The part that you said you wanted to leave cryptic,was totally crystal clear to me. I am a guilty/worrier personality also. I too amd trying to overcome this and get my head in a different place. BTW, I am neither Catholic or Jewish...go figure! But you are definitely making progress gril!
I have had that fealing. I often worry that it will effect my kids, but if I am myself and I am happier that will allow me to be a better parent. You are a better person now, a better parent, and friend. I don't need to know you to know that is true, because I know what is like to find myself. How could you ever really open up to anyone if you where so shut off from the real you?
Hi Nikki, I was just watching your latest video with my Father, he just wants you to know you will be fine, he says your a real sweetheart and please hold your head high for you are a fine person and have a kind heart. God does not make mistakes.
Nikki, You are so honest ! And hard on yourself. I am ashamed that most religion uses shame and false guilt as a means of keeping people in line. It’s nothing to do with God, and most of the people don’t realise what they are really doing. We all have stuff that we are rightly sorry for - shoplifting and being spiteful and ignoring people when we could so easily help them. But being who you truly are is not something that we should ever feel guilty for.
Wonderful video something I am sure a lot of people can relate to. :) On a side note at 3:15 because of the way you were sitting and because the bedspread is close to the same color as the carpet I for a split second or two thought the bed was the floor and in walks what looked like a 300 pound black Leopard. LOL
i have had guilt like that, but that doesn't mean that you cant be who you are...when i was growing up, i found it hard to understand why i couldn't be what my parents wanted me to be. I felt guilty about that. That guilt turned into frustration and then anger...i couln't let go of it until i found the Lord. He let me see that i can be who i am instead of what my parents want me to be and still be loved unconditionally...xxx
Yes, Nikki, I wrestle with the "g" word also. At times, I think about feeling sorry for hurting my ex, with my decision. But, I did tell her before we married about my past. I actually thought that I had bid farewell to GID-as if such a thing was possible!!! The "g" thing is a result of being super-sensitive and having an overdose of self-think-lol krw
I have yet to fully embrace my transition and I know exactly what your describing. I myself don't know how to get past it. Other than saying to my self that I am doing the best I can ,and I'm just trying to solve a problem.
I have an opinion (like almost everyone) that most everyone has a fetish, weather they admit to it or not. If not, and they are hiding it from the world, they probably feel guilty (and possibly ashamed) about it at one time or another. I am no exception to this (won't go into detail here) but I find at times it drives me, exhilarates me, and causes me guilt: What if everyone knew?.. My life could end up more exciting, or not, without trying there is no way to know. Life is what we make of it.
Nikki... you asked if any viewers shared any of those feelings and/or experiences... OMG! can I relate. Way too much to detail in a comment box. If you want to communicate in more detail just give me a shout. BTW: you already know the answers, you just haven't given yourself permission to accept that (well, my 'grand conclusion', based on 7 minutes of vlog!!!) ...Peace...Kelly
The part that you said you wanted to leave cryptic,was totally crystal clear to me. I am a guilty/worrier personality also. I too amd trying to overcome this and get my head in a different place. BTW, I am neither Catholic or Jewish...go figure! But you are definitely making progress gril!
I have had that fealing. I often worry that it will effect my kids, but if I am myself and I am happier that will allow me to be a better parent. You are a better person now, a better parent, and friend. I don't need to know you to know that is true, because I know what is like to find myself. How could you ever really open up to anyone if you where so shut off from the real you?
Hi Nikki, I was just watching your latest video with my Father, he just wants you to know you will be fine, he says your a real sweetheart and please hold your head high for you are a fine person and have a kind heart. God does not make mistakes.
Nikki, You are so honest ! And hard on yourself. I am ashamed that most religion uses shame and false guilt as a means of keeping people in line. It’s nothing to do with God, and most of the people don’t realise what they are really doing. We all have stuff that we are rightly sorry for - shoplifting and being spiteful and ignoring people when we could so easily help them. But being who you truly are is not something that we should ever feel guilty for.
Wonderful video something I am sure a lot of people can relate to. :) On a side note at 3:15 because of the way you were sitting and because the bedspread is close to the same color as the carpet I for a split second or two thought the bed was the floor and in walks what looked like a 300 pound black Leopard. LOL
i have had guilt like that, but that doesn't mean that you cant be who you are...when i was growing up, i found it hard to understand why i couldn't be what my parents wanted me to be. I felt guilty about that. That guilt turned into frustration and then anger...i couln't let go of it until i found the Lord. He let me see that i can be who i am instead of what my parents want me to be and still be loved unconditionally...xxx
Yes, Nikki, I wrestle with the "g" word also. At times, I think about feeling sorry for hurting my ex, with my decision. But, I did tell her before we married about my past. I actually thought that I had bid farewell to GID-as if such a thing was possible!!! The "g" thing is a result of being super-sensitive and having an overdose of self-think-lol krw
I have yet to fully embrace my transition and I know exactly what your describing. I myself don't know how to get past it. Other than saying to my self that I am doing the best I can ,and I'm just trying to solve a problem.
u are not an oddity we all have or had the guilts knowing u are just normal and have feelings that effect most is a remedy not a burden
I have the samwe feelings. At night it is the worsts. I re-live the day events at times.
I have an opinion (like almost everyone) that most everyone has a fetish, weather they admit to it or not. If not, and they are hiding it from the world, they probably feel guilty (and possibly ashamed) about it at one time or another. I am no exception to this (won't go into detail here) but I find at times it drives me, exhilarates me, and causes me guilt: What if everyone knew?.. My life could end up more exciting, or not, without trying there is no way to know. Life is what we make of it.
Nikki... you asked if any viewers shared any of those feelings and/or experiences... OMG! can I relate. Way too much to detail in a comment box. If you want to communicate in more detail just give me a shout. BTW: you already know the answers, you just haven't given yourself permission to accept that (well, my 'grand conclusion', based on 7 minutes of vlog!!!) ...Peace...Kelly