I think every alternative person should feel like this. However if you’re a POC it’s not easy, in fact it’s something you get shamed for or be called “white”. I’m between either grunge and emo and it’s not easy. However around friends and strangers they just love my style and personality. It has taken me a very long time to find my style when I was younger, yet as an adult I could careless. Although depending on the job I wish it was allowed 😭
@@xenoasa and to this point they say that POC are supposed to have e standards….like bro please my standards are anything that is sparkly, cartoony, and makes me feel like a warm waffle
Sounds like you've done more living in the last 10 years than most do in 40! You came out the other side better for it. You look fabulous & gorgeous. I'm 56 & have been goth a long time but was never allowed to show myself to the world. 7 week ago i married my gorgeous husband & it was a goth wedding. Best day of my life. I showed the world who i really am & my husband loves me for it. Now i'm more goth than ever because of the confidence my husband & friends helped me with. Yes, i've had scornful looks but who cares. When someone calls me weirdo, i say thankyou & smile. Stay fabulous you beautiful gothgirl 🖤🖤🖤❤🖤🖤🖤
its not only about you being a goth, mostly it is but its also the energy and your creativity ! i also really enjoy your personality alot and i think it also puts alot into the content (AND THE OUTFITS U MAKE IS JUST A BONUS TO US, UR STUNNING IN EVERY WAY)
Hi I'm Jennifer I'm 15 years old and I Recently Found out that I'm goth too... Listening to what you said Gave me confidences about my self and to make my self happy with who I am because in this world there will be those who will understand and those who won't... So fuck it and be who you want to be.
Honestly, I may not be entirely goth, but I love listening to alternative music (sure have a wide varietyof music I like aside), reading, loved horror and/or supernatural in general, and introvert thinking. Most people called me a freak for what I look like. What the heck right??
I never felt so identified and comforted by a video. Your channel literally is my comfort channel. I feel understood and you make me realize who I want to be and how I want to live my life. I'm glad you decided to do videos and share your feelings and thoughts
I recently discovered you on this platform and I have watched pretty much every video you've posted haha. I love that you have such a kind spirit and you help give me the confidence to be who I wanna be and to be shameless. You are also very creative. I like to put on your videos and go about my day. Its like we are having girl time while you talk in the video haha.Thank you for sharing this video with us. We love you! ❤️
As a new-ish goth, thank you for making this video, it felt like you were describing my life through shared experiences, thank you for the confidence boost and hope :)
this video just proves to me i've never had an original experience lol I too went through a gender crisis because of the exact same reason as yours. I was so interested in the emo scene a d goth, I listened to the music etcc but I wasn't allowed to wear the fashion which sucked big time. Now as an adult I'm learning to finally show the style I always loved .
I just found this video, I haven’t even watched any of it, but I’m going to comment anyway because of what I saw in the title. I recently started the goth aesthetic, and it’s a huge change for me. Before, I used to wear a lot of sweatpants and baggy sweaters, or jeans and a t-shirt. But this, being goth and actually trying harder to put a certain style together has been a HUGE boost of confidence. I get compliments from my friends, or even complete strangers at the mall when I go out😅 it honestly feels so nice to feel more comfortable in my own skin. I’m still very new to the idea, and I’m still learning about the style and everything, but so far I’m really loving it🥰
I related to this video in more ways than I thought, thanks for helping me get out of my shell and help me find my style ,as well as be comfortable with how I feel about myself
I love that you made this and shared it. I had a feeling you struggled as a kid, and it’s so cool you’ve learned to love yourself just the way you are. Keep shining girl, you sparkle ✨
Thank you for being so honest and genuine. It’s beautiful you’ve learned all these things at such a young age. You are so strong and will continue to be for the rest of your life! You truly give me confidence within my style and being myself. HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAY! 🖤
i just came across your channel and this video really resonated with me. i had the same weird interests when i was younger that kind of alienated me from others -- creepypasta, horror films, and even specifically SAW! i questioned and explored my identity a LOT during high school. this year i've been gaining more and more courage to dress the way i want to, so this video found me at a good time. i'm glad you're doing better and have found comfort in the subculture. thanks for sharing!
I'm going to be 44 in a few months. I'm new to the channel; been watching for 2 days now. Lol. This video helped add a stitch or two to my child wound. I've been working on reparenting myself, and so much of your story resonated with me. I just wanted to say, "Thanks." 🩷🖤
I genuinely teared up a little, you went through a lot but you still pulled through! You're beautiful and I'm so glad things turned around for you, and that you can be someone that people look up to!! I'm one of those people :) I was and am in a really dark place but after watching this, it made me feel a lot better about myself. You are an inspiration!!
You’re such an inspiration for me I’ve always been so interested in goth fashion and subculture I’m a very shy person and I’m very self conscious I hope to be like you some day
Despite being so young, and still am, I relate to this. Ever since i was very little, i was fascinated by horror movies, cryptids, creepypastas, all that stuff. I liked bugs and nature, and I still really do love all of that stuff. I like to read and write, and lots of other people around me find it weird. Ever since my father had been arrested for drugs, and had previously killed a man, I was known as fatherless and weird and I was said to smoke weed, and drink despite only being in early 5th grade. I didnt do anything like this. I was always a bit slower, but i had always had good grades, and I have always behaved. Ive been learning and trying to take better care of myself after dealing with my mother crying everyday for four years because of my father doing drugs and cheating, Ive had to take care of my younger sister and myself, and my father has sleeping issues so at times i would have to help him to, and I had been forced into sports, which all of that had drained my energy. After my father was arrested, I struggled alot more. I had already been slightly depressed after having to take care of my mother and sister, and then my father was arrested. Thats what also had made me stress eat alot. I began gaining weight, and I would hallucinate, and still do, because of being sleep deprived. I had a friend that would call me fat and ugly and lazy, which made me even less confident, so i began self-harm. I had also began to gain a bit of acne around the time, which only made things worse. My friend would call me short and fat and stubby and make up jokes and nicknames about the small amount of acne i had. It really put me down, so I got into roleplaying and writing even more than i had before. I would sit around and roleplay and eat and i had no self confidence. I would go days without a shower and it really sucked. I ended up getting sick alot. But then, I found out more about how other people liked cryptids and horror and stuff like that. I found the Warriors books, which got me way more into reading and nature. Soon, i found out about the gothic, emo, grunge, y2k style stuff. I really admired it, and still do, and got into it. It really made me feel better. I have only began to watch this wonderful person yesterday, but seeing this video, and a few of her others, has helped me realize that i should be ashamed or feel bad or apologize for being the way I am. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing! I feel like I've lost my style over the last few years as my body has changed and so much has changed in the world around me. I turn 30 this year and want to feel confident in myself again. This video makes me feel like I can come out the other side of this - I've done it before!
I really need ur content so much right now and I relate so much to your journey. Thank you for being you, you make the world better by being you and putting yourself out there xx thank you!! 😭💖
I love your content! keep shining beauty and don't ever doubt yourself. I was bullied too by my classmates when I was around 14, and that was for having ' a dark style' and even was called a satanist but here I am today in my late twenties and still embracing my true self and the things that make me feel happy and comfortable.
Are you Nuerodivergent? You just described my childhood experience to a T. I have ADHD and ASD and these experiences and feelings you had attached to them are stereotypical for ND women. Here are the things I heard that relate to the ND women experience: -always having known you were different, being an outcast or someone who floats around. -being bullied, even by friends -being told you're annoying -being taken advantage of (alarmingly high rates of SA in ND women as compared to all women, another reason awareness is crucial) -Strong moral compass and sense of justice (can show up as being very kind to everyone) -Not feeling gender typical, questions about gender identity. -eating problems and disorders (oddly enough stomach and gastrointestinal issues like IBS are also really high in asd folks) -substance abuse Definitely worth looking into, women are often not spotted for being ND because the criteria was written for little boys. They think ADHD means you are a human bouncy ball and ASD means you collect trains and can't make eye contact. I wish someone told me to look into it-- it has helped me tremendously in my life by learning about why I am the way I am and has given me a lot of new coping skills. Ive never felt more like myself, it truly is so important for ND women to learn about themselves, it can be life saving. If that list resonates with anyone - check out the autism and adhd in women subreddits, they are great communities with a lot of information. Disclaimer: fitting into the list doesn't mean you are ND. I'm not a professional and I'm not trying to diagnose anyone, just want to pay it forward and spread awareness.
Hi!!! Thank you so much for your comment! ❤️ I have actually been suspecting for a number of years that I have either autism or ADHD, and in all honestly I should talk to my doctor about it but I am a major procrastinator LOL. I will definitely look into those subreddits, as this comment definitely resonates with me. I really appreciate you taking the time out of your day to write this ❤️
@@destructiv333 No problem! Neurodivergence is kind of a special interest of mine so I have a hard time shutting about about it tbh lmao And unfortunately in the case of neurodivergent women it's mostly up to us to spread awareness since the medical system is pretty outdated and biased when it comes to women in general let alone when it comes to neurodivergence. I myself had a neuropsychological evaluation and they only got it half right the first time, it was also only a few months after people were even allowed to be diagnosed with both, around 2013. ADHD is easier for most professionals to spot but autism seems to really stump people unless they are like specifically an autism expert. This is mostly because Women tend to mask really well(I didn't even know I was I thought it was normal), and our special interests tend to be seen as normal unless they are exceedingly strange. It's also less noticeable when women have sensory issues because of the sexist stereotype of women being overly sensitive. Sorry for writing so much, I'm actually holding back a bit because I could go on for ages about this stuff haha I just hope it's helpful in some way :)
I completely feel this in my soul man. I relate to sm of your story, i was always emo my whole life, music wise, since i was a child. So it truly is who i am y'know? But i was never able to dress that way up until the age of 15, which is rlly similar to what you said about makes outfits out of a limited amount of stuff, turning to fast fashion and thrifting, and doing makeup for hours haha. Which i agree, it was a very fun area of life. I eventually went on to goth at around age 16-17, when i accidentally found it while searching for music, and then it only got way bigger when i was able to dress goth. and now i am clearly goth (or just alternative in general since i on rare occasions don't dress goth haha) to anyone who sees me irl. And that shit truly is healing, like ik it's just music and clothes but it's truly a big part of who i am and it means a lot too me. and it has helped me sooo much with my confidence 🖤 (which used to be rlly bad, which is very similar to your story w your confidence so i feel you 😭) anyways though thank you for sharing your story, i absolutely love these types of videos from fellow alternative people. i feel a lot of us came from a rough background and we then find who we truly are and it heals us in a lot of ways. And idk i just think that's very interesting and also beautiful in a way. (Also, sorry for the very long comment, i appreciate if you read it all 💀)
Thank you so much for being so honest. After watching this video I feel absolutely overwhelmed with sympathy towards you, dear Emily. Always enjoy watching your content.) Thank you very much! I wish you all the best and I stay tuned, definitely want to see more videos from you! Take care! Send you kisses and hugs!
Em, you were drawing beautiful Butterflies, bees and 🐞 with X'd eyes at like, 6. I was a tad concerned, but also recognized that Horror/Gore comics, authors, illustrators, etc all have to start somewhere. Your art back then dropped my jaw, and it's not stopped. Whether it's your outfit, makeup, videos, digital or drawn art; it's always something different and fascinating, raw and truthful. I am so very proud of you. 🖤🤍🖤🤍
your videos have helped me so much- i have struggled with confidence my whole life, and watching you has slowly helped me to create myself. you are such an amazing person. thank you..!🖤💕
Your Midwest north accent is so cute lol. I’m from southern Oklahoma and I had a pretty similar experience as a child to now being almost 24. Always told I beat to my own drum. Definitely the class clown. My art expression was in band and colorguard. Even marching world class DCI with a Corp in Wisconsin. I’ve been going through a lot these past couple years and I’m finally in a safe place where I can be myself again. I do live on a beach in Texas now so it is awkward being the only goth in a tourist town lol. I’m so glad this style helped you.
Hi, was looking on YT for a Goth Hotel and well, YT brought me to you, but I also think it was meant to happen!! I love the goth aesthetic, I'm not religious, but I do believe in God. However, for many years I lived hiding who I really was, because in church they taught you that you are light, therefore you must represent it. You are looked down upon if you dress goth and God forbid wear black lipstick!! It was God himself who spoke to my heart one day and told me, that I was ok to be myself, he wasn't scared or offended by any of this because he knew my heart!! So after that, He gave me the confidence I needed, and I started being my true self! I felt happier than ever, I was always attracted to all these things, but had to suppress myself for so long, because I wanted to do the "right thing". When I see you, I see light, I see love, I see kindness and I see a very bad a$$ woman! As I hear you, I see that you have been through a lot but that has only made your stronger and more confident with who you are! And as you said our confidence comes from our mind, our thoughts, our creativity. There is only one of us, and nobody can do things the way we do, even if its the same thing!! Even though we are very different I saw lots of me in you, when it comes to your personality!! I am glad that you are happy, expressive and that you can goth it all out at the same time. Thanks for being you!! Def following and will continue on watching your videos!! Love your make-up btw, and you have very beautiful eyes! Nobody has to put us in a box including ourselves, we can be who we want to be any day and that still us! I'm into Kpop and I love to bring my goth twist to it! It's about what makes us, us and what makes us happy with our hearts in the right place!! And if we can help someone while being ourselves, so much better. I feel this pull to start my YT, but I been holding it for various reasons, but it is videos like yours that give me the confidence to give it a try and bring what only I can bring to YT!! Purple you!
Thank you so much for this beautiful comment, it resonates with me and I’m so glad that you could relate to me and this video in a lot of ways! Thank you so much for your support 🖤🖤
You made the right choices. You are fortunate to have friends that have similar choices to yours. people who bully you are not your friends. Commercial pop music encourages people who like alternative to keep away from it. The singers are promoting superficial crass fashion. You don't need a Normie therapist. Mainstream society is proficient at shaming any person that is not the favourate stereotype. No person has the right to body shame you. I encourage you to keep doing what you like the most, and don't let the idiotic Normies hold you back. Eventually you can become a Corp Goth and a Classy Goth. You have encouraged me to always delved deeper into Goth.
@@destructiv333 Thank you for you kind reply.. Your words are encouraging.If you like, in future you may send me some questions about Goth and in time I look foward to being beyond the early stages of Goth appreciation.
Yes I understand how you talking about things happening. Peoples look at us been deaf couple me and my husband use sign language I don’t care peoples start look at us, bullied, call peoples about bad things. Just ingore. I courious about your make-up. 👍😊🤟🏾😘🖤🖤🦇📱
Honestly all u said is my life lol being able to be who I am in style and personality and through the subculture and my creativity has made me more confident. Btw if u like markipliar try jacksepticeye.
And its also is not about deep fake new. The only the that is deep is sleep and my cousin that I know longer want to exist in my mind because that can not afford how I live or love the idea of the creation and contribution to the planet. That's all you can't you aren't helping the world thrive 💯
I think every alternative person should feel like this. However if you’re a POC it’s not easy, in fact it’s something you get shamed for or be called “white”. I’m between either grunge and emo and it’s not easy. However around friends and strangers they just love my style and personality. It has taken me a very long time to find my style when I was younger, yet as an adult I could careless. Although depending on the job I wish it was allowed 😭
YESSS. As black girl who's slowly coming to in to gothic/alt Style, I feel this in my soul.
I’m a poc girl and people would laugh and call me white washed 😭 they take pictures of me and etc but tbh I don’t care because I love myself
@@xenoasa and to this point they say that POC are supposed to have e standards….like bro please my standards are anything that is sparkly, cartoony, and makes me feel like a warm waffle
I see you comment on every video🤣
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Sounds like you've done more living in the last 10 years than most do in 40! You came out the other side better for it. You look fabulous & gorgeous. I'm 56 & have been goth a long time but was never allowed to show myself to the world. 7 week ago i married my gorgeous husband & it was a goth wedding. Best day of my life. I showed the world who i really am & my husband loves me for it. Now i'm more goth than ever because of the confidence my husband & friends helped me with. Yes, i've had scornful looks but who cares. When someone calls me weirdo, i say thankyou & smile. Stay fabulous you beautiful gothgirl 🖤🖤🖤❤🖤🖤🖤
I 🖤 this!!!!
Congrats on your wedding that sounds absolutely magical! Thank you so much for your support!
@@destructiv333 Thankyou & it was magical, best day ever! 🖤❤🖤
Congratulations honey! 🖤
its not only about you being a goth, mostly it is but its also the energy and your creativity ! i also really enjoy your personality alot and i think it also puts alot into the content (AND THE OUTFITS U MAKE IS JUST A BONUS TO US, UR STUNNING IN EVERY WAY)
Hi I'm Jennifer
I'm 15 years old and I Recently Found out that I'm goth too... Listening to what you said Gave me confidences about my self and to make my self happy with who I am because in this world there will be those who will understand and those who won't... So fuck it and be who you want to be.
yesss!
i relate a lot with your story, being alt has a healing effect tbh
Honestly, I may not be entirely goth, but I love listening to alternative music (sure have a wide varietyof music I like aside), reading, loved horror and/or supernatural in general, and introvert thinking. Most people called me a freak for what I look like. What the heck right??
Thank you for having the strength to share this! I’m going through a rough patch myself right now and you reminded me to stay strong! Thank you!
I’m glad that I could help remind you to stay strong! I hope you get through your rough patch 💗
I never felt so identified and comforted by a video. Your channel literally is my comfort channel. I feel understood and you make me realize who I want to be and how I want to live my life. I'm glad you decided to do videos and share your feelings and thoughts
I wasn't expecting this to be healing to my inner teen goth (who was never allowed to express herself), but here we are. Thank you for what you said.
I recently discovered you on this platform and I have watched pretty much every video you've posted haha. I love that you have such a kind spirit and you help give me the confidence to be who I wanna be and to be shameless. You are also very creative. I like to put on your videos and go about my day. Its like we are having girl time while you talk in the video haha.Thank you for sharing this video with us. We love you! ❤️
Thank you so much! I’m so glad I could help you gain more confidence 💗💗
As a new-ish goth, thank you for making this video, it felt like you were describing my life through shared experiences, thank you for the confidence boost and hope :)
this video just proves to me i've never had an original experience lol I too went through a gender crisis because of the exact same reason as yours. I was so interested in the emo scene a d goth, I listened to the music etcc but I wasn't allowed to wear the fashion which sucked big time. Now as an adult I'm learning to finally show the style I always loved .
I just found this video, I haven’t even watched any of it, but I’m going to comment anyway because of what I saw in the title.
I recently started the goth aesthetic, and it’s a huge change for me. Before, I used to wear a lot of sweatpants and baggy sweaters, or jeans and a t-shirt. But this, being goth and actually trying harder to put a certain style together has been a HUGE boost of confidence. I get compliments from my friends, or even complete strangers at the mall when I go out😅 it honestly feels so nice to feel more comfortable in my own skin. I’m still very new to the idea, and I’m still learning about the style and everything, but so far I’m really loving it🥰
I related to this video in more ways than I thought, thanks for helping me get out of my shell and help me find my style ,as well as be comfortable with how I feel about myself
Thank you so much for relating and being so supportive 💗💗
I love that you made this and shared it. I had a feeling you struggled as a kid, and it’s so cool you’ve learned to love yourself just the way you are. Keep shining girl, you sparkle ✨
Thank you so much 🖤🖤
Thank you for being so honest and genuine. It’s beautiful you’ve learned all these things at such a young age. You are so strong and will continue to be for the rest of your life! You truly give me confidence within my style and being myself. HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAY! 🖤
i just came across your channel and this video really resonated with me. i had the same weird interests when i was younger that kind of alienated me from others -- creepypasta, horror films, and even specifically SAW! i questioned and explored my identity a LOT during high school. this year i've been gaining more and more courage to dress the way i want to, so this video found me at a good time. i'm glad you're doing better and have found comfort in the subculture. thanks for sharing!
I’m so glad you could find personal meaning in this video, it makes me so happy that you can relate and that this video found you at a good time! 🖤
I love how our stories are similar and how much I can relate to you, you've been an inspiration for me lately so thank you
I'm alt too and when i dress gothic i feel so confident. I'm glad I'm not alone
I'm going to be 44 in a few months. I'm new to the channel; been watching for 2 days now. Lol.
This video helped add a stitch or two to my child wound. I've been working on reparenting myself, and so much of your story resonated with me. I just wanted to say, "Thanks." 🩷🖤
I’m so proud of you ❤
Thank you so so much!! 💗
I genuinely teared up a little, you went through a lot but you still pulled through! You're beautiful and I'm so glad things turned around for you, and that you can be someone that people look up to!! I'm one of those people :) I was and am in a really dark place but after watching this, it made me feel a lot better about myself. You are an inspiration!!
You’re such an inspiration for me I’ve always been so interested in goth fashion and subculture I’m a very shy person and I’m very self conscious I hope to be like you some day
so proud of u, u're such an amazing and empathetic person
Despite being so young, and still am, I relate to this. Ever since i was very little, i was fascinated by horror movies, cryptids, creepypastas, all that stuff. I liked bugs and nature, and I still really do love all of that stuff. I like to read and write, and lots of other people around me find it weird. Ever since my father had been arrested for drugs, and had previously killed a man, I was known as fatherless and weird and I was said to smoke weed, and drink despite only being in early 5th grade. I didnt do anything like this. I was always a bit slower, but i had always had good grades, and I have always behaved. Ive been learning and trying to take better care of myself after dealing with my mother crying everyday for four years because of my father doing drugs and cheating, Ive had to take care of my younger sister and myself, and my father has sleeping issues so at times i would have to help him to, and I had been forced into sports, which all of that had drained my energy. After my father was arrested, I struggled alot more. I had already been slightly depressed after having to take care of my mother and sister, and then my father was arrested. Thats what also had made me stress eat alot. I began gaining weight, and I would hallucinate, and still do, because of being sleep deprived. I had a friend that would call me fat and ugly and lazy, which made me even less confident, so i began self-harm. I had also began to gain a bit of acne around the time, which only made things worse. My friend would call me short and fat and stubby and make up jokes and nicknames about the small amount of acne i had. It really put me down, so I got into roleplaying and writing even more than i had before. I would sit around and roleplay and eat and i had no self confidence. I would go days without a shower and it really sucked. I ended up getting sick alot. But then, I found out more about how other people liked cryptids and horror and stuff like that. I found the Warriors books, which got me way more into reading and nature. Soon, i found out about the gothic, emo, grunge, y2k style stuff. I really admired it, and still do, and got into it. It really made me feel better. I have only began to watch this wonderful person yesterday, but seeing this video, and a few of her others, has helped me realize that i should be ashamed or feel bad or apologize for being the way I am. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing! I feel like I've lost my style over the last few years as my body has changed and so much has changed in the world around me. I turn 30 this year and want to feel confident in myself again. This video makes me feel like I can come out the other side of this - I've done it before!
You are so beautiful inside and out 💞
wow related so much to this, so much respect to you for talking about this
Emm, you're awesome. All the best to you. Love from the UK. 🇬🇧🖤🤍🖤
Thank you so much!!
I really need ur content so much right now and I relate so much to your journey. Thank you for being you, you make the world better by being you and putting yourself out there xx thank you!! 😭💖
I found your channel today and im in LOVE with it. Your energy and content makes me feel happy. Thank you for sharing this! Take care
👏👏👏 well said, and hi from the UK. 🖤
I love your content! keep shining beauty and don't ever doubt yourself.
I was bullied too by my classmates when I was around 14, and that was for having ' a dark style' and even was called a satanist but here I am today in my late twenties and still embracing my true self and the things that make me feel happy and comfortable.
Thank you so so much I truly appreciate your support! Love from Canada!! 🖤🖤
You're such a lovely person. This video is truly meaningful and definitely hit home
The makeup is cute , especially the lipstick.
Are you Nuerodivergent? You just described my childhood experience to a T. I have ADHD and ASD and these experiences and feelings you had attached to them are stereotypical for ND women.
Here are the things I heard that relate to the ND women experience:
-always having known you were different, being an outcast or someone who floats around.
-being bullied, even by friends
-being told you're annoying
-being taken advantage of (alarmingly high rates of SA in ND women as compared to all women, another reason awareness is crucial)
-Strong moral compass and sense of justice (can show up as being very kind to everyone)
-Not feeling gender typical, questions about gender identity.
-eating problems and disorders (oddly enough stomach and gastrointestinal issues like IBS are also really high in asd folks)
-substance abuse
Definitely worth looking into, women are often not spotted for being ND because the criteria was written for little boys. They think ADHD means you are a human bouncy ball and ASD means you collect trains and can't make eye contact. I wish someone told me to look into it-- it has helped me tremendously in my life by learning about why I am the way I am and has given me a lot of new coping skills. Ive never felt more like myself, it truly is so important for ND women to learn about themselves, it can be life saving.
If that list resonates with anyone - check out the autism and adhd in women subreddits, they are great communities with a lot of information.
Disclaimer: fitting into the list doesn't mean you are ND. I'm not a professional and I'm not trying to diagnose anyone, just want to pay it forward and spread awareness.
Hi!!! Thank you so much for your comment! ❤️
I have actually been suspecting for a number of years that I have either autism or ADHD, and in all honestly I should talk to my doctor about it but I am a major procrastinator LOL.
I will definitely look into those subreddits, as this comment definitely resonates with me. I really appreciate you taking the time out of your day to write this ❤️
@@destructiv333 No problem! Neurodivergence is kind of a special interest of mine so I have a hard time shutting about about it tbh lmao
And unfortunately in the case of neurodivergent women it's mostly up to us to spread awareness since the medical system is pretty outdated and biased when it comes to women in general let alone when it comes to neurodivergence.
I myself had a neuropsychological evaluation and they only got it half right the first time, it was also only a few months after people were even allowed to be diagnosed with both, around 2013. ADHD is easier for most professionals to spot but autism seems to really stump people unless they are like specifically an autism expert. This is mostly because Women tend to mask really well(I didn't even know I was I thought it was normal), and our special interests tend to be seen as normal unless they are exceedingly strange. It's also less noticeable when women have sensory issues because of the sexist stereotype of women being overly sensitive.
Sorry for writing so much, I'm actually holding back a bit because I could go on for ages about this stuff haha
I just hope it's helpful in some way :)
I completely feel this in my soul man. I relate to sm of your story, i was always emo my whole life, music wise, since i was a child. So it truly is who i am y'know? But i was never able to dress that way up until the age of 15, which is rlly similar to what you said about makes outfits out of a limited amount of stuff, turning to fast fashion and thrifting, and doing makeup for hours haha. Which i agree, it was a very fun area of life. I eventually went on to goth at around age 16-17, when i accidentally found it while searching for music, and then it only got way bigger when i was able to dress goth. and now i am clearly goth (or just alternative in general since i on rare occasions don't dress goth haha) to anyone who sees me irl. And that shit truly is healing, like ik it's just music and clothes but it's truly a big part of who i am and it means a lot too me. and it has helped me sooo much with my confidence 🖤 (which used to be rlly bad, which is very similar to your story w your confidence so i feel you 😭)
anyways though thank you for sharing your story, i absolutely love these types of videos from fellow alternative people. i feel a lot of us came from a rough background and we then find who we truly are and it heals us in a lot of ways. And idk i just think that's very interesting and also beautiful in a way.
(Also, sorry for the very long comment, i appreciate if you read it all 💀)
Also 1 last thing,
What you said at 15:52 is exactly how i feel on that! You put it into words perfectly!!
I’m so glad that you can relate to my story! And I’m so so glad that being alternative has helped you with your confidence 💗
What a lovely honest heartfelt video.
Omg! You're so inspiring! 😭Thank you for sharing!!
Thank you so much!!
Awesomeness
Don’t understand why people would bully you. Your a very beautiful girl.
Thank you so much for being so honest. After watching this video I feel absolutely overwhelmed with sympathy towards you, dear Emily. Always enjoy watching your content.) Thank you very much! I wish you all the best and I stay tuned, definitely want to see more videos from you! Take care! Send you kisses and hugs!
This video hit home. 🖤
I just love you 😍
You’re adorable, and so inspiring. Keep being you boo
I'm exactly like u
And this definitely inspired me more
I'm getting more confident in my body and style rn and I feel very good
I really resonated with your story! Thank you so much fir sharing :) you are amazing
Thank you 🖤
This was so helpful
Em, you were drawing beautiful Butterflies, bees and 🐞 with X'd eyes at like, 6. I was a tad concerned, but also recognized that Horror/Gore comics, authors, illustrators, etc all have to start somewhere. Your art back then dropped my jaw, and it's not stopped. Whether it's your outfit, makeup, videos, digital or drawn art; it's always something different and fascinating, raw and truthful. I am so very proud of you. 🖤🤍🖤🤍
Thank you so much, I love you lots mom 💗💗
@@destructiv333 I love you, too!!
your videos have helped me so much- i have struggled with confidence my whole life, and watching you has slowly helped me to create myself. you are such an amazing person. thank you..!🖤💕
Thank YOU!!
love ur video sm
Your Midwest north accent is so cute lol. I’m from southern Oklahoma and I had a pretty similar experience as a child to now being almost 24. Always told I beat to my own drum. Definitely the class clown. My art expression was in band and colorguard. Even marching world class DCI with a Corp in Wisconsin. I’ve been going through a lot these past couple years and I’m finally in a safe place where I can be myself again. I do live on a beach in Texas now so it is awkward being the only goth in a tourist town lol. I’m so glad this style helped you.
Hi, was looking on YT for a Goth Hotel and well, YT brought me to you, but I also think it was meant to happen!! I love the goth aesthetic, I'm not religious, but I do believe in God. However, for many years I lived hiding who I really was, because in church they taught you that you are light, therefore you must represent it. You are looked down upon if you dress goth and God forbid wear black lipstick!! It was God himself who spoke to my heart one day and told me, that I was ok to be myself, he wasn't scared or offended by any of this because he knew my heart!! So after that, He gave me the confidence I needed, and I started being my true self! I felt happier than ever, I was always attracted to all these things, but had to suppress myself for so long, because I wanted to do the "right thing". When I see you, I see light, I see love, I see kindness and I see a very bad a$$ woman! As I hear you, I see that you have been through a lot but that has only made your stronger and more confident with who you are! And as you said our confidence comes from our mind, our thoughts, our creativity. There is only one of us, and nobody can do things the way we do, even if its the same thing!! Even though we are very different I saw lots of me in you, when it comes to your personality!! I am glad that you are happy, expressive and that you can goth it all out at the same time. Thanks for being you!! Def following and will continue on watching your videos!! Love your make-up btw, and you have very beautiful eyes! Nobody has to put us in a box including ourselves, we can be who we want to be any day and that still us! I'm into Kpop and I love to bring my goth twist to it! It's about what makes us, us and what makes us happy with our hearts in the right place!! And if we can help someone while being ourselves, so much better. I feel this pull to start my YT, but I been holding it for various reasons, but it is videos like yours that give me the confidence to give it a try and bring what only I can bring to YT!! Purple you!
Thank you so much for this beautiful comment, it resonates with me and I’m so glad that you could relate to me and this video in a lot of ways! Thank you so much for your support 🖤🖤
@@destructiv333 you are very welcome sweetie, and just keep doing what you love and being you! Glad we resonated! Purple you!
" NO FEAR .. IS DANGEROUS .. GOD " 😇😇
love your videos so muchhh
what do you use as the white foundation? love this look!
I love you sm
You made the right choices. You are fortunate to have friends that have similar choices to yours. people who bully you are not your friends. Commercial pop music encourages people who like alternative to keep away from it. The singers are promoting superficial crass fashion. You don't need a Normie therapist. Mainstream society is proficient at shaming any person that is not the favourate stereotype. No person has the right to body shame you. I encourage you to keep doing what you like the most, and don't let the idiotic Normies hold you back. Eventually you can become a Corp Goth and a Classy Goth. You have encouraged me to always delved deeper into Goth.
Thank you so much for your support! I’m so glad I helped you be more interested in goth culture!!
@@destructiv333 Thank you for you kind reply.. Your words are encouraging.If you like, in future you may send me some questions about Goth and in time I look foward to being beyond the early stages of Goth appreciation.
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Your makeup look amazing new subscriber
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Dude I’m 32 and still having trouble expressing my creepy self 😂 thank you for this. 😊 keep being yourself!!
I do look up to you !
💙 you are wonderful just the way you are 💙
Thank you!!
You should have shown photos from back then. You’re beautiful and unique and don’t let anyone ever tell you different
Yes I understand how you talking about things happening. Peoples look at us been deaf couple me and my husband use sign language I don’t care peoples start look at us, bullied, call peoples about bad things. Just ingore. I courious about your make-up. 👍😊🤟🏾😘🖤🖤🦇📱
I'm the opposite I was shy and always alone and never had friends I started be goth at 10 and now I'm 30 and still goth😀
" HAVING PERSONAL SECURITY " 🥳🥳
I love you soo much
" HAHAHA WHATEVER HAHAHA " 😎😎
Where did you get the nose piercings on the top from
You look beautiful
I know it was just a bassline but what was the intro sound it sounded so cool
Honestly all u said is my life lol being able to be who I am in style and personality and through the subculture and my creativity has made me more confident.
Btw if u like markipliar try jacksepticeye.
you can't even imagine how much more exciting natural girls, without makeup are
(to me)
as nature laid you
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I'm from Brasil and e love your videos 🥰
damn listening to this (while playingsubway surfers lol) i was like we have a lot of similarities :D
whats the song to ur intro?
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And its also is not about deep fake new. The only the that is deep is sleep and my cousin that I know longer want to exist in my mind because that can not afford how I live or love the idea of the creation and contribution to the planet. That's all you can't you aren't helping the world thrive 💯
F the haters
Damn the popular girls At my school are horrible to me
hi are you.. me? 😶
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