This is a video I’ve wanted to make for a very long time. I’m not asking to be seen as a sympathetic character but I believe I have the opportunity for some to find my experience relatable and potentially valuable, especially to those with ASD. Maybe I can help 10%. Let me know your thoughts!! Kris Tyson vid coming tomorrow I’m not avoiding, it this video is better than that one.
oompaville, you are my myth busters. I am a fourteen year old girl. I struggle with extreme suicide ideation, self harm, depression and very bad anorexia. I have been watching you for four years now, I watched you when u was in hospital, when I would bed rot for weeks, when I needed to escape my own thoughts. a month ago I attempted, I was shaking and could barely move-if I was in my right mind I would of called my father or scream out for help but I watched one of your videos. I layed on the ground for hours and hours simply watching your videos until I could stand up and get myself water. my first night in hospital I was terrified, I was tubed and could hear other patients crying. I watched one of your Amazon videos. my brian was so fried from not eating that all I can remember from my hospital stay where the video I watched, your videos. if you do nothing else in life, just know that you saved a young girl from herself. thank you so much.
Im so glad your still here❤ there are people who care about you, I know what your going threw is hard and I know you probably are sick of hearing this but it will get better! Keep fighting. You are loved. And I know I’m just a random person on the internet and we don’t know each other but I care about you and if you ever need to talk about anything with no judgment I’m here. I know I already said this but I’m so happy you are still here with us❤
You are so strong, loved, and NEEDED here🤍 I am so proud that you turned to a source of joy like these videos in your darkest times. Keep doing that, keep going, keep turning to sources of joy so it becomes habit. You’ve got this🫶🏼
Don't ever quit. Life is hard but if you keep going it will be worth it in the end. Stay and consult in the people that love you, you got this girl! You got to always live for tomorrow. ❤
@@Moomiewoomie33 i am so proud of you!! im fifteen years old and i relate a lot with youre story. i promise you will find peace, and someday the pain does end without harming yourself. no matter what state of mind you are in, try your best to stay away from hurting yourself and drugs because they are never the answer.
As someone with borderline crippling depression and anxiety; hearing bigger creators allowing themselves to be open and vulnerable to speak about their own struggles, helps me feel less lonely. knowing people with massive influence and a massive voice really helps inspire me to keep trying and to keep going. Thank you for being so open about yourself, it truly is inspiring to hear you speak about how you just kept going 🤍
Money doesn't buy happiness gotta find that within yourself. It's hard sometimes, especially since the world we live in, but I do believe you can find that room for the happiness
I want you to know, it may feel crippling, but you are the master of your own mind. One day I promise you will figure out the maze of your mind and navigate it like the back of your hand. Coming from someone who has (and still is, but less intensely) been depressed and anxious, along with ocd and add for most of my conscious life. Everything works out in the end, you just have to be a friend to yourself and learn to understand yourself.
"True unbridled fear of nothing at all." A perfect description of anxiety. I've always had a problem with going to sleep, but it's gotten worse recently. It's anxiety based, but it doesn't stem from fears of my family members dying or anything like that. it's more like I'm afraid I'm going to miss out on something when I'm unconscious, or if I wake up late to some thing I have scheduled like work. Sleeping on the floor actually sounds pretty relaxing, not gonna lie and I don't know why...
@@slammygrinder6708 I don't use my phone that much, it's not the problem. It's quite literally just anxiety giving me an elevated heartrate and a mindstate that literally prohibits my ability to sleep. I've had nights were I just turn in my bed with everything else about me tiring except for my mind, not falling asleep. It's agonizing sometimes, I WISH I could fix it with just minimal contact to my phone.
I remember as a teenager telling my father that I thought something was wrong with me and I might need to see a psychologist and his response was to let me know that I was fine and no one in our family needs a shrink. Turns out after my time in the military I ended up being diagnosed with chronic major depression, generalized anxiety disorder and PTSD. I don't believe all of that came from my time in the service....just unchecked mental health issues that slowly built up over time. I respect you 100% for being open and trying to help others who deal with any type of M.H issue.
At age 40 having anxiety and depression helped along with narcolepsy and chronic pain disorder, this video helps me. Knowing how my experiences with anxiety are what others have felt actually makes the "you can change your way of thinking and improve your life" talk have more weight to them. It's easy for people without the disorders to say things will get better, but hearing a fellow anxiety club member say it makes it feel possible.
@@ChatMort69420 A-D-N-F gang for life. We might not do things often, or when we mean to, but when we DO something, it's usually pretty awesome. Most other members have also been in the same field of tech and mechanical work, which is nice to be able to talk to people about fixing a pinball machine, followed by modding a power wheels finishing with nerf over volting without being looked at like I'M the weird one.
34 here, almost identical circumstances. We should start a discord and hype each other up every day, lol. It's nice knowing you're not alone because it certainly feels that way every day.
Oompa - I grew up in Maryland near the DC line and now live in WV, very close to Virginia!!! I drive through Front Royal every time I go back to Maryland!!! Thank you for this video. Mental health was a serious struggle for a huge amount of my life growing up and it is refreshing when people you watch speak up about their own struggles. I’m doing so much better now 🫶🏻✌🏻💚
When I was younger I remember having an argument with my dad where he was fully not listening to what I had to say, just repeating the same sentence over and over again. I begged him crying to listen to me as he kept droning over me. I got so frustrated I bashed my own head into the wall hard enough to bust my forehead open. He just looked at me and said "are you done yet" I have never felt so blatantly powerless before. It's a hard lesson when you learn you can't make someone care about how you feel.
I feel like that's what happens when someone has to go through their whole life feeling the same way, but being unable to express it, and seeing it in your child and their basically going like "....if only you knew what comes in 15 more years....." so they're maybe a bit calloused emotionally...
Have you cut all ties with your father? I can almost guarantee you by just this one experience you've shared here that your father is probably someone who suffers from narcissistic personality disorder... I wish more people were aware of these individuals with this type of personality, like truly aware... when you do a little research, or been unfortunate to have a parent, or to have crossed paths with one of these types people.... You will quickly figure out that they all are the same! The sad part is there is no helping them, there is not enough therapy in the world, not like they would ever go anyways, but literally nothing anyone could do to change these people for the better... I called them resource thieves, soaking up any an all the supply they possibly can, and usually ruining their own lives in there bizarre persuits driven by their ego's... They are the yin of the Yang, they are the darkness which is half of the balance towards light... There may be a small circle of light in their darkness, but not much! I will say that narcissistic individuals indeed are an integral part of Nature's divine Balance though... Just pray you never have to deal with one...
A few weeks ago I got mugged, and had zero adrenaline release or fight or flight response. I stood there like an NPC, said and did nothing. There was no fear response because that was the baseline feeling
If you know what anxiety feels like (especially if you always have it) you can turn that energy into adrenaline. You just have to convert it. So you’ll need to input an action. Sorry this happened to you. But freezing up is probably the safest thing you can do. Because it’s a baseline feeling, doing anything without knowing what is going to happen next can be terrifying if you’re afraid for your life. And if someone is desperate enough, they will take your life and you won’t be able to do anything about it.
I’m a Behavioral Therapist who works exclusively with adults diagnosed with ASD. Thank you for sharing this. It will be incredibly beneficial for many people for years to come.
I noticed a pattern while watching this. Death phobia. I’m autistic, so is my dad, and likely my niece. We all have that exact same phobia, manifested similarly and during childhood. I wonder if there’s a connection.
@@nunyabusinessllc behavioral therapy and psychiatric therapy are two separate sciences. I can’t speak on that, unfortunately. If there is any psychiatric help needed, I have to direct them elsewhere.
@@StarDustwolf77This crept over in my adulthood too. The death phobia. I have severe ocd revolving around death phobia to feel somewhat "in control". Is this something you deal w too??
I’m currently in the state of being horrifically agoraphobic and being diagnosed with chronic anxiety so this really really means a lot you’d share your experiences like this. Thank you on everyone’s behalf Edit: I’ve finished the video and it’s changed my perspective on a lot of things. I’m sitting here sobbing hysterically to Death Cab For Cutie and I just wanted to say thank you to anyone saying kind words to me and I send all the positive vibes to those going through the same things. We will come out stronger. Just like Caleb said, we gotta have faith and i have faith. I have faith everyone here will grow and feel better. Thank you🩵
I so appreciate you opening up about your mental health struggles. From the outside everyone thinks I’m fine but it’s so hard for me to express how difficult it is to exist in my mind. When I was a teen and young adult my anxiety gave me night terrors and caused me to be unable to eat or move my body for months at a time. I hate driving because I constantly have intrusive thoughts about driving into things or bad scenarios and are terrifying. Fear has controlled so much of my life. I’m afraid of dying but I’m also afraid of living.
I have mdd, severe depression, i am also a recovering fetty wap addict, my dad had asg and is bipolar and a recovering addict, my mom has bpd as well very very severe tho, my brother has like crippling anxiety. It's so easy to build creators like you as these amazing people who have everything under control, mental and what have you. Idk this made you feel extremely down to earth, even more so than you already were. Thanks for being cool enough to share your story
Holy crap…I’ve had panic disorder for years, but my agoraphobia came back in 2022. It’s been really bad this time around for me and I rarely leave the house, like once a week at this stage. I don’t have the mental capacity to watch your full vid now on this, but thank you for making it. This is so important
Same, I never went to school and got into alot of trouble for it almost daily, just stayed in my bed and wouldnt get up, ever, never touched a single test because I just couldnt keep up with school work on the rare day a week I did go in, I've pretty much lived on disability till now and I'm 27, tried to do some work things through some clubs etc but every time I couldnt handle it, I also suffer from major depressive disorder and CPTSD from some bullying from my own father and other kids in school, anyway I'm getting off track, been on a waiting list for adhd for like a year now so hopefully if I get medicated for that it will finally help me, people like oomp give me the hope people like me can do something I guess.
@@soloz944 thank you! And I know the overthinking thing well. I’m in therapy and have meds, doing everything I can possibly do to get better, but it unfortunately takes time.
Currently figuring out my own panic disorder, so this video helps a lot. It's been tough and often accompanied by the most soul shattering, weeks long derealization. Not in a financial place to get the psych help I need, but I'm doing my best with what I got. My wonderful partner helps me realize and rationalize my symptoms because a lot of my issues stem from health anxiety, but I'm also dealing with the newly developed agoraphobia. I'm learning my triggers and what symptoms are really my nervous system/brain freaking out. Things are improving and this gives me hope for my recovery :) thank you oompa
I've recently gone through the same thing. Still am obviously. Even though I feel like I've figured out my triggers and cue words I find myself spiraling. But it's reading and hearing about people like you and oompa with similar problems that make me feel much better, more human, and more connected.
I've been exactly where you are for about a decade. I've gotten a lot better the past 2 years after seeking professional help and rarely have panic issues now. Pretty much never full on panic attacks. Mine is also health triggers. Check out the book "don't feed the monkey mind". Helped a lot. also research inner family systems. There's always a deeper issue to address and this way of thinking is the most productive. For me it was working towards being ok with death/dying. Still a work in progress but you have to face your fears if you are to ever get better.
As someone who also has Aspergers/ASD1 and also suffers from pretty intense anxiety, panic disorder, depression. This video helped a lot. There’s a lot of things in this video that I’ve found relatable or have experienced almost one to one, especially when it came to sleep related anxieties. And also just not understanding that I needed to ask for help. Actually it’s only been since 2023 that I started really asking for help. And only within this last month at 27 I’ve finally started meeting with a mental health expert. Hearing what you’ve gone through and seeing that you have gotten better definitely gives me some more hope that things will improve. It’s really easy to lose sight of that, especially when you’re having an anxiety or depressive episode. It’s so easy to just get stuck in that mentality or get exhausted emotionally when you have to deal with it often. But again, videos like this help a lot. And I sincerely thank you for making it.
ive watched you since 2019 and since then youve had a huge impact on my life. i am also on the spectrum & ive struggled a lot with it, especially when i was a child since i was undiagnosed for so long. ive always found so much comfort in your videos & you being so open about this is truly so so comforting. thank you for being vulnerable with us and for letting us listen! you are a precious soul.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
The sleep anxiety part is so relatable to me man, I didn’t know it was something anyone else but me experienced. It’s gotten to points where I’ll message everyone that I love that I love them in fear that it could be the last time I get to say it.
Kinda same except didnt really care about anyone enough to say i love them or anything, but it was just a constant circle of almost falling asleep and then jerking myself awake terrified cause what if i don't wake up again.
@@allinefeyn9224 I used to get that super bad when I was a teen, I started meditating and listening to sleep videos on youtube when i was older which fortunetly got rid of it, but I'd feel like falling asleep was losing control of my mind. I couldn't fall asleep unless I was so tired I passed out. It was so weird. Surprised its so common ! Still haven't hacked the general anxiety tho lol
@@Llkolii yeah im also doing a lot better now but it took getting diagnosed with cPTSD lots of therapy and drugs and i guess just time i think in my case it was less about anxiety but rather having constant nightmares where i end up dying and such. Its weird how strong and resilient humans can be but at the same time very easily broken
Seriously, thank you for sharing your story. Just like so many others here, I relate so much to this. Been dealing with an anxiety disorder due to PTSD since as young as I can remember. The sleep anxiety and heart problems…. Man.. nearly made me cry hearing you talk about it. Dealing with both these things myself.. one day at a time. And you’re so right about feeling different after the 25 year mark. It’s crazy how once you get there you almost immediately notice a difference. I appreciate you talking so openly about this 💙
This is the first video I’ve ever seen that matches so well with how I felt almost my whole life. I’ve never said anything to anyone and still faking to this day. I don’t know where to start but this has given me the want to at least start asking.
A lot of this deeply resonated with me. It makes me feel so thankful to hear more about your lore while I’ve been going through a the roughest menty b in years currently. I suffer a lot from anxiety and agoraphobia but as I’m trying to gain more stability in my life finally nearing 27, it’s reassuring to know I’m not the only person who suffers alone and struggles to use the resources to gain understanding around why I have such a hard time existing. Thank you Oompa for your transparency and vulnerability while delivering it in a sincere way.
I never leave my house and I have social anxiety, but when I leave the house I try to strike up conversation with people or at least compliment something about them. This helps me feel more comfortable in public.
I’m in recovery from fentanyl I’m 18 years old and I’m an independent artist currently working in the substance treatment field as an outreach coordinator. I have 5 months sober from fentanyl after 6 years of use, 10+ overdoses, 3 rehab visits, 2 juvenile hall visits one being from a false positive from a medication I was prescribed IN rehab so I had to fight an entire case, blah blah blah. Anyways I wanted to say I resonate with what you have to say and thank you for being here ❤
hey stranger! i'm so proud of you!!! five months is absolutely nothing to sneeze at, you should be so proud of yourself as well. just remember that recovery isn't a straight line so don't beat yourself up if things feel really hard down the line. keep it up!!!
@@tiffanydurden Thank you so much, this isn't my first time getting clean but fingers crossed it's the last as my life has truly improved this time around
That’s awesome! 5 months is a huge deal and a big accomplishment keep it up! I remember when I couldn’t go a whole day sober and I’m celebrating 2 years next month, I’m certified peer recovery specialist and am in awe of how my life has changed, I’m rooting for you!
Growing up I was always worried about everything around me. I spent so much time playing video games because something as simple as going to the park or meeting new people was so scary to me. I remember when I was 8 I had an existential crisis that if I die I might never exist again for the rest of eternity. I never told me parents about it because I just thought everyone else felt the same way as me. After high school, and going into college, my anxiety and depression got worse. Sometimes it would get so bad I was spiral for hours thinking about everything that could go wrong in my life. It was genuinely crippling. Finally spoke to a doctor when I was 18 years old about everything I was feeling and was diagnosed with GAD and depression. Started taking antidepressants and going to see a therapist and I'm doing a lot better now. Still hard some days, but I've learned a lot about dealing with it. Funnily enough, when I was diagnosed, my family doctor actually told me that he wasn't surprised I was feeling this way because of my family history. I then learned that my Dad actually had anxiety and used to take medication when he was in college. Just makes me wonder how many mental health issues go undiagnosed in children and teens. Thank you for talking about this it means a lot.
hearing you speak about your childhood as a kid really gives me a deep envy, almost jealousy of being able to talk about things like that in such a deep way, while also being hard for me to imagine because i just can't remember anything from any of my elementary and early middle school years, starting from the age of 5 and going all the way to 11 there is absolutely nothing other than a few 'breaks' as i call them because that's what makes sense to me. the first break being me spending thirty minutes sobbing in the middle of art class and being completely inconsolable because the class had to draw "a happy picture", during that, i was only wondering why it made me cry, and i remember going back to having a bored face and not talking. I call them breaks not because my emotions broke, but because i was on some insane dose of ADHD meds and they made me feel nothing and remember nothing long term, with each break being a break from the effect where i felt and remembered something, and these breaks being the only parts of being a young child that i remember gives me that sense of envy for you being able to remember any of yours so clearly. but it feels like i can never share this with a professional past "i don't trust pills due to a mis-perscription as a kid" or else i WILL get dubbed unfit for regular life either way, i want to thank you for making and posting a video like this, it means much to me in a way i'm unable to explain
You should 100% address this with your mental health professional. Sounds like it’s still visceral and painful for you and they won’t respond the way you’re afraid they will.
I also agree with them. I have told my mental health professional things that i thought i would take to the grave. It really helps clear stuff up! I wish you all the best Ferro!!
It's crazy how much similar my situation is, even down to the smallest detail, like my birthday being in the middle of the year and how I still dont celebrate it because its never meant anything to me, the jobs, the hobbies that I monetized and got scorned for, the heavy breathing, the sewer slidal thoughts and the constant panic... Thanks for making this video! Listening to it feels almost creepy and I heard a lot of stuff that hit home and even heard a bunch that I've never looked at in that way, which is surreal and helpful.
13 mins in and im relating so hard. I lost three siblings in the first 5 years of my life and always expected to go as well. I would write notes to my parents apologising for dying and hurting them. Then in the morning I'd destroy the notes. They had no idea until i told my mum when i was about 30.
This channel is something of a comfort for me, simply based around how much I can relate to your attitude and way of thinking. Thank you for sharing your experiences. It hits different when someone you look up to is able to open up and tell their story in a way that you learn from and come away from as a better person.
I have panic disorder and agoraphobia too! It’s improved a lot over the years with therapy and meds and I’m able to go out to a few places a couple times a week. I think I’ll need to come back to watch the full video at a later time when I’m in a better headspace, but just wanted to thank you already just for making it.
As a 55yo woman I TOTALLY appreciate hearing this!!! I’ve been through depression, anxiety & eating disorders. You are absolutely right when you say it’s truly mind over matter. Keeping reality real in your mind can be difficult, but the earlier you catch it happening the quicker you can stop it!! It does take time & practice but it helps SO much. Again thank you for your transparency, I know it helped me & I’m sure t others that can relate in one way or another. ❤❤❤
Thanks so much for sharing. I have been diagnosed with ASD Level 2, ADHD inattentive type, Agoraphobia, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, Depression and I recovered from Anorexia Nervosa in my mid-20s. I have been through a lot of trauma and also have gut and acid reflux issues which are actually really common for people with ASD... I was throwing up everyday for years and I also didn't tell anyone, there's so much I never tell anyone so I relate to that and all the panic attacks! I recall you mentioning your ASD in another video and it was why I've subscribed, because you speak so well in your videos and you're so entertaining and seeing someone else with ASD doing what you do is inspiring to me. I am in a leadership position in a creative agency (design and development is a special interest), but I am horrible at speaking to people so I admire what you do so much! I started trauma therapy last week and seeing a psychologist who specialises in ASD which has been helping me understand how my brain works and things are getting better. Only doing all this now in my early 30s so it's never too late :)
You gave some of the best explanations about what goes on in your head during the dark times!! Glad you were able to get to the point in your life to share your experiences!
For nearly a whole year I was constantly in a state of panic and impending sense of doom, it was nightmareish and therapy could only do so much. As of currently I still have episodes that can last up to months, the affects are irreversible. I feel very seen from this video and it makes me feel a bit braver and stronger as a person for trying my best despite all this. Watching the rest of the video, I find it almost shocking to hear about the heart thing as well. I was born with a heart condition, A.V canal complete- It's almost scary how I can understand to a degree.
I used to be terrified that I’d wake up and my parents and siblings would be gone. Not dead but just having left me. It’s helpful to hear your perspective on your childhood. ❤
Hey Oompa, I just want to say how much this means to me. I have a very close loved one in my life with struggles of their own, and all though I may not understand them all the time, as an outsider I have always had hope for healing and you have just added one more perspective validating that to be true. Thank you for sharing, we need more people like you out there.
Thank you, my brother passed in march and it’s completely changed my outlook on life. I’ve been working on myself realizing all the unnecessary anxiety I bring onto myself, you’ve given me more faith that I can get through it and better myself:)
For the past couple of years I have what I called “panic attacks” It started in high school and got so much worse especially last year until I started destroying stuff during these attacks and ended up almost killing myself from a certain attack. I still had no idea what it was I actually thought it was a tumor, until you literally started talking about your symptoms. I thought I was the only one and literally everyone has tried to help me with no answers. 2022 and 2023 was horrible for me I was mixture of stress and depression. This year has been looking up I’m in a much better place and even though my attacks are still around they aren’t so bad so I don’t tell people or worry about (I now know what it is thanks to this video and will get it checked out) I am getting help where it is needed too without getting too terribly personal. I greatly appreciate this video thank you oompa
you are so real for this. growing up i had a lot of similar issues with anxiety, sleep, and worrying about my parents leaving or something happening to them. it’s really cool to see someone talking about all of this.
Having grown up constantly believing I was weird or different, and also having bad anxiety made it hard for me to believe that nowadays anxiety and social problems are more common. And you being one of my favorite UA-camrs who usually keeps things light hearted and just not talking about yourself in general, you coming out about this makes me remember that even people who seem very normal in my eyes are capable of having issues. And with videos like this it helps me feel less alone. Thanks oompa ❤
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. This felt like a therapy session. I have always said that if everyone would tell their story, there would be no stigma. I was sexually abused by my older sister from the ages of 9 to 11. Sexually assaulted at 14 and again at 22. Each time I decided it didn't matter and didn't affect me. I didn't realize that it was tearing me apart inside until I completely lost it at 30. I haven't spoken to my older sister since then and I haven't been on a date or spoken to a man since and that was almost 3 years ago. When I let go of needing someone else to fix me it was so freeing. Not to mention that men didn't fix me. They only took advantage and further broke me. Dont be ashamed to reach out for help. There are so many people willing to help you with whatever you need to live a more fulfilling life. The longer you wait, the more time you're wasting when you could've just been living happily and thriving. You don't have to fix everything alone. I hope everyone finds their happiness and peace one day 🥰
oompaville we have the same birthday (thank you for sharing this. i found this video after having constant breakdowns caused by intrusive, racing thoughts, and its comforting to know that i can relate to someone i look up too. you are very smart and kind and im happy you have a platform you feel comfortable sharing your experience on.)
i currently have agoraphobia (in addition to a bunch of other stuff, anxiety ptsd depression whatever) but the agoraphobia has made it really hard for me to leave my house (duh) even to water the plants. i live in an apartment and i really don’t like interacting with people (paranoia and introvert), so i just stay inside so i don’t see people. because there’s no readily available nature spot i can go and sit in, i mostly just sit inside and play video games or read. i should be registered for my fall college classes, but i’m procrastinating. i should be getting a job, but i’m making excuses why to wait (some are valid but not enough to stop me from getting a job). i have therapy today, i’m going to talk about this video and how i am reassured that no i will not in fact get stalked and murdered if i leave my house, and i am strong enough to interact with the world on a more regular basis. thank you mr ville
Words can’t explain how much this has helped me, I’m new to this type of feeling, had my first major panic/anxiety attack a couple of days ago and thought I was dying. And ever since then things just felt weird and I’ve been trying to feel normal. But you’re really putting this thing into prospective and making me feel better and I can’t thank you enough!! I’m 23 and have faith that then will get better and I have lots to live for❤❤
Thank you so much for this video Caleb. I've developed anxiety and ideations of "game over" in my mid-late 30's, and this video legit helped my brain a bit. Obviously I have to put in work, but feeling less-alone is a huge thing, so thank you for being vulnerable and sharing everything.
I have been in therapy for my anxiety for almost 8 years now and having to explain to people that it's not just a little anxious; it's like everytime I get anxiety my whole world shatters around me and I am free falling into the abyss. It got worse in 2013 because of a huge tragedy. Thankfully I am doing well with therapy. Getting help is really the best and I am able to do things that make me anxious without having a complete breakdown now. Hearing about your story it does make me feel better because everyone has different experiences, but overall there are other people struggling with things as well. Sometimes similar things.
As someone who wants to become a therapist hate the fact he went through this but I love how he made this video it first brings more awareness to asd shows us a look through there eyes and for me showed me how much deeper anxiety is then panic attacks and racing thoughts thanks for making this oompaville
This story, from the panic attacks and the bouts of anxiety, to the depressive episodes and tumultuous personal life circumstances echoes my feelings and contextualizes a lot of what I’ve felt and been through in my life. Listening to you saying all this legitimately helped me understand a lot of what I feel. This really helped! Thanks❤
WE LOVE YOU!!!!! I have major anxiety. For me, I had to do something the same everyday or else something bad would happen. Seeing you come out with this helps a lot! I still have this, but it slowed down. It makes me feel like I am not alone. Thank you
That sounds like some potential OCD symptoms, is that something you've asked your medical team about? I have a friend with severe OCD and he has "rituals" that he feels he must do or people will get hurt. Please only respond if you're comfortable with it and I hope you're doing well today :)
@@LovetheSource I feel comfortable thank you for asking!! I have asked about it to my main doctor and she says it's just anxiety but other doctors say I might have both anxiety or OCD. I am a minor (16) so I cannot do too much to ask for a test yet. My mom and dad do help me with my anxiety with herbal supplements.
@@bethizz I'm glad your parents are supportive!! It can take a while to get a proper diagnosis, especially with mental health and depending on what specific doctors you happen to get, so patience is important. Make sure you advocate for yourself and be as honest as possible! If it ever feels like doctors are brushing you off, make your voice heard! It sounds like you're handling things well already though. Wish you the best :)
I love this video! Thanks for sharing. My son has ASD and it helps with some insight on what he could be feeling or understanding…and myself with anxiety I completely know what those crazy panic attacks can do. It’s insane. This was really heartwarming to hear… ☀️❤️ I also have SVT and it can get scary at times. Man….this video was something I needed to hear. Thank you.
I know what you mean about not wishing it on your worst enemy. I've been dealing with a lot of the same things you were, off and on, for ten years. Anxiety and dissociation that I never struggled with and social anxiety suddenly became major issues. Personally, I'm glad you made the decision to make this video. It helps to know you're not alone, you know?
I am a 32 year old man who has been dealing with anxiety and depression all my life. How you have explained all this has helped me so much to see how others deal with all the same debilitating things I have. It has been so hard and has caused so many problems in my life. I fight with it every day. The panic attacks I have had have completely changed my life since the first time it happened. To the point where I have days where I have absolutely no control over the disfunction inside my head. You don't even know how much Watchung this and listening to you talk about this helps me. It's so hard and there is so much more to it I wish I had the words to explain why this means so much.
Tell your story! Even if you don't show it to someone. Doing what Caleb just did can be incredibly cathartic. And know that you wake up to Forever when you die and this experience periscopes down to a tiny dot in a sea of forever. And you can spend an eternity planning your next incarnation. Trust that you came here with a plan and especially when nothing is going your way, trust that how you let the experiences you chose render you is the point of us coming here. Your life is curated, choreographed, concise and created specifically to render your healing specifically. All we are here to do is to heal until we are flawless and then we volunteer and eventually make the journey again. Light escaping a blackhole is us returning to the beginning and starting over again. May you be well, May you be happy, May you be at peace!
Same man, I've been in a really rough patch of HATING my job the last 2 years and feeling miserable, it hurts my stomach everyday thinking about work and I don't see a way out. The sad thing is that great things have happened to me in these years, but I couldn't 100% enjoy them because of this feeling of doom and I hate myself for it. 32 yo and I feel exactly like oompa described it, as stuck in a mental prison, like a fish in a bowl
This sounds a lot like my current problems. I didn't start dealing with all of this until recently and it's just a lot. There are many times where I just completely black out during my streams and yeah. SO. This is comforting to hear. I'm very happy for you! and I hope things continue to get better :)
Hey man, take it easy on yourself. I’m also autistic, and I’ve had super bad anxiety since I was a child. Then got hit with the PTSD and depression. We still love you and your content, my guy. Take your time and listen to your brain. Mental health matters, and needs to be seen as important in men too.
Aight bro I got to the medicaid office this morning and they have expanded medicaid in my state. They're gonna help me get signed up for healthcare so I can see a mental health professional and check out my physical health too. Lets do this.
This helped me oomp. I literally just got off the phone with suicide prevention and then when I hopped on my Xbox and saw this it really helped. Thank you.
Hope you never need to call that phone ever again. Sounds cringe but: When you walk through a storm Hold your head up high And don't be afraid of the dark At the end of a storm There's a golden sky And the sweet silver song of a lark Walk on through the wind Walk on through the rain For your dreams be tossed and blown Walk on, walk on With hope in your heart And you'll never walk alone You'll never walk alone Walk on, walk on With hope in your heart And you'll never walk alone You'll never walk alone !!!
Great video. I’ve been working on managing dissociation and anxiety in a similar situation for several years and the biggest help so far for me has been getting healthier, drinking less and seeing a therapist that i actually connect with. Still a long way to go mentally but this video helped give some extra perspective. Much appreciated, Mr. ville
I just want say thank you for telling your story. every individual’s story is very important and unique. For example, I deal with Bipolar II and it’s extremely hard for me. honestly im scared. i cant control my emotions and sometimes i feel like im just losing it. its hard to explain but its very overwhelming for me and it makes me feel extremely alone. However, stories like yours show me that I am not the only person who had dealt with mental health issues. More importantly, you have found success despite those issues. That truly gives me hope that maybe ill find success and happiness too. i just dont know when that will be. thank you so much Oompa :)
Ahh the classic: Trapped and can't run from my own mind, but having parents who in hindsight were a touch mentally ill and called clearly presenting symptoms "just normal adult stuff". We love em and they did their best as they believed. Thank you for being vulnerable, you're a great storyteller and man this is hitting at a time I'm really needing it. 💙
Dude we might be spiritual twins... having aspergers as a kid and not understanding why I felt and was different was hard... I wasn't home schooled though and I went military to "fix" me... but in the core of your struggles I went through the exact same thing. That's wild man. I'm glad you're ok and can reach out and help others with it today. Love you bro.
I don’t reply to videos ever. I’ve been subscribed to you for a little over a year and greatly enjoy your content. My son was diagnosed with ASD when he was 6, he’s 17 now. I was diagnosed with ASD at 43, two years ago. This video hit me in the feels. The forgetting of major events, the lack of empathy, but being terrified that my loved ones would die and I would die? That was me and that is most definitely my son ( among other things) Thank you for sharing
I was diagnosed with anxiety as a teenager and ended up needing a combination of medication and therapy to help manage it. One of my earliest experiences with anxiety that I can remember from childhood was the feeling I’d get whenever one of my parents would leave the house. The second I couldn’t see their car anymore, I would immediately feel sick to my stomach, imagining them getting into a car crash and convincing myself they weren’t going to make it home. To this day I still experience a little bit of that anxiety whenever my siblings leave the house, and sometimes when I’m especially struggling, I find myself worried that the ambulance sirens I hear way off in the distance are for one of them. I’ve gotten a lot better over the years and no longer require medication to manage, but it’s an ongoing battle. Anyways, all this to say that I appreciate the video and feel a lot less alone/helpless between hearing your experiences and other commenters’.
It's nice to see creators struggle the same way, I'm going through this rn and I have ever since I was a lil girl, but I'm trying my best and ik someday I won't be struggling anymore
Related to quite a lot of this to be honest. I remember having huge insane meltdowns as a child pretty consistently, and my parents always chalked it up to me just being a brat. Had REALLY terrible anxiety/depression all throughout middle and high school, had bad thoughts about taking my own life. Had ZERO friends. And I mean it, I had zero irl friends. I lived on the computer. Turns out, and I know this now as an adult: I exhibit many traits of Autism, but being a girl it wasn't something doctors leaned towards diagnosing as much as they did with boys. It's whatever now, I think I've kind of learned how to adapt.
Honestly, i love videos like this. I have struggled off and on for years and seeing people who I idolize have similar struggles always makes me feel less alone. Thank you Oompa ❤
This got me through my 10hr shift because I've felt like this so much and felt like no one experienced intense anxiety like this being a young male adult you just feel all these expectations. Idk but thank you oompa your goal of helping definitely delivered and im very glad to have seen this video. Very relatable and so helpful knowing people aren't alone
You sharing your story is so very appreciated. My whole life was a whirlwind of mental health issues and hospitalizations for about 12 years. I’m not completely out of the woods but overall I’ve turned my life around to be a productive adult and it’s surreal. Thank you for being open about your experience, something about hearing others share parts of their life is very comforting.
Than you for uploading this video. Im going through a really rough post breakup period / depressive phase and almost had an emotional breakdown while out shopping with my parents. Ive always struggled with feeling lonely and spiraling off of that into depression or suicidal tendencies. It's been hard for me to sleep and also hard for me to get out of bed or look forward to my future. Hearing about how things got better for you when you were objectively in a more difficult situation than I am really makes it a little easier for me to see the light. Plus seeking therapy, working out, hanging with friends or family and just putting myself out there have helped me so much to not just give up and die. I love you man Im glad things have been getting so much better for you and youre truly an inspiration for me.
You’re so amazing! idk how but this video helped me especially since I’m so young. Yet I can’t ask for help idk how or why I can’t. I’m just suffering basically in silence and I’m always in my own world but your videos keep me on my feet believe it or not and I’m very grateful for you even though I don’t know you personally. We love you Oompaville.
My son (5yo) has been commenting randomly about the concept of death recently, and asking questions like "what happens when people "oof" as he calls it. He's explained to me some bad dreams of late, even becoming emotional about when asked...Saying things like "I just don't want *insert favourite person* to oof and it makes me sad" and I can see that it's visibly stressing his young brain about such profound things that I don't recall contemplating about at his age.... or even older than he is now. For the record- he is not subjected to any overtly morbid/violent stimulus that could gear toward these thoughts....it's just out of the blue as far as I can pertain. I'll be honest... Not sure how to traverse this as a 44yo dad, except to re-assure and enforce with him that everything is.... and will be fine. Maybe my boy is showing slight ASD traits?? His imagination and general learning curves are next-level besides the morbid mindset, and otherwise very kind, content and positive for the most part.... It's not a common occurrence, and he's quite sharp and jovial 99% of the time. Just a little un-nerving to me and his mom, and very unsettling when he comes out casually with bad dreams of the afterlife.... and gets quite emotional about it. Like he knows something we don't, and even he doesn't understand why? Beyond this...I've been learning that there may be some ADHD genealogy in my family. One thing about Oomp is hes able to analyse social concepts, and dissect all avenues regarding it - and all the while not pussyfoot around the stigmas of ASD and more common neurodivergence. You're a real one Caleb.
Encourage your child to create imaginary friends and stories about their future. Cultivate the notion that your child came here as someone planning to do something. Right now, even the most evolved conscious agencies can't remember from one instance to the next because its so taboo in our culture, but be curious and do your research about what happens when we are not here. It's time for us to shift back to remembering. I am 53 and just spent the last 7 years in a healing journey that is EPIC AF and one of the learnings has been that those stories I soothed myself with when I was a child, the stories of how the problem I have I chose so that I wouldn't have too easy of a time and would struggle in ways that were confusing and frustrating. I believed I was very ancient and had come here to remedy what was ailing us. I forgot about all of that until the healing process I had to go through as a child resumed 7 years ago. What I believe now is that my whole story is allegorical to the teaching I am here to convey. It sounds like the diagnostic criteria for a mental illness, which gave me a eureka moment about all of this. The very experience I have had is precisely what is being systematically and systemically occluded and obfuscated from our awareness. Naturally, anyone slated to make this point is going to have a rough time of jt if they came here with a message that really threatens Empire.
“Being in a prison of your own making is an advantage because you are the one with the key to escape” I didn’t know how much I needed to hear this at the point I’m at in my life. As someone who’s also on the autism spectrum and also has an insistence on not reaching out for help, this quote, along with this whole video, really spoke to me. I’m happy to hear that you were able to get yourself out of all of these intense mental struggles that were bestowed upon you, Caleb! Hopefully, now that you’ve graciously given me something to go off of, I can follow in your footsteps and be just as amazing as you one day! But, even if I don’t, you’ve still earned tremendous amounts of respect from me and every single other one of your millions of subscribers for this video! Keep doing amazing things, Caleb! 👍💖💖💕💕💕💕
This really resonated with me, I was stunned how much I relate to your mental struggles. I was a sperger with diagnosed ADHD and ADD and I always acted out and tried my best to do what's right. I was a major hypochondriac while growing up, watching "monsters inside me" didn't help at all. I was a borderline insomniac staying up late and having my mind just keep going nonstop. It's gotten better overtime. I always felt angry and sad as a kid nonstop, very angry anxious and confused. The only thing that really kept me going was a feeling of determination that better times will come eventually. When I hit around 23-24 is when it finally started mellowing out and I learned how to better deal with my own head and finally get into better diets losing weight and working out. Thanks for sharing, if I was watching this years ago this would've helped me a lot
I'm a woman one so yes we are here and watching! I have been disabled because of agoraphobia since 2021 and finally go outside! I appreciate you talking about stuff like this in general. You've always been pretty open about it but it was nice to see someone els human experience
as someone who has been diagnosed with ocd as an adult, its weirdly comforting that im not the only person dealing with severe paranoia around my family and friends dying in their sleep, especially as a little kid. i also struggle with paranoia/anxiety around my physical health and growing up i NEVER told anyone about these issues, so over time developed compulsions to keep the anxiety at bay. long story short, this video hits very close to home. i would like to say for anyone struggling with similar experiences that you aren't alone here and your life WILL get better over time with any sort of support system you can find. it's important to be honest and vulnerable to heal. to everyone (and oompa): be kind and patient with yourself, you deserve to have a life to call your own💙
Absolutely love this video Caleb! I grew up in a family of horse people, my mom was also a riding instructor. I showed horses in 4H from the time I could walk, went to state one time and placed 4th in the state of North Carolina. But about the anxiety, I struggle as well. Sometimes go months without even talking to anyone outside my family. (other than at work of course) But just know you're awesome and many people look up to you. We all love you from the bottom of our hearts, keep on keeping on, you're awesome!
Oompa your videos make me incredibly happy, this video specifically though i relate to alot. I have a really hard time with compulsive obsessions, especially involving the death of my loved ones. The worst part about the thoughts is theyre impossible to escape. Once the idea enters my brain its like a cancer that just grows and grows until i literally just cry and scream at myself to stop thinking like that. Its something ive had to deal with most of my life and im not really sure why. Thannk you for sharing this.
When I was a child I also had a lot of anger and violence issues and punched myself as self harm, but I'm diagnosed with Bipolar & bpd among other things, and my father has bpd as well. Interesting how similar symptoms lead to different roads.
Have been watching you for a few months now. Thank you so much for this video and every other video where you talk about this stuff. I'm going through my own anxiety and depression issues for the past few years now and this stuff helps. It helps to know anyone in all walks of life can and do go through this stuff and you just never know. It helps me feel less alone and that with time and effort I can manage too. Love you for this.
Very down to earth, refreshing video to listen to. There were some terms and explanations that stood out to me because they unexpectedly hit home in several places. Makes me curious to look into because it could help someone I’m close to. Generally enjoy the silliness of your content but this break in pace is much appreciated. Also on a whim a while back, I ordered some of the sour boy candies. Didn’t expect to enjoy them so much but I ran out of my supply the day I got them. Really great product and I look forward to being a regular customer.
I feel the pain on this. I went to school and always had a hard time focusing and I always got in trouble. Long story short, i got diagnosed with physcosis when I was already out of school. I wish I would've had others around to help find out what was wrong sooner. It definitely caused a lot of issues, and I got in trouble a lot due to my issues. Nice to see a big name bringing light to mental health. Love you, Oompy
The stuff when you were a kid reminds me of my son who is 7. We've been working with him since he was 4 and have not been able to make much progress with his anger and meltdowns. Thank you for this video, the insight is invaluable.
This was first video in a long time that i watch without need to look away or grab a phone. The way you described anxiety is just on point and to be honest you deconstructed someting i didnt even knew wasnt a base. Thankyou for shraing this ... i gues i need to go think about my anxienty for a moment. I am so glad that i found your chanel this year. Thank you
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I grew up dealing with the same debilitating mental illness and still to this day can't believe I survived it. Just celebrated my 3 year anniversary with the best therapist I have ever had and it still surprises me that I am not only just ok but happy and am able to help other find happiness. Something I never thought I could ever have or do. Its alot of work but if anyone out there feels hopeless and pretty much on a completely different planet, I promise you it can change. Take that step to seek professional help, surrender and give yourself some compassion!.
I have CVID and chronic lung disease, I’ve been so lonely since I’m mostly bedridden and on oxygen, Thank you Oompa, I know you won’t see this probably but your one of my comfort UA-camrs, you always cheer me up when things are bad, I really appreciate you and everything you do.
Hey friend, I hope you feel better. I'm sorry to hear that. Been battling pneumonia since January and glued to an oxygen machine since. Getting better tho. ❤
This video feels like it was personally made for me, the thing of trapping yourself in your own mind and beating yourself up and not knowing why is so frustrating and it wears you down so much faster. Thankyou so much for this video man, started watching you at the start of the year after getting your videos recommended for ages. For sure my comfort channel and go to dude.
This video really helps. I’ve been going through a lot and trying to ignore it and whenever I talk to my parents about it they don’t understand and say “that’s just your anxiety”. I feel understood and more human now. Thank you!
Freshman year of college I went through the exact situation. I was 6' tall and only weighed 100lb and would never leave my dorm, just laying around playing mgs all day every day. It's so cool to hear someone I look up to talk about going through a similar situation. Love you father oompa❤️
This is a video I’ve wanted to make for a very long time. I’m not asking to be seen as a sympathetic character but I believe I have the opportunity for some to find my experience relatable and potentially valuable, especially to those with ASD. Maybe I can help 10%. Let me know your thoughts!!
Kris Tyson vid coming tomorrow I’m not avoiding, it this video is better than that one.
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Love your vids man
my anxiety goes hard sometimes and i am not a fan of it
but i am a fan of oompa lore
Woah it’s berd, creator of the skunk series
I used to have bad anxiety but I just traded it in for depression WOULDN’T recommend it
jawsh forcing berd to work overtime to be funny in his video puts a strain on him /j
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oompaville, you are my myth busters. I am a fourteen year old girl. I struggle with extreme suicide ideation, self harm, depression and very bad anorexia. I have been watching you for four years now, I watched you when u was in hospital, when I would bed rot for weeks, when I needed to escape my own thoughts.
a month ago I attempted, I was shaking and could barely move-if I was in my right mind I would of called my father or scream out for help but I watched one of your videos. I layed on the ground for hours and hours simply watching your videos until I could stand up and get myself water.
my first night in hospital I was terrified, I was tubed and could hear other patients crying. I watched one of your Amazon videos. my brian was so fried from not eating that all I can remember from my hospital stay where the video I watched, your videos.
if you do nothing else in life, just know that you saved a young girl from herself. thank you so much.
Im so glad your still here❤ there are people who care about you, I know what your going threw is hard and I know you probably are sick of hearing this but it will get better! Keep fighting. You are loved. And I know I’m just a random person on the internet and we don’t know each other but I care about you and if you ever need to talk about anything
with no judgment I’m here. I know I already said this but I’m so happy you are still here with us❤
You are so strong, loved, and NEEDED here🤍 I am so proud that you turned to a source of joy like these videos in your darkest times. Keep doing that, keep going, keep turning to sources of joy so it becomes habit. You’ve got this🫶🏼
Don't ever quit. Life is hard but if you keep going it will be worth it in the end. Stay and consult in the people that love you, you got this girl! You got to always live for tomorrow. ❤
@@Moomiewoomie33 i am so proud of you!! im fifteen years old and i relate a lot with youre story. i promise you will find peace, and someday the pain does end without harming yourself. no matter what state of mind you are in, try your best to stay away from hurting yourself and drugs because they are never the answer.
Hang in there u got this! so happy ur here with us
As someone with borderline crippling depression and anxiety; hearing bigger creators allowing themselves to be open and vulnerable to speak about their own struggles, helps me feel less lonely. knowing people with massive influence and a massive voice really helps inspire me to keep trying and to keep going. Thank you for being so open about yourself, it truly is inspiring to hear you speak about how you just kept going 🤍
Money doesn't buy happiness gotta find that within yourself. It's hard sometimes, especially since the world we live in, but I do believe you can find that room for the happiness
I want you to know, it may feel crippling, but you are the master of your own mind. One day I promise you will figure out the maze of your mind and navigate it like the back of your hand. Coming from someone who has (and still is, but less intensely) been depressed and anxious, along with ocd and add for most of my conscious life. Everything works out in the end, you just have to be a friend to yourself and learn to understand yourself.
@@gravepiss6321 I really needed to hear that
"True unbridled fear of nothing at all." A perfect description of anxiety.
I've always had a problem with going to sleep, but it's gotten worse recently. It's anxiety based, but it doesn't stem from fears of my family members dying or anything like that. it's more like I'm afraid I'm going to miss out on something when I'm unconscious, or if I wake up late to some thing I have scheduled like work.
Sleeping on the floor actually sounds pretty relaxing, not gonna lie and I don't know why...
You know what would help to you? Stop using your phone
@@slammygrinder6708 I don't use my phone that much, it's not the problem.
It's quite literally just anxiety giving me an elevated heartrate and a mindstate that literally prohibits my ability to sleep. I've had nights were I just turn in my bed with everything else about me tiring except for my mind, not falling asleep.
It's agonizing sometimes, I WISH I could fix it with just minimal contact to my phone.
I remember as a teenager telling my father that I thought something was wrong with me and I might need to see a psychologist and his response was to let me know that I was fine and no one in our family needs a shrink. Turns out after my time in the military I ended up being diagnosed with chronic major depression, generalized anxiety disorder and PTSD. I don't believe all of that came from my time in the service....just unchecked mental health issues that slowly built up over time. I respect you 100% for being open and trying to help others who deal with any type of M.H issue.
keep on going man, always remember you're needed here! hope you're doing well
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At age 40 having anxiety and depression helped along with narcolepsy and chronic pain disorder, this video helps me. Knowing how my experiences with anxiety are what others have felt actually makes the "you can change your way of thinking and improve your life" talk have more weight to them. It's easy for people without the disorders to say things will get better, but hearing a fellow anxiety club member say it makes it feel possible.
Same. Disabled with anxiety and depression. World needs to change about this and we need to talk more.
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@@ChatMort69420 A-D-N-F gang for life. We might not do things often, or when we mean to, but when we DO something, it's usually pretty awesome.
Most other members have also been in the same field of tech and mechanical work, which is nice to be able to talk to people about fixing a pinball machine, followed by modding a power wheels finishing with nerf over volting without being looked at like I'M the weird one.
100% same! Also glad to see an older oompa fan on here. I'm 38 lol
34 here, almost identical circumstances. We should start a discord and hype each other up every day, lol. It's nice knowing you're not alone because it certainly feels that way every day.
Oompa - I grew up in Maryland near the DC line and now live in WV, very close to Virginia!!! I drive through Front Royal every time I go back to Maryland!!! Thank you for this video. Mental health was a serious struggle for a huge amount of my life growing up and it is refreshing when people you watch speak up about their own struggles. I’m doing so much better now 🫶🏻✌🏻💚
When I was younger I remember having an argument with my dad where he was fully not listening to what I had to say, just repeating the same sentence over and over again. I begged him crying to listen to me as he kept droning over me. I got so frustrated I bashed my own head into the wall hard enough to bust my forehead open. He just looked at me and said "are you done yet"
I have never felt so blatantly powerless before. It's a hard lesson when you learn you can't make someone care about how you feel.
I feel like that's what happens when someone has to go through their whole life feeling the same way, but being unable to express it, and seeing it in your child and their basically going like "....if only you knew what comes in 15 more years....." so they're maybe a bit calloused emotionally...
I used to that. Gave myself multiple concussions. At one point briefly lost sight
jesus christ man, hope your okay now. there are parents out there that just dont deserve children
Have you cut all ties with your father? I can almost guarantee you by just this one experience you've shared here that your father is probably someone who suffers from narcissistic personality disorder... I wish more people were aware of these individuals with this type of personality, like truly aware... when you do a little research, or been unfortunate to have a parent, or to have crossed paths with one of these types people.... You will quickly figure out that they all are the same! The sad part is there is no helping them, there is not enough therapy in the world, not like they would ever go anyways, but literally nothing anyone could do to change these people for the better... I called them resource thieves, soaking up any an all the supply they possibly can, and usually ruining their own lives in there bizarre persuits driven by their ego's... They are the yin of the Yang, they are the darkness which is half of the balance towards light... There may be a small circle of light in their darkness, but not much! I will say that narcissistic individuals indeed are an integral part of Nature's divine Balance though... Just pray you never have to deal with one...
I had this with my mom many times
A few weeks ago I got mugged, and had zero adrenaline release or fight or flight response. I stood there like an NPC, said and did nothing. There was no fear response because that was the baseline feeling
I'm sorry to hear that I hope you are better and when you see videos like this from people you love it makes you feel better.
There are three responses you had the third freezing
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ThirtyVirus on a Oompaville video? Am I dreaming?
If you know what anxiety feels like (especially if you always have it) you can turn that energy into adrenaline. You just have to convert it. So you’ll need to input an action.
Sorry this happened to you. But freezing up is probably the safest thing you can do. Because it’s a baseline feeling, doing anything without knowing what is going to happen next can be terrifying if you’re afraid for your life. And if someone is desperate enough, they will take your life and you won’t be able to do anything about it.
I’m a Behavioral Therapist who works exclusively with adults diagnosed with ASD. Thank you for sharing this. It will be incredibly beneficial for many people for years to come.
I noticed a pattern while watching this. Death phobia. I’m autistic, so is my dad, and likely my niece. We all have that exact same phobia, manifested similarly and during childhood. I wonder if there’s a connection.
@@nunyabusinessllc behavioral therapy and psychiatric therapy are two separate sciences. I can’t speak on that, unfortunately. If there is any psychiatric help needed, I have to direct them elsewhere.
@@StarDustwolf77This crept over in my adulthood too. The death phobia. I have severe ocd revolving around death phobia to feel somewhat "in control". Is this something you deal w too??
@MintCity I’m a Behavioral Therapist for children with Autism! You are amazing never forget that 🫶
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I’m currently in the state of being horrifically agoraphobic and being diagnosed with chronic anxiety so this really really means a lot you’d share your experiences like this. Thank you on everyone’s behalf
Edit: I’ve finished the video and it’s changed my perspective on a lot of things. I’m sitting here sobbing hysterically to Death Cab For Cutie and I just wanted to say thank you to anyone saying kind words to me and I send all the positive vibes to those going through the same things. We will come out stronger. Just like Caleb said, we gotta have faith and i have faith. I have faith everyone here will grow and feel better. Thank you🩵
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I’m also agoraphobic, autistic and I homeschool my daughter because socializing is traumatic to me. 😂 It’s tough. I’m proud of all of us. 😊
I had agoraphobia didn’t leave my house for months. Just take small steps and you will overcome!
@@oompaville I hope you’re doing well man ❤️ stay safe out there
Guys, can you believe Oompa was home schooled?
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He lives in Texas right ?
Did you know he was a ferrier?
honestly no cause i aint ever seen a homeschooled person i dont find extremely annoying other than oomp
I so appreciate you opening up about your mental health struggles. From the outside everyone thinks I’m fine but it’s so hard for me to express how difficult it is to exist in my mind. When I was a teen and young adult my anxiety gave me night terrors and caused me to be unable to eat or move my body for months at a time. I hate driving because I constantly have intrusive thoughts about driving into things or bad scenarios and are terrifying. Fear has controlled so much of my life. I’m afraid of dying but I’m also afraid of living.
Gmod in 2009 was SUCH A VIBE. Warms my heart that i very well could have played with oompa at one time or another
Thanks for posting this Oopma. You did help one guy who's struggling, appreciate it man
Me too
@@Ceo191919 me too gang
I have mdd, severe depression, i am also a recovering fetty wap addict, my dad had asg and is bipolar and a recovering addict, my mom has bpd as well very very severe tho, my brother has like crippling anxiety. It's so easy to build creators like you as these amazing people who have everything under control, mental and what have you. Idk this made you feel extremely down to earth, even more so than you already were. Thanks for being cool enough to share your story
Holy crap…I’ve had panic disorder for years, but my agoraphobia came back in 2022. It’s been really bad this time around for me and I rarely leave the house, like once a week at this stage. I don’t have the mental capacity to watch your full vid now on this, but thank you for making it. This is so important
the tiniest bit of overthinking causes me to have some sort of panic attack. hope you get better
Here too. The panny really messed with me. I dread going out unless I have to.
Same, I never went to school and got into alot of trouble for it almost daily, just stayed in my bed and wouldnt get up, ever, never touched a single test because I just couldnt keep up with school work on the rare day a week I did go in, I've pretty much lived on disability till now and I'm 27, tried to do some work things through some clubs etc but every time I couldnt handle it, I also suffer from major depressive disorder and CPTSD from some bullying from my own father and other kids in school, anyway I'm getting off track, been on a waiting list for adhd for like a year now so hopefully if I get medicated for that it will finally help me, people like oomp give me the hope people like me can do something I guess.
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@@soloz944 thank you! And I know the overthinking thing well. I’m in therapy and have meds, doing everything I can possibly do to get better, but it unfortunately takes time.
Currently figuring out my own panic disorder, so this video helps a lot. It's been tough and often accompanied by the most soul shattering, weeks long derealization. Not in a financial place to get the psych help I need, but I'm doing my best with what I got. My wonderful partner helps me realize and rationalize my symptoms because a lot of my issues stem from health anxiety, but I'm also dealing with the newly developed agoraphobia. I'm learning my triggers and what symptoms are really my nervous system/brain freaking out.
Things are improving and this gives me hope for my recovery :) thank you oompa
I've recently gone through the same thing. Still am obviously. Even though I feel like I've figured out my triggers and cue words I find myself spiraling. But it's reading and hearing about people like you and oompa with similar problems that make me feel much better, more human, and more connected.
@@itsagardensnake me too :) wishing the best for you man
I've been exactly where you are for about a decade. I've gotten a lot better the past 2 years after seeking professional help and rarely have panic issues now. Pretty much never full on panic attacks. Mine is also health triggers. Check out the book "don't feed the monkey mind". Helped a lot. also research inner family systems. There's always a deeper issue to address and this way of thinking is the most productive. For me it was working towards being ok with death/dying. Still a work in progress but you have to face your fears if you are to ever get better.
As someone who also has Aspergers/ASD1 and also suffers from pretty intense anxiety, panic disorder, depression. This video helped a lot.
There’s a lot of things in this video that I’ve found relatable or have experienced almost one to one, especially when it came to sleep related anxieties. And also just not understanding that I needed to ask for help. Actually it’s only been since 2023 that I started really asking for help. And only within this last month at 27 I’ve finally started meeting with a mental health expert.
Hearing what you’ve gone through and seeing that you have gotten better definitely gives me some more hope that things will improve.
It’s really easy to lose sight of that, especially when you’re having an anxiety or depressive episode. It’s so easy to just get stuck in that mentality or get exhausted emotionally when you have to deal with it often. But again, videos like this help a lot. And I sincerely thank you for making it.
I think it will help out more than 2 people
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Why does this always happen in my replies
I care, :) it helped me a bit
Maybe three at least
@@Gooberstein612 With a possibility of 4
ive watched you since 2019 and since then youve had a huge impact on my life. i am also on the spectrum & ive struggled a lot with it, especially when i was a child since i was undiagnosed for so long. ive always found so much comfort in your videos & you being so open about this is truly so so comforting. thank you for being vulnerable with us and for letting us listen! you are a precious soul.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is dr.porassss.
The sleep anxiety part is so relatable to me man, I didn’t know it was something anyone else but me experienced. It’s gotten to points where I’ll message everyone that I love that I love them in fear that it could be the last time I get to say it.
Kinda same except didnt really care about anyone enough to say i love them or anything, but it was just a constant circle of almost falling asleep and then jerking myself awake terrified cause what if i don't wake up again.
@@allinefeyn9224 I used to get that super bad when I was a teen, I started meditating and listening to sleep videos on youtube when i was older which fortunetly got rid of it, but I'd feel like falling asleep was losing control of my mind. I couldn't fall asleep unless I was so tired I passed out. It was so weird. Surprised its so common ! Still haven't hacked the general anxiety tho lol
@@Llkolii yeah im also doing a lot better now but it took getting diagnosed with cPTSD lots of therapy and drugs and i guess just time i think in my case it was less about anxiety but rather having constant nightmares where i end up dying and such. Its weird how strong and resilient humans can be but at the same time very easily broken
Seriously, thank you for sharing your story. Just like so many others here, I relate so much to this. Been dealing with an anxiety disorder due to PTSD since as young as I can remember. The sleep anxiety and heart problems…. Man.. nearly made me cry hearing you talk about it. Dealing with both these things myself.. one day at a time. And you’re so right about feeling different after the 25 year mark. It’s crazy how once you get there you almost immediately notice a difference. I appreciate you talking so openly about this 💙
I literally just came out of group therapy, sad gal lol - thanks for talking about your experience. it helps a lot. keep going!
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Keep your head up. We are all in this together.
This is the first video I’ve ever seen that matches so well with how I felt almost my whole life. I’ve never said anything to anyone and still faking to this day. I don’t know where to start but this has given me the want to at least start asking.
I believe in you. Asking for help is the first step I’ve found.
A lot of this deeply resonated with me. It makes me feel so thankful to hear more about your lore while I’ve been going through a the roughest menty b in years currently. I suffer a lot from anxiety and agoraphobia but as I’m trying to gain more stability in my life finally nearing 27, it’s reassuring to know I’m not the only person who suffers alone and struggles to use the resources to gain understanding around why I have such a hard time existing. Thank you Oompa for your transparency and vulnerability while delivering it in a sincere way.
I never leave my house and I have social anxiety, but when I leave the house I try to strike up conversation with people or at least compliment something about them. This helps me feel more comfortable in public.
Glad to have people attempting to comfort others
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most people don't ask for comfort, do you need some man?
@@firesausegaming3453it’s scary out here man everyone needs some comfort
I’m in recovery from fentanyl I’m 18 years old and I’m an independent artist currently working in the substance treatment field as an outreach coordinator. I have 5 months sober from fentanyl after 6 years of use, 10+ overdoses, 3 rehab visits, 2 juvenile hall visits one being from a false positive from a medication I was prescribed IN rehab so I had to fight an entire case, blah blah blah. Anyways I wanted to say I resonate with what you have to say and thank you for being here ❤
5 months is awesome keep going. I’m proud🫶🏻🫶🏻
hey stranger! i'm so proud of you!!! five months is absolutely nothing to sneeze at, you should be so proud of yourself as well. just remember that recovery isn't a straight line so don't beat yourself up if things feel really hard down the line. keep it up!!!
Okay I’m proud of you for this but how did you get hooked on fent at 12 😭
@@tiffanydurden Thank you so much, this isn't my first time getting clean but fingers crossed it's the last as my life has truly improved this time around
That’s awesome! 5 months is a huge deal and a big accomplishment keep it up! I remember when I couldn’t go a whole day sober and I’m celebrating 2 years next month, I’m certified peer recovery specialist and am in awe of how my life has changed, I’m rooting for you!
Growing up I was always worried about everything around me. I spent so much time playing video games because something as simple as going to the park or meeting new people was so scary to me. I remember when I was 8 I had an existential crisis that if I die I might never exist again for the rest of eternity. I never told me parents about it because I just thought everyone else felt the same way as me. After high school, and going into college, my anxiety and depression got worse. Sometimes it would get so bad I was spiral for hours thinking about everything that could go wrong in my life. It was genuinely crippling.
Finally spoke to a doctor when I was 18 years old about everything I was feeling and was diagnosed with GAD and depression. Started taking antidepressants and going to see a therapist and I'm doing a lot better now. Still hard some days, but I've learned a lot about dealing with it. Funnily enough, when I was diagnosed, my family doctor actually told me that he wasn't surprised I was feeling this way because of my family history. I then learned that my Dad actually had anxiety and used to take medication when he was in college. Just makes me wonder how many mental health issues go undiagnosed in children and teens. Thank you for talking about this it means a lot.
hearing you speak about your childhood as a kid really gives me a deep envy, almost jealousy of being able to talk about things like that in such a deep way, while also being hard for me to imagine because i just can't remember anything from any of my elementary and early middle school years, starting from the age of 5 and going all the way to 11 there is absolutely nothing other than a few 'breaks' as i call them because that's what makes sense to me.
the first break being me spending thirty minutes sobbing in the middle of art class and being completely inconsolable because the class had to draw "a happy picture", during that, i was only wondering why it made me cry, and i remember going back to having a bored face and not talking. I call them breaks not because my emotions broke, but because i was on some insane dose of ADHD meds and they made me feel nothing and remember nothing long term, with each break being a break from the effect where i felt and remembered something, and these breaks being the only parts of being a young child that i remember gives me that sense of envy for you being able to remember any of yours so clearly.
but it feels like i can never share this with a professional past "i don't trust pills due to a mis-perscription as a kid" or else i WILL get dubbed unfit for regular life
either way, i want to thank you for making and posting a video like this, it means much to me in a way i'm unable to explain
You should 100% address this with your mental health professional. Sounds like it’s still visceral and painful for you and they won’t respond the way you’re afraid they will.
Please do speak to a professional. They aren't going to react how you think. It will help
I also agree with them. I have told my mental health professional things that i thought i would take to the grave. It really helps clear stuff up! I wish you all the best Ferro!!
Mental health is so important to talk about and I'm really grateful u could talk about it , really helps me feel less wack asf
You're still wack af, but you're not alone! Join us!
It's crazy how much similar my situation is, even down to the smallest detail, like my birthday being in the middle of the year and how I still dont celebrate it because its never meant anything to me, the jobs, the hobbies that I monetized and got scorned for, the heavy breathing, the sewer slidal thoughts and the constant panic... Thanks for making this video! Listening to it feels almost creepy and I heard a lot of stuff that hit home and even heard a bunch that I've never looked at in that way, which is surreal and helpful.
13 mins in and im relating so hard. I lost three siblings in the first 5 years of my life and always expected to go as well.
I would write notes to my parents apologising for dying and hurting them. Then in the morning I'd destroy the notes.
They had no idea until i told my mum when i was about 30.
Sorry for your losses 😢
@@artsysabs thank you. ❤
Many condolences. Its amazing you're still here and can talk about it. You're a very strong person.
This channel is something of a comfort for me, simply based around how much I can relate to your attitude and way of thinking. Thank you for sharing your experiences. It hits different when someone you look up to is able to open up and tell their story in a way that you learn from and come away from as a better person.
I have panic disorder and agoraphobia too! It’s improved a lot over the years with therapy and meds and I’m able to go out to a few places a couple times a week. I think I’ll need to come back to watch the full video at a later time when I’m in a better headspace, but just wanted to thank you already just for making it.
As a 55yo woman I TOTALLY appreciate hearing this!!! I’ve been through depression, anxiety & eating disorders. You are absolutely right when you say it’s truly mind over matter. Keeping reality real in your mind can be difficult, but the earlier you catch it happening the quicker you can stop it!! It does take time & practice but it helps SO much. Again thank you for your transparency, I know it helped me & I’m sure t others that can relate in one way or another. ❤❤❤
Talk about it
Thanks so much for sharing.
I have been diagnosed with ASD Level 2, ADHD inattentive type, Agoraphobia, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, Depression and I recovered from Anorexia Nervosa in my mid-20s. I have been through a lot of trauma and also have gut and acid reflux issues which are actually really common for people with ASD... I was throwing up everyday for years and I also didn't tell anyone, there's so much I never tell anyone so I relate to that and all the panic attacks!
I recall you mentioning your ASD in another video and it was why I've subscribed, because you speak so well in your videos and you're so entertaining and seeing someone else with ASD doing what you do is inspiring to me. I am in a leadership position in a creative agency (design and development is a special interest), but I am horrible at speaking to people so I admire what you do so much!
I started trauma therapy last week and seeing a psychologist who specialises in ASD which has been helping me understand how my brain works and things are getting better. Only doing all this now in my early 30s so it's never too late :)
You gave some of the best explanations about what goes on in your head during the dark times!! Glad you were able to get to the point in your life to share your experiences!
For nearly a whole year I was constantly in a state of panic and impending sense of doom, it was nightmareish and therapy could only do so much. As of currently I still have episodes that can last up to months, the affects are irreversible. I feel very seen from this video and it makes me feel a bit braver and stronger as a person for trying my best despite all this.
Watching the rest of the video, I find it almost shocking to hear about the heart thing as well. I was born with a heart condition, A.V canal complete- It's almost scary how I can understand to a degree.
I used to be terrified that I’d wake up and my parents and siblings would be gone. Not dead but just having left me. It’s helpful to hear your perspective on your childhood. ❤
Hey Oompa, I just want to say how much this means to me. I have a very close loved one in my life with struggles of their own, and all though I may not understand them all the time, as an outsider I have always had hope for healing and you have just added one more perspective validating that to be true. Thank you for sharing, we need more people like you out there.
Thank you, my brother passed in march and it’s completely changed my outlook on life. I’ve been working on myself realizing all the unnecessary anxiety I bring onto myself, you’ve given me more faith that I can get through it and better myself:)
For the past couple of years I have what I called “panic attacks” It started in high school and got so much worse especially last year until I started destroying stuff during these attacks and ended up almost killing myself from a certain attack. I still had no idea what it was I actually thought it was a tumor, until you literally started talking about your symptoms. I thought I was the only one and literally everyone has tried to help me with no answers. 2022 and 2023 was horrible for me I was mixture of stress and depression. This year has been looking up I’m in a much better place and even though my attacks are still around they aren’t so bad so I don’t tell people or worry about (I now know what it is thanks to this video and will get it checked out) I am getting help where it is needed too without getting too terribly personal. I greatly appreciate this video thank you oompa
you are so real for this. growing up i had a lot of similar issues with anxiety, sleep, and worrying about my parents leaving or something happening to them. it’s really cool to see someone talking about all of this.
Having grown up constantly believing I was weird or different, and also having bad anxiety made it hard for me to believe that nowadays anxiety and social problems are more common. And you being one of my favorite UA-camrs who usually keeps things light hearted and just not talking about yourself in general, you coming out about this makes me remember that even people who seem very normal in my eyes are capable of having issues. And with videos like this it helps me feel less alone. Thanks oompa ❤
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. This felt like a therapy session. I have always said that if everyone would tell their story, there would be no stigma. I was sexually abused by my older sister from the ages of 9 to 11. Sexually assaulted at 14 and again at 22. Each time I decided it didn't matter and didn't affect me. I didn't realize that it was tearing me apart inside until I completely lost it at 30. I haven't spoken to my older sister since then and I haven't been on a date or spoken to a man since and that was almost 3 years ago. When I let go of needing someone else to fix me it was so freeing. Not to mention that men didn't fix me. They only took advantage and further broke me. Dont be ashamed to reach out for help. There are so many people willing to help you with whatever you need to live a more fulfilling life. The longer you wait, the more time you're wasting when you could've just been living happily and thriving. You don't have to fix everything alone. I hope everyone finds their happiness and peace one day 🥰
oompaville we have the same birthday (thank you for sharing this. i found this video after having constant breakdowns caused by intrusive, racing thoughts, and its comforting to know that i can relate to someone i look up too. you are very smart and kind and im happy you have a platform you feel comfortable sharing your experience on.)
i currently have agoraphobia (in addition to a bunch of other stuff, anxiety ptsd depression whatever) but the agoraphobia has made it really hard for me to leave my house (duh) even to water the plants. i live in an apartment and i really don’t like interacting with people (paranoia and introvert), so i just stay inside so i don’t see people. because there’s no readily available nature spot i can go and sit in, i mostly just sit inside and play video games or read. i should be registered for my fall college classes, but i’m procrastinating. i should be getting a job, but i’m making excuses why to wait (some are valid but not enough to stop me from getting a job). i have therapy today, i’m going to talk about this video and how i am reassured that no i will not in fact get stalked and murdered if i leave my house, and i am strong enough to interact with the world on a more regular basis. thank you mr ville
Words can’t explain how much this has helped me, I’m new to this type of feeling, had my first major panic/anxiety attack a couple of days ago and thought I was dying. And ever since then things just felt weird and I’ve been trying to feel normal. But you’re really putting this thing into prospective and making me feel better and I can’t thank you enough!! I’m 23 and have faith that then will get better and I have lots to live for❤❤
Thank you so much for this video Caleb. I've developed anxiety and ideations of "game over" in my mid-late 30's, and this video legit helped my brain a bit. Obviously I have to put in work, but feeling less-alone is a huge thing, so thank you for being vulnerable and sharing everything.
I have been in therapy for my anxiety for almost 8 years now and having to explain to people that it's not just a little anxious; it's like everytime I get anxiety my whole world shatters around me and I am free falling into the abyss. It got worse in 2013 because of a huge tragedy.
Thankfully I am doing well with therapy. Getting help is really the best and I am able to do things that make me anxious without having a complete breakdown now.
Hearing about your story it does make me feel better because everyone has different experiences, but overall there are other people struggling with things as well. Sometimes similar things.
As someone who wants to become a therapist hate the fact he went through this but I love how he made this video it first brings more awareness to asd shows us a look through there eyes and for me showed me how much deeper anxiety is then panic attacks and racing thoughts thanks for making this oompaville
This story, from the panic attacks and the bouts of anxiety, to the depressive episodes and tumultuous personal life circumstances echoes my feelings and contextualizes a lot of what I’ve felt and been through in my life. Listening to you saying all this legitimately helped me understand a lot of what I feel. This really helped! Thanks❤
WE LOVE YOU!!!!! I have major anxiety. For me, I had to do something the same everyday or else something bad would happen. Seeing you come out with this helps a lot! I still have this, but it slowed down. It makes me feel like I am not alone. Thank you
That sounds like some potential OCD symptoms, is that something you've asked your medical team about? I have a friend with severe OCD and he has "rituals" that he feels he must do or people will get hurt.
Please only respond if you're comfortable with it and I hope you're doing well today :)
@@LovetheSource I feel comfortable thank you for asking!! I have asked about it to my main doctor and she says it's just anxiety but other doctors say I might have both anxiety or OCD. I am a minor (16) so I cannot do too much to ask for a test yet. My mom and dad do help me with my anxiety with herbal supplements.
@@bethizz I'm glad your parents are supportive!! It can take a while to get a proper diagnosis, especially with mental health and depending on what specific doctors you happen to get, so patience is important.
Make sure you advocate for yourself and be as honest as possible! If it ever feels like doctors are brushing you off, make your voice heard!
It sounds like you're handling things well already though. Wish you the best :)
Thanks for this. I needed it.
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You didn’t even finish the video
Same here bro sometimes i need to know that i'm not the only one because it makes me feel less helpless you could say
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@@FLYINGPIGYFGAyou dont have content shut up
I love this video! Thanks for sharing. My son has ASD and it helps with some insight on what he could be feeling or understanding…and myself with anxiety I completely know what those crazy panic attacks can do. It’s insane. This was really heartwarming to hear… ☀️❤️
I also have SVT and it can get scary at times. Man….this video was something I needed to hear. Thank you.
I know what you mean about not wishing it on your worst enemy. I've been dealing with a lot of the same things you were, off and on, for ten years. Anxiety and dissociation that I never struggled with and social anxiety suddenly became major issues.
Personally, I'm glad you made the decision to make this video. It helps to know you're not alone, you know?
I am a 32 year old man who has been dealing with anxiety and depression all my life. How you have explained all this has helped me so much to see how others deal with all the same debilitating things I have. It has been so hard and has caused so many problems in my life. I fight with it every day. The panic attacks I have had have completely changed my life since the first time it happened. To the point where I have days where I have absolutely no control over the disfunction inside my head. You don't even know how much Watchung this and listening to you talk about this helps me. It's so hard and there is so much more to it I wish I had the words to explain why this means so much.
Tell your story! Even if you don't show it to someone. Doing what Caleb just did can be incredibly cathartic. And know that you wake up to Forever when you die and this experience periscopes down to a tiny dot in a sea of forever. And you can spend an eternity planning your next incarnation.
Trust that you came here with a plan and especially when nothing is going your way, trust that how you let the experiences you chose render you is the point of us coming here.
Your life is curated, choreographed, concise and created specifically to render your healing specifically.
All we are here to do is to heal until we are flawless and then we volunteer and eventually make the journey again. Light escaping a blackhole is us returning to the beginning and starting over again. May you be well, May you be happy,
May you be at peace!
Same man, I've been in a really rough patch of HATING my job the last 2 years and feeling miserable, it hurts my stomach everyday thinking about work and I don't see a way out. The sad thing is that great things have happened to me in these years, but I couldn't 100% enjoy them because of this feeling of doom and I hate myself for it. 32 yo and I feel exactly like oompa described it, as stuck in a mental prison, like a fish in a bowl
This sounds a lot like my current problems. I didn't start dealing with all of this until recently and it's just a lot. There are many times where I just completely black out during my streams and yeah. SO. This is comforting to hear.
I'm very happy for you! and I hope things continue to get better :)
Hey man, take it easy on yourself. I’m also autistic, and I’ve had super bad anxiety since I was a child. Then got hit with the PTSD and depression. We still love you and your content, my guy. Take your time and listen to your brain. Mental health matters, and needs to be seen as important in men too.
Dude he is a billionaire
I see myself in SO much of this video man. I'm staying up till morning and calling for help. Thx Oomp I'll letcha know how it goes
Aight bro I got to the medicaid office this morning and they have expanded medicaid in my state. They're gonna help me get signed up for healthcare so I can see a mental health professional and check out my physical health too. Lets do this.
This helped me oomp. I literally just got off the phone with suicide prevention and then when I hopped on my Xbox and saw this it really helped. Thank you.
Hope you never need to call that phone ever again. Sounds cringe but:
When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of a storm
There's a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark
Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
For your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone
Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone !!!
Great video. I’ve been working on managing dissociation and anxiety in a similar situation for several years and the biggest help so far for me has been getting healthier, drinking less and seeing a therapist that i actually connect with. Still a long way to go mentally but this video helped give some extra perspective. Much appreciated, Mr. ville
There needs to be more discussions on mental health.
Then why are there already so many videos on it then? Woooahhh it’s almost like there already is a bunch of videos out there!!
Freak you man@@skrunklyOwO
Relate to this video alot, as a kid i also had that same exact thing with sleeping and getting anxiety
I just want say thank you for telling your story. every individual’s story is very important and unique. For example, I deal with Bipolar II and it’s extremely hard for me. honestly im scared. i cant control my emotions and sometimes i feel like im just losing it. its hard to explain but its very overwhelming for me and it makes me feel extremely alone. However, stories like yours show me that I am not the only person who had dealt with mental health issues. More importantly, you have found success despite those issues. That truly gives me hope that maybe ill find success and happiness too. i just dont know when that will be. thank you so much Oompa :)
Ahh the classic: Trapped and can't run from my own mind, but having parents who in hindsight were a touch mentally ill and called clearly presenting symptoms "just normal adult stuff". We love em and they did their best as they believed. Thank you for being vulnerable, you're a great storyteller and man this is hitting at a time I'm really needing it. 💙
Dude we might be spiritual twins... having aspergers as a kid and not understanding why I felt and was different was hard... I wasn't home schooled though and I went military to "fix" me... but in the core of your struggles I went through the exact same thing. That's wild man. I'm glad you're ok and can reach out and help others with it today. Love you bro.
I don’t reply to videos ever. I’ve been subscribed to you for a little over a year and greatly enjoy your content. My son was diagnosed with ASD when he was 6, he’s 17 now. I was diagnosed with ASD at 43, two years ago. This video hit me in the feels. The forgetting of major events, the lack of empathy, but being terrified that my loved ones would die and I would die? That was me and that is most definitely my son ( among other things) Thank you for sharing
I was diagnosed with anxiety as a teenager and ended up needing a combination of medication and therapy to help manage it. One of my earliest experiences with anxiety that I can remember from childhood was the feeling I’d get whenever one of my parents would leave the house. The second I couldn’t see their car anymore, I would immediately feel sick to my stomach, imagining them getting into a car crash and convincing myself they weren’t going to make it home. To this day I still experience a little bit of that anxiety whenever my siblings leave the house, and sometimes when I’m especially struggling, I find myself worried that the ambulance sirens I hear way off in the distance are for one of them. I’ve gotten a lot better over the years and no longer require medication to manage, but it’s an ongoing battle. Anyways, all this to say that I appreciate the video and feel a lot less alone/helpless between hearing your experiences and other commenters’.
It's nice to see creators struggle the same way, I'm going through this rn and I have ever since I was a lil girl, but I'm trying my best and ik someday I won't be struggling anymore
Related to quite a lot of this to be honest. I remember having huge insane meltdowns as a child pretty consistently, and my parents always chalked it up to me just being a brat. Had REALLY terrible anxiety/depression all throughout middle and high school, had bad thoughts about taking my own life. Had ZERO friends. And I mean it, I had zero irl friends. I lived on the computer. Turns out, and I know this now as an adult: I exhibit many traits of Autism, but being a girl it wasn't something doctors leaned towards diagnosing as much as they did with boys. It's whatever now, I think I've kind of learned how to adapt.
This exactly describes my situation as well. I wish you success and happiness in your future and may we both find all the happiness in the world. :)
Hey, a brief synopsis of my childhood. :D
I just took the DSM5, so 'bout to find out.
I relate to this a little too much…well I’m glad I’m not the only one 😅
Honestly, i love videos like this. I have struggled off and on for years and seeing people who I idolize have similar struggles always makes me feel less alone. Thank you Oompa ❤
This got me through my 10hr shift because I've felt like this so much and felt like no one experienced intense anxiety like this being a young male adult you just feel all these expectations. Idk but thank you oompa your goal of helping definitely delivered and im very glad to have seen this video. Very relatable and so helpful knowing people aren't alone
You sharing your story is so very appreciated. My whole life was a whirlwind of mental health issues and hospitalizations for about 12 years. I’m not completely out of the woods but overall I’ve turned my life around to be a productive adult and it’s surreal. Thank you for being open about your experience, something about hearing others share parts of their life is very comforting.
Than you for uploading this video. Im going through a really rough post breakup period / depressive phase and almost had an emotional breakdown while out shopping with my parents. Ive always struggled with feeling lonely and spiraling off of that into depression or suicidal tendencies. It's been hard for me to sleep and also hard for me to get out of bed or look forward to my future. Hearing about how things got better for you when you were objectively in a more difficult situation than I am really makes it a little easier for me to see the light. Plus seeking therapy, working out, hanging with friends or family and just putting myself out there have helped me so much to not just give up and die. I love you man Im glad things have been getting so much better for you and youre truly an inspiration for me.
You’re so amazing! idk how but this video helped me especially since I’m so young. Yet I can’t ask for help idk how or why I can’t. I’m just suffering basically in silence and I’m always in my own world but your videos keep me on my feet believe it or not and I’m very grateful for you even though I don’t know you personally. We love you
Oompaville.
My son (5yo) has been commenting randomly about the concept of death recently, and asking questions like "what happens when people "oof" as he calls it. He's explained to me some bad dreams of late, even becoming emotional about when asked...Saying things like "I just don't want *insert favourite person* to oof and it makes me sad" and I can see that it's visibly stressing his young brain about such profound things that I don't recall contemplating about at his age.... or even older than he is now.
For the record- he is not subjected to any overtly morbid/violent stimulus that could gear toward these thoughts....it's just out of the blue as far as I can pertain. I'll be honest... Not sure how to traverse this as a 44yo dad, except to re-assure and enforce with him that everything is.... and will be fine. Maybe my boy is showing slight ASD traits?? His imagination and general learning curves are next-level besides the morbid mindset, and otherwise very kind, content and positive for the most part.... It's not a common occurrence, and he's quite sharp and jovial 99% of the time. Just a little un-nerving to me and his mom, and very unsettling when he comes out casually with bad dreams of the afterlife.... and gets quite emotional about it. Like he knows something we don't, and even he doesn't understand why? Beyond this...I've been learning that there may be some ADHD genealogy in my family.
One thing about Oomp is hes able to analyse social concepts, and dissect all avenues regarding it - and all the while not pussyfoot around the stigmas of ASD and more common neurodivergence. You're a real one Caleb.
Encourage your child to create imaginary friends and stories about their future. Cultivate the notion that your child came here as someone planning to do something.
Right now, even the most evolved conscious agencies can't remember from one instance to the next because its so taboo in our culture, but be curious and do your research about what happens when we are not here.
It's time for us to shift back to remembering.
I am 53 and just spent the last 7 years in a healing journey that is EPIC AF and one of the learnings has been that those stories I soothed myself with when I was a child, the stories of how the problem I have I chose so that I wouldn't have too easy of a time and would struggle in ways that were confusing and frustrating.
I believed I was very ancient and had come here to remedy what was ailing us.
I forgot about all of that until the healing process I had to go through as a child resumed 7 years ago.
What I believe now is that my whole story is allegorical to the teaching I am here to convey.
It sounds like the diagnostic criteria for a mental illness, which gave me a eureka moment about all of this.
The very experience I have had is precisely what is being systematically and systemically occluded and obfuscated from our awareness. Naturally, anyone slated to make this point is going to have a rough time of jt if they came here with a message that really threatens Empire.
“Being in a prison of your own making is an advantage because you are the one with the key to escape”
I didn’t know how much I needed to hear this at the point I’m at in my life.
As someone who’s also on the autism spectrum and also has an insistence on not reaching out for help, this quote, along with this whole video, really spoke to me.
I’m happy to hear that you were able to get yourself out of all of these intense mental struggles that were bestowed upon you, Caleb!
Hopefully, now that you’ve graciously given me something to go off of, I can follow in your footsteps and be just as amazing as you one day!
But, even if I don’t, you’ve still earned tremendous amounts of respect from me and every single other one of your millions of subscribers for this video!
Keep doing amazing things, Caleb!
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Great quote! Love this man!❤😊
This really resonated with me, I was stunned how much I relate to your mental struggles. I was a sperger with diagnosed ADHD and ADD and I always acted out and tried my best to do what's right. I was a major hypochondriac while growing up, watching "monsters inside me" didn't help at all. I was a borderline insomniac staying up late and having my mind just keep going nonstop. It's gotten better overtime. I always felt angry and sad as a kid nonstop, very angry anxious and confused. The only thing that really kept me going was a feeling of determination that better times will come eventually. When I hit around 23-24 is when it finally started mellowing out and I learned how to better deal with my own head and finally get into better diets losing weight and working out. Thanks for sharing, if I was watching this years ago this would've helped me a lot
I'm a woman one so yes we are here and watching!
I have been disabled because of agoraphobia since 2021 and finally go outside!
I appreciate you talking about stuff like this in general. You've always been pretty open about it but it was nice to see someone els human experience
Hello fellow lady!!
Hi girlypops! I am struggling v hard with the agoraphobia currently. It's so dumb, like, brain? Hello? Why are we doing this?
as someone who has been diagnosed with ocd as an adult, its weirdly comforting that im not the only person dealing with severe paranoia around my family and friends dying in their sleep, especially as a little kid. i also struggle with paranoia/anxiety around my physical health and growing up i NEVER told anyone about these issues, so over time developed compulsions to keep the anxiety at bay. long story short, this video hits very close to home.
i would like to say for anyone struggling with similar experiences that you aren't alone here and your life WILL get better over time with any sort of support system you can find. it's important to be honest and vulnerable to heal.
to everyone (and oompa): be kind and patient with yourself, you deserve to have a life to call your own💙
Absolutely love this video Caleb! I grew up in a family of horse people, my mom was also a riding instructor. I showed horses in 4H from the time I could walk, went to state one time and placed 4th in the state of North Carolina. But about the anxiety, I struggle as well. Sometimes go months without even talking to anyone outside my family. (other than at work of course) But just know you're awesome and many people look up to you. We all love you from the bottom of our hearts, keep on keeping on, you're awesome!
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I make comments like this to taunt the authorities.
I know what you did in the winter of 83 you sick monster
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Dude…this video is everything. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and wisdom. Really needed this.
Oompa your videos make me incredibly happy, this video specifically though i relate to alot. I have a really hard time with compulsive obsessions, especially involving the death of my loved ones. The worst part about the thoughts is theyre impossible to escape. Once the idea enters my brain its like a cancer that just grows and grows until i literally just cry and scream at myself to stop thinking like that. Its something ive had to deal with most of my life and im not really sure why. Thannk you for sharing this.
When I was a child I also had a lot of anger and violence issues and punched myself as self harm, but I'm diagnosed with Bipolar & bpd among other things, and my father has bpd as well. Interesting how similar symptoms lead to different roads.
Have been watching you for a few months now. Thank you so much for this video and every other video where you talk about this stuff. I'm going through my own anxiety and depression issues for the past few years now and this stuff helps. It helps to know anyone in all walks of life can and do go through this stuff and you just never know. It helps me feel less alone and that with time and effort I can manage too. Love you for this.
Very down to earth, refreshing video to listen to. There were some terms and explanations that stood out to me because they unexpectedly hit home in several places. Makes me curious to look into because it could help someone I’m close to. Generally enjoy the silliness of your content but this break in pace is much appreciated.
Also on a whim a while back, I ordered some of the sour boy candies. Didn’t expect to enjoy them so much but I ran out of my supply the day I got them. Really great product and I look forward to being a regular customer.
I feel the pain on this. I went to school and always had a hard time focusing and I always got in trouble. Long story short, i got diagnosed with physcosis when I was already out of school. I wish I would've had others around to help find out what was wrong sooner. It definitely caused a lot of issues, and I got in trouble a lot due to my issues. Nice to see a big name bringing light to mental health. Love you, Oompy
But I think everyone is secretly going through it
The stuff when you were a kid reminds me of my son who is 7. We've been working with him since he was 4 and have not been able to make much progress with his anger and meltdowns. Thank you for this video, the insight is invaluable.
This was first video in a long time that i watch without need to look away or grab a phone. The way you described anxiety is just on point and to be honest you deconstructed someting i didnt even knew wasnt a base. Thankyou for shraing this ... i gues i need to go think about my anxienty for a moment. I am so glad that i found your chanel this year. Thank you
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I grew up dealing with the same debilitating mental illness and still to this day can't believe I survived it. Just celebrated my 3 year anniversary with the best therapist I have ever had and it still surprises me that I am not only just ok but happy and am able to help other find happiness. Something I never thought I could ever have or do. Its alot of work but if anyone out there feels hopeless and pretty much on a completely different planet, I promise you it can change. Take that step to seek professional help, surrender and give yourself some compassion!.
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I have CVID and chronic lung disease, I’ve been so lonely since I’m mostly bedridden and on oxygen, Thank you Oompa, I know you won’t see this probably but your one of my comfort UA-camrs, you always cheer me up when things are bad, I really appreciate you and everything you do.
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My pops has COPD and is on oxygen, I'm sending you so much love ❤️ seeing how hard it is for him, especially on his bad days, breaks my heart
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Hey friend, I hope you feel better. I'm sorry to hear that. Been battling pneumonia since January and glued to an oxygen machine since. Getting better tho. ❤
This video feels like it was personally made for me, the thing of trapping yourself in your own mind and beating yourself up and not knowing why is so frustrating and it wears you down so much faster.
Thankyou so much for this video man, started watching you at the start of the year after getting your videos recommended for ages. For sure my comfort channel and go to dude.
This video really helps. I’ve been going through a lot and trying to ignore it and whenever I talk to my parents about it they don’t understand and say “that’s just your anxiety”. I feel understood and more human now. Thank you!
Freshman year of college I went through the exact situation. I was 6' tall and only weighed 100lb and would never leave my dorm, just laying around playing mgs all day every day. It's so cool to hear someone I look up to talk about going through a similar situation. Love you father oompa❤️