BE - A Short Film on Depression & Anxiety
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- Опубліковано 25 чер 2020
- BE explores the inner dialogue of depression and anxiety and how pain can be used for purpose when we choose to seek light amidst darkness.
If you are struggling with these issues and are in need of help, please reach out to someone. You are not alone.
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National Alliance on Mental Illness
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Starring: Quanie Thornton
Special Thanks: Marisa Macaya, Chantelle Gibbs
Written, Directed, and Produced by Savanah Mears
Original Score by Savanah Mears
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Thank you all so much for your support. Our new short film, I Hate Mirrors, is out now -- ua-cam.com/video/uIyCtYfg12U/v-deo.html -- we hope you enjoy! xx
i guess i’m the only person who was lowkey triggered by the alarm sound... it makes my heart speed up and i want nothing but for it to be shut off
I did too
That's me to
you weren't i skipped over it. it makes me anxious :/
Thought it was just me, every time I hear an alarm my heartbeat goes so fast
same! it made me anxious
am I the only one who related to the part where he just screamed in the bathtub, there have been so many times I want to just scream but then realize I don't live alone yet
Edit - I just came back to this comment two years after I made it and OMG I've never gotten so many likes. Over 2,000 is crazy thank you...
i do, brings me a breath.
in the same boat. unfortunately instead of screaming i would harm myself, biting at my hands enough to pierce when i wanted to scream. i haven't self harmed in about two years, and that's why i am grateful towards marijuana. helps my anxiety and depression a lot better than medication ever did.
@@joohoneybun I agree, marijuana really helps with my anxiety and depression as well and it helps me to stop thinking of harming myself
@@King_of_Gotham i didn't even realize that i stopped harming myself until i came across this comment, i actually had to stop and think.
to anyone that self harms, i completely get it. i still self harm but it's more mentally, can't help that though right? please get some help before you do something you regret. nobody wants to die, even if we feel like we do sometimes, sit there and ask yourself if you truly want to die? you'll most likely say no. most suicide survivors actually come to and realize that they almost killed themselves and the first thing they'll say is that they regretted ever trying. can you imagine how many people committed suicide without fully being conscious of their actions? please please please try and find help if you're ever feeling suicidal and talk to your doctors. if medication isn't for you, try marijuana, try CBD products, edibles, etc. cannabis and cannabis products effect everyone differently so don't give up after one try, if smoking or eating it isn't for you there's CBD products. remember to talk to someone when you're feeling lost and empty, even if you feel like you don't want to, you'll thank yourself when you do.
Yes. I am the same. I wish i could scream out all of the pain within me. But I live with people so rarely can
when someone says to me" your not acting like yourself" but in reality who am I?
I think... you are the one that reveals themselves when you feel no obligation to impress someone else.
I’ve went through the same thing so many times
eww feelings ahhh
I relate to that question nice pfp btw
"You've changed a lot." No, a lot has changed me.
This is exactly how I feel I have anxiety and depression aswell every day is a battle for all of us
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
Yep. Same here
It definitely is haven't been right since 2018 after my parents passed away
same
@@jesusteama7353 bs
"I'm a disappointment. I don't belong. I'm not wanted or needed. Nobody understands me."
The words that've soiled my brain for years now.
Going Through It
The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it. I know this sounds easy but it is anything but easy. I was depressed after my sexual abusive childhood trauma when I was six years old. Maybe it was just a phase but this text describes how it happened. I see past the depression and I think you are good, strong and great. Nothing Is wrong with you. I don't mean the things that seem wrong but you as you are. Nothing is wrong about you
i need you, tell me your problems an ill try to help you!..
Hey, we may not know each other but those words you said is not true. Someone out here loves you. Please renember ur not alone. Hope ur doing a little batter this year. Keep safe
are you on whatsapp?
How are you now?
I literally broke down into crying. Its scary how relatable this short film is to me. Whoever made this, i just wanna say thank you thank you thank you
Me too 😢 I always feel alone but watching these videos or seeing other ppls comments, it reminds me we are not alone. I also broke down in tears. Hang in there. ❤
I am so sorry that both of you have to know the debilitating darkness that depression is. I just want to say that I know exactly how relentless that level of helplessness feels, and how utterly exhausting everything can be... Even the smallest of tasks drains you physically, mentally and spiritually - and it leaves you feeling lost in your very own skin. The worst of all of this is that feeling that you are a burden on those that you love the most in the world. I just want you both to know that despite what your depression might be telling you - both of you are genuinely and sincerely worth fighting for - and you matter to this world more than you can possibly realize when you are ravished with depression. You both are worth the fight - so please don't ever, EVER give up. Sending you two big hugs and healing thoughts.
me too. everything i've wanted to say but couldnt was all in this video i feel some relief knowing im not the only one who feeks like this every sngle day of my life
Please hang in there ' and know that you are definitely loved....🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Huh! That was a year ago! Life is so much "not so depressed" anymore. Thank God I hung in there🫠
"pain doesn't prevent purpose, it reveals it"
that is such a powerful sentence.
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
It’ a lie tho. When u’r in deep fucking pain like that u lose purpose very quickly
@@Lyra556 I agree with both statements, if that makes sense at all :/
@@Lyra556 i know..
💌
This is a great representation of what depression is ACTUALLY like. I’m going through the same stuff and a lot of it hits home. No motivation, feeling empty, always wanting to go to sleep.
Hope ur okay x
Stay hard ...
@@TurboShortsCbro LOL
"i feel alone even when i'm surrounded with people" story of my life
The worst part is when everyone takes you being depressed as a joke💔
The one where he deletes the text message is super relatable and where everyone is texting and he didn’t pick up
Is this gonna last forever?
I'm wondering the same thing..
Martina it won’t last forever! your best days are ahead of you!
Martina just wanted to send you some love and encouragement. I hope wherever you are, you know you’re a loved.
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
A bad start just hoping for a happy ending. Like any story.
NO
This is the best short film I've ever seen. 💖 I can relate to this so much this is basically my life
It's sad to say your right.
Just know your not alone....... ❤
Noone is... ❤
@Master161 yo chill
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
- John 3:16 KJV translation I believe ❤️
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
"Nobody understand me, even me don't understand my self"
I felt it🥺❤️
Me too 💔
@@tahmidchowdhury8766same....
Yes I feel like that sometimes
That "does anyone even know what am going through, do they even care" hit me hard. Too many painful memories 😢
This is deep! I pray for anyone who's suffering in silence 😥.
Thank you.
Dont oray for me
@@user-mx8nn3qq7y you're welcome
Thanks dear
@@naas-wd6ms you're welcome
dude im so close to giving up sometimes, almost everyday i wake up when i dont want to, i want to be alone but hate being lonely, i wanna leave but i dont wanna hurt anyone, shit sucks. and honestly the beginning of this video, was too relatable
Give you're all too live happily. Don't give in into you're sadness. I promise if you keep fighting you will learn too love life and cherish it. Battle you're demons with the light you have inside yourself. You must have valor in this war too keep yourself.
@@jr6284 To feel better reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath and mind [brain] are closely related and gives good relief from depression--anxiety. For a better life sit on a chair, neck straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. With daily practice the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Do the practice without any expectations. Change happens from within by itself. Day or night, when taking a walk, at office, sitting in a park, when reading, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Reduce negative social media. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes. Senior Counsellor.
we need you here❤
This how I feel every single day of my life , is this ever gonna end😢 I have to put on a fake smile everday😳😭😭💔
Know that you are not alone, and your pain will not last forever! You are loved, seen, and cared for!!
@@SavMears I have felt like this for 6 yrs now, when is the pain gonna go away, I feel so alone , no one gets me 😳
@@bridgetmandeya You are not alone - your life is worth living and YOU are needed! I'm sure it's hard to see at times, but I guarantee you have come such a long way in the last 6 years. You got this!
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
ur not alone bro keep fighting
Anxiety makes you to think that darkness is a part of you...😔
Ong
But it is, we all have our demons
I think the darkness is a part of me, I just need to learn how to control it. When I'm okay, the darkness is just a part of my creativity, but when I'm low, it's the part of me that encourages me to just leave this all behind...
Axactly I think I live in darkness everyday 😢
@@royalmorris446 Demons are in the mind. Detox the mind. To feel better reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a healthier life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Day or night, when taking a walk, when reading, on the phone, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Watch only comedies and motivation on social media. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
It's scary how much i can relate to this 😭
Aw, it literally breaks my heart just to see other people go through this phase, I'm 14 years old yet I go through this every single day... I usually go on UA-cam and scroll through the comments and have conversations with strangers just to let me know that I'm not alone... I'm not the only one feeling the pain like this. I want to let you know this too. Everyone like this, we're all together in this, that's all I wanted you to know. If you want, you can always talk back to me :)
@@TotallyNotLoaf Thank you so much for your concern and I promise everything will be alright for you. I know, this won't be making sense right now but it'll, you just have to hold on and fight back, no matter how hard it hurts, remember, at the end of the day, it's only making you strong mentally to face hardships and difficulties in life. You're never alone, our brain thinks that way when we're in a low phase of life because it seems like it's only happening with us and not with others which is completely normal. This comment was made by me 5 months ago when I was in one of the lowest phases of my life. By God's grace, things havs worked out for me and now I'm a lot better than before. You're doing an amazing job talking to people who are in depression or a low phase of life. I'm sure it'll be helpful to a lot of people. Keep it up and all the best for the coming future :)
@@TotallyNotLoaf Sweet comment. The depressed circle seem to be a bit of a family. It's warming. Hope you're keeping well :)
The part where he said „I convinced myself that everyone fell out of love with me“ is so relatable when you had depression for a long amount of time , you realize you have done this after you get out of it. I can tell you , anyone who needs to hear this, you will get out of this so strong dont loose hope!
I hope you’re well and happy love. God bless
“I don’t belong” hits so hard especially with anxiety. the constant fear of not being wanted, even tho that’s not what the people around you feel. even when you are loved, you still can’t feel it so u convince yourself that everyone hates you
He said everything i am going through i have struggled with depression nearly my hole life and would not wish that pain on anyone
know you are not alone!
I know u are not alone im been struggling seance I was 7 my mom doesn't instant we have been to plenty of people to get help
Same. Everything. It feels like me too. How are you feeling?
FR I DONT WISH THAT TO ANYONE ELSE AT ALL.
My depression has been a slow build that I tried to ignore and was in denial about. Its led me to some really dark places but I know I am not defined by my depression and decline in mental health. I know its not a true representation of the person I am. Sending love and strength to all those who read this and need to hear it x
“Feelings fade but the truth does not”
*but
doesn’t seem like it will end. i’ve been feeling like this for almost a year. everyday feels the same
Ong bro
@@LoyaltyMakesFamily hey man how u doing? i want you to know it does get better. i am not fully healed but i can actually get out of bed and go out more. it took me over a year to start to feel better but even then i still have my bad days.
I’m on the 3 year mark and that’s exactly how I feel. Sorry if reading that doesn’t help, but I wish u healing and happiness
Mine lasted for about two years after my grandparents died it feels like forever but it does get better.
@@bella7789 Do you know what caused your depression or is it one of those obfuscating ones where the genesis of it seems unknown?
'I fell out of love with everything and convinced myself that everyone fell out of love with me' - one sentences that summarises depression so well
My mind is a mess. I can't control. I can't let this show.
And all of a sudden i feel nothing!
I can literally relate to every single word he said.
Are you coping well enough, would you say?
man, I don't think I have any more light to give; I feel so truly done this time
If I read sth like this I can not believe that there are people including me, we have to go through something so dangerous and black and deeeeep low all alone. Who cares honestly? They are fine if we just breathe…..
That alarm sound make me want to cry 😂
It’s the sound of a generational change. It wasn’t for the best.
Same. Even when I change my alarm to something I like the sound of, it's the fact that it represents waking up...
I can relate to this. I have been suffering from depression and anxiety for many years. In 2017, Found out that I have Autism. And of course, dealing with trust issues and PTSD.
You are not your struggles! You are bigger!!
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
You sound like me, minus the autism. How are you coping?
Mine since 2018 and atill now it's fuck me 😞
Wow I wish I could just be like “I’m no longer chained to my depression” just “choose to not to give in to the darkness” and magically be so much better and start healing. 🙄 but I’ve got a chemical imbalance and it doesn’t really work like that for a lot of us. Depression isn’t a choice. We can’t just “choose to see the light”. If we could, we would. I was 100% all in this video being a great representation of what it’s like to survive as I have until then... it’s essentially the toxic positivity of “just think positive” with background music and voice over metaphors. This is detrimental to people who suffer from depression because it just makes us feel more isolated, misunderstood, and like something is wrong with us.
I lost it when he said “if you looked deep into my eyes you would have seen the pain I’ve been trying to hide”
I guess I know where I related and it hit me the hardest.
Anyone reading this in 2021, I’m so sorry you relate to this too. I’m so sorry you’ve suffered as I have. And I’m sorry people think it’s a choice. It’s not. It’s not your fault and you are not alone.
BB, A reminder. To feel better reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath and mind [brain] are closely related and gives good relief from depression--anxiety. For a better life sit on a chair, neck straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. With daily practice the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Do the practice without any expectations. Change happens from within by itself. Day or night, when taking a walk, at office, sitting in a park, when reading, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Reduce negative social media. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes. Senior Counsellor.
i can relate this.. we are strong.
Aw, it literally breaks my heart just to see other people go through this phase, I'm 14 years old yet I go through this every single day... I usually go on UA-cam and scroll through the comments and have conversations with strangers just to let me know that I'm not alone... I'm not the only one feeling the pain like this. I want to let you know this too. Everyone like this, we're all together in this, that's all I wanted you to know. If you want, you can always talk back to me :)
@@TotallyNotLoaf I'm 56 and have dealt with this since i was a teen.
I AM a living testimony. I was there in the same place as you.
And I believed the same same lie as you , that It would never end
It does end.
You may think there is no way out, but just because you cant see on doesn’t mean there isn’t one you are looking from the wrong perspective. But for now appreciate every second of the pain because when your out you will look back and gain honor
May I ask what you did to help cope and/ or what helped you get out of it ?
How? How and when?
This is one of the best short films I have ever seen, you have done such an amazing job with the editing, videography and narration, I feel so much emotion connected to this film and it's scary how relatable it is for so many people, myself included. I don't often comment on videos but just had to say just how beautifully done this is, you should be so proud of this. Definitely subscribing, hope to see more of your incredible work!
Wow thank you so much for saying that!!
I agree. From a film makers perspective, I was taking a look at everything and that inspired me since I'm doing film making at uni, and content wise, it resonated with me even greater.
@@SavMears Thank you for the beauty
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need! 0:00
YES very sure of bergwilly11__. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
@@JamesTaylor-ff4dpIs he on instegram?
Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode, enough to start working on my mental health.
''its really hard to find the right words ,but when i do ...its hard to say''~true
This video saved my life. It stopped me from dying my suicide one day. Well done for making this.
Your life is worth living and we need you hear in this world Henk!! Hold onto hope - better is coming!!
@@SavMears you are a cinematic genius because this video is awesome and one of the best I've seen
SENDING YOU LOVE HENK! You're so brave for sharing this. Be the light of your own life. Stay solid. Stay Pure. - Quanie
Wow! That is very poignant. I hope you're doing well?
Thank you for expressing what I can't express. Stay strong and keep fighting! Sending virtual support from Malaysia!
Thank you so much for your support!!
Heyyy
Watching this @ 6pm crying in my sleep feeling drained 😫
You are not alone! Just know that it gets better and the best is yet to come! Better things are ahead!! The pain won't last forever!
Similar to me, I was watching these videos late at night...
this is so good. needs more attention
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
A lot of people are scared to talk about / listen to depression, I know this because a lot of people I've spoken to have either ignored me or abused me for my depression. If there were more videos like this, or at least, if the videos like this were pushed out further, then maybe the social norm would shift. You are correct.
@@dolorosaenigmakil I 100% agree with you. I’m sorry to hear that:/ Just know that you’re an amazing human being, and worthy to be listened to. 💜 I wish you nothing but the best in life.. We got this!
@@naimah6058 😥 Big love to you. Thank you. I'm trying my best. I think after I'm gone people will watch my videos and listen to things I've said and maybe understand me once I'm gone. Maybe it might help someone else. Whilst I'm here though, I don't think I'll matter.
@@dolorosaenigmakil You matter so much. NEVER believe the lies depression tries to tell you. Your voice IS being heard, I hear you clearly. Your videos are beyond amazing. The videos you make have helped me understand depression even more. I’m so grateful for your existence. Thank you💜
"even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you, God are with me."-Psalms23,4
"I feel alone even if I'm surrounded by people"
yes, I know...
This is really hitting home with me. I have just started my medication today to help depression anxiety & ptsd . I hope i become better. For me it was getting worse the older im getting. My thoughts have been scary that's why I've reached out for help.. god helps us🙏🙏 please be nice people we don't know what anyone is going through!!
the worse part is it comes & goes. I realize my life is truly amazing, I’m immensely blessed , my family is loving, I’m healthy, etc. but randomly when I’m alone & it’s quiet I feel very sad, broken, lost
"you are not your pain. you are what you make of it." ❤
this film is gorgeous. thank you for this!
He explained my entire life in a short series, but he forgot to add that music is the only thing that keeps me going.
Aw, it literally breaks my heart just to see other people go through this phase, I'm 14 years old yet I go through this every single day... I usually go on UA-cam and scroll through the comments and have conversations with strangers just to let me know that I'm not alone... I'm not the only one feeling the pain like this. I want to let you know this too. Everyone like this, we're all together in this, that's all I wanted you to know. If you want, you can always talk back to me :)
Music is what keeps me going too! Different types. Art is my saviour.
Music has been the one thing that I’ve been able to still enjoy when declining mental health keeps me from enjoying anything else
@@TotallyNotLoaf you’re a good person :)
Never underestimate the power of music
what i love about this video is that the character they used to this film, everytime im seeing a vid like this its always the females who shows & im just amazed to this channel that they created a vid for a male who also experience severe mental illness. i really appreciate this, this will help men to speak up more bc we do not know what men's going through with their lives. 10/10
The moment when i want to scream but then i realise, i dont live alone.
I relate 💯
"You are not less than because of what you feel. You are not your pain"
I m going through depression,and this movie described pain of a depressed person accurately. Great short film
It's great how at the end, the light of hope still burns bright like the fire inside..!!!
👍 🧡
this really needs more attention
It really does. I've been ignored and/or abused by people for talking and expressing my depression in honest and non-harmful ways, but I think it's because people fear what they're not used to. If things like this was more wide spread, maybe the social norm would shift to a more caring and understanding state...
This is almost my story, I am struggling with anxiety every day. Nothing interests me anymore. I laugh for hiding my sadness 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 thanks for this beautiful short film. May God bless you 🙏
I hope that everyone who has written here about being able to scream….. I don’t know where everyone lives but please find a place that you can scream. Beach, park ,when you’re alone at your home. Please just scream. Scream till you can’t anymore and cry. Bawl your eyes out. Then feel the relief. It is really healing I hope everyone on this page is doing better then you were that day you put a reply God and universe bless you
I've been feeling very suicidal recently, more so than ever before, I'd say. And as well as the music that I listen to that creates catharsis for me, I've been looking through UA-cam videos, both fiction and vlogs revolving around depression and suicide. I came across a young man named Adam Maier-Clayton and his videos resonated with me deeply and inspired me to start my own channel. I feel a great sense of love for him, I hope he's resting easy. And along with Adam, this short film here has also inspired me. I think this is my favourite depression short film that I've come across so far. Everything that the dude was saying hit me, it was so uncanny! It really hit me. And the fact he (kinda?) looks like me (not really, but this is the first short depression film that I've seen a black guy, and I guess on a subconscious level it made me feel like I was looking at myself somehow, but anyway...) it just made it all feel somewhat surreal. Hearing my words come out of another shell... but they're not just my words, they are the words of many. My now ex partner broke up with me because she didn't like depressed people, she considered me a burden (her words) and for that she couldn't simply walk away but she had to punish me too. The hate was both shocking and traumatising. But it's just another reason why some people might just feel safer keeping their true feelings inside. Sometimes people do get angry at you for being depressed and so you try your best to keep it inside, or at the very least, dilute what you share. But I've found that on these videos, the commenters are seemingly people who just want to be able to express themselves without judgement or hate, and in a strange sort of way, it's like us randoms are closer than people who were actually meant to be closer. Much love to you all and if you got this far, thanks for reading.
Thank you for sharing that
@@SavMears Thanks so much for your art and the reply! I see a vision of broken parts coming together, in a sort of claymation way :) My mind is always thinking creatively, and whilst many say there's no cure for depression, I think for me personally, being creative will be that cure. I want to make films, both fiction and documentary style, talking about deep things that will hopefully create a catharsis for those who follow me on my perennial quest to happiness. Big love to you all
Carry on my brother.
Wow 😖😥
@@stylllyfe Thank you, bro. I'm trying my best. Hope life's treating you well
“The questions are endless, the answers nonexistent.” So true.
I'm a walking dead. I have no words to express my feelings but this film.
I'm staring in this empty space
Wish my hearts stops beating soon...
Axactly thts me 😢😢I feel like tht every day
@@katlegoeuland9036 . Life is meant to be enjoyed. Take responsibility. If needed visit a psychologist. Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a healthier life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Day or night, when taking a walk, when reading, on the phone, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
@@shyaaammeneen63 I'll try that but I've been to psycholist but it's not helping u know ahhh I don't think I'll ever enjoy life with the situation I'm at everyday it's tough for me to be living I only think if I cn leave ths world everything would be better u know... Life is just so painful Im in a big war everyday
@@katlegoeuland9036 Self-pity is a waste of time. I went through 15 years back but recovered in 1 years with basic medication, daily meditation, prayer, free from constipation, and above all determination to enjoy life. I have made it a habit to observe my breath sensations even during my normal activities with eyes open or closed and I am feeling relaxed and healthy. Read my msg and do the simple practice daily and be determined to enjoy life. Take short walks and watch motivating ideos of Joel Osteen etc. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir-Counsellor.
@@shyaaammeneen63 mybe u don't understand what's happening its not about self pity cz self pity ain't gonna help with anything it's about how I'm suffering nd struggling everyday with no help atleast u were using something to help u recover nd u were having hope to live myself I'm just hopeless nd helpless in this world ahh I dnt hv peace at all I don't even feel comfortable being here the pains the struggle tht im going through everyday it's evn difficult to explain how bad it is I try evn not to focus on it it's just something tht it's in me cz it's been long facing this situation I'm just tired of everything but will also try wat u saying but I really hate life I evn feel it's not for me mybe others...
Thank you for this brilliant and accurate representation of what depression and anxiety does to people. Thank you for your gift
this is the most accurate film I’ve watched about what living with anxiety and depression is like.
This guy just told my life
Sorry 🥺💝
Same. I hope you're coping okay though? :(
Struggling at this moment and it’s just so comforting to know I am not the only one and that you can get out of it. I literally got emotional watching the vid and reading all the comments!
We got this guys, it’s gonna get better
This brought me to tears, appreciate you for spreading this message for people who have no idea how it is, and dare to judge people who struggle with this pain !
This video is so relatable, I have been struggling with depression for many years during my adolescence and I wonder everyday if anyone knows what I am going through and if anyone cares about my pain
Today I saw my friends again and I couldn't fake a smile. I told them how much I was struggling, and they understood. I'm so grateful for them; I hope they stick around for as long as possible.
No matter whoever you are what ever you do, you gave me hope! Thank you and wish you heal soon!
Thank you! I cried but it felt great to have someone inner stand the turmoil. Winters are tougher for me but reading the comments gave me hope! I won't quit
"You are not a pain.You are what you make of it."Gave me goosebumps
After watching this i’ve realised I am now cured of my depression and it happened by loving who I am… flaws and all. Only I can judge me, and I am Imperfectly perfect… and that’s ok. Xx
I literally got chills watching this short-film👏
Have never seen anything more accurate and relatable than this vid🙂
02:53 just heartbreaking 🥺
• Today I have something very important to tell you
• God is justice, He is just and does not rejoice in injustice, sin is injustice and God hates. We are all sinners and the destiny of sinners is hell.
• But God, with his immense love, sent his son Jesus Christ, to come into the world, to be like a human being, to die for humanity and to forgive our sins.
• So that we can now have a second chance to be reconciled to God and be saved through Jesus Christ, who gave his life for us because he loves us.
• Jesus loves me, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves all mankind, that's why He died on the cross for us, He is risen and can save you from eternal damnation and give you eternal salvation. Jesus will return to seek those who have accepted him in their hearts.
• We can confess our sins to Him, because He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all injustice.
• For if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
• Jesus loves you, and Jesus wants to save you, you can be saved! Believe in Him and obey His word.
God bless you! 💓
I think no one could ever explain the way I feel more like this thank you for your help ❤️
" I'm not needed"
That was the most relatable thing for me
"ask to God for help, you will not feel alone anymore" one day all this fear and pain will be tranformate on a path of blessings...until there i sill believe in cure taking care my heart and keeping this in one safe place, cause while my head is blocked with all of this overthinking, my heart still biting, even in this anxiety... while my heart is biting, i am still living.
facts
"I fell out of life of everything and I convinced myself everyone fell out of love of me"
my whole life in a single line 🙃
Anyone else just sobbing their way throught this? If this is you - I am so sorry that you have to know what this debilitating darkness is. I know exactly how relentlessly helpless it all can feel, not to mention how utterly exhausting just about everything is. Even the smallest of tasks drains you physically, mentally and spiritually - and it leaves you feeling hopelessly lost in your very own skin. The worst part of all of this however, is feeling like you are a burden on those you love the most in the world. I just want you to know that despite what your depression tells you - that you are genuinely and sincerely worth fighting for - please believe me when I tell you that you matter to this world more than you can possibly realize. You are SO worth the fight - please don't give up.
the thing about depression is that it's so easy to hide. it's so simple to just make everyone think you're perfectly happy and okay when you're fucking not. when i feel empty i hate myself for not feeling and wind up cutting myself all the time. it's like drugs--once you start, it's hard to stop.
Never heard anything more real in my life.
That feeling where u wanna end everything but u don't wanna cause pain to ur family and others. Man how can i dissappear in peace
Watching this gave me a feeling in the DEEP of my stomach. I’ve been hiding panic/anxiety attacks for the past couple weeks. I’m at a lost for words how spot on this was. Literally my goal as of lately has been just to get through until the next day. And then REPEAT! This is definitely the most invasive, uncontrollable, most hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with. I’m trying to remind myself that nothings to big for my Heavenly Father. This burden is not my own.
Hey sister 🤝 I know personally, this is tough for me. But you don't have to hide the anxiety or panic attacks from everyone. Its humbling to admit... but none of us are perfect. We all have weaknesses. And it helps not to walk through it all alone. God gave us the body of Christ for our good.
And like I said I struggle a lot with this... These words could literally be aimed at myself today haha.
This is the verse I'm thinking of.
1 John 1:7 ☀️
"But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin."
I knew the power of prayer and having Christ as my Savior, but you need a human touch of a real friend --mortal😊
I went through those moments of doubt and despair and thank God I'm still here today😊❤️🙏
So much relatable.... at childhood everything was good ...childhood is what I LIVED
Never thought I'll find something like this that can relate to me soo much. this tells it all.. ☁️💜
Truth... Light... Feelings in light... exist in the realm of control. I am not my pain.
We rise above our pain! I'm still taking my steps...
he explained it perfectly. this is how i've felt for a whole year
I know the pain this character feels... This is a good illustration of what depressed ppl go through...
All the words.....that I never could say. Thank for you this. For giving my mental illness a voice, because all it wants is to be heard. To be seen. To be acknowledged. To those who don't understand.
^this is the reason we made this. Know that you are not alone. You matter, you are seen and the world needs you and your voice! God Bless you!
theses short films are always so good but i always find them when i’m at my worse causing me to binge watch these making me feel worse then i already did..
I kind of know what you mean, but at the same time they can be cathartic? I find that with sad music too, I prefer melancholic music. I feel like it makes me feel better.... but who even knows. What makes you feel better, if anything?
@@dolorosaenigmakil Why watch sad shows?. Mind absorbs negativity. Watch happy programmes and decide to enjoy life. You are responsible for your own life. Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a healthier life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Day or night, when taking a walk, when reading, on the phone, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
@@shyaaammeneen63 The irony and strangeness with me is when I watch happy shows (I watch a lot of comedies too) they make me feel sad. I'm not completely sure as to why, but everything makes me sad, happy art, sad art, being awake, going to sleep. Nothing is worse than the other. I will however try those breathing exercises, I need to for singing lessons too. Does all this help you? Thank you =)
@@dolorosaenigmakil You have a nice name. Be free and fly like a butterfly. You must be taking some medication. Combine medication with my practice. Since many years I have made it a habit to observe my breath sensations even during my normal activities and I am feeling relaxed and healthy. Very simple. No deep breathing or counting needed. Read my msg and do the practice regularly to develop your mental muscles during these challenging times.
@@shyaaammeneen63 I appreciate that :) The name is for my channel and the videos I'm posting. My aim is to talk about everything and then fly above it all and come out as a progressive, positive new being. Wish me luck?
this hits so hard feel like no one cares or understands or even care to understand and judges when you try to explain... for the ones who suffers from this you are strong and worth so much! although we feel like no ones cares, this is a path for us to take alone and to come out stronger because we stood alone and made it alone. always believe in yourself and remember how strong you are. sending so much love to all. deep breaths
I have so many respect for the creator of this, and the fact no one disliked.
God will turn your biggest trial into your greatest testimony.
Dude I can’t be watching this high at 4am. I’m 5 minutes in and tears are streaming. Gonna have to peace out before I collapse in on myself 😀
Every day I am fighting this depression in all kinds of ways, but I am not getting anything for it, I feel that depression will not leave me anymore and it will be with me until the end of my life. I have endured this burden until now. I hope that people who are struggling with mental problems will reconsider the continuation of their generation.
Everyday, all day into night.
I just suffer with depression. I can't move.. it's like I'm lifeless, and don't care. I hate existing like this.. !
Are you stuck?.. I feel like I am.
The part with the grief ,heavy heart and painful sounds... Totally relatable
This hits different as a college student
Brielle, Life is meant to be en joyed despiter problems. Avoid comparing your life with others especially in terms of physical appearance and material aspect. . Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath and mind [brain] are closely related causing stress-anxiety. For a better life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Do the practice without any expectations. Change happens from within if done regularly. Day or night, when taking a walk, sitting in a park, when reading, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
this definitely drew tears
Is it something you also relate to? :(
@@dolorosaenigmakil yeah man deeply
Cannot resist tears!! So completely relatable this is, words seems to not be enough to describe the feeling. It's haunting, breaking and too difficult. Thank you for this❤️
2 weeks ago I was truly happy for the first time in my life. One person changed everything for the better. For a short moment, I could finally feel that I'm alive, that there is somebody who actually cares about me and who I can trust. I'm thankful that I could experience how it fesls like to live a normal life.
But now, I'm feeling depressed again for no reason. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to get up of my bed, I just want to cry but I can't, because somebody could hear me and they would ask questions.