Hey guys! :) I hope you guys are informed now with how life has been, and im happy to say it’s all now after moving back home in late 2022, life has been going up. I am feeling better in myself much more compared to a few years back and I hope to make more content for you all soon. I can’t guarantee I’ll be fully back to making videos, but just continuing to make stuff where I can and do it a little more often just like old times, have a great day guys, I’m so happy to still be here and so grateful you are too. :)
Great to hear so many good things for you Coolski. I really proud of you my guy. An to be honest some of what you said got me up a bit. Keep going Coolski. An Stay Frosty, Yeah.
Thank you so much man. I’d love to tell you more about how things in life have been really getting back on track, it was a tough time but I was sure to stay frosty :) It’s so heartwarming how much this video has touched you, it’s never an easy video to make, but talking about it makes it a little easier each time. There are some details I can’t discuss but I feel don’t need to be when there are better things I discussed in the video. Stay frosty as always :)
This was such a great video man! I understand how difficult it can be to talk about your mental health but im glad to hear you're doing better now. We will be here, videos or no videos!
Awww Berg.. 🥹🥹 this is such a lovely comment. Thank you so much for this! I appreciate it a lot, especially for the long video it was. I don’t ever want to leave UA-cam, but I know whilst life was tough, I had to get things straight. I appreciate you understanding how difficult it is to discuss this subject too, but the more I discuss it, I feel it gets a tad easier to discuss. I know I’ve been mostly quiet, in the community and not much happening on my channel, but I’ve missed that, I’ve been busy trying to get life back on track and it’s all going so well now, It was worth the time away to sort life out but with how busy life is now, I know I can’t quite make videos as much as I’d like to and with important things to prioritise. but I’ll do what I can because I’ve missed this, knifing and just everything about this whole community. Videos or little to no videos I’m still here :) thank you Berg.
we haven't spoken in a while Ben, but im so happy to see you doing well and im happy to see that happy guy we all love! I may not talk to you as much as we used to, but know i am always silently supporting you! Love you buddy! - none other than the former xAMK Zaggs ;)
Awww Zaggs!!! 🥹 this is such a sweet comment thank you so much!! This really makes me so happy. I’m so glad to have received this comment knowing there’s still old friends hanging around supporting me. Much love man, it’s great to see you’re still around and I hope you’re doing well :) Comment again sometime when I post a new video! I love interacting with everyone that comments! This is just one of many reasons why I love to receive comments! Take care old friend :)
Thank you so much 😊 much love to you both. I can’t wait to catch up with you both soon too!! Thank you so much for your comment, I appreciate it and hope you’re both well 😊❤️
Hi Ben, I’m sure by now I seem like a distant memory. Apologies for not being around. Firstly I would like say for one you look amazing! Secondly I’d like to thank you for all the good memories as well as the care and time you’ve invested into myself, I reminisce on the old days more than you may think and I can’t help but smile whenever I think back on my time in xAMK. You’re truly a ray of light in everyone’s life, im grateful for being a part of your adventure. I love you lots! ❤ fuck you chapelle
Recall REECCALLLL!!!!! XDD brotha we were only just talking about the old xAMK gang less than a week ago and of course you were mentioned! :) Firstly, thank you so much man!! I didn’t think I was looking amazing so I appreciate the confidence booster! been working hard at the gym and very busy working 2 jobs so hardly have time to sit around now ahaha! Secondly I would also like to thank you for all the great times and being a fantastic member and a pleasure to have in xAMK, always so kind to everyone, always a good laugh and very genuine guy! I love you lots too old friend, and we’re never too far away from our consoles for a game :) Epic and I have little morning sessions on Thursdays but feel free to join us anytime if you’d like to! ❤️ it’s so lovely to hear from you old friend, you’re fucking awesome! I hope you, your cat, Bidoof and everyone else is good at your end!! 🤣 And yes fuck you chapelle 🤣❤️ (we love chapelle XD )
Yeah mate, once you've suffered with these things they're always there in the background, but you find a way of dealing with them. It's like something breaks inside and although it heals it's never quite the same again. Glad you're finding your path through.
Absolutely man. It’s really great to hear how much you could relate with this and I hope you’re ok! Your comment is an exact point that I made somewhere in the video, I feel it’s something you won’t really ever fully recover from, but you just learn how to minimise it and handle things better as life goes on. Thank you so much for watching man, I appreciate it so much especially for the lengthy video it was, but this is the sort of connection I would love to have with my subscriber base, I used to do it more often when I was younger with less responsibilities on my hands but adult like eh? Haha! :)
@@Bencoolski I was quite intrigued to be honest. We all watch a lot of people's vids without seeing who they really are, so it's interesting to see the man behind the multikills! I've had my issues and escaping into CoD has helped at times. A friend of mine says he knows you BTW, he is a French player called Rastarmel. Not sue how well you know him, but he inspired me to change from a camper to a foolishly aggressive knifer lol! Great news with the job - onwards and upwards.
@@elpeltys I’m glad you’ve found some inner peace by becoming a knifer on COD :) that’s helped me since I was very young and found a lot of fun, happiness and have met some incredible people along the way, and have helped me out in so many ways. So I appreciate that COD has brought you some inner peace :) I defo know Rastarmel :) I remember him though I didn’t play with him as much as I should’ve. He’s an incredible MW3 player though for sure! Yes absolutely loving the new job :) I still have to work my main job but I have 2 jobs now, and my new videographer job at a poker club is going so well, it was just what I needed! Onwards and upwards for sure :) I appreciate your comment so much. Thank you :)
Great to see that you are still moving up, i know how hard it can be im still unhappy about where i am in life right now, nothing really changed these past 2 years, but i know it can get beter some months are good some are bad but i still got hope, seeing you going from your lowest to back up again is inspirational to me, i hope you will continue your journey all the way up, ofcourse there is always ups and downs and it will stay that way but thats just part of life.
Aww Musti, this is such a sweet comment thank you so much!! Your comment has really made me smile and I hope it continues to inspire and helps you in your life make it back to that happy place once again :) It was a struggle, and hasn’t been easy to get to this point and it took a good few years for me to reach this point. It didn’t all happen at once, it’s taken a good few years for life to finally be back on track, and I had loads of things in my life I was unhappy about, for instance, it’s took me 3 years since graduating from studies to finally get my first job backed up by my studies, that’s just an example, but it’s been a part of my happiness now that I’ve finally got the job, and I can move up in the world, whereas before I felt a sense of worthlessness after all my hard work and work experience not paying off for a spot in this industry. I think what I’m trying to say which I think you’ll probably already know after your 2 years of struggles, is it’ll take time, and I still have my struggles, just not as frequent as I used to. I think things like this take time, anything you do will take time, and there will be a lot of times where you’ll feel like stopping, and giving up and all sorts of low moods and bad thoughts that creep in. It’s all a part of life and the sooner you’re able to understand it, the sooner you’ll be at peace with yourself, and you’ll understand your emotions better which is such an amazing feeling. I’m sorry life is still low for you, it still was for me after 2 years, but I’m glad you still have hope with a few good months. Life goes on and you’ll soon be able to get back up again. Just keep going old friend, I’m happy you’re already aware that things can get better, that’s your first step to getting better. Then ask yourself what has happened in the good months to getting better? I hope you figure it out but you’re not alone and you don’t have to be for your journey, there is always help :) DMs are always open my friend, take it easy much love. We all love you. :)
Thank you so much old friend ❤️ I miss our grinds together too man. We’ll run a game together soon, I hope your life has been good to you. Let’s game soon and I’d love to hear how you’ve been old friend :)
Bro like this video is amazing so much to relate to but how proud bro i remember when you finally finished your studies and you were so stoked and now your job is what you study for thats just amazing bro with all you go through your a absolutely beast g ❤❤❤respect my g🙌🤙
Aww brotha thank you so much 🥹🖤🤙 honestly appreciate it loads. I wasn’t expecting the outpour this video is getting, especially for such a lengthy video. I was so stoked brotha, sadly when I finished my studies, that was around the time I was at my lowest, especially with the pandemic on an outbreak, so it’s took me 3 years later before I finally got my first industry job, and I’m loving it! It’s been so good, just wish the opportunity came sooner, but moreover, I never gave up, on myself, or my dreams. Now I’m picking up the pieces and putting myself and my life, as well as my future back together, and it’s all going to be bigger and better than before! Much love my g, absolute legend ❤️❤️❤️🤙👍👏
Thank you so much fella :) I really do appreciate it!! It’s very heartwarming to hear how much I inspire you to enjoy gaming and stream as you do it, keep having fun man!
Hey guys! :) I hope you guys are informed now with how life has been, and im happy to say it’s all now after moving back home in late 2022, life has been going up. I am feeling better in myself much more compared to a few years back and I hope to make more content for you all soon. I can’t guarantee I’ll be fully back to making videos, but just continuing to make stuff where I can and do it a little more often just like old times, have a great day guys, I’m so happy to still be here and so grateful you are too. :)
Great to hear so many good things for you Coolski. I really proud of you my guy. An to be honest some of what you said got me up a bit. Keep going Coolski. An Stay Frosty, Yeah.
Thank you so much man. I’d love to tell you more about how things in life have been really getting back on track, it was a tough time but I was sure to stay frosty :)
It’s so heartwarming how much this video has touched you, it’s never an easy video to make, but talking about it makes it a little easier each time. There are some details I can’t discuss but I feel don’t need to be when there are better things I discussed in the video. Stay frosty as always :)
This was such a great video man! I understand how difficult it can be to talk about your mental health but im glad to hear you're doing better now.
We will be here, videos or no videos!
Awww Berg.. 🥹🥹 this is such a lovely comment. Thank you so much for this! I appreciate it a lot, especially for the long video it was. I don’t ever want to leave UA-cam, but I know whilst life was tough, I had to get things straight. I appreciate you understanding how difficult it is to discuss this subject too, but the more I discuss it, I feel it gets a tad easier to discuss.
I know I’ve been mostly quiet, in the community and not much happening on my channel, but I’ve missed that, I’ve been busy trying to get life back on track and it’s all going so well now, It was worth the time away to sort life out but with how busy life is now, I know I can’t quite make videos as much as I’d like to and with important things to prioritise. but I’ll do what I can because I’ve missed this, knifing and just everything about this whole community. Videos or little to no videos I’m still here :) thank you Berg.
we haven't spoken in a while Ben, but im so happy to see you doing well and im happy to see that happy guy we all love! I may not talk to you as much as we used to, but know i am always silently supporting you! Love you buddy! - none other than the former xAMK Zaggs ;)
Awww Zaggs!!! 🥹 this is such a sweet comment thank you so much!! This really makes me so happy. I’m so glad to have received this comment knowing there’s still old friends hanging around supporting me. Much love man, it’s great to see you’re still around and I hope you’re doing well :)
Comment again sometime when I post a new video! I love interacting with everyone that comments! This is just one of many reasons why I love to receive comments! Take care old friend :)
Much love and welcome back. looking forward to being able to catch up again ♥
Thank you so much 😊 much love to you both. I can’t wait to catch up with you both soon too!! Thank you so much for your comment, I appreciate it and hope you’re both well 😊❤️
Hi Ben, I’m sure by now I seem like a distant memory. Apologies for not being around. Firstly I would like say for one you look amazing! Secondly I’d like to thank you for all the good memories as well as the care and time you’ve invested into myself, I reminisce on the old days more than you may think and I can’t help but smile whenever I think back on my time in xAMK. You’re truly a ray of light in everyone’s life, im grateful for being a part of your adventure. I love you lots! ❤ fuck you chapelle
Recall REECCALLLL!!!!! XDD brotha we were only just talking about the old xAMK gang less than a week ago and of course you were mentioned! :)
Firstly, thank you so much man!! I didn’t think I was looking amazing so I appreciate the confidence booster! been working hard at the gym and very busy working 2 jobs so hardly have time to sit around now ahaha!
Secondly I would also like to thank you for all the great times and being a fantastic member and a pleasure to have in xAMK, always so kind to everyone, always a good laugh and very genuine guy! I love you lots too old friend, and we’re never too far away from our consoles for a game :) Epic and I have little morning sessions on Thursdays but feel free to join us anytime if you’d like to! ❤️ it’s so lovely to hear from you old friend, you’re fucking awesome! I hope you, your cat, Bidoof and everyone else is good at your end!! 🤣
And yes fuck you chapelle 🤣❤️ (we love chapelle XD )
Yeah mate, once you've suffered with these things they're always there in the background, but you find a way of dealing with them. It's like something breaks inside and although it heals it's never quite the same again. Glad you're finding your path through.
Absolutely man. It’s really great to hear how much you could relate with this and I hope you’re ok! Your comment is an exact point that I made somewhere in the video, I feel it’s something you won’t really ever fully recover from, but you just learn how to minimise it and handle things better as life goes on. Thank you so much for watching man, I appreciate it so much especially for the lengthy video it was, but this is the sort of connection I would love to have with my subscriber base, I used to do it more often when I was younger with less responsibilities on my hands but adult like eh? Haha! :)
@@Bencoolski I was quite intrigued to be honest. We all watch a lot of people's vids without seeing who they really are, so it's interesting to see the man behind the multikills! I've had my issues and escaping into CoD has helped at times. A friend of mine says he knows you BTW, he is a French player called Rastarmel. Not sue how well you know him, but he inspired me to change from a camper to a foolishly aggressive knifer lol! Great news with the job - onwards and upwards.
@@elpeltys I’m glad you’ve found some inner peace by becoming a knifer on COD :) that’s helped me since I was very young and found a lot of fun, happiness and have met some incredible people along the way, and have helped me out in so many ways. So I appreciate that COD has brought you some inner peace :)
I defo know Rastarmel :) I remember him though I didn’t play with him as much as I should’ve. He’s an incredible MW3 player though for sure!
Yes absolutely loving the new job :) I still have to work my main job but I have 2 jobs now, and my new videographer job at a poker club is going so well, it was just what I needed! Onwards and upwards for sure :) I appreciate your comment so much. Thank you :)
Great to see that you are still moving up, i know how hard it can be im still unhappy about where i am in life right now, nothing really changed these past 2 years, but i know it can get beter some months are good some are bad but i still got hope, seeing you going from your lowest to back up again is inspirational to me, i hope you will continue your journey all the way up, ofcourse there is always ups and downs and it will stay that way but thats just part of life.
Aww Musti, this is such a sweet comment thank you so much!! Your comment has really made me smile and I hope it continues to inspire and helps you in your life make it back to that happy place once again :)
It was a struggle, and hasn’t been easy to get to this point and it took a good few years for me to reach this point. It didn’t all happen at once, it’s taken a good few years for life to finally be back on track, and I had loads of things in my life I was unhappy about, for instance, it’s took me 3 years since graduating from studies to finally get my first job backed up by my studies, that’s just an example, but it’s been a part of my happiness now that I’ve finally got the job, and I can move up in the world, whereas before I felt a sense of worthlessness after all my hard work and work experience not paying off for a spot in this industry.
I think what I’m trying to say which I think you’ll probably already know after your 2 years of struggles, is it’ll take time, and I still have my struggles, just not as frequent as I used to. I think things like this take time, anything you do will take time, and there will be a lot of times where you’ll feel like stopping, and giving up and all sorts of low moods and bad thoughts that creep in. It’s all a part of life and the sooner you’re able to understand it, the sooner you’ll be at peace with yourself, and you’ll understand your emotions better which is such an amazing feeling.
I’m sorry life is still low for you, it still was for me after 2 years, but I’m glad you still have hope with a few good months. Life goes on and you’ll soon be able to get back up again. Just keep going old friend, I’m happy you’re already aware that things can get better, that’s your first step to getting better. Then ask yourself what has happened in the good months to getting better? I hope you figure it out but you’re not alone and you don’t have to be for your journey, there is always help :)
DMs are always open my friend, take it easy much love. We all love you. :)
Love you SKII inspiration at 100 ❤❤❤ love yah bro the goat 🙌
Much love Bladez brotha, old friend :) 🖤🖤🖤🤙 absolute goat, and doing an incredible job running Amped! 🤝
We love you bro head up ❤my life has changed so much man definitely miss our grind mate and the old old days always here for a chat man ❤
Thank you so much old friend ❤️ I miss our grinds together too man. We’ll run a game together soon, I hope your life has been good to you. Let’s game soon and I’d love to hear how you’ve been old friend :)
Bro like this video is amazing so much to relate to but how proud bro i remember when you finally finished your studies and you were so stoked and now your job is what you study for thats just amazing bro with all you go through your a absolutely beast g ❤❤❤respect my g🙌🤙
Aww brotha thank you so much 🥹🖤🤙 honestly appreciate it loads. I wasn’t expecting the outpour this video is getting, especially for such a lengthy video.
I was so stoked brotha, sadly when I finished my studies, that was around the time I was at my lowest, especially with the pandemic on an outbreak, so it’s took me 3 years later before I finally got my first industry job, and I’m loving it! It’s been so good, just wish the opportunity came sooner, but moreover, I never gave up, on myself, or my dreams. Now I’m picking up the pieces and putting myself and my life, as well as my future back together, and it’s all going to be bigger and better than before!
Much love my g, absolute legend ❤️❤️❤️🤙👍👏
I'm glad you are here man you expire me to do streaming gaming the whole lot
Thank you so much fella :) I really do appreciate it!! It’s very heartwarming to hear how much I inspire you to enjoy gaming and stream as you do it, keep having fun man!