Why I Left College | Anxiety & Depression
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- Опубліковано 5 жов 2024
- I decided to sit down and tell you all the story of my freshman year & why I've decided to transfer schools.
It took a lot for me to edit this video and share it on the internet, but I really hope to help someone else struggling with anything similar.
Thank you for the continued support, much love :')
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i dropped out of college last year after going for 3 months, tbh i can’t really explain what was the exact reason i dropped out, I felt very overwhelmed, anxious and depressed, at times it just feel like everyone else were doing better than me, i don’t deserve to be there, i lacked confidence, i feel like i’m not as smart as other people, what i faced at that time was really bad that i lost almost 10 kg in the span of 3 months, i can’t handle the workloads due to my anxiety and the major itself, so i decided to drop out...and now after resting for five months, i’m trying again to further my studies hopefully i can do this..i just want you to know that whatever feelings that you’re feeling is valid, it’s okay if you are a few steps behind from other people, it’s okay if you’re used to be that smart student in high school but now you’re having hard time in college, it’s okay...just because everyone else around you are doing good, doesn’t make you any less greater than them...these feelings and problems are hard to deal with but we valid and it’s okay to not be okay...do whatever makes you happy, your health and happiness come first..if dropping out of college is what makes you happy then just go for it, if you just need a rest then take a leave/break..it’s never too late to learn, go at your own pace :) also it’s okay to drop out, you are still amazing and wonderful
How are you doing? I deferred an examination because of my mental health
Thank you so much for this comment. I think you've helped me more than what I can express
Yes u telling my inner feelings 😢
5 years later, im a freshman in college and im feeling pretty down. How are you now ? did you get through it?
I was thinking about lefting college, i didn't know what to do with my life, i was confused and stressed. My grades started decreasing, and now i'm in a state of hopelessness, i reproved in many disciplines, and i feel like a total loser, and i feel very stupid about my decisions in the past. I hope this don't lead to a depression, but everyday i feel pain, physical and mental. its just horrible, i feel ashamed.
I feel the same way right now
Me too. You're not the only one. I'm going through a panic attack right now after forgetting to do an assignment for my class and I cant stop thinking about how much points I'll lose and seeing how it will affect my grade
I feel the same
@Wesley 00s Leave if you have to. You cant force your self to do mandatory work if there are other options. College is not for everyone and that's okay. It's common. If you have a dream, Pursue it. Follow your heart, if you follow your heart you'll definitely give it 100% . If your heart isnt in what you do then you'll never be happy
there is no easy answer other than trying to be happy by trying to turn life around
Today was my first day of collage and I already hate it 😞🥺
nah trust me the first 6 months are gonna be fun i hated it too. But after 6 months it's disgusting
@snazzynava well i was saying relatively.
I'm still trying to figure it out. Things will get ugly if you join a field you have no passion for.
Entertainment 101 I just started a month ago too and I hated it so much. My parents are forcing me to be in premed which is utter hell because of how much people are trying to get into med school. And university makes all the prerequisite classes so expensive so I’m transferring to a community college next semester and finish all my prerequisite classes there for the next 2-3 years
John Griswold I hope you’re doing better now, stay strong.
I'm on my 3rd day and I Say F it Dang so F Hard Rn wish I didnt go..
I've finished college four years ago with an A.A. degree in Japanese at Orange Coast College even though it took me nine and a half years. It took me nine and a half years in college because of anxiety, depression, stress, following the requirements, and struggling.
Ten for a B. A. in History
Worth it?
@@awesomebosom9880 I abhor universities, so I would say no.
@@awesomebosom9880 i mean.. 9 years for a degree in japanese? what are you even going to do w that?
Same here but for my BS. I joined the Army to get away from college. Ended up finishing the rest while being in. I always dreaded going back to a campus or even reading course work again.
I'm currently a sophomore, but since the first semester I've struggled to 'want' to go to college. I don't even want to graduate at this point, as my career goal does not align to my college major. Honestly, my career goal does not even require a college degree. But both my parents are lecturers at another university, and I know it must disappoint them so much for their child to be a college dropout. I've always had gotten good grades up to high school, I really loved studying. But now, in college... I can't do it anymore. I had a GPA of 1.60 last semester. I don't know what to do, I want to drop out...
annxhilation choose being happy.
I feel you so much. At school I was the best student but in university I hardly pass my courses. This year is my last year and I am seriously thinking of quitting because I havent passed so many of my classes and I cant do it anymore. My mental health for yhe past 2-3 years has been horrible because of uni. My parents are holding me back and also the fact that college is completely for free in my country and my school is one of the top. Its a huge struggle for me but I am so so so unhappy :(
@@KwniStewart My heart hurts for you, I understand how that feels. As for a little update, I dropped out from my previous college because my depression and anxiety got really bad. I had four months of a break, in which I tried to get better and focused on other non-academic projects. I ended up applying for a scholarship overseas and enrolled myself to a new college with a completely different major, and so far I feel satisfied with it. As it is your last year, I hope you can hang in there and finish it, but if you feel like you can't, if taking a semester break possible, I'd suggest you do it. Sometimes we're unhappy because we don't have the chance to rest and take a break. I hope your situation gets better, I hope it all works out for you, I really do.
nimas what is ur career goal?
So relatable.
thank you for this. i’ve been stuck in this dark hole too since I moved out from my hometown for college in a much bigger city. I get mental breakdowns here and then. I isolate my self from everyone and waking up everyday is a struggle for me. I try to leave my dorm as much as I can and do normal stuffs like errands, grocery, etc but it only do me more harm than good. I do it because I wanna distract myself but in the end, it only makes me feel more depressed. On top of that, there’s all these stress and pressure from school. I honestly feel mentally and physically lost these days but I try to hold on to it because I have to live up to my parent’s expectation with me being the breadwinner. It’s past 3 AM as i type, I’m tired and I honestly don’t know anymore. I just want out.
Roxanne Baldo i feel you 😢 I can’t even tell my parents about this cus they won’t understand and they keep on telling me to study 😢
I feel the same way😞
Lissa 29 sameee 😭😭
I finally told them I’m going to transfer to a community college next semester for winter 2020 since the university I’m in is sooo expensive and that’s causing me so much stress and I had to pay a lot for my tuition even though I had scholarships and aid from the government. I just want to do my prerequisites at a community college for 2-3 years and then head off to a university to earn a degree. :D
Same experience, ngayon kase hindi course yung tinapos ko kundi course yung tumapos sakin. Almost 4months din akong umiyak at nagbreakdown. everytime na papasok ako ipapamukha saken na hindi ako bagay sa course na to, na hindi ako belong sa mga taong nakapaligid saken. nilalayuan kona yung mga kaibigan ko, everyday sobrang hirap bumangon ,madalas hindi nalang ako pumapasok maiwasan lang lahat.Nagrereason nalang ako na may sakir or wlang prof. Sobra din yung peer pressure lalo na iba yung hilig nila sa hilig ko, always out of place.Dagdag pa yung parents ko na nageexpect ng malaki saken lalo na ako lang lalake samen magkakapatid.I tried telling them once na ayoko na sa course ko pero yung response nila is parang pag binago mo course mo ikaw na bumuhay sa sarili mo. Im so stuck right now, 2am ngayon ng madaling araw at nakita ko tong comment mo, hopefully mabasa mo tong comment ko at ok ka na ngayon . Yun lang
You are not alone. I also experience it.
Dropped out in a year. Couldn't study due to A&D. Getting into the work place helped things - money in my pocket and some self-respect. Tomorrow is another day folks. Stay strong.
I feel for you so much. I am 41 years old and in my 3rd year of college. I have become so depressed and anxious and overwhelmed that I too am thinking about dropping out. At some point we have to value our mental health over all else..
@MALI Fitness it was nursing, but couldn't work the clinicals around my kids schedule..so now Sociology 😬
@MALI Fitness it's enlightening, to say the least..how are you liking accounting?
@MALI Fitness I hear ya, and with the economy going nutty, may be nothing to "account for" soon..you should follow your heart and your passion..
@horizon I am older, it is my first week of college and I am already behind. And it is also because I got the inflammation in my eye and it slows me down
I'm in college and I just turned 30! Today!
School and getting older contributed to my anxiety.
I barely started community college and my depression and anxiety already went so bad ive been feeling no motivation and just not wanting to do anything anymorem
Brianagh Presser I can relate to this so much. I’m mentally exhausted for trying to keep up with my assignments and grades. It’s slowly eating away at me
You're not alone, my anxiety has been pretty bad although I'm glad that at least I joined a club and made some friends.
This is me right now. I barely started community college and my mental health got very bad over the pandemic. I lost motivation for anything and I feel mentally exhausted. I don’t feel like I can continue because it’s so hard for me to focus and trying to figure out what major i want to choose is a struggle. I want to drop out and focus on my mental health because I’ve never focused on it. I’ve never gotten help for my mental health because my parents don’t believe in depression and overtime it became worse. College for me is a lot harder because it’s online and getting the help for college is not easy online. I feel lost idk what to do.
Dee Mendoza tell me why we’re on the same boat! I CANNOT FOCUS! Literally on the third day of school I was bawling my eyes out to one of my High School teachers telling her I don’t think I can do this. I’m majoring in early childhood education and seriously there is so much going on! I can’t read and everything in the assignments are so repetitive it’s like I’m reading the same things all over again. It’s super stressful! 😭
tyra f i feel your struggle! try to get help and figure out what you can do. i dropped out because it’s what felt best for me right now. college will always be there and so will our mental health, but we come first. you got this and believe in you!
Thank you Jocelyn...my son is a senior with only 6 classes left and he has described almost exactly as you have the anxious feeling about class, not wanted to go, not feeling any desire to finish and it blows my mind. He has been to a counselor that helped him and he got back to classes, but just last night is relapsing and we are so concerned about what to do. We don't want to see him quit this close to the end, but his health is most important.
Hi William! I’m so sorry your son has to deal with this feeling. I’m very happy to see that you were able to watch my video! It is a very real mental state that unfortunately be debilitating and hold you back in so many ways. Counseling and medication have worked in my favor but nothing will ever work more than making changes in my life so that I’m not constantly in a state of worry. I appreciate you watching my video & I hope your son can figure out a successful route to help with his anxiety!
Atleast your son able to describe exactly what was the problem is but in my case whoever asked me to tell on my problem whether a psychiatrist or a psychologist i failed each time to describe that because maybe my thinking and understanding capacity and power is very weak such that i can't make a sentence to say them or maybe i won't have the ability to explain and describe in words what comes in my mind and therefore each time i have to left the place unsatisfied and i'm still suffering from overthinking addiction, ocd, anxiety disorder from past six years.
@@JocelynOlivia Counselling won't work in every cases, if the patient has the ability to describe about his problem and if the counsellor gets understand very well about the problem then only counselling is worthy and useful otherwise there are lots of people including me who remains untreated.
I dropped out, too! BEST DECISION I'VE EVER MADE!
Lucky u
M falling apart.. 💔
@@mydelnicolemacquinto5636 better dont
Face it
Its gonna b alright
Mydel Macquinto meeee they would disown me as welllll, I wanted to drop out in the beginning of the year and still want to but they rejected me and told me to shut up about it. I didn’t like uni because it makes all the prereqs unnecessarily hard and a money waste so I upfront told them that I will transfer to a community college and finish my prereqs there for the next 2-3 years
What are you doing instead? I've taken a year break and considered dropping out because honestly my life was awesome without school. But I don't like my job.
@@mydelnicolemacquinto5636 same
I walked out today because of depression I’m scared to go back now because they wouldn’t understand why I did what I did
Shania Rose - i hope you got okay now:(
:((
Same thing happened to me last semester
I had the same! Decided to officially drop out few days ago, cause idk what I want to do in my life and also the build up stress and anxiety.
I have anxiety and Can absolutely relate to everything you said and many things people have said in the comments.
I went to college right after high school, my parents divorced and didn’t have savings so I also had to support myself fully through college.
As you described, I did hit rock bottom. Before that, I tried talking to a counselor that was referred to me by the school. He sucked and I felt like he didn’t care at all about what I was sharing with him. So I thought something was wrong with me.
For some reason I never came to UA-cam to hear about other people’s problem. If I had, I probably would have understood that many others go through this depressive/anxious/dark place too and that I wasn’t alone (a belief I had that only exacerbated the situation).
So I took a break from college and decided to just work for a couple years and save so I wouldn’t have to work full time while also doing uni.
Here are the things I learned and that I hope anyone reading can learn from as well:
1. Taking a break was fine. It helped me see that the working world without a degree SUCKS, and made me more motivated to get a degree.
2. It’s ok to change majors, just be smart and don’t run out of money on useless classes. I suggest taking core credits for the first two years, while you figure out what you really like. Also, remember that just because you love a class doesn’t mean you will absolutely love that field. It’s easy to see the grass greener on the other side, but every degree will require classes that suck. Take that into consideration before you change majors.
3. If not having enough money is a reason why you’re stressing so much with school, take it easy. I know it sucks to hear, but it’s better to go slow on those classes than to have a super rushed and horrible college experience. Try taking 1 or 2 classes a semester at a community college if you work full time. It’s better to go slowly and surely.
3. It’s ok to go slow, as I previously said. Even if you don’t have financial problems, those of us prone to anxiety or/and depression will definitely suffer and shut down if we feel overwhelmed. Don’t overwhelm yourself, don’t beat yourself up. Take it easy. Maybe take a couple classes a semester and find a part time job you enjoy, or volunteer at an animal shelter or soup kitchen in your free time. Nurture yourself with meaningful experiences.
4. Don’t be afraid to “let people down”. It’s your life, take control over it. Want to take it slow but afraid your parents won’t help you pay for school anymore? Tell the truth, and make plan B in case that happens. Good parents will listen to you and support you in your dark times.
5. Keep your best friends close. Believe me on this one. I started as an international student and when things went dark, I didn’t wish for anyone else to be there for me than my beloved friends. If you don’t have your friends close or haven’t been able to make new friends, it’s ok. It’s hard at this stage anyways. But you really need to find a support group, or keep in touch with those you love the most.
6. Any time that you feel anxious, sad or just don’t even know how to react to a bad situation, that’s the signal to find a counselor/therapist/psychologist. They are educated to help you prevent and stop bad thought processes (bringing yourself down, thinking that life is meaningless, anger issues, etc.) and destructive behaviors (not waking up in the mornings, wanting to do nothing all day, not going to class, not eating, etc.)
7. Remember that everything will be alright. It’s ok to withdraw from a class, even fail a class. What’s not ok is to give up and throw your entire life out the window just because of a grade. As a former A student in high school, one of the hardest parts of college was getting Bs, Cs, Ws and even Fs in my transcript. When I left college I realized none of that mattered.
Now I am 24, and I am back at uni. I have about 2 more years to go or so. Everything I described I have suffered, and I would never wish that upon anyone else. From time to time I still have negative thoughts such as “you’re so old and you still haven’t finished your degree”. Or compare myself to others such as “that single mother of two is acing that class and the best you can do is a C?”. But the thing is, now I am able to recognize these thoughts as toxic and wrong. Therefore, I am able to unveil the truth, that they don’t mean I won’t ever do great again, they don’t mean I can’t have a meaningful life either. If someone you know: a professor, a parent, another person, etc. Ever criticizes you with similar toxic quotes as the ones I described, it’s important you don’t let that hurt you either.
Remember, we are all different and have different needs as well. You can do this! You just have to figure out HOW to do it!
I think college sucks regardless of one’s degree and, as I learned from my husband, a grade doesn’t mean anything as long as you get your degree. Good employers don’t care about letters. They just want you to know what’s important in that field.
Life is full of challenges but also of many more beauties, if you allow it. And it’s okay to ask for help if you don’t know how to allow yourself to see the beauty in the world. None of us were born knowing it all.
If you’re reading this and struggling with managing your anxiety as I did through college, I hope my tips will help you.
Have a great day, and don’t let anyone else ruin that for you 💕
SunrisePrix thank you so much 🙏 This helped me calm down.
What if I barely made any friends in college?
Thank you for all the great tips. I'm 21, and I'm about to get my associates degree but I'm shutting down and battling my demons. I've surpressed a lot of issues since moving out and have been dealing with these issues in school. I've never been the smartest kid in school just athletics were my thing but rn it's all a blur in what I enjoy and want to pursue.
THIS IS WHOLESOME😭♥️
I wish these years to pass quickly when I don't have to go to college ever again. Somtimes Time just seems to stop. I don't know how I'll get through this but this was quick helpful ♥️♥️
🖤🖤🖤🖤
At school I was the best student but in university I hardly pass my courses. This year is my last year and I am seriously thinking of quitting because I havent passed so many of my classes and I cant do it anymore. My mental health for yhe past 2-3 years has been horrible because of uni. My parents are holding me back and also the fact that college is completely for free in my country and my school is one of the top. Its a huge struggle for me but I am so so so unhappy :(
My advice, travel to a different country. Remember that this is your life, and despite society and all of the norms, don't be afraid to be and do what you want. Expand your horizons and never let go of your creativity. Goodluck ❣💯
@@lovelylove6193 not everyone have enough money to travel
It is your life, you don't have to stay in university to please your parents! You can make your own choices.
@@lovelylove6193 I just saw this, you mean live in a different country? Or just travel for some time? Thanks for the advice!
@@scarynight999 I think someone can try to make some money before travelling and then find a job abroad, no?
im feeling the same way. im a freshman in college and my anxiety and depression was SO bad i decide to withdrawal my admission. however it was a amazing private university.they emailed me and contacted me with a success coach and allowed me to take a leave of absence. so im still a student but i havent technically started because i needed to focus on my “‘mental health” im still not better im supposed to start next month and i feel so lost. i feel like without college it would be a huge relief for me. but my mom would disown me
wow girl I'm currently going through the same thing. Like I'm in college and I'm struggling so bad because of my anxiety and depression. I wish I took a yr off to get my mental health straight first bc this is so overwhelming
You didn't need to quote mental health. It is not something orthodox or strange.
Me tooo my best friend took a year off because of her surgery and recovery time so she’s just relaxing and taking the time to think what she’ll do with college. She decided she wanted to be a teacher since she shadowed lots of elementary school teachers during highschool. xD
espi I want an update! I’m currently going through the same with my parents
I am also in my freshman year and that too entirely online. The anxiety and depression is real. I wanted to drop out too but my parents would be hurt and also I don't know what else to do with my life.
I’ve been depressed for 6 months now. Professors have fucked up my college life when all I tried to do was pay attention and be polite. I think It’s like professors have the right to get so ignorant and be cruel to students and deans and other people don’t give a shit what they do. Just about everyday when I went in to college I’d get so mad whenever a professor would be a smart ass to me. There would also be a time where I wouldn’t know where my class went and when a professor would be mean just because I don’t know what we have to do first on a thing we’re doing in class. I’ve cried 3 maybe 4 times whenever I’d get home from college. I didn’t have a single good day in college except for the last day. I once heard my writing professor saying to someone that she doesn’t want me to be successful. That was the 1st damn day of college...
what the fvck. im so sorry. i cant imagine how painful that can be...
I can completely understand what you going through it hard.
Even though this was posted more than 3 years ago, I'm sure this still helps people understand that they are not alone. I started university last fall and have been really struggling to make new friends. It has put me into some kind of constant darkness and worry, and generally questioning self-worth and social skills... HOWEVER, I hope you are doing better now
same thing here! I'm glad to know I'm not the only one, hope things get better for us
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You’re storie is very similar to mine I had to leave college before my midterms because of my anxiety/depression, and it totally wrecked me
Hearing your tell this makes me feel less alone
Best wishes
Thanks for making this video and to those sharing their experiences in the comments. It's my first semester on campus at university and it's reassuring to hear that I'm not the only one who gets these feelings of losing themselves, no motivation, nausea, etc. I keep hoping it will get better in the future but it almost feels like I'm lying to myself
im having a hard time in uni right now and i just want to drop out. then i saw your video. im currently a junior and i feel like im not good enough for my major. im always overthinking stuff like "could i make it to senior year" because in my country, college is a freaking race and if you don't graduate on time everyone will judge you. gosh i really want to be homeschooled because of the pressure im feeling rn
Me too... I decided today to drop out despite the consequences with being officially 3 years behind everyone my age. I'm struggling with anxiety and depression especially and I don't know how to tell my family, because they're not the sort of people who understand what depression and anxiety really is and only expect amazing results. I feel so horrible for having no motivation to continue my study and I dread waking up every morning because I know my family will be asking me "are you going to class today?" "are you reading?" "why haven't you read today?". It's so awful, but I don't know what else to do tbh than to drop out and try for something else next fall.
@@kai-lele3328 Yo how are you doing bro? Is everything okay?
Are you from India?
When I was at college I had an undiagnosed mental illness so I eventually left as I wasn’t coping. It was the best decision I made as I managed to get myself sorted and I’m thinking of going back
I wish I could but, can't even think of dropping out from college since I'm Asian
Same. I feel trapped.
Find your passion and do that. University will never feel like a chore if you have a passion you are working toward.
Can relate
Same, so hard to drop
I'm Asian Too and I Feel like im Trapped too..
Its not that I hate school or hate College, but my anxiety keeps on bugging me..I always overthink every night, "Im not happy" "what if I drop" "what if I did not pass the exams"..
what are you up to now? I'm curious
You’re incredible and I love you. I had a really similar experience my first year of college! Thank you for speaking so honestly, I really related to so much of this!!!! It’s so good to hear that you’re happy Joc!!!
Tracii Summers love love love you Traci!! Thank you a million 💛
How did your parents react to this? I Find myself in this very situation but I am afraid to tell my parents. I feel like I am letting them down. and it hurts so much...
C I’ve heard a lot of people suggest this. Is the environment just overall more chill?
:(
@@godimready2go community college is a blessing for many to attend and it honestly is no different in many employer's minds. many of the smartest people I've met have been at PVCC in Virginia. I think if we start going to these then it will lessen the stigma about a Community college in your friend's and family's eyes and that's how you can change the world for the better one day at a time.
Jaloi yeah it’s a chill environment Bascially you won’t make friends but it’s small classrooms, classes easy teachers give so many opportunities to get higher grades and you might see some familiar faces and it’s close then just trasnfer to a local college depending on where your from like let’s say Cali and UC would be fine cause it matters what you do in college not the prestigious name however, if you are from the university of Kentucky and either that or somewhere far, you might have to suck it up
Slounds like a 7 year old kid not a grown person who finds purpuse in their life
Wow, I don't know why I decided to click on this video but I have no regrets. You have truly helped me out because I'm currently dealing with by second year in college and I am falling back down that depression hole, and you were the first person who has felt this way. There was a period were I couldn't go to my classes because I knew I was failing and I felt so ashamed of even going especially if I couldnt concentrate or focus and when I tried returning to classes I would get extreme anxiety where my body would turn around with me even realizing it. I wanted to thank you because I have been feeling so lost and confused and frustrated with myself and your story truly helped really realize that others understand and just knowing im not crazy for these feelings just helps.
Hey, just recently finished my degree and got myself a job. I too found college to be hard and depressing. I had no clear goal, which made it all feel pointless. When I finally found a strong goal to motivate me, it actually got a lot better.
I wish you well, and hope you have found some focus of interest. 🙂
I just watched this and it made me feel better to know that I am less alone in my similar struggles. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
I have had some issues with college from the beginning, probably because I picked a hard major (I was interested in it, but some exams are too hard for me personally). In June I had an exam I had been studying for 3 months for. The night before I had 6 panic attacks, nausea and almost threw up a few times from the anxiety. I fell asleep at around 4 am, sitting up, exhausted. I told myself I would wake up the next day, go home and quit university because I was not going through that again. That was not life. I don't care that college doesn't last forever and that you need that piece of paper and no, it doesn't get better with time. My anxiety almost got worse as I progressed through college. Then I came home and I spend the rest of June and all July doing nothing, exploring other possibilities outside of college too (such as job opportunities).
Then in August the situation started getting better: I have decided get medication if anxiety and depression got out of control, to treat myself and especially, to do something outside of college. For example, I might start a part-time internship in the fall and I'm very excited.
I've learnt that it's vital to listen to you, ask yourself why you are feeling that way, take some time to clear your mind, reason and then take the decision that works best for you now and for your future. Quit if you cannot stand what you're studying or want to do a completely different job compared to what you're studying for. Do something different for a while (a sabbatical, internship, volunteer work, employes job). Taste the waters, learn that life is tough. Then make a concious decision with a clear vision.
thank you i really need this atm 😭
@@xoxo7331 you're welcome!! I really hope you can find the right answers to your questions right now!
This really makes me feel better rn. I started having HORRIBLE anxiety attacks the past two months and im a last semester senior. Thankfully I finished the semester, this was exam week. But I'm too physically sick from anxiety to go to the graduation ceremony which is really frustrating. I decided to talk to my parents about how I feel too weak to attend the ceremony and my parents both support my health more than walking the stage. This week im moving home and am going to take the next two months to just enjoy my time and chill out. Im so excited to move home and be done with school. I completely agree that college is not worth any of the mental health issues. I think a lot of it comes from the expectation to be doing what everyone else is doing. Now that im done, I feel relieved that I can carve my own path and do random jobs to figure out what I like. This has all just taught me how important it is to take care of yourself first and to not feel guilty for saying no.
im crying-watching this i dont know what do with my life lol. i cant stand the course i am taking im in my 2nd year of college and 2md semester and the major i have rn is so sht i found every little thing so hard. sometimes i feel like i am the dumbest cow in class. i wanted to study other things but idk what use they will be and im sure it will be hard to look for a job if i graduate. so i stuck with business college bc its the safe route to at least get a job but i cant help but think dont want an office job or a cubicle cave. im so confused rn
You and me, both.
gurl, how is life right now for you?
@@meemoo7 wish i could reply with a successful & "i finally found myself" comeback comment 😂 but oop- still the same thing. corona's not making it any better, not gonna lie.
g aww I feel you I‘m also struggeling for like 4 years now lmao I can‘t stick to one thing and its getting annoying like I feel so far behind my friends but lets keep on fighting sis 😔✊🏼
Hows life going now?
I actually did very well in college for a long time, but by the very end of it, both school and personal life factors had left me ground down to a shell of my former self, dependent on alcohol to reduce my crippling anxiety and depression, fearful about my grades and their impact on my future yet so unmotivated it was hard to actually attend class and turn in assignments, and just frustrated with and resentful of the whole experience overall. It was a living hell, to be honest, all with the hope that the light at the end of the tunnel was a career that paid well and kept me from being homeless. But most bachelor degrees are useless, so you have to go on to a master's.
If my teenage self could see my college graduate self ... wow, those are two people who wouldn't easily recognize each other.
How did you do it? I honestly wanna know because I'm in the same situation.
I can't finish my bachelor thesis because depression hits me and then there's a lot of personal problems that makes me feel overwhelmed. I was the top of my class, and now I'm just a loser and suddenly unmotivated. This is my 5th year of college and I'm not even writing a single paragraph for my bachelor thesis. I might as well leave college next semester because I felt dumb.
Sorry if my typing is messy, english isn't my first language :)
This is how I am feeling now and I just had to drop my courses because my mindset is not really there anymore. I've been struggling, so seeing this gives me some clarity that I am not alone.
Thank you so much for sharing this. It really helped me.
ran so happy to hear this 💛
I am having the same problem right now, I don´t like my university and I want to change it, but I´m afraid to do so...thank you for this
So how r you now?
You should change youe major if you feel like it
Same and it's even harder if you alone
My first semester started this month, actually this was the second time I entered college after leaving my previous uni and take a break for almost one year because my mental illness went really bad, but everything is not what Im imagine, my major now is really different from my passion and interest. I want to move again but I dont want to disappoint my parents. I dont know if im gonna survive this years, everyday I have really bad headache and trembling everytime the class started because I know that Im not gonna do well. My passion was in health and medicine but now Im in design, I was so frustrated
Thank you for sharing. I dropped out of college two times because of depression and anxiety. Not sure what to do next but I hope I can feel in control of my life again.
How you holding up
@@mihlalidikwana1188 hi 👋🏻 I’m doing amazing right now, started therapy for a year, went on meds and re-enrolled in uni, I’m almost done with my 3rd semester. Thank you for commenting because i rmb watching vids and reading forums during those dark times just bc I wanted answers & to know I wasn’t alone. It took quite awhile to get back on my foot but this just proves that there’s always a way out the darkness no matter how long it takes ❤️ even with a unexpected life turns!
I feel like i’m stupid, i’ve only been at uni for a semester but i just can’t be motivated to do any of it, even though i actually like the topics? i don’t want to graduate, i don’t want to pay for the whole thing, i don’t want the jobs that my degree would get me. I like...want to run off into the woods and join a commune which i’m not sure is insane or not
I felt this
@@oliviasmith6511 i feel it right now
I had been thinking about leaving college two years ago but now this is my final semester, it really puts me under pressure, I've become way more overthinking, I have major anxiety that I barely feel good enough about myself. I'm supposed to graduate this year but I'm hella afraid of many things, I have doubt to myself that I can't make it, and if I can't make it I will be disappointing my parents and my family I don't want that to happen but at the same time I really want to give up and give it a try next year, I'm really messed up idk how to help myself...😔😢
Same thing happened to me I decided to take a short break this and I will go back to college to graduate
I felt that my mental health is a priority and I knew that graduation year will be so stressful and will make me even more anxious and overwhelmed so I took this year as a break and I'm feeling better
Me too, I have to do a mandatory internship after this semester. Im basically done I feel at a very low point right now, especially since I already work a full time job and I’m not fully financially stable to just quit my job and do an internship for the semester. I wish it wasn’t a requirement, taking me almost 8 years to get this four year degree and now I’ve hit a wall.
Thank you for this
dunno - i thought i was the only one who felt it :)
You're not alone 😔
Mohamed EMINƎM 💛💛 thank you for watching
I'm just 2 semesters from graduating (1st half of 2020) but I feel like I can't do it anymore, well I been feeling like that for so long already. My hair is falling a lot, leaving me with bald spots and feeling even worse, because I'm both depressed and feeling physically ugly. I have psoriasis too, and it flares up adding pain to the situation. I'm truly, truly unhappy like I've never before, I've been through a lot along with the bad experience in college. Grieving 3 people, dealing with direct homophobia. However I have no courage to mention that to my parents since they've worked so hard to pay for my education, and we're barely medium class, economically speaking.. I'm going to finish this for them but I promised myself I'll never ever do anything for anybody else that I don't enjoy, not even my parents that I love so much. It's not worthy. I have no idea how long I'll take to recover from all the consequences left, emotional and physical. I wish I had never gotten in, wish I've had the strength to say "no, I'm not going to college, it's not what I want". I also wish to stop beating myself mentally for that, since the decision has been long made, 2 and a half years ago. I feel broken.
I know this video is old but it barely came up in my recommendations. Just know that you have made me feel so much better about myself and my situation. I was in a similar position to yours. I had anxiety since well I feel like since my childhood years but was never diagnosed until I was in my senior year of high school. But don’t think it’s weird or not okay. I mean we all have things we go through and it’s best to let it out to share it because others will benefit from it just as I did today. I feel so much better now honestly. I used to feel like a failure my parents were a bit upset that I was transferring back and living home but you know things are getting better and am making new decisions and going on new paths so I see a bright future no matter if we’re living in a pandemic you know try to see the positive! Yeah thank you for this video! 😭 I really had to hold my tears in for this one. Hope you’re doing good now !
thank you for sharing!! going through similar feelings right now and this made me feel less alone
Hey there Jocelyn. I had to watch this because I was low in my mood over my past failures or I would say 'maybe' failures. I have anxiety disorder since I was very young and I dropped out from one major to other just to find what is it that will make me happy. Around the end of 2018, after changing two majors subsequently, I realized I have to dropout in order to save myself. I dropped out, yeah I did. Life is not easy yet. But, trust me watching this video of your struggle and comeback to UA-cam really makes me motivated to not give up. 😊
Thank you so much for sharing this, its so helpful to know that other people have been in this situation and that things will end up ok
3rd semester, not getting any better
a few things that help me: 1. college doesn't last forever. 2. each day/week/month gets easier than the last day/week/month. 3. everyone is anxious and sad, not just you. Were all feeling this. 4. focus on your career goals. let that elevate your mind beyond your present moment anxiety. College is just a hurdle to pass thru, not an end in itself.
1. Your point? 2. Not for everyone. Your experiences aren't universal. 3. Not everyone handles stress the same. Some people legitimately have anxiety, depression, and mental "disorders" that makes it harder for them to handle stressful situation. It's not always a passing phase ("I got a bad grade so i'm depressed" bullcrap). 4. You assume people have a "career goal". Most teens who go to college have no idea what they want to do. They just go because they were pressured by family and teachers. They were constantly fed propaganda that if they didn't go, they'd be a "failure" living on minimum wage lmao. So now you have all these kids who have no idea what they want to do going because they have no other choice. It's why the average college students spends 6 years getting a degree (that only takes 4 years) because they are constantly switching their majors (the average college students switches their major 3 TIMES).
Thinking "everyone else this or that" doesn't work with depression, you were probably just sad. people who are chronically ill will just put an even greater burden over their shoulders by thinking that well everyone is sick but I'm the only one failing. It doesn't work that way, maybe you had good intentions with this comment but you don't seem to know much about this disease, sometimes we want to help but don't have enough knowledge on that field to do so, it's best to just say nothing.
PaiN ExoTiC that’s so true i’m forced to college by dad and i’m scared that stress will make me kill myself cause i had it at school when i couldn’t handle the stress :( idk what to do
So selfish :)
You don't know what depress people pain is. You can only find it out when you experience it. And it sucks. But eh you won't understand them.
my freshmen year as well, i decided to submit my withdrawal halfway through the year. my college wasn’t helpful at all as well with my mental space at the time. i even remember the exact words that my dorm coordinator said to me, who is an actual staff hired by the university, “I tell all of my students to get to college, earn your degree, and get out. Happiness shouldn’t be your top priority.” I still dropped out, focused on myself and my mental health, I’m now happier than ever
I watch videos of people dropping out to motivate me to keep going.
I’m scared to go to college. I go to college in a month and I feel very lost. My biggest fear is to regret it.
School give people anxious
Did you go, is it okay
This video is so relatable. I’m currently going through the exact situation and seeing this video is pleasing knowing that I’m not alone❤️..... “room with no windows” I don’t think thats legal or safe lol
Im coming home early from being abroad and this helped me so much, everything you described is something im going through and I felt so isolated and alone and even like im failing and hearing you talk about your situation made me feel so much better.
I promise it's only going to get better. Especially now that you're making all these positive changes in your life
Makayla Samountry I love you SO MUCH thank you for all the support always 💓
Thankyou for this. I've moved from my hometown to this big city and I'm in a horrible state. I'm stuck with the major my life goals doesn't align with. I don't wanna go to classes and don't wanna talk to anyone. Every morning i woke up with this anxious feeling that makes me to quit everything. It's hard and I just keep on telling my self this too shall pass but there are still 3 years to get through.
P.S I'm writing this maybe after years when someone like it I'll get reminded of this situation and it might make me greatful for where I will be at that point
Are you ok now? 2 months later
Just watching this now in 2021 lmao. Im currently a freshman in Winona State University. I have been struggling a lot since i've got here. It has only been 3 months and i'm already out of it. my mental health has not been doing good. I just feel lost. I have already withdraw from my college reading and writing class because I had other classes that I was worrying about and I was just falling behind. I have been thinking to transfer but I just don't know where or what i want to do. The only thing that is holding me back is my best friend who came to college with me and is my roommate and my friend group who have helped me so much and make me feel worth, but other than that I just don't feel right here. I don't want to be a college dropout because i don't want to disappoint my parents and even myself. I just really hope someone can help me or that I can find a path I can following and be better. I just feel like a disappointment :(
Hey Jocelyn, I know this is weird but I went to high school with you and I always thought you were one of the happiest people around, and after looking into your channel I realized that it wasn't so. I found your channel while looking for help dealing with anxiety that I too have been struggling since high school. I made this account because I struggle with owning up the fact this issue affects others and I don't want others to think lesser of me because of them. IDK if this makes you feel better, but I feel better knowing that I'm not the only one struggling. I hope you can find closure as you have brought me.
Oh my goodness, this comment took me by surprise but I have to say THANK YOU!! I definitely have struggled, no matter how big of a smile I put on. I wish you the best of luck dealing with your anxiety, I understand it's a day to day struggle, but it's also one that you're never alone in. I appreciate this comment more than you know, I'm so grateful to have made an impact on you in some way :')
im currently in my first week of college and im very overwhelmed and having a panic attack almost everyday. idk if this goes away after being used to college but im scared i'd have to deal with it for another 3 years 😬
Are you better now?
@@petercrain382 Yeah, so much better. Thanks for asking.
@@idklolbutbetter8617 that’s great! Still sticking out college ?
Collage is just nasty some teachers are the worst of the worst they will pick on u fail u mock u make u like a fool in the class and if u say anything back u will have been disqualified from the course. Btec is annoying we have assignments ongoing even though the outbreak of coronavirus
I expected a lot before going to college but when I went to the college I experienced the horrible days.... Since it's a women's college they were treating us like a slave... My expectation about college everything faded away at one point of my life and I was allowed to drop out... It was my fault not my parents... My dad said me that he will get me admission in BMC but I never wanted that course and concentrating on my course I went to an horrible women's college... Now Iam helpless... There's no solution for this... We r trapped and no one like that college too... This is the most ever foolishness that I have done in my life... Our 3 years are gone and wasted
I have asbergers, OCD, anxiety, depression, etc and so so so scared to go to college, in applying for this fall
May God be with you and show you His wonderful kindness and grace dear friend.
May the love of His Son Jesus surround you and embrace you warmly.
Please take care.
Im sacred too.
I'm in school and it was the first day back to school and I literally feel like crap my anxiety and depression is bad and school makes it worst
I want to drop out I’m about to fail 2 of my 7 classes and I feel like an absolute burden
Please don't. Please.
I know it hurts. But it will hurt even more after dropping out. It's from my life experience. Please.
A recurring theme with this type of problem is that talking to your university is always a good idea and a step towards improving things.
I just joined college for post grad and it's been 2-3 months-ish. I thought this is what I wanted but I don't know anymore. Everyday I wake up dreading classes and I do not look forward to anything. I do not enjoy learning anymore. I don't know if I'm even learning anything. I'm not happy and I'm way behind in class and I just wanna quit but I am afraid.
I'm currently a graduating student from College. I took up Industrial Engineering because I think it would give me a bigger salary, but as times pass by I realize that I didn't want this to be my profession for the rest of my life. I just want to find my passion. Corporate world sucks! I have always been a passionate student until college keeps rocking my mental health. I just want to be a teacher that would help students to find their passion. I'm always envious of those people who enjoy the corporate world. I myself hate the corporate world. I just want to be free. I just want to live my life.
You'll surely get through this♥️
Same here and I regret it to this day, lost a full ride due to my crippling anxiety and often forget I had that opportunity, probably because I repress those bad memories of the college experience
oh my god i just fangirled so hard when you said my name wtf
Makayla Samountry HAHAH YAY
Thank you for being transparent. It really helped me feel better 😘
This video gives me reassurance, thank you. I moved from a small town, i worked so hard on my grades during highschool, and feel obligated to go to school. Also i feel confused because I thought school is what i wanted but I’m not sure if the classes I’m taking are the issue or what. Hope I figure it out..
Love and health to you.I also have clinical depression. You are not alone.
It’s funny to me that you mentioned you hated film school because as someone that is currently attending art school, I regret not attending a college with a film program.
Anyways, I’m a senior and I am still contemplating dropping out. I had so many expectations going in. I thought I would make friends and I thought it would be best 3 years yet I’ve been miserable all 3 years to the point where I almost feel suicidal if I don’t drop 😂
It was me too, college been stressing me out lately... like if I fail my parents will know it. But I have to go through it.
Thank you so much for sharing your story, you have no idea how much this video helped me
I do feel the same now im 1st year college again instead of 2nd yr because i shift from nutrition and dietetics to Hotel and bussiness managanement major in culinary arts .
I dont know i have anxiety and depression for a long time and studying feels like a jail for me .
Its very hard for me to socialize especially right cause im irregular student.
Its very hard now i dont attend most of subjects my parents they think im doing well but everytime i pay my tution fee i want to commit suicide.
Dont wory.. Its gona b alryt!
This is my impossible dream
My second year Idk wat I want I go 2 a community college I don’t got in people there are weird sum I greeted before dapped up try 2 avoid me just turned 19 I just wanna b happy in life school makes me feel kinda depressed my dad always talks about school and shit 🤦🏼♂️
Seeing this comment section makes me feel less alone, but also scared for all of us lmao.
I have anxiety, depression, *_AND_* Asperger's syndrome, and I'm in my 2nd year of community college, pretty much taking a full courseload. I have no motivation to study/learn anything anymore(also considered that I probably _do_ have motivation but i'm too addicted to social media/my confidence is already too low to pull myself out of this rut) & i'm scared one day it's just gonna blow up in my face & everyone's gonna hate me. And to top it all off I keep thinking I'm not "allowed" to be stressed because I come from a place of privilege(which indeed I do, my parents are hella responsible, work-wise & financially, & they've said they would "still love me" even if I dropped out, but I know they'd be hella disappointed deep down & they're already done so much for me, I could at least do the bare fucking minimum for them). I kinda just wanna drop this semester & work on my life skills this summer because I have fucking zero of those(idk how to live on my own) but the problem is my family already paid for classes and it's really just the least I could fucking do, I don't wanna disappoint them so I really don't know what to do. I'm officially burnt out and I don't think I can handle the humiliation of not measuring up to my ridiculously high standards, nontheless the dilemma I already put myself into with the classes i'm taking(which aren't even hard, btw🤦).
I’m so depressed and school is making it worse. However, I don’t want to drop out, not bc I value a college education bc I don’t, but bc I don’t want to owe money. I’m on full ride rn, but if quit I’ll owe a lot. I feel like I got scammed and I want out. Ik my health is more important than $, but the thought of giving my oppressors thousands is hard. Really the only thing that is keeping me going is pride, and financial freedom. Help
Thanks for sharing it’s so helpful and more common than you think.
I want to drop put but I'm afraid of what people gonna think of me
good for you! so brave! you go girl!
Najudy K thank you so so much 😊💓
I dropped a class that I ran out of in tears because I felt too dumb to understand the work while everyone else was having fun. I feel like a failure. I'm still taking one class so I'm not quitting college entirely but I'm definitely not happy in school.
tbh im feeling like doing the same. im at my first year and already experiencing depression.
Thank you for this, this is exactly everything I am going through
I'd like to know what your diet is typically like
Me too
Fuck is anyone else only going to college for their parents? Like, I'm a genuinely hard working student, keep out of drama, and I'm always cool with my teachers. But, even when I try to work hard, highschool is always exhausting, even when other people think it's easy. I go to tutorials and blah blah blah but it's seems to never be enough. When I ask adults about what it's like to work outside of school they always tell me that it's worse. Sometimes I think maybe it's not even worth going to college.
love you so much youre so strong angel
Hi
Omg my bday is on 12 feb! I feel u. I always feel sad cuz i know i won't fully enjoy it cuz of exams.. :(
This is literally how I’m feeling.
I might be considered the weird one here but, I have always been admired by my classmates in high school for being the smartest kid and always gets As in all my classes. Yes that was true but those kids were the F students and students who did not value their education; they’re lazy. So I always found myself smart and the best compared to those lazy people. Now I just started summer classes for my first year in community college and ... ITS ROUGH. In high school, I got As and Bs without trying 101%. Assignments were to be able to read 30-50 full page textbooks about US History and Gov (taking two classes) and answer questions based on it (no notes). Basically I loved how easy high school was, feeds my ego that I am the best. Yet after reading my classmates response on discussion posts online, duuude calm down he told us to write a short paragraph not a whole argumentative essay. Realizing that there are people better than me makes me feel horrible and not only that, I myself am struggling to realize who I am at the moment. At times, I want to disappear because I feel I have no path/identity. Family believes in me that I can make it, yet I believe I cannot because college may not even be for me. Not just college but the adult life is quite overwhelming and sometimes I wish a future me would lecture me NOW about everything and how to prepare myself for adult life. That is if I live that long...
HELP! I started college on August and im not really happy im not motivated i really dont have a goal or any passions. I dont eat so well how i use to. im getting skinnier. I just feel so tired. I feel so alone. I wish i could spend more time with my friends and family. I have been thinking to drop out but im not sure if is the right decision.
College can be stressful, I felt that too when I first enter college. I would recommend to talk to someone, watch video that make you smile. That's how I go through college.
College is way more expensive and it holds way less value than it did 20 years ago.....
But you sort of have to go to college if you don't want to get into a trade (I know they make good money, but some people just don't like it)
I’m only in middle school but I can’t do it. anymore I cry every night I want to tell my parents but I feel like they won’t understand
It gets better bro. Just find a fresh start and start grinding. I don't know what your problem is exactly but I wish you the best of luck
I’m also having really bad anxiety with college I’m having panic attacks and my grades are really really bad so I put some subjects aside to focus on 1 in the last semester my exam is in 2 days everything went well but the last 2 days my anxiety attacks got worse to the point where I want to die and feel hopeless and hate myself and now I hate myself even more because I took my time and I still got anxious I honestly don’t know what to do
Don't give up. Take a break, breathe, explore. Do something different to keep your mind off for a while and then go back
I honestly relate to this so much it is happening to me right now.
Hi Jocelyn, first off I just wanted to say I love this video. I’m currently a freshman in my 2nd quarter at my university. I also came into it thinking I would like the small town because I’m from a small city myself. I hate the town and there’s not much to do. All year I’ve been unhappy and not loving the school. I came into college wanting to be a teacher, but during the 1st quarter I realized that isn’t what I want to be doing. My advisor isn’t much help. I want to leave my university and go somewhere else, but I have no idea where I want to go or what I want to study. How did you figure out where you wanted to go after leaving Winona State?
I also forgot to add that I struggle with anxiety and depression too. It’s been SO hard dealing with being away from family and figuring out where I want to be.
There are lota of ways to get a clearer idea of what could be ideal for you. The 16 personalities test helped me understand myself more and each personality is associated with a specific set of ideal professions and professions to avoid. It helped me immensely! Try it!
Although this is my first semester in college, my mental health has never been worse in my life. I'm anxious all the time and the thought that I have to do this for 3,5 more years is unbearable.
I'd be dropping out right now if it weren't for my parents. I feel like college destroying me and my potential.
I was feeling same too at first years, I wish I got a break at the beginning. Now although I started to therapy and so, everything, mostly academical things, is more complicated to solve and difficult to get into track. So I suggest you to consider taking a break term, just consider if you're really struggling
I just graduated from Senior Year and honestly I just want to give my mental health a big break because I just recovered from ED because of stress and body image. I really wanted a break but suddenly my parents are telling me to get into college when I don't even know what I want to do with myself just yet. Now, I am in college in a course I don't enjoy, been eating non stop and I don't know why maybe I'm stressed but I don't know where. I wanted to quit but even the college I'm at won't let me quit. I am even more pressured because I just disabled all my social media accounts but somehow they still find to contact me pressuring me to continue because the opportunity and I am thankful but I really just can't concentrate on college yet. I am so pressured. MY FAMILY is disappointed. I don't know what to do. My best friend (went into severe depression) suggested I should get therapy because I may be depressed or have an anxiety disorder. I wanted to work to be able to pay the therapy but my family is saying that if I'm depressed then I'm not their family or I'm just making excuses to quit college.
I am still looking for work. But I don't know how far can I pull this through. I am so pressured..
What should I do?
thank you for sharing! i left minnesota to go to school in florida for mental health reasons so i can totally relate.
Average college degree will cost you $12 per hour! You saved a ton of money plus there are plenty of alternatives :)
love you and miss you jojo!❤️💕
nevaeh l love and miss you Nevaeh 💓💓