Donnie Is Much More Than Just The "Smart One": A Rottmnt Character Analysis
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- Опубліковано 22 сер 2024
- In this video I will be talking about Donnie's character as a whole... I'll do an analysis over it as a speedpaint of fanart I did plays in the background.
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I love how they never had a "donnie is the weakest brother" episode since he was the only one to land a hit on Draxum in their first encounter. I also love what they did to his stick, changing it to his tech-bo staff which gives him an unique fighting style. I also thinks it's interesting that they made him to a softshell turtle giving him an good reason why he has his battle shell. I also love how it allows him to fly which again makes his fighting style so different from his brothers
I love the fact that he’s actually a pretty strong fighter as well. He’s important to a lot of the fights and is never considered weaker than the others. I love it.
@@viperizer0 if you ask me they got him just right 😌👌
Like physically and mystically he is the weakest fighter, but technically he’s up there as the strongest, because he never had to change his weapon and adapt to a new one, and he completely understands what he’s working with, while the turtles (mostly Leo) struggle with understanding why or why not their powers work, Donnie doesn’t have that problem. It’s nice to see that the characters are strong in their own ways, like Raph is the strongest physically, Mikey’s the strongest mystically, Leo is the strongest strategist, it’s fun it’s very fun
@@loseeraleeert2444 I just love this version of them so much. It’s a different take on them but they’re still more or less the same categories… if that makes sense?
Anyway. Thank you so much for your comment!
My son is autistic, and tends to be rather 'meh' about most things. It has made me so happy to see how his face just lights up over this show. We look at Donnie and there are so many similarities. They like the same 'ear-bleedy' music, my son isn't a hugger but will accept hugs from family, he loves his computer time and has been interested in coding lately. He keeps saying that "Donnie is just like me, but smarter! And a Turtle." I'm so glad that this character exists, because it has made my son so happy to see himself reflected on the screen in a positive way. Donnie is best Turtle, and we wish there had been more of the show to enjoy.
Love the video, I look forward to seeing more :)
Awww! Thank you! And I’m so glad that Donnie made a positive impact on you guys like that! That’s why I think this show and Donnie’s character was so so cool. It’s representation that hadn’t been explored too much before and I’m so happy it reached people who it needed to reach!
Thank you so much for your comment!
“And a turtle.”
Yes, that distinction is important
I hope that this Donnie becomes the definitive Donnie in the future. He doesn't have to be super-impossible-tech, but I'm so sick of Donatello sitting at computers and called a nerd by Raph.
'Nerd' is a slang term used by people who are intimidated by your superior intelligence.
I've seen Rise, 2012, and 2003 TMNT and I can safely say Rise has the best version of Donnie. He's more than just the smart one; he's complex and very entertaining. His relationship with Mikey is one of my favorites in the show.
Love your videos btw, looking forward to more!
Thank you so much! I’m glad you’re enjoying my videos and I really appreciate your comment! I’m glad to say that Donnie got so much attention in this iteration!
Absolutely! Donnie’s personality has usually been just “smart” so Rise has been phenomenal to his character that yes he’s the smartest but he has so many quirks and things about him that you can’t not love (and some things that are scarily relatable) Loved these videos!
Thank you so much! I appreciate your support and comments on my videos as well!
Respectfully disagree. Rise Donnie is part of a long line of charactierzation for the character. Donnie in 03 and IDW are very complex characters with full arcs and storylines.
Donnie is Donnie.
We love him ❤❤❤❤
I really love Donnies Gifts upon several rewatches. At first glance you kinda side with his brothers, 'how dare he try to "fix" us', but in actuality it was all about him trying to protect his brothers. Raph charges forward without thinking creating more silverfish to deal with and getting swarmed by them ,so he gives him a helmet to remind him to take a second to stop and think. Mikey slams face first into a fire escape cause he wasn't watching where he was going and falls into a dumpster, Donnies solution is a crash suit to protect him. At first it seems he just doesn't like Leo making jokes, but really it was about him getting distracted and turning his back to the enemy in the middle of a fight. While a shock collar is a funny extreme length to go to(at least in a comedy setting) it's main goal was to get Leo to focus on the fight at hand to not get hurt by being distracted telling silly jokes. Gifts are absolutely his love language. Instead of talking to his brothers about his concerns(ew emotional vulnerability) he analyzes their actions and forms 'solutions' to prevent more harm in the future.
Exactly!! I love that such subtle details are hidden in this show. It’s so interesting to me that at first glance, he’s trying to “fix” his brothers… but the more and more you think about it, he’s just trying to keep them safe. Amazing character and story telling there. Chefs kiss
I also noticed a lot of things about myself through Donnie, and have also started connecting some dots between different things I've experienced in the past, which has led me to start questioning if it's possible I'm somewhere on the autism spectrum as well. I know that when I was little, I used to exhibit a lot more symptoms than I do now, but there are still some things that have stuck with me, that I didn't even realize were symptoms until learning a lot more about autism through Donnie and the way he's represented it.
I'm not diagnosed, probably won't try to get diagnosed anytime soon if ever, and don't even want to call it a self-diagnosis since I really don't have enough information to do so. But in short, Donnie's character has really impacted me, and I'm very glad they took his character in the direction they did.
Donnie really is an amazing character, and I loved some of the points you brought up in this video!! I'm very excited for the future of your channel, and I hope you have a good day :)
Thank you so much! I’m glad other people have felt the same thing and have had a character help them realize something about themselves that they didn’t notice before.
I appreciate your support and hope you have a nice day / night as well! 🥰
your analysis made me realise why i relate to donnie so much
actually not just donnie, leo too
like both of them, im a middle child
like donnie, im autistic, i hyperfixate on stuff i know can be unhealthy for me but i just cant help it
like leo, i dont want the responsibility or pressure that comes with alot of stuff, but i want to be important
wanting to be needed, but not wanting to be a bother to others
loving hugs from my mom, but otherwise really disliking to be touched
i honestly wish i could get my family to watch these videos and just tell them “hey that’s exactly how i feel” without having the feeling that i’ll be judged for being.. me
i really, REALLY want to improve my life style and just better myself in general, maybe get people to understand me
but recently also being diagnosed with social anxiety? doesn’t really help does it
but the thing that honestly makes me relate to them the most
is not wanting to be useless, im not just a waste of space who cant accomplish anything, but i just get so unmotivated when i dont get any validation for any of my actions
wanting to share how i feel and hinting how i do need help, only to be brushed off and be told “i’ll deal with it later”
ever since my autism diagnosis i almost feel like im being treated differently for it even tho im not
it can be really hard sometimes
videos like this really help me understand myself better too, and i am so glad that you made this!
so thank you, i usually never write comments this long but.. these videos just hit so close that i feel like i had to say something
Awww thank you so much! I’m so glad you commented because so many people feel a connection to these characters and it fluctuates for each person.
I’m so glad I was able to help you realize why you relate to these characters and I’m glad you went out of your way to write this comment. Thank you so much!
I will never forgive Nickelodeon for canceling ROTTMNT
Same
You should sign the petition
@@itsmaggie6078
It’s too far gone
@@Cr0wned_Crow No harm signing
When I started the series Donnie was definitely one I really liked. (I can’t say favorites I love them all) I would’ve never realized he was on the spectrum if my friend hadn’t told me. This was the first time I’d ever seen someone with asd represented in a way that didn’t affect their role in the show (ie the good doctor and stuff like that).
The best thing is, I know I’m not the only one. There are so many people who are just recently being exposed to this kind of representation, and are learning so much more about it through research.
And for what you said about thinking you might be on the spectrum and being worried about what your family thinks, I can relate to that too. I always thought there was something off with me, but within the last few weeks I’ve had 2 completely different people
/ situations make “autistic jokes” about me, and it had me thinking.
The point is, you’re not alone. We’re all just out here trying to figure ourselves out 😊
Sorry for the mega long comment! 😂 loved the vid!
Awww thank you so much! And yeah, that’s what’s amazing about Donnie. I probably wouldn’t have known if I hadn’t been told by people or seen stuff on UA-cam as well. Like that’s awesome that it didn’t become apart of his character and that he isn’t put down for these things. Just a phenomenal character all around.
I also found out I was autistic through donnie. Looking back on my certain behaviors and such, in retrospect it should’ve been obvious, but because I was uneducated and had no idea what autism really was it didn’t even cross my mind. But it explains so much about my own history. So I’m glad i connect to donnie this way.
And same. I was super hyperfixated on TMNT 2012 when I was a kid (specifically on donnie) and having a childhood hyperfixation come back in the same way is like a pleasant smack to the face. Liked the video btw!
Aww thank you! And I never got the chance to watch the 2012 series but had always been drawn to it in a sense. I’m glad you were able to connect to Donnie again!
I think it’s really cool how many people Rise Donnie has helped realize they’re autistic too (me included)
It’s so nice to have representation good enough that it helps you understand yourself and your own needs better
Like I for real thought I was the only one that experienced those autistic traits that go masked/overlooked/horribly unnoticed (I have such a long list of them that now I know are traits that I am, in fact, not alone in experiencing and the thought is very comforting to know that I’m not broken, just autistic)
Sorry, that format was very much all over the place 😅
I’m so glad he exists because I honestly didn’t really know what it meant to have autism at first and seeing a character represent something I wasn’t able to explain so well- I’m just so glad they made him
@@viperizer0 me too!! I didn’t realize that so many people struggled with the same things as I do in the same ways that I do, so it’s so incredibly comforting to have had such an open introduction into the autistic community where it was no longer “you’re not autistic because you’re not a stereotype,” and instead “hey, look at this character that we all love that functions and also happens to be autistic! Oh, you like him too? You relate to him in ways you don’t typically relate to people? Well now you know where to find more information on something you didn’t know you’re not alone in,” or at the very least “hey you remember autism? Yeah, it’s not as one dimensional as it’s often made out to be.”
Thanks for letting me spew my thoughts here, this topic just makes me really excited, it could probably be classified as one of my current special interests lol
@@enolp of course!! I’m always happy to hear peoples thoughts on a subject! I’m super glad you commented in the first place!
First I want to start by saying this is a wonderful analysis and I'm glad you see parts of yourself reflected in this show. I did too.
I myself found this show after being diagnosed with autism in my mid 20s. I spent years before that analyzing everything I could, wondering if it would make people treat me differently, and if I would be put into the autism "box" never to be taken seriously again.
There have been learning curves and not everyone has made the effort to understand me, which isn't ideal. However, I would never want to give up knowing that my experiences, strengths, and weaknesses are all connected to how my brain works, which is something I cannot change.
I am now able to give myself grace and approach interactions with compassion knowing there are just some things I won't understand. It's okay that I need to wear sunglasses inside and earplugs and don't want people to touch me because I am more at peace than I have been in my entire life. (And these are just the visible changes I have made that people easily pick up on)
I hope that everyone seeing this that relates to the autistic experience, but is unsure or scared of what that means for them, knows that they are not broken and your needs are worth paying attention.
Thank you so much! I’m so glad you shared this with us all! And that’s honestly what I love about it all. Just because you have autism doesn’t automatically make you a different person than you were before. You went your whole life struggling with something that makes life ten times harder at times and were expected to do just as well as everyone else. That’s why I think undiagnosed autism isn’t good for people and makes life hard. People are so strong in their own rights and they don’t even realize it.
Thank you so much for your comment… I really appreciate it!
I love your analysis, especially since it shows a similar amount of emotional involvement in this show I've always loved the turtles and its because of the family dynamic.
Awww thank you! That means a lot to me! And me too!! I feel like it’s something that people are starved for and that’s why we kind of flock to them
my autistic ass absolutely adores rise donnie, he is just awesome and relatable and silly and just a cool character
No for real. He’s so fun I love him so much he’s just such good representation without trying TOO hard.
11:24 Oh I'm so glad you kept that in because literally the same thing happened, I took an online test and it did say I am though I don't wanna tell my family because, I'm not a massive fan of change but I'm just happy that I got someone to relate to.
I myself have been scared to say anything about it so I’m glad I had this video to talk about it in!
@@viperizer0 you should always have a place either a journal or a channel to get your thoughts out, that's important. And while yes I'm no one to talk about courage, I'm the guy who takes half an hour to work up the courage to knock on a door I wish I was joking. But I'm sure that your family will be supportive and if anything all this does is answer certain questions, you dealt with this for however many years and you didn't even know you have it, if you can't do it, that's okay we're all human and I understand. I honestly don't know what the point of this reply was and I don't wanna come off as aggressive I'm sorry if that happened
@@Echoline77 Nono! Not at all! I love my family to death and I’m sure they’d be supportive about it… but it’s more or less a gnawing feeling at the back of my mind. I don’t really mind them not knowing… even if it does make dealing with things a little difficult… but it just doesn’t seem like something worth bringing up to me. Thank you for your advice though! I appreciate it!
2:34 make sense, he really lives by his name. Since _'Donatello'_ is a name that means _'to Give', 'Given' or 'Gift from God.'_
Also, with that in mind, I noticed something: if you remove the last 3 letters from that name, what word do you have?
Oh my! I didn’t know that!! Thank you for your insight and Ope donate; you’re so right!
2:23 I feel like Mikey is the only one who's allowed to touch Donnie which I think is very cute 😭
I love these two dearly
You’re so right! And yes, their dynamic is extremely adorable! 💕
Thank you for sharing your personal experience with this! I'm sure it took a lot of courage.
Of course! Yeah, I was a little nervous about saying it, but it was good to get it out. Thank you for your comment!
I can relate to the hyper fixation bit, because I actually hyper fixated of rottmnt to the point where I was neglecting personal hygiene bc I was watching the show much. I actually watched it 8 times in 3 months. there have also been other hyperfixations that.have torn me and my parents apart because of how bad they got.
Oh no. I’m sorry this happened. Mine weren’t that extreme, but it is something that can definitely get in the way of living if it goes too far. I’m glad that so many people can relate to this though! Just know you’re not alone! Thanks for your comment!
That's my man, that's what i'll stand by 💜
😤💕🫶
I'm excited for the next analisis, I love Donnie and he made me realize some things about myself too
I’m glad Donnie was able to help you as well! And thank you so much for your comment!
he was my number one favorite ninja turtle! rise donnie is so cool!
Amazing character, really! Thank you for checking out my video and commenting!! I really appreciate it!
I love your videos so much! And Donnie is indeed my favorite character!
Awww thank you! I appreciate that!
This was such a sincere and heartwarming video, loved every second of it (BTW OMG YOUR SPEEDPAİNT İS SO GOOD I rewinded it countless times to see how you use color straight away instead of lineart GENİOUS)
AWWW TYSM!!! I really appreciate your comment and your compliment!! Thank you!
I watched the entire show and the movie so no need for spoilers. Also the show is over but nice video. (Btw I think I like this one too)
Some people like to snoop before they check out the series… so I was just trying to be safe lol. Thank you for your comment.
Honestly I have never been interested in tmnt but as soon as I seen rottmnt I was like :0 I love their character designs and their "problems" XD
Exactly! I found them so interesting and was like… hm. Maybe I should give this a try 🤔
Thank you for explaining it was complicated and great drawing and happy new years eve
Thank you! You have a nice New Year’s Eve as well!
This might get long.
I was relating to all of the turtles in some aspects. But I was relating to him most even before this video.
But this video held a mirror in front of me and got me in the gutts. Knew some of it already, but holding Back tears on the metró is always fun before u arrive home.
I have the same fear as you do. Not diagnosed but afraid how family would react if I went and got Back with something. My family likes to pretend everything is normal and I am just wierd and needs to be like them when I am not. Running into hyperfixations which I love to do but it hurts my relationships which I care about. Can't do just a little. Either don't do sh*t or lost in it for hours with no inbetween. Even tried to stop myself to jump into animating or video games& editing them before I did everything more important life stuff I needed to do. Housework, dishes etc. Because I loose myself in whatewer I do. I crave approval from the people I know would never get them(fam). Or at least I feel they still think my skills are useless because I wasn't able to monetise them. (always get the question when i Tell something I accomplished or proud of: And when will you start earning money with it?)
I am still working on myself and sad about stuff like Donnie in witch town. I love gifting art to people I care about or look up to even if some are not appriciating it.
Still if I don't do hyperfixations for long I become apathetic and freaking sad. Or just start owerthinking my life and worry about everything I have no control over.
I just don't know how to fix it.
But at least I try. Try to figure how to balance hyperfixations and life even if I am not the best át it yet. I am just lazerfocused on one thing át a time and it is bad. Or i get this feedback from loved ones. But I am just wired wrong. I am like this. But I slowly become better.
This is something I can relate to so much. I had a seizure when I was younger and my mom constantly tells me, “I was worried that you wouldn’t come out the same… or have issues. Glad you turned out fine.” Not those words exactly but that’s the gist. She’s said it before but I don’t think she understands how much it makes me think about it because it has not been easy for me and in my opinion it’s nothing but weirdness that comes from me lol.
I’m glad you can relate to me in this sense and glad my video got you thinking! Thank you so much for your comment!
Donnie is just like me fr fr
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I personally have 2 favorites and rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles Donny and Leo Mikey's the second favorite because he's so cute
Same honestly. I love all of them. Leo’s personally my fave and then Donnie. Ngl but like I said, I love them all sm
i remember seeing a comment saying the brothers had no personality. i was very upset.
Uhhh yeah, that’s a little off imo 💀
@@viperizer0 like they even complained about leo's breakdown in the movie after raph got captured saying "that's something raph would do" and I'm like. bro. did you even watch the movie? man has every right to be freaking out! just cuz its something one character is more likely to do doesn't mean the other's can't panic!
As an Autistic myself, I don't think Donnie has Hypersensitivity (and it IS optional for Autistics) He finds things 'gross', true, but ultimately the things he finds gross are no more significant than those his brothers, or indeed something that your average person would find gross. To find a squishy and slimy alien tentacle 'gross' is not on the level where a hypersensitive person would find lying on carpet deeply unpleasant. His 'mild palate' is irregular - while his favourite flavour is cheese, you'll see him eating pizzas with varied toppings just the same as his bros. I personally will pick the mushrooms right out of a meal individually.
It's possible that Donnie, who always wears goggles and headphones, can read lips and speaks ASL, has only audio-sensitivity, but it's never addressed.
This is a very good point! I myself can really relate to the audio sensitivity thing as sometimes audio or different kinds of sounds can really REALLY bother me and stop me from functioning. Thank you so much for your input as it really helps out!
@@viperizer0 One of the theories I had, was that Donnie's Drill gag is kind of like he sees himself. Like, a common metaphor is that Autistic people go through emotional situations like drills, tactless and without regard to what is in the way. Donnie, with his low self-value, sees the Drill as an ugly tool still in Beta; it's what's INSIDE the drill that counts - often his inventions, which he then hands out as gifts to his brothers. But when he finally gains control of Mystic Energy, he uses it to power up the Drill and lands the heaviest single attack on the Shredder - and at the end of the movie he creates a Drill ENTIRELY out of Mystic Energy.
Donnie feels emotions, but identifies and manages them in an Autistic manner, which can be a bit child-like at times. To do otherwise, he'd have to actively learn otherwise. To show love, you give gifts. The bigger the gift, the greater the love (which is why Donnie always talks up his inventions - "I love you THIIIIIS much"). Donnie once made his brothers the Turtle Tank, for NO REASON AT ALL. Of course if Donnie were not Autistic, he would not see the world from that slightly different angle which gives him both huge damage potential, and makes him vital on Support.
@@hyenaholicproductions9033 ugh. This is so good. Thank you so much because this is LITERALLY HOW I FEEL and I get why so many people love Donnie to death because he is SUCH a good representation. Like I myself am a gift giver so it’s SO NICE to see someone in media do this as well! Thank you so so much for your input it was truly interesting to read 😭🥰
When I first heard about this thought it was another series where there was barely any character development
But then I saw all the brothers change and grow
And because of rise I started to self reflect and thought notice somethings I do are different and I never really noticed it till donnie bought up autism, so I tried seeing other disorders and I seem to have some connections to ADHD or autism but I haven't checked
Same for real though. I have no proof myself but I seem to relate to a lot of the things that these characters who have been diagnosed deal with
Could you please do an analysis on the 2012 versions of the brothers???
Definitely! It would probably be later down the line but I already had a raph 2012 vid planned so ofc!
Actually he looks down on splinter due to the fact that splinter is short (this is a joke)
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Nice analysis, it helps me understand this character better, he's really funny and cool :) Would you mind to tell me what kind of test you took online to check you? I'd like to try. I don't think I'm on the spectrum, but, who knows... I always thought I was out of the place, the tipical black sheet in my family, or even in the school, so... I have nothing to lose.
Hello! Thank you! As for the test, I’m sure any would work, but the best ones would be those that are approved by psychiatrists for the best results! Otherwise asking your doctor would be helpful as well!
I’m also very autistic and I prefer to do sign language just like Donatello in The Rise Of The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle’s and I don’t have any one in my family show me that they care to respect me because I’m different and I love science just like the Donatello in The Rise Of The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle’s and I think my family doesn’t care about me as much as my brothers is because I’m very autistic and I can’t stand any one touching me because I don’t care hugs I will give someone else some kind of encouraging but I some kind of words but that’s all I think my family hates me because I’m very autistic and I love the rise Donatello the best because I’m just like him in every way possible
Awww. I’m so glad you got some representation. Physical touch should not have to be the barrier between loving and not loving and I’m so glad that the show can, well, show that it isn’t necessary to care about others. It can be hard to deal with these barriers that this sets up but it just makes you stronger. I hope you have a wonderful day… and I’m sure your family loves you no matter what. If they don’t, I apologize because you deserve much better than that.
@@viperizer0
I’d love to actually Exchange phone numbers with you and talk about Donatello and the other things that I like about The Rise Of The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle’s if you’re interested in doing that with me
@@user-wq4qx5px2j Ah, I appreciate the offer but I don’t think I can do that. Sorry, but thank you for caring enough to want to chat!
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That’s okay but I just wanna tell you what my most favorite thing about Donatello is that I can super relate with being different than everyone else because of being very autistic and I was always taught that being different is what makes you unique and being the same as everyone else that what makes you boring A friend of mine, who I lost to cancer, taught me that that is a lesson that she taught me I will never forget
@@user-wq4qx5px2j awww. I’m so sorry that happened. I am glad you were able to learn something so important from them though. I hope you have a wonderful day!
Which other iteration did you watch of TMNT
Most of 2012. I have like the last season to watch but I’m pretty much done with it. Have just been busy asf
*Me, whos hyperfixated on tmnt for like the 30 millionth time this year alone, watching this at 6am rn with no sleep, hearing the hyperfixation part: 😶🧍*
LMAOO. Naw fr I agree with that. I get super obsessed with things out of nowhere and it DOESNT END.
I know I mentioned it in the Leo video that my brother despite him being a straight A student he could never beat me in chess. (The D, F student)
My mom would say it was because school “didn’t challenge me” because I would just not do my homework but Ace every test.
My mom also has called me an emotionless robot at times that I thought I was being “helpful” trying to explain my way in “emotional situations”
I don’t like being touched. (The only exception is partners and theres still many lines). Otherwise it’s common knowledge in my family that I don’t hug and I don’t like when you put your hand on my shoulder or something. They are small and my brother does make fun of it (while being respectful to it) but it’s something I’ve always felt.
I see how Donny struggles with “why would they need me” as I feel the same way.
I mean hell I’m spending New Years alone tonight because “why would anyone want me to be there. What do I contribute?”
There’s a part of me that understands all the nuisances of emotions but it’s very difficult for me to feel them in a way that’s perceived “normal”
Like of course I still feel emotions. But not like everyone else.
My family wants me to get tested but I’m scared that if I do and it comes out I am on the spectrum that to myself that’s what I’ll always be.
Would it be freeing to know or would I then put myself in a box and know that all of my flaws and quirks are because I’m not “normal” and what does that make me?
There’s of course a lot of thoughts on it all in general but I don’t want this to get much longer lol.
Thanks for another amazing Video and I’m looking forward to more in the future.
Again if you do Pink Diamond it’d be awesome to see a follow up of Spinel.
Hey, I just wanted to thank you for sharing your feelings on here. It really helps to see others experiences with this as well and I can definitely understand where you’re coming from here. I myself am not spending New Years alone, but get very overwhelmed with all the people around and like shut down when people I don’t know well try to communicate with me.
Also I hate being touched as well. The exception being ppl I really like and trust and partners as well. Although, like you mentioned it’s still iffy with that.
Thank you so much for your comments and support! And I believe I will do a Spinel video because I think that’s a really good idea… especially since she’s a character that didn’t show up too much that people loved the heck outta.
Hey, I know it’s been like 6 months since you posted this, but I just wanted to say I hope you’re doing okay. Life can be really hard when you don’t fit.
I feel like I should put a “but” here, but I really don’t have anything to add to that. Life is just rough. And sometimes that just has to be okay.