"ladies please! I'm going home for lunch" proper made me laugh!! Ahh Meg you are such an incredible person and cannot thank you enough for sharing your recovery tips with us, it has been immensely helpful in my recovery. Thank you!! xxx
Thank you Meg🙏🏻💕 I can’t say it enough: You have been and you still are a big part of my recovery. Thanks to your UA-cam Videos and Instagram posts/stories, you are a daily help on my way to a happy and healthy life☺️
Wow this was one of the most beautiful videos you’ve ever made. The background music from your piano playing and Bren with the guitar made the video feel so intimate and special. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, you’re vulnerability and authenticity is something that is so admirable. Best to you guys ❤️x
The « I exist in the same world as them » brought tears to my eyes Meg. Yesterday I said yes to a Saturday morning homemade brunch and today I spontaneously took the train with my bestie to a nearby town and we spent the day having a picnic in the sun, in a lovely park, going to the lake shore and eating chocolate together. I had space in my head to listen to her and hug her and laugh and that’s so so new to me, and so incredibly precious. Thank you so much Meg for your videos and everything you teach us about recovery. Lots of love x❤️
This is amazing to hear!! Honestly my favourite kind of message to hear the actions you’re doing & how it can get better & you can become more in the world. That’s what it’s all about. No more watching from the sidelines of life 😘😘😘
You have no idea how much you've helped me with dealing with my thoughts. I'm struggeling with a restrictive eating disorder, but mine is classified as 'atypical' because I've never been underweight. So for me, it's always 'just' been about the mental side of recovery and it's gotten so much better since I found your channel so thank you xx💕
Glad you did a 'just' in quotations, because the mental torture of an ED is sheer hell. So glad to hear things are getting better for you. No one should live with that food hell in their head xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 yes that's exactly why I did it.💕 It can be really frustrating when people don't acknowledge that this is a MENTAL disorder that can have visible physical side effects. I also had physical symptoms, but it just wasn't that noticeable for other people. Don't want to think about all of the ed sufferers who don't get diagnosed because of that..... :/
I can relate so much to this. My first time I had my Ed I fit the more stereotypical Ed "look'. This time its been "just" mental too, and it is just as bad if not WORSE. I don't feel you are taken as seriously or understood because you don't fit the assumption of what you should look like. But I hope that the understanding continues to grow that an ED is a mental illness that sometimes has physical components, and that can look very different and isn't a barometer for your suffering. Sending so much love to you and everyone fighting this fight!! XOXO
@@alisonkelly7341 I totally agree....it's not taken seriously enough. I really hope that this will change in the future. But until then we have to keep going and fight this, even if people don't acknowledge our suffering🙏 sending love and strength to you♥️✊
I have my period back. Thanks God that I accidentaly found you on UA-cam 6 months ago. You will never now how much you changed mine and my family's life (sorry for my English)
I’ve revisited literally every video of yours more than once since my latest release last summer/fall. I came back to this one today, and it was the perfect reminder I needed as I’m finally starting to figure out how to embrace my values and focus on finding those non-ED things that bring me joy and can take up space on my pie chart. So, thanks for making this well over a year ago, it’s definitely a very helpful reminder and illustration of how you practiced the pie chart of life concept in your own recovery process.
Well I can’t say this vlog didn’t make me cry! But it was a positive, cathartic sob. I’ve been following you since you started your channel and I’m just so thankful to be able to have insights into your life. I love what you said about using creative outlets to connect with Alfie - so beautiful. ❤️❤️ 🌈
This gives me hope. When I think of all of the times I've said no to things and isolated myself because of weight and food, I feel like I've missed out on so many relationships and opportunities. The regret is very difficult to cope with. I know I can't get that time back, but all I can try to do is make better use of my time & my life going forward.
Yes exactly!! Whatever time is left in life is time to do it differently!!! I’d think about that a lot; so another 10 years didn’t pass which I would regret 😘
Oh gosh, such a beautiful and inspiring video, Meg. This really gave me hope that I can get out of this and recover fully. Thank you so much for taking the time to spread what you have learned in your recovery ❤️😘
This is such a beautiful video, thank you so much for continuing to do these, they are helping so much!! You are such a strong role model and represent something I’m hoping to work towards. I’ve been finding piano and creative things to help too especially during difficult times💕
Stevie sits on your clothes and your arts and crafts. She is a doll. Thank you for your honesty, authenticity and sharing your story. You are also a gem.
Sent too soon!,,,,you would be an incredible counsiller or advisor all what you say is just on point completely and you speak so well about it all, incredible you I really look up to you , keep well lovely xxx😊💝🌷🌺🌈 laura
Thank You very much. You can't imagine how much your videos are helping me since I found your channel. It help as much as therapy, and keeps me optimistic about my recovery. And although going through a hard moment and feel tío lonely un my recovery, your videos are a huge support. 💕💕💕
I always immediately click when Meg posts! My pie chart is diversifying as I get better. Last year I expanded my social circle, this year I'm getting back to creative things I love to do. I'm also working on my identity. For the longest time I thought being skinny was the most important part about me. This was such a horrible way to live. It's like you're a two dimensional version of yourself living in this monochromatic world. Nobody has to live a life dominated by an eating disorder, thanks for showing all of us the way ❤️
You make me laugh! Love how you tell it like it is! You are soo right that worrying about the iced mocha is just going to reduce your life to f*ck all and I adore how you were like "Ladies please! I'm going home for lunch! It's so refreshing to hear these things! This is how I want to be
This has been such a big thing for me in the past 12 months. Last year we made the decision after years to stop fertility treatments and live "childfree". So with that plus recovery and then COVID I felt like "what am I going to do!!!!". But with time I have naturally found new hobbies and interests without needing to force it. I was so scared that would never happen and I thought I needed to keep my eating disorder so I had a "purpose". I also felt I needed to have recovery goals and recovery became my purpose which itself was keeping me stuck. Thanks for showing that life does expand naturally and that we don't need to keep stuck in ED to stay productive. Lots of love xxxx
Awww I’m so glad to hear this, during difficult times it can feel even more like you need ED “safety”, so massive good for you for building other areas up. Even fertility can completely take over the pie (hope that’s ok to say), just like ED does, it’s so good to keep your eye life as a diverse whole. Even though it’s not easy. Lots of love 😘😘😘😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 thanks. Finding a life past ED and focusing on trying to have kids is hard but I thought it would be impossible. You said in one of your older videos about filling the ED void that you don't have to be productive to be a good person and that has helped me. I am learning to give myself permission to do a jigsaw or read a book and not have to busy myself. The lockdowns in some way have forced me to learn this faster because I have less options to do. So in a weird way lockdown has helped me learn that you can have quiet non "productive" days and nothing bad happens. I can take pleasure in all the small things and that is enough for me. I used to think my life after recovery would be huge and exciting when in reality it is the freedom to enjoy the small things and be present that has been the greatest blessing. Also I am such a big jigsaw fan too they are so relaxing yet stimulating!!! I am also trying to learn crochet which I never thought I could sit and do. Xxxx
@@helenburgess9577 this is so good to hear! Letting go of ‘productivity’ is life changing isn’t it! I don’t have a to do list any more. & I have some days where I feel so bad that I just write the day off as ‘ok nothing much is going to get done today. But it’s only one day it’ll pass’, & even though I’m down it’s amazing that I’m not trying to fix or ‘achieve’ my way out of it. & puzzles are so so good when I’m feeling like that. Then when it passes I still have the headspace to get on with other things. Don’t know if that makes any sense
I watched Soul last week and it really made me think of this video and the importance of having a diverse pie chart! If you haven't watched it, I think you'd really like it! I got quite emotional thinking about all the things I've missed out on because my pie chart has been so taken up by food/weight. Your videos always give me hope that life can be something better and that the recovery struggle is worth it
Love you darling! I have been watching you on UA-cam and Instagram for over year a now! You have helped me and continue to help through this social media world! Thank you so much for all you have for me!! I truly appreciate you!!! You are an incredible lady!!!
Such a beautiful video Megsy.... It's great that you can feel able to talk about Alfie and also fill your pie chart with activities which help you feel connected to him..... I'm sure that you will have a lot of emotions coming up towards his anniversary and so it's lovely thar you have some positive activities such as the patchwork blanket. Thank you so much for sharing your personal interest and distractions. I really can relate to the need to distract to cope with difficult emotions instead of using Ed behaviours!! (really need to get some jigsaws maybe) as I definitely can't focus on reading at the moment..... We're in lockdown here. I made a list of things to do for the first one, but were now in Lockdown 3.0 that I must admit the motivation has wavered but this video has reminded me of the importance of keeping up with activities which distract me and stop the ruminating and feeling down...... This is soo inspirational and actually made me feel a little bit emotional.... I am so amazed always at how determined you are to keep going with recovery even though such difficult times..... Learning about ourselves outside of the Ed is so important... Reassurance that it does take time is a comfort. You really always do help me to feel better and confident thar this is all achievable.... It's not like you pretend it's easy either but you can see that putting the effort in year after year does bring about change.... Honestly I don't think you will ever realise how much you help people!!! Take really good care of yourself and well done for trying out the bookclub for mums. I can't imagine the pain involved in talking about the loss of Alfie and hearing others talk about their babies.... You're one hell of a brave warrior.... Keep fighting and also remember to give yourself plenty of self care and self love ❤️ Sending you so much love and strength..... See you in your next video!! Ps. Loved seeing Beyoncé, Stevie and Bertie throughout the video!!!! They're all so cute!!!!!!!!!!
Awww thank you for such a lovely message. It certainly is hard to be in the book group, but I also really love it. I actually cried a lot trying to record that bit of the video after book club, which I edited out. But it was easier to go the next time. Keep going with your lockdown distractions. It's certainly been a good test for learning to be OK with things not being OK, tolerating, and giving in to things beyond our control! For me, anyway. Definitely get a puzzle going with a podcast, I love it so much. Lots of love xxxx
@@megsyrecovery191 aww bless you. It's good that you allowed yourself to cry though, despite editing it out. Releasing emotions is also a huge part of the recovery process for me instead of suppressing them or using the Ed to avoid feeling them. I'm glad you enjoy going to the book group on the whole though.... Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. Yes I shall definitely keep going with the distractions and will try the jigsaw whilst listening to a podcast /audiobook as it definitely sounds like a good option for when some of the other things seem too daunting. Also as you say, good to use the brain and the hands. Less opportunity for the Ed to creep in. Take care lovely xxx
I really love the editing of this video. It was really lovely to watch and the music in the background was so nice. I love how you looped the piano round as you were speaking too. I really enjoyed this video, I always watch your content and really evaluate myself and see how I can make things better, thank you for your help and inspiration
You're such a lovely and inspiring person.. :) and this book.. "Solve For Happy: Engineer Your Path to Joy".. Thanks, sounds good! I'll take a closer look.. :)
I’ve been watching your videos for 3 years and it’s almost like I’m watching a wholesome reality show.. the other day I was thinking where the hell did i get the habit of saying “for fucks sake” when I’m frustrated and then yeah it was from watching you 😂 On a side note I hope your life is filled with happiness and blessings. Also another side note, your hair looks so long, healthy and shiny 🥰
Gosh this was such a beautiful video - teared up watching it! The editing was brilliant (loved the overlay of your/Bren’s music) and I’m so thankful you let us see a glimpse of your life in a little more detail, it felt really special. It’s also hugely motivating, as it shows me what life could be like “on the other side” of all this, as right now, (I’m just starting out at recovery) it all seems a bit hopeless and overwhelming. I find the pie chart exercise quite intense tbh, as it’s upsetting realising how much time has passed, how lonely I am, and how much of my chart is ED-related... it's so weird, because even though it's anorexia that's made me so miserable, when I get overwhelmed by how miserably small my piechart/world has become, I just want to run back to it?! Why is that a thing?? Still, it makes me feel much better knowing I'm not alone or broken for feeling that way!). I don’t think you’ll ever realise how helpful you’ve been to so many, Meg - you’ve touched hundreds of lives, and continue to help people through some of their darkest periods ❤️ If you ever feel up to making a video about how you overcame the dreaded calorie fixation, I’d love to hear your POV - I find it so difficult knowing numbers, seeing numbers, and estimating numbers, and am locked into this awful cycle of ensuring every day is the same/similar value. I know you put some great info up on your stories recently about it, so thank you! Take care of yourself; I can imagine it’s a really tough month. I’m actually looking into some pregnancy/baby loss charities, as I’d love to be able to donate or raise some money - maybe that’s a way to expand a section of my pie chart! Sending lots of love your way xx
I so so get this. I hope I didn’t make it look to easy to do, because this has been a longgg & difficult process, lots of trial & error, & emptiness, & practice to find things which interested me & which I could then build into my life tapestry. It’s hard to portray just how messy & long & overwhelming it was to do. When I looked at where I wanted to be compared to where I was it just made me want to run back to my ED, I suppose it was just slow & steady working on moving the ED out & then trialing new things to move in. But yeh, I totally relate to the feeling over being overwhelmed by it all. You’ll get there!! & yes I can try & do a video on calorie counting 😘😘
Thank you Meg for sharing your journey in again another beautiful video. Your authenticity and vulnerability is so admirable. Every post of you (here or on Instagram) helps me in my own journey, helps me in reflecting on myself and my thoughts, and learning about myself. You are a big help and support through my recovery.
Meg you are such a special person. I can't come up with a better word. I have been following you since the beginning of your journey and I can't explain what a help you are. On so many levels. I learn so much from you, feel less alone and am continuously inspired. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. My heart breaks for you and Bren. You make such a difference and I am so grateful for you. I love the editing and music additions to this video and am sending so much love!! XOXO
Thank you so much for everything you share with all of us!! You helped me to find so many new ways to cope with feelings or reflect myself! Sending you and Bren so much love and strength for the upcoming time!! ❤️✨
Looooved this video. The last two about the pie chart of life are so practical and honestly, so important to those of us who are in the middle of it to see the other side of life that choosing freedom every day can provide. Thank you for being such an inspiration and example.
Its always hard when your at a meal and someone makes a comment about not eating the next meal and i know i need to not only eat that meal but snacks in between
Meg you have such a beautiful heart and your videos are always filled with wisdom and tips that are so eye-opening and so needed and that really truly help. thank you so so so much for everything you do xx
For some reason the background music through this entire video has made me quite emotional 😅 its almost my three year anniversary of being subscribed to your channel Meg and it still makes my day when I see a new upload! Lots of love to you guys ❤
I love hearing you play piano and what a beautiful tribute your music will be for Alfie’s anniversary💙 So fun to hear Bren playing guitar! You both are amazing! As a professional musician and also own a music school, I can’t say enough positive things about the benefits of music. Thank you for sharing your life and music with us💜
Yey!!! So grateful megsy, thank you for your generosity to share your experiences. To be vulnerable is so courageous. You are the bravest person. Literally! Your adventures are inspiring normally, but especially in lockdown 3 when one's restricted life is even more limited. I'm trying to be inventive in making sure I do challenging things that are as close to the ones I'm out of practice doing. Hopefully this will mean they are less frightening again when we can do them again. BTW, podcast recommendation....Fred Sirieix on The Travel Diaries podcast is a lovely listen! Whole we cannot travel is the next best thing! Lots of love xxxxxx
P. S. Starting silversmithing had a wonderful impact on me.... My head was full of plans for pieces of jewellery I wanted to create instead of full of what I'm eating later etc.
@@goosegirl3424 This sounds like an AMAZING hobby! I would love to try that. I really want to learn how to use resin to make bowls and coasters. One day it's my dream to have a shed which I can turn into an art workshop!
@@megsyrecovery191 yes!!!! The incredible tutor who taught me has exactly that and does classes but also one to ones. A couple went to her workshop and made each others wedding bands! 💗 So lush!
Thanks Meg for your insight. This has been very timely for me. I've struggled for 40 years and finally at a point where I've never been before, but still a lot more work to do. The last year I have been at a loss to what i love to do. It's quite tiresome when I get asked what I love. I'm branching out but it's scary! You have been such an inspiration to me to keep moving in the right direction and discovering new things about myself. You are truly a light for many followers and I'm sure just like me they appreciate you and pray for the very best for you and Bren. xx
Honestly I found it so difficult to move things in, it's such an ongoing trial and error and practice and patience thing. And it's taken time to have enough headspace for anything that wasn't food related. It's brave of you to be putting yourself out there and branching out, keep going. Wishing you all the best xxxx
@@megsyrecovery191 I would love a video on how you handle confidence. Not body confidence but in yourself. I constantly have to deal with not measuring up to others and not quite good enough. I want to be the person who doesn't care what others think and put myself out there, make friends and not try to protect myself from being hurt. I wonder how many others struggle with their confidence? thanks Meg
Me to I'm 53 been anorexic since 13 megsy has helped me a lot and tabithas farrah it's hard but it gets easier I have stared reading and taken some time off work recovery is freedom xx
Thank you so very much for helping so many with your videos! They are never to long! Love you! So sorry for your loss of Alfie! I can’t even imagine ho hard that would be. I’m inspired by your desire to help people even though you’ve gone through so very much!
I’m always happy to see a video from you. This was beautifully done, I was tearing up. Also, your editing skills have come so far from the start! Be well 💜
What a beautiful and heartening video Meg. I welled up at the end. I have been thinking the past two days I need a Meg chat but for some strange reason didn't get any notifications, so you can imagine my delight to click into UA-cam and see you had uploaded :D Thank you, thank you, thank you. This is definitely a video that warrants repeat viewing!
Hi megsey! So glad to see you again😀 these pie charts are amazing it's all so very very true and exactly what you say is exactly how it is! You have such a beautiful life you live in such a beautiful place , you are truly amazing all what you have gone through will you please become an ED counciller
MEG YOU ARE SOOO CUDE and an almost "perfect" person, inside & outside. I am writing from western part of Germany and just want to let you know that you are helping and motivating people from all over the world (I guess). Lots of love from here. ;)
When you know you can hit that like before the video is even lplaying, my pie has so many more segments... you don’t even know how small the pie was when your not well! Loving your creativity the reasons for rainbows is beautiful xx I have taken up calligraphy since being in 1.0 lockdown
Wasn’t going to watch this yet (saving it!) but I thought no I’ll watch it tonight and 1. You never fail to inspire and motivate me Meg, thank you for sharing all you do, Sunday’s are horrid days for me but this is the first day I haven’t given into my thoughts, and I want to thank you for helping with that, and 2. BRILLIANT song choice when you had your lunch! Instantly recognised it and thought this is a sign, as Oasis are my favourite (I know it wasn’t Oasis singing but the song). You’re amazing Meg!
You are such an inspiration to us all, Meg. You are my favourite blogger - seriously. I hope we can be on-line friends. You have my support. Much love, Axx❤️🌹
Megsy Recovery Thank you Meg. I've had a bit of a low time not being able to stay with my partner in Truro yet, thanks to the Lockdown but I speak to him every day on Face Time & that helps a bit, but it's not quite the same as having his arms around me. I'm doing badly on the over exercising side of things but eating well. It's the same old issue with feeling I have to 'earn' my food or do less exercise & so eat less food that I enjoy. Take good care. The weather looks incredible out there.🌹
This is sooo true and can be one of the hardest things to overcome, especially with long term EDs. Thanks Meg, very helpful as always :) hope you are doing well xx
Thank you for this. I am backsliding hugely on this just now so will need to work really hard at keeping up with the other parts of my pie chart so that the disordered thoughts don't swamp everything. Finding it very hard though.
Well done Meg for always looking ahead and staying positive. You are just lovely and a inspiration. Wishing you much happiness, and dreams come true xxx
Meg, it is so wonderful to see you make your way ❤ Yay for piano and arts! 😊 I am experiencing the same thing with reading now that I am in recovery 😞 Hope it gets better soon 😞 Keep being your awesome self!
Great video again, Meg, thanks so much! I feel like this is exactly the point where I am at the moment... Afraid to let go of the ed because what then? I need to open the door to life again and your video really touched my heart and was so inspiring and encouraging! I love your strong and kind spirit! Also, I found how you deal with your loss so deep and beautiful.... I am about to start learning the piano as well! Any tips on good UA-cam channels or tutorials for beginners? Love your taste of music :) Keep going, you're such a strong woman who has so much to offer to the world and I hope you can discover more and more how much the world has to offer to you! Lots of love from Germany! 💕💕
Awww such a lovely message, thank you. With the piano I tend to hear a song that I love and then decide that's the song I want to learn. I've used HD Piano tutorials before, they're good. Let me know how you get on with it, good luck! And also keep letting go of the ED to create space for life to move in. It's not an instant and a direct sap, but it does happen with time xxxx
I've been looking forward to this video since I saw your video on the theory you made 😊 I love to see how much your Pie has changed, it really is a motivation to take recovery seriously (which I still too often 'forget') 🙏🏻💕 You're such a great inspiration!!! Really touched by your video! And so nice to hear Bren playing the guitar and singing in the background of the video. Such are such a nice couple💕 Loads of love to both of you and thanks Meg 💖😘 (do you use audibe for audiobooks?)
Can i ask Meg? Have you ever thought about "all in" method? Even people who struggled with anorexia for many years are recovering faster than those using other methods cbt-e.
I hadn't even heard of it when I started treatment. I think it will be different for everyone and different things will work for different people. The thing that worries me about all in is if people freak out and it actually then causes them to then restrict or compensate or whatever. CBTE was more structured and gradual which probably suited me quite well, but if all in works for some one then that's great. Whatever gets people better xxxx
Hi Megan I hope you see this, I love your videos so much and I really need some advice, I'm in recovery and I got my period back at bmi 15.5 which apparently is unusual but I am wondering does that mean my body is recovered now? Can I stop here if my body is healthy despite not being in the "healthy weight" range? Big love to you xx
Another thing is that because of these binges, where I ate all the foods I restricted myself of, nothing tastes good anymore... I almost don't want to eat but when I start I can't stop or don't want to. But I also don't know if the reason behind that is just that I am bored because I don't know what to do...
@megsyrecovery you may already know this, but you could search for a song to be in a different key. C is the easiest key for piano, so it might be easiest if you try that.
@@megsyrecovery191 You probably can't always find a key of C tutorial on UA-cam, but on the web version of tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/ you can transpose (change) the key to whatever key you like. If you Google it, you should be able to find chords in C. The keys of G, D and F would be your next easiest ones for the piano. Hope this helps!
Hi Meg, your videos have been so helpful to me. Thank you! I relate so much to what you said about the noise. Did you too feel jittery, distracted, moody, etc.? Sometimes I have this fear that, if I recover, I'll still feel like there's static electricity in my head, you know? That I still won't be able to focus or feel happy. Like if recovery doesn't make me feel better, what then? But maybe that's just the excuse I tell myself, so I can put off recovery, when it's something I should start now. I guess there's just this fear that the noise won't go away.
I feel that but when I do I say to myself I'm going to just stick with it I won't be swayed by that thought it's worth taking the chance or we will never know its just the eating disorder talking don't let it win xx
Yes, & the recovery process feels so horrifically awful that I thought well if this is what it’s like then I’m going back. But it’s not. There is so much peace when the food fears pass, I still think all the time now “wow, am I allowed to just do this & feel like this!”
So... What if I don't feel shit about eating this many food... I restricted myself, then i fell into this binge and restrict cycle and now i am sitting here eating a lot of food. I can't eat when someone's around because I was deemed the healthy eating one so I don't want them to see me eat all these foods. So am I still ill...?
I know during recovery you had a rule to always finish everything on your plate no matter what. Do you still follow this or have you become more intuitive and stop if your full?
I'm becoming much more intuitive. I would only use that if I was feeling really sick, depressed, or off my food, to make sure I didn't fall back. So I suppose I am still careful, but I do trust my body a lot more now
I read megsy reply to all in and I am so on her level I haven't gone all in I tried for a bit but found it so hard I brought 4 pairs of weighing scales and threw every one away that wasn't cheap 😂 but I have kept going it takes commitment every day I had a oreo mini egg and felt depressed for 3 hours but I wanted it and beat my anorexia and every time I beat it I feel stronger and if I want to restrict I make myself eat its so freeing my daughter has ordered a cream tea for mothers day and I can say for the first time I am arguing over which cake I'm having 😂 I've been anorexic 40 years stated following megsy over a year ago and she felt so real and I felt like tabithas and Eliza they are my inspiration ❤️
Did you stick to all in then, or was it too triggering for you? I'd actually be so interested in hearing people's responses to it, because that's just my initial reaction with no real knowledge or experience of it
Yep but it's been hard but I have committed to recovery 100% and thanks to you and tabithas and elisa I am doing well but yes its been hard it makes me laugh when I get it wrong I hear you say food doesn't have to be perfect xx
How long did it take to be able to let things come in, I mean, was it possible during the refeeding period or just after? I feel, being underweight, nothing interests me and i can't take any decision. Its a vicious circle because Ed takes all the place.😔 Great video again Megs, you are an inspiration for me. 💜 I wish I could be there too.
I tried a bit during, but honestly nothing really went in, and I just didn't have the headspace to focus on anything which wasn't food related. Now I find I can do and enjoy things which I did a couple of years ago and couldn't focus on at all at the time. The ED definitely had to move out for other stuff to move in, so keep going xxxx
I have relied on take out food way too much this past couple of months cause my mood is really low and the thoughts in my head around me eating way too many take outs is really scary.
@@megsyrecovery191 i found myself counting all the times and all the money that I have spent this month on take out. But I keep telling myself that yes this is a lot and yes its a lot of money that I have spent but its still getting food into my body when I have no motivation to cook for myself
I stopped taking in any form of milk or cheese. I was having indigestion, burps and hiccups so much during the day it was difficult to even talk through it.
"ladies please! I'm going home for lunch" proper made me laugh!! Ahh Meg you are such an incredible person and cannot thank you enough for sharing your recovery tips with us, it has been immensely helpful in my recovery. Thank you!! xxx
🤣 glad it can help xxx
Every time you post I know I’m about to do some self reflection and learn about myself. I couldn’t have gotten through recovery without you Meg🙂💛
Awww well done you for doing the hard work xxx
Thank you Meg🙏🏻💕 I can’t say it enough: You have been and you still are a big part of my recovery. Thanks to your UA-cam Videos and Instagram posts/stories, you are a daily help on my way to a happy and healthy life☺️
Bren's so sweet singing! Lovely that you included him in that way in the video 💕
Such a helpful video, as always. Thank you Meg😊
Wow this was one of the most beautiful videos you’ve ever made. The background music from your piano playing and Bren with the guitar made the video feel so intimate and special. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, you’re vulnerability and authenticity is something that is so admirable. Best to you guys ❤️x
Awww thank you, it felt weird to make something so much about me. But hopefully it's still recovery related enough xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 it TOTALLY was recovery related enough and it was so nice to see more about you 🤗❤️❤️
Well done petal u smashed another video. Keep fighting and keep being u. We love u xx
Awww thanks, lots of love to you and Em xxx
💞💞💞
The « I exist in the same world as them » brought tears to my eyes Meg. Yesterday I said yes to a Saturday morning homemade brunch and today I spontaneously took the train with my bestie to a nearby town and we spent the day having a picnic in the sun, in a lovely park, going to the lake shore and eating chocolate together. I had space in my head to listen to her and hug her and laugh and that’s so so new to me, and so incredibly precious. Thank you so much Meg for your videos and everything you teach us about recovery. Lots of love x❤️
This is amazing to hear!! Honestly my favourite kind of message to hear the actions you’re doing & how it can get better & you can become more in the world. That’s what it’s all about. No more watching from the sidelines of life 😘😘😘
You have no idea how much you've helped me with dealing with my thoughts. I'm struggeling with a restrictive eating disorder, but mine is classified as 'atypical' because I've never been underweight. So for me, it's always 'just' been about the mental side of recovery and it's gotten so much better since I found your channel so thank you xx💕
Glad you did a 'just' in quotations, because the mental torture of an ED is sheer hell. So glad to hear things are getting better for you. No one should live with that food hell in their head xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 yes that's exactly why I did it.💕 It can be really frustrating when people don't acknowledge that this is a MENTAL disorder that can have visible physical side effects. I also had physical symptoms, but it just wasn't that noticeable for other people. Don't want to think about all of the ed sufferers who don't get diagnosed because of that..... :/
I can relate so much to this. My first time I had my Ed I fit the more stereotypical Ed "look'. This time its been "just" mental too, and it is just as bad if not WORSE. I don't feel you are taken as seriously or understood because you don't fit the assumption of what you should look like. But I hope that the understanding continues to grow that an ED is a mental illness that sometimes has physical components, and that can look very different and isn't a barometer for your suffering. Sending so much love to you and everyone fighting this fight!! XOXO
@@alisonkelly7341 I totally agree....it's not taken seriously enough. I really hope that this will change in the future. But until then we have to keep going and fight this, even if people don't acknowledge our suffering🙏 sending love and strength to you♥️✊
I have my period back. Thanks God that I accidentaly found you on UA-cam 6 months ago. You will never now how much you changed mine and my family's life (sorry for my English)
I’ve revisited literally every video of yours more than once since my latest release last summer/fall. I came back to this one today, and it was the perfect reminder I needed as I’m finally starting to figure out how to embrace my values and focus on finding those non-ED things that bring me joy and can take up space on my pie chart. So, thanks for making this well over a year ago, it’s definitely a very helpful reminder and illustration of how you practiced the pie chart of life concept in your own recovery process.
Well I can’t say this vlog didn’t make me cry! But it was a positive, cathartic sob. I’ve been following you since you started your channel and I’m just so thankful to be able to have insights into your life. I love what you said about using creative outlets to connect with Alfie - so beautiful. ❤️❤️ 🌈
Awww thank you xxxx
This gives me hope. When I think of all of the times I've said no to things and isolated myself because of weight and food, I feel like I've missed out on so many relationships and opportunities. The regret is very difficult to cope with. I know I can't get that time back, but all I can try to do is make better use of my time & my life going forward.
Yes exactly!! Whatever time is left in life is time to do it differently!!! I’d think about that a lot; so another 10 years didn’t pass which I would regret 😘
Oh gosh, such a beautiful and inspiring video, Meg. This really gave me hope that I can get out of this and recover fully. Thank you so much for taking the time to spread what you have learned in your recovery ❤️😘
This is such a beautiful video, thank you so much for continuing to do these, they are helping so much!! You are such a strong role model and represent something I’m hoping to work towards. I’ve been finding piano and creative things to help too especially during difficult times💕
Stevie sits on your clothes and your arts and crafts. She is a doll. Thank you for your honesty, authenticity and sharing your story. You are also a gem.
I know, bless her 😻
Sent too soon!,,,,you would be an incredible counsiller or advisor all what you say is just on point completely and you speak so well about it all, incredible you I really look up to you , keep well lovely xxx😊💝🌷🌺🌈 laura
Thank You very much. You can't imagine how much your videos are helping me since I found your channel. It help as much as therapy, and keeps me optimistic about my recovery. And although going through a hard moment and feel tío lonely un my recovery, your videos are a huge support. 💕💕💕
So glad they can help 😘😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 You can't imagine how much!!! It's great watching You
You make me forget My loneliness un My recovery.😘💕
I always immediately click when Meg posts! My pie chart is diversifying as I get better. Last year I expanded my social circle, this year I'm getting back to creative things I love to do. I'm also working on my identity. For the longest time I thought being skinny was the most important part about me. This was such a horrible way to live. It's like you're a two dimensional version of yourself living in this monochromatic world. Nobody has to live a life dominated by an eating disorder, thanks for showing all of us the way ❤️
Couldn't agree more. Good for you, keep moving the ED out and building other segments in its place xxxx
You make me laugh! Love how you tell it like it is! You are soo right that worrying about the iced mocha is just going to reduce your life to f*ck all and I adore how you were like "Ladies please! I'm going home for lunch! It's so refreshing to hear these things! This is how I want to be
This has been such a big thing for me in the past 12 months. Last year we made the decision after years to stop fertility treatments and live "childfree". So with that plus recovery and then COVID I felt like "what am I going to do!!!!".
But with time I have naturally found new hobbies and interests without needing to force it. I was so scared that would never happen and I thought I needed to keep my eating disorder so I had a "purpose". I also felt I needed to have recovery goals and recovery became my purpose which itself was keeping me stuck.
Thanks for showing that life does expand naturally and that we don't need to keep stuck in ED to stay productive. Lots of love xxxx
Awww I’m so glad to hear this, during difficult times it can feel even more like you need ED “safety”, so massive good for you for building other areas up. Even fertility can completely take over the pie (hope that’s ok to say), just like ED does, it’s so good to keep your eye life as a diverse whole. Even though it’s not easy. Lots of love 😘😘😘😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 thanks. Finding a life past ED and focusing on trying to have kids is hard but I thought it would be impossible. You said in one of your older videos about filling the ED void that you don't have to be productive to be a good person and that has helped me.
I am learning to give myself permission to do a jigsaw or read a book and not have to busy myself. The lockdowns in some way have forced me to learn this faster because I have less options to do. So in a weird way lockdown has helped me learn that you can have quiet non "productive" days and nothing bad happens. I can take pleasure in all the small things and that is enough for me.
I used to think my life after recovery would be huge and exciting when in reality it is the freedom to enjoy the small things and be present that has been the greatest blessing.
Also I am such a big jigsaw fan too they are so relaxing yet stimulating!!! I am also trying to learn crochet which I never thought I could sit and do. Xxxx
@@helenburgess9577 this is so good to hear! Letting go of ‘productivity’ is life changing isn’t it! I don’t have a to do list any more. & I have some days where I feel so bad that I just write the day off as ‘ok nothing much is going to get done today. But it’s only one day it’ll pass’, & even though I’m down it’s amazing that I’m not trying to fix or ‘achieve’ my way out of it. & puzzles are so so good when I’m feeling like that. Then when it passes I still have the headspace to get on with other things. Don’t know if that makes any sense
I watched Soul last week and it really made me think of this video and the importance of having a diverse pie chart! If you haven't watched it, I think you'd really like it! I got quite emotional thinking about all the things I've missed out on because my pie chart has been so taken up by food/weight. Your videos always give me hope that life can be something better and that the recovery struggle is worth it
Love you darling! I have been watching you on UA-cam and Instagram for over year a now! You have helped me and continue to help through this social media world! Thank you so much for all you have for me!! I truly appreciate you!!! You are an incredible lady!!!
Awww thank you, so glad it can help xxx
Such a beautiful video Megsy.... It's great that you can feel able to talk about Alfie and also fill your pie chart with activities which help you feel connected to him..... I'm sure that you will have a lot of emotions coming up towards his anniversary and so it's lovely thar you have some positive activities such as the patchwork blanket. Thank you so much for sharing your personal interest and distractions. I really can relate to the need to distract to cope with difficult emotions instead of using Ed behaviours!! (really need to get some jigsaws maybe) as I definitely can't focus on reading at the moment..... We're in lockdown here. I made a list of things to do for the first one, but were now in Lockdown 3.0 that I must admit the motivation has wavered but this video has reminded me of the importance of keeping up with activities which distract me and stop the ruminating and feeling down......
This is soo inspirational and actually made me feel a little bit emotional.... I am so amazed always at how determined you are to keep going with recovery even though such difficult times.....
Learning about ourselves outside of the Ed is so important... Reassurance that it does take time is a comfort. You really always do help me to feel better and confident thar this is all achievable.... It's not like you pretend it's easy either but you can see that putting the effort in year after year does bring about change.... Honestly I don't think you will ever realise how much you help people!!!
Take really good care of yourself and well done for trying out the bookclub for mums. I can't imagine the pain involved in talking about the loss of Alfie and hearing others talk about their babies.... You're one hell of a brave warrior.... Keep fighting and also remember to give yourself plenty of self care and self love ❤️
Sending you so much love and strength..... See you in your next video!!
Ps. Loved seeing Beyoncé, Stevie and Bertie throughout the video!!!! They're all so cute!!!!!!!!!!
Awww thank you for such a lovely message. It certainly is hard to be in the book group, but I also really love it. I actually cried a lot trying to record that bit of the video after book club, which I edited out. But it was easier to go the next time. Keep going with your lockdown distractions. It's certainly been a good test for learning to be OK with things not being OK, tolerating, and giving in to things beyond our control! For me, anyway. Definitely get a puzzle going with a podcast, I love it so much. Lots of love xxxx
@@megsyrecovery191 aww bless you. It's good that you allowed yourself to cry though, despite editing it out. Releasing emotions is also a huge part of the recovery process for me instead of suppressing them or using the Ed to avoid feeling them. I'm glad you enjoy going to the book group on the whole though....
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. Yes I shall definitely keep going with the distractions and will try the jigsaw whilst listening to a podcast /audiobook as it definitely sounds like a good option for when some of the other things seem too daunting. Also as you say, good to use the brain and the hands. Less opportunity for the Ed to creep in. Take care lovely xxx
I really love the editing of this video. It was really lovely to watch and the music in the background was so nice. I love how you looped the piano round as you were speaking too. I really enjoyed this video, I always watch your content and really evaluate myself and see how I can make things better, thank you for your help and inspiration
Thanks, I’ve only just realised how & been creative enough to do that haha. Glad it can help 😘😘
You play the piano beautifully
You're such a lovely and inspiring person.. :) and this book.. "Solve For Happy: Engineer Your Path to Joy".. Thanks, sounds good! I'll take a closer look.. :)
See what you think. There were some bits I really liked. He’s got a podcast too 😘
Thank you for being so open and always keeping it real. I’m so thankful I found your channel. 💜💜💜
I’ve been watching your videos for 3 years and it’s almost like I’m watching a wholesome reality show.. the other day I was thinking where the hell did i get the habit of saying “for fucks sake” when I’m frustrated and then yeah it was from watching you 😂 On a side note I hope your life is filled with happiness and blessings. Also another side note, your hair looks so long, healthy and shiny 🥰
Gosh this was such a beautiful video - teared up watching it! The editing was brilliant (loved the overlay of your/Bren’s music) and I’m so thankful you let us see a glimpse of your life in a little more detail, it felt really special. It’s also hugely motivating, as it shows me what life could be like “on the other side” of all this, as right now, (I’m just starting out at recovery) it all seems a bit hopeless and overwhelming.
I find the pie chart exercise quite intense tbh, as it’s upsetting realising how much time has passed, how lonely I am, and how much of my chart is ED-related... it's so weird, because even though it's anorexia that's made me so miserable, when I get overwhelmed by how miserably small my piechart/world has become, I just want to run back to it?! Why is that a thing?? Still, it makes me feel much better knowing I'm not alone or broken for feeling that way!). I don’t think you’ll ever realise how helpful you’ve been to so many, Meg - you’ve touched hundreds of lives, and continue to help people through some of their darkest periods ❤️
If you ever feel up to making a video about how you overcame the dreaded calorie fixation, I’d love to hear your POV - I find it so difficult knowing numbers, seeing numbers, and estimating numbers, and am locked into this awful cycle of ensuring every day is the same/similar value. I know you put some great info up on your stories recently about it, so thank you!
Take care of yourself; I can imagine it’s a really tough month. I’m actually looking into some pregnancy/baby loss charities, as I’d love to be able to donate or raise some money - maybe that’s a way to expand a section of my pie chart! Sending lots of love your way xx
I so so get this. I hope I didn’t make it look to easy to do, because this has been a longgg & difficult process, lots of trial & error, & emptiness, & practice to find things which interested me & which I could then build into my life tapestry. It’s hard to portray just how messy & long & overwhelming it was to do. When I looked at where I wanted to be compared to where I was it just made me want to run back to my ED, I suppose it was just slow & steady working on moving the ED out & then trialing new things to move in. But yeh, I totally relate to the feeling over being overwhelmed by it all. You’ll get there!!
& yes I can try & do a video on calorie counting 😘😘
This is such a beautiful Video! I needed this today! Thanks you and lots of love. 💟
Thank you Meg for sharing your journey in again another beautiful video. Your authenticity and vulnerability is so admirable. Every post of you (here or on Instagram) helps me in my own journey, helps me in reflecting on myself and my thoughts, and learning about myself. You are a big help and support through my recovery.
Meg you are such a special person. I can't come up with a better word. I have been following you since the beginning of your journey and I can't explain what a help you are. On so many levels. I learn so much from you, feel less alone and am continuously inspired. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. My heart breaks for you and Bren. You make such a difference and I am so grateful for you. I love the editing and music additions to this video and am sending so much love!! XOXO
Awww thank you! We’ve known each other (at least virtually) for 3 years now!! Lots of love 😘😘😘
Fabulous as always Meg 😘
Thank you so much for everything you share with all of us!! You helped me to find so many new ways to cope with feelings or reflect myself!
Sending you and Bren so much love and strength for the upcoming time!! ❤️✨
Looooved this video. The last two about the pie chart of life are so practical and honestly, so important to those of us who are in the middle of it to see the other side of life that choosing freedom every day can provide. Thank you for being such an inspiration and example.
Beautiful video
Absolutely love this blog! Can totally relate in every way, makes me really want to get through recovery!
Its always hard when your at a meal and someone makes a comment about not eating the next meal and i know i need to not only eat that meal but snacks in between
Yeh absolutely!! We're always going to hear comments and shit people say and do. But doesn't mean we need to internalise it or act on it xxx
I struggle with this too! And people around me on a diet - I know that their path isn’t mines but it really is hard to ignore these thoughts!
Meg you have such a beautiful heart and your videos are always filled with wisdom and tips that are so eye-opening and so needed and that really truly help. thank you so so so much for everything you do xx
For some reason the background music through this entire video has made me quite emotional 😅 its almost my three year anniversary of being subscribed to your channel Meg and it still makes my day when I see a new upload! Lots of love to you guys ❤
Wowwww 3 years. Here from the start 🙋🏼♀️ lots of love back xxx
I love hearing you play piano and what a beautiful tribute your music will be for Alfie’s anniversary💙 So fun to hear Bren playing guitar! You both are amazing! As a professional musician and also own a music school, I can’t say enough positive things about the benefits of music. Thank you for sharing your life and music with us💜
Yey!!! So grateful megsy, thank you for your generosity to share your experiences. To be vulnerable is so courageous. You are the bravest person. Literally! Your adventures are inspiring normally, but especially in lockdown 3 when one's restricted life is even more limited. I'm trying to be inventive in making sure I do challenging things that are as close to the ones I'm out of practice doing. Hopefully this will mean they are less frightening again when we can do them again. BTW, podcast recommendation....Fred Sirieix on The Travel Diaries podcast is a lovely listen! Whole we cannot travel is the next best thing! Lots of love xxxxxx
P. S. Starting silversmithing had a wonderful impact on me.... My head was full of plans for pieces of jewellery I wanted to create instead of full of what I'm eating later etc.
@@goosegirl3424 This sounds like an AMAZING hobby! I would love to try that. I really want to learn how to use resin to make bowls and coasters. One day it's my dream to have a shed which I can turn into an art workshop!
Amazing, thank you for the recommendation! I will have a listen. Thanks for your lovely messages xx
@@megsyrecovery191 yes!!!! The incredible tutor who taught me has exactly that and does classes but also one to ones. A couple went to her workshop and made each others wedding bands! 💗 So lush!
Thanks Meg for your insight. This has been very timely for me. I've struggled for 40 years and finally at a point where I've never been before, but still a lot more work to do. The last year I have been at a loss to what i love to do. It's quite tiresome when I get asked what I love. I'm branching out but it's scary! You have been such an inspiration to me to keep moving in the right direction and discovering new things about myself. You are truly a light for many followers and I'm sure just like me they appreciate you and pray for the very best for you and Bren. xx
Honestly I found it so difficult to move things in, it's such an ongoing trial and error and practice and patience thing. And it's taken time to have enough headspace for anything that wasn't food related. It's brave of you to be putting yourself out there and branching out, keep going. Wishing you all the best xxxx
@@megsyrecovery191 I would love a video on how you handle confidence. Not body confidence but in yourself. I constantly have to deal with not measuring up to others and not quite good enough. I want to be the person who doesn't care what others think and put myself out there, make friends and not try to protect myself from being hurt. I wonder how many others struggle with their confidence? thanks Meg
Me to I'm 53 been anorexic since 13 megsy has helped me a lot and tabithas farrah it's hard but it gets easier I have stared reading and taken some time off work recovery is freedom xx
This is one of my favorite videos!! So lovely. You’re videos help me so much 💜
Thank you so very much for helping so many with your videos! They are never to long! Love you! So sorry for your loss of Alfie! I can’t even imagine ho hard that would be. I’m inspired by your desire to help people even though you’ve gone through so very much!
Well I’ve been very lucky to have such wonderful help through it, so it’s nice to be able to share that ☺️
I’m always happy to see a video from you. This was beautifully done, I was tearing up. Also, your editing skills have come so far from the start! Be well 💜
What a beautiful and heartening video Meg. I welled up at the end. I have been thinking the past two days I need a Meg chat but for some strange reason didn't get any notifications, so you can imagine my delight to click into UA-cam and see you had uploaded :D Thank you, thank you, thank you. This is definitely a video that warrants repeat viewing!
Awww thanks 😘😘😘
Hi megsey! So glad to see you again😀 these pie charts are amazing it's all so very very true and exactly what you say is exactly how it is! You have such a beautiful life you live in such a beautiful place , you are truly amazing all what you have gone through will you please become an ED counciller
You have an enchanting life! So well deserved.
MEG YOU ARE SOOO CUDE and an almost "perfect" person, inside & outside.
I am writing from western part of Germany and just want to let you know that you are helping and motivating people from all over the world (I guess). Lots of love from here. ;)
Helloooo in Germany. I'm well not perfect haha, but who is. Glad the videos can help, keep going xxxx
Thx for your new update. You’re doing excellent and I love I will soon been in your place. A lot of lo.❤️👍👏👏👏🤗🤗
Every video you post is just what I need, you are truly an inspiration to so many people! Thank you for your videos🙏🏽
Thank you so much for sharing all that you do. You've done so much for so many people
it's honestly an honour, after having received such terrible treatment myself in the past, and now being so lucky to have had such amazing help
When you know you can hit that like before the video is even lplaying, my pie has so many more segments... you don’t even know how small the pie was when your not well! Loving your creativity the reasons for rainbows is beautiful xx I have taken up calligraphy since being in 1.0 lockdown
Oooooh, good for you! Scarlett actually bought me a calligraphy set, I'll have to give it a go. Lots of love xxx
Wasn’t going to watch this yet (saving it!) but I thought no I’ll watch it tonight and 1. You never fail to inspire and motivate me Meg, thank you for sharing all you do, Sunday’s are horrid days for me but this is the first day I haven’t given into my thoughts, and I want to thank you for helping with that, and 2. BRILLIANT song choice when you had your lunch! Instantly recognised it and thought this is a sign, as Oasis are my favourite (I know it wasn’t Oasis singing but the song). You’re amazing Meg!
It was Bren 😏
Lots of love to you special lady xxx
You’re such a beautiful soul 😘
You are such an inspiration to us all, Meg. You are my favourite blogger - seriously. I hope we can be on-line friends. You have my support. Much love, Axx❤️🌹
Awww absolutely we can!! I've known you for a couple of years now :) Hope you're doing OK xxxx
Megsy Recovery Thank you Meg. I've had a bit of a low time not being able to stay with my partner in Truro yet, thanks to the Lockdown but I speak to him every day on Face Time & that helps a bit, but it's not quite the same as having his arms around me. I'm doing badly on the over exercising side of things but eating well. It's the same old issue with feeling I have to 'earn' my food or do less exercise & so eat less food that I enjoy. Take good care. The weather looks incredible out there.🌹
Couldn't have come at a better time today!!! Meg, thank you so much for all of your insight. You are amazing x
Don't worry about me is such a beautiful song.
Isn't it!!!!! So beautiful. I love Frances xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 it is one of the of the most beautiful songs I have heard in a very long time. Problem is I cry each time I hear it 😘
An amazing video Meg! Thank you so much for sharing your journey & for keeping things real ...you really are such a beautiful & talented soul x
Your always an inspiration. You have helped me so much. Great video 😊
I love your long videos :)
This is sooo true and can be one of the hardest things to overcome, especially with long term EDs. Thanks Meg, very helpful as always :) hope you are doing well xx
Such a beautiful video, thank you for making it 💗
Thank you for this. I am backsliding hugely on this just now so will need to work really hard at keeping up with the other parts of my pie chart so that the disordered thoughts don't swamp everything. Finding it very hard though.
Me to but it will be hard feel the fear and do it anyway enjoy 👍
Good for you, the more you can challenge & get the disordered thoughts out, the more space there will be for other things to move back in 😘😘
Nature is the best!!! So soothing and refreshing! Thanks so much for taking the time to make those videos!!! :)
Totally agree!!
Thankyou for such a positive video againxx
Yass a Sunday video:) xoxo
Loved the editing in this one, Meg ❤️ I think of you and your Alfie often, sending you all of the love ❤️
So sweet, thank you xxx
Well done Meg for always looking ahead and staying positive. You are just lovely and a inspiration. Wishing you much happiness, and dreams come true xxx
Aww and to you xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 xxx
Thank you Meg your videos are always so helpful to me x
You are such a beautiful person inside and out x
That was heart rending ❤️
Beautiful video loved it.x
So much love for this video Meg ❤️ especially loved your editing and the way you merged Bren singing into the end. You’re both so talented! Xxx
Awww thanks, much better than my earlier editing abilities haha
Meg, thank you for this video, it was beautiful 🥺
So happy to see your video.
Meg, it is so wonderful to see you make your way ❤
Yay for piano and arts! 😊
I am experiencing the same thing with reading now that I am in recovery 😞
Hope it gets better soon 😞
Keep being your awesome self!
Aww thank you, keep going and you'll get more space for things like reading xx
In LOVE with the oasis cover you put in this vlog ❤️
Exile.- yaaaaas.....good job Meg! Beautiful
Bren playing the guitar❤️
Yeh it was Bren around the campfire doing oasis 🥰
Such a nice video! Thankyou for this!
I really lovedd this video!!thankk youu for thiss!!!is really helpful❤❤lots of love for you and Bren!!!💖😘🙃
beautiful video
Great video again, Meg, thanks so much! I feel like this is exactly the point where I am at the moment... Afraid to let go of the ed because what then? I need to open the door to life again and your video really touched my heart and was so inspiring and encouraging! I love your strong and kind spirit!
Also, I found how you deal with your loss so deep and beautiful....
I am about to start learning the piano as well! Any tips on good UA-cam channels or tutorials for beginners? Love your taste of music :)
Keep going, you're such a strong woman who has so much to offer to the world and I hope you can discover more and more how much the world has to offer to you! Lots of love from Germany! 💕💕
Awww such a lovely message, thank you. With the piano I tend to hear a song that I love and then decide that's the song I want to learn. I've used HD Piano tutorials before, they're good. Let me know how you get on with it, good luck! And also keep letting go of the ED to create space for life to move in. It's not an instant and a direct sap, but it does happen with time xxxx
@@megsyrecovery191 thank you
I've been looking forward to this video since I saw your video on the theory you made 😊 I love to see how much your Pie has changed, it really is a motivation to take recovery seriously (which I still too often 'forget') 🙏🏻💕 You're such a great inspiration!!! Really touched by your video! And so nice to hear Bren playing the guitar and singing in the background of the video. Such are such a nice couple💕 Loads of love to both of you and thanks Meg 💖😘 (do you use audibe for audiobooks?)
Awww thank you!! Yes I do use audible 😘
Thanks a lot....you are so great♥️ you Help me sooooo much
Thank you for this
Can i ask Meg? Have you ever thought about "all in" method? Even people who struggled with anorexia for many years are recovering faster than those using other methods cbt-e.
I hadn't even heard of it when I started treatment. I think it will be different for everyone and different things will work for different people. The thing that worries me about all in is if people freak out and it actually then causes them to then restrict or compensate or whatever. CBTE was more structured and gradual which probably suited me quite well, but if all in works for some one then that's great. Whatever gets people better xxxx
I also don't actually know enough about all in to properly comment on it, that is just my first impression with the little amount that I do know
Hi Megan I hope you see this, I love your videos so much and I really need some advice, I'm in recovery and I got my period back at bmi 15.5 which apparently is unusual but I am wondering does that mean my body is recovered now? Can I stop here if my body is healthy despite not being in the "healthy weight" range? Big love to you xx
Another thing is that because of these binges, where I ate all the foods I restricted myself of, nothing tastes good anymore...
I almost don't want to eat but when I start I can't stop or don't want to. But I also don't know if the reason behind that is just that I am bored because I don't know what to do...
Whatever the reasons, if it’s impairing your life & taking you away from your values, then it’s a problem 😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191
You're right🙊 Thank you so much. I hope you are doing well. 💕
@megsyrecovery you may already know this, but you could search for a song to be in a different key. C is the easiest key for piano, so it might be easiest if you try that.
Oooh, as in search UA-cam?
@@megsyrecovery191 You probably can't always find a key of C tutorial on UA-cam, but on the web version of tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/ you can transpose (change) the key to whatever key you like. If you Google it, you should be able to find chords in C. The keys of G, D and F would be your next easiest ones for the piano. Hope this helps!
Hi Meg, your videos have been so helpful to me. Thank you! I relate so much to what you said about the noise. Did you too feel jittery, distracted, moody, etc.? Sometimes I have this fear that, if I recover, I'll still feel like there's static electricity in my head, you know? That I still won't be able to focus or feel happy. Like if recovery doesn't make me feel better, what then? But maybe that's just the excuse I tell myself, so I can put off recovery, when it's something I should start now. I guess there's just this fear that the noise won't go away.
I feel that but when I do I say to myself I'm going to just stick with it I won't be swayed by that thought it's worth taking the chance or we will never know its just the eating disorder talking don't let it win xx
Yes, & the recovery process feels so horrifically awful that I thought well if this is what it’s like then I’m going back. But it’s not. There is so much peace when the food fears pass, I still think all the time now “wow, am I allowed to just do this & feel like this!”
So... What if I don't feel shit about eating this many food...
I restricted myself, then i fell into this binge and restrict cycle and now i am sitting here eating a lot of food. I can't eat when someone's around because I was deemed the healthy eating one so I don't want them to see me eat all these foods. So am I still ill...?
I know during recovery you had a rule to always finish everything on your plate no matter what. Do you still follow this or have you become more intuitive and stop if your full?
I'm becoming much more intuitive. I would only use that if I was feeling really sick, depressed, or off my food, to make sure I didn't fall back. So I suppose I am still careful, but I do trust my body a lot more now
I read megsy reply to all in and I am so on her level I haven't gone all in I tried for a bit but found it so hard I brought 4 pairs of weighing scales and threw every one away that wasn't cheap 😂 but I have kept going it takes commitment every day I had a oreo mini egg and felt depressed for 3 hours but I wanted it and beat my anorexia and every time I beat it I feel stronger and if I want to restrict I make myself eat its so freeing my daughter has ordered a cream tea for mothers day and I can say for the first time I am arguing over which cake I'm having 😂 I've been anorexic 40 years stated following megsy over a year ago and she felt so real and I felt like tabithas and Eliza they are my inspiration ❤️
Did you stick to all in then, or was it too triggering for you? I'd actually be so interested in hearing people's responses to it, because that's just my initial reaction with no real knowledge or experience of it
Yep but it's been hard but I have committed to recovery 100% and thanks to you and tabithas and elisa I am doing well but yes its been hard it makes me laugh when I get it wrong I hear you say food doesn't have to be perfect xx
A kiss in memory of Little baby Archie ❤️
How long did it take to be able to let things come in, I mean, was it possible during the refeeding period or just after? I feel, being underweight, nothing interests me and i can't take any decision. Its a vicious circle because Ed takes all the place.😔 Great video again Megs, you are an inspiration for me. 💜 I wish I could be there too.
I tried a bit during, but honestly nothing really went in, and I just didn't have the headspace to focus on anything which wasn't food related. Now I find I can do and enjoy things which I did a couple of years ago and couldn't focus on at all at the time. The ED definitely had to move out for other stuff to move in, so keep going xxxx
@@megsyrecovery191 💜
I have relied on take out food way too much this past couple of months cause my mood is really low and the thoughts in my head around me eating way too many take outs is really scary.
We get take away ALL THE TIME in lock down. So much more convenient in lockdown
@@megsyrecovery191 i found myself counting all the times and all the money that I have spent this month on take out. But I keep telling myself that yes this is a lot and yes its a lot of money that I have spent but its still getting food into my body when I have no motivation to cook for myself
ia the background music Bren on guitar???!
Yes!!!!!
I knew it!!
@@megsyrecovery191 SO LOVELY
Awwwww i missed this intro song
I stopped taking in any form of milk or cheese. I was having indigestion, burps and hiccups so much during the day it was difficult to even talk through it.