"I don't wanna hear it" "Don't act like you didn't know" "really?" "don't play dumb" "You know what you did" "Why would you do that?" "What's wrong with you" "Do you really think this was an accident" "What are you doing to do to fix this" "How come ---- can do better but not you?" "Who raised you like this?" "Do better" "You can't be that stupid" "Sorry is not going to fix it"
fr.. i got myself into a mess wiht my friends and they said "c'mon you know better. we told you about this before and you still do it. you just don't listen"
@Starlight Dust Im not gonna get too upset, because you might be feeling some real crappy stuff, but it a killer whom was killing those who hurt, I dunno, the people that mad their lil bro kill themselves, then to the lil bro, they are a hero, but to their families, they're a villain. To myself, I might be a hero by saying this, but to you, I'm, I dunno, Thanos or some shit. But. What you do doesn't determine if you are a villain or hero. To the fly you swatted, your the worst. But to your, I dunno sibling that the fly bit, your ironman incarnate. Pretty much, we are the gray area, no matter how much we try. Thanks for coming to my ted talk.
Depending on the side that tells the story, personal influences, morals and values will interfere. Details will always be left out, it just changes which ones. If you disagree just use history as an example. We always get the white savior pov: never the stories of the innocent people they attack/colonise.
they mean die i have had that a lot its so they arent to blame if you do and people blindly follow and say can you please stop and when you go what breathing they all say yes so :/
I snapped and now my «friends» hate me and wont talk to me. Or one came back because she had a argument with the other guy and Im the second choice or third choice probably last choice :3
@@evaramberg my "friend" came back to me saying she was sorry and she needed me as a friend again, so i went to be friends again ig. yeah i havent heard from her since
fr. i finally start being assertive and not letting people walk over me and what do people say? 'You're so mean now' 'you used to be so nice' 'what happened to you?' i hate it here i can never be perfect
my fake friends are control freaks, they judge me behide my back, hit me, spread false rumors about me then when i finally snap at them i'm the bad guy...
"Why would you say that? you're not the victim here." "Sorry doesn't fix it.." "Maybe you should see yourself in their shoes for once." "It's your fault and that's, that." POV: You're an eldest daughter who got blamed for everything your younger siblings did, You made someone important to you mad, You got blamed by someone you didn't mean to hurt because you're trying to show them that it was actually *her* who did all those bad things, Your teacher is talking to you...they also blame you POV: You're so sick of these mistakes you made..
I'm the middle child and I notice that it happens a lot, so I always make sure to stay by my older sister's side. We live in a very toxic household so it's best me and my older sister stay together this is how it goes in our house: Oldest: gets blamed and abused for everything Middle: gets forgotten 24-7 and yelled at when noticed Youngest: gets away with everything and tries to make everyone else life hell
The title is what you say to your younger sibling when you just hurt them for being annoying, they start crying, and you hear your mom's car pulling in the driveway-
I'm sorry this happened to you guys, for me it's the opposite cause I'm the youngest. My family would compare me to my older brother and they always say it's my fault. Sorry for ranting that out, but again I hope you guys feel better, it wasn't your fault in the first place!
I didnt mean to hurt all the people around me. While trying to save myself from hurting too much I shutout everyone in my life and I ended up hurting my family, my bestfriend, all my other friends and my girfriend. Now I cant trust anyone cant say "I love you" to anyone and stay in my room on the internet, drawing, reading manga or listening to music
hey your not alone in this when u just want to be alone and focus on yourself so everyone distances themselves i get it u want them to be there... but shits so complicated and everyone gets mad at the end including yourself but you just want to be alone yet have company
That’s way too close to what my future could be like. I’m the type of person who holds all of their negative emotions in, so I end up having random outbursts of anger. I don’t want that to happen to myself, but I can’t stop it. I can tell that I’ve already hurt my family, but they’re still somewhat trying. It’s happened to a few of my friends and everything. Not sure how to explain it…
Before you read any of this, I just wanna say I'm doing much better now! It's been 8 months since I've written this comment I feel bad for venting but here I go- I have really bad anger issues, they got worse over time. Sometimes I hurt people more than I intend to because of that. I wish I could say sorry to all those people, I didn't mean to be so mean I just can't help it. Meditation doesn't work, trying to calm down doesn't work, trying to let it go never works. I really didn't mean to I really didn't, I don't want to hurt the people I care about. Edit: to the people who can relate to this I know it hurts, lets hope things get better for all of us!! To the people who have said so many nice things to comfort me, tysm!!
it’s okayyy it’s not just you everyone loses control sometimes i have anger issues and anxiety as well ( i got it from my dad he used to have them too) but don’t worry we can try and learn to get through our problems together. :D
hey, it’s alright okay? I relate to you a lot, i deal with anger issues too and it’s really hard to control them knowing sometimes you can’t have control of your actions- but I can reassure you that you’re not going through this alone, I know it’s hard but I promise you that one day everything is going to get better, you can also always try vent books or you could write in a paper what you’re going to so you could let your anger out; let’s go through this together okay?
playlist idea: your "bestfriend" is taking everything and everyone you love for themself edit:194 likes?! my comment has never got this amount of attention before TvT edit #2: 214 LIKES?!?! i feel loved TwT tysm
btw here are some music recommendations if u decide to make this a playlist edit: I decided this this playlist has 2 parts in one thing so I have come to finish what I have started U-U going through the pain: Mr Loverman - Ricky Montgomery Water Fountain - Alec Benjamin Burning Pile - Mother Mother Daycore Maretu - Suck.It.Up I Can't Handle Change - Roar Jealousy, Jealousy - Olivia Rodrigo Good 4 You - Olivia Rodrigo Cry Baby - Melanie Martinez Sick Of You - Sub Urban & DNMO Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo Aishite Aishite Aishite - Kikuo Look Who's Inside Again - Bo Burnham Everything Suck's - Vaultboy Can You Feel My Heart? - Bring Me The Horizon Heather - Conan Gray Meteor Shower - Cavetown Washing Machine Heart - Mitski Michelle - Sir Chloe Sweater Weather - The Neighborhood Wish You Were Gay - Billie Eilish As The World Caves In - Matt Maltese Lovely - Billie Eilish Someone You Loved - Lewis Capaldi Agoraphobic - Corpse Revenge: Bitches - Mindless Self Indulgence Lambada - T-Fest x Scriptonite Uhh - Framed My Strange Addition - Billie Eilish Swim - Chase Atlantic Blah Blah Blah - The Oozes Horns - Bryce Fox She's So Nice - Pink Guy E-Girl's Are Ruining My Life - Corpse Hayloft - Mother Mother People I Don't Like - Upshal I Can't Decide - Scissor Sisters High Enough - K.Flay Dangerous - LEFT BOY Nowhere To Run - Stegosaurs Rex Ghost - Confetti After Dark - Mr.Kitty Killing Me Softly With His Song - Fugees, Ms. Lauryn Hill Smoke And Mirror's - Jayn Team - Mag.Lo Paper Plane's - M.I.A Don't Threaten Me With A Good Time - Party! At The Disco CHOKE - I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME WHITE TEE - Corpse NEVER SATISFIED - Corpse Cabin Fever - Corpse CAT GIRL'S ARE RUINING MY LIFE - Corpse MISS YOU - Corpse if there are any other songs u want to add and u are free to use this :)
[tw- this may trigger you] It’s my first time listening to a playlist with a title that repeats the same words I’ve said countless times. Sucks cause no matter how gentle I am or how passive I am I ending up hurting people I feel comfortable around or care for. I was raised to not really talk about my feelings or express them in anyway so It usually turns into energy which I don’t know how to expel and next thing you know bam. I’ve done or said something I cant take back. Its hard to especially voice my feelings about certain things because I don’t wanna hurt people and I also don’t wanna seem like another scummy human being who always has something to say. I can’t even begin to explain how many times I’ve snapped back at my mom after she says something snide and she ends up crying bc of it. I started anew or atleast I tried, I said I would tell the truth and try to help others while also helping myself, people don’t like the truth and that got me beat a few times. Now Im stuck apologizing for every little thing because I’m atleast offending a crowd of people in a just fucking inhale. It got so bad to a point that I brushed shoulders with my mom and I had a panic attack. A goddamn panic attack. Why? I was scared as hell. I still am scared to this day, scared of a lot of things.
forget bottling up your feelings, be open about them, even if your mom doesn't like it. tell her you don't care what she thinks because you need freaking help. strand up for yourself and stop hiding your feelings because they're not just a piece of dust on a table that you can brush away and pretend it isn't there.
I relate to you more than i can say…i bottle everything up it sucks I can’t express my feelings only in lyrics and when i sing. I sing loud wondering if one day I’ll be heard…but i suggest to never change for other people you are you no one else being a people pleaser sucks trust me i am ONE and one day I’ll stop pleasing those who’ve hurt me and finally rid of my shit life so be free and fuck those who put you down because we have one life let’s not waste it just to please someone you’ll probably never see again no matter who it is you aren’t made for everyone those who dislike will dislike you and those who like you will like you that’s that. All im trying to say is live life don’t kiss ass and be the best you YOU AMAZING BASTARD!! (Sorry if I don’t make sense lol im just babbling )
Mom says I shouldn't blame myself, that I'm just a teenager and that it's normal I acted that way... She told me many times not to apologize yet I can't help to do so... It's been a year, I should be moving on.. I have an amazing family and a normal life, why am I ruining it for myself..? I want to love myself just like they love me, but I can't help looking at my past mistakes..
" Stop crying or else I'll give you something to cry about" That will haunt me for life hearing that from my step dad- I never did anything to him for him to treat me like this...
“suck it up” really affected me growing up because i would trip and fall and cry cause i was a child and my parents or caretakers would still say it to me and now i try and serpress my emotions.
some of the same thing happened to me as well, but it was my brothers, they hated me (i guess, that was my own damn fault) but my parents were so busy they didn't have enough time so really all my childhood was getting told 'i don't give a single fuck' and i do that same thing- suppressing my emotions and criticizing myself over stupid things, causing low self esteem and over thinking, i shouldn't I've vent to you I'm sorry
Imagine one day you hurt someone, Killed someone you loved All because you cant control yourself from your anger anymore and you've had enough But in the end you will just cry when you've realized what you've done.
I'm extroverted but people are blaming me so much I'm almost acting like an introvert. The problem is, bc I'm extroverted, I always feel the need to talk to someone- but I don't know how to express my feelings without making critics about everyone- and then I mess up even when I try hard :/
im seeing people vent about their experiences, so i guess i will to. tw// self harm, suicide, phobias, getting really deep i wish i could just be normal, im so young. my arms full with cuts and blood as well as my legs, i know hurting myself wont help but its an addiction that i cant escape , especially with having family issues and such a bad reputation on the internet, ive lied about so many things before because im scared, i feel like im attention seeking but im seriously not, blood is running down my arms right now, tears sliding down my face, i feel so trapped . im like an insect stuck in a little crack in the cement. i cant get out, or others will crush me. im having suicidal thoughts every day, i feel like i have *nothing* , *no one* , i want to be a normal kid.
I know my words aren't going to change much of your actions because they're not original but know that there will always be someone worried about you so don't give up and get out of this shit. It is true that it is not easy, but that does not mean that it is impossible.
I am in the same exact situation word for word, I genuinely hope that you are okay. You've probably become so numb to the point where words can't help, and that's okay. but, just know that I wouldn't speak a lie to an angel like you. You'll be okay! Please bare that in mind. You are not the only one out there, don't compare yourself and say you are not normal. What you compare yourself to, is the masks people show. Don't worry, it gets real hard for everyone. Hopefully, you'll believe that. Even if you don't, just remember who you are. You are blessed enough to be here, and you are strong enough to get out, but at the right time. Don't let go, don't let go just yet. If you let go, someone else will go through the same. Even if you don't care about anyone, or have no one to care for you, remember that you'll remain in my mind. I wish I could sit there next to you in these times. If you wish to speak with me regarding this, add me on Discord. ilycarla#4173 When you're on the verge of letting go, just remember that, it's almost over... you couldn't give up. Not yet. Never. "If you're going through hell, keep going." -Winston Churchill "Keep going... you never know how strong you are until you look back at what you've overcome." -Kerry Smith
omG the first music is driving me insane it's so good. Did you edit it or something?? Even if I looked up the remix and edits I can't find this exact version 🗿 It'd be poggers if you could tell me where you found it tysm
@@kawaiicakes2581 yeah ikr?? it's just different theres nothing like 0:14 (the vocal repetitions) in the other slowed down versions for example i rlly like it :D but ty for answering!
POV: also lowkey TW for toxic relationships, manipulation, intrusive thoughts and inferiority complexes. Also, I'm trying out using They/Them pronouns for characters
this story feels familiar as though i could relate, like i've been through something similar, but really the only thing I could relate it to would be my first ever relationship, and even so it was a completely different situation.
@@peyton.5160 haha thanks, I havent been in a relationship as toxic as so its prlly not that accurate but * TW Anorexia* I used to starve myself bc my now ex would always make me feel like i had to be skinny :) thankfully i quit that like a month or so after we broke up so i loosely inspired it off that
My mom's relationship actually except it has effected more than just her she was free for 3 years we were free not anymore though he's back and it's happening again in the same order and same excuses perhaps I'm going insane maybe I'm so afraid it's going to happen that I'm seeing things mom says it's ok and I'm overreacting but my stomach aches in a different direction it's going to get much worse I can feel it but she lives for him so not much I can do but wait and support her when it happens again wish I'd get some in return but instead I write about my problems poetically and anonymously good night I'll probably never sleep again because i wasn't enough to keep him away I wasn't good enough and they make sure I know it I tried to be a partner and a parent to your children and you I'm your child so I couldn't possibly be enough I did try though don't think that that's going to be a good enough excuse when he ends her up in a ditch though
“why would you do that?!” “ i didnt do anything” “ oh sure you didnt! its not like its always YOU who fucks it up. why cant you be more like layla? i tried so hard and this is what i get back? You’re turning into your father.” oh.
i know i shouldn’t trauma dump/vent but here! i’m very sorry to my bsfs that i hurt on accident because of my stupidity. i know that i never think before i speak, i just instantly do everything i think about, and i’m so sorry for what i’ve said/done. i know i’m not the best friend you could ask for, and i know my sorry won’t really fix anything, but i hope you just know i love you, you don’t have to forgive me for anything. you’re some of the best people i’ve ever met, i don’t deserve you, and you deserve better, i’m sorry. -me, and anonymous stranger.
sometimes it doesn't matter if it was an accident if someone could've been greatly hurt by your mistake. sometimes you deserve the backlash and not to be understood. sometimes that's what it takes to force you to grow up and be better.
i have intrusive dreams and they just don’t stop i honestly don’t know what to do and pls don’t say it will get better bc idc if it will i care abt now and it’s not getting any better it’s getting worse honestly don’t know what to do.
I just wanna grow up so I can tell people my sexuality without people saying it's just a phase. I wanna punch someone, I wanna be violent, I wanna scream, I wanna hurt someone, I wanna hurt myself, I wanna close my eyes and never open them again, I'm tired, I wanna give up.
"We didn't raise you like this" "What made you think that was okay" "What the fuck is wrong with you" "Its like you never learn" "Why can't you just tell the truth" "You're just like your father" POV. your the older sibling who started lying at a very young age and never learned from messing up, and then ended up enjoying the thrill of lying and stopped trying to prove yourself to your parents
"just because it was accident doesn't mean it's okay *proceeds to shout at me* " -my dad whenever i accidently spill or drop something that sentence makes me want to beat the shit out of something.
I badly hurt(well rather fucked up for life-) someone unintentionally as a kid. I didn't realize the gravity of what I did until it was too late. I told my therapist about the incident and all she had to say was "no worries, you can't be legally charged for anything cause you were a kid", like as if that were the problem.....
Being a kid, doing stupid things as a kid because of some stupid urge in our dumb little kid heads. If nobody keeps an eye or stops you, when you understand the gravity of what you did, the guilt. There's so much guilt for people like us. It eats us up inside.
“If it makes everyone not hate me and smile at me, then it's much better...” “You didn't do anything wrong. It was my fault. That's definitely it...!” “"It's all her fault..." "She's the one with the problem..."” “Why won’t you forgive me!? If you did something wrong...you’d forgive yourself right away...!” “Why does everybody always hate me?!” “JUST FORGIVE ME ALREADY!!” - Mikan Tsumiki
I realized I only have the motivation to create, to draw, compose, etc., when I feel sad. I've had depression for years so I've been feeling numb, or basically haven't been feeling anything at all, which makes me unable to do anything besides the things I feel obligated to do. I've done nothing, throughout highschool and college, besides maintaining my grades and meeting academic expectations. I wished I could go back to drawing but there was never any feeling, nothing that could motivate me, and I need feeling in order to draw so my inability to create made me dull and only further guided me towards thinking that there is no true meaning in my life or a point to keep myself around. I put a filter in front of my eyes, one that makes everything blurry and keeps me from seeing the hard edges; my emotions are under a lock, restricted, only allowing slight ups and downs, offering low oscilations, to avoid wasting energy by reacting to everything negative happening around me but, now that I'm starting to feel miserable again, now that I want to feel pain again, now that I'm removing all those restrictions, I suddenly want to create things. I think I found my calling lol... my parents always commented how I only knew how to draw dark-themed stuff, how I never used any color and how I never drew anything "happy" but I think even that is better than nothing at all. I'd rather be dark than an untouched canvas left to rot.
I dont relate with this playlist, but the person who traumatized me will. and they will sit here and get validation for the trauma and pain they gave me.
to any of yall that struggle with anger issues or any negative things and toxicity within yourself, please know that you should work on undoing the bad things and do your best on improving your behavior for the better. the first step is to recognizing that you are wrong and don't use it as a way to develop a victim complex and continue to justify this behavior. :) you will surely regret it more and lose people around you. take accountability. learn to apologize. learn to know that you are wrong. it doesn't matter if it's too late or if they don't forgive you. what matters is there is closure between you and the person. for the sake of you and their own peace. have a nice day.
God what a call out…I’m so clumsy and my parents hate it and I’m always apologizing and saying it was an accident but that just gets them more mad omg what specific playlists
This makes me think of a very specific time back in 6th grade when I accidentally injured a classmate of mine. It was really scary because I had thought that this would affect this person long term. Well, as soon as it happened, I was pulled aside by a teacher and reprimanded. I teared up because I was genuinely worried about the person, but obviously, it didn't matter to the teacher that it had been a mistake. To make matters worse, one of my friends at the time came up to me and began asking me "Why would you do that?!" and other things of the sort and it just made me feel more shitty. The moral of the story, if a person is already feeling like crap about something they did and already acknowledges that it was wrong and a mistake then don't continue to beat a dead horse and make them feel even even worse.
I know, it's my fault. I know that I ruined everything. I quarreled w/ e everyone bcause of stupid reasons and can not say sorry. I dropped more things to live w/ my dad like a family, but now I can't go home again. Return back where I lived before? I can't too. When I tried I understood that everything just fell apart while I was away. What to do? I don't know and now I'm too tired to do something. I need a rest..
I noticed that my friends always had left me by drifting away slowly but surely and not caring about it but I do they don't notice that I have red puffy eyes and that I break down easily just with ten words or less - apparently not important to anyone
im usually quite kind and im bad at saying no but i act the same way towards everyone because i get scared they wont like me or ill come off as mean, i also have really bad social anxiety atm and i only have a few friends but my bestfriend said she has a crush on me idk what to do i feel like i lead her on because i was too kind but i didnt mean to i didnt want to shes the only close friend i have left i dont know what to do i cant lose her but i dont like her like that, if she leaves i have no one, but if i say no its going to be awkward and i probably will lose her, but i dont like her like that . :[
I’m sorry if i’m being a bother but, can you (maybe) make a “everyone loves you, but you don’t love yourself” playlist? I would love that a lot but you don’t have to though :)
TW anxiety and helplessness I'm just a kid. It hurts to feel trapped in a cage that's slowly burning. I feel like I'm gonna die. I can't get out. I want help, I need help, I've reached out for help. I just don't know if I can even be helped anymore. I don't think this can be fixed. I just don't know how to be okay. I don't even know where to start. I feel like I won't be okay until the world is okay but the world will never fucking be okay. I feel the worry for my birth mother and all mother, the Earth. The people. The toxic fathers and mothers. The trying. The giving up. I worry about it all and I expect myself to be able to protect my mothers. My trying mothers. My siblings, my mothers, they're sick. And I'm just a kid, just one of her kids. I can't cure her on my own and my wretched fellow man will not fucking pitch in enough. Maybe they can't anymore. I'll go when she does. Today is my mom's birthday and I'm so glad she could have it. I'm so sad that it's in a world like this. So angry and frustrated. So tired. Help me. Help us. Save my mothers. Help.
one of the worst things said to me is "i do not care if u meant it you did it and that means you meant it ok stop being selfish" it will always stick with me.
y'know, once I accidentally tipped a glass at my 3rd Aunties house (she's extremely abusive/bipolar btw) she beat me so badly that I couldn't feel my limbs for a whole week, I couldn't even walk... I was only 5... I still have scars to this day and i'm 16... the trauma she gave me still stands strong to this day, but I have been getting help which is good. I don't really open up to this stuff as in tell people this, but I trust the comments/replies. this place seems safe to share experiences...hopefully
Phantogram -- black out days 00:00 -- 5:22 Sohodolls -- bang bang bang bang 5:22 -- 9:32 Mag.Lo -- never 9:32 -- 18:36 Ezekiel -- help_urself 18:36 -- 21:50 salad days -- Chamber of reflection 21:51 -- 27:20
I had a friend that had anger issues and I was so weak I just cant stand up for myself I use cry asleep and just say why do you do this he use to punch me for not talking and we were playing a game and now i dont talk to him much i am finally happy with my life
Quick little vent; I've gotten very violent they've always, always! Treated me terrible when it was my turn to be sad because I was a nice friend, I'd forgive them. But they were sad, I'd comfort them. A month later, they start hitting me, going with names such as "hippo" "s|ùt". That's what friends do? Right? So, little me git used to that for 2 years, Going home with bruises, slap marks. That always hurt the marks would eventually be seen by my parents but I told we were just playing around. Now I can't control the anger of all of that on others.. I get mad at people and I've gotten violent, I've gotten so mad and hurt by the world I ask my friend " are you lying? Are you talking about me behind my back at all?. " the answer is no so I believe him, my online friend that was also friends with him hits me with "he's been talking bad about you... All the time" so, I confront him. "It's a joke don't worry, besides I just was making him not want to be your friend anymore. " that didn't work, it actually made me trust him more. Fast forward to now, I've started snapping at people more than usual. I found out that my uncle you just got out of treatment that he's on drugs, he lives with us though, he gets on my nerves being that I'm a teenager I usually hide in my room and he is complainong that I hate him because I never leave my room although I'm always like this, I came out of my room and he immediately goes to bothering people, I'm not a huge fan of "sorry" because usually when people say sorry to me it goes "sorry I was just__" and then on rants about themselves. I told him "I don't feel like talking right now. Leave me alone. So, he says, "Sorry I was trying to talk to my favorite niece. " what? And? I don't want to talk to you, I start seeing pills, I start seeing him acting "different" I used to watch Live PD all the time when I was little, I knew what people on drugs acted like, and how they looked, I was angry, I asked my parents and they were thinking the same thing so we were talking about it. He comes in AND TRIES TO EAVESDROP. He grabs a plate out of our shelf and starts washing it saying "what'd you say? " So I've been more angry. Whoever read this much, thank you :)
POV: your the middle child and your siblings blame you for everything and you get bullied at school and the teacher with other staff members hate you and you only have 1 friend that you know is fake but you don't want to tell them because they can get you in trouble and you just want to restart. POV:it's all real for me...
This playlist is amazing because I can relate on this ever I got that nightmare, where everyone that I loved left me and decided to kick me out of the house that I lived with my family for so long just because of my anger issues. I’m sorry but I can’t control or stop my anger, I feel that my anger was the puppeteer controlling me when I lash out my anger towards everyone I loved and supported me like a puppet. Im sorry but please don’t leave me all myself, i need you and your help my friends and family…. Please
They hurt me before way more then you could ever imagine and when i accidentally do something not even that bad they act like its the end of the world when i put up with their shit for a whole year not even getting to say anything about it. Why do i feel bad i didnt do anything wrong..
To the person who read this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic.Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years. I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words
TW blood,cutting,scu1cide thought , grammer mistakes I remember once when I used to harm my self with razors and other sharp objects and lots of blood used to leave my body since a lot of pressure was on me that moment and other personal reasons, it scared my body, it was hard for me to complete living so I used to think about ending my life, for all the people who suffer from the same issue I'm very terribly sorry you deserve an apology and I hope u get better just try not to think about it a lot
One day me and my little sister were playing ring around a Rosie and and she was sitting in a sling chair and I would move it around as I walked and as soon as it hit ‘ashes ashes we all fall down’ she flung herself out the chair ( on purpose ) and I it had spun when she flung her self out of the chair so she went crashing across the room into a metal toy/ bed frame (idk) and she started crying and my parents came running and I was so confused bc her arm was bent so unnaturally and they started screaming at me and telling me I am a horrible sister and a horrible person and they went to the ER and my uncle stayed with us and I cried for hours not knowing what I did wrong and my uncle gets a call from my step dad and he tells him that ‘I’ broke her arm and he tells me that ‘I’ broke it. They blamed it on me ever since and now that my little sister is older and it’s all good and she can talk whenever somone brings it up she stares at me and smiles and everone will look at me I ever time I tell them she flung herself out the chair but no no one believes me and then my little sister will come up to me after and say ‘ it’s all your fault’ or ‘ ehe I did that on purpose’ , ‘ I will always be the favorite because of ‘YOUR’ mistake ‘ when ever I try to get along with her she’ll always make it an argue ment and when we are out in public she throws temper tantrums in the stores and my mom has anxiety so I take care of it being the good child and My little sister will make messes on purpose or. And my older sister is no better than my dad constantly manipulating me into feeling bad for her But it was only an accident (:( AAA SORRY FOR RANTING
Wait damn girl wtf. This is borderline.. no this is fucking insane . Your family is fucked up, u didn't do anything wrong. Well not that I am one to talk. My family also did this kind of shit and still does. Of ya wanna talk, write me. I might not be Jesus, but I can relate to your story and might be a friend u wanna vent to:)
@@jolojan4327 AAA FINNALY but when she gets her attitude from my step dad he is fucking mental bc one night he will act drunk af and tell me that he will smash a soda can over my head and then say he didn’t mean it and in the morning he will act like nothing happend at all he’s never been that violent with me or anyone he tries sometimes but he ruins it by yelling at me for trying to be nice to my little sister and she yelled at me I never had e know why she has hated me it’s just been something from birth and after that day she has had it out for me idk why
@@kaleycathcart5549 There might be several reasons as to why ur little sister treats u like shit and the whole oh yeah I am the families little sweetheart and will rub it into ur face and blame u for stuff so u get into trouble while I look like an little angle. I mean tbh that's like the cliche "I'm the younger sibling" trope but that is going way too far. So as a younger sibling myself I think, that the reason ur sister acts like that may be because she is jealous of you. When I was younger I also acted like a brat and would rub it in my big sisters face but now that I'm older I realise that it was only bcs I was alway jealous of her, even though she isn't even that great, like for real she is a total bitch, dumb af and manipulated me before but little siblings always tend to be jealous of their older sibling even though they may not be that great bcs they only see the things of them that are better than theirs (for example being taller or better in maths, having an awesome friend). And I KNOW that it prolly makes NO sense whatsoever and u may think to urself there is no way she is jealous of ME? (not saying that u are bad, it's just most ppl tend to be pretty down on themselves, which u of all shouldn't be cause u are an queen, girl and strong af ) but things like this are actually quite common between younger and older siblings. I mean think about she was born and grew up with u, being together and growing up with someone that's older than u and taller and has a lot of other qualities hat only a sibling knows. Maybe she is jealous of of u and doesn't want to show it (seems like she has a big ego. That may be why) so she started to see u as a rival and torment. And since ur parents make it seem like it's okay to say everything is ur fault, she may just have adapted it. Because most kids nick what their parents do
@@kaleycathcart5549 oh yeah but besides jealousy, it may also be that she's a narcissist. In that case, I have a good idea on how to get her off ur back
i've had so many group friends, none of them lasted more than 3 months. my ex best friend only hangout with me cause she didn't had anyone else in our school, when she changed to her old, with her other friends, stoped talking to me. i don't have any real friends, just two classmates, but we only talk about homework. i feel like i'm not 16. i don't have friends, my ex crush didn't liked me back neither. "alone again" but i feel like i've always been alone
sometimes being alone is good , you dont get hurt by anyone but one day your going to have an amazing friend and youll be so happy with them even if they come to you when your old
Remember when you did that thing for the one time we did to move to another time and when i couldnt you didnt do for the once finally you could and when i did ive been doing that
"it doesn't matter if you meant to or not, you still did it" forever haunts me
Me too.
Same, that exact sentence makes me feel like sh-t
It makes me feel so damn guilty and bad. I really didnt mean to.
i can never forget it even if i try it wont go away
It doesn't make sense to me
"I don't wanna hear it"
"Don't act like you didn't know"
"really?"
"don't play dumb"
"You know what you did"
"Why would you do that?"
"What's wrong with you"
"Do you really think this was an accident"
"What are you doing to do to fix this"
"How come ---- can do better but not you?"
"Who raised you like this?"
"Do better"
"You can't be that stupid"
"Sorry is not going to fix it"
they say this every time.
oof size: large
@@over_complicated542 MEGA OOF
"you make too many "accidents" I think your doing it on purpose."
fr.. i got myself into a mess wiht my friends and they said "c'mon you know better. we told you about this before and you still do it. you just don't listen"
"There are heros, then there are villans. The difference? Who tells the story.". One of my favorite quotes but I don't know who said it. :(
That quote is from Nightfall! its a book by Penelope Douglas
@Starlight Dust Im not gonna get too upset, because you might be feeling some real crappy stuff, but it a killer whom was killing those who hurt, I dunno, the people that mad their lil bro kill themselves, then to the lil bro, they are a hero, but to their families, they're a villain. To myself, I might be a hero by saying this, but to you, I'm, I dunno, Thanos or some shit. But. What you do doesn't determine if you are a villain or hero. To the fly you swatted, your the worst. But to your, I dunno sibling that the fly bit, your ironman incarnate. Pretty much, we are the gray area, no matter how much we try.
Thanks for coming to my ted talk.
@Starlight Dust calm down it wasnt tbat serious
Depending on the side that tells the story, personal influences, morals and values will interfere. Details will always be left out, it just changes which ones. If you disagree just use history as an example. We always get the white savior pov: never the stories of the innocent people they attack/colonise.
@Starlight Dust I think ur misunderstanding the point smartie.. ppl mix up the hero with the villain, that's the point of the quote
"You're a good person, Sunny. A good person wouldn't do something like that."
I was looking for this comment
no.. , not the omori reference 😭😭
omori reference o.O
stop READING MY MIND
STOP
"A Hero will sacrifice you for the world while a Villain will sacrifice the world for you".
Joel Miller tbh
I love villians man :(
thats y i love villians
eren yeager
Even the Joker 🥺
(Yes this is sarcasm, I know the joker is evil)
“Stop doing that ___!” “But I didn’t do anything…”
And then the “stop lying.”
"I don't wanna hear you anymore", Then you end up getting disciplined for something you didn't do.
"did you hurt your sister!?"
"no, i dont know why shes crying."
@@freyr2558 nice pfp
they mean die i have had that a lot its so they arent to blame if you do and people blindly follow and say can you please stop and when you go what breathing they all say yes so :/
“doing anything is like walking on a bomb field for me, i never know which step is going to kill me.”
is this a quote or something you made up? either way it's relatable heh
i relate to this
mine field**
When you finally snapped, not realizing that you'll soon be the bad guy.
I snapped and now my «friends» hate me and wont talk to me. Or one came back because she had a argument with the other guy and Im the second choice or third choice probably last choice :3
@@evaramberg my "friend" came back to me saying she was sorry and she needed me as a friend again, so i went to be friends again ig.
yeah i havent heard from her since
fr. i finally start being assertive and not letting people walk over me and what do people say? 'You're so mean now' 'you used to be so nice' 'what happened to you?'
i hate it here i can never be perfect
my fake friends are control freaks, they judge me behide my back, hit me, spread false rumors about me then when i finally snap at them i'm the bad guy...
Could you make a
"You realized everyone was better without you" playlist
I love u. U are important
Yikes.
@@-nekochan9990 mhm
YES WE NEED THIS
it would be perfect for me :'(
"Why would you say that? you're not the victim here."
"Sorry doesn't fix it.."
"Maybe you should see yourself in their shoes for once."
"It's your fault and that's, that."
POV: You're an eldest daughter who got blamed for everything your younger siblings did, You made someone important to you mad, You got blamed by someone you didn't mean to hurt because you're trying to show them that it was actually *her* who did all those bad things, Your teacher is talking to you...they also blame you
POV: You're so sick of these mistakes you made..
This describes me so much it’s insane.
@@cloudydays8251 same, and im srry for that, Im not that good with words but know yer not alone♡
@@cloudydays8251 Welcome ^^
I'm the middle child and I notice that it happens a lot, so I always make sure to stay by my older sister's side. We live in a very toxic household so it's best me and my older sister stay together
this is how it goes in our house:
Oldest: gets blamed and abused for everything
Middle: gets forgotten 24-7 and yelled at when noticed
Youngest: gets away with everything and tries to make everyone else life hell
@@the..gay..frog..5133 Yep,
And I salute you for being such a lovely younger sibling to your older one ^^♡
"nothing is an accident but you, you are one for sure" -once said someone
Ça m'a rappelé que ma sœur me disait ça avant.
Ah, que de nostalgie.
Could u make a “the person that you thought loved u actually never loved u” playlist? This would comfort me a lot
I’ll try
HELP YOU DESCRIBED MY PAST RELATIONSHIP
Hope yall okay. Keep kicking. Have a nice day
.......... literally my last relationship
ouch that's my past relationship
The title is what you say to your younger sibling when you just hurt them for being annoying, they start crying, and you hear your mom's car pulling in the driveway-
Yup
so true
not me id just sit there watching my brother cry until i got a beating from my dad
@@missdaisy2051 savage- you ain’t scared of n o t h i n g -
I'm sorry this happened to you guys, for me it's the opposite cause I'm the youngest. My family would compare me to my older brother and they always say it's my fault. Sorry for ranting that out, but again I hope you guys feel better, it wasn't your fault in the first place!
I didnt mean to hurt all the people around me. While trying to save myself from hurting too much I shutout everyone in my life and I ended up hurting my family, my bestfriend, all my other friends and my girfriend. Now I cant trust anyone cant say "I love you" to anyone and stay in my room on the internet, drawing, reading manga or listening to music
hey your not alone in this when u just want to be alone and focus on yourself so everyone distances themselves i get it u want them to be there... but shits so complicated and everyone gets mad at the end including yourself but you just want to be alone yet have company
I have the same problem..
That’s way too close to what my future could be like. I’m the type of person who holds all of their negative emotions in, so I end up having random outbursts of anger. I don’t want that to happen to myself, but I can’t stop it. I can tell that I’ve already hurt my family, but they’re still somewhat trying. It’s happened to a few of my friends and everything. Not sure how to explain it…
try to explain maybe?
@@xx_julia_xx-_-9658 I've tried trust me but my mom keeps saying I'm just a spoiled brat and rude she doesn't want to understand
Before you read any of this, I just wanna say I'm doing much better now! It's been 8 months since I've written this comment
I feel bad for venting but here I go-
I have really bad anger issues, they got worse over time. Sometimes I hurt people more than I intend to because of that. I wish I could say sorry to all those people, I didn't mean to be so mean I just can't help it. Meditation doesn't work, trying to calm down doesn't work, trying to let it go never works. I really didn't mean to I really didn't, I don't want to hurt the people I care about.
Edit: to the people who can relate to this I know it hurts, lets hope things get better for all of us!! To the people who have said so many nice things to comfort me, tysm!!
Vent whenever you need too, my comment section is a safe haven ^^
it’s okayyy it’s not just you everyone loses control sometimes i have anger issues and anxiety as well ( i got it from my dad he used to have them too) but don’t worry we can try and learn to get through our problems together. :D
@@xxziella SAME i got it from my dad
@@peyton.5160 I want to scream rn bc of ur kindness ty sm
hey, it’s alright okay? I relate to you a lot, i deal with anger issues too and it’s really hard to control them knowing sometimes you can’t have control of your actions- but I can reassure you that you’re not going through this alone, I know it’s hard but I promise you that one day everything is going to get better, you can also always try vent books or you could write in a paper what you’re going to so you could let your anger out; let’s go through this together okay?
playlist idea: your "bestfriend" is taking everything and everyone you love for themself
edit:194 likes?! my comment has never got this amount of attention before TvT
edit #2: 214 LIKES?!?! i feel loved TwT tysm
I can relate
same
My best friend acted like my story was theirs and s3xualiz3d every part of it
I just wanted a coping mechanism
my ''bestfriend'' ：
btw here are some music recommendations if u decide to make this a playlist
edit: I decided this this playlist has 2 parts in one thing so I have come to finish what I have started U-U
going through the pain:
Mr Loverman - Ricky Montgomery
Water Fountain - Alec Benjamin
Burning Pile - Mother Mother
Daycore Maretu - Suck.It.Up
I Can't Handle Change - Roar
Jealousy, Jealousy - Olivia Rodrigo
Good 4 You - Olivia Rodrigo
Cry Baby - Melanie Martinez
Sick Of You - Sub Urban & DNMO
Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo
Aishite Aishite Aishite - Kikuo
Look Who's Inside Again - Bo Burnham
Everything Suck's - Vaultboy
Can You Feel My Heart? - Bring Me The Horizon
Heather - Conan Gray
Meteor Shower - Cavetown
Washing Machine Heart - Mitski
Michelle - Sir Chloe
Sweater Weather - The Neighborhood
Wish You Were Gay - Billie Eilish
As The World Caves In - Matt Maltese
Lovely - Billie Eilish
Someone You Loved - Lewis Capaldi
Agoraphobic - Corpse
Revenge:
Bitches - Mindless Self Indulgence
Lambada - T-Fest x Scriptonite
Uhh - Framed
My Strange Addition - Billie Eilish
Swim - Chase Atlantic
Blah Blah Blah - The Oozes
Horns - Bryce Fox
She's So Nice - Pink Guy
E-Girl's Are Ruining My Life - Corpse
Hayloft - Mother Mother
People I Don't Like - Upshal
I Can't Decide - Scissor Sisters
High Enough - K.Flay
Dangerous - LEFT BOY
Nowhere To Run - Stegosaurs Rex
Ghost - Confetti
After Dark - Mr.Kitty
Killing Me Softly With His Song - Fugees, Ms. Lauryn Hill
Smoke And Mirror's - Jayn
Team - Mag.Lo
Paper Plane's - M.I.A
Don't Threaten Me With A Good Time - Party! At The Disco
CHOKE - I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME
WHITE TEE - Corpse
NEVER SATISFIED - Corpse
Cabin Fever - Corpse
CAT GIRL'S ARE RUINING MY LIFE - Corpse
MISS YOU - Corpse
if there are any other songs u want to add and u are free to use this :)
[ TINY VENT WARNING ] : Not relevant but when your the friend everyone tells there problems too but when you need them they dont listen :)
They always like "sucks to be u" but all they do is complain all day like miss girl stfu and go🙄🙄🙄🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪✨✨💅
@@EvalleDeMonaco periodtttt 😌
Truee
Yeah
i be trying talk and they be like #relatble
"How many accidents it will take... until it's on porpuse?" a playlist
Lesson of the day;
Dont say anything when angry.
wish i knew it sooner
"Stop feeling sorry for yourself. You brought this upon yourself."
[tw- this may trigger you]
It’s my first time listening to a playlist with a title that repeats the same words I’ve said countless times. Sucks cause no matter how gentle I am or how passive I am I ending up hurting people I feel comfortable around or care for. I was raised to not really talk about my feelings or express them in anyway so It usually turns into energy which I don’t know how to expel and next thing you know bam. I’ve done or said something I cant take back. Its hard to especially voice my feelings about certain things because I don’t wanna hurt people and I also don’t wanna seem like another scummy human being who always has something to say. I can’t even begin to explain how many times I’ve snapped back at my mom after she says something snide and she ends up crying bc of it. I started anew or atleast I tried, I said I would tell the truth and try to help others while also helping myself, people don’t like the truth and that got me beat a few times. Now Im stuck apologizing for every little thing because I’m atleast offending a crowd of people in a just fucking inhale. It got so bad to a point that I brushed shoulders with my mom and I had a panic attack. A goddamn panic attack. Why? I was scared as hell. I still am scared to this day, scared of a lot of things.
Dam I hope it gets better for you and you learn how to express your feeling or have a family member/friend who understands.
forget bottling up your feelings, be open about them, even if your mom doesn't like it. tell her you don't care what she thinks because you need freaking help. strand up for yourself and stop hiding your feelings because they're not just a piece of dust on a table that you can brush away and pretend it isn't there.
I relate to you more than i can say…i bottle everything up it sucks I can’t express my feelings only in lyrics and when i sing. I sing loud wondering if one day I’ll be heard…but i suggest to never change for other people you are you no one else being a people pleaser sucks trust me i am ONE and one day I’ll stop pleasing those who’ve hurt me and finally rid of my shit life so be free and fuck those who put you down because we have one life let’s not waste it just to please someone you’ll probably never see again no matter who it is you aren’t made for everyone those who dislike will dislike you and those who like you will like you that’s that. All im trying to say is live life don’t kiss ass and be the best you YOU AMAZING BASTARD!! (Sorry if I don’t make sense lol im just babbling )
I hope everything's going great, if not, it will be soon. It was never your fault and you deserve so much better. Please stay strong and take care!
Are you okay? I don’t think you did anything bad. we
“Just because it was an accident doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt.”
Very true and are u okay? If something happened I’m sure it wasn’t your fault
Mom says I shouldn't blame myself, that I'm just a teenager and that it's normal I acted that way... She told me many times not to apologize yet I can't help to do so... It's been a year, I should be moving on..
I have an amazing family and a normal life, why am I ruining it for myself..? I want to love myself just like they love me, but I can't help looking at my past mistakes..
" Stop crying or else I'll give you something to cry about"
That will haunt me for life hearing that from my step dad-
I never did anything to him for him to treat me like this...
“suck it up” really affected me growing up because i would trip and fall and cry cause i was a child and my parents or caretakers would still say it to me and now i try and serpress my emotions.
some of the same thing happened to me as well, but it was my brothers, they hated me (i guess, that was my own damn fault) but my parents were so busy they didn't have enough time
so really all my childhood was getting told 'i don't give a single fuck' and i do that same thing- suppressing my emotions and criticizing myself over stupid things, causing low self esteem and over thinking, i shouldn't I've vent to you I'm sorry
@@onyx760 no don’t worry about venting your okay it doesn’t bother me one bit :3
@@bunniiboyo lmao
still though sorry
and i forgot i still had my profile like this lol
@@onyx760 it’s fine and your profile is funny
THESE PLAYLIST ARE SOOO COMFORTING
timestamps!
0:00 - 5:22 | Black out days
5:24 - 9:32 | bang bang bang bang
9:33 - 18:40 | Never (Idk for sure😓)
18:40 - 21:51 | (IDK IM SRY)
21:53 - 27:23 | Chamber of reflection
18:40 is Help Urself by Ezekiel
Was thinking old times are gone when i stop seeing comments like urs yall exist ❤
I'm obsessed with this playlist
Ty for these playlists... idk what im goin thru but putting my mind to into a trance is easier while processing than not in a trace.
Are u okay?
Imagine one day you hurt someone,
Killed someone you loved
All because you cant control yourself from your anger anymore and you've had enough
But in the end you will just cry when you've realized what you've done.
Yeah-
Omori Spoilers
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Omori in a nutshell :
( but seriously when I read the title I just thought of *that* part )
@@welcometovibespace5596 same
@@welcometovibespace5596 *bro no pls*
@@welcometovibespace5596
Thanks for the daily dose of pain
i just fucking love this damn.
These playlists are getting extremely accurate it's scary
extrovert people: oh sorry it was a accident.
introvert people:
I'm extroverted but people are blaming me so much I'm almost acting like an introvert. The problem is, bc I'm extroverted, I always feel the need to talk to someone- but I don't know how to express my feelings without making critics about everyone- and then I mess up even when I try hard :/
im seeing people vent about their experiences, so i guess i will to.
tw// self harm, suicide, phobias, getting really deep
i wish i could just be normal, im so young. my arms full with cuts and blood as well as my legs, i know hurting myself wont help but
its an addiction that i cant escape , especially with having family issues and such a bad reputation on the internet, ive lied about so many
things before because im scared, i feel like im attention seeking but im seriously not, blood is running down my arms right now, tears sliding down
my face, i feel so trapped . im like an insect stuck in a little crack in the cement. i cant get out, or others will crush me. im having suicidal thoughts
every day, i feel like i have *nothing* , *no one* , i want to be a normal kid.
I know my words aren't going to change much of your actions because they're not original but know that there will always be someone worried about you so don't give up and get out of this shit. It is true that it is not easy, but that does not mean that it is impossible.
I am in the same exact situation word for word, I genuinely hope that you are okay. You've probably become so numb to the point where words can't help, and that's okay. but, just know that I wouldn't speak a lie to an angel like you. You'll be okay! Please bare that in mind. You are not the only one out there, don't compare yourself and say you are not normal. What you compare yourself to, is the masks people show. Don't worry, it gets real hard for everyone. Hopefully, you'll believe that. Even if you don't, just remember who you are. You are blessed enough to be here, and you are strong enough to get out, but at the right time. Don't let go, don't let go just yet. If you let go, someone else will go through the same. Even if you don't care about anyone, or have no one to care for you, remember that you'll remain in my mind. I wish I could sit there next to you in these times. If you wish to speak with me regarding this, add me on Discord. ilycarla#4173
When you're on the verge of letting go, just remember that, it's almost over... you couldn't give up. Not yet. Never.
"If you're going through hell, keep going."
-Winston Churchill
"Keep going... you never know how strong you are until you look back at what you've overcome."
-Kerry Smith
Im sorry, please know that theres people who care about you. U will be fine.
I'm so sorry to hear that. Your feelings are valid. Please don't give up.. You're amazing and appreciated. Stay safe
thank you all, i appreciate you so much, im going to therapy now :)) i love you all /p
omG the first music is driving me insane it's so good.
Did you edit it or something?? Even if I looked up the remix and edits I can't find this exact version 🗿
It'd be poggers if you could tell me where you found it tysm
It’s slowed down
OMG HI MORTAL
@@peyton.5160 I've looked at the slowed down versions but none of them sound as good as the one in your vid ;-;
@@kawaiicakes2581 yeah ikr?? it's just different
theres nothing like 0:14 (the vocal repetitions) in the other slowed down versions for example
i rlly like it :D but ty for answering!
i think(?) it's a lowered pitch and 0.75x speed of this one :
ua-cam.com/video/ve1w2zdIDdc/v-deo.html
POV: also lowkey TW for toxic relationships, manipulation, intrusive thoughts and inferiority complexes. Also, I'm trying out using They/Them pronouns for characters
This is….deep
this story feels familiar as though i could relate, like i've been through something similar, but really the only thing I could relate it to would be my first ever relationship, and even so it was a completely different situation.
@@peyton.5160 haha thanks, I havent been in a relationship as toxic as so its prlly not that accurate but * TW Anorexia* I used to starve myself bc my now ex would always make me feel like i had to be skinny :) thankfully i quit that like a month or so after we broke up so i loosely inspired it off that
@@unawareclaire6071 I’m glad you did the right thing for yourself
My mom's relationship actually except it has effected more than just her she was free for 3 years we were free not anymore though he's back and it's happening again in the same order and same excuses perhaps I'm going insane maybe I'm so afraid it's going to happen that I'm seeing things mom says it's ok and I'm overreacting but my stomach aches in a different direction it's going to get much worse I can feel it but she lives for him so not much I can do but wait and support her when it happens again wish I'd get some in return but instead I write about my problems poetically and anonymously good night I'll probably never sleep again because i wasn't enough to keep him away I wasn't good enough and they make sure I know it I tried to be a partner and a parent to your children and you I'm your child so I couldn't possibly be enough I did try though don't think that that's going to be a good enough excuse when he ends her up in a ditch though
“why would you do that?!” “ i didnt do anything” “ oh sure you didnt! its not like its always YOU who fucks it up. why cant you be more like layla? i tried so hard and this is what i get back? You’re turning into your father.” oh.
i relate so much.
I'm sorry :(
“How do you make multiple people happy at once... when they all want different things from you at the same time?”
U should worry about yourself bc u are the most important it’s not your job to make others happy
@@90degressangle Aww thank you so much, I really needed this
@@quabquab
i love when people rearrange the music to fit the vibe of the playlist. this is so creative and good.
how does can a playlist be so perfect?
Idk lol
i know i shouldn’t trauma dump/vent but here!
i’m very sorry to my bsfs that i hurt on accident because of my stupidity. i know that i never think before i speak, i just instantly do everything i think about, and i’m so sorry for what i’ve said/done. i know i’m not the best friend you could ask for, and i know my sorry won’t really fix anything, but i hope you just know i love you, you don’t have to forgive me for anything. you’re some of the best people i’ve ever met, i don’t deserve you, and you deserve better, i’m sorry.
-me, and anonymous stranger.
*"You weren't trying not to." Intesifies*
¡Muy buena playlist! Me apareció derrepente en recomendados, pero no me arrepiento de haber entrado
sometimes it doesn't matter if it was an accident if someone could've been greatly hurt by your mistake. sometimes you deserve the backlash and not to be understood. sometimes that's what it takes to force you to grow up and be better.
“Love is a trap. When it appears we see only it’s light…not it’s shadows.”-Paulo Coelho
Could you do a playlist for those who can't fall in love? I can't find one anywhere on UA-cam It'd be very comforting TwT
Cavetown - This is home immediately popped into my head when I read your comment.
Zedd, Kehlani- good thing
Yeah …
Someday dude, I also won't give up, but until then we gotta wait patiently :)
i relate- ive even fallen in love but refuse to be with them idk why cos im not insecure i just feel like im incapable of being with someone
i have intrusive dreams and they just don’t stop i honestly don’t know what to do and pls don’t say it will get better bc idc if it will i care abt now and it’s not getting any better it’s getting worse honestly don’t know what to do.
could you plz make "fall in love with someone you've already rejected" playlist? i know it's very specific, so just do it if you want to. gn!!
Kk ^^
THIS IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA GJJF
Mine is “falling back in love with ur best fried.”
@@distortedscreamss. fried
@@arandompalontheinternet4979 fried
I just wanna grow up so I can tell people my sexuality without people saying it's just a phase. I wanna punch someone, I wanna be violent, I wanna scream, I wanna hurt someone, I wanna hurt myself, I wanna close my eyes and never open them again, I'm tired, I wanna give up.
I understand this so well if you want to talk I’m here
"We didn't raise you like this"
"What made you think that was okay"
"What the fuck is wrong with you"
"Its like you never learn"
"Why can't you just tell the truth"
"You're just like your father"
POV. your the older sibling who started lying at a very young age and never learned from messing up, and then ended up enjoying the thrill of lying and stopped trying to prove yourself to your parents
"just because it was accident doesn't mean it's okay *proceeds to shout at me* " -my dad whenever i accidently spill or drop something
that sentence makes me want to beat the shit out of something.
Oh
@@peyton.5160 oh
I badly hurt(well rather fucked up for life-) someone unintentionally as a kid. I didn't realize the gravity of what I did until it was too late. I told my therapist about the incident and all she had to say was "no worries, you can't be legally charged for anything cause you were a kid", like as if that were the problem.....
That event actually let to me completely avoiding social contacts later on....
Being a kid, doing stupid things as a kid because of some stupid urge in our dumb little kid heads. If nobody keeps an eye or stops you, when you understand the gravity of what you did, the guilt. There's so much guilt for people like us. It eats us up inside.
“If it makes everyone not hate me and smile at me, then it's much better...”
“You didn't do anything wrong. It was my fault. That's definitely it...!”
“"It's all her fault..." "She's the one with the problem..."”
“Why won’t you forgive me!? If you did something wrong...you’d forgive yourself right away...!”
“Why does everybody always hate me?!”
“JUST FORGIVE ME ALREADY!!”
- Mikan Tsumiki
I realized I only have the motivation to create, to draw, compose, etc., when I feel sad.
I've had depression for years so I've been feeling numb, or basically haven't been feeling anything at all, which makes me unable to do anything besides the things I feel obligated to do. I've done nothing, throughout highschool and college, besides maintaining my grades and meeting academic expectations. I wished I could go back to drawing but there was never any feeling, nothing that could motivate me, and I need feeling in order to draw so my inability to create made me dull and only further guided me towards thinking that there is no true meaning in my life or a point to keep myself around.
I put a filter in front of my eyes, one that makes everything blurry and keeps me from seeing the hard edges; my emotions are under a lock, restricted, only allowing slight ups and downs, offering low oscilations, to avoid wasting energy by reacting to everything negative happening around me but, now that I'm starting to feel miserable again, now that I want to feel pain again, now that I'm removing all those restrictions, I suddenly want to create things.
I think I found my calling lol... my parents always commented how I only knew how to draw dark-themed stuff, how I never used any color and how I never drew anything "happy" but I think even that is better than nothing at all. I'd rather be dark than an untouched canvas left to rot.
I dont relate with this playlist, but the person who traumatized me will. and they will sit here and get validation for the trauma and pain they gave me.
"you always done mean to i dont believe you this time" no one trusts me bc "i always dont mean to do things" when i really dont
to any of yall that struggle with anger issues or any negative things and toxicity within yourself, please know that you should work on undoing the bad things and do your best on improving your behavior for the better. the first step is to recognizing that you are wrong and don't use it as a way to develop a victim complex and continue to justify this behavior. :) you will surely regret it more and lose people around you. take accountability. learn to apologize. learn to know that you are wrong. it doesn't matter if it's too late or if they don't forgive you. what matters is there is closure between you and the person. for the sake of you and their own peace. have a nice day.
Thank you this was very helpful
God what a call out…I’m so clumsy and my parents hate it and I’m always apologizing and saying it was an accident but that just gets them more mad omg what specific playlists
Bro sometimes you don’t realise how sick songs are slowed down - that intro was just 🔥
This makes me think of a very specific time back in 6th grade when I accidentally injured a classmate of mine. It was really scary because I had thought that this would affect this person long term. Well, as soon as it happened, I was pulled aside by a teacher and reprimanded. I teared up because I was genuinely worried about the person, but obviously, it didn't matter to the teacher that it had been a mistake. To make matters worse, one of my friends at the time came up to me and began asking me "Why would you do that?!" and other things of the sort and it just made me feel more shitty. The moral of the story, if a person is already feeling like crap about something they did and already acknowledges that it was wrong and a mistake then don't continue to beat a dead horse and make them feel even even worse.
The 18:45 song is I think called help_urslef
It’s also sad that I relate to this playlist
I know, it's my fault. I know that I ruined everything. I quarreled w/ e everyone bcause of stupid reasons and can not say sorry. I dropped more things to live w/ my dad like a family, but now I can't go home again. Return back where I lived before? I can't too. When I tried I understood that everything just fell apart while I was away. What to do? I don't know and now I'm too tired to do something. I need a rest..
i maybe shouldn’t vent on here but idk, if you relate to me i’m deeply sorry.
I noticed that my friends always had left me by drifting away slowly but surely and not caring about it but I do they don't notice that I have red puffy eyes and that I break down easily just with ten words or less - apparently not important to anyone
I love this so much
im usually quite kind and im bad at saying no but i act the same way towards everyone because i get scared they wont like me or ill come off as mean, i also have really bad social anxiety atm and i only have a few friends but my bestfriend said she has a crush on me idk what to do i feel like i lead her on because i was too kind but i didnt mean to i didnt want to shes the only close friend i have left i dont know what to do i cant lose her but i dont like her like that, if she leaves i have no one, but if i say no its going to be awkward and i probably will lose her, but i dont like her like that . :[
"never talk to me ever again"
"SHE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO U AND UR STILL LYING"
I was crying for weeks
"that still doesn't mean you didn't do it" -my mom
I’m sorry if i’m being a bother but, can you (maybe) make a “everyone loves you, but you don’t love yourself” playlist? I would love that a lot but you don’t have to though :)
i second this- it would be nice
MITSUBA PFP
@@ayam6014 HELLO
@@tsatsa8829 hiii
yes please we need this
TW anxiety and helplessness
I'm just a kid. It hurts to feel trapped in a cage that's slowly burning. I feel like I'm gonna die. I can't get out. I want help, I need help, I've reached out for help. I just don't know if I can even be helped anymore. I don't think this can be fixed. I just don't know how to be okay. I don't even know where to start. I feel like I won't be okay until the world is okay but the world will never fucking be okay. I feel the worry for my birth mother and all mother, the Earth. The people. The toxic fathers and mothers. The trying. The giving up. I worry about it all and I expect myself to be able to protect my mothers. My trying mothers. My siblings, my mothers, they're sick. And I'm just a kid, just one of her kids. I can't cure her on my own and my wretched fellow man will not fucking pitch in enough. Maybe they can't anymore. I'll go when she does. Today is my mom's birthday and I'm so glad she could have it. I'm so sad that it's in a world like this. So angry and frustrated. So tired. Help me. Help us. Save my mothers. Help.
one of the worst things said to me is "i do not care if u meant it you did it and that means you meant it ok stop being selfish" it will always stick with me.
I hate having to overexplain myself and still not getting beloved or listened to.
I've been listening too this for two days now and I think I feel slightly better :/ so thank you very much ^~^
“I always f*ck everything up. Believe me, if I could just sleep forever I would.”
y'know, once I accidentally tipped a glass at my 3rd Aunties house (she's extremely abusive/bipolar btw)
she beat me so badly that I couldn't feel my limbs for a whole week, I couldn't even walk... I was only 5...
I still have scars to this day and i'm 16... the trauma she gave me still stands strong to this day, but I have been getting help which is good.
I don't really open up to this stuff as in tell people this, but I trust the comments/replies. this place seems safe to share experiences...hopefully
I’m so sorry that happened to you! But I’m glad you’re healing from the trauma! You are very strong for making it this far.
Phantogram -- black out days 00:00 -- 5:22
Sohodolls -- bang bang bang bang 5:22 -- 9:32
Mag.Lo -- never 9:32 -- 18:36
Ezekiel -- help_urself 18:36 -- 21:50
salad days -- Chamber of reflection 21:51 -- 27:20
I had a friend that had anger issues and I was so weak I just cant stand up for myself I use cry asleep and just say why do you do this he use to punch me for not talking and we were playing a game and now i dont talk to him much i am finally happy with my life
" No Matter How Good Of A Person You Are, We,
Are Alway's The Villain In Some One Else's Story. "
a quote i saw from a manga i dont know the title of
_T I M E S T A M P S _
Black out days: 0:00 - 5:23
Bang Bang Bang Bang: 5:23 - 9:32
Never: 9:32 - 18:45
help_urself: 18:45 - 21:55
Chamber of Reflection: 21:55 - 27:23
POV: it’s another person you have hurt staring at you with these eyes of hatred because yet again you let yourself hurt someone dear to you
"Well what did you do too make them leave?"
"I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING"
"Well clearly you did."
This is such a vibe tbh I love this
God loves each and everyone one of you so much and even when you feel trapped God is there to guide you out of your trouble
Lot's of Love Xoxo
Thank you
@@freyakitty2824 No Problem If you need someone to pray for you I'm here 😊
@@selenal2904 Thank you
Quick little vent;
I've gotten very violent they've always, always! Treated me terrible when it was my turn to be sad because I was a nice friend, I'd forgive them. But they were sad, I'd comfort them. A month later, they start hitting me, going with names such as "hippo" "s|ùt". That's what friends do? Right? So, little me git used to that for 2 years, Going home with bruises, slap marks. That always hurt the marks would eventually be seen by my parents but I told we were just playing around. Now I can't control the anger of all of that on others.. I get mad at people and I've gotten violent, I've gotten so mad and hurt by the world I ask my friend " are you lying? Are you talking about me behind my back at all?. " the answer is no so I believe him, my online friend that was also friends with him hits me with "he's been talking bad about you... All the time" so, I confront him. "It's a joke don't worry, besides I just was making him not want to be your friend anymore. " that didn't work, it actually made me trust him more. Fast forward to now, I've started snapping at people more than usual. I found out that my uncle you just got out of treatment that he's on drugs, he lives with us though, he gets on my nerves being that I'm a teenager I usually hide in my room and he is complainong that I hate him because I never leave my room although I'm always like this, I came out of my room and he immediately goes to bothering people, I'm not a huge fan of "sorry" because usually when people say sorry to me it goes "sorry I was just__" and then on rants about themselves. I told him "I don't feel like talking right now. Leave me alone. So, he says, "Sorry I was trying to talk to my favorite niece. " what? And? I don't want to talk to you, I start seeing pills, I start seeing him acting "different" I used to watch Live PD all the time when I was little, I knew what people on drugs acted like, and how they looked, I was angry, I asked my parents and they were thinking the same thing so we were talking about it. He comes in AND TRIES TO EAVESDROP. He grabs a plate out of our shelf and starts washing it saying "what'd you say? " So I've been more angry.
Whoever read this much, thank you :)
This playlist has got to be the most related one ever...
POV: your the middle child and your siblings blame you for everything and you get bullied at school and the teacher with other staff members hate you and you only have 1 friend that you know is fake but you don't want to tell them because they can get you in trouble and you just want to restart.
POV:it's all real for me...
This playlist is amazing because I can relate on this ever I got that nightmare, where everyone that I loved left me and decided to kick me out of the house that I lived with my family for so long just because of my anger issues. I’m sorry but I can’t control or stop my anger, I feel that my anger was the puppeteer controlling me when I lash out my anger towards everyone I loved and supported me like a puppet. Im sorry but please don’t leave me all myself, i need you and your help my friends and family…. Please
They hurt me before way more then you could ever imagine and when i accidentally do something not even that bad they act like its the end of the world when i put up with their shit for a whole year not even getting to say anything about it. Why do i feel bad i didnt do anything wrong..
YEAH I DIDN'T MEAN TO THROW THAT BABY IN THE AIR FOR IT TO DIE!!! IT WAS SUPPOSED TO FLYHYHYHY😭
WAIT WHAT?
@@peyton.5160 it was an honest mistake 😟
@@XXIIIPBND I- I have no words
@@peyton.5160 NEITHER DID SHE!!!😭😭😭😭😭😭
BRO WTF
To the person who read this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you.
Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic.Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years. I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words
Thank you. That means a lot. Have a wonderful rest of your life
I'm literally in love with your playlists
"The hero and Villain both have different sides to each story."
Perfection doesn't exi-
TW blood,cutting,scu1cide thought , grammer mistakes
I remember once when I used to harm my self with razors and other sharp objects and lots of blood used to leave my body since a lot of pressure was on me that moment and other personal reasons, it scared my body, it was hard for me to complete living so I used to think about ending my life, for all the people who suffer from the same issue I'm very terribly sorry you deserve an apology and I hope u get better just try not to think about it a lot
One day me and my little sister were playing ring around a Rosie and and she was sitting in a sling chair and I would move it around as I walked and as soon as it hit ‘ashes ashes we all fall down’ she flung herself out the chair ( on purpose ) and I it had spun when she flung her self out of the chair so she went crashing across the room into a metal toy/ bed frame (idk) and she started crying and my parents came running and I was so confused bc her arm was bent so unnaturally and they started screaming at me and telling me I am a horrible sister and a horrible person and they went to the ER and my uncle stayed with us and I cried for hours not knowing what I did wrong and my uncle gets a call from my step dad and he tells him that ‘I’ broke her arm and he tells me that ‘I’ broke it. They blamed it on me ever since and now that my little sister is older and it’s all good and she can talk whenever somone brings it up she stares at me and smiles and everone will look at me I ever time I tell them she flung herself out the chair but no no one believes me and then my little sister will come up to me after and say ‘ it’s all your fault’ or ‘ ehe I did that on purpose’ , ‘ I will always be the favorite because of ‘YOUR’ mistake ‘ when ever I try to get along with her she’ll always make it an argue ment and when we are out in public she throws temper tantrums in the stores and my mom has anxiety so I take care of it being the good child and My little sister will make messes on purpose or. And my older sister is no better than my dad constantly manipulating me into feeling bad for her
But it was only an accident (:(
AAA SORRY FOR RANTING
Wait damn girl wtf. This is borderline.. no this is fucking insane . Your family is fucked up, u didn't do anything wrong. Well not that I am one to talk. My family also did this kind of shit and still does. Of ya wanna talk, write me. I might not be Jesus, but I can relate to your story and might be a friend u wanna vent to:)
@@jolojan4327 AAA FINNALY but when she gets her attitude from my step dad he is fucking mental bc one night he will act drunk af and tell me that he will smash a soda can over my head and then say he didn’t mean it and in the morning he will act like nothing happend at all he’s never been that violent with me or anyone he tries sometimes but he ruins it by yelling at me for trying to be nice to my little sister and she yelled at me I never had e know why she has hated me it’s just been something from birth and after that day she has had it out for me idk why
@@kaleycathcart5549 There might be several reasons as to why ur little sister treats u like shit and the whole oh yeah I am the families little sweetheart and will rub it into ur face and blame u for stuff so u get into trouble while I look like an little angle. I mean tbh that's like the cliche "I'm the younger sibling" trope but that is going way too far. So as a younger sibling myself I think, that the reason ur sister acts like that may be because she is jealous of you. When I was younger I also acted like a brat and would rub it in my big sisters face but now that I'm older I realise that it was only bcs I was alway jealous of her, even though she isn't even that great, like for real she is a total bitch, dumb af and manipulated me before but little siblings always tend to be jealous of their older sibling even though they may not be that great bcs they only see the things of them that are better than theirs (for example being taller or better in maths, having an awesome friend). And I KNOW that it prolly makes NO sense whatsoever and u may think to urself there is no way she is jealous of ME? (not saying that u are bad, it's just most ppl tend to be pretty down on themselves, which u of all shouldn't be cause u are an queen, girl and strong af ) but things like this are actually quite common between younger and older siblings. I mean think about she was born and grew up with u, being together and growing up with someone that's older than u and taller and has a lot of other qualities hat only a sibling knows. Maybe she is jealous of of u and doesn't want to show it (seems like she has a big ego. That may be why) so she started to see u as a rival and torment. And since ur parents make it seem like it's okay to say everything is ur fault, she may just have adapted it. Because most kids nick what their parents do
@@kaleycathcart5549 oh yeah but besides jealousy, it may also be that she's a narcissist. In that case, I have a good idea on how to get her off ur back
@@jolojan4327 OMG pls tell she has recently been starting to become meaner and been making m6 parents pick favorites
i've had so many group friends, none of them lasted more than 3 months. my ex best friend only hangout with me cause she didn't had anyone else in our school, when she changed to her old, with her other friends, stoped talking to me. i don't have any real friends, just two classmates, but we only talk about homework. i feel like i'm not 16. i don't have friends, my ex crush didn't liked me back neither. "alone again" but i feel like i've always been alone
sometimes being alone is good , you dont get hurt by anyone but one day your going to have an amazing friend and youll be so happy with them even if they come to you when your old
Remember when you did that thing for the one time we did to move to another time and when i couldnt you didnt do for the once finally you could and when i did ive been doing that
This music is very calming yet it touches my heart
I just love this, is so good😁
i listened to one of these playlists and everytime i reload my youtube they get more and more on point.