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  • @elizabethsloan1663
    @elizabethsloan1663 2 роки тому +3

    "I'll be waiting to meet them in heaven for the rest of my life". Wow, this so perfectly put into words how I've been feeling about the little one I lost. Thank you for talking about miscarriage from a Christian viewpoint, it is so needed by so many women. I pray God grants you further peace on this matter as you continue to care about and remember and anticipate meeting your little one.

  • @stefffie78
    @stefffie78 2 роки тому +3

    Hi Nikki, I cannot relate personally to having a miscarriage (besides sharing that pain with friends and family) but I have struggled with infertility. Infertile people often use the phrase "empty arms" to describe the pain. The loss of someone we want to hold so badly, whether that child actually existed at one point or not...we are both missing someone from our arms. I'm so glad us women can share each others' burdens and pains and talking out every little detail can be healing. Thank you for your openness and I'm praying for your family.

  • @katiepowers2489
    @katiepowers2489 2 роки тому +2

    O M G! That is the CUTEST llama ever! Your new hometown in Idaho looks like a dream location to live.

  • @pathtowellnesswithmiriam1371
    @pathtowellnesswithmiriam1371 2 роки тому

    I've felt sadness too and then realized that I was right around my due date. It's hard. But God has brought me so much healing and growth through my journey of miscarriage.

  • @caitlincurry5124
    @caitlincurry5124 2 роки тому +1

    I love the fact that you share so much of what you’re going through with your grieving process. I miscarried my second child on Mother’s Day 2021 and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced. I talked about it quite a lot with the people around me and still do and I have felt dramatic/tmi all those things too. I think God WANTS us to talk about it a lot and think about it as much as we need to and grieve and feel as much as we need to because we deserve to. Not only are we going to be reunited with our babies for all of eternity…. We will get the rest of eternity to get to know them…. But they will also never have to go through the crappy things that we have to go through. These babies will never experience heart break, or pain, or the effects of sin. They are these perfect beings that LIVE with the Father and that is a blessing!!!! What a blessing it is to know that we have a child in heaven! What an example of God taking what the enemy means for evil and turning it for good. I hope this brings you some comfort and hope and joy. It is a crazy thing to say that a miscarriage can bring you joy but one day we will be fully healed on the other side with our babies and Jesus himself and that will be the most amazing thing. Heaven is the goal for us now even more so. Okay shutting up now 🥹

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      This is exactly true🥺👏🏻 thank you friend. I’m so sorry for your loss… but I agree with your whole comment 🙏🏻

  • @jennifernance400
    @jennifernance400 Рік тому

    I think you sharing your story has helped me a lot with dealing with my own miscarriages. So thank you because I know it's not easy. Always praying for you sweet girl 💗

  • @brigittebrussow1591
    @brigittebrussow1591 2 роки тому

    Thank you for being brave enough to film this! When my sister miscarried I realised it's difficult and heartbreaking, but noticed it seemed society expected her to move on quickly since it's a life she did not know. I felt guilty for not knowing how to support her. Your video made me understand a bit more on how to treat someone that goed through not only miscarriage but loss in general. I appreciate your honesty and admire your courage and strength. Thinking of you and praying for you, your family and both your children. ❤

  • @mysonruns
    @mysonruns 2 роки тому

    Before I saw this video I prayed for you. I knew what this week was for you. I pray God will wrap his arms around you during this difficult time. You will see this baby one day.

  • @taylorarmstrong4157
    @taylorarmstrong4157 2 роки тому

    Hi Nikki! Long time watcher here. I went through a miscarriage (actually 2 of them) after my first child and it was so hard. I just want you to know I’m praying for you.

  • @mrswahl219
    @mrswahl219 2 роки тому

    I often experience that unknown sadness or anxiety or whatever around the times of traumatic events I've experienced. I'm usually not aware of it happening for a while. And then it will hit me. I'm experiencing it now as I'm approaching one year since my dad died, and that's on the heels of 5 years since my miscarriage. It's so incredible how the body recognizes and remembers even before your brain remembers.

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      Wow… I’m so sorry for your losses 🥺😞 the body is wild how it can do that… that’s the side of me that believes with the sentiment of that book “the body keeps the score”…

  • @cassandrasmom
    @cassandrasmom 2 роки тому

    It breaks my heart to see you cry. I haven’t experienced miscarriage, but I know if I did, the feeling of loss & emptiness would never leave me. Crying and feeling your emotions is cleansing in a way. Please look up the worship song “you can rest”. It is my favorite!! Praying for you 💜

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Thank you friend so very much for this. I will look that song up today!

  • @YolingxP
    @YolingxP 2 роки тому +6

    ❤️❤️❤️lovely video!

  • @Synthiux
    @Synthiux 2 роки тому

    Sending you hugs! Always remember that Gods times are perfect. You’re a strong person for sharing this with us. I love love your videos! Thank you!

  • @dsulliva0703
    @dsulliva0703 2 роки тому

    Praying for you during this week when emotions are extra hard ❤ I lost a baby last December - I also knew it my heart it was a girl AND I named her Hope. We’re all so interconnected. You’re not alone ❤️

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      Thank you for your prayers and love Danielle! 🙏🏻 I’m so sorry for your loss as well… Also, that’s beautiful you named your girl Hope too🥺💜

  • @SilverliningsJoni
    @SilverliningsJoni 2 роки тому

    I have so much to say about loss and not taking God's gift of life for granted, but I can't possibly fit it all here. So I will simply say I love you and thank you for sharing your soul (the joy and the pain) with us. I am better for it.

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      This comment truly warmed my heart. Thank you so very much 🥺💜

  • @rachelobrien2401
    @rachelobrien2401 2 роки тому +3

    Super wild that 5 minutes into the video I was thinking how your sweet baby was due this month and then I felt compelled to pray for you. Sending love and prayers for you🤍

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Oh wow 🥺 thank you for that Rachel 🙏🏻

  • @melissahorbal8780
    @melissahorbal8780 2 роки тому

    That's great about your Dads conversion!

  • @hoperichardson7440
    @hoperichardson7440 2 роки тому +3

    Thank you for sharing! ❤️ I miscarried and I know exactly the pain you are talking about. 🥺

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      I’m sorry for your loss 🥺 my heart is with you friend 💜💜💜

  • @gabylopez1740
    @gabylopez1740 2 роки тому +4

    mataron a un inocente animal 😔

  • @heidiabigail4110
    @heidiabigail4110 2 роки тому

    I have two angel babies the last one was ectopic and knowing that baby had a heartbeat and they’d essentially kill them tore me up inside. Till this day I tear up thinking about it. It was traumatizing. Sending you love and blessings ❤

  • @dashkosty6006
    @dashkosty6006 2 роки тому

    Beautiful video. Thanks for sharing your story

  • @caaaitlynn1
    @caaaitlynn1 2 роки тому

    Awww sweet girl. 🥺 Wish I could give you a big hug ❤. You mentioned feeling guilty about not telling people about her when they ask how many kids you have. I noticed when my friend is asked how many kids she has she responds 3 earth side and 2 heavenly. Praying for you and your precious family.

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      I like how that’s succinctly worded… thank you for sharing and thank you for your heartfelt kindness 🙏🏻💜

    • @caaaitlynn1
      @caaaitlynn1 2 роки тому

      @@NikkiPhillippi ❤️❤️❤️

  • @BridgetB313
    @BridgetB313 2 роки тому

    There’s something about the random hiking dog coming up and licking your face right after you talk about needing comfort and clarity. It felt like a little sign of, “in time, it will be okay.” falling right into your lap. 🤍🤍🤍

  • @mistyramirez4105
    @mistyramirez4105 2 роки тому

    Your Hope is with my Hope in heaven my Hope was a teacher that never had children but I’d like to think she’s taking care of all the babies ❤

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Misty this is very sweet🥺🙏🏻💜

  • @marianat.4998
    @marianat.4998 2 роки тому

    Grieving with you, Nikki. May God grant you peace and overwhelming love and grace in Christ Jesus. You are loved ❤️

  • @hackyk57
    @hackyk57 2 роки тому +11

    I honestly cannot get enough of your videos! You feel so genuine and honest. I appreciate that.

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Wow… thank you 🥺 sometimes you can wonder as a video maker if anyone really cares about them lol so I appreciate this a lot 💜

  • @mrs.jessicahorning
    @mrs.jessicahorning 2 роки тому

    I am praying for your heart, Nikki. I know this season has been hard for you, but i cannot imagine the layers of it. I’m really so so sorry 😞🥺

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      Jessica that’s really sweet of you🥺 thank you for this. It’s really been a wild year and a half but I’m so grateful to God for so many things that have come from it… thank you again for your empathy and prayers 🙏🏻💜

  • @jennav.4047
    @jennav.4047 2 роки тому +1

    Yep, whenever anyone asks how many kids I have, I say, “I have one but I miscarried one in July 2021.” I also got really sad and irritable around the due date of my miscarried baby while I was pregnant with my son. And during my entire pregnancy with my son, I kept saying, “if things go our way,” even though I knew deep down we were going to be good. I even bought a Doppler because I felt as long as I knew he had a heart beat, we were going to be good.

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      🥺🥺🥺 I’m sorry for your loss friend… I apprecIate hearing your language though on how you share this part of your life…thank you 🙏🏻💜

  • @audriefloyd
    @audriefloyd 2 роки тому

    Thank you Nikki. I’m grateful for your message.

  • @juliajuliajulia33
    @juliajuliajulia33 2 роки тому +2

    Sending love💗 thanks for sharing

  • @rosy9303
    @rosy9303 2 роки тому

    Prayers and hugs. Watched the whole video

  • @tobyMacBallerina
    @tobyMacBallerina 2 роки тому

    Sending you love, Nikki!! Watched the whole video, ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I never considered the sadness that comes on a due date, I think your body and brain knew exactly what you needed to release at this time. I’m glad you can express your thoughts and feelings, thank you for pouring your heart out to us and to our Father who hears us ❤❤❤❤

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Thank you friend… life is wild… I couldn’t believe my body remembered before I did too… I appreciate your kindness so much 🥺🙏🏻💜

    • @tobyMacBallerina
      @tobyMacBallerina 2 роки тому

      @@NikkiPhillippi 🥰🫶

  • @kelizabethg1
    @kelizabethg1 2 роки тому

    So good. Thanks for sharing❤️

  • @lastlaugh2023
    @lastlaugh2023 2 роки тому +1

    💛💛💛

  • @mollyk144
    @mollyk144 2 роки тому

    Sending so much love and prayers to you. ❤❤

  • @Thisorganizedmother
    @Thisorganizedmother 2 роки тому

    Thank you for making videos like this. ❤

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      Aww thank you Victoria for watching 🥺 it’s good to know that someone cares about/enjoys them!🙏🏻💜

  • @MissBrocanne
    @MissBrocanne 2 роки тому

    Sending you hugs ❤️

  • @laurahoppe6608
    @laurahoppe6608 2 роки тому

    Praying for you ❤

  • @katelynnmcdougall9826
    @katelynnmcdougall9826 2 роки тому

    my angel baby 👼 would’ve been 4 this year and i still think about them all the time 😢 i wonder what he or she would look like or how life would’ve been 🥺

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      I’m so sorry for your loss Kathy🥺🙏🏻💜

  • @MrsRedAng
    @MrsRedAng 2 роки тому

    Sending you strength and positive thoughts ❤💙

  • @Amy-oc2ui
    @Amy-oc2ui 2 роки тому

    I just really want to send you some love. I've had a miscarriage as well. The grief really does come in waves. I still wonder what my heavenly kiddo would have been like and I think that is okay. I have a weird peace in knowing that someday I will know. For now I rest in knowing they live on in perfection and joy until I get to join them.

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Thank you for this🥺 you’re very sweet and I appreciate you sharing with me. I’m sorry for your loss as well friend… I’m sending you an e-hug back and I look forward to the day we get to meet our babies 🙏🏻💜

  • @Maria-ks8cp
    @Maria-ks8cp 2 роки тому

    Love your self and your family 👪 ❤️ 💕 your a great person and a mother god will help you and give u strength to live a wonderful fulfilled life with your family , we all need to put are trust in god as he is our father thats loves and protect us ❤️ 🙏 😊 💙 💜

  • @clemmons9501
    @clemmons9501 2 роки тому +1

    We who know you from this online community know that you have 2 children!!! Logan is with y'all and God needed Hope before you were ready to let her go!!!🙌🙌🙌 I'm Praying everyday for you and your Family!!!🙏🙏🙏 Much Love and Prayers from FL 💖💞🌴🙏💖💞🌴🙏💖💞🌴🙏

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Thank you for this friend 🥺🙏🏻💜

  • @IrmaB6
    @IrmaB6 2 роки тому +2

    ❤❤❤

  • @NikkiSchumacherOfficial
    @NikkiSchumacherOfficial 2 роки тому +2

    Am I early? Haha just eating some soup and wishing I had something fun to watch and here you are hahaha

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +2

      Yes! Hey girl hey!!! Enjoy your soup/the video 😌 what kind of soup are you eating?

    • @NikkiSchumacherOfficial
      @NikkiSchumacherOfficial 2 роки тому +2

      Boring meat stalk plus an egg yolk. It’s good, I just eat it a lot as a protocol during pain flares. It really does help.

  • @Heysaywhatnow
    @Heysaywhatnow 2 роки тому

    Nikki, you are such a blessing. I’m thankful for you and the encouragement and beauty you share through your videos. I’m praying for you, and your family, as you are in pain especially this week. I love her name. I love that even in our lives here on earth we experience tremendous pain and adversity we know we have an eternal hope in our God and that one day, God willing, you will be reunited with your precious child and “it will be worth it all, when we see Jesus”. ❤️

  • @NikkiSchumacherOfficial
    @NikkiSchumacherOfficial 2 роки тому +7

    Aw yeah I know how you feel sis. We will get through it but it ain’t easy. ❤❤❤

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      You have been an inspiration to me this year Nikki 🙏🏻💜

  • @camillejuliettexo
    @camillejuliettexo 2 роки тому +1

    Hi beautiful soul, sending love on your journey and I think it's ok to always hold a special place in your heart for that baby. I met a woman who said she had 2 earth children and 1 sky. Or in your case you might like to say you have one on earth and one in heaven, to those that seem open. Idaho is so stunning by the way, xo

  • @LifeWithFlowers
    @LifeWithFlowers 2 роки тому

    Gorgeous Fall Video 🍁 Bless your heart Nikki.🙏🏽❤️ May You always feel God’s Love and Peace🙏🏽 You will meet your unborn child in Heaven.🙏🏽

  • @amjean5832
    @amjean5832 2 роки тому

    Hey Nikki 💕 I love this video. Oh my goodness Logan is growing up too fast! Hes such a cutie :) awww Nikki I'm so sorry. I too have had a miscarriage at 10 weeks and I still think about it when it comes that time each year. It's been 5 years now so I feel your pain. *Hugs*. Love ya ♥️

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      I don’t know if I remembered that about you… I’m sorry for your loss 🥺 thank you for your kindness friend 💜

  • @bellemdm
    @bellemdm 2 роки тому

    💜

  • @melissahardy5062
    @melissahardy5062 2 роки тому

    My mom had a miscarriage about 27 years ago and still thinks about that baby all the time 💔

  • @nicoleohara1797
    @nicoleohara1797 2 роки тому

    I need to know your secret! How do you keep so many fresh ingredients on hand and keep them all good or use them 😭

  • @normalopezingle7732
    @normalopezingle7732 2 роки тому

    My heart aches for you 🙏🙏🙏 God bless!

  • @oliviaromeiser7122
    @oliviaromeiser7122 2 роки тому

    Remembering your sweet baby with you 🖤

  • @DoeRaeMe
    @DoeRaeMe 2 роки тому +2

    Loving all this fall content I get to watch on my free time 🧡 ❤

  • @CRG_
    @CRG_ 2 роки тому

    It’s easy enough to say you have one Earth-side

  • @plengmini2712
    @plengmini2712 2 роки тому

    Its ok nikky u do good ❤

  • @j3nnuhh
    @j3nnuhh 2 роки тому

    “…the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.”
    ‭‭Job‬ ‭1‬:‭21‬ ‭KJV

  • @Maya-sv6yk
    @Maya-sv6yk 2 роки тому +3

    Just the other day I was feeling really down, angry and upset. it wasn't until the next morning that I realized it was the night I had miscarried our first baby 2 years ago. everything you said struck a cord with me. thank you for your vulnerability - I needed to hear this today. 💗💗💗
    when people ask me if our 9 month old daughter is our first, sometimes I say "yes,' but lately I've been saying, "no, she is our second, we lost our first baby to a miscarriage." I've wanted to be more open and vulnerable about it. 💗

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Thank you for this Maya…. I appreciate you sharing… also the body is wild… the fact that you remembered that without “remembering” is crazy… that being said, I’m glad you resonated with me and my story could encourage you. I’m sending you love friend 💜

  • @scoobydoogirl426
    @scoobydoogirl426 2 роки тому

    I just want to give you a BIG HUG, the end to your video was beautiful and I’m crying and just want to say we love you girl and I’m so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing all you do. Praying for you always ❤️❤️❤️ And don’t be upset if you feel like your doing better and your over it and it hits you all over again bec that is what happens but it’s beautiful and healing and loving and you always will have that baby who is in Heaven waiting to meet you. Love ya girl!

  • @rbkwong
    @rbkwong 2 роки тому +6

    Solo vengo a dar mi dislike

  • @em-alice
    @em-alice 2 роки тому +1

    thank you for always being so open and sharing your heart and joyful moments, too. sending you all the love! you never have to be "over it"... and when people ask you how many kids you have you can just answer "I have a 3 year old boy named Logan" or something like that where you aren't telling a lie or getting into the sad bits. love you!

  • @Michelangelo-m1o
    @Michelangelo-m1o 2 роки тому

    This is random, but have you noticed that many youtubers/influencers have been posting less and less these days? By that, I mean years ago before the pandemic, they used to post a lot. Now they post less than they used to. I'm getting bored! :(

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      Yes! A lot has changed over the last few years..

  • @christinaswallmann9696
    @christinaswallmann9696 2 роки тому +2

    Your son is getting so big!!! I’ve loved watching him grow up.

  • @michan7838
    @michan7838 2 роки тому +1

    Love your openness and vulnerability! I can relate to your feelings so much. Thank you for your honesty. ❤

  • @QuiteQuietASMR
    @QuiteQuietASMR 2 роки тому

    I appreciate you opening up in the end of the video, and I hope you feel support and love from all of us!
    I am so sorry for your loss and the heaviness you’ve been feeling this week about it. I pray that you and Dan will be blessed with another beautiful, healthy child in the near future, God willing. 💕

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      Thank you friend 💜 your encouragement, love and prayers mean a lot to me/us. 🙏🏻

  • @comfortablespaces
    @comfortablespaces 2 роки тому

    Crying along with you. Losing a child at any age/stage of life is incredibly hard. You are so strong!

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому

      🥺🥺🥺 thank you friend…. Yes… I still can’t believe it some days… I appreciate your kindness so very much 💜

  • @rachelgustafson1207
    @rachelgustafson1207 2 роки тому +1

    Nikki, I wanted to give you a big hug watching your video! Made me think of the book your body keeps the score. Sometimes we react and find out why later. When people as me how many kids I have, I say two on earth and two in heaven. We named our babies too. It’s so hard losing a little one. Yes, we will be united once again. ❤❤❤

    • @NikkiPhillippi
      @NikkiPhillippi  2 роки тому +1

      Ok 1. Yes! It made me think of that book as well! So wild… 2. I’m sorry for your losses🥺😞 that being said, thank you for sharing the wording of how you tell people… I think I will adopt that🙏🏻💜

  • @SimplyKatie_
    @SimplyKatie_ 2 роки тому

    Aw Nikki ❤ I pray that God will comfort you and help you through your loss. I agree with you. Even though I have not experienced a miscarriage I don’t think I would get over it. And agree with how you’re feeling. Happy heavenly birthday week baby Hope 🥰🥰

  • @DuvAngel1
    @DuvAngel1 2 роки тому

    I have 3 children in Heaven👼🏼👼🏻🧑🏻, one was “Daddy” to my Grandaughter, who lives in CDL, Idaho.😇

  • @alexandrasmith9190
    @alexandrasmith9190 2 роки тому

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @nicoleroden9647
    @nicoleroden9647 2 роки тому

    💖💖💖

  • @sandi4813
    @sandi4813 2 роки тому

    ❤❤