Thanks for talking about this Ed, it probably wasn't easy for you but this was really reassuring to watch and very well scripted. As an Ex-Persecutor and a Sexual Alter myself, I haven't seen many people talking about it on UA-cam, and this was just the right amount of honest info to make me feel seen without being triggering. Additional thanks for the resource on Abuser Introjects, that will come in useful for us as we've been looking for information to help us support one of our other persecutors and hadn't been able to find much, perhaps it's considered too taboo in some spaces. Sending all our love from us, Nin xoxo
DissociaDID Hey, been watching your channel off an on for several months. I want to say that your videos have actually unexpectedly helped me work through some recent doubts I've had about my personal identity and gender identity. Even though I been half out for about four and a half years, due to confused and unsupportive family, a question kept rising in my brain about whether I was actually transexual, or if this was just some crazy form of DID as you have. But, after watching your videos, I've been able to see that it's more than just hearing voices in your head or presenting as another person, it's more like, for a period of time you truly aren't you...someone else's consciousness has somehow found their way into your body due to childhood trauma. After assessing my own situation, I realized that I never felt like a different person, I never had any black outs or had people telling me I looked and sounded like a different person. And, last of all I never had any significant violent or sexual trauma as a child that was bad enough to create anything other than a small fantasy world in my subconscious...the only thing I seem to be suffering from, genuinely, is gender dysphoria. So I know this is an awkward comment that you may not get a lot of, but I just want to thank you for continuing to educate the world on your condition, and also for helping me put doubts to rest in myself that were put there by others. Anyway, enjoyed the vid, have a great week.
@@dylancole1910 ty. ur comment helped me, define my issue. the GD we could be friends, if ur fam r not supportive (i know its random, couldnt help but 2 say, Gidday)
This is such a good video. The only persecutor in my system that I was aware of, Misteltoe, fused before I could build a better relationship with her. Thank you for giving insight into your journey of battling with your role and history. I'll say that the s*xual part of your role feels familiar to my past. I'm not a s*xual alter but having been shamed and repressed a lot of my life, I started letting people treat me poorly because it was "better than nothing". I recognized that I was being disrespected but I also yearned for any kind of attention and didn't yet know healthy boundaries. You're not alone, Ed. Sending you nothing but safe love and gratitude. -Wyn
I feel like this is an important video even beyond the realm of DID trauma teaches us to behave in ways that we may not like and may even know are unhealthy. Unlearning and moving past these ways to cope with the world is huge, and so much work. Bravo to you Ed! Honestly, you are a huge inspiration to me personally.
You're so right! I don't have DID, but pretty bad childhood trauma and I recognized myself in this video. I also enjoy being catcalled, I always thought of it as positive attention, like someone making me compliment. I used to be one of those people defending catcallers (not sexual harassment obviously, just whistling and saying a word or two), saying things like "girls don't even appreciate compliments these days". I know it's wrong, but I still find myself wishing someone would whistle at me when I wear a nice outfit. It's hard to get over it even when you know it's wrong, but this video made me feel like my feelings are valid too while being informative. Thanks Ed
@@soulg5846 it’s not “wrong” to like being whistled at. Everyone’s different. I hated being catcalled by multiple construction workers on my way to work. For me it was embarrassing and humiliating. And terrifying. I had to change how I dressed so I looked more androgynous That said, I’m fine with a compliment! Just don’t holler it at me 🙂
I do not have DID but the way Ed spoke about unwanted s*xual attention spoke to me. The way it validates me when someone catcalls me. Even when I feel scared I later view it as something "good". I don't want it yet it feels good.
Question-can s*xual alters struggle with healthy s*xual relationships because of the torn feelings of "i want this but I shouldnt" ? Does that make sense? Great vid
That's a Nathan question... I have no idea how to answer that myself. I guess Ed already answered it but different alters in different systems might have different answers. I'm not really sure if Nathan would agree or not. -Mike Claw
Yes, one of my alters is that way. But they reciprocated those feelings, so s*xually they don't act as dominant or s*xual anymore for example. They're part-persecutor (not fully) as well. Technically, almost every persecutor or s*xual alter want to be understood. By the host or other alters that think that they're wrong or their thinking is just "abnormal". But if they weren't for the host, most likely the host wouldn't have an effective defense mechanism with the "fighty" alters. Persecutors are crucial, even if they're not very positive or accepting of others. They have a lesson to teach you, you just need to react properly so they won't harm you. If you want to negotiate with them (to avoid harm, stop bad and harmful habits, or integrate), it can take some time. They need time, time to trust, time to understand love again. They need reconciliation. Deep inside they're hurting even if they have a strong front. It's easier to be angry than miserable. Hope you find this comment informative.
Ed seems like the kind of person who cringes at everything wholesome/cute but secretly loves it. I wanna see him react to one of those “try not to cringe/laugh” videos on UA-cam.
Love the input about not having to label everyone. Especially at first, the roles were so so confusing. Now, we just use ANP and EP because it’s a lot easier and gets the message across. Either they hold trauma or not. At the beginning Jamie (from our system lol) had no idea who they even were and had no clue how to label themself. Host? Persecutor? It was very confusing. This is so much easier for us and at least in our case it helps people not to judge specific alters so much. Eli
Great to hear from you on this topic Ed. It really hit home for us, and I loved how educational it was while still being personal. We’ve been working very hard with our persecutor and the way you explain things helps us understand him better and how to help him feel more comfortable in our system. It’s so brave to talk about difficult topics in order to help others 💖
Omg I remember watching you years ago, I forgot your channel name and you didn’t pop up until I started watching videos about recent drama that shall not be named. You inspired me take classes in college educating me about different mental disorders and the stigma around it.
I really appreciate this video. It takes a lot to come forward about s*xual abuse, healing from it, and the trauma surrounding it. Ed, you're completely valid for feeling the way you do about it. S*xual encounters aren't easy after being abused that way, and it can be especially difficult if it's not a role you wanted to have in the first place. You can like s*x without liking being abused, but it's a very real experience to have difficulty separating s*x from it, or to see yourself in s*xual situations positively, once s*xual abuse occurs. Thank you for being open. Sending all my love and support from New York 🖤
Omg, I’m new to y’alls channel and I’m already in love with Ed! “F*ck me sideways” I’m dying! Thank you for sharing yourself with us, you really made my day. :)
Thank you so much for talking about this, Ed. Especially the part about kind of enjoying the attention even if you shouldn't. I honestly burst into tears because its something one of my alters struggles with, and I'm so so glad I was able to share this with her and help her to feel less disgusted with herself, and more accepting of herself. I think you're absolutely amazing and I wish you all the best in the future.
i just watched two videos before this, one with jess and one with ollie, and can i just say that the voices literally sound so different?? it's so fascinating
Thanks Ed, this helps a lot ❤️ We've been struggling with our persecutor/protector, and this really helps get a better handle on the psychology. It makes a lot of sense now.
Okay, first of all, I think parenthood (obviously here outside the headspace) has been amazing for you. Or it’s been great for everyone collectively. Just comparing how you used to be about the channel and talking about stuff and how you are now. I hope it doesn’t sound condescending to say I’m so f-ing proud of you and how far you’ve come and the fact that you’re doing these things that make you uncomfortable, so that you can help other people. Second? I love you Ed! Like I always have. Always loved any time you were out in a video and I love how many you were doing. And your current goth 50’s housewife style is like... so amazing. And suits you right down to the ground. Thirdly, for the s*xual alter stuff, there’s no shame in any of it at all. None. Even for a person who isn’t one. Even if they are a thirsty b*tch and enjoy the hell out of everything hat goes along with it. There is NOTHING. WRONG. with that. Honestly, do what makes you happy. As long as you’re not hurting anyone. And anybody that EVER has a problem with that obviously cares more about their supposed morals or social whatever than your happiness. And you can tell them to step off and stop sharing their opinions with you. (Even if it’s that unhelpful little voice in the back of your head that sounds like a person you used to know or uses words you’ve had hurt you before) Beautiful vid Ed! Thanks for putting the effort in to post this and for doing smt that makes you so uncomfortable to help other people! Love you as always!! ❤️🖤❤️🖤
Great video.. such delicate subject matter discussed in such a healthy and relatable way. Thanks for the tip of stopping when recognising triggers.. 3rd time I watched it all the way through. And so glad I did. This will help all of us so much especially two of us that have been so misinterpreted!! Cheers for being so non-dramatic about the subject matter 😊 Ed you’re the perfect balance of serious and lightness for this topic 😊. We need more of this in the media to help erase stigma.. that’s often even in our own parts. 💖 ❤️💖❤️💖🌈~ Bobbi
I need to show this to all my friends to help explain my persecutors, I have a hard time explaining to people why alters work the way they do, especially when they are sexual alters. A lot of people wanna chalk them up to bad people, and even I resented them for a time for seeming to only want to hurt us. But these past few months have been used for us to work through some stuff and I’d like my friends to understand this
First of all Ed, I love the accent! I personally don’t find it hard to understand you. Second of all, persecuters and s*xual alters were brought on for a purpose, so they are just as valid as every other alter. Thank you for this video and I hope everyone has a lovely day! Thanks and Smilies!
Thanks for letting us in there, Ed. We're still working out who is whom which is fun because we're often co-conscious. It's good to know how the world looks from your side xo
Ed - not only do you have killer makeup, I love listening to you. Your authenticity and ability to handle/talk through the difficult things is amazing :). I came across this channel today and really glad I did. Thanks for all the work you guys are doing to help other people understand :)
“Not as green as I’m cabbage looking” I haven’t heard that phrase in years! Something my Nana used to say. Thank you for talking so honestly about this Ed xxx
I love Ed haha. His sense of humor, his accent (event though it's a bit hard for me because English is not my first language), his swearwords (I'm not a particularly sweary person but I enjoy to hear them xd). And finally, I know Ed is very intelligent and a great person and I'm happy he's starting to notice that since a while now. Love you Ed!
This is so helpful and thank you for the link about introjects. One of our alters has mentioned that our abuser is inside the inner world in a “dark corner” trying to get out. Of course that’s super scary (I don’t have access to the inner world-I’m the host and we’ve only been diagnosed and receiving treatment for a short time) but the link you provided was helpful
Very helpful information. Funnily enough, I used to say we had no persecutors in our system. I just didn't realize that a persecutor alter could have good intentions at heart and yet still fall into the same bad patterns of behavior time and again.
Talking about sex with honesty is already such a taboo for singular people! So talking about how you as a system and as couples deal with it is so brave and necessary.
Hello! I wanted to just comment and say that you were my first exposure to DID. you taught me about this whole new interesting world and I'm so glad that you did. You definitely made me become more open about different mental illnesses and just different people in general. thank you and I hope all of you have a great day!
Your channel has done so much for my part of us. I kinda relate to Ed in a lot of ways. I've changed my ways too, and am still learning, but I, as a part, also have a role to play until we've healed enough where every part in us can carry what I carry. They have finally accepted my existence and understand and appreciate my "misguided" contributions. So... Thanks for your bravery. You are part of the reason why FF is our end goal for most parts now.
I saw this after seeing the persecutors video that Jamie made, and might I say that I am quite proud and happy to see Ed doing his own version of that video (not in a copying sort of way, but such that he has a perspective that Jamie might not, with personal experience as a persecutor himself). Ed really has grown well!
Ed, I absolutely love your voice and accent, it always makes me smile. Thank you for talking about this, and I'm sorry you struggle with your sexual role. You truly have nothing to be ashamed of; you help Jess so much and do a wonderful job protecting her.
Thank you Ed, I know it wasn't easy talking about something so personal but I genuinely found that educational. I LOVE how logical you are about who you are and why you do what you do. In that respect you are years ahead of a lot of "singleton" people I know and they would genuinely be better off in their lives if they learned to be more like you in that regard. SOOOO important to know who we are and why we do what we do. Sending love to you because you really do deserve it! =)
Ed, thanks for educating us all. As you said, it was difficult for you talk about, so I'm thankful that despite that you continued so we could all learn how to destigmatize and understand a little more a situation which is often misunderstood. I'm very proud of you ❤️
Wow this actually helped a lot. I am struggling with the fact that I recently realized I have DID and am trying to make sense of it all. Trying to learn what I should do to try to help manage day to day. I have loved watching your videos and would love to chat sometime. Thanks for helping make some of the pieces of the puzzle fit. LJ
I love Ed’s accent, the body in his identity reminds me of Adele haha What is funny to me is that I’m brazilian and I have no trouble understanding what he says
Could listen to Ed talk forever. I've watched this channel since the very very beginning and Ed, you have come so far. Watching you work on yourself is super inspiring x
Thanks for subtitles- they're super useful ! and I'm so sorry you're still working through that, Ed, I will never fully understand what it's like to have DID but thanks to you guys i'm more and more aware and (hopefully) more understanding !
Ed you are awesome! Your accent is always a joy, never a problem. Thanks so much for sharing this, I could see it wasn't easy. I think so many people struggle with finding the negative sexual attention (e.g. catcalling) simultaneously gross and enjoyable/ something that makes you feel validated. That must be a constant battle for you and so hard with everything you've been through. You're lovely and very brave :)
Ed I really admire how honest and open you are about the reasons why you were created. You have clearly come along way from the days talked about In the initial BBC documentary. Keep up the great work. Sending safe love and hugs xox
Thanks a lot Ed, that was so helpful. I don't have DID but C-PTSD with dissociative symptoms and I'm having a difficult time coming to terms with the persecuting and sexual parts of my personality respectively that aren't alters but feel so disconnected from myself. And I only just realized a part of me that gives me a lot of anxiety and flashbacks is internalized slutshaming / abuse from past lovers. Oh no, I have so much left to work on. Good luck on your healing, you're doing so well.
I agree with Jamie when he calls Ed/persecuters a misguided protector, that's the feeling I've gotten because Ed talks a lot about protecting the system/Jess. Of course I'm not gonna call him or anyone that unless it's ok with them but that's the impression I get. I love the channel and everyone in the system seems amazing and lovely ☺️💖💖💖
It's great that Ed is willing to sit down and talk about things, but also still has so much sass in the process. Thank you so much Ed for sharing the information and your wonderful self with us!
Wow Ed your makeup looked phenomenal in this video. Thank you for sharing this information with us all. I love learning from your all’s system. You’re all very lovely!
Fudge I love Ed’s sassy self so much. Heck, I love every single Alter, & every single “puzzle piece”’ to your puzzle together. Lol You all are so awesome!!! ☺️🥰♥️
This just gave me a lot of insight into our ex-persecutor and s*xual alter. I'm honestly somewhere in the asexual spectrum if that makes sense, so his thoughts and feelings on all of that is sometimes really difficult for me to understand. I think once we're in a better spot this could really help us communicate. Thank you, Asher
I love your personality Ed and I also love how you have grown to a place where you can talk about this stuff. Also love how well you and Jamie obviously compliment each other’s personalities. This was a brilliant and important video, thank you.
You've come so far in your journey Ed!! You did a Grreatt job with the video! I use to be a persecutor. I loved that you mentioned about ANP's and EP's and how some people in a system could be a mix of both. I never thought of it like that before, thank you, that tid bit alone helped us understand a few of our own peeps a little better. Also Mia (in our system) wants to give a 'shout out' too, as one of the things she was made for is similar to you....that you don't go looking for it but if it happens, it feels good...she has struggled with that so much and you did a GREAT job explaining it. Hugs n loves from many of us!! - Daxx
I love your accent it’s okay haha Anyways thank you for your videos, it helps our se*ual protector/ex-persecutor understand themselves, thank you from Lily-Kaylee/Lily
Thank you for making this video. Even though it makes you uncomfortable to talk about and share with the world, it’s really helpful and really educational. I appreciate it
So proud of you Ed. I’ve watched all the episodes of your channel and this video feels like a big blessing from you to us. Thank you for continuing this journey with the rest of your system and finding the strength and courage to present even though you have had your reservations in the past. Much love to you all.
I'm struggling right now coming to terms with my possible DID, everything I've seen from your channel so far has been a straight punch to the chest. But this one really got me. When Ed said what he did about not wanting the attention but feeling the way he did or does(?) About it, it was a shock through my whole being. I guess I remembered that being a large part of my life when I was in my school years. And something I've felt a lot of shame about and something I never understood. I am nowhere near close to healing or conformation on my past and my present, but this is another puzzle piece. Thank you Ed and all (though I bet you won't see this), as I bet it is uncomfortable to open up about very private parts of yourself, especially to the internet. Thank you all. Sorry I went on a bit. 😓
Ed...you're fantastically amazing to me 💚 Thank you for sharing! I don't have or know anyone with DID but I've learned so much from you all. Thank you.
Hi Ed, I love your accent ❤❤❤ This is so informative, I thank you for talking about this. I love you Ed, you're doing great, I'm so proud of you! Your emotions and actions and thoughts are all extremely valid. I support and respect you 100%. I'm happy to listen to you&learn about your incredible jobs for the system.
So glad you did this video! Very educational! Thank you, Ed for explaining your position in the system. Well done! Also,"Does that make me a thirsty b**ch? No!" Love it!
Ed’s accent is probably my favorite, is it because I’m American and like any accent that’s not American? Probably. Is it because Ed is my favorite and who I relate to most? Yes probably that too. Thanks for sharing Ed, love hearing from you ❤️
I'm so proud of Ed for coming forward and speaking about such a sensitive topic which relates to him, I think it was extremely brave. While I was watching this video I had a smile on my face as I've noticed such a change with how Ed is more comfortable in front of the camera recently! :) I am very interested in DID and I found this very helpful on my journey of educating myself about it further! Next year I will be starting a degree in counselling and I can't wait to help people!
Captions also allow your videos to be accessible to deaf folks, those with ADHD, autism, chronic fatigue etc... (basically anything that would make a video hard or impossible to watch without them) I also make videos and caption every single one of them: around 10% of my viewers use the subtitles, it's a lot of people who couldn't otherwise access the content! I hope you'll consider captioning as much as possible to make your videos accessible to everyone :)
Ed--thank you for trusting us and sharing your story, and I love your accent. Howdy to Multiplicity and Me from Arizona, USA, and wishing you all well.
I don't have DID and I've been kind of subconsciously holding onto the misconception about persecutors being dangerous, this video made me very firmly drop that. I appreciate y'all so much 💜
I can’t lie, when we finally heard about Eevee I was curious how Jess reacted to being pregnant if they weren’t actively trying. Since Ed is the sexual alter I’ve assumed that to mean he’s usually if not always fronting for that activity so it gave me a light giggle to imagine Jess thinking “wow I feel like crap and yet I’m starving, weird” and Ed just like “ohhh...see, about that...might wanna buy a test”
Thanks for talking about this Ed, it probably wasn't easy for you but this was really reassuring to watch and very well scripted. As an Ex-Persecutor and a Sexual Alter myself, I haven't seen many people talking about it on UA-cam, and this was just the right amount of honest info to make me feel seen without being triggering. Additional thanks for the resource on Abuser Introjects, that will come in useful for us as we've been looking for information to help us support one of our other persecutors and hadn't been able to find much, perhaps it's considered too taboo in some spaces. Sending all our love from us, Nin xoxo
I agree, and really like your channel as well!
I hope you find what you're looking for nin love you and tell team pinata that I love them too❤❤
Oh hey I love your channel! I hope you get things solved in your system! ❤️
DissociaDID Hey, been watching your channel off an on for several months. I want to say that your videos have actually unexpectedly helped me work through some recent doubts I've had about my personal identity and gender identity. Even though I been half out for about four and a half years, due to confused and unsupportive family, a question kept rising in my brain about whether I was actually transexual, or if this was just some crazy form of DID as you have. But, after watching your videos, I've been able to see that it's more than just hearing voices in your head or presenting as another person, it's more like, for a period of time you truly aren't you...someone else's consciousness has somehow found their way into your body due to childhood trauma.
After assessing my own situation, I realized that I never felt like a different person, I never had any black outs or had people telling me I looked and sounded like a different person. And, last of all I never had any significant violent or sexual trauma as a child that was bad enough to create anything other than a small fantasy world in my subconscious...the only thing I seem to be suffering from, genuinely, is gender dysphoria.
So I know this is an awkward comment that you may not get a lot of, but I just want to thank you for continuing to educate the world on your condition, and also for helping me put doubts to rest in myself that were put there by others. Anyway, enjoyed the vid, have a great week.
@@dylancole1910 ty. ur comment helped me, define my issue. the GD
we could be friends, if ur fam r not supportive (i know its random, couldnt help but 2 say, Gidday)
I need a t-shirt with "That's a part of healing, innit?" on it
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Take my money 💰
This reminds me so much of Jessica Rabbit: "I'm not bad. I'm just drawn that way".
"Look at me talking all smart acting like I know what I'm doing."
Same Ed
Thats what i was thinking while introducing my thesis to my teachers in college xD
Me everytime I have a class presentation
I actually love his accent it’s kind of soothing
Honestly yeah
I love it too. And I have no problem understanding it, even though I'm swedish.
Ealainez Beckett His accent is so soothing it’s like one of those from the Old Hollywood movies.
He reminds me of Adele, which is cool.
@@BradTea I was totally thinking that!!!
Ed's face when he realizes he needs to say the cheesy phrase lol. I feel you Ed haha
This is such a good video. The only persecutor in my system that I was aware of, Misteltoe, fused before I could build a better relationship with her. Thank you for giving insight into your journey of battling with your role and history. I'll say that the s*xual part of your role feels familiar to my past. I'm not a s*xual alter but having been shamed and repressed a lot of my life, I started letting people treat me poorly because it was "better than nothing". I recognized that I was being disrespected but I also yearned for any kind of attention and didn't yet know healthy boundaries. You're not alone, Ed. Sending you nothing but safe love and gratitude. -Wyn
“Better than nothing.”
Yep.
Took me decades to reach the point where nothing actually was better 🙂
“Stay true, stay you, stay gorgeous.” 💜💜💜
I could listen to Ed talk forever. I really enjoy his voice.
So could I! His voice is so lyrical, and his compassion comes through in everything he says and does. 💜
I feel like this is an important video even beyond the realm of DID trauma teaches us to behave in ways that we may not like and may even know are unhealthy. Unlearning and moving past these ways to cope with the world is huge, and so much work. Bravo to you Ed! Honestly, you are a huge inspiration to me personally.
You're so right! I don't have DID, but pretty bad childhood trauma and I recognized myself in this video. I also enjoy being catcalled, I always thought of it as positive attention, like someone making me compliment. I used to be one of those people defending catcallers (not sexual harassment obviously, just whistling and saying a word or two), saying things like "girls don't even appreciate compliments these days". I know it's wrong, but I still find myself wishing someone would whistle at me when I wear a nice outfit. It's hard to get over it even when you know it's wrong, but this video made me feel like my feelings are valid too while being informative. Thanks Ed
yess ^♡
@@soulg5846 it’s not “wrong” to like being whistled at. Everyone’s different.
I hated being catcalled by multiple construction workers on my way to work. For me it was embarrassing and humiliating. And terrifying.
I had to change how I dressed so I looked more androgynous
That said, I’m fine with a compliment! Just don’t holler it at me 🙂
I do not have DID but the way Ed spoke about unwanted s*xual attention spoke to me. The way it validates me when someone catcalls me. Even when I feel scared I later view it as something "good". I don't want it yet it feels good.
When he said it's easy to sound smart when it's been written down for you, my first thought was "Thanks, Jamie" 😭😭
Question-can s*xual alters struggle with healthy s*xual relationships because of the torn feelings of "i want this but I shouldnt" ? Does that make sense? Great vid
Yes, absolutely. Reforming that mindset can take a lot of time and patience
That's a Nathan question... I have no idea how to answer that myself. I guess Ed already answered it but different alters in different systems might have different answers. I'm not really sure if Nathan would agree or not.
-Mike Claw
@@cathybobathy5714 Also it can lead to re-traumatisation if/when a certain alter takes over
@@cathybobathy5714 very true Cathy
Yes, one of my alters is that way. But they reciprocated those feelings, so s*xually they don't act as dominant or s*xual anymore for example. They're part-persecutor (not fully) as well.
Technically, almost every persecutor or s*xual alter want to be understood. By the host or other alters that think that they're wrong or their thinking is just "abnormal". But if they weren't for the host, most likely the host wouldn't have an effective defense mechanism with the "fighty" alters.
Persecutors are crucial, even if they're not very positive or accepting of others. They have a lesson to teach you, you just need to react properly so they won't harm you. If you want to negotiate with them (to avoid harm, stop bad and harmful habits, or integrate), it can take some time. They need time, time to trust, time to understand love again. They need reconciliation. Deep inside they're hurting even if they have a strong front. It's easier to be angry than miserable.
Hope you find this comment informative.
"...I yearn for that attention because that's the way I've been made."
OMFG is that a mood, Ed. Thank you for that validation.
Ed seems like the kind of person who cringes at everything wholesome/cute but secretly loves it. I wanna see him react to one of those “try not to cringe/laugh” videos on UA-cam.
y’all look SO GOOD... this lipstick is really your color. ed’s taste? unparalleled
Don’t doubt yourself Ed, you’re doing so well!
I honestly love the term 'misguided protector' ❤️ and can I also say that you guys' make-up looks gorgeous? It does ❤️
I find myself saying "oh my days" sometimes in casual conversation so that's for that, Ed.
Love the input about not having to label everyone. Especially at first, the roles were so so confusing. Now, we just use ANP and EP because it’s a lot easier and gets the message across. Either they hold trauma or not. At the beginning Jamie (from our system lol) had no idea who they even were and had no clue how to label themself. Host? Persecutor? It was very confusing. This is so much easier for us and at least in our case it helps people not to judge specific alters so much.
Eli
i'm from Canada and have zero problem with your accent Ed. :)
I love seeing you get more comfortable doing videos. i think you're awesome.
For some people where English is a second language, it's harder to understand some dialects over others
Great to hear from you on this topic Ed. It really hit home for us, and I loved how educational it was while still being personal. We’ve been working very hard with our persecutor and the way you explain things helps us understand him better and how to help him feel more comfortable in our system. It’s so brave to talk about difficult topics in order to help others 💖
Ed, you’ve just helped me realise why I overeat. I can’t thank you enough.
Omg I remember watching you years ago, I forgot your channel name and you didn’t pop up until I started watching videos about recent drama that shall not be named. You inspired me take classes in college educating me about different mental disorders and the stigma around it.
I really appreciate this video. It takes a lot to come forward about s*xual abuse, healing from it, and the trauma surrounding it. Ed, you're completely valid for feeling the way you do about it. S*xual encounters aren't easy after being abused that way, and it can be especially difficult if it's not a role you wanted to have in the first place. You can like s*x without liking being abused, but it's a very real experience to have difficulty separating s*x from it, or to see yourself in s*xual situations positively, once s*xual abuse occurs. Thank you for being open. Sending all my love and support from New York 🖤
Omg, I’m new to y’alls channel and I’m already in love with Ed! “F*ck me sideways” I’m dying! Thank you for sharing yourself with us, you really made my day. :)
Thank you so much for talking about this, Ed. Especially the part about kind of enjoying the attention even if you shouldn't. I honestly burst into tears because its something one of my alters struggles with, and I'm so so glad I was able to share this with her and help her to feel less disgusted with herself, and more accepting of herself. I think you're absolutely amazing and I wish you all the best in the future.
"I ain't as green as cabbage looking" oh I'm so glad I had the captions so I could understand that... lol
Yayyy I clicked so fast. Have DissociaDID vid on my phone and MultiplicityAndMe on my laptop yasss. Love you guys
*multitasking intensifies*
Alpha System exactly😆 got to
I would have done that but it is 2 am and I am too lazy to switch on my laptop XD
angel26898 lol at least you’re supporting I think they both appreciate it ♥️
i just watched two videos before this, one with jess and one with ollie, and can i just say that the voices literally sound so different?? it's so fascinating
I love how you can always pinpoint the exact moment when Ed decides he's over it.
Thanks Ed, this helps a lot ❤️ We've been struggling with our persecutor/protector, and this really helps get a better handle on the psychology. It makes a lot of sense now.
Every share is a bit of trust extended to the world 💜
“Even I struggle with my accent” Ed is so hilarious I love him 😂 -Alex
Okay, first of all, I think parenthood (obviously here outside the headspace) has been amazing for you. Or it’s been great for everyone collectively. Just comparing how you used to be about the channel and talking about stuff and how you are now. I hope it doesn’t sound condescending to say I’m so f-ing proud of you and how far you’ve come and the fact that you’re doing these things that make you uncomfortable, so that you can help other people.
Second? I love you Ed! Like I always have. Always loved any time you were out in a video and I love how many you were doing. And your current goth 50’s housewife style is like... so amazing. And suits you right down to the ground.
Thirdly, for the s*xual alter stuff, there’s no shame in any of it at all. None. Even for a person who isn’t one. Even if they are a thirsty b*tch and enjoy the hell out of everything hat goes along with it. There is NOTHING. WRONG. with that. Honestly, do what makes you happy. As long as you’re not hurting anyone. And anybody that EVER has a problem with that obviously cares more about their supposed morals or social whatever than your happiness. And you can tell them to step off and stop sharing their opinions with you. (Even if it’s that unhelpful little voice in the back of your head that sounds like a person you used to know or uses words you’ve had hurt you before)
Beautiful vid Ed! Thanks for putting the effort in to post this and for doing smt that makes you so uncomfortable to help other people! Love you as always!! ❤️🖤❤️🖤
Great video.. such delicate subject matter discussed in such a healthy and relatable way. Thanks for the tip of stopping when recognising triggers.. 3rd time I watched it all the way through. And so glad I did. This will help all of us so much especially two of us that have been so misinterpreted!! Cheers for being so non-dramatic about the subject matter 😊 Ed you’re the perfect balance of serious and lightness for this topic 😊. We need more of this in the media to help erase stigma.. that’s often even in our own parts. 💖 ❤️💖❤️💖🌈~ Bobbi
I need to show this to all my friends to help explain my persecutors, I have a hard time explaining to people why alters work the way they do, especially when they are sexual alters. A lot of people wanna chalk them up to bad people, and even I resented them for a time for seeming to only want to hurt us. But these past few months have been used for us to work through some stuff and I’d like my friends to understand this
First of all Ed, I love the accent! I personally don’t find it hard to understand you. Second of all, persecuters and s*xual alters were brought on for a purpose, so they are just as valid as every other alter. Thank you for this video and I hope everyone has a lovely day! Thanks and Smilies!
Thanks for letting us in there, Ed. We're still working out who is whom which is fun because we're often co-conscious. It's good to know how the world looks from your side xo
Ed - not only do you have killer makeup, I love listening to you. Your authenticity and ability to handle/talk through the difficult things is amazing :). I came across this channel today and really glad I did. Thanks for all the work you guys are doing to help other people understand :)
“Not as green as I’m cabbage looking” I haven’t heard that phrase in years! Something my Nana used to say. Thank you for talking so honestly about this Ed xxx
I love Ed haha. His sense of humor, his accent (event though it's a bit hard for me because English is not my first language), his swearwords (I'm not a particularly sweary person but I enjoy to hear them xd). And finally, I know Ed is very intelligent and a great person and I'm happy he's starting to notice that since a while now. Love you Ed!
This is so helpful and thank you for the link about introjects. One of our alters has mentioned that our abuser is inside the inner world in a “dark corner” trying to get out. Of course that’s super scary (I don’t have access to the inner world-I’m the host and we’ve only been diagnosed and receiving treatment for a short time) but the link you provided was helpful
Thanks Ed, we all really appreciate seeing you and learning from you- you’re awesome ❤️
Very helpful information. Funnily enough, I used to say we had no persecutors in our system. I just didn't realize that a persecutor alter could have good intentions at heart and yet still fall into the same bad patterns of behavior time and again.
Talking about sex with honesty is already such a taboo for singular people! So talking about how you as a system and as couples deal with it is so brave and necessary.
Hello! I wanted to just comment and say that you were my first exposure to DID. you taught me about this whole new interesting world and I'm so glad that you did. You definitely made me become more open about different mental illnesses and just different people in general. thank you and I hope all of you have a great day!
Your channel has done so much for my part of us. I kinda relate to Ed in a lot of ways. I've changed my ways too, and am still learning, but I, as a part, also have a role to play until we've healed enough where every part in us can carry what I carry. They have finally accepted my existence and understand and appreciate my "misguided" contributions.
So... Thanks for your bravery. You are part of the reason why FF is our end goal for most parts now.
Thank you for making this video! I have a friend with DID, and these videos help me understand them a lot better. :)
I saw this after seeing the persecutors video that Jamie made, and might I say that I am quite proud and happy to see Ed doing his own version of that video (not in a copying sort of way, but such that he has a perspective that Jamie might not, with personal experience as a persecutor himself). Ed really has grown well!
Ed, I absolutely love your voice and accent, it always makes me smile. Thank you for talking about this, and I'm sorry you struggle with your sexual role. You truly have nothing to be ashamed of; you help Jess so much and do a wonderful job protecting her.
You are so loved Ed. And you deserve it all. ❤
Thank you Ed, I know it wasn't easy talking about something so personal but I genuinely found that educational. I LOVE how logical you are about who you are and why you do what you do. In that respect you are years ahead of a lot of "singleton" people I know and they would genuinely be better off in their lives if they learned to be more like you in that regard. SOOOO important to know who we are and why we do what we do. Sending love to you because you really do deserve it! =)
Ed, thanks for educating us all. As you said, it was difficult for you talk about, so I'm thankful that despite that you continued so we could all learn how to destigmatize and understand a little more a situation which is often misunderstood. I'm very proud of you ❤️
When you described the war you have with yourself between loving the sexual attention and despising it made Sapphire cry.
Wow this actually helped a lot. I am struggling with the fact that I recently realized I have DID and am trying to make sense of it all. Trying to learn what I should do to try to help manage day to day. I have loved watching your videos and would love to chat sometime. Thanks for helping make some of the pieces of the puzzle fit.
LJ
I love Ed’s accent, the body in his identity reminds me of Adele haha What is funny to me is that I’m brazilian and I have no trouble understanding what he says
Could listen to Ed talk forever. I've watched this channel since the very very beginning and Ed, you have come so far. Watching you work on yourself is super inspiring x
You were wonderful, Ed, and I had no trouble understanding your accent. Much love to all of you ❤️
Thanks for subtitles- they're super useful ! and I'm so sorry you're still working through that, Ed, I will never fully understand what it's like to have DID but thanks to you guys i'm more and more aware and (hopefully) more understanding !
Ed you are awesome! Your accent is always a joy, never a problem. Thanks so much for sharing this, I could see it wasn't easy. I think so many people struggle with finding the negative sexual attention (e.g. catcalling) simultaneously gross and enjoyable/ something that makes you feel validated. That must be a constant battle for you and so hard with everything you've been through. You're lovely and very brave :)
Thank you for captioning your videos. As someone who can't hear properly it makes a world of difference.
Ed I really admire how honest and open you are about the reasons why you were created. You have clearly come along way from the days talked about In the initial BBC documentary. Keep up the great work. Sending safe love and hugs xox
The closed captions are greatly appreciated 😂❤️ love you all but especially good job to Ed for putting this all together!!
Thanks a lot Ed, that was so helpful. I don't have DID but C-PTSD with dissociative symptoms and I'm having a difficult time coming to terms with the persecuting and sexual parts of my personality respectively that aren't alters but feel so disconnected from myself. And I only just realized a part of me that gives me a lot of anxiety and flashbacks is internalized slutshaming / abuse from past lovers. Oh no, I have so much left to work on. Good luck on your healing, you're doing so well.
I actually love Ed, I love the sass, the accent, the makeup and basically Ed is just awesome.
I love this channel ❤ As a "normal" person, I love the education and perspective I gain from you. Thank you so much ❤
Thanks Ed. You have cleared up a lots of things for me and by extension my friends with DID.
I love your accent Ed!! I am always learning new things about DID and look forward to more videos!
I agree with Jamie when he calls Ed/persecuters a misguided protector, that's the feeling I've gotten because Ed talks a lot about protecting the system/Jess. Of course I'm not gonna call him or anyone that unless it's ok with them but that's the impression I get. I love the channel and everyone in the system seems amazing and lovely ☺️💖💖💖
It's great that Ed is willing to sit down and talk about things, but also still has so much sass in the process. Thank you so much Ed for sharing the information and your wonderful self with us!
Wow Ed your makeup looked phenomenal in this video. Thank you for sharing this information with us all. I love learning from your all’s system. You’re all very lovely!
Fudge I love Ed’s sassy self so much. Heck, I love every single Alter, & every single “puzzle piece”’ to your puzzle together. Lol You all are so awesome!!! ☺️🥰♥️
This just gave me a lot of insight into our ex-persecutor and s*xual alter. I'm honestly somewhere in the asexual spectrum if that makes sense, so his thoughts and feelings on all of that is sometimes really difficult for me to understand. I think once we're in a better spot this could really help us communicate.
Thank you,
Asher
I love your personality Ed and I also love how you have grown to a place where you can talk about this stuff. Also love how well you and Jamie obviously compliment each other’s personalities. This was a brilliant and important video, thank you.
You've come so far in your journey Ed!! You did a Grreatt job with the video! I use to be a persecutor. I loved that you mentioned about ANP's and EP's and how some people in a system could be a mix of both. I never thought of it like that before, thank you, that tid bit alone helped us understand a few of our own peeps a little better. Also Mia (in our system) wants to give a 'shout out' too, as one of the things she was made for is similar to you....that you don't go looking for it but if it happens, it feels good...she has struggled with that so much and you did a GREAT job explaining it. Hugs n loves from many of us!! - Daxx
Ed is actually a pleasant person and he really has made a lot of progress u can see it
I love your accent it’s okay haha
Anyways thank you for your videos, it helps our se*ual protector/ex-persecutor understand themselves, thank you from Lily-Kaylee/Lily
Thank you for making this video. Even though it makes you uncomfortable to talk about and share with the world, it’s really helpful and really educational.
I appreciate it
So proud of you Ed. I’ve watched all the episodes of your channel and this video feels like a big blessing from you to us. Thank you for continuing this journey with the rest of your system and finding the strength and courage to present even though you have had your reservations in the past. Much love to you all.
thanks for sharing your story, Ed! also, your makeup and outfit are so incredible!
I'm struggling right now coming to terms with my possible DID, everything I've seen from your channel so far has been a straight punch to the chest. But this one really got me. When Ed said what he did about not wanting the attention but feeling the way he did or does(?) About it, it was a shock through my whole being. I guess I remembered that being a large part of my life when I was in my school years. And something I've felt a lot of shame about and something I never understood. I am nowhere near close to healing or conformation on my past and my present, but this is another puzzle piece. Thank you Ed and all (though I bet you won't see this), as I bet it is uncomfortable to open up about very private parts of yourself, especially to the internet. Thank you all. Sorry I went on a bit. 😓
Ed...you're fantastically amazing to me 💚 Thank you for sharing! I don't have or know anyone with DID but I've learned so much from you all. Thank you.
Fantastic video, Ed. Thank you for this! Very articulate and informative. Loved you saying you don’t have to label parts at all at the end 💜
You are a delight to hear from, Ed. I've always loved your elegance and mannerisms. You are an excellent teacher.♡
Hi Ed, I love your accent ❤❤❤ This is so informative, I thank you for talking about this. I love you Ed, you're doing great, I'm so proud of you! Your emotions and actions and thoughts are all extremely valid. I support and respect you 100%. I'm happy to listen to you&learn about your incredible jobs for the system.
Great job darling! 💜💜💜
Thank you Ed. Your strength and courage is inspiring!
This must’ve been so hard to make. Ed you are a fucking champion and we love you!
Ed is a lovely person! He is unapologetically himself and I respect the hells outta that!
So glad you did this video! Very educational! Thank you, Ed for explaining your position in the system. Well done!
Also,"Does that make me a thirsty b**ch? No!" Love it!
This is sooooo informative and well-spoken Ed ❤️ Im constantly learning about DID and you’ve taught me so well through this 😊😊😊
Ed seems like a really cool person to talk and hang out with. 😊
You forgot „rockstar“ in your labels, mate.
Ed’s accent is probably my favorite, is it because I’m American and like any accent that’s not American? Probably. Is it because Ed is my favorite and who I relate to most? Yes probably that too. Thanks for sharing Ed, love hearing from you ❤️
I'm so proud of Ed for coming forward and speaking about such a sensitive topic which relates to him, I think it was extremely brave. While I was watching this video I had a smile on my face as I've noticed such a change with how Ed is more comfortable in front of the camera recently! :) I am very interested in DID and I found this very helpful on my journey of educating myself about it further! Next year I will be starting a degree in counselling and I can't wait to help people!
Captions also allow your videos to be accessible to deaf folks, those with ADHD, autism, chronic fatigue etc... (basically anything that would make a video hard or impossible to watch without them)
I also make videos and caption every single one of them: around 10% of my viewers use the subtitles, it's a lot of people who couldn't otherwise access the content! I hope you'll consider captioning as much as possible to make your videos accessible to everyone :)
Definitely - didn’t take long
Ed--thank you for trusting us and sharing your story, and I love your accent. Howdy to Multiplicity and Me from Arizona, USA, and wishing you all well.
I don't have DID and I've been kind of subconsciously holding onto the misconception about persecutors being dangerous, this video made me very firmly drop that. I appreciate y'all so much 💜
I can’t lie, when we finally heard about Eevee I was curious how Jess reacted to being pregnant if they weren’t actively trying. Since Ed is the sexual alter I’ve assumed that to mean he’s usually if not always fronting for that activity so it gave me a light giggle to imagine Jess thinking “wow I feel like crap and yet I’m starving, weird” and Ed just like “ohhh...see, about that...might wanna buy a test”
I think that Jess mentioned that Ed isn't always out during sex, but it does happen sometimes