CHILDHOOD SIGNS I WAS GAY

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  • @laurenelloise
    @laurenelloise  3 роки тому +84

    AHHH how are we already at the 10th video?? 🥺What were some childhood signs you were LGBTQ+? 🌈P.S. my shirt is from shop.laurenelloise.com/ every purchase goes towards creating MORE videos!

    • @ajsuhcks
      @ajsuhcks 2 роки тому +1

      First reply-

    • @fruity9609
      @fruity9609 2 роки тому +5

      Omfg I would tell my friend that if she was a guy I would date her

    • @janethart3179
      @janethart3179 5 місяців тому +1

      My best friend and I went to the park one day when I was younger and she asked if I wanted to kiss her and I said yes. For me it just felt right and then we started to hit it off for a couple of months and eventually she became my girlfriend and we got married 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈😍😍💞

    • @TwentyPercentPeppers
      @TwentyPercentPeppers 11 днів тому

      When i was around eight i had a weird obsession with Lightning Dust from MLP and when i was nine i "realized" i was bi and told to my best friend -also outed bi, im lucky to grow up with people like her- that i had feelings for her which lead to four years a emotional rollercoaster and finally the discovery that i´m a nonbinary lesbian (prbl ace)

  • @sloth_crew
    @sloth_crew 3 роки тому +542

    Today I seen a cute lesbian couple holding hands and I thought it was the best thing I’ve seen all day xx

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  3 роки тому +108

      Oh my gosh cuteeee I love when that happens. It’s rare that I see it but when I do my heart is happy. !!

    • @froggy2128
      @froggy2128 2 роки тому +22

      My friend is gay and her and her gf are so cute it makes me so happy every time

    • @AgnesAbeatrix
      @AgnesAbeatrix 2 роки тому +10

      OMG, me too! My gay heart died on the metro station this morning, where I saw them.

    • @rihannnahanvelt
      @rihannnahanvelt 2 роки тому +12

      Sammeeee when I see 2 lesbians I’m like awww I like that when I see 2 guys dating I’m like awwww when I see a boy and a girl I don’t really think of anything and I’m lesbian lol

    • @urlocalchestnutmaregirlie3394
      @urlocalchestnutmaregirlie3394 Рік тому +3

      I’m lesbian, but I haven’t found the right girl, I’ve only ever had one female crush and can’t find a single other person to interest in.

  • @vktrbnd
    @vktrbnd 9 місяців тому +56

    I’ve never been embarrassed of a straight couple kissing in the show, but I was always obsessed with wlw couples, I would watch the whole show just for that couple, even though those weren’t the main characters

  • @18holajuji92
    @18holajuji92 3 роки тому +214

    1) the fact that I always felt the obligation of pick a boy to have a crush on him (cause my friends always talks about boys and i didn't want to be excluded)
    2) in every tv show or movie, I've always looked for the prettiest girl
    3) compare myself with other girls
    4) never want to dance with a boy or kiss him at a party
    (sorry for the bad english but it isn't my native tongue) hope these could help you to figure it out

    • @artsy.stay_
      @artsy.stay_ 2 роки тому +15

      the first one tho- like same! I thought I had a crush on this one boy but I don't think it was real feelings

    • @vid_save
      @vid_save 2 роки тому +12

      THE SECOND ONE IS SO FREAKING RELATABLE WHAT-

    • @Ivechangedmyusertomanytimes
      @Ivechangedmyusertomanytimes 7 місяців тому

      @@vid_saveikr

  • @eeezzzrrraaa8562
    @eeezzzrrraaa8562 2 роки тому +135

    I always knew I liked girls but I thought of it as "I'm a girl so I like girls, It's like self-love" yeah

    • @CryssiBear
      @CryssiBear 5 місяців тому

      i am 27 years old, in a hetero or straight passing relationship and just realized almost a year ago that I am bisexual. And I also did similar to you, I thought every girl would look at girls like that too or that my "girl crushes" were normal lol. it was more so, every girl looks at other girls and admires them/checks them out in my head at that time. But obviously I ended up realizing it was not normal how I was doing it lol.

  • @zellalaing5439
    @zellalaing5439 Рік тому +60

    Im realising watching this how much religion and traditional attitudes created such a block for me to even entertain the question whether i was genuinely straight, the past few months have been eye opening finally taking that time to myself and reflect on everything and listening to other lesbians and finally realising why "my husband" to me sounds so unatural, because saying "my wife" fills me with happiness. Thats what i want, took me a while, but i finally feel happy i know who i am.

  • @galpal
    @galpal 3 роки тому +327

    1) the total lack of male celebrity crushes 2) the OVERWHELMING love for female celebrity crushes 3) the intense urge to be best friends with every female English teacher / Drama teacher / director / supervisor 4) always playing the "boyfriend" in pretend
    ...
    Yep, definitely gay! 😅💕🏳️‍🌈

    • @karolinakoziskova3634
      @karolinakoziskova3634 3 роки тому +17

      Oh yeah. Number 3 is a must hahaha. 🙈 There is always something about female English teachers

    • @jannafreudenberg1878
      @jannafreudenberg1878 2 роки тому +1

      Yaaas 100% obvious

    • @vid_save
      @vid_save 2 роки тому +1

      Same for me-
      😰

    • @replying105
      @replying105 2 роки тому +2

      Number 2 I 100% felt that

    • @Sambocha
      @Sambocha 2 роки тому +4

      I literally used to always play the boyfriend when I was a kid. I would always be the male characters when playing with my sisters 😅

  • @maryflowers3825
    @maryflowers3825 3 роки тому +81

    This is so relatable, I remember being really uncomfortable when my friends were like “omg! (Insert man name) is so cute!” Turns out I was just gay lol

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  3 роки тому +21

      I RELATEEEEE hahah and you'd try and be like "yeah sure ... they are" but you were just lying

  • @Shae29
    @Shae29 3 роки тому +102

    Before I realized that I was gay, I grew this obsession with the character Liesl from the movie The Sound of Music. Many people love her dress in the duet she sings with Rolf, but i definitely went to extra mile and tried to find a dress as close to hers, i memorized the choreography to the song and her scenes, and I even bought the actress’ books on the movie🙈🙈

    • @CamCoulombe
      @CamCoulombe 3 роки тому +6

      Omg, i also had an obssession with her too😂🏳️‍🌈

    • @songbird-in-the-night
      @songbird-in-the-night Місяць тому

      I know I'm very late to this but I DID TOO AND I'M REALIZING JUST NOW. I would sit there and think she was so pretty

  • @plainoutnobody.justnobody597
    @plainoutnobody.justnobody597 Рік тому +16

    When I was in kindergarten I remember thinking “if I were a boy I would have sooooo many crushes” and there was also this one celebrity who I was like “oh my god if I were gay I would like her”. The person was the person who played Meredith in the second parent trap

  • @thewhiteparrot6611
    @thewhiteparrot6611 3 роки тому +107

    I actually found out I was gay only this year as I learn more of different sexualities and the lgbtq+ community and got introduced into it by gay audios and also gay moments in movies/tv series and eventually trying to find out if I am gay through watching videos like yours and other gay content creators and that's when I realised that I am gay and honestly I am happy I am.
    And now to think about it I was never attracted to boys at all and I could never relate to my friends calling certain boys cute and when they talk about boys, I don't join in their conversations cause I really cannot relate and it doesn't sit right with me.
    Also there were also signs that I realised now that I had been gay since I was in primary school even though at that time I never knew what sexuality was. There was always this friend of mine that whenever I see her, I always felt this fuzzy feeling and always felt more awkward than normal when I am close to her and have trouble to even start or have a conversation with her cause I would I trip over my words really often.
    So yea now looking back at these moments it's probably cause I have a crush on her back in primary school. Anyways sorry for the lengthy comment but great video as usual Lauren! 😄

    • @replying105
      @replying105 2 роки тому +5

      My friends always talk obout about their boy crushes and I never seem to know the reason why so I just tell them I never had a crush and then will be all shocked about it.
      But now I feel like I might be lesbian

    • @thewhiteparrot6611
      @thewhiteparrot6611 2 роки тому +5

      @@replying105 rightt that's definitely a sign

  • @ameliatropman9729
    @ameliatropman9729 3 роки тому +51

    I realized I was a lesbian this year and the biggest sign I was gay from when I was little was
    in preschool i wrote a story (well like i told it to one of the teachers at my preschool and they wrote it down for me) and the story was about two mermaid princesses who save the world and at the end they get married
    one of them was the same name as me and the other was the same name as my best friend

  • @kates637
    @kates637 3 роки тому +73

    your videos always have such a positive vibe

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  3 роки тому +18

      aww this is so good to hear!! 🥰 this vid in particular was fun just to have a lil giggle at myself for being so oblivious

  • @islaaat
    @islaaat 3 роки тому +41

    1) the time that I told my best friend that I didn't want to marry a boy in year 1
    2) the time that I had a boyfriend in year 7 and couldn't explain to him why I liked him
    3) I wrote a story with lesbians in it and I thought I was straight
    4) Lesbian couples made me really happy and I thought I was straight
    5) I had this one conversation with my dad in which I mentioned my future husband or wife (I thought I was straight)

  • @WynnK_
    @WynnK_ 2 роки тому +8

    9:17 okay this is TOO relatable. I always thought I was just comparing. It’s nice hearing someone else had this experience!

  • @donut1550
    @donut1550 2 роки тому +56

    When I was little, I felt a certain attraction to girls and I think I knew I was bi the whole time, I just never realized it until recently. I feel like I 60% like girls and 40% like boys. Unfortunately my family is kind of homophobic 😞 and I still haven’t come out yet…

    • @gracacarvalho424
      @gracacarvalho424 2 роки тому +10

      ❤️ on the same boat. I could never tell my family ..

    • @ApersonnamedPon
      @ApersonnamedPon 3 місяці тому

      IVE HAD THIS TOO OH MY GO

  • @lani5315
    @lani5315 3 роки тому +19

    The love hate relationship with Victoria secret was the deal breaker for me

  • @niat1221
    @niat1221 3 роки тому +27

    Before I was introduced to any lgbt+ characters in tv shows and movies I had a harry potter obsession. When I talked with my friends about the cast everyone had a crush on daniel or tom and I just really liked Emma (I even had an ig fan page). I watched every single one of her movies, her interviews and now when I look back I realize how gay this was. Also, the first time I saw 2 girls kissing was on the tv series "the 100" and I was like girls can do that? I guess around that time I started questioning my sexuality. Anyways thanks for sharing this video and doing this content where a lot of people feel seen and comfortable while watching!

    • @abbymaddox7616
      @abbymaddox7616 2 роки тому +3

      I remember having a huge crush on Emma Watson and doing the same thing.

  • @ceekay3143
    @ceekay3143 Рік тому +9

    Oh, I was late to my own sexuality! Being a fat nerd, it wasn't my focus at first. Then the anxiety and trauma meant I was REALLY avoiding potential dates and relationships - not that I was attracting much attention or was good at going places and socialising. Once a guy asked for my number and I panicked, said I didn't know it and needed to go check (I was travelling Europe, so this was true), then just stayed in my room for the rest of the night to avoid him.
    I distinctly remember walking across my uni campus and suddenly just being like "oh yeah, girls are an option for me too!". Like, my best friend and housemate was gay, and we had spent all our time at university hanging with the Queer Collective doing queer things, but it didn't really click that I could also have options?
    But almost every actor I would really admire for their "acting skills" was female. I wasn't obsessing over sex scenes or anything like that, but I would seek out and watch as much of their filmography as I could. Looking back, I think they might have been squishes (asexual crushes).
    TL;DR: I identify as queer (knew and accepted my weirdness before my sexuality, so it seems easy and makes sense). If you want to get specific, I would say panromantic demisexual.
    I didn't enter my first official relationship - or have my first kiss - until I was 33. I'm not sure if we're still in our relationship, taking a break to work on our own issues, or if we are officially broken up. Mental illness and neurodivergence be like that, I guess. I think we are better as friends, but they kind of do relationship things with their friends anyway, so I guess it doesn't matter as long as we are both happy and respecting each other's boundaries? True queer relationship mess lol.

  • @nynkeoosterloo5469
    @nynkeoosterloo5469 2 роки тому +13

    why does every lesbian had a crush on their english teacher

  • @daisyflower1545
    @daisyflower1545 3 роки тому +55

    I had crushes on girl cartoon characters, had the biggest crush on Rihanna, thought kissing girls seemed much more fun than kissing boys, already knew I had no interest in marrying a guy when I was older infact I thought it would be the worst thing to ever happen to me, when I played Dollies I made my favorite doll gay and I made my sim gay when I played Sims.

    • @doratheexplorer87
      @doratheexplorer87 3 роки тому +5

      I always make my sims gay

    • @laxgoalie1177
      @laxgoalie1177 Рік тому +2

      @@doratheexplorer87I don’t know how to make boy sims so all of them are gay

  • @stupiddreamer1352
    @stupiddreamer1352 3 роки тому +45

    I though it was just a coincidence, but since always my favorite characters were all girls, always, then, in school, I never felt anything for a guy, so everytime one was nice to me, I used to think I was falling for them... no, I just started liking them, in a friend way, because it was a point where there was like 5 guys, so yeah... everytime someone said "omg * male character/actor/person * is soooo attractive"... I couldn't relate to... When playing like a Family with friends, cousins... I was the dog... I never wanted a husband in the family, just a dog... my barbies? Lesbians, and yes, I had a male character, but they were lesbians anyway :)
    I thought I was bi, then pan, but no, just a lesbian, a lesbian who like her pan best friend but she just like me as her friend so... yeah... now I'm sure I'm lesbian

    • @gemmawilson9227
      @gemmawilson9227 3 роки тому +6

      I was the same when i was younger. My mum has a memory of me getting a doll set from my grandma when i was 7 and it had a man, woman, two kids and a dog and my mum said i played with the woman, kids and dog and the man doll was lying on the floor at the other side of the living room lol

    • @stupiddreamer1352
      @stupiddreamer1352 3 роки тому +2

      @@gemmawilson9227 xD

  • @zalazkar2466
    @zalazkar2466 2 роки тому +15

    There was this one girl in fourth grade and i wanted to do everything with her. I was definitely obsessed. Only now am i realizing that I had a crush on her.

    • @replying105
      @replying105 2 роки тому +2

      There was this one girl in the 5th grade and I was also obsessed with her. I I never thought of her as an actual crush just as some who I always thought about but now I realize the I'm a aro ace lesbian

  • @SoftieShortcake
    @SoftieShortcake 3 роки тому +15

    thank you so much for this video, really. i relate so much to this whole video and it’s really helping with my comphet. to be honest, i really needed this, i’ve been so scared i’ve just been faking it for attention or that i haven’t “met the right guy,” or something- just, thank you so very much!

  • @mollyd95
    @mollyd95 3 роки тому +67

    When I was obsessed with Twilight, I always said I was Team Alice. Definitely a sign! lol

    • @mollyd95
      @mollyd95 3 роки тому +7

      And then when I was obsessed with The Hunger Games, I always said I was Team Katniss! ahaha

    • @emmabeck6642
      @emmabeck6642 2 роки тому +5

      Oh me too. I always really liked Alice over all the others.

    • @nataliasoto0425
      @nataliasoto0425 Рік тому +1

      I was obsessed with Willow and Tara from Buffy the Vampire Slayer 😂😂😂😂 I wanted Tara to be my gf!!!😂😂😂

  • @hamontequila1104
    @hamontequila1104 2 роки тому +7

    I discovered I was aromantic when I noticed that I had never had a romantic relationship or had a celebrity crush. Then jaiden animation released a video about being aromantic. Then it just hit me like a truck. I was aromantic!

  • @user-iy9gu2gk8l
    @user-iy9gu2gk8l 5 днів тому +1

    I told my friend in 3rd grade that I wanted to marry her she explained sexuality and that would make me a lesbian, and I responded that I didn’t care. 6 years later nothing has changed. She still doesn’t like me but I have asked again since multiple times. Hopefully eventually she will.

  • @14..lily.y
    @14..lily.y 3 роки тому +9

    And then there was me having “crushes” on guys bc I internally felt like I had to 😃

  • @saml.purecats4695
    @saml.purecats4695 3 роки тому +17

    I had the same experience about loving 6 girls at the same time in my childhood but for me, at 27, polyamory blew my mind and explained so many things of my life!

  • @waltissussybakka
    @waltissussybakka 2 роки тому +7

    Fuk...every gay has had a crush on their English teacher is relatable af 😭😭❤️....you spoke the words of the gods

  • @elliotmartin2710
    @elliotmartin2710 3 роки тому +13

    I don’t know if I’m bi or lesbian because I know I’m attracted to women, and I think I’m lesbian because (specifically Tom Felton) I never found many boys attractive. But I can still see some celebrity boys and agree that they are attractive. So I’m on the fence about that. Also when you were talking about when someone asked you about your crush that reminded me that when I was younger I used to pretend to have crushes on boys in my class because I felt left out that all of my friends had crushed and I didn’t find any of them attractive.

  • @makyd6275
    @makyd6275 3 роки тому +3

    YES for diaries!!! ♥ thank you so much for everything ♥

  • @Cake-vf1xy
    @Cake-vf1xy Рік тому +3

    i’m a pan female, and for as long as i can remember i have had an attraction to girls, but one i can most vividly remember was in 3rd grade, when i had a crush on my best friend. she was super nice and i guess i just never thought to much of it because i didn’t know what i was feeling and i thought it was normal to feel that way. now i’ve finally figured out who i am and i’m still trying to accept myself, so i hope someday i will feel good about my sexuality 🥹 i actually currently have a girlfriend and i think i’m actually starting to accept myself more 😄

  • @Samanthagacha
    @Samanthagacha 8 місяців тому +1

    I know that I'm 2 years late.😂
    But I am trying to figure out my sexuality right now, and it's been kind of hard. I watched this vid and grabbed a paper and for every thing you said, I would put how much I could relate on a scale of 1-5. After taking watching vids, watching this video and thinking for a long time. I think I might be Lesbian... (It's exciting and scary at the same time🏳‍🌈
    😳)

  • @Ivysbiscuits
    @Ivysbiscuits 3 місяці тому +1

    currently questioning if i'm bi or a lesbian, i've identified as bi for ages but idk anymore
    i remember when i was younger i lovedddddd hannah montana and miley cyrus, i had a giant collage i made and FRAMED of her on the wall next to my bed, and i still didn't realise i was attracted to women until i was like 20 or something, now i'm 27 and still confused lmao

  • @sophievul
    @sophievul Рік тому +2

    I realised that I was gay not long ago. My main sign was my obsession with female characters. Like literally, I drew Twilight Sparkle from My Little Pony multiple times. This was when I was 6 or something. I also had a crush on Hermione Granger.
    Another sign was that I just chose a guy who I 'liked' randomly.

  • @reikomei4557
    @reikomei4557 3 роки тому +3

    Idk if I'm or not but I used to stare at the PRETTY GIRLS IN MY CLASS
    all the time.

  • @leorawong7552
    @leorawong7552 Рік тому +3

    I used to like the color blue, purple and pink so much .i mean i still do lol and im currently bisexual lol

  • @gracechen2397
    @gracechen2397 3 роки тому +5

    Yesss I relate so much to the buddy system thing. My buddy wasn’t there during one activity so one buddy had to pick me. I really wanted this one girl in particular to pick and when she did I tried not to show it but in my mind I git sooo happy and excited when she picked me.

  • @nicolenihon521
    @nicolenihon521 Рік тому +3

    OMG YES to Gwen Stefani, I had posters of her with her abs out all over my wall! I even had her calendar and after each month I would add the photo to my wall XD
    I even had her perfume that smelt like Malibu alcohol and was obsessed with Japan and harajuki fashion too. I'm a bit older than you so I listened to No Doubt on repeat as a child and then was fully into her as a teenager when the album you referenced was released! I do the same thing as you when I look back at my childhood - liked all the girls on shows and not the men, and it still didn't click! Doesn't help that no one teaches you what a lesbian is as a child, very confusing!

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  Рік тому +2

      oh my goddd, i cannot believe it wasnt just me! this has made me feel soooo much better about going through that as a tiny kid hahah i think by the time i was 13/14 i moved onto The Veronicas, then K-Stew lmao

  • @Why_are_all_good_names_chosen
    @Why_are_all_good_names_chosen 2 роки тому +2

    Omg this helped me so much!!
    I also had all these things in my childhood , i remember when my friends asked me who my crush was i just sayed a random name of a boy in our class now i know why i never was attracted to boys!

  • @airlea.
    @airlea. Рік тому +2

    I relate to this so much! But up until recently I convinced myself that I was asexual and all of my crushes were just "girl crushes" and not *real* crushes!

  • @sloth_crew
    @sloth_crew 3 роки тому +22

    Yayyy another great video, i love how you put all your time in to make videos for us. They are the best and thank you so much, I love your vids xx 🥰

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  3 роки тому +5

      Awww THANK YOI SO MUCH I REALLY MEAN IT 🖤🖤🖤🖤

  • @Jess-Rabbit
    @Jess-Rabbit 3 роки тому +5

    I am bisexual and it took me a really long time to accept it. My best friend in high school was majorly homophobic and I'm pretty convinced that she is represing her own gay thoughts. But anyway, I remember there being girls in high school that I would almost get obsessed with and I'd want to be their friend so bad. I thought they were so cool and would get embarrassed to talk to them even though I used to be pretty outgoing. I convinced myself that I just wanted to be friends and I admired them or thought the way they dressed was fun. But now I realize I just had a crush and totally wished I could go out with those girls. I wish I realized it sooner.

  • @gracep2910
    @gracep2910 6 місяців тому +1

    I HAD A GIANT POSTER FROM THE RUNAWAYS ON THE BACK OF MY DOOR! so relatable 😂

  • @evaaflower
    @evaaflower 3 роки тому +5

    in primary school there was a phase where everyone had crushes on someone and because i wanted to fit in i made up a crush on that one boy and wrote our initials with hearts everywhere. little did we all know i didnt actually liked him xD

  • @aduckinatinytophat
    @aduckinatinytophat Рік тому +1

    I remember when I was eight, my friends asked me what my dream guy looked like. I sincerely made it up completely because I just... I don’t know... didn’t know??
    I also remember being obsessed with Marceline and Princess Bubblegum, their relationship....
    I was so desperate to be them, I always thought about that and I wanted it for myself!
    Fast forward to now and I’m living my childhood dream with my girlfriend ❤

  • @r3i4lif3
    @r3i4lif3 Рік тому +2

    I can't tell if im les but i've been showing like around all the signs. I'm thinking of coming out tonight.

  • @A_DAM_PROBLEM_ANDREW
    @A_DAM_PROBLEM_ANDREW Рік тому +2

    When I was like 7 or 8 my mom and dad walked into my room while I was listening to I kissed a girl and I recently came out as bi to my parents a few months ago and now it's I've seen the signs, there are so much more to lol. (I'm a teenager now)

  • @thisisafamilyshow8805
    @thisisafamilyshow8805 3 роки тому +5

    I love how your videos are always so happy, they brighten my day

  • @yooooooobrooooo
    @yooooooobrooooo Рік тому +1

    how did i only just realize i was lesbian like a month ago with ALL THESE SIGNS LOL whenever i watch movies or read books im always wanting to hear about the women and ive gotten those obsessions with my friends where id like some more than others because i thought they were pretty… how did i never register thissss

  • @Iwastoolatetochangemyhandle
    @Iwastoolatetochangemyhandle 10 місяців тому +2

    I’m proving you wrong. I do not and have not had a crush in a teacher.

  • @aliceb17
    @aliceb17 4 місяці тому

    OMG Hi-5!!! It was Kellie for me personally 😍😍

  • @Tezpovs
    @Tezpovs 3 роки тому +5

    The fact I don’t have a clue what I am but I’ve been binge watching all these amazing videos you have ❤️❤️

  • @maggieo1683
    @maggieo1683 2 роки тому +2

    Lol I had such a crush on Kristen Stewart in Twilight too! So many people discussed if they would rather Edward or Jacob and like you I usually said Edward because that was how it was in the books. But I remember being much more intrigued by Bella and thinking she was the most attractive character- lol

  • @StrayKidsAreSlayKids
    @StrayKidsAreSlayKids 5 місяців тому +2

    I dont know in im lesbian or bi, so i just use sapphic for myself(im closeted btw), but i dont know how i didnt know i was gay. When i would imagine a wedding i saw a girl, i would always (and still) imagine kissing a girl, like that was normal. I dont ever see men in my fantasies, but ive had one male crush,so idk if im bi?

  • @annyway5636
    @annyway5636 2 роки тому +1

    and i've been obsessed with this girl from my school since i was 13

  • @aditikrishna23
    @aditikrishna23 3 роки тому +3

    whenever i watched a show/movie, i’d always force myself to be interested in the guys just bc all the other girls did 😭

  • @mysticballistichollyberrie3381
    @mysticballistichollyberrie3381 2 роки тому +2

    When I played with dolls when i was seven I only played with the dolls as lesbian couples

  • @veerasofia2499
    @veerasofia2499 2 роки тому +2

    After already having a child and having been in a crappy relationship with the only guy who’s ever shown any interest at me one day watching Friends it kinda just popped in my head and I cried at my boyfriend I THINK I’M GAY 🥺🥺 I had always been thinking I’m just bi but I had become obsessed with the thought that I wanna be with women and for months I just googled Am I bi How do I know if I’m bi and I realized that I was watching every movies and series just staring the beautiful women and their bodies and when I finally got that I don’t have to be with men EVER I was just so relieved and so happy that I actually cried and smiled for a couple of days 🤯 I just wasn’t ready to accept the facts when I was a teenager cause I was bullied by my very toxic friends about everything I ever did but now I have the confidence to be who I am! It’s still very hard to give myself the permission to look at girls and I still feel like it was forbidden and wrong for some reason but I’m still so happy and much less depressed than ever 💪🏻

    • @veerasofia2499
      @veerasofia2499 2 роки тому +2

      The signs in the past would be that I was very obsessed with Emma Watson, Kristen Stewart and other female actresses and singers, I was jealous when my friends had other friends and they weren’t completely mine, I felt so awkward changing clothes with friends and even family members, my clothing style has been kinda masculine my whole life and cool boys were my role models; I didn’t want to attract them but wanted to be seen as cool as them, I had ’crushes’ on boys that I just decided and complained that I can’t get them but never even bothered to try, I dated my (guy) friend and got very anxious when I agreed to date him, I thought he was just bad at stuff cause I wasn’t satisfyed, I didn’t like kissing, I didn’t get what’s the fuss about men cause I found them lame and stupid, I was 10 years old when my friends asked do I like girls or boys and I answered girls and then changed my answer cause they were like eww, I hated everything related to pride stuff, I told everyone that I’m so not gay even though I’m an electrician who fixed mopeds and drank beer and even started studying practical nurse stuff to not seem gay 🤡 so much effort to ignore all this and even my ex boyfriend didn’t realize this EVER

  • @beanfishislistening
    @beanfishislistening Рік тому +2

    About a week after I told my parents I liked girls, which i wasn't even worried about cause my mum used to joke about me being gay all the time, i overheard her talking to my dad and saying she always knew- 💀

  • @SwiftDragon15
    @SwiftDragon15 Місяць тому

    for me it was like i didn't know gay was a thing and i used to have thoughts about wanting to be a guy so i could date girls. every book or movie/tv show i read/watched, I had a crush on one of the girls (Annabeth in PJO, Astrid in HTTYD) and i didn't know that was a crush, i just thought i loved them a lot and dressed up as them for halloween and stuff like that. had crushes on random girls in the hallway, some teachers, my best friend in 7th grade which lead to me finding out i am gay and now it seems so obvious lol. i think i never understood before then that it was ok to not like guys cause i realized my gayness when my friends started asking me what kind of guy i liked and i was like um i dunno smart and nice ig? didn't care much about guys and then my friend suggested after i talked about the "weird feelings" i was feeling about my best friend that it could be possible i was gay, so i thought i was bi bc i was in denial and only half accepted it, and then i just accepted it and now im super gay. (that was a long paragraph im sorry i always write too much lol)

  • @charlietao-x9h
    @charlietao-x9h 5 місяців тому +1

    im gay and remember thinking hmmmm..... whos a relatively popular boy whos wayyy out of my league (making sure nothing will ever happen) and thought, yeah thatll do!! ended up faking this crush for about 1.5 years omg that was a stressful time...

  • @ms.sherry
    @ms.sherry 2 місяці тому

    THE STRAIGHT COUPLE KISS THING YES but it confused me so much n made me think i was into it more

  • @ellet4227
    @ellet4227 3 роки тому +2

    So, I don’t know how many people know the game Episode, but basically it’s like a choose your own adventure type thing. Anyway, in most of the stories you were able to choose who you had as a S.O, whether it was a girl or a boy. I was like 9 or 10 at the time and I remember being really intrigued at the idea of having a girlfriend in the game, so, that is what I chose. I don’t know how I didn’t realise that it was gay but looking back I did a lot of gay crap like that that went way over my head

  • @clauduchiha
    @clauduchiha 3 роки тому +3

    For me it was when I confessed my crush on my best friend in middle school and her distancing herself and I was thinking what I felt was wrong

  • @irismagic4667
    @irismagic4667 Рік тому +2

    "every single gay has had a crush on their English teacher" me thinking of my main English teacher like what, no I don't think i ever did....
    Think of my other English teacher : ohhh ye, ye i did

    • @PURNIMA-md4uq
      @PURNIMA-md4uq 3 дні тому

      I have crush on my computer teacher 😢😢

  • @Alliepenguins
    @Alliepenguins 2 роки тому +1

    Biggest signs for me was when I was in kindergarten I asked every girl in my class to marry me rather than the boys, and I had an OBSESSION with Melanie Martinez for a few years

  • @bluecheshirecat13109
    @bluecheshirecat13109 3 роки тому +5

    Yeah, thank you for the amazing video, loved it

  • @hansmuller340
    @hansmuller340 3 роки тому +3

    I would love to see a video of you reading diaries

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 роки тому

      I just uploaded it!!! better late than never heeh

  • @thatonefrog5649
    @thatonefrog5649 Рік тому +2

    Istg I literally just remembered this 🤣 so when I was younger (like 5 or 6) I used to be out shopping or whatever and I randomly sometimes thought about who I was going to marry when I was older bc I used to have a look around me and think, ‘well I don’t like any of these boys, I never get a crush on a boy! And in the movies the girls are like walking on the street and then they bump into a boy who they think is cute and they end up marrying each other in the end and I’ll need to marry some boy!’ I didn’t even THINK about being gay! I knew it was a thing, but I just didn’t ever think about it or include it as an option bc I was little yk lol. So I was like stressing in my head and I was like ‘I need to marry a boy! What if I never find a boy to marry?’ And I literally didn’t think anything of being gay and now I look back and I like: 👁 👄 👁 😂😂

  • @tiffany.blewsXx
    @tiffany.blewsXx 2 роки тому +2

    I saw a girl in my sisters grade so pretty at her grade 12 grand march that I started crying about it later💀

  • @annyway5636
    @annyway5636 2 роки тому

    I'M 14 AND I AM SOOOO OBSESSED WITH SADIE SINK AND ESPECIALLY WITH THE CHARACTER SHE PLAYED IN STRANGER THINGS (MAX MAYFIELD)

  • @Poppy_viccytoria
    @Poppy_viccytoria Рік тому

    My signs: (found out at 13)
    1. When kids said ‘what boy do you like’ I was like, nope
    2. I liked about 4 of my teacher, obsessed, teachers pet but in a more flirty way.
    I have had a crush on my English teacher, my current one. She really defends LGBTQ+ community and has amazing hair and I could talk about her for hours. Also summer one of the maintenance people, she’s gay and is the ONLY person other than my friends that know/knows to this day

  • @SingSirenMae
    @SingSirenMae 2 роки тому +1

    I remembering loving the parent trap with Lindsey Lohan. And crushing on all the girls.

  • @nickluno2838
    @nickluno2838 Місяць тому

    Thank you so much I’ve been so confused and your videos help me so much … high school is rough. your really brave putting this out into the world and p.s your right about the English teacher thing❤

  • @Yutsurin0.0
    @Yutsurin0.0 8 місяців тому +2

    I like the story with a pillow

  • @ameliepfeiffer7432
    @ameliepfeiffer7432 3 роки тому +1

    OH MY GOSH BUT I ALSO HAD A THING FOR CHARLIE FROM HI-5 AIOWAIJI!!! Also, I had a huge thing for Katie McGrath after watching Merlin and also really like Clara Oswald from Doctor Who. I had a poster, and like your pillow, I would kiss it goodnight... I was so gay haha

  • @al-muwaffaq341
    @al-muwaffaq341 10 місяців тому +1

    As a gay Muslim man I've ben trying to reflect as this is somethin I've buried down my whole life

  • @fieryblaze1737
    @fieryblaze1737 2 роки тому +1

    I remember my first girl crush was Alicia Keys as a teenager and remember not being too much into boys at all like normal teenagers should have.

  • @Ghostie20
    @Ghostie20 Рік тому +1

    I have this artwork that I did in 8th grade. It is a silhouette of my shadow with things that I like or things that are about me. Such as my birthday or my age. I was 15 years old when this was made. There were also things that I like such as a magazine cut out of steak, ice cream, and even a football player. The gay sign here that should have hinted to me that I was gay was a magazine cut of a woman laying on a bed I had called this that I like sleeping. The other sign was that the background was a rainbow.
    I also had a rainbow background on the giant folder that was used to keep my artwork looking nice when I took it home.
    As life went on and came out as questioning to my parents little things like this would pop up in my room and the thought of how did I not know sooner would find its way into my brain. I also had fan girl obsession with Hannah Montana and never chose between Jacob or Edward either however my fav character for the Twilight series was Alice

  • @nataliasoto0425
    @nataliasoto0425 Рік тому +1

    I really enjoyed yor video😂😂!! Reminds me when I was 5 years old and I always played with boy toys cars, water guns, hulk, he man toys, cowboys etc. It always felt weird my mom and dad let me play with it. I think they were ahead of time 😂😂. I used to play with my friend who was a boy and we changed roles and today Im a lesbian and he is gay so it was true😂😂😂. Many, many stories we can tell!! Take care!! 😊😊

  • @francescagruppuso8161
    @francescagruppuso8161 2 роки тому +7

    It always makes me laugh. Cause I didn't have ANY male celebrity crushes growing up. Yet I didn't think anything of it. I was so oblivious😂

    • @veerasofia2499
      @veerasofia2499 2 роки тому +2

      One day I scrolled ig and I noticed that it was full of Cardi B and Kylie and other women and then I was embarrased for looking that gay and tried so hard to find some good looking males to follow but couldn’t think of any 🤡 still took me months to figure out that I’m soooo gay

  • @cierajones4847
    @cierajones4847 2 роки тому +1

    I remember I use to just get excited whenever Vanessa (Phineas and Ferb) showed up and I didn't know why. I also never made my barbies have a husband (I literally just cut one of the barbies hair short and have them marry if they ever did-). And I too never knew what it felt like to "like-like" anyone. I just know I liked the way girls looked (and was "interested" in what they looked like without- yk. When i was like 10 or 11) And just watching the 2019 Charlie's Angles just to see Kristen stewart and I was still clueless as to why. And I also ended up crushing on Gwen Stacy (Spider-Man into the spiderverse) when I was 13. Still didn't know why. (Tbh I didn't know about the lgbtq community till I was 15). And the thought of devoting my love to a guy never rlly sat right with me. And at the time, I didn't think I had a choice. So I just thought I would never get married. And then I found out about lgbtq n stuff and it all started making sense. (Geez this was a long paragraph)

  • @alexiscryne6399
    @alexiscryne6399 2 роки тому +1

    I'm having trouble figuring out whether im bi or a lesbian anyone have any advice?

  • @oliviakarlsson1276
    @oliviakarlsson1276 3 роки тому +5

    High School locker rooms mate, I would panic because I didn't know where to look 😂 all resulted in me changing in the bathroom instead and it was not out of insecurity ill tell you that 😂

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  3 роки тому +2

      Awww hahah yeah I would corner myself in the very last change room (but I think it was more because I was very very insecure) 🖤

  • @e7267
    @e7267 2 роки тому +1

    A huge sign for me was creating myself in the sims and creating my perfect lesbian family

    • @replying105
      @replying105 2 роки тому +1

      Now imagine that but in gacha club form

  • @gracacarvalho424
    @gracacarvalho424 2 роки тому +2

    This video is adorable❤️

  • @nguyenminhanh4038
    @nguyenminhanh4038 3 роки тому +2

    Always show up early to your amazing videos!!!

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  3 роки тому

      You're the best! tysm for being here!!! 💗

  • @kjartist494
    @kjartist494 2 роки тому +1

    One sign for me:
    Realising that I'm obsessed over the Catradora ship and Lumity ship and Nicoangelo ship and obsessed with She-ra.

  • @Eliza.crybaby
    @Eliza.crybaby 4 місяці тому

    1. I would ALWAYS think about my English teacher in 3rd grade
    2. Every time there was a girl camp counselor/after school I would always try to impress her
    3. When I did that “8 year old
    Impress the life guard” thing it was ALWAYS girls. I would always try to impress the girl lifeguards at the pool
    4. I get excited when I see lesbian couples
    5. When I had a crush on a girl for the first time I thought I was IN LOVE but it was just the feeling of having an ACTUAL crush
    6. When I would watch Mako Mermaids I would always try to impress this one girl through the screen 😭
    7. Girls

  • @jenaybrown4971
    @jenaybrown4971 2 роки тому +3

    i think i knew i liked girls when this happened. i was at coles and me and my dad were pulling up to the register to pay for our food. the woman who was scanning our food for us was mad pretty and i think my heart like melted when i saw her. she was super nice and she kept talking to me and my dad. i litreally wanted to keep talking to her and kept trying to crack jokes to make her laugh. her hair was pretty, her eyes were so so blue, and her piercings matched her face shape really well. i litreally got nervous and sometimes like froze, because of how beautiful she was. my heart was like beating while talking to her lmaooo. we left and i litreally missed her as soon as we left. after that i kinda knew lmao :😭

    • @VeronicaSawyerOfficial
      @VeronicaSawyerOfficial 2 роки тому +2

      i was walking through woolies and the most STUNNING girl with lovely blonde locks and hazel eyes passed me. i'm setting me standard too high 😭

  • @thenerdnmk
    @thenerdnmk 2 роки тому +2

    As a straight man, my only cartoon character crush was Daphne from Scooby-Doo.

  • @SavoyStudios
    @SavoyStudios 9 місяців тому

    I had the buddy system aswell at school 😂❤

  • @loupelizzo2399
    @loupelizzo2399 3 роки тому +1

    So so many hints and never worked it out, love this video and just so good and can relate so much.

  • @katekat4522
    @katekat4522 2 роки тому +1

    I came out accidentally a few days ago to my mom (though still in the closet to everyone else). Happy pride month :D

  • @alltoounwell
    @alltoounwell 2 роки тому +3

    the english teacher thing is real

  • @marilettak6782
    @marilettak6782 2 місяці тому

    The multiple crushes kfkdkdkd

  • @mihaelatrpevski3857
    @mihaelatrpevski3857 Рік тому +1

    Well i am not quite sure if i am gay or not. But recently girl boy realationships were realationships that i don't feel very comfortable with. Also yeah i can feel this thing, i hate my long hair and girlish clothes 😭 but i am attracted to man. Yes idk if this makes any sense, i am a girl, 15 yr old. I have noticed that i would simp for rather more feminine man, or gay man, yeah. My freind just kept showing me buff big man and i was like "uhhhm ok"

  • @TotallyxKatiee
    @TotallyxKatiee 10 місяців тому +1

    All my sims were gay when I was a kid….

    • @Bingo-yj9pg
      @Bingo-yj9pg 9 місяців тому

      I wish I could be this open about being a gay guy it's embarrassing