Thanks! That's good to know when I tread a littler farther from the reservation. I wasn't sure about this video tbh, because I have real life shots, and a obscure(ish) video game for the first half basically before anime even appears. So it's good to know
I think your channel is heading towards more of a personal one, I mean that people would probably watch you talk about whatever you like (you talked about a video on Car Seat Headrest for exemple)
I would like to carve my name into the Anime community because I have a lot of very ambitious projects planned assuming I gain enough influence on other tubers, but yeah I think my channel is definitely on the fringes of being 'anime' videos.
i constantly find myself stuck in a cycle of choosing either loneliness or fake friendship and it's really exhausting. i just can't stand pretending i like people i absolutely detest anymore. i want to run away from everyone and start all over. i guess it's because in games i sought refugee in you could reset everything with one click. i'm drunk on the idea of finding someone i can be comfortable around, someone who likes my company the way it is, without pretending. but i guess it's not so simple is it?
I think people like that exist, but sometimes a lot of difficult searching and struggle has to be waded through to get to it. It is the exact reason I went to college 9 hours from home. I wanted a 100% reset on my relationships. I knew nobody where I went, and that was really freeing to me. I think I sometimes get caught in the idea that somebody will magically appear love, and rescue me (as I talked about in my NHK video), but that is a self defeating mentality. There is almost certainly someone out there, but they may need to be found.
Hiding in Public - you're absolutely right they do exist but may never be found. i wonder if i have already met them a long time ago but never realised that, never got to know them better... well, i'll be waiting for your next videos, thank you for replying
@@HidinginPublic Holy shit, I just did the exact same thing. I am going to college halfway across the US from where I grew up where no one else from my school is going and few of them had even heard of. I wanted a full reset on my relationships like you, but because of COVID I can barely form any new ones. I am not really a social guy so combined with the current situation meeting people is tough and forming relationships is even tougher. Some of the people I meet I don't even like and know I won't be able to tolerate for long but I am tempted just because I want to have some social interaction. Instead though I have mostly fallen back on my old relationships, getting in calls with my friends and such, which is fine but not what I really wanted, nor would getting to know people I don't really like be what I wanted. I guess now I am just waiting for when things are normal and I can get to know more people, but I dread that that will never really happen, like when you do skip one day on an exercise program and then never go back to it. This comment is two years late but whatever, so it goes.
Escapism through media has always been a part of my life, and it always will be. I am not ashamed of it, in fact, I feel like I owe it for possibly saving me in many occasions. I believe as long as you don't let it completely destroy or corrupt your reality, it is a great and meaningful way to live your life. The moments that I spent watching my favorite anime or playing a video game when I could just shut myself out from the real world and its problems are memories that I would never give up for the world. The way you convey your perspectives so eloquently through thoughtful introspection and anecdotes is truly something... I hope you continue to tell your stories and thoughts to inspire others like myself to make sense of life just a little bit more, and maybe discover renewed love for it in the process. Great. Now I feel compelled to watch Stoney Cat and Lucky Star because you x)
I'm not sure how much I recommend stoney cat haha, but Lucky Star means a lot to me and will get it's own proper video when I have the time and ability. Escapism is something I believe is often stigmatized, and while not always good, people don't realize it isn't always bad either. Like you said, there are many times where escapism has been very important to my mental health, and so I'm glad you liked the video.
Great video, you personal boy. I definitely relate to that feeling of not having enough time, to that feeling that I'm letting something slip away that I can never get back and that I'm just wasting it. You the man.
Thank you for making these videos. I watch some dumb slice of life anime pretty often, I guess as a way to cool down, a way to escape from real life and all of its burdens and responsibilities, if only for a little while. I feel like this video, as with a lot of your other videos, is very good at sort of describing how I feel and putting it into words. Anyways, great video, I'm so happy I found your channel.
I'm happy you found my channel too. I love slice of life more than I care to admit (allthough I am not ashamed of Lucky Star that show is Godsent), I'm glad you can connect to the way I choose to articulate things.
I don't know what the the purpose of Nostalgia is or why everyone feels it, but it it's something everyone can relate to. I suppose its just the way our brains work, warping our sense of reality to make up this picture in our mind of something that we despratly crave, when times where simpler and when we where just happier. When we are teenagers or grown adults we look back at our childhood and when we are old we'll look back again at our time as teenagers and youthfull adults. Its natural and even though it can be painfull to look back at something and just whish you could go back, it's only a confimation that you did everything right up until now. People tell you that you should never look back wistfully and that you should only think about the future or the here and now, but i think that It's Okay to be Nostalgic sometimes
I think it is too. I think people can become to overwhelmed and fixated on their past perception of happiness, and should look forward, but when people say not to look back wistfully, I must be doing something wrong. I'm nostalgic as hell.
God I love this video. I revisit so many of your videos Hiding so I can listen again to your messages. They are so very meaningful, and I appreciate them so much. Thanks hiding
I really really don't comment on any videos ever, but I guess i feel that I would be doing you a disservice by keeping my opinion to myself. Your videos are great, and seeing your videos are something I look forward to. Thank you for being someone that puts themselves out there, because on myside it feels nice to have someone to relate to.
this is actually why I love Hayao Miyazaki's movies. even in his most fantastical environments, there's a kind of attention to realistic detail that makes the world feel grounded, and relatable, and also... special? which seems like the exact opposite of what relatability should be. relatability should be mundane because we know it so well, but not through this lens. in a movie like Spirited Away, where almost every character is some kind of bizarre spirit, the movie will still take the time to lead you through an environment that is really just a building, or show characters sleeping, or sitting and looking at the scenery, or riding on a train in silence. it elevates the parts of the world that you could experience yourself to the same level of interesting as everything unfamiliar that the movie has to offer. and it does this by rendering them in detail that is faithful to the emotion you'd get from observing them in real life. and I mean actually observing them, not just passively ignoring them in favor of thinking about more important things. if you're worrying about filing your taxes during your entire commute, you're not observing your ride on the train. what emotion would you have to feel in order to get out of your head and into the world? Hayao Miyazaki shows that it's important to observe that train ride, because he observed it enough to faithfully animate it. it makes you wonder why you don't observe it more often... and sometimes, the emotions of his movies rub off on you, and make you feel something new the next time you ride the train. my first studio ghibli movie that I ever encountered was Kiki's Delivery Service. that movie will never stop being relatable to me... it's almost as if I grow into new levels of understanding it as I age, but that never makes me leave behind the reasons why I loved it so much to begin with. and that's super important, because it recontextualizes my life for me a little. my life can still be difficult while retaining the things I liked about it a long time ago. watching Hayao Miyazaki's portrayal of someone who had a talent, relied on it a lot, lost passion for it, and was extremely shaken by the blow this took to their identity, makes me realize that relating with that doesn't make you less worthy of attention. Hayao Miyazaki made a whole movie to watch someone go through this. it can't be unimportant, and it doesn't make Kiki a failure as a person. in fact, it makes her succeed as a protagonist. we can succeed as protagonists of our own stories, even by being like Kiki. it's hard, and there's no sure fire way out of it, but finding your own inspiration is a journey, and that's compelling in its own way. the last movie I wanna mention is My Neighbor Totoro. and this is a movie that I've heard people say is somehow less... I dunno, compelling? than other ghibli movies? like, a lot of people view it as lighthearted, simple kid's movie fluff. especially compared to other movies with heavier themes, like Nausicaa, or Princess Mononoke. but for me, My Neighbor Totoro has a specific purpose. I watch My Neighbor Totoro when it feels like winter has gone on for too long, and I miss summer. or even when it's summer, but the summer I remember from when I was a kid seems too far away. this is a very specific way to use a movie, but it's very effective. My Neighbor Totoro is the epitome of what I've been describing so far. it's Hayao Miyazaki looking at something mundane, and elevating it to a level of great importance, simply by the act of animating it with such care and consideration. the fact that these moments were worth the effort makes you reevaluate the importance you put on this sort of thing... because a lot of the shots in this movie are something that you could go outside and observe. you need only observe them through the eyes of someone more elated with doing so than you currently are. when Hayao Miyazaki animates the seemingly mundane, he implies that you should have the time in your life to do this. you should have breathing room. he's saying "animating this is worth it, because this is good, and I want to immortalize it" and you believe it because of the care and dedication that is self evident in his work. sometimes, if you're doing something that's stressing you out, like studying, or cleaning... just think of how Hayao Miyazaki would animate you doing this task. because he would. in some cases, he has. not you specifically. not this specifically. but something equally mundane, and yet, equally important.
Came for the anime. Stayed for the life lessons. Thank you so much for making these videos and sharing your stories. It is inspiring and genuine and beautiful. I'm glad you found a way to express yourself.
There's a manga that pretty much taught me this lesson, Gin no Saji. When I saw this idea it kinda blew my mind, it was the first time a fictional work made me reflect so deeply upon my own life.
Nice video. I subscribed to your channel when I watched your NHK video. I guess you could say I'm a hikikomori. And I'm not saying that because it's "cool" as some people seem to insinuate online. I have pretty severe agoraphobia and there's nothing fun about it. I say all of this because it's hard to fulfil these childhood aspirations when you're nearly always alone. But, come to think of it, when I was a boy I never really fantasised about being a hero or something like that. I was always creative. From early elementary school I wrote my own stories, devised my own board games, and pretty much lived for the escapism I could experience after school. I never enjoyed school. While I had some friends, most of all instead of playing outside I eagerly awaited being able to jump into some kind of fantasy world. My first real introduction to narrative-heavy games was Final Fantasy VII when I was nine years old. I've been hooked ever since. Most of my "friends" ended up backstabbing me one way or another and my parents were abusive. I wasn't the knight, but I lived vicariously through my own heroes in video games and novels. And, to some extent, those behaviours have continued, even now at nearly thirty years old. Sure, I've thought about doing good things many years ago, like working as an English teacher abroad and helping those in poverty in developing countries. Now though, as a hiki, I can barely leave my home. I like to feel some sense of purpose through the things I do online, but I think there's only so much you can do to help others on a computer. There probably comes a point when it's no longer okay to run away.
Wow, thank you for sharing. You are absolutely right, people can become so involved with escapism that it becomes unhealthy. I can connect to what you said creating things. I also made a board game or three when I was younger, when I didn't have the money I would make a paper game-boy, and make paper games to put in it so I could feel like a game developer. I think there is some valid purpose to be drawn from online interaction. I think it gets the shaft from the public a lot, but there are some things I argue you can't get from public interaction that you can online. We create our own values, purposes, and happiness's. Sometimes that fact can be freeing, and other times it can be crushing. I hope things go well for you man, thanks for sticking around with me, and once again, I'm glad you shared.
im happy someone else appreciates chuggaaconroy's MOTHER 3 series. that was the first story that ever made me cry when i was a kid. i'll never forget the things it taught me.
I'm not sure you're going to read this, but I have been watching many of your videos. The feeling and quality in your videos are refreshing and amazing. Thank you for making your videos. You have absolutely made an impact on my life.
it continuously baffles me how much i relate to the videos you make, time and time again. not only are the videos amazing, but you seem like a pretty good dude yourself. really glad to see you making videos again. there’s not really anyone else i look forward to watching more than you and what you create. thank you
2018. 4 years, fast pace. Thanks. Yes the energy is the same but so different we cannot mix well. But does not hit us like before at younger age, the dragons, the heroes are also here in a different shape..
I really love your videos, I can relate to the "running away" thing. It's nice to be able to watch these well written videos and be able to relate to them, they put me at ease and are very enjoyable. You're an amazing person.
God dammit i love your channel so much. Although Ive realized all of this for myself, my glad to hear others have the same idea and actually put them out there to the world. Although it does discourage me to start making videos, as my ideas has already been stated.
I see what you’re going on about now in your title. Nice work. If there is anything to add, i should say is if you’re going to run away from an issue it might haunt you later on. I didn’t have any genuine friends til about 7th grade or so, even then i didn’t hang out with people on my own til 8th grade or so. Only real people I knew was my immediate family. The people I played sports with were teammates, never saw them outside of practice or talked to them outside it either. I did a lot of stupid things in social situations and got picked on a bunch. Fully deserved that for acting different tbh. It is fine to run away, just know that sometimes you’re gonna have to deal with a problem one way or another. However I wish the internet was faster when I was young. Spent most of my time exploring the woods and playing by the creek. On winning the yugiho tournament. I know that feeling. The wrestling coach I had gave a little pep talk saying that ‘life is shit. You wake up and work most of the day and relax a bit then sleep every day til you can sit out and do nothing til you die. However, there are moments that’ll you’ll come to find are what makes life worth dealing with all this shit. Like having your first kid, it is a shining moment that makes it all worth it’ Last time I felt that I was at the district tournament for state wrestling and just sprained my ankle the match before (it was folk style wrestling and this injury left me with no ability to take shots or wrestle perfect on bottom) I was in the 220 weight class, so it was big boys who could move. If I won that I could just forfeit the last match and go on to regionals. The third period came and I was down 5-3, I took top to start the match. The guy did some really poor stand up, so I grappled his head to his knee as fast as I could to cradle him. Pinned him. I had the crowd there actually cheer for me. From warming up by hopping on one foot to making it to regionals for the first time. Still gives me chills. I ended up losing at regionals primarily due to getting against better wrestlers but one match was definitely due to the injury...he was so open for a shot that match and I couldn’t with my dominant ankle fugged...these moments are why I played sports mate. You can really triumph, and I’m glad to have done that once.
This was really interesting and kinda got me emotional. That longing for that feeling you talked about, I also felt in the past; when the world seemed so open and hopeful and before the realities started hitting me. Like you said the feelings can still come, but just more sparsely (and much more rarely for me). I just want to say this video and your feelings really resonated with me.
Dude, your videos are so personal. You might have a few suscribers, but I believe that the ones you reach are kind of fond to you. Looking through the commentaries, they are a lot taking into account the number of views, and they are also very personal. I think most people watching your videos can relate to you in many ways, personally I really feel less lonely by knowing there is someone else in the world who is going through something like that, even if I'm aware I'll never know that person.
metatf Yeah I think so too. The people I see post on my videos are really touching. The multiple paragraphy comments, the personal stories. It feels more like a relationship than I see on other channels, although, admitedly I look a lot at my own comments than anyone elses. I think the people who do follow really connect and care and I'm glad a community this size had the ability to be cultivated at all. I'm glad you connect with my videos, and I'm really grateful to have the thousand I do. Also who knows. I'd like to have a large enough size to organize a meetup or speak somewhere someday. It's not impossible I think to meet this people or have them meet me. I really want to make it possible for that to happen.
It's kind of cool I got to see this channel in such an early stage, if you had a bigger amount of suscribers, it would be harder for you to read the commentaries, and also anwser them. It's not like I don't want you to grow or anything, I hope you will. I'll just enjoy the current state of your channel.
metatf I will. While I do want to grow in order to possibly sustain myself or work on more ambitious projects I do like this time I'm in where there are a lot of comments but it isnt completely overwhelming.
Especially in pokemon when you see you one millionth Zubat. In all seriousness, great video, so personal and well made. God damn, the feels hit me like a train.
I just wanted to say, thanks for making videos like this man, I've currently been going through much pressure on school and videos like this make me want to keep trying my hardest and I've almost watched almost all of your videos in which is all very inspiring and motivational to me, the fact that you talk about your life really allows me to connect to you and your experiences. I don't know if you'll see this but, thanks for everything.
I can empathize with the feeling of not having enough time. I only turned 18 a bit more than a month ago and, in video game terms, I feel like I haven't put enough exp into my skills, like my stats just aren't good enough. Even though in my head I know I have my whole life ahead of me, I feel like I haven't capitalized on the easy beginning levels of my life and so when the big bosses come...I won't be ready.
I can relate to the whole "running away" when dealing with bullies in my remote past. Now I advocate taking a more ballsy approach when possible; enduring suffering is a useful skill, and helps grow self respect. This is the same idea I think with your pushing to ask people out for a date. I understood your concept of "running away" in two parts: the physical situation as well as a psychological escapism from the limitations of life. You talk about slaying the dragon which is a kind of "running away" into your own fantasy world of your childhood. The reality is much less vibrant (as compared to Lucky Star): that some kid just won a Yugioh tournament. I get the impression that what exists in your mind, is of a split world (one of childhood, and anime representation), and the ordinary pains of everyday life. Some kind of longing to unite the two, or to view the ordinary as containing aspects of the extraordinary. I liked your Welcome to the Nhk video more though. This video didn't hit as close to home for me. Not enough darkness, and how to exit the darkness.
Yeah I think the NHK video is more overall impactful and hits harder overall. This video is more about nostalgia and is meant to be more consistently positive and brighter. It's okay to indulge in escapism from time to time, but you can't let it consume you. NHK was more about how I believed I could escape an obsessive escapism and depression, so I think they were coming from different places. Also wow you cited enough specific details from the video it reminds me of a blog post assignment I do to show teachers I read the text. I appreciate it how much you paid attention to it, and feel like you really understood what I was trying to say.
I tried to understand. Whether I got it or not, I wasn't sure. I don't mind hearing some criticism if I hadn't gotten it right. I feel like it's something you're struggling with (the whole escapism thing), probably a feeling left over from the NHK video. Like it's a warning to yourself as well as to others to not go too far. Have you watched you My Teenage romance comedy Snafu ? I think that show is hilarious and got some "deep" themes that you may like. Themes such as authenticity and appearance vs reality (the appearance vs reality thing might be more with season 2 though). Apparently I look a little bit like the main character according to my Mum and ex-girl I used to hang with. Lol.
I really laugh at those that miss their childhoods because they have responsibilities now. I would rather have those responsibilities than go back to my abusive and stifled childhood People who miss your childhood? You're lucky.
I've never liked "bright" shows, maybe it's because my real life is fairly sunny that i like darker stuff. School Days is the closest thing to a hareem anime i liked. I realized it's more fun to watch the protagonist go on adventures, than to be the protagonist going on adventures, when i was in middle school. I want a quiet life so i can watch some anime rather than being the hero. If you need to feel important, console yourself with the thought we're all cogs in a machine, so we're all equally unimportant, yet the machine we're part of can do great things. I used to mock Taoism for saying "all you need in life is in your villaige, don't look to the next villaige" for rejecting the wonder of the world, but i see it as good advice now, you can find enough variety to fill a human life in front of your nose most of the time, and searching for it elsewhere may be "grass is greener" fallacy (i don't totally buy that, as you can find people you have more in common with in other places, but there's some truth to it). I think that's relevant to the desire to be the hero.
I really like darker shows as well. School Days gets a bad wrap. There definitely are so many smaller things we realize and value as we grow older that I think fill 'the life in front of your nose' pretty well. Thanks for watching!
i dont know if you will see this comment but I really love your videos , they're helping me get through a tough time and make me happy , I just wanted to show my appreciation for you through a comment thank you for your videos and keep up the good work :D
Hey man, your videos are awesome. They always open up my mind a little bit more. Have you ever tried Dungeons and Dragons? It’s becoming a little more mainstream now and can be a fun activity for you and a group of friends.
I never have. I played Heroscape growing up, and played a role playing game recently which was similar except it was all on paper, but never DnD itself. I would like to.
ah this brings back some memories of me and a buddy just running around with big, taped up peices of wood. just fighting stuff that wasnt there, trying to ''please'' a higher being or person we called ''the king''. but when looking back at all of this, i just cant help but feel kinda sad, there's a pain in my heart. i just want to go back. i want to relive those memories. id give quite a bit to be able to do just one more mission for ""the king"".
Anime apart, you're a great writer man, you easily get people invested in what you're talking about
Thanks! That's good to know when I tread a littler farther from the reservation. I wasn't sure about this video tbh, because I have real life shots, and a obscure(ish) video game for the first half basically before anime even appears. So it's good to know
I think your channel is heading towards more of a personal one, I mean that people would probably watch you talk about whatever you like (you talked about a video on Car Seat Headrest for exemple)
I would like to carve my name into the Anime community because I have a lot of very ambitious projects planned assuming I gain enough influence on other tubers, but yeah I think my channel is definitely on the fringes of being 'anime' videos.
i constantly find myself stuck in a cycle of choosing either loneliness or fake friendship and it's really exhausting.
i just can't stand pretending i like people i absolutely detest anymore.
i want to run away from everyone and start all over.
i guess it's because in games i sought refugee in you could reset everything with one click.
i'm drunk on the idea of finding someone i can be comfortable around, someone who likes my company the way it is, without pretending.
but i guess it's not so simple is it?
I think people like that exist, but sometimes a lot of difficult searching and struggle has to be waded through to get to it. It is the exact reason I went to college 9 hours from home. I wanted a 100% reset on my relationships. I knew nobody where I went, and that was really freeing to me. I think I sometimes get caught in the idea that somebody will magically appear love, and rescue me (as I talked about in my NHK video), but that is a self defeating mentality. There is almost certainly someone out there, but they may need to be found.
Hiding in Public - you're absolutely right they do exist but may never be found. i wonder if i have already met them a long time ago but never realised that, never got to know them better... well, i'll be waiting for your next videos, thank you for replying
It's a scary thought, and one I've had multiple times. Sure thing, I'm glad you'll be waiting
OC sounds as socially hungry as I were before. Hope you get that sorted out and have your insights.
@@HidinginPublic Holy shit, I just did the exact same thing. I am going to college halfway across the US from where I grew up where no one else from my school is going and few of them had even heard of. I wanted a full reset on my relationships like you, but because of COVID I can barely form any new ones. I am not really a social guy so combined with the current situation meeting people is tough and forming relationships is even tougher. Some of the people I meet I don't even like and know I won't be able to tolerate for long but I am tempted just because I want to have some social interaction. Instead though I have mostly fallen back on my old relationships, getting in calls with my friends and such, which is fine but not what I really wanted, nor would getting to know people I don't really like be what I wanted. I guess now I am just waiting for when things are normal and I can get to know more people, but I dread that that will never really happen, like when you do skip one day on an exercise program and then never go back to it.
This comment is two years late but whatever, so it goes.
Your Emotional honesty is very inspiring! Keep doin' what your doin'.
Thanks man, I'll try to!
Escapism through media has always been a part of my life, and it always will be. I am not ashamed of it, in fact, I feel like I owe it for possibly saving me in many occasions. I believe as long as you don't let it completely destroy or corrupt your reality, it is a great and meaningful way to live your life. The moments that I spent watching my favorite anime or playing a video game when I could just shut myself out from the real world and its problems are memories that I would never give up for the world.
The way you convey your perspectives so eloquently through thoughtful introspection and anecdotes is truly something... I hope you continue to tell your stories and thoughts to inspire others like myself to make sense of life just a little bit more, and maybe discover renewed love for it in the process.
Great. Now I feel compelled to watch Stoney Cat and Lucky Star because you x)
I'm not sure how much I recommend stoney cat haha, but Lucky Star means a lot to me and will get it's own proper video when I have the time and ability. Escapism is something I believe is often stigmatized, and while not always good, people don't realize it isn't always bad either. Like you said, there are many times where escapism has been very important to my mental health, and so I'm glad you liked the video.
Escapism is like the duct tape of life...
Great video, you personal boy. I definitely relate to that feeling of not having enough time, to that feeling that I'm letting something slip away that I can never get back and that I'm just wasting it. You the man.
Thanks man, glad you did.
You are criminally underrated. The fact that you have 0 dislikes on your video is a testament to how brilliant your channel is.
Noooo 2 dislikes
Thank you for making these videos. I watch some dumb slice of life anime pretty often, I guess as a way to cool down, a way to escape from real life and all of its burdens and responsibilities, if only for a little while. I feel like this video, as with a lot of your other videos, is very good at sort of describing how I feel and putting it into words. Anyways, great video, I'm so happy I found your channel.
I'm happy you found my channel too. I love slice of life more than I care to admit (allthough I am not ashamed of Lucky Star that show is Godsent), I'm glad you can connect to the way I choose to articulate things.
I don't know what the the purpose of Nostalgia is or why everyone feels it, but it it's something everyone can relate to. I suppose its just the way our brains work, warping our sense of reality to make up this picture in our mind of something that we despratly crave, when times where simpler and when we where just happier. When we are teenagers or grown adults we look back at our childhood and when we are old we'll look back again at our time as teenagers and youthfull adults. Its natural and even though it can be painfull to look back at something and just whish you could go back, it's only a confimation that you did everything right up until now. People tell you that you should never look back wistfully and that you should only think about the future or the here and now, but i think that
It's Okay to be Nostalgic sometimes
I think it is too. I think people can become to overwhelmed and fixated on their past perception of happiness, and should look forward, but when people say not to look back wistfully, I must be doing something wrong. I'm nostalgic as hell.
You need to get a discord going!
side note
You may not realize this but you are very therapeutic to listen to.
Thanks, I'm glad you think so. We actually have a discord. It's linked on a lot of the newer videos
God I love this video. I revisit so many of your videos Hiding so I can listen again to your messages. They are so very meaningful, and I appreciate them so much. Thanks hiding
Chuggaconroy is the my first subscription and will always hold a dear place in my heart
I really really don't comment on any videos ever, but I guess i feel that I would be doing you a disservice by keeping my opinion to myself. Your videos are great, and seeing your videos are something I look forward to. Thank you for being someone that puts themselves out there, because on myside it feels nice to have someone to relate to.
I'm very appreciative that you chose to comment, and it makes me happy to know that the videos I'm making are connecting. That's important I think.
Man I don't remember how I found your channel but i'm happy I did, your content is amazing and you made me feel a whole lot better today. Thank you.
Haha thanks man, I'm glad and grateful.
this is actually why I love Hayao Miyazaki's movies. even in his most fantastical environments, there's a kind of attention to realistic detail that makes the world feel grounded, and relatable, and also... special? which seems like the exact opposite of what relatability should be. relatability should be mundane because we know it so well, but not through this lens.
in a movie like Spirited Away, where almost every character is some kind of bizarre spirit, the movie will still take the time to lead you through an environment that is really just a building, or show characters sleeping, or sitting and looking at the scenery, or riding on a train in silence. it elevates the parts of the world that you could experience yourself to the same level of interesting as everything unfamiliar that the movie has to offer. and it does this by rendering them in detail that is faithful to the emotion you'd get from observing them in real life. and I mean actually observing them, not just passively ignoring them in favor of thinking about more important things. if you're worrying about filing your taxes during your entire commute, you're not observing your ride on the train. what emotion would you have to feel in order to get out of your head and into the world? Hayao Miyazaki shows that it's important to observe that train ride, because he observed it enough to faithfully animate it. it makes you wonder why you don't observe it more often... and sometimes, the emotions of his movies rub off on you, and make you feel something new the next time you ride the train.
my first studio ghibli movie that I ever encountered was Kiki's Delivery Service. that movie will never stop being relatable to me... it's almost as if I grow into new levels of understanding it as I age, but that never makes me leave behind the reasons why I loved it so much to begin with. and that's super important, because it recontextualizes my life for me a little. my life can still be difficult while retaining the things I liked about it a long time ago. watching Hayao Miyazaki's portrayal of someone who had a talent, relied on it a lot, lost passion for it, and was extremely shaken by the blow this took to their identity, makes me realize that relating with that doesn't make you less worthy of attention. Hayao Miyazaki made a whole movie to watch someone go through this. it can't be unimportant, and it doesn't make Kiki a failure as a person. in fact, it makes her succeed as a protagonist. we can succeed as protagonists of our own stories, even by being like Kiki. it's hard, and there's no sure fire way out of it, but finding your own inspiration is a journey, and that's compelling in its own way.
the last movie I wanna mention is My Neighbor Totoro. and this is a movie that I've heard people say is somehow less... I dunno, compelling? than other ghibli movies? like, a lot of people view it as lighthearted, simple kid's movie fluff. especially compared to other movies with heavier themes, like Nausicaa, or Princess Mononoke. but for me, My Neighbor Totoro has a specific purpose. I watch My Neighbor Totoro when it feels like winter has gone on for too long, and I miss summer. or even when it's summer, but the summer I remember from when I was a kid seems too far away. this is a very specific way to use a movie, but it's very effective. My Neighbor Totoro is the epitome of what I've been describing so far. it's Hayao Miyazaki looking at something mundane, and elevating it to a level of great importance, simply by the act of animating it with such care and consideration. the fact that these moments were worth the effort makes you reevaluate the importance you put on this sort of thing... because a lot of the shots in this movie are something that you could go outside and observe. you need only observe them through the eyes of someone more elated with doing so than you currently are.
when Hayao Miyazaki animates the seemingly mundane, he implies that you should have the time in your life to do this. you should have breathing room. he's saying "animating this is worth it, because this is good, and I want to immortalize it" and you believe it because of the care and dedication that is self evident in his work. sometimes, if you're doing something that's stressing you out, like studying, or cleaning... just think of how Hayao Miyazaki would animate you doing this task. because he would. in some cases, he has. not you specifically. not this specifically. but something equally mundane, and yet, equally important.
Came for the anime. Stayed for the life lessons.
Thank you so much for making these videos and sharing your stories. It is inspiring and genuine and beautiful. I'm glad you found a way to express yourself.
Your videos are like an escape for me man I love them I really hope you can make a lot more like this in the future.
There's a manga that pretty much taught me this lesson, Gin no Saji. When I saw this idea it kinda blew my mind, it was the first time a fictional work made me reflect so deeply upon my own life.
Nice video. I subscribed to your channel when I watched your NHK video. I guess you could say I'm a hikikomori. And I'm not saying that because it's "cool" as some people seem to insinuate online. I have pretty severe agoraphobia and there's nothing fun about it. I say all of this because it's hard to fulfil these childhood aspirations when you're nearly always alone.
But, come to think of it, when I was a boy I never really fantasised about being a hero or something like that. I was always creative. From early elementary school I wrote my own stories, devised my own board games, and pretty much lived for the escapism I could experience after school. I never enjoyed school. While I had some friends, most of all instead of playing outside I eagerly awaited being able to jump into some kind of fantasy world. My first real introduction to narrative-heavy games was Final Fantasy VII when I was nine years old. I've been hooked ever since.
Most of my "friends" ended up backstabbing me one way or another and my parents were abusive. I wasn't the knight, but I lived vicariously through my own heroes in video games and novels. And, to some extent, those behaviours have continued, even now at nearly thirty years old. Sure, I've thought about doing good things many years ago, like working as an English teacher abroad and helping those in poverty in developing countries. Now though, as a hiki, I can barely leave my home. I like to feel some sense of purpose through the things I do online, but I think there's only so much you can do to help others on a computer. There probably comes a point when it's no longer okay to run away.
Wow, thank you for sharing. You are absolutely right, people can become so involved with escapism that it becomes unhealthy. I can connect to what you said creating things. I also made a board game or three when I was younger, when I didn't have the money I would make a paper game-boy, and make paper games to put in it so I could feel like a game developer. I think there is some valid purpose to be drawn from online interaction. I think it gets the shaft from the public a lot, but there are some things I argue you can't get from public interaction that you can online. We create our own values, purposes, and happiness's. Sometimes that fact can be freeing, and other times it can be crushing. I hope things go well for you man, thanks for sticking around with me, and once again, I'm glad you shared.
So much heart and soul in all these videos: im loving it
im happy someone else appreciates chuggaaconroy's MOTHER 3 series. that was the first story that ever made me cry when i was a kid. i'll never forget the things it taught me.
I think I just fell in love with your channel
Once again, great video, had a good core.
Always good to see you upload.
photognn thanks. Ben you and I should call again sometime
for sure! Been missing our talks.
I'm not sure you're going to read this, but I have been watching many of your videos. The feeling and quality in your videos are refreshing and amazing. Thank you for making your videos. You have absolutely made an impact on my life.
I read it. Thank you, i'm happy you can connect with what I've been making
it continuously baffles me how much i relate to the videos you make, time and time again.
not only are the videos amazing, but you seem like a pretty good dude yourself. really glad to see you making videos again. there’s not really anyone else i look forward to watching more than you and what you create. thank you
Hashi I'm really glad to hear you enjoy and that I have your support. I'm glad i'm back too :) btw I really like your profile pic it's hillarious
2018. 4 years, fast pace. Thanks.
Yes the energy is the same but so different we cannot mix well. But does not hit us like before at younger age, the dragons, the heroes are also here in a different shape..
This was a great and touching video. Keep up the great work!
UltraInstinct Gohan Thanks! Appreciate the support!
I really love your videos, I can relate to the "running away" thing. It's nice to be able to watch these well written videos and be able to relate to them, they put me at ease and are very enjoyable. You're an amazing person.
Thanks for commenting. I'm glad you enjoy them, and find some merit in them
God dammit i love your channel so much. Although Ive realized all of this for myself, my glad to hear others have the same idea and actually put them out there to the world. Although it does discourage me to start making videos, as my ideas has already been stated.
Dude, i've looked at some of your videos, and you are by far the most relatable person i have ever seen on any social media platform.
I see what you’re going on about now in your title. Nice work.
If there is anything to add, i should say is if you’re going to run away from an issue it might haunt you later on. I didn’t have any genuine friends til about 7th grade or so, even then i didn’t hang out with people on my own til 8th grade or so. Only real people I knew was my immediate family. The people I played sports with were teammates, never saw them outside of practice or talked to them outside it either. I did a lot of stupid things in social situations and got picked on a bunch. Fully deserved that for acting different tbh. It is fine to run away, just know that sometimes you’re gonna have to deal with a problem one way or another. However I wish the internet was faster when I was young. Spent most of my time exploring the woods and playing by the creek.
On winning the yugiho tournament. I know that feeling. The wrestling coach I had gave a little pep talk saying that ‘life is shit. You wake up and work most of the day and relax a bit then sleep every day til you can sit out and do nothing til you die. However, there are moments that’ll you’ll come to find are what makes life worth dealing with all this shit. Like having your first kid, it is a shining moment that makes it all worth it’
Last time I felt that I was at the district tournament for state wrestling and just sprained my ankle the match before (it was folk style wrestling and this injury left me with no ability to take shots or wrestle perfect on bottom) I was in the 220 weight class, so it was big boys who could move. If I won that I could just forfeit the last match and go on to regionals. The third period came and I was down 5-3, I took top to start the match. The guy did some really poor stand up, so I grappled his head to his knee as fast as I could to cradle him. Pinned him. I had the crowd there actually cheer for me. From warming up by hopping on one foot to making it to regionals for the first time. Still gives me chills.
I ended up losing at regionals primarily due to getting against better wrestlers but one match was definitely due to the injury...he was so open for a shot that match and I couldn’t with my dominant ankle fugged...these moments are why I played sports mate. You can really triumph, and I’m glad to have done that once.
i love this video
Really appreciate your work. Inspirational and entertaining keep it up
"good hearted harems", I like that term
They don't exist anymore :/
Now only op edgelord harem MC's exist with little to no character development and world building only fanservice.
i love you for this amazing video
This was really interesting and kinda got me emotional. That longing for that feeling you talked about, I also felt in the past; when the world seemed so open and hopeful and before the realities started hitting me. Like you said the feelings can still come, but just more sparsely (and much more rarely for me). I just want to say this video and your feelings really resonated with me.
This was in my recommended right next to woodkids's "Run Boy Run." I don't know how to feel.
Thank you for bringing new interesting topics!
Thank you for commenting!
Came across your channel last week.
Really great video man. Resonated with me quite a bit.
Thanks man, glad it did and that you thought so. Glad you chose to come back this week as well.
Life- beats you down and time is unrelenting.
Dude, your videos are so personal.
You might have a few suscribers, but I believe that the ones you reach are kind of fond to you. Looking through the commentaries, they are a lot taking into account the number of views, and they are also very personal.
I think most people watching your videos can relate to you in many ways, personally I really feel less lonely by knowing there is someone else in the world who is going through something like that, even if I'm aware I'll never know that person.
metatf Yeah I think so too. The people I see post on my videos are really touching. The multiple paragraphy comments, the personal stories. It feels more like a relationship than I see on other channels, although, admitedly I look a lot at my own comments than anyone elses. I think the people who do follow really connect and care and I'm glad a community this size had the ability to be cultivated at all. I'm glad you connect with my videos, and I'm really grateful to have the thousand I do. Also who knows. I'd like to have a large enough size to organize a meetup or speak somewhere someday. It's not impossible I think to meet this people or have them meet me. I really want to make it possible for that to happen.
It's kind of cool I got to see this channel in such an early stage, if you had a bigger amount of suscribers, it would be harder for you to read the commentaries, and also anwser them.
It's not like I don't want you to grow or anything, I hope you will. I'll just enjoy the current state of your channel.
metatf I will. While I do want to grow in order to possibly sustain myself or work on more ambitious projects I do like this time I'm in where there are a lot of comments but it isnt completely overwhelming.
Especially in pokemon when you see you one millionth Zubat.
In all seriousness, great video, so personal and well made. God damn, the feels hit me like a train.
lol, well I'm glad it can hit close to home. Thanks for the comment!
Whoa... Chuggaaconroy... that's a blast from the past. I watched him play Wind Waker.
good vid as always ^^ i like those personal type of videos
Thanks for the support, I enjoy making them
I actually like Hentai Ouji Warawanai Neko a lot. It was the first anime that I watch and I hold it close to my heart despise his flaws.
me too
@@HidinginPublic don't ask how I found it.
i had a friend and play like that when i was younger
I just wanted to say, thanks for making videos like this man, I've currently been going through much pressure on school and videos like this make me want to keep trying my hardest and I've almost watched almost all of your videos in which is all very inspiring and motivational to me, the fact that you talk about your life really allows me to connect to you and your experiences. I don't know if you'll see this but, thanks for everything.
This is so relaxing, lol
I mustn't run away
I mustn't run away
I mustn't run away
I really miss those times that all I cared about was what snacks I would eat and who I would hang out with.
The good ole days
Why do I find these amazing youtubers really late goddamn your videos are a pleasure to watch
Hey, you're not late I'm just getting started :) Glad you enjoy them and hope to continue improving.
You speak straight facts
That was a great video. I really enjoy your videos.
I think, I watched the video 3 times now and its great.
haha well thank you. I'm glad you liked it that much. I'll try to improve them as I can.
So glad you’re back
Thanks man, feels good to be
i wish my childhood was like yours im not even of legal age yet and politics is already a reasonably important part of my life
Ah yes, chuggaconroy
I wonder how he's doing
The main thing I got out of this video. I’ve got to play Mother 3. Distractions are very important to help us get through shit! 👍👍
Mother 3 is a masterpiece, a wonderful distraction
Chuggaconnroy what a legend
I can empathize with the feeling of not having enough time. I only turned 18 a bit more than a month ago and, in video game terms, I feel like I haven't put enough exp into my skills, like my stats just aren't good enough. Even though in my head I know I have my whole life ahead of me, I feel like I haven't capitalized on the easy beginning levels of my life and so when the big bosses come...I won't be ready.
How do you have the ability to describe exactly what I'm feeling
I can relate to the whole "running away" when dealing with bullies in my remote past. Now I advocate taking a more ballsy approach when possible; enduring suffering is a useful skill, and helps grow self respect. This is the same idea I think with your pushing to ask people out for a date.
I understood your concept of "running away" in two parts: the physical situation as well as a psychological escapism from the limitations of life. You talk about slaying the dragon which is a kind of "running away" into your own fantasy world of your childhood. The reality is much less vibrant (as compared to Lucky Star): that some kid just won a Yugioh tournament. I get the impression that what exists in your mind, is of a split world (one of childhood, and anime representation), and the ordinary pains of everyday life. Some kind of longing to unite the two, or to view the ordinary as containing aspects of the extraordinary.
I liked your Welcome to the Nhk video more though. This video didn't hit as close to home for me. Not enough darkness, and how to exit the darkness.
Yeah I think the NHK video is more overall impactful and hits harder overall. This video is more about nostalgia and is meant to be more consistently positive and brighter. It's okay to indulge in escapism from time to time, but you can't let it consume you. NHK was more about how I believed I could escape an obsessive escapism and depression, so I think they were coming from different places.
Also wow you cited enough specific details from the video it reminds me of a blog post assignment I do to show teachers I read the text. I appreciate it how much you paid attention to it, and feel like you really understood what I was trying to say.
I tried to understand. Whether I got it or not, I wasn't sure. I don't mind hearing some criticism if I hadn't gotten it right.
I feel like it's something you're struggling with (the whole escapism thing), probably a feeling left over from the NHK video. Like it's a warning to yourself as well as to others to not go too far.
Have you watched you My Teenage romance comedy Snafu ? I think that show is hilarious and got some "deep" themes that you may like. Themes such as authenticity and appearance vs reality (the appearance vs reality thing might be more with season 2 though).
Apparently I look a little bit like the main character according to my Mum and ex-girl I used to hang with. Lol.
You might like A Silent Voice
I really laugh at those that miss their childhoods because they have responsibilities now. I would rather have those responsibilities than go back to my abusive and stifled childhood
People who miss your childhood? You're lucky.
Imma run, home hurts I cant hide who I really am, i need to go.
I've never liked "bright" shows, maybe it's because my real life is fairly sunny that i like darker stuff. School Days is the closest thing to a hareem anime i liked.
I realized it's more fun to watch the protagonist go on adventures, than to be the protagonist going on adventures, when i was in middle school. I want a quiet life so i can watch some anime rather than being the hero. If you need to feel important, console yourself with the thought we're all cogs in a machine, so we're all equally unimportant, yet the machine we're part of can do great things. I used to mock Taoism for saying "all you need in life is in your villaige, don't look to the next villaige" for rejecting the wonder of the world, but i see it as good advice now, you can find enough variety to fill a human life in front of your nose most of the time, and searching for it elsewhere may be "grass is greener" fallacy (i don't totally buy that, as you can find people you have more in common with in other places, but there's some truth to it). I think that's relevant to the desire to be the hero.
I really like darker shows as well. School Days gets a bad wrap. There definitely are so many smaller things we realize and value as we grow older that I think fill 'the life in front of your nose' pretty well. Thanks for watching!
i dont know if you will see this comment but I really love your videos , they're helping me get through a tough time and make me happy , I just wanted to show my appreciation for you through a comment thank you for your videos and keep up the good work :D
The title reminded me of that Linkin Park song: "I wanna run away, never say goodbye."
Hey man, your videos are awesome. They always open up my mind a little bit more. Have you ever tried Dungeons and Dragons? It’s becoming a little more mainstream now and can be a fun activity for you and a group of friends.
I never have. I played Heroscape growing up, and played a role playing game recently which was similar except it was all on paper, but never DnD itself. I would like to.
You deserve every last one. Cheers.
Everyone felt that at 2:22-2:26
Okay Reigen
**NIGERUNDAYO**
Oh my God I just heard Jake from adventure time 8:20
any chance you could mention what that outro song is?
Have you watched Silver Spoon?
I have not
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ah this brings back some memories of me and a buddy just running around with big, taped up peices of wood. just fighting stuff that wasnt there, trying to ''please'' a higher being or person we called ''the king''. but when looking back at all of this, i just cant help but feel kinda sad, there's a pain in my heart. i just want to go back. i want to relive those memories. id give quite a bit to be able to do just one more mission for ""the king"".
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have you read berserk?
P.S. Get in the fucking robot SHINJI
I absolutely hate those crappy haram shows. But I love to hate them so much I have watched a lot of em. And loved every minute that I hated
It's okay to enjoy adult content 😉
It's (not) okay to run away
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