I finished filming this video yesterday and I ended up puking a lot last night which seems to have helped my stomach a little. I’m pushing myself really hard today to try and eat plenty. I’m not sure if I made it clear in the video but I don’t want to lose weight, I dislike being underweight so my urge to not eat is mainly around avoiding the pain my stomach puts me through. I’d never encourage disordered eating on here. I hope you’re all cushty 💙
I have this awful condition to the point I really believe I might be dead, it’s absolutely horrendous I don’t think people are real, it’s awful I’m so so sorry you’re going through this too
Yeah when it first started for me I’d be at the doctors like twice a week thinking I had something horribly wrong with me. It’s awful. I hope we can both get out of this asap 😢
Has your Doctor arranged for for a Crisis mental health team to visit you at home? I went through this a few years ago and thought I was going mad. I had therapy and was put on Sertraline anti depressants. I got through it. You will too. You need support.
The Crisis team in my area don’t seem to be very good. They’ve never been out to my house once even when I was a danger to my self (the police came instead). My doctor had already done a referral to the Community Treatment team at the surgery a while back so I’m seeing them instead. Glad you’re doing better now 💙
You're never alone even when you feel like it...God is always with you but you have to have faith in the unseen. You have worth so much so that God died to save you from the enemy. Dont give up!
I appreciate the kind words. I’m not religious (and never will be) I’m an atheist but I do believe that being a good kind human is important and I try to be.
Could you try weight gain drinks like ‘ensure’? Think you can get them prescribed through your Dr (I’m from NZ so may be different) for when you don’t feel like eating
Yeah I’ve I’m on similar ones called ‘Fortisips’. I’ve been on them for 2 years now and they provide the bulk of my calories. My stomach even struggles with those when things get bad which is why I feel so hopeless when it happens.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 mirtazapine is an excellent soporific drug, great if you have insomnia, also amazing drug if you have a bit of anxiety, and even better still, if you are underweight as generally speaking, most people put on about three or 4 kg at least after six months or so
Being bipolar and having anxiety and panic disorder as you can imagine I’m on quite a few meds. But there’s one that I’m prescribed but rarely ever use and that’s diazepam. Like I said I rarely use it and don’t like to but on those days where the anxiety is high and I’m getting even more anxious about getting a panic attack they are a god send. 20mg and I calm down enough to where the fear of a panic attack goes away and gives me the chance to calm down and get my head in the right place.👍 And as a second note I’m a nutritionist by trade. Ex competitive bodybuilder and I’m sure I can help you on eating thing. Those so many tricks that I could help you with. I know eating for you is difficult but there’s so much you can do to help build your appetite and weight. Just let me know if I could help in any way
Yeah I hear benzos are super good for reducing acute anxiety. My doctor refuses to prescribe them. I appreciate it. I’m currently on Fortisips which are 300 cals per 125ml and when things are bad I can’t even manage them. I survived on whole milk and orange juice for a while too, I’ve tried a lot.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 Just I little trick to get the calories in when not having the appetite is to snack on walnuts and almonds. Super high in calories and protien. Just a small hand full or even less at first every few hours. And build up from there. Just drink plenty of water with them as they are full of fibre to. It’s a small thing but the calories soon add up and they are nutrient rich calories. Give it a try if you can.👍 And you should insist on the benzos. You don’t want to rely on them but just knowing they are there helps. Can’t understand why a go wouldn’t have already offered the diazepam knowing how bad your anxiety gets. If you haven’t used them then I honestly believe they are the key to you getting on top of the anxiety. Just I small dose would work wonders in the desperate times. Just got to keep them for those times and not rely on them. But like I said once you’ve used them at a time when you really need them then they become so useful just knowing that they are there. Just knowing that can calm you down so I’d really get at your doctor to consider them. I’m really baffled that the option hasn’t even been considered.
@@nontimebomala779 thank you for taking the time to give me all this advice, I really do appreciate it :) I used to eat a lot of Brazil nuts but I had to stop because I’d wake up not being able to breath, dietician suspected an allergy so I cut nuts out. I’m considering trying them again to see how I react because I didn’t have a test to confirm it and it might have just been my anxiety messing with me. Yeah it’s crazy I remember being in A&E asking for benzos when I was extremely unwell not eating etc and the doctor made some calls but everyone said to not give them to me due to the addiction risk. I’ll keep trying though. Hope you’re well :)
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 They are really addictive but if used as and when needed they are invaluable. Like I said I don’t use them unless I really need to but just knowing that I have them there makes a massive difference. They should at least prescribe you a small amount. What harm can that do. You should tell them to either prescribe you a couple of doses or will be forced to get them elsewhere. Anyway keep fighting mate. And I hope any advice I’m giving isn’t getting annoying in any way.👍
I don’t want to contribute either, I’m over 50 and honestly ot only gets worse, you jump over endless hurdles, and they never end. It’s exhausting and never ending and my nourosis has only gotten worse bc of it. Life is just a shit deal, even absent tragedy life is garbage and nowhere near worth it
I totally relate but I know I’m a lot younger than you so you’ve been through this hell much longer which must have taken so my energy and strength to deal with.
I finished filming this video yesterday and I ended up puking a lot last night which seems to have helped my stomach a little. I’m pushing myself really hard today to try and eat plenty.
I’m not sure if I made it clear in the video but I don’t want to lose weight, I dislike being underweight so my urge to not eat is mainly around avoiding the pain my stomach puts me through.
I’d never encourage disordered eating on here. I hope you’re all cushty 💙
I know how hard it is to get out of the negative thought cycles. It's good that you keep making videos, going for walks and reaching out.
Thank you :)
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Hope you get better bro, always nice to see your videos and do relate to some of your experiences
Cheers bro :)
Thank you for having the courage to share what you are going through.
You have had a setback.
Allow yourself to recover.
Thank you, I will :)
I have this awful condition to the point I really believe I might be dead, it’s absolutely horrendous I don’t think people are real, it’s awful I’m so so sorry you’re going through this too
Yeah when it first started for me I’d be at the doctors like twice a week thinking I had something horribly wrong with me. It’s awful. I hope we can both get out of this asap 😢
Has your Doctor arranged for for a Crisis mental health team to visit you at home? I went through this a few years ago and thought I was going mad. I had therapy and was put on Sertraline anti depressants. I got through it. You will too. You need support.
The Crisis team in my area don’t seem to be very good. They’ve never been out to my house once even when I was a danger to my self (the police came instead). My doctor had already done a referral to the Community Treatment team at the surgery a while back so I’m seeing them instead. Glad you’re doing better now 💙
You're never alone even when you feel like it...God is always with you but you have to have faith in the unseen. You have worth so much so that God died to save you from the enemy. Dont give up!
I appreciate the kind words. I’m not religious (and never will be) I’m an atheist but I do believe that being a good kind human is important and I try to be.
I feel alone I’d love support and a friend xx
Could you try weight gain drinks like ‘ensure’? Think you can get them prescribed through your Dr (I’m from NZ so may be different) for when you don’t feel like eating
Yeah I’ve I’m on similar ones called ‘Fortisips’. I’ve been on them for 2 years now and they provide the bulk of my calories. My stomach even struggles with those when things get bad which is why I feel so hopeless when it happens.
What meds are you on??
I’m still just on 30mg Mirtazapine.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 mirtazapine is an excellent soporific drug, great if you have insomnia, also amazing drug if you have a bit of anxiety, and even better still, if you are underweight as generally speaking, most people put on about three or 4 kg at least after six months or so
Strangely, at a higher dose, it is less soporific, as a drug to treat insomnia, it comes into its own at a lower dose of around 7.5 or even 15 mg.
Being bipolar and having anxiety and panic disorder as you can imagine I’m on quite a few meds. But there’s one that I’m prescribed but rarely ever use and that’s diazepam. Like I said I rarely use it and don’t like to but on those days where the anxiety is high and I’m getting even more anxious about getting a panic attack they are a god send. 20mg and I calm down enough to where the fear of a panic attack goes away and gives me the chance to calm down and get my head in the right place.👍
And as a second note I’m a nutritionist by trade. Ex competitive bodybuilder and I’m sure I can help you on eating thing. Those so many tricks that I could help you with. I know eating for you is difficult but there’s so much you can do to help build your appetite and weight. Just let me know if I could help in any way
Yeah I hear benzos are super good for reducing acute anxiety. My doctor refuses to prescribe them.
I appreciate it. I’m currently on Fortisips which are 300 cals per 125ml and when things are bad I can’t even manage them. I survived on whole milk and orange juice for a while too, I’ve tried a lot.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521
Just I little trick to get the calories in when not having the appetite is to snack on walnuts and almonds. Super high in calories and protien. Just a small hand full or even less at first every few hours. And build up from there. Just drink plenty of water with them as they are full of fibre to. It’s a small thing but the calories soon add up and they are nutrient rich calories. Give it a try if you can.👍
And you should insist on the benzos. You don’t want to rely on them but just knowing they are there helps.
Can’t understand why a go wouldn’t have already offered the diazepam knowing how bad your anxiety gets. If you haven’t used them then I honestly believe they are the key to you getting on top of the anxiety. Just I small dose would work wonders in the desperate times. Just got to keep them for those times and not rely on them. But like I said once you’ve used them at a time when you really need them then they become so useful just knowing that they are there. Just knowing that can calm you down so I’d really get at your doctor to consider them. I’m really baffled that the option hasn’t even been considered.
@@nontimebomala779 thank you for taking the time to give me all this advice, I really do appreciate it :) I used to eat a lot of Brazil nuts but I had to stop because I’d wake up not being able to breath, dietician suspected an allergy so I cut nuts out. I’m considering trying them again to see how I react because I didn’t have a test to confirm it and it might have just been my anxiety messing with me.
Yeah it’s crazy I remember being in A&E asking for benzos when I was extremely unwell not eating etc and the doctor made some calls but everyone said to not give them to me due to the addiction risk. I’ll keep trying though. Hope you’re well :)
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They are really addictive but if used as and when needed they are invaluable.
Like I said I don’t use them unless I really need to but just knowing that I have them there makes a massive difference. They should at least prescribe you a small amount. What harm can that do. You should tell them to either prescribe you a couple of doses or will be forced to get them elsewhere.
Anyway keep fighting mate. And I hope any advice I’m giving isn’t getting annoying in any way.👍
I don’t want to contribute either, I’m over 50 and honestly ot only gets worse, you jump over endless hurdles, and they never end. It’s exhausting and never ending and my nourosis has only gotten worse bc of it. Life is just a shit deal, even absent tragedy life is garbage and nowhere near worth it
I totally relate but I know I’m a lot younger than you so you’ve been through this hell much longer which must have taken so my energy and strength to deal with.
All of this you're feeling is a demonic torment until it's surrendered to Christ then you'll continue this way my brother.
You should get Hobby's.
And work on small things.
Make anything happen now! that can happen in the now.
You need Jesus brother please trust that. He is the only One who can deliver us from ALL things!