@@avwel3827hi. Are you the one who did this doc? If so, thank you. Helen is so brave and amazing and fascinating and her 7 alters. You are a wonderful friend. I’m so intrigued and curious. Mh sister is experiencing mental illness and it sounds like DID but I’m not certain. She’s very angry and not safe to be around. So I keep watching, reading and learning. And keep loving her. ❤
@@nickidaisydandelion4044 i assume you are alluding to some kind of "possession". which in itself is ridiculous. the personalities are all aware of each other to a degree hence my statement of fakery. also strange how in the cases where they go back to kids, its always a stereotype kid with goo goo language and tone that they come out with. have you actually talked to REAL kids... they do not talk like goo goo boo boo and more often than not can actually hold a non cringe conversation. im sure this woman has mental issues but this pretending to be different people is only an attention part of the problem.
I'm sitting here crying because this is the heart and soul of true love and friendship. As the mother of a special adult who will always be in my care, to see this beautiful commitment despite the myriad challenges, makes my heart sing. Thank you so much! All my love to you guys!
My youngest daughter is bipolar and severely learning disabled. I was told she will always live at home. She’s 40 now and still lives at home. She’s had two children the older one is nine and I had to adopt him as she gave him away when he was one. My oldest daughter knows that she will have to care for her when I’m gone. She knows she will always have someone to care for her. Maybe her own son. After years of me tracking her down on the streets she doesn’t smoke crack anymore. That made it much harder to care for her.
She seems like such a sweet person. I’m glad they have such a great friendship. We all have our own issues to face and deal with, I hope everyone is able to find peace one day. 😊❤
I have DID. My voice never changes, you would never know. My thought patterns and reactions to things change drastically though. With severe trauma/abuse I would zone out so I didn't have to deal with it...we maladapt at times like this and somehow keep living as though through someone else. The alters, the other selves are protective and come about to live when I can't. With loads of trauma healing we live as one now. Before proper diagnosis it was a chaotic not knowing what was going on. With recognition of each self and the associated trauma the chaos has subsided and I function very well.
I didn't even realize how messed up I was because I dissociate which helps me to not understand myself. I don't have DID but I would imagine what it would be like to be other people or try to live vicariously through them when I would watch TV stuff like that and I blurred the line with reality pretty easily
@@LeahDyson-kq4bd that is a form of DID, your alters are not fully formed. Everyone splits differently. A mirror when smashed will never break the same way twice. The fact that you recognise that you dissociate means this part of you, shuts down, goes away or does whatever you need to manage what is happening. People are not robots, you can't shut down and just become a shell, another part of you takes over whether you know it or not. Many people with DID do not know their alters. I definitely know how it feels to feel like I'm someone else, I just have to shrug my shoulders like a guy and somebody else takes over, a man and I'm physically a woman and I identify as a woman and I'm heterosexual, but I promise you as soon as I shrug him on, I'm instantly more at ease in my own skin. I share this as an example of how much or how little form and personality an alter can have. Everyone is different.
Have seen this documentary so many times i would love an update as to how she is and it a very interesting documentary and I hope she is ok ♥️ I really feel for her ♥️ just incredible woman to share her disorders and very brave to do this documentary with her school friend show the world about her
Reuniting with Helen and then finding out she's got DID sounds absolutely heartbreaking. ❤😢 But she's so fortunate to have you supporting her and not being judgemental for what shes endeared and the end result. Youre also fortunate to be reunited with her and learning from her.
I have DID. Diagnosed at sixty after a lifetime of knowing I was strange and unsure what was wrong. I was abused by my adoptive parents with an element of possible ritual abuse and being pimped out by my father after being given alcohol and temazepam . First alter came at six yrs old. Possibly even as a baby . I’m not suitable for integration as my alters fragment easily and also very prone to dissociation. That doctor who denies the existence of DID is retraumatising victims of horrific abuse. Where does he thinks the brain goes when a little child cannot cope with the levels of trauma. Disgraceful man. Most likely a Freemason and busy being an abuser!
That's what I thought when I watched this! The Dr. who is denying that DID exists should be checked out for being involved in ritual abuse! Also please don't believe that you aren't suitable for integration. I believe healing is possible for all, but a person needs to learn new coping skills to replace dissociating and fragmenting. If a therapist is telling you you can't integrate, get a new therapist!
I'm very glad I'm not the only one who noticed that, and found it disturbing/shocking that he point-blank dismissed "blocking/not remembering" when I'm pretty sure it happens. have seen a lot of people forget chunks of their lives as a mental defense mechanism. It does all feel a bit freemason-y yeah
I remember seeing this a long while ago. All I want to do is protect Helen, to mother her, nurture her, help her through life, lift her up and help her find love and acceptance through friends. This is so tragic. I am so glad these two lovely friends found each other again. xxg
This made me cry. We may never ever know what happened to her as a child, but whatever it was it had to have been so very terrible. I hope someday she is able to let go of the others and feel safe again and having found her old friend might just be the best thing that ever happened to her.
Or maybe she drank herself into a psychosis. Then went to therapy with an incompetent therapist and things got out of hand. Trauma doesn't have to be on a level of satanic ritual to be traumatizing. Possible psychosis itself could be very traumatizing. This all is just guessing of course but there are lot of possible scenarios. Hope she is doing allright.
She was a victim o(f Satanic ritual abuse) ( perpetrated from her Father and his evil cult friends her alters wrote a book about it (Today I am Alice) was the book
How generous, brave and kind for Helen, Adam, William, Brenda, Alex, Elizabeth and Jamie are for sharing their story. Thank you. The more we learn about multiplicity the less frightened we will be around it. It's likely far more common than most know - as the switching is often not pronounced.
Her inner dialogue is broken due her (probably) abuse. The environment triggers her back to childhood, the brain trying to protect the adult/child. Poor woman.
How can her family not be in contact with her, makes me think theyre the ones responsible for her trauma. I hope shes ok, no one should ever be alone in these circumstances
What surprises me about this film is that no one seems to want to find out who did this to Helen, and make sure that they are not continuing to do this to other kids. Who were her family, and why were they not keeping her safe?
This explains DID Brilliantly, I've known a Friend for 22yrs and She hasn't explained it as well as this does. And I now know why she doesn't contact me for weeks and months on end sometimes. She has told me she's had over 300 ,alters' in her Life and was Abused by her Mom as a Baby! I have Aspergers and only knew in my early 40s, and diagnosed aged 43 after I saw a docu on TV about Aspergers and instantly thought that's me. So I know how important these docus are.
@@steph678 subsystems exist, so its not that far fetched. Theres no actual way to tell if someone is faking, just note theres studdies that have say 100+ alters can exist but theres no evidence on the limit
Her friend is so sweet with Helen and all of the personalities, it's sad and sweet at the sane time.. emotional. She could be herself in each personality without any fear thanks to her friend. This what all people with DID need ❤
Oh my goodness...i wasnt expecting what she said about what happened to her as a teen when she got pregnant. That absolutely stopped me in my tracks 😢 that one incident alone must scar a person for life. Let alone what else could have also happened 😭😭
Dear Helen I remember seeing this year back and wonder how she is today. What a lovely friend she has a true friend. I hope that today there is further research that can help with this painful illness .One cant imagine living each day like this. Best wishes for Helen
An interesting book on this subject is called When Rabbit Howls written by the 92 personalities of Truddi Chase. She lived to be 74 years old and died 03/10/2010. I read it back in the early 90's and I couldn't put the book down. Fascinating book and disorder.
Thank you so much for finding Helen and reconnecting with her, you are an amazing friend and soul to her. I agree with the lady who said it's a shame that professionals don't believe it's a disorder. I truly believe it exists especially with people who have been horriably traumatized, I believe the other personality protect them.
It's too bad that the ppl.who have been faking this disorder are making it harder for those who genuinely have it to get proper support or treatment. It's just a damn shame. I believe that DID is real. It's just very rare and grossly misrepresented
It is not rare at all, just think of all the kids that grew up in severe trauma, there are a lot of misdiagnosed people out there because therapist believe the lie in their psychology training that is so rare, what a freaking lie. I have a psychology degree, but I didn't fall for the lie. I was also DID, 37 personalities, I am fused now after a long time in therapy. People quit spreading the misinformation that DID is rare!!!!!
Id love to know how helen is these days. I genuinely hope she is doing well. I watched this many years ago and i still feel as compassionate towards her and her alters today as i did then. Regardless of the science behind why she is how she is, she is suffering and struggling and its heartbreaking to watch
With the abuse she had experienced it is a wonder that she survived and didn’t take her life. Her personalities which she developed saved her live. She says at 32:00 when speaking about her abuse that her baby was aborted being made to eat it. Unimaginable horror she went through. Hope she found peace
I have watched this many times and each time is still heartbreaking, i wish i could find out how you are Helen, i hope you're well and found some sort of peace in this crazy world. ❤ xx
It’s an escape from reality. I have had lots of problems with this in the past. I do very well with it as long as I don’t feel a threat. I have PTSD. I was diagnosed with it when I was much younger. I’ve always been too afraid to tell a doctor about the other. The brain does what it has to protect the child. I pray & read the Bible a lot, that helps me more than anything!
DID can be but need not to be always the result of sexual abuse! It makes me angry that the media shows only one aspect several aspects of trauma. I suffer from DID as well and haven’t experienced sexual abuse during my childhood but instead I experienced severe emotional abuse and neglect which destroyed me and lead to DID and also sexual abuse during my young adulthood .
Yeah people often over generalise about these conditions. These things are always complicated and unique. So you cannot make such blanket assertions. Trauma is subjective.
Such a sweet friendship. What a beautiful film! Congratulations to both of you on completing such an interesting and heartfelt, helpful film. Well done!!!!
Dissociative Identity Disorder seems to be one of the worst mental illnesses...dangerous and no effective treatment. It breaks my heart that there are professionals who deny the condition even exists and say the people are role-playing.😢
I have a DID system and while it took many years to find a proper diagnosis and good help I did. I will always be a DID system and I have had to make allowances for that but I have healed very much and live an Integrated and functional life. I was only ever dangerous to myself, not to others.
I really don’t think it is one of the worst. If you ask me schizophrenia is the worst. Many people with DID live happy productive lives. Unfortunately for Helen she/they need therapy and a full-time carer.
perhaps..although statements like "worst" or "best" seen very subjective. I really like this documentary...a very personal view and approach and seems like a very gentle yet close approach to see Helen's life and almost feel her experiencing life. An excellent work done. All the best xoxo @lan4life
We are a DID system with 31 alters that’s what we have discovered in therapy. Each system presents different in a DID system. For example when we shift we don’t have voice changes but our desires and food preferences do. Having DID is not dangerous to the public. A person with mental disorders have a greater chance of being a victim then be a predator.
That psychiatrist doesn't know what he's talking about. He doesn't understand. I don't have DID. However, when I escaped my abusive marriage of ten years, I began recalling things that I'd pushed down to survive in my 20s, not my childhood. At 63, I still recall 'new' ones from that time. Instead of being a negative naysayer, he should talk to people who've been abused at all ages, where they were in an unequal power situation.
I love Helen. I’ve seen this documentary many times and when she laughs about the light bulb it’s so funny and I always think of her when I find a random one in my house 😂
Current trauma experts agree that DID can be a result of trauma. There's excellent doctors doing research on this in the US. The English are such a cynical bunch. I'm English, but luckily ditched the cynicism. Whatever the reason for Helen's condition, she deserves compassion like everyone else.
I wish i had had a more positive upbringing. Mental health is my passion. I dissociated as a child, blessed it wasn't to this degree. So amazing how humans cope
You are God sent for doing that for your friend , what a struggle even watching her go through that, I hug here so many times , when she switched to other personalities .
Most DID abusers are parents/guardians or family members. Being abused a handful of times isn’t likely to cause the DID. It’s an inescapable abuse that is constant when a child is young. She said she’s not close with her family so I’d guess it’s very possible a parent. If you want to read one horrific account of a person with DID and almost 100 personalities, you can get When Rabbit Howls. It’s horrific but you really get to see life from the person with DID perspective. There are some really evil people in the world.
I have DID, and if it werent for a good childhood friend who had reconnected with me as an adult, I would have never gotten assessed and diagnosed and been able to figure life out in ways that are more helpful for my brain. She had noticed my alters long before I was ever aware of them, never judged me, and never made me feel bad. I will forever be grateful.
I’m not DID but was abused as a child and have missing periods of time and things in my life. For the male therapist to say you can’t forget or bury traumatic experiences has obviously never been through severe abuse.
Well said. This documentary very much annoyed me, how misinformed it is about DID and trauma, and how it felt like they put Helen and her alters on full display. I wonder if that "psychologist" had actually done any research on trauma and dissociation at all, he should know it is a symptom of PTSD to have gaps in memory about trauma.
Its very unique, i kind if feel if people like this were more accepted i society it would be way more interesting. So many people are so rigid in their personalities, she exhibits the remarkable capabilities of a human to be many things. ❤ hugs to you Helen , it cant be easy because of us all who expect people just to behave in one way. You are actually the ultimate creative mind and still have a childlike heart which adults can never recapture. ❤ i hope people are kind to you
There is a similar story on '60 Minutes' UA-cam channel! The difference is, the other lady knows and is open to the causes. Her father sexually abused her for an extended period of time as a child. The different personalities helped her cope. My guess is: Hellen was also abused and/or (as she said) did things she considers very horrible to open up about to anyone. She might not want to incriminate herself or someone very close to her, or just fears how the world would take her if she opened up about what happened. So, she chooses to deal with all of it her way, and the mind creates personalities,.... to deal with all of that. This kind of suffering is just intense!! I'm very sorry for her and people like her.
It seems that each personality is the subconscious way to recapture those years in her life. Different years of personalities for different years of abuse. Jesus please show Helen how much you love her and how healing is found in you❤
@@flyingschnecke fall of man from the beginning of time . We, mankind, allowed sin in the world.sinful people are capable of sinful things. We are in this world and Satan has his hold on people that don't know Jesus. We are not in heaven yet. i, too, was severely abused for 30 years and fled the state. Jesus healed my heart and I forgave the people that did it. It's mans fault not God's.
I knew somebody with DID he wasn’t diagnosed until he was 45. He would behave ‘out of character’ . His ex-wife believed he was schizophrenic. His demeanour would change, his voice changed he talked in a London accent. He was systematically abused until he was 6 by a schizophrenic mother. It’s 100% true that there are people like Helen.
Make contracts with alters that harm. Reward them for not harming. Make contracts with protectors about helping. Build a house in your head where each personality has a room. This makes communication easier.
What a beautiful soul Helen is. I pray that one day she can have peace. The thought of what she may have gone through and never told anyone breaks my heart. She might have been able to be saved.
As someone who is neurodivergent, I try and read up on mental health medical info. The LAST I remember reading was that multiple personalities “is not a thing.” How horrible for the people and their loved ones hearing “it’s not a thing?” I’ll see if they state this woman’s full name, and I’ll do some internet sleuthing.
I love how the man says that we do not repress trauma... As someone who has repressed traumatic memories at 50 I have never got the back. I don't want them back. I think they would destroy me if I were to know. I hate know-it-alls!!
I've watched this documentary for the first time more than 10 years ago and, hands down, that's one of the most fascinating and interesting films and i've seen dozens pretty good ones!! This one here is for Helen's and all her ''inhabitants''🎭🎭🎭and it's from those kind of documentaries that one could watch them many many times in their life. And that characteristic of a film is speaking for itself.
I know this is an old video, BUT I also live with D.I.D, and I've made major progression with E.M.D.R. therapy. I hope this is a possibility for Helen. In the States, it's used to treat p.t.s.d among our enlisted & mental health concerns. I highly recommend this for Helen & her Littles. ❤
I’m diagnosed with OSDD 1a, and I resonated so much with what Helen said about identifying with that song from The Who. The song Faces by 2Unlimited always stuck with me. And now I know why.
My brothers wife had multiple personalities, she ended up accidentally overdosing and died, my brother also suffered from mental illness and killed himself several years afterwards....very sad , it still hurts alot...it was all very disturbing
I’m sitting here in silence after watching this doc of Helen and her 7 alters. Wow. Thank you for sharing. You said you don’t want to integrate. I would imagine after having the others, hearing their voices, it might seem lonely thinking of them going away or integrating. Interesting. Thank you so much for sharing such a private part of you and opening up. I’ll probably rewatch this. I wish I had gone to college for a degree in mental illness and been able to work with people and help gain some more knowledge on DID. You are amazing. It’s very sad to know it stems from something hurtful, sad, abuse and the unknown of exactly what. We protect ourselves. Knowing just might crush our spirit. I love your charismatic charm. ❤
I’m an introvert and I do enjoy being an introvert but it’s lonely sometimes that’s why I’m getting a dog to go out with because even though I’m an introvert doesn’t mean I can’t have a dog
@Georgiaandfriendss906 I too am an introvert and I would be lonely as well but I have rescued 22 cats. And no I don’t have them all inside my home. Ten are inside and 12 are outside in an enclosure I had built for them so they are comfortable and safe. They keep me busy and are a great comfort to me. Pets are wonderful because they have no expectations and they love you unconditionally.
35:07 not only does he sound like a pompous snob, how on earth could he be so wrong? repression makes sense as a coping strategy. he says there's no "unconscious" we bury things. well, there's a SUBconscious, factually, and that's what's running most people's behaviors, including self-sabotage. there's quite possibly good reason he's claiming this, possibly to cover others. this is coming from myself not remembering a huge chunk of my own childhood.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
I'm so happy. I watched this video. Someday, there'll be more understanding of mental illness, but in my opinion, people with mental illness have a very high intelligence. They adapt and fight through pain. You have to become somebody else to get through that. Because with great pain comes great strength. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder at 36. thinking back, I can probably say that I struggled with it for twenty years prior to that. So to all the people who don't understand. Take a moment, and try to comprehend what it would be like to be in our brains and live our lives. It's not easy. God Bless ❤
That is absolute cr*p about forgetting trauma, from personal experience. I am 50 now and went for counselling many years ago, in my early 30s, due to being abused throughout my life, getting involved with a man who was sociopathic and sexually abusive, who stalked me for years, and I couldn't cope anymore at the time. I was told by my counsellor at the time to type out what had happened without any punctuation, experiences I had gone through to get it out of my head. It was on an old computer that some years later I had stopped using but not wiped the memory from. I was moving residence and decided to turn the computer on to delete the files with intention to dispose of the computer - less to take to then next place of residence. I opened up a file, and sat reading through what I had written, when going through extreme trauma revisiting and it triggered memories I had obviously pushed back so much, that I had consciously, completely forgotten and it really shocked and upset me. That psychiatrist is full of cr*p. I feel concern for his patients.
sorry if you saw my recent comments somehow. i completely misread your comment!! and was literally agreeing with you but in argumental tones 😂 gosh. anyways, yes!! dissociation is literally a thing that causes disconnection fron yourself, your brain, and the world and amnesia can occur heavily with literally ANY trauma. thats why its suggested and sometimes mandatory to go through trauma therapy before a court case regarding trauma!! that way you can re-collect your memories at least a bit better than before the therapy. its more normal to forget trauma than it is to remember, no matter your age. but you dont remember that you forget!! cause you forgot 😭 yk?!
From everything I have ever heard about DID it usually happens before the age of 7 before the personality is fully formed. She must have had it at the age of 7 and her friend just didn’t realise.
I'm dealing with this with my husband he has 4-5 that I can count...in 1.23 seconds I counted 3 ..and this time there was a personality that came out and hated me so he threw me out of the house even though we have been married for 8 yrs...but it wasn't safe for me there anyway..I have stuck it out on other episodes...but this time was totally different.,sad very sad....I hope she gets well and learns to be happy! Jesus loves you always!
The alters hold the traumatic memories so the person can have a normal life. Later in life when a big stressor happens or when it's time to heal, the personalities begin to outwardly manifest because they are triggered.
So glad that you found each other again and you seem a real, true friend. Happy that you are there for Helen.
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@@avwel3827hi. Are you the one who did this doc? If so, thank you. Helen is so brave and amazing and fascinating and her 7 alters. You are a wonderful friend. I’m so intrigued and curious. Mh sister is experiencing mental illness and it sounds like DID but I’m not certain. She’s very angry and not safe to be around. So I keep watching, reading and learning. And keep loving her. ❤
This is heartbreaking to watch. I just can’t imagine the suffering that she went through, that caused all of this pain. My heart goes out to her.
Satanic abuse.
Me too. I was crying the entire time. It's so sad.
fake.
@@esseel7896 This girl is for real. I followed her situation also on UA-cam. Different personalities come from different souls.
@@nickidaisydandelion4044 i assume you are alluding to some kind of "possession". which in itself is ridiculous. the personalities are all aware of each other to a degree hence my statement of fakery. also strange how in the cases where they go back to kids, its always a stereotype kid with goo goo language and tone that they come out with. have you actually talked to REAL kids... they do not talk like goo goo boo boo and more often than not can actually hold a non cringe conversation. im sure this woman has mental issues but this pretending to be different people is only an attention part of the problem.
I'm sitting here crying because this is the heart and soul of true love and friendship. As the mother of a special adult who will always be in my care, to see this beautiful commitment despite the myriad challenges, makes my heart sing. Thank you so much! All my love to you guys!
My youngest daughter is bipolar and severely learning disabled. I was told she will always live at home. She’s 40 now and still lives at home. She’s had two children the older one is nine and I had to adopt him as she gave him away when he was one. My oldest daughter knows that she will have to care for her when I’m gone. She knows she will always have someone to care for her. Maybe her own son. After years of me tracking her down on the streets she doesn’t smoke crack anymore. That made it much harder to care for her.
She seems like such a sweet person. I’m glad they have such a great friendship. We all have our own issues to face and deal with, I hope everyone is able to find peace one day. 😊❤
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I have DID. My voice never changes, you would never know. My thought patterns and reactions to things change drastically though. With severe trauma/abuse I would zone out so I didn't have to deal with it...we maladapt at times like this and somehow keep living as though through someone else. The alters, the other selves are protective and come about to live when I can't. With loads of trauma healing we live as one now. Before proper diagnosis it was a chaotic not knowing what was going on. With recognition of each self and the associated trauma the chaos has subsided and I function very well.
Everyone splits differently. No two are the same.
I didn't even realize how messed up I was because I dissociate which helps me to not understand myself. I don't have DID but I would imagine what it would be like to be other people or try to live vicariously through them when I would watch TV stuff like that and I blurred the line with reality pretty easily
Blessings to you ❤️
@@LeahDyson-kq4bd that is a form of DID, your alters are not fully formed. Everyone splits differently. A mirror when smashed will never break the same way twice. The fact that you recognise that you dissociate means this part of you, shuts down, goes away or does whatever you need to manage what is happening. People are not robots, you can't shut down and just become a shell, another part of you takes over whether you know it or not. Many people with DID do not know their alters. I definitely know how it feels to feel like I'm someone else, I just have to shrug my shoulders like a guy and somebody else takes over, a man and I'm physically a woman and I identify as a woman and I'm heterosexual, but I promise you as soon as I shrug him on, I'm instantly more at ease in my own skin. I share this as an example of how much or how little form and personality an alter can have. Everyone is different.
How many of you agree ?
Have seen this documentary so many times i would love an update as to how she is and it a very interesting documentary and I hope she is ok ♥️ I really feel for her ♥️ just incredible woman to share her disorders and very brave to do this documentary with her school friend show the world about her
She was r@ped as a child by church cult members. Made to abort her babies and eat them.
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Reuniting with Helen and then finding out she's got DID sounds absolutely heartbreaking. ❤😢 But she's so fortunate to have you supporting her and not being judgemental for what shes endeared and the end result. Youre also fortunate to be reunited with her and learning from her.
Endured. X
I have DID. Diagnosed at sixty after a lifetime of knowing I was strange and unsure what was wrong. I was abused by my adoptive parents with an element of possible ritual abuse and being pimped out by my father after being given alcohol and temazepam . First alter came at six yrs old. Possibly even as a baby . I’m not suitable for integration as my alters fragment easily and also very prone to dissociation. That doctor who denies the existence of DID is retraumatising victims of horrific abuse. Where does he thinks the brain goes when a little child cannot cope with the levels of trauma. Disgraceful man. Most likely a Freemason and busy being an abuser!
I have a similar background to you and I have integrated and fused a lot of parts.
That's what I thought when I watched this! The Dr. who is denying that DID exists should be checked out for being involved in ritual abuse! Also please don't believe that you aren't suitable for integration. I believe healing is possible for all, but a person needs to learn new coping skills to replace dissociating and fragmenting. If a therapist is telling you you can't integrate, get a new therapist!
Yes. SRA is a lot more common than people think. It's dismissed as it's so unbelievable but it happens. I'm really sorry you had to go through that ❤
I'm very glad I'm not the only one who noticed that, and found it disturbing/shocking that he point-blank dismissed "blocking/not remembering" when I'm pretty sure it happens. have seen a lot of people forget chunks of their lives as a mental defense mechanism. It does all feel a bit freemason-y yeah
Exactly.
I remember seeing this a long while ago. All I want to do is protect Helen, to mother her, nurture her, help her through life, lift her up and help her find love and acceptance through friends. This is so tragic. I am so glad these two lovely friends found each other again. xxg
This made me cry. We may never ever know what happened to her as a child, but whatever it was it had to have been so very terrible. I hope someday she is able to let go of the others and feel safe again and having found her old friend might just be the best thing that ever happened to her.
Or maybe she drank herself into a psychosis. Then went to therapy with an incompetent therapist and things got out of hand. Trauma doesn't have to be on a level of satanic ritual to be traumatizing. Possible psychosis itself could be very traumatizing. This all is just guessing of course but there are lot of possible scenarios. Hope she is doing allright.
@@Batrobot81 Nope. This originates in (very) early childhood. Because of severe trauma, usually of sexual abuse, physical abuse, etc.
@@Ottedikkie Yep. I didn't say she couldn't have an underlying trauma.
Def because she talks like she's a little kid
She was a victim o(f Satanic ritual abuse) ( perpetrated from her Father and his evil cult friends her alters wrote a book about it (Today I am Alice) was the book
How generous, brave and kind for Helen, Adam, William, Brenda, Alex, Elizabeth and Jamie are for sharing their story. Thank you. The more we learn about multiplicity the less frightened we will be around it. It's likely far more common than most know - as the switching is often not pronounced.
Her inner dialogue is broken due her (probably) abuse. The environment triggers her back to childhood, the brain trying to protect the adult/child. Poor woman.
Yes. 💔😢😢😢I wish her nothing but love, healing, and the very best, also. 🩵🩵🩵🩷🩷🩷👼👼👼👼👼👼👼🩷🩷🩷🩵🩵🩵Xoxo
How can her family not be in contact with her, makes me think theyre the ones responsible for her trauma. I hope shes ok, no one should ever be alone in these circumstances
Yes EXACTLY!!
What surprises me about this film is that no one seems to want to find out who did this to Helen, and make sure that they are not continuing to do this to other kids. Who were her family, and why were they not keeping her safe?
A lot of the time, the family is the direct cause of DID
as the psychiatrist lady said - generational satanic abuse, that's why they didn't protect her.
Makes you question the validity of it. 🤷
@@blackeagle6268 Not really, happens all the time. A lot of people just don't care
@@fishbonesxxpeople rather say demons than listen to science
True true
I worked as a caregiver for a woman with multiple personalities. It is a very real.
So sad, brought me to tears. She is so lucky to have you as a friend. I hope things improve.
This explains DID Brilliantly, I've known a Friend for 22yrs and She hasn't explained it as well as this does. And I now know why she doesn't contact me for weeks and months on end sometimes. She has told me she's had over 300 ,alters' in her Life and was Abused by her Mom as a Baby! I have Aspergers and only knew in my early 40s, and diagnosed aged 43 after I saw a docu on TV about Aspergers and instantly thought that's me. So I know how important these docus are.
Shes lying to you. Nobody has 30p altars
@@steph678 subsystems exist, so its not that far fetched. Theres no actual way to tell if someone is faking, just note theres studdies that have say 100+ alters can exist but theres no evidence on the limit
Her friend is so sweet with Helen and all of the personalities, it's sad and sweet at the sane time.. emotional.
She could be herself in each personality without any fear thanks to her friend. This what all people with DID need ❤
Oh my goodness...i wasnt expecting what she said about what happened to her as a teen when she got pregnant. That absolutely stopped me in my tracks 😢 that one incident alone must scar a person for life. Let alone what else could have also happened 😭😭
Dear Helen I remember seeing this year back and wonder how she is today. What a lovely friend she has a true friend. I hope that today there is further research that can help with this painful illness .One cant imagine living each day like this. Best wishes for Helen
I'm just glad she has her friend back in her life to help bring her joy
An interesting book on this subject is called When Rabbit Howls written by the 92 personalities of Truddi Chase. She lived to be 74 years old and died 03/10/2010. I read it back in the early 90's and I couldn't put the book down. Fascinating book and disorder.
I feel very sad for Helen. What unimaginable things she must have endured. Her friend seems very nice & kind to her.
Thank you so much for finding Helen and reconnecting with her, you are an amazing friend and soul to her. I agree with the lady who said it's a shame that professionals don't believe it's a disorder. I truly believe it exists especially with people who have been horriably traumatized, I believe the other personality protect them.
It's too bad that the ppl.who have been faking this disorder are making it harder for those who genuinely have it to get proper support or treatment. It's just a damn shame. I believe that DID is real. It's just very rare and grossly misrepresented
I couldn't agree more with this comment.
That's tiktok for you! DID along with Tourette syndrome seem to affect every other person on there.
It is not rare at all, just think of all the kids that grew up in severe trauma, there are a lot of misdiagnosed people out there because therapist believe the lie in their psychology training that is so rare, what a freaking lie. I have a psychology degree, but I didn't fall for the lie. I was also DID, 37 personalities, I am fused now after a long time in therapy. People quit spreading the misinformation that DID is rare!!!!!
It's actually not as rare as many people believe
There's a famous UA-camr who found fame deceiving the world with her DID lies. What a wicked web we weave when we choose to deceive !!!!
Id love to know how helen is these days. I genuinely hope she is doing well. I watched this many years ago and i still feel as compassionate towards her and her alters today as i did then. Regardless of the science behind why she is how she is, she is suffering and struggling and its heartbreaking to watch
4:45 the way she said cozy corner made me cry. I don't know why.. 😢
things like that happen to me, idk if its more in our hearing or in herself, but it is called Absorption in the schizy literature
With the abuse she had experienced it is a wonder that she survived and didn’t take her life. Her personalities which she developed saved her live. She says at 32:00 when speaking about her abuse that her baby was aborted being made to eat it. Unimaginable horror she went through. Hope she found peace
I have watched this many times and each time is still heartbreaking, i wish i could find out how you are Helen, i hope you're well and found some sort of peace in this crazy world. ❤ xx
The scars on her arms is eye opening to the pain this woman lives with every second of her life. I wish her peace.
It’s an escape from reality.
I have had lots of problems with this in the past. I do very well with it as long as I don’t feel a threat. I have PTSD. I was diagnosed with it when I was much younger. I’ve always been too afraid to tell a doctor about the other. The brain does what it has to protect the child.
I pray & read the Bible a lot, that helps me more than anything!
Her friend is genuinely such a loving soul… so supportive ❤ I am so shocked the further I get into this documentary, my heart goes out to Helen
DID can be but need not to be always the result of sexual abuse! It makes me angry that the media shows only one aspect several aspects of trauma. I suffer from DID as well and haven’t experienced sexual abuse during my childhood but instead I experienced severe emotional abuse and neglect which destroyed me and lead to DID and also sexual abuse during my young adulthood .
Yeah people often over generalise about these conditions. These things are always complicated and unique. So you cannot make such blanket assertions. Trauma is subjective.
Such a sweet friendship. What a beautiful film! Congratulations to both of you on completing such an interesting and heartfelt, helpful film. Well done!!!!
Dissociative Identity Disorder seems to be one of the worst mental illnesses...dangerous and no effective treatment. It breaks my heart that there are professionals who deny the condition even exists and say the people are role-playing.😢
I have a DID system and while it took many years to find a proper diagnosis and good help I did. I will always be a DID system and I have had to make allowances for that but I have healed very much and live an
Integrated and functional life. I was only ever dangerous to myself, not to others.
Don't worry, you can tell when someone's faking.
I really don’t think it is one of the worst. If you ask me schizophrenia is the worst. Many people with DID live happy productive lives. Unfortunately for Helen she/they need therapy and a full-time carer.
@@plan4life I think you're right
perhaps..although statements like "worst" or "best" seen very subjective.
I really like this documentary...a very personal view and approach and seems like a very gentle yet close approach to see Helen's life and almost feel her experiencing life. An excellent work done.
All the best xoxo
@lan4life
We are a DID system with 31 alters that’s what we have discovered in therapy. Each system presents different in a DID system. For example when we shift we don’t have voice changes but our desires and food preferences do. Having DID is not dangerous to the public. A person with mental disorders have a greater chance of being a victim then be a predator.
That psychiatrist doesn't know what he's talking about. He doesn't understand. I don't have DID. However, when I escaped my abusive marriage of ten years, I began recalling things that I'd pushed down to survive in my 20s, not my childhood. At 63, I still recall 'new' ones from that time. Instead of being a negative naysayer, he should talk to people who've been abused at all ages, where they were in an unequal power situation.
I love Helen. I’ve seen this documentary many times and when she laughs about the light bulb it’s so funny and I always think of her when I find a random one in my house 😂
Current trauma experts agree that DID can be a result of trauma. There's excellent doctors doing research on this in the US. The English are such a cynical bunch. I'm English, but luckily ditched the cynicism. Whatever the reason for Helen's condition, she deserves compassion like everyone else.
You're not gonna have this condition without trauma
She was r@ped as a child by church cult members
They said she was abusing alcohol, - possibly that has affected how her brain functions?
@SkromnitsaKrasotka she was Not abusing alcohol. She was r@ped.
@@Ciaccona255 I heard them saying in the beginning she was drinking.
I saw this 10 years ago. I have slways wondered how Helen is doing. Any updates on her?
Same here I hope she is ok and I wish there an update version of this story
@@rebeccamccready1135 same here
@@rebeccamccready1135 I hope so as well
Same ❤
Same
What a gentle and thoughtful documentary.
Two of the most beautiful women ever.
Love to you both ❤
Ruth is such an amazing friend! Wishing everyone involved in this documentary the absolute best, especially Helen!
I wish i had had a more positive upbringing. Mental health is my passion. I dissociated as a child, blessed it wasn't to this degree. So amazing how humans cope
Wow, this was so informative and important to share, and so respectfully done. Brava! 🌹
You are God sent for doing that for your friend , what a struggle even watching her go through that, I hug here so many times , when she switched to other personalities .
Most DID abusers are parents/guardians or family members. Being abused a handful of times isn’t likely to cause the DID. It’s an inescapable abuse that is constant when a child is young. She said she’s not close with her family so I’d guess it’s very possible a parent. If you want to read one horrific account of a person with DID and almost 100 personalities, you can get When Rabbit Howls. It’s horrific but you really get to see life from the person with DID perspective. There are some really evil people in the world.
Also the book... First Person Plural
Very good book as well !!😮😢❤
I really hope Helen is looked after, and lives her best life. You are a wonderful friend to her..would love to have updates!
It's amazing how you've accepted her just the way she is. More people need to learn how to do that. I wish Helen the best of luck ❤️
According to what I read in an interview with Ruth in 2005, she hardly saw Helen again after the recording of this documentary, which if true, is sad.
Helen and all the personalities are so strong and wonderful! I want to hug you. I wish you a lot of great days! Take care! 🌺
I have DID, and if it werent for a good childhood friend who had reconnected with me as an adult, I would have never gotten assessed and diagnosed and been able to figure life out in ways that are more helpful for my brain. She had noticed my alters long before I was ever aware of them, never judged me, and never made me feel bad. I will forever be grateful.
Precious and lovely! Such a genuine friendship ❤️
You can tell by her eyes that she is switching
I’m not DID but was abused as a child and have missing periods of time and things in my life. For the male therapist to say you can’t forget or bury traumatic experiences has obviously never been through severe abuse.
Well said.
This documentary very much annoyed me, how misinformed it is about DID and trauma, and how it felt like they put Helen and her alters on full display.
I wonder if that "psychologist" had actually done any research on trauma and dissociation at all, he should know it is a symptom of PTSD to have gaps in memory about trauma.
Me too. Disassociation is a real thing.
Its very unique, i kind if feel if people like this were more accepted i society it would be way more interesting. So many people are so rigid in their personalities, she exhibits the remarkable capabilities of a human to be many things. ❤ hugs to you Helen , it cant be easy because of us all who expect people just to behave in one way. You are actually the ultimate creative mind and still have a childlike heart which adults can never recapture. ❤ i hope people are kind to you
There is a similar story on '60 Minutes' UA-cam channel! The difference is, the other lady knows and is open to the causes. Her father sexually abused her for an extended period of time as a child. The different personalities helped her cope.
My guess is: Hellen was also abused and/or (as she said) did things she considers very horrible to open up about to anyone. She might not want to incriminate herself or someone very close to her, or just fears how the world would take her if she opened up about what happened. So, she chooses to deal with all of it her way, and the mind creates personalities,.... to deal with all of that.
This kind of suffering is just intense!! I'm very sorry for her and people like her.
She's such a sweetheart 💕 I'm glad she is being cared for.
Bless her, she seems a lovely person. So do most of her alters. ❤️
Wow, 20 years ago. I wonder how Helen is doing today? Very interesting film.
Ruth is a lovely friend. So compassionate. ❤
You’re a wonderful person, Helen. You and all the little persons inside you. I hope you’re happy. To me, you mostly seem to. ❤
It seems that each personality is the subconscious way to recapture those years in her life. Different years of personalities for different years of abuse. Jesus please show Helen how much you love her and how healing is found in you❤
Where Jesus was back then when she was abused?
@@flyingschnecke fall of man from the beginning of time . We, mankind, allowed sin in the world.sinful people are capable of sinful things. We are in this world and Satan has his hold on people that don't know Jesus. We are not in heaven yet. i, too, was severely abused for 30 years and fled the state. Jesus healed my heart and I forgave the people that did it. It's mans fault not God's.
@@Blessedbeyond. I'm so sorry for what you've been through, you must be really strong person to forgive that. Best wishes.
@@flyingschnecke thank you so much ❤️ I'm not strong enough to forgive but Christ gave me the strength. Be blessed!
Amen🙏🏻
I knew somebody with DID he wasn’t diagnosed until he was 45.
He would behave ‘out of character’ .
His ex-wife believed he was schizophrenic.
His demeanour would change, his voice changed he talked in a London accent.
He was systematically abused until he was 6 by a schizophrenic mother.
It’s 100% true that there are people like Helen.
Wow, imagine knowing and dealing with this disorder. Prayers
Thank You For Being A friend
I wonder if she’s integrated any of her alters and what her life is like now. Hopefully she’s happier
Make contracts with alters that harm. Reward them for not harming. Make contracts with protectors about helping. Build a house in your head where each personality has a room. This makes communication easier.
This ... YESSSS!!
What a beautiful soul Helen is. I pray that one day she can have peace. The thought of what she may have gone through and never told anyone breaks my heart. She might have been able to be saved.
This is what trauma does it breaks people it makes them split... DID is just the extreme end of the spectrum
As someone who is neurodivergent, I try and read up on mental health medical info. The LAST I remember reading was that multiple personalities “is not a thing.” How horrible for the people and their loved ones hearing “it’s not a thing?” I’ll see if they state this woman’s full name, and I’ll do some internet sleuthing.
Following for same info❤
Hope she gets better .best wishes .
Would be interesting to see if there are changes in the brain that can be recorded when the switches happen.
There has been some
@@annafitzgerald4939 there is
There are studies that show there are changes in consciousness when they switch.
Loneliness is the worst thing about mental illness. I'm glad you're friends.
I love how the man says that we do not repress trauma... As someone who has repressed traumatic memories at 50 I have never got the back. I don't want them back. I think they would destroy me if I were to know. I hate know-it-alls!!
I've watched this documentary for the first time more than 10 years ago and, hands down, that's one of the most fascinating and interesting films and i've seen dozens pretty good ones!!
This one here is for Helen's and all her ''inhabitants''🎭🎭🎭and it's from those kind of documentaries that one could watch them many many times in their life. And that characteristic of a film is speaking for itself.
Wow, that was such a good documentary. My heart really goes out to Helen. I pray for you and for healing. God bless you ❤
I know this is an old video, BUT I also live with D.I.D, and I've made major progression with E.M.D.R. therapy. I hope this is a possibility for Helen. In the States, it's used to treat p.t.s.d among our enlisted & mental health concerns. I highly recommend this for Helen & her Littles. ❤
EMDR is holistic
What does it stand for?
I’m diagnosed with OSDD 1a, and I resonated so much with what Helen said about identifying with that song from The Who. The song Faces by 2Unlimited always stuck with me. And now I know why.
How nice that Helen has found an old, new friend who accepts her and all her other personalities. I hope they all can be happy together xx
I would like to see how she is now!
I have seen many survivors testimonies.
Can only imagine what helen went through 💔
My brothers wife had multiple personalities, she ended up accidentally overdosing and died, my brother also suffered from mental illness and killed himself several years afterwards....very sad , it still hurts alot...it was all very disturbing
My brothers wife was also severely abused as a child...
Wow ... I'm so sorry for them 😢 and for you. I can imagine it hurts knowing there wasn't really a way to help them. Sorry for your loss.
I’m sitting here in silence after watching this doc of Helen and her 7 alters. Wow. Thank you for sharing. You said you don’t want to integrate. I would imagine after having the others, hearing their voices, it might seem lonely thinking of them going away or integrating. Interesting. Thank you so much for sharing such a private part of you and opening up. I’ll probably rewatch this.
I wish I had gone to college for a degree in mental illness and been able to work with people and help gain some more knowledge on DID. You are amazing. It’s very sad to know it stems from something hurtful, sad, abuse and the unknown of exactly what. We protect ourselves. Knowing just might crush our spirit. I love your charismatic charm. ❤
Thank God She is so Sweet, Happy and Innoce t bc most people with Disorsers are not happy or nice. God Bless her🎉❤😊
😢 Heartbreaking how people can harm children and ruin their lives.
I’m an introvert and I do enjoy being an introvert but it’s lonely sometimes that’s why I’m getting a dog to go out with because even though I’m an introvert doesn’t mean I can’t have a dog
@Georgiaandfriendss906 I too am an introvert and I would be lonely as well but I have rescued 22 cats. And no I don’t have them all inside my home. Ten are inside and 12 are outside in an enclosure I had built for them so they are comfortable and safe. They keep me busy and are a great comfort to me. Pets are wonderful because they have no expectations and they love you unconditionally.
❤❤❤@@corriearnold9694
Best wishes. 💛🐶
@@corriearnold9694💛😻best wishes
But you must take your dog
to walk in a lovely park three
times a day🩷
35:07 not only does he sound like a pompous snob, how on earth could he be so wrong? repression makes sense as a coping strategy. he says there's no "unconscious" we bury things. well, there's a SUBconscious, factually, and that's what's running most people's behaviors, including self-sabotage. there's quite possibly good reason he's claiming this, possibly to cover others. this is coming from myself not remembering a huge chunk of my own childhood.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Where have you've been treated with those for you depression please ? I'm really interested
Thanks !
This was the documentary that sparked my absolute fascination with D.I.D over 10 years ago
I'm so happy. I watched this video. Someday, there'll be more understanding
of mental illness, but in my opinion, people with mental illness have a very high intelligence. They adapt
and fight through pain. You have to become somebody else to get through that.
Because with great pain comes great strength. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder at 36. thinking back, I can probably say that I struggled with it for twenty years prior to that. So to all the people who don't understand. Take a moment, and try to comprehend what it would be like to be in our brains and live our lives. It's not easy.
God Bless ❤
Excellent documentary. God bless you both. ❤
It would have been nice to watch it without advertts every two minutes. But my heart goes out to her.
That is absolute cr*p about forgetting trauma, from personal experience. I am 50 now and went for counselling many years ago, in my early 30s, due to being abused throughout my life, getting involved with a man who was sociopathic and sexually abusive, who stalked me for years, and I couldn't cope anymore at the time. I was told by my counsellor at the time to type out what had happened without any punctuation, experiences I had gone through to get it out of my head. It was on an old computer that some years later I had stopped using but not wiped the memory from. I was moving residence and decided to turn the computer on to delete the files with intention to dispose of the computer - less to take to then next place of residence. I opened up a file, and sat reading through what I had written, when going through extreme trauma revisiting and it triggered memories I had obviously pushed back so much, that I had consciously, completely forgotten and it really shocked and upset me. That psychiatrist is full of cr*p. I feel concern for his patients.
Pompous shrink.
sorry if you saw my recent comments somehow. i completely misread your comment!! and was literally agreeing with you but in argumental tones 😂 gosh. anyways, yes!! dissociation is literally a thing that causes disconnection fron yourself, your brain, and the world and amnesia can occur heavily with literally ANY trauma. thats why its suggested and sometimes mandatory to go through trauma therapy before a court case regarding trauma!! that way you can re-collect your memories at least a bit better than before the therapy. its more normal to forget trauma than it is to remember, no matter your age. but you dont remember that you forget!! cause you forgot 😭 yk?!
I don’t remember all the time my stepfather abused me but only bits and pieces I remember…what I do remember is horrific and horrible!
Your not alone Helen.. Hugs!
From everything I have ever heard about DID it usually happens before the age of 7 before the personality is fully formed. She must have had it at the age of 7 and her friend just didn’t realise.
She was r@aped as a child
Or she never had it in the first place.
Or maybe her alters feeled safe enough too not mask
I'm dealing with this with my husband he has 4-5 that I can count...in 1.23 seconds I counted 3 ..and this time there was a personality that came out and hated me so he threw me out of the house even though we have been married for 8 yrs...but it wasn't safe for me there anyway..I have stuck it out on other episodes...but this time was totally different.,sad very sad....I hope she gets well and learns to be happy! Jesus loves you always!
The alters hold the traumatic memories so the person can have a normal life. Later in life when a big stressor happens or when it's time to heal, the personalities begin to outwardly manifest because they are triggered.
Gloria Masters podcast Handing the shame back has many speaking aloud their truths. It is TRUE.
this is so heartbreaking 😢 what she must have been through is unimaginable. does anyone know how she is today? i hope she is ok 😢
Im wondering how Helen is doing now a catch up with Helen would be nice
No DID or MPD feels very safe. We are never alone. There are other people to help and to take over the situation.
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It broke my heart to watch this. Wat a lovely lady j wish her all the best xx