Nine Inch Nails - Something I Can Never Have ( Reaction | Discussion ) That's What I Get ( Bonus )

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  • @mindyourownbusiness5515
    @mindyourownbusiness5515 3 роки тому +203

    *FINALLY* someone reacts to this song instead of Closer. This is a masterpiece and it is a tragedy that more people don't know it.

    • @aaaaaa2206
      @aaaaaa2206 3 роки тому

      NIN is hopeless, depressive music. I tormented myself with it for years.
      Nobody benefits from feeling bad so I hope as few people listens to Trent as possible.

    • @mindyourownbusiness5515
      @mindyourownbusiness5515 3 роки тому +21

      @@aaaaaa2206 Different people react to music differently. For some, it can be cathartic. Try not to speak for everybody in future.

    • @user-fm8xs3hr3w
      @user-fm8xs3hr3w 3 роки тому +6

      You're 100% right. It's truly a masterpiece.

    • @user-fm8xs3hr3w
      @user-fm8xs3hr3w 3 роки тому +6

      @@aaaaaa2206 luckily most people respect different interpretations of art, regardless of what you think. Their music will live on forever with millions listening, and appreciating it, forever.

    • @monkeyhousescouse
      @monkeyhousescouse 2 роки тому

      This

  • @chrisscarbrough7663
    @chrisscarbrough7663 3 роки тому +63

    “ I Look at you and realize this song no longer has power over me”
    That is quit possibly the most beautiful and genuine thing I’ve heard anyone say in a long time!

    • @anonymoususer9215
      @anonymoususer9215 2 роки тому +4

      Agreed....We hang on to this track in our heads for so long.

  • @wearenotamused6455
    @wearenotamused6455 3 роки тому +42

    HalLifesistah had the proper reaction to "Something I can Never Have". This song is so emotionally visceral tears are a symptom.

  • @martinpettersson1450
    @martinpettersson1450 3 роки тому +53

    I usually never comment on UA-cam videos, but your open-hearted discussion that stemmed from Something I Could Never Have is beautiful. I love your emotional reactions, keep being you.

    • @WolfKain
      @WolfKain 2 роки тому

      ❤️✊🤘

    • @TheOllieBear
      @TheOllieBear 2 роки тому

      It's takes a certain kind of pain in your life for that song to bring you to tears. ❤️

  • @DavidDArcy1975
    @DavidDArcy1975 3 роки тому +21

    Trent is the GOAT... a modern Mozart, I've been listening to them since this album came out and haven't stopped. I've seen them EVERY time they've played in Ireland, I've gone to Berlin and Madrid to see them and I have their logo tattooed on me. There is NONE better than NIN go n-éirí an t-ádh libh Respect & Peace

  • @adrathemetaloutlaw754
    @adrathemetaloutlaw754 3 роки тому +82

    The whole NIN Pretty Hate Machine album is awesome.

    • @thisisisabella3634
      @thisisisabella3634 3 роки тому +5

      Awesome barely describes it. It's singularly unique in it's mood and energy. There is no other albums quite like it.

    • @madderrose1974
      @madderrose1974 3 роки тому +1

      Considering it is a first album by a 21-22 year old who worked as a janitor to get studio time, it’s almost flawless.

    • @thisisisabella3634
      @thisisisabella3634 3 роки тому

      @@madderrose1974 Well he was classically trained as a child too.

    • @andrescottin8102
      @andrescottin8102 2 роки тому +1

      Absolute masterpiece.

  • @Nynex
    @Nynex 2 роки тому +2

    The reaction at 11:45 hits me hard as Ive been listening to this song since 1989 and have always felt the same. She's a beautiful person who feels Trents music and that is something "not all people" can ever have. Subscribed. I hope my pun registers.

  • @sassymcgees
    @sassymcgees 3 роки тому +30

    I appreciate the emotional vulnerability and not brushing it off. The crazy thing about music is when it brings me to these places I'm not always able to really articulate the whys or even understand them. I just know I'm there and appreciate that art has the ability to do so. I also appreciate seeing diving in beyond the music and it not feeling out of place. First video I've been recommended and look forward to more.

  • @sonyablu7694
    @sonyablu7694 3 роки тому +26

    NIN has helped me through some really tough times in my life. Love the react, and totally feel you about living with the long term impact of childhood trauma. We are all a work in progress, and that's OK :)

  • @darrenl3289
    @darrenl3289 3 роки тому +16

    People say they listen to music and feel emotions. People listen to NIN when they are already feeling emotions and need a full knockout lay you on the ground cathartic breakdown. Such an incredible first album, especially since Trent did EVERYTHING himself.

  • @ecostacey
    @ecostacey 3 роки тому +34

    You’re welcome for this one. I’m glad you felt the same way I do about this song x

  • @diazigy
    @diazigy 3 роки тому +12

    This is what great art does to the soul. Thank you for your reaction.

  • @babaroga73
    @babaroga73 3 роки тому +7

    What the heck did you just do to me with that sudden TED insert??? You're blowing my mind and view of the world. My jaw dropped. Never thought about that this way.

    • @WolfKain
      @WolfKain 3 роки тому +2

      To my shame, this was something I only just learned recently as well. I wish I found it sooner too but I hope it helps and please pass it on ❤

  • @willowpiano
    @willowpiano 3 роки тому +4

    I get the crying to Something I Can Never Have but man.. I still cry to The Great Below to this day.

  • @joshuajohnson6685
    @joshuajohnson6685 3 роки тому +10

    I've loved this song since I was a young teenager, it always resonated with me and still does

  • @Kingdennissinned
    @Kingdennissinned 3 роки тому +11

    There is a dozen songs that give me chills and goosebumps. This is one of them.

  • @andrewh.8118
    @andrewh.8118 3 роки тому +8

    Finally a legitimate reaction to something other than closer. Thank you guys for sharing your vulnerability & a sense of who you are/where you been. I can resonate completely… I’m in my early 30s and still struggle with some things that I’m trying to find resolution. I subscribed

  • @angelrocks2009
    @angelrocks2009 3 роки тому +14

    NIN write songs with so much expression, and feeling xx

  • @pantlessreactions
    @pantlessreactions 3 роки тому +5

    Haven't heard this song in years, yet still knew the lyrics to sing along

  • @magusmelanie828
    @magusmelanie828 3 роки тому +2

    Dayum - it's been awhile since I've visited, but as soon as I saw this, I knew it was winning the Make Sistah Cry challenge

  • @Zavonofcats
    @Zavonofcats 3 роки тому +6

    Her empathy is so touching. I loved this video.

  • @jmoney6900
    @jmoney6900 3 роки тому +7

    One of my all time favorites!!!

  • @bryanmurphy276
    @bryanmurphy276 2 роки тому +1

    Crazy that among his many awards Trent has a Grammy for a Disney project

  • @senor360
    @senor360 3 роки тому +4

    The hurt starts out with that first note and builds up into a beautiful / honest reaction by the end. One of my favorite songs! Thank you for the great reaction.

  • @deadlyredly1
    @deadlyredly1 3 роки тому +8

    !4:00 - never apologize for feeling something. Hats off to you for listening to this song correctly

  • @dreww1609
    @dreww1609 3 роки тому +10

    Thanks so much - I have always waited for someone to react to this - to me the greatest NIN song ever and yet no one ever reacts to it. It is so powerful and such an amazing song. Have you ever watched the live vids....a couple great ones...alone at a piano and with some other touring band members acoustic but the piano live version is stunning. This is a timeless classic (also a key piece of "Natural Born Killers"). If I let the message into my feelings I don't think I could handle it in my 40s where I never did get whaat I cold never have so in college it was just a diff experience. Poetic and stark lyricism and the most powerful usage of "F'ing" in a song in rock history. Thanks so much for this share,

  • @tappingthevein1
    @tappingthevein1 3 роки тому +7

    I know exactly what you are saying. When my mom died I went preetty much down the same path as Trent though.

  • @ingovonderluhe2174
    @ingovonderluhe2174 3 роки тому +10

    NIN...dedicated m Life to Reznor :)...everybody remembers THIS Scene from NATURAL BORN KILLERS !!!!...GREY WOULD BE THE COLOUR,IF I HAD A HEART !!!

  • @adebrophy1942
    @adebrophy1942 3 роки тому +3

    I love the comment about having the life experiences that brought you the things you thought you never would have. Lovely insightful comments, but moreover thank you for sharing the rawness of the emotion.

  • @heffatheanimal2200
    @heffatheanimal2200 3 роки тому +10

    This album is what first really drew me in to metal, and still a major influence on me.
    The live acoustic of Something I Can Never Have is also bloody amazing

    • @arachosia
      @arachosia 3 роки тому +1

      Yeah, I think the version on Still is superior to the original

  • @joehiggs4349
    @joehiggs4349 3 роки тому +3

    She’s great. That girl gets married. Genuine, humble, open. Great song. Helluva reaction. You guys get the Grammy this year.

  • @wishbone3
    @wishbone3 3 роки тому +2

    yes, at 6:22 ~ etc. in my 30's, but i was a teenager when i listened as well.
    love to all

  • @cerberuscrafts5351
    @cerberuscrafts5351 3 роки тому +9

    When Sistah says "it seems I can't have real peace"
    Maaaaan, I felt that. Instant waterworks.

  • @pxnance
    @pxnance 3 роки тому +8

    we need more nine inch nails reactions especially from downward spiral and the fragile

  • @electrofryed7239
    @electrofryed7239 Рік тому +1

    The genius of this album is it's simplicity and overwhelming sound. I spent hundreds finding the biggest, and loudest headphones just so I could get this albums full effect.

  • @madderrose1974
    @madderrose1974 3 роки тому +4

    That was lovely. Thank you. (I am also an old who discovered NIN back in high school in the 80s/90s)

  • @DrivenAgony
    @DrivenAgony 2 роки тому +1

    I'm 17 currently going through the shitty part of my life yano, illness coming to the family etc, and nine inch nails is a very big part of keeping me sane lmao awesome vid fr

  • @caitlincarter5010
    @caitlincarter5010 3 роки тому +3

    This is fucking amazing love every second of it 💓💓💓💓

  • @Technoirz
    @Technoirz 3 роки тому +3

    I played with teeth for the last 17 years and still going

  • @Djcimofficial
    @Djcimofficial 3 роки тому +3

    The still version to this day willl always be my favorite.

  • @brettmarlar4154
    @brettmarlar4154 3 роки тому +7

    There is absolutely no shame in being moved to tears by a pice of music. Regardless of from where those feelings come. "Something I Can Never Have" gets my misty every time I hear it, and I've been listening to that song for 32 years. So to see someone else get just as moved as I have so many times (even though it took you to a different place). The fact that your reaction was so genuine is what I loved most about this.
    Maybe you should've waited to play S.I.C.N.H. until after "That's What I Get".

  • @boomervision2063
    @boomervision2063 3 роки тому +2

    I have never been able to listen to Something I Can Never Have without crying, hes amazing at putting loss pain and desperation into words and his compositions are incredible.

  • @cerebralfailure8804
    @cerebralfailure8804 3 роки тому +28

    Sistah and Wolf should do a reaction to the entire Nine Inch Nails album Still, one of the greatest things about Trent's lyricism is that they are often focused enough to point you in a direction but ambiguous enough you can apply them to nearly anything

    • @Amathene
      @Amathene 3 роки тому

      Still was, is and always will be a tough listen for me. Absolutely beautiful and haunting

    • @tinntinnamp
      @tinntinnamp 3 роки тому +2

      Exactly. That's what I love about most of NIN music, plus a lot of other artists I listen to. There is a huge meaning but easy to interpret into your own personal anthem.

    • @anonymoususer9215
      @anonymoususer9215 2 роки тому

      The album certainly flows effortlessly. From one track to the next. Similar to "The Wall", but when it comes to full albums, nothing can ever come close to Floyd.

  • @inwex8350
    @inwex8350 3 роки тому +3

    This song hit me like Purple Rain rain did as a child. O'Conners version of Prince song nothing compares to you gets me sometimes ... I'm glad Trent got a powerful ballad at the very end of the 80's.

  • @luchboxer
    @luchboxer 3 роки тому +3

    I love this song. I came to UA-cam to listen to it because there are some things happening in my life right now that put me in the mood of this song and it's lyrics. I love this channel and didn't knew there was a reaction to this song. Thank you for what you said in min 18:00, it's good to know that things that I'm feeling right now won't always be this way.

  • @slantedglasses7242
    @slantedglasses7242 3 роки тому +3

    NIN was very important for my high school time too. It was The Fragile that I listened every day back to back to back

  • @nos4atu666
    @nos4atu666 3 роки тому +14

    Yes, show her some more Industrial music Ministry skinny puppy RevCo, KMFDM Etc...

    • @tappingthevein1
      @tappingthevein1 3 роки тому +1

      Hell yes, and start with the Pro-test video by Skinny Puppy so she can see some goth breakdancing.

    • @diciple9224
      @diciple9224 3 роки тому

      Kmfdm! Light

    • @megtwinkles
      @megtwinkles 2 роки тому

      Rammstein, hocico and wumpscut!

  • @Lechuque
    @Lechuque 3 роки тому +3

    This was so perfectly used in Natural Born Killers movie.

  • @Austincarpenter42
    @Austincarpenter42 3 роки тому +3

    It takes a lot to sit in front of a camera and display emotion like that, but these are the reactions I live for because I have the same visceral reaction with songs that penitrate my soul that deep.

  • @paulkasiola4041
    @paulkasiola4041 3 роки тому +2

    You are so right Pretty Hate Machine is definitely one of my top 10 favorite albums of all time. Like you I had it constantly playing when it came out (bike riding riding the bus at home). I can remember seeing them in a club show at the time and when Something I Can Never Have came on the mood in the club changed, a sea of crowd surfers just floating about and the the mosh pit just came to a halt. Great reaction keep up the great content.

  • @edisons.7637
    @edisons.7637 2 роки тому +1

    This is my favorite song of all time off my favorite album of all time. And anyone I've played it for, no matter what genre they like, said it's really freaking good and every single one said it makes them feel "something", which is what genius is. To see someone else have this much of a visceral reaction is one of the coolest reactions I've ever seen. Thank god someone else gets it.

  • @kiplininman7383
    @kiplininman7383 Рік тому +1

    This song has had a lot of meaning for me as well and I think what you all did here was wonderful. Thank You. Stay beautiful.

  • @Unorthodox666
    @Unorthodox666 3 роки тому +5

    the still version of this is wayyy better

  • @chinitowon
    @chinitowon 3 роки тому +6

    I LOVED THIS SO MUCH.

  • @WorldOfPain666
    @WorldOfPain666 3 роки тому +2

    This is the first song of these guys I listened to 30 years ago, and I still tear up when I hear it. What an amazing song. I've been a huge fan ever since.

  • @chaffee87
    @chaffee87 3 роки тому +5

    beautiful reaction, beautiful people.

  • @CB-nd9ki
    @CB-nd9ki Рік тому +1

    The droning near the end of the song is amazing to tie in two participants, his pain and the one who caused it

  • @rodrigorocha7282
    @rodrigorocha7282 3 роки тому +3

    Awesome as usual, guys!! Loved the reaction of my all time favorite band =)
    By the way, I'm allways thinking that NIN is an enormous iceberg of music experience and the Reaction Channels just scratches the surface. Their live performances are magical and I never found a single channel doing it.

  • @RBBSFBH
    @RBBSFBH 3 роки тому +5

    What a great reaction to an amazing song

  • @brianclift606
    @brianclift606 3 роки тому +4

    I have a emotional relationship with this song. I LOVE it. I cry nearly every time time deep listen to it. I am a content, satisfied person. I wasn't as a teen. This song used to hurt me. Now it reminds me to never bury that hurt. Peace unto you.

  • @citizenbobx
    @citizenbobx 3 роки тому +2

    That used to be my favorite one, too, but Head Like A Hole took over.

  • @NonsensicalReality
    @NonsensicalReality Рік тому +1

    haha I got goose bumps on the "I still remember the taste of your tears" line too man! What a lyric!

  • @dalbertyn
    @dalbertyn 3 роки тому +5

    Oof I need to go listen to this album again. Big part of my early 20's and dealing with a lot mess that I was left in. Thanks for the laughs in between 🤣🤣🤣

  • @jessim4154
    @jessim4154 3 роки тому +3

    Already a 👍🏻 for the intro! 🤣😂🤣

  • @SuspiciousCat
    @SuspiciousCat 3 роки тому +3

    Wow! Thank you for this video! I love you input and analysis. You're talking about the relationship I got with NIN too... it's nice to relate. ❤

  • @BushmasterRaZ
    @BushmasterRaZ 3 роки тому +2

    Your guys love is beautiful.

  • @Jermainepowell123456
    @Jermainepowell123456 3 роки тому +2

    You guys look so good as couple, I also love what you do. Keep it up.

  • @sorayawashere
    @sorayawashere 3 роки тому +5

    My favourite band 🖤

  • @Alphameiz
    @Alphameiz 3 роки тому +3

    I lost my mother when I was eight years old, I’m 46 now and I have a complicated understanding on why that needed to happen the way that it did. It’s very important to be mindful of the totality of your experience as a human being. But that comes with time and age and effort,So it’s not just something that you’re going to pick up on unless you’re paying attention. Bottom line what I’m trying to say is learn your lessons and pay attention in life.

  • @amyaeschbach3581
    @amyaeschbach3581 3 роки тому +2

    Wow. I love you both so much. You are such beautiful authentic people. How could this be my first time on your channel in for this specific song. Much like you were describing this came out my freshman year in high school and this album went on repeat in my headphones for years. And this song took me so many places but I had to listen over and over. The words somehow went straight to my soul but the sounds and mixtures just sucked me right in and I forget the powerful Ness of the song. Always especially that hard push sound and then the sucking sound back in like like heavy breath in and out over and over. I’m so glad to hear someone react to this as I’ve been searching for it. I think it’s meant so much to so many and it can again. Listening now every word still poured out of my mouth and I love hearing some of your thoughts all these years later about how this some thing can really relate to anything and to anyone’s some thing they can never have. I am honored by your humble vulnerability and thank you for sharing yourself with us. ❤️❤️❤️✌️✌️✌️

  • @EyesOnly88
    @EyesOnly88 3 роки тому +1

    Her emotion to this song was something else, human emotion is really quite exquisite

  • @kriegmesserdclxvi2833
    @kriegmesserdclxvi2833 2 роки тому +1

    This is the embodiment of despair.

  • @billramirez8686
    @billramirez8686 3 роки тому +1

    She FELT that song. I was crying with you girl.

  • @graphxyz328
    @graphxyz328 3 роки тому +3

    PHM was such an amazing album, ah the late 80s....and you two are an amazing couple...I have a gift for about your past emotions..
    I love you..
    I'm sorry...
    Please forgive me..
    Thank you..
    Repeat often and you shall feel free!

  • @lelaalexander6925
    @lelaalexander6925 3 роки тому +4

    My absolute favorite NIN album is The Fragile. I love every album they've produced, but The Fragile is beloved to me. The Day the World Went Away is the one track that holds a very reverent place in me. That album was one of a handful that was the soundtrack of my life in a very dark time that I didn't believe I would survive.

  • @jenniferrickard7228
    @jenniferrickard7228 3 роки тому +1

    Trent is VERY good of expressing raw inner brain, neurological emotions through mathematically genius and sound. Even in compositions where he isn't the one singing... it taps certain brain waves and makes your heart beat differently. Someone once called him a Wizard .... and I agree that it's nothing short of heightened craftsmanship.

  • @johnmorpheus120
    @johnmorpheus120 2 роки тому +1

    I also wept like a child when I first heard this. Touched on something deep for me too. Let it out fam.

  • @Bunke09
    @Bunke09 3 роки тому +2

    As a teenager with no one on my side of anything that was happening in my life this album was there for me. My early child homelife left me in a place where I couldn't get out of myself to connect with friends until I found first my skateboard and then music like this. I credit a hand full of like minded outcasts who were able to reach through my abused shell and help pull me out. I've fallen backwards as I've gotten older and it's hard to remember the time when I was in this moment versus trying to get through this moment.

  • @keithfoster4739
    @keithfoster4739 3 роки тому +1

    "Grey would be the color if I had a heart" was the line I resonated with most when I listened to this as a teen.
    "I wish that I could tell you what I believe. I wish that I could tell you I hate every breath I breathe. I just wish that I could be the same. I just wish I could be." Old wounds by Belmont

  • @jennandrewlawrence5055
    @jennandrewlawrence5055 3 роки тому +9

    First concert I ever attended was NIN, 1994
    🌟 I was 14, it was indescribable...❤ love from Iowa sister

    • @anonymoususer9215
      @anonymoususer9215 2 роки тому +2

      Mine too! I was lucky enough to see him and Manson at The Bomb Factory in Dallas. A 200 person venue. I wanna say it was 1994. That was when I heard "Hurt" for the first time. The best show of my life.

    • @jennandrewlawrence5055
      @jennandrewlawrence5055 2 роки тому +1

      @@anonymoususer9215 was the Jim Rose circus there as well? Manson was the opener we saw too, what a fun tour, we r lucky lol

  • @JohnnyMalkav
    @JohnnyMalkav Місяць тому

    Years after this reaction... Don't apologize for feeling... You feel what you feel. As was intended. A sad song deserves sadness. You're all good, 'Something I can never have' tends to bring up past emotions. We *all* undersand, we get it! Be well, both of you.

  • @beerdedtechreviews7634
    @beerdedtechreviews7634 3 роки тому +2

    I can't articulate how much NIN's music means to me. Every album feels like a soundtrack to different parts of your life.

  • @Kingdennissinned
    @Kingdennissinned 3 роки тому +5

    She cries , I cry.

  • @RyanMovingViolationz
    @RyanMovingViolationz 3 роки тому +3

    Wolfie, you've GOT TO stop doing this to your wife!!! 😂😂😂😂😂...❤️ you guys!!! 😂😂😂

  • @boyce919
    @boyce919 3 роки тому +6

    It's been awhile since I listened to this gem .. thank you for reminding me. I think I'm going to listen to the fragile for the next month or two... You guys are awesome together!!!!!

  • @dakroww
    @dakroww 3 роки тому +2

    I have never subscribed to or watched reaction videos, but you two are wonderful and pure. I also connect with the Pretty Hate Machine.

  • @SuperKnuckels
    @SuperKnuckels 2 роки тому +1

    i just rediscovered this song, and my god what you guys said at 5:55 - 6:15 is legit and almost made me cry

  • @darrennorthcutt1646
    @darrennorthcutt1646 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you for opening up.

  • @theogonia1983
    @theogonia1983 3 роки тому +3

    This song is one of the most transcendent, spiritually affecting, overwhelming pieces of art ever made. Trent Reznor was already a master of his craft from the first album. This album changed my life forever, it’s impossible to communicate how unique an accomplishment Pretty Hate Machine is. It STILL gave me goosebumps listening to it now, 30 years after it came out

    • @theogonia1983
      @theogonia1983 3 роки тому

      In fact, my only complaint concerning NIN is that it’s something i can’t listen too unless I’m prepared to be affected for the rest of the day. It’s THAT powerful!

  • @darrylvonrokk
    @darrylvonrokk 3 роки тому +1

    wow...that was awesome...so much feeling!!! Trent does that to all of us!!!

  • @osn242
    @osn242 2 роки тому +1

    4 real ...his voice is amazing ......there is more to look at.....NIN is heavy! ...greets from germany

  • @SuspiciousCat
    @SuspiciousCat 3 роки тому +2

    You two are beautiful human beings.

  • @deadlyredly1
    @deadlyredly1 3 роки тому +1

    That is why I love NIN, because caught off guard, that is what NIN can do to you.

  • @zweispurmopped
    @zweispurmopped 3 роки тому +5

    Sis, I didn't know you had such a death metal roar! O,0 Ace! ^^)

  • @cudderanthem5826
    @cudderanthem5826 3 роки тому +2

    Thank you for this

  • @aldenrich-ty5vz
    @aldenrich-ty5vz 26 днів тому

    Best reaction this song has saved my life manny times. The emotion in this song is unreal

  • @stevenaustin4591
    @stevenaustin4591 3 роки тому +1

    I really appreciate the honesty of this reaction, tears and all. That's REAL, and that's how it should be. well done! :)

  • @ameliacharles2284
    @ameliacharles2284 3 роки тому +2

    This is in my Top 3 NIN songs, alonside The Wretched and The Becoming

  • @raeanticsp4625
    @raeanticsp4625 8 місяців тому

    Awww honey. I felt you so hard for the crying. That was me all my teenage years listening to NIN. Sending you love. Please keep being an empath. Xo

  • @ralphhughes7250
    @ralphhughes7250 2 роки тому +1

    I'm not a reactor and I stopped this mid way through to write this. Continue after.. but someone needs to react to this! She made me feel like I did when I was 20 hearing this for the first time... there are so many different ways to feel about this song.