
My daughter is on Lithium and doing very well. I trust it more than the newer drugs. My daughter was on some of the newer drugs years ago and the results were bad. Just keep taking your meds and you'll be fine. My daughter's last hospitalization was 9 years ago and that happened because she went off her Lithium. She has realized that she has to take her meds and is actually doing so well that I wouldn't know she was Bipolar if I didn't know her diagnosis. Stay well!
I have been taking lithium for almost 4 years now and do not suffer from notable side effects. In fact I am glad this drug exists. Still need to manage minor symptons of depression though.
Sadly, woman are often misdiagnosed as having bipolar disorder. I was misdiagnosed as bipolar 2, and it was the hardest time of my life. The dr diagnosed me during the first session and refused to explore anything else. The medications I was put on made me feel 10x worse. I fought hard for years to get an adequate diagnosis. What I actually have is a combination of things; 1.) A hormonal imbalance called PMDD due to PCOS and endo 2.) ADHD w/sensory processing disorder (which I’ve had since I was a kid), 3.) C-PTSD (which caused an ED, alcoholism, and OCD like behaviors), and 4.) BPD. The borderline symptoms manifest in a such a way, that my moods seem all over the place, and my interpersonal relationships were severely struggling. The abandonment issues I always had, finally made sense. DBT therapy helps a lot with all that. I still struggle, but, I have a much better understanding of myself. I have learned to manage my life. I feel pretty stable most of the time. It’s been 6 years since I was correctly diagnosed, and, it saved my life. I would’ve ended things had I stayed on BP-2 meds. They made me want to die every day. Thankfully, I want to live today, even when it’s hard. I also have MS….so clearly, I hit the genetic lottery didn’t I? Hahaha. (All jokes aside, I’m a firm believer there is a strong correlation between childhood trauma, mental illness’s, and auto immune disorders) but I digress. In conclusion, if the diagnosis and treatment don’t fit, don’t settle with that, and don’t give up. Find a dr who will listen to your concerns and full history. Find a dr. who doesn’t just diagnosis you right away. I know it’s hard, I’ve been there. It takes time and patience but it’s worth it.
Yeah or I sometimes think borderline personality disorder is misdiagnosed as bipolar. A big problem with psychiatry is that in the early stages of it, over diagnosis was common.
Im pretty certain i have PMDD which can feel like so many other things but when i look at my cycle, the dates add up (2 weeks before period i’m not myself). How did you handle this? Do you have any advice ❤
@@esmefrancis3099 I would say look for a dr who will take a full history, and properly asses your mental health over a few sessions. If a doctor is diagnosing you right away, that’s a red flag. Tell the dr your thoughts and concerns. You have to be your own advocate. I know it’s easier said then done, but, you deserve adequate treatment. Once you can receive the proper diagnosis, the treatments will work-Like DBT, EMDR, CBT ect.
@@evaschroeder5869 So true! It’s unfortunate that they have similar symptomatology. The key to proper diagnosis is learning to spot the differences, not look for the similarities. For instance: BPD and bipolar both experience mood swings. The difference between the two disorders is that with bipolar- the mood swings last for an extended period of time, and are usually cyclical. With BPD-the mood swings are very intense and rapidly changing depending on environment, triggers, and circumstantial situations. They present similarly, but are still very different. That’s why it’s so important for a dr to get a full history, and take their time to diagnosis.
It’s funny you say that.. because I had a similar experience.. I got treated for anxiety & mild depression, when in reality, it was my thyroid hormones acting up. I had hyper thyroidism due to Thyroiditis, that went undiagnosed. Apparently, it affects your mood & gives you palpitations & anxiety. I had to take anti depressants.. but then I found out I had thyroid issues. So it’s important to get a thorough physical check up before you go for mental health check ups.
I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child, depression at 23, anxiety at 30, and OCD at 35. When my daughter at age 19 experienced a very bad series of manic episodes she was diagnosed with bipolar 2. I was finally diagnosed with bipolar at age 42. Getting that diagnosis was a relief. Everything made sense suddenly. I received intensive DBT Skills training and am now on the road to a much happier me. We now know that even though my dad does have PTSD from the VietNam war, it only amplified his bipolar disorder. I really wish I had received my diagnosis when I was in my 20s, but I am happy to finally have an answer that makes sense.
It might not be. When we go too little failures and start questioning everything around, we might feel we are facing the worse. Been there and struggled with it a lot. Please book an appointment and I am sure you will have a positive response from your doctor - positive as in its not that worse u felt it is. Rest assured , everything is fine with you. Stay strong and please do not try to self diagnose from UA-cam videos or google
Also cranjis, when you feel low, be a wolf. They stay alone yet fierce and powerful. I take lots of inputs from animals and their instincts to fight it myself . It’s a struggle but it will be worth with time.
@@ashwinikumarbehera5417 unless you're a professional and unless you know someone don't judge. It's best to consult someone who knows about this kind of thing.
Dr Tracey - as someone who has had a lot of mental health issues in the past few years, as well as having family members also dealing with them, I have found your videos to be SO helpful. It's very apparent to me that you know what you're talking about and I'm sure your videos are helping people on a daily basis. All the most love and respect - thank you for your contributions to the misunderstood world of mental health!
Im bipolar but my parents dont take it seriously and just laugh at it and keep telling me that im just being silly , no one takes it seriously in my family which hurts me
Dr. Marks, after 43 years of being misdiagnosed, this video was a lifeline thrown to me in the chaotic ocean of bipolar disorder! This helped identify many things for me such as why my antidepressants were never enough and constantly changing. My treatment has just begun and I'm excited about the prospect of finding my true self. I hope to meet you someday Dr. Marks, and tell you what a difference you've made in my life! THANK YOU!
This should be a place of learning and safety. That being said... - stop calling viewers and commenters "attention whores" - stop harrassing people with mental illnesses or disorders - stop demonizing particular disorders or referring to people as "sociopaths" - if you have access to a therapist, good for you. Stop telling people to go to a doctor. Many of us don't have access. it should be a right but it's a privelage and many don't have it. - share your own experiences to help others - Be sensitive and respectful to people's situations Thought these were common sense but this is honestly one of the meanest most unsympathetic comment sections I've ever seen. Get it together.
One of my memorable hypomanic episodes i remember is the first time I just up and left my fiance, didn't worry about continuing nursing school (no failed attempts at that time, I was almost done though), and I moved to Ohio without telling anyone. Yup. When I came down I moved back home and re enrolled into nursing school. Its a long depressing story but I did challenge the state boards as I settled for LPN but I have yet to complete that RN although I have tried. Something keeps triggering me everything I am about to finish and graduate. I was told by a few different psychiatrist that I have a "fear of success " as well as Cyclothymia, ADHD, and GAD. Another dr said "dysthymia" while another said that I need lithium because I am "bipolar ". I didn't like my diagnosis so I just kept seeing new doctors. One tried to put me on social security disability which just made me angry. I wish I let him because I tend to not he able to afford the medications and insurance is expensive. Anyway... I even had a "nice" therapist who requested I show him how I gave lap dances. I briefly was an exotic dancer ad I needed to fix my car. You'd think you could talk to your therapist but then I thought... the... rape....ist. therapist... omg. So I stopped going and he actually called me asking why I wouldn't come back. Seriously? Perve. I wish that I told on him. Who knows what other girls he tried that crap with. Well, I have 39 years worth of awful experiences so I guess I have already said too much. I typically would delete this but I kind of hope that another depressed girl sees this and doesn't allow any dude to seduce her while she's feeling low. Also. Get help and don't be too proud and in disbelief that you need help. No one is perfect and they're lying if they say that they are. ✌
This makes so much sense. My depression wasn't getting better at all and it was chronic, a doctor in a hospital started treating me for bipolar depression and suddenly the medication worked. I had no idea why he even suspected bipolar, because in my head I never experienced mania/hypomania. Upon reflection, I realized I had a lot of sleepless but productive times in my life, but I always just thought it was my insomnia acting up. I never linked any of this to bipolar, I thought I was depressed with cycles of bad insomnia. Shout out to this doctor, because every time I was screened I was like, "oh yeah, I've never experienced euphoric highs, I'm not bipolar."
I remember before I came to terms with having bipolar 2, I tried taking Prozac for a month. I was in denial of being bipolar and chalked it up to just being depressed. My friends would talk about how Prozac worked wonders for them so I figured it’d work for me too. I couldn’t have been more wrong. It made me feel much much worse. The depression only increased, I had horrible constipation and the mood swings were more extreme. It was then when I finally let my doctor prescribe me a mood stabilizer. After being on Lamictol for a few years now, I am so much more stable and happy. More than I ever thought was possible. Only downside is the weight gain. It’s ok though, I’d rather be chubby and stable than skinny and a total mess.
Thank you for this video. My friend has struggled with severe depression since she was young and it has been chronic and unresponsive to medications but in her case she is not bipolar. I think bipolar disorder is starting to get overdiagnosed in people who are just depressed. Thanks for educating people about these distinctions.
I agree. I have been depressed ( situational) first started at around 16, 17. Every depressed episode stems from changing life event. Antidepressants don’t seem to work yet I have not tried many.
Thank you so much for this. I've been feeling pretty lost and helpless overresearching this since being diagnosed. I love the way you speak to us, as well as citing research. You make this all feel way less daunting. Thank you.
As a teenager I struggle most with mixed episodes , which to me actually are more painful than mania , mania to me is just pure anger , depression is the best because it’s just sadness and your thoughts are slow and really calm , like you are apart of an ocean (I know they are dark but they are the best part of it all ) in short, being a teenager with bipolar has ruined my future and most importantly, me.
Hi Princes Consuela Bananahammock D! Gosh I'm sorry this has been so bad for you. Mixed episodes are tough because you have elements of both the depression and the mania occurring together. Sometimes it's even harder to treat with medication. But it IS treatable. It doesn't have to mean your life is completely ruined forever. Keep in mind being depressed can distort your outlook and make things look more negative and hopeless. You can't always get out of that thinking on your own. And when your like that, you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. But there is an end to the tunnel. And I hope you can get with a professional who can help you get to the end of the tunnel.
I started out being diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 21. It wasn't til I was 28 that they realized it was bipolar2. It took hearing from my mother that she's seen me thru out my life like from a very young age telling the doctor that I had severe depression and manic outbursts as young as 5. I manage my issues a lot better now. This video is helpful
It’s so great that you put this out there. You’re so good at putting this in a way that most people can understand. I wish I would have seen this a long time ago, when I was getting manic episodes from the wrong antidepressant for bipolar, but I’m glad others will see it, and be able to talk to their doctors about if this could be what’s going on. ❤. Getting diagnosed was like another chance at life, for me, because now I can manage my symptoms, and I feel much like I did before my symptoms started (only wiser, because I was 12-13 years old, then Lol). That was the last time I remembered thinking so clearly, before I found the right medication..so it really can make a huge difference!
REDDZ&CC Washington In Jesus name i pray at this minute you will be set free from your pain anquish and these violent episodes get your vitamin b and d checked by a doctor also try herb valerian if your doc approved or St. Johns Wort pray and read your Bible it will heal your mind God Bless you
REDDZ&CC Washington May Jesus heal you and deliver you from mental break downs in Jesus name i cast out the evil spirit of Depression to hell in Jesus name Amen
About two weeks ago, my diagnosis of depression changed to bipolar II. I wish I had stumbled upon this video earlier; I think it would've helped me realize my misdiagnosis. Thank you for putting this information out there!
The highs and lows are crazy I used to blame it on alcohol but since I have been sober for years now, it’s amazing to be able to identify my moods Antidepressants are BAD for me I would hold a job up for a few months and be confident, then just drop it I hated being around people and would break down constantly
Very well explained!! I think I had such a hard time with a diagnosis of bipolar due to it being masked with depression for so many years. Now off of the antidepressants and on 3 mood stabilizers and doing great!
💔 there is always hope, and peace that comes at the darkest times just when peace doesn't make sense. Hold on to hope. You are loved and you are forgiven.
Hello friend, have you tried using hemp oil? They've done wonders for many people and I've been able to deal with my "dark fogs" much better now. It really makes a difference in mood and I slightly feel present
The really destructive behavior happens during the manic periods. I wish there was a manic fairy that would swoop in and lock me away somewhere far away during those times, so I wouldn’t be able to break yet another piece off of my already fractured life. Surprised you didn’t mention how the dragon of chronic anxiety is the thread that ties it all together.
I always appreciate your explanations of bipolar disorder. It highlights some of the things I was originally unaware of that weren't explained to me when I was first diagnosed. Thank you for continuing to present content like this.
I have bipolar one , and I was diagnosed when I was 12 years old. For me it was very debilitating to grow up with because my environment was very hostile and traumatizing. Now as an adult , I notice that meditation works better than medication and my highs are cleaner and feel better due to that. My lows can get bad but I pretty much just go "whatever it's just the bipolar" most times and wait it out. Meditation, also in this instance , helps me to get out of bad depressive lows. I've had a few episodes but I never harm anyone else , I've only punched a hole through a few things that had no value for myself or anyone else. I'd say I'd rather not live with it , but Ive already accepted that it is what it is so I really just don't even care.
Cant control my actions and myself sometimes. Like im like walking in the clouds, im easily distracted, easily to get mad, there times that I have hard times to breath etc. Idk whats in me.. ?!
I got diagnosed with adhd but I don’t know because my depression comes and goes like there’s times where I feel good in 2 months and then it just crash and burns idk
Your statement is a bit ignorant. There’s way more to treating mental illness. A person could literally work for a non profit organization and still suffer from mental illness. Your view is very toxic and dangerous as well as irresponsible.
@@elyse9871 well that's really obvious. ..way to be a downer and rude and lame. This comment has been up for a long time and you're the first negative Nancy👍 good job, downer
@@frayfray2807 No, it’s not always obvious to someone who may be suffering from mental illness. And if me looking out for the most vulnerable people that take harmful, immature comments like yours seriously, then so be it. I do not want someone that’s going through something and debating on whether or not they need to see a mental health professional to look at your comment, and think that all they need to do is smile and get over it. Your reply makes me feel confident that my impression of you was right. 🙄
If you haven’t done so already, please do a video about toxic adult siblings with personality disorders cluster b traits and features and are addicts. I keep researching and cannot find it. Great video! Thank you!
I was diagnosed with depression & anxiety @ 14. I even had such lows in my early 20s that I was in a psych ward for a bit & even had 2 suicidal episodes because I couldn't control it. The meds didn't work. Now I'm 35 & was just diagnosed with actual bipolar disorder in the last 2yrs. My psychiatrist is still working with me on the right med combo to control the extreme lows that I struggle to pull myself out of. I honestly wish I had more highs than lows, but for the moment that isn't true for me
I've been diagnosed with bipolar 1. I believe now it is bipolar 2. I thought I wasn't bipolar at all and the symptoms were just due to the substance use, however it has now been almost two years since i was using dissociative drugs and as well as malt liquor alcohol. I still experience "cyclical" depression, that lasts a few days/ weeks alongside hypomanic episodes that last even shorter sometimes. It's confusing to me, because I also have a very hyperactive form of adult adhd, diagnosed in grade 1. A lot of these "manic" symptoms overlap. Antidepressants sent me to hyperactive/ insomnia cycle and I dropped 10 pounds in 2 weeks. These days I am not on any form of medication. Instead when i go 'manic' or 'depressed', I find my inner spirituality hopeful. I remember I am just a spiritual being having a human experience, and slowly the sadness falls away from me. (Although I will not bring this up to a therapist, because no offense, western medicine tends to think that shamanism/ 'that spiritual stuff', to be a delusion in itself.
Now there is no blood tests any other tests to diagnose popular so maybe these doctors should not give patients so much medication and make people in to zooming so that they can not think at all and fill more depressing 🤔
That’s true! At the end of the day it’s part of the human experience. Western science needs to label everything in fixed boxes and recommend medication for everything. Let’s look at the down phase as you needing a break, a downtime. That doesn’t work for society, because they need to you to be employed and run the rat race. You slowing down to get better and take care of yourself, talk to your mind is not what they want. They want you to pop some pills and get back on the wheel.
i was diagnosed with depression in my late teens and struggled so hard with it. it was at the point where medication wasn't helping and making it worse. i finally went to a psychiatrist last week and bam--it was bipolar disorder. it really threw me for a loop and i've been confused about it for a while, but i stumbled upon your channel and i understand so much more about it now. now, everything i've been going through for the last few years is making a LOT more sense. thank you for making these videos.❤
Kimberly Schoonhoven. U have a point because something happened to me 7 yrs. Ago and got diagnosed with PTSD panic disorder and depression but I'm confused cause my mom had bipolar. My sister also so did I get all this cause of what happened to me or is it on the Gene's? What happened to me was devastating.
@@gramgraml9551 Hi. It happened that is enough in itself. Your chances are higher to get bi polar when something triggers it like a situation like that happened
Kimberley Schoonhoven yes. Mine came about after leaving an abusive marriage and then abandoned by my family while I went through divorce proceedings and the aftermath. It definitely triggered something inside of me that was not there before.
I have socail anxiety for the most part but then I also get sad so easily. Like I could be having a good day but then if one thing happens that i don't like, I get sad . it doesn't take much to make me upset or feel depressed.
I know so many people who dealt with depression as teens, including me. My first big episode was when I was 13/14 years old. I'm pretty sure it started due to trauma, and I could say that about a lit of my friends too. Still unfortunately common.
I had depression for ten years until I developed the full symptomology of Bipolar at 40. The main thing that set this off was taking an antidepressant; however, thereafter the mood swings never stopped. Initially, I would cycle extremely rapidly from intense euphoria, to sadness and rage, over and over until all the moods blended into one. When I started taking an anticonvulsant the extreme cycling gradually stopped although depression reasserted itself. After about five months I finally experienced euthymia which, to me, was an entirely new experience.
my first depressive episode when I was 13. That's also when I stopped sleeping "correctly". This year, over 10 years later, I'm being diagnosed as bipolar undefined. I go into at least 3 - 5 depressed episodes in a year and I'll go into hyposexuality and I'm indestructible feelings at least 2 -5 times a year. Antidepressants have never worked for me and has made my willingness to take meds to plummet.
I like your video. Extreme emotional personality disorder and rapid cycling bipolar disorder. Wow! It is hard enough to say let alone cope with. My girl has a lot to deal with but, I am so appreciative for her patience. Thirty years on and still my Rock. Mental illness sucks! All the stress, confusion, distraction and out of the blue manic behavior one suffers with this diagnosis. It is particularly terrible for loved ones. For the closest in one's life. The mood swings. Up and down like a yo yo and side to side like a pendulum. Hot then cold. Abrupt but honest. No filter as it were. Rapid speech. Sorrow. Dark thoughts. Self harm. Suicidal thoughts. The slightest criticism, disappointment, is a major slight or catastrophe. When feeling happy, it is euphoric, like one is a God. Then one comes back down to Earth and feels like a Devil. Never living in the Now. Always thinking of the past and what is to come. Voices? Or. Thoughts? Monkey chatter. Hot and cold. Never warm. I need to find my warm place. In the Now. A small excerpt from my upcoming book Leo's Esoteric Prose. This little poem is for all of you out there that empathize with me. For the folk that suffer with mental illness or live with mental illness. For all the saintly people who give up their time to help those in need. I salute you. I understand. And I celebrate you. It is back, this pressure, this wire, this high tensile pest Like a volcano, about to erupt in my chest This condition, the angst, that makes me suffer I need a filter, a shock absorber, a buffer For my blood it boils, and runs like lava, hot When the bipolar kicks in, I lose the plot No rationale, no reason, just manic and random Two differing scenarios, running in tandem by Leo
Thanks Leo, and thanks for sharing your experience. These are the kinds of comments I refer to when I respond to the people who say "everybody has bipolar, " "we're all bipolar at some level" Those are people who don't understand how life-altering the illness is. And I tell them to read others' comments, like yours to see just how much everyone is NOT like this.
Aware How do we survive? In a world full of hate Coming from all sides, is it too late? To finally see, that all is design, a play Nothing happens by accident, cause and effect, always been that way Two sides of the same coin, not much of a choice, insane Being monitored, from most high, making us Unsane Like sheep, going in one direction, following information, a flock Rushing, all in time, every day, against the Clock Drowning in a sea of perpetual debt, a slave From the moment of our birth, to the cold and lonely grave Look around, take a breath, be aware, and see That all is Matrix, of words, that trap Ye and Me Leo’s Esoteric Prose, is available, Now Have a look on Amazon, come and see How I see the world, a glimpse through the Veil, and inside my Head, Boom! How the Esoteric runs parallel, to our reality, impending Doom That all this division, is the blueprint for Conquer, the net is closing in As 5G nears, and people go crazy for this new tech, Dystopia begin💓🐯👍😇
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I define a Bipolar episode in a previous video. You can see that here: ua-cam.com/video/ydLWlAqCpLA/v-deo.html
hi I'm Keith... l hope you see this comment. This content kept my attention unusually well.
Thank you!
Thank you for making these videos. You do a great job and I appreciate the information that is so supportive.
you’re so welcome. I’m glad you’re benefiting from them
Bipolar high feels great, I feel so confident and so sociable, I can talk to anybody and feel like I can achieve anything and my thinking is so clear, everything feels effortless. I would give anything to feel like that everyday, it's a shame the highs only last 3 or 4 day while the lows last months :(
My lows are lasting for more then 4 months
Absolutely right. Mine is similar story.
@@obaidmir3182 from how many yrs are you suffering and on which med are u
Lows are a month, highs are 2-3 weeks
@@mohansinghrajput1504 suffering since early childhood. But only started medication last year.....coz of no awareness. Etilam, Paroxetine, trupax, Sertraline, etizolam, prozac
Tracey: I produce episodes every week
Me as a bipolar: yeah me too 😂😂
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Bruh 😭😭😭😂😂😂
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I want a new brain altogether!
Me to
Me too and I need a few for my loved ones too I am sick of it
I felt this comment ❤️
You shout get on the list for a brain transplant but you might not be able to keep your memories
Girl, me too 😣
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
Yes sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, addiction. Mushrooms did a total reset for me.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Can I reach this dude through Google?
I've been depressed ever since I can remember so I don't get what "getting back to my old self" or "returning to normal" would be
Yes you’re not alone with that one. many people who’ve had an illness for years still have some residual symptoms in between episodes. That makes it hard for them to remember what it was like to be symptom-free.
Lazy Lurker. I hear ya!
@@Robert-gw4st so true and yet sad. I feel ya. I always look at people (whom I think has no issues) and envy them. You wonder why it happens to you
@@Robert-gw4st well said!
I've been feeling pretty depressed ever since I was 14, the first time I managed to feel "normal" and life felt colorful and magical in my eyes again was when one day I had a lot of pain in the legs and had a huge hike ahead of me I said, f*ck it! I'll just take an extra painkiller that shoud do it. Dude, suddenly life had color again, everything felt beatiful and how it should be even I was less anxious and more sociable. At that moment I knew I was f*cked because I would be hooked on that god damn painkiller forever. I managed to shave it down a lot but still am. Carisoprodol mixed with paracetamol and caffeine, that's just awful for your liver
..... being bipolar one is not fun. It truly hurts relationships with people and friends.
You're right merpitscassandra, it sure can.
ikr I'm bipolar 1 rapid cycle and put family through hell.
I have a girlfriend who i really dont know if its bipolar or not; she is very happy one min and then she gets upset, she is like that all day long 7 days a week, can anyone explain this type of behavior to me?
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Bipolar is a lot of forgiveness. Forgiveness for yourself and from others. It hurts sometimes, can be amazing sometimes, is generally a roller coaster. No shame.
This is what i lack, i still hate people
I live with shame everyday. My ex wife, my dad, my step father, my whole family are all hard working people. I had a job gfor 20 years and busted my ass to get ahead. Then bipolarism comes along and I can’t even hold a job now. How are you not supposed to feel ashamed?!?
Bethany Joanna What you do is find a new family. Sometimes it’s the people we love who are our true family. I know this sound cliche’ but it is the truth. Reach out to social services or call a hot line and talk. Maybe your counselor can help by finding you a good group to meet with. Just DO NOT GIVE UP. I know mental illness sucks; but in time you will learn to accept your condition and be better able to cope. People love you, you just have not met them yet.
Bethany Joanna then they don’t deserve you.
Bubber Cakes that was your illness not you. We behave in ways that we never would if we were thinking clearly. It took me a long time to forgive myself but if we hold on to our shame we can never move forward.
One of the most helpful compliments I’ve ever received is: “There’s something magical and unique about the perspectives a bipolar person brings to the table. If they try to articulate it, they can assess things from multiple states of mind, and understand multiple perspectives.”
Sometimes I feel like I have a shattered mind, and sometimes I feel on top of the world. Perceiving myself as someone with something to offer, helps me fight hard to operate in the center of the parameters of my emotions, and even when I feel very bad, I do sleep better with the successes, and that is everything for me.
I feel you there brother. It's kinda eerie you've described it almost exactly like how I've described it. It feels like your perspectives are constantly torn apart and put together in a new way, right? Or you have shattered perspectives that relentlessly whirlwind inside your head and you can barely manage to grasp onto a single shard. It's like we have extreme seasons that shift rapidly inside our head, creating a new landscape each time... we're kinda like monsters in a sense. I suppose that's why I intimidate people when I talk about ideas or able to grasp what a stranger is going through more than their close loved ones. It made me realize we're put here for a reason
I’m glad you’ve been able to look at it that way. Thriving with bipolar is more than your mood state or the meds your on. It’s also your beliefs and who you are in general.
Wow. That hit me!!
To the t how I feel.
I'm glad you found something that helps.
I’m 40 and just received my diagnosis, I started meds and therapy and feel I have a new lease in life. To those struggling, please don’t give up
What are your symptoms I feel like am walking on cloud 9 the time a feel dizzy and sort of out my body experience headaches sleep disorder etc but came of all meds trying to get back to myself can u give me your symptoms thanks
I was in exactly the same boat last year - 40 and correctly diagnosed. New medication (now on steady dose for over 10 months) and feel that new lease of life also! I had previously been diagnosed with depression but did not respond well to typical medication. It contributed to the breakdown of my marriage and, ultimately, my divorce. This video is an EXCELLENT resource and should be widely shared.
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I was just diagnosed at 39 but after I had a very bad experience with antidepressants they made everything worse. It was a horrible experience. Why does antidepressants do that in people with bipolar. I am new to the possibility and acceptance that I have bipolar. My onset was actually very young but never had any medical anything. It’s hard to believe that the way I have been feeling is a medical condition. I have always been ridden by guilt and shame this disease has taken so much happiness from so many people. I want to get healthy and be a voice and show people they don’t need to hurt anymore and lose so many years of there life and hurt the people they truly love.
Thank you Dr. Tracy
Also can you do a video on work and bipolar I want to change careers and would love to be in a creative environment. I have had over 100 jobs I have confidence and ability but I just always thought it was another factor that was making feel the way I was feeling. I was chasing horizons.
Dr. Marks makes me think there might be some psychiatrists out there who actually still care about patients
Thank you. I do care about my patients and I care about others who I’m not treating that’s why I have this channel.
alot of them do.
My doctor is one of them is the name of the doctor calling
AGREED!!! She is lovely...
Yes!!!
So many times I've cried to myself "i want to be normal" i have so much self hate for being this way and wish god had given me a different life.
Lanna • we all struggle with everything just say to urself everything is will be fine.
Me too. When I started my mood stabilizers, I expressed, my god, is this how normal people feel?
Same feeling, especially today 🙁
Sweetie you ARE normal! The more people I meet the more I see we are all struggling with our demons. God loves his children and doesn't want you to hate yourself! You don't deserve to suffer. You're not alone.
Marry me 💗
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and then bipolar 1 after a severe episode. One thing that I think is very indicative of maybe being bipolar is how others see you as well as how you see yourself . Look at how others react to you when “manic” and also “depressed”. There were so many times (and I can see it clearly in retrospect ) where my energy was so intense that it was off putting to others (you can see them side eye each other when you talk) …comments like “whoa slow down” or what are you “on” ? Realizing you just spewed 10 ideas in someone’s face (unrelated to each other and in rapid fire I would always feel so much shame after an episode when looking back at those moments ….I also remember times where something “good” would happen and the euphoria I would feel and thinking “this is the best day of my life, why is everything so perfect etc…I also notice my reflexes are next level on point. Dropping things and catching in mid air.
This sounds so much like me and I wonder daily if I've been misdiagnosed.
Oh shit.
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Oh no
I am not diagnosed, I am doing research to understand myself and whether I want to find out more about myself. The thing you described about people asking if you're "on" something is how people react to me. I just thought that it was personality, and honestly, that's probably part of it. But now I'm just realizing that I have I have days where I have so much energy I can't stop laughing at things. I'm not sure if it's a response to being overstimulated? Sorry to ramble. It's just a mystery at this point but either way, stay strong because I believe in you
I find my depression to be like the tide, some days it just wets my feet but lately I’ve been grasping for air. I’m so tired and just want rest from this.
Do u need help my br 2 get cure it then I can reach out
Beautiful writing. You should write more! That helps me some
Hey Sam. Praying for you. Keep strong. Jesus loves ya!
That last sentence, I feel that when I'm at my worst. It's scary.
Keep fighting-you’ll make it through! I’m supporting you!
Realizing that other people don’t oscillate between deep sadness and sudden burst of energy/relief/hope makes so much sense.
Me
yeah that's me
I thought for many years that it was normal. Quite the revelation to discover that wasn't the case.
Me too this seems strange what are other people like just stable or what@@rebelraccoon9018
It's not normal
I adopted a dog. She is my “mood stabilizer”. Even when I notice the low mood swings showing up, she forces me to keep it up. I love her so much and seeing her grow from weak puppy full of fleas and worms to a strong happy doggie has been the best medicine and inspiration ever. Thank you for opening this learning space Dr. Tracy. When genetics come into play it’s a lifetime battle. And the more tools we have the better!
I got a dog at my lowest low - he was the reason to get out of bed 3x a day to take him outside. He saved my life ❤️
This is me!!!! I love my doggy so much
That's a lovely ending. They're angels.
Eh I have a dog but I still need lithium. Dogs can’t beat actual medication
Jess, I’m still on meds…. But my dog is my walking, breathing therapy 🥰
Sending love and hope to everyone here fighting for normalcy amidst mental illness.
I just want to know why some of us have to deal with depression PTSD , anxiety and panic disorders? It's a fight everyday. The one thing I can give us credit for "we fight everyday " we made it this far!
You are so right. I was saying that just yesterday. A daily fight and it is exhausting.
for 9 years dear
Its starting to feel fighting is not worth the fight...bc i feel like I'm just stuck in a maze
@@mirandawagoner4608 I feel like that too.
And yet some have never experienced it. I wish them well but I bet it's nice
The real tragedy; women are misdiagnosed with bipolar and other personality disorders when they often have Autism. Those mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, and years of anti-depressants nearly killed me.
And thyroid diseases too
Agreed! I've just been diagnosed with ADHD after being told I was bipolar almost 2decades ago😩
I’ve always wondered if I was a bit autistic
Or pmdd from hormonal changes monthly…
I told my doctor I think im adhd abd she still diagnosed me as bipolar :/
Sometimes I say , “if I just couldn’t think , I’d be the happiest person in the world”!!! 😣😔
People who tend to think a lot are also smarter. Smart people are not as happy as the "dumber" people and that's because they realize that the world that we're living in is by far not perfect
Omg this is me. It’s why I want to sleep so much because my brain is quieter
Omg I totally understand how you feel ….. I use to say if my brain could just shut off or if I didn’t have any thoughts I would be Ok
I'm not saying that it will, slow your brain down or stop your thoughts, but when a thought pops into my head, I can sometimes block the thought or say "no" to the thought.
This is actually why I think a lot of people tend to self medicate. Alcohol and drugs numb u so u don’t feel anything at all. I’d rather feel nothing then the way I feel every day of my life.
You have described exactly what happened to me: years of depressions, lots of different anti depressants and psychiatrists without any result, my mother bipolar 1. I'm now on Lithium and stable. Struggling with weight gain and flat mood but stable. Thank you. You explain it so clearly, I'm sure this can help a lot of people. Looking for the right help takes so much time and hopelessness. Love from Spain
Same situation here.
Hi Nicole, do you have any side effects from Lithium? The problem with me is I get the worst side effects from pharmaceuticals. Ex: high blood pressure/lipid panels. I am like the 1% when it comes to taking antidepressants. Though, I definitely need to be on something.
weight gain, libido loss and flat mood (slightly) But very happy and stable and easier to deal with for my environment. I think Lithium has saved me or at least has helped me to take it easy and not always doubt, worry, get angry, get extremely depressed, be too happy etc
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I love her talking such a nice voice!
Hi Kool Kiwi! Thanks a lot.
New Subscriber!!!
I agree KoolKiwi! you do Dr. Marks! It is so easy to listen your videos:)
Thank you Melinda!🙂
Agree!
My depression started at 14 after realizing I was molested. I was in and out of inpatient and outpatient psych for years up until early twenties. After leaving adolescence.. I just coped, stop taking meds and started adulting.
Ive just been discharged from the first inpatient psych stay in almost 10 years. Bipolar diagnosis. I was apparently misdiagnosed in my teens. Idk.. I’m scared. I just wanna find peace and understanding of all this. I’m hoping. It’s as if I’m mentally and emotionally tired but won’t give up. Maybe cuz I did try to take my life and almost succeeded.
I want to live..just been hard.
Prayers for you all. 🙏🏿
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wow, the same thing happened to me as a child and i just got diagnosed w bipolar after being diagnosed with just depression and anxiety it’s crazy and i saw this comment
@@priyurr You are not alone 🙏🏿 keep going ;
@@kendraphic thank you so much 😭❤️
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nobody takes my emotions seriously because my highs and lows are completely related to my menstration and cycle. doctors and psychologists seem to forget that it doesn’t make what i’m feeling not real or not as bad
Rosie P I have found that some of my major episodes have revolved around hormone changes
Have you looked into PMDD? Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder. It's brutal and makes life really hard, but having even the diagnosis helped me not feel "crazy".
Get yourself some B complex supplement, maybe progestrone cream at health food store, get off the pill-that will make not good. Less caf and sugar. Sleep. Get enough protein in your diet.
I’m with ya
Progesterone can help sometimes for luteal phase mood issues.
Dr. Marks as a practicing APRN (PMHNP), in the trenches providing clinical care, I can not begin to express how helpful your videos are. Thank you for all your work and dedication Doc!
I’m in denial and ashamed that this could be what I have. I feel judged like I chose this. It’s hard to even have normal relationships or even go on with life.
Hope you are okay...dont be ashamed, you did NOT choose this. Get a good diagnosis and a doctor that listens.
dont be ashamed fully understand where your coming from. my relationship nightmares used drink drugs thought I had depression put on anti depressants worse thing they did now I'm on depekote going ok more to it biopoler exercise helps sleeping pattern went for years not sleeping right night terror eating healthy helps chemical imbalance in the brain
@@ianpreston403 did you just have a stroke?
I can understand why you might feel judged but you really have nothing to be ashamed about. The brain is an organ and just like any other part of a person’s body it can become “sick”. It’s easy to say this but the judgy people should be ashamed after all no one yells at someone with a broken leg.
If u need to v cd discuss to resolve it completely
This woman really beautifully demonstrated the progression of my own mental health from adolescence, teen years and early adulthood as my diagnosis went from depression and anxiety to actual bipolar, and now my medication treatments are helping so much better now that I’m not on antidepressants.
💕💕💕💕💕 Am also Bi polar ....from India 🙏🙏🙏
I never realized that hypomania was a thing. I’ve had a few black hole episodes the past few years where nothing helps, nothing pulls me out, and makes me completely uninterested in life. Between these episodes, I feel ok, I get stuff done, but I don’t get traditionally manic. Now I have something to bring to my doctor and say this feels like truth. Thank you for posting this.
I'll reply here otherwise my reply won't be seen. I've suspected I might either have bipolar, borderline, autism, who knows ,but something is not 100% right. I definitively relate to the depressive episodes, I just call it as some days are better others worse. Also, I remember when taking anti-depressants I would wake up to panic attacks regularly (those were fun). I also would feel more suicidal taking anti-depressants. Never took mood-stabilizers. I have had bouts of OCD throughout my life, also eating disorders and general/social anxiety. I also do get those 'great' days . Usually only a few days , wherein I will feel better than usual , more hopeful and will dress more outgoing/lavish. It all seems very vague though, could be anything really.
@@lucialuciferion6720 what you wrote is very relatable for me because I’ve experienced almost all of that. Maybe it helps to know you’re not alone? I hope you at least have a good support system.
Can you explain more?
@@lucialuciferion6720 omg is that what happens when bipolar ppl take antidepressants bc my therapist and med provider disagree on my bipolar diagnosis and ive been experimenting with new meds after doing gene sight testing. i am current on an antidepressant and started at a low dose and the first week my sleep schedule was incredibly terrible i couldn’t sleep more than 5 hours bc i would wake myself to my leg shaking by itself (something that usually happens when i am having a panic attack or am just on edge) and then about a week and a half in the meds i became unresponsive to them of course like all other antidepressants ive been on in the last five years and so i just upped my dose today after the last month of being low and suicidal on these meds to see if it helps at all. did you have any experiences similar to this???
My black hole lasted for 2 years after I became very spiritual and meditated my ego away. As someone with a mental Illness , I don't think I should have meditated away my ego. This resulted in having to re-learn who I am and what helps me now and it was a whole mess. But I am thankful for the knowledge I possess now , and now I am much more in control of mania rather than it being in control of me.
I have suffered with bouts of incredible depression my whole life, im 41, start of this year i landed my dream job, now im unemployed and almost killed myself back in march. I dont know whats wrong, i have no official diagnosis, this is my first time even talking about it, its hard to talk about, im already crying, stay safe everyone
How are you doing? Don't want to type sentences and sentences. Just want to be sure a human being is alive there and has been curing himself/herself🌻
Keep going! You are not alone. 🙏🏾
I hope you’re ok. I’m in a similar boat & I’m finally getting help next week! I hope you have too ❤️
It’s important to seek medical help.And in the meantime,light jogging or swimming,etc will help a lot !!❤
I'm rooting for you. Don't give up.
I hate being bipolar. Thank you for giving me info about this so I can better except myself. And for everyone who’s commenting, thank you. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone.
You’re definitely not alone ❤
its awesome
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I am bipolar, diagnosed 2008, went off all my meds in 2019 and I feel so good. No episodes whatsoever. Thank God for that.
How? Don’t you need medicine? Teach me please
I miss you baby 🥺❤️❤❤❤
When she said 3 episodes durning 5 years I looked at the screen in shock. I was like I have about 10+ a year
my initial reaction was "those are rookie numbers" lmao
Same I legit have them every other month
I've been managing by working out, watching what I eat, not consuming caffeine or any other drugs and managing my anger. It is tough but, my depression has dipped dramatically.
More like 3 episodes a month 😂😂
Me too, I thought I was the only one!
Dr. Tracey Marks, i just wanted to say that this video is what helped me realize I had these kinds of issues. After years of horrible reactions to antidepressants/anti anxiety meds. I got a therapist and then a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with BP2 a year and a half ago and was prescribed Oxcarbazepine. I had all but given up on ever not being depressed or hypomanic. My life has changed for the better. I feel stable for the first time in my life. Thank you for all that you do.
I have bipolar disorder and this is the story about how my diagnosis changed from depression to bipolar. I started out with repetitive depressive episodes, well that’s what I thought was going on. I didn’t see the hypomania, I just felt great for a month or so, usually after an increase in antidepressant dose. I was full of “great” ideas and started multiple businesses while feeling like that. Nobody directly asked about hypomania and I didn’t see it as a problem. My depression was extreme and I needed a 16 treatment course of extended ECT and spent a total of 8 months on a secure psych ward in a year.
Then i had a full blown manic episode, “invented” a process to make bioethanol from pineapples, ditched my job and bought a 120k 50ft boat with the intention of sailing around the world singlehanded (running on pineapples!) despite the fact I have never even been on a boat in my life. All I needed was the fact I was convinced I was a Viking descendant, no training needed. Finally I decided I needed to arrive in style to the boat dealer so I attempted to buy a 50k Mercedes A45 AMG. Unfortunately the dealer let me test drive it and I took it out with him in the passenger seat and drove it so hard he was literally crying.
Obviously I was sectioned and treatment was massively altered and I turned back into myself. I still get episodes despite lamictal, seroquel and lithium but I stay in work and continue to function.
I just wanted to share my little story. Missed bipolar disorder can be devastating.
Wow NFN & FLK what a story! That's exactly the kind of stuff that some people do when they have a manic episode. It's hard to illustrate that to people who have never experienced it or been around it to see how extreme it can really be. Sorry I laughed at the boat running on pineapples. It's hard no matter how much medication you take to keep from having break through episodes. But the realistic hope is that the breakthrough episodes are not as severe and disruptive. I'm so glad you're working and functioning.Thanks so much for sharing the story. I hope it helps others.
Sounds a bit schizoid to me. Not full blown schizophrenia but schizoid indeed. Running a boat on pineapples? That's schizophrenic, not manic. Not at ALL
Actually, to be considered schizophrenia, you have a cluster of psychotic symptoms. Delusions are just one symptom. Anyone can become delusional for various reasons, including mania. But delusions are delusions. And this is a typical example of what they can look like. Yes, they're out there. That's what delusions are. Here’s a video where I define psychosis ua-cam.com/video/3bg5TL7AwgU/v-deo.html
I suggest you go online and find out some more information about Bio polar disorder and compare the symptoms of schizophrenia
Next time you have a manic episode let us know will you so we can all come along for the ride, it sounds exciting!
This video prompted me to ask my parents some questions that opened up an unprecedented line of communication. Learned a few things for sure. We aren’t usually a “talking about important things” kind of family.
i'm so sorry
LOL. Have we met in a past life? My family spoke about NOTHING regarding emotional well-being, compassionate awareness, mood swings. You were either "going about life the right way" or "totally wrong, doomed to ruin."
Oh, and psychiatry was for "crazy people."
How I made it out of that snake den in one piece still bewilders me. "Nature or Nurture?" NURTURE!
Similar story-- I got diagnosed with bipolar a few months ago and my family has barely spoken a word about it. What did you say that got them to open up? I'd love to figure out whether theres a family history but damn the irish dont make it easy😩
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I swear if you were my college professor I would have changed my major. I really like how you explain heavy topics like these. You would be a dope teacher!
Thanks so much Shaun! Thanks for watching 😊
Right?!!! Agreed!!!! I would WANT to be a better person and a better specialist because of her!!!! She’s AMAZING!!!
this is so eye opening. i was given an unspecified bipolar disorder bc my recurrent depressive episodes only improved with antipsychotics. and my hypomania is so subtle i never even notice it! great video
It’s so unfair that some of have to deal with some type of Crippling mental issues daily while others get to live “normal” life isn’t fair.
It's what you do with what you have my friend. Many people that have had different physical, mental or what ever else challenges challenge themselves and have turned it into something good. The choice is always yours. You can say "oh poor me, Im doomed forever", Or you can get pissed and do something and inspire yourself. Im had panic and anxiety attacks but thankfully Ive chosen to turn that into a positive. If I can do it, so can you.
@@LittleBigKid707b what you just said really inspired me tbh :)
@@angle7653 Im happy to hear that.
Thing of it as your destiny.
Battle like the Dickens.
The happiness of non-depressed people is not remarkable, every drop or moment that you can muster is more significant.
Don't compare yourself to others, battle from where you are.
You can also sit right in the depression, and operate from there moment by moment. Be practical, be kind to others, the depression won't last forever, but you can.
"Before all beginnings, after all endings, I AM".
- Nisargadatta Maharaj
I once tried Mdma and felt content, like extremely okay. I hear some people wake up like that. Good for them, but we have cooler stories to tell
“Wired but tired”… me right now as I type this, and almost every other week. This lady hit the nail on the head for how I’m feeling inside my ugly beautiful mind, thank you.
UA-cam being creppily accurate with it's recommendations.
vipera_7 😬
It's a sentient AI, kidding of course but yeah these are scary accurate.
vipera_7 y’all me about it🤦♀️
Algorithm.
It reads your thoughts and searches am convinced
It’s comforting to see there’s others like me, and it saddens me to see people going through hell like me.
Im sorry to hear your so sad .its been 2 months since you posted .i hope your doing better .im in the same boat .i wish i were normal like everyone else .but at the same time .i like being different .i have pist traumatic stress bipolar2 borderline personality disorder adhd and maybe autistic .i have alot of problems socializing sometimes .but i feel i have alot of good qualities also .i can be highly inteligent in some things from my disorders .such as i can read a room of people just by looking at them .i can tell what some of them are feeling .i feel the emotions in the room .im highly empathetic..i can learn the drums by ear no lessons .we all have cool talents from our disorders .i can tell when a person is lieing .im always right.
@ Hello, I appreciate your kind wishes .. I am doing a lot better at this moment.. you know how it goes… dark days come n go.. and I completely agree with everything you’ve said ..I hope you are doing good as well friend
I became depressed at age 8 or 9 and stayed that way, now and then i have moments of frenzy not depression but energy to do things. Then the depression comes back.
Hi Adrian. Maybe you just have a recurrent depression. They hypomania is usually negative in some way. Some people go from really low to good, but the good is so much better than the low, that they think the "good" is mania. Just a thought...
Jeez man, my deppresion came on when i was 22..i couldn't imagine goin through my teen years depressed im so so sorry brother
Adrian Johnson. I hear you! The same
Adrian Johnson I’m ADHD I think because if I don’t work out I can’t even concentrate. If something doesn’t hold my interest I get so bored. I usually enjoy certain shows, church, etc but lately I’ve been ADHD with things I don’t get it.
Adrian Johnson my depression first occurred when I was about 10
Man when you talked about two, three and four, I just started crying. I just talked about a lot of this with my doctor. Thank you!!
You're welcome Madi! 🙂
i got my diagnosis yesterday… everything you’re saying, i’m resonating with. especially hypomania!! thank you for your work!
take care with ssri, they create mania
@@vincentschmitt392 One has to take care with all medications ,
recently diagnosed with bipolar 2 and it makes SO much sense
Same
10/21/2019
I've never had depression or manic-bipolar disorder. I did lose a beloved brother a few years ago from suicide that I truly believed had undiagnosed bipolar disorder. And another loved one has recently been diagnosed with depression/bipolar disorder & has had suicidal thoughts. So I'm trying to learn as much as I'm able to, to be there for my loved one.
But my main comment is that this Doctor's voice & demeanor is so soothing. Thank you Dr. Tracey Marks.
shes is soothing
Last week I ran my first 5k without stopping and all the time I could hear the voice in my head saying that I can do it. Forwago, thank you so much for everything!!
Keep going!!!
I was finally diagnosed wit bipolar 2 a few years ago after having a long history of depression. I was able to recognize the short lived periods of feeling great and on top of the world as hypomania. These videos have helped me understand the cycles of this illness and how it’s best treated. Thank you Dr. Marks!
Dr. Tracey, thank you. 22 months after my only child Ben's death you have helped me to understand and put the pieces together . He was 34. When he was 17 we began seeking answers an Bipolar seemed to not be as out in the open as it is today. Thank you.
What a beautiful authentic person
She restores Your faith in human nature Thankyou! !
I was diagnosed with Depressive Bipolar in 08 and my Dr prescribed Ablify, which was ineffective because of the side effects she switched me to Lamictal. This med made me look like a stroke victim with all the symptoms. Finally she prescribed Lithium 4 times a day. I had to be taken out of work for a yr. None of these meds worked for me but disabled me and never gave me a clear sense of balance. The side effects I have from these meds are life long and I really hope the focus goes to educating patients about the side effects FIRST because you will have them with it being a synthetic medication. I am medication free now due to lifestyle changes and an alkaline diet that works for me. Thank you for the video.
Hi Chimere. I'm sorry you've had such a bad experience. More importantly, I'm happy to hear you are doing well off medication with lifestyle changes. Medication side effects are one of those things that we can get away from. One of the problems with medication education is the meds don't effect everyone the same. So we can review the common, expected side effects, but there's always the chance someone will have an unusual effect or rare/very infrequent effect. If you look at the sheet the pharmacist gives you, it's probably several pages of possible side effects in tiny writing. That's not to say that infrequent or rare side effects don't matter, but trying to get through pages of possible side effects for every medication, you can loose sight of the big picture of what to expect with the drug. Anyway - your right though, patient education is an important part of treatment. That's the emphasis of this channel. I wish we had better answers.
I used lamictal for seizures
Yes Rene, neurologists will use Lamictal to treat seizures and migraines.
Dr. Tracey Marks Just made me walk like I was drunk for 3 hours after taking it. Entertaining in school though.
Rene Peters lol! I’ll bet it was. 😊
Me knowing FULL WELL I don’t have bipolar in any form “ okay let’s see here” LOL! Really informative though, I’m in an abnormal psychology class and these videos help!
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 three years ago. I was sick for many years and I was either misdiagnosed or under diagnosed. I was diagnosed with depression and generalized anxiety. I was prescribed some different cocktails of meds that just didn't help. One example is I took Celexa, Abilify, Klonopin and Ambien and it really didn't work well because I couldn't stabilize. I changed doctors and almost immediately she knew I was bipolar, which I didn't even know what bipolar was at that time. I also willingly tried other cocktails with my new doctor to avoid lithium and none of those combinations were super effective. Then I went on lithium as a last option and it worked. Now I've come to research and study bipolar disorder and learn about the spectrum, and it helps me to cope with my diagnosis.
My daughter is on Lithium and doing very well. I trust it more than the newer drugs. My daughter was on some of the newer drugs years ago and the results were bad.
Just keep taking your meds and you'll be fine. My daughter's last hospitalization was 9 years ago and that happened because she went off her Lithium. She has realized that she has to take her meds and is actually doing so well that I wouldn't know she was Bipolar if I didn't know her diagnosis.
Stay well!
I am glad rechargeable batteries have changed your life along with saving the environment from fossil fuels
Didn't know it is spectrum..wawoo
@Repent and believe in Jesus Christ jesus won't do anything for bi polar. it's a mental illness, you cannot pray mental illness away.
I have been taking lithium for almost 4 years now and do not suffer from notable side effects. In fact I am glad this drug exists. Still need to manage minor symptons of depression though.
Sadly, woman are often misdiagnosed as having bipolar disorder. I was misdiagnosed as bipolar 2, and it was the hardest time of my life. The dr diagnosed me during the first session and refused to explore anything else. The medications I was put on made me feel 10x worse. I fought hard for years to get an adequate diagnosis.
What I actually have is a combination of things; 1.) A hormonal imbalance called PMDD due to PCOS and endo 2.) ADHD w/sensory processing disorder (which I’ve had since I was a kid), 3.) C-PTSD (which caused an ED, alcoholism, and OCD like behaviors), and 4.) BPD. The borderline symptoms manifest in a such a way, that my moods seem all over the place, and my interpersonal relationships were severely struggling. The abandonment issues I always had, finally made sense. DBT therapy helps a lot with all that. I still struggle, but, I have a much better understanding of myself. I have learned to manage my life. I feel pretty stable most of the time. It’s been 6 years since I was correctly diagnosed, and, it saved my life. I would’ve ended things had I stayed on BP-2 meds. They made me want to die every day.
Thankfully, I want to live today, even when it’s hard. I also have MS….so clearly, I hit the genetic lottery didn’t I? Hahaha. (All jokes aside, I’m a firm believer there is a strong correlation between childhood trauma, mental illness’s, and auto immune disorders) but I digress.
In conclusion, if the diagnosis and treatment don’t fit, don’t settle with that, and don’t give up. Find a dr who will listen to your concerns and full history. Find a dr. who doesn’t just diagnosis you right away. I know it’s hard, I’ve been there. It takes time and patience but it’s worth it.
Yeah or I sometimes think borderline personality disorder is misdiagnosed as bipolar. A big problem with psychiatry is that in the early stages of it, over diagnosis was common.
Im pretty certain i have PMDD which can feel like so many other things but when i look at my cycle, the dates add up (2 weeks before period i’m not myself). How did you handle this? Do you have any advice ❤
@@esmefrancis3099 I would say look for a dr who will take a full history, and properly asses your mental health over a few sessions. If a doctor is diagnosing you right away, that’s a red flag. Tell the dr your thoughts and concerns. You have to be your own advocate. I know it’s easier said then done, but, you deserve adequate treatment. Once you can receive the proper diagnosis, the treatments will work-Like DBT, EMDR, CBT ect.
@@evaschroeder5869 So true! It’s unfortunate that they have similar symptomatology. The key to proper diagnosis is learning to spot the differences, not look for the similarities. For instance: BPD and bipolar both experience mood swings. The difference between the two disorders is that with bipolar- the mood swings last for an extended period of time, and are usually cyclical. With BPD-the mood swings are very intense and rapidly changing depending on environment, triggers, and circumstantial situations. They present similarly, but are still very different. That’s why it’s so important for a dr to get a full history, and take their time to diagnosis.
It’s funny you say that.. because I had a similar experience.. I got treated for anxiety & mild depression, when in reality, it was my thyroid hormones acting up. I had hyper thyroidism due to Thyroiditis, that went undiagnosed. Apparently, it affects your mood & gives you palpitations & anxiety.
I had to take anti depressants.. but then I found out I had thyroid issues. So it’s important to get a thorough physical check up before you go for mental health check ups.
I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child, depression at 23, anxiety at 30, and OCD at 35. When my daughter at age 19 experienced a very bad series of manic episodes she was diagnosed with bipolar 2. I was finally diagnosed with bipolar at age 42. Getting that diagnosis was a relief. Everything made sense suddenly. I received intensive DBT Skills training and am now on the road to a much happier me. We now know that even though my dad does have PTSD from the VietNam war, it only amplified his bipolar disorder. I really wish I had received my diagnosis when I was in my 20s, but I am happy to finally have an answer that makes sense.
were you on drug???
Yes exactly, most people would hate getting diagnosed with bi-polar, but for me I feel happy that i´m diagnosed and finally know what wrong with me
Did you have insomnia before treatment?
I am questioning whether my severe depression is actually bipolar.
Hi Cranjis. Thanks for watching, maybe you have some talking points for your next appt with your doctor.
It might not be. When we go too little failures and start questioning everything around, we might feel we are facing the worse. Been there and struggled with it a lot. Please book an appointment and I am sure you will have a positive response from your doctor - positive as in its not that worse u felt it is. Rest assured , everything is fine with you. Stay strong and please do not try to self diagnose from UA-cam videos or google
Also cranjis, when you feel low, be a wolf. They stay alone yet fierce and powerful. I take lots of inputs from animals and their instincts to fight it myself . It’s a struggle but it will be worth with time.
Cranjis McBasketball Same.....
@@ashwinikumarbehera5417 unless you're a professional and unless you know someone don't judge. It's best to consult someone who knows about this kind of thing.
Dr Tracey - as someone who has had a lot of mental health issues in the past few years, as well as having family members also dealing with them, I have found your videos to be SO helpful. It's very apparent to me that you know what you're talking about and I'm sure your videos are helping people on a daily basis. All the most love and respect - thank you for your contributions to the misunderstood world of mental health!
I really like how straightforward you are. I just find you so calming to listen to
One minute I’m happy, annoyed, sad, then ticked off
Im bipolar but my parents dont take it seriously and just laugh at it and keep telling me that im just being silly , no one takes it seriously in my family which hurts me
We believe in you, just remember that ur not alone, keep fighting 💝
Im too
Im 14btw
Same here. Still happens at 44.
Please don't listen to them as much as you can... you should keep trying for your self and your future self !!
They are prob narcs gas lighting you
Dr. Marks, after 43 years of being misdiagnosed, this video was a lifeline thrown to me in the chaotic ocean of bipolar disorder! This helped identify many things for me such as why my antidepressants were never enough and constantly changing. My treatment has just begun and I'm excited about the prospect of finding my true self. I hope to meet you someday Dr. Marks, and tell you what a difference you've made in my life! THANK YOU!
This should be a place of learning and safety. That being said...
- stop calling viewers and commenters "attention whores"
- stop harrassing people with mental illnesses or disorders
- stop demonizing particular disorders or referring to people as "sociopaths"
- if you have access to a therapist, good for you. Stop telling people to go to a doctor. Many of us don't have access. it should be a right but it's a privelage and many don't have it.
- share your own experiences to help others
- Be sensitive and respectful to people's situations
Thought these were common sense but this is honestly one of the meanest most unsympathetic comment sections I've ever seen. Get it together.
One of my memorable hypomanic episodes i remember is the first time I just up and left my fiance, didn't worry about continuing nursing school (no failed attempts at that time, I was almost done though), and I moved to Ohio without telling anyone. Yup. When I came down I moved back home and re enrolled into nursing school. Its a long depressing story but I did challenge the state boards as I settled for LPN but I have yet to complete that RN although I have tried. Something keeps triggering me everything I am about to finish and graduate. I was told by a few different psychiatrist that I have a "fear of success " as well as Cyclothymia, ADHD, and GAD. Another dr said "dysthymia" while another said that I need lithium because I am "bipolar ". I didn't like my diagnosis so I just kept seeing new doctors. One tried to put me on social security disability which just made me angry. I wish I let him because I tend to not he able to afford the medications and insurance is expensive. Anyway... I even had a "nice" therapist who requested I show him how I gave lap dances. I briefly was an exotic dancer ad I needed to fix my car. You'd think you could talk to your therapist but then I thought... the... rape....ist. therapist... omg. So I stopped going and he actually called me asking why I wouldn't come back. Seriously? Perve. I wish that I told on him. Who knows what other girls he tried that crap with. Well, I have 39 years worth of awful experiences so I guess I have already said too much. I typically would delete this but I kind of hope that another depressed girl sees this and doesn't allow any dude to seduce her while she's feeling low. Also. Get help and don't be too proud and in disbelief that you need help. No one is perfect and they're lying if they say that they are. ✌
I really like you as a human!
Thank you
Oh wow thank you Shruti! That makes me feel great! 🤗
Errr....what else would you like her as? A dog?
@@SpaceCatttttHa ha! Her comment made me laugh, too.
Really ? I find her better as a potato tbh
@happyhappyjoyful Sorry for having your idea 8 months before you did. It shan't happen again.
This makes so much sense. My depression wasn't getting better at all and it was chronic, a doctor in a hospital started treating me for bipolar depression and suddenly the medication worked. I had no idea why he even suspected bipolar, because in my head I never experienced mania/hypomania. Upon reflection, I realized I had a lot of sleepless but productive times in my life, but I always just thought it was my insomnia acting up. I never linked any of this to bipolar, I thought I was depressed with cycles of bad insomnia. Shout out to this doctor, because every time I was screened I was like, "oh yeah, I've never experienced euphoric highs, I'm not bipolar."
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I remember before I came to terms with having bipolar 2, I tried taking Prozac for a month. I was in denial of being bipolar and chalked it up to just being depressed. My friends would talk about how Prozac worked wonders for them so I figured it’d work for me too. I couldn’t have been more wrong. It made me feel much much worse. The depression only increased, I had horrible constipation and the mood swings were more extreme. It was then when I finally let my doctor prescribe me a mood stabilizer. After being on Lamictol for a few years now, I am so much more stable and happy. More than I ever thought was possible. Only downside is the weight gain. It’s ok though, I’d rather be chubby and stable than skinny and a total mess.
I was depressed in my Mother's womb.
😂 Well, it was dark, wet and you had no space.
@@miranday.7995 very true, lol.
Samesies
Same
@chris Wright hugs
Thank you for this video. My friend has struggled with severe depression since she was young and it has been chronic and unresponsive to medications but in her case she is not bipolar. I think bipolar disorder is starting to get overdiagnosed in people who are just depressed. Thanks for educating people about these distinctions.
I agree. I have been depressed ( situational) first started at around 16, 17. Every depressed episode stems from changing life event. Antidepressants don’t seem to work yet I have not tried many.
Thanks!
You're welcome Dianna and thank you so much. ❤️
Thank you so much for this. I've been feeling pretty lost and helpless overresearching this since being diagnosed. I love the way you speak to us, as well as citing research. You make this all feel way less daunting. Thank you.
As a teenager I struggle most with mixed episodes , which to me actually are more painful than mania , mania to me is just pure anger , depression is the best because it’s just sadness and your thoughts are slow and really calm , like you are apart of an ocean (I know they are dark but they are the best part of it all ) in short, being a teenager with bipolar has ruined my future and most importantly, me.
Hi Princes Consuela Bananahammock D! Gosh I'm sorry this has been so bad for you. Mixed episodes are tough because you have elements of both the depression and the mania occurring together. Sometimes it's even harder to treat with medication. But it IS treatable. It doesn't have to mean your life is completely ruined forever. Keep in mind being depressed can distort
your outlook and make things look more negative and hopeless. You can't always get out of that thinking on your own. And when your like that, you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. But there is an end to the tunnel. And I hope you can get with a professional who can help you get to the end of the tunnel.
You still have a future you are still here for a reason. Hold on love. Things will get better. God is with you. ❤
I started out being diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 21. It wasn't til I was 28 that they realized it was bipolar2. It took hearing from my mother that she's seen me thru out my life like from a very young age telling the doctor that I had severe depression and manic outbursts as young as 5. I manage my issues a lot better now. This video is helpful
It’s so great that you put this out there. You’re so good at putting this in a way that most people can understand. I wish I would have seen this a long time ago, when I was getting manic episodes from the wrong antidepressant for bipolar, but I’m glad others will see it, and be able to talk to their doctors about if this could be what’s going on. ❤. Getting diagnosed was like another chance at life, for me, because now I can manage my symptoms, and I feel much like I did before my symptoms started (only wiser, because I was 12-13 years old, then Lol). That was the last time I remembered thinking so clearly, before I found the right medication..so it really can make a huge difference!
Pray for me 🙏 i been having mental breakdowns these past couple days
REDDZ&CC Washington In Jesus name i pray at this minute you will be set free from your pain anquish and these violent episodes get your vitamin b and d checked by a doctor also try herb valerian if your doc approved or St. Johns Wort pray and read your Bible it will heal your mind God Bless you
REDDZ&CC Washington May Jesus heal you and deliver you from mental break downs in Jesus name i cast out the evil spirit of Depression to hell in Jesus name Amen
You are loved 💖
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About two weeks ago, my diagnosis of depression changed to bipolar II. I wish I had stumbled upon this video earlier; I think it would've helped me realize my misdiagnosis. Thank you for putting this information out there!
Thank you Danielle. Glad it's helpful for you. 🙂
The highs and lows are crazy
I used to blame it on alcohol but since I have been sober for years now, it’s amazing to be able to identify my moods
Antidepressants are BAD for me
I would hold a job up for a few months and be confident, then just drop it
I hated being around people and would break down constantly
I'm bipolar 2 and suffer immensely. I value your insight, ma'am.
(Me already on meds for 1 year): AM I BIPOLAR?? LETS FIND OUT ON THIS VID
me rn got diagnosed 3 days ago i’m like hmm
me on lamictal watching this lmao
I don’t know why this reminded me of Bojack lol
Diagnosed for almost 16 years now, I still watch this stuff 😬
Literally me 😭
The highs make me feel happy/amazing, but it comes after wanting to sleep for weeks at a time.
Hypomania is like magic
I’m glad you’re functioning well Eman.
Hello Tracy
I am John from Australia.
Thank you for your fine work creating these valuable UA-cam presentations.
Congratulations and best wishes.
Very well explained!! I think I had such a hard time with a diagnosis of bipolar due to it being masked with depression for so many years. Now off of the antidepressants and on 3 mood stabilizers and doing great!
I'm only 15 , I don't really know how to handle. I always cry after I realize what I did. God , Please I beg you , give me better life. please
💔 there is always hope, and peace that comes at the darkest times just when peace doesn't make sense. Hold on to hope. You are loved and you are forgiven.
@Hash Kushum umm I didn't drink any Alcohol but it's a song called “ Alcohol Free ” which is my fav so yea
Easy to the mouth and tummy, like a drink made of honey
Also I relate but stay strong
Hey sending you lots og love. You're gonna be fine
That awkward feeling when my depressive episode is more regural than my period.. 😂😂
Hello friend, have you tried using hemp oil? They've done wonders for many people and I've been able to deal with my "dark fogs" much better now. It really makes a difference in mood and I slightly feel present
@@Alaskanman is hemp oil the same as CBD oil?
OMG SAME
@@wethujonga8681 yes
Girl same 😭😭🤣🤣
The really destructive behavior happens during the manic periods. I wish there was a manic fairy that would swoop in and lock me away somewhere far away during those times, so I wouldn’t be able to break yet another piece off of my already fractured life. Surprised you didn’t mention how the dragon of chronic anxiety is the thread that ties it all together.
You are not alone friend
same I'm 55 years old female by the grace of God I'm alive and free have no idea how lol
@@LostboyXWife you just mentioned it
"By the GRACE of GOD"
BLESSINGS TO YOU 💯 ❤️
@@LostboyXWife You give me hope, I'm 37..
I've never related to a comment more in my life, thank you for sharing your experience
I always appreciate your explanations of bipolar disorder. It highlights some of the things I was originally unaware of that weren't explained to me when I was first diagnosed. Thank you for continuing to present content like this.
I have bipolar one , and I was diagnosed when I was 12 years old. For me it was very debilitating to grow up with because my environment was very hostile and traumatizing. Now as an adult , I notice that meditation works better than medication and my highs are cleaner and feel better due to that. My lows can get bad but I pretty much just go "whatever it's just the bipolar" most times and wait it out. Meditation, also in this instance , helps me to get out of bad depressive lows. I've had a few episodes but I never harm anyone else , I've only punched a hole through a few things that had no value for myself or anyone else. I'd say I'd rather not live with it , but Ive already accepted that it is what it is so I really just don't even care.
Cant control my actions and myself sometimes. Like im like walking in the clouds, im easily distracted, easily to get mad, there times that I have hard times to breath etc. Idk whats in me.. ?!
Sounds like ADHD with high degree of impulsivity but ask the specialist
samantha dg I totally feel ya!
Thats so me
Thanks guys! Mmmm maybe in time I can see a psychiatrist
I got diagnosed with adhd but I don’t know because my depression comes and goes like there’s times where I feel good in 2 months and then it just crash and burns idk
Wired but tired: low energy, but still can never sleep
If you're unhappy focus on the needs of others. Don't ever dwell on your misfortunes, it's truly wasted time. You will never be able to replace time.
Your statement is a bit ignorant. There’s way more to treating mental illness. A person could literally work for a non profit organization and still suffer from mental illness. Your view is very toxic and dangerous as well as irresponsible.
@@elyse9871 well that's really obvious. ..way to be a downer and rude and lame. This comment has been up for a long time and you're the first negative Nancy👍 good job, downer
@@frayfray2807 No, it’s not always obvious to someone who may be suffering from mental illness. And if me looking out for the most vulnerable people that take harmful, immature comments like yours seriously, then so be it. I do not want someone that’s going through something and debating on whether or not they need to see a mental health professional to look at your comment, and think that all they need to do is smile and get over it. Your reply makes me feel confident that my impression of you was right. 🙄
@@elyse9871 mute
@@frayfray2807 😂😂😂 now that’s lame!
If you haven’t done so already, please do a video about toxic adult siblings with personality disorders cluster b traits and features and are addicts. I keep researching and cannot find it. Great video! Thank you!
I was diagnosed with depression & anxiety @ 14. I even had such lows in my early 20s that I was in a psych ward for a bit & even had 2 suicidal episodes because I couldn't control it. The meds didn't work. Now I'm 35 & was just diagnosed with actual bipolar disorder in the last 2yrs. My psychiatrist is still working with me on the right med combo to control the extreme lows that I struggle to pull myself out of. I honestly wish I had more highs than lows, but for the moment that isn't true for me
I've been diagnosed with bipolar 1. I believe now it is bipolar 2. I thought I wasn't bipolar at all and the symptoms were just due to the substance use, however it has now been almost two years since i was using dissociative drugs and as well as malt liquor alcohol. I still experience "cyclical" depression, that lasts a few days/ weeks alongside hypomanic episodes that last even shorter sometimes. It's confusing to me, because I also have a very hyperactive form of adult adhd, diagnosed in grade 1. A lot of these "manic" symptoms overlap. Antidepressants sent me to hyperactive/ insomnia cycle and I dropped 10 pounds in 2 weeks. These days I am not on any form of medication. Instead when i go 'manic' or 'depressed', I find my inner spirituality hopeful. I remember I am just a spiritual being having a human experience, and slowly the sadness falls away from me. (Although I will not bring this up to a therapist, because no offense, western medicine tends to think that shamanism/ 'that spiritual stuff', to be a delusion in itself.
Now there is no blood tests any other tests to diagnose popular so maybe these doctors should not give patients so much medication and make people in to zooming so that they can not think at all and fill more depressing 🤔
Even western medicine supports the placebo effect and mindfulness. So if you believe it helps you, it actually will! The power of the mind is amazing
That’s true! At the end of the day it’s part of the human experience. Western science needs to label everything in fixed boxes and recommend medication for everything. Let’s look at the down phase as you needing a break, a downtime. That doesn’t work for society, because they need to you to be employed and run the rat race. You slowing down to get better and take care of yourself, talk to your mind is not what they want. They want you to pop some pills and get back on the wheel.
i was diagnosed with depression in my late teens and struggled so hard with it. it was at the point where medication wasn't helping and making it worse. i finally went to a psychiatrist last week and bam--it was bipolar disorder. it really threw me for a loop and i've been confused about it for a while, but i stumbled upon your channel and i understand so much more about it now. now, everything i've been going through for the last few years is making a LOT more sense. thank you for making these videos.❤
If you've had a lot of shit happen to you ..it's no wonder..it just means you"be been hurt
I agree with you almost like a muscle memory was created from all the shiot that hurt you your brain often holds onto the hurt
Kimberly Schoonhoven. U have a point because something happened to me 7 yrs. Ago and got diagnosed with PTSD panic disorder and depression but I'm confused cause my mom had bipolar. My sister also so did I get all this cause of what happened to me or is it on the Gene's? What happened to me was devastating.
@@gramgraml9551 Hi. It happened that is enough in itself. Your chances are higher to get bi polar when something triggers it like a situation like that happened
@lombmusic07 Hi. I do as well. I draw and paint surrealism
Kimberley Schoonhoven yes. Mine came about after leaving an abusive marriage and then abandoned by my family while I went through divorce proceedings and the aftermath. It definitely triggered something inside of me that was not there before.
I have socail anxiety for the most part but then I also get sad so easily. Like I could be having a good day but then if one thing happens that i don't like, I get sad . it doesn't take much to make me upset or feel depressed.
Dont self diagnose.
I know so many people who dealt with depression as teens, including me. My first big episode was when I was 13/14 years old. I'm pretty sure it started due to trauma, and I could say that about a lit of my friends too. Still unfortunately common.
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I had depression for ten years until I developed the full symptomology of Bipolar at 40. The main thing that set this off was taking an antidepressant; however, thereafter the mood swings never stopped. Initially, I would cycle extremely rapidly from intense euphoria, to sadness and rage, over and over until all the moods blended into one.
When I started taking an anticonvulsant the extreme cycling gradually stopped although depression reasserted itself. After about five months I finally experienced euthymia which, to me, was an entirely new experience.
my first depressive episode when I was 13. That's also when I stopped sleeping "correctly". This year, over 10 years later, I'm being diagnosed as bipolar undefined. I go into at least 3 - 5 depressed episodes in a year and I'll go into hyposexuality and I'm indestructible feelings at least 2 -5 times a year. Antidepressants have never worked for me and has made my willingness to take meds to plummet.
That’s a lot of episodes. You may want to watch my video on rapid cycling bipolar disorder here. ua-cam.com/video/Bb2i35Y9J9k/v-deo.html
Try lithium
Hyposexuality, not hypersexuality alongside the “invulnerability”? How interesting.
I like your video.
Extreme emotional personality disorder and rapid cycling bipolar disorder.
Wow! It is hard enough to say let alone cope with. My girl has a lot to deal with but, I am so appreciative for her patience. Thirty years on and still my Rock.
Mental illness sucks! All the stress, confusion, distraction and out of the blue manic behavior one suffers with this diagnosis. It is particularly terrible for loved ones. For the closest in one's life. The mood swings. Up and down like a yo yo and side to side like a pendulum. Hot then cold. Abrupt but honest. No filter as it were. Rapid speech. Sorrow. Dark thoughts. Self harm. Suicidal thoughts. The slightest criticism, disappointment, is a major slight or catastrophe. When feeling happy, it is euphoric, like one is a God. Then one comes back down to Earth and feels like a Devil. Never living in the Now. Always thinking of the past and what is to come. Voices? Or. Thoughts? Monkey chatter.
Hot and cold. Never warm. I need to find my warm place. In the Now.
A small excerpt from my upcoming book Leo's Esoteric Prose.
This little poem is for all of you out there that empathize with me. For the folk that suffer with mental illness or live with mental illness. For all the saintly people who give up their time to help those in need. I salute you. I understand. And I celebrate you.
It is back, this pressure, this wire, this high tensile pest
Like a volcano, about to erupt in my chest
This condition, the angst, that makes me suffer
I need a filter, a shock absorber, a buffer
For my blood it boils, and runs like lava, hot
When the bipolar kicks in, I lose the plot
No rationale, no reason, just manic and random
Two differing scenarios, running in tandem
by Leo
Thanks Leo, and thanks for sharing your experience. These are the kinds of comments I refer to when I respond to the people who say "everybody has bipolar, " "we're all bipolar at some level" Those are people who don't understand how life-altering the illness is. And I tell them to read others' comments, like yours to see just how much everyone is NOT like this.
Thank you for your kind words.
It is hard to cope in public and having mental illness makes me rather reclusive💓🐯👍
Aware
How do we survive? In a world full of hate
Coming from all sides, is it too late?
To finally see, that all is design, a play
Nothing happens by accident, cause and effect, always been that way
Two sides of the same coin, not much of a choice, insane
Being monitored, from most high, making us Unsane
Like sheep, going in one direction, following information, a flock
Rushing, all in time, every day, against the Clock
Drowning in a sea of perpetual debt, a slave
From the moment of our birth, to the cold and lonely grave
Look around, take a breath, be aware, and see
That all is Matrix, of words, that trap Ye and Me
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Have a look on Amazon, come and see How
I see the world, a glimpse through the Veil, and inside my Head, Boom!
How the Esoteric runs parallel, to our reality, impending Doom
That all this division, is the blueprint for Conquer, the net is closing in
As 5G nears, and people go crazy for this new tech, Dystopia begin💓🐯👍😇